#i feel like this is some hoax or a silly theory but

[cherriiramen]

I DONT TRUST THIS, I DONT KNOW IF ITS REAL OR NOT, NEITHER HAVE I EVEN STARTED THE LOKI SERIES YET, BUT I THE SOUND I JUST MADE.. 😭

[wanderingmind867]

I'm not a fan of DC comics. But I like their characters. On that note, here's some of the few characters they had in the 60s that I like:

Metamorpho: I haven't read Metamorpho's stories, but Bob Haney and Ramona Fradon definitely struck gold with him. He feels like everything good about the 60s. Silly, goofy, and fun. He reminds me of the thing, and now I just want a Thing-Metamorpho team up. Also, did you know metamorpho was tied to egyptian mythology? Apparently he is. Now I want a metamorpho-kane chronicles crossover.

The Doom Patrol: I loved the original concept and the original four members. Sadly, I care nothing for Mento or Beast Boy. That's just a fact. Still, really creative concept. Gotta respect it.

The Metal Men: Never read their stuff, but I think I'd like it. It's also informative (at least in theory). Their stories should feature goofy silver age stuff and chemistry lessons, imo.

The Phantom Stranger and Dr. Thirteen: I love these two. Love them both so much. The Mystical Phantom and a men who debunks supernatural hoaxes. A match made in heaven for stories. Because they're both good people. The supernatural may be real, but fraudsters exist too. You gotta deal with both.

Deadman: Never read Deadman's stuff, but I like the initial concept. A ghost trying to find his killer? That's genius.

Sugar and Spike: This is something I would one day to read. It's a humour comic about babies. Why would I not want to try reading that? It sounds like peanuts or something. Adorable.

But these are some of the only things DC had that I might like. And it's all their minor, niche stuff. No Flash, No Batman, No Green Lantern, No Justice League, etc. Only these niche things.

[babygirldennis]

This shit is fake bby!!!

Here she is.. My masterpost of all the dumb, illogical bits of info contained within these s15 “leaks” that make me fairly confident they are complete bullshit. It also includes my little tinhat theories that have absolutely no evidence.

I will be putting it all under a Readmore in case you don't want to risk it or if you simply Do Not Care

First up, I'd like to point out that these call sheets repeatedly give very detailed backstories to characters that have few lines which conveniently paints a picture of each episode's plot. And I'm not an expert so correct me if I'm wrong, but after looking at other similar casting calls, they only ever include the demographic and necessary skills.

Basically who in their right mind would write up casting calls that give away so many spoilers? Seems like that could cause and issue if they were leaked lol. But anyway that's my 1st point. But onto the actual content

So the conceit of this episode as a whole is that during the pandemic, the gang "gamed the system" and received three (3!) Loans to start businesses that went bankrupt. One of these businesses is implied to be the one started by dee and charlie who end up selling to Qanon shaman. Already this is so impossible baby.

1. We've already seen the gang try to get a loan and it didn't work. They don't have good ideas. Ur telling me, they managed to finagle 3 separate loans for 3 separate business ideas from an actual bank?

2. Maybe I just have bad reading comprehension but how does one have a business that is both fictitious and bankrupt?

3. If the customer is supposed to be Qanon shaman, an actual real life guy, why are the only descriptors white and male? They say he's shirtless so are they going to paint on all of the tattoos he has? And if so, doesn't that kind of ruin the dramatic reveal when charlie "throws in" the viking helmet? Why would he do that anyways? Sus.

Moving on

Alright this episode would fucking blow for obvious reasons but im going to refrain from looking at this through my gay dennis thruther lens because im biased.

Purely from a narrative standpoint, a woman hasn't been shown to be interested in dennis in nearly 5 years during the wade boggs episode. Ever since, every single woman he approaches has been actively creeped out by him. And now I'm supposed to believe that 3 "smart, passionate woman" (In Their Twenties!!!!!!) agreed to go on a date with him? And Anna even slept with him! Just because he what? Agreed with her? I'm not buyin it.

Plus the concept of this scenario lacks any potential for comedy. When iasip gets political, they always discuss a very specific topic using hyperbolic situations and flawed metaphors. If this is supposed to be a political episode, what ultimately lukewarm point would rob be trying to make here? So far we know they're ranting about

The patriarchy

Privilege

Socialism

No more personal responsibility(?)

The... nature of power in society(??)

How on earth would an episode like get approved? This shit sounds like a Ted talk. It sounds like it was written specifically to sound like a political episode so boring and pointless it would generate outrage and mile long essay posts from Tumblr users and reddit users alike. Almost like this one lol.

On a completely unrelated note, do not try and convince me that Frank "casual cock ring wearer" Reynolds is unable to perform.

Jeez this is getting out of hand fast. Let's move on

Ok now we're starting to getting into the Ireland of it all. Let me go on a bit of a tangent here about all this.. Now I thinq there are just 3 possibilities. Either this is all a publicity stunt and there is some truth to the Ireland rumors, the entire thing could be bogus from some weirdo fan (ps, if a fan did write this I want you to know I fucking hate you. You did this to me), or it is a publicity stunt but Ireland is just more bullshit.

I am going to assume it was a publicity stunt, otherwise I just wasted my entire evening and I can't have that kind of mentality rn. Additionally, I'm Going to tinhat here for a second and say that the Ireland rumors are true, but the details are different.

I say this because if they were going to do filming in Ireland, they probably figured that that information would be impossible to hide. In essence, my completely unfounded hypothesis is that this leak was their fucked up little way of controlling the situation while simultaneously messing with us.

Ok tangent is over, returning to the casting calls. From the looks of it, dee starts a "scam" acting class and has some very devoted students (Note that Tony was also the name of the porn shop owner. Seems weird!) Presumably after the gang replaces her with a monkey as the title suggests.

Honestly, there isn't too much here that's a red flag to me... seems like a nice little dee-centric episode that is the link to the Dublin angle. Assuming I am At All right, this could be a genuine plotline for Dee. However, the monkey could be a red herring and there could be a whole different side plot with the guys. who's to say. Next one!

Ah yes this is the dennis we all know and despise.. no red flags for me here really, I'm also running out of steam because idk if it shows, but I am majorly sleep deprived atm. Anyway I'm going to the next one

Okay this is where things start getting weird again ough a migraine just hit, anyway back to my earlier point about how casting calls would never contains major spoilers bc the people who see these wont be under any kind of NDA..

These ones reveal that bonnie dies. Again, that info wouldn't be in a casting call.

But also they suggest charlie has a irish penpal named Shelley who is his biological father. First off charlie is illiterate, although as pointed out by @undeadbreeze shelley could also be communicating in symbols. However, this scenario is still unbelievable to me for a couple reasons:

1. Bonnie's last name is Kelly obviously, and we know it's her maiden name because Jack's last name is also Kelly. But Shelley's last name is... also Kelly? In the context of this big ol hoax, it feels like it was written to show that look! his last name is the same as charlie's! That's how you know that's his dad! But It would be way too big of a coincidence if charlie's dad happened to have the same last name bonnie.

And 2. There's the whole mystery of charlie's long-lost sister from 'charlie got molested' but never any mention of a brother which according to this, shelley has been pretending to be his brother for years. And we all know how much rcg loves their continuity, it seems uncharacteristically lazy to just tack this on without any prior buildup.

And finally let me talk about mac for a second and specifically the line in gus's summary "both are gay men who are attracted to the priesthood for all the wrong reasons"

Iasip has commented on pedophilia in the priesthood many times in the past which leads me to believe that they are implying that mac is a pedophile? Please let me know if I completely misread the implications of that statement, but if not, then that is completely insane and one of the biggest indictators that this is fake. Mac is awful, just like everyone in the gang but he is definitely not a pedophile.

However even if i did completely misread that, it's still proof this is fake.. For all his faults, Rob put a surprising amount of care and effort into mac's coming-out. It hasn't been perfect, but Mfhp in particular firmly established that mac's faith is integral to his identity so Its unlikely that rob would throw all of that away for a cheap shot at priests.

Ok my brain is irradiated sludge at this point, but in conclusion. I hope that 1. I'm right, at least about it being fake (Otherwise damb that'll be so humiliating for me) And 2. This eases ur fears a bit. I don't want to lose all faith in future seasons bc I love iasip and miss the gang. If you read this far youre insane but I literally love you so goddamn much because I spent so so long tapping this out on my silly little phone

Please feel free to add on or message me your thoughts and opinions I need to know I'm not the only one who uhhh went a bit insane. And finally: whoever made these is a cunt. Mwah.

[mst3kproject]

The Neanderthal Man

Since I'm taking a break from fishmen, I might as well let Bigfoot catch up a bit.  The Neanderthal Man isn't exactly a Bigfoot movie, but it’s along the same lines and its entire starring cast has MST3K pedigrees.  Robert Shayne was in Indestructible Man and Teenage Caveman. Richard Crane was Rocky Jones, Space Ranger! Beverly Garland was in Swamp Diamonds and Gunslinger. Even the composer, Albert Glasser, wrote music for Invasion USA, Last of the Wild Horses, and almost all of MST3K’s Bert I. Gordon movies.

Some little mountain town in the middle of the Sierras (which the Portentous 50's Narrator takes some trouble to tell us is a primeval place where 'the defacing hand of civilization has fallen but lightly') is having a rash of saber-toothed tiger sightings!  At first these are laughed off, but when the game warden himself sees one cross the road in the middle of the night, it's time to do something about it.  The warden shows a cast pawprint to Dr. Ross Harkness in Los Angeles, who is interested enough to come up and see for himself. Local Mad Scientist Dr. Groves pooh-poohs the whole thing, which is enough to tell me that we're not dealing with a local cryptid here.  Somebody is making prehistoric monsters.

So... I may not have actually run out of movies, but I seem to be running out of plots, because this is a remarkably similar movie to Monster on the Campus. The major difference between the two films is that Dr. Blake turned himself into a caveman by accident, while Dr. Groves here is doing it on purpose.

Another difference is that Monster on the Campus' story, while silly, was linear – events escalated in a way that felt logical, and there were reasons why things happened when and where they did.  By contrast, The Neanderthal Man feels like a first draft.  At the beginning of the film, we're dealing with the saber-toothed tigers that Groves has been creating by injecting cats with his de-evolution serum.  We hear about these slaughtering game and livestock, and it seems like only a matter of time before they move on to human beings.  The beginning of the film is quite upfront about the fact that Groves is responsible, too, as it is only mildly mysterious in its depiction of one of the creatures escaping his lab.

Sometimes the saber-tooths are represented by an actual tiger, usually filmed from behind or at a great distance so nobody has to put the prosthetic teeth on it.  They do have prosthetic teeth, but they're only visible in a couple of shots. Imagine being at a bar and some guy tells you his job is sticking fake fangs on real tigers for a caveman movie!  For close-ups, there's a hilarious puppet head that looks like the sort of thing you'd see mounted on a frat house wall as a joke.  The director had the sense not to linger on this in motion shots, but later we see still photographs Groves has supposedly taken of his experimental subjects and they're even stupider-looking than we imagined.

Anyway, this goes on for a while with rising action, as the game warden goes to get Harkness and they manage to shoot one of the animals, only to have it vanish from the kill site when they try to show it to Groves (the movie never bothers to explain how that happened, incidentally. The ending suggests that the creatures change back when they die, but there's definitely no dead kitty cat at the scene, either).  The whole movie could easily have just had the cats and their creator as the antagonists, perhaps even ending the same way as Dr. Groves proves his work to the other characters by injecting himself. That's not what happens, though.  Instead, the story mostly forgets about the cats one we find out Groves has also been carrying on human experiments.

(Before himself, Groves' first experimental subject was his disabled Latina housekeeper.  Another series of photos show her half-transformed into a cavewoman who for some reason is wearing drag queen false eyelashes.  And as long as I'm talking about the movie being gross and bigoted, there's a bit where a woman is violently raped.  This happens off camera, but the audience is not allowed to entertain any illusions about it.)

