#i dont know. i want to prove my family wrong too and have good things. good mental health. financially stable. takes care of herself.

[minispidey]

Hey - you said repeaters welcome so here I am 💅

If you’ve watched Scenes from a Marriage, I need ya thots /HC for Levy:

BEST FRIEND.

Jonathan Levy x f!reader.

Warnings: mentions toxic relationship, mentions cheating, does this count as cheating too?, angst, smut, fluff, swearing.

Requested by: @boredzillenial

Author's Note: bestie the gif u send is so MWAH cheeky beefy oscar isaac ass 🤭 if u dont mind, i added in a small story line because u swear this man deserves better. mira fucked him up smh (tbh i have no idea what im writing have mercy on me)

Summary: you're Jonathan Levy's best friend, always been in love with him even after he got married. But then it crumbles down and you proved that you treat him better.

MINORS DNI

My immediate thought is like: oh childhood besties with Jonathan instead of the usual teacher-student relationship. I think it adds more drama, you know?

Imagine being so in love with this man for years, but he's blind. He marries Mira and to add salt to the wound you were his best man, or rather best woman. Holding in tears because you thought to yourself 'Surely, I'd move on.'

You two grow up, still closer and you watched him make a family of his own while you work a decent job and end up drinking at the end of the day. Partners come and go, but none of them made you feel the same way Jonathan did. And Jonathan barely did shit.

You knew it was wrong pining for a married man, but you hoped some day Jonathan sees that Mira treats him like shit. You didn't want to upset him since you're his best friend. The one person who knew everything about him even after setting boundaries since he got married.

Were you surprised when Jonathan calls you over and tells you Mira cheated on him? Of course not. You called up a babysitter for Ava and went to hit up a bar, drowning in his sadness.

"What does she have that keeps you... I don't know... loving her? What's so different that you keep crawling back to her."

He couldn't reply. Jonathan stared at you, remembering all the times you two talked— the ones where he's always ranting about his married life, the struggles and the stress. You always just sat there and listened to him. You never straight out voiced your opinion about Mira.

"What else do you think of her?"

"She's a bitch. I mean seriously, you two have a daughter and she pulls this shit. Anyone— and I mean everyone can treat you better than she does."

You always did speak the truth when you're drunk. So this was different.

"You packed her shit too. If I were you, I would've burned everything she owned. Did I ever tell you of the ex boyfriend I had? Changed his shampoo to hair remover."

"That's a bit extreme."

"Your face is a bit extreme."

You always knew just how to make him laugh, even with childish insults. No words were exchanged between the two of you, Jonathan stared at you, scanning your features. Something about you was different. Maybe it was the alcohol, but he's just barely tipsy.

Next thing he knew, he kissed you. He realized that he loved you more than a best friend normally did. He was in love.

Even if it took your whole lives, you thanked whoever the fuck made him realize he loved you (me).

In the middle of your kissing session, he pulls away only to take off his glasses, even touching the lenses despite wanting to keep it fingerprint-free.

His daughter's asleep, baby sitter's gone. You two stumbled into his house, lips locked. Jonathan wasted no time getting you into his bedroom (well, him and Mira's bedroom) and taking your clothes off.

Not only was this the perfect revenge, this was a perfect moment. Your wildest dreams finally coming true.

Jonathan fucks— no, he makes love. He's slow, making you feel good. He's definitely a giver. He peppers you non-stop with kisses. You leave scratches and marks on his body. The pleasure is too much. You were happy that night.

The next morning, breakfast in bed and a kiss on your forehead. Clearly, he didn't regret anything from last night. Jonathan really realized he loved you and you loved him.

Let's just say that you practically lived in his house at this point. Mira comes home to find Jonathan fucking you on the kitchen counter.

"You slut-!"

"You can't say shit, you cheated on him you fucking cunt!"

You successfully landed a harsh slap across Mira's face before getting pulled away by Jonathan. He carries you back into his bedroom and he cups your face with a smile.

"Did it feel good?"

"Yeah. Been wanting to do that since she broke the mug I gave you if I'm being honest."

Jonathan kicked Mira out, and you two spent the night making love to each other. Jonathan was right— everything Mira hated about him, you loved. You were absolutely better than her.

Their divorced finalized, and Jonathan got full custody of Ava. You moved in and brought life to their dull house.

For your birthday, he bought you a piano... an expensive one at that. He loved hearing you play.

He's the type to pick you small flowers every day and you have an album filled with pressed flowers. Before you go to work, he would slip a sticky note in your bag and you would find it while working and can't help but smile.

You make his lunches. He's always liked your cooking. You were definitely levels up from pathetic dinner tupperware spaghetti.

You even pack Ava's lunch for school, making notes like

Have a good day, sweetie! I love you ❤️

For Jonathan, it's always confessions of love. Even if at this point you two should be married.

Love you for as long as the stars shine ❤️

He can't help but smile like a fool during lunch. Even brags about the food you make.

He was in the middle of a lesson when he realized he wanted to marry you. As soon as class ended, he sprinted to Tiffany & Co. and bought you a diamond ring that suited you.

He was just utterly in love with you. One day, playing your piano, you looked ethereal that he grabbed the ring and got down on one knee. He just loved you too much.

You two spent the rest of your days more and more in love than that day in the bar along with your children. He couldn't ask for anyone better. You were the one for him, no one else.

[gabessquishytum]

Dubcon mating with alpha dream except hob knows EXACTLY what hes doing:) hob has been all but throwing himself at dream all semester all "ohh wow i would NEVER leave MY alpha like that.. too bad i dont even have one :(" hell cut it as close as possible going to class through his pre heat just to hopefully give dream a wiff of how slick and fertile he is. Dream does not seem to notice. But hob is one of the few omegas in the school this year so hob thinks his chances are pretty good to be able to get him in rut. He follows dream to his office all smug and confident. But he wasnt prepared for how overwhelming getting held down and rut fucked was!! Hes trying to crawl away despite himself but only gets hornier when dream physically drags him back. Hob has fooled around before but never done more than some over the clothes stuff with an actual alpha.. dream gives him his first knot and latches his teeth to the back of his neck to mate him as well. Hob is a bit teary and dream still hasnt come back to himself.. his pants were ripped off his body along with his underwear but dream lays on top of him so hes not cold. Hob is determined to keep his alpha though. Hes got his gym clothes in his bag and he drags dream off to his own room, planning to hide long enough that the bond solidifies and an emergency break wouldn't be possible anymore :) good thing dream isnt awake to make hob see someone for that!! Hes got a weird sense of honor and hob is doing all he can to make the bond permanent before dream can get in his way :)

-🔪

Oh YES. Sneaky, sneaky Hob. This is excellent.

Hob is ambitious, ok? He’s been told all his life that he’ll never get anywhere or be anything. He sees it as his job to prove people wrong. So he has a plan: put himself through uni, get a fantastic fucking job, and get himself the most eligible alpha he can find.

Not necessarily in that order.

Dream is just perfect. Clever, rich, handsome. Hob can’t understand why anyone would leave him, but he’s not complaining. With Dream’s previous mating bond gone, Hob is free to make his move. He’s a little scared of how it will work out, but Dream has been nice to him and shown an interest in Hob! Not in a sexual way, but that’s only because he’s too professional. Hob is sure that Dream won’t object to them being mated. Hob isn’t the perfect omega, but he’ll do his best. He’s (mostly) a virgin, and he plans to take good care of his alpha. What more could Dream want?

And once he becomes lucid again, Dream is surprisingly compliant. He doesn’t seem angry. He panics at first, but once Hob assures him that he wanted Dream to fuck him and mate him, he just kind of… accepts it. He takes Hob home to his big empty house. He just seems pleased to have an omega around the place!

Hob gets his comeuppance for his sneakiness, because the house isn’t entirely empty. Dream soon introduces Hob to… his son. Orpheus is preschool aged and spends his time split between Dream and Calliope’s homes. Hob is suddenly thrust into the role of step-parent to a child who could conceivably be his sibling, while Dream breathes a sigh of relief because he really needs all the help he can get with Orpheus.

But Hob doesn’t believe in giving up! He rolls up his sleeves (figuratively and literally), speedily reads a couple of websites about blended families, and decides that he’s going to be the best fucking step-parent anyone has ever seen. He does regret his underhanded behaviour a tiny bit, but he’s made his bed and now he’s going to lie in it.

And he still gets to ride Dream’s dick at the end of the day, so… it could be a lot worse. Every time Dream grabs him at the waist and pulls him back onto his cock, shoving his knot more firmly into his hole, Hob remembers how it all started… and he’s honestly really looking forward to his next heat. Dream fucked him so good in his rut, so Hob is pretty sure that spending a pheromone loaded heat with him is going to be amazing. And maybe they’ll even make a little sibling for Orpheus :D

[milkhwi]

Casino Nights - Gambler! Chenle

Summary: Gambling and more gambling, that’s all that mattered to Chenle. The probability of him winning was always high until one day you showed up and decided to change that and his life, too.

genre: gambler! chenle x  gambler! reader

word count: 2.8k

warnings: illegal gambling & swearing probably not proof read enough

a/n: originally was supposed to be a bulleted scenario but honestly,, think this came out better idk anything about gambling dont do it kids- also it’s been in my draft since 2020 omg..4 years yeah last fic ever probably i’ve retired from my good old days. idk if anyone will read this but i’m proud :3 also my longest fic of my entire career who else cheered!

masterlist。

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Dies being rolled, cards being shuffled, chips being placed, and bets being made. The casino was always full of gamblers- especially on a Saturday night. The casino was like a second home for Chenle. Every Saturday he would be there- gambling. Chenle, only being an eighteen year old, wasn’t allowed to enter a casino. Reason: age. Of course, it was no secret that gambling at that age was illegal. But Chenle was an exception. He knows how to gamble. In fact, he’s very good at it. The only reason he was allowed in the first place was because he’s rich. Being rich was an advantage to him. He put down exactly $10 million on the line- to which of course, anyone would accept if it was that amount of money. To make things worse, he was going to gamble against one of the best known gamblers. “If I win, I’ll be allowed to gamble and get twice the amount I’m betting. Alright?” Chenle said, with no tone in his voice.

