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EYES OFF! ; F1 GRID.
synopsis: When you are catcalled on the street, it is only natural that your boyfriend reacts a certain way, be it possessive or enraged.
trigger warnings: Use of feminine pronouns from the reader’s perspective; Descriptions of romantic acts and behaviors; Suggestive remarks; Descriptions of cat-calling; Mentions of physical altercations
a message from the author: Once again, I added Daniel Ricciardo to this fic. I think I’ll be doing that for the rest of the stories in this series. If any of you would like to add a driver or request a certain scenario, don’t hesitate to message me in my inbox!
ISACK HADJAR
He can’t believe his ears – he can’t begin to fathom why someone would make such a vile comment, especially to his girlfriend, the sweetest, most loving person he knows. It physically repulses him, and for a moment, you think he might vomit all over the sidewalk.
Likewise, as soon as he hears the leering statement, he freezes in place. Head cocked to one side, fists clenching until the knuckles turn white. You have to practically drag him away, telling him that “It’s not worth it” because the boxer in him is just itching for a fight.
“No one should be saying those things. Not to you, not to anyone. They need to learn a lesson, and I’ll fucking teach them.” He repeats it as if it were his personal mantra, over and over.
For the rest of the day, he’s sulking. An invisible rain cloud is hovering over his head, but it doesn’t stop him from being extremely clingy. If you dare move out of his eyesight for a second (to get a snack or to put your phone on charge), he immediately panics and can’t stop kissing you afterward.
OSCAR PIASTRI
Oscar is not a confrontational guy at all. His version of arguments are stony silences, unanswered texts, and the cold shoulder. Nevertheless, he rather enjoys keeping a level head and remaining calm. But when a guy walking down the street wolf-whistles at you and cracks some lewd joke about wanting to explore the curves of your body, Oscar wants to tear him apart.
He takes a few deep breaths, attempting to regulate his rapidly pounding heart rate before it explodes out of his chest. He might consider walking away, but when he sees your panic-stricken expression, it’s game over.
Oscar stalks over to them, his voice low and gravelly as he makes the catcaller regret his existence with a few well-chosen words. He’s more forceful, more direct than you’ve ever heard or seen him be, and it turns you on.
LANCE STROLL
His head whips to look at the culprit, his eyes widening in astonishment. For a moment, he thinks he’s imagined it, but the leering smirk on the offender’s face dashes his hopes. “What did you just say to my girlfriend?” Lance’s voice is eerily calm, not a hint of his inner rage visible on the surface.
The only way you can identify how he truly feels is the vein pulsing on his neck, and the fact that he’s gone rigid, like a tree trunk. You have to place a hand on his arm to get his body to relax.
As a result of the incident, Lance becomes more vigilant, walking in front of you at all times and blocking your body with his – a very attractive shield. He even offers to get you a personal bodyguard, but you adamantly refuse.
LANDO NORRIS
His face flushes with anger, eyes turning into flinty shards. He’s so pissed off that someone would dare to tease you, especially in such a creepy manner.
You have to whisper-hiss at him to not get into an altercation with the person who catcalled you. He’s like an overgrown puppy, growling at the person and trying to tug himself free of your grip in order to go fight the other person. “I don’t give a fuck about race penalties. He’s a fucking bastard!”
Once he’s regained some composure, he posts a lengthy paragraph on social media, denouncing misogynistic behaviors and urging everyone to make donations to women’s empowerment groups. “We love to believe that the world today is modern and equal, but it can never truly become inclusive if these events are still commonplace.”
CHARLES LECLERC
He curses in French, letting loose a dictionary’s worth of swear words you didn’t even know existed. That’s his clash with the perpetrator. On track? He’s ready to fight. But in person? He’s less eager to do so.
In lieu of this, he wraps you up in his sweater, taking your hand in his and comforting you with his closeness. “I’m here for you, mon ange. And I’ll always protect you.”
He’s big on physical touch after – kissing your cheeks and cuddling, enveloping you with his body like he can shield you from every harsh remark people make. Perhaps he can. He’s just that magical.
DANIEL RICCIARDO
He’s absolutely incensed. The happy-go-lucky facade disappears in a snap, replaced by cold fury. He slings one arm around your shoulder, laughing menacingly. “Hey, mate! Eyes off my girl, and fuck off.”
Daniel would 100% get into a brawl with someone who insults his girlfriend, not because he is a violent guy, but because he wants to properly defend the love of his life.
He could be bleeding and bruised for weeks after, yet he will forever be proud of his capability to defend his girlfriend.
