#i should delete this later

[sweetdarling27]

*Googles “How to move on from someone you quickly became obsessed with but they threw you away no glue no borax.”*

[xariarte]

Bball ao3 tag looks like Wattpad out there

[theragethatisdesire]

if i said what i'm writing rn genuinely not one of u would fucking believe me

[moonmoonthecrabking]

this is a very personal post but fuck it. i would honestly be a lot more inclined to take my mother's non-affirming theology seriously if she didn't say to me in 2022, the same year she was being treated as a historical authority during [redacted], that she didn't believe bisexual men existed. flat out. because... many men in the ancient world were very much what we consider bisexual, and it is a considerable portion of what the new testament clobber passages are based on. so, therefore, i can't take her historical basis of non-affirming theology as true because there are inherent flaws with her understanding of queer identity that mean she's not sufficiently looking at the context of these passages. in my opinion.

of course, i can't say this, because 1. why should i remember that conversation and 2. why should i care.

fuck the [redacted] and fuck any implication that pride is not a necessity, even in progressive countries.

[jaxangel]

Life sucks and then you die - obmana

sorry for not posting or like... doing anything

I got a Nintendo switch for my birthday so I started only playing animal crossing and Splatoon 3 instead of drawing or writing

THEN I got hit with a bad flu or something that took me out for a week (im still suffering from symptoms) and all I could do was lay in bed. my entire family is suffering rn and my entire workplace. (its not covid so idk)

I was planning on focusing on artfight all month but NOPE!

I'm writing this at almost 6 am, I haven't slept. none of this could make sense but idc

will post art and stuff about artificially organic whenever I feel like my brain stops being soup

[paunchbunny]

one of the most affirming things i have ever been told was that i look like if someone took paul dano and put him in a hydrolic press. genuinely perfect description right there.

[mad-c1oud]

scared to answer asks bc of course I checked when im drunk and I have no filter I will say anything. not ignoring you im saving you from drunk mad who spells even worse and cannot for ma coherent thought to save her life

[crowwolf]

I sometimes really hate my brain. I'm so embarrassed. I thought I remembered something correctly, totally fubared it and there's no edit replies on stupid X and now I just feel stupid - so i deleted and coreected but still so stupid. I hate having MS and anxiety and depression and chronic insomnia and pain. Sorry for the rant, I just need to get it out. Small pity party, then back to me.

I cleaned out my chicken coop yesterday - hadn't done so in far too long and it took me far too long to do it. By the time I was done, it was hot out, my lymph nodes in my neck were swollen and I could hardly move. And yet, I still managed to sleep like shit. I'm just so tired.

[gucci-shinigami]

Once again trying to fight the feeling that I’m just a parasite in my friend group, that eventually I’ll just consume it from the inside out until there’s nothing left, and also trying to avoid that happening by removing myself from everyone without saying anything.

I’m worried about blowing up the inboxes of the people I care about and inadvertently pushing them away. But also scared that, the moment I slow that down, I’ll eventually disappear and be alone again

Once again thinking about the “I don’t fit in with other people, but I don’t like being alone” line and just how hard it resonates some days

[oh-cramity-its-amity]

whoever said that amity blight would love scream. you are 1000000% right and im gently grabbing your hands and cupping your face because you are SO right.

[kindaeccentric]

Also thinking about how my sibling gets to live separately with no worries or guilt while I was left feeling terrible every time I think about wanting to leave the house with my aging parents and my beloved cats in it. My sibling is nice, but won't ever understand what I'm dealing with emotionally and ethically here. I feel chained. I feel bad every time I look at job listings in a big city. I want to live on my own, but oh, the guilt. Plus I'm scared to be alone.

[tekatonic]

i am once again asking for your reblogs

[gemboundprism]

how was that a fair matchup on tumblr. they even used the lamest picture of a miata possible. they couldve at least given it a chance

[ros-sauce]

Being overcaffeinated should only make me Jittery, I don't know why it also makes me Stupid

[non-fantasy]

people are just mean and weird about hiyori!!! like someone told me "i don't ship liphiyo because i see them as just friends" which is fine but then they went on to say "yeah, hiyori is aizo and yujiro's sister/daughter" and it became really obvious that you do not actually think they can just be friends!! you are trying to erase hiyori as a possible love interest in any possible way and it's weird because hiyori??? is the mom friend??? she is literally only ONE MONTH younger than aizo and yujiro why are you treating her like she's the daughter !!!??? and like people SAY they're just having fun and making headcanons and if it were just that, it would be fine, but WHY ARE YOU CALLING LIPHIYO INCEST AND COMMENTING DAD AND DAUGHTER ON MY SHIP POST

like also remembering that time someone commented on my G-rated fic saying it was totally inappropriate for me to be sexualizing minors and i went "?????" and then i saw a aizo/yujiro porn fic but WHEN I CHECKED THE COMMENTS THEY WERE ALL "WE'VE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS" AND "THIS FANDOM WAS LACKING IN SMUT"???? and one time someone was called out for liking lewd aizo/yujiro porn fics BY HER TWITTER MUTUALS WHO LIKED THE SAME CONTENT and the time someone was like "i can't ship liphiyo because hiyori is like a baby to me and i can't see her having sex" and WHAT???? THEY ARE THE SAME AGE EVERYTHING ABOUT THIS TREATMENT IS WEIRD

and like you look at non-fantasy music video and say it's a mv about hiyori shipping aizo and yujiro and LITERALLY EDIT HER OUT OF IT and ignoring the context of it being HER DREAM ABOUT DATING AND MARRYING THEM and you are literally trying SO HARD to get her out of the picture of HER OWN DREAM

and like this is even obvious in the way that people treat her other ships! when nagisa was introduced, people started shipping hiyori with him ENTIRELY TO SHIP HER WITH SOMEONE OTHER THAN AIZO AND YUJIRO. people shipped hiyori and mona before they even had a single canon interaction but in the "bonus lesbian established relationship in the background of a m/m ship" way! i have a LIST of "guys hiyori is shipped with despite either not having much information known about him yet or being such a side character that you'd be forgiven for not knowing he exists"?????

and like people try and say that liphiyo shippers are homophobic??? and like what????? when it's a poly relationship between three people who are all in love with each other???? you're aware that homophobic does NOT mean "doesn't like a popular m/m ship" right????

AND LIKE IT'S SO FUCKING WILD because oh okay! the translation of hiyori's second novel is biased???? to erase times where hiyori's heart races around aizo and yujiro because they touched her and there's a part where the translation explicitly contradicts how the japanese fandom reads the scene and the translator pointed to that to say that yujiro was DISGUSTED by hiyori???? do you even like canon if you have to change canon so much to make it fit your views?!

i remember the person who said that the herotaru anime was bad because hiyori was TOO IMPORTANT in it and like. IT'S HER ANIME. and you say she's TOO IMPORTANT to aizo and yujiro and "they were doing just fine without her" and "it would be better if aizo and yujiro were the protagonists" and WHAT? ARE YOU SAYING??? THE ANIME IS LITERALLY TONING DOWN HOW IMPORTANT THE THREE OF THEM ARE TO EACH OTHER. and comparing this to enstars making anzu TOO IMPORTANT to trickstar and like!!! WHAT????

this isn't getting into how i've been treated by fans in this fandom but i am just!!! i am OKAY with people not liking the ship! BUT THIS IS JUST BEING WEIRD. THIS IS A WEIRD WAY OF TREATING GIRLS IN MEDIA. THIS IS A WEIRD WAY OF TREATING FANS IN MEDIA. STOP IT.