Chenle’s opponent chuckled and smirked at him, “Alright kid, it’s a bet.”

Not long after, the best gambler out there was not only dethroned by an eighteen year old, but exactly 20 million in debt. Chenle chuckled slightly, “You were really that confident, huh?” His opponent gulped, he knew this was something so embarrassing that it would even haunt him in his dreams, “You cheated, didn’t you? Let’s go again, I’ll prove you wrong.” Chenle pretended to think about it, then nodded, betting down $30 million this time.

“Watch me close if you really think I’m cheating.” Everyone watching the game taking place was already sweating. Not long after, they were neck to neck- this made Chenle’s opponent laugh, relieved about the fact that he had a higher chance of winning, but since misfortune was on his side, Chenle won.

50 million in debt.

Suddenly his opponent stood up to say something, but immediately fell to his feet. Shaking at the realization. Chenle leaned towards him- towering him, “Wanna go again? Want to try proving me wrong again?” He said as his eyes darkened.

Everyone was shocked. How could someone so young be so deadly?

From that day on, Chenle became the youngest gambler. No one really opposed the idea of him becoming a gambler- especially at the gambling den and if they did, Chenle would ask them to play a few games.

Chenle did gambling as a hobby. For fun. No one really knew how he was so good at gambling. “He’s rich so he was probably taught in order to bring money to the house” or “What do you expect? It probably runs in the fucking family.”

The truth is, the first time Chenle gambled, he was at stake of losing everything. He wasn’t driven by money. He only gambled because he wanted to see how easy it was to see someone else defeated. He didn’t use his emotions- he used logic. After that, surprisingly- he didn’t get addicted to gambling like many do. Luckily, his parents weren’t aware of what he did in his spare time and they didn’t really care, either. 

His parents only cared that when he finally turned 21, he would take over the company- or when his dad retired and handed him the company. Chenle was completely fine with that but wanted to have a hobby that was amusing to the eye.

Once he got home back from gambling at an ungodly hour, he headed to his room. There was a golden envelope with his name written in calligraphy. He turned his head slightly, murmuring a slight “huh?” and opened the envelope. His eyes turned wide at the contents of the letter. He was invited to go to the most important event of the year, held once a year, the talk of the year- NCT, something anyone would die to attend. The only thing that went through his head was how much money he would make if he would gamble with the rich people attending the event.

-

“You’re gonna have to attend, alright?” His mother said, taking another sip from her coffee.

“I know. It’s next week, right?”

“Yes, so after your meetings and lunch go and get your suit tailored.” She smiled, and grabbed her bag heading out the door.

Chenle sighed, at the sight of the empty house and how alone he was in the morning. Once he finished his breakfast he headed out to his meetings.

-

The day finally arrived and his mood was going downhill. ‘It had to be on a saturday, didn’t it?’ Chenle rolled his eyes, knowing he won’t be able to go to the casino. He silently sat in the dining room waiting for his father to finish going through documents inside his office. “Your father is ready to see you.” His mother said, opening the door to the office, making Chenle stand up and head inside.

His father glanced at him and then back at his computer and continued typing. Chenle walked over to his father’s desk, causing him to stop typing and clasped his hands, “I heard your friends are also going to the event.” Chenle noded, a barely audible ‘yes’ coming out of his mouth.

“Well, besides that, put out some good words for the company and try to get us as many new customers you can.”

“Yes, father.”

Chenle’s head swayed back and forth, making his eyes flutter shut at the soft jazz music playing in the background while people talked amongst themselves. As his head was about to fall to the table, Jisung smacks the back of his head, causing him to jolt awake. Jisung laughs and says, “At this rate, you might as well go home.” 

Chenle looks at his watch and sighs, “It hasn’t even been an hour.” 

Jeno sits next to him and says, “Did your father tell you to promote his company?” 

“Yeah- like always.” 

Suddenly, two plates of food were placed in front of him, “While you’re at it, you should eat lots of food!” Jaemin grabbed one plate and started digging in. 

“He’s not wrong. We’re all probably gonna be stuck here for the rest of the night.” Renjun said, trying to grab food out of Jaemin’s plate. 

Chenle checks his watch again, realizing only two minutes have passed, sighing. He looked around trying to come up with a plan on how to leave without anyone noticing in order to go to the casino. He stands up waving slightly, “Anyways, I’ll catch you guys later.” 

“Where are you going?” Donghyuck says, his mouth stuffed with food.

“It’s a saturday.” 

All of them collectively sigh at Chenle- knowing he was doing something he wasn’t supposed to do, but allowed him to do it anyways since they were all friends.

Chenle wandered around aimlessly around the building. Trying to find an exit that was not the front door seemed harder than he thought. At times he got distracted at how many people he had to greet or how the lights oozed an unexplainable aura. He goes up the flight of stairs trying to see if there was a way out. As he looks around, he stops and gazes at you- because of how dark it is, he doesn’t recognize who you are.  But all he knows is, he has never seen you before at these past parties. Even though a lot of people attend, he knows everyone by memory. He continues going up the stairs trying to get a closer look at you, trying not to lose sight of you either. He shakes his head, thinking about how he should find an exit instead. 

About two hours later, he enters the gambling den and a familiar smell lingers around causing him to smile. It has only been a week but he already missed the sounds of the slots and the ambient music playing in the background. As he was walking to the furthest part of the den, he noticed how many people were causing a commotion around a table of blackjack. There you were. Betting with some random old rich man. Chenle shook his head lightly, sighing at the fact that you most likely have lost- if not thousands by now. He signals towards a dealer near your table and shifts his eyes towards you, asking what you were doing here. 

“They’ve been here for an hour. And they’ve won all their games already.”

His ears perked up to that new piece of information. All games won? Chenle loves a challenge. As he walks towards your table, watching you win. He reaches his hand out, “Let’s play a simple game of poker, shall we? I heard you’re pretty good for the hour you’ve already been here.”

“You’re not afraid to lose?” You say scanning Chenle’s face.

“Absolutely not, I have faith in myself.” 

You were in his territory after all, why would he be afraid? Especially if he’s never seen you around. So he put all his chips to bet. 

“Already? But it’s just the first game” You furrowed your eyebrows debating whether to believe if he was really good at this game. 

“One game is all I need.” Chenle said, as he sat down. 

You smirked, realizing how confident he sounded, you placed all your chips down, too. 

And so, the game began with the dealer handing both of you 7 cards. People were already gathering around the both of you. Watching and waiting for this weird tension to be cut. With your poker faces on, the game began, rotating from one another. 

“Raise” You said, causing Chenle to look up from his cards again. Although Chenle looked unaffected from the outside, he was confused, why would you raise again? Was your hand actually that much better than his? Or were you just bluffing? His hand wasn’t all that good, but he needed to win. He always wins. But this game seemed to feel like it was taking too long. 

“Raise, too” Not wanting to back down, Chenle was determined to win. He never felt like he was going to lose against you. Maybe you had a one hour win streak, but he was about to break it. 

Full house. A tie. Everyone started murmuring around the table. A tie? Against the infamous Chenle? Even Chenle looked slightly upset at this. But even this had a solution, he had the highest kind of a full house, automatically winning. 

“Congrats, I’m Y/n by the way. New to the area, heard the rumors, and I guess they were true! Let’s do this again next time, shall we?” Before Chenle could speak, you were heading out, and he was too stunned at the fact that he almost lost a game to some newbie.

“The Zhong Chenle.. almost lost?” Haechan said, bursting out in laughter. Jisung and Jaemin seemed to hold in their laughter in order to not hurt his ego, but hearing Heachans contagious laugh, they couldn’t hold it in.

“Guys stop laughing, this should come off as surprising instead. I mean, a newbie? And a tie at that?” Mark said, while also trying not to laugh. Jeno shook his head, looking at the ground, not wanting to add fuel to the fire.

“I lost my mind that night. I don’t know what to feel.” Chenle sighed, still astonished by what happened almost a week ago.

“Are you gonna go tonight?” Jeno asked, out of curiosity.

“Take us with you this time! I wanna see you get your ass kicked!” Renjun hit Chenle’s shoulder playfully.

He sighed and nodded, “Fine, just don’t say anything stupid.”

Night fall came, which meant gambling night! Chenle brought the boys and was looking around to see if you would show up again. And so, you did.

You walked up to Chenle, tapping him on his soldier, innocently smiling, “Hi! I sure hope you weren’t too hung up on last week’s match” To that remark, Chenle felt his neck burn up, out of embarrassment. The boys looked at him, their jaws almost dropping. They didn’t expect that to be the way the night was starting, but it was probably going to go downhill from that. 

-

After a few games, that Chenle obviously won. Your interest in him peaked, you were the same age as him after all, and wanted to know what made him more special than the rest. But your ultimate goal was to win a game against him in less than 5 months. This caused you to show up to the den even on the days Chenle never showed up for. But of course, he found out a week after, so he started showing up more, just to see what you were up to. It was strange, really. Both of you were gamblers, but the fact that he felt a connection with you since he tied a game with you was what kept him wondering. The fact that you kept coming and blowing up thousands of dollars just to play with him was also strange. You were a good gambler, keeping Chenle invested in your games. And so, you would meet outside of the gambling den, during the daytime to eat lunch or even dinner. He learned your hobbies, besides gambling all your money away and learned you were an exchange student with rich parents in the other side of the earth that would send you pocket money every weekend to treat yourself. Of course, they didn’t know you were blowing it off to some games every weekend, as long as you kept it hidden and kept a low profile, everything would be fine. 

Chenle felt like the closest person you’ve met in your life. You cherished your friendship with him, but after realizing it’s been 4 months since you’ve known him, you felt a strange sensation of wanting to be even closer to him. And you didn’t know if he felt the same. You didn’t want to risk it anyways. The fact that you managed to figure out how to beat him after 8 weeks of gambling with him and keeping up an act to let him win was something you didn’t wanna tell him. But you were going home for the summer soon and wanted to know if you were even coming back. So you decided to wait 2 more weeks and win against him officially. 

“I can’t believe you’re leaving soon.” Chenle said, sitting down at your usual table. 

“And I’m spending my last days at the casino, how funny is it?” You smiled feeling a sense of competitiveness rush up. “By the way, can I pick the game?”

