#i quit if im not satisfied with my results

[key-lime-soda]

babe help I'm wasting my life saving pics of art styles I'm jealous of on Pinterest

[thatstroubling]

Poll: What is, on average, the best Danganronpa chapter across the 3 mainline games?

AKA all Danganronpa murders are the same <3.

Parallels among the murders of the same chapter are listed below:

Chapter 1, AKA: "In a murder committed out of fear and panic, after dusk, in a location where the protagonist appeared shortly before, a strongly motivated individual, after taking initiative on their own, is murdered as a result of a betrayal by the protagonist's best ally, after which the corpse of the victim is found slumped on the floor and during the trial for which the blame is for a prolonged time placed on the protagonist or their ally (who was indeed involved, but ultimately is not the blackened)."

Chapter 2, AKA: "In an attempt to maintain allegiance to an important individual and to uphold a sense of honor for their Ultimate title, a capable classmate bludgeons to death the mentally strong yet physically weak (or mentally weak and physically strong) fan favorite (who therefore ends up dying too early) in a hands-on-hands physical confrontation, after which the placement of the corpse as well as the "perceived" crime scene is messed with to pin the blame on another person."

Chapter 3, AKA: "A-not-mentally-well-adjusted individual commits an immaculate and complicated double murder for a unthinkably irrational or amoral cause, which includes a body appearing at the crime scene out of nowhere in a seemingly impossible fashion, and in which one of the victims is the one who was lured out by the killer and willfully takes part in the action (but unknowing that it will result in their own murder) and in which the other victim ends up being the socially ostracized individual, simply because they happen to be at a wrong place at the wrong time."

Chapter 4, AKA: "Within a set-up for a locked room murder mystery, the good-hearted fan favorite becomes a part of a two-person life-and-death allegiance to perform a heroic act of self-sacrificial killing using an unknown murder method with the intention of getting themself killed so that everyone else may live, while one person is revealed to have had a deeper insight into the killing game for some time."

Chapter 5, AKA: "In an unsuccessful attempt to bring the killing game to its conclusion, the most malicious student of the class orchestrates an almost perfect, convoluted and seemingly unnecessarily but indeed intentionally violent murder (which serves as a way of mangling the corpse to a point where the murder method is concealed), whose solving hinges on the protagonist's new but trusted ally's confession about their not-really-consenting involvement."

Chapter 6, AKA: "After a retrospective investigation that brings to light new circumstances about the game's setting as well as its previous events, an existential crisis consumes the remaining survivors as the identity of the class and the killing game itself is revealed, during which Junko Enoshima appears (of course), and which ends with the true protagonist killing the mastermind in order to seek redemption, freedom and hope for their classmates.

P.S. This whole thing was primarily inspired to by my desire to prove Nagito's assumptions from chapter 4 wrong:

Most of these are fortunatelly not true when we also take V3 into account: while Rantaro was important, he wasn't stabbed; a serial killer was revealed in the third chapter, not the in the second; and I wouldn't exactly classify chapter 4 murder as a suicide in either sdr2 or v3 (though we DID have two people playing Russian roulette in the Funhouse, yikes). All in all, the murders wouldn't have been nearly as shocking if they correlated with what had been already pointed out in the second game before, so I'm not really surprised that there ended up being other similarities among the murders.

That's all, thank you for reading <3

[deus-and-the-machina]

ffxiv garlemald discourse is so funny because people will go "ugh people just cant stand it when things aren't black and white" and then you look at how the empire are portrayed in stormblood and shadowbringers and its like hm. that seems like a pretty intense and accurate display of violent imperialism to me! Wow I wonder why people in this day and age may find it hard to feel sympathy for them or even hate them on principal. god its such a mystery.

the games like 50/50 to me on how it tackles these themes because I actually like the garlemald arc in EW, I think it has a lot of horrific and powerful scenes depicting how self destructive fascist propaganda and beliefs are, but I also think it doesn't go far enough on some fronts. the garleans' xenophobia is most notably and obstacle to getting them to accept the contingent's help, which is what they're there to do,

but there's never an admission of harm from any garleans on the uuuuuuuuh massive amount of war crimes the nations around them are still suffering from they're just kind of like "we misjudged you...but you actually wanted to help us all along" like yeah thats great now can we get you all some deprogramming because you keep talking about returning to your prime and glory days and I think we need to unpack some stuff you really SHOULDNT return to. im not even really talking about EW proper but the patches where things are a bit more chilled out and people are recovering.

It feels like they wanted to have their critique of imperialism and also have things end with the beauty of human connection and reaching out and these things just don't mesh well because hey a lot of your modern day audience is not gonna like having to treat people yelling xenophobic things at the cast and your character with kid gloves after you showed them hours and hours of the awful things these people's beliefs have done. especially in the present day hoo boy.

[mimimui]

putting your makeup on them

includes: alhaitham, kaveh, scaramouche, diluc, kaeya, xiao

tags: gn!reader, established relationship. fluff, sitting on kaeya's lap bc why not, not proofread (IM SORRY sue me)

a/n: i couldn't get it out of my head so i had to write it (°ー°〃) originally it was only supposed to be eyeliner . . . ! but i knew i had to get creative w this one :d .. enjoy !

alhaitham wasn't opposed to the idea of letting you apply mascara on him. he sat still as you worked carefully on him, focusing especially on his bottom lashes. he already has somewhat long eyelashes, but you had the urge to swipe your mascara brush onto them.

"what are you doing?" he asks you, slightly flinching at the cool air you blew onto his face. "so it dries quicker," you say, now fanning his eyes with your hand. he chuckles lightly at your actions, trying to hide his amusement.

he hums in response, still sitting as motionless as he could as you finish up on the mascara. safe to say he was satisfied when he returned to his original task without complaints—you even see him touch his eyelashes curiously from time to time.

it was always difficult to find a good foundation in your shade, but you somehow found a great one that's the perfect shade for kaveh. interested, you bought the foundation and quickly suggested testing it on kaveh, "to see if it's a good match," you tell him.

indeed, it was a great shade; he had quite fair skin, and it looked as if the foundation had blended in perfectly when applied to him. he prides himself on his smooth skin and is proud that you're having no problems with the foundation.

kaveh notes the lightness of your touch; your hands are careful not to press too hard on his face. the makeup sponge won't hurt him in any way, but you treat him as if he's the most fragile. when you finish, he takes the sponge from you and excitedly says, "my turn!"

he was reluctant at first, but with your insistence and him not being able to say no to you, scaramouche agreed to let you do his eyeliner. he sat still as his eyes looked down, which made it easier for you to apply it.

he trusted you completely, and even if you messed up, he wouldn't really care about it. "make sure it's even," he says in a serious tone, which makes you nervous. he's quick to assure you that it was just a joke, and that eyeliner isn't always going to be perfect.

"you should let me do this for you everyday." you're satisfied with the result, thinking the eyeliner looks good enough. "you take too long," scaramouche says, pinching your cheek as he gets ready to leave. not before earning a punch from you, of course.

you were staring at his lips for too long now, he thinks. diluc hesitantly waves his hand in front of your face, which fortunately grabs your attention. "anything on your mind?" he asks you quietly, which turns your attention back to his lips.

you stand up without saying a word, leaving your dear diluc all confused. when you come back with multiple different lipsticks in hand, it clicks in his head what you want to do. he properly faces you, nodding his head without you asking anything yet.

you happily try all the shades on him, laughing when one doesn't match and messily wiping it off with your thumb. "you should get a tissue," diluc suggests, but you shake your head. there was one lipstick that looked especially good on him, so you couldn't help but give him a quick kiss.

you have the luxury of seeing kaeya without his eyepatch. sure, he wears it during the day, but when he's just with you in the night, he has no problem taking it off. because of this privilege, you take the chance to ingest his handsomeness.

you take note of his eyelashes, how long they are, and how easy it would be to apply mascara to them. with his permission, you sit on his lap as you apply your mascara on him. it feels wrong to touch his eyelashes like this, but they were just so pretty.

when you finish and fan his eyes with your hands, he bats his eyelashes for you. but he does it so aggressively that you don't think it can be considered that anymore. "kaeya, wait! it's not dry yet!" you laugh, fanning him faster.

xiao thinks there isn't enough time in the day that he gets to spend with you, so spends time with you any way he can. when you offer to do his eyeliner for him for the night, he agrees, handing you the pencil and letting you apply it.

"stop blinking for a second, xiao. i'm going to ruin this," you say, holding his chin up as you try to control your shaky hand. you really didn't feel like starting over when you messed up, so you made sure to do the best you could.

…there was an attempt, for sure. it wasn't obvious, but the longer you stared, the more uneven the eyeliner seemed. as you tell xiao you're done with his makeup, he whispers a quick "thanks". he's aware it's uneven, but he doesn't mind.

thanks for reading (˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶)

[saintvainglorious]

My First Fanbind! A Black Sails Fic Anthology Series

It took me a year (and a lot of anxious research) before I worked up the courage to bookbind fanfiction, and after months of on-again-off-again work, my first fanbind is finally done!

I knew that if I was going to bookbind fic, I had to bind something from the Black Sails fandom, aka the fandom and show that have had the biggest impact on my life. Y'all, I almost went into academia to study slavery in the 17th-18th century Caribbean because of this show - when folks say this show rewires your brain chemistry, they are NOT kidding. THEE show of all time. Happy 10th anniversary to Black Sails! This fandom is small but mighty. May we continue to get our hearts and souls blasted to smithereens by this show for many years to come.

Ao3 abounds with magnificent Black Sails oneshots, so I decided to put together an anthology of my favorite Silverflint fics under 20k, which I split into two volumes. Included are works by @justlikeeddie, @vowel-in-thug, @balloonstand, @annevbonny, @francisthegreat, @nysscientia, and more! Thank you, thank you all, you brilliant wonderful people, for gracing the Internet with such amazing writing. When I read the fics in these anthologies I want to fling myself into the sun.

More on the design and binding process below the cut!

