#i hate that i cant do it because i dont wanna fucking fail but i still need to do my work if id ont wanna fail

[hyp3rfixation-h3ll]

burgertron HATE ged prep . burgertron PILEDRIVE WHOEVER MADE IT SO THAT YOU HAVE TO TAKE 4 SEPARATE TESTS TO GET A PIECE OF PAPER THAT SAYS YOU DID IT into THE FUCKING DIRT!!!!!!!

[widevibratobitch]

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[kirexa]

It's not hard to do so WHY IS IT SO HARD. My teacher posts filled in copies of the notes online so I just have to copy in down so WHY IS COPYING IT DOWN SO HARD. I fucking hate this. I don't care to do my work because I know I can pass the tests but fuck I don't wanna fail. But GOD it's so hard to force myself to do the work.

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thank u to the person who called me a "transtrender" and said i'm faking it and not queer enough and learned about queerness through tiktok etc etc. all because i made the absolutely fucking buck wild claim that we should let bi lesbians live their lives in peace. wow

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every time I interact with any person ever I feel like I failed at social interaction and ,,,, it's great :)))))

[hecksupremechips]

Ooooooghhhhhhhhh stressed 🥺

[sturniol0s]

DARE. MATT STURNIOLO

part 2

matt x fem!reader

a harmless prank wont hurt right?

warnings- use of y/n, swearing, smut, high matt, p in v, weed.

matt’s pov

I stood outside shuffling through my keys trying to get to the house key. i walked in to hear chris, nick, and nate all in the living room taking turns to play ‘mario carts’.

“yo, how’d it go? did you guys fuck?” chris asks

“no, but she thinks i like her” i respond as i sit beside him

“bro, you know what would make the prank even better? you should text her” chris says

“i’ll try” i say as i get up

as im heading upstairs i cant help to smile from how good the prank is going. i grab my phone from my pocket and text her, mostly the only time i did text her was when i started getting f’s in junior year of high school and need the homework answers.

Me: Hey. I had a good time with you today!

Y/n: yeah! it was fun

Me: Do you wanna smoke weed? my brothers are getting on my nerves and i need a distraction.

Y/n: yeah! sure

Me: K, pick you up in 10

y/n pov

the next hour moved painfully slow. This is either because im waiting to see matt or because im waiting for weed.

matt and i have never talked about anything other than him asking for homework answers or just him messing with me in general.

while i wait i put on a blue oversized zip up and black cargo pants. i get a text from matt saying he’s outside my apartment.

Matt: Im here!

Me: okay, give me a minute to get outside

Matt: No, i mean im at your front door.

i get a knock on the door. i run to open the door.

“matt!!” i say as i hug him

“hii” he says while laughing

“i dont think anyone has ever been that excited to see me” he added

i chuckle as we are on our way to the car.

“so where are we going?” i ask

“my house” he replys

“okay” i say

matt starts holding my hand. i smile as he looks at me.

“why are you smiling?” he says while laughing

“no reason” i shrug

15 minutes later

we pull in to his drive way and he gets out the car to open my door.

“thank you!” i say

“yeah of course” he replies

as we enter the house i can see his brothers stare at us walk up to his room.

Matt digs his hand into the pocket of his pants. “here” he says as he pulls out a bag.

“thank you” i smile, giving him a kiss before sitting down on the floor.

“thats all i get?” he frowns

“yeah, for now! come smoke this weed with me”.

matt follows me and sits beside me against a wall.

“want me to roll it” he offers as he watches me fail

“mhm” i hum

me and matt have smoked together a couple times before but we haven’t done it in a couple weeks.

“can you pass me a lighter?” matt asks.

i pass him the lighter while i continue to watch him.

he turns his body facing me. “open your mouth”

i do as he says, sucking on his thumb as he uses it to seal the joint shut.

he holds the joint against my lips, and i take it between them, letting him light the other end.

i inhale the smoke entering my mouth.

before i can let out the smoke, he lifts my chin up and kisses me. as my mouth is partly open. the smoke goes in between our mouths.

he smiles at me.

i hold the joint in front his face, letting him grab it with his mouth and take it between his fingers.

“your so beautiful ma” matt says

“thank you” i say as he hands the joint back to me

after a few minutes of silence i decide to ask him a question

“do you like me?” i ask him

“yes, do you?” he replies

“yeah” i say

“come here, ma” he demands

i sit on his lap and he kisses me, after making out for god knows how long he stops and smothers me with wet kisses.

“matt. i need you” i whisper

“i know, i know” he says

matt carry’s me to the bed.

We make out for some time. i lost track of it. i don’t even know if this is the weed or if its just me. my hips aimlessly lift up to find something to create some sort of friction.

what are we doing? im kissing the person i “hated” for 9 years.

we continue making out on the bed as he takes his shirt off, his hands slide to the bare skin under my shirt, with out a second though i take my shirt off completely forgetting i don’t have a bra on

“fuck, your so pretty”

he softly kisses my chest, flicking his tongue over my nipples before sucking them.

he slowly starts unbuttoning his jeans and pulls them down only leaving him with boxers. he slowly starts taking them off.

he pulls my pants and underwear off all together.

“wet for me already?” he says

“matt, please” i whisper

“i know, i know” he says before putting my legs over his shoulders and pushing inside of me.

i grip onto a pillow as my body adjusts to his size. matt gasps in pleasure. he drops his head to my neck, letting me hear his soft whimpers as he feels me clenching around him

he starts thrusting into me. both of us hearing the sound of our skin echo in the room.

im having sex with my so called enemy.

he pushed one of my legs, spreading me more.

“fuck” i yell out.

“gotta be quite if u want me to keep going” matt warns me. he puts his hand over my mouth.

his dick hits every spot perfectly. i find my self begging for him, moaning his name, something we both would never expect.

he pounds in to me watching his cum fill me up as my cum drips around him.

he drops beside me and gets up to grab a towel.

“here” he says as he hands me a towel. I clean my self up and grab my panties and put it back on as i lay back in his bed waiting for him to come in.

he puts sweat pants on and a black shirt.

he gets in bed and puts his hands on my waist and his head on my neck.

i love you

“i love you to” matt replies

part 3?🔥

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even if they talk; trent alexander-arnold smau

pairing: trent alexander-arnold x nepobaby knowles!model!reader

face claim: taylor russell

summary: people will criticize everything, but there is someone who will never fail you, and that was trent.

warnings: mostly fluff, angst (bit of hate and critics towards reader).

note: this is my first smau i hope it's not too bad! i would love to hear your thoughts or suggestions, also requests are open! — venus 🫂💐🫧

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trentarnold66 🤷🏽‍♂️

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user1 the best out there

user2 unreal 🔥🔥🔥

user3 let's go reds!

ynknowles congrats! is there some secret routine helping you before the game to be that amazing? 🤔

↪trentarnold66 Maybe.. But I can't share any details here 🤫

↪user4 ARE WE MISSING SOMETHING????

