#i love all of my mutuals but sometimes i'm convinced they hate me </3

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

Look, This is gonna be one of those things that sounds bad until you read the whole story. Please don't read the title and go to 'yta' without reading.

AITA for yelling at our friend that my brother isn't trans?

Look, My brother ISNT trans. He likes to wear kilts and sew, Which is what kind of started all of this. My brother is NOT trans, He loves being a boy (trust me, I can hear him enjoying being a boy in his room all the time. Theres no way he'd wanna chop it off(I mean this as a joke I don't actually know how the surgery works), He's told me multiple times that being told by others what he likes is 'feminine' and 'girly' upsets him because he's proud of being a boy and doesn't like being called a girl. Its not because he hates girls or thinks less of them, He just does not like being called the wrong gender which I'm sure you want to be called the correct gender too.)

Anyways lets begin. I (16F) am my little brothers (15M) best friend, Basically. We grew up together and do everything together, Including sewing. I liked it when I was younger, And eventually convinced him to try it as well. He loved it, And we love just sitting together and making random crap we usually end up selling at our yearly garage sale. (Our mom makes us sell all our unneeded crap every year, But we aren't complaining when we make like $100 for it, Mom and dad even help us figure out what we actually wanna keep (we sometimes see old things and go 'Oh I could never get rid of this' and then throw it away))

Sorry for the rambling, But you'll see why some of this is important to know.

Basically, We were getting our shit together for the garage sale, And invited over a mutual friend of ours, Who I'll call uhhh Ley (16F). Shes kind of obsessed with the LGBTQ and loves to help people 'realize' they're gay or trans or non-binary. By this I mean she'll literally bully people she 'knows' is gay or trans by always telling them they are and spreading rumors about them saying they are. The way she 'knows' these things are from gut feelings. I thought maybe she needed friends who would be honest with her and tell her gently that it needed to stop. She stopped being so bad with it and we even convinced her to admit to the rumors she started being fake. We've known her for around 3 years now, And she's stopped doing it as aggressively for 2 of those years. She still makes jabs and 'jokes' saying things like "Oh thats so girly, Are you sure you're not trans?" and "Oh thats such a boy thing to do, Are you a lesbian?", Both quotes she's said to me and my brother less than a week ago. I am straight and cis, So is my brother. We have nothing against the lgbt, We just aren't apart of it. We support the lgbtq as much as possible (with my part time job I like to donate some of my paycheck towards point of pride so people who need the surgeries or binders can get them), And are very open about supporting them.

While we were cleaning out my brothers room and finding stuff to throw into the 'sell' box (we like to do precleaning before our parents help us, It makes everything faster and less work on the people trying to help), And Ley found my brothers kilt. She did a long exaggerated gasp, Looking at my brother.

"So, How long have you been trans? Why didn't you tell me?? I knew it the whole time!"

My brother tried to explain that it was a kilt for men, And he wasn't trans, But she kept interrupting him saying crap like 'you don't have to lie I know now' and 'Its nothing to be embarrassed about, I knew ever since you started to sew'. The last straw for me was when she continued not listening to him and started to ask about how he was gonna come out as school. I yelled at her to get out, That neither of us were gay, Neither of us are trans, And neither of us are apart of any of the lgbtq. We are allies and nothing more. She tried to argue that he had a 'skirt' which OBVIOUSLY meant he was trans, I basically screamed at her that she was a stupid know it all who made everyone who wasn't apart of the lgbtq's life hell because she made sure everyone knew them as someone they arent (I know, I shouldn't of brought up 2 years in the past) and that I was tired of her trying to force everyone to be in the LGBTQ when its just not realistic. Not everyone is gay or trans, Some people are cis and straight. She started crying and left, We haven't spoken in a few days but I think I'm justified. I'm tired of living my life being told I'm something I'm not, I'm tired of seeing it happen to my brother too.

My brother later thanked me for standing up for him, Telling me it made him really upset when she said those things. To cheer him up we watched his favorite movies and I made him his favorite dinner (mom and dad both work day jobs so we both make lunch and dinner)

And for those who are gonna say that allies are apart of the LGBTQ I strongly believe the A is for aro/ace. Being an ally isn't a gender or sexuality

(unless people identify using ally/allyself of course or whatever it is, I'm not quite sure how neos work or whatever but I love to see how creative people get with it and am happy it gives people who don't identify with any of the normalized(? Idk the correct term but yknow the man woman and nb) genders a chance to be who they actually are)

Extra info on why I think I could be the asshole: I feel like we might've been able to explain it if we got her to shut up for a minute, But she kept talking over us. I feel like I went too far by insulting her, And I feel like I might be TA because she's also autistic (so is my brother though, And I have ADHD).

Why I think I'm NTA: My brother is really quiet and doesn't really defend himself often. He doesn't really know how to stand up for himself and is 'easy' to talk over (soft spoken, Quiet talking voice and nonconfrontational) which is why I believe I had to step in in his place, And I don't believe I did anything wrong defending my brother and making her stop calling him what hes not.

Anyways. AITA for yelling at our friend that my brother isn't trans?

To see later: PINK PANTHER

What are these acronyms?

[the-tenth-arcanum]

15 Questions 15 Mutuals

Tagged by @emozionidinchiostro ages ago

1. Are you named after anyone? My dad wanted to give me his little sister's name as a middle name, and I did have it on some early pediatric reports when I was a baby, but it's not on any actual official document, so technically I do not have a middle name, even though my parents convinced me I did. I mentioned my unofficial middle name to some friends at school when I was around 12 or something, and it became my nickname forever. Everyone called me that. The friends I've kept in touch from back then still call me that. Even my mom has me saved under that name on her phone. But it's, like, only 3 people now. // tl;dr: kinda.

2. When was the last time you cried? I can't remember to be honest. This might come as a surprise to you guys but I'm not a big crier. I'm just sad and whiny.

3. Do you have kids? No and I don't want any.

4. Do you use sarcasm a lot? I don't think so?

5. What sports do you play/have played? NONE, I suck at sports and have always hated playing them. I mean, I've tried a few but never for any significant amount of time.

6. What's the first thing you notice about people? Whether they're nice/friendly, I guess. If someone is kind to me I will fall in love with them. I love kind people.

7. What's your eye color? Dark brown. I-almost-can't-make-out-your-pupil kind of brown.

8. Scary movies or happy endings? Neither? Happy endings if I have to choose, but I like drama. (I mean, comedy too, big fan. But sometimes you just want to watch a film that makes you think about the human condition and despair, you know?)

9. Any special talents? Misplacing things. Forgetting about events in the recent past. Petting cats.

10. Where were you born? Italy.

11. What are your hobbies? Not doing a lot these days to be honest :( Fannish activities (fanfic writing and the like). I'm in a funky pop-rock choir which I attend semi-regularly. I have attempted to learn Spanish at various points in my life and failed miserably, not always for reasons within my control (I enrolled on a Spanish course organised by the local library a while ago, and the teacher quit after my first term. He had been there for years. But I think the main issue is that after studying Russian for 5 years at uni, I look at Spanish and think, "surely it won't be that hard". And then I just... don't study it. I think I can learn it by osmosis or something, just by virtue of being Italian. Which doesn't fucking work).

12. Do you have pets? Not currently. I had a cat. I shall have one again some day.

13. How tall are you? About 168 cm.

14. Favorite subject in school? Italian Lit always, and in later years (high school) Latin and English Lit. At uni — I think English phonetics & phonology, weirdly enough; also pragmatics and anything related to sociolinguistics.

15. Dream job? Something to do with creative writing, in an ideal world. Or even "just writing", but not the kind that makes me want to kms (don't ask). Copywriter or radio scriptwriter both sound cool.

No pressure tagging: @nevergonnasaygoodbi @sapphicdragonlord @ayebydan @marki9 @yeetthedragon @valsansretovr @groundbreakingdot872 @vi-visected @crunchy-soup222 @fuckyeahsnackables

(ETA: sorry it's not 15 people and it's not even all mutuals, which I think was the point of the game, but *turns around and starts running away*)

[s-e-v-e-n-24]

I'm gonna preface this by saying this probably won't make sense and I'm just rambling about NE ships

I dunno what it is but NE ships are just so-

Like there's something sbput them. Something about the "I'll never admit I love you in any traditional way. You're the stupidest person I've met. I'd go to the ends of the earth for you if you asked. Just say the word"

Mass and Virginia! It's about the centuries of pining and drama and "Maybe he would love me if I wasn't me" And he already does! Mutual love they think isn't because of how differently they show love. Eventually realizing their different ways, and it dawning on them that yeah that idiots in love with them too. It's all the hardships and heartbreak and coming out the other side changed, but still in love. A quiet kind of love that was friends first.

