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#i just want to be a purple bear and kitty
wp100 · 1 year
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i wish i had the confidence to do mythic+ </3
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mosquito-queen · 4 months
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the last time yelena held a crayon was when she was six years old and had hello kitty bandages on both her knees. natasha had given them to her. saved her allowance so yelena could have crayola instead of roseart. so she could be like all the other kids in her class. god, she had whined so much after that first day of school when they all emptied their pretty packs of crayons and all she had was the watered down wax. it’s the same thing, her mother had argued. it’s the same damn thing. but natasha got her the right crayons anyways. she colored everything blue just like natasha’s hair. maybe that’s why it hurt so bad to look at the sky.
clear, cerulean blue was sprawled over central park. yelena kept her eyes to the ground. well, more specifically, she kept her eyes on the sheet of paper she was scribbling away on with a purple crayon. kate was laying across from her, leaned over a sketchbook and so deep in concentration she kept bumping yelena’s forehead with her own… or maybe that was on purpose. she absently wondered how long it would be until she couldn’t bear to see the color purple. at least she’d only really have to worry about it in when the flowers bloomed…
her hand stilled.
“yelena, the timer hasn’t stopped. you have to keep going until it stops.”
she couldn’t move. the panic settled like ice in her bones. fanny stirred near her, put her head on the small of yelena’s back.
she was going to lose another color. a color that wasn’t always watching over her head, a color that was only here half way through the year, a color that would barely bring her comfort.
“yelena?”
“i couldn’t do it again, kate bishop.” she doesn’t look up.
“do what? i told you, you don’t have to be good at art for this game.”
“katie…” fucking pitiful, but it does the trick: gets what yelena needs without having to say the words. kate paused the timer of her phone and sat up, tugging the paper away from yelena.
“you never said you could draw,” she scrutinized yelena’s gesture drawings of kate and the dogs. yelena squirmed out from under fanny and closer to kate. she couldn’t help the insistent need to be closer. always closer.
“it passes the time,” it gets the grief out. “i just use pencils, charcoal though.”
“no color?”
yelena sighed, feels the weight of the sky. she did look up, stared into that unwavering blue, “it’s easier without.”
and like most conversations with yelena, kate knew there was a double meaning. she took yelena’s hand, her thumb swiping soft across a scar on the backside, “do you want to see what i made?”
yelena gave a slow nod. kate sheepishly unveiled her crude attempt at drawing. yelena covered her mouth with her hands, trying desperately to stifle her laughter.
kate swatted at yelena, pouting, “it is not that bad! look, see, here’s clint and -“
“wait, that is clint? i thought,” this time the laughter does bubble up, “kate, isn’t that lucky?”
“oh, well…” kate rotated the paper back and forth next to where lucky was lazily sprawled on the blanket, “maybe?”
now kate was laughing, her head tossed back, the light shining on her face. and god, kate wasn’t just purple. she was absolutely every starburst of color. yelena could never be without a reminder of her. how could she ever think otherwise?
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miasiegert · 7 months
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Hi Cats Tumblr People,
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So I heard you like pics.
Please bear with me (AND TEACH ME) how Tumblr works/if I'm doing it wrong! I'm literally the "How do you do, fellow young people?" meme. Our Etsy is linked (unless I messed that up!) Right now it's bare (LOT of work and VERY old photos in the banner) but we'll be posting some cossies soon that are ready to retire. Some of our prices sadly will have to rise (we undercharge honestly for the amount of time put into them... we just LOVE making them). Anyway...
These are our original designs. We have taken inspiration from different productions, from the US tour to Gothenburg to Australia to Japan, less UK because it gets the most attention and we like COLOR! but this is all us. Our goal is to a) have characters be recognizable and b) make swing unitards in palates that could pass as at least 3 characters for emergency. When our rentals go out, swing unitards go with them, and ultimately it's the director who decides what makes the final cut (so a less yellow Demeter for example--but we LOVE that one).
If we ever do a production of Cats with Chaz, you'll notice one in Red, White, and some Black (but mostly Red and White, with fan ears, that is a design David created and is Chaz's FAVORITE design of all time. Any time he does a show, if we're hired, that costume goes. Usually Electra, but any ensemble/swing kitty and can cover for Sillabub or in a pinch Bombalurina. Yuka wore it at Interlakes before she did Victoria on the last US Tour! You might notice an Admetus in tans and GREEN undertones--that was my design he loved. We also did the purple twins (which was vetoed and I said, "Okay" then did it anyway because I knew he'd love it, which he did!), and REBA Gumbie Tap Suit was completely mine (everyone thought I was out of my MIND when I started making it! Even David! Then the shoulder pads came, and the belt, and tail, and BEDAZZLING!!! SO MANY RHINESTONES!!!!) Our Misto coat lights up but we still have a lot to learn about arduino since we'd eventually like to make it blink to music. The Misto coat is also created to fit a multitude of sizes, basically the theatre using their department for alterations since we make use of stretch fabric. I've known Bronson for almost as long as Chaz (he even designed my author website!!!) so when I saw him cast, I showed him his costume (a much, much browner/redder Gus than most see--I was serious about liking color) and let him choose between two coats. He said he wanted pants and we went, "NO! PANTLESS PRODUCTION!" because we thought he was joking! We didn't realize... HE REALLY WANTED PANTS!!!! SORRY BRONSON! So shout out to Wichita for making him pants! LOL!
There is a HUGE joke about Tumble thirsting for Tugger more than the girls so you'll notice that with the Tugger ABOUUUOUOUOUOUOUOUUUUUUUUUT THAT.
Hope that's of interest! And no, I'm not procrastinating on edits when my agent deadline is Sunday. Haha... ha... ha... ha... ha... Sera, if you're reading this I PROMISE I'M WORKING OKAY??? I DIDN'T KNOW WE GOT ON BROADWAYWORLD!!!
We also saw some comments about casting in general and some confusion/questions about different dancers doing different parts (Alonzo vs Plato). Would anyone be interested in learning more about the casting process in general and things that directors/choreographers need to take into consideration? Please note, I will not discuss ANY performers we work with. Ever. All are extraordinary and these are tough calls that aren't easy to make and based on other factors, including the ensemble at large, and sometimes huge changes are made.