Later, he tries to make light of the situation by making jokes. Ultimately, however, all he wants is to take you in his arms and never let you go. You’re everything he could ever want, and he hates that other people have the power to hurt you.
Credits: Dividers — @strangergraphics
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Xavier... is kind of mean?
You realize this a bit late, embarrassingly, but he does it in such a way you don't seem to notice until you replay the conversation back in your mind.
Sometimes it's just normal enough to pass off— something you wouldn't really think back to... But when you do, it's like a condescending pat on your cheek, and you can almost hear his voice in your head.
"I'm not trying to argue with you, I'm just explaining why I'm right." He'd say, gently cupping your cheek and wiping at the dirt with his thumb, "I just don't want you to get hurt rushing into things like a child..."
Undermining you, softly. With care.
"Are you sure you'll be able to go alone?"
"Yes," you scoff, "It's not like I need you to babysit me on every mission.. I can handle this just fine."
Xavier pretends to think for a bit, pursing his lips, and you prepare yourself once again to decline his offer as your mission partner — but to your surprise he just relents.
"Mm..okay."
The way he says it makes you suspicious, like he's planning something, but when he sees your narrowed vision glue onto him, he just sends you an innocent smile. He almost looks too giddy, but you end up shrugging off your paranoia to focus on your assigned mission.
So you get to the designated area, only for the wanderers to be a bit too strong, a bit too advanced. If there weren't so many of them, you'd be able to clear the area quickly, but it's taking awhile, and you're starting to get tired— so you bite your tongue and dial for backup. You can only hope it's anyone else but him, maybe Tara? Even Andrew—
When Xavier does eventually arrive, using his evol and dispersing of the few remaining wanderes on site, he doesn't say anything to you— not even an, 'I told you so'— because he doesn't need to. His expression already speaks volumes.
You can already tell by the upturn of his lips, the soft crinkle of his eyes as he looks at you... But he says nothing, and all that comes out of his mouth is a soft,
"Those were tough, huh?" yes. But clearly not for him.
You rustle, feeling the need to defend your pride, "I got rid of most of them!.. Jus' got tired is all."
Xavier looks at you, and he just let's out a soft hum at your words, clearly unimpressed, but overjoyed at the fact that it's only a matter of time before he becomes your official partner.
If it's not a subtle attack on your abilities at combat (you're better than he is, you think, where you strike he dodges), then it's a jab at your intelligence.
"You're so clever. I'm surprised you didn't figure that out sooner." Xavier says, a soft smile gracing his features, full of affection— the sight of it renders your entire brain useless, and the only thing you can really remember from what he said is, 'you're so clever'.
It's frustrating, because it's not like he's really trying to mince his words — it's your brain doing it for you. Remembering his 'praises' instead of what they really were.
You're sure he knows this too, because everytime you see him— he seems a bit more collected: smug in a way only certain people are able to tell. In a way only you're able to see.
It gets on your nerves, prickles at your skin like any annoying itch— especially when he wears a look of innocence on his face, his eyes scanning your form and looking at the slight frown on your face, the furrow of your brows. He tilts his head to the side and asks, full of amusement,
"Wake up on the wrong side of bed?"
I also think some tiny (big) part of Xavier just likes seeing you a bit irritated at him.
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Hiii im back🙈👀 I was wondering if I could get another chibs fic🤣🙈 im a told chibs slut🤣🤣😍😍😏 I was thinking all day what if reader and chibs are like friends with benefits and shes Gemmas assistant or a fill in Gemma when shes not there and chibs plays it cool but you guys recently started hooking up and no one knows and she goes home to her place and chibs is already there and she didn't knoe and they start making out and being all cuddly and and gettinf things going anf then the new prospect (who can't take a hint that you don't like him bc hes too cocky) starts knocking and she answers and hes flirting and shes jusr like " im busy i havr tk go" and he keeps talking anf chibs walks up and just stares at him and nods for him to go👀😫😫😫😍😍😍 idk just something I've thought about all day😫😫😫🤣🤣🤣
Another amazing request, indeed! thank you for sending it to me! again, I tried my best to sum all the information up and wrote the fic asap
I hope you like it! 😊☝🖤
WARNING: EXPLICIT SMUT UNDER THE CUT
"COME HERE, SWEETHEART"

Gemma had hired you to manage the TM's accounts.
Since she spent a lot of time looking after the children while Tara was at St. Thomas's, she'd left the money-related tasks to you, such as collections, payments, and other transactions involving money.
You were organizing the stacks of bills in the safe when you saw someone parking a Harley in its designated spot out of the corner of your eye.
The driver got out of the vehicle and headed towards you as soon as he saw you.
