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bugdogg · 10 months
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im teetering on the edge of something or another, feels like a breakdown but its more so falling back on old unhealthy habits that feel comforting to do but ultimately don't help me in the long run
anyway im coping somehow by comparing myself to dogs and going "haha im young, i got a ways to go before my evil villain arc"
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14dayswithyou · 2 months
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💖 EVEN MORE DAY 4 SNEAK PEEKS! 💖
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cerise-on-top · 7 months
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Hank with an Eldritch Horror Reader
Here's another thing I wrote two years back! It was an interesting concept which I really liked, so I actually really enjoyed writing this request!
Hank J Wimbleton was a grunt of many things, but not one to be scared unless he had a good reason to be. There were many things in this world he did not understand, you were one of them. Upon meeting you, his first instinct would have been to either fight or run away - who could blame him, it was all he knew. No matter how many times you reassured him that the very last thing you wanted to do was to harm him, he’d draw his weapon, uncertain of whether or not he should believe your words.
Once you show no resistance towards him whatsoever and simply restrain him using your powers or other methods, that’s when, thrashing around as much as he could, he would start listening. You may or may not have seen a grunt up close, but this was your chance to finally examine one. As you scrutinise him from every possible angle Hank realises that you were simply curious about his being and finally lowers weapon.
Your voice would likely hurt his head and freeze the blood in his veins, so you might have to resort to telepathy or speak through a marionette, if you can find one. Though, once Hank’s interest in you has been piqued, he’d be more than happy to find you one. A lot of people in Nevada seem to be redundant in the first place. Regarding telepathy: You will be able to have a two-way conversation with Hank like that, but, for the most part, he doesn’t think in words. Still, he can do so, if needed.
If you’re on the rather small side, he will make an effort to pick you up, or hold you, and bring you back to base. Depending on whether you can float or not, this might be rather difficult, but he’ll try. If you’re large, however, then he will simply “tell” you to follow him. As an eldritch being you could likely either change your form or scare away anyone in your path in the first place, so he doesn’t particularly worry about anyone being stupid enough to attack you.
Spend time with him, he’ll get used to you more and more and, eventually, grow a bond with you. Proud, he’ll show you to Doc so he can figure out what you are, but do not be fooled. Hank wants to know what you are to some degree too. Once comfortable with you and certain you won’t harm him, he’ll start observing you, touching you to some degree. See how you react, how you feel, how you are.
Despite your conversations being, for the most part, one-sided, Hank will ask you directly what you are and if you’re some form of eldritch deity. Since you’re an amicable creature he can’t exactly wrap his head around, it’s worth a try.
Although he would like to do so to some degree, he won’t take you with him on missions. It’s his way of saying “I care a great deal about you, I don’t want you to die or worse even if you are capable of defending yourself.” If you really insist on aiding him, he will let you, begrudgingly. But beware that he will have your back. In fact, having you around will give him a greater reason to fight and improve his overall performance. Though, it will also be a major stress factor to him if something were to happen to you, so choose wisely.
#madness combat#madness combat x reader#hank j wimbleton#hank j wimbleton x reader#I've been into eldritch horrors and stuff ever since I was a teenager#although I don't condone his beliefs in the slightest I really like Lovecraft's writing style#at one point it influenced how I wrote as well since he was rather descriptive in a pleasant to read way#I have an anthology at home that I might wanna reread again at some point#celephais was always my favorite story and I think it may be one of my favorite stories of all time#I know it interests no one but my favorite book is No Longer Human by Osamu Dazai#and yes I did get into classic literature because of a certain anime I don't wanna tag in this post#but another book I really enjoyed reading was Clockwork Orange I read it with someone I used to be close to and it was a really good read#it gave me nightmares but I really enjoyed it! gave me something to talk about with my father as well#Hier kommt Alex by Die Toten Hosen is also a really good song! as is 1000 Gründe by the same band!#those songs are based on Clockwork Orange actually!#I never watched the movie and I don't think I ever will because eye gore disturbs me but the book was good! I read it bc of tboi!#I have quite a few classic at home! but I think I wanna finish reading Paradise Lost! That's also a really interesting story so far!#reading and writing are some of my favorite hobbies!#I'd also love to finishe the price of salt at some point as well! Because I have to all things considered!#I just wish I could juggle all of my hobbies a bit better! I wish I had a bit more time for everything! but oh well it be like that!