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mewhenimanangel · 10 months
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moon river, miles morales x reader
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pairing: earth 42! miles morales x spider!reader
synopsis: you clean out miles’ room taking anything you could with you. you stumbled across a picture of the two of you when you were younger and your heart filled with rage
wc: 2.7k
warnings!: swearing, violence, slight gory details
nia’s ౨ৎ notes: the end! this story idea came to me when i was non stop day dreaming and creating scenarios in my head so i decided to just write it down. i love it actually
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it's been three days since miles' funeral and you've spent the nights wrapped up in his bed surrounded by things that were his.
during the day you've been visiting may to upgrade your suit and also help you learn how to use some new gadgets. you didn't tell her why you needed the suit upgrade or updated spider shooters that made your webs stronger, but she obliged. you were hurting about miles, bad. you had been skipping school to sneak into his bedroom.
you were currently in miles' bed in the purple hoodie he always wore, your teddy bear and his favorite hello kitty plushie of yours in hand. you had tears running down your cheeks as you looked through the videos and pictures you'd taken together. suddenly, his mom knocked and came into the room "ohh cariño, i miss him too." she said sitting next to you, rubbing your back.
"tell you what? how about you take some of his things? keep them for yourself?" she offered. you furrowed your eyebrows "but won't you want anything to keep?" "ahh no te preocupes por eso cariño, i already ran through here, you should see my room" she chuckled. "are you sure?" you asked, wiping your tears. "i'm sure." she smiled placing a hand on your knee.
you left her house with a garbage bag full of his things. clothes, cologne, the pictures he kept around his room of the two of you, you searched thoroughly around his room for any more of his prowler gear to take, you even got the secret stuffed rabbit he hid under his bed.
when you got home and in your room, you began putting his things all around your room. you sat on on the bed, hot tears stinging your eyes as you stared at a polaroid your mom took of you and miles when you were 10. he was on your back, an arm wrapped around your neck other hand holding an ice cream. you had one in your hand and you both had the biggest smiles on your face, in the middle of laughing.
your heart twisted with anger, the love of your life was taken from you. thanks to that oversized fucker, and you weren't just gonna let him get away with it.
you got up and opened the faulty ceiling tile in your bathroom, grabbing the prowler glove and shoving it in your bookbag along with your updated spider suit and shooters. you crawled out of your window and swung in the direction of a bus station.
you knew the lab that kingpin was rumored to frequent alot, having gone there for a field trip with your class. so you decided to start there, taking a bus to save your energy. when you got to hudson valley you moved up into the mountains using binoculars to stake out the place. you saw the familiar black bmw that kingpin would drive around in.
your blood was boiling, holding back tears as you quickly got dressed in your spider suit. the upgraded suit had relatively the same design but now the spider logo legs sprawled down across your body, your new web shooters strengthened your webs, and the best part about your new suit was that it could turn invisible - camouflage.
you grabbed the prowler glove and shoved it into seemingly nowhere, thank god for hammerspace.
you made your self invisible and crawled all around the walls of alchemax looking for a way to sneak in. you found a vent at the top and crawled through using your senses to find kingpin.
you heard his gravelly voice and peeked through the cracks of the vent. he was talking to some woman about some collider? "olivia i don't care! just go ahead with that damn project!" he shouted at the lady.
you tried to move down closer to the vent but instead you pressed to hard on it and it fell down. pin and olivia shot their heads in the direction of you hitting the ground, knocking some things off a table.
the woman grabbed some goggles from her table and looked around, spotting you on the floor. "ah we got little spider-girl here" she giggled. suddenly four octopus like machines appeared from her back. "you know i've always wanted to meet you, your powers are so interesting to me." she shot a mechanical arm at you, letting it squeeze around your body.
"i'm not here to fight you you damn squid" you scoffed, wriggling your way out it. you shot webs at her feet making her fall on her back. she recovered quickly, throwing you against the wall with one of her arms. "octopus, actually" she corrected you. you got up and tried turning invisible to sneak away but she caught you "might as well save that, i can see you" she chuckled going to grab you again. you quickly moved your hands out in front of you grabbing the tentacle, breaking it.
she growled and you swung out of her reach, jumping back down to throw her to the floor, her glasses fell off and you stomped at them breaking them. another arm shot at you, roughly throwing you down to the ground. you groaned before snapping back to the reality of the situation.
you looked around for a second now realizing that kingpin was no longer in the room. you swung through the doors of the building looking for any sign of that oaf. the alarms in the building were now going off, workers running out of the building. every now and then some worker would try to fight you, you quickly beating them down.
you snuck into the doors of the collider room, mouth agape at what you saw. olivia burst in the room behind you, throwing you down onto a desk. "olivia take care of that damn insect!" you heard kingpin say from the front of the room. "what's it look like i'm doing?!" she yelled out, giving you another blow.
when a tentacle was thrown at you, you grabbed it and then grabbed the other one she threw at you. you pulled her up into the air before throwing into a wall. you grabbed a nearby pipe and blow after blow you beat olivia with it. you reached down pulling her head up by her hair "i said i wasn't here to fight you" you growled throwing her head back down to the floor.
"yo pin, come on man you can't fight your own fucking battles or what?!" you screamed out, jumping at him, throwing a blow to his head. he grabbed you and slammed you down “i killed one spider, i can do it again” he whispered, throwing a punch to your face.
you sneakily grabbed the prowler glove, putting it on. you shot an air blast to his chest that threw him across the room. “took prowler’s little toy huh?” he coughed. you got up and swung the claws through his chest opening the wound he previously had, making him scream out. you shot explosives out of the glove directly at pin, one missing as it hit the wall instead. the room began to shake as pipes began to burst.
you didn't notice him grab his gun, shooting at your arm and your stomach somehow catching the same spot he stabbed a week ago. you cried out, the wound beginning to secrete blood, he was about to shoot again, aiming for your head but you flipped out of the way.
fueled by adrenaline, you growled throwing webs at his feet hanging him upside down before throwing him up against the glass. you jumped on him, legs wrapped around his neck, hitting him with the sharp knuckles of the glove. he wailed out as blood began rushing from his nose and his cheek. you shot another web, wrapping around his back swinging back down onto his back making him gag. you jumped on top of him, sinking the prowler claws into his chest making him wail out. you kept sinking it deeper and deeper inside him, twisting it like he had done to you. the brick of the roof began to crumble, rubble falling all around you
“i am going to watch you suffer and die just like you made me watch miles.” you growled, venom laced your voice. you got up quickly to grab a piece of rubble that was falling from the walls, lifting it into the air. “i am going to beat you bloody” just then some glowing orange and purple portal opened next to you and three people jumped out in spider suits.
“oy you cant kill ‘im mate” the tall one said running over to pull you off. “what who the fuck are you, let me go!” you screamed out trying to pull away from his grip. the other two people began tying pin up with their webs, hanging him in a spiderweb on the ceiling. “the police are coming and you can’t be seen here.” a feminine voice said from under the mask. “you gotta come with us” the other spoke, moving closer to the portal.
