perspectivethoughts-blog

[keferon]

*clasps your shoulders gently and looks you straight in the eye*

Keferon. Please read Ninth by Kyn on AO3. I think you would love it very much. It has a large chapter count, but don't be intimidated, it's very easy to get into. It is currently unfinished, but is being updated regularly.

You are the seventh person that recommended this fic to me so ahahahaha yeah

I’m doing great Help I hate some parts of it but I love the other parts I’m spinning in the blender

…..I made the moodboard….

[crabsnpersimmons]

i like to tuck my sun and moon into bed when i get out of it, but after seeing your chibi sun and moon, i think of them every time i do now hehe!!

ohhhhh this is precious! thank you for sharing with me! blowing them kisses!! sleep well, little plushies ❤️❤️❤️

the minute i saw your photo i dropped everything to draw this:

shhh

they eepy

[lifemod17]

Trying (and failing) to be normal about the PEELED NECK

📸: adamross

[garrandia]

[that-nerd-who-writes-fanfiction]

I need to stop researching the early medieval period for fanfiction. The more I know, the more pissed off I get at BBC Merlin. (Mostly just BBC, this isn’t the first or only time they’ve decided to badly rewrite history)

What the fuck were those capes?! Where were the cobblestones?! Why did the stairs look like that?!

And I’m completely and adamantly ignoring the French caste.

It’s a beautiful building, and I can absolutely see why they used it, but I’m trying to figure out what years they existed so I can know how likely Arthur speaking Latin would’ve been and the absence of cobbles and geographically accurate stone is making that incredibly difficult.

Where is the Jet? What about the amber and fresh water pearls? Hell, I’d even take rubies and sapphires. Not native to England but imported by Romans so still technically historically accurate.

And that’s pretending that they even had a coherent timeline.

There were castles and roads and such in post Roman Britannia. Y’know, like the early medieval period.

That time period around the 6th century where Arthurian Legends would’ve happened. That bits fine.

But Albion existed before the Romans invaded.

At least 5 centuries earlier.

(Realistically, there wouldn’t have been magic or dragons, and if they were being accurate Merlin would’ve been Gaius’ age, but I’m ignoring that for the sake of the show)

Anyway, where and more importantly when is BBC Merlin set?

I’ll take a strong guess at 6th century(?) just because of the original legends.

In conclusion, fuck the BBC for making it this difficult to write period accurate fanfics. I’m just gonna start making shit up as I go since they clearly didn’t give a shit.

[links-gender]

About Time’s trauma

(Yeah we’re doing this)

So, I like to think that the Hero of Time does not remember the time he spent in the spirit realm. He spent seven years in solitary confinement… the least the goddesses could do was remove that burden from his consciousness.

Except they didn’t, completely.

Because when he sleeps, he doesn’t dream - he returns to that place, that endless, white void. Perhaps it’s a blip in the system, an aspect that the goddesses forgot to take into account. Maybe it’s intentional. He wouldn’t know.

Every day, he wakes up with no recollection of any of it. But whoever’s with him (read: Malon), can see him thrashing and clearly not having a good time while he is asleep. She asks about it, of course – several times, to no avail. Because he genuinely can’t answer her questions.

But he talks in his sleep, and Malon is able to piece together the little bits of information she gets.

Anyway there’s that and then there’s tHe mOoN

[lavenoon]

kisses him kisses him kisses him

@naffeclipse you've seen this one but I'm posting it today for the serotonin boost, so have a callback to the first doodles <3

*self insert is not a girl (he/ she)

og detective au by sunnys-aesthetic!

[whereismyhat5678]

Guys. When Brick was introduced to the idea of behind the ear scratches, his entire world changed.

I’d imagine the tower was an absolute nightmare for the big rats. They’d occasionally run into things that could possibly hurt them or even worse, kill them. The Peppino clones to the regular enemies Peppino hits they all troubled the poor things and they never caught a break. And the only reason they stayed there cuz they were sorta trapped, once they entered they couldn’t leave or find an exit.

Brick ran into many things, many things he didn’t like and many things that did end up trying to kill him so he was DEFENSIVE. I’d imagine the reason he started chasing Gustavo was because he immediately thought he was gonna hurt him.

Once they started to fight Gustavo realized how fucking RUTHLESS Brick fought (of course because he was an animal but also cuz of the defense nature). So when they stopped, Gustavo wanted to make up with him.