You raised your head to bump into the figure of Chibs.
You and the Scotsman had a somewhat peculiar relationship.
The first day you came to work at the shop, Gemma introduced you to the guys, and since then, he hadn't been able to take his eyes off you.
At first, he was very nice to you.
He helped you with anything you needed and was always making sure you didn't lack anything.
As the weeks went by, this all became more complicated, until you were finally doing it anywhere, on any surface.
From the first time he tried you, Chibs needed you near him all the time, as if you were a drug for which there was no cure.
Several times, when he saw you finishing up with a client who was leaving, he would nod at you to the chapel to come when you were finished, using the excuse that he had to talk, which wasn't true.
In the end, you were both exhausted, sweating, and having serious trouble hiding what had happened from your children.
No one knew about your encounters.
Jax knew there was something going on between you because of the intense glances Chibs gave you from time to time, but he never said anything.
He assumed it was something that belonged to the two of you, and that he had no business getting involved.
That day, you had agreed to meet at your house after work.
Sometimes you two would do that: he'd leave first on his motorcycle, and you'd wait ten minutes and follow in your car.
When you arrived and parked your car next to the house, your hands were itching from how nervous you were.
You gripped the doorknob and pushed it open.
Chibs was already there, just as you'd agreed, both arms resting on the sides of the couch and a lopsided smile on his lips.
"Oh, sweetheart," he whispered. "You don't know how much I've missed you today." He murmured, motioning with his index finger for you to come closer. "Come here."
You obeyed and stood in front of him.
He looked at you for a few moments, as if you were the most beautiful thing he'd ever seen, before placing his hands on your hips and guiding you down so you were sitting on his lap.
A gasp escaped your lips when you felt him against your most sensitive area, despite the pants you were wearing.
"Do you feel it, love?" he whispered, tucking a strand of hair behind your ear. "I've been hard all day because of you," he growled, making you nervously shift on top of him. "These pants…" he murmured, running his hands over them. "Where did you get them?"
"Do you like them?" you asked timidly. "I bought them when Gemma gave me my first paycheck." You smiled. "I always said that as soon as I had money, I would buy them."
"I love how they look on you," he affirmed, playing with the zipper of the garment. "But I think they would look prettier on the floor." He smiled, giving me a mischievous smile. "What do you say, princess?"
"I'd say I agree with you," you murmured, mimicking his gesture.
The Scotsman leaned in to kiss you, his mouth, as always, moving eagerly over yours, as if no matter how many times he'd kissed you, he always needed more.
You brought your hands to either side of his face to deepen the kiss, causing you both to gasp into each other's mouths.
Chibs tugged at your lower lip between his teeth, causing you to let out a moan that was quickly replaced by a groan as he began to pull down your pants.
And at that moment, there was a knock at the door.
An exasperated grunt escaped Chibs's lips, and he gave you one last kiss before resting his forehead against yours.
"Fuck, this has got to be a fucking joke," he complained, causing you to give an amused smile. "Are you expecting someone?"
"No, just you," you smiled before getting up from her lap and combing your hair a little with your fingers. "I'll go see who it is, I won't be long," you promised, heading for the door.
When you opened it, you didn't expect to find the person standing there.
The new prospect of the sons watched you closely for a few moments.
Ever since you started working for Gemma, you'd noticed how his eyes followed you around the workshop, and how he always seemed to be doing anything to get your attention.
You weren't sure if he liked you or if he was just one of those people you talk to and seem to be flirting with you all the time, even if he didn't mean to.
You watched him from above, just like he had, before speaking.
"What are you doing here?" you asked politely.
"I saw you leave the TM faster than usual," he explained. "I just wanted to make sure you got home safely, and that no one had kidnapped you, you know," he whispered, winking at you.
"Very funny, prospect," you murmured, crossing your arms over your chest. "Well, as you can see, I got home in one piece, so…"
"Yeah, right," he whispered. "You look beautiful tonight," he blurted out. "Well, actually, you always do."
At that instant, you felt Chibs' presence behind you.
He leaned against the doorframe beside you, staring at the rookie, and he did the same.
He didn't need to say anything; with a simple nod, the boy understood it was time to go.
Without a word, he hopped on his motorcycle and disappeared down the road as quickly as he'd arrived.
"There was no need to scare the poor kid," you said, laughing as you closed the door.