The problem is that before we see him give himself an injection in the arm, we have had absolutely no indication that Groves has been giving his serum to anything besides the cats! Cats are stealthy, cryptic creatures and if one of those has been seen wandering around killing things, then surely a full-on caveman beating people to death would not be able to stay out of sight!  If what we were seeing were the first time Groves had tried the formula on himself then that would be an explanation, but his notes reveal that he's been doing it for so long that he's on the verge of losing control of the transformation and permanently reverting to a pre-human status, as indeed he does for the climax.  Much like the stupid dinosaur in The Beast of Hollow Mountain, the movie's main monster is given no build-up whatsoever!

There's worse yet, though.  The main characters, Dr. Harkness and Groves' daughter Jan, are barely involved in the 'caveman' part of the plot. They get phone calls about the various murders that Groves is committing in caveman form, and they snoop around the lab to figure out things the audience already knows.  The same story could have been told without them, perhaps with the game warden and the hunter as protagonists, and it would probably have been more interesting. The script also repeatedly has Dr. Groves wander in and bluster about how the tiger sightings are hallucinations and tall tales, which seems a little unnecessary when we already know he's responsible. The film-makers can't seem to decide whether they want us to know that or not.

Dr. Groves wears glasses.  Maybe the reason his primitive alter-ego is angry and breaking shit (although it does politely open and close the window it climbs out of, which made me laugh) is because it can't see. This is also my theory about why the Hulk smashes, and what do you know?  In Avengers Endgame he's got Hulk-sized spectacles and only smashes when he's told!

The direction of The Neanderthal Man can probably best be described as 'serviceable'.  It shows us what's going on, but doesn't particularly add anything to the proceedings.  The 'Neanderthal' mask is immobile and uninteresting, not much better than somebody's Party City Sasquatch costume.  Even the eyes are just painted on, meaning the poor guy in the costume can’t do much because he can’t see where he’s going.

The dialogue is often very strange, with characters talking like they're in a Jules Verne novel. If only one person did this, it might seem like a character quirk – it works for Dr. Groves, for example – but it's everybody. Seeing the cat carcass is gone, Harkness declares, “I refuse to believe in the supernatural!  There must be some logical cause and effect to this unholy adventure!”  Groves' fiancee Ruth berates him for ignoring her, saying, “I want you, the man I once knew!  The good companion, the cheerful friend.  I want the happiness we once found in each other.”  It's bizarre to listen to, and often audibly awkward for the actors.

Monster on the Campus was kind of trying to be about how humanity must choose to evolve away from our inner savage, although the finale didn't bear that out.  There's a scene in The Neanderthal Man in which this movie seems to be trying to go in the opposite direction, saying that we were never savage to begin with.  Dr. Groves is speaking to a panel of scientists about the size of the brain in various 'primitive' species of human.  He points out that by the time we reached Homo erectus we were already working with four times the cerebral jelly of a chimpanzee, and argues that our ancestors would have been recognizably human in their behaviour and problem-solving capacity.

(Amusingly, his chart of human evolution includes Piltdown Man, which was proven to be a hoax literally a few months after this movie's release.  What makes this even more tragic for the writers is that their list of primitive humans seems to be the only place where they actually did any research.)

The problem with Dr. Groves' theory is that he already knows it's wrong. We soon learn that he's been experimenting on himself with his serum for a while already, and his notes show that he knows very well he regresses into a near-mindless animal.  The movie does not even try to reconcile these ideas.  If Groves were continuing his experiments in the hope that perfecting his serum would give him a more accurate reconstruction of ancient man, that would be one thing, but the script never goes there.

So now that we've had two 'man turns into caveman by injecting science juice' movies, of course I have to ask which one is better.  Monster on the Campus wasn't a good movie but it was definitely an improvement on The Neanderthal Man in several respects, and although I don't have any way to find out for certain, I suspect it was an intentional remake.  It's definitely more entertaining and gets bonus points for including the Meganeura dragonfly, but nothing in it is nearly as funny as The Neanderthal Man's fake tiger head.  I guess if you're gonna watch one or the other, stick to Monster on the Campus, but if you're gonna watch both, start with The Neanderthal Man and do them in chronological order, the better to spot the inspirations and references.

Before I go, a fun paleontology fact: current thinking is that the saber-toothed cat's eponymous fangs actually didn't show when it had its mouth closed!  There are zero cave paintings or ancient sculptures of a saber-tooth cat with teeth visible, and when scientists looked at the structure of the enamel in the canines, it suggested that in life the teeth were hidden by big, fleshy, St Bernard jowls.  Google 'smilodon lips' and behold how this looks fully three hundred percent more ridiculous than you're imagining.  I love nature.

[lostinthosebrowneyes]

Pedro Character HCs | Do they believe in ghosts?

Din Djarin

Agnostic would be the best word for Din. He’s about 50/50 skepticism and “well this might as well happen”. His son is a wizard, he’s not about to discount anything. That said, as much as he’d like to see his parents again, he’s not too convinced about the idea of ghosts... At least, not until Luke ever introduces him to his dad and mentors, then Din might start reevaluating some things.

BONUS (Aliens): His son is a little green man from outer space, so... yeah. I think we can safely say he believes in aliens.

Ezra

Ezra is one of those people who will play up believing in ghosts for the entertainment factor but he is a complete skeptic in reality. He tells a great ghost story, sometimes he even manages to fool himself with the noises he’s heard on alien planets, but at the end of the day the dead are just meat. He’d know if it were otherwise; he has accumulated multiple reasons to be haunted over the years.

BONUS (Aliens): Aliens as in a super-intelligent race that abducts and experiments on people, whose existence has never been proven? No. Aliens as in local fauna on alien planets? Sure, he bears witness to those nettlesome little critters all the time.

Frankie Morales

Frankie has seen far too much to be scared of the noncorporeal. He had a healthy sense of fear of the unknown as a kid but after he came back from combat, it all changed. Just because he’s a skeptic doesn’t mean he doesn’t enjoy the thrill. Strangely, supernatural horror almost became... comforting? Nostalgic? Like he missed when the worst thing he saw was bad SFX and somebody floating on strings. It’s not a real danger and that makes it a “safe” scare, like a roller coaster or some other adrenaline high. He loves haunted houses, especially if he goes with Benny who is secretly a believer in the supernatural ever since a young Will fooled him into thinking their attic was haunted.

BONUS (Aliens, Cryptids): I think Frankie is less committal about his feelings on aliens and cryptids. Aliens in the “it’s a big universe, who knows” kind of way, when he’s out camping and gazing at the vastness of the stars above him. Cryptids in the “look, most of it is guys in suits but my cousin’s best friend’s dog was supposedly eaten by a chupacabra” kind of way.

Javier Peña

Javier will never admit to believing in the supernatural. He has seen a lot of bodies and he’s never been haunted -- not supernaturally, anyway. He has superstitious family members so he won’t speak ill of ghosts, but it’s not his personal belief. He’s witnessed a lot of pain and death and he understands the need for the coping mechanism, but that’s all it is. At least, that’s his story and he’s sticking to it.

BONUS (Demons): The thing is, Javi has seen a lot of things over his career. He has seen evil in the hearts of men too many times to deny the concept of it. Javier will tell you to your face that he doesn’t believe in demons, but that doesn’t mean he’s going anywhere near that famous site of a demonic possession. It’s not because he’s scared, it’s because it’s a waste of time. And it’s late. And he has better things to do. Like you. Let’s get home. (Get in the fucking car and let’s gooooo.)

Marcus Moreno

Marcus Moreno isn’t a skeptic, he just doesn’t believe in ghosts. He and Missy would have heard something by now.

BONUS (Everything else): I wouldn’t be entirely surprised if Marcus has fought a demon. If not, he still believes in them. He also believes in mermaids, aliens (hello!), extra-dimensional entities and Bigfoot. Marcus will believe anything until proven false, including but not limited to The Loch Ness Monster. You say they’ve checked the loch top to bottom with cameras and found nothing? Maybe Nessie just can’t be captured by cameras. Marcus is friends with someone named Sharkboy. There are no limits.

Marcus Pike

As I said here, Marcus Pike believes in ghosts. Marcus had ~an experience~ in his college days after he and some friends spent the night in a haunted house on a dare. Ever since he has been convinced there is some form of life after death, even if he doesn’t subscribe to a specific theory of how it all works. He’s not particularly vocal about it, but if you try to make fun of people who believe in ghosts be prepared for him to make the case, “Well you know just because science hasn’t proven it yet-”. In general he’s more into the idea of gentle hauntings than your malevolent poltergeist situation. Ghosts who hold on after death to comfort their loved ones are the kinds of ghost stories that he’s really into.

BONUS (Aliens): As for other supernatural beings, cryptids are all hoaxes and he doesn’t buy the idea of demonic possession. But like Frankie, he thinks it’s not impossible to imagine among all of those stars there might be other worlds with sentient life. Yeah, Marcus believes in aliens, too.

Maxwell Lord

Maxwell is like Marcus Moreno in that he’ll believe almost anything, but like Javier in that he will never admit it. He is incredibly easy to scare but after you get him he will refuse to acknowledge that it happened. If Alistair says he saw a ghost in his closet, Maxwell will not be going to check the closet and show his son everything is fine. He doesn’t want to see a ghost! Alistair can just sleep in his room tonight and they’ll sort it out in the morning. Of course he’ll be telling Alistair how silly he’s being the entire time because ghosts aren’t real obviously! (What was that sound???)

BONUS (Everything Else): Demons, aliens, that’s just another Monday in the DCEU. Of course he believes in those. Magic and gods? Proven fact. Curses? He always keeps a good luck charm on him rather than tempt fate. Cryptids? Well, just because some of those photos have been debunked doesn’t mean they don’t exist. Maybe he should ask his acquaintances the daughter of Zeus and a literal cat lady.

[chilluminati]

2020 - What A Great Year!

There's nothing like disease and death on a mass scale to remind us that bar crawls and barbecues aren't everything. Almost, but not quite. I'll miss this year: the grim news reports, the vacant streets, the realization upon waking that Trump really is President ... 😱😥😖😔 ... that urinal smell of fear. It hasn't been boring; I hate boring. Managed to finally finish all five seasons of Chuck. Had a major fight with my brother. Cared for the elderly and the mentally ill (still talking about family). Resolved to spend my last days in an Arizona desert trailer park with my telescope and a satellite wifi connection. Ah, paradise!

We had plans to visit Japan this year, a long-held dream of mine, but the pandemic put the kbosh on that. My increasingly bad knees and feet may put the kbosh on future plans. All this kboshing is getting to me. I need to switch it out with some kvetching or klatching maybe (wait; pandemic; no klatching; damn). In 2019, my in-laws' home city of Hong Kong became engaged in a titanic struggle between youthful residents who fear a creeping authoritarianism and the single party communist government who want to bring the city more in line with its mainland counterparts. We watched in pain and fear for family as well as admiration for the protestors' resolve. In 2020 the pandemic also put the kbosh on mass protests. Smaller, bemasked actions have broken out here and there but not with the same safety in numbers. Kboshing postponed perhaps forever a travel dream of mine. It postponed perhaps forever Hong Kong's dream of a freer future. It brings perspective.

When I hear Americans kvetch about their loss of freedoms due to the pandemic I'm led to wonder: how do citizens of poor nations that face epidemic diseases on a daily basis get their party on? I mean, do they just accept that one third of the guests will die? Or if they're more careful than we are how are they able to meet their needs for Jell-O shots and beer pong? Perhaps we should commission a study. Just a thought.

