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ponytailzuko · 5 months

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don't keep up enough so i dont know a thing about that cerise shit but the hatred for lila well i just dont get it...cant a girl cause problems? shes funny. lila and adrien shouldve been toxic friends or something. i still advocate for them getting into a catfight in the school parking lot .and using nails & pulling hair.

#cal.ibrations #ml #miraculous ladybug #like i just think its funny like she gets on everyones nervessss like she got on adriens nerves somehow lmao #everything needs to look fine and then at the end of the school year lila and adrien get into the UGLIEST fight imaginable .#and everyone thinks its the most out of character thing to ever happen for both of them. and then its normal next day #i dont know why this is what is in my head but it rlly is like i just think lila is FUNNN shes toxic FUN #she needs to be a part of the friend group and make people worse. for me.

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bunnihearted · 3 months

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#so like late last night i started to get rlly panicky nd upset #bc it's v much looking like im gnna fail my english class. i need to be done next wednesday which means i need to work rlly hard #nd go to school extra to have a presentation nd do tests etc etc #nd im still in pain after surgery nd im rlly depressed bc of my physical health so i just dont think i can be strong nd make it this time #in my almost breakdown i wrote a self referral to the clinic/psych department for personality disorders....#it usually takes them around 2 days to answer you but this time at like 8am they sent me a message AND called me #(i think. im not certain it's them bc i havent checked the voice message or the reply lmaooo. but it should be them)#the thing abt having avpd is now im immediately stressed af nd i regret sending it. i donr wanna check their reply #also it might be bc i wrote a lot abt killing myseld etc etc nd now im worried theyre gnna be like girlie get checked in!!!! lol T-T #i just needed to be very clear nd act frsutrted nd desperate bc i have never gotten treatment in 10yrs nd im TIRED!!!!#my initial reaction is to avoid at all costs nd just pull my covers above my head nd pretend like i dont have to check their reply lol #i dont wannaaaaaa. i take it back i dont want help!!! its fine i dont wanna try or work hard let me rot #why did i do this!!!!! fml. anyway... i'll check later today bc since its early i can still use the excuse of sleepinf thru the days #many ppl working w mentally ill ppl understand that it's normal actually to switch the day around nd sleep during the days sksksk #but also i have no idea how many typos r in here bc im not wearing my glasses whoopsie #yeah.. anyway im gonna try to go back to sleep nd not think abt it #hopefully it wasnt even them calling 🤡 i know i HAVE to check later but not now i can take a few hours #then today i need to figure out if im gnna make one last attempt w my eng class or give up idk what to do

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gecemi09 · 7 months

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Most of the songs in Electra Heart are incredibly Jason Todd coded(except certain lines being abt romantic/sexual relationships, change those slightly and voila). No I won't elaborate because you know I'm right.

#jason todd #look im just saying..#i know why electra heart is abt romantic relationships in general #bc thats what the character is abt #but if you ignore those lines #it makes SENSE #teen idle is rlly obvious #hypocrates in relation to bruce bc hes a huge ass hypocrite #and “you're the only one who can break me who can make me into a young girl”#and “youve played the martyr for so long”#buy the star in “you bought a star in the sky tonight bc your life is dark and it needs some light #you named it after me but im not yours to keep bc youll never see that the stars are free“#very robin in general #also “oh we dont own our heavens now we only own our hell and if you don't know that by now then you don't know me that well”#etc. etc.#fear and loathing in “ive lived a lot of different lives. been different ppl many times.#i live my life w bitterness and fill my heart w emptiness“#& “got different ppl inside my head. i wonder which one that they like best?#im done w trying to have it all and ending up w not much at all“ (sheila lol)#homewrecker i always thought abt how jason was blamed for everything?#and bruces shitty relationships w everyone after him can be attributed to jasons death #like “your death broke bruce. WE had to fix it” kinda thing?#“i dont belong to anyone” and “im the image of deception” feel like him to me for some reason idk #i think i will reblog with these+more bc i might be going over the tag limit lol

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thatdeadaquarius · 1 year

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THE TAG ABOUT ABYSS GOD?? I'D READ IT!! <3

