#i think i remember seeing snippets on youtube for something

[renma-posts]

Did you know that there are drama CDs for Servamp, most of them are just light hearted little non canon stories of characters interacting, Tsubaki and Belkia show up in alot of them. You can find quite a few of them on yt

Oh they do?? I didn't know that! I'll have to check it out!

[felassan]

Snippets. 🐺💜 DA:TV spoilers under cut.

Carly: Lucanis is "pretty average [height] everyone else is ridiculously tall" [source]

John: "getting absolutely dummied by an encounter in the game you work on as your day job is a uniquely humbling experience" [source] Trick: "Me desperately doing side quests to bulk up before the next big critpath beat because I KNOW I am not currently good enough at Rogue to beat that meat grinder at my current level and gear without dropping the difficulty back down." [source]

John: "hands up if you’re in game dev and have ever caught yourself searching Google for a guide to the game you’re working on that’s not even out yet" [source]

Flaming greatswords? ^^ [source]

Jay: "God, I remember the concept art for this scene" [source] (the scene in the gameplay reveal when Solas sheds a tear when it fails)

Kala: "Thinking back to playing Dragon Age Veilguard with the Council and all the fun we had, the crying (mostly me) and the shock at some of the surprises (especially Caitie) and I can't believe that's gonna be the entire fanbase soon. I can't wait to experience it with everyone" [source]. "I genuinely cannot wait for everyone to see Veilguard. I *know* for a fact there is going to be things people will freak out about, just like we did. There's A LOT people will love. Everyone will have stuff they don't like, which is inevitable, but there's so much to love" [source] Caitie: "Holding hands and sharing headphones because i unlocked the [redacted] scene first ❤️ Fond memories 😭😭" [source]

Trick on some of the chairs in the Lighthouse library group screenshot: "As much as I ADORE the idea of Solas sneaking out of Skyhold with a U-Haul packed to the brim with furniture and all the good mage gear you gave him, I expect it's likely just a common Fereldan style." [source]

Caitie: "If it helps- ive also seen silly ‘head canons’ and jokes thats will end up true haha" [source]

Caitie: "I'm not sure if we can say where we ended up in the story- but we got farther than the GI guy did it seems! By quite a bit. Did not get close to finishing it, however." [source]

Kala: "Pssst… we saw the companion rooms and the Lighthouse and it was really something amazing 👀👀" [source]

edit/update:

here are some more snippets which were posted by the Dragon Age official YouTube account in the livechat on one of the videos last month:

"There are lots of hairstyle options, we’ll have much more to share on the character creator in the coming weeks!"

"It wouldn’t be a Dragon Age game without a visit to the Deep Roads!"

"Our team spent a lot of timing refining combat and making it feel fluid and fun whether you play as a Warrior, a Mage, or a Rogue"

"It wouldn’t be a Dragon Age game without consequences! Your choices will influence the world of Thedas, as well as relationships with your companions"

A user asked "Are you a Fen’Harel spy?" Dragon Age replied "👀"

[witchlingcirce]

see i just don’t consider anything in tlh universe (including bonus content) canon im sorry 😭 like not only does the main trilogy feel completely alienated from established tsc cc pretty much retconned the whole family tree lol and i don’t buy the whole it was planned excuse lmao

I actually think this sentiment is shared by a lot of the TSC fandom! Which coming online and seeing that was a really big surprise to me as i remember CHOG and CHOI being very well received in the YouTube fandom.

I think the reason it feels very alienating from TSC is just from the fact that this series don’t really lead into anything. Like TID came out alongside the last three tmi books and Tessa & Jem (+mentions of Will throughout the books) Cassandra actually had the time to integrate these characters into the story which make it more impactful, TLH didn’t really get this privilege since it came out a lot later than the other books: So Cassie didn’t really get this opportunity in the main books. I mean she definitely did it in SOBH and also in the change from the LOS ARC to the published copy when the engraving said “MF + LH” to “JB + LH) 🤷🏻‍♀️. I don’t necessarily think this is a fault of the series but I think that’s probably the reason why some people feel disconnected to it alongside the other books.

I DO however thing TWP will have more TLH references and definitely parallels! Livvy + Jesse definitely parallel each other. Not to mention the fact that TWP’s overall villain is Lucifer and TLH’s was Belial, I’m sure we will get mentions of such from Jem or Tessa. Not to mention that ONE snippet of Jem saying Ty looks like Jesse… so I feel like TWP probably having more references to tlh might make it feel more cohesive with the series to the audience!

This is off topic from what you’re saying anon but I think the way CHOT changed how people perceived the entire series is crazy to me. Like it went from being decently well liked to being verryyyy disliked! I’m still someone who personally doesn’t like CHOT but I reread CHOG and CHOI in February and I forgot how much I enjoy those books, especially Jordelia + Matthew!

Now onto the family tree: I could talk about this retcon for hours. Tlh is a series Cassandra had been planning for many many many years. Now I’m no TSC timeline expert but I think she started to mention plans for TLH around 2015? So it was definitely a series Cassandra had planned for a long long while. I think the family tree was something that Cassandra regretted… deeply, I think mostly because it’s not wise to ‘release’ a whole plan for a series you haven’t necessarily started writing.

I don’t really mind that she retconned the family tree, I think she would have wrote herself into a circle and been miserable. I actually think letting herself not be tied down to said family tree probably freed her ALOT, lol. My only problem with the family tree (AND I WAS TELLING MY MOOTIE ABT THE OTHER DAY) is the random younger kids 😭😭 like why is everyone 13 years older than there siblings… why is Charlotte pregnant with twins at 48??? Like can we please be serious?😭😭

So yeah Anon, I get what your saying. I’ll be totally honest that TLH is not my favourite series either but I do enjoy it. I do however think that instead of debating whether how good or bad TLH is, we should all put this energy into hating Jesse blackthorn, than we can become a real united front

[tiramisuucakeee]

THRILLER !

( yang jungwon )

read part one.

PREVIOUSLY: y/n got a weird message on her phone, telling her to meet the sender in her basement, since he wanted to confess something, away from the party. who could they be?

“that’s my pretty girl,” you instantly grinned at jungwon’s sweet voice that called out to you, walking towards him, almost as if in a hurry.

"hey, what are we doing here?" you almost stumbled into his chest, but he caught you gently by the forearms, his grip firm yet tender as he noticed the water glistening on you.

he raised an eyebrow, a hint of amusement in his expression. you smiled shyly, feeling your heart flutter. "uh, we all jumped into the pool," you admitted, swaying slightly on your feet.

you hesitated for a moment after seeing him nod, then asked, "were you the one who messaged me from that unknown number?"

jungwon's expression shifted, a hint of sheepishness creeping into his smile. "yeah, that was me. i lost my phone when i handed it to niki to take some pictures." he remembered the moment, seeing the younger boy escape with his phone, running away to who-knows-where.

“of course he did,” you laughed, "why did you want to meet here?"

jungwon's cheeks flushed slightly, and he looked away, clearly embarrassed. "it was just the first place that came to mind," he admitted, scratching the back of his neck. "but now i realize it probably seems a bit creepy."

you couldn’t help but smile at his honesty. "you think so? it’s okay though, you’re here,” you punched him playfully.

his gaze met yours again, relief washing over his expression. "i just wanted a chance to talk to you… away from everyone else, i apologize if you were busy-" he started, realizing that you had been with other people.

the warmth in your chest grew, and you found yourself wanting to reassure him. "no, no, i’m glad you did. i don’t care, it feels nice to be here just with you." and it was wholeheartedly true. you could recall various moments in your life where you had just wanted to be alone with him. it felt so nice, so easy to be yourself. he was genuinely one of the only people who you felt relieved at being with.

jungwon always had this sense of comfort, that you could rely on him for anything, as he did with you. he only let you see sides of him no one else knew. like the dinosaur pj shirt he always wore under hoodies, how he did a tiny dance when eating something delicious or how he sometimes pretended to be a youtube when showing you stuff through videocall.

he just liked being around you so much, that he feels tense when you’re not there. often thinking what would you do in a certain situation or how you would react. and he knew you that well that he was always right on point. it was like he could see into your heart, and it made everything feel so real.

everyone could see he was absolutely irrevocably in love. the way he stared at you for hours and hours, the way he touched you so gently and sweetly. imagining how it would be like to overstep those boundaries and hold you like a lover.

jungwon’s feelings for you had grown into something almost obsessive, a desperate need that he struggled to contain. the more time he spent with you, the more he realized how much he craved your presence, like a lifeline he couldn’t let go of.

he often replayed conversations in his mind, wishing he could hold on to those snippets of happiness forever. the thought of you laughing or smiling at him sent his heart racing, but it also filled him with an anxious desire to keep you close, to ensure no one else could take your attention away. he became increasingly aware of how much he needed you, and it scared him.

the thought of telling you how he felt gnawed at him, but it wasn’t just about sharing his feelings, it was about claiming you in a way. he wanted you to know how much you meant to him, not just in a sweet, romantic way, but as someone who needed you to fill the void he felt without you.

jungwon felt a surge of determination mixed with desperation. he knew deep down that he was the only one who could make you feel the way you did when you were together, the laughter, the comfort, the sense of being truly seen. you were at your best with him, and he couldn’t shake the belief that no one else could understand you like he did.