Complaints about loss of income are, of course, more understandable. Nothing creates more fear and stress than the feeling that your family's well-being is threatened. That's primal. That's hard-wired in. So when self-serving politicians and media providers help to spread conspiracy theories that the pandemic is a hoax perpetrated by the Deep State (a phrase we Progessives used to use) it's no wonder that protests break out and trust in government health authorities sinks even lower than it already was. Why would politicians and media providers do such a thing? Power. Influence. Money. All three or some combination thereof. Some of the oldest motives in human history. Hollywood hasn't helped with its endless string of conspiracy thrillers and persistent view that if the military or CIA is involved it must be for sinister reasons. It couldn't possibly have anything to do with patriotism and service; how silly. Conservative pundits who excoriate liberals as radicals and extremists create absurdly cartoonish pictures in people's minds. Do you know what my fellow progressives do? We teach, we help mentally ill people, we take care of unwanted kids, we deliver water to areas with poisoned water supplies, we take time off to build houses for people. We do all these terrible things and then get insulted for it by obnoxious conservative commentators. Huh, I wonder where all this anger and disgust comes from.

The greatest disease we Americans face is smugness. We are all infected. We all get up in our heads and our emotions. We all pronounce judgment on other Americans like Charlton Heston and his tablets. One of the sure signs that the disease is progressing is when we fail to see it in ourselves but sure as hell see it in others. I know I can be arrogant. So can everyone I've ever met or known of in any way. Except maybe Jesus. When you're God the only direction you can go is humble. Once you cut through all the myths and lies and bullshit stories we tell ourselves we're just kids on a playground fighting to make our place. One of the greatest gifts of the pandemic is getting us to shut the hell up for awhile. It wasn't long - maybe two or three months starting in March - but for a short while we were all watching the numbers tick up and the body count rise. Some of us were infected. Some of us have loved ones who died. Fear has a way of undercutting smugness. Maybe that's what we need more of in 2021: fear. An alien invasion, an asteroid careening towards us, a revival of CATS. Something to make us forget how important and angry we are. It could just save the human race and make 2020 lead into the best year ever!

[lovvegood-a]

                       she had this weird habit of being herself all the time ;                                        that’s why not everyone liked her

hunter schafer : transwoman : she/her : student : the wind by pj harvey ϟ did you see luna lovegood ? you know, 21 year old halfblood who is in ravenclaw . some say she can be quite innovative but are known to be blunt. they have publicly declared they are aligned with the order . maybe that’s why they remind me of green grass tickling bare feet, spring flowers, locking hands with the ones you love, a watery moon against a morning sky. ϟ penned by mar : 22 : gmt+2 : she/her

LINKS – pinboard, stats. CHARACTER PARALLELS – orla mccool ( derry girls ), allison dufresnes ( the little friend ), phoebe buffay ( friends ), misty day ( ahs: coven ), dale cooper ( twin peaks ), murray bauman ( stranger things ) HEYO – just a little heads up that there’s some triggers in here ( mainly death, trauma and dissociation ) but i will trigger warn them at every bulletpoint they come up in. also hi!!! i’m mar and this is my daughter luna eeek.

backstory  

the first nine years of luna’s life were nothing short of happy. growing up with free minded parents --- a mother who invented spells and who dared to expand possibility and a father who wrote about things others thought untrue and silly without ever doubting them --- was a carefree ordeal. if luna wanted to paint on the walls, she was given supplies. if she had a question, she got all the answers she needed. her home twisted and curled and twirled and luna danced herself dizzy while skipping stairs, ran through the grass around her home until all the colours started to bleed. she grew radishes and plums and potatoes in her backyard, listened to her father’s teachings and her mother’s advice, wrote stories and read more. life was good, carefree, an ideal world to grow up in.

DEATH TW, TRAUMA TW / and then, at nine years old, her mother died. luna watched a spell backfire, saw a flash, heard a bang, and then she was hammering on her mother’s chest, screaming for her father to come help, screaming at her mother to wake up. death happened both incredibly quickly and slowly, and luna didn’t understand what was happening, except for one thing: her mother was gone, one way or another.

luna didn’t know what to do with this sudden loss, with this gap, with the memories of a flash and a bang. she grew quiet and good at being on her own, and started painting more and more. she combated flashbacks during the day, only to have them at night as she slept. she clung to the idea that her mother would return one day ( which she still believes ), but it was taking so long --- every day she would wake up and her mother would still be gone.

luna was traumatised, but it would take years for her to figure it out. the years before she left for hogwarts were hard. she was lonely, in a different way that she would be once she arrived at school. her dynamic with her father shifted. luna learned how to look after herself. she made herself cups of warm milk when she couldn’t sleep and cooked her father dinner and tried to understand what death was, exactly. no books answered her questions. her father couldn’t, either. death was inexplicable, and that was frustrating, because there seemed to be an answer to everything, especially in her world. END OF TWS

luna came out as trans when she was ten to her father, and he took her hands and didn’t let go all the way through. he didn’t question her. he accepted her, because that was what he had always done, and he found options and steps to take and listened, listened, listened.

luna loves her father. so much. she always has, always will.

she was homeschooled in her teen years, spending time on her father’s side, helping him with the quibbler, and spending more time on her own, reading books and exploring her tiny world step by step. luna lived quite an isolated life, in all honesty, but she didn’t mind? she didn’t really feel lonely, or even knew what that would feel like. there was her dad, and the stray animals that were always around, and sometimes friends of her dad, and no, maybe not a lot of people her age --- but she didn’t mind. i want to link this quote from it because it just! rly reminds me of this.

luna left for hogwarts, both scared and worried for her father ( now all alone in their tall home ) and excited for all the opportunity that was waiting for her there. luna was sorted into ravenclaw very quickly, the hat barely taking any time, and a new chapter began. she noticed that she was odd — or, actually, other people noticed that she was and told it to her, and she shrugged her shoulders and kept moving on. luna was somewhat reclusive, or at least used to being on her own. she did learn what loneliness was, then, but she still didnt see a reason to befriend people who looked down on her beliefs. she didn’t mind being called loony, but when her belongings started to disappear, she grew angry, deep down. she let most comments and acts of cruelty slide off her back, but when a bad word was muttered about her father ( who she already worried so so much about ), she was prone to explosion.

so luna stuck to herself, her guns and her beliefs. she devoured books and walked the hogwarts grounds and connected to a few people here and there. luna’s skin grew thicker. she grew prouder.

regarding the triwizard tournament & currently

after harry returned from the maze with cedric, luna spent no time doubting his words. she saw what she saw, and the prophet and ministry are doing what they’ve always done: they lie. that’s something she’s known all her life ( thanks xeno! ) and something that’s just being reaffirmed.

DISSOCIATION TW  / it’s scary, though, this reality --- but luna feels an urgency for what seems like the first time in years. ever since her mother’s death, luna has felt a disconnection. to herself. to the world. everything feels like a hazy dream much too often, and it’s something that she’s never really been aware of, but it’s kept her from engaging. from being more present. it’s protected her from the trauma that’s still haunting her head. this war, it both triggers her dissociation and seems to dissolve it. whereas before, she seemed to be stuck in a constant haze, she now goes in and out of it. it’s making her aware of what’s going on in her head, but it’s mostly making her aware of the world around her. 

this is what pushes her to join the order. to join the fight. luna feels an urgency, and she’s angry, because injustice is something that enrages her. she’s scared and angry and feels so fucking alive, and it’s strange, that it takes this for her to feel less lonely and more alive. END OF TW

personality & details

luna is such a fashion icon, i cannot press this enough. holy. shit.

i just ... realised it’s the 00s. luna def wears dresses over jeans.... sighs. IMAGINE LUNA IN A JUICY TRACKSUIT JUST. IMAGINE! 

and like it’s not like luna ... adheres to fashion trends at all, but still. i think ‘03 fashion rly suits luna bc it’s so   bad  sdjkfhskdjf

luna loves the stars and the moon and the skies and she’s endlessly intrigued by it because —— there are so many unanswered questions! same goes for deep sea, tbh. she wants to go scuba diving so badly as well! the muggle way!

i just want to let u all in on my headcanon that luna and binns ... have had a lot of discussions because luna just thinks that a lot of the things they’re taught in history are WRONG. this conspiracy theory filled kid just goes in and says “that didn’t happen” and i swear binns probably wants to die a second time every time she denies factual information (but then ... the history being taught in school being wrong? or at least very much biased? not unheard of. she has a POINT. well. sometimes.) the founders, for example? a hoax. a fable! 

she constantly gets rly bad grades on her essays tho LMAO it’s an Issue. i bet that flitwick is so TIRED. 

idk i probs have more to say but i cant remember and i need to go out and do groceries fjsdkjfhdsf 

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The Yoyogi squad (Durga, Wakan, Gunzo, Kyuma, Ashigara, Daisuke(?)) trying the Test of Courage

Sorry its taken me so long to get this request in particular, there was something I wanted to indulge in when writing this one I sincerely hope you all  don’t mind getting into more fanfic/OC territory. 

Also yes this was the reason I had slowed down on headcanons the past few days so I could work on this. It’s just something I wanted to devote time to and will devote more time to at a later date cuz whoo boy this is kinda long for my page if I’m being frank. In any case I hope you enjoy.

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Test of Courage Part 1

When it came to oldmyths and ghost stories, Tokyo had a rather large plethora of theirown urban legends that get passed around high school students.Creaking of the floorboards or ghosts roaming the halls? Whispers atnight or Yokai coming to take someone away? All sorts of bizarrestories were shared throughout and Yoyogi was no exception. There wasa story that they built the school atop an old graveyard and thespirits aren’t too happy about being moved from their cozy restingspot and they roam the halls after midnight to sunrise. Or so WakanTanka explains to his underclassmen.

Yui shook her headwith denial. “I somehow doubt that.”

“What? Not aghost story kind of girl?” Wakan asked.

“No I’ve seenghosts in the streets before.” She explained as the three of themsat around the empty classroom, late afternoon setting in. “I justdoubt that our school was THAT special.”

“It is though!”Wakan pleaded. “There are some theories floating around aboutmissing documents, some old emails-!”

“All of whichbased in rumor. I pride myself in all that is factual.”

“Like your weirdfriend fiction?” Tatsuya asked in his normal calm demeanor.

“No one asked foryour input, thanks.” Yui glowered. “That’s my fortune telling,n-nothing more!”

Wakan was a bitconfused by this. “Fortune telling…? And what’s friendfiction?”

“The less youknow, the better for all of us.” Tatsuya replied without missing abeat.

“The less out ofyou, the better!” Yui snapped back. Wakan Tanka laughed at hisunderclassmen’s antics.

“It’s fine,I’ll take your word for it and leave it at that. But, I still can’tbelieve you don’t believe in any of the school’s rumors. Not evenjust for fun?”

The girl took amoment to think about it. “In all fairness, it DOES make for somegood stories to tell at night. But, they’re just that. Stories.”

Wakan Tanka took amoment to think. “How about… We prove it then?”

“Come again?”

“You heard me.Let your upperclassmen show you tonight what’s really going on inthe school after hours! We had already made plans to brave the nightanyway.”

“As… temptingas that sounds… I think I’ll pass. I don’t wanna get in troublefor something as reckless as that…”

“Oh, you don’thave to worry about that. The others have gotten it all taken care ofso we can slip in and slip back out by dawn. It’ll be like we werenever there.” He explained with a bit more detail about the planthey came up with.

“I dunno, it’sstill pretty reckless.”

“It could befun.” Tatsuya spoke up.

“Tatsuya!? Notyou too… fine, I’m in.”

~~

So the three agreedto meet back in front of the school with Wakan’s other friendsduring the early evening when no one would be around. Luckily forthem, only those who agreed to this actually showed up. The tigergirl in a tracksuit seemed to be in charge of this whole thing as shespoke once everyone gathered. “I’m glad you boys didn’t wussout.” She said rather confidently.

“It’s not likeyou gave us much of a choice you know.” The red head stated. “Youeven ran out onto the field and chased me down when I said no.”

“Well it’s notlike I was gonna come here on my own.” The tiger girl replied.