Mass and York! They're literally so in love all the time. It's loud! Explosive! They'd kill for eachother. They'd rip out their own tongues before admitting it. Mass told him once "Nobody gets to kill you but me" And maybe it was taken as a threat but I can't stop thinking about the underlying "I will protect you. Please don't die". It's about the late night sessions, after one of them (York) has stumbled in drunken and bruised, and the other (Mass) Plays doctor and patches him up, and pretends theor heart doesn't ache that this is the closest they'll let eachother be. It and NY/NY it's about finally giving up being stubborn, and be vulnerable, or to suffer.

Speaking of NY/NY, their rivalry is everything to me. Mass is the enemy, NJ is the rival. They brawl all the time, they patch eachother up. They're so shit and yet they're the sweetest in the world. Jersey calls him "Rosie" infront of everyone, and York has to pretend he hates it. Quietly, when he thinks Jersey is asleep he'll call him his soulmate in every language he knows except Italian. Sometimes they're doomed fron the start, an on/off relationship they wish was more. Sometimes they're sneaking around the house, pretending their relationship is secret as they drag each other off to do the dumbest shit.

NJ/MA/NY?? Perfection. NJ teasing them about being lovey dovey and immediately getting flirted with.

Rhode/Jersey? Honestly I see them as a QPR. They're the best friends that never really said they're life partners officially, but everyone knows. They're shit talking buddies, they gather blackmail together. They'd hide a body for eachother but won't pass the other a charger. Them <3

Vermont and NH are also very <3 Quiet and unnoticeable, vs the chaos man very determined on befriending him. Either no one realizes they're together, or NH carries him in every room loudly announcing they're boyfriends now. Vermont is the reason, but he is very quickly convinced into doing chaos. They go on camping dates. Vermont is still traumatized from NH driving

Maine/Alaska, two very quiet people, very soft in their affection. They're the kind that bond instantly and then panic over any hint of flirting. Maine is too aware of it, Alaska is oblivious to both their attempts. They have my whole heart.

NJ/Connecticut! The lawyer man and his client he has to tell to stop hiding bodies. They're a disaster. Jersey is openly flirting and Connecticut can't take it. They're dancing alone in their rooms at the dead of night to avoid prying eyes. They're lying together under stars whispering "I love yous".

Delaware/Rhode/(Jersey)! They deal with the same shit. They defend eachother fiercely. They're going on boating trips for date night. They're fighting over Delaware's ego one minute and making out the next.

PA/MA. They're literally mom and dad. They're the parents of the NE fight me. I know Mary is parent vibes, but MA is at least the mom of the New England states. They're ranting to eachother about their idiot kids who fight instead of talking, ignoring some time in the past they definitely did the same. They fall in love over movie nights and gently moving the other from a desk to a bed.

I know I probably missed some but I'm running out of word vomit

I have thoughts on other region ships if you want that too

[dear-alex-chill]

An update

Lately I haven't been active and it's spanned much longer than I intended. I originally thought it was the Team Science Zine sucking up all my energy (that zine was awesome but a beast to make) but I now realize that may have been me trying to convince myself of an untrue reality. I've been exhausted all the time with no time for me. I'm also dealing with more personal issues and being in a period of transition uses a lot of spoons. Hopefully I'll resolve some issues through therapy or other means but it's a lot to balance and I don't necessarily have the resources to take on everything. Unfortunately, art and writing has taken a backseat for the time due to everything going on. It is what it is, I hope to create again one day. However, the end of DAC as an account may be nearing.

I know I've been silent/quiet for months. I know I've not finished anything. I have few WIPs but they're limited in development and not something I want to post. Overall the Dear-Alex-Chill account is fading on all fronts and I'm not sure I want it to revive. I know my stuff rarely shows up in places, in part because of the niche I drew myself into, but also a lack of relevancy in what I produce. I honestly haven't touched digital art in a while, I do miss it. However, I'm exhausted constantly or I'm under the perception I'm too busy to do it, carving time is hard right now. I am considering leaving everything up and just sorta orphaning my account, I would never delete my writing and I don't like the prospect of deleting my art, but actively maintaining a social media like that is taxing and not something I can do right now. DAC might turn into an archive of sorts and when I'm ready I'll start anew entirely with a new name and page. Or maybe I'll come back in a while ready to get going again, I'm not sure.

Some of the lack of desire to revive was a slightly toxic culture. When things blew up around me (not really at me though but like Tumblr? Yk) I felt the need to step back and a part of me just never wanted to return. Moots, I love you guys, you're the reason I stayed so long. But sometimes it's hard to want to engage in a community of people that dislike you and that you generally dislike, it's tiresome. Wacky and Sikyu especially, you guys were awesome to talk to (I'm just mentioning you two specifically because I feel really bad for leaving you guys with no context after months of hyper-dumping hcs and ideas. Anyone I've repeatedly dmed or shared my hcs with and talked to, I do miss you all. Everyone is owed an apology but that's a lot of names to write.) It's hard to stay in a place you don't want to be, especially when you feel you're leaving those close to you, but I think it's of my best interest to step away from DT and TtS/RTA.

To my followers, I'm sorry you haven't gotten what you followed for.

To the anons and haters, cool. Have fun with your lives, I believe in karma but don't act on it, it's not my job to enforce karma, that's the universe's job.

To my mutuals/friends, I haven't forgotten you all and I do think about you. It's just hard to reply or I feel bad reaching out after so much silence. Hopefully I'll be chatty again or return to some normalcy later and I'm sorry I didn't tell any of you earlier.

Overall this just serves as a message/wellness check. I'm still here, I still lurk, but I don't really know if I want to stay active. When I decide to either orphan or revive, I'll let you all know in a new post, but for now here's what's been happening. I love y'all.

See ya later.

(yes this was on insta in slides form, Tumblr hates me uploading more than 3 photos at a time)

[cheolism]

if you knew svt irl what do you think your relationship with the members would be - like who would be your mortal enemy, who is bestie, who is the guy that’s always just around, who is bullying you LOL whatever it is lmk I’m curious!

This is such an interesting question and tbh I thought abt it for waaaay too long

seungcheol: i wouldn't know how to approach him out of a group setting. i'd get the fattest crush on him and would try my best to hide it, but he'd do something that gets my heart fluttering and it would be so obvious bc my face turns so red and i just like. freeze up? and from then on he'd 100 percent become my mortal enemy and take advantage of my crush and make me flustered 24/7

jeonghan: my mortal enemy and best friend. We are essentially the same person I fear. I am extremely nurturing and mature, but that doesn’t mean I won’t try and trick you. I act like a second mother, but I will try and convince you of something ridiculous. (example: I am very nurturing to my brother but I also convinced him that if he touched train tracks he would be electrocuted). Jeonghan, Josh and I would be absolute terrors. At the same time, much like how jeonghan and josh can be each others enemies and set the other up, I would fall into the same category. But I can definitely see jeonghan trying to get me to do something I don’t want to do and making me irritated lol

josh: same with jeonghan, my mortal enemy and best friend. but he'd no doubt try and trick me into doing something weird. however. sometimes. i can be just as unhinged? it's rare but. it happens. he's also extremely caring to the people around him and i think he'd make me have a crush on him just by being kind n polite :( but i'm also extremely naive when it comes to most things so he'd 100 percent take advantage

jun: we would bond over our love of cats and being silly. i'd love to introduce him to all my silly little games i play and stuff!! we'd absolutely spam each other with kitty photos.

hoshi: he would make it his mission to make me flustered. i know it. he'd bully me so much. he'd like "DON'T LOOK" and when i look because i'm hella curious he'll have his shirt off and gasp and be like, fake-scandalized, making me flustered.