the thought of you falling for someone else’s lies haunted him. what if someone else made you laugh or saw the beautiful parts of you that he cherished? he couldn't let that happen. it felt like a race against time, he had to confess his feelings before someone else swept you off your feet with empty promises. the idea of you being with someone who didn’t truly appreciate you fueled his anxiety.

the moment he would finally speak up, laying his heart on the line. he wanted to show you that he was the one who truly cared, the one who would support you through everything.

he couldn't ignore the tightening in his chest every time he saw you smile at someone else, like jake or heeseung, the way it made him feel both protective and possessive, because they didn’t know you like he did. they didn’t know your worth.

you looked at jungwon, sensing the storm of emotions brewing just beneath the surface. “what’s going on in your head?” you asked, gently brushing his hair away from his face, wanting him to open up. his eyes flickered with uncertainty, but there was an intensity that made your heart race.

he took a deep breath, stepping closer to you, the air thick with tension. “i… can’t keep pretending,” he stammered, his voice barely above a whisper. “you have to know how much you mean to me. i’ve been trying to hold it in, but it’s eating me alive.”

he pulled you in, the heat between you noticeable. “you’re the only one who makes me feel this way, and i want to be the only one who makes you feel like this too,” he continued, his desperation clear. “the thought of you with someone else? it drives me crazy. i make you happier than anyone else ever could, don’t i?” his words hung heavy in the air, and you felt a rush of adrenaline.

you gulped, feeling him so close, “yeah, you do, but. you already know that,” you laughed slightly. at your words, you could see there was an undeniable intensity in his eyes, and you realized just how much he needed you.

his voice dropped to a husky whisper, sending a thrill through you. “i need you to understand that if you say so, i’m not going anywhere. you can’t let someone else take what’s ours. it’s mine- yours. i am yours.”

the tension between you was electric, sparking something deep within. you could feel your own desire mirrored in his desperation. the thought of being with someone else made your stomach churn, and it wasn’t just because of him. it was about how he made you feel, how he saw you in a way no one else did.

jungwon was so deep in your life that him not being there would actually make you go crazy. whenever something happened, he was there with you or to hear you out. you couldn’t possibly imagine him being that person for someone else. you didn’t want that.

“i can’t let you slip away,” he said, pulling you even closer, his breath hot against your face. “you make me feel alive, and i want you to know that you need me just as much. you can’t deny it.” he knew you, in a way no one did, that much that he could describe your feelings.

you could sense his desperation, the fierce need to have you, and it was intoxicating. you realized how deeply he cared. not just as a friend but as someone to love.

jungwon locked eyes with you, his expression serious and worried. “what’s going on in that pretty head of yours?” he asked, his voice low and urgent. “i don’t need you to tell me you feel the same about me, i know what you think about being with someone, but i don’t even need that, just having you is enough for me.”

you hesitated, feeling the heat rising in your cheeks. he knew you didn’t like the ideas of any romantic relationship, until you get older, all your life has always being random hook ups and make outs, never truly opening your heart. but you believed you could open it to jungwon. “i… didn’t realize how much i would hate the idea of losing you to someone else until now, i don’t want you to treat anyone else like you treat me,” you admitted, the words spilling out. “it scares me, i know it’s selfish, but it’s true.”

his gaze sharpened, and he leaned closer, his hand brushing against yours. “good. you can be selfish all you want. i want you, and i need you to say it.”

your heart raced at his words, feeling something tug in your stomach. “i want this too,” you said, feeling the tension crackle between you. “but, what if we change? i already like how we are now.”

“what are you scared of?” he asked, touching your face gently, contrasting his strong felt demeanor, almost making you melt in his soft hands.

“it’s not that simple to say, it’s embarrassing,” you laughed shyly, burying your head in his neck, feeling as his hand pulled you closer by the waist, the other one playing with your hair.

“i’m sure you can say it, y/n, i need to know if you need me as much as i need you, and if you don’t, nothing won’t change ever, because i’ll still stay for you,” he spoke against your ear, making you feel even more timid about your feelings.

you weren’t the best at communicating what you wanted. even if you were hard headed about your ideas, your feelings were more complicated. but you wanted him to know you appreciate his effort for telling you all this, by saying the same back.

the heat between you grew more, and you took a shaky determinate breath. “okay, fine. i like you, jungwon. more than i want to admit. i want you, and i don’t want you to look or even think about anybody else. because if you would, it means that everything between us was a lie. and it just feels too real to be one.” you started, knowing the words wouldn’t stop coming out.

“i want you so much it drives me crazy too. but it’s like i’m losing control, whenever i try to hide it, and i don’t know how to handle it. it’s too much for me, it was really hard to just be friendly. and i hate how dependent that makes me feel, but i really, desperately want to give into you,” you confessed, feeling him tense up around you.

a smirk crept onto his lips. “see? that wasn’t so hard. now you know how real this is. i want you to trust me with that need, because we’ve never been only ‘just friends’. i would never even dream of thinking about someone else, because you consume my mind,” he placed a small kiss on your neck.

“jungwon…” you whined, feeling your face get hot at his actions, everything was scaling too much just for a single day, it was like all the years of secret touches, glances and words were pouring down at this exact moment.

it came to you how much chances you had wasted, how many times you’d pull away, knowing he felt the same, but nervous of the idea of ruining it. something was always holding you back, but now, feeling his lips on your skin, it didn’t anymore.

“i know, pretty girl. just know, you’re not getting away that easily now,” he replied, letting you pull away, a mischievous glint in his eyes.

“yeah,” you nodded, feeling more at ease, “i know, i just… i want to enjoy this, right now, with you.”

“with me?” he smirked playfully, making your eyes widen, slapping his arm softly, unbelievably flushed at the last few minutes.

then his eyes met yours again, and he could tell by show much they shined that you were happy, content with him, with the moment. and that fact alone made his body feel warm. he would never get over this, over how happy he made you.

“alright, whatever you want,” he smiled, slipping his hand into yours lovingly, “want to go back? i mean, you’re still covered in water, we need to get you into dry clothes,” he asked, then corrected himself.

“oh,” you looked down at yourself, completely forgetting all about jumping into the pool a while ago. “okay, yeah, we’re doing that first,” you chuckled.

“come on,” he tugged your hand, leading you up the stairs. and you could feel yourself melting hearing his sweet voice.

as you and jungwon started climbing the basement stairs, the door suddenly swung open, revealing wonyoung standing there with a puzzled expression. she furrowed her brows, taking in the scene before her, how close you and jungwon were, hands still intertwined.

“oh,” she said, her tone teasing but curious. “i came to check on you like i said i would, but it looks like you found someone more adequate to acompany you.”

you felt your cheeks heat up, and you glanced at jungwon, who was trying to suppress a grin. “uh, it’s… we’re just talking,” you stammered, but even you could hear the uncertainty in your voice.

“sure, sure,” wonyoung replied, a playful smirk on her lips. “just make sure to do whatever you guys where plannning on doing after halloween, okay? i don’t want the ghosts to see anything weird in the basement, they should be the ones scaring you, not the other way around.”

“wonyoung,” you said, almost commanding her to let go of the situation and leave. she scrunched her nose, a big smile on her face, and skipped back up.

“she’s going to tell everyone, isn’t she?” you sighed, turning towards jungwon, who held back a laugh. “yeah, she is,” he bit his lip, then leaned forward, leaving a small kiss in your neck again, before running the the first floor.

you both made your way through the party, laughter and chatter swirling around you. a few people spotted you hand in hand, and playful whistles and cheers followed as you ascended, thinking somethigg no completely different of the situation. but you knew that once you reached your room, it would be a different kind of atmosphere, just the two of you, away from the noise.

now inside your room, the warm light created an ambiance that felt intimate. jungwon leaned against the frame of your bed, his gaze on you as you changed into a soft hoodie. the way he looked at you, intense, almost hungry after pouring his feelings down for you, made your heart race. it was as if he was memorizing every little detail, the way the fabric draped over you, the way you moved.

he softly closed his eyes, savoring every second he had in your presence, wanting to stay like this forever. jungwon got what he wanted, and you would be getting what you deserved, all of him.

after changing clothes, you settled down beside him on the bed, both of you laying back and staring at the ceiling. the sounds of the party faded, leaving a comfortable silence filled with unspoken tension.

“you know,” you began, glancing at him, “hypothetically, if you stayed the night, a walk early in the morning would be nice, don’t you think? just us.”

jungwon turned his head, his expression shifting to something more serious. “just us,” he replied, a playful smirk playing at the corners of his lips. “but we’d have to watch out for any creepy ghosts. don’t want them seeing anything too intense, right?”

“okay that’s enough,” you laughed, echoing his words back to him, “too intense,” with a scoff. his laughter faded into a soft smile, and then he leaned in, pressing a gentle kiss against your cheek. the ghost of it lingered, sending a shiver down your body.

