#i don't want to be a wedge in their friendship - especially since the friend needs a place to stay

[not-quitenormal]

Had to come home from Joe's a whole hour early because his friend who came over to visit gave me an anxiety attack just by talking and being in the same room. I am THAT bad with new people.

[dangerously-human]

While I was working with former work bff this week, I mentioned something about how former office crush #1 broke up with his girlfriend somewhat recently, and after some brief sympathy for him, she automatically shifted into eyebrow-waggling mode, going, "Sooo, if he's single now, do you—?" Which makes sense, of course, since him dating that girl was why I did finally move on; there was an initial attempt, while he was still single but I'd learned he was an atheist, and it only ended up in a spiral until it just wasn't an option anymore. But before she even finished the sentence, I was shaking my head, explaining that no, absolutely not, we have massively different values and it would never work. Did I think, for a second, when he told me - of course I did, you don't hear "hey I'm single again" from the first person you fell in love with and not have that thought, I think, not if there was never a wedge between you, anyway. "Are you sure?" she pushed. But even if it were an option - and whatever overly optimistic possibilities I may sometimes indulge about the past, it sure isn't now - I still wouldn't want that. Honestly. (Mostly honestly.) Which is progress. As I explained to her, I love being friends with him, but I'm friends with lots of people I'm quite different from, and my one non-negotiable is I will not date a non-Christian. She was quiet for a bit and then said, "I really wish it had worked out for you with [the adventurer]," and I sighed and agreed, because yeah, that one just made sense. That one's more recent, but I never let it spin out of control like with OC1 (surrendered it to God from day one), so it's not as hard to marshall the what-ifs - but it does still suck, sometimes, especially because he's still the same, you know, still one of my favorite people and still unfairly good-looking and still in my orbit all the time, and it still makes sense and it's a bummer that he wasn't interested in dating at all and I don't think I was ever really an option that way. But it is what it is and I genuinely am okay with it. What I realized, after all this - and I think our conversation afterward helped me understand, especially where she kept saying she would not have made it without me and she's constantly wishing she could give me one fraction of that back, and despite my honest assurances, I don't think she sees that she has, a hundred times over - is that it's not so much that she specifically wants to see me with any one of these boys, it's that she wants to be part of my happiness in that way, and it frustrates her that she hasn't had the opportunity to even try in a long time. So I told her one of my goals for this year is to try the dating app thing, much as it strikes me as less than ideal, and I asked for her help with a profile and figuring out what to say in general. She loves having a mission, and I trust her impressions of people (for me, anyway) - and she's a born hype woman, there's no one who could talk me up better, lol. I'll need Bible study bestie's buy-in too before doing anything with that goal, because I need a friend who loves Jesus to be on my team... but the point of this, I think, was reflecting on how grateful I am for this friendship, and the way she is automatically my cheerleader and wants to be part of good things for me. Everyone needs that kind of friend, truly.

[silver-wield]

Aerith's prayers

Okay, this one will blow your minds.

Every time Aerith does her prayer pose she changes something. Because she's meta, she knows a few bits of key info and because she's got more of her cetra powers than OG, she actually has the power to influence the flow of the planet. And she's been doing it this whole damn time. That's why the devs said to pay attention to her.

When she asked if Tifa was Cloud's girlfriend, it wasn't out of jealousy or rivalry, it was a prayer she made because she knows about them in the future and that Cloud has issues now. She was helping them. She changed something small. She redirected soldier Cloud's misdirected affection and put it back where it always belonged. On Tifa. Because she's their friend. Although, she's still not Cloud's at this point and actually since she looked so much happier to see Tifa in Don Corneo's than she did when she first met Cloud and at any point after, I think she's actually Tifa's friend more than his overall. Which is cute af because yes Aerith needs a BFF like Tifa.