↪user5 whats so interesting??? share with the class????

user6 yn and trent interacting??? i- wow

↪user7 if i hadnt seen it with my own eyes id say everyones tripping

user8 are they implying something or is just me

↪user9 I THOUGHT EXACTLY THE SAME

user10 YOU BETTER EXPLAIN YOURSELF ynknowles

user11 LET HER COOK

↪user12 girl i think they've already had a feast

user13 wtf is yn doing here

↪user14 she ruins everything good

user15 i hope trent doesnt distract w this... cant even say it

↪user16 yeah we know what she did to her exes so...

↪user17 put some respect on beyoncé's daughter's name and inform yourself before talking, mind you

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user trent can do so much better than yn. she just wants to stay relevant

user shes using trent because she has no talents to show

user i've heard rumors about how yn's exes have ended. trent, watch your back, my man.

↪user you talk as if she murdered them??? plus she never did anything to any of her exes you're just talking bc it's free

user i just hope that trent can open his eyes asap

user what a disappointment from trent. i thought he was better than dating a spoiled kid with too much time and money in her hands

user y'all are just jealous that she has what many desire 1. money 2. fame 3. beauty 4. trent's dick

user why is everyone jumping to conclusions though? we should give them the space to tell us whenever they feel ready

user i love how haters act like they know everything about yn's life and they dont know shit

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ynknowles paris you are the vibes ⭐️ so damn proud of my little blue and this mind-blowing tour, i love you momma beyonce !

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beyonce Love you endlessly, my angel. You know how much your support means to Blue. 💙

bellahadid Prettiest fairy in the world.

troyesivan mmm alright??? why are you so perfect???

user18 no trent here though 🤷‍♀️

user19 this is the confirmation about how yn just uses trent

user20 ugh. i hate these nepobabies who think the world revolves around them

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ynknowlesupdates Yn Knowles in Anfield today with friends! This is the first time we've seen her in public in three months.

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user1 i cant stand her 😒 smile or smth if youre gonna see your "boyfriend"

↪ ynfan1 if you cant stand her then poke your eyes with a spoon and dont bother 😁

ynfan2 omg this will be the first match that she attends. i hope she enjoys it!!!! (win please)

ynfan3 I MISSED HER SO MUCH IM GLAD SHES WELL

ynfan4 baby looks tired of people taking pics of her 😕 i wanna hug her

↪user2 but shes there for that??? she loves attention

↪ynfan5 or maybe just MAYBE she wants to support her boyfriend??

ynfan6 TODAY I WAS MISSING HER MORE THAN ANYTHING SHE LOVES ME

trentfan1 WHAT THE FUCK IS SHE DOING THERE?? i though we had gotten rid of her 😩

user4 if we lose today you know who is to blame...

trenfan2 over and over again i will repeat it until trent leaves her, shes with him for fame

↪ynfan7 yeah cause trent is soooo worried about what you think right???

user5 i bet shes there just for the cameras

trentfan3 yn trying to be a wag is so cute and laughable. she doesnt even measure up to the real ones.

↪user6 ikr? shes trying so hard poor girl

trentfan4 the fact that she goes with her friends 💀💀 i bet no wag would want to be seen with her

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trentarnold66 Just clever people can handle how flawless my queen is. Happy first anniversary, my love. I love you madly, always. No need to demonstrate anything on social media when we're tellin' each other how much we love at every hour. ❤️

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ynknowles i love love love you so fucking much you dont have an idea

↪trentarnold66 i love you more more more than you could imagine

ynknowles thank you for being the most perfect man ive ever known t ❤️❤️❤️❤️

↪trentarnold66 i just try my best to be on your level, lovely

beyonce You are such a gentleman, Trent! Grateful for the way you take care of my angel.

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ynfan8 A YEAR??? BUT IF WE FOUND OUT FOUR MONTHS AGO

↪trentfan5 i feel so stupid how did they hide it so well 😦😦

trentfan6 shut them up trent

trentfan7 THATS A GOOD MAN!!!! men just take notes rn

bellahadid Thank you for taking care of the purest woman in this world, Trent 💖

ynfan9 not bee and bella thanking him 🥺🥺

↪trentfan8 im gonna cry he must be so cute

↪ynfan10 no bc she surely spent some tough months with the hate towards her and he sure was the supportive boyfriend as he should 😭😭

trentfan9 WHY NO ONES TALKING ABOUT THE BATMAN KEYCHAINS???

↪ynfan11 nonononooooo i love them best couple in the world

ynfan12 the pics he takes of her, the caption, everything 😪😪😪 god send me a man like that

trentfan10 the people who said they were going too fast must be regretting it 🤭

ynfan13 im afraid we'll find out they have kids when they're in uni, lmao. happy anniversary you two!!!! ❤️❤️❤️❤️

[f4y3w00d5]

Ugh I dont wanna vent again but here I am.

So I'm not really gonna go TOO specific, cos big triggers ig, but basically in class today, we somehow got to the topic of The Weeknd, and how the teachers son, whos doing some course (i dont remember which) is doing something to do with analyzing music, and he learnt about the INCREDIBLY big trigger that most Weeknd songs are about, and how horrible she thought it was that kids were going to a concert and getting that thing ingrained in their mind, and then young girls were leaving with boys after what it was about, and some kid made an opinion which, i dont remember the whole thing, but it ended with (jokingly) 'Not that I would know' but in the way that suggested he did (except it was a joke, he didnt). And then OBVIOUSLY one of my so called 'friends' called out, saying that they should ask ME about it because of course I would know (I wouldnt. That has not happened to me. Fuck him.), and it really hurt me, and when I confronted him about it, and he laughed it off, and said that he didnt support it for LEGAL reasons. This same 'friend' repeatedly makes jokes about me being emo (not emo. I listen to punk, and I dress kinda grunge.), about me being jewish, and the other two main triggers people have. I HATE it. And then know what happens? I was talking to Slyme earlier, about all this stuff, and what happened last year (they kept saying that I would ENJOY being kidnapped by a serial killer), because I didnt realise THIS amount of that kinda stuff was toxic and bullying and shit.

I tried to become not-friends with him this afternoon, and I fucking failed. I couldnt. I was too fucking weak. I clearly cant take disapproval SO much, that I keep myself in a pretty toxic 'friendship'. I hate this so much. Also, sorry for the long vent

[nerves-nebula]

I know this might be kinda stupid but. do you have any music recs. specifically of the child abuse variety because I'd be very interested in that.

