#i keep forgetting my tags im soo sorry

[mschimdt]

hello, lovely! 💕

can I get nsfw oneshot with mike and f!reader who is the dominant one in their relationship most of the time, but one day she no longer has the strength for staying dominant and Mike now has everything under his control?

sending love and have a good day! (⁠ʘ⁠ᴗ⁠ʘ⁠✿⁠)💕

that one afternoon

KEEP SENDING REQUESTS IN IM GOING TO REPLY TO ALL OF THEM

IK THAT ISNT MIKE ITS PEETA BUT I COULDNT FIND ANY GIFS OF HIM + THEYRE BOTH JOSH SOO 🥱

im actually loving the requests im getting so far,

mike schmidt x f!reader

disclaimer: i have no knowledge about jobs so im writing what i know from tv shows and movies💀 + mike is well off now, hes not struggling with money, english isnt my first language and THIS IS NOT PROOF READ

-----------------18+ MINORS DNI------------------

you were at work, you work a simple office job at a fast fashion conpany, but your manager is a literal bitch and she makes you work overtime, or she has you cover for her 'boyfriend' who works a similar job while they fuck in her office

"y/n, come here" you heard your boss say from behind you in her stupid british accent that just made her sound the more bossier, you rolled your eyes, turning around to face her

"i need you to cover for tom, and i need you to send these files to the board" you stared at her, with a dull expression

"no" you mutteted, staring at her, it took her a few seconds to process what you just said, a unknown expression slips onto her face "no? youre acting asif you make the rules around here, i suggest you shut up and go back to work or im making you work saturdays"

"why cant tom do his job? hes litteraly in great fucking health? oh wait, hes too busy fucking you in your office!!"

she looked at you, everyone in the office had their faces turned towards you

you continued speaking "dont acr all shocked now, we all hear your moans alllll the way from over here, maybe you should quiet down a bit huh? i can report what your doing to me and what youre doing with your boyfriend to the CEO!!!"

"fuck this stupid job, tom can do my shifts too now! because i QUIT" you said, grabbing your little tag, shoving it in your managers face before walking out of the building

you turned on your car, shoving the keys in the keyhole, whilw you waited for the car to start, your head was against the steering wheel, once the car finally warmed up you drove the car back to your house, a decent sized 2 story house you got with your boyfriend, mike, and his sister

you parked your car outside, you got out of the car opening the houses door with the key nwxt to your car key, you walked in, as you tried to pull the key out of the door, it wouldnt come out and that was it you went fucking nuts

"STUPID FUCKING KEY" you screamed, as you pulled at it as hard as you could, you didnt even notice mike standing a few meters away from you

as you continued to try to pull the key out, you felt mikes hand on your shoulder, soon followed by him saying something

"hey, hey, calm down whats up?" you froze, forgetting that mike was home, afterall it was his day off

he pulled your hand away from the key, "if you were more gentle it would've come out" he said, pulling it out gently.

he put his hands behind your back, closing the door behind the both of you and leafing you towards the living room

"sorry mike-" you said

"dont be sorry, whyre you so worked up though?"he said, you hesitated for a second and told him what happened

"glad you finally quit, that little bitch was getting on my nerves"

"yeah- i guess so but ive gotta find a new job now, it was hard enough finding that one" you said, staring down into your lap

mike looked at you, "look, you dont need to get a job my jobs good enough, were not struggling anymore you dont need to work if you dont feel like it" he said with a soft voice, looking at you with his big brown eyes

you kissed him slowly, a needy kiss, you needed this.

that inoccent kiss slosly escelated into a heated makeout session, you on his lap, hand on his neck, while his hands were under your shirt slightly groping your tits

when he squeezed your nipple, you let out a soft moan into his mouth, you felt him smirk against your lips before he detached his lips from yours, moving onto your neck, attacking it with his mouth

teeth biting into your neck, he seperated his lips from your neck, to take your shirt off, you lifted your hands up, allowing him to remove it, before he went back to assaulting your body with his mouth

his hands reaching behind you, unbuckling your bra and pulling it off your shoulders

he pulled away again, lifting his shirt up above his head, taking it off

he layed you down, trailing kisses and bites all the way from your neck, to your stomache, when he reached your lower abdomen he tugged at your waist band, he was in control this time and he wasnt gonna go easy on you

he slipped your jeans off, leaving you in panties, he then broight his fingers to your covered cunt, rubbing circles against your covered clit "oh god mike- more please!" you screamed, abby wasnt home so you could be as loud as you wanted

mike slipped your panties off, restint his face right infront of your clothed cunt, his hot breaths hitting it "please mike-"

he then got up, staring at you, he wasnt gonna give you what you wanted, no, its too early

"one second" he said, getting up off the couch, heading into your room, "fuck you mike!" you shouted, he replied with a soft chuckle, "youre gonna regret that" he went inside, coming out a few seconds later with something in his hand

you lifted yourself onto your elbows "whats that?" you asked, your eyes widening when you realized what it was, a vibrator

"when did you get that? and why dont i know about this" you asked

"ive been hiding it for a while, looking for a good time to use it on you, and nows the right time" he said walking over to you

"open your legs for me" he said, you obeyed, opening your legs, he slowly put the vibrator between your folds, you gasped at the cold feeling of it, he then switched it on

the moment you felt it start vibrating against yoy, you threw your head back, letting out a semi-loud moan

mike held the vibrator against your clit, you jerked your hips up, you didnt mean to do it but you did it out of reflex a few times causing mike to reach his hand out to your stomache, pinning you down. preventing you from moving

after a few minutes, of moaning and whimpering you tried to make out a word, letting mike know you were about to come, "mike- mikey- im about to come"

you were almosy there, when you felt the vibrator stop, you looked at mike, he had a shit eating grin on his face "w-why'd you stop" you said, disappointed

"youre not cumming on this vibrator baby, the only place youre going to cum is on my cock alright?" he said, as he unbuckled his belt, unzipping his jeans and taking them off along with his boxers

his cock slapping against his stomache as he positioned himself between your legs, he slipped the tip in, his head inbetween your neck, muttering soft nothings and praises

you felt the stretch, it burned, it wasnt your first time taking him but every time, he split you open, hes really big

as he continued sliding his cock inside your cunt, you could feel every vein, and when he finally bottomed out, he didnt give you time to adjust

he started thrusting in and out with no warning, moans leaving your mouth, mike lifted himself off you, holding into your hips

the sounds of skin slapping and moans filled the room as mike fucked you into oblivion, "open your mouth" you didnt hesitate, opening your mouth, hair messy, sweat running down your forehead

mike spit into your mouth, he then used his hand to shut your jaw shut "swallow" he waited for you to swallow, whimpers being let out while you swallowed his spit

you were about to cum "m-mike oh god!" you said, he knew you were close and so was he, he kept thrusting in and out, quickning up the pace a little bit

a loud moan left your mouth as you squirted all over mikes lower abdomen, once he knew you were done, hr slipped out, jerking himself off until he came, thick ropes of cum covering your tits and stomache

mike fell against you, panting

" you were so good" he said against your cheeck, kissing it

you layed there for a few minutes, before mike got up "come on lets washup abbys gonna be home anytime now"

you let out an annoyed groan, before getting up.

[maliabakerenthusiast]

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soo i saw this idea i will tag in comments and i got writing its all overthe place bc i havent writen in like 5 months.. but 865 words

Third person 

“I hope you won't disappoint red, you do this and you will make me the proudest mother ever. Fail, and the kingdom will see as I personally punish you.”

Red despised her mother; she didn't want to kill anyone. She knows her mother is crazy.

“We leave in the morning, now be a good child and wear something respectful that outfit is offensive. 

“Yes mother”

That night, I couldn't sleep. To think to have to kill someone made red nauseas 

But she has to do it so she can't fail her mother anymore. 