“you expect me to go in some fucking portal with three random cunts that just popped out of it.” you spat backing away from them. “listen we can explain on the way. either you stay here and get caught up with the police or you come where we can help you” the girl said, pointing to the blood that stained your suit. you thought about it for a minute before stepping into the portal after the three of them jumped in. the portal dropped you in some elevator that was going upside down. you looked out and saw what looked like a futuristic new york, flying cars, futurist buildings.
the three of them tugged off their masks. the tall one was revealed to be dark skin, piercings littered his dark skin. the other one had the side of her blonde head shaved, piercing on her eyebrow.
your heart felt like it stopped when the third one took his off. you saw familiar brown eyes staring back at you, gorgeous brown skin you haven’t seen in a week, the only difference was his air that was out in a curly afro. “miles?” you whispered, tears stinging your eyes. you fought to hold them back, not ready to cry in front of these people. it hit you like a train seeing that face. “yeah. b-but i’m not your miles.” he said, looking down. your eyebrows furrowed wondering what the hell that meant.
“we’ll explain everything when we get to miguel.” the girl said. “i’m gwen by the way.” she told you. “hobie” the tall one spoke reaching out a hand to dap you up. “i’m assuming you already know mine?” you asked to which they nodded.
the elevator doors opened and you saw an array of people scattered all across the building, all dressed in different spider suits. some walking right side up, some upside down, some on the walls. there were so many, you couldn’t even count. there was even a cat!
“welcome to spider society” miles said to you. “miguel actually started this whole thing two years ago after me and miles messed up the multiverse or whatever. all of these people are all spider-man, each belonging to their own universe. i’m from earth 65, hobie’s from 138, miles is from 1610, and you’re from 42” gwen explained to you leading the way to wherever she was taking you.
you groaned, injuries becoming apparent to you again. you tripped a bit before miles caught you “yeah we gotta get you to the infirmary” he said.
after about 10 minutes in the infirmary, you were bandaged and taken care of. gwen, hobie, and miles stayed outside to wait for you before taking you on a short tour throughout the building, and then to some dark and gloomy office.
a man, who you knew to be miguel was standing on a floating platform, it descending as slow as it possibly could. “is he?-“ “uh yeah just let him do his thing” miles chuckled.
the man came down off the platform, muscular body clad in a blue and orange spider suit. “what am i doing here?” you spoke up. he looked at you before turning away “you are here because you’ve proved yourself to be spider-girl.” he told you.
“LYLA, do the information explaining thing” he said, a small hologram appearing by his shoulders. “there are these things called cannon events and every cannon event is what holds the spider-verse together. it’s what makes spidermen, spidermen.” he said, going on to show and tell you about how every single one of them lost a loved one. you watched holograms appear of multiple spider people kneeling over a dying relative, last one ending with you kneeling over miles. he told you about his dead daughter and how he tried to redo everything by placing himself in another universe.
“we track cannon events using high technology, making sure everything is in order.” he said, making you furrow your eyebrows. “wait so you know when these things are gonna happen? when these people are gonna die? did you know that miles was gonna die?” you asked, fists clenching. miguel turned his head to the side, sorrowful expression on his face and nod his head.
“wait so you knew he was gonna die and you didn’t do anything?” you said, growing angry. “we couldn’t do anything, it was a cannon event, it was supposed to happen-“ you interrupted him “oh so you couldn’t do shit when miles was dying but when i attack kingpin now you wanna send your fucking people to stop me.” you spat. “that’s not how it works-“ he tried to explain, but you wouldn’t let him.
“nah you picking and choosing who gets to die because of some fucking code” you spat, the hologram on his shoulder getting upset. “you get to sit up here on your slow ass platform and play god? who put you in charge.” you growled, beginning to walk away. “listen, i created this to protect the multiverse, i am and have been protecting every world. i don’t play god, i keep things in order because if they’re not, worlds could begin falling apart. i brought you here because you are a good spider-man and we could use someone like you on the force” he explained.
“whatever, send me home.” you whispered. “listen” another voice interrupted miguel. “wait, listen just stick around for a day. if you really want to go home and never be apart of this, then we’ll send you home when the day’s over.” miles said resting a hand on your shoulder.
you agreed and the four of you were dismissed from miguel’s office until further notice. they were about to show you around when an older looking peter parker with a pink robe and a baby in his carrier walked up to you. “hey guys” he exclaimed, wrapping an arm around miles. the baby in his carrier shot a web at you and began crawling around your shoulders. “ah you must be y/n! you gonna join this little club?” he asked you. “not yet.” miles answered for you, giving you a small smile.
they showed you around, jumping through different universes to show you around. you visited their friend, pav’s, universe in mumbattan and hung around there for a while.
after about an hour, gwen and hobie had to report back to their own universes to deal with whatever crimes were happening there. leaving you and miles alone.
“hey, um you know i really think you should join” he said, arms awkwardly behind his back. “i saw the way you held your own there with kingpin and doc ock. you’re really good at what we do.” he complimented. “thanks” you mumbled smiling at him. “listen i know you have your doubts about this place, believe me i had them to at first. when i showed up here, uninvited by the way, miguel told me my dad was gonna die and i couldn’t just sit around and do nothing. so i forced my way back home and i ended up proving him wrong, but then again i am some sort of original anamoly so my universe kind of fixes itself.” he told you.
“i think you should stick around, these watches are pretty cool, you could literally go anywhere” he said, geeky smile on his face. “plus it’d be nice to have a new friend around here, you and me are a lot alike” he told you. “well for one we both got that whole invisible thing going on” he showed you, making himself fully invisible. “and who knows what other powers you could have if you stayed here and trained with us and grow as spider-girl!” he exclaimed.
“yeah, i guess you’re right” you whispered. “so you in?” he asked, hoping smile on his face as he extended his arm out to you. you thought before making your decision “i’m in.” you smiled, taking his hand.
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gemini-sensei · 11 months
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What if Hawk were to fall for a cutesy tattoo artist?
Her specialty falls in with cute cartoony tattoos, nostalgic stuff like Care Bears and Strawberry Shortcake, Hello Kitty, candy and flowers. Soft colors with pinks and purples and bright blues. She wears cute dresses and necklaces, pretty bracelets and socks. Everything she is and does is cutesy and sweet.
I imagine he either met her at a shop or a tattoo convention. All her bright colors and designs catch his eye and then her smile. He wants to see all her designs even though he maybe wouldn't wear any of them. He likes the artistry and wants to hear her talk about all her designs. I can just see her gushing over it and him just looking at her with pure admiration.
He'd start going to the parlor she works ar just to watch her work. Even if she's just drawing something up for a client, he likes to watch her process. He likes to see how she puts ideas together and what she thinks works or doesn't work. The whole process is mesmerizing to him, but so much more so because of her now.