“anything with you sounds more than nice,” he said, his voice low and sincere, his gaze piercing yours. the way he looked at you, with such care, made you feel seen.

you turned your body to jungwon, a loving smile spreading across your face. “i’m really happy you opened up to me,” you said softly, feeling a rush of affection. “it means a lot, and i’m sorry for, everything, for the friendly thing.”

without thinking, you leaned in and wrapped your arms around him, pulling him into a tight hug. he was warm and comforting, and you felt his arm wrap around you, pulling you even closer. the way he held you made it feel like the world outside disappeared.

as you nestled against him, you could feel his heartbeat, steady and calming. the position shifted, and before you knew it, you were almost laying on top of him, his warmth enveloping you completely. you could sense the tension between you, but it felt safe.

“you really are something else,” jungwon murmured, his breath warm against your ear. you could hear the smile in his voice, and it made your heart flutter.

“i’m really happy right now,” you said softly, feeling a rush of affection. “you make me happy, you know?”

“i know,” he said, his fingers gently tracing little patterns up and down your back. “and i want you to know i’m here for you, always.”

looking down at jungwon, your eyes met his dark sparkling ones back. it was a look that described what he truly felt, pure love and admiration, because having you in his arms right here, right now, it was everything he had ever wished for.

BTW: (dam that’s crazy, but HEAR ME OUT) THIS JUNGWON BEHAVIOR IS CRAZY, EXCLAMATION POINT !!!!! he’s so # sigma alpha male 🤓 guys this jw kinda reminds me sm of my ex bf this is not normal i’m going crazy i hate that man but i love this one. also, guess who is dressing up as straw bbbbb berry shortcake for halloween??? 🙂‍↕���🤭

EXTRA:

masterlist.

[accidentally-in-fictional-love]

Happy Birthday David Dastmalchian 🎂🎉🎁🎈

To celebrate, I'm stealing borrowing from my friend's @polkadotjohnson amazing idea of making a Top 10 Loved/Hottest roles of his, with an honourable mention for both~ Here's 30 of my most adored characters of his with little snippets for each, it's a looooong read, and if anyone else wants to make their own, here's a tierlist I made for this exact purpose 💗💗💗

10.

💘 Love of my Life - Dr Fearless

My cringefail boyfriend, I love every single headcanon I hear about him. He was so damn cute even before I fell in love, and now every time I see him I start giggling and kicking my feet lol 😚 I adore how much fun DD has with him, and honestly I’m gunna dress as a vampire for Halloween this year /)w(\ been like 20+ years but I really really wanna do it!

🔥 Hottest Role - Whistling Marauder (Bird Box)

Mother of mercy. We rewatched the whole movie just for him, so naturally he shows up near the end and then died ;w; but that outfit, holy hell. Oh my god. I’m such a sucker for bad boys and this guy is going around forcing people to stare at this eldrich being that’ll destroy you or drive you mad. And he looks goddamn great while doing it. Gunna attach myself to the chain on his jeans. Okay I’m normal again, what a way to start off the list lmao

❣️ Honourable Mention - Luke (Singled Out)

Douchebag. Shitty brother who’s also great if only to save his own ass. Thief. Pure idiot. Irresistible. I knew the moment I saw the clips on youtube that he would so be my type, and seeing the full pilot only proved that. Dude picked a burger over getting his sister, he would treat me so wrong half the time, but then he’d make me waffles and it’d be all better 😊

9.

💘 Love of my Life - The Writer (Making Love)

This one breaks my heart so much. I’ve been in a relationship like this before, and I really want to save him from his. He’s beautiful, he’s talented, his outfit is hot as hell with all the rings and bracelets and necklaces, not to mention the undone shirt buttons, he’s got the emo bangs, he is the complete package for me. The only reason he isn’t higher is because I fell for many others first. I almost never watched this one because my brain was going haywire trying to imagine what kinda scenes I’d find in something with a title like that, and sure enough my face was so red the entire time since I watched with headphones and it starts with him whispering right in my ear, like him asking, ‘Do you love me?’ nearly made me cry, I love him so much. If I could bring specifically him to life I would love the hell outta him until he stopped needing such a painful, self-destructive fake love with the Woman QwQ

❣️ Honourable Mention - Nick (Love is an Elevator)

This one is just a silly little guy /)w(\ right from the start he’s so adorable, I would melt if anything even close to his interaction happened to me, and him just swooning and saying she was beautiful before bailing in tears is so me-coded TwT I would love to go out on a date with him!

🔥 Hottest Role - Abra Kadabra (The Flash)

Abra was so tricky to place because I love him, but as soon as I remembered his buckle outfit from his second episode I knew he had to go under Hot. Like, again, I’m so weak. I love his attitude, I love how he just wants that applause for his showmanship, his ‘powers’ are cool as hell, and DD has the wand in his home now and I think that’s so damn cool 😊 The reveal with him wanting to bring back his alternate timeline family was so sweet I almost cried, and he definitely didn’t deserve to be killed out so instantly right after his redemption. Not even a fan/watcher of the show, but in my head I’m having Flash warn him about it since he’s from the future, so he’s fine now 😌

8.

💘 Love of my Life - James Lewis (Teacher)

James was also incredibly difficult to place because I love him so much ;w; The entire movie I was rooting for him, guy did nothing wrong in the face of what was going on around him, and granted he did take things too far, but… villains are hot 😳 so I won through that entire movie. And he lived! And kept getting to teach! I remember I pointed at the screen when he was putting books away cause that’s my job lol I felt truly close to him in that short moment 😂 Anyway, Arabella didn’t deserve him, like she wasn't into it from the moment they met, every single time he talked she would do this 😬 guy was going through hell and was very clearly in a bad place all around, I can’t fault him for drunkenly saying the wrong thing if it were me, even if it did really hurt me. Gunna give him a new wedding ring to put on when he gets outta prison.

❣️ Honourable Mention - Hector (Premature)

He’s so cute!!! I may be weak for villains, but I adore his sweeter roles as well, I’m so glad I got to see him. If I moved to a new city and he was my neighbour I’d know I’d be okay, because honestly he needs to be my roommate like yesterday. A chef who’s afraid to cook because of OCD, I’m sure he’d be able to help me with my own cooking from a safe distance, and I already have some practice as my sibling has OCD and is very strict about how her food is handled, so I’ll have come full circle. I just need to make him more okay with cuddles first…

🔥 Hottest Role - Denham (A Killer of Men)

Denham was another one that was hard to place, because that axe twirls makes me insane, but with what little screentime he gets it all evens out. Another great villain, he’s just senseless violence in a bloody wedding dress and he works it. Love the look, love the vibe, if the world ended and the whole gang was coming at me I’d be honoured if he was the one who got me (I swear I’m not that deranged lmao just thirsty)

7.

💘 Love of my Life - Simon Lynch (Almost Human)

Even now I feel like Simon should be higher, especially since I’ve written my fic about him as well as my deep dive. I’ve said it before but my heart really went out to him, the deep dive says way more than I can fit it here, which probably means he should be higher lol so give that (and maybe the fic too 👉👈😌) a read if you haven’t already, all my love for him went into both.

❣️ Honourable Mention - James Harris (The Employer)

Another adorable character, the bar flashbacks had me blushing every time. We all knew it’d be him, but I’m so glad he pulled through at the end. I want this one to be happy, especially after everything he went through. Absolutely cutiepie, gunna be the one to pay for his dinner after he gets home 😊

🔥 Hottest Role - Dwight Pollard (Gotham)

Since I go into all of his roles blind, I had no idea what to expect for this one, but from the start I was hooked. Having him be a crazed cult leader with the biggest, most feral smile and laugh ever stole my heart the things I would let this man do to me sakndskjds I liveblogged his eps to a friend of mine who’s seen Gotham and has been trying to get me to watch it for ages cause I love DC, so she was thrilled as I sat here screaming about everything leading up to his ending :’D I’ve gotten some encouragement to write him, so when I do it’s gunna be so insane I’ll have to tag the hell outta it lmao (btw making these gifs nearly killed me oh my god I need him)

6.

💘 Love of my Life - Joshua Whitmore (Cass)

All the pain I went through trying to get this movie was worth it because it all led to him. I love him, I adore him, I’m so incredibly glad that so many others got to see him and love him too thanks to my trials and tribulations. DD’s only artist role, I got to connect with him on a personal level not shared with the others, and my desire to make sure he’s safe and taken care of is so strong that I wrote 26k about him, they’re two of my most favourite things I’ve ever written. I’ve thrown the ending of the movie out and completely placed it with my own, which can be found in my fics, and until Hugh Schulze DMs me personally and tells me what his vision was, that’s what I’m sticking with forever. So rest easy, he’s free from New York and buyers and dealers and the street and he’s safe and happy and painting again ;w;

❣️ Honourable Mention - Thomas Schiff (The Dark Knight)

The OG, a lot of people’s first roles of his, including mine. I remember seeing this movie in theaters when it came out so that means I saw him up there, on the big screen, and something about him stuck around in my brain until I finally realized my love QwQ Even if he isn’t as fleshed out in my mind to make the actual list, I still needed to include him in some way, I hope he got placed somewhere that wasn't Arkham after Batman stepped in.

🔥 Hottest Role - Cam (Relaxer)

I will never watch Relaxer again. Couldn’t even do it while I was making his scenepack cause so many horrible things happen to Abbie I couldn’t take it. But Cam, oh my god, I need this man. Someday I wanna write this huge fic about the reader trying to date him, and there’s no redemption. He’s still terrible at the end. But that’s what we all love about him, how shitty he is and how the potential is there for him to make us all worse. He sucks, but in the best way, and I kinda need him to maybe bully me please 😳 (making that first gif nearly made me blackout why is he doing pushups)

5.