Reds pov

The whole bride to auradon prep was terrifying .

“I'm only sending you here to kill her completely and we shall rule together. Do not get distracted.” 

I just nod not trusting my voice. To say I'm scared is an understatement.

We arrived at auradon prep and it was huge. I mean not as big as my moms castle but still. It looks amazing.

As were walking in i hear someone call the name bridget towards us? Whos bridget? I look the way it came from and I see the princess I'm supposed to murder and her mom? 

As my mom and the blue haired woman talk i draw my attention on the young blue haired girl 

“Chloe , Chloe charming” she puts out her hand for me to shake. I just look her up and down. “red “ i say coldly 

“Oh your the princess of hearts from wonderland right? Oh how I've always wanted to go there since I was able to read about it. What is it like there?” she said rambling 

“Oh i wouldn't know the queen keeps me locked up in a tower.” i say with a smirk

She looks at me puzzled before shes being called to her mom

My mom suddenly towers over me 

“I'm leaving this excuse of a school now. Don't forget or there will be consequences.”

After the principal does this annoying singing, we get it your name is uma, we have to go to a table to see who our roommate is. 

“Red hearts?” i  hear someone calling my name i walk over

“This is your roommate chloe, i hope you two can get along” she smiles disgustingly happy

Well at least this will make it easier 

Third person (again IM SORRY)

Over the next few weeks red and chloe have been getting closer and as much as red is in denial she knows deep down she loves chloe. But she has to kill her, she has no choice once the day came red had not slept the knights previous. It was noon and Red was in their shared room a complete mess. She couldn't think of killing the only person she loved romantically, she couldn't even see herself living without chloe.

Chloe knew something was up when red didn't show up at lunch, then her next lesson that they had together. She slowly walked up to the girls shared room opening the door slightly. The blue hair girl's heart shattered at the sight of the princess sobbing in her bed.

“Red?”

Redf swiftly got up and wiped her tears

Her eyes puffy and red

“chloe “ she trails off with a shaky voice 

“Red are you okay” her voice laced with worry

The red princess couldn't bring herself to look at the other princess in the eyes as her hand clenched around a knife she had stolen from the kitchen 

And slowly walked over to the princess in glass boots

“Im sorry chloe” she sobbed out

“Red you don't have to do this” she said finally catching on the what's happening

“You don't understand i have to my mom shes” she trailed off

“Red what do you want? I know this isn't it” she says with tears in her eyes

“I don't but cant you see i'm destined to be like her, i love you chloe but i can't save us”

“ you can stay don't do this she cant hurt you here, please” she says begging

Both of the girls crying at this point 

With a shaky voice “chloe i'm sorry” that was the last thing she said before darkness overtook her

Chloe ran down the halls calling for uma 

“UMA HELP PLEASE ANYONE HELP”

“Red stay with me please”

“Please princess dont do this to me”

“HELP”

TIME SKIP BC I'M A HORRIBLE WRITER LMAO

25 YEARS

Chloe's pov

I look her in the same hospital bed ever since that day 

She made a curse to sleep for eternity with no remedies 

fouc=tnly she messed up a bit and fairy godmother was able to help it but it still would keep her curse for 25 years

So that's where i am now waiting for her

“Hey princess it's me again, i still don't know if you can hear me, but i'd like to think you can.they say you should wake up soon so that's great. I hope you still love me.”

Just as i finish the machines start beeping rapidly 

“Doctor, come quick!”

She gets up with a large gasp

“RED!” I say as i start to get emotional

“What happened, where am I, who are you?”

[pastelpousay]

Hey! I just want you to know that I really adore your art and Rina and your Hadina ship! I’ve seen how hard you’ve worked on her and how hard you’ve been working at improving your art! I remember the first time I saw your posts in the Hades tags and I was so happy to find another Hades self shipper that makes beautiful art!

Also, you’re totally not alone. I’ve DEFINITELY struggled with trying to make content for others to keep them entertained because I’m worried they’ll forget about me if I take too long to write or they’ll just stop interacting with me or something. Like, I get really caught up in that sometimes too, so I get it.

I can’t speak as an “artist” artist because I can’t draw for diddly squat (hence why I write so freaking much lol) but you’ve got talent girl! Seriously, I envy anyone who can draw! Like, that Hadina art and Persephades art you make? It’s SO GOOD! Like, I reblog all of them because they’re so cute and I’ve saved every single Persephone pic you’ve ever drawn because they make me so freaking happy! Like, I’m HONORED to my have stupid self ship OC be drawn by you!!! I’m not worthy lol!

My advice would be don’t sweat the “popularity” and “clout”. It’s move to see lots of people interact with your posts and stuff, but at the end of the day it’s about what makes you happy, not others! I totally get the hype, though. It feels good to see your posts get interactions and it sucks when you see others getting more interactions than you and you feel like you need to compare yourself. But you shouldn’t! You make content for YOU and share it because YOU want to! I feel like that’s what tumblr’s all about, y’know? Indulging in what you love and sharing it to inspire others to do the same.

So yeah, sorry I wrote so much, I have a bad habit of rambling 😂😅 but I hope this helped a little! Don’t lose your spark, hon! You’re talented and your ship’s adorable! I want to see more content from you and I don’t care what it is! Your love and passion for Hades is what I like to see, so keep doing what you’re doing! ❤️

AHHHH THANK YOU SO SO MUCH IM SO GLAD YOU LIKE MY ART IM GLAD TO KNOW THAT YOU CHERISH IT SO MUCH AHHH💗💗AND ALSO THIS MADE MY DAY

I’m glad you like my ship and all my Hades art so much it means a lot. And I’m so so happy to see when you reblog my stuff it means soo soo much 💗 especially at first I was so glad to see that I was so glad to see that someone I looked up too actually liked my stuff :D

And yea I guess I had got caught too much in all the numbers n stuff so much to the point I forgot why I even started posting to this blog in the first place, to share my creations and my love for the characters I draw and create.

I’ve been kind of obsessed with getting interactions n stuff lately almost to an unhealthy amount 😭 i was so happy to see that ppl liked my stuff and that I didn’t have to basically babble to my self all day but I usually end up doing that anyways, but I didn’t care back then, I was just having fun. And that’s the attitude I wanna keep to this. So thank you for reminding me why I even started posting to this blog 💗

[merrrrrrrrry]

hiiii 🫶🏻

that sounds like so much fun!! it’s so cool that you get to do that for your internship and that you enjoy it so much!!

so i was studying accounting but to start i was doing like a bunch of business classes and the law class i took was super introductory and focused primarily on contract law (i think) and so that’s how i was able to take it even though i wasn’t studying law!! i still don’t understand why my professor wanted us to go to a hearing as part of our final but it was interesting regardless 🤷🏼‍♀️

as for the tumblr edits i looked through your tag and i think they’re really nice!!! that sounds super frustrating honestly. it’s horrible to be so enthusiastic about something and have the people essentially running it not put in the effort to keep it enjoyable for everyone 😔

oooh i’ve never heard of that before, what is tiffin? it’s nice that you got to enjoy lunch with a group of good people!! and i love that for you!!! a good sandwich is always a bright spot in any day 🥹

it sucks you’re having trouble with the book and completing the review, but i’m sure you’re doing a good job regardless!!! hopefully it’ll all get easier along the way as you become more familiar with your area of study 🫶🏻 you were able to get into your program without any preparation so you must be considerably more prepared and capable than you feel right now 💗

okay some things about me..genuinely would spend every waking minute doing crafts if i could. like i don’t even care what i’m doing i just like creating things 🥺 my favorite drink is genuinely so boring i just really like water dhshshs like 9 times out of 10 if given the choice of drinks im gonna pick water! as for music i try to listen to a lot of different genres but i generally stick to pop (mostly bc 1d and the boys are pop-y) and then whatever like 4/5 songs im obsessed with!

good luck on your assignment, im sending you all the spare energy i have 💗💗

-✨holiday pal✨

(i hope this sends okay because i wrote it out in my notes app and copy pasted it bc it was getting incredibly long djshshs)

Hellloooo 💕💕

I'm so so so so so so sorry for the late reply

I do the same thing of writing in notes and copying here sometimes 🤣🙈

That's really cool. Contract law will be introduced as a subject to us this coming semester. I could talk to you about it!

