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fungi-maestro · 9 months

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#playlist #buddy knox #i think I'm gonna kill myself #suicide #sui ment #tw suicide #idk what else i can tag that with #lmk if i should add any others #anyway #this was on my discover weekly and is stuck in my head #which makes it a really unfortunate earworm given my tendency to unconsciously hum whatever i have stuck in my head #and cheerily going '🎶i think im gonna kill myself.🤪 i think im gonna kill myself!😄🎶' doesnt go over well generally. so.#Spotify #i will say that im in a pretty terrible mood tonight and every time i start to feel despair i just imagine some guy cheerily singing this #and im like. yeah okay i can't genuinely think things like this when i just hear his voice #but. you know what they say. thats life. sometimes the only thing that pulls you out of a spiral-#-is some weird ass rockabilly with a death wish.

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denkies · 2 years

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Me: i ❤ doomed relationship

The doomed relationship: *fulfills the "doomed" title*

Me:

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flowerakatsuka · 3 months

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feeling mushy about them today....

#these are some more pose redraws.... that and i wanted to draw them in my regular style #ugh i wanna draw them more but i'm gonna take a lil break so i don't get burned out before artfight #i love getting to draw them hugging and shit i need to do it more #whenever i get through my s2 rewatch and draw the ' hey kuroba i'm back from hell ' scene it's gonna be over for all you bitches—#the bitches is directed at myself i'm gonna die bc even just thinking about it kills me #osomatsu-san #osmt #yumematsu #karamatsu #mj ocs #oc : kuroba #ship : kurokara #mj draws

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cosmicjoan · 7 months

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I did a meme!

I wanted sooo much to draw them together and I think their height difference is right. Abe seems so small compared to Stranger and looks so cute^^

#oddworld #oddtumblr #oddworld fanart #oddworld stranger's wrath #alien #steef #fanart #art #oddworld abe #abe #I know I'm so frickin late #but I slowly getting myself together #meme #i think we're gonna have to kill this guy #i always spam tags and i'm still not sure if it's how it suppose to be #watercolor #watercolour illustration #traditional art #furry

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menlove · 1 hour

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brother how many times can you do this

#'i'll leave my message in my song that's where i'm gonna leave it baby' im gonna kill myself in front of him #to change the trajectory of his life #this made me feel violent i actually am done listening to wings now #this wings discography listen has been a test by god at how much paul embarrassing himself i can take and i think this song is my limit #like MAN-#whatever i dont even care

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dukeofqueers · 9 months

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Ser Fel, the Chimera Knight or Unmoored Knight

i love my arisen who was so cringe and fail that he got removed from his own world. get ratio’d by the Endless Cycle idiot

Thora, the other Arisen in the nihilism meme belongs to @missszena <3

in game featuring his pawn Leoris

#dragon's dogma #dragon's dogma dark arisen #ddda #fanart #sketch #art #artists on tumblr #ddda arisen #dragon's dogma oc #my art #screenshots are a bit outdated he has the diabolic shield now. i grinded for this bitch #fel isn't from gransys but don't ask me for names i'm entrusting the sequel to give us more world lore #he defeated his dragon but didn't kill it and got fucked over when he was lured to bitterblack. got lost there and was displaced entirely #thora is the one who stumbled on him and he's wound up in her world but hasn't managed to get back to his #he goes back to bitterblack after witnessing this cycle gets lost and turns into a living armor #note to the cycle maybe next time don't pick the depressed jaded knight as ur arisen. bro couldn't even be arsed to finish his quest #i think often about the lack of mystic knights and most of them appearing as undead. inherently doomed vocation or whatever #anyway i'm terrible at finishing any art for fel sry #i'm gonna go make myself emo over fel's relationship with leoris now. see you whenever

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yrdnzz · 1 year

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kainess for an art trade w the FAMOUSSSS @ghostvom :] we started the trade in april btw haha.... hashtag artist in stem

on twitter yayyyy

#yrdnzz art #blue lock fanart #blue lock #michael kaiser #alexis ness #kainess #kainess is so canon guys trust me....#this was really fun #took forever tho bc i didnt use any refs ohhhh my gewdness #in my head kaiser is the crazy kind of possessive where he feels the need to likeee #assert himself as someone superior or some shit #he sees ness as a possession and thats why hes always so grabby with him #thinking that he would get extra grabby whenever other ppl talk to ness a lot --> feels like he's gonna get taken or smth #ness likes it tho bc he likes being kaiser's #“i'm kaiser's shield” head ass #i hate gay men booooooo #i need to kill myself guys when will suicide sunday get here #toxic yaoi

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kaisollisto · 7 months

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heich0e · 7 months

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i'm just imagining tobio with his pupils dilated and teeth gnashing and drool unwittingly dripping down the tensed lines of his jaw and throat as he tries to resist giving in to the urge to take. to devour. to claim.