“So pinning medown til I said yes was just you not wanting to go in alone?” A boyin a baseball cap and uniform asked. “You know you could’ve justsaid that instead.”

“That’s…besides the point.” She said flustered. “I-I see we have some newblood here!” She went on, turning her attention to Tatsuya and Yui.

“Um…” Yuimuttered while Tatsuya remained silent.

“You’re prettybold for showing up, not that I’d expect any less from Yoyogiclassmates. But, I’ve never seen you two around before.”

This is where Wakanintervened. “They’re actually the Juniors’ in charge of theKendo club.”

“Oh, okay. Gladto know our underclassmen aren’t spineless.” She said with agenuine smile.

“Thanks! …Iguess.” Yui replied, rather confused.

“Don’t worry.The more the merrier, right?” The bear Therian laughed. “If youget scared you can stick next to me.”

“Does that applyto me too?” The red head asked with a bit of concern.

“Oh, man up!There ain’t gonna be nothin’ you haven’t seen.” The bearsnapped back. The red head only sighed and shrugged.

“Worth a shot…”

“Alright then,boys. Hurry up and open the doors before they notice.” The tigergirl said.

“A-About that…”A boy with dyed green hair murmured out. “You see… um, the doorsare… locked.”

“What!? It wasyour job to keep the doors unlocked!”

“I-I know but,Avarga saw and I couldn’t-”

“Well NOW what!?”The green haired boy yelped a bit in surprise at her shouting. “Thisis just perfect.”

“Try looking atthe positives, we all won’t get in trouble.” The baseball cappedboy said.

“That’s not thepoint! I need to know if the rumors are true or not before the othersin class do…!”

“Those sillyghost rumors?” Yui chimed in. “No offense, but those are all justhoaxes spread from school to school.”

“Not this one.”Her upperclassmen replied. “There’s a rumor going around that afew third years were attacked by a vengeful spirit.”

“Wait, what?”

“Some of ourclassmates were in the infirmary with weird symptoms.” The baseballboy went on. “Mr. Arima explained it as some type of bug goingaround, but we weren’t too sure. Especially cuz they keep going onabout having seen a shadowy figure come out and attack them.”

“T-that’s…still just a rumor… Mr. Arima is probably right.” Yui attemptedher best to dismiss these claims. All the while Tatsuya had slippedaway from the main group without anyone really noticing, all of themwrapped up in their own conversation.

“Still, we couldbe the first ones to prove or debunk it!” The tiger girl declared.“It’ll be huge if it is real! Just think of all the stories thatcan be passed down too.”

“That’s great,uh…”

“Oh, I’m Durga.I’m part of the track and field club.” Everyone else introducedthemselves to Yui and stated what clubs they were a part of.

“S-So all of youare third years…” Yui asked, feeling a bit intimidated.

“Don’t worryabout that!” Ashigara declared. “If anything, look to us as yourbeacons! … Or something.”

“Y-Yeah!” Gunzoadded. “Unless…” He seemed hesitant to say what was actually onhis mind.

“You know Gunzo,if you’re scared you can always just wait out here.” Kyumapointed out. “We could use a lookout.”

“And risk gettingattacked in the dark? No thanks. I’d much rather be in the dormsgetting ready for bed.” He replied.

“Bed? At thishour?” Kyuma asked.

Gunzo sighed. “Iget tired too, you know.”

“Aw c’mon.Where’s your sense of adventure?” Wakan Tanka asked. “That’sno way to spend an evening before our free day, my Gunzo.”

“It’s back atthe dorms, calling to me… yes, begging for me to lie in bed.” Hereplied with a twinge of sarcasm.

“He does have apoint. It’d be real nice to get nice and cozy in the dorms…”Yui trailed off, thinking about all the spare stories she could bemaking…

Daisuke agreed.“Its not like we were getting in anytime soon anyway.”

“There’s gottabe a way in… Are there any windows open?” Durga pondered.

“None of us wouldeven hope to fit in these windows.” Kyuma said with a twinge ofsadness.

Everyone seemed tobe lost in their own confusion until they heard a familiar click ofthe door opening. Tatsuya having stepped through the door holding itopen. Everyone was stunned at him. “Aren’t you coming?” Heasked dryly.

“H-How!? Gunzoasked with pure shock.

“I got in throughthe window.” He put frankly.

Yui sighed at herfriend’s impulses. “Of course you did.” While everyone wassinging his praises and how gutsy Tatsuya was, Wakan Tanka noticedthat the only opened window was on the top floor. However herefrained from commenting.

“Let’s just getinside.” Durga explained. And as the sun set completely, theyentered their school.

~~

The school hallswere much different at night than during the day. The halls seemedmuch more spacious now that they weren’t so crowded, the darknessthat overtook the halls only kept at bay thanks to pale moonlightshining in, and everyone’s echoing footsteps. Everyone took a fewmoments to observe around the main hall, using their phones asflashlights for some of the darker parts. “Um… where are wesupposed to start looking anyway?” Yui pondered.

“Good question.And when can we go lie down…?” Gunzo added. “There isn’tanything here.”

“That’s quittertalk. We need to perform a thorough investigation!” Durga declared.“Tonight’s the night something will show, I feel it!”

“Then, can Isuggest we split up?” Tatsuya chimed in. “We’d cover much moreground that way and we’d be more likely to gain results faster…”

“Good idea. We’vegot a lot of ground to cover so I think it’s best to split into twogroups.” Durga added. “Our plan of attack will be the East andWestern wings of the school. Wakan, Kyuma, Yui and I will look in theEast, while you four search the West.”

“I-If you sayso…” Gunzo whined. Though oddly relieved knowing Durga didn’tput them on the same team.

“A-Are you surethat’s a good idea?” Yui asked, concerned she wasn’t pairedwith Tatsuya despite splitting up being his idea. She shot a look ather friend that illustrated her concern and while Tatsuya barelyflinched he did have a twinge of disappointment in his gaze.

“It’ll befine!” Ashigara laughed. “You just leave these three to me.”

“Ah… okay! Ibelieve you’ll keep them safe.” Yui said, not knowing Gunzo andDaisuke were internally panicking as their group left to search forsome type of clue.

Gunzo leaned inclose to Daisuke. “He’s gonna get us killed if there are anyghosts for sure…!”

“D-Don’t saythat!” Daisuke whispered back frantically. “W-We gotta put on abrave face for our underclassmen. Though… it’d be easier if…”

“Well, whatever…I don’t trust Ashigara at all with this…” Gunzo sighed underhis breath.

“You know I canhear you, right?” Tatsuya responded with his usual cool tone. Thiscaught the two boys off guard and left Ashigara confused. “But,don’t be afraid.”

“W-Why not?”

“The worst aghost can do is hex you, right?”

“T-That’s even worse!”

~~

With the two groupsunderway, Durga’s group got right down to investigating. First andforemost the classrooms that lined the halls. “Okay, so what are wesupposed to be keeping an eye out for?” Kyuma asked.

“Uh, ghost stuff.Like moving shadows and floating desks, right?” Durga said, unsureherself what they were supposed to see. Kyuma and Yui both let outsighs of frustration.

“Figures we’dbe on a wild goose chase…” Kyuma breathed, to which Durga shothim a look.

“Aw, c’mon myfriends. Don’t lose faith just yet.” Wakan Tanka tried toencourage them. “If you look hard enough, I’m sure you’ll findit.”

“So then do youknow what it looks like?” Yui asked. “The ghost I mean.”

“Not a clue.”His teammates stared at him with complete bafflement at his lack ofsituational awareness. “But if we’re looking for facts about theone that’s attacking students, wouldn’t it make sense to look inthe Nurse’s Office?” Once again his allies were floored.

“Why didn’t yousay anything sooner!?” Durga snapped. “That’s careless of you!”

“Hmm? I assumedyou’d think to go there at some point since Mr Arima’s office isin the East side of the school too.”

“Well he doeshave a point.” Yui sighed. “Still, wouldn’t hurt to speak upevery now and again when you’ve got something like that lying onyour brain.”

“What’s lyingdown now?” He asked.

“Is he…?” Thesecond year girl wanted to ask. Her other two companions could onlytell her to get used to this level of frustration. The best she coulddo was laugh it off awkwardly. So after no signs of ghosts oranything paranormal about the school at all. In fact it was just likeduring the day except darker.

“Are we reallygonna find anything?” Kyuma asked. “We’ve been searching everyroom from top to bottom and David and I are getting pretty tiredright about now.”

“Yeah, I amfeeling a bit sleepy too…” Wakan Tanka admitted as well whilerubbing an eye.

Durga looked at thetwo boys with both frustration and regret. Her determination to winwas definitely getting in the way of her concern for her friends, soshe felt conflicted on what to do. The tiger girl also took noticethat the other girl seemed to be in her own thoughts. “Hey, Yui?”

“Huh!?” Thatsnapped the girl out of her pensive daze and snapped to attention.“W-What’s up?”

“You look lost inthoughts there.” She said. “Mind sharing a few details?”

The other girl tooka second to think. “Actually, I’d be lying if I wasn’t thinkingabout what the other boys are doing… alone… in the dark…”

“W-When you putit like that you sound like a pervy old guy…” Kyuma responded.

“Hey, I am not anold man!”

“That’s whatyou’re denying first!?”

Durga then got abrilliant idea to keep the two boys awake. “Hey Yui? How’d youand Tatsuya meet? Is he like your boyfriend or something?” Shesmirked. The question did rouse the other two from their grogginessto listen.

“Wh-what? It’snothing like that…” Yui explained, trying to downplay the wholething. “Really, we’re just friends.”

“A likely story.”Durga teased. “I saw the way you looked at him.”

“I-it wasn’tlike that!” She said. “I just, can’t trust Tatsuya being allalone for a long while. Trust me, he’s not interested in me even ifhe wanted to be.”

“Oh?”

“Uh what I meanis-”

CRASH

“What was that!?”Yui gasped, secretly relieved her discussion was briefly interrupted.But also concerned because that sounded like it came from the Nurse’sOffice.

“Is that asign!?”

“C’mon guys! Ithink we have our ghost in there!” Durga said while bolting offbefore she could finish.

“W-Wait for us!”The group charged ahead and burst the Nurse’s Office open withoutany hesitation. The automatic lights came on almost immediately afterthey felt a gust of wind brush past them. The group then sees thetrue mess that laid about.

The walls werecovered in black graffiti and various smudges, a medicine cabinet hadmostly fallen over and some glass was at certain spots all over thefloor, and the window was wide open with the nightly breeze blowingthrough. Naturally their first instinct was to run to the window tosee if they could spot anyone but they didn’t catch sight ofanything unusual. “Who would do such a thing…?”

“Not who. Awhat.” Wakan Tanka stated.

To Be Continued…

[surveysonfleek]

512.

5000 Question Survey Pt. 27

2501. What image, scent, memory, etc. would you take with you into the dark/light, the land of dead, heaven, infinity.....? my whole existence tbh. 2502. Who is the most annoying musical artist EVER? that catch me outside girl lol. 2503. If you HAD to go to one of the following concerts, which would it be: Snow Vanilla Ice NKOTB Milli Vanilli BSB <----- easily NSYNC 2504. Do you believe in manifest destiney? what?

