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finnslay · 1 year

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Just saw my old science teacher for the first time since May

She wasn't there on the last day and I didn't get to say goodbye

Anyways. Crying now.

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spacedlexi · 2 months

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maybe if i just put these screenshots together youll understand why i think their relationship just Works so well as it pertains to the characters and themes of S4 in general

neither of them know what theyre doing, but theyre figuring it out Together. the old ways are dead. and together theyll build a new future thats worth fighting for

#twdg #violentine #clems “i dont know” paired with violets “lets figure it out together”. screaming crying throwing up #clem never knew what she was doing!! she was just trying her best!! and now shes tired as SHIT!!! she wants a break 😭!!!#vi helps take that weight off by supporting her as much as she does (which is A LOT!! and clem supports her in return. they grow together)#that bit in the woods where instead of getting grossed out by the guts vi crouches down to ajs level and keeps the situation calm #and she looks up to clem and gives her a little smile. and clem just relaxes and smiles back !! DO YOU UNDERSTAND !!!#clem being anxious about her reaction. violet putting her at ease. clem getting to Relax for 2 seconds. they help each other CHILL 😭#ALSO why their walk home talking about ericson and renaming it and imagining what they could add to it is just so good narratively #they turned that prison into their HOME!! a place worth fighting for!!!#tenn wanting to help rebuild. vi saying Everyone will :') its a home for ALL OF THEM 😭 its about the COMMUNITY !!!#this is also why i think the friends route still works but theres just even more Juice with the romance. even ignoring minnie #violets “you better not disappear on me”. friended clems “ok” to romanced clems “i promise”#in a season about building a home and a family that second one just hits harder you know? and like above with the learning to dance #i just feel like their romantic relationship specifically fits into the overall themes of the game the strongest and elevates it #me talking at the wall (tumblr drafts)#all of my friends who have played twdg are too normie so i gotta make posts like this instead. or i'll die #wont somebody analyze narrative with me #it speaks

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carnivalcarriondiscarded · 1 year

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reopening the ask box is like... just finishing vacuuming shed cat hair, and then immediately going and petting said cat vigorously & watching with delight as So Much Fur sheds right back onto the floor

#knocked it down from 96 asks to 53 lets gooooo #i was gonna keep it closed for much longer but like. that was past me's opinion when they were way more stressed than usual #current me misses Conversing with the Masses! or something like that!#is it a smart decision? probably not!#between packing & comms i dont have much time #but keeping it closed felt so wrong... i dont like keep out signs....#absolutely unprompted #i forgot how time-consuming and difficult packing is #im too out of practice....#ive got all my sketchbooks and notebooks and paper and comics boxed up #Except my wof collection. im waiting for book 15 to be shipped before i box em all up. gotta keep things Together #but yes anyway sorry the box is Open for whatever your little heart desires #which is.... bad timing bc im gonna be chronically Offline tomorrow and probably a decent chunk of the next day #now if yall will excuse me im going to Attempt To Write Fanfic.#we'll see if i manage more than one sentence #i am doing. so much usps research for this shit its hilarious #like yes! i will read reddit threads! watch yt 'day in the life' videos! job listings! etc!#but hey now i know about casing and relays/loops and dps and flats and the difference between city and rural-#its fun to learn new things for writing!#i will be taking Liberties anyway! but at least they'll be a conscious decision yk yk #and if i ever post i can say 'hey i know this is inaccurate But its for the sake of the fic. im doing it on purpose! not outta ignorance!'#also i feel so so bad for cca's like... the work 'ethic' is so fucking inhumane are they ok-

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hypixeluhc · 2 months

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Your feelings have been living for a millennium.

BONUS !!! he eated the buttered fly.

#i got lazy and used the built in csp rose brush #i am not drawing roses #fuck you #anyways #frances moves their wrist what will they do #wilson percival higgsbury #wilson p higgsbury #wilson dst #how many times do we gotta tag your name old man #dont starve #dont starve together #fuckig #dstblr we have got to settle on one tag we cant keep living like this #living millenium #iyowa my beloved #my interests have met like the titanic to the iceberg #but instead of the titanic its a weird indie game from over a decade ago #and instead of a iceberg its vocaloid #fuck what iwas i doing #right yeah tagging this shit #did u know i spent like 3 days on this on and off #its giving (sparkles emoji) untreated adhd #sorry if i drew wilson too twinkish i dont do it on purpose #fucki just remembered i work tomorrow #FUCK i shouldve added the eye like the florid postern has #whatever im not gonna stare at this any longer #i already dont like it anymore #guards remove it from my line of Sight

