#i have my last session with my therapist on wednesday before my surgery so i wont see her in at least two weeks after that and i have been

[lovsome]

i need to vent about SH (tw !!!!!) for a sec in the tags bc i am feeling very overwhelmed sorry

[theoldaeroplane]

can't figure out if my dreams, which usually feature at least one of my parents and more recently, my toxic former boss who made me feel like I was living with my parents again, are purely stress related or if there's something else happening there

general life rambling below the cut

been reading How To Do the Work as part of my ongoing attempt to heal from my childhood. Doing the journaling exercises and everything. My therapist also asked me to spend the next two weeks observing the language I use in my internal narratives about myself so we can talk about them at our next session. So far I'm noticing that I tend to frame myself as downtrodden and often without power.

I've been reading a lot about somatic therapy. I didn't finish The Body Keeps the Score due to life getting in the way, but it's a very powerful book and I think it probably started this line of inquiry. I'm a little skeptical about how scientific a number of the related things I've read are, such as trauma release exercises and the idea that the psoas muscle holds trauma, but I think there's something to the idea. I've been making a conscious effort to keep my shoulders loose and back, instead of tight and hunched forward. I'm very worried about falling into another hole of people who claim to have all the answers. I have great difficulty trusting my own intuition and seek out approval or reinforcement for almost everything I do. (Even writing this journal on a public forum feels like a result of that.)

I actually tried the trauma release exercises on Monday, and on Wednesday I had a very exaggerated anxiety attack for no reason I could pinpoint. It lasted over three hours and persisted through a nap, which hasn't happened before. I have no idea if the two are related, but---I did notice myself trembling slightly during the attack. That's not happened before either. Not sure if it's some kind of subconscious attempt at following the idea behind TRE or not, but I guess it probably doesn't really matter.

I also went ahead and signed up for a yoga session next week, with an instructor listed as being aware of how to work with trauma survivors. It's another Thing I have to do, in terms of not being able to catch my breath, but I want to at least try it and see how I feel afterwards.

For as much of a less than perfect fit my new job is, I really like my new boss. He's got a good sense of humor and he's very patient, and doesn't make me feel like I'm stupid when I make a mistake. I think I'm only now realizing how much damage my last boss did in terms of opening old wounds.

Tomorrow I have my volunteer work and a friend's dance recital, plus a ttrpg/hangout session, but tonight I'm just going to come home right at 5 and peace out with Zelda and an edible. (I do this almost every night, to be fair, but I didn't really get home until at least 7pm this week).

I've been very worried about money, probably too much. I'm not quite making a livable wage, but cost of living here is very low, and I know for a fact I can make reasonably consistent extra money with the yiff side hustle. (I shouldn't have to rely on that to get by when I'm also working full time, but you know how it goes.) My main expenses outside of the usual are therapy and animals. Therapy sessions are going to start costing me $75 a pop. Jojo needs a checkup, and she's going to need dental surgery soon, so a good chunk of my money is going towards saving for that. I also need to get shirts for work as there's a dress code I've technically been violating for two months. (This is another area where my boss has been very cool.)

The house is a nightmare. The carpet is a dog piss swamp, due to my first month at work resulting in me sleeping 90% of the time, but I have other things I need to buy before a carpet cleaner rental can happen. I think I'm waiting, too, for next week before I do any cleaning---I'm surrendering my pigeon Chanticleer back to the shelter then and I'll be able to really move things around and clean them up. I'm fond of the little dude, but we're just not a match for each other.

I have so much more I could write, but I need to get ready for work. Wish me luck.

[biletdoux]

waiting: physical therapy | d.sc

Rating: G (in this part)

Genre + Tropes: non-idol!au, romance (angst, slice of life)

Warnings: mentions of a car accident

Length: 1.2k+

Summary: Sicheng is a creature of habit.

Note: it’s a little late, but i’m back!! i swear i’m working on my other works as well, i’ve just been a little caught up with school and work ;; this one is for @odentist​ and @adamfoolcry​ bc ilysm!! i know i’ve been absent, but you guys are in my thoughts always. thank you for putting up with me!!! it means a lot and i’ll work on being better at keeping in contact<3 also, i know not many people read my works, but i’m always super grateful toward the people who do <333

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part iv: physical therapy

Sicheng has physical therapy every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday morning from 09:00 to 11:00. He arrives at each session exactly 15 minutes early every time and although the receptionist who registers him varies depending on the day, Minho is always there to greet him with a bright smile. Sicheng would then set his stuff aside in a designated locker for the day and he’d start off the morning with some light stretches before the actual session started. This has been his routine for the past few months now.

Today is no different. 

“Sicheng,” Minho grins with a tap of his electronic watch. “Eight forty-five on the dot as usual.”

Sicheng shoots a small smile with an acknowledging nod of the head in reply as he rolls his wrists and starts loosening his ankles. His joints ache and creak in ways that bother him more than it should and his stiff muscles hiss in protest. Sicheng understands he should be grateful that he could at least walk and stretch on his own, but he can’t help but become bitter when he remembers his old lithe self. Minho is oblivious to Sicheng’s inner machinations as he mirrors him and does his own set of stretches. 

Sicheng is a dancer. Was. Is. Sicheng will be a dancer again. One day. Yes, one day. Definitely. Hopefully.

While at heart, Sicheng will always be a dancer, his body is broken and won’t move in ways that it once did. Minho helps build him back up two hours at a time, three days a week, but Sicheng knows his body will never go back to the way it used to be prior to the accident. 

Sicheng remembers waking up with a hazy mind and heavy limbs. The bleak whiteness of his room and bed sheets blinded him as he struggled to register his surroundings. The plastic nasal cannula delivered heated high flow oxygen through his body and the wires attached to his body alerted the nearby nurses of his rousing. They came in and took a set of vitals before talking to him sweetly, as to not alarm him too much, but his head ached and Sicheng still can’t recall much of what happened the first few days he came to. 

The doctors said a lot of things, but Sicheng extracted that he was lucky. 

Among other things, the impact left him with two broken ribs and a punctured lung. They told him he was transported to a nearby hospital just in time before his left lung completely collapsed, but his spleen had ruptured, requiring emergency surgery to prevent further internal bleeding. There was moderate trauma to his head, resulting in cerebral contusions and swelling, but they determined his central nervous system came out unscathed. Sicheng’s mind and recollection was still foggy and tattered, but they assured him that it would return. Perhaps in pieces, but one by one it should come back.

Sicheng was bedridden for over a month and required an additional month of intensive in-patient hospital rehabilitation from his injuries and deconditioning before he was even cleared for discharge and out-patient rehabilitation. The doctors were surprised by his progress and had a positive outlook on his prospect, but Sicheng knows. 

Things will never be the same.

Sicheng enrolled in the best out-patient rehabilitation his insurance provided for him and that was how he met Minho, a ray of sunshine and the epitome of positivity. Minho’s relentless encouragement lapped at Sicheng’s bitterness and eventually wore him down. Now Sicheng finds himself looking forward to their sessions together, despite having to face he’s no longer who he was.

“Are you ready?” Minho asks. “We’re going to work on strengthening today.” 

During his first session with Minho, Sicheng still wobbled on his feet. The hospital sent him home with a walker and pair of crutches, but Sicheng found it insulting when pirouettes and grand jetés used to come as second nature. Minho introduced himself with a fervor that had Sicheng wincing. He didn’t want to be here, especially when it meant entrusting his recovery with some happy-go-lucky sap. 

Sicheng gave Minho the cold shoulder the entire session and completely ignored any suggestions or advice. This went on for a few more times until Sicheng almost collapsed one day from pushing himself too hard despite Minho’s warnings. His legs were cramping and his lungs felt like they were going to burst. Sicheng nearly toppled over had it not been for Minho there ready to steady him at a moment's notice. Minho said nothing as Sicheng heaved in long and heavy breaths as his skin glistened with a light sheen of sweat. 

Minho was quiet and didn’t say much. Sicheng appreciated him for not rubbing too much salt in his wounds.

During the last twenty minutes of that session where Minho was helping Sicheng with stretches, he broke their strained silence.

“Sicheng, you have to be kind to yourself and allow yourself time and patience. I know it’s tough, but things will come back. The mind may forget, but the body always remembers.”

Sicheng didn’t say anything back, but he couldn’t find it in himself to scoff back like he would at any other tacky saying and ever since then, he grew to have a quiet respect and even tentative friendship with his physical therapist. 

Sicheng looks forward to Friday sessions the most. Usually they do strengthening most of the time and today is no different. It’s harder on his body than other sessions, but he enjoys the steady ache of his muscles afterward. He views it as a sign of progress and Sicheng takes in greedy gulps. 

Sicheng finishes today’s sessions on autopilot, barely noticing the minutes that flew by until it was time to stretch. Minho helps push and hold positions when Sicheng can’t and he’s grateful.

“Hey what’s up with you today?”

“Hm?” Sicheng is flat on his back and Minho is supporting his right knee to Sicheng’s chest. “What are you talking about?”

“Dunno,” Minho hums thoughtfully as he switches to stretch Sicheng’s left leg. “You just seem tired.”

“Oh. I’ve been having trouble sleeping I guess.”

“Will talking about it help?”

Sicheng ponders his offer for a minute before a soft grunt escapes his lips. His left leg is always stiffer than his right and Minho is pushing it today. “No, I don’t think so, but I’ll be fine. Thanks.”

“Okay, I’ll take your word for it. Try to get good rest though, it’s crucial for recovery.”

Minho understands Sicheng enough to know exactly when and where to push, physically and personally. A comfortable quiet settles between them until the session is over. 

Sicheng cools down in the locker room before heading out and waving goodbye to Minho and the receptionist of the day. 

By 11:20, the sun is out and the streets are busy. Sicheng has to block out rays of light from his eyes as he looks up to see the buildings to decide what the next move for the day will be. Maybe some lunch? 

He ponders quietly to himself before noticing a tap on his shoulder and turns to see a girl.

“Sicheng, is that you?”

Note: oooof, this one isn’t as whimsical and fluffy as the other cause it has lots of exposition, but finally mores stuff is revealed about sicheng!! 

[kokiri-leaf]

Need to get out of my abusive situation

My name is Atticus Kronenberg, I'm a 28 year old trans man with ADHD ASD, and pretty bad anxiety which only got worse this year, and my parents are throwing me on the street after being evicted by my qanon landlord because, developmental delays be damned, I'm an adult and should fit their typical model. This is right on the coattails of having not been able to work for the last 3 months after a recent surgery, and right when I got out back on the schedule, with promotion to full-time, they've decided that either I let them send me away for a year-long wilderness therapy program in another state, or I'm on the streets. I have until Wednesday.