2505. Have you ever fallen for an email forwarding hoax (send this to 13 people and old navy will send you a $200.00(100 pound) gift card)? Do you ever think 'well, maybe...' and actually forward those damn things? never. i haven’t forwarded a chain letter in years. 2506. Let's say there are 2 schools. one for boys and one for girls. They are both supposed to offer the same facilities so that the girls and boys get equal education. Would you take this to mean that the same courses should be offered to both girls and boys or that the same amount of money should be spent on each school? i’d take it as if they’re both being offered the same courses. Imagine that in the boys school fifteen boys sign up for calculus. In the girls school only five girls sign up for calculus. Should the girls calculus class be dissolved and replaced with an easier one? no. if they have the staff they should conduct them both. if not, they should combine them. 2507. Would it bother you if you found out that the fruits, vegetables, and meat that you eat is genetically altered (in lots of cases it is!)? i’d have to research it to understand. 2508. What does this world need? love. 2509. Is there anything you do just because you want to even though it has no redeeming social value? yup. like surveys lol. 2510. If you drink what kind of drunk are you? a loud one. 2511, Do you ever 'conveniently' forget something you don't want to remember? nope. 2512. If you have any cousins are you close? none of my cousins live close to me but we all get along really well when we’re together. 2513. Are you in love with yourself (your beautiful self)? haha no. 2514. What was the first movie you got on dvd? bug’s life i think. 2515. If you're sexy and you know it clap your hands. Did you clap? nope. 2516. have you ever called a: psychic hotline? suicide crisis line? sex line? dating line? none. 2517. Have you ever placed a personal ad anywhere? nope. 2518. Do guys look good in make up? some do, it all depends on skills. 2519. What are 5 things you don't care about? soccer, golf, working, drugs and my future lol. 2520. wHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO UNTIL YOU DIE? i don’t knowww. live. 2521. What 'issue' do you think your opinion is so right about that you end up trying to sway others to your point of view? i don’t try and sway people tbh. everyone is entitled to their own opinion. i hate it when people get all preachy to me. 2522. What age do you hope to live until? over 80. or at least to see my grandkids grow up. 2523. Do you like to tie others down during sex? nope. Have you ever been tied down? i don’t think so. 2524. Do you own any "toys"? no. Do you ever use them? no. 2525. Have you ever been spanked in that sexy way? maybe a couple times. it’s not a usual thing. Have you ever spanked anyone else? no. 2526. Do these questions make you uncomfortable? no. Do you like that feeling? what feeling? Does it turn you on? no. 2527. You know those ___ for dummies books (COMPTERS FOR DUMMIES, SURFING FOR DUMMIES, GOLDF FOR DUMMIES, WICCA FOR DUMMIES)? yes. Which one do you need to reaad? life for dummies lol. 2528. What do your socks look like? they’re mostly all black. 2529. Which of these really famous music artists started their career as a mime: Alice Cooper David Bowie Bruce Springsteen Moby Jewel Frank Zappa no idea. 2530. Does love float away if you let go? i don’t think so? it probably sinks lol. 2531. Do you think that most people in today's society are: kind? calm? humble? peaceful? helpful? happy? spiritual? creative? friendly? independant? intelligent? having fun? coming up with new ideas? no to all except this. able to think for themselves? able to really connect with others? If you answered no to any of the above, why do you think that is? the world sucks, let’s be real. there are some brilliant people out there but since the question said ‘most people’, it’s a hard no from me. 2532. Do you believe that every action has a sexual motive (think Freud)? nahhh. 2533. Speaking of Freud, did you know he was on drugs (think cocaine)? i don’t know enough about his life and studies. 2534. Do you trust psychology as a valid science? to an extent. can’t comment much since i don’t know enough abou tit. 2535. ID: In Freudian theory, the division of the psyche that is totally unconscious and serves as the source of instinctual impulses and demands for immediate satisfaction of primitive needs(sex, food, agressive behavior, drugs, alcohol, yelling, anger, fighting). SUPEREGO: In Freudian theory, the division of the unconscious that is formed through the internalization of moral standards of parents and society, and that censors and restrains the ego. So, which one do you express more, your ID or your SUPEREGO? idk. i’m too tired to think right now. 2536. Do you think that people who are alone and depressed are depressed because they are alone or alone because they are depressed? it can go both ways. 2537. Can you complete any of the following lyrics: I stop and I stare too much, afraid that I care too much... You're a new and better man, he helps youtounderstand,He does everything he can, he's.... Took the needles from my arms and put them to the sky... Top Gun shut down your Firm like Tom Cruise.... Don't you take it so hard now, And please don't take it so bad.... i don’t think i know any of these. 2538. How about these? From around the way, born in '73, Harcore B-boy named... And this feeling shivers down your spine, Love comes in colors I can't deny.... Before he hung up the phone he took a deep breath, stopped, and replied.... When I want you in my arms, when I want you and all your charms, whenever I want you all I have to do is... Silly games that you were playing, empty words we both were saying... 2539. Have you ever been to see a ballet? nope. 2540. What is the differance between Satan and Pan? i have no idea. 2541. What should a poem be or do if it is a sucessful poem? evoke thought or emotion. 2542. When you interpret a poem can each line mean anything you want it to? yes. 2543. Are you an orgasm addict? haha no. i love it but i wouldn’t say i’m an ‘addict’. 2544. Are you a sugar junkie? no. 2545. WHAT are you DOING? this. WHY aren't you marching in line with the rest of them? ooookay... 2546. Do you only hear what you want to? nope. 2547. Are you anal-retentive? i don’t think so. 2548. In and Out Over and Under Around and ??? about? lol. 2549. What was the last thing you returned to the store? a candle. 2550. Why ask why? why not? 2551. What is your favorite song or artist that is: jazz: metal: rock: new wave: psychedelic:  eh, idk for all. 2552. What are your feelings about: Picasso? love his style. Van Gogh? good paintings lol. Michaelangelo? incredible attention to detail. Da Vinci? cool. Einstein? smart. Tesla? cool cars lol. tbh i don’t know much about the inventor. 2553. Who else can you think of that made a MAJOR contribution to art or science? anyone and everyone who contributed to everything we have today. 2554. Who can you think of that made a major contribution to modern thought? idk. 2555. Why is it called 'coca cola'? no clue. 2556. Would you ever buy a Ford car? i used to have one. 2557. Donald or Daffy duck? donald. 2558. What is the most memorable thing about Pee-Wee Herman? never watched his stuff. 2559. Lease or buy a car? buy. 2560. Have you met Real Talkin' Bubba? no. Do you love him to death? - 2561. Have you ever been in a situation where you weren't sure if you were seducing or being seduced? nope. 2562. Can you 'pinch an inch' on your belly? yep lol. 2563. Have you ever been to: a temple? yes. a bar? yes. a massage parlor? yes. 2564. Would you ever want to visit Thailand? i wouldn’t mind it. 2565. What culture are you fascinated by? japanese. 2566. Have you ever worn a cape? probably. 2567. What is the difference between 'nude' and 'naked'? haha i’m not sure. 2568. What can you get for a dollar (.59 british pounds)? a soft serve from maccas. 2569. What makes you who you are? my dna. 2570. How do you search for meaning in life? idk. 2571. If your partner collected internet porn pics of celebs s/he thought was hot would that bother you? yeah, it would be kinda weird if he collected it. 2572. You are alone with your lover's diary. What do you do? flick through it hahaha. 2573. You read some and find out that a whhhiiillle back your lover had a crush on someone else, but you two were together. You both still hang out with this person. What do you do? question him to clear the air. 2574. Are you an old fart? no. 2575. What were your favorite things to do in the yard as a kid? ride my bike, pretend my yard was another world, play with a ball, jump rope etc. 2576. Why don't people have more fun? idk, maybe they have other things to worry about. 2577. Have you ever wanted to have a pet skinned and turned into an article of clothing? hell no. What pet? What article of clothing? 2578. Do I come off sounding normal, mildly irrational, blatently insane or completely certifiable? none lol. 2579. Did you ever feel that you were unable to function in society? not really. 2580. Is it nap time yet? very soon. 2581. Do you have to have the space next to the door or can you walk from the other end of the parking lot and still be okay with the world? let’s be real, the closer the parking spot to the entrance, the better. 2582. Do you like trains? i hate them. 2583. What's in Hungary? budapest. 2584. Have you ever felt like you were holding someone else back? no. Has someone ever held you back? kinda. 2585. What do you think of the term, 'organized religion'? nothing really. 2586. What do you think of the name 'Orson'? sounds very old timey. 2587. What frustrates you? people. 2588. Winkin, Blinkin and Nod, one night, sailed off in a sea of dew.. cool. 2589. Is ten dollars (5 pounds) a good price to pay for one lipstick? yes. Does anyone else remember when lipstick was, like, 2 or 3 bucks? no. 2590. Are you ill? no. 2591. Where were you the night of.....oh hell, last night? working. 2592. Do you pronounce the 'er' sound at the end of words(lookER or lookA)? the australian way. 2593. Do you drink only 100% juice? nope. 2594. Do you remember the bills you have to pay...or even yesterday? yes. 2595. What duck? donald. 2596. Do you collect coins? no. How about stamps? no. 2597. wHAT'S the best way to learn a new language? duolingo or a class. 2598. Is god in you? maybe. 2599. Are you in god? maybe. 2600. Do you know which fork to use at a formal table setting? the most outer fork first lol.

[thesteadydietofeverything]

Hellblade: Senua’s Sacrifice is a shaky but triumphant step forward for the narrative potential of video games

So many game plots involve stock-standard external conflicts.  Some evil person or monster wants to destroy the world or become a totalitarian leader or just cause general chaos, and it’s your job as, for whatever reason, the only person gifted enough to do anything about it, to put a stop to this evil.  Obviously, these plots are usually afterthoughts to a game that focuses much more on play mechanics and visual and sound design rather than actually telling a meaningful story, and to a certain degree, that’s okay.  Games are a particular medium where the most engaging story often comes not from the cutscenes you’re watching or the text you’re reading, but the story you yourself create as you interact with the game world.  2017 has so far been a watershed year for emergent storytelling, probably most notably with The Legend of Zelda: Breath of the Wild, which gave players the tools to shape the tale of their journey in ways that could far surpass whatever actual plot the game tried to tell, and has been lauded as a masterpiece for it.  To a degree, though, this is a reflective form of storytelling, and as much potential for player creativity as it has, the end result is often limited to the story the player already had in her, and she remains unchanged by, say, being receptive to a story foreign to her.

On the other end of the narrative potential of video games is the a story told from the end of the creators of the game, but whose interactivity emphasizes empathy for the character far greater than a film or literature could.  That’s the kind of game Hellblade: Senua’s Sacrifice is, a rare game in which the conflict is internal, and the character the player controls is not a blank-slate superhero out to destroy evil, but a tragically broken and tormented human whose biggest enemy is her own mental health.  It’s a bold concept, and while its significant step forward in the narrative potential of games is undoubtedly a shaky one, it’s a step forward nevertheless, and one worthy of admiration.

At the start, as the in-game credits roll, the first name billed is for its Mental Health Supervisor.  In fact, as the featurette that accompanies the game reveals, there was a team of experts in the particular form of psychosis the game’s protagonist, Senua, experiences involved with the development of the game, as well as several experiencers themselves, who had their own particular insights shared and represented in the game.  The lengths to which Ninja Theory went to ensure that this game was not only as accurate to the true experience of psychosis, but sensitive and non exploitative as possible, are commendable.  For as unsettling or downright horrifying as some sections of this game can be, it never feels fucked up for the sake of shock value, but rather a genuine, unflinching look at the living nightmares some must deal with as a part of their daily lives.

The other research that was invested in this game was of its setting and the mythology associated with that setting.  Senua is a young Celtic warrior of the Pict tribe during the time of frequent viking invasions, and the game is thus very informed by Norse mythology, told through Senua’s spiritual guide, Druth, as she leads herself into the underworld to save the soul of her dead lover, whose severed head she carries with her at all times.  In order to do so, she must fight hordes of...something.  Dead spirits?  Viking warriors warped in horrifying ways?  Actual, creepy-crawly monsters?  Facts in this game, including just the general plot of the whole thing, tend to be rather nebulous, and this is by design.  Essentially, all this adversity is a product of Senua’s hallucinating, delusional mind, but rather than save this revelation for a lame reveal at the end, as some games have been known to do, it gets it over with at the very beginning, making the point of it not what is actually, physically happening to Senua, but what these manufactured enemies represent.