wonu: now. he's an extreme introvert. but i can make him be my friend. i'm good with getting ppl to come out of their shells (my bff all through elementary and middle school was an extreme introvert who hated talking to pretty much everyone). it'd take a minute, but i'd get him to at least be comfy with me. he'd definitely get me giggling with his little one-liners, but idk if we'd be bffs :( but maybe i'd try to rope him into friendship and make him play minecraft w me

jihoon: i would compliment this man so much that it would be taken to be bullying. i'd praise him constantly. he would get that fondness for me that he does for hoshi, where he's exasperated and fond at the same time. i'd try and rope him into silliness too, try and make him gang up against hoshi with me

dokyeom: the loml. my target. he and chan would be the target of my teasings. i would try and convince him of the stupidest stuff. but i'd also try and protect him and spout knowledge at him. however he'd also be the first person i go to whenever i'm in a huff or want to rant and he'd make me feel better just by smiling and being his sweet self

mingyu: we'd be bullies to each other. mutual bullies. he'd get me flustered on purpose when he chooses to be charming and i'd retaliate by teasing him mercilessly.

minghao: just some guy, but we'd bond over talking about philosophy and morals and stuff!!

seungkwan: i'd go out of my way to tease him. he would be so exasperated by my antics of teasing the others and making things up. we'd have verbal spats with one another where we 100 percent use our teasing and spats as flirting. i'd tease him and then compliment him to get maximum flustered seungkwan.

vernon: some guy who i send cat tiktoks too </3 but also he'd crack me up whenever he makes random comments? i think eventually we'd get close tho because i'm seungkwan-jeonghan adjacent

chan: he'd be one of my other teasing victims. he makes it so easy? and i'd be so endeared by his cuteness. however i'd also inevitably realize he is extremely talented and amazing and get a big ass crush on him and would have to resort to dialing up my teasing to try and get even with him even tho he has no clue why

[handsometheo]

If your not to busy could u do katagawa jr x reader wholesome content,usually people who write katagawa in fanfics write him cold,and pervy (also I love your work I appreciate it lots❤️)

Ok I'm going to be completely honest, you are my fav mutual <3 I appreciate you so so much!!

I put into headcanons and such because I couldn't decide on what exact kind of thing I wanted to write for it.

Wholesome Katagawa Jr

Pairing: Katagawa Jr x Gn! reader

Reader pronouns used: They/Them/theirs

Warnings: nothing you wouldn't expect in borderlands, mentions of killing

Summary: take a hint.

⊱ ────── {.⋅ ♫ ⋅.} ───── ⊰

Cutest mf

He may be a complete psycho but he also has like the strongest sense of family

Yk?

Like he said Rhys could have been his brother once so he clearly wanted him to be very close and like his family

So when you come along, oh boy, he's starstuck

Like a lost puppy he'll always find a way to come and follow behind you

He hates pda because he prefers every moment with you to be special and for very few eyes to see.

He purrs

You can not convince me he doesn't

When you cuddle with him and start messing with his hair, omg 😍

He loves it sm

Like you

He is hardly ever the big spoon, Idk what's telling me this just trust me on this.

He has hardly any clothing that isn't in the Maliwan colours or is for a formal occasion

So he may sometimes steal some of your clothes (if they would fit)

And when he can't steal something, give him an accessory of some kind that matches the main colour of your outfit

He's a douche

We can't deny that and push that aside

As much as we would like to

So obviously he's a huge prick to everyone in the room

Until you walk in, he literally gets weak at the knees from the mere sight of you

Breathless

Takes a whole second or two to regain his posture

Nobody dares bring it up if they do notice it, unless they've been dreaming of having a few bullets loaded into them

Such a goof

Only around you

He's so silly and tells you all about his day after coming home to you

He'll sit near you and open his arms for you to crawl into

Then he chats about all the annoying things but mainly the things he found funny throughout the day

Then he'll try to get up but if you refuse to let him go, he'll stay

He gets sooo whiny, even though he's faking it.

A constant whine no matter what he's doing

Has like 5 cats

Tell me I'm wrong.

I'm not.

He had 7 but had some weird thing about how 2 of them deserve to be set free so they could live out some weird love story?

I told you he was silly

An oddity really

If you don't like cats it's kinda a deal breaker, sorry babe

If you want any other pets, they will arrive to you in the next 3 hours of you mentioning it to him

Lizard of sorts? Yours

Bird? Yours

Fish? He'll keep the cats away but yours

Movie marathons.

A key part to every relationship if you ask me!

He grabs blanket after blanket and makes an area for the cats, you and him to all sit comfortably

Oh yeah! Forgot to mention

The cats are your kids

You are a cat parent now 👏👏 congrats!

Overall I believe he acts really sweet to his s/o

Just not everyone else

Oh and a HUGE cat lover

8/10

Only 2 points deducted because he cannot cook and should never be allowed in a kitchen

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Sorry it was short! I hope it was good enough!! No this has not been properly proofread

I'm gonna go and keep working on my stories on Wattpad cause I'm planning on writing a new one. A httyd one 😌

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[euryalex]

Joey tries her best to get used to Raccoon City, but it seems trouble - both old and new - seems to try and get her.

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Chapter 3: When The Past Comes To Haunt You

The red plastic basket of fries felt hot to the touch when Kevin handed it over to her. Joey immediately put it in her lap as she dipped a fry into the small bowl of ketchup while Kevin jumped back into the driver's seat.

"So, what do you think of Raccoon City so far?" he asked before taking a big bite from his hamburger.

Joey hummed. "I'm not sure yet," she confessed, "I've lived in Montana all my life, so this is different."

"Good different or bad different?"

"I haven't decided yet," she chuckled, "How much do I owe you?"

Kevin waved his hand, "My treat, to welcome you."

"Damn, really trying your best to make me love this city, huh?" she laughed, and he snorted, "Can't blame a man for trying, can you?"

Joey missed her friends from Great Falls – and her colleagues. But, most of all, she missed Danny. He wasn't just her partner against crime. He was her friend. She could count on him, and he could count on her. Simple as that. No one could ever replace Danny. Not even Kevin.

But that didn't mean Kevin was a lousy partner. If anything, he was great. So far, they'd only worked together for three days – if you can even count Joey's first day, which ended poorly.

She should've expected that Chief Irons wouldn't be any nicer at the end of the day, but Joey felt like she had to report what happened at the motel. At first, she wanted to inform S.T.A.R.S., but the office was locked when she tried to enter. Thus, she decided to take her chances with Irons, no matter how much he seemed to dislike her already.

And as she predicted, Chief Irons wasn't exactly happy to see her. Even less so when she told him about the situation at the motel. He went from claiming she was making up a story to insinuating she imagined the whole thing due to sleep deprivation.

So, if there was a chance Irons didn't completely hate her guts by then, he sure did now. The feeling was mutual.

Unlike Irons, though, the rest of her co-workers were nice. Just in case, Rita had already given her phone number (although Joey was convinced it was mainly because Rita was glad to have more women on the force), and Marvin was a tough yet kind boss. Kevin was a great partner who seemed to make it his duty to ensure Joey felt at home in Raccoon City, and she'd be lying if she said it wasn't working.

Once they finished their lunch, Kevin drove them back to the precinct, ending their relatively calm patrol. Life in Raccoon City (so far) was peaceful. Alarmingly peaceful. Tens of thousands of missing person posters littered the city streets, but when Joey asked Kevin about them, he made it clear that Irons forbade them from looking into it. Allegedly, they were all dead ends that couldn't be tracked, or they were flukes, or… Irons apparently had a lot of reasons.

"So the West Squad is going out for drinks after work today," Kevin announced as he parked the car, "Wanna join?"

"On a work night?" Joey snorted, to which he shrugged, "We don't get drunk. Just… hang out and make sure no one's hangover the next day."

"Sure," she eventually decided, "I'd love to."

Yeah, she was lucky with colleagues like them.

The police station was as calm as ever. The officer on front desk duty had made himself comfortable in the black leather office chair by kicking his feet up on the desk. Kevin put his finger over his mouth, a cheeky grin on his face, before sneaking over to the desk. Then, after making sure the officer was still sound asleep, he started banging on the desk, chanting, 'Wes, wake up!'

Poor Wes was startled awake, nearly tipping over his chair. "Jesus Christ," Wes gasped, resting his head in his hands from the shock.

Kevin laughed, "Sleeping on the job?"

"Fuck you," Wes cursed, which was then followed by a chuckle.

"Sometimes I wonder why we're even here to begin with," Kevin sighed, "Look at this place. It's empty!"