"That 'poor kid,' as you call him, interrupted the moment I was having with my girl," he whispered, placing his hands on your waist to pull you back towards him. "Nobody does that"
#byvoice#writters on tumblr#writterscommunity#my fic writing#chibs telford#sons of anarchy#chibs x reader#tommy flanagan
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I’m rereading DLB to catch up, and every time I revisit this story I am completely in awe of how you use the Force in your writing. The way that it operates and the discussions around it feel so real, I always felt that for such a big part of the movies it went oddly underdeveloped (if that’s the right word? The literal magic was almost never utilized to its full potential) and you have scratched that itch in my brain. This is my Star Wars canon now and I refuse to think of it any other way. The Order feels like an actual… Order, rather than a collection of characters to fill space and be cool wizards. The masters have different perspectives that actually influence how they use the force, and it’s so much more than just “bad wizard vs good wizard”, which of course the movies tried to do but just didn’t lean hard enough. You lean hard enough and I eat it up every time.
Additionally, how you treat the topic of mental health via the Force is just exceptional. The philosophies in DLB have started worming their way into my real life, and it’s strangely comforting and simple, it makes me feel a bit like a Jedi myself :D I find staying calm a lot easier when I can focus that energy into myself, I think more critically about what I say and when, and I’ve actually picked up meditating simply because it seemed to make more sense after reading about it here. As much as it probably isn’t intended to be used literally, I appreciate the advice given by certain characters and that all comes from you, so… I appreciate you for sharing it.
Anyway, I’m usually a silent reader, but I feel the need to gush about this story every time I read it and wanted to share the sentiment. It really is that good. Everything about it is just done so beautifully <3 I am incredibly grateful to live in a world where you shared it with us
I'm so overwhelmed, I hardly know what to say. Thank you so much for sharing your experience. I'm so glad you love the story so much, and that it's given good things to you.
Thank you for sharing your thoughts, both here and with others.
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I think what's frustrating me the most about what's going on in campaign 3 right now is that the main idea being talked about and given way too much emphasis runs counter to the theme of the m9. If the Nein were about the idea that you can become better no matter what you did or who you were before, the argument set forth and being entertained as a legitimate conflict right now is very "these guys did bad shit a thousand years ago and they should die. Somehow this is good for everyone despite the centuries of good they've done since." Ashton's point was extremely astute that if that's the case, cleanse the entire world motherfucker because we're no better, but the hypocrisy of that was neatly sidestepped (which is at least consistent with Ludinus and fascists of his ilk in general). It's not a real argument, guys. We're not meant to take him seriously.
The gods are the stewards of the only world anyone living has ever known. The fact that they made bad choices that hurt Ludinus and people he knew is a legitimate grievance. The gods are in fact flawed, capable of selfishness, but when confronted with the enormity of the damage they were causing this world, they removed themselves and a whole chunk of their power to seal themselves behind the divine gate. They didn't abandon the world. They didn't withdraw their power and sulk, leaving everyone without their gifts until they begged for a return. They simply care for mortals on the terms of those mortals and ask for nothing not freely given. The people who follow the gods find them worthy of that patronage and Ludinus does not get to erase the choice of everyone else who doesn't agree with him because he's hurt, even if he did have a point (he doesn't).
He thinks, for some reason, that his actions won't result in the same kind of harm on a global scale and completely ignores the damage he has already wrought in the name of a higher purpose because that's what the gods did and they're no better than him. But they are, dipshit. They are better than you. There are people in the world they may not be better than, salient point, but you're not one of them.
And after the light and love that was the core of the Nein - the very thing that shaped Essek into the campaign 3 NPC that he is - it feels extremely disingenuous for "do the gods deserve their power now that you've seen them at their worst" to be perceived as an actual, legitimate conflict in the endgame and a talking point in the Fandom. Especially when the Hells have already been pretty clear that they're not looking to be judge, jury, and executioner of the gods. This is not the central conflict of campaign 3, it's one dumbass's weird motivation to be a villain that needs to be stopped and the fact that it keeps coming up as anything approaching credible is a condemnation of the purity culture mindset in online spaces today.
#cr spoilers#Okay I'm done now I just really needed to be able to articulate the itch in the back of my brain#C2: cancel culture is bullshit. Do your best to atone for the harm you have caused#But allowing guilt to consume you prevents you from putting more good into the world#If you believe yourself irredeemable and two dimensional you will never move forward as a person#C3: the equivalent of finding my diary from when I was a 15 year old fundamentalist Christian#And using it to try and dogpile me in the present#It's mean spirited and hateful#I'm talkibg about ludinus and I'm talking about a weird percentage of the people engaging with this like it has any teeth#And isn't just justification for not only Ludinus's atrocities but of those in his employ#I don't really think Otohan gave much of a shit about whether the gods died#I think she was a violent powerful person given free reign and justification for the things she already wanted to do
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Six/Maxil is endgame and i will die on that hill
i've been working on this for far too long and decided to stop here. idk whether that was a wise decision but it's been almost 10 hours and i'm really not used to painting multiple characters lmao
anyway, as always: reblogs are much much much appreciated. my commissions are open, or you could buy me a coffee if you'd like 🩷
#the problem is i see so many things that need fixing and#i‘m kinda itching to do it but i also kinda don’t want to spend any more time on this??#big sigh. maybe one day#until then: have this#digital art#procreate#doctor who#classic who#sixth doctor#commander maxil#six/maxil#colin baker#is it only my phone or does it look really blurry? :/
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what if. what if I did a whole post abt ex-togame what if.
