#i want to di3

[forthwtaintedsorrow]

i hate myself

[nervousyinhuman]

that feeling when the guy you’ve been talking to for months, flirting and hanging out with puts a matching pfp with someone else and you find out the other person has him saved as “owner <3”

[maxsix]

[arlo713]

I wish someone liked me, not even as a crush but just enjoyed my company. I have so little friends, half of them don't like me and it's so obvious and the rest try to hide it.

Even my own mother doesn't like me, I haven't had a conversation with her lasting more than 5 minutes about something other than school or cleaning in about 10 years.

I'm scared that even if I lose weight and may get pretty my personality would still overshadow it and I'd still be disclosed and hated by so many, that my personality is that boring and ugly.

[jasmine-angel]

taking a concoction of pain meds and psych meds and bc to try and feel like a normal human being is getting tiring

[yslglasses]

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[thecatboyfriend]

they call me the oyster pt 2 ‼️‼️‼️

[communistblackbeard]

the like 10 followers i have are gonna unfollow lmao but i was kinda looking forwards to the end of password sharing in us n3tfl1x because here weve had it for a few months and its horrible and i hate it and im petty and want everyone else to suffer like i do

[heeverseblog]

who else [redacted] because of this? 🥵

[tsukasalvr]

Idk if your requests are open or not AAHH! But if they are:

(Possible TW in my request for mentions of depression, anxiety, commiting di3 joke)

Could you do a reader with bad depression and anixety. And maybe one day reader makes a joke about 0ffing themself and then they dont show up to school for a few days

Characters I would prefer(from TBHK): Kou, Teru, Hanako, Akane(boy)

You can add more if you like! :)

Im sorry its not very specific, this is my first time requesting something

Also sorry i know topics like these are difficult for some people <3

depressed!reader who makes su*cidal jokes

Anime/fandom: Tbhk

Characters: Kou Minamoto, Teru Minamoto, Hanako, Akane Aoi

Warnings: I don’t proofread, depressed reader, mention of suicide

A/n: just got broken up w by my pookie wookie☹️💔

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Kou Minamoto

Is immediately put off by what you’re saying and is immediately concerned, and gets even more concerned once you get together and just stares nervously at you while stuttering, not knowing what to say

“That’s so embarrassing, if that were me I would kill myself no doubt! Being so stupid like that, I wouldn’t be able to live with myself!” You casually said while looking at a post on your phone.

“O-oh… umm…” Kou is at a loss for words sometimes and tries to brush it off by moving onto something happier to distract you from thoughts like those

When you make a joke that’s one day too far he genuinely seems so much more concerned and ask if you’re okay. He gets so worried about you that it’s best not to make jokes like that near him.

If you don’t show up the next day, he gets worried and is immediately trying to leave school early even though he knows Teru will berate him later for it, he needs to see you’re okay and when he arrives to your house and sees you are, he’s very serious about not making jokes like those again and is invites you to his house more often to distract yourself and is willing to help you get help

Teru Minamoto

Gives you a nervous smile when you joke about suicide and even when you you’re dating he still gives you an obvious fake smile to not hurt your feelings. He knows that outright saying that if you need someone talk to talk to can be annoying sometimes so he’ll try to subtly let you know he’s there

Whether it’s from talking about a topic of a documentary of a tragic life of some celebrity and all they needed help to having Kou telk you that you’re part of the family and that you can tell them anything when you’re over at their house

“I can’t stop messing this up! God I really should’ve taken those pills when I had the chance, what the hell!” You said angrily at the fact you couldn’t get the string through the small hole in the needle.

Teru could only smile at you, he never says anything to your ‘jokes’, but then he stops and just goes to frowning hoping that you’re not being serious

When you don’t show up the next day, he’s not super worried and just assumes you’re late but sends you messages. But after a few hours the messages become more frequent and by the end of the school day he’s running to your house scared. When he sees you’re alright, he’s pissed and says enough is enough and he’s not taking anymore jokes and is instead going to help you

Hanako

He might laugh at your jokes, but it’s only so he doesn’t worry you. He’s not an unfamiliar when it comes to stuff like this and he knows you might now want to talk about it right away so he’s fine with trying to take it slow

On the inside though, his ghostly heart is scared that you’re it joking and you’re actually being serious. He can’t bear the thought of you dying—and especially dying this way so he keeps a close eye on you and has Kou and Yashiro even make sure that you’re doing okay

“God, I’m so stupid and useless” you say with a laugh as you look at your test result and shove the paper back in your bag

Hanako stares at you, and lets out a laugh that’s believe enough. He’s conflicted on what he should do, should he ask how you’re doing? What if you lie to him? Would you even want to talk to him?