*sweats* ok so here's the thing- I have a playlist called "Abuse" and its full of music that is either explicitly about abuse, related to abuse thematically, or just has Abuse Vibes to me (some of which is likely inexplicable to other people)

im also kind of self conscious about my taste in music, cause sometimes it's like. i dunno. the steven universe soundtrack or a fnaf song i really like. and thats CRINGE! and really any genre of song can be about Child Abuse so it's like. idk if you'll like any of the things i recommend.

THAT BEING SAID, here's a selection i guess!! because I'm flattered you would even ask haha. a lot of these are pretty well known already tho so idk how helpful this will be. anyway this got hella long so. under the cut!

songs explicitly about or including themes of child abuse/having shit parents/having familial issues:

Guiltless by Dodie

Black by Okkervil River (narrative about a guys girlfriend telling him about her dad sexually abusing her. one of, if not the first, song i ever heard about CSA and it holds a special place in my heart)

The Mute by Radical Face

Ripple Effect by Scott Helman (kinda more about generational trauma & healing if im honest. i dont listen to it as much as the others on this list)

Poplar St by Glass Animals

Daddy Issues by The Neighborhood

Twin Sized Mattress by The Front Bottoms (classic i know)

The Family Jewels by Marina and the diamonds

Family Line by Conan Gray

Christmas Kids by ROAR (ok technically not about the kids but i find the subtext of how the kids are used in this abusive relationship horrific. also, it reminds me of my parents)

Drift Away - Steven Universe (OK I KNOW ITS NOT TECHNICALLY ABOUT THAT BUT TO ME IT'S ABOUT MY MOM. IT TRACKS TOO EXACTLY TO NOT INCLUDE HERE)

Other Abuse songs:

labour by Paris Paloma

This Hurts by Mindless Self Indulgence (my ex wife says i listen to this song to go joker mode and i hate that because i know she means Straight Joker and not Camp Joker but i do really like the song)

I'm your puppet by Gregory And The Hawk

Eric by Mitski (REAL GOOD)

Believe Me by James and the Shame (more about spiritual abuse sort of)

Girl Anachronism by The Dresden Dolls

Thermodynamic Lawyer esq GFD by Will Wood and the Tapeworms

We'll Never Have Sex by Leith Ross (less about abuse and more about, like, a healing relationship. still i think you can easily read into the alluded past abuse or sexual issues going here)

Fuck About It by Waterparks

Please, Please, Please, Let Me Get What I Want by The Smiths (this is just such an abused person song)

This Hurts by Mindless Self Indulgence (my ex wife says i listen to this song to go joker mode and i hate that because i know she means Straight Joker and not Camp Joker but i do really like the song)

Sex With A Ghost by Teddy Hyde

I Cant Handle Change by ROAR (obviously)

rotting by vivivivivi

rook by sardonica

My favorite "Abuse Vibe" songs (NOTE: some of these songs might be about abuse or toxic relationships but um. im not very smart or good at sorting so. they ended up here):

Take a Slice by Glass Animals (PLEASE LISTEN TO THIS ONE FUCK THE REST OF THIS LIST EXCEPT ANIMALS I LOVE THOSE TWO)

Animals by Stomach Book (SEE ABOVE)

Youth by Daughter

Duck Or Ape by ROAR

Million Dollar Gold Digger (idk what it is about this remix im not even a huge fan of either of the songs its mixing. this is the VIBES part of the rec list i don't have to explain myself)

I'll Be Good by Jaymes Young

Gooey by Glass Animals

Breaking Down by Florence & The Machine

Moby Dick by Jakey

Aurora Borealis by Lemon Demon (hard to justify but this song just brings such vivid "abused kid failing to be normal while hanging out with someone and further isolating themself" vibe. yes im projecting. leave me alone)

The Dismemberment Song by Blue Kid (sometimes you just wanna kill your parents)

I'M GONNA WIN by Rob Cantor (this one just feels like anger and bitterness and being suspicious of anyone who tries to help you. I listen to it when im fucking going through it. its also a bop but you prolly already know that, i think it's pretty popular? idk)

It's Alright by Mother Mother (stereotypical i know)

South Dakota by Jakey (honestly i dunno. i dont even know where south dakota is)

My Blood by Twenty One Pilots (for all you sibling havers out there)

My Play by AJR (my parents arent divorced but man i wish they were. Also, this just brings up very vivid memories for me trying to show my parents things and it is fucking crushing haha)

Best Of You by Foo Fighters (idk just more shit that reminds me of my parents)

The Woods by San Fermin (this one is just very "I should have died as a child"-core to me)

JUVY ft. Julia Bard by Nnamdi Ogbonnaya (this guy is weird and i didnt like his stuff at first but then... i came back... and now he holds a place in my heart)

Grape Gil by Nnamdi Ogbonaya (i think this is my favorite song of his. I nearly made an owl house animatic to it)

Obsession by OK GO

Better Than Me by The Brobecks

ARE WE STILL FRIENDS by Tyler The Creator

Dumb Dumb by Mazie (honestly this one just reminds me of thinking "i hate it here everyone is so dumb" and then maladaptive daydreaming for hours to escape the situation hah)

Stone Wall, Stone Fence by Gregory And The Hawk

Never Wanna Fall in Love With U by Nelward

Another New World by Punch Brothers (this one is such an explicit and straightforward narrative i really can't explain it other than like. the emotions.)

Julep by Punch Brothers (once again, the emotions)

Always Sayin' by The Littles Man Band

A NIGHT OUT ON EARTH by Waterparks

Consequences by Lovejoy

Scum by Lovejoy

SMELLS LIKE TEEN SECRETS by lil boodang (another hard to justify one. idk. it just feels like it ok. sue me)

anyway i'm sure there's more but thats just a quick selection from my Abuse playlist. and by quick i mean you better appreciate this cuz i put way more effort into this than i needed to.

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MAD. I have so many things i love abt your fics. in no order:

The panick from elotes when he sees charlie die from dehydration and he decides ‘fuck emotional maturity’ !!!!! OH GOD ITS SO GOOD

I think CONSTANTLY about when charlie was like ‘you dont have to call me slime, it isnt, like, reserved’ and they talk and etoiles goes ‘oh and you can say my name right’ and slime goes WHAT. Oh god i think abt it like daily and have a giggle

In fake it till you make it when charlie is calling etoiles all the nicknames and antoine just pretends like nothing is happening ❤️❤️

on the topic of fitymi, THE KISS GLASS FACTORY SCENE. RENT FUCKING FREE. The way you wrote it and then THE COPS KNOWING LMAOOO IT DIDNT WORK. Roier chanting “mi dinero!” Bc he won the bet is CHEF KISS

when etoiles casually kisses charlie and leaves, phil’s reaction when he realizes is GOLD KKKKK. “Is that why charlie has been blowing up my phone?” And etoiles going “i kissed and now i am telling” AGH

The intro (?) scene to immi where etoiles is just like ‘its okay its okay its okay he doesnt need items, hes really doing just fine–’ so he doesn’t rip charlies armor off where hes standing is HILARIOUS

“He is here. He is ravenous” then charlie dying to eater of suns was my favorite bc ITS SO IN CHARWCTER LMAO. HE WOULD.