Brick found out the tremendous glories of pets, he didn’t get any because….well….y’know he was a stray rat- So this feeling was something different. He actually felt pretty safe…which was new! He was cautious at first of course but he soon learned Gustavo wasn’t going to hurt him….he didn’t feel threatened by his presence anymore, he didn’t feel he had to hide like he did with other creatures. He felt relaxed. He felt he was actually going to be okay. And every time Gustavo were to pet him, he felt extremely emotional. He never felt this way, he never experienced this type of affection, or even affection at all!…..

I think Gustavo just naturally likes animals, so he tried to get close to him at first but realized he couldn’t, he had to build trust first. Which they did! Gustavo treated Brick like a sorta person, but also like a pet, where he’d pet him and such. He found it quite odd Brick knew how to smoke a pipe and how to cook for some reason- but he didn’t question it.

The more they grew, the more Brick started to like Gustavo. He saw him as someone he could finally feel safe with. Anything and everything in that tower could hurt him, but Gustavo?…It was a nice change of pace.

Brick is attached to Gustavo. I will die on this hill to say if he isn’t the type of pet to wait for you ALL DAY beside the front door for you to come back I don’t know what life is anymore.

That’s it. I wanted to ramble about Brick because I think he deserves more attention. We love him, he needs love, people, please treat this guy well he’s been through it.

[cuteniaarts]

Digitalised + coloured + redesigned version of my Suiren and Vaatu sketch from two days ago, as promised!!

Coming up with Suiren’s design was a very long process of trying and failing because after you’ve drawn 9+ different versions of one character, the creativity starts to run a little dry, but I’m actually really proud of this one, she looks absolutely adorable <3

(Also yeah I did mostly just scribble Vaatu’s pattern because who has the energy to draw the all out accurately. Not me, that’s who, I’m chronically tired. People who draw him on the regular have my utmost respect. He’s still a funky little guy though :D)

Bonus, Raava incessantly screaming inside Suiren (and being completely ignored because Suiren is tired of her) while all this is happening:

[aiscapades]

i've had an ais fic idea in my head for a while now..... i just haven't had the time or energy to write it..... i use it to fall asleep sometimes..... it's pure angst...... but also kinda wholesome...... in an angst kinda way..........

[kettledemon]

A moment of peace

[milkymooshi]

Chubby Oswald…

[lesbian-goose]

Me at 2:43 am: I'll finally sleep now *closes eyes and gets into a comfy position*

My headphones: *makes the low battery sound*

Me:GODS FUCKING DAMN IT

[sl33py-g4m3r]

Have I shared the long song compilations yet? Did I delete them if I did?

Found some long; cathedral of shadows, law theme, neutral theme, chaos theme, and world map compilations from the megaten games and wasn’t sure if I actually shared them or not.

Don’t wanna spam the same song compilations if I have already. Tried looking through the tags I use to tag YouTube videos and didn’t see them…

My body isn’t letting me sleep aaaaaaa

I need to heal my mp and my demons~~~~

On a totally random note what would the samurai make of the internet? Or the relics used to access it?

Is all of the modern stuff we use relics to them? I gotta play the game and read the stuff so I maybe csn larp as a samurai from The Eastern Kingdom of Mikado online, lol.

Hope I get around to playing someday.

[ocularmacdown]

my dtamhd thoughts? oh, why thank you for asking! yeah, i only have a few, but uhh- *drops a towering stack of papers in front of you on the desk*

i really, really liked this episode. maybe it’s because i wasn’t going into it with set expectations or hopes, maybe it’s because dennis is not my number one blorbo and so his development is more fascinating to me rather than a personal/emotional investment. either way, to me this episode was a fucking winner and i have so many thoughts that haven’t even formulated yet. the writing is incredibly well-paced, subtle enough that the twist is not immediately obvious, yet explicit enough that watching it a second time, the clues are right in front of you the whole time. it’s fucking clever, and for me personally, it does justice to dennis’s very specific brand of mental health issues/neurodiversities/trauma/etc etc.

first of all, i’ve seen people saying they’re disappointed, that they wanted to see dennis fall to his knees or scream himself hoarse or crawl into mac’s arms with his tail between his legs. but…,..like.,..i mean..,,,.he literally tore a man’s heart out of his chest? and then crushed it with so much force that it becomes a diamond? and then he ATE it? with blood running down his arms and the sun haloing him and the watch on his arm lit up red for “danger, you’re in danger, you’re a danger to yourself”? that is so explicit and so raw and so powerful. me personally i am chewing through concrete slabs.