Vol. 1 Page Count: 270 (12 fics) Vol. 2 Page Count: 248 (11 fics) Body Font: Sabon Next LT (10.5 pt) Title Font: Goudy Old Style Other Fonts: IM Fell English, pirates pw

The typeset (which I did in Word) took a while, mainly because I'd never done it before. Manually adjusting the hyphenation line-by-line was especially tedious. After making these books, I abandoned Word in favor of InDesign, in large part because InDesign gives you way finer control over your justification and hyphenation settings.

Regarding my actual design choices, I'm happy with how the ocean motif on the title page turned out (it's not the same pattern as my endpapers, but they're complimentary) and I'm very fond of my divider dingbats, which are little swords! Goudy Old Style was a fun title font to use, since it's the font that Black Sails uses as its logo. The stories in Vol. 1 are divided into parts based on what Silver WAS at that point in the show (cook, quartermaster, or king), and Vol. 2 is split up into comedies, histories (AUs set in the canon universe) and tragedies - befitting Black Sails' Shakespearean ~vibes~.

I stuck to a flatback binding, as I wasn't feeling quite ambitious enough to try rounding and/or backing. I've learned that I ~Anakin Skywalker voice~ hate sanding, enjoy folding/sewing, and don't LIKE edge trimming but enjoy the results enough to make it worth it.

The real adventure was decorating the cover, which remained bare for months. After agonizing over Illustrator and experimenting unsuccessfully with HTV and lokta paper embossing, I ultimately turned to using stencil vinyl to paint on the designs. There was a bit of seepage under some of the stencils, but I was able to scrape off the excess with my Cricut weeding tool without damaging the coated surface of the bookcloth (probably Arrestox Blue Ribbon from Hollander's). Even though it was very time-consuming, I'm so happy with the end result of the stenciled paint job and I intend to stick with stencils for my foreseeable future binds.

Are there things I would change? Sure. It was humid out when I printed, so the pages have got a wave. There’s an extra two pages in Vol 2. that I have no idea how I missed, and I got a line of glue in the middle of one of my Vol. 2 endpapers. I’m pretty sure I didn’t case in quite right, since my endpapers pull away from the case at the spine. I think the inner margins are a bit too big, and despite going line-by-line there’s still some wacky justification spacing in the typeset. But man, am I proud of these books! It is so satisfying to learn a new skill - MANY new skills, if we’re being honest - and to make something both beautiful and practical. If I’m still binding in two years or so, I can see myself redoing the typeset in InDesign, cutting out the existing text block, and reusing the cases. I’m also already planning for Vol. 3, which will be Silverflint Modern AUs.

Thanks for reading!

[particular-one]

hello!! how are you? i hope youre doing well!! im not sure if your requests are open, so feel free to delete this ask if your reqs are closed <33

soo my idea was a dan heng x gn!reader. angst with comfort/fluff? basically reader is a bit unsure and insecure of their relationship and thought of maybe that dan heng deserved a better partner, so they decided to distance themselves a little and slowly broke up with him.

i'll leave it up to you for the ending and dan heng's reaction! please take your time with this request and feel free to reject it if you dont feel comfortable with it!! also im unsure if u made smth similar to this so um yeah ansndjd HAVE A GREAT DAY!!

what if it doesn’t end well?

pairing. dan heng x gn! reader author's note. dunno if you read my mind or smth anon... but i had literally been thinking abt writing smth along these lines before you sent the ask, so i was so jawdropped seeing this in my inbox SJDJDKSJD sorry for the wait anon! i hope you liked this :>

you very well knew just how lucky you are to have someone like dan heng as your partner, your other half.

dan heng, who would, without fail, place a warm blanket or his own coat over you when he found you sprawled on the couches of the express. dan heng, who would wake you up to the smell of freshly cooked cosmic fried rice for your breakfast — which resulted to march and pom pom complaining where their shares are.

dan heng, who would give your head a pat, before bringing you into his arms for the tighest embrace whenever you looked even remotely down.

he was good. too good for you.

you had always imagined that your perfect partner would be someone like him, so your relationship was indeed, a dream come true. your thoughts should have ended already, there and then.

except, it had constantly wandered to the deep end— to the dreaded land of uncertainty and insecurity.

somehow, you saw how dan heng would barely be able to stifle his laughter when march would say something hilarious. you'd watch as how dan heng would look like he would be out of breath, but no doubt having way more fun when he was out adventuring with the trailblazer. even with welt, there was a certain change of demeanor that you didn’t see when he was around you.

bit by bit, your worries had gotten the better of you. could he have been merely settling for you? what if you weren't actually his dream partner, and you were just shackling him down?

"y/n?"

you had been too preoccupied with your own thoughts that march had been looking over at you worriedly, a can of bottled soda in her hand. your eyes had glanced over to dan heng, who had been equally staring at you, but his expression was inscrutable.

that was the hardest part with dan heng. you could never quite tell what he was thinking.

you cleared your throat and forced a smile. "yeah, i'm fine." though dan heng did not look all that convinced, march seemed rather satisfied with your reply and returned to rambling animatedly.

you actually felt bad that you had been zoning march out, but your worries had only multipled in magnitude as of late, when you had been mulling over your relationship for the past few days. your fingers were absentmindedly grazing over your cup again when you heard your name again.

"yeah, y/n! just how were you able to break down the cold exterior of dan heng, anyways?" the question had taken you by surprise, and at the corner of your eye, you could see dan heng had been looking at you with a careful expression — again, you still couldn't completely tell what he had been thinking.

"uh..." how did you, actually? the both of you had only been dating for a little over two months now, but you couldn't... remember. had it been you or dan heng that had approached the other for the possibility of a relationship?

"i... well, i guess dan heng had just allowed for it to happen, honestly." you weren't so sure of your answer, but your heart sank a little when you saw dan heng's expression change, his eyebrows raised.

though he was quick to conceal it, the fact that you had seen it only confirmed the worst of your nightmares. "oooooh, is that true, dan heng—?"

"sorry, i don't.. feel so good right now. can i excuse myself?” eyes were on you again, but before they could say anything to stop you, you bowed briefly and took your leave.

just as you were making your way to your room on the express, you could hear footsteps behind you. unmistakably, his footsteps. “y/n.”

“mm-hm?” you mumbled, not even turning back to face him. the last thing you wanted to see was dan heng’s inscrutable expression again. there was a pause, before he spoke again. “are you sure you’re okay?”

without missing a beat, you laughed, hoping it did not come out bitterly. “yeah. i am, don’t worry about me. you can go back to them.” you still didn’t want to meet his gaze, just as you heard him step towards you.

you had half expected that maybe, dan heng would wrap his arms around you in comfort, or that he’d declare those three words to you just to give you some semblance of security. you waited, just as you had his back on him.

silence, before you heard his footsteps once again, but they only grew fainter in sound.

so he chose to leave. that’s okay. it's okay.

you could hardly blink back your tears as you ran back into your room in a hurry before anyone on the express would ask you that same dreaded question again.

no. you weren’t okay.

━━━━━━━ ˖°˖ ☾☆☽ ˖°˖ ━━━━━━━

the following days involved a wild game of hide and seek from dan heng. which ... wasn't all that easy when you live in the same train as him. the longer it dragged on, the harder it got, but you just wanted to avoid seeing dan heng as much as possible.

you could feel dan heng's stare pierce your back each time you darted away or when you made up some excuse that you needed to be in the room that he wasn't in. the fact that you even offered your cleaning services to pom pom so you would busy yourself with thoughts that did not concern him.

"you sure nothing's going on, y/n—?" you nodded absentmindedly, just as himeko set down a heaping plate of food and a cup of her infamous coffee in front of you. "you know, typically you'd ask dan heng for breakfast..." you easily took a large gulp of the coffee in your mouth to avoid talking about that, instead shaking your head. you regretted that almost instantly, the bitterness of the coffee making you cough unprompted.

"n-nope! nothing's wrong."

it'll probably take more than that to convince himeko, who had leaned back against the couch with a raised brow just as march entered with a jovial smile and greeting with welt after her.

and dan heng. oh shit.

your utensils fell on the table with a clang, as you mumbled yet another excuse to get out there — you felt bad to see himeko's face fall when you just abandoned that good plate of breakfast like that, but you were much more concerned with your distancing mission.

"y/n, wait—" but you couldn't wait. you did not need him to cloud your thoughts any further. you pushed the door past where march and the others had entered from, as your pace quickened.

"y/n." no. don't. you didn't want to run, but you were growing desperate.

"y/n!" you felt a hand on your shoulder and you finally whirled back to meet his gaze for the first time in days. you had been anticipating to see that unreadable expression of his, but you were hit with a wave of surprise and a pang to the heart.

he was staring into your eyes, his eyes brimming in worry and concern. dan heng always had a piercing gaze, but even if this one still sent shivers down your spine, it had an odd way of enveloping your body with a sensitive warmth that only brought out the worst of your emotions out.

he still had that effect on you; he'll always have.

"y/n, what's wrong?" he kept his distance, save for the hand on your shoulder just as you cast your eyes downward. "you've been avoiding me since that night. i.."

"i think we should break up." you were almost grateful that you hadn't been looking at him when you finally blurted it out loud. only, you had regretted to look up and see his reaction.

dan heng had always been distant and unreadable; even when you were going out, you knew there were always things that he hid from you. yet, at that moment, you could have sworn all his walls broke down to unveil the pained soul underneath.

"is it something i did?" it was a simple question, but even the way dan heng said it quietly made your heart clench. "no, no, no. it's not. you've done nothing wrong."

"is it me, then?" even when you had withstood the harshest of battles, nothing quite like this had ripped your heart out before.

"no— dan heng, it's not you, or something you've done, or anything about you, you're the best thing that's ever happened to me—"

"then why?" his last question come out choked in emotion, something you had not been prepared for to witness at all. it just made your heart break even more, just as you were unwillingly breaking his. you're shaking your head, just as you turned your back on him again, but his hand held onto you tightly, not letting go.

"y/n, i don't understand why—" "it's because you're too good for me!"