AHFALALODHAAKLL FOAMING AT TEHMOUTFH SOMEONESAASKEDDDD HSAJDOFJSJAHSHSB!!!!! THANKS YOSUFORASKING

ME: going feral and losing my goddam mind over my Genshin Fill-in Lore / God Reader AU

My Followers (wow!!): confused, afraid, watching me spiral into insanity and niche nonsense-

ANON, IM SO SORRY BUT IM GONNA MAKE THIS SHIT A SEPERATE POST BC ITS JUST TOO BIG TO CONTAIN IN ONE ASK I FEEL LIKE

LIKE IT NEEDS ITS OWN POST, PLUS THAT WAY U CAN CHOOSE TO CLICK AWAY IF ITS NOT WHAT U EXPECTED/GET SMTH DISAPPOINTING AS AN ANSWER TO UR ASK

I WOULD TAG U BUT UR ANON, SO LOOK OUT FOR SMTH ON MY BLOG TITLED

"My Big Fat Genshin Fill-in Lore/God Reader AU"

OR SMTH ALONG THOSE LINES, ALSO ILL TAG IT "genshin au" "going feral" "genshin brainrot"

BASICALLY, I MAKE GENSHIN LORE HAPPIER AND SIMPLER, INVOLVE ANCIENT LORE GODS MORE, CELESTIA/UNKNOWN GOD IS A WORLD CONQUEROR, THE ABYSS ISNT ALL BAD, AND SINCE MIHOYO HASNT REVEALED ENOUGH LORE FOR GENSHIN FOR THIS IDEA TO BE MORE CANON, IM BASICALLY FILLING IN GAPS AND ITS AN AU AT THIS POINT

Honestly, now that I think about it...ya'll.

I think I've been hyperfixating over this AU for 2 years now.

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Cheers,

🌒🌧🌊Aquarius♒️🌌🌘

#jesus christ #it wasnt until i thought abt it but it rlly may have been a full 2 yrs #of just repeatedly going over this worldbuilding AU/God Reader in my head #going feral #genshin au #genshin god reader #god reader #genshin impact #ask box open #genshin sagau #my asks #sagau #gender neutral reader #im so sorry u dont know what youve gotten urself into #I JUST DIDNT THINK ANYONE WOULD GENUINELY BE INTERESTED #LET ALONE SEND AN ASK #THATS WHY I LEFT IT IN THE TAGS #CRYING THANK YOU FOR ASKING ANON #genshin brainrot

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caramelmochacrow · 5 months

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i hate that im so scared of. like. explaining my art now. lol.

also hello hi im awake im not in a bad feeling mood im in a dissect my feelings mood atm.

#crow talks #maybe it's bc it was like. rlly late but i was afraid that i would be annoying people? i guess?#like. i WANT to talk. but. there's something in my head telling me that #people dont really care what i have to say. im just trying to make my art better by using my words. i sound dumb w that statement right?#i know my art is good by itself. people complement it and such. im not bad at it.#why should i care abt what other people think of my art?#maybe it's just the imposter syndrome. hah.#i think this year what i want to do is get better with my art and be able to dissect what parts i want to be better.#but also still have fun with drawing.#you know?

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jrueships · 6 months

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the mayor of turkey trying to get people to vote alpey for Allstar 😭😭