I just think Hawk having a crush on a cutesy tattooist is so sweet. I love it.
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minhosimthings · 9 months
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Mona's Enha Masterlist!
Ot5 (I do not write for the two maknaes)
Series
The Symphony Smut Series (contains Stray kids also)
The French Quotes Series
The Japanese Quotes Series soon to come
Headcannons/ imagines
Enha as quotes I found on Pinterest!
Enha as boba flavours I've tried
Threesomes with Enha (only hyung line) - Smut, MINORS DNI
How the Enha hyung line tells you they want to fuck you (requested)
Exhibitionism with Enha hyung line (requested)
Enha reaction to you dominating them (requested)
Enha hyung line reaction to you being bratty (requested)
Enha hyung line reaction to calling them "just a friend" (smut, requested)
Enha hyung reaction to the members getting touchy with you (smut, requested)
Enha reaction to when you’re doing it at their parents house but you can’t stay silent (smut, requested)
Enha's favourite sex positions (requested)
Pervert Enha hyung line (requested)
Sex with Enha songs (hyung line, requested)
Makeup sex with hyung line (requested)
Girl dad Enha headcannons
Enha's eyes are pretty like..(hyung line)
Heeseung
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Wanna be yours
Good girl (smut)
Your eyes are filled with questions, but all my answers lead to tears (smut, fluff and angst)
Prideful (smut, college au)
Brooklyn Baby (smut, with Jay)
Cherries (smut)
Dances Avec Les Etoiles Part 1 || Part 2 || The wedding
All my loving (smut)
Heeseung hard thought 1 (requested)
Jay
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Je Te Veux: A Jay fic: discontinued
Feral!Jay thoughts (smut)
Purple rain
Call him up he's comes into my bedroom (smut)
Hold Me Without Hurting Me: A Jay series (finished)
What are we? - friends with benefits to lovers thought (contains smut)
Brooklyn Baby (smut, with Heeseung)
How Jay tells you he wants sex (requested)
Angels in Tibet (smut)
A La Folie Part 1 || Part 2 || Part 3
Gilded Skin (smut)
Jake
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Gummy bears please? (Fluff)
Blue Days, Yellow nights - A Hogwarts au Fic
Chocolate Sauce (smut)
Cherry Chapstick (Smut ,fluff, wedding au)
You Belong to me (smut)
You get me so High (smut)
Birthday sex with Jake (requested)
Overstimulating Jake with oral (request)
Puppy Hybrid!Jake and kitty hybrid!Sunghoon thoughts (smut)
Sunghoon
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Soft!dom Sunghoon thoughts (smut)
Sunghoon degradation thoughts (smut)
Sunghoon × Dark skinned reader (requested, headcanon)
Saturday Adventures (smut)
Dangerously (smut)
Agora Hills (smut)
In love with a stripper (smut, requested)
Sample Session (smut)
Puppy Hybrid!Jake and kitty hybrid!Sunghoon thoughts (smut)
Sunoo
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D!ck (smut)
How Sunoo tells you he wants to fuck you (requested)
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yuliyaana · 1 year
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— THE ANIMATION AND ARTSTYLE USED FOR THE VISUALS
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The amazing use of both 2D and 3D elements mixes perfectly with the animation and the art style and it really reminds me of the animation of Into the Spider-Verse. Everything’s an eye candy and wallpaper-worthy. The vibrant colors and the lighting?? The visuals and the background art, they're just so GORGEOUS! Like you can see those little paint brush strokes on some parts of the film. You know the movie’s gonna be good when they apply this kind of style. This movie is an absolute masterpiece. *chef’s kiss*
— THE WORLD BUILDING
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OKAAAAY I WILL NEVER GET OVER WITH THE WORLD BUILDING ESPECIALLY WHEN THEY WENT TO THE DARK FOREST— it’s just so hilarious when Puss and Kitty got depressing and dangerous path/terrains while Perrito got the easiest path because he’s a carefree and cheerful pure-hearted therapy dog who sees the positivity in life (despite his sad “funny story” like he said) and it really shows that whoever possesses the Star Map judges the character of those who holds it.
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— CHARACTER DESIGN
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Can we talk about Goldilocks’ character design? I really, really love how they designed her— like every details of her design reflects the way she got raised by her bear family. You see those mismatched earrings? They resemble Mama Bears different earrings. Her necklaces? Baby Bear also got a chain necklace. And the faint scar she got on her left eyebrow later on? Now it resembles Papa Bear’s scar on his left eye. Okay I love this her golden blonde hair so much. It really fits her name ESPECIALLY her two huge buns resemble like bear ears! Her outfit got dirtied in the dark forest making it look brown, like her family's brown fur plus she got those little fangs omg. She's so cute but she can also kill you. TvT
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Jack Horner, okay this chaotic huge man got pink hair and chubby cheeks. He’s got the perks alright? Hear me out, his pink tie resembles an icing piping cream pastry and he got those small printed pies on his purple vest. He BIG.
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And finally, this big bad lobo himself and his name is DEATH, like literally. He’s the Grim Reaper of Shrek Universe. His design freaking SLAPS! Oh man, this brooding wolf deadass got the hardest drip for me ngl. The black poncho fits him perfectly for a grim reaper like him. The fact that his eyes always stand out making him look even more intimidating and menacing. We all know that the universal look of Grim Reaper is a skeleton in a long black cloak with his scythe while DreamWorks made Death as a wolf with his signature dual-sickles (likely as a reference for Grim Reaper’s Scythe), for me it’s an interesting detail because his main target was Puss in Boots coming to punish him for recklessly wasting away his past eight lives mainly because he’s a cat, and wolves are known for being a natural predator. Not to mention, he was always there whenever Puss dies. He was so patient enough to finally get to his prey. Another interesting detail of him is the dark part of his fur in his face, donning a skull-like shape because he’s literally the Grim Reaper. Overall, he’s 12/10 for me and my most favorite antagonist so far.
— THE LESSONS BEHIND PUSS IN BOOTS: THE LAST WISH
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Sometimes whenever we wish for something that we want, we didn’t realize that thing we were wishing for was already there all along.
Puss himself already learnt his lesson to value his remaining ninth life at the end of the movie because every ounce of moment in our lives are precious and we need to appreciate them fully. We will never know when our time comes. As Perrito said to Puss, having one life in enough.
Sacrificing your personal needs to save someone you truly love and care about. Like how Goldilocks ditched the Wishing Map when she was one way of granting her wish and instead, she helped saving Baby from disappearing to the Star Wall.
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...and they lived happily ever after.
