#i was mad at my mom but now im just so fucking sad and annoyed at myself

[mainfaggot]

I thought it was suspicious that I hadn't cried in 7 days. and then one minor argument with my mom led to a full blown screaming match and now im on the kitchen floor LOL

[altruistic-meme]

have recently had an experience i can only liken to that one post that was talking about how your SUPPOSED to bother, and lean on, and ruin your sleep schedule, and take time out of your day for the people around you, because that's what a friendship is and what a community does. but. from the first part of that post where the person was talking about how they would never let their friends help them move bc they're an adult. kind of.

[mysteriousboo]

(SPOILERS FOR THE SHOW)

im genuinely surprised when i found out that people in the yr fandom give simon so much shit and for what? trying to protect himself from getting hurt when wilhelm denied that it was him in the video after he PROMISED simon that he wouldn’t do that? or trying to move on from wilhelm? when simon got into dealing booze or stealing drugs from his dads, he suffered because of his actions! his friends(rosh and ayub) stopped talking to him, he couldn’t pay for the personal tuition and his mom and sara found out about it and were obviously very mad at him! sara got into manor house, made friends and mostly had a good time in the majority of the second season while she was basically betraying simon’s trust by not telling him who leaked the video and using that fact to get into manor house plus sleeping with the person who recorded and released the video! personally, i don’t think her character can be redeemed in s3! but i see people trying to defend her more than they will with simon and that’s very sad!

or the fact that even wilhelm didn’t have to suffer at the aftermath of the video cause he denied that it was him in the video! i mean, we all know that the internet sucks! imagine, the things simon had to read! and people want him to forgive wilhelm just cause he said he loves him?? i mean how can he trust him? does he not have self-respect? my poor boy prolly thought that he would only be hurt more cause if wilhelm can deny his existence now, why won’t he do it in the future? or how serious is wilhelm’s love for him if he can deny their relationship so easily after he PROMISED that he would do no such thing! or the fact that wilhelm’s doesn’t even apologize to him properly, clearly not realizing how much he hurt simon! i mean the guy keeps asking simon to be his secret? how can simon agree to that? notice how in the first half s2 it’s not that simon denies that he loves wilhelm, it’s more like how can i trust you? and he was right wasn’t he? wilhelm knew that august released the video but proceeds to once again make the choice for simon and keep him in the dark! i’m not saying that he didn’t redeem himself in the latter half of the season! but it definetely felt like only simon felt the repercussions of his actions! both Sara and Wille just got away! and august the guy who should have gone to jail was being rewarded by being the backup or getting the girl! simon definetely sufffered more than august and the fact that some people in the fandom still are annoyed by him is just really disappointing! atleast have a reasonable explanation for finding simon annoying or not a fun character! I mean if you can understand Sara’s action then simon deserves the same! i am not trying to say that simon isn’t at fault, im just saying that why are you harsher towards his character not towards sara, wille, or august!

also, can we not forget that marcus literally gaslights simon into not breaking up with him! like my guy can’t catch a break! i hope that simon gets to be happy in s3! even though he has to deal with his sister basically lying to him the ENTIRE FUCKING TIME!!!! my god, i just want both my boys to be happy!

[eternallydreaminggf]

One of the biggest things i dont like about myself that i know is a habit is probablyy my attitude/temper I hate it especially since It is a reflection of my parents... ESPECIALLY my mom. So when im angry or irritated i also just get very sad that Im acting like my mom. reminded of that bc the dog was whining and crying and barking at the door nonstop. n i just feel very tired and i am so annoyed with him. The other day he got into used diapers and ripped them up all over my sisters bed. N i had to clean all of that.... that sort of thi g happens like so fucking often. But i hate getting.angry with him i hate how much he irritates me bc its like. he is literaally just an animal that does not know better. my mom is the type of person that like genuinely loses her shit at animals and little children. so getting annoyed or mad at him makes me want to kill myself and then that makes me feel even more irritated. right now he is whining outside my door and scratching at it After whining to be let out of my room. I want to rip all of my hair out... 🙁 nothing against dogs just. so unfortunate

[winderlylandchime]

First of i would like to apologize because unfortunately i have to sent this in two parts.. the hetero brother was on a roll. Anyway 1/2:

I legit walked into the living room to find my brother standing with the intro paused and him going ‘cmon loser, we got work to do!’ So here is the 2x02 report: ‘oh he’s going to Brian?! That’s right Jenny Jen, you are not stopi- wait THATS THE FUCKE- oh it’s a dream, we’re good! I mean he isn’t but boy, i was worried for a sec, oh poor baby! Wait, he hates being touched, i forgot! But he hugged my-i mena our man Bri Bri!’ ‘OH ITS MY BOY BRI BRI! oh damn i forgot that no more David means Michael stays..ugh, you win some you lose some’ that’s where I wanted to give a helping hand to Mikey so i said well technically he is one of the leads and he immediately scoffed at me and went ‘i think me, Brian and Justin would like to disagree with that terribly inaccurate statement, now shush!’ He is once again groaning at Mikey ‘really dude?! I mean i hate you but come on! And of course he liked dancing with Justin! Who wouldnt? i need him gone. Either the writers did a great job at writing him annoying and he’s really good at acting OR the guy sucks and im picking up on his vibesss either way, stop it’ ‘duty as a father to build a swing set? Wait..did we have a swing set? I gotta talk to dad about that bc he never got us a swing!’ He is currently very sad over the Jen/Deb scene but hes still mad at Jen so he keeps scoffing at her. ‘that’s right Deb! Someone else! BRIAN! FFS! Not after what happened?! Was Brian the one swinging the bat? No. if there was no Brian, justin would be dead! And WHY IS DEBBIE NOT CALLING HER OUT ON HER BLAMING BRIAN?! WHY AM I THE ONLY ONE PROTECTING HIM?! This is a very hard job for me! It’s only my 5th day here and I’m on drugs and in pain. But fuck it, Bri Bri needs me! Hit play again, im ready’ and we got to the loft scene and he hid under his hands bc it’s just like the dream. ‘Wait it’s my man Bri!! Oh no! Oh no! justin this isnt him talking to you! It’s your mothers fault. He wants you there i swear he told me himself, i mean not really but like the way he looked at you in the last episode said everything, you just didnt see it bc they had you looking away in the script’ (is this the point where i start worrying about his mental state?) ‘OH HE FIGURED IT OUT! He knows its your fault jenny! My boy took a bat to his head but he still knows that 1+1= his mom being a lil bitch. OH SHIT IS SHE OKAY? Damn i feel conflicted now, nvm she’s okay’. My favorite part is now coming up that ive been dying to see his reaction to and ofc it did not disappoint ‘OH ITS JEN! And my boy BRI! Now what does she want? She wants a favor? What is he red cross? She wants him to TAKE HIM? Take him where? Like take him to LA (narrators note: bless his heart) or like what? What other way can he be taken? What is she sayin- thank you Bri for asking bc she wasn’t listening to me! “Standing there helpless, do you know what it feels like?” GIRL IS WATER WET?! OFC HE KNOWS HE WATCHED HIM ALMOST DIE! Jenny what are you saying touch him, make more sen-oh wait..oh no, oh wait is she asking him to fuck Justin?! JENNY IS THAT WHAT YOURE ASKING?….do you think mom would pimp me out like that? Although the last date she set me up on the girl started praying before eating (cue me saying i mean thats not THAT bad) IT IS WHEN ITS IN MCDONALDS.. she wants him to fuck him oh god, i mean I’m down and so are they! Lets go..im tired’

Okay dear sweet anon and brother anon. I just got to my office and I have TEARS streaming down my face from laughing so hard. Luckily, my office is therapy office so there are tissues. I gotta pull myself together.

I’m going to post your messages without comment because I go into back to back meetings soon and I cannot without them from the world.

So 1/3.