Yeah, just today the posts I made which they approved was supposed to be posted and a few hours before posting time, one of the seniors suddenly had a problem with it and I had to do one of the things all over

Tiffin! Omg I keep forgetting it's such an Indian thing. So this is the Wikipedia definition - Tiffin is an Indian English word for a type of meal. It refers to a light breakfast or a light tea-time meal at about 3 p.m., consisting of typical tea-time foods. In certain parts of India, it can also refer to the midday luncheon or, in some regions of the Indian subcontinent, a between-meal snack.

For me midday luncheon is the best word for it. You'd eat breakfast at home, then have tiffin during break time at school and come back home and have lunch. But right now I'm working the whole day, so i take my lunch with me to court in a tiffin box(mine is just like an off-brand Tupperware kinda thing) and that's my tiffin.

I had Poha today in the morning and chicken curry and pulao for lunch. Sunday special!! What about you?

Thank you so much for that. I pray you're right and i finish my work on time. "Tumhare mooh mein ghee shakkar". It literally means may your mouth be full of ghee and sugar but actually it means what you said was very sweet and may what you said come true.

Water is my favourite drink!!! Oh god, I love water. And I love analysing how different the tastes of water in different places are, not out loud, just to myself.

I admire people who do arts and crafts soo so much. What kind of crafts do you do? The max that I can do is cross stitching.

Have a beautiful day 💕💕💕

[mrs-nate-humphrey]

I’ve never personally been a fan of Derena after s1, but reading your posts made me sympathize a bit. I totally agree that them just being friends would be so nice. I hated the whole Serena pining after Dan in s5, it honestly felt like she only wanted him cause he didn’t want her. What do you make of Serena during the dair arc?

hi!! finally i have been re-united with my laptop and i can get to this ask! ngl, i was so excited to see it in my inbox, because i have a Lot of Thoughts about serena during the dair arc (some of which people have said before me, as some old LJ comments can probably testify, haha.) 

this got very long and very serena centric *raises a mug of tea* cheers!

serena pining after dan and chasing after him like that was... i hated it too, and it made me.. uncomfortable is the best word i have for it, but also really deeply sad? i joke about serena’s ‘evil arc’ but as someone who genuinely loves her character and wanted good things for her, it was so painful to see her hurting so much and, instead of coping with that hurt in a mature way, causing harm to the people around her (two of whom she canonically loved very much; two of her favourite people in the world.)

the way i felt about serena during the dair arc was very much like... her reacting badly and not being sympathetic actually did make sense. i wasn’t a fan of how the show handled it and portrayed it, but given everything that happened with her in s3 and s4, i do think some kind of fallout was warranted and expected. everything that happened with lily, william and the fake cancer plotline was really messed up, and serena had spent majority of her life waiting for her dad to come back, and - i think we can blame lily for not being a particularly good (or present) parent, but i think serena had this very strong feeling that her dad coming back would somehow fix their family, or something like that. instead, his coming back caused a very new level of van der woodsen fuckery, and i think that would’ve been extremely traumatic for serena.

it’s also worth noticing that she doesn’t spend time after breaking up with nate in s3 to work on herself. she recognises that she needs to, recognises that she needs some time to recover and really find herself again. but s4 rolls around and she’s still feeling lost. going to paris with blair is fun for serena, but it’s also an escape - she’s actively not dealing with the stuff that’s happened, which i think is part of why her behaviour in early s4 is so chaotic and messy - leaving dan & nate hanging like that is.... mean. she should’ve been honest with them, she should’ve made a choice, even if that choice was ‘neither of you, i need more time, sorry’ or ‘hey, i’m not really sure yet, you shouldn’t have to wait for me to choose’.  

i’ve said stuff very vaguely, mostly in tags, about serena & dan being very emotionally unintelligent, and i think this is serena’s emotional unintelligence - she wants things to be okay and alright again, but she doesn’t want to face her trauma and her insecurities to get through it (which... trauma is fucked up so i do understand that.) i think that’s what makes her such a sympathetic character to me. like, serena, you can run away from everything, but you can’t run away from  yourself + your issues. you have to face them!! but she doesn’t really know how. nobody’s taught her this.

we’ve already gone into serena’s abandonment issues quite a bit, but i think serena during the dair arc was mostly those issues flaring up + the build-up of a lot of trauma re: the thing with her dad (that she was pretending not to see), serena feeling abandoned & lost because the only two people who she’s really ever thought of as ‘hers’, blair and dan, suddenly care about each other in a way that excludes her. we talk about the “dan and i have a real connection” thing in a dair way all the time, but the first time i saw that i was like “HELL YES” for dan and blair but like “ohhhhh noooo” for serena because the whole ‘we do things together that we could never do with you’ - which, i don’t think blair even meant in a hurtful way, but was probably the worst thing blair could’ve said to serena at the time?? 

it’s also worth noting that serena and dan keep going to each other when they’re at their lowest. serena reaches out to dan over the william thing, even though william majorly fucked over rufus, even though serena was dating nate at the time, it was dan she turned to then. when georgina takes milo away, dan immediately goes to serena, and she’s like, how are you, and he denies feeling bad about it, and serena (who probably knows dan well enough to know that it’s bullshit) humours him and goes “okay, let’s not talk about it” which nobody else was really doing at the time, which is why he went to serena. serena and dan’s high school relationship was very sweet and uncomplicated and i find it interesting (& a little sad, tbh) that when things go bad in either of their lives, both of them sort of immediately reach out for the other, almost like they’re trying to recreate the way their relationship was at the very beginning. gossipgirls has some great meta on this.

there’s probably also some jealousy over like.. dan and blair having found some stability and happiness with each other (without her! she’s no longer the person dan or blair loves the most and that hurts!) - and that they’ve found this stability while she still feels so lost and she’s drifting so much. serena’s gradual evolution into someone who really cared about being a socialite (??) and her reputation (to the extent that she was screwing lola over for her own benefit) felt very... drowning man clutching at straws-ish. like she’s lost everything else, might as well hold on to the one thing that she has.

this made me sad because i feel like... she still had dan. he didn’t want to be her boyfriend, he didn’t have romantic feelings for her, and he didn’t want to have sex with her. but he was still very much her friend. he confided in her!! he spoke to her about blair more openly than he did with anyone else (nate was right there, it’s not like the only person dan had in his corner was serena - serena was just the easiest person for him to talk to) and i really, really feel like if serena had just been like “dan, i want to be happy for you but i feel so lost, i feel like you and blair don’t need me anymore and i feel so lonely” or whatever... he would’ve understood!! he would’ve helped her through it! you know that bit with blair and serena in the elevator in 3x09? i can’t find the gifs right now Unfortunately but you know the scene im talking about - they both open up and talk and serena is finally honest with blair? i wish she’d gotten something like that with dan in s5 because like... this theme of dan trusting her with his heart (in a platonic way, but STILL, he was being soo honest and vulnerable and open with her) and her just being all supportive on the outside and sabotagey on the inside... like.. i didn’t like that for her, and i honestly think the level of evil they dialed it up to was cartoon villainny and very ooc for serena. 

i DO see her having resistance and insecurity to the dair arc, but the sort of dishonesty and antics she was pulling felt so wrong and so un-serena, even in the light of all the trauma and the context to her acting out. the shephard divorce thing especially... serena spends so much of the earlier seasons feeling guilty and hating herself over the shephard wedding and the thing with nate. i don’t think she would do that again in any capacity - forgetting blair for a moment, i don’t think she would do that to herself. she hated the person she’d become back then & i do think serena is more strong-willed than most of us give her credit for (filming dan without his consent like that is a georgina move, it’s not a serena move.) 