#alpey (who has realized his power) trying to get jabari into allstar too by making use of his turkey influence: @ turkey mayor #jabari my boyfran #now all of turkey is deadset on getting the prince and prince of turkey into the allstar game bcs jabari is alpey boyfran #jabari is unaware of the tweet bcs hes trying to grow a moustache #alpey awkwardly having to slide an arm over jabari while they sit two seats apart (jabari thinks a brainworm is trying to enter him again)#turkish interviewers after another jabari yelling at alpey crimescene: what were u two arguing about 😦!! u guys are our otp ☹️!!!#alpey: nono me & my girl dont argue #alpey: she bash my head in with a rock & i walk it off like a man #reporters shocked & genuinely curious: JABARI!JABARI!! IS IT TRUE YOU BASH IN ALPEYS HEAD WITH A ROCK!!!?!?!#jabari who doesnt know whats going on but craves violence: sometimes.#how will this affect the Gunsmith legacy?!?!??#⁉️⁉️#when jabari eventually finds out theyre supposedly dating by jalen joking abt gup designing their outfits for marriage #and tari wanting to be the best man while forcing tyty to be the flowergirl bcs ppl would believe it #alpey expects him to be upset abt the whole fake dating thing but instead jabaris embarrassed and pissed #that alpey thinks jabari needs his help when it comes to popularity bcs DAMMIT!! HES SUPPOSED TO BE HIGH PICK! N OT ALPEY!! wheres HIS fans #why isnt ATLANTA showing out !?!??? <- theyre crazy #and alpeys semi relieved bcs he just thought of the fake dating plan to help his teammate out #who he thought rlly deserved it due to his hard work and underappreciated lack of showmanship #but then he hears how much of a 'my best friend jabari <3 the loser <3' it sounds and feels bad #they dont make up #jabari bashes alpeys head in with a rock and alpey walks it off like a man

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vyibunni · 9 months

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as promised, the besties in the same post!

#vb ocs #original character #what can you deduce abt their characters based on the names they used on their pictures? 🤔#to elaborate: no one calls sasha his legal name yet he chose to put that on it. while teddy is called other names including his legal name #sometimes yet uses it on an official photo #anyway what can i tell you abt them quickly? well theyve been best friends ever since kindergarten #(does not mean they went to the same kindergarten jdjdjfk teddy went to a private one while sasha went to a normal public one)#you know SOME things abt sasha already. but anyway he normally wears more band tees and ripped stuff but he had to be #a bit more tidy for the pictures lol (covering for myself here bc i havent designed his tattoos yet LMAO)#omg i had so much trouble with teddy i had to start over multiple times before i saw the image in my head on the tablet ⚰️#anyway hes like you look at him and you cant trust him hes like. smug and mischevious but if you get close to him hes ride or die #and hes flirty bc yes hes into casual relationships but also as a weapon and defense #oh also his family is extremely rich. new money to be specific. his family is a sailing family #thats it for now lol i keep saying this but one day ill write their profiles.....#im really happy with how teddys mouth came out hdkfkdjd idk why but i rlly like the shape not to get too omakehuinen here ⚰️#OH LAST THING dont be fooled by these images sasha is 198 cm and teddy is 176 cm. teddy is the libero of their team #he gets to feel unique with his different colored jersey 😌

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prettyboykatsuki · 2 years

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for personal reasons and bc of being on the internet during peak ace discourse i dont really talk a lot about being demisexual but ive identified as demi for a LONGGG time like since i was like 11 or something

and like. one of the aspects of it is that i dont really experience attraction outside of my partner. which seems normal but i mean like... it's almost like sex doesn't even exist to me with the exception of my partner where i feel it like EXTREMELY intensely and all of my desires are really suddenly released.

it's hard to explain but like. i can't physically fathom attraction in a way. it doesn't register in my head that people are attracted to each other. i can have libidio and fantasies but i very distinctly don't feel genuine attraction almost ever. i forget sometimes that other people do.

and when i go a long time without seeing my partner i kind of forget it all together because my libido is something i can take care of on my own but when im around my partner im like oh shit. monkey brain and actually experience attraction and it's like such an intense and fucking bizarre feeling. like i don't know how to explain it but to think other people experience that frequently genuinely blows my mind

#aristotle.txt #for pride im trying to talk about my identity a little more #but its kind of nerve wracking bc i dont like talking microlabels since its not rlly other peoples business #i genuinely cant understand like. attraction as a whole unless im already very emotionally invested #that's why the idea of cheating as a temptation is so foreign to me #like i physically dont know what thats like. ive never experienced it #i cant feel attraction to strangers in the way thats discussed in media sometimes #the idea has always been bizarre for me #also if you bring discourse about this im knocking you upside the head