How etoiles breaks a million avocados as baghera pulls out all the arrows from charlie. You can //feel// the need to protect coursing through his veins and poor bro has to make dinner

How youve written TWO scenes where etoiles brain fails upon imagining charlie in eyeliner. I KNOW WHAT YOU ARE (i am too)

Not a apecific scene, but the (in immi) motif of charlie not feeling like enough so he always has to bring //something//.

GOD THE ENTIRE MOST RECENT CHAPTER OF IMMI. STAN FERAL HYBRID. STAN THEIR ONE SAFE PERSON. HAHAIXHSNAJAJJSUXIXIWWNKEODOEPQPEI

The immi scene where etoiles tells charlie about the bug :(

God how //unserious// charlie is about being hurt (and probably etoiles but they have different ways of unserious). Its so true to his character but i still wanna just SHAKE HIM so he doesn’t crack jokes //while he’s bleeding out//

The scene where etoiles rushes charlie back. It feels so rushed but not like you wanted to get it over with, just… like everything is a blur to etoiles while hes doing this. Like he remembers the steps he took but not what he felt when he took them. (Also how he gives himself five seconds to scream into a pillow. Felt that. STAN.)

Him asking for two cookies from phil bc he is ‘fading fast’ and when phil shows up he pretty much (albiet accidently) tunes oht phil bc he //cant look away from charlie–//

That stupid fucking cod elotes put in the barh idk if it has a name but I have a love/hate relation with it. I wonder if they kept it.

“Its not a waste with you” KILL ME THEYRE IN LOVE

When etoiles tells him to say if he feels hurt, then charlie starts crying and e is like “eh! Im so sorry what did i do you didnt say anything–” and charlies like eueuue youre so nice

Charlie purring… yes… YESSS…. (Love it when anything and everything hybrid purrs 💖)

“My cucumber” ….

When charlie pretends to be etoiles boyfriend to get into the hospital (fitymi) and the nurses are like uh this guy named charlie- and elotes goes “hehehehhhh yeahh charlie. He’s my bro” and the nurses take that as dating (BECAUSE WHAT ELSE IS IT????)

sorry tjis was so long i just had a chance to rant abt your writing and BY GODS NAME DID I TAKE IT

💖i hope you fee better

DUDE 😭😭😭

This is the best thing I’ve ever read. People always comment on chapters and fics in that moment they read them usually, so I’m always curious what sticks with people weeks later, what occupies their brain again and again long after reading…

Reading all this had me smiling so fucking big it Hurts oh my good you are so sweet dude

To answer your question: Charlie kept the cod Paul! It lives in the little pond he has in the greenhouse. It was supposed to be mentioned during the birthday chapters, but I reworked a lot of content and it not longer fit nicely so I just took it out for now. The feesh will be seen again…

The nicknames in fake it were my favorite part. I got like three sentences in and was like— hold on Idea—

And yeah Charlie giving things to Étoiles in immi, that comes a personal habit. Qcharlie has been broken down time and time again that this amount of unwavering kindness feels illegal to accept. He’s had to pay the price for so much, so sure this too right? Étoiles wants to shake him <3

YEHAHHH THE NAME THING IN IMMI!!! Man I needed a way to ween Étoiles into calling him Charlie that was just causal cause that’s Boring, and I wanted to acknowledge the face that irl, ccChatlie didn’t know how to pronounce his name at first either lmao

i like Charlie in eyeliner, sue me….

One of my favorite chapters might just be A Bandage. From the other islanders to the cooking to karaokeduo to the Chittering!!!!! Idk that one holds a special place in my heart <3

Also fun fact: I had like, 4 other fake dating scenarios I jotted down for fake it but I was worried the fic would turn into immi which also started as a 5+1 so I scrapped some ideas and kept a it short and sweet. kinda regret it and wish I could rewrite it but I still like what it turned in to

Man reading my own work through your comments is really nice. Gives me a better appreciation for what I’m creating haha

Thank you sm for all this, it means a lot and it’s never too long trust me <333

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Playful "interrogation" (Style tickle fic)

Warnings:

This is a tickle fic (strictly sfw both characters are kids)

I am shipping Stan and style

Contains feet tickles

Some swearing (I censored them a bit :>)

"cmon Kyle, I know you have a crush, everyone at school is arguing about who it is!" Stan said to an annoyed and flustered Kyle

"I do not have a fucking crush!" Kyle yelled his voice going up a defensive tone

"Then what's with the blush? Huh" Stan teased

It was true Kyle had a big crush on someone. God knows how anyone found out but no one actually knows who it is. Kyle didn't really want his super best friend to know his crush so he was VERY embarrassed about the situation.

"shut up Stan!" Kyle said and hid his embarrassed face "quit teasing me a$Shøle I don't have a crush"

"hmm am I gonna have to make you tell me, Kyle?" Stan asked and wiggled his fingers towards his flustered friend, making Kyle's face go around 3 shades of red, darker.

Kyle felt his heart beat fast at the sight and he knew what was coming for him. He'd been tickled by Stan a ton of times and I mean he couldn't really say he disliked it.. oh what am I saying he loves been tickled by Stan but this time was different because he knew that he had something to confess.

"nohoo Stan don't" Kyle giggled backing into the corner "can we just move on from this whole thing I don't have a crush and tic-...doing that isn't going to make me feel any different.."

(Kyle can't say the t word to save his life)

"nope dude I'm not letting you get away so easy, b1tch" he teased and pounced on his red haired "friend"

"stahan nohoho this is so gahay" Kyle laughed and tried to squirm out of his crus- best friends's grip failing.

"I haven't even started yet" Stan laughed with Kyle and felt his face become warm and he hoped his blush wasn't noticeable

"JUST DOHO IT ALREADYY" Kyle yelled because he couldn't take the anpicitation (I can't spell)

"really dude? You want tickles that bad? Wow" Stan asked and started to claw at the giggling boys sides

"nohoho DUDE STOHHOP" his giggles turned into a loud boyish laughter

"hmm you gonna tell me your crush??" Stan asked but he didn't really care about that anymore he just wanted an exscuse to tickle Kyle :3

"noho dude I dohont have on- NAHAHA STAN NOT THEREE QUIT IT" he was cut off by Stan lifting up his shirt and Tickling his belly quickly

"dude tell meeee" he pleaded and tickled his ribs

"NOHOHO I DONT HAVE ONEE PLEASE STOPIT" He yelled and shook his head frantically making his hat fall off.

Kyle rarely took his hat off which Stan didn't get because his hair is so damn fluffy.