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001139 · 2 months
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a story about a flight instructor who hallucinates his dead student
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bunnihearted · 5 months
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#so on my way home..#i walked by a school and besides the fact that i felt so depressed bc just looking at these kids and adults i have NO hope for the future#i saw two boys on a bench as i walked by... and i just thought they were talking. and too late i realized that no one of the boys were#bullying the other boy. the bully walked away and the other boy just sat there looking so lifeless and dejected#a teacher came and sat down w that boy and i just kept walking. even if i wanted to say smth it's like what would i even do abt that situati#that made me so sad both bc that boy.. he looked so dejected and used to it. that anxiety going to school knowing you're bullied is awful#and like i imagined talking to him and saying heyyy if you're lucky you'll grow up to be 25yrs old#live like a parasite off your mom and be on wellfare and never have had a job :)#you'll have no education or highschool diploma :) you will still struggle to finish hs even at an easier level :)#you will also not have had friends in 10yrs and you'll be terrified of ppl and getting close to anyone and even going outside!!#you'll have no interests and hobbies and skills! you'll simply be a waste of space loser being a burden on everyone around u!#whoop whoop stay alive buddy it will only get worse ❤️#god i just wanna cry. how did i let my life turn out this way??? i used to be full of dreams and life and passion and HOPE#i used to believe in things and in people. i had so many dreams and i wanted to try and do so many things#now all i can think is 'i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die'. im miserable wherever i go lmao#there's this bridge over the highway i have to cross when i walk to school and every time i look down at the trafic and when a truck drives#by i feel my entire body vibrate. i just wanna jump and get mauled by it.#or i dont *want* to but i feel so deeply and desperately that it's the only way for me#only way to make it stop hurting. and i am weak. i dont know how to just 'stop' or take control of my life. thats why i wanna die#bc i know that i wont be able to. that my life will never amount to anything#for fuck's sake my dream now is just to have my own 1bedroom apartment and have a shitty job - like in a grocery store or whatever!!!!!#not even that can i make happen! bc im so worthless i cant do anything. im also stupid so i wouldnt be able to do my job right#i dont know... i dont know... these feelings and thoughts are too much i just wanna relax#but i cant bc my ribs hurt and idk if it's heartburn or an ulcer 💀 why am i even alive???? what am i doing all this for? 😭#my thoughts ran away but i meant like seeing that reminded me of how much of a failure i became#bc of my circumstances and all the shitty ppl around me thru out my life
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juvellianbombus · 10 hours
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i just wanna be able to freely be a nerd… being normal is HARD
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flamingothing · 14 days
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anyone struggle with the fact it's better than it was but it's not good still. or maybe it's not better than it was it's just different bad therefore new therefore better but not. and maybe you solved old problems but where to now. i've done so much work why isn't it good now. or whatever
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mars-ipan · 22 days
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when i was in the hospital my mom got me a few little “do things with your hands” kits and i ended up. not being dextrous enough to use them lmao. but i can now and i’ve been wanting to learn a new skill so i opened this little cross stitch kit and i’m now learning to cross stitch! i’m learning a lot :)
things i enjoy about cross stitching so far:
the gridded fabric means you can have my level of textile skill (read: none) and still end up with neat stitches
the stitch itself is really easy to do and you can get into a good groove
the needle itself is too dull for you to hurt yourself on which is great for my clumsy ass
filling in squares is VERY satisfying
counting. i enjoy counting immensely
the kit told me to cut the thread into 18” long strands but i didn’t bother with that meaning one needle lasted me a shit ton of stitches. satisfying to watch the string dwindle down
easy to get into, but just difficult enough to improve at that it makes me want to get better without feeling intimidated
if you fuck up it’s really easy to fix mistakes the fabric is super forgiving
this is a really good way for me to get over my fear of learning textile skills. entry point into sewing and embroidery
i’m actually pretty consistently good at threading the needle. using small individual threads makes this easier as well
things i do NOT enjoy about cross stitch so far:
i’m not very good with the thread bc i’m impatient and try to go fast and then it. tangles
because i am new and making mistakes i kept having my groove interrupted bc the thread on my needle kept tying itself into pretzel knots (this would probably be reduced if i cut the thread the way the kit said to. i am not going to bother with that)
i hateeeeee tying knots. i’m still a little clumsy with my hands and i’ve never been great at knot tying so when i have to tie thread onto the needle or finish a stitch i get very frustrated
this kit in particular has me stitching with three strands of thread when i’m pretty sure the standard is two (at least . according to the youtube tutorial i watched) and i think it is making the thread more annoying to work with
the kit also suggested i start in the center which. i get it for counting reasons esp as a beginner but starting in the middle of what i would have just made as a full row irritates me and now i have to work with that
i’m paranoid that i didn’t secure the tail of my stitch well enough and that somehow it’ll all fall out or something
somehow my thread got these tiny micro-knots that i couldn’t untie in it and i had to make sure i pulled those knots all the way through with each stitch
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ask-painter · 1 month
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(Not me overthinking/researching all the animals Sebastian is injected with just to figure out how to properly depict/draw him/overthink his behaviors/needs)
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biteforblood · 1 year
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love when the idea i have for a fic just…doesn’t work. like at all.
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story-book-sillies · 4 months
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I’m so tired and I have to wake up eeeeeaarly tomorrow and I’m not happy about it humph
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cookiescr · 1 year
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Anyone else having some kinda existential and identity crisis
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airenyah · 5 months
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should i just. study theater- film- und medienwissenschaft
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evilmagician430 · 1 year
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happy MY BIRTHDAY to those who celebrate. and to those who do not, then nonetheless i wish you a happy anniversary of hitler's suicide
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stinkrascal · 2 years
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hilarious how men will expect you to show an interest and participate in their hobbies but whenever youre any flavor of woman and you ask them to show an interest in your hobbies its radio silence 😀
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wp100 · 7 months
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people always ask me if im going to do something with my art money-wise and it's like... not every hobby artist is destined to make money off it.
it's a huge task to get noticed online, let alone make money. it's like having another job. you have to promote and push yourself and your image. it's like running a business. and there is no way in hell i'm ever going to do that. im tired enough from working full time already. and even when i take time off... i still dont feel like i have enough time to sit down, relax, and work on my art.
and sometimes... people just want to do art as a hobby. not everyone wants to make money off it. and that's okay.
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