And before people get butthurt this isn't me saying Tifa isn't capable of keeping Cloud without help. She's still gotta do all the same stuff as before. She's not the one who needed help. Cloud got a nudge in the right direction. Which he took because were yall paying attention to the rest of the game? Cloud’s a dick in sector 5 and wants to leave. No flirting. Only thinking about Tifa. Very focused and doesn't like Aerith much at all. And that makes me feel more sorry for her. She sacrificed her friendship with Cloud for this. Because everything has a price.

It's debatable whether this was needed since Cloud was already working towards making a relationship with Tifa before the extra help, but really, Cloud needs all the help he can get and Aerith doesn't know everything, just some things. And she had good intentions.

We don't know what her prayer is here, but we can guess it has to do with stopping the pillar collapse.

I'm thinking bigger prayers need more time to make changes. Like how holy needed such a long time to work. Hell, she could be using holy to do this without realising. Or maybe she knows how to use it and she's trying out its limits. Every materia has to level up, right?

Because they're right on top of the event, it doesn't stop it completely, but a lot of people survived and they were optimistic about rebuilding.

We don't see the price for this. I mean if summoning holy costs her life to save the planet, then does she have to pay the price personally or is it something that rebounds onto others? Maybe this is why Wedge still dies. His life is the cost of delaying the pillar collapse. Maybe it's just the fact a lot of people still die, so the cost balances itself out?

A helicopter is about to crash into the bar but Aerith's prayer makes the tail snap off and it hits the ground in front of her.

By saving Marlene she draws attention to herself and Tseng captures her. A fair price for saving a little girl. Seems like a selfish prayer costs her personally, where an altruistic one doesn't. Makes sense. She shouldn't use her gifts for personal gain. Wish making 101.

And I feel someone already about to point out she did it to save Marlene. Yeah, but expecting nuance from the lifestream is a bit more farfetched than I'm willing to go especially when it does random shit like twist Jessie's ankle to stop her going on the reactor 5 mission.

I mean, the novellas are called black and white. The white materia wouldn't deal in minor details surely? The pure path is the only path. If Aerith deviates she suffers for it.

She's praying to save Zack.

She looks at the lifestream in the distance for much of this. She sure af isn't paying attention to Cloud, almost as much as he's not paying attention to her. So, guess that early prayer worked. There's this definite sense she's talking to someone, besides the audience. The line itself is odd. It stands out because it's such a random thing to say in this conversation. And since this is Aerith's resolution, it's got more layers than we can count. It's like she's explaining by delaying Zack's death she's not preventing it because everyone dies eventually. Zack will die one day, but not when he originally did. That's what this prayer is saying.

Her declaration at the end of the game, "we can change it, make it right" seems more like her realising this is how she'll fix Zack's death. Maybe she thought she'd see him again afterwards. She doesn't know how it'd work and that's why she stops when she passes him in the final scene. The price she paid was knowing he lives but he's still out of her reach.

[tamagochiie]

--would you be so kind [tsukishima kei]

genre: fluff/slight angst 

pairing: tsukishima kei x reader 

song: would you be so kind by dodie

synopsis: you’ve fallen for quite a boy and what’s the best way to confess to someone if not during the school festival? 

wc: 2.37k

a/n: truth be told, i was inspired to write this when i was listening to dodie, and i tried to somehow tie the lyrics in with the story, but i kinda lost my flow in between, but the story still works! 

"This might seem strange..." You should've known better than to reach out to Yamaguchi and Yachi the moment those words left his lips. You should've cut him off, stopped him before he could finish the thought and left, but you didn't. You had sat there with your attention wrapped around Yamaguchi's finger as he conceptualized your perfect confession.

I should've gone to someone else, you thought. But you didn't have many friends and the ones you did have had no experience with love. You were lucky enough to have been friends with the ultimate Karasuno High duo canonically known to the student body as: YamaYachi.

Though, you weren't entirely sure if you could even deem yourself lucky.