💘 Love of my Life - Bob Taylor (Prisoners)

When I started adding names to my list of men I loved, Bob wasn't even on it at first I think, despite liking him in the movie. Then I saw more with him and added him to crushes. Now I’m fully in love with him, and he breaks my heart every single day. He was hurting for so long, even when we were watching I couldn’t place the blame on him while the rest of my family were convinced just like Loki that he was the one, but no matter what I couldn’t. The second I saw his sweet smile I told them there was no way it was him, and sure enough I was right. Another character who didn’t deserve what happened to him, I’ve been slowly helping him with my headcanons, but in my personal queue I have a fic planned for him and he will have no more sad days when I do 😭 I also have a bunny plush I’d had for years, my dad bought it for me and it’s been sitting on my bed ever since, and when I’m sad I hold it and pretend Bob gave it to me, it’s honestly got me through some much needed therapy because if he could go about his day with that kind of trauma then I could be brave and call about my own mental health :’)

❣️ Honourable Mention - Lonny Crane (The Belko Experiment)

This one’s a bit of a double whammy, cause I love him, but the switch to violence had me staring 👀 Either way, he didn’t deserve his death, but since it is a killing game type movie he was doomed from the start, at least his seemed instant 🥺 Someday I’ll write a fixit for him too, it was just too much for him back to back to back, he really didn’t deserve his final moments to have him as a villain even though I would really love to be lifted up like that aklskjdskds okay I’m normal again

🔥 Hottest Role - Ray Watkins (The Rookie)

Have you seen this man? No really, have you seen him? The twirl, the shirt lifting on his hips, the cold but also fun villainy, the nonchalance to mask the cruelness underneath. I need him. This one is not a Want, he is a Need and I need him. I hope that he gets to come back in the future to fully wrap up his plot along with the cop’s plot, pleasepleaseplease, otherwise I will die unsatisfied.

4.

💘 Love of my Life - Kurt Goreshter (Ant-Man 1-2)

I believe he might’ve been the second role I’d ever seen, but only after I really got into the MCU after Endgame. I skipped Ant-Man in my original watches, since I was mostly just into the Avengers and Cap (mainly Bucky lol) in general, but when I finally did a full marathon I really enjoyed the first movie. Cannot remember my feelings for him now since it’s been about 4 years, but I do know when I went back to rewatch in March I fell the second I saw him 🥰 the hair, the accent, the outfit AGAIN, and those hand tattoos, this is another Perfect Man. My crush on him is incredibly strong, it told me that yeah I was really starting to fall for DD (at that point I’d just seen Demeter a few times, and then Oppenheimer on accident) and it officially kicked off my marathon that eventually led me to my collection I have today. 

❣️ Honourable Mention - Lester Billings (The Boogeyman)

My family actually watched this without me way before my crush began, so when I saw he was in it I just had to finally sit down and watch it myself. Cue me hurriedly typing to my sibling when he showed up lol this man is SAD! He’s so beautiful and sad, I just wanna make a new family with him (I would be a parent for him, that’s the extent of my love) so he can be happy again. I love the backstory I made up for him way more than the original story, sorry Stephen King but you made him awful and I don’t want that one. I’m gunna save this man and he WILL smile again, that’s a Ray Guarantee.

🔥 Hottest Role - The Vampire (Cora)

Now, to start, this one falls prey to Very Bad Writing Choices. I will not deny that. Like, even with the allegory of the whole thing (that I did not see cause I just saw a short vampire story honestly) it's very much Not Good. But that’s why I’m removing him from the short and keeping him. In fact, go read polkadotjohnson’s fics on him, they’re fantastic and I adore how she wrote him. I someday wish to do my own, because otherwise everyone who can’t look past the Very Bad Writing Choices are getting straight up robbed of this one. Those double fangs need to introduce themselves to my neck pronto, you see what I’m saying? He’s so goddamn hot, DD needs to play a very serious vampire role again so everyone can see the Vision, he wants to do it, I need to win the lottery so I can fund this movie myself, that’s my new life’s goal.

3.

💘 Love of my Life - Jack Delroy (Late Night With the Devil)

The first movie I saw in theaters after my crush began! My friend saw him in a tweet about it and linked me to it so I thought it was already out, but I ended up having to wait two weeks and it nearly killed me ;w; I went in completely blind, which is good cause the trailer spoils so many great shots unfortunately, and the entire time I was swooning. Like, I usually whisper to my sibling during movies if we have comments, we’re very talkative at home when we watch stuff, but this time I was just sitting there staring with hearts in my eyes without pause. I’m in love with this man, plain and simple, I’m so glad I was able to get to see it since it didn’t come to the theater closest, we had to drive an hour away and when dad joked about me paying for the tickets since I was the one who wanted to see it, I did in a heartbeat. I wanted to see it again, but it was only there a couple weeks, so by the time I was able to go it was gone and I’m still upset about it. I’d sell my soul for this man, I love writing for him so much, I’m so glad my crush on Wojchek bloomed just in time for me to see this.

❣️ Honourable Mention - Hank (Virgin Alexander)

I avoided this one at first because the trailer was making me cringe and I was going crazy over what kinda sexy awkward role he’d have in it, but I was pleasantly surprised in the end. I think the movie is actually cute, despite some stuff still making me cringe, and Hank is literally the most perfect boyfriend. If he showed up randomly in my life I would date him in a second, hands down. He’s so shaped like a friend, I know I’d always have fun with him even when we’re not Having Fun, and that’s all you can ever ask for in a relationship 😊

🔥 Hottest Role - Breck Montanari (Double Black)

Okay first of all I gave him that last name. Second of all, I wrote 70k about this man and I am so in love with him that I own him now. I’ve taken him from Sara Woomer, he’s mine now. He has a full past, gave him a future and a partner, there’s no way I couldn’t have fallen in love with him. Unfortunately that fic will never be shared as it’s private, but know that, again, until Sara Woomer DMs me personally and shares everything else about this world, this is my new canon for him. And the cult. And the entire area where he lives. And several of the members. And the new Double Black who was such a chill dude that I made my bff love him too. This is my secret legacy. He only lost out to my #2 because there’s no way he couldn’t be my #2.

2.

💘 Love of my Life - Wojchek (The Last Voyage of the Demeter)

The reason I finally learned his name QwQ I went into this movie blind, dad really wanted to see it and I love horror so I went with him, and the second I saw him I said, ‘Oh that guy! I know that guy!’ since by then I’d seen Kurt and Abner a few years earlier and vaguely remembered him. I spent the whole movie then dreading his end thanks to the opening lines, and I’m pretty sure I quietly yelled at the screen when he fell and then got got after praying he’d be okay TwT After Abner, he’s the first DD role I ever shipped with, and when my crush officially restarted I ended up writing my entire plot for him and Addy that night before bed. I love him so much, he’s my jolly sailor bold who stole my heart by crying over the thought of having to lose his home. He’ll forever own a special place in my heart because of all this, I can’t imagine anyone else taking this spot.

🔥 Hottest Role - Murdoc (MacGyver 2016)

Murdoc was the first TV role of his I checked out after I saw as many movies as I could that interested me (mostly all the ones on Prime sans a couple, my collection was very very small by then) and the moment I saw him be mentioned I was ready to go. The Alice in Wonderland vague text, running and then getting shocked before falling two floors, showing up with that hair, I was not prepared for everything else they were about to throw at me. Murdoc is one of my most favourite characters now, he’s so much fun, I adore everything about him, I’ve only edited with him twice and written him once, but I need to do both so much more! This one is hot as fuck, he’s adorable, he loves his son, he’s got tools, he’s utterly sadistic, he’s a silly little guy. This is another Perfect Man, I cannot wait to decide on his plot with Addy because there’s too many fun possibilities I honestly might just make multiple.

❣️ Honourable Mention - Willy Cunningham (The Domestics)

Now… you might all be thinking… why the hell is this guy a #2 honourable mention in the face of all the others… and the answer is… I’m a freak 😀 I’ll never say, but my eyes were opened to him, and my god, I will literally never be the same. I just need him and that insanely feral energy okay, lemme have this.

1.

💘 Love of my Life - Abner Krill (The Suicide Squad)

The love that started it all, I think I fell for him the moment he walked outta his cell and got teased. The love I feel for him goes so deep, it only compares to one other, and whenever I work on my plot for him and Addy I always get choked up. The ultimate one who didn’t deserve what he got, I actually refused to watch the movie again after he died, straight up did not watch until my marathon started, and as soon as I saw him in that cell it all came back. I instantly fell back in love with him, and thus his Addy plot has the most love put into it to make sure he’s happy and safe. I thought that maybe there’d be another to win my heart as my marathon grew, but nope he’s still there sharing it with my other #1, and seeing him can instantly bring a smile to my face no matter how I’m feeling. 