His friend sighed, "Pft, you wish. Eric and Elliott were called for a dead body just a few moments ago. From what I've heard, this time, it was cold-blooded murder – none of that Spencer Mansion bullshit."

Joey had heard of the Spencer Mansion before – at least, some things. The Spencer Mansion was a large home built in the Raccoon Forest. While there were different accounts of who lived there, one thing was known: the Trevor family was last seen visiting the mansion before they went missing. She may have also caught a rumour or two about how the mansion is used as a front to hide sinister experiments. Joey wished she could brush it off as a dumb conspiracy theory, but after what happened to Danny, she couldn't help but believe it just a little bit.

"And they sent Eric? He can barely figure out how to put his shoes on in the morning, let alone solve a murder," Kevin rolled his eyes.

Joey probably would've scolded him back in Montana, but it seemed Kevin's attitude had started to rub off on her.

"Yeah, well, he's the only detective around," Wes frowned, "That's right, Emmett quit."

"Wait, what? Since when?" Joey asked. She hadn't really known Emmett well because he was part of the East Squad, but she'd run into him a few times, and he seemed to love his job. Not only that, but he was a great detective – the type who'd see details no one else sees. So while she didn't really know him, she understood he wouldn't just quit out of nowhere.

Wes shrugged, "Just heard the news this morning. So, Eric's all we got."

"As if we don't have enough cold cases already," Kevin grumbled, walking past Joey to return to the West Office. Before Joey followed, she eyed the computer behind Wes. It was mainly used to check cases whenever someone came by to ask questions, but with the Sunshine Motel still in the back of her head, she wondered if she could find something.

"Hey, mind if I look something up real quick?" she asked, nodding towards the computer.

He followed her gaze and shrugged, "Go ahead, just don't tell Irons I slept on the job, alright?"

She chuckled, "You got a deal."

Joey walked around the massive desk and unlocked the computer. She opened the search engine and began typing in the motel's name, followed by the city's name. Once the results loaded, Joey clicked on the first link that caught her eye.

'MOTEL BURNS DOWN: Fifteen dead, twelve injured'

She looked back behind her to make sure no one was watching her. Sure, she trusted Wes, but she preferred not to take risks. Once the coast was clear, she clicked on the link.

The site slowly loaded, and Joey could feel herself grow more nervous with every second.

'RACCOON CITY, Illinois – Early Tuesday morning, a fire broke out at the Sunshine Motel, just outside of Raccoon City. Fire officials claim faulty wiring in a desk fan is to blame. So far, there have been 15 casualties, and twelve people are still in the hospital. The motel's owner, Courtney Golden, was amongst the 15 casualties.'

Tuesday morning, Joey realized, not even a full day after she informed Irons. Something was up. Maybe she knew that already, but she was forced to confront it this time.

The door slammed open, and, in a panic, Joey closed the browser. A man with gaunt grey eyes and thin, light blond hair ran to the front desk, leaving the main entrance wide open behind him.

"I-I received a call- did you find her?" he asked, breathless.

Wes stood up from his chair, leaning closer to the man, "Sir, calm down and tell me who you're talking about."

Joey had to give credit where credit was due – Wes knew how to handle stressful people. When he wasn't sleeping, at least.

"Clarissa, Clarissa Myer," the man said, "I got a call th-that she's been found. Is she alright? Where is she?"

Wes stayed quiet for a while.

"Joey," he finally said, "Would you mind taking Mr Myer to Officer Hamilton in the East office?"

Joey muttered a quiet 'of course' and began to lead Mr Myer to the East Office. That was another big difference from working in a smaller Sheriff's office. She was used to knowing everything about every case. Now, though, she was told to do things and couldn't even know why. Case in point: she had no clue why this Mr Myer was so important.

"I don't get it," the man stammered, "I just want to see my daughter? Why isn't she in the hospital?"

"Sir, I promise you, Officer Hamilton will answer your questions," Joey replied, smiling despite the awkwardness. Luckily, it seemed to calm the man down enough until Joey introduced him to Tyler Hamilton. When she returned to the main hall, she immediately made her way over to Wes.

"Who was that?" she asked, and he leaned closer to whisper: "Clarissa Myer? The girl he mentioned? It was her body that was found this morning. She's his daughter."

Joey gasped, and he nodded, "Yeah, hope he has some info 'cause he's a suspect right now."

"In that case," she murmured, "I hope they find her murderer soon. Anyway, I should get back to work. Bye, Wes."

She left rather quickly, but Mr Myer's distraught face still haunted her. She knew she should've expected the city would bring more gruesome cases – the most she'd seen so far was a family murder that ended in a murder-suicide. It shocked the entire town at the time.

But Raccoon City had seemingly seen its fair share of murders and worse crimes. Joey knew she had to be prepared for that. But what she didn't know was why these cases were treated like this. Something fishy was going on, and Joey wanted to get to the bottom of it. She had to find a way to do it without Irons finding out because she felt he wouldn't appreciate her snooping around. 

When work was done, and Joey changed back into her regular outfit, Kevin waited for her in the parking lot. He waved at her from his car.

"Where are you taking me?" she asked as she jumped into the passenger seat.

He started the car and said: "Bar Black Jack, it's only a few blocks away."

He was right. After barely a five-minute drive, he parked the car on the side of the road. Joey recognized the street because her apartment building was only a short walk away. Part of her was relieved. She could probably walk home later. In between the many buildings stood one establishment, marked with a neon sign that said 'Bar Black Jack' 

The bar itself was small, but it felt cosy. There were only a handful of tables and a single booth next to the kitchen where Rita, George and Marvin were waiting. Once they noticed Joey and Kevin, they waved them over.

"There you are!" smiled Rita, "About time."

"Yeah, yeah," Kevin rolled his eyes, "You guys ordered yet?"

Marvin shook his head, "No, we were waiting for you. First rounds on me, though. What do you want?"

"Ah, you know me," Kevin replied, "Just a beer for me."

"Got it," he said before turning to Joey, "You?"

Joey took a quick glance at the laminated menu and decided: "Just a Coke. Hold on, I'll help carry the drinks."

Rita snorted, "At least pretend you're not kissing ass!"

"Haha, fuck you," laughed Joey as she followed Marvin to the bar.

Joey slowly got used to Raccoon City. Work wasn't as good as she expected, but her colleagues sure were. For the first time since arriving in the city, she stopped thinking about Montana. About Danny. But she'd always remember why she came here in the first place: to find out what really happened to Danny.

It was about eleven PM when they called it quits – at least Joey did.

"It's been fun, but I should head home," she yawned, putting on her jacket. Kevin immediately stood up as well, "I'll take you home."

"Oh, you don't have to," Joey shook her head, "I live a few minutes away. It's fine."

"No, no," Kevin insisted, "It's late and dark outside. I'm just making sure you get home safe."

Finally, she relented and let him lead her outside.

Right outside the bar was a bulletin board with more missing person posters. Joey had grown accustomed to ignoring them, but one poster partially covered by others caught her attention.

'HAVE YOU SEEN ME?: STEPHEN MCDANIEL'

Familiar eyes stared back at her. Stephen was, in fact, an old co-worker of hers. He was the Chief Deputy Sheriff of Great Falls, but he quit shortly after his wife passed away. No one had ever seen him since.

"Joey?" Kevin called out, joining her side, "Oh, him. His daughter would come to the R.P.D. once a day to report him as missing, but Irons always shut her down. She stopped coming a while ago."

Joey took a step closer and brushed another poster aside. Next to Stephen McDaniel was a woman in the same picture, smiling brightly as she hugged him. Joey recognized her too. It was her best friend in high school before she left for Helena.

Evelyn McDaniel.

[peevishpants]

3 and 30 for the art ask?

3. What ideas come from when you were little

Difficult to say! I still feel very young and little, and constantly have to remind myself I'm part of the "Labouring Adult" Demographic now and Have To Work For A Living, and My Parents Are Getting Old Which Is Tearing Me Apart. It's hard to categorize my life into clearcut life stages like "little kid", "teen", "adult", so I can't really pinpoint origins of ideas. Like, I guess I always thought cats were cute and now I draw them sometimes? I watched Naruto in grade 5-8 and it taught me how to draw teeth and hands? As a kid I had convinced myself I was allergic to eggs because I hated the flavour of birthday cake and wanted an excuse to not eat it, but now that I learned other ways to refuse eating birthday cake (saying "no" helps lol), I recognized that actually I fucking love eggs and think about them day in day out and have a weird complex about them where I feel the need to raise eggs on an artistic pedestal as a way to compensate for my younger self's scorn for eggs? Nothing really jumps out at me, sorry.

