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leo-kinnie · 2 years

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GET OUT MY WALLS WHAT THE FUCK (/lh)

Anyways ptau (parent trap au) headcanons donnie edition

-neopronoun hoarder. pronoun list is at least 3 pages on google docs

-LED fiend

-has like. 5,000 lamps in his room and only uses 7 of them consistently

-extremely volatile music taste. Can be listening to rises the moon one second and then crazy = genius the next

-suppresses stims a lot because he's still in HEAVY denial of being tistic

-sleep schedule? Hardly know her

-made glowsticks all the time when he was younger because chemical reaction go brrr

-has a shitton of plants (mostly succulents)

-transgender, to which one you ask? Yes

OH SHIT OH SHIT HEADCANONS FOR PTAU FUCKING DROPPED EVERYBODY

#I LOVE YOUR HEADCANONS SM #the repressing stim thing is probably 100% canon looking back on how i've imagined the au going #PROBABLY #i dont wanna commit to anything #BJKBFKDSFSDFDS #ALSO PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD SOMEONE MAKE ptau DONNIE SLEEP #PLEASE #Also the transgender one thing is so real hell yeah #I LOVE UR HEADCANONS #IDK HOW TO PROPERLY EXPRESS HOW HYPED I AM FOR THEM #nothing left to lose au #nltl au

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oatmealcrisp-freak · 6 days

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"shipping saiki is aphobic because he's aroace!"

stares at you with my demiromantic asexual in a committed relationship eyes then looks at the camera like im in the office

#good thing those folks have yet to find their way into my inbox or id be at risk of embarrassing myself lol #if you wanna see more of the content you prefer...make it yourself :3 MAKE IT YOUR FUCKING SELF lol #youre so attached to the idea youll complain about it but you refuse to do anything about it even create works that you and others will sur #ly enjoy how does this even make sense #sorry for reviving this from the dead when it blessfully hasnt been a thing in the tag for a hot moment but im still irritated hahahah #seriously you know what that screams to me? virtue signalling. you wont do anything except say a few words every now and again like #the motivation starts and ends at appealing to the popular opinion. earn your brownie points. and do nothing.#what is your care made of? thoughts and prayers?#every time ive asked one of these people why they dont make the content themselves the response has been 'i shouldnt have to lol'#you shouldnt have to bully people either with your aphobic BS but look at you! aw~#yall dont wanna commit to shit you just want to tell other people how they should exist.#if you cant create for whatever reason you better be ready and willing to drop your rec list and fave artists. and i sure as shit hope your #complimenting them thoroughly.

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moeblob · 5 months

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I unfortunately picked up Bravely Default 2 again (I bought it back when it released) and then started over since I last played it in June 2021. And. You know what. I like these silly beans. And then I saw concept art for Dag's expressions and I am not the same. Why did they decide to give him huge fangs in it.

(also I'm trying so hard to avoid spoilers less for plot but more for characters so if you know anything that happens to characters shhhhh. also the expression concept is below the read more so you can see what I mean.)

#bravely default 2 #dag rampage #selene noetic #i only just recently reached ch2 in the game and i may have a problem #someone was like wait how have you not gotten farther in 25 hours #and im like im sorry its a problem i have an obsession you dont understand #and then he found out i had three of the four party members with two jobs capped at 12 #and then the fourth only had one capped but a bunch high up #and then i told him i was trying to get the gambler asterisk and that meant i had to play a childrens card game #and then i had to do side quests when they popped up #and he was like wait at that point you probably dont need jobs at 12 omg #and im like i know its a problem i cant stop it #so anyway chapter 1 took me forever because i committed to the grind too much #the emotions i feel for silly lil side characters ................ its too real #like even the fact that you beat these two up in the prologue im like teehee funny lil blonde guy #then you dont interact with them in a ch1 quest but they show up again at the same time doing the same quest #and guys i am FEELING EMOTIONS theyre just funny lil mercenaries doin funny lil mercenary things #also please do not tell me anything about the game past ch1 because i want to continue to enjoy experiencing it #which is why i have my ask box closed bc its a game from 2021 and i know im really behind the times #but i managed to not know anything until now and i wanna keep it that way #also i dont really know how to properly draw noses especially when i doodle #but his nose is important and i already struggle with his big jaw so i had to include it somehow #and in the concept art it looks like he has a lil stubble but in game i dont see it so im like ... squinting at he