Chenle nodded realizing they haven’t played a few certain games in a while. And one of them was poker.  “Poker it is.” 

As always, people were dying to see Chenle play against anyone, knowing he would win. But this time you weren’t gonna hesitate. As the dealer handed you  cards, you realized you had to win no matter what.

A straight flush. Everyone cheered around you. Chenle seemed to have gotten the second highest hand out of the deck, and there was no way your bluff was going to work against him. So, you showed your cards. A royal flush. The highest hand. Everyone stood quiet. Even Chenle couldn’t believe his eyes. He clapped, slowly causing everyone around you to cheer, “I knew you could do it, I always believed you.” 

As if it was the adrenaline or the amount of people around you, you suddenly spoke and said “Chenle, I like you”

People took this as a cue and fled to different directions, not wanting to know what was going to happen next. Chenle’s eyes widened slightly and chuckled lightly, “I like you too, so come back as soon as you can”

- 

That summer, Chenle would finally take over the company, which meant he would stop gambling if he didn’t wanna risk the future of the company. And you were working under your parent’s company but managed to land a sweet deal with Chenle’s company while his father still ran it and was allowed to work back with Chenle. 

Taking trips to Sin City was something you adored with Chenle. The faces of other gamblers were priceless when you or him managed to win flawlessly, and with no “record” of ever gambling before. You hardly ever lost any money, so it was only ever done for fun. 

“Chenle, I want to tell you something..” 

“Go on”

“I figured out how to beat you and let you win multiple times afterwards.”

“Oh, it clicked to me the first time we met, I think I got lucky the first time we met.” 

“Wait- really?”

“Yeah, but I was also really lucky that we met that night, I mean what were the odds?” Chenle says, planting a kiss on your lips gently, causing both of you to reminisce about the first time you met.  

[dolldefaced]

read the recent stuff and i want to ramble about jason, bc really the rest of this plot was goofy. i appreciated the brief duke + tim stuff tho, cutee i missed u duke hiiii byeeee anyway

we start batman/catwoman: the gotham war the scorched earth #1 with bruce brushing off what he did to jason

at least it's getting better but like there's a fuckton of daily non vigilante activities that jump your adrenaline, you know, like running last issue?

GET HIS ASS JASON GET HIIIIIM!! NEVER LET HIM LIVE THIS DOWN!!!!!!

and HE STILL JUSTIFIES IT jesus

not jason but i think this exchange with zur is interesting because...bruce brushes him off. there is no indication zur is doing anything to him rn.

he's also not as freaked as he was in earlier issues. now these issues have the tone and pacing consistency of the weather in my hometown (none), but we will return to this

jason grabs the batplane and once again saves the fucking day even under the Fear tm. he blows up the meteor and does not die, despite the 5 second fakeout

jason babe literally you do not need to do this. jason's too good you should push him in at this point. comforting him after selina decided to have a 5 minute death....ilu :(

zur ofc could be lying his ass off (but also bruce made zur) and idk if that's the route they're gonna go later but.... honestly i don't think it's 100% zur. i dont think it was ever 100% zur. i think it's 50/50 at max, and maybe even way less in this moment.

also it's been two weeks and there's no indication he's apologized to jason or tried to fix what he did

also dick almost beat him the fuck up and now he's like 'im sure you had your reasons'

beat him again!!! don't say this shit!!! you were right the first time.

he still thinks what he did to jason was right imo!!! and i also read this like...he's saying he's not an example bc of how he is a vigilante...ignoring that the second time he met jason, jason was doing a vigilantism on the ma gunn gang without batman at all...girl it aint about you. the reason you suck is your control issues, not the helping people part, do more of the latter and way less of the former

also read that first bubble! he's justifying it! he's not apologizing!! also no they dont need you going off being fucking wild. dick LITERALLY just offered to help your ass. jesus.

unrelated to jason:

stop making the batfam nuclear. jesus. they dont need a mommy!!!!!!! they dont need 'parents'!!! SOME OF THEM EVEN STILL HAVE THEIR OWN GODDAMN PARENTS. fuck off!!!!!!!!

you can be a family without the nuclear core open your fucking eyes dc!!!!

ending thoughts:

idk i think if dc lets a writer actually go into the crux of bruce being the major problem rn i will enjoy it, because i like fucked up messy family dynamics, but i really don't want this brushed aside like the multitude of other fucked up things bruce has done. history, however, is not on my side. i suspect there will be something big at the end of all this, resulting in another big team up where we dont talk about shit :/ pretty please prove me wrong dc <3

[godlytransurfer]

GETTING AND SUSTAINING COMMITMENT - AFFIRMATION TAPE TEMPLATE

Hello my loves, happy new year! To cut it short it has come to my attention that men seem to worship me but “totally DONT” get real weird when there’s serious commitment involved and their friends “totally don’t” start to piss me off and my dates and quality time are “totally not” screwed up, SOooOo I decided to create an “injection” of flipped beliefs towards it, so if ur done with fuckery too, buckle up ur seatbelts!!

If y’all have been here for a while u already know. Go to ReadLoud and pass there onto ur box and adapt as u like. I always choose Sally voice and speed 3.

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Everybody knows that I'm a good person and that I didn't do anything wrong.

Once I decide I want them, they see me in a perfect light forever and only think highly of me.

Everything always goes well for me.

Once I decide I love them, they love me even more and never give up on me.

Once I decide I love them, they love me even more permanently and it never goes away.

Once I decide I want to commit to them, they want to commit to me even more and never give up on me.

Once I decide I want to commit to them, they are sure they want to commit to me immediately and for the rest of their lives.

We want to commit to each other. We are always safe, secure and happy to commit to each other, we are sure of it. And we are not scared because we know only good and amazing things await us as a couple.

We are always able to sustain our commitment and our desired lifestyle with each other.

He always wants the same exact things with me that I do with him.

Once I decide I want them, their friends, family and career always come second to me.

Once I decide I want them, they refuse to be with anyone that isn't me in any way.

Once I decide I want them, they do everything to be around me and live with me.

Once I decide I want them, there is nothing in my way.

Once I decide I want them, everything and everyone brings us together. We get along perfectly and our bond grows even stronger.

Once I decide I want them, we become inseparable and everything goes well for us.

Once I decide I want them, I become their favorite person.

Once I decide I want them, they will do literally anything to be with me and our relationship becomes the number one priority to them.

Once I decide I want them, nothing is more important than me to them and they act like it.

Once I decide I want them, I'm the only one they like, love, want, are attracted to and connect with.

Once I decide I want them, I'm the only one they need.

Once I decide I want them, we automatically belong together and no one can take my place.

Once I decide I want them, they can't be taken from me.

Once I decide I want them, everyone and everything else is nothing compared to me.

Once I decide I want them, everyone and everything else is a joke compared to me.

Once I decide I want them, they gladly and immediately abandon everything that doesn't serve our relationship.

Once I decide I want them, they don't care about anyone but me.

Once I decide I want them, they want me even more and nothing nor anyone can change their mind about staying with me.

Once I decide I want them, nothing nor anyone can keep them away from me.

Once I decide I want them, they can't get enough of me.

Once I decide I care for them, they care for me even more and consistently prove it to me. 

Once I decide I care for them, me and our relationship is all they care about.

They always want to support me and it brings them joy to take care of me.

I am never asking for too much. People will gladly do anything for me above all things.

Once I decide I want them, they always put in consistent effort into me and into our relationship.

Once I decide I want them, they're always respectful, sweet and affectionate to me. They always treat me like a god and they always appreciate me.

One I decide I want them, I only get the best treatment from them.

Once I decide I want them, they're super clingy towards me in all the ways that I love.

Once I decide I want them, they'll do anything to adapt and become the best partner for me.

Once I decide I want them, they'll do anything to make me happy because making me happy makes them happy.

Once I decide I want them, they want to be with me and talk to me 24/7 and our conversations and time together are always great.

Once I decide I want them, they know I am the best for them and they invest in me.

Once I decide I want them, they're always honest and transparent with me. We know we can trust each other.

Once I decide I want them, they are my rock.

Once we commit to each other, we are each other's rocks. We bring each other peace, stability, happiness and we fulfill each other's needs perfectly. I'm the only one who can do that for them.

They know I'm the real deal, I was born with it and no one else can replicate it.

Once I decide I want them and we're committed to each other, they're always super romantic towards me and we're each other's best friends.

Once I decide I want them and we're committed to each other, I am the closest person to them on all levels.

Once I decide I want them, I am extremely attractive to them on all aspects.

Everything about me is always attractive and lovable, specially to them.

Once I decide I want them, they want to stay by my side forever no matter what.

Once I decide I want them, they'll do literally anything to be with me, to stay with me and to be my husband.

Once I decide I want them, they are literally convinced I'm their one and only soulmate and the best thing that has ever happened to them and no one else matters but me.

Once I decide I want them, nothing nor anyone has power over them but me.

And once I commit to them and we're committed to each other, they keep that energy and dynamic with me forever.

[themorguepoet]

Dq is bae huh? You watched one movie and act like you are some diehard kinda fan lmao. If SitaRamam didn't push the hindutva agenda but had a Muslim lead and Hindu princess I am sure you would be crying love jihad. You are telugu so ofc you are gonna act like its normal. Yall are the most gullible lot of the dravidian lands. I am glad that madness hasn't reached Kerala atleast. How many malayalam movies of dq have you watched even? I see none on your blog. Selective fangirling is real pathetic lmao. Also if you were gonna lie atleast make it believable. How does an Indian have pakistani teachers lol? You bringing up nfak is like how white people say "I cant be racist, I listen to black singers all the time"

Yes, dulquer salmaan is bae. You can't be more wrong, I have watched too many dq movies to count, I won't waste time listing them all here. I dont post everything I watch. Suit yourself with the assumptions.

Anon I can laugh off most of your ignorance but Sita Ramam slander is not tolerated on my blog. Tell me you didn't understand the movie without telling me you didn't understand the movie. No I wouldn't have cried love jihad if the movie with the Muslim lead and the Hindu princess followed the exact same storyline EXACT SAME. In that case I would have loved Fatima and Ali the same as I loved Sita and Ram.