as for leaking blair’s diary... i feel like serena and blair have such a complicated and not always healthy friendship (that bit in s2 i think it is where serena says something about ‘im sick of always holding myself back so i don’t outshine you’ and blair is like ‘hey wtf??’ hits very hard because it’s so... understandable from BOTH of their perspectives, like i feel like i can understand how serena’s just been quietly holding onto all this resentment until she can’t be quiet about it anymore and it explodes, and blair’s insecurities make this moment one of her worst fears being actualised. but it’s an impactful moment because it touches upon the complexity of blairena.) serena leaking blair’s diary makes sense - i hate it, but i don’t think it was that ooc, and if that had been her only act of betrayal that would’ve felt a lot more realistic to me, tbh, given the way blair & serena’s relationship is and how often they hurt each other (sometimes even deliberately!!) like i would’ve just been like ‘serena! no!!’ as opposed to ‘that’s not my serena; what is this arc!!!” which is what s5 always makes me feel. 

[flokive]

hi!! okay so u seem hella nice n i kinda nervous asking but i used to be a huge 5sos fan back in 2013-2016 and then i've kinda fell off on keeping myself updated on their personal lives since then. i used to love going on tumblr back then but i dont recognize many urls anymore. im tryna get back into the groove of 5sos tumblr so do u have any ppl you'd recc following / any advice on how to make friends here as a new acct? thanks :**

hiii!!! dear, i’m so sorry i’ve just seen this 🥺 thank u so much my sweets, pls don’t be nervous to talk to me!!! u can always come to me if there’s something on your mind 💕

yay!! welcome back? i guess hehe, i’ve only joined the fandom in march/april, around the time CALM dropped so i’m a babie compared to a lot of ppl here, apparently i’ve liked them back in ‘13/‘14 but i was too far up 1d’s & emblem3’s asses to hyperfixate on another band so here we are. 🌝

as for making friends, i really, honestly, don’t know how i did that. i’m super nervous and anxious to talk to people bc i always think i’m the most annoying thing alive. thanks to the loml, my bb amber, i found a lot of nice blogs and bc of her i slowly started to make some friends. i just reblogged a bunch of stuff and put all of my thoughts into my tags and sometimes just tried to talk to hem? and now i’m friends with some ppl, yet i still feel anxious when i send them messages so i might not be the best person to get advice from hehe 😅 i’d just say, maybe, try to send them asks/messages? everybody on here are literaly THE nicest people, i love them all so much, they are soo sweet and lovely so don’t be nervous love!!

about blog recs, let me just clarify i love each and everyone i follow, I’m probably forgetting a bunch of people bc i have the brain of a grape!!! but yea, i hope i’m not offending anybody by forgetting 🥺

@ashtonsos / @ashtonsunshine / @ashtonangst / @ashtonlrwin @babylonashton / @blackbutterfliescal @calmlftv / @cthofficial / @castaway-cashton / @cliffoconda / @calumcest / @calpops / @clemmings / @calswhitelies / @easierlftv / @frontmanash / @galcalirwin / @gigglyirwin / @ghostofmashton / @h0tsos / @haikucal / @irwinkitten / @irwintry / @kindahoping4forever / @kingcals / @lonely-hearts / @morningfears / @maluminspace / @mysticalhood / @notinthesameguey / @n-ctarinenga / @ohhoneyofmine / @petuniaisawildflower / @redrattlers / @rebelwith0utacause / @spicycal / @sunshinelukee / @sunshinecal / @sexgodashton / @tothemoonmikey / @talksopretty / @vapor5sos / @yikesguys

[chraneness]

Character Creation Tag

OMG I’m so sorry this took me so long, but I swear I didn’t forget! I meant to do this days ago, but here it is anyways!

I got tagged by @the-violet-writer who has become so close to my heart in such a short amount of time! I love you fam!

I did this for a character I have written very little about lately, but he has a place in my heart, and I wanted to feature him in something.

His name is Felix.

1. What was the first element of you OC that you remember considering (name, appearance, backstory, etc.?)

I first considered his environment. He needed to be cool minded to be able to deal with the hell he lives in, and he needed to be calmer than his brother.

2. Did you design them with any other characters/OC’s form their universe in mind?

Yup, his brother, Dennis, they needed to be able to get along and keep each other in check.

3. How did you choose their name?

Umm…I know in latin Felix means lucky, but thats all I really knew when I picked the name, at first, I just needed something to call him, and it kind of stuck.

4. In developing their backstory, what elements of the world they live in. Played the most influential parts?

The most important part was that he hated Dennis when he was alive, and Dennis killed him, other than that, I don’t really know the specifics. Family rejection, drug use, discrimination, I know they happened to him, but I just don't know when.

5. Is there any significance behind their hair color?

It is a light sandy brown, and I love it SOO much. That’s about the only significance of it, but it’s completely adorable!

6. Is there any significance behind their eye color?

Again, I just kind of had to pick one, but his eyes are brown, to match his hair. There isn’t a real reason for it, that’s just what he looks like, I don’t think I really had a choice in the matter 🤣😜

7. Is there any significance behind their height?

I’m not exactly sure how tall he is, but he isn’t all that tall. He is a couple inches shorter than Dennis, but Dennis is tall dark and handsome.

8. What (if anything) do you relate to within their character/story?

I relate to the fact that he tends to blend into the background. Dennis is where everyone’s attention is, so Felix just has to sit there and watch Dennis in the spotlight.

9. Are they based off of you in some way?

Umm…not really, he is independent of me, but if I could, I would make him my best friend!

10. Did you know what the OC’s sexuality would be at the time of their creation?

Not really, I thought he was just straight and fooled around on the side, but about a day after his creation, I found out he was gay, and later he got a boyfriend. He is my little piece of chocolate cake with his boyfriend. I love them so much!

11. What have you found to be the most difficult about creating art for your OC (any form of art: Writing, drawing, edits, etc.)?

The most difficult would probably be proper descriptions of him, I want people to see the adorable cinnamon roll I do! But it is so hard to describe him to others. Im working on it though!

12. How far past the canon events that take place in their world have you extended their story, if at all?

Umm…mostly his boyfriend I think, no major events go past his story. (Also, it’s unclear where his strip will end, so it’s hard to say.

13. If you had to narrow it down to 2 things that you MUST keep in mind while working with your OC, what would those things be?

His inner depression, and his self control. He has to hide being gay from his brother for fear of being shot (long story), so he is always depressed about not being able to love, but as a result, his self control is AMAZING. Which is why he always appears cool and level headed about everything.

14. What is something about your OC that can make you laugh?

His dry sense of humor. He is always level headed and cool, so he has this dry “fuck you all” sense of humor that I SO love.

15. What is something about your OC that can make you cry?

The fact that he has to hide from everyone. When I am writing his state of depression, or even rereading something a wrote earlier, I can just FEEL how sad he is. Its awful.

16. Is there some element you regret adding to your OC or their story?

Umm…I don’t think I regret anything. I love him and he hates me, (but thinks I’m slightly redeemable because I gave him a boyfriend) and he s the most adorable little cinnamon roll!

17. What is the most recent thing you’ve discover about your OC?

That his favorite food is chocolate cake!

18. What is your favorite fact about your OC?

Besides his fighting skills and sexuality, I LOVE how into wine he is. He has his favorite brands, years, and kinds, I can’t keep track of it all, but it’s such a cool little quirk for him to have.

Tagging some more friendsies!