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imminent-danger-came · 2 months

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My new hobby is skimming through seasons of Ninj//ago to induce a fever dream like state in my psychese

#I've always had kinda like....petty beef with ninj//ago just cause like. EVERYONE compares it to monkie kid #When they r just not comparable beyond the surface level observation that its legos #Like ninj//ago contributes to the idea of an Asian monolith and uh. It's annoying to me.#It's also so thematically empty and they just reset shit whenever and it barely has characters. It's not good #Which makes me feel crazy when lmk is SO good. Like so so so good #Let it be known I've seen all that's out of drag//on rising #the first 3 seasons of the og show. And I skimmed through possession seabound and both crystal king parts #Gotta say. Sea Nya slaps like what the hell #Ninj//ago isn't good but that was legitimately like. Awesome #So there are officially 1 and a half episodes that I find thematically banging #I'm always a sucker for there being no good choice but still having to choose. Like I am. What decision can you live with #But Nya losing herself to the Sea? Losing her own breath and inhaling the sea to remove the water out of Jay's lungs?#The fact that she only became the water ninja because her friends needed her which eventually pushed her into this fate #Making it so she couldn't remember who she was or what her loved ones meant to her?#Her convo with nyad was like #duuddeeeeeeeeeee. brooooooo #Like she became eternal and endless. A force of nature but there was still a small part of her that remembered what ''good'' is #The part of her that would save a sailor who had gone overboard even if it went against the natural course of the ocean #Because there is no right or wrong there. Except in the small drop of Nya that was left #Like what the FUCK that's CRAZYYY BRO #Like she literally had to pull herself out of herself (the sea) to keep ''Nya'' together like. oh my god. How the cookie crumbles I guess #ninjago critical #anyways I've been losing my mind about Sea Nya and how nothing else in ninja//go is like it I needed to get it off my chest #sea nya

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7roaches · 11 months

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assorted old and somewhat unfinished oc art (except the second one thats recent)

#my art #art #trans #my ocs #ocs #trigger #gummy #i guess #i dont likw the name gabe caus ei kinda just threw it in for backstory points but theres no real reason #ill pick a diff name #and sunbeam doesnt even have an actual name yet im caught between sophie & sabrina but i cant keep sunbeam name #crazy to me how these guys started out i should post the first gummy art #it feels weird drawing them being nicento eachothwr. like how in animes characters will hate eachother so much but the official art isnthem #like kissing or something #i gotta practice art and get some story shit together that i can actually show ppl #i feel like i somehow draw worse than i did alpng the process of making em #the blue one wit trigger is my magnum opus of arms ive never drawn a single good arm atter that #i didnt even draw for like months after that bc notjijgn was good enough #ive been eating like a 16th century merchant lately #breads and rice with meat & soup #i had some really good apple and pear slices today i cut & spiralized like 10 apples #ok i dont really have anything else to say

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saeraas · 2 years

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if hakari can get his head blown up twice, stomach blasted, toxic gas inhaled, arm torn off and still survive then yuki can survive too

#jjk #jujutsu kaisen #yuki tsukumo #read the chapter kenjaku gettin on my NERVES #'that's just his technique tho' i said what i said #she better flex her guts and keep that shit together like sanami did in kny #like she gotta survive surely gege wouldn't kill her when she still has narrative importance #jjk spoilers #jjk leaks

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dylanconrique · 9 months

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even if they do break up, how long do you think it's gonna last? i mean really?? they've both made it abundantly clear that they can't live without each other.

#*carly catalogs #like.... it's not gonna be detrimental to them ya'll gotta chiLLLLL #the rookie #the rookie s6 #tim bradford #lucy chen #chenford #otp: you know me so well #plus imagine one of them showing up at the others doorstep all sad and teary eyed like 'i miss you' 🥺💕#..... sharing a very loving make up kiss through tears and soft gentle hugs #i'm sorry but it's 3am and i finally have to give my two cents on this since i keep seeing people losing there shit over a possible breakup #what's that one schmece thing from new girl where someone asks them if they are never not together #and in unison they we're like 'rarely'#that's tim and lucy they're just one of those couples that has to be around each other all the time #and you know why that is??????#it's because they aren't only lovers THEY'RE ALSO BEST FRIENDS

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sidesteppostinghours · 4 months

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guys i made a mistake.