"you're dependable when i'm the opposite, you've always made sure that i would be warm with a blanket when i foolishly fall asleep outside of my room again. hell, you're one of the pillars of this express, and i ... i..." had you been screaming? you felt like you were already out of breath, your heart was starting to throb as if you had forgotten how to breathe, but everything just kept tumbling out. "i just- i just don't know what you see in me—."

you could hardly register what was going on when dan heng cupped your face before kissing you mid-sentence. you could feel even the heaviest of your emotions evaporate as you allowed his warmth to finally envelop you in a calming embrace, the very touch you had been undeniably craving for for the past few days.

dan heng slowly pulled away from you, just as he brushed a tear rolling down your cheek. "hey. i love you, okay? i love you, even if you're picky about the food i cook. even if you'd constantly forget my reminders about not staying out late, i still love you." you had nodded, just as you wrapped your arms around his chest tightly. dan heng wrapped his arm around your head and tucked you in his embrace.

"but what if things don't end well?" you murmured, just as dan heng pulled away to hold your face in his hands. "then i'll stave that off for as long as possible." he gave your forehead a soft kiss, before giving you a smile.

"and if you think you're only good for nothing, know that you'll always be everything to me."

written by carlyle (@particular-one) copyright: all content belongs to particular-one on tumblr (2023)

[arosspeaksnonsense]

IM DONE WJDNDJFHJND i was really worried the frames would not line up but i think it looks fine, i’m quite satisfied with the results (this scene is like, an image i had in my head for this animation from comyet’s Loveball2016 event recap of ink, this is the moment ink and error dance, (also i will never get over this event EVER even if i wasn’t in it sadge))

Ink Sans by @comyet

Error Sans by @loverofpiggies

[moose-muffin]

im new here (hiya from the hazbin tag lol) but if you do character + character requests than please PLEASE gimmie a lee!vox with ler!alastor 🙏🙏🙏hear me out... the two are fighting and al (sHocKINglY) wins out, and vox expects to like.. be beaten into the ground as a result, but nope!! he gets tickled!!! to tears!!!! smthn smthn he wasnt smilin and, yk, youre never fully dressed w/o a smile!!!

/nf to do tho ty for reading!!! <3<3

OMG OMG HELLO WELCOME I HOPE YOURE DOING GOOD YIPPEE

SO FUN FACT I WAS VERY LIKE NEUTRAL TO RADIOSTATIC BUT TONIGHT HAS BEEN (HAHAH GET IT) AN ADVENTURE AND THIS ROAD HAS BEEN SUCH A BLAST <3 THOSE TWO FUCKERS ARE SO INSTIGATIVE ITS CRAZY.

I KNOWWWW THIS AS A FIC WOULD GO C R A Z Y!!!!! IDK IF ANYONE HERE WRITE FOR VOX AND ALASTOR AND PERHAPS DOES COMMISSIONS BUT I WILL PAY!!!! PLEASE HIT ME UP OR ILL PROBABLY GO TAKE A PEAK FOR MYSELF TMR <3 AS LONG AS THATS OK ANON. (I WILL ABSOLUTELY LET IT BE POSTED AS LONG AS THE AUTHOR IS OK WITH IT WHICH USUALLY THEY ARE!!!!) IM GONNA TAKE SOME CREATIVE LIBERTIES AS I TYPICALLY DO HEADCANONS!

IM NOT USUALLY A CHARACTER + CHARACTER GIRLY SO BEAR WITH ME BUT I WILL DO MY VERY BEST!!!! HOPEFULLY I CAN DO THIS JUSTICE! IT WILL BE RANDOM HCS THAT ARE UNRELATED TOO. MY BRAIN IS A MESSY PLACE HWBSHWDBD

OK SO LIKE I KINDA MENTIONED, THEY BOTH LOOOOVE TO JUST GET UNDER PEOPLES SKIN. LOVE IT!!! ESPECIALLY ALASTOR. HES SUCH AN ASS (affectionate)

I’D EVEN SAY HE’S KIND OF AN INSTIGATIVE LER???? BRO IS DOING EVERYTHING IN HIS POWER TO GET TO TICKLE VOX LIKEEE IDK IF THAT EVEN MAKES SENSE BUT I KNOW ITS TRUE. HE WILL CASUALLY WIGGLE HIS FINGERS IN CONVERSATION, TWEAK HIS RIBS FROM BEHIND, LITTLE THINGS LIKE THAT. WELL THEYRE NOT LITTLE. ESPECIALLY NOT TO VOX WHO IS SO FLUSTERED BY IT… ITS THE MOST BEAUTIFUL THING

BUT! VOX HAS STARTED TO FIGURE IT OUT. AS HE IS ALSO ONE WHO LOVEEES TO GET UNDER SKIN, HE DECIDES HE’LL DO EVERYTHING TO TRIGGER A LER MOOD IN ALASTOR. IF HE CAN TELL HE ALREADY HAS ONE, HE FINDS WAYS TO SUBTLY (WE ALL KNOW HE ISNT SUBTLE THOUGH) LEAVE A SPOT UNPROTECTED. BUT ALASTOR DOESNT WANT TO GIVE HIM THE SATISFACTION!!! HE TRIES SO HARD TO NOT GIVE IN TO VOX BC HE “WANTED TO BE THE ONE IN CONTROL” AND NOW HE ISNT AND HES #PISSED

ALSO VOX ABSOLUTELY IS HORRIFIED OF VULNERABILITY. YET HE IS ABLE TO MOVE PAST IT WITH ALASTOR HERE. SOMEHOW HE ISNT AS WORRIED ANYMORE. MAYBE HE KNOWS ALASTOR WILL REACT. HE LOVES THAT SO VERY MUCH.

AS FOR THE SPECIFIC PROMPT, OH THAT IS SO REAL!!!! ABSOLUTELY YES!!!

I DONT WRITE GOOD ROMANCE BUT LIKE UGH IMAGINE IT NOW. Alastor definitely just got himself to the V’s tower and was planning on fucking with Vox only to see he had already been kinda pissed off. Alastor wouldn’t be as satisfied if he knew he didn’t cause the frustration. He realized he could just stir the pot again. Problem solved, and what better way to solve it than using his weakness against him.. being tickled.

I’m being a little silly but genuinely Vox is so ticklish. Like most ticklish person in hell would go to him if it were an official title. That’s what I’m thinking. That being said, Alastor also knows how quickly he could get him to crumble… but wouldn’t it be more fun to take it slow.

Vox notices his presence almost immediately. He tried to ignore it as he feels his face get warm. He can’t fuck this up. He takes a deep breath and turns around. “Why hello, Alastor! What brings you to our building this evening?” He said in a semi newcaster voice. He wasn’t ready to drop the act

“Well Vox, I came here for a reason of my own but then I walked by your office and you looked so sad!” He began to walk closer to Vox. “You know, t they say you’re never fully dressed without a smile!”

Vox let out a laugh that was quite clearly untruthful. “Yes Alastor I am aware! I was alone in here and so I figured I’d just save up some energy. I’m sure you understand.”

“Quite frankly I don’t,” Alastor paused, “I think maybe I could help you get that smile back.”

Vox didn’t even have to think. He knew Alastor meant he was going to tickle him. You could ask Velvette. She’s seen those two in tickle fights that lasted for DAYS. she knows what they’re capable of, or more so what Alastor is capable of.

Vox puts up a fight for maybe a couple seconds but he just loves tickles more than he can play pretend that he doesn’t <3

It works out well for them both, Alastor gets to fuck around with Vox and well, Vox gets his shit rocked!!! And he loves that more than a lot of things.

OK IM GONNA CUT IT OFF HERE BUT PLEASE FEEL FREE TO COME BACK!!!! IM ALWAYS DOWN TO HEAR WHAT PEOPLE ARE THINKING!! MAYBE ID DO SOMETHING LIKE THIS AGAIN OR LIKE ADD ONTO THIS!!! BUT I AM JUST ALL OVER THE PLACE CURRENTLY HEHE. I HOPE THESE ARE ENJOYABLE!!! (LOWKEY I WANNA ADD MORE TO THISSSS MAYBE TMR MAYBE TMR WE’LL SEE)

apologies if anything is ooc, i just do this for funsies <3

THANK YOU FOR THIS ASKK

[sopebubbles]

Lone Wolf chapter 16 teaser

Chapter summary: getting closer with the pack means you'll have to learn to live with Kim Namjoon.

A/n: i applogize for taking so long and for this not being exactly what i want it to be. Honestly my health is making it really hard to write because im either in too much pain or have too little energy to write. But I don't want to put this story on haitus, so I'm going to try to modify my plans for this story to give you all a satisfying resolution before the end of the year. Thanks for sticking around and being so patient.

Chapter 16 coming Saturday October 28th!

Teaser below the cut

"Are you hurt?" Yoongi asked as Taehyung set you down at the edge of your nest. He shouldered the younger alpha out of the way to examine you. You were still too stunned to answer, but it didn't really matter; Yoongi was going to look over every available inch of you regardless. He gently tilted your face this way and that to make sure it was unscathed before he moved onto your arms, lifting and twisting each in turn to ensure your skin was unharmed. There was a small cut on your forearm and he frowned. It wasn't even from the incident that had unfolded moments before. It was from work earlier today, and the blood was already dry—you hadn't even felt it at the time.

"Jimin, go get the first aid kit from the bathroom," he instructed, holding your arms carefully.

Feeling Yoongi's steady hands on you helped to ground you and bring you back to your body, out of your shock and panic. You took in a deep breath and breathed out, "I'm okay."

Jimin shuffled back into the room carrying the first aid kit and handed it to Yoongi. The alpha plucked out an alcohol pad and ripped open the packet with his teeth, spitting out the torn piece.

"It's gonna sting," he whispered, but you didn't react as he swiped it over your skin. "It's dry." You looked down to the very minor wound he was tending to.

"That was from work. It's fine," you told him, but he didn't seem to hear you. He had already taken a bandage from the kit—neon pink—and gently but firmly pressed it over your cut. "Yoongi?" He looked up into your eyes and you could see his own were full of worry. He shrugged.

"It makes me feel better."

You cracked a genuine smile and it lifted some of the weight off his chest.

"Are you sure you're okay, sweet little?" Taehyung asked. His hands were still shaking from the course of adrenaline when he thought you were in danger.

You nodded. "I'm okay. I was just scared. I'm not hurt."

"You shouldn't be scared at home," he replied.