[btsqualityy]

jeons fluff because i can’t sleep 💕

aria (16) walks into the house with jungkook hot on her tail, both with angry/annoyed looks on their faces.

mama jeon: what’s wrong?

aria: i’m not talking to dad anymore. i’m going to bed.

jungkook: it’s not even 5 pm yet!

aria: goodnight mom!

aria rushes upstairs to her room and slams the door,

mama jeon: jungkook, what’s going on? why is our daughter so upset?

jungkook: she’s just mad because i told her she couldn’t try for her driver’s license 🙄

mama jeon: and why not? she’s a great driver- YOU taught her how to drive!

jungkook: because she’s already gone 90% of the time! she’s always out with her friends these days, if she gets her license, then i have to get her a car. if i get her a car, then she’ll want to drive it all the time everywhere. when class is over, she’ll drive her and kammie straight to disneyland!

mama jeon: kook-

jungkook: i’ll see her less than i already to now yn. i’m finally in a position to have more free time with her, but it’s the worst timing because now she’s at the age where all she wants to do is hang with her friends. i went through this when angel got her license im not doing this shit again.

mama jeon notices that her husband is more sad than angry, so she sits next to him on the couch and cups his face in her hand.

mama jeon: jungkook, baby you’re just afraid of her growing up even more than she already has. admit it.

jungkook: no i’m no-

mama jeon: admit it.

jungkook: okay fine 😒 but can you blame me?

mama jeon: no, because i feel the same way too sometimes. you’ve gotta let her go a little kook, she’s been independent since the day she could walk, but she’s always gonna need you. you’re literally her favorite person besides kammie, which kinda sucks because i’m the one who actually brought her into this world but it’s cool-

jungkook: technically i brought her into the world because i put my sper-

mama jeon: if you finish that sentence i’ll go buy aria a car myself just to run you over with it

jungkook: what the fuck yn we were having a moment here !?

mama jeon: yeah and you ruined it dumbass-

before the bickering can even begin their both cut off by a loud shriek coming from upstairs

aria: daddy?! there’s a spider in my room! hurry i need you!

mama jeon: see? what did i literally just say 30 seconds ago? she’s still gonna need you 😂

jungkook leans in and kisses his wife, bunny smile on full display

jungkook: you’re right yn-ah, thanks for that. i love you,

mama jeon: i love you too, now go save my baby before she burns the house down trying to kill a spider 🥹

I love this 🥹I think Jungkook would be really torn up about his babies growing up and he’d be a little protective over them and the time he gets with them 😭🥰

[estcsy]

so let me tell y’all what happened lol 😋

okay so quick recap if you remember last time I went it was tuesday and that’s when me and me and camilo got into a fight at mirabel’s birthday party lmao BUT, IT WAS WEDNESDAY, NOW IF YOU REMEMBER CAMILO WANTED THIS TO BE “our day” segun el

so like I woke up to the man himself shaking me awake that was the scariest shit thats ever happened to me it was like a jump scare when I opened my eyes

I sleep like a log sometimes so I didn’t hear him like come in or anything he was saying like “wakeupwakeupwakeup” which is really annoying of him but whatever

so my eyes are now open and my fucking soul let my body for a second then I told him to get his ass out and I started throwing things on my night stand at him so he like ran out and then said sorry when he made it out

so now that I’m alone I’m thinking which encanto dr is this (since yk we have the first one and the other one) but I had to slap my face a few times to test if I was dreaming or not

so I got dressed and all and I went downstairs and said my hellos to everyone and hugged them bc yk I missed my homies

so since it was breakfast I was helping cut strawberries with dolores and luisa, and I like asked them what day it is and then dolores told me it was wednesday and then said “good luck” to me and walked away so now I’m just standing there like 🧍🏻‍♀️

but then I heard a knock on the door and it’s mariano’s family so now I’m like happy to see them so I wave and stuff but then that didn’t last long because valentina and her family where behind them 👎🏼

now me and camilo, we’re cool yk it’s awkward as hell but like I don’t have anything against him anymore it’s just HER she’s so mean and for what

so I’m continuing to cut the strawberries with luisa and she told me that she didn’t like her either HA but anyways

i don’t care if her and camilo date as long as she keeps her ass far away from the chair that says my name on it BUT NOOOOOO

when me and luisa got done we had the bowls of strawberries in our hands and I WATCHED her sit on my chair

but casita is not one to take this stuff lightly either so next thing I own the tiles under her are moving and casita THROWS her off