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zhuhongs · 2 years

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i am so painfully american in so many ways that I never even realized,,, like the Pain. Today I went out with my friends mom who doesn’t speak any english and oh my god was I a deer in the headlights all day. I feel soooo bad, also like she refused to let me pay for anything and gave me sooo much food and drove me around all day. I really don’t know how to thank her enough. I tried to give her a gift and she returned it to me without me even noticing... oh my god. ms. huang.. rlly.... TT thank u also I’m so sorry i’m so painfully timid and awkward

#i've never eaten like.. so many kinds of meat bc like.. yk.. americans only really like the "desireable' parts of the meat. so yea.. also i #have like a fear of swallowing bones.. long story. if u were here u were here for it. if u dont know .. its a Story. but yea so i was like.#this is... a painfully awkward meal. also i dropped my chopsticks TWICEEEEE.. pain. also I've never had shirmp with the head on so she #put one on my plate and i was like... uh.... i dont know how to eat this but I just looked out how the ppl around me did it so i got used t #it.. kinda.... god yea. and then she really kept giving me food but I have a small appetite due to the aforementioned fear of bones thing #it was a spell of disordered eating in hs. left me with a damaged throat and a reduced appetite. not body image related but trauma related #etc. etc.. so yea. i felt so bad. I was so full. she bought me so much. im sooo sorry.... but good news is i wont need to buy food at all #tmrw... and then sometimes she'd ask me a question and I'd legit have no clue how to respond. I;m so used to speaking multiple languages #with my classmates and my roommates so if i ever forget smth i can just use a diferrent language to explain and its.. so much harder to #speak only one language than i thought and hhhhh. also sidenote i COMPLETELY understand why my friend is the way she is... like yea no she #IS her mothers daughter hundred percent.... forceful. kind. not afriad to bargain. overall big appetite for life and yea no.. it makes sooo #much sense... i understand it ALL now...also her little brother is so rude.... god i don't like him. i see why she doesn't like him #like id never blame someone for hating their family but yea no i get it #hhhh so yea.. it was rlly fun but also.. a lot. super super grateful tho.#🐌.txt #also i am so tired.. what not getting enough sleep for a week will do to a mf

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eebie · 1 year

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oo you wanna say literally every thought you've ever had about your ocs soo bad (wants to know what their deal is)

ugouguhghhgnnnghhhhh ^ My thoughts on them

#mindy fouynhd august in her shed . Her grandma's shed n shes like How the fuck are you here. what are you #^cos he's a human . and all bugs have little bumps on their heads that r remants of their antennae and he doesnt so shes like ewwwwww gros #basically adopts him when she sees how he's in shambles n he hangs out in her shed that's near the field of (seemingly) infinite wheat #Its impossible 2 pass by the way so that's why she was so confused on how he was here #bug communities r tight and everyone knows everyone Cos of how small the population is where she lives so ghes this total stranger #shenanigans ensue Leading to august being the cause of a star corpse tsunami . im not realy gonna get into that #but its realy fucked up #and he leaves because of it N explores the outer world which is rlly fucked #The sun scorched all of the earth at one point n it was just all ash . but star shards became a thing and some parts of it came back to lif #and spread out real far #stars have their own story like its a WHOLE deal involving some shitty guy who tries to mass produce them #by forcing the earth's core . Which is a heart . to keep beating even though it's pretty much dead. Imagine male salmon after mating seaso #kinda like that #BUT YEAH ITS A LOT I DONT WANNA DUMP IT ALL cos that would take fucking foreverrrrrrrrrrrrrraaaahhh #THANK YOU FOR ASKING IT ACTUALLY helped me sort out my own thoughts on em on Everything #well . not everything The story is huge #my asks #ehehehe #oh also August's whole deal is he vomits up little creatures when he's upset #literally nothing he can do about it it's involuntary . he can repress them for a while And he gets better at it but the drawback is #When they come out they are bigger making it more painful . and really fucking destructive #but it also happens when he's feeling any strong emotion like joy #so he has to dull everything down . cant get too excited now or bad things will happen!!! ^_^#as you can see I take a very unique and in depth approach to writing with very nuanced symbolism (sarcasm)#sopmetimes straightforward stuff is the way 2 go im not gonna overcomplicate smn for the sake of making it overcomplicated #anyways yeah long story short August is a freak and kind of a creep (and a weirdoooohoo) But so is mindy although in much more subtle ways #the main difference is Mindy isnt straight up terrible like he is #i cherish them both . And mr star and herman and the Last and the Sun