#no because........ the way I'm in my feelings for him and in my feelings for angst should be illegal#hands itching. i need to write i need to write sOMETHING#togame ? trying the most to make things right only for your relationship to fall for the 1 thing he can't do that's communication? HMU#i genuinely think he wouldn't be desperated begging for a second chance bc im a firm believer he would be pissed#HOWEVER ☝️ May I suggest ☝️ togame slowly loosing his mind because you accidentally left something in his house ☝️#its the idea of 'he has so much of you' in his house and vice-versa just to show how he genuinely tried so much how could u not see it ?!#not me yapping abt this instead of writing........ alright maybe I'll make a part two of that prev posf just for him 😐#'your fault for letting your girl get so comfortable togame' 'shut up stop saying that you're not my girl anymore' 'sorry. habit.' 'i know.'#I CAN WRITE A MESS SO MESSY I PROMISE 🙏🙏🙏🙏 ILL DO IT ILL DO IT#i just need angst in my veins atm and you guys know me I can't do that to ume. its too much for me to handle.#ALWAYS ALWAYS obsessed with different ways a enneagram 2 reacts to it. as a 2 myself. ume and jo the mans that you both are.#ALRIGHT ENOUGH ill write it. by next week i promise 👍👍👍#if i dont get any requests it will be the next thing promise 👍#e.txt#jo togame x reader
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Guys. I'm so autistic. I get an inch of lore in anything and I become an addict craving my next fix.
#IT HAPPENS WITH EVERYTHING#TAZ#ISAT#MARIO#if i am a fan of it. any crumb of lote will have me throwing myself at the ground to eat it.#wwhwhwhwhhwhwhwhwhhwhwhwhw#i need to do some actual writing soon. i need my themes and pages. i miss you essay writing#sob sob sob sob. i need more lore too. i need to play video games soon#i love being invested in my things. i love being shown things too. guys. i acnt even fully expess#there is an itch in my skin when I think with my brain about anything ever.
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im going insane i need to re write splatoon 3's story right now
#the more i think about it the more it bothers me? thats mean more like it itches me#theres so many things that really conflict with previous games like the octarians going back to being treated like#videogame villains and not yk people#and so many things that go unexplained like why are test chambers made by humans so filled with inkling tech#what are the test chambers for why is orca running these tests why was orca made how did octolings found their way into alterna#did mr grizz bring em there?#why did mr grizz need cuttlefish???#i think alterna is a reaaallly cool setting i think they mayb should have leaned more into fleshing it out and the story about it#maybe have mr grizz be made created by the humans with human intelligence to some how try and pass on their legacy#make mr grizz see how the humans of alterna destroy eachother and then resent that behavior when he see it on the inklings#that sounds too much like commander tartar so idk and it would conflict with salmon run i think#but i definitively do think they should have leaned more into the story of alterna and fleshing it out more#or maybe lean more into the loneliness that mr grizz feels being the only creature like him#he does no longer resemble a mammal from the past and its onlike any other creature on this current world#idk ill stop rambling now it just bothers mee#gh0ost txt
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Seeing my sister @rachel11sm fighting the good/bad/horrible fandom fights on this hellsite again.
#I do remember when you were mocking me for still doing this on tumblr dot com lol#and the receipts#holy shit though that man (who shall not be named) does not need to be defended and you're right to say it#that relationship may end faster than I thought and possibly off screen if he keeps going#the hiatus is very much not in his favor because it's one thing after another with him#anyway I am not itching to catch any weirdo's attention about this so I won't tag anything
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I love my gx winx au and I love that it's just bits and pieces of me being like oh that's fun and not having any semblance of lore or plot. It's purely contained to the character designs I've drawn for the girls.