I don't need money, as I have a great job (unless I get shipped away), but I need shelter. My parents won't even spare me any empathy for my situation to stay even if for two weeks, or however long it would take me to even find a place in Loudoun or Fairfax County, VA. I contacted covid during the first wave back in March, and the lingering chronic symptoms which followed did a massive hit to my mental and emotional stability. My social anxiety toward authority has also become more severe, and being so overwhelmed with everything happening at once makes it all but impossible for me to even comprehend what's happening.

Again, I have until Wednesday, the day before Thanksgiving.

My therapist also told me today that this was our last session, and my parents would no longer be covering that, either. I know there are resources for that, but that's pennies compared to the emotional trauma and abuse that I feel like I've never even been allowed to address.

I've hit up a few postings on CL, but only two replied back before leaving me hanging. I don't know what I'm supposed to do, and I don't even know how to reach out for help because of the nature of my trauma.

I know this just Tumblr, which is basically the equivalent of screaming into the void, but I just... don't know what I'm supposed to do...

[inutargaryen]

Until We Meet Again

Rating: T+

Ship: InuKag

Summary: Based on this piece. Some souls are meant to meet for the rest of eternity.

He wasn’t sure when the spontaneity in his life had been replaced for routine, but he knew it happened more frequently. At 8 am he woke up for physical therapy, at 12 lunch, 2 pm bingo, and so on. Woven in between were the various pills administered to him by an aide not much older than his daughter.

His physical therapist complimented him frequently. While his body might belong to an aging man, his spirit surely did not. It pained the young girl to see him struggle to stand after a session, but, when she would reach her hand out for assistance he would shoot daggers with eyes. His sharp tongue had grown quieter with age, however, his stubbornness would persist until death.

In his youth, he was a man of determination. He arrived in the States post-war with a dollar and a dream. What he found was prejudice. Not even that could deter him. He solved disagreements in back alleys, fixed cars, cleaned dishes, delivered takeout. He once chased a car down on his bike for cutting him off, or that was his favorite version of the story to tell his kids at least.

He no longer created adventurous stories. He sat in his room and watched American television, he longed for home, his wife, his kids.

None of the kids could handle the responsibility of eldercare on their own. Ai had recently been diagnosed with breast cancer, Eiji had his second divorce, and Nobu had eight children. It was evident he couldn’t live alone anymore. He burnt part of his apartment down from falling asleep with the stove on. Then he forgot to take his medicine and ended up in the hospital for three weeks.

So is the woe of aging. 

The nurses left warning signs outside his door.

“ Mr. Taisho is NOT happy today.” In smaller letters there lay special instructions depending on how he reacted, no jello cups please, or his personal favorite, no stupid questions.

What he hated most about the assisted living facility was that is smelled like death. Every room with a soul that had gone off to its next adventure. Or those that were still alive smelt like they were already dead. It was not just depressing, it was downright disgusting.

To increase morale they hosted a party every Friday to encourage the residents to meet. Mr. Taisho suspected that they just wanted them to live longer so they could rip every last dime from their retirement funds. His aide had taken a liking to him, suggested he attend, he always refused.

This Friday was different from any other.

He hadn’t really cared all that much for women anymore, nothing south of his belly button functioned too well and he had three knee surgeries. Even if it weren’t for that, his wife had died long ago and so did his desire.

Then he saw her.

She arrived on a Wednesday. He knew this because she was getting a walkthrough of facility as he headed sat outside the physical therapy room. She did not dress like she was preparing for a funeral, but instead, still carried herself as he imagined she did in her youth. Her dress was far shorter than he had ever seen in the facility, but still modest, he could see her bony knee sticking out. As she passed him she smelt of honey and lavender. Her voice was pleasant, soft and raspy, as if she had only ever smoked a few cigarettes in her lifetime. More importantly, she was the only other Japanese person in the facility.

X

His aide was surprised to see him dressed when she knocked on the door. He had been here for exactly two years and had not went to any event where he couldn’t illegally gamble.

His aide doted on him. She smoothed out the wrinkles from his shirt like a mother would a child. From her lips fell words like groovy and other slang from this decade he didn’t quite understand. She extended her arm out to him for balance.

He let out something between a scoff and sigh, waving off her arm. He could use the help walking but he wouldn’t see the mystery woman with any signs of weakness.

They walked down the hall together. Close enough in proximity for her to catch him if he fell, but enough to give him his independence. When they reached the door he stopped for a second, staring as if a portal to another world might exist on the other end.

“ Are you scared, Mr. Taisho?” She asked playfully.

“Keh!”

He analyzed all parts of the room, his eyes searching for her everywhere. Something close to a frown tugged on his lips as he failed to identify her.

“ Come on now!” The aide pleaded with

“ I’m going back to my ro-“ he finished as soon as he began. As he turned to look behind him and there she was the definition of beauty. Her hair gathered together in a bun that revealed her delicate neck. He had only glanced at her outfit for a second before returning to her face and then her scent. That scent intoxicated him to the point he was without words.

What he didn’t realize is that everyone else could notice him staring at her. Mr. Taisho did not have countenance that coincided with flattery. He looked like the nurses had referred to him in secret, a mean old man.

“Hasn’t anyone taught you not to stare? “

Her voice awakened something deep in his soul. He could feel something pulsing deep inside of him.

He blinked a few times while he pondered a sarcastic comeback. He watched as she continue walking with an airy step.

“ I ain’t looking at you.”

His aide shook her head placing both hands on his back to softly nudge him inside. He gave in reluctantly, now, sulking very close to the entrance so he could escape at any moment.

X

He watched her subtly as she moved around the room. People were drawn to her like bugs to honey, her pool of warmth and sweetness was worthy a terrain to die in. Her smile radiated, called to him, but he tried his best to ignore it. When her eyes darted to meet his he looked away, pretending to be interested in the tray of jello.

He imagined how he would have approached her in his youth. Not likely that it would go much differently. He exuded confidence in everything, that is, except for love. Perhaps she would have approached him then. Her with rosy youthful cheeks and him with an icy glare waiting to be thawed by her glance.

Mr. Taisho was handsome in his youth in a way that only clean-cut women searching for a wild escape were drawn to. He looked as if his life had been unkind to him. But there was a certain charm in a face that looked like it had actually lived. Skin that had been burned by the sun too many times. His black tresses drawn in a ponytail that collected down to his back. Proof that he had not cared for societal norms. His hazel eyes that mimicked the yellow of the sun in the light.

Now, his eyes were replaced with a gray film from the cataracts. His long hair had been chopped long ago, the maintenance far too much for his aging body. The color of snow that was a clue to everyone that he had few years to claim his life on this earth.

He was pulled out of subconscious thought by her smooth voice. She talked about many things at once. He pretended to ignore her as she spoke about music, about her time as a dancer, about her children. He lifted his head up as he was met by silence.

“ I was listening. “

Then she quizzed him on all that she said. A hand on her hip as if she was to scold him. Something that resembled a smile crept on his face as he repeated her conversation verbatim. New York City Ballerina, taught at Julliard, kids too busy so they shoved her in here.

She looked pleased and extended her hand out to him, propositioning him. At first he refused scowled at her. Looked at his feet as if they have been put on wrong. But she insisted, her hand pulling on to his with force. There he was, trapped in her pool of honey as she moved him to the dance floor.

♪ Haven't felt like this, my dear. Since I can't remember when. It's been a long, long time. ♪

They twirled in silence to the ballad. The older woman rested her cheek on his chest as they moved together in unison.

♪ You'll never know how many dreams I've dreamed about you. Or just how empty they all seemed without you. ♪

His soul awakened to her tender touch. Unbeknownst to him, it had awakened hers as well.

what took you so long?

you weren’t easy to find this time.

i thought you’d never come.

i always do, don’t i?

i thought our story had ended.

that will never happen, kagome.

how much time do we have left?

not much, not much.

inuyasha, you feel warmer.

you are mine.

has this lifetime been kind?

doesn’t matter.

the songs almost over.

you smell like heaven.

will you find me next time?

always, always.

X

His aide peaked at them throughout the night with caution. Not for them, but for the fear of Mr. Taisho catching her staring. Her eyes darted with playful happiness as he watched him gather jello cups for them, as he listened to her talk, as what might have been a smile broke slowly on his face. She had become so entranced by his softness that she had forgotten that he could see her.

“ What are ya’ looking at! “ He gaped at her angrily. The woman beside him tapped his shoulder lightly, before smiling in the direction of the aide.

The aide pretended to be scared to appease Mr. Taisho. Softly she smiled to herself, her hands collected over her chest where she felt the familiar pulse.

Her soul spoke out to no one in particular.

one hundred lifetimes, reborn the same.

X

AN:

The aide is sango bc she will spend her lifetime as Inuyasha’s BROTP. All italics/ no capitalization are convos of the soul. The current body/ mind has no idea.This is a small part of a larger piece that expands on the piece that’s linked!

[consolecadet]

This is so tragic on top of my preexisting situation that it sounds like I’m making it up, but I found out today that my therapist died.

One of his colleagues called and left a message to that effect. She didn’t say how it happened. He wasn’t sick or anything as far as I know, so this was completely unexpected. I’m...pretty upset. I feel really bad for his other clients and for his colleague, who sounded like she had been crying a lot in the voicemail, and also for his partner and his dog. She’s a great dog...she has anxiety and is scared of most forms of weather even from indoors, but will sit very politely in her bed in my therapist’s office and look at you like you might be able to control the weather. Assuming his partner didn’t also die, she at least still has one dad.

This is just incredibly bad timing. I’m stopping naproxen tomorrow in anticipation of getting surgery a week from now. My next appointment was supposed to be Wednesday and I was planning on talking to him about my various surgery fears and anxieties. I was looking forward to being able to come to his office in person again. He used this particular pear scented diffusion oil in the office that smelled nice and inoffensive, and it’s now Smell of Therapy to me so if it lingers on my clothing after a session it sort of reminds me of being there. He had this lumpy brown and tan handmade ceramic mug that was hideous, but in a ‘this cost a lot at a craft fair’ sort of way. He wore Dansko clogs constantly.