After the movie I read the trivia again and my crush on DD himself began, so it’s all thanks to him and Wojchek that I’ve met the people I know today and have created so many things in such a short time. When I hit my lowest low in years I just sat at my desk and held the funko I have of him and just cried it all out, and it honestly helped me get out of that spiral. Thanks to him I now have a Polka-Dot Man collection (still missing one figure and maybe a signed print and poster 👉👈🥰) and if I could get a plushie of him to join the ton I already have I’d buy him in a second. Maybe someday, if I have any courage, I’ll bring my funko or something to a con where DD is attending and get it signed, either him or my other #1, and I’ll cherish it forever.

❣️ Honourable Mention - Jude (Animals)

Like all the others, I went into this movie completely blind. I didn’t know DD wrote it or its significance to him until after it was over and the credits rolled. So the entire time I was watching I was falling in love with him, he was so incredibly my type in the moments he was actually happy that it’s insane, I spent the whole movie just saying how much I would date him in better circumstances. We were sadly betting which one of them was going to die as things just got worse, me and my sibling were watching so miserably, and then we were rewarded with a happy ending despite the bittersweetness. And then the credits rolled, after me repeatedly wondering why he’d accept a role like this after knowing at least about his addiction and it all fell into place. I haven’t been able to watch again so far now that I know a lot of what happened to Jude also happened to him, it breaks my heart too much, but I still love him deep down and I hope he was also able to heal after the credits rolled.

🔥 Hottest Role - Johnson (Reprisal)

Tied for first with Abner as the ultimate love of my life and claiming this one all to himself, Johnson is the Most Perfect Man. Literally, no other DD role can top him in my heart aside from Abner. I honestly almost skipped Reprisal entirely because the promo image on his imdb didn’t grab me (I’m such a fake fan I’m so ashamed of myself), but when I was done with everything else and wanted to see more, I downloaded it without ep9 since he wasn't in it, and started watching. What followed next was me falling so in love with the show that I spent forever trying to get that missing episode back from near dead torrents cause I needed to watch it even though he wasn't in it. Reprisal is my Roman Empire, I am constantly thinking about it and him and Matty, not just for my fic but just because I love it all so fucking much. 

Johnson himself is so fascinating, I’m incredibly in love with him and everything about him, he’s unlike any other role DD has played that there’s a complete disconnect in my mind, he’s just Johnson. He’s so goddamn hot I missed out on literally everything the first round because I was watching him so hard, Matty and Ethan were nonexistent to me and I’m madly in love with Matty now so let that sink in, and when I rewatched it immediately after with my parents it was like I was watching for the first time. I’m loving writing for him (and Matty and Ethan of course) so much that my thoughts go back to him daily, and it almost always includes me being on the verge of tears because of how insanely good this script is and how these boys bring me so much joy while also shattering my heart. 

Making the gif below no joke did make me cry like this show is my greatest weakness right now you guys don't even understand how much it and Johnson mean to me.

I need to edit more for him and them and the show in general, if I had endless money and all the confidence in the world I would truly fund this show single handedly so it can finish the way it was supposed to. I’m so mad at Hulu for giving me the greatest love(s) of my life before taking him away years before I’d ever know him, with no physical media or merch to at least collect to numb the pain. At some point I need to get some promo pics printed out as actual posters, I need this show on my wall so I can always see him.

[pro-sipper]

What do proshippers generally believe about shipping real people? Stuff like creator x creator or celebrity x reader?

That it falls under the umbrella of "you should be allowed to write anything you want". Once again, it's not my personal thing. There's no real life pairing I read for, and the whole "blank x reader" is not appealing to me at all.

But I have no problem with people writing that stuff, or knowing it's out there. I saw someone a while back say that it's basically just writing about another character, and I agree with that. No matter how much a creator posts or how open a celebrity seems with their personal life, we're still only seeing a tiny snippet of their lives. We have no clue who they are when the cameras aren't recording because we just don't know them. And whatever someone chooses to write about is mostly stemming from that particular persona that they happen to put on for the world and that's it. It's completely separate from our reality because they're basically just writing about another made up character

The problem I have, and it's what I imagine most proshippers also take issue with, is when people start blurring the lines between fiction and reality. To me, there's a world of difference between posting something on ao3, and speculating on secret relationships in the comments of someone's youtube video. Or between talking about something on tumblr, and tagging the person directly on twitter.

I just don't understand people who condemn rpf and talk about how gross and invasive it is, but think it's funny to tag celebrities on twitter to bring up (what they think is) cringe-worthy fanfic tropes that people have written them into. Or people who print out fanworks to shove into an actor's face at a meet and greet and ask them what they think about it. That's where the lines get crossed, to me.

I think ao3 and tumblr still have an air of mysticism to them. A little secrecy, a little privacy. In the sense that someone in the public eye would have to put in a little work to find this stuff for themselves. They'd have to go to the site and search themselves up to find anything. As opposed to just about anyone in the world being able to force this content in their line of sight with a simple @ on a site like twitter.

So to me the problem isn't that this content exists. The problem is when people don't know how to keep fandom stuff private. Write all the rpf you want but remember at the end of the day these are real people, not your blorbos. You don't know them. It's inappropriate to say these things to them personally (which yes, also includes tagging them on twitter or in the comments of their videos). But it's also inappropriate to run up to them with other people's content just to say "look what these FREAKS wrote about you!!" And I think people either forget or just genuinely don't care about the latter.

[rayshippouuchiha]

I have not even watched AssClassroom and still ur watch Wednesday has me hooked! I know snippets and about the ending (unfortunately) from YouTube shorts and Tumblr but ahhhhh!!!!

No spoilers about the ending though don't worry.

I have been contemplating a question though...

If an Izuku who had ranaway from Chisaki's lair with Eri in tow had been in Ass Class... How would have things gone???

Like Izuku is 'Saving' embodiment. So usually i would see his presence as a natural counter to Koro sensei or really anyone he cares about actually dying. He kind of just...breathes life into those around them. But there would be no way Pre U.A Izuku would be able to make much difference to canon, not when he still is naive about much of how the world works. Wouldn't question things he doesn't understand but has been conditioned since he was born as to be normal. Doesn't realise yet that heroes can be wrong. That heroes are humans, and that villains are people too. So what if things were spiced up?

Pre U.A Izuku has a nasty habit of suppressing his hurt and anger when it comes to himself. Can't even think of fighting back and winning. And has been hurt so much. Has been failed and abandoned by everyone around him since he was four and failed to manifest a quirk.

And then there is Eri. Who has never known kindness, has always been tired. But still finds it in herself to help the boy who breathes but looks dead, who was brought here after her, but has carried a weight of grief years in the making.

And then something changes. The moon gets destroyed, everyone panics, Izuku possessed by some unholy force seizes his chance, takes eri and gets the fuck out of dodge.

No where is safe. Hassakai is hunting them for sports, and one too many missed calls with the gang members have convinced Izuku that they are on borrowed time. They can't go to Heroes or police, one too many bribes and gazes that look through them but not at them, and the hero commission with their child soldiers (Izuku knows. Chisaki likes to rant) has them scrambling.

Except. There is an octopus. And there is a reward. There is an opportunity. There is a threat.

Izuku has never been able to fight back when it comes to himself. Can't think of hurting someone, bringing them the pain he was put through. Has always been too kind.

But.

Izuku also has a little sister now. A sister who for some reason sees him as a hero. A sister who saved him. A sister who wants him, who cries out at night, not from what Chisaki did to her, but out of fear that her Zuku-nii would leave her.

Like her mother did. Like her father did.

And Izuku who doesn't remember his father's face, but remembers his kindness. His love. Remember the sting and betrayal of screaming for him, not a hero but DAD. Understands.

Izuku doesn't like hurting others. Doesn't understand those who can kill others and laugh and live with themselves. But looking at the sleeping face of his baby sister cradled against him. He knows bone deep and heart deep that he is willing to cross lines he never would have imagined for her sake.

That he is willing to play the long con and sully his own dreams if it means his sister can be safe. If it means his sister can live. If it means he can be selfish enough to stay with the only family he has left.

His rage always suppressed comes surging forward like a tide. Filling him until he is nothing but a puppet dancing along to the strings of his grief, rage and hurt. Desperation incarnated in his endeavour to not lose anymore family, to keep his sister safe, to never be hurt again, to crush and incinerate those who dare to look down on him and hurt them, to watch people squirm and writhe and gasp under his blank gaze. He who no longer wants to be a hero, he who is dreamless, he who desires and needs control in his life. He who unknowingly resembles his father. He who is the child of the devil.

It's better than being a dekunobu with no limbs.

So now he is heading off to 3E, hiding in plain danger, a place where no one would expect him to be. He is going to cash in favors, make deals, learn... assassination.

And then after the octopus is dead, he is going to come for Chisaki.

Except. Things start to go awry.

Except Koro sensei cares.

Except Koro sensei learns, almost too late that there is a threat bigger than himself lurking around the edges, watching and waiting in amusement as his blood walks the same path as him.