"Come sit with me," you said softly, patting the spot next to you. Your heart ached to see how distressed he was over you. Taehyung lowered his head and came to sit near you, not quite in your nest, but just outside of it. When he got close you realized something the rest of them hadn't. They'd been too worried about you to assess their own well-being.

"Tae, you're covered in beer."

He had been standing closest to where the bottle had hit the wall and, as a result, had gotten sprayed with the contents as well as some glass.

"You're bleeding," you added. "Yoongi, your patient is right here."

Your alpha smiled weakly at how brave you were trying to be. He could tell by the way you were still shaking that you weren't as calm as you pretended to be, but he would talk to you about it in a little while when things settled. For now he turned to Taehyung. Without a word, he began to clean the man's wound, and you held his hand while he winced through the burn on the alcohol. You pulled a neon pink bandage from the box beside you and handed it to Yoongi to apply.

"Now we match," you told him, and it brought a bright, boxy smile to Taehyung's face.

[fatuismooches]

im brainrotting about pantalone again because i love pantalone pantalone my wife ♥️

Pantalone is a greedy, greedy man

Anyway you show your love? he wants it all in excess

gift giving? physical affection? words of affirmation? he wants it all.

He will never have enough of your kisses, you could be kissing him for the entire day and he'd still be wanting more.

He will want, no need more of you every day, every time he is contained in his little (it's giant) office, he can't help but spend his time thinking of you.

Everyday, he comes home and he is greedy, greedy for you, greedy for everything you give him, he takes and takes and takes.

Being able to see your little habits, being able to see what makes you human, what makes you, you.

He loves it all and he needs it all.

If he could, he'd keep you in his arms for the end of time, and not regret a second of it.

Pantalone is a greedy, greedy man, and you are the subject of his greed

the chronicles of 🎈 anon

REAL!! There's no question that Pantalone is greedy, desiring all the riches that Teyvat has to offer, but it's fair to say that you are the thing he's most greedy for. To be greedy is "having or showing an intense and selfish desire for something" and Pantalone is, quite literally the embodiment of that when it comes to you. Yes, he can be generous when it comes to his wealth, but you? Absolutely no way. He's selfish, he wants all your attention and love on him alone. Perhaps his intensity isn't too noticeable at first, considering he usually keeps up a calm and composed mask, but you'll soon start to see the cracks in it the more he basks in your presence. You are what he desires the most, there's no questioning it and he honestly has no problem saying or showing that. He may end up swallowing you whole with his greed for you, but that's okay. You don't mind, welcome it even.

It's no surprise that as soon as Pantalone comes home, he goes to you. Often, you greet him as soon as he comes home, but there are days when he gets home too late and you're sleeping. And yet he always goes to you first, because he's greedy. Yes, he probably still has more work to do, in his own home office but he has to satisfy his greed for you first! He just needs to drink in you a bit, even if it's just a bit, as his greed for you leaves him starving as a result of the whole day he spent without you. Don't expect to go anyway, and expect to receive and give lots of kisses. And I mean lots. Though, at the very least, although he is a taker, he's a giver as well! He'll happily let you be greedy for him, he finds it very attractive, to be honest. You both can drown in greed for each other.

[drdemonprince]

ive seen you mention before that you previously identified as asexual and taking T changed that for you. id love to hear more about this experience if youre up for sharing. im ace and just started T and i think im already feeling a shift in my sexuality (its the only change ive noticed so far) and i just cant find many people talking about it.

Thank you for asking! And that's not quite how it shook out, the reality is a little more complicated if you'll bear with me.

So, I identified as asexual in high school and was out as such, and it was true insofar as what I used the term to communicate: that there was no mother fucker at high school I was interested in having sex with at that time.

i was too dysphoric to be interested in in anyone, and though i was an avidly sexual being (masturbating upwards of 90 minutes a day as i pretty much always have), my sexuality was almost fully oriented toward power dynamics and hypnosis, not people as people. so while i experienced a sex drive, i wasnt into anyone, and i didnt feel comfortable enough in my body engaging in the activities that i fantasized about anyway, and so asexual conveyed who i was in the sexual realm at that time pretty well. and to this day, if the power dynamic i'm into is not present, i am not capable of being very aroused, so in that sense i'm still on the asexual spectrum.

what T changed was that it all but eradicated my physical dysphoria, leaving me feeling a lot more sexy within my own body and a lot more willing to go out and finally start having all the kinds of sexual experiences I'd either always wanted, or had tried in the past but had been unable to enjoy because of dysphoria fueled freak-outs and dissociations. on T my already high libido got even higher, and felt even more immediate, leading me to become more reckless in trying to satisfy it. that also resulted in me having more sexual partners.

T did not change my experience of attraction to people, i find some people handsome or beautiful or best of all CUTE(!!!) but none of that can translate to sexual activity if a particular itch of mine is not getting scratched.

so i wouldn't say that T made me not asexual. it is more that my sexual orientation always was toward power dynamics rather than people, and that in the past, my ability to live out that sexual orientation was heavily shrouded by my dysphoria, and now it's not.

[aanylah-101]

A New Life / Quaritch x Reader

‼️I POSTED THIS STORY ON MY WATTPAD BUT I DON'T LIKE IT SO I WILL BE REMAKING IT‼️

‼️IM TOO LAZY TO LIST ALL THE WARNINGS SO READ AT YOYR OWN RISK!‼️

‼️THIS STORY CONTAINS ALL 5 PARTS OF THE STORY OF WATTPAD SO IT IS INCREDIBLY LONG‼️

You were enduring a soothing walk along the seaside, you were gathering up Banana fruit as a treat for later when all of a sudden you hear something loud in the distance. You look around frantically looking for the source but you can't quite see anything, next thing you know you see a big boat from a distance. You hustle and hide behind a tree that has bushes to support your concealment. 

After a while of watching the boat approach the shore, you see sky people with guns leave the ship. But they are disguised to look like you? You hiss at the confusion and lies. Once you are sure they're done evading the ship you quietly run to the ship, you don't know why you did it but you were sure you'd be in and out. 

You saw gadgets and tech stuff, a smile slowly spread across your face. You wanted to touch everything and anything that would satisfy you. You ended up finding a small gun on the table and hooked it to your waist, you also found many gadgets you find a gun the sky people were carrying with them. You pick it up almost losing your balance when you pick it up. 

Your fun was cut short once you feel a hand on your leg, you slowly turn to see who it is when you see your daughter. 

"Jesus baby you scared me," "Wait! baby, why are you here?"  

"I saw you mama, I picked some fruit!!" 

"That's wonderful honey but we have to hurry out of here."

Just as you were putting the gun back down as quietly as possible, you hear someone yelling, something pricks your arm and you stumble. 

"Mama!" 

"Sweetheart you have to get out of here baby"

"But mama-" 

"NOW!" 

You see your daughter tearing up as she runs off the ship and you lose sight of her into the forest, your eyes widen as you see a sky person run in the same direction as her. You hope she can make it to someone before she gets caught. 

You try to keep yourself together as you pull out whatever spiked you in your arm, you pull it out and take a good but blurry look at it. It had a strange shape to it and on the side, it was labeled "Midazolam injection" you didn't know what it was but you then felt someone approaching you, It was one of the sky people that looked like you.

You hiss showing your fangs trying to show domination and pull out your knife from your waist, he then gets into a fighting stance waiting for your next move. You charge at him with your knife and go to stab him wherever you can reach. He tries to push & hold you back but you end up stabbing his thigh and scraping his arm which results in him hissing in pain as he pushed you back harshly but you end up hitting your head & back against the table, he groans at the pain in his thigh

You try to stand up the table being the only thing that supported you before, you wobble from side to side until you fall onto your knees. He steps in front of you and glares looking down at you.

"Get away from me you mock!" you say as you try to make him collapse. which he almost does he has a grim face as he kicks you off. The throbbing in your head makes you wince and you lay down your head due to the pain. 

You get one last look at him, you see him sneering as you waft off to unconsciousness.

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You awake what seems like decades later in a completely white room, it has a large and wide window along with it, it has a table with 2 chairs. You stare blankly at the walls and you touch the one beside you, It's soft.. you thought. you try to think why you're here and remember being shot and too weak to fight back. You look and see your in a white slightly oversized shirt and some short pants. You abruptly feel something bump into you on the bed, you frantically look over and see your daughter who is in the same garments as you are.

You're overjoyed but also feel anxious that they might have hurt her. You brush it off and cuddle your daughter until she wakes up. You feel movement in your arms and smile as your daughter opens her eyes.

"Mama!" she says in a happy yet tired tone. 

"How did you get here? Did that man get you?"

"I tried to find someone but then a man came up and put something in my arm"

"Me too baby.." "I'll make sure we get out of here don't be scared".

She hugged onto me and wrapped her tail around my thigh, I then held onto her as well when I heard a beeping noise come from the other side of the room. You then saw the man that you pathetically fought earlier. 

He held his hands up to show he had nothing to harm you with, you hissed angrily and pushed your daughter back as she hid behind you. 

"What do you want from me!?" you say hurriedly 

"Communication could've been better if you talked in English". 

He walks closer to you and bends down to your level.

"Where is Jake Sully?" he asks

"I don't know of a Jake sully?" You try to sound and look confused as possible, thinking he might give up and leave.

"He's in your clan, isn't he?"

You were surprised he knew the clans, you thought for a second and decided if you should reveal information about the clans but you had to say something for him to keep his suspicion off you.

"He is in the Omatikaya clan, my and my daughter's clan is the Metkayina.."

After saying that he looks over your at your daughter and she slightly ducks down under you hiding her face.

"Are you hungry little one?"

Your daughter peers up and nods her head slowly.

"And mama is too!" she manages to say

He then gets up and leaves the room, you assume he is going to get you and your daughter something to eat, You look over at your daughter.

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After about 15 minutes of waiting the man comes back with a basket of fish, by the way it looks it's very fresh. He puts the basket of fish toward you.

"What are you're names?" he says slowly while kneeling down in front of you. 

You are at first impressed by his attempt to speak Navi. You are first skeptical of him but he seems to have gotten tolerable.

"My name is ___ and this is my daughter ___" 

"My name is M-"

He stopped for a minute, then he started again.

"Colonel, you can call me Colonel."