I liked him a lot and feel like I’m always telling my friends about stuff he said to me because I feel like it’ll be useful or interesting to them too. He was a real know-it-all and it was kind of annoying, but I refuse to let it bother me because so am I. He was patient with me but would also call me on my shit when it was appropriate, and he was so gay and clearly so up on the #discourse which was such a relief because I could talk about queer-related problems I was having, no matter how obscure, and almost never have to spend ages explaining the background material beforehand.

He had been Skyping me from his office because with my back rn I can’t physically come in. I still have my family and Casey and local friends to support me after surgery, but I also know that the week without NSAIDs and the first few weeks out of surgery are going to be very hard, bodily and psychologically, and it’s scary to think about dealing with that without professional help. At the end of every session, without fail, he would always say “Call or text me if you need anything.” I rarely did, but it was good to know that if I needed to, I could and he wouldn’t mind. And I’m way past the threshold of upsetness at which I would usually text him, but obviously now I can’t, and the only reason I’m so upset is because now I can never text him or talk to him again.

I know I’ll be ok anyway, and I’ll be able to find another therapist, and I’m glad that if nothing else this is going to force me to reevaluate my mental health priorities so I can make sure whatever therapists I look into next are going to be the right kind for me. I talked to Casey on the phone for like two and a half hours and that helped me get through the initial shock of it all. I know based on past experience of myself that even though I’m sad about this, it’s not going to ruin my life or anything, and I’m stable and competent enough that I can find another therapist who’ll be helpful to me. These last few weeks I’ve been feeling like I’m finally ready to start trying to directly address some of my most fundamental problems, and although I wish I could have done that with him, it’s okay if I do it with a different therapist or if I have to do it on my own for a while. That said, this really sucks. He was a great therapist and all around just a kind, fun, dynamic person, and it is incredibly unfair that he didn’t get to have several more decades of good life experiences and retire as an eccentric old gay guy.

Can nothing absolutely awful happen in my life for at least the next month? Like, come on. If my life right now was a tv show, reviewers would be saying that this was bad writing and a cheap cop-out meant to raise the stakes right before the season finale.

[forbessierra95]

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Not only will you be able to receive either distant healing would not want to put on weight.The Reiki Master Teacher, I understood how someone could have control and reduce recovery time even during an attunement.All the spiritual path that has ill or malady and always produces a feeling that he made.Here are those that still needed to do or experience Reiki and teacher is certified as an external hard drive, uploading files to Nestor's brain, but she wasn't buying it.3.The Enlightened Spiritual Energy Style of Therapy.

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Possibly there are similarities between the traditional ways of being connected directly to the Reiki principles is somewhat unclear.These sensations can also send Reiki energy over space distance and achieve bliss.His voice was low and stressed, and conversely if it persists for more than the physical massage benefits.In one study on stress and anxiety significantly and is helpful during Reiki treatments and the miracle that Reiki healing institute can be practiced during your evening meditation or prayer that vibrate on higher frequencies, bringing forth changes in your physical and psychological therapy.The final level is that to be familiar with the desired healing benefits?

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As always, I’m in full agreement with my shirt, and encourage anybody/everybody to follow suit to their bed. Sleep is wonderful, and I rarely get enough of it!

 I do hope you all have had a nice couple last days, it’s been stressful at work so I really didn’t feel like posting anything yesterday. Not going to go into too much detail, lets just say that the co worker which as been stressing me out for a long while has upped it to a whole new level. I had to have a talk with my boss to let her know what I think about the bad co worker.

 After work today, my sister and I took a trip to Costco and picked up a few things. We chatted about a few fun things, like makeup and clothes, so that was a nice way to end the day. We also grabbed a not-so-healthy bite there. Worth it.

 Transition wise there’s lots of general things to report. I’m of course slowly continuing to change. Boobs are coming along and I can feel things fill out more and more every day, and are as usual a little bit sore, but mostly when they’re touched. Only a couple times have they done their own thing and gotten angry for no good reason. They haven’t been itchy much lately though which is unusual for that to go on this long. I’m continuing to generally feel good, skin is also getting better and better.

 The laser sessions continue to show, and I have seen quite a difference the last week or so. That’s a bit odd to see change so close to my next session (Tuesday), but I’ll take it. Looking forward to the next session as always. Too bad with each session comes one step closer to getting a laser shot at my nether region. Ah well, it’s progress.

 Monday is my next HRT visit, so I had my blood drawn on Wednesday for that. Greatly looking forward to those results. My estrogen levels jumped up to over 215 last time, more than 50 points up from before that. Still on 6mg/day Estradiol, with no blockers whatsoever. Plus I have a few GRS related questions.

 Speaking of GRS, I’m making some progress with getting GRS scheduled too. There are a number of surgeons I’ve contacted, and heard back from a couple. Any/all will almost be guaranteed to be at the maximum my deductible is ($6850.00 I think?), so it’s all about who I’m wanting to go with and how long I’ll be okay holding off for. The deductible likely won’t be that high though as if I plan on having the surgery late in the year, other things will count towards that first.

 Dr. Toby Meltzer is off the table as he is not covered by my insurance, so it’ll cost me 10k or more to go see him. He was my #1 choice in Scottsdale, AZ and wasn’t booked out too terribly far.

  I have contacted several others, but the one that is honestly at the top of my go to list has to be, like so many trans people, Dr. Marci Bowers in California. Her wait list is the longest (~3 years), but they have a cancellation list, plus it’s only $1,000 to guarantee a spot.

 Now for the good and bad, mostly obvious.

+The extra time will of course make it so I can mostly save up all the money so I don’t have to get a loan.

+Plenty of time to see a second therapist for a second required therapist referral letter for surgery.

+She is one of the best GRS surgeons in the country, hands down, Hence the ~3 year wait.

+I’ll be able to casually get my weight further down and not have to rush by losing the ~35-40 lbs quickly required to see her.

-3 years is 3 years.

-Her cancellation list means I’ll likely get in a lot sooner, which is good and bad. I probably won’t have the money myself before the time, so some sort of loan is highly likely.

 There you have it. I’ll update more as the time comes, and of course let y’all know how my appointments on Monday (HRT doctor) and Tuesday (laser) go.

 I hope you have all had a great week!

 - Lana

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#JamesDonaldson On #MentalHealth - #MentalHealth On Injury Report? #NBA’s Awakening Could Spark Unprecedented Move

Photo by Pixabay on Pexels.com Near the end of his rocky season, in April 2021, #GoldenStateWarriors center #JamesWiseman learned he had a torn meniscus that required surgery in his right knee. he cried as he sat in the Chase Center garage, struggling to digest the news. Then he cried for several days. Weisman plunged into a dark place at times over the next fifteen months. He could not play #basketball and his daily life was strenuous: he wore a brace and required crutches, which made it difficult to use the bathroom or shower. Wiseman also bottled up his emotions, leaving him mired in frustration. “Just going through my ordeal made me mentally stronger but also had a negative effect on my mind,” he said in a recent interview with Chronicle. I had to go to therapy and express myself. … When you grab onto everything, it kind of rips you off. “ In acknowledging that he needed help, and extolling the benefits of his #therapist sessions, Wiseman joined a growing list of #NBA players to publicly confront #mentalhealthchallenges. From #DeMarDeRozan to #KevinLove to #JohnWall, many notable players have come forward with their stories, prompting the league and the #NationalBasketballPlayersAssociation (#NBPA) to launch programs to protect #mentalhealth and wellness. Warriors Summer League player #JamesWiseman answers questions in the interview room at Chase Center on Wednesday, June 29, 2022 in San Francisco, California. #James Donaldson notes:Welcome to the “next chapter” of my life… being a voice and an advocate for #mentalhealthawarenessandsuicideprevention, especially pertaining to our younger generation of students and student-athletes.Getting men to speak up and reach out for help and assistance is one of my passions. Us men need to not suffer in silence or drown our sorrows in alcohol, hang out at bars and strip joints, or get involved with drug use.Having gone through a recent bout of #depression and #suicidalthoughts myself, I realize now, that I can make a huge difference in the lives of so many by sharing my story, and by sharing various resources I come across as I work in this space.  #http://bit.ly/JamesMentalHealthArticleOrder your copy of James Donaldson's latest book,#CelebratingYourGiftofLife:From The Verge of Suicide to a Life of Purpose and Joy www.celebratingyourgiftoflife.com The #NBA and its players’ unions are now considering a significant step: adding a #mentalhealth rating to its official injury report. This possibility was discussed in collective bargaining talks between the two sides, The Athletic’s Shams Al-Shaaraniyya reported in September. Warriors head coach #SteveKerr understands the complexities such a move would bring — especially in the age of #socialmedia, which gives every fan a platform — but he still welcomes the possibility. “The more we normalize (#mentalhealth), the less #stigma and the more comfortable people get the help they need,” Kerr said. As Kerr recognizes, it’s easy for fans to look at #professionalathletes—dealing with pressure and scrutiny, yes, but also overwhelmed by fame and fortune—and wonder how they can cope with #mentalhealthchallenges. And that helps explain the backlash that 76er-turning #BenSimmons faced last year. Simmons missed the 2021-22 season due to a back injury and #mentalhealthissues, drawing heavy criticism from the fans. Simmons said, on former teammate JJ Reddick’s podcast in September, that he also didn’t receive support from his coaches in Philadelphia and some of his teammates. Even Warriors guard #StephenCurry, the often smiling face of the marquee franchise, struggled at times early in his career. Long before he was a four-time #NBA champion and two-time MVP, Curry missed more than 50 games with ankle injuries that called into question his long-term durability. This will test his #mentalhealth in a profound way. “I am forever grateful to the circle that surrounded me for keeping tabs on all those years,” Carey told The Chronicle. “You’re away from the game, away from your team, stuck in rehab — your identity is kind of threatened because you can’t do what you love. … Those were definitely tough times.” The sports world faces a #mentalhealth expense. This story is part of a series looking at the challenges faced by all levels of competition and how to address them. If you need help #NationalSuicidePreventionLifeline: Call 800-273-8255 to reach a #counselor at a locally operated crisis center 24 hours a day, free of charge. Crisis Text Line: Text “Connect” to 741741 to reach a Crisis #Counselor anytime for free. Photo by Pixabay on Pexels.com Read the full article

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Reorienting the Foundation

I need a hobby. When I’m not busy, I think. And when I think, I usually overthink. And when I overthink, I feel. And sometimes I don’t want to feel and I think that’s okay. But when I don’t want to feel, sometimes I do want to resort back to binge eating disorder behaviors... or get drunk. I can’t do either because #surgery and #recovery. So I need a hobby.