They were quite meddlesome since you've come to know them and let them into your life. Though for someone as quiet and kept together as you, their presence helped spice up it every now and then. Like when they volunteered you to be the new volleyball manager without your consent, or when they had found out your heart had unwillingly fallen for Karasuno's notorious jackass, Tsukishima Kei, and butt in.

They would crack a wedge in every small opening they found to get you two together and chucked you right through it. During practice, when it came to water breaks, they'd make sure Tsukki wouldn't be able to get his water bottle, forcing him to go to you to ask for it. Whenever they heard Tsukki wanted to stay behind to practice, without your consent, they'd volunteer you. When it came to walking home, oh, they'd make sure you were always by his side while they followed behind.

Though it had been extremely uncomfortable and embarrassing, a friendship did blossom. Eventually, Yachi and Yamaguchi no longer needed to manipulate the forces of nature, and Tsukki would just come looking for you on his own.

So here you were, determination shaking in your bones as you strode down the crowded corridor of your high school, going against the current as you ignored your friends' attempts to catch your attention. You took deep breaths to calm the persistent thumping of your heart and to the ease  the miniatured yous dashing around in circles in your mind.

If it had been up to you, your confession would've been as toned down and discreet as you: sticking a note in Tsukki's locker and making a run for it. But your high school life had fallen into the hands of two people who shared the same brain cell, so of course, go big or go home.

At least that's what Yamaguchi had said.

He made it a point that it was their final year while you were still struggling in your second year. "If you're gonna tell someone you like them, you might as well do it facing them head on, right?"

As much as you hated it, he was right. But you shook the pompous image of Yamaguchi as you drew near your meeting place. You met Yachi at the corner away from everyone else. Her face softened when she saw the nervousness in your eyes and greets you with a hug."How are you lungs?"

"They're a bit in pain." You answered honestly, breaths shaky. "This so dumb, I don't think I can do this."

"If I could swap chests with you today, I would." She joked as an attempt to ease you; it was her silly way of saying, "I'd trade the storm in your heart for the stillness in mine," and though her odd one-liners would help, it wasn't working. "You don't have to do the funny stuff Yams said—just  go up to him and tell him. That's all you really need to do...They boys are just over there by the ramen booth,"

You leaned to the side to catch a good look at Tsukki, but what you find tightly gripped your heart and squeezed out the little confidence you had been mustering the entire day.

Another girl—a pretty girl—who was glued to him by the hip, laughing and twirling her hair. But what shocked you the most was the way Tsukki looked at her intently as she spoke, like he was making it a point to actually listen to whatever was coming out of her mouth.

Yachi caught the pain etched in your face and turned to see what the problem was, "Oh shit."

You didn't exactly know what came over you, but before you brain could match the tempo of the rest of your body, you called out his name and marched towards him. "Tsukishima Kei!"

Eyes dilated and looking down at you, he blinked at the sudden sight of you. His lips twitched in a smile as if he was happy to see you, but before he could address you or even say hello, you cut him off, unintentionally yelling, "I like you! I-I know you know that I like you, b-but that's not enough...So, i-if you would—Please go out with me! "

Time was such a fickle thing; because though it had only been a mere couple of seconds, it felt like you were stuck in a forever as the silence lingered between you, Tsukki, and everyone else that was within range to hear not only your confession, but your unexpectedly bold decision to ask him out as well.

Holy fucking shit, you thought. Though the silence was a loud and clear response, the rapid thumping of your heart was louder; and you couldn't stand the thought of staying there any longer. So before Tsukki would even manage to part his lips, you bolted out of there.

You ran to the pool side, far from where everyone else had gathered, where you were supposed to watch the fireworks with Tsukki if things had fallen into place like it was supposed to. You plopped yourself onto bleachers and sunk your head into your hands as you wept. You felt in incredibly silly.

"There's gotta be some butterflies somewhere," Yamaguchi had said this when you asked if it was a smart move for you to confessing to someone when you weren't even sure if there was even the smallest possibility the feelings were mutual. You should've taken it as a sign that you shouldn't have done.

But you did.

Oh, god, you did.