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lavendercrumbleshake · 2 months
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Hello, My name is LavenderCrumble! U can call me Lav or Miss Crumble for short ♡
Some things u should probably know about this blog
*~▪︎☆°♡ This blog is a cutesy, semi-nsfw blog, so some the posts that I write, like or repost will not be safe for work, if u don't like this please block, not report, if u are a minor do not follow me please I will block u.
*~▪︎☆°♡ I am a plus size (kinda working on it as best I can atm) black girl who is 19 years old, & want to make friends & mutuals that are also 18 or older on tumblr, pinterest & on discord, I will link my discord server & other socials here for anybody that wants to join, if anyone has any fun discord servers or other social accounts that are sfw/nsfw u would like to invite me to then my asks are always always open♡
*~▪︎☆°♡ Any pictures that u see on this blog aren't mine and are from pinterest unless stated otherwise.
*~▪︎☆°♡ Some of my current interests include:
drawing
coloring
anime
kawaiicore fashion, j-fashion, or just most alt fashion styles in general
makeup
maid cafés
sanrio (but notably kuromi, rilakkuma, korilakuma, hello kitty & my melody)
kawaii cafés
kawaii & sexy costumes/cosplays
cooking (especially asain food recipes)
kawaii bento boxes
cute kitchen appliances, cooking utensils, kawaii bento tools (like the hello kitty rice mold for example) pots, ect (preferably in pastel purple, or of cartoon characters like sanrio mascots)
asian snacks
kawaii food & drink recipes (I wanna recreate kawaii food plates from maid cafés or bento boxes like the ones on my pinterest board, or food from different animes)
super sonico & super pochaco(idk much but I love their mascots their sooo cute! I heard super sonico has an anime n i wanna watch it >v<)
cartoons
anime figurines
gloomy bear
sweet/dessert smelling perfumes & body products
games & gameplay videos(Mostly horror games, story games, visual novel games, or RPGs)
Tumblr stories/tumblr headcanons/tumblr concepts & prompts (particularly monster fantasy themed stories or relationships, & semi dark headcanons, like some Yan! headcanons for example, monster bf/husband, and Dom bf/husband (idk why I like these but some of them are just fun to read even if i don't resonate with them personally per sey, still trying to figure it out) among others, there really isn't any particular characters that i like for this)
Tbh that's just to name a few, I have a lot more interests than that lol
*~▪︎☆°♡ My favorite colors are usually pastels purple, pink, blue, yellow & green in that order, but I also like most darker colors too, like chocolate brown, black, or dark red, but my least favorite color is and will almost always be orange, idk why I don't like that color much
*~▪︎☆°♡ As is the nature of tumblr, I will also be putting my random thoughts on here too lol, both sfw & nsfw. I love this chaos platform♡
*~▪︎☆°♡ Links to my other socials: (if the link to my discord doesn't work then feel free to ask me for a link in the ask box)
DNI ON THIS OR ANY OF MY SOCIALS IF YOU ARE ANY OF THE FOLLOWING: homophobic, transphobic, racist, misogynistic, abelist, fatphobic, currently 40+ or an ED blog; if u are any of these things I will block you. Do not send unsolicited nude photos of any kind without permission or I will call you out & block you.
*~▪︎☆°♡ (*note) This pinned post will probably be edited with more stuff about me, my hobbies, interests, ect, when i get the time, but for now this will be it ♡
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saturn-xvoid · 1 year
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Basically all my TMC Aus/headcanons!! Please lemme know yours if you have I lobe them so much 😭
Anyways, Let’s get started!!
COLORGUARD AU!
Fav tosses:
Mark = Strip toss
Cesar = single half 45, catch behind back
Jonah: Pop toss
Adam: Lasso
Least fav tosses:
Mark = Silk double, spin underneath it
Cesar = Silk toss
Jonah = 45
Adam = Any toss where he has to do jazz splits on the floor 
VOLLEYBALL AU!
Mark = Outside hitter
Adam = Setter 
Jonah = Middle blocker
Cesar = Libero 
Sarah = Opposite hitter 
Joel (mystifying oracle) = Defense specialist 
Evelin = Manager or Setter 
Thatcher, Dave, Ruth = Coaches 
HANDBALL AU!
Evelin = Goalie 
Cesar = Pivot 
Adam = Left wing
Sarah = Right wing
Mark = Left back
Jonah = Right back 
Thatcher, Dave, Ruth = Coaches 
FAVORITE COLOR: 
(Self indulgent tbh)
Mark: Blue
Cesar: Red
Jonah: Orange 
Adam: Black
Sarah: Green
Evelin: Purple 
I imagine that if Mark was getting injured by something and Cesar (or anyone really) was near, he wouldn’t call Cesar for help in fear of Cesar getting hurt by the thing as well.
Adam would just yell and cuss which is what normally alerts Jonah that he needs help.
Cesar would call Marks name but that’s it, he wouldn’t ask Mark to help him, just for him to come over. 
Jonah would ask anyone and everyone for help when getting hurt but back then (MY AU) he never did because of TRAUMA. 
HTTYD AU:
Cesar = Night fury
Adam = Monstrous nightmare 
Mark = Cesar’s rider (that sounds weird but it’s not i swear) 
Jonah = Adams rider (once again not weird leave me alone)
(I also have a fanfic of this btw so lemme know if ya want me to link that ;))
WEAPONS OF CHOICE:
Mark = Gun
Cesar = Spiky bat
Adam = Knife or anything sharp 
Jonah = Axe
PRONOUNS ?? IDK MIGHT CHANGE:
Mark = He/him
Cesar = He/they
Jonah = All pronouns 
Adam = He/it (Possibly xe/xer too)
Sarah = She/her
Evelin = She/he/they
Dave = All pronouns 
Ruth = She/her
Thatcher = He/they
CUPHEAD AU!:
Mark = Mugman 
Cesar = Cuphead 
Jonah = Dice 
Adam = Devil 
Sarah = Mrs. Chalice 
PUSS IN BOOTS AU:
Mark = Kitty softpaws
Cesar = Puss
Sarah = Perrito 
Jonah = Baby bear 
Adam = Goldie 
Six = Papa bear
Lynn Murray = Mama bear
SOUTH PARK AU!: 
Mark = Stan
Cesar = Kyle
Jonah = Kenny
Adam = Cartman 
A tmc au where everyone lives and no one dies (Like Unwound Wounds by SoundlessNoise on ao3) but Jonah has an alternate attached to him.
The alternate isn’t visible to anyone but Jonah and it doesn’t turn Jonah into an alternate, instead it tells jonah to… ya know… commit die. Jonah doesn’t give in and he debates telling the boys but the alternate convinced him not to. 
Maybe have the boys find out?? 