Combat with these enemies is fairly straightforward, a kind of Souls-y lock-on/dodge/attack kind of deal, but mechanically stripped down to the point where the only real challenge comes when these enemies start attacking in groups.  It’s effective in short bursts, but towards the end can start to become a bit tedious.  For me, a lot of the drama of combat came from desperately not wanting to die as a result of the warning the game gave me after my first fight: Senua is “cursed,” and this curse manifests physically as a black kind of gangrene that spreads further up her arm every time she dies.  If it finally reaches her head, she’s dead for good, and you have to start over from the beginning.  In the time since it came out, the exact details of this have become a point of contention.  One website claimed to prove by dying over and over again in the same spot to no consequences that the permadeath feature was a hoax, but others came out claiming that it is most definitely real, but was a bit more complicated than just getting stuck on one spot would reveal.

I haven’t done a tremendous amount of research on the topic, but I have yet to find anything resembling a definitive answer to this.  I’m also not particularly concerned with doing so, because for me, whether or not I really “believed” there was a particularly real chance of me actually losing all my progress, I found it to be an effective tool for the roleplaying aspect of the game.  Senua believes that it is the case that she’ll die once the curse reaches her head, and the game so effectively put me in the head of this character, that I couldn’t help but see the world as she saw it.  Death wasn’t just frustrating or annoying, it was downright terrifying, my sense of dread ratcheting up each time I saw the curse crawl further up Senua’s arm.  With this in mind, the combat still isn’t perfect, but it builds a unique sense of desperation that few games have managed to inspire in me.

There is a certain amount of puzzle-solving as well, and while this, too, is simplistic, it ties together well with the game’s themes and plot.  Those who experience psychosis tend to make connections between concepts and objects that most wouldn’t make, and Senua does the same.  There’s something fitting about puzzles built around the compulsion to recognize a certain shape written on a door before being about to walk through that door, or to see the world differently depending on at which direction one passes through an archway.

That said, it’s hard to define Hellblade as a particularly “fun” game.  The overall mood set by Senua’s descent into madness is hardly one that’s pleasant to be in, but that’s not really the point.  One of the most regularly unnerving parts of the game is the incessant chorus of voices in Senua’s head, whispering words of doubt, fear, and antagonism.  The game utilizes binaural audio recording techniques to give the listener a sense of 3D sound, and as such, playing it with headphones is both by far the best way to experience it and also kind of torturous.  The combat and the puzzles of this game are just engaging enough to push the player through to further character development or revelations of Senua’s past, much of which deals with not only her failing mental health growing up, but how the rest of her community, most particularly her father, reacted to it.  It’s a grim, nightmarish world to be in for the 6-7 hours that the game lasts, and it’s all the better for it, but it’s not an experience I’d want to relive any time soon.

To pass off all of my issues with this game as being by design, though, wouldn’t be fair, as there’s more to it than that.  First of all, while the shallow nature of the combat and puzzle-solving would have bothered me more if the game had gone on any longer than it did, even with the current length they started to wear pretty thin towards the end.  And I also couldn’t help but feel that with a game that feels as progressive as this one does, a lot of the mechanics of it come down to some pretty standard video game-y stuff.  It’s not that graphic violence feels inappropriate in a game like this necessarily; given the nature of what many people with Senua’s condition experience, this is a properly gritty depiction.  But there’s just something so obvious and kind of almost silly to portraying Senua’s psychological conflicts as actual combat with swords and big scary dudes to chop down.  The game sells it well, but it feels like somewhat of a lost opportunity to not build a different gameplay mechanic around something slightly more personal.  The limited development of the combat makes it all the easier to question the nature of its purpose in a game like this.  Even the name Hellblade feels like an odd cheapening of the pretty serious nature of the game; just Senua’s Sacrifice would have been a perfectly fine title on its own.

Of course, I’m making complaints like these, which I’d never make about, say, something like DOOM, because the promise of this game is just so damn exciting, and what it does well is done very well.  It’s the kind of game that opens one’s mind to the artistic potential of video games, but simultaneously shows how far the still-new medium has to go as an artform.  The fact that it really does achieve the former makes the latter feel like an inevitable and acceptable consequence; progress is made one step at a time, and though Hellblade’s step forward is a shaky one, it’s also a triumphant one.  It’s the kind of game I’d like to imagine will be looked back upon in a few years as a turning point in realizing the narrative potential of video games, and that kind of significance more than makes up for its specific flaws.

8.9

[eldritchsurveys]

951.

5k Survey XLIX

2501. what image, scent, memory, etc. would you take with you into the dark/light, the land of dead, heaven, infinity.....? >> I’m not sure how to answer this. 2502. Who is the most annoying musical artist EVER? >> --- 2503. If you HAD to go to one of the following concerts, which would it be: Snow Vanilla Ice NKOTB Milli Vanilli BSB NSYNC >> No, thank you. 2504. Do you believe in manifest destiny? >> Just that very question insults me, lmao. Sorry, no, I’m not an arrogant imperialist who labours under the delusion that every piece of land I happen to set foot on belongs to me. 2505. Have you ever fallen for an email forwarding hoax (send this to 13 people and old navy will send you a $200.00(100 pound) gift card)? Do you ever think 'well, maybe...' and actually forward those damn things? >> I have not.

2506. Let's say there are 2 schools. one for boys and one for girls. They are both supposed to offer the same facilities so that the girls and boys get equal education. Would you take this to mean that the same courses should be offered to both girls and boys or that the same amount of money should be spent on each school? >> Why are the schools segregated in the first place? That doesn’t make any sense to me and it never did. Imagine that in the boys school fifteen boys sign up for calculus. In the girls school only five girls sign up for calculus. Should the girls calculus class be disolved and replaced with an easir one? >> Of course not. Why deprive those five girls of the class they want to take, just because there’s only five of them? Also, there’s... there’s a lot to unpack about this entire scenario and the implicit sexism involved but I think I’d rather just throw the whole damn suitcase away. Next. 2507. Would it bother you if you found out that the fruits, vegetables, and meat that you eat is genetically altered (in lots of cases it is!)? >> Of course much of the food I eat has been genetically altered in some way, either by centuries of selective breeding or perhaps by some newfangled modern practice. I don’t see why this should automatically disturb me. What does disturb me is corporations like Monsanto blatantly using this power for evil. 2508. What does this world need? >> --- 2509. Is there anything you do just because you want to even though it has no redeeming social value? >> It’d be fucked up for me to measure everything I do by its perceived “social value”. What does that even mean, anyway?  2510. If you drink what kind of drunk are you? >> I don’t drink enough to get drunk anymore, so I can’t really say. I’m probably just a sleepy, lazy drunk at this point. 2511, Do you ever 'convieniently' forget something you don't want to remember? >> I don’t think my brain works that way. 2512. If you have any cousins are you close? >> --- 2513. Are you in love with yourself (your beautiful self)? >> I am not in love with myself. That seems like an odd relationship for me to have with myself. 2514. What was the first movie you got on dvd? >> --- 2515. If you're sexy and you know it clap your hands. Did you clap? >> I did not clap, because like... why. 2516. have you ever called a: psychic hotline? suicide crisis line? sex line? dating line? >> I’ve called none of these. 2517. have you ever placed a personal ad anywhere? >> Maybe on Craigslist once. 2518. Do guys look good in make up? >> I don’t care about how people look in make-up, I care about whether they enjoy wearing makeup and whether it makes them feel good. If that’s true, then I love it. 2519. What are 5 things you don't care about? >> I can’t think of anything right now. Probably because the fact that I don’t care about something means I don’t think about it... 2520. wHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO UNTIL YOU DIE? >> Why is this in caps? I’m assuming it’s a capslock error, but like... why wasn’t it fixed, lol. 2521. What 'issue' do you think your opinion is so right about that you end up trying to sway others to your point of view? >> I don’t do that. 2522. What age do you hope to live until? >> I don’t have a specific age in mind. I just want to live to the point where I feel like death isn’t an intrusion on my living -- where it makes sense to die. 2523. Do you like to tie others down during sex? Have you ever been tied down? >> I’ve never done either, but I’m sure it’d be fun with the right person, if having sex with an outworld person was ever a thing I was going to do again. 2524. Do you own any "toys"? Do you ever use them? >> No. 2525. Have you ever been spanked in that sexy way? Have you ever spanked anyone else? >> I was spanked at at least one play party, but I didn’t particularly enjoy it. It’s not really my thing, although I’m sure spanking someone else would be way more fun. Haven’t done it yet, though. 2526. Do these questions make you uncomfortable? Do you like that feeling? Does it turn you on? >> It never occurred to me to feel uncomfortable, no. 2527. You know those ___ for dummies books (COMPTERS FOR DUMMIES, SURFING FOR DUMMIES, GOLDF FOR DUMMIES, WICCA FOR DUMMIES)? Which one do you need to reaad? >> I do know those books. I don’t know which one I’d read, though. 2528. What do your socks look like? >> I’m not wearing socks. 2529. Which of these really famous music artists started their career as a mime: Alice Cooper David Bowie Bruce Springsteen Moby Jewel Frank Zappa >> I’m sure I’d find out if I googled it, but I don’t care to. 2530. Does love float away if you let go? >> What does this even mean... 2531. Do you think that most people in today's society are: kind? calm? humble? peaceful? helpful? happy? spiritual? creative? friendly? independant? intelligent? having fun? comming up with new ideas? able to think for themselves? able to really connect with others? If you answered no to any of the above, why do you think that is? >> Why am I generalising about “most people”? That seems like a silly thing to do. 2532. Do you believe that every action has a sexual motive (think Freud)? >> No. Pretty sure that theory of his was debunked anyway, because it just doesn’t make any real sense. 2533. Speaking of Freud, did you know he was on drugs (think cocaine)? >> I was vaguely aware. I mean, a lot of people have taken and do take drugs, big deal. 2534. Do you trust psychology as a valid science? >> I acknowledge that it’s a science. However, I also harbour a lot of skepticism about some of the stuff that is either explicitly or implicitly stated in many psychological theories, and I am particularly skeptical about how psychological theories are applied to actual interactions with and diagnoses of clients. 2535. ID: In Freudian theory, the division of the psyche that is totally unconscious and serves as the source of instinctual impulses and demands for immediate satisfaction of primitive needs(sex, food, agressive behavior, drugs, alcohol, yelling, anger, fighting). SUPEREGO: In Freudian theory, the division of the unconscious that is formed through the internalization of moral standards of parents and society, and that censors and restrains the ego. So, which one do you express more, your ID or your SUPEREGO? >> The superego. I mean, you really don’t get very far by just letting your id run wild.  2536. Do you think that people who are alone and depressed are depressed because they are alone or alone because they are depressed? >> I think it’s a feedback loop.  2537. Can you complete any of the following lyrics: I stop and I stare too much, afraid that I care too much... You're a new and better man, he helps youtounderstand,He does everything he can, he's.... Took the needles from my arms and put them to the sky... Top Gun shut down your Firm like Tom Cruise.... Don't you take it so hard now, And please don't take it so bad.... I’ll still be thinking of you, and the times we had. That’s the only one in this list I know. 2538. How about these? From around the way, born in '73, Harcore B-boy named... And this feeling shivers down your spine, Love comes in colors I can't deny.... Before he hung up the phone he took a deep breath, stopped, and replied.... When I want you in my arms, when I want you and all your charms, whenever I want you all I have to do is... Silly games that you were playing, empty words we both were saying... 2539. Have you ever been to see a ballet? >> I haven’t, but I’d like to. 2540. What is the differance between Satan and Pan? >> They’re from completely different mythologies, for one, despite the fact that they often get conflated. 2541. What should a poem be or do if it is a sucessful poem? >> There’s no such thing as a “successful” poem, to me. That’s an odd way to think of poetry. A poem is a poem if it’s written down as such, and that’s it. 2542. When you interpret a poem can each line mean anything you want it to? >> Well, sure, isn’t that what happens when you read something? You interpret it through your own lens. That’s unavoidable. 2543. Are you an orgasm addict? >> Er, no. 2544. Are you a sugar junkie? >> No. 2545. WHAT are you DOING? WHY aren't you marching in line with the rest of them? >> --- 2546. Do you only hear what you want to? >> I mean, I just hear whatever my brain interprets sound waves as. 2547. Are you anal-retentive? >> Er, no? 2548. In and Out Over and Under Around and ??? >> ?????? 2549. What was the last thing you returned to the store? >> I haven’t returned anything to the store in years. 2550. Why ask why? >> Because?