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rubsjuice · 3 months

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Nobody batted an eye when rose did this for greg but now that the baby daddy committed war crimes its all "this is so not #feminist rebecca"

#mafa talks #this is about warframe but i dont wanna tag the main tag what if they yell at me #to be clear i do agree that i wish jade had a more fleshed out personality #but i do not think the quest was a disservice to anything nor do i think de committed like a heinous crime or anything #this might be too hot a take but not every plotpoint in a fictional story needs to have a social statement #'how did de screw up this badly they constantly make good women characters' idk maybe its not supposed to be a screw up #how about you stop seeing works of writing as exclusively conduits for social and political messaging and start engaging with them as art #good on hunhow for having a womb tho #its an lgbt win

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liquidstar · 6 months

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a friend who'd wait :)

#im posting this very late because i was sort of weary of how it came out and ended up messing w it until it was like 4am oops.#and i have plans tmrw so... oh well! i did my best and ill put it out while i can!#and i tried to make the scene match barnard's colors lol #finn's ocs #finn's art #i know i said id do more sillay stuff with the simpler screentone only style but i had a couple more of these in me #and this is the first piece im making thats like an actual part of the story too rather than just setting stuff for fun #i wanna write something to go with it too but for now ill just sort of briefly explain the context in the tags here:#barnard has a pretty bad case of OCD and his compulsions have made it difficult to make friends in the past #he was never outright bullied or anything but people just didnt really have the patience to deal with it #he has compulsions that include stuff like walking through doors until it feels right and needing things to be perfectly aligned #which in group settings has lead to people having to wait for him to finish his rituals and join them #they might find it tolerable at first but eventually they grow impatient and hes just... not invited to stuff anymore #but juno is a newer member of the guild who ends up frequenting the same library. hes also kinda a little weird #and they dont become fast friends or anything but just sort of naturally spend time in the same place #though they never plan meetups they eventually fall into a routine. around the same time theyd just both be at the library #and read next to each other. and maybe talk a bit. and eventually they end up walking back to the guildhall together #since theyre going to the same place after all. and juno always waits for barnard outside the door #eventually barnard asks if this bothers him. juno kinda just tells him 'of course it does' without any malice or anything. just a statement #barnard is surprised and apologizes and juno says not to. but the next day juno doesnt show up at the usual time.#barnard assumes hes committed somekinda more by bringing it up. he ends up staying there late reading to get his mind off it & not ruminate #but when he leaves juno is in fact still waiting for him down the hall (see pic) having collected a bunch of books literally abt ocd #he fell asleep bc barnard stayed later than expected. and hes an eepy guy generally. and also one very bad at expressing himself #but now barnard gets that juno's 'of course it [bothers me]' had the implication of 'but its worth it' which no friend has previously done.#and from the interaction juno was also able to understand that this isn't something barnard just does for the hell of it so. he studies.#and checks a bunch of stuff out because he thinks it could help his friend too (theres ocd workbooks and such- i remember working w them)#and thats the point where they became more ''friends'' than ''pleasant library acquaintances''#from there on they also do get into juno's problems. whole other bag of worms. but this specific scene is more about bernard from his pov #sorry about when i said briefly explain. i lied </3 #but compared to the whole sequence im picturing its brief so shhh

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knifekris · 1 month

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every day i struggle to make choices