#aka i scrolled through the entire becker siblings tag again on a whim and now im shinjichairpose.png #i dont even have specific thoughts theyre just rotating in my brain now #theres like. very small tidbits that i have stuck in there currently #like their weird thing with control(because i am thinking about that 24/7)#cyrus who needs control vs fawn who defers to it vs river who hates it #how they did that i dont know but im going to take a wild guess and say that its Very unhealthy #and also their relationship to both ortegas #i guess thats only tangentially related to the becker siblings but also like. the ortegas talking about the siblings together #getting drunk and grieving together and trading stories and blaming eachother for letting them die #getting out of their posthb messes because they dont have any (becker) siblings to depend on anymore so theyll have to settle for eachother #also in the survivor!river au im specifically haunted by the fact that river 'does not include ricardo in the package' when julia-#becomes his sibling #the resentment from All sides there??? holy shit #thats gotta blow up eventually right #like i can see ricardo feeling extremely guilty about river but at the same time???? him getting Angry #that river has the Audacity to steal his sister and not even treat him any better for it #so what if he lost his siblings? doesnt mean he has the right to have ricardos #Really funny fucked up reflection of fawns beef with julia but this time its the other way around #.anyway. <-experiencing normal thoughts and emotions #cyrus becker(s)#nmoc: fawn becker(s)#nmoc: river becker(s)#keeping up with the beckers #pulp speaks

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volivolition · 4 months

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Idk if you saw or not but a new chapter of the fury of a shattered mirror dropped last night! I haven’t read it yet but I thought I should let you know 😎👍

awughgh HELL YEAH!! ive been away from my laptop for a while so i didnt see, thank you birdy!! :] this is the best news ive had all day hkjgh <33 excited very excited going to read it now <33

#volta transmissions #SKILLS ARE BACK BABEYYYYYYY!! ehehehehe :] oh i LOVE seeing them come back from just ''??????'' SMILES REALLY HAPPILY #welcome back to the world little ones... oh im so happy to see them... :'] ''You do you softie'' EHEHE... skills interactions :D! yay!!!!!#okay i'll add more liveblogging in the tags as i go probably hkjhg <33 i appreciate you very much birdy <33 #''the avant-garde prick is just making shit up again'' HAKJDHKJ... ''You did us proud holding out til the end'' WAH... ENDURANCE... ;O;#WELCOME BACK ENCY SMILES!!! no motorics skills yet though thats to be expected hkjh <3 ency ''you have the facts'' and #empathy ''and the emotions'' HKJGH IS THAT A FACTSFEELINGS SKILLSPOSTING REFERENCE /J lots of voli talking!!! very happy about this <3 #VOLITION - ''if we had the logician here...'' ''...'' ''damnit i thought that would work'' HAHAJKSHDSKJH SMILES. HA.#''Punch something. maybe Coach will show up'' HHFKJH... oh my god this makes me so happy... cmon we gotta get the gang back together...#half light!! hello!! my darling!! LETS GO!! ough buT NOT ENOUGH TO GET ARMS BACK NOOUIGHJ MOTORICS WHERE ARE YOU LITTLE BUDDIES???#''try to get eyes back online'' ''come on come on--'' OUGH I LOVE... i love how theyre all supporting each other as they come back online..#TEAMWORK!! CMON LETS GET EVERYONE BACK!! YEAH BOI WE GOT A MOTORICS BACK UP!! HELLO PERCEP! calm down! you need composure in here!!#THE JOYWIRE... OUGH STOP STOP IM SO FOND... VOLI CMON. nooo ourgh takes damage... ''You were really gonna cut me out?'' AWAH... WAHHH!!!!!#ow my heart my HEART. chemi baby my little darling... hugging him kissing his forehead... THERES OUR LOGICIAN HELLO DARLING!!#hkjh trying to cue in interfacing DAMN :'] good metaphor anyway concept it was very well laid. voli keeping track of each of them too hehe #HI DRAMA YAYY! platonic love story! friends!!! ''Neuroplasticity's off the charts.'' ''I'm surprised you know a word that long that isn't-#'''amphetamines''' ''Dextromethorphan asshole'' HAJKSH YOU FUCKING TELL 'EM! YOU'RE NOT E-CHEMISTRY FOR NOTHING!!!#again with trying to get Phys back in hkjhg INLANDDD SMILES HI THERE DREAMER!! Logic just like ''yeah. i hate it here.'' ''have you tried?'#okay this is the 20th tag. hopefully a reblog will be enough to finish out my thoughts but god knows i have so much to say hjhg #esprit: Birdy

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dreamlogic · 11 months

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quietly getting more & more annoyed at my housemate & her bf as the evening goes on. thought they were at his house this weekend but they showed up unexpectedly to have loud sex here, left for a little bit, came back in the middle of a fight, and are now watching tv really loudly in between continuing to totally-not-fight-everything's-FINE.