"ehehe I guess you want me to tickle right here don't you?" Stan asked and scratched his ears

"NOHOO PLEASE I CANT F#CKING TAKE ITT" he laughed and wriggled around like his life depended on it.

"just tell me your god damn crush then!" Stan said and smiled at his adorable "friend"

"NEHEVEERR! DUHUDE F#CK OFF" he cursed and forget to deny that he had a crush

"DUDE YOU DIDN'T DENY IT YOU HAVE A CRUSH!" Stan gasped and continued to tickle Kyle's bright pink ears "cmon you can tell me, I'm your best friend Kyle"

He was more genuine and less teasy when he said that last part.

"NAHAHA I HATE YOUU" Kyle yelled not really meaning it "STAHAPPP"

"ouch dude that really hurts my feelings" Stan joked "you know that was mean of you i think you deserve a punishment"

"NOHOHO IM SORRY" Kyle giggled he'd been tickled by Stan too many times to know what was coming

"too late Kyle" he teased and grabbed the extremely Flustered boy's foot and Tickling his toes

"NAHAHAHA STOP YOU ABSOLUTE A$$HOLE PLEAHEASEE?"

"don't worry I'll stop after this dude I don't wanna kill you" Stan said telling the truth

"BUT I DIDN'T TELL YOUHOU IT?"

"I don't really care who your crush is ,well maybe a little, I just wanted to tickle you lol"

"YOUHOU BAST@RD"

After a few more minutes Stan stopped leaving Kyle slightly disappointed but happy he could finnaly breath properly.

"you okay dude?" Stan asked and put his hand on Kyle's stomach (Kyle was laying down in a puddle of giggles)

"yehes, dohont touch meheh" he giggled still feeling phantom tickles on his stomach due to the light touch

"Oop sorry" Stan said and laughed a bit. He always loved seeing Kyle so giggly he found it so cute.

"I hatehe youhou" Kyle said and grabbed Stan's hand and held it.

"your litteraly holding my hand dum@ss" Stan said and laughed

"my crush.....is....you.." Kyle whispered

WOOO cliffhanger should I make a part 2?

That took alot of motivation out of me so don't expect another long fic anytime soon 😭

Tell me what y'all think maybe I'll write more south park someday

[shoezuki]

no E Clown minecrafters seem to know Why or How the dsmp and other minecraft smps like hermitcraft got so Big. like they dont GET IT. especially most of the dsmp members dont seem to Understand

like. they did (and still do, in the hermits' case) really fuckin good because it wasnt about making that Huge Popular Server. it starts with jus wantin to have a place a bunch of friends could play on. it doesnt start with dozens of popular clowns and huge overarching stories and Drama. it was fun and entertaining to viewers jus cuz it was people having fun together. the fanfare and drama and acting can come next but its NOT integral.

I hate seeing these ppl keep comin round w the Next Big smp and having so many motherfuckers join it at once and then it failing and losing attention after 2 days, only for em to try again. like you CANT add a fuckton of ppl who barely know each other into a server jus cuz theyre well known and then expect the same phenomena of the dsmp to happen.

its annoyin as fuck cuz i jus wanna watch some dudes hang out n build shit and stuff. thats what a LOT of people want, and the way the dream smp just become about the Fame and Lore is exactly why it fell apart, too. because these guys cant seem to understand that its about ppl havin fun n hangin out

[puppyyboyy]

huge vent under the thingy

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im really selfish i think, like i dont really do much for people and i dont like to talk to people anymore as much as i used to but i think im just scared of people now. my parents pulled me out of school so i wouldnt be bullied but i think it just made my social anxiety worse

im also really sensitive and cry easily and i dont like that, yesterday i almost started crying because i couldnt find a room number in school (i was there for exams) that was super embarrassing

today is my brothers birthday and he has special needs and i feel bad because he has no friends to celebrate his birthday and my sister left the house to go hangout with her boyfriend so its only my mom, dad and me there for him on his birthday and i feel so bad and im like miserable right now and i woke up really upset because i was almost late for my exam and i definitely failed it because i guessed on almost question and i talked about college today and my plans with my guidance counselor at school and she talked about what im gonna do after highschool and i dont know what i wanna do because i thought i was gonna kms at 11 years old and not have anything else ahead of me and im so lost now and i dont even know what to do anymore

and im crying because i cant stop thinking about all the stuff thats gone wrong in my life and if i did things differently i couldve been happier and a better person

and i feel bad cuz im ignoring literally everyone rn whos texting me and im just sitting on my bedroom floor crying and writing this lmao im literally venting on tumblr💀 how did i get this bad omg. i could use my notes app to vent but i also want someone to read this, like anyone idc who im not even asking for help i just wanna be seen in a way i think

and my head is always full of ideas and thoughts and its hard to do anything because its always racing and i dont like it at all and i cant ever find the right words to get all these thoughts out or draw them out because i make art but irs not good it sucks and i hate my art style and i hate how i cant draw poses right or render correctly it pisses me off

my sister is really good at art, she goes to college for it and is way better then me and my parents are always praising her about her art and i feel like ill never be as good as her with anything, shes an honors student and graduated almost top of her class and president of the art club at her highschool (currently my highschool) and i got pulled into a bunch of shit when i made friends at highschool and they are all older then me and have so much drama and i feel like no matter who im friends with i cant be friends with the other people i wanna be friends with because they have drama together and if im one persons friend then i cant be the other persons friend because then im a bad person and i just hate it so much i hate beiing around people and i hate having to pick sides and i wish i could kms and i wouldnt have to deal with anything anymore

and then with my sister- anything i do or make art of my parents are like "cool!" and move on with their rlife and when my sister does art they post it on their facebook and show other family members and praise her so fucking much. im not saying i want all that but it feels like they dont even care

and i also noticed i get less things at Christmas and on my birthday now ever since i came out as trans to my extended family like my grandparents and uncle and aunt, my sister and brother get a bunch of shit and ill get some books and some other shit i dont even want or asked for but my sister gets money and a bunch of shit she asked for (expensive things) and my brother gets new electronics every fucking year. he got the newest iphone and a ipad and a fucking 3d printer last christmas???? and i got books and a 20$ Michaels gift card? its so unfair i with i was cis and my family would like me more itd not even about the gifts its just in general they got so distant and weird with me i feel so odd when i go to family events

sexual talk here- and i feel really gross a lot of the time cuz im sexual a lot and i wish i wasnt because i always feel gross and idk it makes me feel weird i guess its just hormones and a trauma response from when i was younger but i just feel weird especially when im alone and im being sexual i feel gross after and i dont know why im like this

theres so much on my mind and im just like AGHHHH!!!!!! i wanna cut myself and bleed out everywhere istg (i wont actually cuz im very afraid of physical pain)

[merscylilith]

Habit | gotta stay high for you only

Sanzu Haruchiyo!Bonten x f!reader

Fluff , comfort , TW : slight angst, suggestive a little, a slight smut, cursing, mention sex, alcohol ( So, minor should reconsidered themselves before reading this)

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Note : I dont like potraying or write about Sanzu being high or addicted to drug ( i love reading 'em) but at this point, i took some interest to make something that related to him as " the dangerous criminal ".