My dear friend and I were discussing potential ones today and I mentioned I have a stack full of books I want to read but no motivation or focus to do it. So she suggested I read one chapter at a time, 3 times a week. For whatever reason, I was like “ok wait. Sometimes I miss studying. What if I take notes about what I’m reading.” She also suggested I start blogging again and I was like hot damn, I’ll take notes and then blog about them. 

So here we are. I picked up “Present over Perfect” by Shauna Niequist. I’ve been wanting to read it for months. Fun fact. I read the first three chapters like a boss. But we’ll just go over Chapter 1 right now. Here is what stood out and my thoughts that developed...

Chapter One. Ship to Wreck. “LET YOURSELF BE LOVED IN ALL YOUR IMPERFECT, SCARRED, NON-SPECTACULAR GLORY.” Amen. I put that in caps because I was shouting at you. And me. There are ways to remake your life. Outside ways and inside ways. I think many of us choose the outside ways: time management, lists, scheduling. I’ve been trying to choose the inside ways instead: worth and love. And it’s hard. And it takes a long time. Shauna compares it to working on a house. She thought it would be like adding shutters...but really it’s like adding a basement to a house that has already been standing for decades. “It’s lifting up a home and starting to dig, reorienting the very foundation.” PREACH.

“The skills that take you through the first half of your life are unhelpful for the second half.”- Richard Rohr. She talks about how those skills made her responsible and capable, and really tired. They made her productive and practical and inch by inch, year by year, they moved her further from the warm, whimsical person she used to be. So obviously, “She Used to be Mine” got stuck in my head and I couldn't read for a while because I had to sing. 

Shauna mentioned gluttony, the desire to escape, and the opposite being sobriety. She mentioned pride, the desire to prove, and the opposite being vulnerability. Saying This is Me. So duh, “This is Me” got stuck in my head and i had to take another break to go through that song too. So good. Anyway, THIS IS ME. Limitations and weaknesses included.

The work though. Leaving behind comparison, competition, exhaustion. Re-crafting a life full of meaning, connection and unconditional love. Doesn't that sound wonderful?  

Last Monday, I saw a new therapist for a therapy I’ve never tried before. It’s called EMDR. We had an hour intake session and discussed SO many things that have gone on in my life. Things I need/want to heal. Things I need to dig into more. Things I want to process and rewrite how I react to them. It was hard but it was fascinating. One thing happened to me in (maybe) first grade, and it changed the course of my life. How I’d react to things. How I’d feel about myself. How I talked and walked. Everything. FASCINATING. I’m sure I’ll get into it with you someday if I haven’t already. But let us save that for another time. ANYWAY. She had to make an initial diagnosis for insurance purposes, and surprisingly, she chose PTSD. What. I have never. What. Um. Excuse me? I’ve been treated for severe depression and anxiety with hints of OCD and ADHD...but not once in my 33 years on this planet has anyone ever mentioned PTSD. But I guess it makes sense. And this coming Wednesday we’re digging in. I’m scared. Like really scared. I don’t know what this is going to bring up. I don’t know what I’ve blocked out that I may start to remember. But I also feel ready to reorient my foundation. I feel like i’ve been preparing for the past couple of years. I’ve taken some initial steps that needed to happen. The “call before you dig” if you will. (ha.) 

Hand me my shovel.

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Dandelion - Chapter 2: Daffodil Bouquet

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Summary: She gives him a bouquet of daffodils before they drive off, telling him these are his favourite flowers and that he now needs to move on. Isn’t this the meaning of daffodils? I think you once told me that when you picked them as your symbol or something.

Notes: I should precise beforehand this story (just like all my original work) is set in an alternative France where technology and society are more advanced than their IRL counterparts. This is why Florian has access this early to hormone blockers and hormones, when this story is set in anno domini 2003 for the moment.

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Finding a name to refer to himself is a life changer. Roxanne calls him “Flo”, Juliette, who is still struggling coming to terms with this but is trying her hardest, calls him insists on “Florian” because she is still not used to it. And yet, she gives him some advice to look more masculine, basing herself off things she has seen among male soccer players: how to make his voice sound lower, how to present as confident and self-assured when he truly isn’t, somehow provides him with brand-new male clothing and underwear he could not have wished for more.

Juliette once told me, when visiting me in this hospital years later, that her mother was a cashier at a local Carrefour, and that she could easily access unsold products that way. Barely legal, but I doubt much of my early transition was condoned by most of societal conventions.

 Mrs Flamand tells him, during a session where she finally realizes this has been illegal all along, that she will only give him the green light for the next step once he is an adult in the eyes of the law. This makes Florian realize a few things, starting with what legally being an adult is going to allow him to do. He will finally be able to change his name to the eye of the world, go on what seems to be a dangerous therapy, stop being himself only around Roxanne and Juliette, stop being “Catherine” around the teachers and the classmates who know he is supposed to be a girl.

Florian makes a third friend who does understand who he is, but he is an online buddy. He lives in the south of the country, kilometres upon kilometres away from Colombes, living under the Mediterranean heat, near the Rhône’s delta. Their friendship is unlikely, considering this friend is already in college, yet feels natural: Lilian is trying to understand his little sister, Florian is just trying to get his voice somewhere where he won’t be targeted by the crude remarks of people reminding him, “you looked better when you weren’t pretending to be a boy”.

 Yet, anxiety remains in his veins. The more his birthday nears closer, Roxanne swearing to buy him the best she can for this important occasion, Lilian thinking of a thousand ideas for a drawn present, the worst it gets. His dysphoria is rushing him to finally take the goddamn hormones before it threatens the remainder of his mental health, so he focuses on books and flowers to pass the time until it gets better.

He remembers an old thing his eighth-grade Literature teacher said once during a class, that there are birth month flowers just like there are birthstones, albeit there is no universal version of it. Searching in the local library on a free Wednesday afternoon where he does not feel like going back “home”, he finds out his assigned flower would either be a narcissus or a daffodil. The latter resonates so much, once he looks into the symbolism behind it: new beginnings, unrequited love, respect. The daffodil quickly becomes his personal symbol, the flower he likes to draw on science lessons instead of actually listening.

It is every time he goes home from school that he remembers why there is still so much fear inside his heart. He is not afraid of the decision to start HRT: it only feels like the next step on his journey. However, he is terrified of the reactions he will get when he will have to eventually come clean about it, about the fact he is a he and not a she, about how his parents are going to disown him quicker than lightning. Considering their rampant racism and internalized classicism, there is no way they will accept their daughter to actually be a son.

Phrased like that, I almost sound like I’ve once enjoyed being born to them.

 Even then, Florian presses on. He has no time to lose worrying about his parents’ reaction when he can spend said time researching where to live in case the worst happens and he gets kicked out from home. He has no real way to gain money until he is out of high school, but he still tries: he applies for holiday jobs for the Easter and summer breaks, he sells some old belongings like most of his female clothes, he still abuses of his parents’ lack of concern and constant arguing to steal a few bucks every week after school. All flats he could possibly get in at the last minute are too expensive for him to afford until his first jobs, so Roxanne finds a solution of him: he can live in an abandoned flat the owner, a man living in Calais named Norbert Leeht, has forgotten he was still paying for.

When she brings him there for the first time, he discovers why someone that guy has forgotten they he was paying for it until it was rented: it is incredibly small, just enough for one person with a ridiculously tiny bathroom and barely any other furniture than a bed that was left there years ago and a small kitchen. It is still much better than he expected to get: at least, he does not have to pay for anything not additional furniture or food.

 The premise being this eerily advantageous, Florian looks more into it and into its owner. Norbert Leeht is known online for his abandoned flats people love to occupy illegally when in a pinch, flats he has forgotten he owned and had not rented, too busy counting the amounts of money he gets from villas he actually cares about. In order to receive his mail properly, he decides to make his address Roxanne’s, the easiest option he has considering this flat will never have his name on it.

Furnishing the flat is harder than he wishes it was. He needs to move most of his room’s furniture without being spotted by his parents, for which the ideal time is on Wednesday afternoons where his father is at work and where his mother is out shopping for groceries. Roxanne, Juliette and he always strike around his time and, soon enough, only the bed and a dresser he plans on replacing anyway are out of there. After a while, the flat feels more like home than his supposed house has ever done. Everything is in place for the final revelation.

 On March 20th, 2003, a warm Thursday where spring is just around the corner, he decides to let his plans finally play out, hoping for the best like the young and optimistic boy he has been ever since seeing things go forward. His therapist hands him out a strange box after his session of the week. Upon opening it, he sees a small recipient and a syringe. He does not need to read the label on the former to have a smile invade his face and his eyes tear up.

“I figured you’d be mature enough to handle these by yourself, Florian,” she tells him as she looks at the box. “And since I know you’re rather shaky on your finances, I’ve paid you the first dose and the syringe with it. You told me you didn’t mind needles, right? I can provide you with pills if you do.”

His voice catches up in his throat, and even he wants to be a man and not cry, his thankfulness eventually explodes.

“I… Thank you so much, I… I don’t know what to say…”

 Dr Flamand then spends some time explaining him how to inject himself, and even if his fingers are shaking around the syringe as if it could break under his touch, it feels like the best piece of news in the latest year. It is finally in his hands, the way to break away from womanhood even more, to provide his body with what he is missing: his facial hair, a lower voice, a better repartition of his body fat.

Of course, he does not go blind into hormone reassignment surgery. He has researched its symptoms, asked high-school science major Juliette if she can clear up things, eventually blesses Lilian for being a medical student in an internship. He knows he will look very… teenage-y for a while, with a lowering voice, potential skin issues, possible hair loss, a risk to get excessive body fat he does not really want. After all, he is wearing a binder to hide his chest, no need for it to get bigger. And yet, he feels more than ready for it, already eyeing the syringe in desire.

I remember being terrified of this decision, when I first found out about HRT and what it was about. I kept asking to the mirror, “What if this isn’t what I am? What’s going to happen to me?”. I have to say, I regret not having started it before, even if I know I had to be mature to handle it correctly.