OH Oh this is too good and I want to read it

[gacha-incels]

My current theory is that ( Puts tinfoil hat )  The ongoing gender war stuff in both CN and KR have definitely shifted how some 'waifu-collectors' see the female player base and therefore male characters in gacha games. There's definitely an ongoing narrative that women are the root of toxicity and more devs should adopt the waifu-only policy to appeal to as few women as possible and gatekeep their safe havens. The irony is that most of these people advocating to exclude women are using the vocal minority for their examples as to why, which is exactly what they don't want done to themselves. Basically, women should only play Love and Deepspace and men can play GFL2/AL/Snowbreak/Nikke etc. As long as women 'stay in their lane' they are satisfied, even though it's been shown that both men and women will pull for characters of the opposite gender and vice versa. Mixed cast games are trying to err on the side of caution because if they don't appeal to this crowd enough (by skewing the gender ratio harder, or by making more fanservice designs) then they will be brigaded on social media for appealing too much towards women or radical feminists.

omg yeah I feel like “gamer” men say this outright around the world from east to west. “women are coming into our games and making the women less sexy and everything more toxic” etc. attitude has ramped up. though it was always bad if you remember, in the west at least, the absolute insane violent tantrum reaction to Anita Sarkeesian for making like I cannot stress this enough just pretty basic feminist videos about video games. It was like seeing grown adult men have the same type of screaming tantrum a toddler would have when you tell him he can’t have an expensive toy at the store. except instead of one kid sitting on the floor screaming it was an unbelievable amount of men worldwide sitting in their computer chairs screaming and writing graphic rape threats and making full video games where you violently beat her. For the crime of just one woman talking about fucking Mario or whatever. THIS is how these men react when you do something as benign as that. I posted some more about this here.

you have no idea the insane shit that gets blamed on female fans or female employees of mixed sex gachas. A lot of that has been already posted here obviously so I’ll post something new I saw just so we can archive some more examples. Recently one of my friends from the infrared blog I sometimes repost here showed me this strange phenomenon happening on the Genshin impact leaks subreddit where a good amount of guys were accusing the developers of the game of being fujoshis because they thought a new female water character was being nerfed so that a previously released male water character would be the strongest water character. I thought this was a joke (my mistake) but it spanned a LOT of comments and got extremely heated. Later I found these comments in another thread there

Like this is the thought process. This sucked -> ok so probably a woman wrote it -> well most writers graduated from liberal arts schools, and most liberal arts students are women, so it was definitely a female writer. This is how easy it is for this type of “gamer” male to blame anything they hate on women. They did this for one of the stories in HSR that was disliked as well. If you look up “有男不玩” there are videos on bilibili but also some on YouTube where you can get snippets of how these guys are thinking about female gacha players. They share some similarities with all gamer men who think women are more frivolous, unskilled and don’t like action games. there were particular comments that reminded me of how Korean incels wrote about women, in that games should stop pandering to us altogether because we don’t have enough money, or if we do have money it’s because it’s coming from a boyfriend or male relative, or we’re all just playing f2p. ironically a huge amount of merch sales, IRL events and fan-PR like fanart comes from female players and they are usually the ones to stick around the longest I believe, but these guys only understand the money aspect of these games.

There are a lot of ones that were interesting but I don’t want to use too many since I was working with MTL, and then looking up individual phrases, and then retranslating some, and then looking up context, etc. lol. so when I have a better grasp on this I can make a better post.

in regards to how they find it ok if the games are sex segregated yes exactly,I posted about this earlier and probably a couple months ago too but this was most recent so it’s easiest to just copy here

[incorrect-kidge-quotes]

YouTube Music Wrapped Writing Challenge

Song #23 – Too Late For You, by TheManBeHisLa (ft. Mcgwire)

So, I initially was going for angst, but the story ended up dictating itself to be more tragedy. I unfortunately had no control over this and had to abide by the stories wishes. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------ Voltron flew to the ship from the surface of Naxzela as fast as it’s thrusters allowed.

“Thrusters are at max power!” Lance called out.

“I sure hope we make it in time…” responded Hunk.

Come on, Katie… think! There has to be something you can do, if we don’t hurry there’s no way to stop the planet from exploding, and there is no way Keith or the Coalition will be able to hold Haggar off for long! Pidge thought, internally screaming at herself to come up with a solution.

“Follow my lead, we have to break through that shield!” she heard Keith shout over the intercoms before groaning in pain.

“We’re not gonna make it!” Lance shouted, panicking. There has to be something I can do… I can overclock the thrusters I- I can…

“We’ll never penetrate those shields!” Matt said over the comms.

“… Not with our weapons…” she heard Keith say, barely more than a whisper.

“Wait, Keith, what are you doing?!” Matt asked.

‘Not with our weapons’? What’s that supposed to mean. No- “Keith you can’t!”

“Sorry Katie… You guys, stop the Galra. End this war. I’ve missed you all, I’ll- I’ll keep missing you.” Keith told them before shutting off his communications and putting his thrusters into full power.

Pidge watched as Voltron neared just close enough to see the remnants of the explosion dissipate as the shield shut down. “Keith!!” Everyone, including her brother could be heard before a purple laser burst through Haggar’s superweapon, completely destroying it. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------

“I’m sorry for the loss of your comrade, truly. I tried to make it in time… I was merely- too late to be of any help for you.” Lotor old them all as the group, Matt, and he sat in the Castle hangar.

“Like quiznack! You probably just wanted to make sure another opponent was off the board before coming in at the last second for your own plans!” Lance shouted, getting in Lotor’s face.

No one noticed her, the girl normally so curious and talkative was completely silent. Unable to get out a word. No one, except her brother and Shiro.

“Pidge… Katie?” Matt said, turning to his sister, this finally drew the attention of the other paladins and Lotor.

“I should have done something… the thought crossed my mind- bypass the engines to overclock the thrusters, deal with the burnout and repair them later- I could’ve done something. I could’ve done anything, I- I-” she couldn’t help it anymore, she dropped to the ground. Hyperventilating. Unable to breathe.

“Sh-shiro, you came back! You were gone, we thought you died! How’d you come back?!”

“I don’t know, Pidge. I was in the Black Lion, but I don’t remember, like I said.” Shiro mumbled out.

“No, no, no, no… he was supposed to come back to us. He was supposed to be with the Blades, get his answers and come back to us. He was going to share everything he found out with me!” She screamed before burying her head into Matt’s chest.

Matt looked up at Shiro, asking his old friend only one question, “Were they-?”

“They were close, but- but I never knew it was like this.”

“You bastard… you were supposed to come back to me.” ------------------------------------------------------------------------------

@flannelfangirl Like I said, I initially meant to meet your angst with my own, however, the keyboard had it own ideas

A/N: This song itself is fairly more upbeat in tone, I however simply the title as inspiration for this snippet

[ieatlegoswithmilkncookies]

Well. You did say scream your interests...

Alr. So my first "fandom" was probably the PJO series? A friend of mine introduced me to it and we like.. roleplayed it all the time.

Then there was uh.. powerpuff girls? Though i never actually watched the show other than tiny snippets. Mostly saw the fan content(i did not have social media. Just youtube. Only that)

Then I was into FNaF. Like... a lot.

Probably one of the longest phases i had staying in a fandom and engaging with it(ppg being the first one i did something in)(i would say mcsm beats the time by a long run tho)

I made gacha videos :D like.. hah. It was fun tbh. Actually gave me a schedule and i had a lot of motivation and joy while doing it lol.

Then- everything went downhill... i didn't engage in anything you would call a 'fandom'. Except maybe looking at some random anime related gacha vids that showed up on my fyp? Until i came across(my current fixation) Mcsm. I don't remember how exactly. But it was like.. maybe a year or two before i got into middle school. I was really into playing with interactive content on Netflix, somehow stumbled onto mcsm. And it tore my gosh darn brain apart. I was screaming in my head 'I KNOW THIS! WHERE DID I SEE THIS BEFORE?? AAAAAA' for about 30 minutes and then played it. I remember being really excited and pointing at... um at least three characters yelling "I REMEMBER THAT GUY!!" Only by their looks(i had my favorites back then. They did not change one bit)

My lil brother joined in a little later with our lil sister, found the netflix version also has dubs???(tbh... not really my style. Just.. dubs in general arent really my thing, but it just felt so different to the original vibe- didn't enjoy it too much).

So from then my life went- after school i would always run into my room and flop on the bed with the old ahh tablet i had since i was like.. 7?(I was probs 11-12 at that time). That tablet is also the same one i had downloaded the game mcsm years ago(only the first episode cuz it was free lol). Anyways

Every single day. I would run into my room to play the same thing on netflix. I would go through the entire season at least once. Then eventually i finally got the idea to search it up online(a.k.a. google). And that's when i learned YOU CAN'T GET IT ANYMORE????? AND THERE'S A SECOND SEASON??? WHAT DO YOU MEAN THEY'RE TAKING IT OFF OF NETFLIX THAT YEAR!(2019? I think)

So um.. i cried a little about that(not really. Just MILDLY disappointed and sad). Then as a joke i went to my mom asking her if i can get this "game that you can no longer buy in stores that came out in 2015 that i played all the time when younger and the same one me and my siblings have been playing like crazy on netflix the past year or less???" It was like.. 200 dollars or something? Idk. Thats what my mom told me. Or was it 20.. not sure. Anyways. It cost a lot. Especially for a game. So obviously she said no. But I asked if i could get it as my birthday gift for two years or maybe three... she actually got me it. So that's definitely gonna be a memory I'll be treasuring...

While waiting for that though, id stay awake at night now watching playthroughs on youtube. It was a lot of comfort to do that while snuggling a snack to eat while watching during periods.