The image of Tsukki looking at you dumbfounded by your confession bled through and all you could do was sob harder into your hands. You remember  the teams' faces, how shocked they were to have heard you say more than three words in one breath.

Oh, shit, the team. You were gonna have to quit being manager because there as no way in hell you could bounce back from the depths of your embarrassment and pretend as if you hadn't done that, especially in front of that pretty girl.

You wanted to hate Yamaguchi and Yachi, to place the blame on them, but they never said to screech out a confession let alone ask him out. So, this was undoubtedly on you. In the end, you were the idiot and you probably just lost a really decent friendship with someone you didn't even believe could be a good friend to begin with.

Regardless of Tsukki's reputation, he was quite kind, considerate, and attentive; if you were struggling with math or life in general he was willing to listen if he couldn't physically step in to help. Thinking about it, he always seemed to match his pacing with yours. If you were in a good mood, he'd banter with you, but if you weren't he'd tread lightly and do something to lift your spirits.

During lunch, he'd buy food in pairs; one for him and one for you because he when he asked why you didn't bring food every day, you told him you didn't have time to do it in the morning and you were too tired to bother when you came home. He'd lend you his jacket if you felt cold.  He'd always wait for you after club if you had to pack up equipment or do extra tasks.

All these small gestures made your heart stand on its toes, but maybe you were bold to assume he saw your more than a friend.

Maybe you were bold to assume anything.

"I wanna die!" You groaned as you finally lifted your head from your hands, your eyes meeting the sky. The sun had fallen into the horizon and it was beginning to grow dark.

"Well, if you drop dead now, I won't be able to give you an answer." You jumped at the disembodied voice, gasping. You whipped your head to find Tsukki stepping out of the tall shadow of the pool shed. A sly smirk played across his lips with this hands hidden behind his back as he waltzed towards you.

You frowned at him, not really looking at him, but rather the buttons on his shirt. Too tired to run, you accepted your fate and swallowed the little pride you surprisingly had left and decided to face the rejection head on.

"H-How'd you find me?" Your voice was strained from the crying, so you cleared your throat and tried to relax. But when Tsukki took up the space beside you, you couldn't help but flinch back into stiffness.

"Yamaguchi said you might be here..."You scoffed as you brought your knees up to your chest, still avoiding looking at him. You looked ahead at the backdrop of the night, your ears trained on the subtle chirping of the crickets nearby. This would've been an ideal date moment, thought. The embarrassment once again creeped in and you shiver at what you had done moments ago.

Why was he here? Shouldn't he be with that girl? If he was here to reject you, he should hurry up rather than spend another moment wasting it on silence.

"Hey—"

"If you're going to reject me, please do so now." You deadpanned, cutting him off. There was a tingling, numbing feeling that began to build in the tips of your fingers, and would later spread throughout your whole body. "I'd rather you be straight to the point and reject me now. I'd rather you be cold and straight to the point rather than sit here and pick at your words, so please  just hurry and reject me."

Tsukki scoffed at you, pushing the frame of his glasses further onto the bridge of his nose. "Well, damn," He seethed. The way he said your name made your heart float, but your stomach drop. "What the hell do you want?"

"Excuse me?"

"You asked me to go out with you, now you want me to reject you? Tell me, which is it?" You looked at him, finally meeting his gaze. He looked annoyed—no, he looked angry and you couldn't tell why.

"I—"

"Because I came here with an answer and a bag full of that spicy ramen you liked so much," He leaned in, lessening the gap between the two of you. Though you should've been wary at the close proximity, you couldn't help but have your thoughts wander over to the spicy ramen. Did he really bring me spicy ra—" You're so annoying! I listened when you told me what you had to say, so shut up and listen to me."

"Tsukki I—"

"Yes." He said, firmly. He swung his leg over to the other side of the bench so that he'd be completely facing you. Your cheeks began to burn and you swallowed thickly at the action. "Yes, I will go out with you. I want to go out with you. Damn it, I was supposed to ask you myself, but you had to go ahead of me. I didn't even know you had that in you."