@jaycewriteslikealot @timelessziowl167 @gayingharderthaniveevergayed

[parappa-and-lammy]

Sorry at @anon y @fig for the s u p e r l a t e response, haven’t been feelin anywhere near 100% at all soo

BUT now i feel okay-ish! Enough to answer! yee soo hhhhn my teacher pairings and other series pairings hoo boy

just let you know This postll have tags ‘non p@r@ppa’ and 'long post’ in case you dont wanna see but here we go, teacher pairs first i guess

I wish i could draw for them all. For now though, we’ll make due with a list, in no particular order. it’s juice and jam time.

So firsty to start it all off 1. Papa Rappa and General Potter - even though they arent teachers im just countin em because yknow theyre adults. I like em together a lot, and even considered writing my own thing for it (i never did post the art of them together) yet ONLY if Sloane ‘Phoenix’ Rappa were out of the picture somehow! Otherwise the two doggos bein together are good 💝

2. Mooselini y Cheap Cheap - something that always makes me interest in a pair at first is cute art, usually. I like em together and think its adorable :’3 ive even thought of scenarios for em, that maaaybee could be developed into a fic. Maybe

3. Fleaswallow/Cheap Cheap - look ive been a fan of the weird headcanon of ‘The chicken is a convict’ and think itd be great for this one. Theyd smonk weed and plan new ways to sell their stuff together

4. Mushi or Guru Ant/ Takoyama - hehe the octopus has a thing for invertebrates :P i obviously like him with Mushi, but ive warmed up a lot to him bein with Guru Ant as well 💜 fan favorites gettin paired togetherr

5. Captain Fussenpepper y Cathy Pillar - man these two always get buried and forgotten overall... but i think them old farts would be really cuute togetherr 😻 theyd go on cute dates in their golden years and stuff,,, and Cathy would be able to handle him at his best and worst thanks to her nursing experience

6. Teriyaki Yoko and Paul Chuck - i think it hilarious how they were goin on a dinner date in the newer anime and it makes sense too; only a man as tough and off his rocker as him would like the demon of the maybe-hell place

7. Beard Burger with his wife, End of that wholesome story.

8. this aint exactly a pair since naaah, but ive always really liked the idea of Takoyama and Cheap Cheapp bein buds. Theyd hangout and talk shit about the other and have a gay old time ❤️️🧡💛💚💙💜 ive been meaning to draw it for the longest time, but i havent yet

9. Talking about Takoyama, i heard an idea somewhere about he and Moosesha bein together 🤔 of course thats a slim idea right there, but i still like it! ^.^ most likely has to do with them bein total opposites is all 💗 ive always loved that trope

10. And finaallyyy Colonel Noodle, who obviously the best to be paired with him would be a piping hot bowl of ramen moodles :v but Really, i see lotsa cute ideas, the ones i like mostest being of him with PaRappa or Rammy~

and thaaats the teacherss of the series, i guess uh. Onwards to the ‘other series’ shipsssss. Itll be a random handful-ish that i come up with on the top of my head. imma try and keep it shorter as well this post is already MUCH TOO LONG

1. startin off this series with Naruhina because i like it as much as Parapp and Lams 💖 -from the Naruto series

They inspire and help each other out so much and hhhhh needless to say im extremely happy with how the series progressed 😻😻 like unbelievably happy, i have to hurry up and watch it all and squee over it

2. Ive super duper liked marceline/princess bubblegum ever since that one episode clearly hinted at feelings in that one episode with the witch and the shirt and the kitty alarm clock that i need 💗 - from Adventure Time

they like each otherrr, they have for a whiile, so imagine my excitement when certain things happen in AT, which has ended recently :’S i seriously have to rewatch and marathon the show to see it myself

3. Deku and Ocharaka. Uraka, CHOCOLATE im so terrible at remembering their names :’D 💔💝 - from My Hero Academia

i just recently started watchin BNHA and i gotta say, i adore it and i adore these two 😻 it just so cute,,,, seein em interact on screen is so adorable in itself, i gotta keep watching to catch up on the series because i love it overall

4. And for something from a series not so sweet and fluffyyy, Bubba/Leatherface and Stretch, whichever her last and real name is because i keep forgetting iittt 💓💖 - from TCM2

This movie is the first in the series that i’ve watched (ive since bingewatched every single other installment...even the two not-so-goods ones shiver), and i absolutely loved each second they interacted on screen,, =w= its just. so cute, and oddly sweet for the movie it is. It’s a sad shame it wasn’t too developed and all, but i still utterly love it ;w; ❤️️❣️💝💕

and finally 5. Lapidot because of course; loving Steven Universe as much as i do of course it makes it onto the list 💚💙💚💙

I remember startin to like em as a  pair waay before they were introduced to each other (because whadya know, i saw some cute arts and was hooked), but then the series progressed, Rebecca did some cute arts of em also, i just love em together and need to watch more SU

And there ya have it! :D my shippings for the teachers, and also some random pairs from other series as wellll!~ this post is way too hecking long but it was fun to do when i finally was feeling better!

Thanks for sendin them asks in, and sorry it took so long! 💕

[pinkgalaxybunny]

Hello!✨ When you get this, please respond with five things that make you happy! (If that’s ok with you!) Then send to the last ten people in your notifications anonymously or not. You never know who might benefit from spreading positivity. 💕✨ (You’re an amazing, beautiful person! Don’t you dare forget that!)

Thank you soo much 😭❤ I'll do this before i go!1. Music. This is gotta the number one thing that changes my mood in milliseconds. Specially from C418, Geotic, Tobu, NCS, and The Weeknd. Whenever im feeling down or angry, i just listen to them. I have more artists but i don't wanna make you read it all. 😂2. Games. Gamessss ❤ Its my LIFE i tell you! The top game i love a lot is Minecraft. It so soothing and relaxing. I could just play it 24/7. And if i wanna kick butt or let it all out i would go to Fortnite or Black Ops 3. *heard rumors about Black Ops 4 i hope its official!*3. Thinking positive. Whenever i think positive, i have like a MILLION ideas! Like where were you all my life positivity!? 😭 If i can fight my autism and keep thinking like that, i can get exactly what i need or want without having to mourn for it. Its like the Lord was telling me this the whole time but i kept ignoring it. The more you listen, the more better you get. I thank him this everyday. 😇❤4. Art. Oh gosh where do i start with this? Man, art literally changed my life. Its like i was meant to to be a artist! Whenever i get depressed, i always draw depressing stuff. The weird part about this is that whenever i draw depressing art, i get somewhat "Better" and "Creative". Like... WHERE DID THIS COME FROM?? When my Mom see my deppresing art, she gets very shocked and happy for me because whenever she sees my art, she sees a bright future for me. Its a gift. From the Lord. ❤ I will always keep it in my heart.5. The Future. It gets me interested and happy whenever i think about it. What i mostly think about is what's my future wedding gonna be like. Sorry i just LOVE weddings! Seeing a couple vowing and looking at their designs is so satisfying. What i really want in my future is a fairytale wedding, but im having a hard decision whether should it be an Aladdin, The Little Mermaid or a Cinderella wedding. The one thing that gives me so much anxiety is when i turn 17 and start learning how to drive. The reason i fear about driving because in Mother's Day 2009 i got into a car accident and almost killed me and my elder brother. But either way, i have to brace myself and know that im gonna a mother in future and know that the Lord will protect me. Which cheers me up.But yeah, those are the things that makes me a happy 16 year old. Thanks for tagging me. After i texted all of this, it just makes me happy even more. Thank you Anon. ❤

[konowhore]

Broduce 101 Story Time & Family Appreciation

My PD101 story isn’t too tragic. I mean, the ending is, but we’ll come to that later. I would like to thank one of my besties, @kpoppoopie (Thor), for getting me into PD101 in the first place. Without further ado, I give you my Produce 101 story.