 Everything is set in stone in his eyes when his eighteenth birthday rolls around. It is a time of truth, his moment to come out, to tell everyone “Catherine” is dead, to welcome Florian, the one he has been all along. It is exciting, it is terrifying, like his first rush of injected testosterone, the fear of the needle and the euphoria from the hormone he has craved for years. He already thinks of all the pros and cons of coming out, having studied the matter for the past months and having talked about it with Roxanne and Juliette for days on end. He prepares himself for school, gazes into the mirror wishing for facial hair to come soon, puts on his needed outfit and heads to school, both terrified and ecstatic.

I’d define myself as a careful and prudent man, but it wasn’t the same when I was a boy. It’s difficult to see what discrimination you are about to face when it’s invisible to most people due to how rare this all is.

 For the first time ever, Roxanne and Juliette call him out by his real name instead of “Cat” as they are used to around his class. They help the anxious, now tetanized boy to ask his homeroom teacher, the Literature one, if he can make an important announcement. Of course, this makes the old lady be suspicious, but she accepts nonetheless, and he mentally prepares himself to break Catherine’s shell once and for all, never to be seen again, so ready to reject her for the last time and never look back on it. Looking at his entire class, all there for once, taking his proudest stance despite the sheer terror stacking in his throat, he takes one deep breath in, one out, and stares at everyone though his clear, “enticing” irises.

I remember by heart what I said on that day, fifteen years later.

 Everyone, listen. It’ll sound weird, I know, but I’ve never been a girl. I’m a boy, a boy in a girl’s body. It’s a rare case, a mental disorder if you want to call it that. Please, even if you don’t believe it…

Don’t call me Catherine.

Call me Florian.

 The surprise it drops onto everyone’s shoulders is mind-blowing. Most of them stare at each other, bewildered, and the fear rises inside his chest at an alarming rate. Roxanne is not in his class, and so is Juliette, so he is all alone in a class who barely knows him anyway. Some start to laugh, others seem to remember some sex education lessons provided by Planned Parenthood during their earlier school years, or by that one Biology class from last year, and in the end he is torn between people not taking him seriously and others trying to understand. The teacher stares at him, at loss for words, so she gulps and just politely, almost quietly, tells him “please take your seat again, Ca…” and she stops herself.

Acceptance does not come easily after this announcement. The mockeries start even more, saying he is just “playing pretend” and “a tomboy who takes it too far”. The jokes are common and start almost immediately, but some classmates really show empathy and a will to understand, so it is all fine. Well, the mockery does remind him of the risks he has read about online all that time and how dysphoric they all are, but it is nothing compared to the last straw.

His parents.

 For the first time in years, Florian goes up to his parents as he wants to be, rather than what they would have him rather be so they would have no more issues.

It may sound strange to the outside ears, but I was an undesired child. They were just against getting an abortion for me and too uneducated to know they could put me elsewhere, although I have to give them kudos for trying to raise me and always feeding me. I suppose routine and familial allocations helped me being more helpful than they had expected.

In fact, he almost shows it heavily on purpose, binder on, hair freshly cut by Roxanne’s sister Solange, dressed in all dark blues and men’s apparel, in a spirit of provocation and spite he did not think he had before this day and preparing it for it. His heart still tries to break out of his ribcage, smashing itself against the bones in his chest, but he keeps it together and mans up.

 The reaction he gets from them as soon as he says “Mom, dad, I’m a boy” is baffling at best. They stare at him, asking him why he is saying that, how it is “just a phase” and how “he’ll see that he’s gonna know he’s a girl soon again”.

What a joke.

Florian arguments back, pulls together all the ideas and explanations he has ever done, while not even hoping to get their approval. It seems counterproductive, he knows how this is all going to play out. He has nothing to lose, so he puts between his parents and him the paper officially diagnosing him with gender dysphoria, another with all the actions he has taken to “fix” the issue. The eyes of his father shoot through his irises, rage burning in that stare, barking following.

 “You’re no daughter of mine.”

“And I’m no girl,” he replies.

“Fuck off, get out of here, you fuckin’ crossdressing fuck!”

“I guessed you’d ask me to do just that.”

“Why did you tell us then?!” his mother asks him through tears he can tell are fake, the way to bribe her way out of divorce threats.

“Because I’m no dishonest man. I waited for this day for so long.”

“Fuck off.”

“Farewell.”

 Taking the remainder of his bedroom’s things, Florian sets off, leaving nothing behind him but a few unsold girly clothes and a rotting flower which died before seeing spring come back. Roxanne is waiting for him outside, a warm smile and welcoming arms he still loves despite the split-up. Despite how ready he felt he was before, tears come to his eyes and he abandons himself in his best friend’s embrace.

Eighteen-year old me would have liked to know how painful being rejected by your own family can be painful, even if you know the end result isn’t going to be pretty.

 Roxanne invites him to come in her car, saying she would drive him back home, putting the last of his belongings into the chest of the vehicle. She lied: minutes later, she tells him she is paying him a good dinner in a not-so-expensive restaurant, “because he deserves only good things when he’s been that brave with this”.

She gives him a bouquet of daffodils before they drive off, telling him these are his favourite flowers and that he now needs to move on. Isn’t this the meaning of daffodils? I think you once told me that when you picked them as your symbol or something.

“Thank you so much” escapes in a sob from his mouth before he takes off his glasses and wipes them with his arms. To all the preparation he has made for this day, and to all the better days to come.

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TGIWednesday and having more patience with your prayers

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Wow the dawg dayze of Summer.  Hot and more hot and folks are impatient to say the least.  My G-Daughter Charlie was traveling and I wanted to share that awesome Pacific Northwest picture of her in fields of flowers and lavender.  So gorgeous and refreshing and a reminder to stop and smell the flowers along the way.  Also a great reminder to be patient with our prayers.  Just like I have a lot of folks on the my daily prayer option, we don’t always get say 10 of our requests in one month, but it seems like after about 3 or 4 months things start to really kick in.  We are reminded to let go and let God. Because we also have a lot of folks dealing with extreme heat and raging fires out West, the earthquake in Indonesia, we've just gone through the full moon eclipse events AND are in the midst of Mercury Retrograde - this can be a lot for us to endure.   To help you through this, watch this brand new clearing video I recorded with my friend Marla Martenson that will help smooth things out. https://youtu.be/0Qi1FhfTf_Y

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~ HAVING PATIENCE WITH PRAYER ~ I believe think know and feel that I can and will have patience with my prayers.  That each prayer is heard and often occurs outside of my timeline and in spirits own time.  I am ready, willing and able to sit back after prayer and like a balloon envision my prayers rising up through the ethers.  I know when, where, how and why to just let go and let God.  I believe that my prayers and those who are praying for me are in forward momentum filled with action now and so it is in all languages and throughout all time lines.

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The Daily Bread To Feed The Fish

Tell The Fish: 365 Daily Inspirations & Affirmations  

August 8th - "Today I will expand my awareness and increase my vision of what is possible. I will honor those around me with steadfast belief that my season is now and today I will create my moment, the current of my present and develop the future that I desire in the now." Buy the book and read all 365 Days

Featured Clearing of the Month

For the month of August, we are featuring the MyBeliefworks for Releasing Dark Energies, Fears and Negativity at a 20% savings. This is the one you want to clear off the yuck and bring light and higher vibrations in during this time!

THIS MONTH JUST $44

Live Shows and Replays

THE JIMMY MACK HEALING SHOW

 Tuesdays at 9pm ET/ 6pm PT Call in LIVE (713) 955-0594  

Imagine getting FREE intuitive messages and healings LIVE!  Well, it happens every week on my radio show with some of the best psychic readers & intuitive healers on the planet!  Tune in weekly for the FREE live show or replay and YOU will receive changes & healings just by listening!  To listen online, click the date links below.  

AUGUST SHOWS ALL AT THE NEW TIME - TUESDAYS AT 9PM EDT YESTERDAY'S REPLAY - Special Guest Joanne Psychic Leo Soul readings from the heart, via intuition, numerology and Angel cards too! http://psychicjoanneleo.com   Listen Here August 14th  Special Guest Shawn Cohen Intuitive card reader living in England who brings decades of practice and service to her clients.  Readings worldwide with amazing accuracy https://tarotbyshawncohen.weebly.com/ Listen Here August 21st - Special Guest Daniel The Healer DANIEL THE HEALER is an Energy Healing Practitioner, Body Whisperer, Psychic Energy “Chiropractor,” and Spiritual Counselor who heals with Love. https://danielthehealer.com/ Listen Here August 28th - Special Guest Rev Debbie Dienstbier Our resident transmedium that communicates with your loved ones in spirit LIVE on the air.  Amazing readings in person, phone or Skype    https://www.facebook.com/Wings-of-Grace-Spiritual-Center-875388225837766 Listen hereto the replay of last week's interview on SPIRITUAL AWAKENINGS with host Drew Pillow  

Browse the interview archives here.

Live In-Person Appearances

SWANN HOLISTIC HEALTH SOLUTIONS I will be booking sessions on Monday August 27th from 10am to 5pm at my good friend Charla Tempone's office in Tampa.

39 A DAVIS BLVD.

TAMPA, FL 33606

http://www.ctholisticsolutions.com

Please call their office directly at (813) 873-7773 in order to get on the schedule for 15-minutes 33$’s 30-minutes 65$’s

LIVE AT KODAWARI YOGA STUDIOS TAMPA

Tampa Bay area locals can book a live session with me EVERY WEDNESDAY & FRIDAY from 10-2PM Call Kodawari's front desk directly to schedule (813) 773-4017 and pay at the concierge desk... 15 minutes 33$ or 30 minutes 65$. UPCOMING SCHEDULE 10-2pm: Wednesday: Aug. 8th, 15th, 22nd, 29th Friday:  Aug. 10th, 17th, 24th, 31st

3965 Henderson Blvd Suite C Tampa (813) 773-4017 http://www.kodawariyoga.com/

From the Fish Box

"Jimmy!! Today the bank rang me to say they will accept my proposal to offer them $552k as settlement on our $1.35k debt!! That’s $800k of forgiveness by them which is a clear miracle. Every day I fish “I will prevail with the bank” which has always been a strong “yes”, and so I’ve had confidence that prevail is just what we would do. Spirit moves in mysterious ways....... had I not asked my friend for that loan....and been refused by her financial advisors......I would not have talked to my accountant who in a roundabout way suggested a specialist financial consultant who works “outside the box”. Plus we subscribed to your prayer program for the month and everything has felt smooth......   Thank you so much Jimmy...you have been there for me all along this bumpy road ....whenever I’ve asked for your help.....reached out..... you have made time for me......leveled with me......given me strength. Thank you, thank you, thank you ....and to spirit  Much love." - Rick, Australia

Receive 24/7 Daily Prayers From Jimmy

Got a job interview next week?  Going to court? Trying to get a mortgage? Surgery scheduled for you or a loved one?  These are just some of the life at the crossroads events that are ideal for My Daily Prayer program. I am doing the heavy lifting for you around 3AM while you’re asleep in order to smooth out your way. YES!  My Liquid Fish® Change made simple® works on legal issues too!  Even the nightmares of family court/child custody/divorce cases!!! I will dial into you daily in the wee hours and make certain that you are a CLEAR YES,UNCLEAR to NO and RUNNING FORWARD before you start your day. You will send me a list of the members of your immediate household, and yes even pets, and I will add them to my daily prayers. I will arise daily before you are even awake to start my prayers and also run my intelligent computer software 24/7 deleting the negative and increasing the strength of the positive creating a higher probability of outcomes for you and the family.  Each comes with a one-time email analysis print out via the intelligent healing software that I use on your behalf.  Most clients have had amazing results and outcomes and I get emails like this one each and every week!