#i'm gonna kill myself i think

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b4kuch1n · 6 months

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tdov was like a week ago already but I just wanna say when I came over to vacation slash help my sworn brother move flat he told me, "ever since you said you wanted to get top surgery I've been thinking about it. it's straight up number two on my bucket list"

#bakuspeech #number one is a house bc obviously. if u can own a house wouldnt u #he was very drunk at that time of the evening. I was not bc I have the constitution of a hot air balloon and any stimulant will blow me up #(relatively new development. france fucked me up big time turns out)#we held hand on his bed for like the whole evening. it was honestly very funny in hindsight but we were extremely earnest in the moment #and Im like. working on this thing as well. I dont got meds or therapy lmao Im bootstrappin here #but yeah early last year his bf offered to get me meds and I... turned it down... I think I was worried abt like. idk. something #but one year past looking back Im fully like that was a stupid move you shouldve gotten meds. youve once again fucked urself baku #but yeah with that kinda realization Ive also come to realized I've somewhat? accepted. that I'm just gonna be. like this #this in light of a number of likely chronic stuff too (hence my balloon-like constitution lmao) and #that's kinda bled into the rest of me without me really noticing #but him bringing that up fully unprompted... kinda jolted me out of it #its just. really incredibly sweet. that someone doesn't want me to settle for what I make do with #and like. preps for that work. just kinda held my hand and told me it's possible to do this actually #I didn't really express how I felt very well in that moment I think my brain is very bad and I process emotions with like a day of delay #but. well. Im thinking abt it Right Now. so yknow thats the kind of impact that had on me lol #not super sure why I wrote all this down here really. I think I just want a good n nice reminder that object permanence is real #and I exist in my friends' life even when Im going insane in a hole by myself #and with the power of friendship we can alter the universe's plan for ourselves and also kill god #that's that. anyways I eat lunch now and then pass out probably. last night was... eventful lmao #but!! very good things on the horizon hopefully. well manifestly we hold hammers and we use them #have a good day lads. let's go out and slay monsters under a highway

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gloriousmonsters · 1 month

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sometimes i'm like. am i actually a narcissist? just for a moment. then i remember that from the ages of like 12-19 i eschewed all other photographs or more normal forms of decoration to keep a framed photo of myself on either my desk or my bedside table where i could look at it constantly. cuz i thought i looked cute and confident and no it did not occur to me i might like to have a photo of like, a family member or some cool trees or something i just took like 7 years to go huh wait other people don't keep a photograph of themselves on their desks? what do you do when you want to look at yourself go all the way to a mirror??? anyway it wasn't realizing this was unusual that made me stop the photo just got water damage

#rip it genuinely made me so happy bc it was like 10-y-oldish me lounging upside down in a chair #with my hands behind my head just smiling the hugest most smug smile #everything Went Wrong when i was 8 or 9 so maybe i was younger when it was taken? or i was just on an upswing/good day #but tinyme exuded so much confidence in that photo it acted like a coping mechanism trigger object #id look at it and just go 'hell YEAH we're crushing it'. (reader i was not crushing it ever)#anyway just thought of this bc i was thinking abt the shit therapist i saw once b4 i got a better one recently #where i shared i 'found it useful to use npd as a framework to help me manage' i.e 'i self-dxed and i'm right but i'm gonna act #like i could be wrong. also all dxes are bullshit to some degree'#and then like. 5 min later i was explaining some of the things i've already worked on and what i wanted to #and my general mental profile blah blah. and she was like 'um... wow you think a lot about yourself!' and i literally just.#looked at her and then pointed to myself and said 'i mean #narcissism...'#anyway she got fired or smth and the guy i have now is chill. this can count as a life update ig #sunflower radio hour #vic talks #my arms are killing me i should not have typed........... Hubris.