I am not Telugu, funny you would assume that although I can see why. If you scroll through my blog though you will find Hindi, Bengali, Marathi, Tamil, Telugu, possibly one Kashmiri post and more. And none of the languages I mentioned are my mother tongues. So keep guessing.

Also, you hating on two entire states and a whole community? The blatant superiority complex and hate towards telugu people radiating in your sentence is so low. To be comfortable in your own skin and not compromise on your way of life isn't madness anon. Decolonise your mind. Kerala is a beautiful state and so is Andhra and Telangana. A lot of Telugu people live in Kerala and many Malyalis live in the telugu heartlands. Both of those linguistic families are a pride for the country so stop with your political divide. I don't even understand why you are bringing such random energy on my blog cuz I have never posted any proper political commentaries on my blog.

I can choose what to fangirl over. If I wanna obsess over dq for a month I will do it. You are probably new. My mutuals know how I post about the one same thing on a stretch for a while and then find something new and keep posting that instead. Selective fangirling isn't pathetic anon, you are.

I did not lie. I don't need to prove anything. Maybe consider that some Indians probably live in neutral countries where they interact with the rest of the world. Hence the pakistani teachers.

Fallacies bestie, all your fallacies are laughable. My point was, I appreciate all things good while taking pride in my own identity. I can post about Krishna and Dulquer salmaan in the same blog.

Your rant was very useless but I wanted to answer it anyways. There's more anons from you but i won't be answering anymore. I will just delete them.

@shut-up-rabert ye lo bhoi, maze le lo

[mental-health-advice]

Hello!

(tw mentions of sh but nothing graphic)

I really dont know if this is the place for this, if so simply being able to write this out is probably helpful. I am in a romantic relationship with someone who self harms (were both 19). This was a thing i knew about before we got together, we were both going through a rough patch then and bonded a lot of beinf able to talk about our problems, i think back then i was so busy dealing with my own mountain of problems and thoughts of self inury (that i luckily never followed through on) that worry for someone else didnt even fit.

While all the resources I can find are really helpful im at a bit of a loss now, ive done everything right, i already had expierience with other friends and myself. They are in therapy and are on the path to healing, take good care of the wounds generally and we can openly comunicate about this and generally have been able to do so effectively.

These last few months however theres been more slip ups than before. I know progress is not linear, and its still much a work in progress (this has been an issue for 7 years, 1 year of recovery is obviously nothing). I am incredibly proud of the progress they have made, last year it was twice weekly trips to the ER, so even twice a month is huge already. also know they wont be able to quit or even signficantly reduce the self harm until they move out, since their family is unstable and does everything wrong (gets angry, threatens with ultimatums, generally extremely scared of their scars).

last few times with a slip up its made me freak out too, I have an anxiety disorder which this now triggers (i used to have a slightly better grip on this) I try to remain calm and helpful for their sake, but its mostly incredibly upsetting im not there to help them, and i know being there to talk helps but ive run out of material ways to help. It also feels like it proves my fear that something will always go wrong, which can lead me to have panic attacks. Ive talked about this with them of course and we get through it together, i really want to be better at keeping a slightly leverer head though. I used to have counceling too who helped me, but since i turned 18 and finished school im now on a waitinglist for adult help, and while talking to other friends helps somewhat its still generally makes me panic, sleep badly and sometimes have nightmares. I really love them, whenever were together we bring out the best in eachother and im afraid if i talk about this too much to people theyll tell me to break up with them.

we have plans to move in together for university next year, which im sure will help a lot (i know they wont magically heal then either, but ill be there as a more sturdy support and theyll be able to access ER, etc without being shamed) and ill have a therapist again then too, so its just these coming months that are going to be very rough. I just never know how to calm myself down, i know its not rational (they are hurt but never badly, they always talk to me about it, their psychologist will generally help too) i also know im allowed to feel sad and scared, i just want to be more in control.

back when i had a therapist she used to talk about trying to stay at my own feelings, not getting dragged down into someone else. But i just dont know how to do that, whenever it happens its just so sad and i hate it. No matter how much i remind myself even after ive allowed myself a period to be sad that itll be okay and they are relatively safe and i see them every week it feels so awful. Its not very tennable to ruin my whole night, next day on this every time. sorry this is sooo long but i feel the context is important as ive gone through a lot of advice, thank u tho.

Hey there,

Whilst I think that it is great that you have been able to help this person for such a long period of time, unfortunately it is not always sustainable no matter how much we would like it to be. This though doesn’t mean that you shouldn’t try if you want to, I am just trying to point out that unless you look after yourself too and put a bit of a barrier between you and this person then it is likely that things may not change or improve for YOU.

I know how great it can feel when we help another and especially when we see such big improvements for the person we are trying to help and support, but the end line is that we can only do so much until we ourself begin to crumble or struggle a bit (which it sounds like you are to some degree) and so I am wondering if you can put some space between this person and you at all to focus on yourself a bit more and self-care may be of some benefit to you.

In regards to this person, any day of no self-harm is an amazing achievement and no amount of set backs or slip ups/ relapses can take these achievements away from them. It’s important to know that that recovery comes from within and so unless this person chooses to and is ready to focus on their recovery then it is unlikely that things will change for them and they will still be in survival mode. This is in no way your fault, and nor is there much you can do about it as we cannot choose recovery for another person, it has to be when they are ready and choose to try to commit. And even then, it’s quite normal to go back to survival mode and go back and forth between recovery and not, this does not mean they are not still trying, but rather they are just human like everyone of us are. I remember in my own recovery away from self-harm I did go in and out of trying to not self-harm depending on how strong I felt on the day and what triggers may have come up that made me want to self-harm, this didn’t mean I wasn’t trying or that, it was just that I was really struggling and the urges to self-harm were too strong to try and fight them.

So, what can you do?

To begin with try to be patient with yourself and this person and know that even when they seem to not be trying, they actually are. Try to put some space in between you and this person to enable you to look after yourself too. You can do this by practising good self-care (trying to eat healthy, doing some exercise a few times a week and trying to get a good nights sleep) and tyring to have some ‘down time’ where you can simply just think about yourself and do some things that you enjoy doing whatever that may be. I know that you may feel selfish and bad for taking some time out for yourself, but if you don’t look after yourself then it won’t be sustainable to help support others and be there for them if you choose to do so.

In regards to how it can make you feel when this person does self-harm or is struggling quite a bit, as your therapist mentioned to you, try to take a step back and allow yourself some time to grieve or feel sad and try to be kind to yourself – I know how it can feel like a loss to you as well when someone is struggling and self-harms as a result, but in reality it has nothing to do with you and how much or how little you are there for the, it is bound to happen anyway and this in no way reflects on you and how good a job you may be doing to support them through difficult times and days.

I know that you mentioned that it can cause great anxiety when they do self-harm now, and so when this happens, again, try to be kind to yourself and do try to take some time out for you. And I know, this is much easier said than done, but it will get easier though with practice and it may also be helpful to check out our page on calming anxiety and panic as well for some more ideas on different coping strategies.

I really hope that this has helped a bit and please do let us know if we can help to support you in any other way!

I’m thinking of you and hope that you are going OK!

Take care,

Lauren

[henrioo]

this isn’t a request or anything i just wanted to tell you, i love your stories so much. As someone’s who’s ftm your stories make me so happy and seen and i literally scream when i see you’ve posted because i love all of your stories 🫶

ARE YOU LISTENING THIS??? THIS IS ME CRYING A RIVER

THANKS YOU SO MUCH FOR SAYING THIS I NOT GONNA LIE IM REALLY INSECURE BECAUSE I ALWAYS PUT MY WORKS TO EXTERNAL VALIDATION SO WHEN I DONT RECEIVE THIS EXTERNAL VALIDATION I GET REALLY INSECURE THAT MY THINGS ARE NOT GOOD ENOUGH AND THAT I SHOULD BE BETTER OR JUST STOP

AND THIS VALIDATION IS LIKES BECAUSE I DONT KNOW I PUT THIS THINGS RHAT IS MORE LIKES = BETTER QUALITY OR STUFF IDK IM DUMB

BUT EVERYTIME I RECEIVE SOME LOVE OF YOU GUYS I GET SO HAPPY BECAUSE IN THE END THIS IS WHAT I WANT YOU KNOE

ITS SO HARD FINDING CONTENT FOR MALE READERS AND EVEN FOR TRANS BECAUSE MOST OF THEM IS NOT SAFE BECAUSE SOME PEOPLE REALLY DONT MAKE ANY RESEARCH ABOUT TRANS PEOPLE BEFORE WRITING ABOUT THEM

AND THEN I BE LIKE I GONNA CHANGE THIS I GONNA MAKE CONTENT FOR MALE READERS SO EVERYONE CAN KNOW THEY ARE LOVED AND APPRECIATE BECAUSE GAY MIDIA IS BASICALLY INEXISTENT SO I KNOW A LOT OF GUYS FEEL BAD IN BEIGN GAY OR JUST BEING ATTRACTED TO MEN BECAUSE WE ALWAYS THINK WE NEVER GONNA FIND SOMEONE BECAUSE THERES NO REAL MIDIA ABOUT GAY COUPLES

AND I SWEAR ITS SI GOOD WHEN I RECEIVE ANY MESSAGE OR EVEN ANON ASK FROM READERS THAT LIKED MY STORIES BECAUSE I KNOW IM MAKING RIGHT IM MAKING PEOPLE HAVE GOOD FEELINGS AND HELPING WITH DYSPHORIA AND OTHERS SUBJECT JUST FOR SAYING THAT YES YOUR CHAR CAN LOVE YOU EVEN IF YOU ARE MALE

AND RHE CRAZY IS I ACTUALLY RECEIVE SOME KINDA OF SUPPORT AND THIS IS CRAZY FOR REAL FOR ME LIKE I ALREADY RECEIVE SOME ANON ASK SAYING THAT LIKED MY STUFF, I RECEIVE SOME MASSAGE TOO AND IN MY ASK PEOPLE ARE ALWAYS SAYING HOW GRATEFUL THEY ARE BECAUSE IM WRITE FOR MAKE READERS AND THIS MAKE ME SO HAPPY BECAUSE SOMETIMES IS HARD FOR ME REMEMBER THAT I REALLY HAVE PEOPLE THAT APPRECIATE MY WORK