Sorry I like Jonah angst LMAO 
ORCHESTRA AU!:
Mark = Violin
Cesar = Viola 
Jonah = Violin 
Adam = Cello 
UNDERTALE/MOMMACQ AU!:
Mark = Geno sans
Cesar = Ink sans
Jonah = Fresh sans
Adam = Error sans
TMNT AU!:
Mark = Donnie
Cesar = Leo
Jonah = Mikey
Adam = Raph
Sarah = Usagi
Evelin = April 
Jonah is a juggalo fr.
Dave Lee reminds me of the do the flop guy.
SECURITY BREACH AU!:
Mark = Gregory 
Cesar = Glamrock Freddy
Jonah = Sun
Adam = Moon
Sarah = Roxanne
Evelin = Chica 
Thatcher = Monty 
Ruth = Vanny
Dave = DJ music man
FAVORITE MOVIES:
Jonah = Moana
DESCENDANTS AU!:
Mark = Mal
Cesar = Evie
Jonah = Carlos 
Adam = Jay
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mythicalwispy · 7 months
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About me and my blogish
Welcome to wispy’s box this is a safe place for mostly everyone!
Dni if: Pedo, Map, Proship, DDLG ABDL DDLB and any other variants, K!nk, NSFW, anti-LGBTQ+, Racist, Sexist, Ableist, pro ED and SH, Traumacore blogs, anti agere, anti petre, You wouldn’t show your blog to a child.
🌹My name is Wispy or mythical and I’m 16. I use he/they pronouns. I age regress because it gives me the childhood I never had and my little ages and be from 13-0.
🌹My blog isn’t all agere but it is sfw, I might have things like reblogs of hazbin hotel, helluva boss, star wars, anything gothic/emo/pastel goth. I also might be doing some song covers and posting them on tumblr because I love music so much. I will always have content and trigger warnings when needed especially if it’s mental health related.
🌹My little space is different, I have 3 littles their names are Lavender, Sunny and Ash.  My little space is strange because of the pieces of my personality that I’ve had to hide to keep me safe, but this doesn’t mean I have D.I.D, I haven’t been diagnosed with it so I’m not gonna say I have it yet until I know for sure. 
🌹I am a flip so I can be little but I can also be a caregiver! Don’t ask me to be your caregiver right away. I need to get to know you before that can be a possibility. 
🌹I am neurodivergent and possible neurodiverse? I have ADHD and I might be autistic but I’m not sure, I’m gonna go get assessed as soon as possible. (I have nothing against self-diagnosis, I just don’t want to self-diagnose because I want to make sure I actually have something before I get help for it.) I have bipolar, PTSD, and anxiety so little space is like the mighty god of all coping mechanisms for me because it helps me cope with everything at once!
🌹I want my blog to be as fun and safe for all of you as possible so feel free to tell me through asks your questions, anything you see wrong with my blog nicely please, vent to me (please put content warnings/trigger warnings), or just tell me whatever you want and I’ll get back to you as soon as possible!
Things about Lavender 🪻
Lavender’s ages are from 0-4
Lavender loves soft and fluffy things
Some of her interests are Disney princesses, Purple, Hello kitty, Bears, My little pony, and Winnie the pooh.
Lavender uses she/her pronouns only
Things about Sunny ⭐
Sunny's ages are from 4-10
Sunny loves space and forest critters
Some of his interests are Ducks, Yellow, Dinosaurs, Bees, Bugs, and Sesame street.
Sunny uses he/him pronouns only
Things about Ash 🦝
Ash’s ages are from 0-13
Ash loves spooky things and music
Some of their interests are Bats, Black, Scooby-doo, Witches, Cats, and Rain clouds/storms.
Ash uses they/them pronouns only
🌹Questions about my little space are great but please don’t send me hate because of the way my little space is. Besides, being yucky to others is lame and if you're yucky to someone because of their little space you should reassess yourself because what good does being yucky to others do?
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klai-16xoxo · 8 months
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Random facts about Takara and some updates about him!
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// just gonna make this post ti ramble about my baby since I really wanna share some stuff about him. Anyway here we go!! firstly I will talk more about his time before he came to TWST.
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Firstly, you can tell that I finally gave Takara a last name, and that is “Meigetsu” It is not his father’s last family name but his mother’s, but he didn’t start to use it until he came to TWST. Why? Well, he thought maybe he could start off clean here in this new world, and he thought it was best to abandon the last name of his father and just use the one his mother has, even though he hardly knows anything about her nor the importance the last name has.
Takara back on earth used to have a different appearance, actually. That is because he had a bit shorter hair with a ponytail back then, and he used to dye his hair black and wear dark eye contacts to look normal and a lot like his father. Because, let us be honest, everyone would think it odd that someone has natural purple hair and eyes! But now, ever since he came to TWST, his hair suddenly grew longer when he awakened and his natural hair color came back to normal, and he didn’t bother to dye it anymore since everyone in TWST does have a different type of hair color naturally.
Back on earth, Takara did happen to cross paths with some couples of animals on the street that do resemble the TWST Boys, but he especially did take care of a street cat that looked a lot like Leona and named it Leo funny enough, which is kind of why Takara was immediately interested in Leona when he saw him since he did remind him of his dear kitty back home.
(Okay this part would be a bit long to explain Takara Whip so bear with me!)
There are a few important details to note about it. Firstly, the whip has the ability to absorb and contain dark magic. This means that when Takara faces an enemy who uses dark magic, he can absorb it with his whip, storing it for later use against that enemy. Furthermore, the whip also has the unique capability to purify and cleanse the dark magic it absorbs, depending on its powers and if Takara can handle it. The same things can be done with light magic as well. The whip can absorb and store light magic and Just like with dark magic, the whip can purify and enhance the light magic it absorbs, making it even more powerful.
Oh! And the appearance of the whip also changes depending on its usage and state. When our Takara actively wields the whip and it contains no dark magic, it takes on the appearance of a shimmering silver whip with a purple aura surrounding it. However, if the whip contains dark magic, it transforms into a whip engulfed in dark flames (but still silver, the aura just change) when the whip is not in use, it reverts to a simple design, resembling any other dark-colored whip— OH! And the whip can change length.
Fun fact! Takara sees Yumi/Yume ( @sleepy-meep oc) as his siblings and often call them “brothers and sisters” but in private with them and wouldn’t say it in front anyone else at first but later one he would warm up to calling them that in front of others. He really glad to have two ppl he can call them family that actually care for him and that why he can be overprotective of them at times.
Kinda has OCD and may forget to get breaks so you may want to remind him at times.