#it will stay contained to art too it's not something I'd ever write#like I know absolutely nothing about this au of mine but I'm obsessed with it all the same#like I learn something new about it every time I've drawn something#I don't draw a lot for it yall have seen everything I've done and it's usually just a drawing of alexis cuz I love her design lol#but like I'm doing panels for it rn right? and like it's just coming together like the story of what's happening atm#and that's like the only story there actually is rn but it's just falling into place#so I can actually make something of substamce out of this tiny concept I had for a drawing I wanted to try because I had an itch and it grew#that doesn't really happen to me anymore like I haven't felt a spark like that since I wrote OUAD#nothing I've written since has felt the same#and like I said this isn't something I would write into a fic or anything it would just be too much but it's really everything to me rn#something I can come back to and dip my toe in whenever I really feel like I need a spark again and it just makes me happy#I grew up with 4kids winx club so another reason I'd never write anything for real is because I refuse to watch any other version#like I've tried I just can't do it my mind rejects any other version so I only know the universe to a point anyway and but that was my thin#it made me so happy as a kid and it still does now like those are my girls and they mean the world to me and being able to play#within that space with other characters I'm obsessed with and combine into something that miraculously works is amazing#I need to draw more stuff for this au I guess is my whole point#I need to see what other things can..... bloom....... (heh) within that space and what will just manifest before me#I need that something to make me feel that spark again because I don't want to lose it forever and I think I'm starting to find it again#life has just been knocking down over and over lately and it's destroyed so much of my mental state and honestly randomly deciding to try#and actually draw actual stuff for this au has been so healing. I almost feel lighter#it feels stupid amd silly to say but it's true#abby's just rambling don't mind her
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For me it's not the self-conscious part of my brain. My creations are not a product for consumption. I will talk about my works' flaws and my struggles with making them, those are parts of my creative process and I like to share those with others, and I like when others artists and writers do the same.
I don't have to pretend to be perfect, or that my work is perfect. Nor do my summaries, notes, tags, have to be designed with maximum appeal to a consumer.
I understand that some people have a problem with self-deprecation and shame about their works, but not everyone discussing the flaws in their work is having an unhealthy mental process at play. Some of us are objective in our observations, or at the very least, our observations are not being driven by negative emotions.
I would not advise people to pretend they think their work is good, if they don't. There's not really a reason to fake confidence unless you have a concrete goal it serves, like getting accepted into a college or job, or better selling products. Outside of that, it serves no purpose in itself.
Now, actually changing the way you think about or view your work--that can be good. But simply hiding the bad thoughts is doing just that--hiding them, sweeping them under the rug. They still exist.
you'll get the urge as an artist or a writer to say out loud the things you're worried about "the proportions are off" "kind of out of character" "i'm not good at summaries" "didn't get as much detail as i wanted" "i made a mistake and here's how" and that's the self-conscious part of your brain telling you "it's bad and if you don't tell them you know it's bad then they'll think you're stupid" but you've got to ignore that little voice and pretend you think it's good or else that little voice is going to ruin your life
#art#creatives#I am incredibly neurotic but my open discussion of my works' weaknesses and stumbles is one of the few things not driven by my neuroses#surprisingly#to me it's a sign of self-confidence when I and others can see and discuss the weaknesses in our works#because it's usually a sign of immaturity and lack of artistic growth potential when people think or act like their work is flawless and#could never be done any other way#good artists can be content with their (flawed) work and failures while always striving to be better and thinking of ways to improve#granted OP may be aiming this at aspiring professionals who really will have to be selling/pitching their work often.#in which case they should fake confidence to sell and keep the lights on#altho I still think deeper emotional work is needed#anyway it's rly amusing to me that so many ppl in the notes are like “yeah! don't do this! it ruins the enjoyment for me as a reader!”#like good b*itch go away and don't read it! you ain't paying us so who cares if we ruined your good time?#skip the author's notes if ur that weak#I'm tired of entitled ppl getting shit for free and acting like creators are supposed to put in the professionalism that Beyonce or Bob Ros#or whoever has when those ppl got paid out the wazoo for their work#y'all can make demands when you PAY US!#but in my fanfic that is free to read? i will put a 2000 word essay about my characterization research in the author's notes if I want#if it bums you out to hear that I struggled hard with it then go buy a novel at the supermarket
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man. the things that get in your way with adhd are. SO so stupid
#i want to work on my fucking. research paper#but my brain has decided i can only do it on the couch#my wife has been laying on the couch for the last three hours watching a thing#it just ended. thought theyd get up. theyre going to sleep#and like. i cant just fucking ask them to get up bc im usually taking up the couch#and they deserve couch time in their own home#but because i cant sit on the couch i cannot. work on my research paper#and i just busted through the only other things i have any care to do in the last forty five minutes#so now im just sitting here in a disgruntled soup that i DO NOT NEED TO BE IN#but my fucking brain has decided otherwise#and ON TOP of that. i would love to clean bc the place is a wreck but! if i clean i might wake them up! so cant do that!#god and i was in a good headspace today too#now im grasping at straws trying to find something that i can do in the bedroom and that will scratch the brain itch of the day
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I don't even think this is overstimulation there is just stimulation. that I do not like
#i itch with a need to do a thing but not any of the things i should be doing. that sort of deal#avemuji save me (i WILL get back to them today...)