OMG IM WRITING THIS ALL WRONG BECAYSE IM REALLY EMOTIONAL NOW SO IM REALLY HAPPY AND PROBABLY CRYING FOR REAL NOW

REALLY THANKS FOR THAT AND THANKS FOR EVERYONE THAT STILL HERE I KNOW IM KINDA DUMB FOR GIVING TOO MUCH ATTENTION TO NUMBERS AND I SWEAT IM TRYING TO STOP AND BE BETTWR

BUT REALLY IM NOT GIVING UP OF THIS PROJECT SO EASILY I KNOW SOMETIMES I MESSED UP AND I ALREADY HAD TWO HIATUS ON THIS BLOG BUT I PROMISSE I GONNA TRY MY BEST TO NOT STOP FOR TOO MUCH TIME BECAUSE I HAVE SO MANY IDEAS THAT I WANT TO WRITE AND SHARE

THANKS EVERYONE THAT IS HERE AND IS GIVING ME A LITTKE OF TIME JUST TO READ MY STORIES OR SAYINF SOMETHING NICE FOR ME I REALLY APPRECIATE THIS FOR REAL

I GONNA POST A LOT OF THINGS IN THE FUTURE, I HAVE SO MANY IDEAS, FOR PLATONIC, FOR NSFW, FOR ANGST, ROMANCE, FAMILY ALL GENDERS, FANTASY, LONG, SHORT I SWEAR I HAVE MORE THAN 100 IDEAS FOR STORIES AND IM NOT JOKING I HAVE PROVES THAT I HAVE MORE IDEAS THAN DAYS IN A YEAR OKAY MAYBE NOT THAT MANY BUT IS A LOT OKAY

THANKS AGAIN I TALIKING TO MUCH BUT IM REALLY EMOCIONATIEL I DONT KNOW MORE HOW TO WRITE I AM REALKY SLEEP BUT I PROMISE I LOVED RHIS AND SORRY MY ENGLISH I DINT KNOW ENGLISH TOO MUCH BUT THAT ITS THANKS I DONT KNOW HOW TO FINISH THIS

LOVE YOU THANKS AGAIN

[i-sveikata]

Hiii! This chapter was a long one and I have a lot to say about it too 😅

Firstly I need to ask before I forget. Does any of one word game quotes have been cut out of this chapter to include in the next one or they might have been changed? Like the one when Vegas asks if Pete wants his cock or him touching Pete's. And "friend" one when Vegas asks someone? I'm just curious if this was changed in the final check or maybe split to fit in the next chapter more.

Also more technical question. Would mind if someone were to point out some spelling mistakes in new chapters? I know it's easier to find errors when reading the first time. I found some minor ones and an incorrect name used but I don't want to correct others. I don't want to appear rude so I needed to ask 🥲

To the plot we go!

IGHJKJGFJKHG-

So much was happening in this chapter! So many emotions!

First of all I was really impressed with Pete's planning and the whole getting Vegas out. He really was wasting his potential at a major family. I'm so glad the rest is getting the bitter taste of his competency thrown back at them. And omg, I love every interaction of Pete with Vegas's bodyguards. So glad they are skilled and loyal to Vegas and Pete(!) too. Mafia husband's in the making 😁

I'm always shocked how well you can write Korn so I have a need to smother him all the time. Almost the same as Kinn but he can be better. Korn is only waiting for death. Which we all would rather have in any situation. I always secretly wish that Korn will die by Tankhun hands, which I only read once. He deserves this so much and seeing his rage and hurt only proves this idea. Like he is so smart and the most likable brother in the whole family. He didn't deserve any of it. Half of the time people are not even taking him seriously. I know he kind of preferred it this way. But I can see his role is bugging him much more now.

I still love how you acknowledge Kinn's toxic and predatory behavior. It always bugged me when KP fans were shitting on VP saying their relationship is toxic. But in the series specifically they consented! Porsche didn't have that chance. In your fic it's even more complicated but I would take Vegas a thousand times back if I was Pete and run and didn't look back in Porsche place 😤 Kinn's behavior has me fuming 😂 He doesn't even notices that Macau nor Vegas had really any say in how the minor family operates and the coup too.

Macau is a pure soul and it warmed my hurt how Phalin and Grandma took him in providing so much comfort. He deserves all of this and more.

I love how Yaai is portrayed. Very observant and clever. Vegas is not going to have a good time at all. But if she already can sense his devotion to Pete then maybe it won't be that bad 😂

And Vegas OMG. In one second as he wakes up, he thinks Pete left him. In another is so happy that he was wrong and lovingly stared at them both. And in third he was just horny all the way. Like Pete wasn't kidding when he was sensing Vegas thinks of sex all the time. Like damn, he really is. Doesn't even ask what happens, how? When? No. He is safe, Macau is safe. Pete is safe too but angry, but he can work with that. Like wtf. Touch some grass 😂

I'm very curious how the interrogation plays out. How to even explain all that without sounding like an asshole.

I'm so curious about any plans after Vegas is finally healed.

Thank you so much for this! I had a whole day free so I had my VegasPete day in peace. The chapter was amazing and very much worth the wait! Thank you so much for being here and proving for our starving VP souls 😭🙏❤️

Hello again!!! no they're not cut scenes they're just scenes from the next chapter- i had the cut off placed somewhere differently in the draft before i realised how long the chap was getting. i dont cut things from my stories as a general rule. i either dump them at the end of the story as extras to work into a different point later on or they get reworked so those hints are still to come!

oh yes please do point out spelling mistakes or name mix ups!! (Just send me an ask or IM me with the details if thats easier) i do try to do a final reread before i post but i dont have a beta reader so i often miss mistakes before i come back and read the latest chap again. weird how your brain can just pass over them until you end up noticing the mistake later on!!

ahhhh thank you!!! yes it did feel like a lot of pete just letting loose in this chap because there is a lot of that 'dont think for themselves' element for a bodyguard but pete is smart!! so there is a bit of an obvious change in him already now that hes no longer blindly following the family. aw yeah they were so impressed by him, so ready to fall in line behind pete. funny how so easily pete can inspire loyalty in people!!

oh yeah dude is actually such a frightening kind of character because he hides all of these horrible things behind politeness and smiles. ugh yeah kinn, hopefully porsche is getting through to him and he can understand how to be a better partner because as far as im concerned during that porsche totally dumped him lol. poor tankhun for sure!! he will definitely be taking a much needed reassessment of things after all of this and we can only hope it works out for the better!

oh yeah all of the relationships in kp are fucked up but kinn and porsches feels worse to me because its subtler, the kind of relationship you dont realise is abusive when youre in it but yeah porsche taking a stand for himself was so so necessary and it has been building up for a long time now. yeah i think kinn is mostly focusing on feeling wronged than having the capacity to understand that circumstances havent left vegas or macau with much control either. hes not being very rational atm

aw poor macau!!!! him crying was so painful like noooooooooo. oh yeah man vegas is in SO much danger now lol petes grandmother is going to see through all of his bullshit (but she will start to see his affect on pete and that will slowly bring her around to warming to him)

hahahaha yeah hes running on such a different intensity to everyone else, like obvs pete has seen elements of that but im not sure how aware he is of the way vegas is constantly thinking about him. pete is the sun of his world now, he orbits around him but yeah lol chill out man and touch some grass hahaha

its going to be tricky!! but pete is going to try and give as much as he can without over explaining and he'll be careful to make sure vegas doesnt get too honest with his grandmother. either way pete is going to be heavily involved here.

youre so very welcome! im glad you enjoyed your vegaspete day in peace!!!

[folkoreluvr]

Return of the dragon | chapter four: it’s a wonderful lie

Thomas Mann was proving to be a real pain in the ass. He was supposed to be a nobody, someone she spoke to once then never remembered but he was intent on sticking around. They had gone on a few dates and he was a nice guy just not for Grace. In truth she found him boring and mildly irritating. He rarely elected to aske her questions due to him being too busy dick riding her father. I fucking hate my dad she thought. She found he lacked passion and adventure and creativity, he was quite content to stay where he was born and live the same life as his dad and never be original. There was nothing inherently wrong with Thomas it was just that she could never even picture herself liking him let alone be her husband, if she would ever want one.

So when he called her on a Wednesday afternoon and said he was taking her to a diner he likes she was intrigued. Fancy restaurant dates were never her thing and she loved American diners. He had rolled up in a red Lamborghini and driven her to a small diner on the outskirts of Manhattan. It had dark blue walls and shiny leather boots. Memorabilia of all decades decorated the walls and in the corner was a mahogany jukebox. Grace was ecstatic, this is what drew her in. she couldnt care less about fancy dinners and expensive gifts, she wanted individuality and she found it far more meaningful if someone learned what she liked and made a charming date she would adore them forever. He led her to a booth In the far right corner and sat across from her. They made small talk about their weeks until their food arrived. When grace was halfway through her burger he cleared his throat and looked at her expectantly. She glanced back confused and put the burger down with a small frown on her face.

"I actually brought you here to talk about something, away from the paparazzi and listeners." Now she was even more confused.

"is everything okay?"

"my dad wants me to marry and expects me to have kids in the near future and well I know yours does too and I was hoping we could work out an arrangemen-"

oh her heart dropped. He didnt actually like her and had no interest in actually forming a connection. why would he Im me.

"Im sorry but no. I have no interest in any of this" she watched his face drop and his hands fall to his lap awkwardly before she put the pieces together. "who is she?"

"what?" got you the look on his face confirmed her suspicions. He didnt look shocked he looked caught and  mentally she patted herself on the back for being so smart.

"the girl youre in love with. I take it that if you marry her your cash flow stops because your dad wants you to marry someone higher up, someone like me."

"yes but be honest grace your dad expects the same. Have to marry someone he approves of someone he picked. Were both stuck in this I thought you might help me. We would be married only to the public and our parents but in private we could do as we wished."