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lazuliquetzal · 8 months

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Saw the tags on ur previous ask, Atreus having to mercy kill his father so obviously kratos does not want revenge on his killer literally pshhhh crying so hard rn

Listen there's this snippet of Lore called The Cycle Of Patricide, and I spent the entire four years between GOW 2018 and Ragnarok EXPECTING Atreus to stab Kratos. Cory Balrog baited me. When I saw that final image on the wall in Jotunheim, I fully interpreted that as Atreus stabbing Kratos and offering his body to Thor. My evidence:

"Is this what it is to be a god? Is this how it always ends? Sons killing their mothers, their fathers?"

We saw Kratos kill Zeus, and more importantly, Atreus saw Kratos kill Zeus.

The repeated motif of violence in parent-child dynamics (Thor and his sons, Thamur and his son, Freya and Baldur, everything with Odin, that side quest with the son who regretted killing his father in Fafnir's Storeroom, pretty sure there's a lot more I'm forgetting)

The enduring question of whether or not fate is inevitable. Is it possible to break the cycle?

Atreus's anger and thirst for blood.

Atreus literally shot Kratos and sent them into Hel.

"So you'd let me kill you?" "If it meant that you would live... yes."

SO IT'S NOT MY FAULT IT'S SAD, AND IT'S NOT MY FAULT THAT I WROTE THIS. THIS IS LITERALLY NOT MY IDEA--

#god of war #bluestonewings #THIS SHIT WAS FORESHADOWED SO HARD AND THEY DIDN'T DO IT? SMH #atreus is gonna go evil in a later game and stab kratos i'm calling it now #it will break me in two and i don't think he'd actually kill kratos (unless it is a mercy kill situation)#but you can't just fucking foreshadow this and drop it entirely i'm losing my mind #they didn't even do a metaphorical death.#i spent years bracing myself for Maximum Grief and then they swerved #i love ragnarok a lot! but The Plot Thread. Tie it off. Please #asks #lazuli talks #lie by omission gow

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selfinflictedgunshotwound · 3 months

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sorry for only saying this type of shit lately but i kinda wanna drive a car straight into a brick wall at the highest speed possible

#trying to keep it together so bad because i already know the problems and solutions and whatnot but i cannot do anything #i desperately just need to do something. accomplish any task. actually several would be nice. but i cannot stand just letting life go by #while i watch other people have the things i want. or even metaphorically living my dream like. that should be me why am i settling for thi #i hate even talking about this because i feel so stupid when i know it's not even a real tangible problem and that i actually DO have real #problems to tackle and the ability to do so but i'm choosing to be upset over the stupidest things i could possibly be sad about #and i can't even be sad about it in a normal way i'm cycling through like several different reactions to smth that isn't even real #or if it is real i literally do not have tanglible evidence for it one way or another like i'm driving myself insane for no reason #i can't even get catharsis because all i'm doing is digging a deeper hole for something i never should've gone back into in the first place #because i KNOW how i am i KNOW how i react to things and i still chose to do it lmao.#and i continue to choose to go through this shit instead of actively trying to change my life because... i'm lazy? and stupid? idk #negative self-talk isn't gonna get me to do anything either so let's just say i'm feeling particularly unmotivated like usual #i hated being a teenager but i really do miss when all my problems just amounted to 'someone was mean to me on tumblr today :(' or i failed #a test in chemistry or something. like i yearn for that simplicity becasue at this point all i'm doing is ruining my own life LMAO #i'm too scared to live i'm too scared to die so i just sit here and fantasize that life could be amazing if i wait #and i'll magically get everything i've ever wanted if i just wait long enough. and i know it isn't true and i still wait for it to happen.#because honestly like. i think deep down i am just convinced i will fail at anything i do when that shouldn't be what scares me.#what scares me should be never even allowing myself to fail because i never tried to do anything at all with myself or my life #like. wake the fuck up. get off your ass and put in the effort. learn some skills. gain independence and stability and discipline and do it #just live please i'm begging you just live so i can be happy don't i deserve to be happy... why am i not letting myself be happy #i'm literally keeping myself trapped in this negative feedback loop ON PURPOSE because teehee shiny toy #and it doesn't matter if the love is real it doesn't matter how i feel like i'm just using it as a distraction i can't say it's motivation #because it's barely motivated me at all. i have to start being realistic. 25 & just realizing you actually have to participate in your life #anyways. i've cried i've agonized i've pictured killing myself in 30 different ways. i think the only way i'm gonna feel better is #to just actually try this time without giving up. wish me luck