#ctxt #shit chat #they're both rly nice people who genuinely love each other a lot & have been together like 7 years #but in the time i've known them they just keep playing out the same maladaptive patterns together and it's painful to watch #one of them will be irritable for some reason and snap at the other; other responds by airing a deep-seated grievance they've been sittin on #and instead of just. having a conflict about it to its conclusion to resolve the issue they just both fall over themselves apologizing #and spend several hours being really touchy & reactive to little things but overwhelmingly gentle/reassuring/affectionate #person A: *snaps* im sorry baby i didn't mean it i'm just stressed i love you so much can i do anything for you?#person B: no no my love you're fine i'm not mad i understand can i do anything for YOU you're so special i care about you so much #*make out in the kitchen about it a bit. swap roles rinse & repeat*#like i know turning towards a loved one after conflict instead of giving them the cold shoulder is a sign of emotional maturity #and is generally a healthy communication habit #but like. you gotta actually HAVE the conflict first instead of glossing over it the minute difficult emotions come up???#and when they get in these loops i really think they should just. agree on a mutual time out to do their own thing for a day #calm down sort themselves out and then come back together to mend things #instead of just reflexively drawing closer together immediately to try and smother discontent #which just results in them still being upset and now tripping over each other bumping elbows exacerbating things #while being obnoxiously saccharine to cover it up #i mean. 7 yrs is nothing to sneeze at but imo this is. not a sustainable way of relating & building a life together #and it sucks to watch it play out. reminds me of my parents who were blissfully incompatible in a similar way for like 30 years #before it finally blew up spectacularly with a lot of collateral damage earlier this year.

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ilonacho · 11 months

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it hit me what makes me the most miserable abt my work week is how it’s just school all over again. just hanging in there until the weekend. repeat. repeat. repeat

#5 outta 7 days im at work. 2 days of freedom #2 days to do chores n run errands n relax n sleep n draw n catch up w/ friends n go places #and if u gotta reschedule itll be weeks before ur available again #like for months now ive tried to get together w/ friends but our days off dont match n shit keeps coming up #not to mention im fucking tired! im exhausted! i want to sleep in and then draw the rest of the day!#i think the worst part is that back in school.. at least it didnt matter as much? because it all led to an end aka graduation?#like i didnt mind the wait for next weekend as much cuz it was temporary #like eventually ill graduate and then ill have freedom! (i thought? for some reason??)#but now its like.. the weeks are going by so fast this year is already almost over i turn 26 in 2 weeks #and this is.. the rest of my life? like youre kidding right? this cant be it?#i get off work n then i have to take care of the cats n chores n then eat dinner n then shower n then its late and i gotta sleep #before work the next day. i dont have time nor energy to rly do anything #and ill get that feeling of like. oh well at least it brings me closer to the next ‘weekend’#but i dont wanna live weekend to weekend #i mean im thankful to have a job n coworkers i love like i truly hate it there sometimes but i also am happy and thankful for it #but yknow.. it shouldnt have to be like this #i worded this so much better in the shower but im tired of feeling like school part 2 like what the fuck man #ive had work every single day since we came back from our trip n i just dont have time/energy for anything #i need to open commissions back up but i havent even gotten around to starting one a friend asked for #not to mention this years christmas card ive barely got the sketch done for #and again. my favourite holiday. halloween is on tuesday and while we did plan halloweeny stuff it just has not felt like halloween #i havent had any ideas/energy/time for any halloweeny art #+chores n errands etc lmao we havent even been to the grocery store yet (calling us out here)#it just. suuuuucks aaaaaass man the world is so beautiful life is a gift i dont wanna spend it like this

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dandyshucks · 5 months

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thinking thoughts but unable to put it into words... oughhh im just rotating scenarios and characters in my brain around and around and around