30. What piece of yours do you think is underrated

Hmmm, depends on my mood! Probably all of them, on days when my ego is huge, or none of them, on days when I think about how lucky I am that so many people do like my art. I've gotten a lot out of social media (mutuals, friends, jobs!!!, inspiration) so I'm grateful!

Also of note: I've observed that most of my art either does well on twitter or tumblr but rarely if ever both - most recent example is, my Frog rainy-day outfit design "did numbers" on twitter and my Goose one did mediocre, while the opposite happened on tumblr. A couple of my Yan arts "did numbers" on twitter as well, but it's my comics about sharks and being chinese (and a drawing of a plant astronaut and some planets???) that "did numbers" on tumblr, while my Yan art gets lower mileage here. So it's hard to pick a single piece of mine that I would believe is underrated "everywhere".

I don't want to you empty-handed though, so perhaps behold this one! It's a BTS fanart of RM whose face is my absolute favourite to draw. I like it a lot still, despite it being so many years old now.

[pidgeonspen]

New Year!

Hey y'all! I don't really update much here save for dumping art, but I'm gonna try and be a bit more active around here.

2021 was an interesting year - a lot happened! I feel like I grew so much over the past year, and it's kind of difficult to put into words. But, I'll try!

I had to cut someone very dear to me out of my life. There were a lot of messy emotions - even when I knew cutting them out was reasonable given what was happening, it kind of tripped me up for a while. I had an amazing network of support from my friends, but I still missed the person.

I don't bare any ill will toward them, regardless of what they believe. At the same time, getting out of that situation opened my eyes to a lot of things - about them, about myself, about what a healthy friendship and love really looks like. Sometimes we strive so hard to be loyal, to stand by a loved one, that we excuse pretty awful things and make excuses for them when they hurt the other people in our lives.

Me and this person, we clung on to one another because we were so convinced that only we two truly understood and accepted the other. Feeling seen and understood in ways I don't imagine I could find in many others... It's an understandable thing to cling onto. There was a false sense of security our friendship brought on that I held onto very tightly. We often became hateful, spurring on eachothers worst traits and wallowing in our petty feelings and nursing our fragile egos.

But as I started opening up to kinder, different people, and began to grow more empathetic, this person dug their heels in and grew resentful, and more openly hateful and cruel. Or, maybe they were always like that. Something something red flags and rose-tinted lenses.

I really wanted them to get better with me. But there came a point where they hurt a mutual friend of ours just because they wanted someone to bare the brunt of their anger. And when I stepped in, I had hate thrown my way. They took that hate public, turned it into flat out bigotry, and then blamed me for our friends deciding to cut ties with them.

It worked, for a time -- I spent a good chunk of time blaming myself, wondering if I didn't give this friend enough. Enough of what? I gave my time, my energy, my love to this person, and I could not meet their needs. I let them walk all over me, all over our friends, and the one time I finally stood up to them, and enforced boundaries, it destroyed our relationship. I'm better now. I have an amazing group of friends. I'm surrounded by people who love me, for whom that love means mutual trust to be open and clear about boundaries, where there's mutual respect and communication when issues do arise.

I feel so much more secure, and I'm so much better at recognizing when I'm in a bad headspace and taking the steps necessary to avoid hurting myself - or anyone else - when I need to. I no longer listen to the Bad Brain Signals that make mountains out of molehills and I don't fall apart every time a friend and I don't agree on something.

I feel so loved and seen and cared for. I love my friends. And if you're reading this, and you find yourself in a similar situation to where I was: it's okay. I know letting go of someone especially close to you is scary, even if - especially if - you're seeing the red flags popping up. It'll hurt for a bit, but I promise you'll be okay in the end.

Anyway, outside of that mess? I've been pretty good. Got a trip planned fairly soon to go and see some friends. Been putting in the work to make some (positive) changes in my offline life.

Been slowly - slowly - gaining confidence in my writing and enjoying writing up a little something entirely for myself, which is rare. Hope y'all are doing amazing as well! <3

[1d1195]

🎀-anon

So, how was your pedicure? What color did you choose? (If you did ask for manicure too)

You deserve all the cute stuff in the world😭🎀 I got up from a very long nap. My head is hurting, but that's fine. I'll take some painkillers, but anyway, so..oh! Yes! I have a lot of exams rn uni is very stressful and I'm only a sophomore😭 but I do care about every class cause I have a lot of dreams and I will hopefully achieve them one day. Btw I'm studying English literature and translation (Arabic - English). I'm an Arab!

Yk, sometimes I feel like I'm the mom in my group of friends, too but getting to know more people i learned that my bff is the mom shes always telling ppl off when they are being rude go me like the other day a colleague of ours was like twlling me that "i dont know anything about Hamlet" like literally 5 minutes before the exam (was she expecting me to help her cheat?)😭😭 so my friend was like oh and what should we do? She's so awesome.🎀

So my exams today went well, pretty well. I don't know why I stress sm when I do well, but I'm thankful. I STILL HAVE 3 OTHER 😭 I literally hate this lifestyle but I'm just a girl yk?

So my ex friend.. well she was toxic from the beginning but I don't know why I kept her I just think she wasn't as bad? Like well she is a bit of a pick me (I'm not trying to talk bad about her I swear I just can't find a suitable description other than that) so when the doctors started acknowledging me in classes she came up to me and started making conversations. So I noticed that she was toxic when she was convincing me to give her answers and when she took my notes without even asking and always, always turning the tables. I swear to God it took me a year and a half to make the decision of cutting her off. Even the prof who I was doing the presentation for and stopped her from ruining it noticed and she talked to me asking me what happened and that she always saw us together, but I didn't want to talk bad about her I just said that I think we're better now and that I don't want to get back to that state again (overthinking if I am the one who's being a lot and not respecting the other person's feelings) but to be honest the breaking point was when she said that I'm trying to show myself off in the presentations we did together I was deeply hurt and the next week she and her circle (one of them being the first girl I knew in campus) but they all sent me looks without talking to me I was with my other group of friends like usual and when I talked to my other friend, mutual friend, she said that the ex friend talked about me with all of them and told them that "I changed and I don't hang out with them anymore and that I am a lot of other stuff" so I decided to stand for myself and now I don't even care about her she's just being rude for no reason (idk why my haters are increasing by time😭 they're just being rude but when I don't act as kind as I did back as a freshman they just hate on me but I don't care that's how we should be right?)

So yeah.. that's the whole story💕💕💕

I STILL HAVE TO TELL YOU ABOUT THIS GUY WHO ACTS LIKE THE WICKED STEP MOTHER😭😭😭 HE'S AN ASSHOLE ALWAYS TRYING TO HARASS ME AND SOMETIMES MY FRIENDS I HATE HIM OHHH THATS GONNA BE A LONG ONE TELL ME IF YOU WANNA HEAR IT?😭

My pedicure was good! I picked like this light blue sparkly color. I'm a little bummed it smudged a little (I did a regular pedicure not gel).

I'm sorry about the headache I hope it's gone away since you messaged! As always, I'm so in awe of anyone that can speak two languages. I can barely speak English and it's the only language I know 😭 It sounds like your bff is the best! I love that for you! THREE MORE EXAMS?! You are a trooper.

As for your toxic ex-friend: the very first thing you said? You're not sure why you kept her around? I don't want to put words in your mouth (nor compare yourself to me, I know we're still getting to know each other). I for one have kept a lot of people in my life who I probably shouldn't have for much longer than they needed to be. I tend to naively see the best in everyone even if it's harmful to myself. Unfortunately, I'm wrong a lot. But on some level they WERE your friend, right? Like you did things together, had stuff in common, for better or for worse there was a connection and I don't think that's something that just happens and it's hard to just ignore that connection past it's prime if you will.

I'm glad you stood up for yourself, that's something I definitely DO NOT do. I'm glad you have a good friend group to support you and that you're pulling away from your ex-friend. It's natural to grow apart from friends that no longer help you be the best version of yourself so I'm glad you have a group of friends that are kind and lovely towards you 💕

You can tell me all the tea of whoever you want! Bring on the wicked step mother! 😈

xoxo

[sinnershavesoulstoo]

I'm just. We all know I'm in love with the guy at work.