And at that time I was on Twitter(not X yet). And i think thats where i found out about tumblr through an artist i liked cuz they also had an tumblr account to post art. So i went to tumblr. Did some random things.. before moving onto making my own stuff--- now I'm stuck here :>

One of the biggest problems i have about it is probably the shup- cuz the one i like isn't exactly popular and well- im fine with that. It's just that theres a very stupid reason for me to not be able to talk about it openly even if it's an assured safe place(or just about liking this fandom at all). Might just be a me problem but.. eh. There's also the part that no one in this country knows what it is! They might know it. But not really. Some of them go "oh- wait. I think I've seen/heard of it before...? Not even the minecraft youtubers did it. I remember my favorite doing it with a member of her old team- just the first episode though. There weren't many people doing it even as content so-

Still, i love them so much. I just make up a bunch of stuff in my head then forget all of that to only think of something else(and forget that one too;;)

Just- they're cute. They have a nice chemistry. You can see the signs! There's plenty! My friends agreed at least? Once i was having a sleepover with my friend. I tried a game she had while she tried mcsm. It was late and she was tired but she told me a few days later, she liked axel. He's her favorite. And that she can see what im talking about. That made me feel good

Also a little something about dreammz-, I would've been more deep in the fandom if i could talk about this more with my friends :(

I got my friends into it(sorta). And also showed it to my cousins. My siblings enjoy watching it too. But got no one to really talk about it ○～○

Nowadays im also doing a lot of jumping between different fandoms ive seen before or like, when they show up on my feed—

Ah-- okay sorry about rambling here- half of this wasn't even about my interests

Probably not the most fun thing to read-- sorry about that (>_<;;)

I'd love to hear about your interests too if you want?

my inbox is open always :>

Good morninggg!! :D

OKAY… LETS SEE…

- PJO: Read the books as a little kid in second grade right after reading Harry Potter. I loved it SOOO much!!! Now I’m rereading it all but I believe my attention span is a little slow for keeping up with what’s happening 😭💔

- Power Puff Girls: AHHH ONE OF MY CHILDHOOD SHOWS!!! I remember watching it for the main purpose of (I think one of the newer series?) having Nya’s VA in it for Buttercup!!

- FNaF: Oh goodness gracious…. EVERYONES HAD THE BIGGEST PHASE LETS BE HONEST-

- Gacha: My phase is something I would not like to discuss as it’s like ptsd to me/jk (😭)

- AHH MINECRAFT STORY MODE!!! I remember playing it on Netflix with my older brother!!! We’d fight over the remote, fight over wanting the female or male Main Character, I bawled my eyes out at the ending. It was SO FUN!!! I want to watch a play through one day because I Lowkey forgot practically everything… uhm… other then Ruben’s death because THAT’S ENGRAVED IN MY HEAD. I had such a long phase with this so when I met you and saw your pfp I was like “OH MY GOSH THEY LIKE WHAT I LIKE!!!!!” :3

- Totally understandable, honestly if I wasn’t on tumblr I would also be bombing up my friends about dreamzzz 😭😭 IF YOU EVER WANNA RSNT ABOUT IT YK WHO TO FIND….

Jumping from fandom to fandom is so real- I love being in multiple fandoms because the fact I got bored WAYY too easily if there’s nothing occupying my brain 😭

ANYWAYS TYSM FOR SHARING!! YOU’RE SO FREAKING COOL I CANT WAIT TO TALK MORE WITH YOU ABOUT YOUR INTERESTS INFACT ILL START WATCHING A MCSM PLAYTHRKUGH RN!!! If the YouTuber is generous enough to pick actual good options 😔‼️

[cinnamonbunpuff]

how a song changed my year.

achilles, achilles, achilles come down, won't you get up off, get up off the roof?

it's officially been one year since i first heard this song. it's kinda crazy how much can happen in that time, in reality and in mentality.

i still remember stumbling upon it. i'm sure i've seen it on my recommended in the past but this was the first time i really listened to it. it was late and i was sat on my bed, recovering from a cold. stressed over my barely-started application for some of the UC schools i never saw myself going to. i paused to take a little peruse through youtube, where i saw this performance. based on the song of achilles (a familiar name), and choreographed to achilles come down (an unfamiliar title).

i was drawn immediately in. not just by the smooth flow of the dancers portraying their characters, but by the power of the lyrics and how it affected what i was seeing of achilles, patroclus, and briseis.

and so i decided to look up the actual song and its lyrics, to see what they really were. and they were beautiful.

today of all days, see, how the most dangerous thing is to love,

this song, all seven minutes and two seconds of it, has seen me through so many monumental changes in my life. from growing positively mentally, to graduating high school and starting uni, to familial tensions.

how you will heal and you'll rise above, crowned by an overture bold and beyond,

it's honestly a wonder how i haven't grown bored or tired of it yet. and i think that's because every time i sit and really listen to it, there's always something new i'm discovering or interpreting, whether that be compositionally or lyrically.

to start, it was realising that the only instruments are strings - definitely a cello, and in all most likely a string quartet. as a violinist myself, i love hearing any use of strings in modern songs. having a whole song relying on the softness and dynamics of them though? that's gonna get me every time. how almost the entirety of the song is underlaid with the eighth notes of the cello, and throughout the verses the intermittence of the higher strings.

as i grew familiar with achilles come down, i discovered the power that all the lyrics held. there were a select few that drew my attention, from either how poetic they sounded, to how they seemed to mirror an aspect of my life that i didn't know could be put into words.

loathe the way they light candles in rome, but love the sweet air of the votives,

then there were the sections of spoken french. i thought that the addition of a second language in the song really added to it as a whole, but upon looking up (and attempting to translate what i could), i found that they added another level of melancholy. because what better way is there to make the song more emotional than including snippets of french philosophy about the value of life?

qu'on appelle une raison de vivre, est un même temps une excellent raison de mourir

through this year, i've found myself coming up with scenarios in my head, with this song playing in the background. mostly it's been with characters of my current hyperfixations, but i've found myself in these situations as well. it's definitely a reflection of who i see myself to be, but i hope it's also an envisioning to who i hope to be.

thank you to achilles come down for finding its way into my life. thank you for the past year, and i hope the next is just as exciting.

throw yourself into the unknown, with a pace and fury defiant

[kaddyssammlung]

A deep knowing that this incarnation will change everything

“even when we run with death”

This, again, about the little snippets that we have from the director's notes from that graphic novel and also some lyrics.

I always assumed that Vessel is a bit like me and that he has a strange knowing. This knowing is about this incarnation being the last one of its kind. Something will end but I don't know when and also when I say that something will end I mean this in a positive way.

What do I know for sure?! Not much?!

I had a vision in 2016 and I never knew what to do with it. I saw myself surrounded by hmmm how do I say this “galactics”, all kinds of beings such as fairies and angels and I watched them heal my physical body and also my energetic body. This felt so real as if it was something that I remembered. It felt familiar.

I never thought about that ever again.

“My redemption, eternal ascension setting me free”

Then I started hearing all kinds of things about “ascension”. Everyone explains this in a different way and also there is so much weird stuff on the YouTubes and everywhere. So I'm trying to explain this in my own words, because they feel right.

In my opinion / perception this is something that can be see like a giant enlightenment. So many humans remember their true self and therefore their power and become enlightened. This has a ripple effect because we are all connected (“quantum entaglement if you are interested in that). Everyone who gets enlightened causes other humans to have the same experience. And then one day the whole planet follows.

That's how I see this in my own words. Maybe that makes sense. Maybe not....

Anyway we are returning Eden. No one takes you back to Eden, we are taking ourselves back to Eden. Eden to me is home. The home that I miss so much. It's a frequency or a state of being. Everything is in harmony again.

And everything else?! Idk....I assume this will happen within the blink of an eye but shortly before it will look as if the sky will fall down on us.

“And take it to the broken skies at last”

There are so many “weird lyrics” that you can read or that I interpret in that way.

Ascension does set us free again because we were trapped on this planet. But that's a whole different story.

So when Vessel sings how ascencion and how it sets him free...I can only think that this can be applied to all of us.

And also since it will probably look as if the sky will fall down on us....yeah well....

Whatever..I know that most of you are probably like: what?! Totally fine!

You know....I'm weird XD and also: I'm not saying that this has to be the case.

It's just a strange knowing that I have but that I can't explain

[daemadness]

Hi, thanks for not giving up on the search (and sorry I dragged you into this xD it's been bugging me that I can't find it and now I've inflicted that upon you too)

Just to clarify, it was definitely on YouTube and I think it can't be longer than ~half a year ago that I saw it, hence my utter confusion that I can't find it anymore. And I don't think it's geo-blocked as I also don't live in Germany.

Okay, I want to ask that are you SURE that you haven't been dreaming? XD No but, this is such an odd situations. Videos do get taken down fast, and Youtube's search system sucks nowadays and it's sometimes easier to find stuff through Google than its own search, yet I can't find anything that would fit this criteria.

I've been a fan since 2009, I witnessed auch being released, I saw all the interviews being uploaded (yet was not able to watch majority of them myself unless they were on Youtube), and I keep checking youtube for any new dä videos almost daily. I don't remember seeing a video like this ever, not in 2012 and also not recently. You say that you watched it about a half a year ago, but it might still be something that was uploaded 13 years ago, because I've not seen any auch era interviews being uploaded to Youtube in years. Apart from the ones I have reuploaded there because the originals were taken down.