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mating season!
bad pup! - 1.5k w. part two is now out!!! read bad dog! here
cw.: dog hybrid!caleb, afab!reader, knot mentioned, masturbation, cunnillingus, caleb is stupid and i hate him, panty sniffing obviously. caleb is desperate and kinda pathetic. not proofread... again.
note: this was supposed to be a joke. tf went wrong dawg.
puppy!caleb who's the biggest sweetheart ever. he likes belly rubs, headpats and blueberry treats. he likes roughhousing and chewing on the baby teethers you give him so he doesn't destroy everything in your apartment while you're gone.
puppy!caleb who's the sweetest pup around <3 he waits for you to get home by the door and when you do, his tail wags so fast, his heart beats quickly and you can see the tears of relief pricking in his lilac eyes.
puppy!caleb who can't stand that you leave for work everyday. who's going to play with him?!
puppy!caleb who's usually very obedient but has been acting up lately. you brush it off at first but caleb isn't one to growl when you try to get close to his food. bad dog!
puppy!caleb who sniffs you head to toe when you come home tired from work. and if he finds something he doesn't like? his fluffy ears drop down to the back of his head and he growls.
you try to search up online what's wrong with your pup and all you can find is rutting season, which is pretty weird since his last owner swore he was neutered.
puppy!caleb who gets sosososo anxious and stressed when you're not home:( he needs something- anything with your scent to calm down!
puppy!caleb who goes through your laundry basket. he knows it's bad and he made a mess but he'll clean it up later! the only thing important right now is that he found the white frilly panties you wore on monday.
puppy!caleb pupils dilate as his eyes stare at the discharge stain on the delicate fabric and something snaps inside him. He brings the panties to his face, giving it a first, innocent whiff and fuuuuuuuck
you’ve always smelled good, puppy!caleb likes your shampoo and bodywash and cologne and- but this? this is heaven. caleb gives it a whiff again. there’s a hint of sweat, it’s not nasty, it smells like you and that does it for your sweet pup.
puppy!caleb who doesn’t know why he has been so pent up lately:( he likes being good for you! you smile and praise him and let him have a spoon of peanut butter! but his brain feels fuzzy and there’s a knot growing bigger and bigger on his lower stomach and he feels like he’s gonna pop like a balloon and he’s anxious and he’s alone and you’re not here to help him!
puppy!caleb kicks his wet boxers — which he did pee a little from anxiety but he’d rather die than accept that he is that desperate — and whines loudly when his sensitive cock hits his tummy.
puppy!caleb who paws his cock on a miserable attempt to relieve himself. his hand wraps itself around the shaft, his thumb presses down on his angry red, leaky tip and another loud whine escapes his lips.
puppy!caleb who sniffs your panties again, now gaining enough confidence to lick the patch of arousal and discharge left on the fabric. at the taste, his fluffy tail wags excitedly, thumping on the ground hard enough you’d definitely hear an earful from your neighbor downstairs later.
puppy!caleb who can’t help but sink his itching canines on your panties- sorry! he panicked!
wet squelches fill the bathroom walls as his hand works up and down on his sensitive cock. melodic, obnoxiously loud moans and whimpers leave his throat as his already creamy dick finally shoots out strings of thick, milky cum and the base of his cock forms a big, swollen knot.
puppy!caleb ears perk at the sound of your keys unlocking the front door and he barely takes time to put his boxers back on before he runs to the entryway. oh you’re finally home! you’ve been gone for so long- too long!
he doesn’t give you any time to scold him for not wearing anything but underwear- or to question him why his heart is beating impossibly fast or why he’s whining so much. puppy!caleb who brings you down to the floor in a harsh pull, ignoring your complaints.
“s-sorry! ‘m sorry! so hot- you smell so good!” the pup cries, his breath tickles the sensitive skin of your neck as he takes a good whiff, drowning in what's left of your perfume and natural musk.
and it’s not like you can pull him away:( first of all you don’t have the heart to leave your pup crying like that, especially when you don’t know what happened and he’s just stupidly strong!