"I dont want to marry you or anyone"

"but-"

"look, we could pretend to be together for our families sake and find a way to convince our parents it wouldnt be good for us to marry. Ill get my dad off my back and you can search for a woman in a similar predicament to you, Im sure there are many"

"thank-you Grace really"she smiled at him for a second then sunk her teeth back into her burger

Fuck my life

At dinner that Saturday night Grace told tony about how she and Thomas were now in a relationship and watched him nearly jump for jump for joy, she probably would have felt bad about lying to him if he wasnt such a dick. She had a feeling Pepper already knew however, she didnt exactly seem convinced and was oddly quiet the rest of the night. She had walked grace to the elevator to their pent house and kissed her on the cheek.. 

"I only want you to be happy" she said quietly and Grace just smiled back and hugged her goodnight.

———

"alright now that the boring shits over I have something to announce" tony stark had said to the team, some looked exited like Sam, others grimaced like Bucky or Nat or simply sat their bracing themselves, like grace was. If her father decided to announce her new relationship status in front of the team and in front of Loki especially she would probably punch him straight in the jaw and hope it breaks. "the avengers team is having their first every pool party. An actual pool party and not a few drunk people swimming in their underwear like its high school again"

"who did that in high school" Steve asked with a confused look on his face forgetting not everyone on the team went to high school in the 1930s

"I did" Grace smirked.

"you were home-schooled?" tony said with a look of confusion.

"and yet I was invited to every teenagers pool party in Manhattan"

"moving on" he mumbled "its an avengers thing for team building but Sylvie is welcome to come she was now officially living in a spare room at the compound" Grace still couldnt get the strange sense of déjà vu out of her brain every time she looked at her.

"could I bring Thomas, he would love this sort of thing" this was her key to selling their relationship she mentioned casually that he swam in high school and loved the pool and did her best to pretend like she hadnt read that in an interview article at 3 am the night before.

"of course you can" she caught Loki rolling her eyes as she smiled at her dad.

"I thought this was for avengers not riff raff" he really was a ginormous prick.

"the stark family always makes exceptions for things like boyfriends" and she paused and looked him up and down "psychopaths apparently too" a satisfied smug grew on her face as she watched Thor hold his brother down to prevent him for leaning across the table with a dagger in hand. She truly loved pissing him off and since he often started most of their fights Grace felt he deserved it. She only wished he would look less attractive glaring at her.

"perhaps,"Steve interjected "we can all use this as a way of working out our grievances with each other and stop trying to kill each other" the last part was said in emphasis as he glared at Grace and Loki, both of which did not seem pleased.

"oh come on its hardly my fault hes got such a rod up his ass."

"nor is it mine that the only person willing to be with her is the most dull man in the universe"

"fuck you Loki"

"Kunta" he mumbled at her in old Norse

"LOKI" Thor bellowed at his brother.

and thats meeting adjourned Thor marched Loki out of the room and grace watched and rolled her eyes until she stormed out too.

———

A loud rummaging awoke Grace from her sleep, it was coming from the bathroom and for a second she debated leaving it and hoping nobody killed her in her sleep. Begrudgingly, she got out of bed and slowly walked towards the bathroom. She opened the door as quietly as she could but to her disappointment it was only Loki. He looked up and saw her in the mirror and glared at her reflection.

"oh goodie youre back" she murmured sarcastically, he rolled his eyes and continued dabbing his arm with a rag. Upon further inspection she saw that he had injured himself which was odd because it was nearly impossible but she only took pleasure in his suffering. He removed the now crimson rag and she saw just how grim his wound looked. “that is disgusting” she cringed and Loki looked impossibly more irritated.

"Im perfectly well stark dont you worry"

"isnt that disappointing. You woke me up and I find out our not even dying"

"its 10am why were you asleep?"

"fuck off I had a late night" he rolled his eyes again and threw the bloody rag in the bathroom bin.

"out with that boring man again stark? You may be you but surely theres someone else who wants to be with you." She walked out of the room and slammed the door shouting "bye asshole I hope you bleed out"

[weebsinstash]

Tbh I have never seen a villainess manga/manhwa where the FL is like Oh youre cheating on me??? Well let me have a good time and get a lover as well, because if you get to have one I do too. Like all those humiliating situations FLs go through with their husband and mistress would be a lot more even if they had their own lover. Like oh you wanna flaunt your mistress to everyone and dance with her at social events? Well here is my lover/mistress right by my side and Imma dance with them and not mind you. The husband is saying the FL is cold and arrogant and cannot show love? Well here is once again her own lover/mistress to prove you wrong because guess what someone was fucking your wife last night and it wasnt you

Honestly there are probably some that exist! From what I've seen, the manhwa community is similar to the manga community in that it follows trends and many things can be published or produced at once, so maybe it's a matter of trying to shift through all the bulk?

I think the thing that's infuriating is most of these dudes are such fucking chumps that they would get jealous, but their reaction would probably be to tell their FL "oh, you're clearly doing this just for my attention, how childish of you" and it's like fine call me bozo the clown because I'm about to get a wacky creampie from your brother/rival

Honestly I wish the story existed where it's like "you know what crown prince? Not only am I leaving you, im leaving you for your father the emperor. I'm your mom now boy, go to your room"

I have been reading so many Villainess/Revenge manhwa and I honestly can't recall any like you're saying. The closest thing I can think of is a scene from "I Want To Become The Emperor So I Need A Divorce" where the husband's lover's uncle who runs a theater company is hosting a play meant to mock the FL, and when her shit husband asks what she thought of the play, and she lied and said it was nice and then he goads her further to start reciting her favorite line, she calls his fucking bluff and walks up to the actor that had played her husband and starts reciting exact lines, but in such a way it seems like she is genuinely flirting with the actor, and she even puts a royal gemstone on his finger to symbolically say "you're as good as the duke" and he gets so fucking mad he basically had the entire theater company ruined

I just want to watch garbage men be ruined, like I am actively seeking out stories where women leave their shit partners and enjoy watching them mald and seethe while living a better life with their new partner. I can't wait for the final season of Remarried Empress, and Father I Dont Want This Marriage, and kt isn't a romance but I think I will DIE if I never see the ending of Actually I Was The Real One because that fucking bitch tried to steal her family! And I also found an extremely similar manywa that's brand new called The Saintess Returns as a Villain and maybe that will be good but it is still too early to tell.

And you know what, I know a good revenge manhwa but it's more revenge in the form of "you neglected me and made me feel like shit so im running away and cutting you out of my life and even when I need support you aren't good enough" and that would be The Time Of The Terminally Ill Extra. It hasn't updated it forever so im afraid it might be dropped but it's about a girl who has been shoved to the side for the sake of her sickly younger sister who she has had to compromise everything for, even entering school late to take care of her, giving her her toys, being trained to never disobey or show she's unhappy because even when she cries she's told "how dare you cry when your sister is in pain?". Well, it turns out the FL is terminally ill, even sicker than her sister, amd she decides to run away and never even tell her family, who initially don't even care she's missing and then proceed to not believe it when they are told their daughter is fatally sick. I might actually start reading the novel because the story has me so invested. The FL has an uncurable illness called Artist's Disease where she can bring to life anything she draws but at the cost of her own life, but her family neglected her so fucking much they never even knew she liked to draw or noticed how extremely gifted she was, which, the extreme talent is a symptom of Artist's Disease because their abilities are "blessings", and if her family had noticed and gotten her diagnosed earlier she wouldn't be dying. But even as it's killing her, she refuses to stop drawing because it's her passion and joy. She grew up so lonely that as a child she would draw fairies and other people to talk to her and be her friends and her art is extremely personal to her that she would literally die than give it up. I really hope this manhwa finishes like I have heard spoilers about because it sounds like everything turns out alright in the end, but not before massive heartbreak 🥺

[jillxddddd]

ME AND MYSELF

First of all i would like to introduce myself. Hi guys, my name is Jillian T. Matias, 17 years old, Born on July 05,2006, I lived in Talon-talon Morning Breeze Zamboanga City, Philippines. In our family of 6 including my mother and father im the oldest or what we can say 1st/first born. So to start, i would like to share to you what are my 3 favorite things to do. Number 1 is Eating, i love eating so much especially sweets that's why i have so many cavities haha. Number 2 Sleeping, i love to sleep also because that's the only way i can get away with my stresses, there are time that i overslep for 10hrs isn't it cool? haha joke aside. And the last one is Playing basketball, i remember when i was at the age of 10 or 11 I guess? haha it was a very long time ago but to continue, me and my uncle used to watch NBA at first i don't want to watch but by the time i was idolize with Stephen Curry becau of his amazing 3 point shots that's where all it started. I learn and stop but when im i got in this school (SCC) there's an opportunity waiting for me and im gladly risk it all because it was one of my passion in life too, to play and compete with other schools. I forgot to mention here that my nick name is "rai" only my family and close friends call me that name. Moving forward. It's me who's very lazy at all but wanted a good future and want to repay my parents sacrifices even though they don't have trust in me because im always been disappointment all this past few years. But despite of all that it made me realize and became my inspiration in life. You know why it became my inspiration? because they see me as disappoinment and through all of that there's a word that comes to my mind "prove them wrong" but before this words i am hurt through there hurtful words and that's the reason why.

Myself has gone so far, im just so glad that i didn't give up in any attempts on finishing my life. There are so bad many thoughs coming through my mind and im thankful that God our heavenly father always guiding me. Well i can say it's really hard to live when you're the eldest, you have to be brave as much as you could. right now im experiencing the word "blame" which is they does to me all the time. In this story i don't want share to you that im the victim here because i have some faults to, I just want them to realize that it's not because im the eldest im responsible for my siblings who's a year older than me. She can be the eldest too when im not around right? not just they are blaming me at everything because im not in our house always. Myself just wanted to be understand. Me, I don't usually share my problems i just don't know why, maybe i did get used to it facing my own problems, But aside of being problematic person i am a joyful when it comes to my friends, They bring joy to me thankful to have a friends like them because when im with my friends it feels like im free. They now me so well, im so glad that I've met them. Atleast they made me realize that life is not about just problems too, it's about fun things that you can do, as what they have said enjoy and cherish every moment of you because life is too short and yeah they are right about that. I'm not good everything, but im glad that im always trying my best. thankful to god that he always guide me through all my decisions in life. I am soft hearted, I don't want anyone shouting at me. I cry to my mother when i can't find my things i know it's too childish but that's i am haha. As what I've said i am strong but there's another side of me is soft not all the time i can deal with all of my problems and my solution for it is just i talk to god and cry. A lot of you dont see me like this because im always being crazy out there and I agree. I think i might end here, thank you for listening about my self god bless y'all

[mabeysomeclasspecting]

You're still doing requests? Awesome! Can you classpect mine 🥺 no need to rush with it ofc, pace yourself! Uhh, lets see.