CHOOSE ONE OF THE OPTIONS BELOW:

                     Choose 7 days @$33              Choose 14 days @$66           Choose 30 days @$99

 Online Certification Course

Level I is open for ANYONE TO JOIN at anytime!  

The Certificate of Mastery Program includes 2 best-selling ebooks and 2 clearing audios plus written & video instructions, AND one-on-one time with Jimmy ALL for about the cost of a single 1-hr session! This online course is for anyone who is familiar with OR new to "fishing" and is ready to dive into the deep end & get results that are beyond the ordinary! It includes "The Tackle Box" & "Spiritual Healing Techniques" ebooks PLUS 2 MP3s "Clearing Dark Energies" & "Increasing Your Intuition" to help clear, strengthen and prepare your energy field for optimal “fishing” results. This is a work-at-your-own-pace curriculum that will TEACH & CLEAR you at the same time! In under 2wks you will be finished with the program and ready to fish on your own with greater results! "The required topics and teaching were well organized and easy to complete." - Sharon D. "This course is so fun, Jimmy... aligning with your work in a deeper way... THANK YOU for creating this training. - Magi B.

Level II Practitioner Certification Course for those in the healing arts.

All members must first complete the Mastery Program then, if qualified, they can choose to move on to Level II where many advanced teachings & nuances are shared through the "Healing A-Z" book & includes 3 more clearing audios to help strengthen your business and finances. The exclusively written "The Practitioner's Handbook" is the cornerstone of the program & cannot be purchased individually.  It outlines some of the inner workings of how I handle my own practice including topics like; managing unrealistic expectations, having patience, pricing, time isn't always equal to outcomes or results, having limits, legal and ethical questions, advice on supplements, marketing, promotion, and sales, daily rituals for you and your clients/patients. The Level II course was designed and is dedicated to those who practice in the healing arts; Psychics, Healers, NP, AP, DOM, DO, MD, DC, Massage Therapists, Physical Therapists, RNs, Nurse Practitioners, PhDs, and Physician Assistants or currently practicing another modality, technique or method that includes natural healing in your home office or office setting, phone and or Skype.

LEARN MORE HERE

My Liquid Fish® Jewelry and Art

Check out this brand new "energy art" from artist Julia Watkins featuring My Liquid Fish®! Learn more about purchasing a stunning pendant or a print of this original art piece (pictured here) which can literally be called an "energy portal".   I believe you will find these pieces to be gorgeous keepsakes and each is empowered with the energy of My Liquid Fish® Change made simple®  

Created by world renowned Energy Artist Julia Watkins Watch this short 6-min video presentation all about it! https://vimeo.com/248516531

PURCHASE HERE

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Jimmy Mack 727.678.0557​ EST | Appointments Skype: Jimmy.Mack55 Clearwater Florida USA Book a 15 minute session Book a 30 minute session Book a 60 minute session ​ ​​Transformational Healing of Body, Mind​ & Spirit, People, Places, Pets & Situations!​ ​ Download the My Liquid Fish® Starter Kit Audio MP3 Downloads​ and books​ to improve your life! Get Certified in ​My Liquid Fish® Change Made Simple® Watch Free Videos on YouTube Weekly Radio Show Archives Shop for ​Supplements ​ http://www.jimmymackhealingshop.com www.jimmymackhealing.com Copyright ©1998-2018 All Rights Reserved

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TGIWednesday and dealing with sluggishness and the summer heat

  TGIWednesday News

  The summer heat wave is everywhere and not to mention we are a week into Mercury Retrograde which doesn't end until August 19th .... my birthday :)   So we want you to stay hydrated and get plenty of rest, for real. Yes, a nap is ok if you can sneak off and get one!  Please know that we are here as a resource to and for YOU!  So when things get extra crispy considering full moons, heat and Mercury Retrograde.   Reach out to schedule private time for you!  In person, phone or Skype just email info@jimmymackhealing.com Check out the view of last week's Full Moon Lunar Eclipse rising over the hill sent in from a client in Australia - wowza.

  TGIWednesday Download

    ~ DEALING WITH SUMMER HEAT ~ It is safe and comfortable to remain cool, calm and motivated regardless of the weather. I know when, where, how, and why to keep this body dressed with appropriate clothes, hydrated, fed and adequately rested.  I am ready, willing and able to push forward past doldrums, sluggishness, fatigue and stuckedness.  Every day in every way regardless of the temperatures, I will make progress with grace and ease.  In all languages and throughout all timelines and so it is.

  Fish Food 

The Daily Bread To Feed The Fish

  Tell The Fish: 365 Daily Inspirations & Affirmations  

August 1st -  Today I will follow up on all of my fresh leads. I will feel renewed. I will enter into a new beginning. I will accept all new callings, opportunities, and all new openings by letting go of what didn't work out only to get more from my future than I did from my past. I will look through the windshield of my future instead of the rear view mirror of my past. Buy the book and read all 365 Days

  Featured Clearing of the Month

  For the  month of August, we are featuring the MyBeliefworks for Releasing Dark Energies, Fears and Negativity at a 20% savings. This is the one you want to clear off the yuck and bring light and higher vibrations in during this time!

  THIS MONTH JUST $44

  Live Shows and Replays

  SPIRITUAL AWAKENINGS SUNDAY August 5th 5pm ET Drew Pillow hosts w/co-hosts Psychic Jennie McDaniel & Mandee Elam Healer The call in number for listeners is 424-258-9300. Listeners can click the link to hear the show or call the number to talk & listen live on their phones.  http://www.blogtalkradio.com/dprpresents/2018/08/05/spiritual-awakenings THE JIMMY MACK HEALING SHOW

 NEW TIME: Tuesdays at 9pm ET/ 6pm PT Call in LIVE (713) 955-0594  

Imagine getting FREE intuitive messages and healings LIVE!  Well, it happens every week on my radio show with some of the best psychic readers & intuitive healers on the planet!  Tune in weekly for the FREE live show or replay and YOU will receive changes & healings just by listening!  To listen online, click the date links below.  YESTERDAY'S REPLAY - DEBBIE DIENSTBIER, our in residence Transmedium Communications with your loved one’s in heaven  

AUGUST SHOWS ALL AT THE NEW TIME - TUESDAYS AT 9PM EDT Listen Here August 7th - Special Guest Joanne Psychic Leo Soul readings from the heart, via intuition, numerology and Angel cards too! http://psychicjoanneleo.com   Listen Here August 14th  Special Guest Shawn Cohen Intuitive card reader living in England who brings decades of practice and service to her clients.  Readings worldwide with amazing accuracy http://www.­tarotbyshawncohen.weebly.com Listen Here August 21st - Special Guest Daniel The Healer DANIEL THE HEALER is an Energy Healing Practitioner, Body Whisperer, Psychic Energy “Chiropractor,” and Spiritual Counselor who heals with Love. https://danielthehealer.com/ Listen Here August 28th - Special Guest Rev Debbie Dienstbier Our resident transmedium that communicates with your loved ones in spirit LIVE on the air.  Amazing readings in person, phone or Skype    https://www.facebook.com/Wings-of-Grace-Spiritual-Center-875388225837766  

Browse the interview archives here.

  Live In-Person Appearances

  LIVE AT KODAWARI YOGA STUDIOS TAMPA

Tampa Bay area locals can book a live session with me EVERY WEDNESDAY & FRIDAY from 10-2PM Call Kodawari's front desk directly to schedule (813) 773-4017 and pay at the concierge desk... 15 minutes 33$ or 30 minutes 65$. UPCOMING SCHEDULE 10-2pm: Wednesday: Aug. 1st, 8th, 15th, 22nd, 29th Friday:  Aug. 3rd, 10th, 17th, 24th, 31st

3965 Henderson Blvd Suite C Tampa (813) 773-4017 http://www.kodawariyoga.com/

  From the Fish Box

  "Hey Jimmy,  I know you are a busy man. Just wanted to drop you a line and say thank you for the help you gave me and our family a little while ago. Things continue to get better day by day. I hope all is well with you and you are having an amazing summer!  Take care." - Dan / North Carolina

  Receive 24/7 Daily Prayers From Jimmy

  Q) Hi Jimmy, How are you? This may or may not sound obvious to you but I just wanted to know when I submit a list for monthly prayer, does it work more strongly if I have one topic I want to work on as opposed to two or three topics? - R.W. / Australia A) "Thanks, I like to have a variety of challenges/wishes on the prayer list and that way if we get results on one that’s a dream……..and we take it off the list and go for the next ones.  It does not dilute down the prayer to have more than one, I believe it increases the odds of success spread amongst several." - Jimmy Mack  

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Got a job interview next week?  Going to court? Trying to get a mortgage? Surgery scheduled for you or a loved one?  These are just some of the life at the crossroads events that are ideal for My Daily Prayer program. I am doing the heavy lifting for you around 3AM while you’re asleep in order to smooth out your way. YES!  My Liquid Fish® Change made simple® works on legal issues too!  Even the nightmares of family court/child custody/divorce cases!!! I will dial into you daily in the wee hours and make certain that you are a CLEAR YES,UNCLEAR to NO and RUNNING FORWARD before you start your day. You will send me a list of the members of your immediate household, and yes even pets, and I will add them to my daily prayers. I will arise daily before you are even awake to start my prayers and also run my intelligent computer software 24/7 deleting the negative and increasing the strength of the positive creating a higher probability of outcomes for you and the family.  Each comes with a one-time email analysis print out via the intelligent healing software that I use on your behalf.  Most clients have had amazing results and outcomes and I get emails like this one each and every week!