"When can we go home." you say sternly, not wanting to befriend the enemy.

He then grows stern, he turns his head away quickly and angrily. 

"You can go home once we've found Jake Sully"

"At least let my daughter go home!"

He then looks at your daughter and back at you, your hoping he says yes.

"Mama I don't wanna leave, let me stay with you! 

"I can't risk you getting hurt sweetheart..I'll be ok."

You & your daughter's sudden conversation makes the colonel turn back to you. 

"She's already here, what's the point of taking her home". 

"What do you mean what's the point?! It's so she can be safe!" "Guns!..Knives! all sorts of dangerous stuff here! She's only 6!" 

Your fussy ranting makes the colonel chuckle and smirk.

"I assure you, I will keep you and your daughter safe" he says messing up her hair.

You look back at him and you're slightly alarmed as he reached to touch your daughter. He stands up and leaves the room, the door beeping behind him you watch him as he walks off.

You are in intense thought when all of a sudden you see your daughter putting fish in front of your face.

"Say ahhh!" she says while giggling 

"Ahhh" you open your mouth and she lets you take a bite of the fish.

She then pushes the basket full of fish towards you for you to eat. 

After finishing the basket of fish you turn over to your daughter and embrace her as you both drift off to sleep. 

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As you woke up with your daughter in your arms, you let her sleep for a little while longer, you want to try making a quiet escape. You look around for any way to get out when you see a card with black lines on it, you pick it up and see if it's for anything. You see what the colonel used to get in and out of the room, you approach it and shove the card in front of it. It makes a beeping noise that slightly wakes your daughter. 

You smile in relief as you run to your daughter & carry her like a baby, her head rests on your shoulder 

"Hold on tight baby."

"Mmm.." she manages to say

You walk down a long hall and try your best to remember what the front area of the ship looked like. You see a tech room that looks identical to the one you saw before, and you see the door is already open. Suddenly you hear someone yell out, noting that they had seen you. You ran as fast as you could to anyone you could reach.

The yelling you heard followed you through the forest, you should have run towards the ocean to your clan. But you wanted to reach anyone as fast as possible. You almost gain hope in being saved but you hear & see bullets passing by you. Your heart drops as you don't want your daughter to get hit by one. You look up at her and you see her crying silently in fear by everything that's going on around her.

You then run in a different direction thinking it will buy you some time, you then start shouting for help thinking it will help you faster. You're stopped in your tracks as you fall dropping your daughter, you look to see what the source is. You look at your ankles to see a rope-like substance wrapped around them.

You want to tell your daughter to run again but if she got caught there would be no point, you wanted her in your sight. She crawls to you, in a panic tears falling down her face.

"Mama!" she screams as she tried to take the rope from around your ankles.

All of a sudden you see the colonel approach from behind you, and you are scared of what he will say and do to you. You couldn't imagine what you'd do if he hurt your daughter. You hiss and snarled at him in any way for him to back up. He only bends down and as he does so your daughter backs up hurridly from your ankles to beside you. With an aggravated sigh, he unties the rope from around your ankle, he then picks you up from your waist and throws you over his shoulder. His hand supporting your back.

As he holds you over his shoulder he turns to your daughter and holds his hand out to her for her to grab. She hesitates at first but then she slowly goes to him and grabs his hand with both of hers. 

He takes both of you to the ship, your view being you are taken further away from the forest and from help. 

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You soon end up in the same room as before, and the sky people will surely be more careful where they leave their things. Turns out the reason for that whole circumstance was because on the outside of the room, there's a hand scanner. The colonel comes back a few minutes later with a disappointed look on his face. 

"Your lucky y'know, my people could've killed you right then and there if I hadn't shown up."

You look away with nothing to say to him, you regret what you did slightly. You would've gotten away if only the rope hadn't caught you. He sighs again, bending down to your level. You thrash your tail at him so he'll back up but he only leans back ever so slightly until he grabs your tail in place which makes you slap his hand away.

He chuckles as he lets your tail go gently, then he grabbed your face with one hand while turning you back over with his other. He pulled you in which to you only made an enraged sneer at him.

"I'll be nice, once...then I won't" he said, letting go of your face. 

"I will make it out of here, one way or another.." 

"Good luck with that cupcake," he says while winking

He then gets up and leaves your room, leaving you and your daughter alone. He then blows a kiss at you as he walks past your window. You stick your tongue out as a response to his ridiculous gesture. 

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You are deep in thought trying to think of an escape plan when you remember your Ilu, you could try one more breakout and this time run towards the water. You have taught your daughter to hold her breath underwater for long enough, it should be just enough time for your Ilu to arrive and seek help from anyone nearby. You are delighted by your plan and you start to tell your daughter everything precisely.

Quartichs POV: 

I was bringing another basket of fish for ____ & that kid of hers, I was trying to get on her good side in hopes she'll give me the information I need to track down jake sully. She should be lucky I haven't gotten violent yet. When I saw her, she was back facing me through the window to her room. She was talking to her daughter it seemed like, I wanted to listen closely so I backed up from the window and listened to her talk. 

Your POV:

-When we get our next chance to leave this ship, we'll run towards the ocean this time. And I'll call our Ilu, we will have to swim for a while though before he will come, do you understand the plan? Your daughter nodded in nervous agreement.

Quartichs POV: 

The more she explained her plan the angrier I got, she was planning on trying to escape again? Hadn't she learnt her lesson..I wanted to confront her but I decided not to. I had been nice for too long, She'd get what was coming to her soon enough. I then continued carrying the basket to her. Trying to make it seem like I had just come.

Once I entered the room I saw her in a different position than what she was previously in, she then got up and walked towards me. Despite everything she asked to have a look around the whole ship, I knew what she was doing. I told her that she couldn't do it now since it was getting dark outside. 

She then gestured for me to hand her the basket, and as I did so she walked over and started feeding her daughter. I had to admit, she was diligent and determined. I watched her for a little bit until she gave me an annoyed glance. I then go to look at her daughter, her mouth full of fish and fruit she looked silly as she ate her food.

I then turnt away, about to leave when she started to say something.

"Thank you mister!" she says in a muffled tone.

I was hesitant for a second, I replied back to her with a nod as I walked out.

Your POV:

He finally left us alone again, I just wanted to get back home one way or another. I then turnt to look at my daughter who was finished eating, It felt like only the other day you and your daughter were doing the same activity you were doing now. 

You and your daughter were picking fruit from bushes, banana fruit exactly. You were excited to be doing an activity other than stressful hunting. You were more set on relaxing things like taking naps by the waterfall & spending time with what used to be your family.. You explicitly remember when your spouse was killed, it was only around a week ago you were flying on your Ikrans together. You wanted to give them a fun-filled day before you revealed the big news to them until Toruk came, you tried to save them, but you can't always save everyone.

You sobbed for what seemed like an eternity before you had the strength and knowledge to realize that you officially had to raise another baby on your own now. You love your firstborn nonetheless, she looks like a perfect mixture of you and your old spouse..A very beautiful specimen of creation.

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The next morning when you woke up you saw the colonel sitting in a chair not too far away from the corner, drinking something out of a cup. He was shirtless, with his green camouflage pants & heavy black boots, he also had something on the table beside him which looked like a mask. 

"You felt yourself getting hot by looking at him so you turned away and attempted to find something to occupy yourself with, anything that would avoid you looking at him.

He smirks and manages a "Good morning"

"How long have you been here.." you say urgently, pulling your daughter closer to you. 

"Not long," he says unbothered. "I know you said you wanted to get a better look around here, so why not spend the day outa ya cell, hm?" As he talks you let go of your daughter & slowly stand up not wanting to wake her. Starting to put your hair in a ponytail, you don't notice that he stopped talking as you were busy at the moment as you tied up your hair. He stares you down as you do so, your shirt pulled up ever so slightly. Only enough for your waist to show. losing himself In his tracks as you do so.

He looks you up and down before muttering "damn.." you then look at him, trying to put together what he said. He only looks the other way and pretends he was talking the whole time. Continuing what he was talking about before, he finally gets to the point of asking if you'd like to join him.

"Are you alright with that cupcake?" 

You roll your eyes and agree to stay with him for the day, you then look back at your daughter. Wanting her to be safe you ask him if there was anywhere you could keep her for the meantime. He then thinks for a minute and replies.

"She would be the safest with Spider"

"Spider?"

"Yes, he's my son." "He will watch over your daughter." 

You are at first reluctant as you don't know who this "Spider" is, but you thought it might be good for her to associate as you want her to be better at that, she doesn't have any friends back at the Metkayina clan. Except for a girl named Tuktirey, from how outgoing she is you hope she can bring your daughter out of her shell. 

You agree that she will be watched over by him and he walks over to the door before stopping at the exit. He walks back towards you, he takes the mask from the table to adjust onto you. With you confused he suddenly picks you up by your waist once again, hand supporting your back, You get annoyed as you remember this position from about a day ago. He walks back towards the exit and bends down to leave, him having to bend down slightly more due to you being on his shoulder. 

You are then carried to a room with computers, gadgets, and lots of weapons. The colonel grabs a wide sliver band with 3 buttons on it, along with the device it has what seems to be a remote with a large black pad on the front. He sets you down to put the contraption on your neck. You lean away as he does so, not liking the contraption on you.

"Do be scared, It's just a tracking device." he gestures 

He then explains what everything does to make sure you aren't bewildered when anything happens. He tells you to stay put as he walks to a different room, he comes back with his green t-shirt on, he reassures you that Spider is watching over your daughter. 

He lets you walk freely along the ship, you are examining everything until you feel something hit against your leg you look down to see the colonel's tail leaving from beside you. He then starts to explain what everything is, pointing out what things are and how to pronounce them.

He then picks up a tube with the words "Midazolam injection" you instantly make a quiet hissing sound backing up from it. The colonel then looks at you and remembers the first impression you had. He sat it back down and did a calming motion with his hands.

"Relax, I'm saving these for Jake Sully," he says with a grin

You remember him trying to get information about Toruk Makto, the leader of the Omaticaya clan. You also remember lying about having no information about him, you just hope that the colonel never finds out.

The colonel then starts talking to a human scientist, you are at first amazed by the comparison. You were around ___ft tall while he had to be 9ft.