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//There is more info about him I would love to talk about but I think this post is getting long and idk how to word the rest of my thoughts anyway so maybe I will make part two when I figure it out. Until then dose anyone care to ask anything about him or TO him? This may be a personal blog for me but you can still ask my OCs themselves and they would answer you here ^^!!
//oh!! And tell me if you all are interested to hear some of my thoughts about Takara’s Vignettes stories I have for him :3!
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bogwitchlesbian · 10 months
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My biggest regret in life is not blocking my fathers number, moving out of my mothers house, or losing contact with my brother.
My biggest regret in life is saving a baby bird.
I’ve saved many from my cats. Sometimes the rspca would take them. Sometimes I’ve had make them a nest in a tuppaware container and sit with them in the garden all night because my mother wouldn’t let them In the house.
They all made it. I let them go in the morning after letting them sleep safe and fed in the warmth of my mothers purple tea towel.
The baby was a blackbird. It was so tiny it fit in the palm of my hand. It was so scared as I shooed my cat away from it in the garden. I picked it up with the purple tea towel, and it snuggled right in.
I couldn’t bear to put it in the tuppaware so I just held it. It was a warm summer evening. I cradled this baby in my hands. It looked at me with what I would have called curiosity, but it’s a bird so what do I know.
It wasn’t injured from what I could see, just small and scared and likely missing it’s mother. My cat stared from behind the French doors.
We sat together in my garden for a few hours. It was 3 am and my legs were dangling off the garden wall above my lawn. The baby was tucked in carefully and I was singing quietly.
I was at that point babysitting my nephew regularly. He was 7 months old and I’d taken to singing elvis to him to rock him to sleep.
The baby seemed to like elvis too.
My mother was asleep, but my dad was working a night shift so I asked him what I should do with the baby, and he said to leave it on the green, a decorative patch of land across the road.
I didn’t want to. I knew the cat would just beeline straight for it.
He told me I had to. That I couldn’t keep the baby and my mother would be mad if she found out I’d stayed up all night with a baby bird in the garden.
I took the baby to the green. I watched my cat slink out to watch us from the garden fence.
The baby refused to leave my hands. I had to tip it out onto the grass.
I was crying.
I apologised.
I left the baby in the cold wet grass at 4am, grabbed my cat and didn’t sleep.
I went to see it in the morning.
I found it in pieces, and I wept.
I think about the baby every week.
How it so clearly had trusted me, and felt safe with me and I let it down.
I love my cat, but I will look at him sometimes and wonder how much of a joke our naming him “evil kitty” was.
How much is nature and how much is willful destruction.
He is sweet, loud, and comforts me when I am sad.
He is also a predator, and I am forcibly reminded of that in ways I do not wish to be.
I think sometimes that if I were catholic, and I was asked to confess, I would confess about how I let that baby die.
How I betrayed it, and how I will think of it forever.
I think I would beg god for that baby back. So I could hold it again and not care more about my mothers words than a living creature.
I would cry and beg for forgiveness but I would never accept it even if it was given, for I cannot forgive myself.
If I go to hell, I know what it is for.
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joysona · 1 year
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OKAY niche post: kpop boy group tomorrow x together as a killjoy gang
Soobin
Obviously soobin’s the babysitter
Killjoy name: sth goofy like Fanboy Steve or Blonde Bombshell he doesn’t take himself seriously enough to think of sth too cool
Gang medic
Constantly getting the gang out of trouble
Signature colors: blue, white, orange. Keeps his hair blonde.
Yeonjun
Resident fairy godmother and motor baby
Killjoy name: sth he thinks sounds cool as hell but actually sounds super cheesy, sth like Puma Dan or Cowabunga Kitty
Designated driver
Has cheated death way too many times due to provoking dracs a little too much
Signature colors: neon pink, sky blue, and black (very specific abt the shades he uses). Usually keeps his hair pink but he alternates
Beomgyu
CRASH QUEEN!!!!
Killjoy name: something cutesy probably, like Asteroid Bear or Benny Glitter
Hosts a radio show
Shoots acoustic
Color scheme: red, white, and pink. Keeps his hair natural brown most of the time but switches it up every once in a while
Taehyun
Batt rat, ex tumbleweed
Killjoy name: either something really cute like Terry Twinkle or sth rlly random like Tiger Lunch
Gangs resident smithy
Knows slight of hand so when he first came to the zones he’d just survive off pickpocketing and shit
Color scheme: pink, purple, orange. Keeps his hair pink
Kai
Batt rat (2), was snatched up by soobin literally an hour after he left the city
Killjoy mame: DEFINITELY sth super cutesy. I’m thinkin Desert Penguin or like Satellite Sunshine
Paper boy for Beomgyu’s show
String kinggggg
Color scheme: blue, green, yellow. Usually has his hair blue or blonde
Other thoughts
I don’t think they’d be called tomorrow x together fjfnnf their gang would probably have like a celestial name, like Meteor Bros or Planet Posse (they know their name is dumb but its camp and they couldn’t think of anything better)
They’re based out of zone 3 and operate a lighthouse out there
Beomgyu absolutely REFUSES to eat power pup and relies almost solely on the witches garden and batt food. Don’t ask him how he is able to manage that, you probably won’t like the answer.
Soobin is banned from tommy’s. No one (not even soobin) knows why, but every time the guys stop by, soobin has to wait in the car
Taehyun really really wants to get a motorcycle, but every time he brings it up the other 4 boys scream at him for 40 mins straight abt how he’d probably die if he tried driving one and they cant afford to lose their smithy with how often yeonjun gets them into firefights
Yeonjun does sun skin more often than not and often makes their raids go south bc they left late due to yeonjun taking too long to put his glitter on
Kai is like king of casual joy parties. Loves to throw bonfires and picnics, scours the zones and outer city for glow sticks and shit to hand out to everyone who comes. He always has extra blankets around for people to sit on.
