Arcade! As someone who also has OCD (and autism, but thats besides the point), I just want you to know that it DOES get better! I dont know if thats the only issue youve been dealing with lately (other than the computer one), but I just want you to know that you *can* definitely take a break and that it WILL get better <3 And dont worry about your patrons at all, we're much more worried with your mental state than with our rewards! <3
This message is so sweet of you it genuinely brings a tear to my eye, thank you ♡
I've definitely got a lot of stuff to sort through on my plate right now, while the OCD is definitely a big contributer to all of this I (and people i trust) also think I had a lot of stuff piling up for a while and it kinda became a whole "straw that broke the camel's back" ordeal. Just one of those unfortunate situations where I always tried to look for help but couldn't receive it until it actually became an emergency. (Don't recommend that btw--if you need help then keep pushing for it until you get it)
It really does mean a lot to hear you say though. I feel bad for feeling bad because I care about you guys and especially the ones going out of their way to pay me! I have always been met with so much kindness and generosity and I feel terrible when I can't provide for those who have showed so much love for the things I make! It can be hard not to be impatient with myself because I love making my art and games and I love when I get to share them with you all and seeing the joy you get from them, and I'm sad when I can't do that and I feel bad for you guys when I can't do that!
Luckily though I'm finally receiving much-needed mental health services. I'm still just only beginning but I'm at least seeing the tiniest slivers of progress and it makes me hopeful, at least for today.
I do intend to take the rest and recovery I need, but I will still be excited for whenever I get back to the usual fun we have around here. Thank you for your patience, understanding, and incredibly supportive words. They mean so so much more to me than you could ever know ♡♡♡
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there's only 7 a/b/o jetko fics on ao3 (in which jetko is the main pairing/isn't a "past jetko" situation) ... this is so crazy... did I just imagine there being more... it seems like there would be right.? its so yaoiful a pairing that I just assumed there would be... something should be done about this...
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when reading scripture or religious texts in my studies from a variety of religions (a not-insignificant part of my education has been religious studies) i can appreciate and understand the beauty and appeal of it and make sense of its internal logic system and worldview and feel that i'm picking up what it's putting down even if i don't necessarily identify with it on a personal level, but i gotta be honest i always feel like i'm missing something or losing my mind when i read christian texts like i don't get it and it doesn't make sense to me and nothing about the trinity makes sense to me and the entire worldview feels so harsh and terrifying and bleak for no reason and every time i've asked anyone in my family (on the christian side) to explain any of it to me like sincerely i just feel more baffled and whenever i've had to read passages of the new testament i dont get it at all like even abstractly i don't understand and it makes me feel crazy like what i'm looking at has to be completely different from what other people are seeing and i don't mean it in a reddit atheist smug asshole way like it's genuinely beyond my comprehension I Don't Get It and i don't think i ever will
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This week has been the pits but seeing Dandelion not once but TWICE in one day has made my week so much more bearable
sorry exposing myself as an emotional baby but this comment has made my also-the-pits week significantly better and got me all misty eyed, i'm so happy my dumb boy could make your week a little better and thank you SOOO so much for sending me this you lovely lovely person
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the image of ratsequel quinn being so resigned that he's going to love brady for always and nothing will come of it, such delicious angst, so painful... I haven't found a fic that makes him cry yet and I feel like this would get him close...
so resigned! so resigned that he comes all the way back around to thinking it doesn't matter! because he's accepted it will never happen which is the same as being over it, right???
i do love to make a boy cry in a fanfiction..... i got so spoiled writing tnno because dylan is a real life easy crier and now i have all these other boys and i have to EARN the crying. i am not deep enough into the ratsequel yet to know what the crying content might or might not be but i can promise a lot of feelings!!!
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fun thing that folks really apparently don’t want to acknowledge if we’re discussing canon Jiang Cheng and the thing I think people are truly failing to grasp in regards to fans of his and why they care about him. His actions throughout the story repeatedly, over and over again, belied his words. Yes, he has a harsh exterior that is used as an armor against this world that repeatedly took everything from him. He uses words as a weapon at times, but his actions say everything his words don’t.
Additionally, he fucks up. He doesn’t always do the right thing, but that’s the thing about MDZS, not a damn one of these characters were in the right 100% of the time. But he cares and he works hard to do what is right by his sect and his family and yes, at times, those two groups come in conflict and he makes tough decisions because of that, but regardless he still repeatedly shows his love.
And it may take an additional time through the story to see that, but the narrative supports that fact time and time again despite the fact that Wei Wuxian as the protagonist doesn’t see it (but their struggles in communicating and understanding one another’s actions and intentions is a whole different discussion).
And that’s not even mentioning the whole plethora of cultural context that is being ignored, but again. different discussion.
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would love to say that sleeping on it helped me gain some perspective like the functional well balanced depression free adult im supposed to be unfortunately the thought of not having a new jimmysea series to look forward to for who knows how long is still making me want to end it all fr
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