#i should invest into some kind of education but cant make up my mind #mostly because options suck #i cant do trades unless my body sucks less which is sad because id love to be an electrician #cant even think about getting a pilots license cuz im not passing the med cert #i think id rather die than be a med assistant actually #working clinics at all makes me nervous tbh but probably where im headed in the short term #surgical tech would be cool but i cant do a Real program while working full-time #which is what limits most of my choices #i need to find more paid training programs i guess #if i had to pick a miserable but fulfilling job id go into education itself #but the teaching profession has always been in a downward spiral esp as of late #i dont want healthcare because i hate seeing dysfunctional glorified murder machines grinding around and around endlessly #acute care sucks id rather be in an icu for function but then im depressed because our patients are always dying #it was better as a phleb but this hospital doesnt have phleb and like i said im nervous about clinics #but i need to fucking commit to outpatient phlebotomy i think :/#the most fun ive had at a job ever #i wish i had more widely applicable skills but i cant be an emt/para even just for the training #because half of it is unpaid and the other half you pay for #and again #a job NOTORIOUS for being exhausting dangerous and traumatizing #if i was 17 again and wasnt escaping the tar pit of my mother id go for an english degree and i wouldnt even regret it #thinking about school in terms of a job i have to have forever vs for the sake of learning is so different #id like to know everything. i wanna read and write forever. and do research and have real technical skills that help people #im still riding off of the high of getting 5 ccs off of an oncology patient who desperately needed a port #they were able to run like seven tests off of it #i had to use a couple ped tubes #she only had to get poked Once and barely noticed it bc the doc team came in and im so happy i made her admission that muvh easier #labs are so miserable #checking back on the blood and seeing all of the results came through made me more pleased than anything else in the world

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opens-up-4-nobody · 18 days

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#bleh. i need half the country to pls stop being on fire. id like to go out and run pls. but its so smokey i can barely see the mountain #i live near :-/ also im just tired and frustrated. its incredible how quickly i vasilate between #things r going well. i should stay in my program and work with cyanos forever. to no no no im not cut out for this. i gotta leave. to yay #let me throw myself head first into consuming every second of my life with working. but only on the things that dont require me to think #which is y im not cut out for this and should be bannished to a world of only doing lab work and following instructions #also i have an screening interview monday for an R0DBT group. so i might b going to control freak classes #assuming i cant convince the lady that im not fit for thr class. which obviously i am bc im my therapist listed the ppl who r #usually put into r0dbt and i was like hm im a lot of those things. but also its 2hrs every week and thats a lot of time. and i feel like im #already on the path away from violently structuring my life specifically bc ive done so much damage #ugh. also i have ridiculously high self standards but i only do anything halfway bc i cant fail if i never try 100%.#so im like a fake control freak. or rather i cant even fully commit to being controlling. im lazy and i dont have the drive.#which almost makes it worse bc im stading at this threshold of control where it destroys me but never actually succeeds in being a perfect #thing. which is def a distorted way to think about it but there u go. ugh. im just tired and my arm hurts too much to draw bc #im older and older everyday. and i dont wanna read papers. i dont wanna grade or work on my presentation. i didn't want to spend 3.5 hrs #doing transfers this morning. and my mom's been dead for 6months and 3 days now. and i still dont kno where ill be a year from now #unrelated

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bidokja · 9 months

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only on episode 3 of the untamed but my fav characters (aside from the obvious wwx numero uno) so far are lan xichen (so sweetie 🥺💖), jiang cheng (YOU HAVE SO MANY ISSUES i just know hes gonna break me), and wen ning (SO BABY...HOLDS HIM SO GENTLE...)

#also i really like literally every character so far except wen ruohan fuck that guy in particular #LIKE. aside from being a horrible person he jsut doesnt interest me much as a character yet he feels relatively flat so far. but again. ep3 #xue yang has only briefly appeared but i can TELL hes gonna commit atrocities a im gonna wanna shake him like a maraca #ALSO JIANG YANLI....SHE MAKES ME SO SAD AND IS SO SWEET AUGHHH....#i dont know anything about the untamed except like. non-major-plot-related character info #im watching it with my boyfriend and he gave me the 'jin lings uncles' version of the summary lmao #but we got to the point where we entered The Flashbacks and i went 'ah. so ive been fucking shakespeared.'#DRAMATIC IRONY I LOVE AND HATE YOU...THE AGONY OF KNOWING THIS ALL ENDS HORRIBLY...AUGH #the untamed #ky speaks

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superbellsubways · 1 year

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i like drawing stupid casual stuff

#literally just my ocs now #hrghhhi dont wanna tag this one #doodle #somewhat unrelated but #I think a majority of people misinterpret my art of these 2 #they r not meant to be romantically involved i just think they'd be really comfortable with eachother #i joke about the ship sometimes but my art of them was never meant to be shippy LOL #otherwise i wouldve tagged it as such #idm if others ship them tho go crazy #if anything they'd be closer to a qpr? i just cant see grizz committing to a real relationship. but would appreciate tar being therefor him #this is alot of text sorry #roommate au #tar #grizz