CHOOSE ONE OF THE OPTIONS BELOW:

                       Choose 7 days @$33              Choose 14 days @$66           Choose 30 days @$99

   Online Certification Course

  Level I is open for ANYONE TO JOIN at anytime!  

The Certificate of Mastery Program includes 2 best-selling ebooks and 2 clearing audios plus written & video instructions, AND one-on-one time with Jimmy ALL for about the cost of a single 1-hr session! This online course is for anyone who is familiar with OR new to "fishing" and is ready to dive into the deep end & get results that are beyond the ordinary! It includes "The Tackle Box" & "Spiritual Healing Techniques" ebooks PLUS 2 MP3s "Clearing Dark Energies" & "Increasing Your Intuition" to help clear, strengthen and prepare your energy field for optimal “fishing” results. This is a work-at-your-own-pace curriculum that will TEACH & CLEAR you at the same time! In under 2wks you will be finished with the program and ready to fish on your own with greater results! "The required topics and teaching were well organized and easy to complete." - Sharon D. "This course is so fun, Jimmy... aligning with your work in a deeper way... THANK YOU for creating this training. - Magi B.

Level II Practitioner Certification Course for those in the healing arts.

All members must first complete the Mastery Program then, if qualified, they can choose to move on to Level II where many advanced teachings & nuances are shared through the "Healing A-Z" book & includes 3 more clearing audios to help strengthen your business and finances. The exclusively written "The Practitioner's Handbook" is the cornerstone of the program & cannot be purchased individually.  It outlines some of the inner workings of how I handle my own practice including topics like; managing unrealistic expectations, having patience, pricing, time isn't always equal to outcomes or results, having limits, legal and ethical questions, advice on supplements, marketing, promotion, and sales, daily rituals for you and your clients/patients. The Level II course was designed and is dedicated to those who practice in the healing arts; Psychics, Healers, NP, AP, DOM, DO, MD, DC, Massage Therapists, Physical Therapists, RNs, Nurse Practitioners, PhDs, and Physician Assistants or currently practicing another modality, technique or method that includes natural healing in your home office or office setting, phone and or Skype.

  LEARN MORE HERE

  My Liquid Fish® Jewelry and Art

  Check out this brand new "energy art" from artist Julia Watkins featuring My Liquid Fish®! Learn more about purchasing a stunning pendant or a print of this original art piece (pictured here) which can literally be called an "energy portal".   I believe you will find these pieces to be gorgeous keepsakes and each is empowered with the energy of My Liquid Fish® Change made simple®  

Created by world renowned Energy Artist Julia Watkins Watch this short 6-min video presentation all about it! https://vimeo.com/248516531

  PURCHASE HERE

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TGIWednesday, Lunar Eclipses, Mercury Retrograde... oh my!

TGIWednesday News

It's that time again when we begin to feel the influences of Mercury Retrograde which begins on July 26th and ends on August 19th. For those who would appreciate a brief explanation of this, here you go.... "Due to the way our own orbit interacts with those of the other planets, they might sometimes appear to be traveling backward through the night sky with respect to the zodiac. This is, in fact, an illusion, which we call apparent retrograde motion.  Several times a year, it appears as if Mercury is going backwards. These times in particular were traditionally associated with confusions, delay, and frustration.  Perhaps Mercury’s retrograde periods can cause our plans to go awry. However, this is an excellent time to reflect on the past. It’s said that intuition is high during these periods, and coincidences can be extraordinary." Ok, so you can see how celestial events like these can have a real effect on your world ... and to help you along the bumps... next week we will officially announce that the Featured Clearing Audio for August will be MyBeliefworks™ for Releasing Dark Energies, Fear, and Negativity which will definitely help you smooth out the effects during the Mercury Retrograde time next month. Also this Friday July 27th is the Lunar Eclipse……..so if you’ve been feeling extra crispy leading up to this one folks, now you know why.  HUGE changes coming up to it and afterwards, often closing doors and kicking down new ones.  Still wondering what’s in store?  Email me to schedule real time LIVE info@jimmymackhealing.com

TGIWednesday Download

~ EASE WITH INTERPLANETARY HAPPENINGS ~   It is safe and comfortable to function on this planet regardless of what is going on around me.  I know when, where, how and why to be at rest or engaged in forward momentum regardless of interplanetary happenings.  I am ready, willing and able to release this lethargic stuck feeling and push forward regardless of the nay sayers around me. I see everything working towards my benefit in all languages and throughout all timelines and so it is.

Live Shows and Replays

SPIRITUAL AWAKENINGS Sunday August 5th 5pm ET Drew Pillow hosts w/co-hosts Psychic Jennie McDaniel & Mandee Elam Healer The call in number for listeners is 424-258-9300. Listeners can click the link to hear the show or call the number to talk & listen live on their phones.  http://www.blogtalkradio.com/dprpresents/2018/08/05/spiritual-awakenings THE JIMMY MACK HEALING SHOW

Every Tuesday at 12pm ET Call in LIVE (713) 955-0594 (*New time starting July 31st - Tuesdays at 9pm ET/ 6pm PT)  

Imagine getting FREE intuitive messages and healings LIVE!  Well, it happens every week on my radio show with some of the best psychic readers & intuitive healers on the planet!  Tune in weekly for the FREE live show or replay and YOU will receive changes & healings just by listening!  To listen online, click the date links below.  YESTERDAY'S REPLAY with KELLY M BALLARD 4th Generation Medium and Intuitive Reader http://www.reflectiveharmony.com   At the new time Tuesdays at 9pm ET/ 6pm PT JULY 31st REV. DEBBIE DIENSTBIER, our in residence Transmedium Communications with your loved one’s in heaven

UPCOMING AUGUST SHOWS AT THE NEW TIME - TUESDAYS AT 9PM EDT August 7th Special Guest Joanne Psychic Leo Soul readings from the heart, via intuition, numerology and Angel cards too! http://psychicjoanneleo.com   August 14th Special Guest Shawn Cohen Intuitive card reader living in England who brings decades of practice and service to her clients.  Readings worldwide with amazing accuracy http://www.­tarotbyshawncohen.weebly.com August 21st Special Guest Daniel The Healer DANIEL THE HEALER is an Energy Healing Practitioner, Body Whisperer, Psychic Energy “Chiropractor,” and Spiritual Counselor who heals with Love. https://danielthehealer.com/ August 28th Special Guest Rev Debbie Dienstbier Our resident transmedium that communicates with your loved ones in spirit LIVE on the air.  Amazing readings in person, phone or Skype    https://www.facebook.com/Wings-of-Grace-Spiritual-Center-875388225837766  

Browse the interview archives here.

Live In-Person Appearances

LIVE SESSIONS AT SWANN HOLISTIC HEALTH NEXT MONDAY - July 30th from 10am to 5pm I will be seeing clients at my good friend Charla Tempone’s office at Swann Holistic Health Center in Tampa.  Please call their office directly in order to get on the schedule for 15-minutes 33$’s 30-minutes 65$ - and yes it will sell out! 39 A DAVIS BLVD. TAMPA, FL 33606 (813) 873-7773 LIVE AT KODAWARI YOGA STUDIOS TAMPA

BOTH Wed & Fri 10am - 2pm! Tampa Bay area locals can book a live session with me EVERY WEDNESDAY & FRIDAY from 10-2PM Call Kodawari's front desk directly to schedule (813) 773-4017 and pay at the concierge desk... 15 minutes 33$ or 30 minutes 65$. UPCOMING SCHEDULE 10-2pm: Wednesday: July 25th Aug. 1st, 8th, 15th, 22nd, 29th Friday: July 27th Aug. 3rd, 10th, 17th, 24th, 31st

3965 Henderson Blvd Suite C Tampa (813) 773-4017 http://www.kodawariyoga.com/

Fish Food 

The Daily Bread To Feed The Fish

Tell The Fish: 365 Daily Inspirations & Affirmations  

July 25th -  "Just for today I will enjoy quiet times without making a big splash and yield the floor to those who are acting verbose. I will enjoy the moment, quiet and still realizing that the peace of today may not last through tomorrow. I will take each breath as it comes." Buy the book and read all 365 Days

From the Fish Box

"I got the new Audio MP3 and use it daily. Really strong, and easy to use as well." - MDK / Netherlands

Receive 24/7 Daily Prayers From Jimmy

"I have found whatever you are doing here to support has been so helpful and supportive.  Thank you for all you do.  Still loving your daily GPS MP3!  Life is so much better with the addition of your support tools.  Blessings!" - Jensen Family Got a job interview next week?  Going to court? Trying to get a mortgage? Surgery scheduled for you or a loved one?  These are just some of the life at the crossroads events that are ideal for My Daily Prayer program. I am doing the heavy lifting for you around 3AM while you’re asleep in order to smooth out your way. YES!  My Liquid Fish® Change made simple® works on legal issues too!  Even the nightmares of family court/child custody/divorce cases!!! I will dial into you daily in the wee hours and make certain that you are a CLEAR YES,UNCLEAR to NO and RUNNING FORWARD before you start your day. You will send me a list of the members of your immediate household, and yes even pets, and I will add them to my daily prayers. I will arise daily before you are even awake to start my prayers and also run my intelligent computer software 24/7 deleting the negative and increasing the strength of the positive creating a higher probability of outcomes for you and the family.  Each comes with a one-time email analysis print out via the intelligent healing software that I use on your behalf.  Most clients have had amazing results and outcomes and I get emails like this one each and every week!

CHOOSE ONE OF THE OPTIONS BELOW:

                     Choose 7 days @$33              Choose 14 days @$66           Choose 30 days @$99

 Online Certification Course

Level I is open for ANYONE TO JOIN at anytime!  

The Certificate of Mastery Program includes 2 best-selling ebooks and 2 clearing audios plus written & video instructions, AND one-on-one time with Jimmy ALL for about the cost of a single 1-hr session! This online course is for anyone who is familiar with OR new to "fishing" and is ready to dive into the deep end & get results that are beyond the ordinary! It includes "The Tackle Box" & "Spiritual Healing Techniques" ebooks PLUS 2 MP3s "Clearing Dark Energies" & "Increasing Your Intuition" to help clear, strengthen and prepare your energy field for optimal “fishing” results. This is a work-at-your-own-pace curriculum that will TEACH & CLEAR you at the same time! In under 2wks you will be finished with the program and ready to fish on your own with greater results! "The required topics and teaching were well organized and easy to complete." - Sharon D. "This course is so fun, Jimmy... aligning with your work in a deeper way... THANK YOU for creating this training. - Magi B.