But like why? He's not even as good of a friend as i make him seem. I'm the good friend. I'm the one keeping our friendship afloat. I message him first, I bring him snacks, I start the conversations, I'm sending the memes. Honestly - if I stopped? I'm not sure we'd be friends? We'd be work friends for sure (uhh we'd be pals, probably not bffs) - but outside of that...for sure not. And recently, he's been pulling away from our friendship. We used to message more often, he used to talk to me more at work. I know he's been talking to this girl and my assumption is it's moving in a good direction because they FaceTimed for 3 hours the other night. And he hates talking on the phone. He's also come into work and has complained about being really tired (which I assume is because he's up all night talking to her?) And I don't want to be jealous? Because that's not helping anyone. Especially since the feelings are mutual and it's a one sided thing here.

I can keep feeding my delulus, but that's not going to work in the long run. I've asked my tarot cards and they have all hinted at me and him working out eventually, the tiktok trends have been the same. But I want him to be happy. But I want to be happy too.

A girl at work tells me I need to meet new people all the time but this dumb false hope I have about him makes it to where I don't want to meet new people because I'm so hung up on him and hoping something comes of it.

I know people are different and I know they show emotions differently.

We're so different though.

Different love languages, different levels of intelligence, different world views. He doesn't like pets. (Unrelated)

Different lives. Completely different.

I grew up in a fucked up house with fucked up family all around - he grew up with 3 brothers and 2 parents. He had (and still has) love and support from a big family. He lived a fairly normal life, had friends, had purpose, had a life. I had an estranged sister, parents who fought all the time, parents who weren't involved, a mother who wanted / wants to suffocate me... He was married, he has kids. I barely had a functional relationship with 2 people.

I feel like i'm not good enough to be his friend because I feel inferior. He's so smart, and he uses big words and has actual conversations... the conversations I have with him and with people in general feel... shallow? Like, he's out here having conversations about the world. Things happening at work that means something, conversations about how to fix things in a fundamental manner. He uses words like fundamental? I don't know what that means, really. He watches the news, he has a lot of 'adult' qualities - and I feel like I'm a kid parading around in a kind of adult body. He can make educated guesses and he's definitely got better control of his emotions. Again. I'm like an unregulated toddler and he's a normal functioning adult.

I cry all the time and get my feelings hurt all the time, and I take things too seriously. And he's so even keeled and calm and doesn't let things get to him too much.

He's not good at...a lot of other stuff, though.

I think my emotional intelligence is definitely higher than his, he isn't good at helping people, he'll even tell you so. He always tells me he's the worst. Sometimes it feels like he's doing a...? "Oh woe is me I'm not good enough, I'm sorry but I'm going to keep being the worst, but I want to acknowledge that I know it" I don't know if I'm projecting because that's how Jacob acted or if he really is and I'm just ignoring it.

I don't know. I'm just talking it out I think because ???

Like. I really and truly like him - but the compatibility levels? Low. I think. He's into other girls and definitely not me. If he were into me, wouldn't I know? I see how he looks at girls he finds attractive, he can barely look at me when we talk.

I don't know what I'm even talking about. I'm trying to convince myself we're not good for each other, but I want to continue feeding my delusions about us working out. But if we worked it out, it wouldn't last long. I wish it would.

[rhaenyras]

Content warning: sexual assault.

My husband and I have been married for nearly 8 years. I love him, but I no longer want to have sex with him. I cannot muster any enthusiasm at all. He still desires me, which is lovely… I suppose.

He hasn’t changed any of his “moves” in all the years we’ve been having sex, and they have become less appealing. When I had some libido, I could work myself up into finding enthusiasm. Those days are gone.

I’ve tried to explain, and I’ve tried new ways of trying to make love. I’ve had sex when it is the last thing I feel like doing. I’ve performed a sex act when I haven’t wanted to, I suppose because I feel that there ought to be some sexual intimacy in a marriage.

3 weeks ago, he pushed me on to the bed, forced my legs apart and mauled at me. I think he thought it was sexy. I was livid and shaken, angry and then I was tearful. I don’t know what he thought he was doing. I hated it and I’m so sick of him constantly pawing at me.

It’s not just that I don’t feel sexual, he seems to just want to pound away at me. I think I’d like to stay married. I’ve worked hard at my relationship and we have a 2 years-old daughter together. It feels like a huge thing to tell him that I no longer want him sexually. But he went too far. As our friends are mutual, I have no one to talk to about this. I’m an only child and my parents died when I was 16 years-old.

hey, it's alright, I'm here. you did the right thing to reach out and if you want, you can also dm me, it's totally fine by me, i just disabled the "only blogs you follow can message you" feature just in case.

now, first things first... your husband overstepped your boundaries. marital rape is definitely a thing and him being your husband doesn't mean he has the right to demand sex from you when you don't feel like it. that was wrong and should definitely be addressed between the two of you, so that he understands the entity of what he did, apologizes and then works his absolute hardest on winning you back.

second... it's totally normal not feeling constantly horny for your partner, especially after many years and a childbirth between you. libido comes and goes and, just like the tide or the moon, it is as shifting as our monthly hormonal changes. maybe it's just a phase you're going through, maybe it's more permanent, but either way you don't have to blame yourself or beat yourself up for not always being sexually available for your husband, especially when he does so little to arouse you. it's a small wonder, really. i also find myself agreeing to sex when i wouldn't personally initiate it, because I'm not turned on in that moment and sex is the last thing on my mind. i guess i do find the fact that my husband is, on the contrary, always down to fuck kinda annoying sometimes but at the same time it can be hot and eventually his own horniness rubs on me when he actually takes the time to warm me up. but it is my call in the end. if he cannot convince me, then he's gonna take a no for an answer and shut the fuck up until i am ready to have sex again. we can withdraw our consent anytime we want, even if we are already butt naked and they're our husbands and all ready to go.

but yeah, i would lie if i said that i don't feel guilty and responsible when i leave him dry. i guess there's always a thin voice in the back of our minds telling us that we owe them sex because they're our men, and if we don't give it to them, then they'll find someone else more willing and less frigid than us. we terrify ourselves into a panic with such thoughts and therefore sex ends up being more of a duty for us women than a pleasure or an urge, like it is for the men. so that's why i try to always find time and desire for sex at least twice a week, even though i could totally go longer without it and i wouldn't miss it too much. but they're men, and we as women gotta unlearn the way we always prioritize their needs over ours. it's hard and it's still a work in progress for me too but you gotta start somewhere. please be softer and more comprehensive with yourself. address the sexual assault with your husband. don't let him think it was within his right to treat you like that because he will definitely do it again and you cannot let it continue. make sure he knows that sex needs to be pleasurable and carefree for you too, as opposed to the pressing anxiety-ridden business he turned it into

[0812l]

3/3

i think i was often too enthusiastic in praising you and almost everything you did. not that it was insincere, just a little too "loud". and they were probably why i overused terms of endearment up until you said you didn't like them. and i am certain that i used the word love far too often and ambiguously. i should have been explicitly qualifying it "as a friend." i think now that i was leaving it ambiguous because i subconsciously hoped to inspire a sort of crush on me (as absurd and wrong as i know that is), not so that i could take advantage of it physically, but because i (consciously) desperately wanted to be special to you. i think some part of my mind hoped that you would see me as somehow desirable but unobtainable. i know it was stupid and would probably have even been cruel if it had succeeded. i do remember on occasion asking myself if i was going too far in my expressions of support and positivity, but somehow decided it was ok, my judgement surely being biased by the fantasies i sometimes allowed to linger in my mind. i should have known that the question even occurring to me meant that i needed to stop and reconsider more objectively. and i also think that there ultimately are some ways that i really was likely taking advantage of you. i think i probably coerced more attention and more emotional support from you than you would have comfortably, willingly given without a sense of being pressured for it. i always convinced myself that our discussions of mental and emotional issues and conditions was mutually beneficial. it's absolutely devastating now to realize that while i was trying to help, i was probably causing more detriment than any good i may have done. i don't have the words to express just how sorry i am for all of it. and i'm not just sorry because of the important friendship i lost; i regret beyond words ever making you feel uncomfortable, taken advantage of, unsafe, or distressed in any other way. i am so sorry for tainting whatever positive memories you may have associated with me and for taking away a potential source of support by destroying that friendship, whatever it may have meant to you. whatever disgust, contempt, or hate you may feel for me cannot be as much as i feel for myself. i know i cannot undo any of it. i don't expect you to forgive me and i do not forgive myself. but still i am so glad to know that you have grown enough to stand up for yourself and to call me out. and while you have managed to grow in spite of my influence, your impact on me is ultimately making me a better (or at least less shitty) person. i am learning and perhaps growing from the experience. i am now aware how "just thoughts" can actually cause real harm and am much more keenly aware of the need to be mindful and maintain perspective. again i am so, so sorry for everything. i never wanted to harm you and i hate so much that i have done just that. if there's anything i've forgotten or left out that you feel i should address, or if you have any question about any aspect of any of it, feel free to ask. as always, you don't owe me anything, but it would mean a lot if you gave just some indication that you read this.