" I dont wanna thinking of you when we being away from each other, no- why would we be apart when this life cant go on with our love "

Summary : Addiction. Surely Sanzu have many addiction towards anything that seductive to him when he's high, not ladies but for be specifically, you. But how's that make you different from the substances that he always taken, this is not drug but potion. So, how he gonna broke off this potion with his habit anticipated in this neglection.

BWERKKKKK , the sound of someone threw out in the bathroom was drown onto the music at the party. No one seems to care what happened in the house party, some of them dancing, playing beer games, pool party, not to mention, there were multiple men and women naked with their only underwear and bikini. Disgusting people, Sanzu just gave them a disgust stare.

The man with bubblegum hair flushed the toilet, hardly to stand up on his knee, he regrets that he consume myriad type of alcohol that pass his limits, this all Haitani's fault. Sanzu came to the party just to celebrate their success missions, all he wanted was spending time with his emotions at his home, at this rate. His head so dizzy, and everything he saw so blurry, taking a long sigh before he procced to asked one of Bonten's member take him home. Anyone but Haitani or his brother, Takeomi, so, the best option is Kokonoi Hajime.

Koko is not the type that like to drunk when unknown people everywhere, he is the saviour of Bonten.

Involuntarily, Koko helped him, the troublemaker of Bonten.

" Sanzu- cant you not piss- oh my, no, HEY-MAN ! COME ON, DONT PISS ON MY CAR, DAMMIT ! ", but unfortunately, Koko really hate to take care of his members, especially, when they in the drunk state. The angry Koko, cant helped but speed the car in high acceleration, cant spending more time with digusting Sanzu, he so done with Sanzu that giggling only after he piss and spray all over Koko's car and dont care about frowning Koko.

" nah, Koko, did you even know how fun to piss in your co-worker's car, you should have done it with the bastard Haitani's ", Sanzu sat on the wet seat that cause by himself. Didnt really care what happened to him once Koko done with his ass, probably cut his money as the payment to cleaned his piss, Sanzu caressing the side cheek of Koko, much to flirt with him. All Koko could do just, patient.

All the long journey, it just full with Koko bickering. It seems like Sanzu shutting his eyes, not because he annoyed, but the kick from the amount of he consumed really got into his blood.

" Get out, Sanzu. I wont take you to your mansion's door, dragged your ass out of my car, RIGHT FUCKING NOW ", Koko re-phrased his words and unbuckled Sanzu's seatbelt then push him to the side out of his car, did he feel bad ? Yes. But how bad ? Bad until his shit wont bother Koko anymore.

Shit, how heavy this head can be, Sanzu walked carefully to his mansion's door, he got a big pool on his frontyard, cant risks get all wet because of the drunk state. " FUCK FUCK FUCK , where's my keys ", he crusing himself for being careless, he even barely opened his eyes as he still in hold the headache, his hand wandering around his pocket to find the key, still cant find the keys, he even knocks the door for a good 4 minutes, then, he remember no one is there, so, he try to break down through his first ground window.

He leaned a little while on the wall after the first failed of attempted to break his window, he clench his eyes, remember that - you will always waiting for him in the middle of night, opened your wide arms to give him a hug, so warmth, he could feel the warmth just from his memories, he will give a a kiss on the nose, because he thought you are so adorable when you said you love nose kiss, you never failed make him happy, " let's sleep, angel " -

His habit with you, nose kisses every night before go to sleep.

If there anyone passes by his mansion, probably, they gonna called the police, he looks so suspicious right now, in addition, he is the most wanted criminal. Mikey will punish him for that stupid called

" If only she is here ", lazyly to lift up his own body and jumped, the shattered glasses sound didnt stop his action, i will fix it later.

He fell down on the floor and hissing the pain, too tired to move and go to the bedroom, he decided to fell asleep on the floor.

His soft snor really sound good.

8:12 a.m

The birds chirpping waking Sanzu up, no, not exactly the bird chirpping, the buzzing from his phone om his coat distrub his uncomfortable sleep. The cold sleep without blanket and hard surface, wrecking all his bones.

Koko Hajime, the name display on the phone screen, he slide to the right,

" What do you want ? "

" Sanzu, you have to get to work right now, there are some miscomprehend in the sex club that you have manage for the past weeks. "

" But i thought, it supposed to be tonight ? "

" You heard me, there are some miscomprehend, and we can lost the amount of million money and the workers- "

He pressed the end, cant afford his morning start with Koko's nagging. He assumed Koko just being blabering about something that didnt helped him . Apparently, he knew what's he gonna do.

Sanzu doesnt like alcohol much to his honesty, but at thisnpoint, the only way for him to get out of his miserable life.

The cold water in bathtub running through all his body, to endure all the effect of alcohol. He is crunching the basic toast with eggs that he prepared for himself while he in the bathtub, and that moment hit him so hard. He spacing out about you, again.

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His habit, is to think about you.

Everytime he had a hangover, you would be always make every preparation in the morning, when you get ready for the works, you will always take a shower together, but now, he is alone.

Sanzu close his eyes, and all the memories flashing on his mind one by one, from

" Oh my God, how many time do i have to tell you, you should take care of yourself, i cant be here always to clean up all your wounds "

The pink hair just smirk, " where would you go, you have to stay with forever, baby, you stuck with me,"

" Dumbass," you try to hide your smile,

-

When the comfortable bath night turn to something erotic,

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" Ah, FUCK baby, so tight , yeahh ride that dick ", he doesnt want this come to end , " it must to be nice for me to be inside you all the time "

You ride his dick like you are in the radeo, " cant get enough of this dick, touch my boobs, Sanzu ", you took Sanzu's hand to your breast, the heavy breath echo in the bathroom, it is like you both in the competition to inhale the oxygen the most, ome of his hand, slipped down to circling your clit.

" FUCK , come on, cum hard in this cock, this all you got ? Ride faster, babe ", the spank on your ass motivate you to make the echo water splash. You both came hard, whimpering of the great sex in thw bathtub, Sanzu kiss you passionately, you even can feel his love through the kiss.

That's his habit, he love to do loving aftercare together with you.

-

Those memories faded instantly as he heard the ringing of his phone,

Koko, again, huh

" Where 'sthe fuck you have been SANZU !!!! I have been waiting for you 44 minutes, All of this need to be settle down before the night. DAMNMIT ! " , the call ended with long sigh came out from Sanzu.

He didnt planned to be in the bathtub that long, it's not his fault masturbate to the memories you both shared, things just happens.