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tallymali · 11 months

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thinking about starting back on onlyfans but like. just rotating it in my brain. idk

#im almost a year into my harley street treatment #and while i might not be fully cured for another year or maybe more #im kinda ~settled~ into my treatment plan #like my flare ups are more controlled and less intense #idk im soo nervous about it #and i wanna get some kind of mentally healthy life routine before committing to anything #bc i know myself. and if i dont do that ill end up having a full on breakdown #probably still a little while yet but im speaking my personal progress into existence

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gemharvest · 2 months

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My phooonneee gotta charge I've been using it all day but that's chill cuz I'm eating anyways. And then after I've eaten I'm gonna grind out this fic and then like. Figure out what I'm doing with my fics in general. Not a great sign that I'm starting to take this seriously.

#ramblings #ive never been more glad to eat frozen burritos in my life (dont wanna go thru the effort of making literally anything else)#anyways. i say not a great sign bc stuff like this im always worried when i try to commit myself to something serious ill never actually #get it done. but ig ive got extra confidence from finishing the first draft of that comic idk #<- would not have been able to get to even that stage for any previous hyperfixation ive had im being dead serious #the way im going abt this fnf fixation is such an outlier im going to be real. yall are seeing me act in ways i have never done before #mostly in like. an engaging with others sense. my su movie fixation was probably the last time i engaged with others like #this and that was nearly 5 years ago. i need to learn to engage more but also i am so scared of people always LOL

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jorvikzelda · 6 months

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today i had this Vivid memory flash through my mind of kissing my ex boyfriend (this was like 2018) and i felt so viscerally fucking revolted and I gotta say. it is truly impressive that I didn’t realise I’m a lesbian sooner than fucking half a year ago

#z talks #like the misidentifying as ace was Inevitable i think. that was due to repression that realising i didnt like men would not have fixed #(context: id’d as bi ace like. i wanna say 2016/17-2021/22 sometime and then went into ace and Questioning)#remember the time i really solidly settled on being aro because ‘romance has never not felt like a chore and putting on a facade’#babe no thats because your most recent and also singular long term relationship was with a Man #and thats the only one youre looking back on #its so funny how i dated a guy and it was so thoroughly Meh that i just didnt feel like pursuing anything romantic for a very long time #(A REACTION I HAD NOT HAD AFTER MY PREVIOUS RELATIONSHIPS WITH GIRLS)#And DIDN’T somehow consider that maybe I just Didn’t Like Guys #its nothing i grieve or feel sad about dw its honestly mostly funny to look back on #no wrongs were committed and i dont hold a grudge against the guy it was just me being confused and compheted #(…which is also a weird word to apply because at the time i identified and was out to my friends as a trans guy Binary.#This Was Also Wrong.)#was a weird time man. a truly weird time #anyway. all is well i have now been on 2 dates with a really cute girl and she gave me tulips <3 #as part of a Care Delivery bc i had a Migraine and No Painkillers Or Snacks #get well flowers <333333 #and now i dream of kissing her under the moonlight #With the uh. Hornetposting lately it May seem unlikely but yes I DO interact with real women! Romantically!#They coexist Wonderfully <3 #Anyway. I’m gonna go to bed #Realising that im a lesbian solved all my identity problems including my fucking gender which is just fantastic #I am very happy and whenever I think of being a lesbian it grounds me to reality a little bit stronger and i go yeah. Yeah.

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pmrin · 2 months

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back at it again with the gender questioning like the 1799573rd time this week

#i hate coming out though i just want everyone to immediately know my name and pronouns #like i dont wanna change anything #irrational intense fear of change + fear of trusting others to do things for me = im going to supress these feelings forever #and then boom said feelings explode and im finally like 'yeah i'll finally commit to it! im trans!'#and then i get all my feelings back in the vault again and wait for the next time it explodes #rinse and repeat i'll be courageous enough to really do it some day #unfortunately i like my name so much but the masucline versions dont pack the same punch #except luciano maybe but thats like a mouthful

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sorikkung · 4 months

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people interacting w wgoin in my notes... this would be a rly bad time to say all my writing will probably be on hiatus for the indefinite future huh