It seems as if his worries have come true when you didn’t show up to school the next day and asks if Yashiro or Kou have seen you at all and to message you on those weird electronic things. Yashiro only agrees to go to your house when Hanako asked because she too was worried about you. Hanako waits impatiently the next day and sees you and you tell him you were just feeling sick. If he could, then Hanako would definitely cry and basically forces you to promise to tell him if anything is wrong with a scared and worried expression on his face

Akane Aoi

You’re the most precious person in his life so he takes everything very serious when it comes to you. A paper cut? He’s getting ready to call an ambulance for you and is frantically asking you if you’re okay.

So joking about such topics near him immediately alarms him and hea on full protective mode with asking if you’re joking or not. He takes everything you say seriously, he cares about you a lot so to see you laugh about it, hurts him a little

“What if I jump out this window right now? I really do want to do this test!” You whined and looked over at the window that was right next to where you were sitting.

Akane had a prominent frown on his face, he knew you weren’t exactly mentally okay and you’re jokes were becoming more and more frequent

He’s on full panic mode when you don’t show up to school the next day and the worst possible outcomes are immediately coming to mind. He hopes he’s wrong and is blowing up your phone and is willing to mess up his perfect attendance streak for you, he’ll fix it later. But when he sees you overslept and your phone died because wig wasn’t charged, he’s disappointed. He knew it was getting worse if you dying was what came to mind when you didn’t show up so he pledges to help you

[joesalw]

Looks like TTPD was leaked and swifties are already acting like it’s the end of the world. I won’t listen to it not because I think piracy is wrong, but just because I don’t want I be tortured by her awful songs. But I have to confess I’m kinda curious about the cringe lyrics

swifties are more devastated about the fact that there is no cheating allegations on joe and it’s their fav who cheated. the album is also mostly about ratty which was a relationship they tried to bury for so long. and now their fav is dissing them saying she'd rather di3 than listen what they have to say regarding her rs with ratty. the abusive villain monster that they tried to make joe was just a person with depression. now they have nothing bad to say about him...

[druginducedheartattack]

AND ITS MY PROBLEM IF I HAVE NO FRIENDS AND FEEL I WANT TO DI3

[the-gonmen]

All I want for Christmas is to di3🤍

[im-the-son-of-rage-and-lov3]

I accidentally deleted my old intro post so here’s me trying to remember what it said.

Pick a name to refer to me. I don’t feel like coming up with one myself.

Pronouns she/her but also fuck that whatever’s fine.

Grayro lesbian.

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I mostly listen to My Chemical Romance (+ solo projects), Paramore (+ solo projects), Foo Fighters, Green Day, Pierce the Veil, Nirvana, and Jimmy Eat World.

I play Breath of the Wild, Tears of the Kingdom, some Assassins Creed games, Animal Crossing, Slime Rancher, and the Sims 4. I suck at all of them but they’re fun.

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[gris19]

Update:

Hi guys, Cony again (the one behind Gray19)

And i wanna thank you all for the support and showing me that it's okay to ask for help, specially to the DCA fandom and my friends who didn't leave me behind.

I own you my life and my love for this, not bc of the money, bc it gave me the motivation to move out and start again.

Tw// su1cid3 thoughts

. Tbh i was so bad mentally to just keep living there, i was feeling like an extra on my family, only bc i Made mistakes and it still haunting me, i wanted to di3 so badly, to put an end of this rainy cloud on my head, feeling like a bag of meat AND making ppl worrying for me (i was so lost).

But, now i know i can start over again, to make things right and to have my life as i want, sadly i left the course of secretive assistant bc...well it didn't make me happy. I know some of you Will say "but cony, your family supported you on this career" yeah i know! But i was looking More for emotional than material support, i wanted someone to listen to me, someone wise that will comfort me over my dark moments, at that Time i wanted my mother to just, hold me and say "I'm here for you" but i know it didn't end like that.

Rn I'm living with my brother/bsf (temporally) and the feeling of missing my home is hitting me, but i know i have to be stronger, and i know m not alone anymore

Again, ty all, ty dca community, ty in general, I'll pay you up for what you did for me

[rowanzzzz]

I never want to eat again. I feel sick when I look in the mirror and I feel sick when I remember what I look like. If I want clothes that fit nicely, I have to get a large. I don't want to feel like this anymore. I just want to be thin; I want to be sick; I want people to worry about me, I want to be perfect, I want to be sick, I need to be thin, and I think I'm ready to start doing whatever it takes to get to that point. I want to di3 of this disorder. I need to be perfect so badly.