Anyhow, I'm at home atm so I will look closely and investigate all the videos I already have in my files just in case. There literally is only like 3-4 videos where Rod is present, and it's none of those afaik. But I will check them anyway.

My another thought was that could it be something from Die Nacht der Dämonen. It had some super weird and very short bits but I have only ever seen one or two of those uploaded to Youtube, so much so I don't even remember what is on that now because it's the only DVD I have never done a dvd rip of yet. I think I'll check it out too just in case, because this concept also sounds like something dä would do on purpose for a dvd. And it's also the only dvd released after auch. Altho, I still don't think this interview is on the dvd, but it's worth checking it out anyway.

More questions to you: do you remember if it was a short clip or a part of another video? Maybe some longer video and this being a snippet in it? I'm wondering if it could be a YT short, because the search does not handle them normally and they are almost impossible to search through, but it would need to be an extremely short video to be that...

But yeah, I'll continue my search (or actually start it for real now that I'm at home XD). I also can always go through the old LiveJournal community to see if there are any reports on an interview that would fit the description. There are also some broadcast names on Die Ärzte Archiv but I can't find shit with those, aka, they are not on Youtube, at least.

[vampiremeerkat]

Is there anything you've made (whether it be art or a fanfic or whatever) that you regret/disown?

To me, to regret/disown something would entail crying big tears and pretending it never existed, but I document my stuff, regardless if it's dead, alive, or never lived. But here are some projects I remember killing out of dislike:

I deleted a storyboard music video starring Edd from Ed, Edd n Eddy called "Where Will Edd Go". Found the imagery and song used too dramatic for the topic it discussed, which was his messy hair. --------------------------------------------------------------------------

I deleted a drawing/fake playing card starring Edd, again. I included it in another Deviantart submission featuring a bunch of unposted stuff, eventually. It's shrunken down to size, but you can see it was parodying Edd fanart. Didn't find it ironic enough and was too over the top, so removed it. --------------------------------------------------------------------------

I deleted a Goofy Movie fanfiction that was still going. It was about Max going crazy after failing to save Goofy in that waterfall scene. I think it sat on Fanfiction.net for some years and might've been my first entry, but remember the writing being long-winded and it was another one of those edgy projects I couldn't stand anymore. --------------------------------------------------------------------------

I deleted a video of me playing around with a stuffed Simba toy and singing a Lion King inspired rewrite of "Mamma Mia" by ABBA. As you can imagine, I was a preteen at the time. Or was I. The only comment it garnered was critical and I rightly concluded to be a failure and thus removed it. --------------------------------------------------------------------------

I've never reuploaded certain Youtube videos after getting banned multiple times. This concerns all kinds of projects, mainly dubs, music videos, and comedic snippets of Inuyasha and Disney stuff. The reason is more or less the same for all videos: They were a product of the time and objectively unfunny. --------------------------------------------------------------------------

I cancelled a Beetlejuice (cartoon series) comic that was mostly done. It starred a developing romance between Beetlejuice and Lydia, but he's known this girl since 6th or 7th grade, I can't cheer for that. --------------------------------------------------------------------------

I cancelled a Portal 2 fanfiction around chapter 2 or so. Wheatley is human in that one. I like some of the ideas presented, but I don't care for his thirst for Chell anymore, if I ever even did. A strange fanfiction. --------------------------------------------------------------------------

I cancelled the prequel to How to Save a Life after it was mostly done. It's that Ed, Edd n Eddy fanfiction where Edd is a rabid vampire and has to be put down like a dog. Vampire Edd is flirting with Sarah in the prequel, but this bitch 12. I don't think I had officially settled on everyone's age back when How to Save a Life itself was being slapped together, hard to say. Coming back to the unfinished text document, I couldn't continue. --------------------------------------------------------------------------

I cancelled a Mioo, Dorost Ast joke animation starring human Persian trying to kiss human Meowth after it was mostly done. It didn't take long to make it and I hated it at the end. Looked bad and was too nonsensical to want to redraw it.

[maleyanderecafe]

I absolutely adore the One-Eyed Ripper series, I remember watching the song videos as soon as they came out back in the day. It's a shame, I don't think that anyone translated the visual novel yet, I would love to play it, also love the (two?) yanderes in the series, they're so cute. I was surprised when I entered the blog for the first time and saw the banner picture, i remember thinking something like "Wow, other people KNOW these series" lmaoo.

Oh same here! I remember seeing the first song in my YouTube inbox one day and getting really excited for a male yandere. I think around that time I also got into vflower as probably my favorite vocaloid. Yeah, me too. The demo has been out for a while but I don’t think (other than a few snippets) that it’s been translated at all. I remember attempting to do a review on the game itself on my backup blog.

Haha, a lot of people ask me where my banner is from, so it's nice to share the knowledge. I am both surprised and happy that you know this series too! I hope it one day gets translated or otherwise continued!

[longeyelashedtragedy]

snippet of the beginning of dubcon anthony gordon/frank phonesex fic. set after anthony's england nt callup.

The conversation has been on his mind for months now.  Since Everton.  It traveled with him to Newcastle and it’ll be joining him at St. George’s Park.   He’s even called upon the conversation recently.  To his benefit, he sees, but this wasn’t without its problems.  

When you sell your soul, it might text you from time to time.  

He scrolls through his messages again, resting his thumb on the one he’d responded to.  One swipe left and he could just…delete it.  But instead—the conversation.

You always have to work hard and be smart.  Just like I did, and you’re just like me.

Anthony thought: Am I just like you?

It sometimes took Frank a while to get hard again, but when they had a lot of time together they liked to use every second, so they put in the time until Frank was ready again, kissing and hugging and cuddling and talking.  Anthony had realized Frank loved to hear himself talk.  He played humble, and everyone in YouTube comments was sure that he was— “great guy, top bloke, one of the nicest people you’ll meet.”  And he loved to hear himself talk.

But if something can give you the advantage on top of your hard work—I don’t mean anything illegal—

Yeah, thanks Dad, I know—

—But if anything comes up that you can use to your advantage, don’t be afraid to use it.  If you don’t, everyone else will.  You don’t want your hard work to be for nothing.

The way Frank said the word nothing always stuck with Anthony.  Now, sitting in his parked car, he hears it again in Frank’s accent and feels how the word tickled against his neck back then.  Frank knew his shit when it came to the system.  Things hadn’t always been easy for Anthony.  Some of his teammates had lived a life he never could have lived.  So he didn’t want it to all be for nothing.  

He’d still felt Frank’s breath against his neck when he responded to the gaffer’s text.  And sitting in the car, looking at it among the flood of congratulations, he feels it again, hears the way he always dipped in and out of East London and Press Conference, so many people in that head fighting with each other to stay in and to get out.  Even now, sitting in his car.  He can’t shake it off.

And then make sure you show the proper gratitude.  No matter how big you get, there’s always someone bigger.  They can help you, or hurt you, and they’ll eat their own no matter how proper English you think you are, so always do what you can to make sure they help you.  You understand me?

Yes, gaffer.

My good, smart boy.  I can’t wait to see you shine bigger than Goodison. 

Frank’s come dried onto his cheeks and chin, Frank’s thumb stroking over it.  Stiff on Anthony’s skin when he moved his mouth to speak. 

He shakes the memory off, tries to bring back the buzzing he’s been feeling since the call-up.  He unlocks the car and then he gets the call that he knows has been coming.  GAFFER.  But Eddie is his gaffer now.

And still.  He’s never changed it.

He ignores GAFFER’s call, but he hears Frank’s words in his ear again, as much as a takeover of his senses as Frank’s damp, sticky, soft cock was as it pressed against his ass during that conversation.  He doesn’t remember anything with as many of his senses the way he does his times with Frank.

And then make sure you show the proper gratitude…

And he remembers snuggling against the gaffer’s strong chest, feeling the plump tits and hard nipples brush his back.  Yes, gaffer.  I always will.  You told me you liked that I don’t take things for granted.

That’s right, just how I was raised.  You’re such a good boy, the pride of England someday, I can feel it.  Now.  You’ll help your Frank out with your mouth, won’t you?

He’s not surprised when the missed call does not go to voicemail, and just seconds later, Frank calls again.

It’s late at this point. Frank has a family.  Shouldn’t he be putting his kids to bed, or whatever the fuck he did with his family?  In Everton it was like he was a guy away at his first year at uni.  Staying up late, eating whatever, never mentioning people back in London.  Sometimes they’d come to games—up to Liverpool, or to Everton away—and Anthony tried not to even look in their direction. He could vaguely picture Frank’s famous wife, and his two little kids from his phone wallpaper, and Harry and Jamie Redknapp, but he didn’t want to see them or learn who his aunts sisters nieces nephews were.  He never wanted it to be serious like that.

He answers the second call because the breath burns his neck and the words tickle his ear and Frank’s thick Everton body presses against him, urges him.

“…Hi, Frank.”

“My boy. Wanted to congratulate you in a personal way.  You deserve better than a text.”

My boy.  It’s familiar, too familiar.  Entitled is the word.