"...I didn't..." You muttered.

"Then why'd you go and do it?"

"I—" You were at a loss for words; partly because Tsukki had just said yes, but also because of his bluntness and the aggression laced in the words that so easily left his lips. "I wanted you to know before you graduated...and it would've been a waste if I stuck a note in your locker instead of facing you head on..."

"So you decided to yell it at me?"

"I panicked!" You retorted.

"Why?"

"Well," You caught your bottom lip between your teeth before you could let yourself finish. You remembered the pretty girl, how close she leaned onto Tsukki, and the bitter taste that followed. "I—Cause...That..That girl you were with...I kinda just...I snapped, okay?"

"The girl?...Oh." It was as if you heard a clicking sound the moment Tsukki had realized what you meant. "That's my cousin... She'll be an incoming first year next year, so I wanted to show her around."

Oh, my god, shoot me in between the eyes.

You buried your face back into your hands as Tsukki began to laugh. You wanted to die right then and there, you prayed to the deity's to grace you with some sort of blessing and hit you with a rock—maybe even get set on fire by a firework. Anything.

"Wooow, I can't believe I like you." Tsukki sighed as he leaned back with his arms stretched behind him for support. You peaked at him through the spaces between your fingers, watched as he smirked to himself.

"W-Wait you really like me?"

"Duh!" He spat, rolling his eyes. "Did you think I said yes to you as a joke? I would've said yes to you in front of everyone back there if you hadn't taken off like that." You sat there as you pressed your legs closer to your chest, resting your chin on your knees completely dumbfounded. You had many questions, but not enough time to take up in the night to ask it all.

You sat up straight before completely twisting yourself to face him. He furrowed his  brows at you, watching you shift in your seat as you tried to regain the confidence you had lost. You cleared you throat and met his eyes, leaning in. "Then, would you be so kind to fall in love with me?"

A playful smirk tugged the corner of Tsukki's lips, "I already have."

[scintillasofbeomgyu]

Having a bit of a problem rn :') I mean not rlly but uh I've never told anyone. But my guy friend who I'm in love with got into jyp a whole back lol we've been friends since we were 13 (19 now) I'm very happy for him obviously but what if this drives a wedge into our friendship and I'll really not have a chance to be with him 😭 it's so selfish of me to think that while his dreams are coming true but I can't help it :'( sorry for venting here I just don't know who else to dump this on hahaha

you can always vent here !! me and my askbox (and dms for those who are comfortable) are always open if you need someone to talk to !! ❤️ i completely understand how you feel. i mean, not that i've ever experienced something like that, but i feel like i would probably feel really conflicted if i were you, too. your friend getting into jype (no matter how much jyp himself sucks) is a really big achievement. it's really not easy to get into these entertainment companies bc they're pretty strict, especially a big company like jyp, so i think you should be really proud of him !! but, and forgive me for being blunt, i do think that there's a very big possibility it could drive a wedge in your relationship. it's more likely for it to work out if you continued being friends, but even then i feel like things would start getting really tough for you, especially if he ends up debuting. HOWEVER, it also depends on your relationship with him and the kind of person he is, yk? after all, relationships are a two-way street. you could definitely make it work if you're both committed to making it work (whether it's platonically or romantically) and if you're understanding of how your relationship could change and how careful you'd need to be, all the challenges you'd face, etc.

wow, this ended up being really long 😭 but i just wanted to give you an honest, holistic opinion and advice. i don't know much about your specific situation, so take it with a grain of salt though. and if you ever need to vent some more, i'm here! <3

[finsterhund]

I'm feeling slightly better than I was yesterday.

I bought stuff for Spot with the last of my money to cheer myself up, as I'm getting paid in two days.

One of the Spots I ordered arrived and I gave them a bath.

Got chicken strips and potato wedges.