[fakenewsformediacourse]

Coronavirus: info-demic or pandemic?

how fake news puts lives at risk during a pandemic

What IS a fact? Do we even know anymore? I never thought we’d be in a global pandemic with over one hundred thousand deaths and I’d still be seeing posts and comments calling it a hoax, a conspiracy theory or fake news. NPR reported that 1 in 5 adults in England believe the coronavirus is a hoax. But that is unfortunately not even half of it. Some people genuinely believe the virus was developed by China in an attempt to destroy the West. (Langfitt, 2020) To the everyday person, this may seem like a silly conspiracy theory that you can just laugh off. But the dangers of claims like this cannot be overstated. 

The virus is real and it can be deadly. Experts have shown that the best and most effective way to “flatten the curve” is by imposing straight social distancing/stay at home orders. I can personally attest to this: I’ve spent the last 3.5 months in Kosovo, a country with an incredibly weak health system. On March 13th, Kosovo had its first two confirmed cases of corona. They responded by imposing a lockdown so strict, it made the rules in Germany (my home country) seem like a joke. We were not allowed to leave the house for more than 90 minutes, only one member of the household could leave the house at a time, no cars were allowed on the streets. These measures were extreme, because the government was aware that Kosovo was not equipped to handle even 10 critically ill patients, let alone the hundreds that other countries were seeing. Unsurprisingly, this worked. The curve was flattened. Kosovo has very few coronavirus fatalities. Not everyone fully adhered to these rules, of course, but if people even followed them 60%, it was enough. In June, the country reopened far too quickly and we’ve seen a huge (and concerning) spike in the cases. Many people oppose long lasting lockdowns, and for economic and mental health reasons I understand this. But the claims that the virus is entirely fake are outrageous. 

Eric Trump, in an interview with Fox News, called the coronavirus a “cognizant strategy” which was created to undermine his father. He claimed the virus would simply disappear after the November presidential election. Eric Trump has influence, people support his father and therefore support him. This claim could lead to the deaths of many people, who will take his advice over the advice of medical professionals. People cherry pick and misrepresent data to make it seem like the virus is either entirely fake or not as big of a threat as we think. The Highland County Press reported that the second wave of the coronavirus is a hoax, arguing that governments pushing for a second lockdown has nothing to do with public health. The article mentions Georgia, “which has opened its economy and has seen no “spike” at all.” (Paul, 2020) But other sources reveal that “Georgia is one of four states expected to see the earliest uptick in coronavirus deaths.” (WSBTV, 2020) We can’t pick and choose to believe only what we find convenient or what fits our preconceived notions of the world. 

There are many conspiracy theories that are more harmless. Being sceptical of the moon landing or believing that aliens are real is likely not going to get anyone killed. But if this is part of a bigger trend of having a fundamental distrust for anything the government, the media or health professionals tell you, it becomes a problem. A peer reviewed study in the journal of Psychological medicine found that “people who get their news from social media sources are more likely to break lockdown rules.” (Easton, 2020) While Facebook says they have cracked down on misinformation and are removing and labelling posts containing fake news, it’s clearly not enough. Of course, Facebook should not shoulder all the responsibility. My mother made my Facebook account when I was 8 years old, but she’s spent the last 12 years making sure I was aware that not everything I see online is real. I’ve still fallen for fake news, we all have. I was one of the people who believed that holding your breath for 10 seconds without discomfort meant you didn’t have the virus. I believed this because I wanted to feel like I had some semblance of control in this scary time. But it is beyond me how someone can hear that so many people are losing friends and family members and can shrug it off as a hoax. I urge everyone to remain cautious about what you see online and verify everything with multiple sources.

[surveystodestressme]

107.

5000 Question Survey Pt. 27

2501. What image, scent, memory, etc. would you take with you into the dark/light, the land of dead, heaven, infinity…..?

everything?

2502. Who is the most annoying musical artist EVER?

most rapper, in my opinion.  or scream-o artists

2503. If you HAD to go to one of the following concerts, which would it be:

Snow

Vanilla Ice

NKOTB

Milli Vanilli

BSB <—– this one

NSYNC

2504. Do you believe in manifest destiny?

yeah

2505. Have you ever fallen for an email forwarding hoax (send this to 13 people and old navy will send you a $200.00(100 pound) gift card)? Do you ever think ‘well, maybe…’ and actually forward those damn things?

never. i

2506. Let’s say there are 2 schools. one for boys and one for girls. They are both supposed to offer the same facilities so that the girls and boys get equal education. Would you take this to mean that the same courses should be offered to both girls and boys or that the same amount of money should be spent on each school?

the same courses are being offered but i feel like in turn that means that the same amount of money should be spent on both schools

Imagine that in the boys school fifteen boys sign up for calculus. In the girls school only five girls sign up for calculus. Should the girls calculus class be dissolved and replaced with an easier one?

no. they should just do the class with 5 girls in it.  a class does not need a whole bunch of people in order for it to run properly

2507. Would it bother you if you found out that the fruits, vegetables, and meat that you eat is genetically altered (in lots of cases it is!)?

i mean, it already is so i don’t really have much of a choice lol

2508. What does this world need?

peace

2509. Is there anything you do just because you want to even though it has no redeeming social value?

yup.

2510. If you drink what kind of drunk are you?

an affectionate and talkative one

2511, Do you ever 'conveniently’ forget something you don’t want to remember?

nope.

2512. If you have any cousins are you close?

i’m not close with any of them honestly

2513. Are you in love with yourself (your beautiful self)?

for the most part, yeah

2514. What was the first movie you got on dvd?

oh damn, i don’t even know

2515. If you’re sexy and you know it clap your hands. Did you clap?

yeah lol

2516. have you ever called a:

psychic hotline?

suicide crisis line?

sex line?

dating line? none.

2517. Have you ever placed a personal ad anywhere?

nope.

2518. Do guys look good in make up?

hell yeah they do.  everyone does

2519. What are 5 things you don’t care about?

wrestling, politics, history, my next door neighbor, and th weather

2520. wHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO UNTIL YOU DIE?

live

2521. What 'issue’ do you think your opinion is so right about that you end up trying to sway others to your point of view?

i mean i don’t want to sway people to believe my opinion is the right one because no ones opinion is right that’s why it’s considered an opinion.  however, i am very adamant about declawing cats.  i would never declaw my cats because i have seen one up close and actually experienced and done intensive research and know the bad things that can come along with it.

2522. What age do you hope to live until?

at least 100

2523. Do you like to tie others down during sex?

no, i like to be tied down.  but if my boyfriend asked to tie him down... i wouldn’t refuse

Have you ever been tied down?

yes

2524. Do you own any “toys”?

no.

Do you ever use them?

-

2525. Have you ever been spanked in that sexy way?

yes, i actually just asked to be whipped with a belt the other day

Have you ever spanked anyone else?

not sexually, just for fun

2526. Do these questions make you uncomfortable?

no.

Do you like that feeling?

huh?

Does it turn you on?

no.

2527. You know those ___ for dummies books (COMPTERS FOR DUMMIES, SURFING FOR DUMMIES, GOLDF FOR DUMMIES, WICCA FOR DUMMIES)?

yes.

Which one do you need to read?

computers, history, lots of other things

2528. What do your socks look like?

puma socks just plain

2529. Which of these really famous music artists started their career as a mime:

Alice Cooper

David Bowie

Bruce Springsteen

Moby

Jewel

Frank Zappa i have no idea

2530. Does love float away if you let go?

nah

2531. Do you think that most people in today’s society are:

kind? no

calm? no

humble? no

peaceful? no

helpful? no

happy? no

spiritual? somewhat

creative? no

friendly? no

independent? somewhat

intelligent? no

having fun? yes

coming up with new ideas? yes

able to think for themselves? not really

able to really connect with others? sometimes

If you answered no to any of the above, why do you think that is?

people are just horrible nowadays.  honestly, most people only care for themselves and aren’t worried about anyone or anything else. 

2532. Do you believe that every action has a sexual motive (think Freud)?

not at all

2533. Speaking of Freud, did you know he was on drugs (think cocaine)?

i think i heard something about him being drugs but i can’t say whether that’s true or not

2534. Do you trust psychology as a valid science?

for the most part, yeah

2535. ID: In Freudian theory, the division of the psyche that is totally unconscious and serves as the source of instinctual impulses and demands for immediate satisfaction of primitive needs(sex, food, aggressive behavior, drugs, alcohol, yelling, anger, fighting).

SUPEREGO: In Freudian theory, the division of the unconscious that is formed through the internalization of moral standards of parents and society, and that censors and restrains the ego.

So, which one do you express more, your ID or your SUPEREGO?

probably more ID

2536. Do you think that people who are alone and depressed are depressed because they are alone or alone because they are depressed?

it can go both ways, i think

2537. Can you complete any of the following lyrics:

I stop and I stare too much, afraid that I care too much…

You’re a new and better man, he helps you to understand, He does everything he can, he’s….

Took the needles from my arms and put them to the sky…

Top Gun shut down your Firm like Tom Cruise….

Don’t you take it so hard now, And please don’t take it so bad….

i don’t know any of these

2538. How about these?

From around the way, born in '73, Harcore B-boy named…

And this feeling shivers down your spine, Love comes in colors I can’t deny….

Before he hung up the phone he took a deep breath, stopped, and replied….

When I want you in my arms, when I want you and all your charms, whenever I want you all I have to do is…

Silly games that you were playing, empty words we both were saying…

nope

2539. Have you ever been to see a ballet?

yes

2540. What is the difference between Satan and Pan?

who is pan?  peter pan?

2541. What should a poem be or do if it is a successful poem?

give a sense of imagery and make you think and feel something

2542. When you interpret a poem can each line mean anything you want it to?

absolutely

2543. Are you an orgasm addict?

well i like having them but i’m not addicted to them lol

2544. Are you a sugar junkie?

i don’t really like sugary things actually

2545. WHAT are you DOING?

this.

WHY aren’t you marching in line with the rest of them?

????

2546. Do you only hear what you want to?

nah

2547. Are you anal-retentive?

huh?

2548. In and Out

Over and Under

Around and ???

what?

2549. What was the last thing you returned to the store?

i’m going to return a septum rings today or tomorrow

2550. Why ask why?

why not?

2551. What is your favorite song or artist that is:

jazz:

metal: alice in chains

rock: ac/dc

new wave:

psychedelic:  bob marley

2552. What are your feelings about:

Picasso? does some really creative, cool artwork

Van Gogh? incredible.  i love the way he paints, he has a very different style than most artists i’ve seen

Michaelangelo? very good details

Da Vinci? also very good artist

Einstein? very freaking smart guy

Tesla? very fast and very expensive cars

2553. Who else can you think of that made a MAJOR contribution to art or science?

there’s so many people

2554. Who can you think of that made a major contribution to modern thought?

idk

2555. Why is it called 'coca cola’?

no clue.

2556. Would you ever buy a Ford car?

probably not

2557. Donald or Daffy duck?

donald.

2558. What is the most memorable thing about Pee-Wee Herman?

i don’t know

2559. Lease or buy a car?

buy.

2560. Have you met Real Talkin’ Bubba?

no.

Do you love him to death?