SO NOW ALL OF US ARE LIKE 😦

BUT THEN VALENTINA’S MOM LOOKS AT ME AND SHES LIKE “you did that”

like no lol but she got what she deserved

so I’m like telling her no I can’t control what casita does BUT THIS WOMAN DOESNT LISTEN TO ME

and then she goes on about how I always envied her daughter and whatever 😭

but what REALLLYYY caught me by surprise was when she brought up me not having like parents

WHICH IS REALLY FUNNY OUT OF CONTEXT

but she said it like under her breath so the rest of us didn’t hear it but dolores did

so now dolores is mad

and she said something like “qué dijiste”

NOW IM JUST IN SHOCK LIKE I DONT KNOW WHAT HAPPENING

so the rest of us are confused but then pepa asked her what she was talking about but apparently she said “ella no tiene el amor de su madre para que no se porte mal”

and julieta took it more personally then I did I don’t remember exactly what she said but it was like “creo que preferiría no tener una madre que tener una madre como tú”

so now valentina’s mom is angry

but like she didn’t get the chance to say anything because abuela told her to leave

and then casita opened the doors for them ay ay

but I’m just like looking at my baby maria poor girl looked like she was gonna cry :(

but they were taking too long for casitas liking so casita throws them out and is only gentle with their dad and maria

so then casita slams the door and after that it is DEAD silent and everyone was looking at me and I didn’t know what to do 😭

I just walked out of there but I took a strawberry with me because those are really good

I wasn’t like sad or anything I was just overwhelmed and my head hurt

but anyways

slay points

valentina’s mom casita julieta dolores

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[menalez]

Omg, your mom tried to set you up?!!!!! With butch women no less?!!! Im so jealous idk if that would happene with mine 😭 recently she was ljke "oooo😉" at me about my sisters bf having a brother my age. I actually wanted to just go crazy insane bjork gif in that moment. ☹️ how dare you have men liking headcanons (?) about me. Idk whwtt would happen if she found out i was a lesbian. Like she also told me about how excited she was for me to have babies. When i was 13. :|

Also i live in gender capitol like we get taught gender identity spectrum in school and all. So thats why im not sure about there being butch women (or girls i guess bc .. im still a girl hezjnsjs) where i am and i keep feeling bad about having radfem? beliefs like is everyone going to hate me or is that just how it seems online xhxjd or. I dont know if that makes sense

I wish i could just fit in and go along w it but it feels so wrong to me, ... nopee even if i think youre cute im not going to affirm that youre not actually a woman bc your hair is short and you dont wear makeup or dresses it feels so demeaning for both of us. But then am i just making a big deal of nothing ?

Anywaays. Sending love bc peace and love on planett earth. :)

lmao since ive been out for quite some time now, my mom has gone thru the stages of grief and she reached a point where she’s accepted im a lesbian (she would try to convince me to get into a lavender marriage regardless for the sake of image but im not willing neither is my friend she keeps trying to set me up in a lavender marriage with) but she and my auntie have weird kinda homophobic beliefs on who im supposed to date. according to my mom & aunt, there has to be one “girl gay” and one “boy gay” ie one femme & one butch. they think if im gonna be dating women then they should be butch or otherwise masculine women bc it “balances” both parties of the relationship. they say im more feminine & shy & cute around butches and become more “womanly” so therefore i should be with butches 😭😭😭

SO basically yes my mom would meet butch lesbians in bahrain (they’re v recognisable in my country & have their own label too) and would immediately tell them about me and then exchange details w them. ive met 2 lesbians that way but ngl neither are my type and both have some major internalised homophobia to address. one of them was already in a relationship w a bi woman who’s going to leave her to marry a man (& just waiting until the day they must break up which was sad) and immediately started showing me her nudes (arab butches are the weirdest don’t even ask). the other one told me a fucked up story about how her bi ex left her to marry a man without telling her & when she got mad, her bi ex said “you’re just mad bc no man would want you with how you look”. a normal lesbian might’ve simply said “i don’t want men so idc” but the butch i met took it personally and married a man to prove a point. she got lucky bc he died within a few months of their marriage! he was trying to pressure her into sex and even complained to her family about it so if he didn’t die, who knows what trauma she would’ve faced…. also she told me she takes testosterone & steroids bc she’s a body builder and she has this kind of body smell that men often have (probs bc of the hormones) which were all big turn offs for me so. neither worked out.