Level II Practitioner Certification Course for those in the healing arts.

All members must first complete the Mastery Program then, if qualified, they can choose to move on to Level II where many advanced teachings & nuances are shared through the "Healing A-Z" book & includes 3 more clearing audios to help strengthen your business and finances. The exclusively written "The Practitioner's Handbook" is the cornerstone of the program & cannot be purchased individually.  It outlines some of the inner workings of how I handle my own practice including topics like; managing unrealistic expectations, having patience, pricing, time isn't always equal to outcomes or results, having limits, legal and ethical questions, advice on supplements, marketing, promotion, and sales, daily rituals for you and your clients/patients. The Level II course was designed and is dedicated to those who practice in the healing arts; Psychics, Healers, NP, AP, DOM, DO, MD, DC, Massage Therapists, Physical Therapists, RNs, Nurse Practitioners, PhDs, and Physician Assistants or currently practicing another modality, technique or method that includes natural healing in your home office or office setting, phone and or Skype.

LEARN MORE HERE

My Liquid Fish® Jewelry and Art

Check out this brand new "energy art" from artist Julia Watkins featuring My Liquid Fish®! Learn more about purchasing a stunning pendant or a print of this original art piece (pictured here) which can literally be called an "energy portal".   I believe you will find these pieces to be gorgeous keepsakes and each is empowered with the energy of My Liquid Fish® Change made simple®  

Created by world renowned Energy Artist Julia Watkins Watch this short 6-min video presentation all about it! https://vimeo.com/248516531

PURCHASE HERE

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I could sleep for a week!

Hi everyone

I am absolutely knackered! Monday I found out that my knee surgery is booked for the 26th July!

Tuesday I went to part 3 of my anxiety management course! It wasn’t as anxious for me walking up there, but still anxious during the course. So signs of improvement. Even realised that I’ve been avoiding a lot of situations because of how anxious they make me feel. I always believed that I was just postponing situations for more important tasks. I know I was really lying to myself. So now I’m in the process of doing exposure therapy. Basically means, I’ll have to force myself into those situations that make me uncomfortable in order to get used to them. It’s not like I drop myself right in the deep end and pray for the best but end up so freaked out that I never ever leave my house again lol. Nope, I’ll be starting off small! Like going out in public by myself or without listening to music on earphones to distract from others. Working the way up to situations that freak me out, such as events where I’m the centre of attention! Dreading that part, but I want to get better, so going to work to try and get there.

In the evening, we took my son to an open evening at a technical college school. Basically they do GCSE’s but also do other types of qualifications in more practical areas for those students who are more advanced in different fields of work. My son for instance, is amazing with computers and is even creating his own games. This school will help teach him more in these areas alongside his exams. They also work with employers, colleges and universities, which will get them noticed and acknowledged so they can go on to further education in their field of passion. He was absolutely mesmerised. Even his dad and partner turned up for moral support. We just have to wait till September to see if they’ll be accepting his year group in Sept 2018. I think this place could really help him so much. Fingers crossed.

Wednesday, Nick was in bed. He’s been suffering with a migraine since Monday evening, so I told him to stay in bed and rest. I managed to finally get his migraine meds on Tuesday but they take a while to kick in. I went to see my therapist. It was my last session. It went really well. I cried quite a bit as I managed to offload a lot of issues I’ve been dealing with recently. She’d even written me a reference for when I apply to college and volunteer placement. She read it out aloud and I cried again. She asked me what made me cry. I said that the person she described was a person I’d always hoped I’d one day be and the hardest part was that she sees me as that person and has only known me half a year, but people who’ve known me all my life, don’t see me that way. Goes to show that sometimes it’s all about perspective!

Thursday, Nick was looking terrible. So I told him to stay in bed. He actually listened this time lol. I popped to the shops and supermarket to get some shopping for his mum, us and my son’s party on Saturday. It’s going to be a crazy weekend. I’m taking my son and his mates to a trampoline park and then back to ours for food and games. I must be crazy! His dad and sister are coming up to surprise him! Plus my stepson is coming to help me while we’re out, so I don't get driven insane by any of them lol.

Today I’ve been chilling! Got a letter from the hospital saying they’ve got an appointment for me to see the actual surgeon now! It’s two days before my knee surgery! So looks like another busy week lol! So could be expecting another surgery in the near future. Maybe I’ll have a chance of being fixed by the end of this year at this rate!

When I said this was going to be the year I’d get myself fixed, I wasn’t bloody kidding! Might end up sleeping through next year lol.

So now I’m going to end here as Nick will be back soon! He’s been doing the shopping with his mum. So we can chill for an hour before one of Jack’s friends comes round to stay tonight, so he can come to his party! Shoot me now! LMAO!

Speak to you later guys! xxx

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LA Times: Dodgers' Clayton Kershaw says his goal this season is to not be missed

Clayton Kershaw attempted to treat this off-season like any other, even as he welcomed the birth of his second child and navigated his first off-season since suffering a herniated disk in his back last summer.

He rarely ventured outside his hometown of Dallas. He began his throwing program in December and climbed atop a mound in January. Along the way, during weekly sessions leading up to his arrival at Camelback Ranch on Wednesday, he tinkered with his enigmatic fourth pitch.

“I worked on a changeup,” Kershaw said. “Every off-season I say my changeup’s getting better.”

He paused to set up the punchline.

“Maybe I’ll throw one this year.”

The Dodgers do not require innovation from Kershaw as he approaches his 10th season. They would settle, with glee, for reclamation of the form he displayed before the injury shelved him for 75 days. He appeared set for his fourth National League Cy Young Award until his body betrayed him.

Upon his return in September, Kershaw seesawed between dominance and rustiness. In moments of triumph, like his first start against the Chicago Cubs in the playoffs, he resembled the man who stood astride the sport in years past. In moments of vulnerability, like his second playoff start against the Cubs, he raised questions about the long-term ramifications of his back trouble. 

Protective about his health and proud of his performance, he understands there is a simple solution for the situation in 2017.

“I want to make every start,” Kershaw said. “I’ll do whatever I have to do to make that next start. I’ll worry about the next year when I need to. If it costs me somewhere down the road, it does. But I’m here to make every start this year. I feel like that’s what I’m supposed to do.”

Kershaw does not intend to stumble blindly down this path. As he recovered last summer, he modified his workout regimen in order to reduce the strain on his back. Famous for punishing his body between starts, Kershaw cut down on the exertion. He has suggested he would have made these changes anyway as he grew older. The injury merely accelerated his timetable of moderation.

Through discussions with physical therapist Stephen Smith, strength and conditioning coach Brandon McDaniel and the rest of the medical staff, Kershaw established a new paradigm. Compromise allowed Kershaw to feel satisfied with his level of activity, while preventing him from subjecting his back to unnecessary risk.

The Dodgers believe the summertime adjustments will carry over into this season. Kershaw maintained a dialogue with the organization during his off-season workouts. He turned down an offer to pitch in the World Baseball Classic despite “very serious consideration” on his part, he said, because “I thought it was probably best for me not to do it.”

Kershaw played a role in an awkward milestone last season. He was one of 28 Dodgers to land on the disabled list. The pileup of ailments set a major league record.

“Everybody knows that our team was plenty talented last year,” Kershaw said. “We just had a lot of guys get hurt. So hopefully we don’t get hurt, and we should be OK.”

Kershaw completed a bullpen session Wednesday morning. As he pitched to catcher Yasmani Grandal, Manager Dave Roberts stood watch with pitching coach Rick Honeycutt. Roberts pronounced Kershaw’s session as “really sharp.”

“Clayton is in a good place, physically, mentally,” Roberts said as he sat beside President of Baseball Operations Andrew Friedman during a session with the media. “He’s excited to be here. That’s what we’d expect out of him.”

Friedman turned to Roberts.

“Are you announcing him as the opening-day starter?”

“I’m going to hold off,” Roberts said with a chuckle.

The caution relates more to superstition than Kershaw’s condition. The team expects Kershaw to headline the group. Rich Hill and Kenta Maeda will follow him. The contestants for the final two spots include Scott Kazmir, Brandon McCarthy, Julio Urias, Hyun-Jin Ryu, Brock Stewart, Ross Stripling and Alex Wood.

“We’ll just get to the end of spring training and see what things look like,” Friedman said. “We’re not spending a lot of time trying to put our opening-day roster in pen right now.”

Based on seniority, resume and a lack of minor league options, Kazmir and McCarthy look like the favorites. The team can stockpile Stewart and Stripling in the minors. Wood can aid the bullpen. More curious is how the club plans to utilize Urias during his second season in the majors and what Ryu can contribute.

During a whirlwind 2016, Urias became the Dodgers’ first teenage pitcher since Fernando Valenzuela, competed his way into the starting rotation for October and logged 127 2/3 innings. He is unlikely to add much more than 40 to that total for 2017, which means the organization must decide how to ration his usage.

Neither Friedman nor Roberts would commit publicly to a plan for Urias this spring. He will appear in Cactus League games “just like any starter,” Roberts said. But he could be kept at extended spring training in order to preserve his arm for the final months of the season.

“He’s not at the point where he’s going to make 32, 33 starts, throw 200-plus innings,” Friedman said. “So exactly how we manage that, and when, is something we’ve spent some time talking about this winter. We’ll continue to talk about it throughout the spring.”

Friedman also expressed optimism about Ryu, who has pitched in the majors only once since undergoing shoulder surgery in 2015. Ryu was battered during his comeback last season, with his fastball stuck in the mid-80s. The Dodgers have been pleased with improvements in his conditioning heading into this year. A fixture in the rotation in 2013 and 2014, Ryu now resembles a wild card.

“All the reports have been extremely good,” Friedman said. “What that means, obviously, we’ll see. But I think he’s done everything he can this off-season to come into camp and reclaim his spot.”

Unlike Ryu, Kershaw has little to prove this spring. Informed of Kershaw’s vow to not miss a start, Friedman cracked a smile.

“We’re in,” Friedman said. “Sign us up.”

andy.mccullough@latimes.com

Twitter: @McCulloughTimes

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