#i did learn my lesson though

[sandymybeloved]

everyone thinks I have a really high pain tolerance, because once on a guide camp I broke my arm in two places and didn't tell anyone till I got home

in reality there were no adults I knew around when it happened (it was a big camp with lots of different guide groups), so I walked back to our tents, I had to stop half way becuase I was crying so hard from pain I couldn't see, when i got there my guide leaders weren't there so i went to wait in the tent, passed out for an unknown length of time, got found by the leaders who told me off for not doing camp stuff, removing my ability to tell them I was in a serious amount of pain

anyway, I went and climbed a tree that afternoon, and convinced everyone my body started violently shaking becuase I was scared of heights (I am not, at least not those kinds of heights), and not because my arm was screaming at me and unable to support my weight

high pain tolerance my foot

[darth-does-stuff]

ok everybody saying dan fucks is conrad’s dad you do you but for ME personally the fix will always be conrad’s dad because dan gives cool uncle vibes 1000000% percent more than the fix ever will. but we will both live our truth and we will both be happy 🤝

[sidesteppostinghours]

"You'd have to stop the world just to stop the feeling"

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guess who finally listened to chappell roan

[sundial-bee-scribbles]

silly guys that make me lose followers on tumblr dot com

[westwiiind]

i feel like ppl who don’t like the hidden world because all the dragons left have never experienced grief ever

[babymorte]

hey you good dude? i figured I'd check cause your last couple posts had a kinda sad vibe; is everything alright? life can be complicated and shitty at times, but whatever it is that's burdening you, nothing is worth entertaining the thought of suicide; you're here on earth rn for a reason, don't ever let any shite thoughts make you feel otherwise. believe me i have thoughts like that too but please don't ever let them fester in there, cause that's what gives them power, and we should never let anything or anyone take our power away from us.

you don't gotta post this cause i don't wanna broadcast whatever it is you goin through, i just wanted to make sure you were good.

sending you lots of feel good vibes friend, i hope they help.

this is really sweet thank you for this 🫶🏻 its okay though im just dealing with some personal stuff and my brain is doing the whole self sabotage thing and my brain is very much winning 🫠

this really did help though thank you. it truly means the world 🫶🏻🫶🏻

[3moe5me]

my desire to join a band is strong but the only instrument I can play is the kazoo

[bread-tab]

i bought a cheap squishy toy and it smells like something i should definitely not be inhaling at all (kind of like gas/petrol but more factory-plasticky? i'm a retail drone not a chemist) and, of course, it was made in china.

("of course" not so much because of the price or quality but because everything is. at every price range and standard, tbh. i'm not trying to say everything made in china sucks. for the tumblr-pedantic record. rip to the workers in the stinky plastic factory though. :/)

so i was like "if this was made in america i could figure out where. we put the company address on everything here. but can i do that with an overseas company?" and the answer is yes maybe (i found the import/middleman companies and there are "trading" websites that track this stuff) but also no because i can't read mandarin. (sorry ancestors)

anyway that's how i find out about this place

yiwu "market" aka "international trade city." alleged "world's largest wholesale market." the mall to end all malls. this place sells stuff to the entire world by the shipping container. didn't even slightly exist in 1980; now does billions of dollars in trade annually which supports a city of 2 million people. which previously was just. like. a farming village.

(btw take this info with a grain of salt *please* i got it from youtube, google and wikipedia and i'm existing in an incredulous sleep-deprived haze)

literally miles of showrooms of every random manufactured item you can imagine. toys, clothes, electronics, household goods, christmas decorations...

i cannot stress enough that we do not have this kind of thing here. (... do we?) but. we have the stuff. this is where all the stuff is from. all roads lead to yiwu, apparently

sometimes you just get reminded... world big. but also. world interconnected. not so small after all. but so connected.