First, it started when my friend Katy told me that there was going to be a second season for Produce 101. Now, I had heard of the first season, just never really got into it. Just before I.O.I disbanded, I had started to get into them a bit. For season 2, I was a little more excited because I actually knew trainees who were going to appear. The first person I heard of was Kim Sanggyun aka A-Tom of TOPP DOGG. And then BTL (they disbanded, bless them), HOTSHOT, JJCC. And it wasn’t until later, right before the show began to start, that I heard NUEST was going to be on. So, I knew a pretty good handful of the boys. 

At school, in my last class of the day, I was on a chromebook on YouTube. I saw that the stage for Produce 101 Season 2 “Pick Me” had been uploaded. So, with no earbuds and a completely silent class, I watched the performance with no sound. 

Later, I eventually listened to it. At first, I didn’t really like the song. I also read articles about different trainees who caught people’s attention. For example, Jang Moonbok, for his appearance on a show where he rapped. Lee Euiwoong, for previously being on ‘Hello Counselor’. Park Jihoon for being “wink boy”. Keep in mind that I didn’t really pay attention to these articles at the time until I seriously got into PD101. 

In April or May, Katy showed me pictures of Bae Jinyoung, her favorite trainee. Now, a few days (or weeks?) before, she showed me pictures of other trainees (but I can’t remember who) and I was semi-interested. When she showed me Jinyoung, she asked me how old I thought he was. I thought he was one of those guys who looked really young but was actually older than how he looked so I guessed 21. Another person, one of our other friends, guessed 17. And she was the one who guessed correctly. And I looked at him again and said, “he’s pretty handsome” (or something along those lines).

In June, during the last week of school, I started falling in love with PD101. First I started out with clips of the boys. I re-watched the “Pick Me” performance and I’m now addicted to the song. The trainee I fell for was Park Jihoon. Remember the articles? I didn’t know Jihoon was wink boy until I think Katy told me. Or maybe I was watching the performance and was looking for him and I saw him wink. This was a couple weeks ago, please forgive me. 

Later, I fell for Bae Jinyoung. A week ago. I finally started watching the show and am currently making very slow progress. So far, I’ve watched episodes 1, 2, 3, 9, 10, and 11. Yes, I completely skipped over, but let me tell you that either way, I was very emotional for that finale.

But back to Jinyoung. Katy had been so obsessed with him, and then she revealed her real bias, Park Woojin. So, as I was watching clips, looking at blogs, getting to know the trainees, I noticed a boy. Two boys to be exact. Two trainees from CUBE Entertainment we call chicks. These boys are none other than Lai Guanlin and Yoo Seonho.

I don’t care if you say they don’t have talent. I’m still stanning them okay because that’s what development and practice are for. 

Aside from the trainees, the show itself was good. Besides Mnet’s evil editing, it was okay. I mean, if you were part of the Mnet staff, try getting 101 boys into a one hour episode. Yes there were favorites, but put yourself in their shoes. 

I didn’t realize I was so emotionally attached to the show and the trainees until I was watching the final episode live. I got up once, and it was to use the bathroom. But the whole time, I was screaming at my chromebook, crying into my hands, wiping the tears off of my cheeks, and talking to myself, telling myself to stop crying. When the episode stopped streaming (it completely stopped streaming right before they were going to announce Jihoon and Daniel’s ranking), I was torn. I wennt back to Tumblr and asked Katy for updates. And when she told me Daniel was 1st and Jihoon was 2nd, I was thrilled because I was actually getting updates. And then I asked for number 11, who had not been revealed yet. And then Katy said, “Ha Sungwoon”. Well, it was in all caps, but you get it. Basically I was bawling so much that I ended up making these weird sounds of happiness/sadness for all the other trainees that had gotten eliminated and the final lineup. And then Katy said something about Jonghyun being 14 and Samuel not making it and I got even more emo, probably sitting there mind-blown. And then I completely stopped functioning and stared at my screen thinking, ‘my boys did it, ohmygod, they did it. I’m so proud of them all’. Turns out I was mumbling to myself, according to my sister. 

I am still emotionally drained from that day (and it didn’t help that I had to follow someone around a wedding for two days; it’s a Hmong tradition). I will forever support my boys in Wanna-One and the boys who are going to debut/comeback or continue pursuing their dreams of becoming an idol.

Produce 101 Season 2. Thank you for bringing me on a emotional roller coaster ride. Thank you for allowing me to give you the title(s) of Broduce 101 and Adoption 101. 

I especially want to thank the trainees, who have found a way to my heart. I will always support you all and I will always be by your side.

The people I want to thank even more, are the people in the Produce 101 Family. We stick together, keep each other updated, and share our PD101 thoughts. We don’t all talk, but as a PD101/Wanna-One family, we always stick together. Thanks so much for having me, and I would love to tag you all. Just pray that I didn’t forget anybody. If I do, I’m sorry, but I do appreciate and love every single PD101/Wanna-One blog on Tumblr. :) I’m also sorry if I tag you twice :”)

@wannaoneioi @kpoppoopie @produced101 @produce101infocenter @produce-boys @produce101icons @peachgodkangdaniel @parkjiihoons @park-woojin @park-woojinbnm @parksjihoon @parkwoojinn @parkji-hoons @p-arkwoojin @daewi @daehwis @daeswhis @dabnielkang @ong-seungwoo @ong101 @ongssi @ongniels @seonnho @sewooned @seongwoosgf @seonhodaily @sewoonn @jung-sewoons @jeongsewoons @jeo-jang @kngdaniel @kangbaeks @gugulin @guanmint @guannlin @guanlini @seonhope @seonh0e @god-kangdaniel @geonhee @godkenta @godsewoon @godkangdaniel @donghans @kimsamueldeservedbetter @kimjonghyunx @kimdcnghyun @jongibugi @ji-hooon @jiiya-101 @justkiddingitskris @jusewoon @p-arkwoojin @lai-guanlin @lai-kuanlin @laiguacamole @peach-somi @minsbugi @misswannaone @extraongdinary @euiwoong @euigeon @eunkis-choker @lee-baehwi101 @lee-insoo @lee-in-soo @ramenrulz8p @realdefdani-pote @urijinyoung @useonho @incorrectbroducequotes @memduce @im-youngmin @pd101confessions @broduce101boyz @broduce-texts @brodueces101 @ahn-hyungseob @swoojin @deer-jinyoung @dayhwee @kngdaniel @jongibugi @hitoritabi @honqeunki @hongseobis @fykenta @fywoodam @fywannaone @fyboys101 @fykangdaniel @fy-parkjihoon @baejinvisual @bd101-translations @vvannaone101 @conversehighnotconverselow @cherry-youngmin @congstellation @99jihoons @sweetbabygirllor @jinguos @jinxhwi

Thanks so much again, and I love you all so much ^~^

[jongsooyah]

Genuine question, what makes the u think that Kai/soo are more than just good friends and a bit of? Is it the jagiya moment?