I cant cum properly without, y/n.

The smokes, the uneasy smell of alcohol, the drug dealer are everywhere, the blaze of Dj's music already got him spinned, even himself cant understand why would he enjoy something like this before, before the day he met you.

Long silver hair from the VIP corner caught his attention, the real purpose of why him got there at the first place in the morning.

"Well, well, well, isnt Your Highness have a great comeback ? ", couldnt careless about Koko being sarcastic sat with crossed legs, hand stretch out to his side and lean to the expemsive material of couch, no one else there, except himself and the newcomer, Sanzu , " just kill those traitor-, " they are not just bunch of traitor, Sanzu, dont took this matter simply, they are spy that have been escourted by the secret militiary government, and now, they got all the file of our biggest project ", Sanzu seems like he listen to Koko's words carefully, swirling the glass of wine in his hand but his mind wandering somewhere else, somewhere that got him into greatest pain.

The habit he got when the first time relationship with you, he doesnt care about him being a good traitor killer anymore, as long as you got his heart.

What are you doing right now ? Are you still waiting for my text to ask you out for lunch ? Did you get cozy sleep last night ? Of course, not , right ? You told me that tou need me to get nice sleep, you lied to me . Did your day always miserable just like i am ? after all of these.

" Find them tonight "

Sanzu just nodding head absently.

The last word from Koko, just like a haze passing by. He is Sanzu Haruchiyo, finding the traitor is a piece of cake.

The main concerned of his, you.

You, have been lingering in his mind non-stop. He didnt even knew how to cure this possession. He drive to the multi-graphic buliding that stand impressively, Senju immediately ran to his car as she spotted his brother's car, today, he has to accompany her for her exhibitions, her art got recognized by the famous painter in Japan. Senju jumped into the car, and let his miserable brother alone with his mixed thought, no one could guess which is which of thing in his mind, she knew about what happened between his brother and you, not to mention, Senju really close to you, so, she doesnt want brought up your name in front of him.

As they arrived, Senju get out from the car first, waiting for his brother, but instead, the man rolling his tinted window down, " I cant go with you ", with that Sanzu speeding at higj acceleration and left his sister alone and speechless right in front of car parking. I need to meet y/n.

To his disappointment, you are not in your house. He couldnt take this anymore, it has been 1 months since the last meet of you two, he is afraid, so afraid that you moved on within a month, while him still stuck with the memories, he cant shake the moments of you off, never.

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" Why are just standing here ? I thought i already gave you the key, dumbass ", he lend his hand to help you with your groceries.

One of the many things he love is, helping you. He love going shopping with you, he said that you are not only shopping but explaining everything he didnt even knew that he should care to know, you teach him every details that important in this life. He learned a lot from you.

" im waiting for you, sweetass ", you just in awe, and groping his ass as he lifting the shopping bags that contains your both stuff, " what the fuck, oh no, my poor ass ", his pouty mouth, with his hands to swaped away your invisible fingerprint ,make you in cringe and try to pull his pouty mouth, but he succedd dodge your trick.

" cant helped it babe, your ass are eatable ", and you both smirk at that, " well, if my baby insists it ",

His habit, always waiting for your permission and consent to do anything.

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Here he is, in the million worth club that own by Bonten, they just finished the meeting with business partner, he just want some liquor running through his blood to get some heat and fucking get out of this club. None of the thing in here caught his attention, none. He just need you, need your kisses and comfort, your hug, warmth. Need you.

He is not interested in anything, all he can felt is digusting with the girls that try to seduced him, like a worm in the heat. Is this how a girl usually feel when they saw other girls touched their boyfriend, now i knew, the boys are jerke if they flirting back.

The frustration he got in the club, make him want to pull out of his hair, he sure looks like a crazy bitch.

Sanzu is a very loyal and loving man, it's just time and people around him manipulating his well-manner.

He sat alone in the bar counter, the glimpse of his tears rolling down without his own consciouness, why this have to hard, he only drink 3 shots of tequila, those cant never make him in drunk state, all the naked girls afraid to even try go near him, well , for more exactly, he yelled at the first girl that flirt with him, the girl got fired by himself, he is Bonten, can fired them once they layed their filty finger on his body, only my Y/n can do that.

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You have noticed the soaked wet cheek of Sanzu, not questioning what happened, instead you, give a kiss on the top of his head.

There's a time where he felt worthless, until now, his brother, Takeomi didnt take him seriously as a brother. He envy of your life, yoi have a good family.

That night was you having a dinner with your family, and they wanted to meet Sanzu, he got too nervous, what if your larents hate him because they got a criminal in their house.

But he suprised, almost got freeze on his place wherw he stood, your family knew who he was, but they still gave him a great welcome and loving him as their own son and sibling.

" im jealous of you, it is unfair for you to have a great family bonding ", the sniff from him got you weak, you felt bad for him too but this isnt the time to get emotional, " they are your family too, Haru , you have me, you can lean on me ", he just gave you a grim smile, really appreciate how you could turn the weight on his shoulder to something, powerful.

The habit he got from you, to value your family with everything you have.

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Staring at his phone screen, hoping your name appeared magically, all the text messaging he got only from the Bonten member, that's all, nothing interesting in his phone, except anything related to you.

He felt numb for a moment, he cant felt where's he or what's he doing, Rindou wanted to help him, but Ran hold him, " it is fun to watch loyal dog got wasted like this ", he smirked because why not.

Fuck this ,the club is not somewhere i should spending time at, after he get out of the club with his unstable walking, he kicked all the car that not his, he didnt even knew which one of his, so, he kicked the cars that not matched with his car key, got annoyed. Once he got into the car, he calm himself, then, hit the steering wheel and crying once he felt to endure the pain, why this have to be hurt, the reflection of him on the rear-view mirror, his eyes red, cheek soaked wet from his sorrow hours. Is this why y/n leave me ? Because i look ugly when i cried.

His habit : doesnt know how to cry beautifully like Y/n, he try to imitiate how Y/n crying whenever he teased her.

Driving without the destination, he doesnt know where this red automatic machine thing lead him to even though he is the one driving it, familiar street. His head still hazed from all the sufferness he got today, but seems like he good at controlling to not got into accident.

Ah, this house.

The house where he always go in and out for the pass 5 years, just like he is the owner of the house, but the owner own his heart.

This is the chance, for him.

Dragging his heavy and half-drunk state to knock on your door. It's only took 5 knocks, and appeared the face he misses so much.

The girl just staring at him with her bored eyes, " what do you want at this late night, Sanzu ?", Sanzu, y/n never called me that with the rough tone.

" i love you ", fool, you are fool, Sanzu, cursing himself for being too bold, he avoided the eyes contact, he doesnt want you to look at his puffy face. So cute.

The opposite thought for you, you try to hold your laugh at his stupidity, he's so cute, guess what, i will forgive him.

