#i know i'm being stupid

[cassidymayshijinks]

09/09/22

Ugh. Dammit. It’s fine. 

It’s fine.

So work was fine today. We had to clear out another chupacabra nest and relocate an earth elemental that some irresponsible wizard summoned into the middle of town, so pretty standard day. 

And then the end of the work day comes around, and we’re talking about going out for drinks and this tall, broad shouldered, unbelievably hot woman pulls up on a motorcycle dressed in black leather and stops in the middle of the sanctuary parking lot and waves at Chandra. And Chandra says “That’s my girlfriend, Coraline,” and waves her over to come talk with us. Coraline puts down her kickstand and dismounts her bike in the coolest way ever and walks over, and Chandra introduces all of us and I’m spending the whole time feeling like an idiot because Chandra has a new girlfriend before me and she’s way, way too awesome. 

I’m writing this on the way to the bar, riding with Leroy and Rob while Chandra rides on the back of Coraline’s bike, and fuming. I know I’m being petty, but dammit why did Chandra get to find someone before I did?

Cassidy

[beachgothgay]

That vid of the streamer guy who dresses as a girl and everything is for some stupid fucking reason setting off my dysphoria super hard. It's fucking dumb why am I feeling like this I wanna kms because this dude is prettier than I will ever be lmao

[gender-gaming-and-gears]

the feral urge to say there's no such thing as autoimmune diseases because an autoimmune disease is the immune system attacking itself, but there's no such thing as the "self" because the self is an abstraction, except I KNOW I'm being stupid, and I'd also get the Caesar treatment from a crowd of philosophers, biologists, people with autoimmune diseases, and anybody with a brain

[inkskinned]

hey btw if you're in the USA at  2:20 p.m. ET on Wednesday, Oct. 4, they're testing the emergency broadcast system. your phone is probably going to make a really loud noise, even if it's on silent. there's a backup date on the 11th if they need to postpone it.

if you're not in a safe situation and have an extra phone, you should turn that phone completely off beforehand.

additionally, if you're like me, and are easily startled; i recommend treating it like a party. have a countdown or something. be surrounded by your loved ones. take the actions you personally need to take to make yourself safe.

i have already seen mockery towards any person who feels nervous about this. for the record, it completely, completely valid to have "emergency broadcast sounds" be an anxiety trigger. do not let other people make fun of you for that. emergency sounds are legitimately engineered to make us take action; those of us with high levels of anxiety and/or neurodivergence are already pre-disposed to have a Bad Time. sometimes it is best to acknowledge that the situation will be triggering for some, and to prepare for that; rather than just saying "well that's stupid, it's just a test."

"loud scary sound time" isn't like, my favorite thing, but we can at least try to prevent some additional anxiety by preparing for it. maybe get yourself a cake? noise cancelling headphones? the new hozier album? whatever helps. love u, hope you're okay. we are gonna ride it out together.

[stillnotyourmusebitch]

I'd like one night this week I don't have to turn my effin fairy lights on coz I have had a nightmare.

Just one fookin night! Please coz I'm alone in my room and I don't want to be when these nightmares kick in.

Yeah, thinking about fictional characters comforting me so I can get more rest helps some but I know for a fact that I as a person would never be that fictional characters type which is so sad.

I don't even know what I'm writing any more. It's almost half 1 in the morning now I need to sleep.

[lucky-bishop]

Nothing like a fun little mystery to activate paranoid anxiety 🙃

[itsnotacostume]

we as a fandom do not talk about this scene enough. what the fuck is this. why did he feel the need to install this? so he could stare at his boybestfriend all day without having to get up?

[introspectivememories]

too many of you guys think nico is the loser and not lewis for letting the divorce go on for so long. like they're both losers about each other. emotionally constipated idiots who can't talk about their toxic homoerotic friendship that imploded on itself like 8 years ago and are now making it everyone else's problem. yeah nico's on television or in beer gardens talking about lewis all the time but like every other month some reporter is like "lewis, what's your favorite moment in your career?" and lewis no hesitation is like "oh man, karting, y'know? everything was simpler then" and then spends another six months skirting around nico's name. like this whole thing they're doing in the media isn't some kinda extended foreplay for them. they're both still pressing on the bruise to make sure it's still there!!! every few months, they're literally just asking on public television, does it still hurt for you like it does for me? and like clockwork, someone will release new information about them or one of them will say something about each other (in my heart, he's still my best friend/yes... and teammate) and the answer will remain the same, yes, of course, always.

[tzarrz]

to all people who said PART 1 made them laugh - i lov u 💗 this is for u

[canisalbus]

I really appriciate how often Machete is depicted struggling and feeling like a burden, while still being loved and supported by Vasco. It gives the top tier angst of "i'm not good enough, I'm not worth it" but you frame it in such a way where it's clear that's just how he *feels* and is not how things really are, but also it's so nice to see someone who struggles quite often in a loving and unique relationship that suits them. The narrative of not being able to love or be loved unless you're consistently healthy is really tiring lol.

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[barghest-land]

the armor will drop iron tears on your body, and fire will become a cold wind in your mane

[prettycoolducks]

Fav father daughter duo ✨️❄️

[genericpuff]

hello 911 why are all the LO volumes classified as grades 6-12 except for the newest volume which is more appropriately categorized as grades 9-12

please no

[quaranmine]

the mcyt hate on this website is unreal. i mean, i knew that, but somehow it's so much more striking when it's directed at...jimmy solidarity of all people in that poll. like??? hello? yall are talking about jimmy solidarity?

i assume most of these people hate mcyt because of dream and dream smp. and jimmy is just...not associated with that at all. he's interacted with dream, what, maybe once? they were on a mcc team together three years ago in 2020. i literally don't think they've spoken before or since, not that i can think of. he's never been involved in dream smp either. honestly, in terms of degrees of separation, jimmy's just as close to stampycat (via martyn + netty) as he is to dream smp people. to my knowledge jimmy has never been in any controversy. not that i want to speak to soon or have anybody go digging up stuff, but like??? it's jimmy solidarity?? wet paper bag of a silly man who gives his two kitties little kisses on the head? AND PEOPLE ARE HATING ON HIM THAT HARD JUST BECAUSE HE MAKES MINECRAFT VIDEOS?

the entire term "mcyt" is just trashed because nobody knows how to separate the actions of a few people from an entire genre of content. which i already knew. but it just keeps getting continually proved to me

[tolerateit]

your personal relationships will never be as complicated and messed up as my parasocial bond with taylor swift

[pa-pa-plasma]

hey i feel like we're really sleeping on that time Danny possessed Vlad & framed him for assaulting a minor

Editing with the clip because people don't believe me. Episode is 41: Eye for an Eye.