1. What are your interests/hobbies?

i have a lot of interests but if i have to put a pin on them, its always about exploring something new. watching a mysterious internet arg, writing down worldbuilding ideas, getting myself lost because my hometown start to get too samey, exploring abandoned buildings, and watching plays and backyard gigs. which is ironic because i live in a small-ish town, there is not much excitement or exploration to be done in here, but i make do. other interests of mine would be music. i like music that are weird, distorted, and just off. i love it when the rhythm is a discordant mess. however, just because i seem to go out a lot doesnt mean im the social type. i mean, i try to be, i kinda have to get used to keeping secrets and doing things all alone to get some freedom / agency in life.

2. How Do You See Yourself?

Honestly it depends on which character i latched on to that week. I dont really care for having an internal self. Whatever serves what i want best is my current self. But, turns out im not that good as a social chameleon. So, one thing I can recognize about myself is i don't quit and give up on things even when I should. When I want things, I might not be very motivated to get it, but I'll always work on it no matter how long it takes or how many times it has failed. Oftentimes I worry that im too slow and that no matter how much patience and devotion i have to my wants, I just dont have enough energy to actually get it. Or i'll end up ruining myself in the process.

3. How do you think others see you

Unforgettable. Striking. strange and offputting. Acquaintaces say im okay but a little aloof/strange. My family say i work hard but i have no sense of self preservation, tbh i think theyre biased. My friends think im smart and a little impressive. But closest besties, despite my best efforts, see that i used to be super sheltered and inexperienced in social settings. its terrible!

4. How do you interact with your friends?

Hm, depends on what kind of friends. if theyre the hangout friend, i'll just sit back and occasionally make them laugh with my dumb antics and give out some trivias to make things fun and easy. If theyre the deep conversation friend, i would try to impress them with how much i know. its overcompensating i know.

Its not all roses with me though. Some of my friends did say i can be unsympathetic to their problems. which is surprising to them because they thought im nice. i didnt mean it, i guess i just dont get why people just lament instead of finding a solution. its so... helpless. i dont want to be my younger self who let himself get trapped in his own house and miss out on so much life because theyre too afraid to act. so why people do nothing but feel sad when awful things happen is beyond me. And that comes out harsh when people are used to my lighthearted, easygoing self.

5. What's Important To You

I need to feel good about myself. And that's very much reliant on me working for my dreams. Not some escapism or fantasy. I also want change, a kinder world, justice. I want everyone to get whats been stolen from them. However, I spent so much time and wasted so many opportunities because of that dream, it almost feel like its holding me back from permanently feeling good for myself. but when i think about it, im not angry or disappointed. I like to see the silver lining in everything i guess. but there's limits to this. Yknow the phrase "fighting the good fight?" i think, its not enough to fight, you have to win, no matter how many rules you break or how many things become collateral damage. doesnt matter if youre in the right side of history or how many times you prove bigots wrong if you keep losing and dying. and thats a matter of action and bravery, not morals.

6. Describe the ideal you, what kind of person do you strive to be?

Impressive. Capable and competent at everything. Scares people but in a good way. Get shit done. Have sick-ass tattoos, have lots of friends, Can be relied on for everything. And have traveled to so many places and get so many extraordinary experiences.

(note : i wanted to send you an ask a few months ago, but there was a sudden blackout in my area right after i hit send. pretty sure its gone to the void! but just to make sure, if you see an ask thats similar in content to this (i remember saying i like internet horror, args, music, and urban exploration!) its probably mine! you dont have to answer that)

and my signoff emojis : 🫧🌪️

Hello! I definitely think that ask got lost, but I'm happy to classpect you now :)

Aspects: Breath, Heart, Time

Classes: Prince, Thief, Maid

You seem like a solid Prince of Breath to me! I feel pretty certain, but play around with those other ones if that doesn't feel right

Hope this helps!

[b4evr]

This is my first time writing anything so please don’t judge me

summary: So basically you feel like your not good enough for an almighty god like Loki, so when reads your thoughts he makes it his mission to prove to you that you are worth more than anything in the world. Loki x FEMALE reader

Sad/loving/caring

MILD SWEARING

Y/n pov-

Loki was out, which was good because it meant that I could get some alone time. I’ve needed that for a long time now. I’ve had a bad feeling for a few days and I don’t know exactly why but I think I have an idea. Let me set the scene for you.

They’re is this beautiful girl. She has long blonde locks that curl at the ends of her wavy her, her eyes are like deep pools of the ocean and her lips are thin and frail. With a tint of warm pink in them. Her name is Emily. She’s a princess, she’s from a planet close to Lokis, and her family and his have been planning an engagement for them. As they are both Gods/Goddess’s. It was only until Loki told his father about us, that he stopped the engagement.

My issue here is that Emily likes Loki, a lot. And he sometimes shows too much interest in her. Like a lot. And it hurts. Seeing him show her that much attention. His eyes practically glow when he see’s her. And it hurts, ya know. They have known each other for years, he’s known me for about 4 years. But that’s not that long.

I am just a mortal. I have no special talents, haven’t got a great body, and I..I just want love. God I can’t even fucking cook. So here’s me. Now sitting on my bed, crying. My nose is wet, and snotty and my eyes are cloudy to look out of. And when I looked in the mirror when I could see, they were bruised and damaged.

If he loves her , can’t he tell me..?

Loki’s pov-

Y/n wanted me to give her some personal time. So I have, but now I’m bored so I’m on my way back. Well, outside.

y/n pov-

SHIT. Is that Loki?? NO NO NO NOOOO. This can’t be, he can’t be back yet. “Fuck, where are the tissues, shit” I whispered to myself, already knowing that I am screwed. As I found the tissues, stumbled to my feet again, and spun around. It was too late. Because standing infront of me was a tall, skinny but masculine man. With jet black hair, that shimmered in the light, green eyes that anyone could get lost in. And those lips. Those li… wait no. No. No. No. he can see me. “y:n? ….a..are you okay?” His voice sounded painful. “did I do something? I assure you if I have please tell me I will fix it right awa….”

“ it’s not you Loki. It’s just. Okay…s..so ba..basically I just wanted to ask…. IF YOU LOVE HER JUST LEAVE ME BECAUSE I KNOW SHE IS BETTET, BUT PLEASE DONT BREAK ME” it came out quickly, and loudly. he looked stunned. Shocked. He had a confused expression painted across his face until he realised what I was talking about. “Oh pet, my dear sweet darling. No no you’ve got it all wrong, me and Emily, no. We are friends. JUST friends I promise you. You know why???” Now I was the one with the confused face. “because… I love YOU. Only you. No one else. You are perfect in every way, and I fell in love with you because you’re not some almighty God like me. You’re calm and caring and you’re not afraid of me.”

I was stunned. In fact too stunned to speak. “Sweet thing, let me show you how much I love you”

Now, a devilish smirk appeared on his face. As he pushed me down on the bed and roared over me. Sliding his shirt off slowly , never , dropping eye contact.

SOOO THATS THE END OF THIS PART. idk if I should do another one. But pls tell me if it’s good or not. Again my spelling it’s kinda bad and it’s my first time. But yeah I might do a part 2 bc tell me if you want one.

[readyandnot]

I posted 88 times in 2022

That's 88 more posts than 2021!

70 posts created (80%)

18 posts reblogged (20%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

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@friendlyfaded

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I tagged 81 of my posts in 2022

Only 8% of my posts had no tags

#redacted asmr - 80 posts

#redacted gavin - 7 posts

#redacted audio - 6 posts

#redacted huxley - 5 posts

#readyrambles - 5 posts

#redacted damien - 5 posts

#redacted david - 5 posts

#redacted milo - 4 posts

#redacted lasko - 4 posts

#redacted asher - 4 posts

Longest Tag: 25 characters

#and i have too much power

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

samuel collins is perfection.

and a cowboy.

AND SEXY CAUSE OMG-

first off- the domestic relationship that has formed between these two is amazing. when you first see these two characters together they are seen as people who are not “fit” for that. because of both of their pasts but god they proved each other wrong and i’m so glad they did

darlin and sam’s relationship has really evolved beautifully, you see the walls coming down between the two and showing their true selves to each other, especially when they aren’t used to it. they make each other better and it’s beautiful to see

how they can go from teasing/giving each other shit to flirting and then being so sweet and sentimental. omg.

sam sounds a lot better, i love hearing about his day to day life and about skyside so that was nice :))

THE MENTIONS OF VINCENT AND LOVELY OMG

they are truly a found family. i always hc that lovely and darlin would become close before inversion and especially after. i LOVE the brotherly relationship between vincent and sam, they balance each other out and OMG THE PARALLELS WOW. “you make me ache” “it’s a gift” bruh. sam and lovely too <33 so sweet i’d love to see more interaction with these two!

sam giving thanks and praise to darlin :,)) omg they’re soulmates your honor. all the i love yous and whispers and sweet talk is so adorable.

there’s no more hbs :(( it’s over… i’m scared for july, lore wise, and i think a lot of people are as well. there’s a lot of possibilities so i guess we’ll have to see. i really wanna see an update on elliot and sunshine, they need to be safe.

NOW SPICY TIME-

literally omg SAM THE FUCKING MOANS

HIS MOANS WERE SO LOUD LIKE WHAT

the whispers literally killed me- i’m in my grave as we speak.

all the sayings he did like “fuck darlin” “oh my god almighty”

please- stop but also dont

THE BODY PRAISE OMG

the dirty talk was *chef’s kiss* hes so good at that omg

the stuff he SAYS like “every touch and curve” fuck.

he’s literally so hot, not fair.