You're quietly standing still waiting for him to continue with the tour until you start to feel queasy and sick, the feeling isn't strong so you brush it off thinking it's hunger you then try to walk it off only to realize your too weak for that. You start to lose your balance and stagger back n' forth until you bump into the colonel's back.

You rest your head onto him as he turns around confused, he sees you in your sick state and goes to adjusting the mask you have on. It did help slightly but you still had a sick feeling. The colonel then takes you to a pair of double doors and opens both of them.

He pulls your mask off of you letting it hang down your neck, you breathe in the air hoping it'll make you feel better. Which it does, He sighs in relief as it seems he thought he was losing you to something. 

After you two have been outside for a while he walks you back into the ship, At this point you see him grabbing his waist belt that carries his stuff. He starts to put his knives and pistols in his belt, he then orders a pilot.

"Are you comfortable in these clothes, or do you want your old ones back?" he asks sternly

You tell him you want your old clothing due to you had been slightly uncomfortable in human clothes the past few days. He heads into the same room as last time and comes back with your clothes.

"Where can I change?" you ask sourly 

"Right here," he says with a smirk

You have a grim look on your face which makes him realize you're not in the mood. He points to a room and suggests you get dressed in there. You walk over and enter the room shutting the door behind you, you finally get back to your comfortable clothes you had on before.

You do realize your stomach is starting to get bigger, you remember the baby you never got to tell your husband about which makes you sad & tearful again. You hurry to wipe away your tears as the colonel is waiting on you, you hurry out of the room with your old baggy shirt and shorts. The colonel takes them from you and hands them to another sky human to put away.

He then looks back at you, looking you up and down to see what you look like in Navi clothing.

"What are you looking at, skxawng" you say to him 

He then looks away, not saying anything.

A few moments later the same sky human from before tells the colonel that the aircraft is ready, you find yourself walking again and you go outside to see a sky craft and underneath it is a big yellow target. 

You find yourself walking towards the sky-craft and as you get closer the more wind that blows in your face, you get to the very front of it, and then the colonel motions you to go first with a wink. You roll your eyes and flick your tail as you climb into the craft. The colonel helps load everything in and when it was finally time to go he hits the crafts glass front signaling that they're ready.

He hurriedly jumps in the craft and takes a set in front of you, you look around to see 3 Navi soldiers around you. You analyze them carefully not wanting to draw attention by staring.

You then turn to look at the last soldier in the back who notices you looking at him, he smiles at you. You smile back seeing he doesn't seem intense like the others, he then starts talking to you and asking questions about you. 

The colonel then looks at him sharply staring at the soldier, you then notice the two and look at the colonel.

"Keep your eyes on your own stuff son,"

"Yes sir," the solider says turning away

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After a while of flying you decide to look out the window to see the outside a little bit, you walk beside the colonel to look out and you see glistening blue waters. The sunray letting the water to have its crystal effect, you smile loving the view.

You point to the door asking the colonel to open it, he sees you pointing to the door and motioning to open it. He then grabs your arm and pulls you closer to him, he pulls you up by your waist and sits you on his upper leg.

Your ears flatten in embarrassment at the position you were in, you hoped the other soldiers weren't secretly laughing at you. The colonel reaches to open the door and slides it open, you swung your tail in excitement as you got a clear view of the beautiful outside world.

You had been looking out the door for a while until the colonel rests his hand on your thigh, you look down quickly at the sudden movement. He then squeezes your thigh, you feel yourself getting flustered so you hit his leg with your tail as a way of saying stop, but he only slaps your thigh in response. 

You then get frustrated and grab n' squeeze his thigh as well, trying your best to dig your nails into his leg through his pants.

"Gettin' handsy now aren't we missy?" he whispers flirtatiously 

you urgently lift your hand up and cross them against your torso having an attitude, the colonel only chuckles. 

You then look down in the craft to see a bag not too far from you. You see a tag on the bag with the name; Miles. You see it and wonder if its the colonels, 

"Miles," you say expecting a response from somebody in the ship

"Hm?" the colonel says leaning out to look at you, you see he has a smirk on his face.

He turns your face to his to make it where your faces aren't too far apart, then leans closer towards you to whisper something to you.

"You sound real good sayin' my name cupcake"

You then look down feeling yourself getting hot. You were also feeling something you had never felt before, you kinda liked it when he teased you. 

He smiled at your responsive face and repositions you on his lap. It was almost like he knew how to control you or at least get to you.

As the craft is about to land somewhere, the colonel is standing behind you making sure you didn't do anything stupid. You're ready to jump into the water as soon as possible. Your leaning on the wall of the craft, However, you were supposedly leaning too far and you almost slip into the water when 'Miles' caught you by your waist and pulled you back up. your rear touching his waist area he tried not to touch your stomach too much, he knew already. 

"Be careful" he says alarmed

You nod slowly in response and back up not wanting to slip again.

The craft finally lands on a patch of land. The colonel hands you a knife and allows you to go hunting for yourself, you take the knife slowly out of his hands due to you making sure it was alright.

You hop out of the craft and go running for the glistening water, you jump in and swim happily. As much as you'd love to escape and swim away, you can't leave your daughter it wouldn't be right. You then focus on hunting for food, you see a school of fish in the water but it seems far away. You then come out from the water and walk up to 'Miles' and tell him what you want.

"School," you say pointing to the water

"It doesn't matter how far you go, just come back alright?"

You nod in agreement as you walk back to the water to start your hunting. You hurriedly swim back to the school of fish and go to pentrailze them one by one, although your not the most organized when gathering up food. That's why back at your clan your only job while hunting is to kill and let the others put up the food.

You stab the knife deep into the fish before throwing it up onto the land which ends up scaring a couple of fish but there's plenty enough fish for you to get.

You repeated this cycle until you needed to come up for air, you walk back up to shore to see all your fish scattered in different places. You quickly run to organize the fish all in one pile, once you're done you go back into the water to enjoy it once more before you have to leave again.

After about 10 minutes of enjoying the ocean waters, the colonel calls you to come back onto the ship. 

You hurry back to the craft and point to all the fish you've gathered, 'Miles' nods and motions you to put them all in the basket he's provided for you. You finish your task and as you're carrying your basket up the craft the colonel grabs a towel and starts to dry you off before entering.

He then starts to wipe your hair dry and then the rest of your body. he then gets down to your neck 

"Well aren't you a mess," he says unbothered

you stick your tongue out at him, what did he expect? you were clearly in the water.

He finally finishes drying you off & lets you onto the craft. 

Before you know it you're in the air again and on the way back to your cell, you then remember your daughter who probably has no idea where you are and realize she's most likely scared.

You wish for the ride to go faster as you wanting to get back to the only other piece of family you have. little do you know the more thinking you do the faster you are to getting home.

The craft finally lands on the same yellow target as before, and you hustle to find the room you and your daughter are in. The colonel, carrying the bucket of fish you managed to leave behind walks behind you to your room. 

Although you don't know where you're going, you get confused between the two halls in front of you. The colonel walks beside you to the correct hall clicking his tongue as a sign to follow him.

He leads you back into your room, only for you to see your daughter and who you assume spider having a hissing contest. You haven't really taught your daughter to hiss nor sneer so you suggest she might learn something from him. When you walk in you hiss interrupting their silly contest with a playful smile on your face you hold your arms out to your daughter. 

"Mama, your back!" she says while running towards you and falling into your arms. 

The colonel drops the basket of fish on a nearby table & leans on the midway doorframe watching you interact with your daughter. He then signals Spider that he's free to go, spider walks out of the room only leaving you three.

You turn to him thanking him for an eventful day, he nods off his tail swaying as the door shut behind him. You turn to your daughter with a cheerful hiss and she gestures back with a miner hiss. 

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It had been at least 4-6 weeks since you had been on this ship,  You miss your home with every passing second.

You had requested your baggy shirt back due to your belly being out, it at least made you feel more comfortable. Since you had that sliver tracking device on your neck though you got to be out of your cell whenever. You were happy about that.

You and Miles have created a strong bond together, maybe even catching feelings for each other. Whatever It was, It made you feel alive and thrive. Sure he could be annoying sometimes, and you would remember how he sorta kidnapped you and Is a threat to your clan and others, but you were sure you could change him. 

You and him had your moments where It was obvious you liked each other. You were also happy about this.

You were playing hide and go seek with your daughter & Spider on the ship. You found them after a minute of searching, they ran away and as you chased after them they ran into a separate hallway the colonel and some other sky people were.

You had to stop to catch your breath for a minute when you saw 'Miles' leaving the ship with a couple of their soldiers. You watched as they walked off the ship, later following them. You then saw other Navi?

They didn't look like you, they were the Omatikaya clan. You felt your heart drop to your stomach at the sight you saw.

They had different families tied up and were frantically harassing them for information about "Jake Sully". You wished he would have let It go, why go this far?

The screams of children filled your ears, your ears perked up once you heard the cries of a baby nearby. You lean out more to see a woman holding a child in her arms, tears streaming down her face trying to calm down her baby.

You felt tears forming in your eyes as well, watching all this unravel, you thought about confronting him but you were becoming fearsome of him. Your ears flattened along with you flicking your tail in rage mixed with despair. 

You didn't know what to feel or what to think, just then the colonel shouted

"Light it up! Let's go!" 

A soldier then had a gun in his hand, you thought they were going to kill the Navi but instead, they set aflame to their homes. You then watched the chaos unfold, grief building up more and more.

"Make it snappy! We do not have all day"

You snarled hearing his voice, you hurried back inside the ship calling your daughter's name. She eventually came out of her hiding spot along with Spider

Oh, how unaware they were...

Spider filled with glee, implying other games for your daughter to play with him. You picked up your daughter hissing at him as you walked back to your room. Just as you were passing by a table you saw the knife you initially had on you and swiped it.

When you made it back to the room you put the knife under the pillow, you turned to your daughter, her ears were bent sideways, she had the standard pouty look on her face any toddler would have.

You instantly turn to her, grabbing ahold of her hands,

"Did he do something wrong mama..?" she asks, you can hear her on the verge of tears.

Your ears bend back in anger again, you developed a hatred to anyone the colonel is associated with, including his son. 