#i need the system to stop blocking off the tiredness and pain receptors so i don't push myself to a breaking point omfg 😭#(i was doing cleaning and tidying and reorganizing like a madman the past couple days again oops)#like its HELPFUL short-term but then im out of commission for several days after and that sucks shit fdsjkl #esp bc my main activity is creative stuff but when im this tired i can barely even put together two consecutive coherent thoughts LMAO #this post alone has taken me like five mins to write out bc i keep getting lost in fog 😭 normally i think it'd take me one minute fdjskl #I gotta find some way to still work on things even though im dead on my feet hmmm #alternatively... i could just. chill. and rest. but i Want to do things :[ aheemheem whimper FDSJJKL #dandy.cmd #vent //

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graciousdragon · 9 months

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i need to draw showtime but colorpicked from the mcr bullets album cover

#rys.txt #i may just do this #i think it would look pretty rad actually #my hyperfixations always gotta bleed together and create the weirdest shit man #it's dawning on me just how many mcr songs fit with glitching fates characters. ESPECIALLY showtime and glamrock #i really gotta elaborate on these guys man i can't keep all this story inside my head. but alas i am shit at putting my thoughts into words #just know that i continue to be not normal about them <3 light and love y'all #dawko

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kuiinncedes · 8 months

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#bro fucking stupid like why did i just not look at applying to masters until now #i'm so dumb like ig it was bc i ws just like i'm not gonna do masters im just gonna try to get a job #which like how the fuck am i supposed to do that lmao but #now i dont think i can even apply for masters at my school at least #bc i need fucking letters of rec and the deadline is the 15th #and i Barely have 2 ppl i would ask for letter of rec idek if the second one counts lmfao if she's not at my school #jfc im so why do i have to think about the future :c i just wanna do glowstick club things that's why i haven't been thinkign abt this lmfa #yeah so now i dont think i can do masters here :c which also means i dont have that as a reason to hang around and stay in glowstick clublo #i could still do that but #ugh whatever im trying to write a fucking cover letter rn for a job i hate this already i've barely done anything lmfao #i dont super understand the job description which is maybe a sign i shouldnt apply lmfao but it's like #data science w my year and i feel like i meet some of the qualifications so #just gotta somehow bullshit another paragraph of this cover letter together #i also dont even know if i actualy wanna fucking do a data analyst job like #i kinda wanna work for like a non profit or smaller org kinda thing all this shit sounds hella boring that i keep seeing for bigger #companies lmao which im not saying would no be the case for smaller but #idk i jsigsdfhjlbgpidwurhgbipwdhgfudjshlk why did i start this so late LMAO #i had a job opening that i was gonna apply for that looked pretty good and i felt pretty qualified for just based on the listing #and the deadline was the 15th but it fucking disappeared the job isnt there anymore ig im so sad lmfao #as;lkfngbjifbgqipurgipqhrgfipuaf i hate this :DDDDDD #jeanne talks

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snoring-dragon-productions · 1 year

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Just spent some time crying while sitting on the bathroom floor and proceeded to stay there for Who Knows How Long with my eyes closed, not quite asleep but mentally checked out of Existing.

I’m winning at life lmao

#negative tw #dragon’s ramblings #gotta love how whenever I have a Good Day planned; some fresh Hell breaks loose and I’m here trying to arrange the pieces lol #I’m just Tired. can’t even let myself get too comfortable because then shit goes bad #this is exactly why I can’t believe it when people say it’ll be better #not in a ‘it’ll never get better’ kinda way #that’s not what I’m saying at all #but in an ‘someone says they’ve got their shit together’ kinda way #because they Don’t. and it’s all just Words to me #I’ll believe it when I see it and when I see it for an extended period of time #because I don’t see it #so just stop even Trying to tell me otherwise #I’m tired and upset and confused and frustrated #and all I can do is try to weather the storm as best I can #because hopefully it’ll pass and when it does; the boat will still be afloat #but I can’t keep us from sinking on my own #and I don’t even know if the others are able to either #but fuck it; I’ll keep doing what I can #because I like to think that things would be a lot worse if I stopped #so fuck it. this is just how things are gonna be right now #at least I can type my shit down instead of screaming them at people #because I’d rather be That Person than the one actually screaming all the shitty things I’m thinking #because that sure as Hell isn’t helping anyone but whatever hgjtbughg

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