#i hope i can still have time for hobbies

[immamapletreekid]

work anxiety starting before work itself hahahahaahahahahahahhhaha

[almond-gallery]

wanted to take another crack at modern les amis (plus extras) since it's been a long time since i've done so !!

[bunnihearted]

🐰🌧️

[whysamwhy123]

HALLEJUAH!! I REMEMBERED HOW TO ACTUALLY FINISH WRITING SOMETHING FOR A CHANGE!!

Of course, it's not any of the fics I wanted to finish. I went back to what is essentially my bread-and-butter now and wrote a short-ish, random OrangeHook fluff. But considering how much writing's been a struggle as of late, I'm just glad that I successfully finished something. I was back in one of those stretches where I couldn't seem to write much of anything. And this fic isn't about their age difference or Hook being a cuddlebug, so...progress?

Unless I decide I completely hate it (which is always a possibility) expect something to drop on Valentine's Day, tis the season, after all.

[running-in-the-dark]

I think I mentioned that I was looking into getting a better sewing machine? well, it arrived today 🙈 that happened much faster than planned. I found the model I was looking at at a (relatively) local sewing machine store, for 30% off because it had been in the shop window, so the plastic has yellowed.

I wasn't sure how I felt about that (the website only said it was a floor model or something similar, then someone from the store called and told me the specifics and asked if that was still okay), but honestly? I never ever would have paid the full price, it was just too much, I couldn't justify that. but this reduced price was only a little more than the ones I had been looking at before (that were not great quality and probably wouldn't last very long).

I am very particular about things like this but I'm trying to make myself accept that it really is not that bad. it actually looks kinda cool. I just have to get my brain to accept that it's not a flaw, it's just a completely superficial and insignificant thing that doesn't affect its function at all. it's good that this machine that works perfectly won't end up in a landfill just because it doesn't look brand new.

I only got to try it a little bit today because I wasn't feeling well but damn, the difference to my old machine is huge!! it's so much more fun and easy to use - I love having the needle threader and that it can automatically cut the yarn when you're done. and with the start/stop button it's actually really fun to wind bobbins!! I always hated that on my old machine.

I skimmed through the manual earlier (and put page markers in it so that I can easily find anything later) - it did seem somewhat overwhelming at first. I've never used or even seen (irl) a computerised sewing machine, so of course it did! but it already felt much more familiar after just using it a little bit today. I love it 🥰

(also, I think the fact that it doesn't look perfect and brand new actually helps - I'm not afraid to use it in case I 'ruin' it!)

[a-walking-fandom-reference]

i have so many opinions about that eddie confronting “shannon” scene so many thoughts…

[trafalgar-law-ask]

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[kingspuppet]

I miss writing and you guys so much. ;3; I hope you've all been doing well. 💙

[gatheryepens]

So I thought I’d give an update on my job, since I’ve had my first week…

[deus-ex-mona]

sometimes, i just wanna evaporate… _(:3 」∠)_

[void-tiger]

Unlike Marlin, I refuse to not have an inner life and hobbies even if my chronic illness and mental health dictates my life, too.

[shiningstages]

August 2011...The first time I tried rping on this site...I just realized it’s been 11 years...

[scattered-winter]

days like today when i actually get writing done are a double edged sword because on the one hand i got writing done!!!!! and i'm genuinely proud of it!!! but on the other. i used to be able to write for hours at a time. for multiple days in a row. and now i can only write once a week on a really good week, and even then, the motivation lasts for approximately an hour before i've lost it again. and it's really frustrating even while i'm celebrating getting something written because i used to be able to do it so much more

[yeleltaan]

//Just want to mention that family has stayed here last week as well as this one, which is partially why I haven't been able to pick up the pace. I should be able to work on replies next week.

[noxtivagus]

these next few weeks r gna be extra crazy oh god

[tenrose]

You know before university I was never a big TV shows kind of person (with some exceptions). Then I was here and at the same time ignoring my student duty and I got into a lot of TV shows at the same time. Then a few years ago, like around 2016 I think, a big shift happened and I gradually watched less and less TV shows. Then of course work, and given the fact that my work requires starring intensely at a screen for hours despite my eyesight, I admit that I don't really want to stare more at a screen when I'm home (well except my phone is right now calling me a hypocrite but unfortunately it's a bad addiction) and also I have no time. Add to the fact that a lot of TV shows are reboot, massive capitalist money maker with absolutely no substance just milking a big franchise to the last dry vein, adaptation of books because nobody who has an original idea can be a screenwriter anymore, and really you can understand why I slowly lost interest. I'm just tired to the chore. It's sad that capitalism exhaust literally every aspect of my life including hobbies. So anyway in the meantime I have been addicted to uninteresting shit on my phone (yeah it's a screen) and compulsed to keep doing this self destructive behaviour (not including Tumblr I'm fine here, it's not destructive for me since I'm way less present than before) and having no hobbies. Sometimes tried to watch some TV shows but my attention span seemed to be dead outside of work. And I was a bit frustrated to not be able to feel the addiction thing.

And of course reading. Because, unlike TV shows I have been a reader since childhood. Wasn't allowed to watch that much TV (it changed so much for my third brother...), so I only had books. But then a few years back, I read less and less to the point in the last years I wasn't able to read and this shit hurt me so much more than being unable to watch a show. Not being able to read is like losing myself. But finally after months of exercise I'm here, I read, I forget to do things cause I'm reading, I still have this bad habit to go to bed way too late for alarm the next morning but not because of my phone! And the best part is that I managed to go back to reading different things that I was used to before, and damn I feel so much more happier than before. I don't feel frustrated anymore. I don't care anymore about not watching TV shows. I didn't care before, I don't care now. Books are so much better anyway. I prefer the images from my brain over any images on a screen anyday (I'm only low-key sad that I have never been able to draw lmao). Plus, the universe of reading is so vast, way beyond american stories. I don't care anymore about not being in a conversation about the latest trending TV show, but I care about not being able to talk about I loved or not a book for hours. In conclusion I need a book club/discord whatever. But I need to be sociable... And also even though I'm happy to read now, I feel a bit ashamed to be beyond everyone else I could discuss with because of my "traversée du désert". Anyway regardless I'm happy to read now. I love books ❤️