WHILE I AM DISAPPOINTED WITH NO FEEDING HE MADE UP FOR IT FULL TIME

HIS COMPLIMENTS HIS MOANS HIS DIRTY TALK BRUH

his accent makes everything better istg, HIS GRUMBLES TOO WTF

he didn’t growl but he whispered and that ended me.

ugh in conclusion- samuel collins is hot and everyone would like to be fucked by him. that’s not up for discussion or debate.

63 notes - Posted June 29, 2022

#4

this made my night.

ELEMENTALS EARLY ACCESS LETS FUCKING GOOOOO

here’s my readyrambles :))

(spoilers under the cut)

OH MY FUCKING GOD.

I FORGOT ABOUT EA TONIGHT BUT OMG IT WAS A NEEDED SURPRISE

i’ve had two shitty days so this was definitely needed. thank you redacted. NOW- THOUGHT TIME

FIRST OF ALL- NEW ADDITION WITH THE LIGHTS AND WHOSE SPEAKING??? FUCKING BRILLIANT. IT’LL DEF HELP PEOPLE WHO ARE FIRST LISTENING TO THIS SERIES. LOVE IT.

NEXT- THUMBNAIL/TITLE/DESCRIPTION ALL AMAZING. HOIST THE COLORS WOOOO

okay okay- so, DAMS???? AS A NICKNAME??? SO FUCKING CUTE I LOVE IT- HUXLEY YOURE ADORABLE AND THANK YOU FOR THAT PET NAME

oh god he’s nervous- i would be too, it’s totally understandable.

“damien.” “i’m freaking out.” “can i hold your hand?” “yeah.” “talk me through it.” THAT JUST SPEAKS FOR ITSELF. THAT DIALOGUE ALONE.

“they are our friends, i know that. i know that they would just, just want us to be happy. i know they won’t care, i know they won’t judge us i know that. i know, i know all of those things.” DAMN RIGHT

“i don’t know why this is so scary for me, but it is.” that hits different.

DAMIEN HE KNOWS YOUR NOT ASHAMED OF THE RELATIONSHIP. YOURE NOT BROKEN DAMI.

“and anyone who has a problem with it can go fuck themselves for all i care” POP OFF

“i don’t know why it’s making me so nervous to do this.” damien you and i are the exact fucking same. BUT ITS UNDERSTANDABLE TO BE NERVOUS.

“you don’t owe anybody anything. and you don’t need some easy answers for why it makes you nervous to make that nervous feeling be valid, it is. even without an explanation. it’s okay to be scared, even though you don’t know why.” fucking hell i won’t cry i won’t cry i won’t cry-

“i want a reason. i want an explanation that i can give you because i, i don’t want you to think that i’m ashamed of us because i’m not-“ “i know damien. i know that, you don’t need a reason i know.” THERE IT IS- THERE IT FUCKING IS.

“it’s scary to open yourself up, even when you know it’s people you can trust.” TRUTH RIGHT THERE. HUXLEY ILY

IT IS ON YOUR TERMS HUXLEY YES.

“i’m here, no matter what damien. always, i’m right here.” fuck now i’m tearing up-

“i love you.” “i love you too.” AHHHHHHHHHHH GOD DAMMIT I LOVE THEIR RELATIONSHIP SO MUCH

DAMIENS SIGH OF RELIEF AFTER OMFG

“i’m gonna be scared if we wait an hour or a year, it’s just how i am” ME FUCKING TOO.

“i want to do this today. now. i already know the only thing that really matters, how we feel. and everything else is just background noise. so let’s do this.” YES DAMIENNNNN ILY

“you’re sure?” “kiss me?” GOD DAMMIT THIS IS TOO DAMN GOOD-

CUTE KISSES ENSUE- “i’m sure.” YES YES YES.

“i’ve got you.” “i know.” AND THEIR LAUGHS AFTER MY FUCKING GOD- this has already broken me in the best way possible.

THEIR BANTER ABOUT THE DRIVING LMAO I LOVE THEM-THEY FIT EACH OTHER SO WELL AND SO PERFECTLY. THEY COMPLETE EACH OTHER.

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63 notes - Posted August 13, 2022

#3

holy fuck. here we go.

SAM/DARLIN THOUGHTS:

(spoilers under the cut)

first of all- COLOR CHANGE LOVE IT

second of all- THE TITLE MY FUCKING GOD

“vampire MATE” “MAKES YOU A PROMISE” 🥺

okay lowkey disappointed we didn’t have a call with david but no big deal lmao he’s mentioned anyway

“i already know what you’re thinking darlin” NO YOU DONT…

“like hell i don’t” okay fine maybe you do-

well fuck me sam knows darlin too well, love him for that <3

“hey. look at me, please.” GOD DAMMIT ALREADY???

SAAAAAM YOURE SO SOFT FOR NO REASON

I JUST LISTENED TO HIS BA THIS WEEK AND I KNEW HE WAS SOFT BUT FUCK ITS STILL EFFECTIVE

his breath of relief when darlin looks up at him. THATS GOTTA BE ANOTHER LEVEL OF TRUST. ESPECIALLY WITH THE FACT THAT MOST PEOPLE PROB STRUGGLE WITH FOR FEAR OF TRANCING-

and darlin looks up with no hesitation. i love these two omfg

“i know. and i’m not judging you for it. i get it, i feel it too.” and there’s my first hand up to the face.

“my first thought was to run up there and end this fucker too.” HE UNDERSTANDS. OF COURSE HE DOES HES SAM FOR GODS SAKES

“darlin you know that’s not what i’m saying.” HES SO STEADY AND CALM LIKE FUCK IF HE ISNT PERFECT FOR DARLIN-

“give me a second, please” the trust these two have for one another my fucking god

“they can bring him down now there’s enough heat for them to do something about it”

sam i get it and i want to believe that, but when had the department been quick about something besides the fl and vega situation? and he still isn’t caught after the breakout, neither is regulus. if i’m wrong then i’m wrong but it’s also not where i think the story might be heading so i’m having doubts that it’s just gonna end with quinn in custody. that’s too easy.

“when i had to stand in front of them and explain what he did to my progeny”- FRED AND BRIGHT OMFG

“it’s fucked up.”

what i love more about this is that sam truly understands the frustration first hand. he knows the suffering behind waiting and nothing being done. he can truly understand darlin and help them to the best of his abilities and not bullshit them. he literally tells them his thoughts about when he first heard and what he wants to do, but he knows what’s best and to stay calm.

“for once you don’t have to do it alone. so don’t do it alone” sam, you’re gonna fucking break me.

“i’m asking you to promise me something. promise me you will let the department try to handle all this” darlin better not break this promise istg-

DAVID AND ANSEL MENTION LETS GO

SWEETHEART MENTION LETS FUCKING GO SAM KNOWS THEYRE POWERFUL AF AND GREAT AT THEIR JOB

“hey, i’m not asking for this to be one sided though. if you promise me you’ll let them try without running off on your own, then i promise you, if he keeps at it, if he keeps hurting innocent people and they still haven’t gotten him, then you and i will hunt him down. together. and we’ll take that freak to task. no half measures. no holding back. we do whatever we have to, to bring him down. can you promise me that?”

“i promise” “okay, then that’s what we’ll do”

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68 notes - Posted August 6, 2022

#2

OMFG I GUESSED IT!!!!! I DIDNT THINK IT WOULD HAPPEN HOLY SHIT LETS GOOOOOOO

OMG ITS CANON TOO HOLY SHIT

i literally said it might be a new type of audio and it is holy shit i’m an actual seer

86 notes - Posted June 14, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

HEAR YE HEAR YE

I THINK DAVIDS PLAYLIST NAME HAS CHANGED-

LOOK! SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME IM NOT CRAZY-

it literally says updated today wtf

IT USED TO BE TSUNDERE WEREWOLF RIGHT???

238 notes - Posted July 11, 2022

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[roseofmortality]

Ok I've never been one to make a Pokémon trainer oc BUT because of how damn good the lore is for scarlet and violet and the chars surrounding the player, ive been having big thoughts about how my player might react to some important story stuff, which I will put in a read more for spoiler reasons.

For context: my player (edit: his name is lewis) came from unova. His dad was never fucking around but of course his mom is, she does her best. His dad became an elite four member while he was like 7ish, and never came home again. Dad lived in the city and deserted his family in the countryside. This made lewis very angry and bitter to the point he blamed pokemon and battles. His mom steered him differently before he got too bad, but this caused him to declare that he wanted to be better than his father in every way. He wanted to beat that ass. His mom made the dad put in a good word at the academy for lewis to go to school, but he doesn't learn this until much later.

He gets into the paldean academy at 14 yrs old, and the events of scarvi play out.

now spoilers ahead for mid and postgame content

while lewis was helping arven restore mabosstiffs health, arven once again called miraidon/koraidon a brute. this set lewis off because of how his mother repeatedly told him that it wasnt pokemon that took his own father away. he went off on his upperclassman saying that its not any pokemons fault for either of their parents desertion. he says shitting on a pokemon, or any living thing that did not ask to be here, is extremely wrong and he demands that arven apologize immediately.

"i dont know where miraidon/koraidon came from, but its not from here. how would you feel if you were alone in a weird place all by yourself?" lewis ends his tirade with this proposal to arven and leaves the titan's lair.

later, he gets to area zero with penny, arven, and nemona. they all talk about their families. lewis doesnt really say much about his at first, because hes kinda in a similar position to arven with one parent but hes still got the other, so he doesnt wanna make arven upset. but nemona keeps pressing him until he snaps. he yells at the group, saying that his dad was a piece of shit and chose being a member of the elite four over him and his mom, and that hes training at the academy to shame him in front of the entire unova region.

to have pushed her friend and rival to spill everything, seeing the boy so angry when he spoke of battling his father just to prove a point, made nemona feel a bit dejected. she wondered if everything about their friendship was a facade so he could climb to the top. penny was speechless, and so was arven. lewis gives arven a knowing look, and then proceeds further into area zero.

this boy that had done so much for the three of them, was still struggling to find his own meaning outside of his father. even miles away from his home, he couldnt seem to step outside of the huge shadow his father has left on his entire life. they felt powerless to help him. they wonder why he had even agreed to help them at all. he could have kept to himself if all he wanted was to get stronger on his own. he was clearly capable of that.

the truth is the boy's heart had been betraying his words ever since he stepped foot into paldea.