[platonic-f-o-things]

Hello!! I'm so glad to see that you're back! I hope you've been well and taking good care of yourself 💚💚💚

I hope it's ok for me to gush yet again I know you've just answered my last gush but again! Take your time, I just need to get this out of my system qwq

I'm on a bit of a in-laws lovin spree if that's alright! I actually have an irl in-law and he is one of my best friends and one of my biggest supporters I love him so much! He's my sister's boyfriend but they fully intend to marry each other in the future which I'm so happy about qq 💕

I often like to imagine all the stupid stuff we get up to but with my in-law f/os (of which I have 3) like going on road trips, studying together, struggling to survive the week while the more capable and stable person in our lives is away till the weekends qwq

It's sometimes strange to imagine because irl I'm the in-law? Does that make sense? Like in the car it's my sister in the passenger seat and him driving while I sit in the back but when I imagine it's me and my f/os, it's me in the passenger and my romantic f/o driving with my in-law in the back?? Idk if that makes sense but that's how I always imagine my f/os in place of the 3 of us aobsdibs I'm sorry I'm rambling

Point is, I love my in-laws so much. Like besides our mutual love/hate relationship with my romantic f/os, they mean so much to me and are just the greatest 💕💕💕

I feel like name dropping a bit because why the heck not

Diluc is such a sweet guy, he's more on the reserved side as I've mentioned but as someone who's often times as reserved, and with the other f/os we know, it's nice to get some peace and quiet and he gives the best talks and advice, ever I need to take a break from work or if I'm stressed, I can always count on him to have a nice calming cup of tea with by the fireplace to just catch up or quietly accompany one another as we recharge ❤️

Gretel on the other hand, we got off on the wrong foot before and though we can't always see eye to eye, she's that push I need whenever I'm in a rut, she sometimes quite literally slaps my head back in place when I need it! But she's also just fun to have around when we've somehow agreed on something 🧡

Michael and I aren't the closest but he's an incredible person and sadly finds it hard to believe. He's been a huge support for me through some of my tougher patches and I only wish to be there for him just as much. He's done so much good but is still at times so hard on himself, it's heartbreaking. He is the kindest person you'll ever meet and though we aren't that close, he still means the world to me 💛

Just to end it off before I ramble for far too long, the stupid scenarios I often imagine we'd each get up to based on the stupid scenarios my brother in-law and I have gone through; D and I : 6 hour long road trips across the country to pick up/drop off my boyfriend on the weekend from/to posting, singing along to stupid songs, cracking jokes and talking about whatever our minds will land on all while running on nothing but caffeine. G and I : Her making me learn Japanese along with her so that she gets a head start before her actual Japanese lessons, continuing to tutor me in Japanese so that she remembers and convinced me to learn it so we can talk shit about people behind their backs in Japanese. M and I : Sharing our hyperfixations with each other anytime there's a new one and making convoluted inside jokes from said hyperfixations that have yet to not be funny all while my boyfriend stays confused and terrified as we make nothing but nose based jokes and puns for the next month

Anyway, thank you for letting me gush again I'm sorry I talk so much I hope it's ok and I hope you're having a good day / night or had one or will :3 thank you again it just means so much to have somewhere to gush

Take care, make sure to give yourself plenty of breaks, drink and eat plenty and be kind to yourself 💚💚💚

-🐟

Hi!! It’s always so nice to hear from you! :D

I totally know what you mean! Your f/os are all so grateful to have you in their lives! 🥺

Road trips sound like so much fun! I have to ask what everyone’s favorite road trip snack is, and if anyone likes to play games to make the drives more exciting? :D

I’m also so glad that you all have each other to fall back on during hard times. I just wanted you and your f/os to know that you’re all much more capable than you give yourselves credit for, and that you deserve all the patience in the world. 🫂

Diluc sounds like lovely company! I know you’re a welcome break from hectic day-to-day events, too. You’re his home, and he’ll always make sure to remind you to take long breaks. 🥺 Ooo what kind of music do you like to listen to on road-trips? :D

Gosh I hope Gretel is gentle and not actually hurting you! I just know everything she does is from a place of love, and that she’ll give you all the reassurance you need if you ask for it. I LOVE THE SECRET SWEAR IDEA! No one will ever see it coming!

You mean the world to Michael, too! He’ll always have space for you in his life and in his heart. And I’m positive hearing such sweet words from someone so kind will help him see just how important and wonderful he really is! He’s so grateful to have you in his life! I LOVE THAT YOU SHARE HYPERFIXATIONS! Who nose what shenanigans you’ll get into next? >;D

Thank you for sharing your gushes and for always being so sweet! I really hope you’re being kind to yourself, too! Please make sure to drink, eat, and rest plenty! Your f/os and I love you!!!

[chaoticvampirejedi]

Darling, beloved mutual, my most chaotic of the vampire jedis... I has questions:

1. Have any of your boys ever been to Hoth and had a snowball fight???

2. Does Grim have any ways of unwinding or relaxing during shore leave or down time?

3. Does Traitor ever take hair color suggestions from his vod?

4. Does Verra have a Padawan?

(Last one)

5. Do any of your OC's hate coffee or do they all drink it?

I love your children okay bye

Hi!

Asjzbakaia. I couldn't wait to answer your questions.

1. Have any of your boys ever been to Hoth and had a snowball fight???

So I don't know (yet) if they've ever been there, but I really like to think that they had at least one such fights. Maybe it was on Hoth, maybe somewhere else, or maybe Traitor just convinced Scribe to help him get artificial snow and they scattered it on the republic ship, on which they were. Or maybe all of the above options are correct 😉

2. Does Grim have any ways of unwinding or relaxing during shore leave or down time?

Sure he has! Although it's nothing too extraordinary. He usually goes to 79's (or somewhere else) to have fun with his squad and meet others. Grim actually loves to spend time with a small group of his friends and vods. Knowing that everyone is still alive and that he can spend a nice evening with them relaxes him. Sometimes he also goes to the cafe with Verra too. (Very often she promises him to buy kaf, if he finally rests)

And speaking of rest - when he has some spare time, Gim often just goes to sleep.

This man is way too tired and he doesn't like to take breaks when he's on duty.

3. Does Traitor ever take hair color suggestions from his vod?

Actually, Verra (his general) helps him more often in choosing the next hair color than his vods.

Grim is just too busy, so when asked he just replies every time "your hair, your choice" or "I'm just a commander, it's too much of a responsibility for me"

Fuss just makes fun of his brother and says he looks stupid (he still loves him though) so he's not a real help.

Scribe likes to be helpfull and he's a real sweatheatt, but is also too afraid of the potential consequences to advise him on such an important matter.

Verra, on the other hand, loves to help Traitor with it and she's really good at it!

4. Does Verra have a Padawan?

No. She wanted to have, but her life turned out differently. Like you know... Order 66 and other stuff 😅

5. Do any of your OC's hate coffee or do they all drink it?

Ok look, i know it would be logical if some of them didn't like coffee, but I just can't do this. No. Sorry. I just can. They all like or love coffee 😂

Thanks for your ask! Love your children too!

[vs-redemption]

I love Soft Saturday/Sunday! :3 I remember you posted a selfship of yourself and I wanted to try one for me lol so, here goes! It was a bit hard/weird because I don't think any of these wonderful guys would be with me ^^U It was still fun to do though!