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transgaysex · 2 years

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why do boobs have so much physics. i move my torso half an inch to be comfy and the tits are like . we are loose jello actually like ok

#wind howls #beloveds is that necessary. why do they wiggle so much #it is kinda funny bc it feels really silly #im so sleepy and my head feels as tho its abt to explode and yet im feelinf rlly happy rn ^_^#still dont know what im gonna do with my day tomorrow... i work on monday but i dont have classes again till wedneaday which is awesome..#free time... well i have like 2 whole midterms on thursday back to back which sucks so #ill probably get some studying done... maybe go to the mall n see if eb games has some shiny eternatus codes left...

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chanyoungies · 2 years

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rips all my hair out

#im going to lose my mind #seems like im spending more money than i did last year but i feel like im buying less stuff #which like ig wld make sense w inflation but .#also im still trying to figure out Why the turntable broke .#also i love november but like wdym its already november #worrying abt what ill do when i fail my semester #i still dont know what to do about the floor replacement #im just feeling not rlly great . in general #also my head hurts but thats a short term problem. relatively .

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truckstoptigers · 7 months

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why can't i have a dad that's nice to me

#they hurt me in different ways but they both hurt me #my stepfather continues to do/say things that hurt me & im essentially not allowed to call him out #it gets absolutely nowhere bc he doesnt care to listen. he also sometimes intentionally triggers me #(obviously talking abt car-related topics is very difficult for me but hell bring that stuff up on purpose bc #'you need to know whats going on in the world!! you cant just keep your head in the sand!!' like shut the entire fuck up.#you dont get to trigger me KNOWING YOURE DOING IT and then expect me to be cool #and you ESPECIALLY do not get to be pissed AT ME when i have a panic attack as a result #my life would improve dramatically w/out him in it & that kills me. two dads & neither of them are decent.#but i think what kills me abt my stepdad was that he DID love me & cared abt my interests. he tried to get to know me. he was kind.#i had a good dad. and all of a sudden he became not even a shell of that person. that person simply did not exist anymore.#i hate it. i hate HIM. but it wasnt always that way and it hurts to remember that.#trauma vent #actuallyabused #actuallytraumatized #hes a big part of why i basically feel guilty for existing as a human being w needs #and a big part of why my self-directed internalized ableism is so bad. im working to improve that though. its just rlly hard #esp since i still live w him #oh also a fix for a typo up there: i am sensitive to CSA-RELATED topics not car-related topics lmfao #although his driving does scare me lol!!!#milo murmurs

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sixftmp3 · 9 months

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cannot tell if i feel inhuman because of being sick, or if i havent eaten enough today (on account of being too sick to stand up for long enough to find food). it is probably a combo of both

#me.txt #i am currently hopped up on cold meds and cannot comprehend the written english language #i know why they have to id u for this shit now.#my head feels full of cotton but my sinuses have never been clearer!!!!#i would take thhe nap my body very desperately wants but im hiding in my moms room from my niece bcuz she has an ac in here #and i dont rlly. wanna sleep on my moms bed. what am i a child. no im 20

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krispiecake · 1 year

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soooo funny actually

#ive asked if staff can give me like just a general heads up if they know someone is moving in #not like any private info not even their name just like a ‘hey theres someone new that you might see around’#bc im autistic and change can rlly throw me off like u know a pretty basic autistic trait #and i literally just got told ‘no offence what does it have to do with you’#im not asking for their full name list of diagnosis’s nhs number and their fave colour #just you know. if theyre gonna be living here or not.#and its not like im not gonna find out bc im gonna see them it’s unavoidable information that everyone knows #i just want like a heads up like ‘hey asher someone new is moving in tomorrow’ like thats IT #so i dont freak out when theres just a whole stranger in communal areas or whatever and act weird #and i get it if like people cant tell me weeks in advance people are moving in on this day exactly at this time #LIKE IM NOT ASKING FOR THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!#or even AFTER theyve moved in like ‘hey just so you know xx moved in yesterday’#and really dont think im being unreasonable by asking them to just tell me rather than let me get anxious about a stranger #like idk if that’s maintenance or staff or management or a new resident like not knowing is what makes me anxious #and rn im in my hours and my staff member is just talking to another staff member about tanning and bikinis and shit like theyre not #MY HOURS. idk #im just pissed off they acted like i was insane for asking for a heads up #they were like oh idk if we can cuz we dont always know exact dates and things change and and and and #and when i first brought it up they just kept saying different variations of how does it effect you why do you care what does it have to #do with you and its like. you know. the autism and the anxiety disorders u know the things you know about and are meant 2 be helping me with #UGHHHHHHH