"Not exactly baby..It's hard for you to understand but you will once your older"

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When the colonel came back to your cell you turned away from him, still in disbelief of what you had witnessed. 

"What's wrong? was I gone too long?" you can tell he had a smirk while saying It 

That's just how he was

When you looked over your shoulder and glanced at him, he did. 

You turn back to facing your daughter against the wall, he then started to walk up to you and you felt him sit down on the bed beside you. 

He then grabbed your arm

"Hey-"

You jerked away from him which made him flinch back slightly. 

"Whats gotten' into you?" 

You could hear his country accent that came out of him sometimes, you would have laughed or said something cute about it If only you hadn't seen him commit harassment moments earlier.

"Don't touch me skxqwng" you say with a bitter tone 

He's silent for a minute, acting like he doesn't know what he did wrong. 

"I'm sorry If I-"

"SORRY WILL NEVER BE GOOD ENOUGH" you snap, turning to face him

He gets up backing up, his ears were down then they flattened

"What Is wrong with you ___?!" 

"I saw what you did!" 

His face went from confused to stern, within only a moment It was like he changed completely.

"Why did you do it.." you felt tears forming in your eyes again

"I don't have to explain a damn thing to you "

He was getting louder, your ears becoming flat In dread, but you were determined and wanted answers. 

"That doesn't answer my question," you say flailing your tail

He starts to walk closer to you and you back up, afraid of what he might do. 

You ran out of space to back up and he grabbed your wrist, forcing you to lean in closer while tightly grabbing your face.

"I'll be nice, once...then I won't" 

Your eyes widened remembering when he first said this to you. You hissed at him but he only flung you to the floor causing you to black out.

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You wake In another room, not wanting to move due to the throbbing In your head. It seems to hurt more when you try to remember what happened. Your body gains consciousness and you feel someone's presence, you close your eyes again not wanting them to know you are awake until you suddenly hear a voice.

"I know you're awake" 

Not being eligible enough to recognize the voice, you ignore it until you feel somebody pull you up by your arm.

"Don't Ignore me" he says with a snarle 

It was Miles

You saw him and felt a rush of remembrance hit you hard, you remembered your mix of emotions all while the throbbing in your head caused you pain.

Everything had happened so fast you couldn't get a grip on anything, not even to try and fool yourself into thinking none of it was real.

The fact that you can comprehend everything makes you frustrated and you start to cry, you were tired of acting like you could be strong through everything.

Miles suddenly draws you In for you to face his chest and hugs you while patting and rubbing your back. 

You tried to hit him off but you ended up just crying In his arms anyway, 

"I called off the mission," 

You look up at him shocked, not knowing what to say or do. You only wrap your arms around him and swung your tail.

You looked back up at him and he had a guilty look In his eyes, your smile faded and then gently shook him.

"Listen," you say while making him turn to face you

"I can and will not forgive you for what you did, but I can move past It" 

He nods and you peck him on his lips

"Nga yawne lu oer" you say,

"I love you"

He smiles at you and he lifts your face gently, moving slowly towards your face. He gestured if it was ok if he kissed you. Your eyes softened at his request and you both leaned In for a kiss. 

This Is the Miles you loved, right here.

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DISCLAIMER‼️: READER HAS TELEKINESIS ONLY FOR THIS CHAPTER (prob), ONCE YOU READ IT YOU'LL UNDERSTAND I HOPE. This story is also rushed but only In time skips. I have no ideas.

‼️ATTENTION‼️: The timeline is rushed due to me not knowing what else to do with the scene

‼️DISCLAIMER‼️: I HATE TO DO THIS BUT ; S/N = SON'S NAME | D/N = DAUGHTERS NAME

Also, this story Is going to be cringe to some, but it's ok I think It's cringe too.

Enjoy Angels 🕊

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You woke up once the sun hit your eyes, not being able to examine the room from last time It left you confused. Your confusion was cut short once you felt steady breathing behind you, you then feel a hand cupping your stomach.

You look up to see your daughter only a few inches away from you, thankfully she was alright.

Your head wasn't throbbing anymore, Nor did you feel pain. You look over to see Miles sound asleep while holding you, feeling his chest rise & fall against you while his steady breathing filled your ears made you feel safe. 

You turn over to face him, adoring how peaceful he looked you did a soft peck on his lips. 

You then waited for him to wake up but he didn't seem to be waking up any time soon, 

"Miles.." you say calmly

You hear him mutter a response

"It's time to get up" 

He opens his eyes which fall onto you, 

He only pulls you in closer to his chest.

"No, It's not" he says tiredly 

You then smile, allowing yourself to drift off into sleep again.

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"-Or I won't hesitate to kill you."

Quaritch was giving all his soldiers and a couple of sky people a speech about If they went anywhere near your baby he would make sure they wouldn't even look In your direction.

It had been about 5 months since you and miles had officially been mates for life, you remember telling your daughter that she would become a big sister soon. She was a little confused at first but when you properly explained she was beyond filled with excitement.

You then went to tell spider as well, but you apologized first for how you acted toward him. He forgave you and was happy when you told him the news as well.

Ultimately, you and Miles moved to the top floor of the ship to get more privacy, you loved how everything was going. It almost seemed to good to be true at first.

Miles gave you the right to roam or be anywhere, he even let you out to the ocean without your tracking device. 

You were looking out the window and saw how beautiful It was, you then got the motive to go and hunt. You grabbed your knife and some baskets, nets and headed out for your hunting spree. 

Your daughter was with spider, at the time. You loved how they bonded. 

...

Once you set your stuff down you went straight for the water, swimming happily and going for your hunt. Miles taught you how to capture multiple fish at once so you decided to use that technique. 

You tied the net to 2 nearby rocks and waited for a minute until hurridly raising the fish & net from the water. You were excited that It worked, you had been practicing your telekinesis for the longest. 

You dropped your fish a longs way from the shore and looked at all the different kinds of fish you had collected when you saw something that looked like a shell, you picked it up and gasped as soon as you made out what It was.

A clam-shell!

You open it to try and see if it has any pearls in store for you, and you open it up to see almost a dozen pearls inside. You make sure to grab every single pearl from inside.

You notice bushes of banana fruit not too far from you, you grab another basket and walk over to the bushes, collecting some of the fruit.

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You had finished collecting all the banana fruit you needed and started making your way back to where all your fish and wonderful collection of pearls were.

You then put the net of fish around your shoulder and with the basket of fish in your hands you began to make your way back to the ship.

You look at your surroundings and see it's starting to get dark, it was around 12:00PM when you headed out. You walk faster knowing you never told Miles you were leaving.

After making it back up to the room, Miles was In the bedroom,  You take a breath and make your way into the room sitting everything down, Miles hears you In the room and walks up to you. You prepare for the worst the closer and closer he gets.

He puts his hand across your stomach,

"Welcome back cupcake" 

"Hey love.." you think if you can distract him, maybe he won't ask you where you had been.

"Oh, what are these?" he reaches for the pearls you had collected

He was talking about the pearls, and while he did your dreadfulness of him asking where you were faded away. 

You then felt him put his arm around your waist 

"Ok?" he said reassuringly

"W-what?"

"I was asking If for the next time, you go out tell me, I thought one of my crew had got ahold of you" 

"Mhm, I will..but-.. you're not mad?" 

He shook his head,

"Not In the slightest" 

You smiled knowing that you had the freedom you dreaded to have, Miles once asked you why you didn't leave a long time ago.

You told him about how you have no family or friends and that you had grown to him, and that If you left there would be nothing to go to. 

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"I don't wanna eat that"

"Just try It," he said laughing "It tastes a thousand times better like this." 

Miles was trying to get you to eat 'cooked salmon', but you had been eating raw fish all your life, And raw is how you tolerated It.

"Alright look, If you try it cooked, I'll try It raw."

You pondered on his proposal for a minute before agreeing, 

"Fine.."

He stepped closer to you, he put one hand on your stomach while feeding you the fish. You expected It to taste awful but your ears perked up in amazement, It tasted different and you usually never ate hot food. 

You kept eating It and Miles was surprised to see you actually enjoying It,

"See? tastes good right?"

You nodded your head motioning for more, you gave some to your daughter and since she saw you liked It she didn't hesitate to try It, mother like daughter.

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"Just let me In there!" he hissed

"Sir please you have to wait out here"

"She's screaming for me are you deaf?!"

"Sir-"

"Forget It, move out of my way"

"Boss why can't you just wait outside!"

Is what you heard from outside of your room when you weren't wailing In pain,

The day was finally here, you were finally delivering the baby you and Miles had been waiting for ever since he figured out you were expectant.

From what you gathered Miles was fighting to get Into the medical room while Lyle, Mansk, and the nurses were holding him back. You thought since you were calling his name they would have let him In by now.

One of Miles's recruits Zidnarsk was allowed In and was squeezing your hand, trying her best to comfort you but only continued to scream any other time you pushed, It was truly a chaotic scene.

Zidnarsk cheered you on scarcely, in between heavy breaths you managed to get a couple of sentences out.

"Where...where Is ___..?"

"She's with Spider, don't worry about It."

...

"It's a boy" 

The nurses were finally handing you your newborn baby, you felt tears stream from your eyes as his soft weight fell into your arms.

Zidnarsk had a smile on her face congratulating you, your joy with your baby didn't last too long because the doctors and scientists took him to run tests.

"Hey! I didn't give you consent to take him from me!" 

"Sorry Miss, but It's mandatory" 

"Don't make me get my boss," Zdinarsk said standing up

They Instantly put your son In the Incubator and only did minor checkups.

"Thank you, Z.."

"Any friend of Quaritchs Is a friend of mine, It's no worries," she said walking to the door

"C'mon Miles," she stepped to the side letting him in.

You saw Miles walk into the room slightly nervous, you smiled at him happy he was finally with you. You soon saw Spider quickly run into the room behind Miles.

He sat down beside you looking at S/N In awe,

"Isn't he beautiful.."

"Very..looks just like you," he said while grinning

Spider and D/N were basically hovering over the Incubator,

"Woah...cool!" he said In disbelief 

"Can I hold him mama?" 