“ah! b-bad dog! get off caleb- you’re heavy!” your nagging falls deaf in his ears. you shudder at the moment his tongue licks the skin where your neck and jaw meet, twitching at the weird feeling.
puppy!caleb who is so fucking dumb and can’t seem to figure out how to unbuckle your belt and unbutton your pants. you squirm under him and a raspy squeal of surprise leaves your throat.
“bad dog! argh- what has gotten in you today?-” — “please! promise it’ll feel good- jus’- jus’ needa taste you, please? need it? i’ve been nice and didn’t chew on anything- can i get a treat? please? please please-” he asks- no- begs.
you don’t give him a proper answer, just accepting that there’s not much you can do under him. with some struggle, stupid puppy!caleb gets you out of your tight jeans.
a string of whines and sniffles come out of him. you feel overwhelmed- his hands are everywhere, puppy!caleb has always been the anxious type, if he can’t touch every bit of skin in your body and mark you as his then what else is he going to do?!
even in so much distress, puppy!caleb’s tail still wags excitedly behind him as he kisses your tummy and licks a stripe from your belly button to the hem of your panties. a different pair, he notes. this time, a pretty lacy red design barely covers your fat folds.
he takes a whiff first, of course, before licking the wet stain forming where your slit would be. “fu-uck- caleb! you- aha- bad fucking dog!” you moan, covering your face with your now sweaty hands. caleb doesn’t pay attention to your curses, only trying to dig deeper on the fabric in hopes to get to his meal faster.
frustration bubbles on his dumbed down brain. bothered by the fabric getting on the way, puppy!caleb’s teeth rip the delicate lace and pull it to the side, finally able to get his prize.
“c-caleb- are you fucking kidding-? what has gotten- h-hey no teeth! bad dog!” you chastise in disbelief. you don’t really know what’s worse, caleb non stop whining and the fact that you can’t pull him away from your cunt or that you find it hot.
puppy!caleb who licks a stripe from your slit up to your clit before diving in for a little snack!!! you taste so much better than your panties:( he really tries to be gentle and start slowly, kissing the hood that protects your clit but it just isn’t for him! he needs it now!!!
sucking harshly on your folds, he lets go with a loud ‘pop!’ before teasing your clit with the tip of his tongue attempting to get a positive reaction from you. seeing you squirm on the floor only makes it harder for him to think properly:(
puppy!caleb whose tongue’s swirls on the sensitive bundle of nerves in a way that makes your head spin- how does he even know how to do all of that?
puppy!caleb who can’t help but rut his hips on the cold floor as his tip grows redder and leaks more pre cum than before:( he feels so good though… he can’t really stop right now to take care of himself! you’re basically overwhelming his every sense and his puppy brain can’t really focus:(
puppy!caleb who accidentally nips on your clit, making you jolt and curse at him. “s-sorry! ‘m sorry!” – he cries out as his ears drop and he spits on your cunt.
it’s messy, you feel ashamed for doing something like that with him of all people and what’s worse is that you can’t deny that it feels fucking good. puppy!caleb’s tongue slurps everything he can get leaking out your slit before digging in impossibly close for more. shoving his tongue as deep as he can to taste you better, his nose hits your clit for the nth time, the constant sniffing making you squeal in pleasure.
“a-ah! fuck! f-fuck caleb- gonna cum, can you keep going pup? be obedient for once, y-yeah? please- shit- mghh!-” at the sign to keep going, caleb’s eyes roll to the back of his skull. he shifts to suck on your clit again and that finally breaks you. your back arches and an embarrassing loud moan escape your glossy lips, your legs twitching and closing around his head.
puppy!caleb who apparently is insatiable and doesn’t stop licking you clean until you scold him – again – and pulls his head back by the hair. bad dog!
“did you cum on your boxers?-” — “sorry!”
⊹ ࣪ ˖ reblogs are very much appreciated. thank you for reading! (*´▽`*)
#.littleapplle's pastries#.puppy!caleb#caleb smut#caleb x mc#caleb x reader#caleb x you#lads#lads caleb#lads smut#love and deepspace#xia yizhou#caleb xia
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#ugh had to submerge my hands into fucking water like 4 times to clean cat's fountain bc it was clogged and needed cleaning#now i wanna peel all my skin off bc my hands itch so bad#eczema is the fucking worst im gonna suffer all night#it's not even like just itch either it's fucking#painful itch? like. if u had a really bad bloody rash kinda of itching but without any actual rash#(yet. i will have scratched myself a bloody rash by tomorrow morning if i dO NOT STOP SCRATCHING-)#things i do bc i love this furry menace
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