#not like it makes a practical difference considering i only upload twice a year at best #but im realising how much my writing is shame motivated and its just not sustainable or healthy #it saddens me that these stories i invested So much time and effort into will probably never get finished #i wanna hold out hope that they will but #i dont want anyones expectations to be too high #bc knowing myself they probably wont #i started wgoin thinking that this would be the story i commit to finishing and not just abandon as soon as i get bored #but that was before i had really realised how my brain works #and for a while writing these chapters have felt very forced #gbgb had a much better run till it crashed and i was just unable to pick it back up #tbh that one could potentially still be saved bc of how open ended it is if i get any inspo for it back whatsoever #bc it had no strict plan i was entirely making it up as i go #and im realising thats how i write best. i tried to plan wgoin so id commit to finishing it but im realising that has the opposite effect #if i plan anything too thoroughly writing it becomes like gnawing on lead #cause i got all the dopamine out of the idea already #i write best when i have nothing but a vague idea or a vibe #gbgb crashed bc i ran out of vibes and ideas but if i find any again who knows #there is the possibility where i scrap the plan i had for wgoins entire plot and make the rest up as i go #which i might try purely bc i love the story sm #and i think i enjoyed writing it most back in the first three parts where i Was making it up as i went #which is why im saying indefinite hiatus instead of discontinued #bc there is hope for them. just not. much #so if u stick around maybe follow me on ao3 if u dont wanna see all my posts n just my stories #maybe in 3 years time youll see another wgoin notif or sumn #sorry to the small but dedicated handful of readers who really loved these fics #i wanted to write more for you guys bc ik its hard to find this kinda fic anywhere else; its why i started writing it #but i am but one unmedicated autist w severe adhd. we r working on the unmedicated part tho #ive learned so much abt how my brain functions now n how to make the most of it tho #i told myself id finish any new writing before i post it. so know anything new Will be complete :3 #mischiefing time

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opens-up-4-nobody · 2 years

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:-P

#when i dont kno what to draw or i dont wanna commit to anything i just draw screenshots :-P #i should practice hands and feet and perspective and shadows but meh #naruto #uzumaki naruto #umino iruka #uchiha sasuke

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camellia-salazar · 2 years

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Sup guys. I gots to ask y'all something. My birthday is coming up this month and I would like to do something with some of my mutuals for it.

You know the hit TF2 video called Heavy is Dead? Well, I would like to do a collab with you guys on it, specifically the ones who I end up summoning, ok?

So my plan was to have you three mutuals and I draw/animate bits for the video. We will get 2 mercs each and draw/animate those mercs for the collab.

Here's how I planned this, but it could change to make you guys feel comfortable to do it if you want. For now I chose characters that you guys used the most.

I will animate Spy and Scout.

@cage-cat-yt would animate Heavy and Medic.

@fandomandangstlover would animate Engineer and Soldier.

@giddlygoat would animate Sniper and Demoman.

To be honest Giddly I was considering you to have Scout instead because you draw him the most but I wanted you to have the chance in having a merc that stays alive longer (Sniper) as well as the one who doesn't (Demo).

Same thing with the rest of you, I chose a merc that stays alive long and the one that doesn't for you just to be fair.

And no fancy background is required, you can use a blank white canvas, it's just better that way I'm sure.

This collab doesn't have to be done on my birthday, it would be cool if it did but you could take as much time as you need. It would still be for my birthday. Hell, not even that! it could just be something fun that we can do together, no pressure.

Also if you felt like you can't animate just draw some expressions and poses and what not so I can edit it in. As long as it fits the original idc. Also it doesn't have to be a recreation of it, it's just meant to be silly.

If you guys want to switch mercs that's fine, just let me know first so I can discuss it with the person who has the merc previously. Or better yet talk to each other about it (I was gonna suggest the discord server but I just remembered that Giddly left it, so I guess you can talk about this by using the comments in this post).

If you wanted to switch with me then give me reasons to and I will gladly switch.

If you guys don't want to take part of this collab that's fine too, I don't mind as long as you can tell me why. I'm not here to hold you at gun point and tell you to take part.

I want you guys to have fun with this. If you guys would rather do something else, or your too busy, or stuff is going on right now and you can't handle this atm that's fine. I just thought it was a fun idea to have and create something fun together, that's all.

Let me know if you want to be a part of this so that I can discuss it with each of you. Thank you for your time. 😁💖✨

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