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jabeur · 3 months

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okay like the thing is that suicide jokes and such are probably not that bad or that big of a deal if you're not really suicidal but if you're For Real suicidal or have been before and are not doing well mentally and you keep making them and start finding comfort in the thought you could kill yourself if you wanted to. be careful

#like i'm being serious rn 😭😭#it genuinely became my only source of comfort and i ended up feeling like that was the only solution #and it wasn't even necessarily bc i wanted to be dead. at least not most of the time #but it felt like the only way for things to change?#i was so stuck and in the extreme act of killing myself i could see change i could see moving forward #which like. yeah but it's obviously DANGEROUS i mean i could've died for real #sometimes i wish i had blabla but mostly i'm glad i didn't but it was still all so awful to go thru?#and idk sometimes i think if i'd not normalized the idea of suicide in my head for so long i wouldn't have gotten to that point #ik that genuinely most ppl who make suicide jokes are gonna be fine it's not gonna affect them much #but some of us are severely mentally ill 😭😭 i've been suicidal on and off since i was 13 or something #and it's just not good for me and i just want to be like. if you're also mentally ill please analyze if it's bad for you too #bc ah brains are fucked up !!!!!!! like i have a personality disorder and my brain has probably never been Not fucked up so i have to accep #that i have to be gentler towards it bc it'll start having fucked up beliefs easily lmao like the amount of things i rationally understand #but emotionally i believe and feel the opposite and it does NOT help to just rationally know !!!!! which sucks #but i'm working on it with a professional bc yeah i can't just get rid of the bad thoughts and negative shit on my own which i guess is ok?#okayyyyy.. back to football

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toshidou · 2 years

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Can you IMAGINE how easy it would be to give ghost a blowjob under the table?? he's so good at being stoic, the mask would obviously help, and if it weren't for the bearely noticeable stutter every once in a while and the very slow cant of his hips while he fucks your throat with a leg thrown over your shoulder it would be completely unnoticeable. Whatever mission briefing he's talking about he's gone over with you before, but soap and gaz are sitting in their spinny chairs half asleep while he's cumming down your throat 💓💓💓💓 he's so sweet <33

what is it with you lot coming into my ask box and punching the air out of my lungs with the absolute gold you send me

anyway i'm sorry it's taken me so long to get to this, but i wanted to wait until i had both the time and energy to actually write something for this because... yeah it had me feelin some type of way LMFAO

it'll probably be up some time tomorrow because writing filthy smut during the early hours of the morning usually only ends up with a shit ton of spelling errors SLDFLSD

#anon.exe #seriously though #this singular ask has plagued my thoughts since you sent it #all i can think about is him just using you as he pleases and never once faltering in his speech #HE'S SO HOT #I NEED HIM #my thoughts rn are just that one tiktok audio #''IF YOU DON'T LET ME SUCK YOUR DICK I'M GONNA KILL MYSELF TAKE YOUR PANTS OFF RN OR I'M GONNA PULL THE TRIGGER"#simon riley imagine #simon ghost riley #simon riley x you #simon riley smut #ghost mw2 #simon riley

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rapidhighway · 1 month

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Hnngg

#im so stressed ughhhhh #this divorce is gonna end me man though im probably stressing out over nothing AGAIN #like tomorrow my dad's bringing some expert to the house to put a price on the house #and i literally have no idea whatever that's gonna be how we are gonna pay that shit lmaoo #also i just really don't wanna be there or be with them in the same house god i hate it when they're near each other #i am..... going through it more than i probably should since I'm an adult now n stuff but whatever #it's not like i can just stop feeling all this distress and grief n shit especially since he's already found a girlfriend #with kids and stuff and they've already been going to my grandparents ughhh i feel thrown away you know #it hasn't even been a year it's pissing me off so badly #i feel like killing myself every time i think about tomorrow and then I feel even worse when i think about later ughhh #i shouldn't be so distressed i really shouldn't #especially since I've been living my life on an incredible streak of luck so.#whateverrrrr #uhh like comment and subscribe #vent #i just gotta. cause there isn't anyone here i can really talk to since #everyone sees this so much more differently and sis is just always telling me im making it into something bigger than it is #but it's really stressing me out #idk i fear this is not gonna end nicely I don't even see him anymore #and it literally hasn't even been a year but he's not really talking to me but at the same time i don't really #feel like talking to him either so who knows uhh..

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