he takes his heart - his core, his feelings, his very self - and controls it so fiercely, so violently, just so that it might be something of worth. something precious and valued and beautiful and rare. and what forms diamonds, pointed out in this exact episode? coal. objectively seen as cheap, and worthless, and nothing much at all. dennis’s heart is coal, to him. fuel to a fire of rage. so he tries to make it something better. not by nurturing it, tending to it like a garden.

instead he crushes it.

and then he eats it.

i don’t know what else you could want tbh.

i’ve also seen people say that it wasn’t an accurate depiction of mental health issues? i don’t even know what to say to that like. are you yourself dennis reynolds? are actually him, down to a T?? or are you a totally different person with different life experiences and brain functions and trauma and personality and expression of self?

characters are not made to reflect individual people and their experiences - they are separate from us, and us from them. we can look to them to find similarities, but they can only be as relatable to us as we are to everyone around us. this episode is quite literally an insight into the fact that actually, dennis doesn’t show his rage, or any of his feelings, and the way that he experiences his emotions is wholly and totally different from others. sure, he allows outbursts over minor things - sounds that irritate him, insults against his car, women as a concept, all the fucking apps - but nothing that really, truly matters. it’s about control. control, control, control. a grasp on his anger so so tight it’s a vacuum, a cavern of pressure.

maybe your experience of mental health is totally different to that, and i sympathise that not seeing yourself reflected on screen can be and is frustrating. but. if i may overshare a touch on tumblr dot com, oversharing central, then..,,..he just like me fr fr.

as someone who has never related to dennis reynolds at all in the history of the show and is different to him in every objective way, this episode got me. i felt seen. it’s not about mental health as huge outbursts that everyone sees and sympathises with, not all the time. it’s not about sadness or pain or misery, not all the time.

it can be about anger. anger as an emotion you can feel so intrinsically and powerfully. anger that you don’t understand and you shouldn’t be able to control because it’s so fucking strong. but you do you do you do. because you just have to. there’s no rational reason behind it; you’re just angry and you just don’t show it. not when it really matters, anyway. you have a moment of private catharsis, deep inside yourself, an upwelling of frustration and rage that feels like a day but you quench in seconds. and then you move on.

so yes, it’s an accurate depiction of mental health, and i’m not elaborating further than that. i imagine someone else *cough @sewerkingcharlie cough* could probably go into dennis’s psycho-demographic and history and how that effects his mental health far better than i ever could anyway.

me personally, i am. obsessed with the insane surrealist route they went down. expressions of deep emotional pain are only understandable via sobbing breakdowns if you have no critical media skills or appreciation of several major art movements of the last hundred years. once again, he tore out his heart and crushed it into something else with his own fist and then ate it.

looking at the journey the episode takes as a whole, it’s so so incredibly fucking clever. it’s set up as though it’s a journey narrative that will end with a big emotional expression a la mac finds his pride or the gang carries a corpse; it’s pretty much what we all expected, i think, to be able to observe dennis and his inner emotions at a closer range, from one side of a two way mirror.

but during that insane scene, we are actually allowed inside his head - not just an observation into his mind through the lens of spectatorship study, but into dennis’s broken perception of reality, from his point of view, intra-diegetic. we are inside his head looking at everything around us, trapped in the laboratory of his mind. is not the clean cut, easy-to-analyse narrative and visuals we saw before of dennis getting more and more frustrated until his breaking point; the world in his mind has twisted and deformed into one that no longer makes sense to us the spectator, but does make sense for him, for dennis.

mac and charlie were able to express their emotions outwardly with another person present. they were grounded in reality because that is how they experience emotions of that level and intensity. that is by no means to say that what they felt in those moments are is any less intense or extreme or soul crushing as dennis, only that they experience both their inner emotions and the world around them in different ways to him.

dennis internalises as much as he possibly can, pouring into himself rather than out. he can only hold so much, the pressure builds, his insides contort and shift to make room, he keeps pouring.

his innards no longer makes sense.

his feelings are physical, they’re his organs, and they’re worth something, worth so much, but they’re simultaneously just the food he consumes.

he consumes, he internalises, everything’s within him.

he was never going to have an emotional outburst. that’s not his catharsis; it would change him too much fundamentally.

everything channels inwards. it’s too much but at least it stays inside. even his breakdowns happen within. he keeps the lid of the pressure cooker on.

Dennis Does Not Take A Mental Health Day.

[quillisadoll]

Guys I'm so confused is this part of the ouran manga?? It seems just so randomly put. I originally thought this was about honeys goth girlfriend who exists in the manga but idk

MANGA READERS HELP ME!!

IS THIS A BUG FROM MY SHITTY MANGA WEBSITE OR AM I JUST DUMB?? WHO KNOWSSSSS