[inniave]

trying to start getting ready for 50/90 now so i can hit the ground running in july (since ik i'll likely be dealing with intermittent flares, etc i want to save as much time & effort up front).

so today i worked on cleaning out & reworking some parts of my little studio area. including adding an actual mic stand!!! yay!! no more trying to keep it from falling off my doohickey and shattering into pieces lmao. also did some cord management (not enough lmao, it's never enough)

behind on lessons for the week thanks to migraine & flare up :( but i've been trying to practice what i've already learned. trying to get back to voice workouts consistently but oh boy am i feeling the break.

over the weekend i wanna get the new strings on the jackson & next week work on default file configs in ableton for my main couple set ups (and also check mic levels now it's in a different spot). also need to get back in contact with the lovely person im planning on collaborating some with over 50/90!

still haven't decided if i'm going to try to work toward certain projects (outside of collabs). definitely going to try for the full 50 songs (which i think shouldn't be too bad considering i wrote like over 30 for fawm 😭). but i haven't decided if i'm going to try to write to collections or whatever. i have a few albums & eps planned out and mostly filled as far as demos go butttttt i don't think those will ever get released :p anyway long way to say i'm still thinking about what i want my goals to be beyond writing 50 songs :p

okay helen music status update complete here have a cookie 🍪

[dandyshucks]

if i didn't have to eat then i think I'd spend the entire day just working on digital painting tbh,,, it feels like sculpting and i love it sm :]

[simplyghosting]

Calling my office The Four Seasons with how the a/c and heater are never on

[arionawrites]

me, eating ice cream to soothe my sore throat: life is bliss. i am happy. i am content. everything is good.

also me literally the very same second that i stop eating my ice cream: i only know pain. to breathe is agony. to talk is torture. to swallow is like ingesting flickering flame. i see no end in sight to my suffering. i weaken by the second yet i will strive to stay strong.

the pain killers/cold or allergy medicine that would take away my pain in less than an hour if i just fucking took it: hey so i am actually RIGHT here and—

me, staring longingly out the window: when i was but a child such woes could not stop me. now i lay, boneless and tired, as i attempt to cope with constant discomfort. with endless pain. with existence and the inconveniences it continues to bring. the bravery must come from within. i shall survive this but i have yet to figure out how. the day drags on. i drag my feet. the world was heavy enough without the pain. now i simply collapse if i try to carry it. still i push forward.

[theultracharmingladynoire]

something something about how the rings not just symbolised Yuuri and Victor's bond and was not just an omamori for them something something Victor was the first person Yuuri wanted to hold on to and share his dreams with and depend on after fighting for so long ALONE something something the rings symbolising this exact same thing something something about how Yuuri's arc still is wonderful even when he didn't win the gold because he finally learnt to actually depend on people, share his dreams and aims with them and not fight alone which is something he struggles with for the whole show

[monty-glasses-roxy]

So I saw a thing just now and um. I just feel the need to say that if you're a biphobe or panphobe then you can just I dunno. Leave?

[dewitty1]

Saturday Six (Stuff)

Getting woken up after only 2 hours of sleep, and not being able to really go back to sleep, is not cool. Guess I'm living on caffeine today.(¬д¬。)

That moment when someone you know gets a personal pleasure item stuck up their butt. Nope, not me, and has to have it pulled out by a surgeon. Good times.(⑅ ‘﹃’ )

I ordered orthopedic shoes and now I feel about 75 years old. At least two pairs look cute.ヾ(*´ー`)ノ

My therapist keeps asking me if I'm going to get another cat. I keep thinking two is enough, for now. (=^-ω-^=)

We had a lovely day of rain yesterday, even though my plant hook that was out in the grass fell over, due to the wet. I can't wait to be able to get some plants outside!(❁´▽`❁)*✲ﾟ*

My birthday this past Tuesday was a very chill day. We had a nice lunch. Even if my dad did leave the door open when he used the restaurant's bathroom. (ὀ⌓ὀ⑅)

[tcmmykinard]

wait are people really trying to start arguments/fights over buddie in s6 already 😂😂