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noxtivagus · 2 years

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i'll succeed with everything. definitely.

#🌙.vent #last one fr then i think i have enough energy to fix my account. bcs. i don't really care. anymore. gna gaslight myself into being fine 🤍#smiling felt painful earlier but oh well! this is stupid anyways i shldn't think too much. this is so stupid #i have so much thoughts but yk what i will stop writing n force myself to do wtvr the fuck n yh fuck everything i'll stop overthinking i'll #just be myself. i thrive the most when i just be myself <3.. no wait i was gen doing a bit better but every time i think back n. 🥹 it Hurts #but. why the hell am i letting these stupid things bring me down. i've never really been the type to hide or bring myself down or. yeah #i shouldn't think too much on it all i know eventually i'll always succeed :< that said tho i am rlly v tired i just wna be invisible #for a while. see what'll happen if i just disappear or cut myself off from the world. if anything wld change if i'll be 'gone' in some way #but no that's bad n destructive behavior i Shouldn't but sometimes when i get stressed enough i lack any care to. stop myself maybe. but.#i made promises to myself. a lot of promises to myself in my past n to my future that. i won't do anything i'll regret. holding unto tmrrw.#the future. holding unto that sense of hope has kept me alive. even if i'll always be full of regret and disappointment i want to live to #to love and to succeed and to be free and to. fight the world & find my freedom in reality. thats hard for me n i probably dont deserve it #maybe that's precisely why i'll forge on ahead. to prove that wrong. to be kind to the other part of me that has kept me alive #it sucks bcs while. like i just said i don't think i deserve certain things. at heart i know my main truth wld be that ik i'm deserving #bcs i'm human too :< but both ends r just intense in my head n when times r draining it gets harder to. yeah #idk what i'm writing anymore but no matter how hard it gets i need to succeed. i need to improve i need something better #i'll work hard enough so i could be at peace. have freedom in my own way. 'fly' as i'm meant to and as i've always wished to #that said though ik i'll succeed in terms of several of my passions but when it comes to people.... i always feel like i fail there T_T #every time i'm distant i'm aware of how it affects me negatively but then i try to deny it at times bcs 'i just need myself blah blah'#surely i can't be weak for. wtvr but like. all that is smth that is not up to me. trying that w how i oft feel i don't belong in this world #i can't help but think that there'll always be better ppl than me for others. not that i think low of myself but its hard to feel i 'fit in #? it's a lonely world for me n i still can relate w others n socialize n wtvr n all but it just hurts. this is stupid :c thoughts like #'my friends wld be better off without me' or 'i dont contribute much anyways' & 'not much would change if i'll be gone' hurt me bcs #i do want to believe that i'm loved & cared for too in this world but.. it hurts its one of my weakest points. a hell i can't escape.#but i'm fine with it. it's my fault. my mind's fault. idk i live in my own lil world most of the time n i feel too different from others #so it's always been hard for me to reach out since i don't think it would be particularly wanted from me but i do love helping others #unconditionally n. my family's always been here from the start i can always trust them. fuck my old friends though i have trust issues #i'm working on that n i know all i shld technically fix w myself but it's easier said than done n. genuinely i rlly want to improve.#but i wonder if i'm too harsh n perfectionistic about it. making it counterintuitive. sigh. idk what i'm writing anymore i'm a mess #i'm fine. when i'm stressed n overwhelmed it's just v easy for me to lose sight of myself. i'll be fine i think soon. just need to remember

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