I'm still extremely upset about the news from yesterday. I'm trying not to take it personally but saying "I hated doing commissions" and me being his primary commissioner, getting one almost every month, has made that hard.

I guess this means I shouldn't obsess over one friend and their art and should try being closer to multiple people and being a supporter of multiple artists.

Every time I get too attached I always end up getting hurt because I'm too clingy.

But as I said, finding that sweet spot when it comes to artists is very very difficult. All the good artists who aren't creeps are so popular that getting a commission slot is impossible.

This year has just been "the year of distance" and it sucks. Everyone being distant in real life due to the virus I think is normalizing reclusion even online.

I tried to shower like a non disabled person today and guess what? I bruised my horrible little nasty sternum by falling. It feels kinda weird now and hurts. It makes me think more about whether I have wires around it or not. The bone would have grown around the wires right? Hopefully it's just bruising and it's not like, extra delicate because it was at one point in two halves, so it broke. Baby bones are basically cartilage so it would have grown properly right?

I know nothing of medicine.

So I'm sticking to baths unless I want to get a shower chair. Only issue is there's no space for one.

Our slumlord house owner was going to raise our rent but can't because of the virus. That's some good news. Hope it stays that way. We're already paying way too much for what we get here.

I had a pretty bad breakdown last night but tonight I'm not feeling that. Still really sad about recent events though.

Actually befriending artists is really hard and a big issue I have with finding artists online to commission is I prefer them being my friends as there's a level of comradery and understanding so ehhhhhh. I had several people do art fight attacks for me this year out of the blue so maybe I'd be able to network and become friends with other artists but that's so hard for me. My friendships pretty much are lightning in a bottle rare events that brought us together. I don't actually know how to intentionally make friends.

I wish Fishy had more free time and Shynox and Lili and Arti came back. Oh well.

I found out that the camera I wanted to get for when I finally get my service dog doesn't save photos digitally. It sucks because I really wanted to have a modern instant camera that also had an SD card for the photos as backup but nope. The new Polaroid doesn't do that. It's just a regular old style instant camera. No digital features. I'd dig that if the saga of the Spot photos and the ongoing search for a place that still develops negatives didn't force me to get with the times and acknowledge for once in my life that "digital is the answer"

So instead I'm helping my friend buy his camera and he'll be taking photos for me. I'm sad because after my first digital camera broke I wanted to get a new one but finding out that the one I wanted didn't do what I needed it to do sorta just made me give up.

The pet store where I got stuff for Spot had things on clearance. Everything I got was clearance. I also saw a glow in the dark collar but I just thought that Spot wouldn't like the material and that it would be something my future service dog would like and that made me feel sad so I left.

The quest for a very large stuffed dog that looks like Spot continues. I found a pattern that someone could make one, but do you know how to sew things? I thought not. Neither do I.

I'm excited for the OC release of Paper Beast even though I won't be able to play it. Gotta build my new PC but that means dealing with modern PC parts which is something I've been fearing. I know how to assemble modern PCs, but I'm so behind with the technical aspect it's hard. I don't want to just buy a prebuilt, that's a waste of money, but due to the virus, going to a local shop is out of the question too.

I guess what I'm trying to get at is that I'm getting by, but that I'm not happy. I'm just sorta riding the waves wherever they move and hoping for the best.

I'm hoping my friend's new camera will be good for photos of cuddle clone Spot and also my HoD collection.

I've got some ideas for commissions though. Just don't know who to commission lol

I've got one in the works now though. First one from an artist I thought was cool and is nice to follow. Seemed excited to work on my idea.

My friend made me this and it makes me feel happy.

Hopefully I'll have an easier time sleeping tonight than I did last night.

Maybe I'll try writing instead. But since my mood is awful we know it's going to take a dark turn.

I might try searching around for artists some more, especially once I get paid.

It's not the end of the world. I'm just hurt lol

Anyways, update done. Talk to you guys later.

[lovely0painter]

Day 7 Jealousy

Jealousy was a sour and bitter feeling.