One of their closest allies is an absolutely massive gang from zone 2 made up entirely of lesbians. Theres like 30 of them, so whenever they need backup, their opponent just gets entirely fuckin swarmed by sapphics with guns
Ok thats all i got for now lol i might draw them/add more shit later i am literally writing this at 1 am
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sheldoney · 1 year
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get   to   know   the   mun.
tagged   by:  actually I stole this from @gallntry
tagging: @oculusxcaro  @bitofthisandthat @amillixnvoices  @jokerous and anyone   else   who   wants   to.
what’s   your   phone   wallpaper:  a very sexy picture of jim parsons when he modeled for an australian magazine and had blonde highlights. he was styling. i couldn't help myself.
what’s   the   last   song   you   listened   to:   mr kitty- hold me down
what   book   are   you   currently   reading:   stephen king's the stand
what’s   the   last   film   you   watched:   knock at the cabin
what’s   the   last   series   you   watched:   i watched some clips from the big bang theory
what   are   you   craving:   i just ate lunch but i am craving some yakisoba for dinner
what   are   you   wearing:  really short cotton shorts because it is in the 90's and my grey animal aspca t-shirt
how   tall   are   you:   5′6.
do   you   have   any   piercings   /   tattoos:   i used to have tons of piercings but i took them out because i used to play with them all the time and my eyebrow piercings fell out anyways
do   you   wear   glasses   /   contacts:   i wear both but i don't wear contacts much anymore because they burn my eyes
what   was   the   last   thing   you   ate:   i ate my leftovers from last night / they weren't that great
what   is   your   favourite   colour/s:   purples, reds, blues, some green
what   is   your   current   obsession/s:   still the big bang theory, anything dc related
do   you   have   any   pets:   no, someday i am planning on getting a german shepherd
do   you   have   a   crush:   heh heh yes....
who   is   your   favourite   fictional   character/s:   i have many, too many list but my top are the joker (tdk) harley quinn, loki, sheldon cooper, darth vader, and scarlet witch
where   was   the   last   place   you   travelled:   just north of here. i had to get supplies like gummy bears and homemade beef jerky and fudge at scheels.
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fuzzybluebirdgalaxy · 2 years
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We’ve seen Adrien / Chat Noir as a werecat, as well as Marinette (to a lesser extent), but what about Kitty Section?
Luka, Juleka, Rose and Ivan are literally a band associated with cats and Adrien (who’s a honorary and temporary member) is Chat Noir (which only Luka knows), so why not make them werecats [as in the humanoid kind that retain their human minds, not the hairless feral animal kind of shit.]
I can just imagine Ivan as a giant and fluffy werecat who’s strong as heck and yet is a huge softie who doesn’t want to hurt anymore; in other words he’s a teddy bear (and the size of a grizzly bear). Rose would be the human-sized kitten that is cuteness incarnate and would curl up on your lap. Juleka might be freaked out and skittish at first, but other than that, she’s a chill person. Finally, Luka could be the chillest werecat ever, and also affectionate towards Marinette. Their fur colouration can either be the Kitty Section costumes they wear, their hair colour (black and teal for Luka and black and purple for Juleka) or a mix of both.
As for the transformations, it would be triggered by the full moon until they learned to control them. Of course, it would be excruciatingly painful with the bones reforming into new positions, clothes tearing, muscles swelling, tails growing, etc. They would retain their human minds, but they’d be scared of their new forms for a while, especially Juleka.
Kitty Section would try to hide this secret from their friends and family to avoid scaring them, only to have them find out either by catching them transforming (painfully) or any other scenario.
Marinette can also become a werecat within Kitty Section, since she was the one who designed the costumes. Of course, as Ladybug she would have to explain why she’s extra feline to Chat Noir.
If anyone wants to post art of this idea, that would be fine by me. Just remember to credit and gift it to me.
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Socks
I saw a video on the internet some time ago. Most of my stories seem to start this way, lately. Referring to what I thought about other people thinking things, like a great big roundabout.
Anyway, in this video, someone asked for the stupidest thing you'd ever felt dysphoric about. That was some time ago, and I really didn't have a good answer back then. I was fairly happy in my body, and when I wasn't, I managed to ignore it. I've been ignoring it for most of my life. I've gotten good at it.
I have an answer now. The stupidest, most insignificant thing I've ever felt dysphoric about, that's ever made me experience this haunted twist deep in my stomach, is socks.
Socks. A reason to be sad that's as dumb as they come, I think. Even dumber, because I, in fact, asked for socks. Christmas was coming up and as always, I was at a loss for what to say when people asked me what I wanted. So one day, I realised I was lacking long socks, the kind that ends mid-calf that you can wear underneath boots. So that's what I said. "Mum, Dad, Auntie, I want some socks pls."
My brother, seeing what a splendid idea that was, joined in and asked for some, too. Without wanting to sound conceited, it was pretty good, especially since we didn't want to cause our family trouble with expensive presents but both of us knew they would have felt bad if they couldn't give their kids anything for Christmas.
Socks are a useful gift as well, boring enough that everyone knows where to find them, but very easy to spice up, if you want to: Just get some with a funny pattern on them. There's a real market for those, there's socks with bears, trees, ghosts, PAC-man, fish, sheep, smileys, the Mona Lisa, you name it.
And, y'know, I thought, I would also be happy with just plain sports socks, the normal ones. But if I got fancy ones, they'd fit with the rest of my chaotic wardrobe.
Except they didn't. I got 24 pairs of socks, one for each day of December until Christmas. My brother got the same amount. Maybe, if he hadn't wished for socks, too, it would've made me feel less worse.
Because on every day of December until Christmas, I opened a carefully, lovingly wrapped parcel, and every day, out fell a folded, lovely pair of socks.
Pink socks.
Glittery socks.
Purple socks.
Socks with hearts and flowers and cute kitty faces.
To make it short, the sort of socks that would make a seven year old girl squeal in delight.
And every day, I watched my brother open a carefully, lovingly wrapped package of socks. Socks with peace signs, donuts, astronauts. Geometric patterns, fish, just plain tennis socks.
And I kept thinking: did I go wrong somewhere? Didn't I wish for 'just socks'? Did I imply that I like pink? Glitter? Flowers? And every day, it made me feel more horrible than I've ever felt about having breasts. Or long hair. Maybe it was because it was just socks. Breasts or long hair, I could understand why those things were different from my brother. But socks? We all have feet, goddamnit! My parents could have bought me the exact same socks they got my brother.
But they didn't. Because he was a boy and I was... not.
Therefore, every day, a carefully folded pair of cute, fuzzy socks fell into my lap and I had to smile and say: "awww, look, little kitty faces! And hearts, how cute.", when I just wanted to throw those damn socks so far away, have everyone forget that I ever wished for them and go buy my own.
You know what's even stupider than feeling bad about socks?
Feeling bad for feeling bad about socks. Feeling like a horrible person, because, look how neatly they were wrapped. Each one with a little bow. I bet my parents spent quite some time and money getting them, wanting to show their love and care for me. And yet, here I am, wanting to throw a tantrum - about receiving presents I asked for? Here I am, throwing an (albeit internal) tantrum about them getting socks 'in the wrong colour'?
Like the stereotypical little spoiled girl out of one of these Hallmark movies, complaining because her parents didn't buy the right kind of doll?
Such a stupid reason. Such a stupid feeling.
And now, all I have left are twenty-four pairs of pink, glittery, fuzzy socks and the firm resolution that I won't wish for anything next year.
Oh, and a good answer to a random question on the internet.
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