1.) Belle x Todoroki, Shouto (Bellouto? Shoutelle? Belloroki?)

- I'd probably be very distant with Todoroki at first because of his cold demeanor. It would have to be Midoriya who would get us together.

- We would end up sitting together at the same lunch table, chatting with our group of friends. Eventually our love for noodles would bring us closer. I would buy him some different types of cold soba or even show him unique recipes to try out. If I ever see anything soba related, I'd text him and say "Look! I thought of you! It's your fave ^^"

- Once he opens up about his past, I'd probably get teary eyed and give him a big hug. I'd thank him for trusting me enough with his childhood memories and I'd also eventually open up to him about my own hardships.

- I would give him all my love without smothering him. I'd just want to show him the love and care he deserves especially since he didn't have much of it growing up.

- I think it's the little things that might make Todoroki fall for me. Things like bringing him tea when he's studying late, if he fell asleep before setting up his alarm, I'd put one on his phone and on my own just to make sure he'd wake up on time, praising/acknowledging all of his big and small accomplishments, getting his favorite food when he's sad/had a rough day, sending him cute text messages like "Good morning, handsome!" or even doing something like this:

Me and Todoroki: *studying intensely*

Me: *gasps loudly* OMG

Todoroki: What? O_O

Me: I love you. (´,,•ω•,,)♡

🙈

2.) Belle x Miya, Atsumu (Bellumu? Biya? Atsubelle?)

- I'd have to have known him for a long time before we'd date. Kind of like childhood friends to lovers? If I met him at an older age, I might think he was a jerk and wouldn't want to go out with him.

- I wouldn't be afraid to call him out. Like when Atsumu is having his "if you can't hit my toss then you shouldn't be on the team" moment, I'd probably punch his arm and scold him.

- I'd have to turn it around and tell him "what if someone told you that?" or "treat others the way you want to be treated". I think he'd like that I don't treat him any different or baby him.

- Since we're childhood friends, we're already comfortable with each other. We've also seen, heard, and been through a lot together. We'd know silly small things about each other like "Atsumu always listens to this song right before a game" or "His right eye always twitches 3 times before he sneezes"

- He's seen me go through some relationships and has seen how I've acted/treated the person I'm dating. Atsumu would see that I put in a lot of effort and the stuff I'd do for my previous boyfriends. I think that would eventually make him want to ask me out. It'd be something that he might want to experience, too. Like how it would feel to hold my hand or share a loving embrace.

- When we'd get angry at each other, it could get a bit loud, but we would resolve things quickly.

- Our relationship would also be fun and full of silliness and lovely surprises. He'd do something like honk the horn right when I'm passing in front of his car to get to the passenger side. Atsumu would also surprise me with a gift that I've been eyeing or even a spontaneous trip to somewhere!

3.) Belle x Kageyama, Tobio (Bellayama? Tobelle? Kagelle?)

- We met at a mutual friend's party in college. We'd probably talk about how we were basically dragged there.

-I love to party/hang out, but when I have something to do/ a goal, I strive hard to accomplish it. (ugh, getting some PTSD from nursing school lol)

-We would end up talking about our ambitions and what we hope to end up doing in our lives. After becoming friends for a while, we'd get on the topic of relationships. We'd both want someone who is patient and understands that when we're busy, we're not ignoring them. We're studying/practicing.

-I think that is what convinces both of us to start a relationship.

-We're both busy and can get stressed out easily, but we'd know what to do to ease the stress a little. Like giving Kageyama different flavored milk cartons.

-It would look like we don't spend much time together/don't really act like a couple, but when we have free time, we'd be spending it with each other.

-We'd get our nails done together. （〃・ω・〃）

-We'd both have to think about how great it would be when we get settled with our careers and that we'd have more time to spend together. Planning future adventures/vacations is our motivation.

-Even though I'd miss Kageyama dearly, I totally understand how it feels like when you have other obligations. I'd never want to get in the way of his goal so I would do my best to support him and show my love in any way that I can and that would be something he might love about me.

First off, all three of these amazing boys would love you to pieces! You are so thoughtful and kind and they'd be foolish not to fall for you! I accept no arguments about this. 😊 This got way out of hand so... gonna put my rambling below a cut.

Send me some soft headcanons

Let's talk Todoroki! Gonna be honest... I don't know if I trust Midoriya to play cupid 😂 Of course, meeting Todoroki through him makes sense, but you know who zeros in on how cute you two look together immediately? Yes, it's Mina! Thankfully she's not obnoxious about it, but she does have your back. She expertly manipulates every situation to give you and Todoroki a chance to interact. Somehow, thanks to her, he always ends up sitting/standing right next to you in class, at lunch, in training, on the bus, on the sofa in the common room... EVERYWHERE.

Poor boy would be so confused at first by your attention. Like, of course he doesn't mind being your friend, but nobody else texts or talks to him about his interests outside of hero stuff. He didn't even know anyone noticed he liked soba that much. And all the little things you do for him like bringing him tea or setting an alarm, he's not used to it. He doesn't hate it though. Actually, he kind of likes it. And I just want you to prepare yourself for the day when he takes the initiative and your phones lights up with a message from him for the first time with a picture of some random thing that made him think of you. *my heart would explode*

It's all downhill after that because he really likes the way you respond when he reciprocates your kindness. The flustered look on your face when he brings you some of his sister's homemade soba noodles for lunch, the cute emojis you use in your texts when he messages you first in the morning, and the shy smile you give him when he finds the courage to compliment you. He's never wanted to take care of someone the way he wants to take care of you before.

ATSUMU. You're totally right. I'm the same as you in that I would not trust this little shit for a while after meeting him. Childhood friends to lovers is nice because you there's no way you wouldn't know the real Atsumu. The idea of you knowing little personal things about each other is so cute too. Atsumu takes advantage of this and always gives the best gifts for birthdays and holidays. And he's always so excited to watch you open what he got because he KNOWS you'll love it because he knows YOU.

I'd like to say that he'd be into the fact that you treat him normally like anyone else, but something tells me he would actually expect special treatment since you two are close friends. It would surprise him a little every time you reprimand him for being rude to his teammates or fighting with his brother. He respects you more than anyone else in his life though, so he always straightens up his act just as soon as you give him that look. He hates when you're angry or annoyed at him, so of course he'll be on his best behavior for you. Honestly, he'd do anything to get positive attention from you. (He's already such a simp for you and he doesn't even realize)

He thinks he's just being a protective friend when he criticizes all your previous boyfriends. None of them are even that terrible but in his eyes, nobody treats you the way you should be treated and nobody would ever be good enough. He puts you on a pedestal to be honest. And yes, once you're together it would be full of teasing and giggles and he would absolutely take it too far and overdo it sometimes and get himself into trouble, but it's okay because you know he never means to upset you. He's just so excited and in love with you.

Kageyama's turn. Oh my god! This boy would be so awkward at a college party. He'd probably just be all tall and weird standing in the corner like 😳 what's happening? Thank goodness for you, coming over to talk to him ... but wait... you're so cute... WHY are you talking to him? Now he's flustered for a different reason and he tries his best to have a normal casual conversation with you but he stumbles over his words a bit but bless your heart, you pretend not to notice and continue smiling at him. He thinks you are SO PRETTY!! omg😭

A huge weight lifts off his chest when you start talking about your goals. He knows about goals. That's easy. The look on his face is kind of scary at first because it looks like he's scowling, but he is just listening very intently to you and absorbing every single word. He almost seems like a different person when you let him talk to you about volleyball. His whole face lights up and he's talking very enthusiastically with his hands. He apologizes for ranting at you afterwards, but is also amazed that you'd stayed and let him talk so long.

Being around you IS a huge stress relief. At first he's worried about not spending enough time with you or making you think he's not interested because of his awkward mannerisms. But you're always super understanding and patient with him. Plus, you're just as busy working towards your own dreams. He supports you as much as he can just as you do for him and falling into a relationship is just really easy and natural for the two of you.

Kageyama doesn't really know how to do big extravagant dates, so just being able to take walks with you, or do activities like doing your nails together is enough to make him happy. He WANTS to do more for you though. He would never admit to this, but he actually has a small list of things he plans to do once you both have more time. He pays attention to what you might even consider silly throwaway comments like "One day we should...." or "Sometime I'd like to...." He writes it all down because even if they aren't career goals, those are still things you want which makes them very important to him.