-

2561. Have you ever been in a situation where you weren’t sure if you were seducing or being seduced?

nope.

2562. Can you 'pinch an inch’ on your belly?

yeahhh

2563. Have you ever been to:

a temple? there’s actually one by my house

a bar? plenty

a massage parlor? yes.

2564. Would you ever want to visit Thailand?

i wouldn’t mind it.

2565. What culture are you fascinated by?

all of them

2566. Have you ever worn a cape?

not that i can remember

2567. What is the difference between 'nude’ and 'naked’?

nude sounds classier

2568. What can you get for a dollar (.59 british pounds)?

a pack of gum maybe

2569. What makes you who you are?

my genes

2570. How do you search for meaning in life?

try really hard

2571. If your partner collected internet porn pics of celebs s/he thought was hot would that bother you?

i mean, it’d be weird if he collected it, but i wouldn’t mind if he just looked

2572. You are alone with your lover’s diary. What do you do?

jack wouldn’t every keep a diary lol

2573. You read some and find out that a whhhiiillle back your lover had a crush on someone else, but you two were together. You both still hang out with this person. What do you do?

fuck him up.  lol jk, i’d talk to him about it

2574. Are you an old fart?

i feel like it sometimes

2575. What were your favorite things to do in the yard as a kid?

play in the grass, have friends over, play with the dog

2576. Why don’t people have more fun?

they’re probably too stuck up their own ass

2577. Have you ever wanted to have a pet skinned and turned into an article of clothing?

wtf? no

What pet?

What article of clothing?

2578. Do I come off sounding normal, mildly irrational, blatantly insane or completely certifiable?

insane

2579. Did you ever feel that you were unable to function in society?

i used to

2580. Is it nap time yet?

very soon.

2581. Do you have to have the space next to the door or can you walk from the other end of the parking lot and still be okay with the world?

i need to be as close as possible

2582. Do you like trains?

i don’t mind them

2583. What’s in Hungary?

hungry people haha

2584. Have you ever felt like you were holding someone else back?

oh yeah

Has someone ever held you back?

yup

2585. What do you think of the term, 'organized religion’?

i don’t really care

2586. What do you think of the name 'Orson’?

sounds different

2587. What frustrates you?

people.

2588. Winkin, Blinkin and Nod, one night, sailed off in a sea of dew..

cool.

2589. Is ten dollars (5 pounds) a good price to pay for one lipstick?

sure, i have no idea honestly

Does anyone else remember when lipstick was, like, 2 or 3 bucks?

some still is $2

2590. Are you ill?

no.

2591. Where were you the night of…..oh hell, last night?

at my house

2592. Do you pronounce the 'er’ sound at the end of words(lookER or lookA)?

ER

2593. Do you drink only 100% juice?

nada

2594. Do you remember the bills you have to pay…or even yesterday?

yes.

2595. What duck?

donald.

2596. Do you collect coins?

no.

How about stamps?

no.

2597. wHAT’S the best way to learn a new language?

taking a class

2598. Is god in you?

doubt it

2599. Are you in god?

^

2600. Do you know which fork to use at a formal table setting?

no idea lol.  whichever fork i grab first

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5,000 Question Survey–Part twenty-seven

2501. what image, scent, memory, etc. would you take with you into the dark/light, the land of dead, heaven, infinity…..? the smell of a forest.

2502. Who is the most annoying musical artist EVER? Taylor Swift...Justin Beiber....Demi Lovato...Miley Cyrus 2503. If you HAD to go to one of the following concerts, which would it be: Snow Vanilla Ice NKOTB Milli Vanilli BSB NSYNC

2504. Do you believe in manifest destiny? no... 2505. Have you ever fallen for an email forwarding hoax (send this to 13 people and old navy will send you a $200.00(100 pound) gift card)? Do you ever think ‘well, maybe…’ and actually forward those damn things? no; no

2506. Let’s say there are 2 schools. one for boys and one for girls. They are both supposed to offer the same facilities so that the girls and boys get equal education. Would you take this to mean that the same courses should be offered to both girls and boys or that the same amount of money should be spent on each school? both?

Imagine that in the boys school fifteen boys sign up for calculus. In the girls school only five girls sign up for calculus. Should the girls calculus class be dissolved and replaced with an easier one? no.. 2507. Would it bother you if you found out that the fruits, vegetables, and meat that you eat is genetically altered (in lots of cases it is!)? they are tho... 2508. What does this world need? peace. 2509. Is there anything you do just because you want to even though it has no redeeming social value? yes...tumblr lol

2510. If you drink what kind of drunk are you? i don’t really drink. 2511, Do you ever 'conveniently’ forget something you don’t want to remember? yeah... 2512. If you have any cousins are you close? no 2513. Are you in love with yourself (your beautiful self)? not at all. 2514. What was the first movie you got on dvd? i think Lilo and Stitch tbh 2515. If you’re sexy and you know it clap your hands. Did you clap? no 2516. have you ever called a: psychic hotline? no suicide crisis line? i’ve dont an online chat one. sex line? no dating line? no 2517. have you ever placed a personal ad anywhere? yeah 2518. Do guys look good in make up? sometimes. 2519. What are 5 things you don’t care about? - 2520. What are you going to do until you die? read books; watch movies; sing. 2521. What 'issue’ do you think your opinion is so right about that you end up trying to sway others to your point of view? mental health stigma 2522. What age do you hope to live until? don’t care. 2523. Do you like to tie others down during sex? no

Have you ever been tied down? no 2524. Do you own any “toys”? yes

Do you ever use them? yes

2525. Have you ever been spanked in that sexy way? no

Have you ever spanked anyone else? No.

2526. Do these questions make you uncomfortable? kinda

Do you like that feeling? no?

Does it turn you on? no..... 2527. You know those ___ for dummies books (COMPTERS FOR DUMMIES, SURFING FOR DUMMIES, GOLDF FOR DUMMIES, WICCA FOR DUMMIES)? yes Which one do you need to read? none. 2528. What do your socks look like? white 2529. Which of these really famous music artists started their career as a mime: no clue...

Alice Cooper David Bowie Bruce Springsteen Moby Jewel Frank Zappa

2530. Does love float away if you let go? probably? 2531. Do you think that most people in today’s society are: kind? no calm? no humble? no peaceful? no helpful? no happy? no spiritual? yes creative? yes friendly? no independent? yes intelligent? some? having fun? no clue coming up with new ideas? yes able to think for themselves? no able to really connect with others? maybe?

If you answered no to any of the above, why do you think that is? experience.

2532. Do you believe that every action has a sexual motive (think Freud)? no 2533. Speaking of Freud, did you know he was on drugs (think cocaine)? don’t care. 2534. Do you trust psychology as a valid science? yes 2535. ID: In Freudian theory, the division of the psyche that is totally unconscious and serves as the source of instinctual impulses and demands for immediate satisfaction of primitive needs(sex, food, aggressive behavior, drugs, alcohol, yelling, anger, fighting). SUPEREGO: In Freudian theory, the division of the unconscious that is formed through the internalization of moral standards of parents and society, and that censors and restrains the ego. So, which one do you express more, your ID or your SUPEREGO? superego 2536. Do you think that people who are alone and depressed are depressed because they are alone or alone because they are depressed? neither. they have a mental illness. 2537. Can you complete any of the following lyrics: I stop and I stare too much, afraid that I care too much… - You’re a new and better man, he helps you to understand,He does everything he can, he’s…. - Took the needles from my arms and put them to the sky… - Top Gun shut down your Firm like Tom Cruise…. - Don’t you take it so hard now, And please don’t take it so bad…. - 2538. How about these? From around the way, born in '73, Harcore B-boy named… - And this feeling shivers down your spine, Love comes in colors I can’t deny…. - Before he hung up the phone he took a deep breath, stopped, and replied…. - When I want you in my arms, when I want you and all your charms, whenever I want you all I have to do is… - Silly games that you were playing, empty words we both were saying… -

2539. Have you ever been to see a ballet? maybe 2540. What is the difference between Satan and Pan? - 2541. What should a poem be or do if it is a successful poem? ? 2542. When you interpret a poem can each line mean anything you want it to? i’m sure? 2543. Are you an orgasm addict? i like them but naw 2544. Are you a sugar junkie? yes 2545. What are you doing? this and watching The Purge Anarchy

Why aren’t you marching in line with the rest of them? ? 2546. Do you only hear what you want to? sure 2547. Are you anal-retentive? ? 2548. In and Out Over and Under Around and ???

WHAT 2549. What was the last thing you returned to the store? - 2550. Why ask why? to learn

2551. What is your favorite song or artist that is: jazz: Ill Wind - Billie Holuda metal: suicide season - BMTH rock: Since I’ve been loving you - Zeppelin new wave: - psychadelic: - 2552. What are your feelings about: Picasso? - Van Gogh? - Michaelangelo? i like his work D'Vincci? interesting Einstein? he’s cool Tesla? -

2553. Who else can you think of that made a MAJOR contribution to art or science? - 2554. Who can you think of that made a major contribution to modern thought? - 2555. Why is it called 'coca cola’? no idea. 2556. Would you ever buy a Ford car? i have 2557. Donald or Daffy duck? none 2558. What is the most memorable thing about Pee-Wee Herman? - 2559. Lease or buy a car? which i could buy 2560. Have you met Real Talkin’ Bubba? no

Do you love him to death? - 2561. Have you ever been in a situation where you weren’t sure if you were seducing or being seduced? no 2562. Can you 'pinch an inch’ on your belly? - 2563. Have you ever been to: a temple? no a bar? yes a massage parlor? no 2564. Would you ever want to visit Thailand? Sure. 2565. What culture are you fascinated by? European 2566. Have you ever worn a cape? naw 2567. What is the difference between 'nude’ and 'naked’? I don’t care

2568. What can you get for a dollar (.59 brittish pounds)? a soda from the vending machine 2569. What makes you who you are? everything 2570. How do you search for meaning in life? i don’t 2571. If your partner collected internet porn pics of celebs s/he thought was hot would that bother you? no. 2572. You are alone with your lover’s diary. What do you do? ? 2573. You read some and find out that a whhhiiillle back your lover had a crush on someone else, but you two were together. You both still hang out with this person. What do you do? nope. fuck that bitch. 2574. Are you an old fart? basically. 2575. What were your favorite things to do in the yard as a kid? play 2576. Why don’t people have more fun? no idea? 2577. Have you ever wanted to have a pet skinned and turned into an article of clothing? um no wtf

What pet? -

What article of clothing? -

2578. Do I come off sounding normal, mildly irrational, blatantly insane or completely certifiable? i don’t like this question. 2579. Did you ever feel that you were unable to function in society? yes 2580. Is it nap time yet? feels like it. 2581. Do you have to have the space next to the door or can you walk from the other end of the parking lot and still be okay with the world? sure? 2582. Do you like trains? sure 2583. What’s in Hungary? people 2584. have you ever felt like you were holding someone else back? probably.

Has someone ever held you back? dunno 2585. What do you think of the term, 'organized religion’? not a fan 2586. What do you think of the name 'Orson’? idc. 2587. What frustrates you? ignorance. 2588. Winkin, Blinkin and Nod, one night, sailed off in a sea of dew.. ? 2589. Is ten dollars (5 pounds) a good price to pay for one lipstick? no

Does anyone else remember when lipstick was, like, 2 or 3 bucks? no 2590. Are you ill? no 2591. Where were you the night of…..oh hell, last night? home 2592. Do you pronounce the 'er’ sound at the end of words(lookER or lookA)? yes 2593. Do you drink only 100% juice? probably? 2594. Do you remember the bills you have to pay…or even yesterday? yes? 2595. What duck? - 2596. Do you collect coins? no

How about stamps? no 2597. What’s the best way to learn a new language? no idea. 2598. Is god in you? nope 2599. Are you in god? nope. 2600. Do you know which fork to use at a formal table setting?

no