LMAO no! i’ve been saying kd is legit since years ago, evenbefore i found out about kfans analysis about jagiya. 

kd is more than jagiya moment, kd is more than one (1) moment. if youthink the majority of kd shippers say kd is dating cuz of solelythat one particular moment, u r wrong m8.

it’s actually a built-up kind of thing (?), when i firstjoined the fandom i actually thought “kd is just broz 5ever” but thisthought didn’t last long bc the fandom enthusiasm got me curious about kd andafter i tracked back their old moment~recent ones i was like “ok, thesedudes definitely have something going on”. 

another factor that makes me v sure is theirenvironment/surrounding. this one actually makes everything more interestingand obvious, at least for me.

some of the members have reacted to them….. ~strangely~.strange bc kd is supposedly just another ~kpop boyband’s otp~ butmembers reactions tell the opposite. kjm often looks disapproving when kdhappens,pcy often cockblocks kd and makes everything awkward, staffs have openly eyed them (dis n dis). 

dont forget xc jagi moment appeared right after ifans made a huge deal about jisaying this word to call ks and then we also have xc suddenly saying that they’re the closest ones in eksoh as if they were trying to debunk pcy & kji statements(in 2014 & 2015); “kd is the closest ones in the group”. oh there’s also this one when bo-mi (from a pink) reacted to them, she giggled once kd pic appeared on the screen while other mc’s looked lost.

there’s also kxk that actually makes kd moreprominent. thx to kxk i actually know what to label them now cuz b4 i used to say “kd isn’t platonic”. i wasn’t sure what rs they had, i was only sure that “these 2 r def not just friends” but kxk made some ppl blabber (cuz wuts the point of keeping hush hush, kxk is ~dating~ anyway in public eyes & kd shippers r branded as delulu & scums™ anyways so… lel). kd looked angsty and awkward af during the period after kxk, thankfully it didn’t last long. they couldn’t even make a eyecontact when they had concert in shenyang (ks flinched when jilooked at him and he quickly looked away, theres a vid of this but my tag is amess so i cant find it), they sang along to that angsty song, they looked teary eyed on the night the ~news~ got revealed (some ppl said ks cried after this event and many actually saw it but cuz some of his stans gonna hellbent defending about how this isn’t true even thothe previews of this night show us how watery his eyes were so it kinda backsup the rumor. let’s just pretend i never said anything here lol)

there are other stuffs too like that 2012 insider post(saying kxk is planned and kji actually doesn’t like fanservice otp bs yet hebasically pairs himself up w/ dks all the fkcing time like have u seen theirrecent moments?) and the timing of the gay b.i’s match w/ kd acted strangely(2015~2016 period) but im too lazy to explain these. 

and tbh kd themselves r actually obvious. ppl who have gone to their concert often say how different the ~atmosphere~ that surrounds kd, as if theyre in their own bubble. even non shippers have said the similar thing before. plus they often being glued to each other, like there’s magnet or something that pull them towards each other lol. 

kji also has several times pushed other member away from ks, like when they were in airport, kji nudged pcy so he could hold ks shoulders, when they were in smtown’16 kji followed se-soo around & kinda tried to separate them. dks looked worried when kji got injured & he has helped kji alot when this happened. he also has mentioned kji for several times even tho no one literally asked, he even whined bc kji didnt watch his drama (this happened during pure love interview, dks was like “y ji doesnt watch my drama?? im actually anticipating his upcoming drama [choco-bank] but he doesnt watch mine :(”). 

while kji always chooses ks as his #1 and has often defended him when ppl said “ks is quiet” (”he’s not quiet u only need to know how to talk to him uwu”) or when ppl said “ks is not cute” (dks got the lowest percentage cuz members didnt vote for him as cute member but kji chose dks as the cutest #1). don’t forget kji is basically dks spokesman; when dks gets asked he would answer it for him. when dks is nervous kji would calm him down (by rubbing dks’ back or arm). i still can add more but this is already really long and i kinda h8 myself for spending too much time/energy writing this.

basically, none of those stuffs would’ve happened if kd werejust ~broz 5ever~, everything that has happened leads me to theconclusion that they’re together. 

sorry 4 long answer btw.

[huskyvoicedphil]

uhh how do you think they got together? (im not assuming they are together thats not my business but like you asked im not trying to be a phannie okay bye)

Omg liva i'm so sorry this took so long and this is an amazing question i think about this a lot (cause i don't have anything else to do with my life)This is an unpopular opinion but i believe -if we are assuming they are dating and i assume that they are tbh- they were not dating in the beginning. I think there was a sexual tension since the first they've met, yes. And of course dan's formspring and tweets about phil in 2009... well in my theory, they always had feelings for each other and they still do but at first dan didn't realise that this might be something else, something like love. He just thought he was feeling those things bc he had never had a best friend before and he was like "this must be what it feels like to have a best friend." So, they kept living like that, dan missing phil and phil missing dan. Until they moved to their first house. I believe that was when they both realised that it wasn't just a friendship. It was something more and it was confusing but neither of them wanted to let it go. Add this sexual tension too because since they can't keep their hand to themselves *sigh* so yeah. We'll never know. In this theory i believe phil was the first to realise the situation. He kept it to himself, i believe, but died every time when dan looked at him like he was the best thing in this world. Phil is that kinda guy to do some sacrifices to not to lose a friend. It was not just a friend tho, it was dan, his dan, so yeah he didn't say anything. Eventually they couldnt do it anymore (because sexual tension was unbearable) soo... I also believe it all started with a drunk dnp make out... This sounds like a fanfiction but their real stories are already like a fanfiction so... Yeah. I really like this theory but like i said i'm not saying they are dating okay... im just sharing this theory with u guys and i don't want them to things like this so i never tag them in these kinda posts. I would never, really, i love them too much to do that and im happy tumblr phandom is wise enough to keep this kinda things to themselves. I pray to god everyday we are not like some crazy insta phannie. No offence to all of them, i know there are normal fans too lol Thanks for asking liva 💜💜💜 i loveee phan questions and theories and shit this is so long again for gods sake i don't know what I'm doing with this life fuck and hey ily and you deserve the best, don't forget that while you are struggling with things ok? Love you 💕

[ocdtalkwithme]

SUBMISSION: I’m still obsessed with my best friend from 6th grade

I’m SOO obsessed with my best friend from 6th grade (let’s call him A) he and I had a falling out caused by someone else (call him b)

I legit cry about him still and I saved every piece of paper from 6th grade, all of his drawings, all of the plushies he sewed for me…

So turn back to 2012 A and I are best friends for the entirety of 5th and 6th grade He and I were so happy together except whenever we had a fight he’d threaten to kill hinself until we made up I loved spending time with him, we came to school early to show eachother our newest ocs We’d meet at lunch and draw together We’d sit in the shade at recess and draw And he’d come over for sleepovers and we’d have a wonderful time He and I would eat pizza (and see who could eat more) make brownies Draw Animate He’d show me funny YouTube videos And we’d stay up really late Even though he did shitty things we were so happy Then I introduced him to b Now I don’t know if you know this, but b is a scary kid. He would randomly snap at me and say super mean stuff online and then pretend like it never happened One time he went too far and started calling me names I went to A and asked him to help me but he took b’s side and they both started bullying me I skipped the last day of 6th grade bc I was scared b was gonna hurt me A and b went on to be friends until b started doing the same thing to A on anon. When A figured out it was him b started sending him graphic death threats. Then 3 years passed and I gave A my note (a note asking to be friends again) We had a wonderful time sitting together before school and I was so happy. Except he’d never message me outside of school I knew that it wasn’t bc he was busy, since he has a long distance gf and they talk daily So I sent him a message kindly asking why

He told me that we would never be the way we used to, and that we wouldn’t get close I got really upset and blocked him And then he went on tumblr and sent me this message from a different account

“i know you probably don’t wanna hear from me again
but i feel like some of this is a misunderstanding and i want to apologize
i never said i didn’t wanna be friends, or put effort into it, i do!!
and im sorry i didn’t put more effort into it before
i’m absolute shit at communication and when i’m keeping feelings in i sometimes become too anxious to say anything in case i fuck up
what i was trying to say was that i was willing to try and change my behavior and do better-but i couldn’t without talking about some of my pent up feelings
i wasn’t saying i don’t want to try
i do
and im sorry
please if anything i’m saying comes across as insensitive or awful please just tell me and i’ll apologize and try and phrase it better
i’m so so bad at this but i wanna get better for you”

And it broke my heart bc I had already told my mom about what he had said (she knew I was giving him a second chance) and now she’d never let me back with him and his parents hate me anyways… I know he was bad but it’s so hard for me to let go He’s always been my favorite person Even though everyohe was awful to me and they’re right I suppose… I don’t know what to do ;m;

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I’m really sorry to hear about the threats that you received, that’s totally uncalled for, and it shouldn’t be something to ever do to somebody.