You exhale, and pinched both his check, " how dumb you can be, Haru ? ", he looked at you with clueless face, what do you mean ? You laughed echo into his ears, he admitted that he missed it, but what's funny, he frown at your sudden behavior.

" im sorry, y-y/n. I love you, let's get b-back together again. I-i cant shake myself up without you ", Sanzu holding your gripped tightly, with his shiny blue eyes reflecting a hope. Still, he got annoyed because you still laughing at the thing he doesnt get, why?

Again, you have to take a deep breath before spitting the words that make him ten thousand time embarassment, " who said we broke up, Haru ? Yes, we DID fight and YES, we both fight over silly thing, you forgot about that ? ", and now, you mention it, he kinda remember something.

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The night after you both fight, he went to Haitani's house, the three of them did so many things that he forgot how much The Haitani wanted to prank him. Ran puts a drug that can make him forget about the event that day. Once he woke up on the couch, asked why he drank so much, Ran told him, that you both broke up and y/n doesnt talk or in touch with you anymore, Sanzi did told them what happened, but Ran being Ran, he twisted the story that Sanzu's story A BIT . At first, he doesnt believe the Haitani, but he called you, but you declined it.

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" Jeez, i will fucking kill you, Haitani ", he muttered silently

You took his hand to get him inside, " babe, said that loyal dog wont cry over- ", he cuts you off , " shut up, i dont wanna hear anything from you ", he grumbling and smiled at his embarassement , " not according to this video ", you shoved off the video that you got from Kakucho to Sanzu's face, the video shows that Sanzu drinking all the beer with the background drunk voices says, " i widhhs that y/n mwaried me, i coudnh hewer her voiced all nigyth long ", his eyes got widen when he saw that, try to snatch your phone away, but you managed to dodge his hand , wiggling your phone in front of him with your teasing smirked.

" You are pain in the ass, Y/n ", he deadpalm to his silly behaviour, how could he be this stupid.

" awwwww, babe, what happened to your "baby" ? ", he rarely call your name unless he's in shitty or embarass situation, your pout make him ease and relief that he will never loss you. You are his everything.

His habit, Sanzu didnt change for you but for himself to be better for you.

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He met you when Mikey scolded him and saying him that he's worthless for not taking care of the traitor properly, it's not his fault when Sanzu's secretary missed the infos because she keep flirting with him which make his current girlfriend which they being together since teenager year at the time broke up with him, but half of it was his fault too for being too drunkpussy with other women. He didnt felt bad his ex, she kinda use him for money, he didnt miss anyone at all from his past.

The secretary got fired by Koko, " she was the reason we loss amount of money" , it was not like Sanzu care about secretary, he just got hurt for the fact that Mikey mad at him, so, he went to buy dorayaki which a bit too far from Bonten's building, when he's on his way, six muscular guys that taller than him, surround him. Enemy. The reason why Bonten's executives cant get out too often.

Dont worry Sanzu is strong despite his skinny appearance, he could easily took these guys down, just before he try to land a new kick technique he learned from his boss, YOU, bravely stopping them from attacking the poor guy, with that you kick the balls of one of the muscular guy, and dragging Sanzu out of there with you held his wrist.

For the first time in Sanzu's life, he didnt feel like he wanted to corrupting a girl when he first time seeing them, but, you. You are the one where he belonging for. He love you, genuienly. For the first time, he doesnt feel wanted to use a girl, for his pleasure.

But to love you.

-

That's the story from the 5 years ago, within those years, he has changed a lot, that's make all the Bonten member respecting you, much less to Haitani, because Sanzu got the best girl first before them.

" You know, babe, i still didnt forgive you, so, why dont you beggin' so that i can take you back ", your teasing smile really boiled his whole body, he pouting and ignore you, focusing his eyes on the Netflix series that you always bragging about.

" In your dream ", Sanzu hid his smiled, he feel really happy in your arms lingering around his body, he did really miss this moments. He love you more than anything and cant afford of losing you.

His habit. The habit of him that no one bother to dig inside because all of them assume Sanzu is the hardest guy to get close but you, took it out for him that, he is a goofy guy.

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( The night of the arguement )

" WHYYYYYY ", you were whining when he said NO to your request.

You are bored lliving alone, but then he said, why would you broing when he always there with you. It's not like he always there, there's time where he left you for fucking 10 months for Bonten's mission in Italy, you afraid that he found another women at the time, but he assured you with face timing you everytime and everyday, you also got a daily report from his co-worker, that he has been his well-being, so, he is the man of loyal.

" NO IS NO ! You cant, you will give me less attention once we got that thing ", the frown in your face, make Sanzu in his steady pace, you will go crazy about this in any moment.

" That is not that thing, Haru. It's a cat , i want a cat, i want to have a pet, i want to pat them gently, i want to feed them, i want them with me when i sleep ", with you animated the acts how you will take csre of the pet, the gasped left by Sanzu, make you look at him deeply, " So, what am i, Y/n ? You can pat me gently and i will meow meow to you ", this is the silliest thing to fight with.

" Just admit it that you are jealous of the cat, Haru ", emphasing the sentence make the ego man boost , " Find then, dont call me for one month, let's see whether you can live the cat that you hopefully can pat you back ", he indeed jealous of the cat.

He drove to Haitani, just to ask the question about cat, but once again, Haru is a little naive when come to this thing, he digged the hell hole of himself, knowing that Haitani and him have enemy-allies relationship.

The unfortunate night was planned by Haitani, happened.

Sanzu supposed to buy a cat for you the next morning, he knew you adore a cat because you used to have a cat when you were a kid, you did tell everything about your childhood, so, he did the same thing.

The noted of his habit : Cant denied what his love of life's want, right ?

It's supposed to be Ran but Sanzu more fit to this ;))

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@itsdappleagain @dishevelledguyswag ok you guys r moots and have no idea how insane i am about my carmen in specific and you guys dont know her very well so like. i wanna explain her to you guys.

shes like. fuck where do i start. was worlds best detective since she was 12 and saw a man die on accident. unceasingly autistic and has every mental illness known to man. she cant die, if she believed in a higher power she would try to commit as much sin as possible to fuck with it. she does drag, she hates alcohol and drinks orange juice from a champagne glass. she had a homoerotic partnership with julia for 5 FUCKING YEARS  and neither of them have ever figured out their relationship with each other.

shes a single divorced mother to zack and ivy and also shes like not even 30. carmen sandiego would dig a pit in her back yard for fun to recreate historical structures for fun and sleep in the mud. chief got her a furby for her first anniversary at acme and she skinned it and remade it and has continued this pattern for over ten years. her last acme mission was a disaster not because she failed it but because she had to subsist off of underwater cave ecosystem for 5 days in a row (and also she was shot with a harpoon)

she even does drag.