It was the one emotion no one should feel but apparently even the most calmed person can have that feel especially a certain energy vampire.

Specifically Nos.

Here he was, sitting with his friend XR whom he has a crush on, here with him in the cafeteria of star command and not far from them was 42.

“So Nos wanna hang out with me at the funland?”

He should say no but seeing her there hoping he would say no, he hate the idea of her getting her way, especially with her way of hurting his little one. He has from what XR told him, he and 42 broke it off seeing they didn't share the same affection as before but ever since he had entered in his friend's life, she was doing everything she can to put a wedge between their friendship.

“Of course XR, I hear this funland is quite smashing.”

XR smiles and Nos smiles happily.

“Alright I better get going then. See ya later.” XR waves out as he exits.

Just as he left, 42 comes up to him and glared.

“May I help you 42?”

“Why are you really hanging out with him?”

“Are friends and he asked me. Why are you asking?”

42 glared. “I hate that a monster like you wants XR who can do so much better than you.”

“If anything, he is better off without a harpy controlling his every move. He did everything he can to make you happy and you were possessive and after everything, you left him.”

42 glared at him and smirked. “You know what it's a pity. He may see you see you as a friend and care about you but by the end of the day, he'll never see you as anything but a friend. And if anything, he wouldn't even think twice falling for a monster like you.” 42 walked away and Nos shook in rage but calmed himself. He hates to agree but she is right about the fact. They were friends, XR trusted him but he even wondered does XR fear him or thinks if he has thought he would attack him. Nos slumped his head with dread.

“He would not do that to me…” ‘Right?’

-

Nos waited by the entrance of the place feeling it has been ten minutes.

‘Hopefully he is alright.” He looked around to see other with their significant other and sighed. Maybe with thought he could tell XR the truth.

Just as he waited for his crush to come he noticed what was ten minutes was thirty minutes and finally he gotten a call seeing it was XR.

“Hello XR.”

“Hey I'm gonna have to cancel on our hangout something came up.”

Nos felt a pang and tried to look less hurt knowing it was his job. “Did something happened?”

“Buzz. He got a mission and I'm needed along with 42.” Nos frowned as he heard.

He wouldn't even think twice falling for a monster like you.

“I'm really sor-”

“Do not be XR. I understand this is important and I will let you be.” Nos turns it off quickly  but was saddened even more. He flew off not wanting to stay there even more as the doubt was increasing in his heart.

Meanwhile

XR saw Nos ended the call and for a moment, he saw Nos was hurt.

‘Is he ok with this?’

“XR are you ok?” Mira asked.

“I feel bad that I canceled on Nos. Why didn't I tell him!”

Mira was confused but seeing they were doing nothing, she sat next to her friend. “Want to talk about it?” She asked XR nodded and they sat and talk.

He explained how he always keep to the promises he made to Nos and how Nos always helped him out! But that moment when he not only hesitated to tell him, he made his friend wait by the entrance and he could tell he did.

“I'm the worst friend.”

“No XR you're not but I think there's more to that.”

XR raised a brow.

“Maybe you like him in a different way? I mean booster is your best friend and so is Buzz.”

“I'm not really following.”

“Why would you always choose Nos to hang out when you could have chosen Buzz and booster.”

XR took it to thought but pushed it away, but it kept coming back. “ … I don't know…”

//

Nos decided to head to star command and wait but he had gotten the same look of distaste and disgust from the many other space rangers. The only person he has never gotten that was XR and XL but even XL was overprotective when he was around.

Nos sat on the side and overheard the many rangers through the connection he has from the system. He always hears the same thing.

“Who would trust him here?”

“What a defect that won't fight?”

“Betcha XR is paid to hangout with him.”

Nos disconnects from the system and growls and glares at the comm. He wanted to ask XR why.

When he first came here, he wanted to escape from the grasp of his creator Zurg. He didn't wish to be a monster but everyone fears him as if he was an animal.