"Later sweetheart, I promise"

Miles grabbed your hand while gazing off,

"You to Miles..you can hold your son"

Miles looked at you and gave you a bright smile, he lifted your hand and kissed it gently. 

You all were a complete family, you saw your entire life right In front of you. 

It looked beautiful...

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I know yall forgot she (you) were pregnant lmao. But I sure didn't be crucial If I did.

I hope you enjoyed it, I might make one more (more) about the future family of yours.

Bye Angels! 🕊🤍 

[bettsfic]

Hi betts! Ive been finding your posts really motivating, they make me want to write more and more. So id really appreciate if you could give me advice for this problem!

I just dont know how to revise! Or maybe the problem is that i dont know how to write drafts that need revising.

Basically what happens is that i write a draft as fast and messily as i can. And then i reread it, and i really like it! So when i get around to fixing it up, i end up chopping out things just based off of vibes. And then i read that version, and i hate it! It shows a lot more technical skill for sure, and it coheres a lot more, but i feel that its completely lost its voice and style. I tend to write in fits of emotion, and i feel like any revising outside of that mindset just sort of... strips the text of its sincerity?

Where do i go from here? Its not easy to practice revision when its so disheartening!

When i attempt to write badly, it either turns out good enough that im scared to change it, or bad enough that im not interested in it anymore.

How do i revise a draft without removing the things i like about it? Do i just need to get better at identifying what i like about my work?

that's an interesting situation, anon. i guess my immediate question is, if you like what you write, why do you even want to revise?

in the 50s, the beats popularized this idea of "first thought, best thought," which basically means what goes on the page is what belongs there, and the first words that come to us are the right ones, not because they're good, but because they're first.

for your own purposes, for the sake of discovery, i think this is a great mentality. the process of invention is the purest practice of creativity. you're putting things on a page that weren't there before, and if you're doing that in a way you find satisfying, and if you're pleased with the results, then i think you should keep doing it. it seems to me like your willingness to revise and your ability to say, "no, i liked it better before," will naturally develop into a more dedicated revision practice. eventually you'll write the thing that makes you go, "wait a minute, that's not right," or maybe, "i like this, but it doesn't quite honor the story i want to tell." and those are the seeds of revision.

don't get me wrong, i'm a firm believer in revision. but more than that, i'm a believer in letting your joy guide you in any creative process. revision should feel good. you should want to revise. you may not always be eager to revise, but you should feel strongly enough about the nature of what you're creating that making it better will make you feel better. but if you don't want to revise, then you shouldn't feel obligated to.

still, if you want to get a sense of what revision can do to your work so that you can experiment and grow, i would recommend writing something short, maybe a thousand words or fewer. then put it down for a week, and rewrite it without looking at it again. put that down for a week too. then rewrite it a third time without looking at either previous draft.

when you have all three drafts, try to look at them with a discerning eye. which one overall is best and why? or if you can't tell, go through and highlight all the sentences you like and count them. whichever story has the most highlights wins.

sometimes revision isn't always about making something better. sometimes it's about approaching your work so many different ways that you've conceived all possible angles and chosen the one that's best. sometimes the first thought really is the best thought. but sometimes it's the fifth thought, or the tenth, or one that someone else has to bring to your attention. i think if you broaden your definition of revision to be "considering every way this thing can be written," it'll help guide you toward a process that works for you.

[margle]

ok overall thoughts so far on 03

I watched this at like 3 frames a second with massive wait times between buffering and so I didnt really get the whole experience. when I watch it again I might come back with more thoughts

mac becoming some kind of strange heightened victorian boy when he is nervous was great and I hope they do that again

the use of the chase utley vid was clever and satisfying for it to be finally put in canon

there were loads of funny moments in the individual curses - they clearly tailored them well to the characters. highlights being dee because im biased

though interesting that charlie didnt get a curse... they seem to be re-establishing that is the more better one of the group. which they have departed from and come back to randomly

charlie explicitly standing up to uncle jack was good but also very sad. like the looks he gave frank to try and make them not sit down

it had both the mothers! they seem to be kinda a staple of this season and im really enjoying it!

this was filled with stuff about charlie & bonnie ocd which was really interesting and expanded upon charlie's compulsions we saw in home alone

maureen wanting to be buried in the pet cemetery was beautiful I miss that cat

unfortunately though I think the episode suffered from some pacing issues

because they were trying to fit in so many individual plot lines and flash backs (which were all great btw) it was quite a complicated episode

and so there was quite a lot of heavy long exposition in the dialogue

and (some?) scene(s) got cut as a result

the burial scene being cut hurt the ep because it would have been quite a neat resolution without just lots of 'now let me tell you about how I solved my thing' (which we really didnt need)

anyway, I still really enjoyed it despite this!

[ot3]

hey, any tips for staying in love with a series youre making? youve been working on quantum merit for 2 years now i think? any time i get an idea i just have it in the back of my mind that in a couple weeks im going to lose interest, let alone actually go through and start working on it. finishing soemthing is a distant dream. your art is amazing and a huge inspiration for me (is creativity infectious? bc thats how i feel whenever i read qm) so i was hoping maybe you had some insight. thanks <3

over two and a half years at this point actually! crazy! lacking the ability to follow through is a problem i've long had in life. i started drawing QM to try and curtail this. the trick isn't actually to stay in love with a series you're making, the trick is to learn to make things when you don't necessarily love it.

for me, the entire point of doing something operating on this level of self indulgence and experimental technique was to enable myself to churn stuff out even when i think everything i am doing is absolute shit, which is extremely extremely frequently. for long-haul projects you have to be willing and able to work on them even when you think all of your ideas are bad and all of your work is bad and not only is this the worst thing you have ever made, it is the worst thing anyone has ever made. the way i try and get through working on stuff when this is how i feel is that i remind myself i am not special in any way shape or form. everyone else in human history has had to make a lot of bad stuff before they get the privilege of making good stuff. this is allowed to be mine.

another thing that really helps is making sure that the process can be enjoyable even without good results. sometimes even when i hate everything i'm doing in terms of Substance, the act of just getting to draw something feels satisfying enough that i can make myself do it. this goes for all art, i think, not just long projects. if the Process is something you force yourself to sit through waiting for the end reward of a finished product, you're probably never going to be a functional artist. if you don't love Making art and you only love Finishing art you'll quickly find you don't make or finish much of anything.

additionally, i think an important part with long hauls like this is to never, ever look at the finish line. if i keep drawing the amount of stuff i have planned at the rate i have been drawing it, i will be at this for several more years minimum. thats an entirely overwhelming and terrifying thing to think about, and dwelling on it makes me freeze up and want to quit while i'm ahead. so i try not to ever think about actually finishing it. i have no idea if ill finish it i dont even have the slightest fucking clue what my life would even look like in the five years this could take to finish because it already looks nothing like it looked like three years ago. so instead focus on progress. if you think about finishing something you'll never do anything, if you think about just making a little bit of progress you can look back and suddenly you have over 100 full color pages. one foot in front of the other

i would also feel completely insincere if i did not mention how much all of the kind words people have had for my comic have helped me in finding the motivation to continue! seriously, it means so much to me that people like it. external motivation is not the be-all end-all of anything, but i suggest finding at least one friend who is willing to be your hype man and make them talk you out of being insane when you hate everything youre working on. when i reach the point where i literally like can't even tell what the pages im working on look like anymore i send them to my friends and make them all tell me that these are very normal looking drawings.

best of luck with your future endeavors anon i hope any of this is helpful! its an honor to be considered inspiring in any way

[ctheathy]

Hi !! Im not sure if my request sent but is it alright if I could ask for a miko (fnf skyverse) with a fem reader thats addicted to tiktok??

Skyverse anon

Miko[Sidney] w/ Tiktok addict!Reader

Miko x Reader

Fluff Headcanons

Short Concept

Author’s note: I appreciate seeing you back here, darling~!

Miko/Reader [Romantic//Platonic]

[Gender-neutral Darling|Female Darling|Male Darling]

Potential ⚠️TWs⚠️ :

None~!!

Miko has her own guilty pleasures herself, so she’s absolutely not gonna be taken aback by how much time you spend on your phone, your eyes glued onto your screen and just scrolling through Tiktok with no care in the world. In fact, I can see her finding it rather cute and enjoying the fact that you have your own hobbies to be passionate about. I mean, she used to be so attached to Friday Night Funkin' and obsessed with the game before you came around and pulled her into a healthier mindset. As long as it’s not affecting you in a negative mannered way; she’s going to be right beside you, enjoying every second of it while supporting you with whatever you wanna do on it and in any way she can.

There’s a massive chance that besides the activities and interests she’s all over herself, she’s quite a massive fan of the app as well. She’s been there ever since the beginning and stuck with it as soon as it became popular over all platforms. Your own devotion to it catches her a little by surprise, but she has no bad feedback over it either. In fact, she enjoys it to severe extents more than anything. It gives her a sense of connection with you and something she’s able to relate with. Among the topic, you two definitely just grow accustomed to your little lifestyle of Tiktok in no time and with ease nonetheless.

The conversations you both hold on a daily basis usually just goes towards one direction, but it seems to make you happy; so Miko happily goes along with it. You two just talk about the latest trends you’ve crossed paths with, some small hacks and tips you’ve came across for your daily routine, some of the satisfying and comforting videos incase either of you are feeling down and much, much more. You are certainly also one to gossip over the newest popular feeds that popped up in your recommendations. All it takes is one glance and you two will have another topic to gabble about for the next week. Having all nighters together on call through the entire time you both should be sleeping is a must. Usually resulting in you just laughing and giggling the night away.

I guarantee you that you two have at least a weekly schedule about what you two are gonna be doing on the app together. One day you both do these dancy dances in front of the camera while on the other you two just spend your time by scrolling in your free time. You two are really just two dorks who spend all of your time online, blabbering with one another and just having the time of your lives. Something I can also picture is that you both kind of grow this secret communication speech with one another. Just due to how much you both spend your time on the app, you get a little bit too used to the mannerisms and ways of talking the other other online users utilize. It grows to a point where those around you have literally no idea what the hell you’re rambling about. But at this rate, you both are so deep into your lifestyles where nothing can pull you out.

And you wouldn’t want to have it any other way.