The fact that A would bully you with B sounds like something completely detrimental to a friendship, and forgiveness is a good virtue, you’re a really good person for wanting to forgive and give a second chance to A, but it’s really worrying to let someone who has the power to hurt you (as they did before) back into your life. If you can’t have any better friendships, then this would be a reasonable decision, but if there is someone who treats you better than A, then it wouldn’t be wrong to forget A and start anew with this better person. If A made a genuine promise to be better, then there’s no denying them of a second chance, I just hope for your sake that this promise doesn’t relapse and B isn’t back in the picture.

You’re a wonderful person, and I honestly hope that A is more than decent to you, and works to prove themselves to you. All the best <3

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tag warning: sexual harassment

okay so i just spent the last hour watching a video on youtube about sexual abuse and what not and it’s really really horrifying. and while i certainly havent been raped before, what kinda rang true with me was this line she said at the end where she was like “we’re made to feel like we wanted it, when we didn’t”. my ex boyfriend and I had gotten into an argument in the beginning of our relationship because he was one of the ONLY people that I told at our job about one of the managers sexually harassing me. I told him and one of my other coworkers and that was it. And he was the one that told me not to say anything. Me and the manager i’m talking about, anthony, had a nice friendship. He would constantly pay attention to me, joke with me, and all this stuff. But the minute we crossed the line between like manager/employee and something else was when he asked me if i was a virgin. he was like obsessed with the fact that i still had my virginity. and he would constantly talk about sexual shit with me, like constantly. and i put up with it, or played into it. and i’m not saying that wasn’t wrong or stupid because it certainly was, but realizing now, at like 20 years old, i had a lot of self esteem issues growing up. i always thought of myself as ugly and fat and not worthy of praise or anything. i really hated myself around this time, and that was when i was 17. also i think i should mention the fact that i was 17 and anthony was 31. he was soo charismatic, he would make me feel really comfortable saying things that i wouldn’t feel comfortable saying otherwise. like it didn’t feel creepy, or weird. i felt mature, i guess? but anyway, i told him (before i got with my ex) that i had a crush on him and this reallyyyy opened the doors for anthony to ask me all kinds of shit. he would ask me if i got any nudes from my ex, if i had sent any. and then when i said “no, he isnt like that” he would say something along the lines of “i would’ve asked you for nudes right away”. and it didn’t seem weird to me? like at all? and then after that he started asking me questions like if i masturbated, how i did it, blah blah blah. i remember telling him i’d never had an orgasm before and him saying “come into the back room with me for two minutes and i’ll get you to with two fingers” and it was in a joking manner, but thats fucking wrong. looking back at it now, i was a minor, i was a shy girl, i didn’t know that it was fucking wrong. it’s preying on someone younger and more vulnerable than you. and he would compliment my chest like all the time, saying i had great tits and stuff and by that point, we were just open like that. like now that he had gotten me comfortable with all of that, i wasn’t taken off guard by him when he said those things. and then i remember i was in the room he worked in, while i was on my 15 minute break. and i said something and was joking around and went to go leave because my time was up, and he grabbed my arm and pulled me back into him. and my hip was like directly on his front or whatever. and i don’t remember much but i got uncomfortable and like left really quick. and i didn’t tell anyone about that because i thought i was overreacting because, hey, i have anxiety and it might’ve just been that. and after that it was just more comments like “if you wanna lose your virginity just come into the back, i’ve had sex back here with girls before” like apparently there was this girl, a cafe worker like me, that worked before i had started working there, and she was a virgin too, and he took her virginity in the back room when they closed. looking back at that now, i want to vomit because like???? he has a type, he’s worked at this place for like 7 years, i wonder how many fucking girls he’s done this to. but anyway, one night, i spent my 30 in the back, talking to him. he really used to tease me about being shy and stuff around him. like when i would blush when he’d say something, he’d make fun of me for it. anyway, we were joking around and i guess, playfully flirting one night, and when i went to go leave the back room, i pulled my arm, turned me around, put his hand on the back of my head, and went to kiss me. and i will literally never forget the feeling, like i froze and jerked for a second and he let me go and looked at me, im sure he was trying to do damage control and see my reaction, but i just turn and left as quickly as i could. i’m not overreacting when i say i was literally fucking shaking, i remember texting my ex, whom i wasn’t yet dating, and told him and he was nice about it, he said to just calm down and not talk to him, and i went back to work and since i worked in the cafe and he worked back room, i didn’t think i’d have to see him for the rest of the shift. so flash forward to like 10 minutes before im scheduled to leave. im keeping my head down because im still so Shook and like fucked up about it like my anxiety is through the fucking roof, and he comes to cafe. he buys like an orange juice or something and my coworker rings him up for it, and he looks at me but doesn’t say anything because people are there. and i’m like fucking terrified, i dont want to talk to him, look at him, be near him at all. so a couple days later, i’m scheduled to open. i’d come in at 9, by myself, open at 10, and then another coworker for the cafe would come in at 11. and i knew anthony always opened because he was a manager. and when we were friends and chill, he would always come over and chill with me while i was opening in the morning. i was praying to fucking god that he would just leave me alone, like i remember the night before, being so god damn anxious because i didn’t want to face him. so i’ve been in the cafe for like.. 2 minutes, i turned on the oven and i was in the freezer getting the frozen stuff to bake. so i come out of the freezer and he’s r i g h t fucking there. i remember gasping and i remember his face like “o shit” and hes like “? are you okay?” and i said yeah and i was quiet and i was looking straight at the ground because i didnt want to fucking look at him, i was scared. and then he was like, being real quiet, “look i’m sorry for the other day, it was stupid, it was supposed to be a joke” and i remember just trying to get him away from me so i was like “it’s okay, it’s fine” and he was like “no it wasn’t, i’m really sorry” but now that i’m thinking back, it was literally damage control? he was making sure i wasn’t going to fucking tell lin, the store manager. and it angers me so much, like. all the shit leading up to that, all the questions, and the flattering and shit, was grooming. i have no FUCKING doubt in my mind that if it had progressed and continued, he would’ve taken my virginity. he would’ve groomed me until i was comfortable enough to sleep with him, or he would’ve gotten me to allow him to touch me in some other way and that fucking sickens me. i hate him, i hate how much of a gross slime ball he is, and i hate how manipulative he is. when i quit the job, he actually told me if i ever wanted a threesome, to just text him. like he’s so fucking gross and it really makes me sad that i had such a low self esteem and felt so bad about myself that i let this 30 year old man validate me in ways that were COMPLETELY wrong. it makes me sick. so yeah my ex boyfriend and me had gotten into an argument about it because he said that i “put myself in that situation” because me and anthony always joked around. and he made me feel BAD about it and like i WANTED anthony to come on to me like that. and when someone makes your feelings invalid, it fucks you up. because every time you cry, every time you feel anything, you’re like “am i overreacting? did i put myself in this situation?”. and like i love my friends, but one of them said close to the same thing one day when we were at my old job, looking for books, and anthony was walking around. and this one isle of books is where me and him used to go to talk. and i remember him seeing me and like tilting his head for me to come talk to him. and like.. y’all dont understand, he makes you WANT to talk to him. he’s so fucking charismatic in that way, like it makes me sick. but anyways, i ended up drifting away from my friends for a sec to go talk to him and when i came back, she knew where i went. and i told her, he was gross and that he had complimented my boobs in the shirt i was wearing and she said “you put yourself in that situation, devon. you literally asked for that” and it just really fucks with you. because when you spend a fucking year of your life being groomed by someone, having them build this weird ass relationship with you, it doesn’t just disappear. and i remember feeling like SHIT because my friend told me that. like “wow, i’m asking for this shit to happen, i’m such a slut” blah blah blah. anyway, it’s 2:43 and i have to be up at 6 for class so YIKES