my mom also still pressures me to have kids and has been since i was a baby 😭 but luckily she’s been overall supportive of me being a lesbian… hopefully your mom will be the same one day. heteronormativity is so annoying lol i hate how every gay person had to deal with our loved ones fantasising about us dating the opposite sex bc they assume we’d be OSA by default.

also no ur not making a big deal of nothing! it’s a big turn off for me having to pretend that a woman not being feminine means she’s not a woman. and it’s annoying having to pretend someone is my boyfriend or w/e else. i think it only becomes more of a turn off the longer you’re out too bc like damn too many of us already pretended to have boyfriends or to be interested in that stuff so being expected to do that to any capacity is just. bad feelings

[isekaisyouwithmyforearmlaser]

god im so fucking sick of people telling me theyre so proud of me for taking in my little sister like this is fucking easy in comparison to everything like the moment i tell them it isnt hard for me cause i used to be a full time nanny they go "well still at your age its different" like yeah and it was different when i used to give my mom baths when she came home completely shitfaced when i was 10 but you didnt see me fucking feel bad for myself or anyone tell me how proud they are of me even my mom ignored it and didnt acknowledge the factg that i took care of her more than she ever raised me LAST FUCKING WEEK but i cant be annoyed i just have to smile and go thank you im so young and naive and then they give me unsolictied advice and tell me im so strong like holy fuck die die die die and i feel so bad because this week ive been so fucked cause of work and my little sister is gone from her friends and i got enough money to pay 10 dollars for tickets to see this movie she wanted to see cause she lost her childhood dog yesterday (and i know its probably dead but when she asks me i say god is with it and keeping him safe) and i thought here i can cheer her up and then my car got stuck and then i was sitting there for an hour trying to dig it out and some guy comes up and tries to help and then he just goes well its stuck good and i start freaking out and he says that its not a big deal and i need to calm down andd i nearly fucking went nuts on him i just told him to fuck off that he doesnt know me i didnt ask to raise a child right now i had plans and dreams and i cant even fucking be mad theyre all being ruined because its not like i had the willpower and discipline to really see them through anyways and im just so fucking mad right now and i feel like ive been so mad ive just been hiding it and im so fucking mad at everyone i know and im mad at myself now my mom only calls me when shes asking for money and all my friends say you cant blame yourself about the hospitalization like you were going to kill yourself and its like no matter what i do i wasnt good enough for my little sister because now we are broke as fuck and all my friends are throwing a fucking pity party for me that makes me want to kms cause the only way i know how to feel useful (which up until this point i felt very useful because i was the sole provider for my family) is by giving money and the moment i gave a shit about my self my entire family got evicted and everyone in my life just turned the other way. MY BROTHER who fucking molested me just ignores me when i beg him to help not for me (hes never given a shit about me ive always just been some cum rag to him) but for our siblings but he ignored me and his fucking wife has the balls to like my family photos on xmas with me and my papaw and my little sister fuck them fuck them all fuck everyone i know what a bunch of assholes. everything i do now is for her. and everyone keeps trying to convince me to take my sister away from my mom.

theyd sooner traumatize my sister more than try to actually help my family. im so fucking sad and i cant even donate my plasma just to make ends meet because i have fucking PTSD AND IM TRANS and they have to get signed off otherwise what?? i might contaminate their fucking plasma ppool with my peepee genes??

and im this close to just doing sex work to get by im so fucking mad and i dont want to ask for help i just want to do things right and none of this is fucking fair but its even less fair for ema cause she tries so hard to be happy buut i know shes so sad. and i was so overwhelemed and freaking out i had a tantrum because things didnt go according to plan and that guy just stared at me and left and i realized im always going to be alone like this but the least i can do is do something for her and i cant even do that and i was so mad i couldnt hug her and i felt bad but i just needed alone time but now shes alone and i dont know what to do because i just need to be alone but i cant have her be sad and she just wanted to see this movie and they wont refund me and im so fucking mad and god. god is the only one even here for me. everyone else left cause i got "too much" from drinking or i was "tgoo mean" or i just act weird or i am too distant or im too needy and honestly i dont think i care about anyone anymore. im so fucking empty and im so fucked up that the only people i can get off to are people who look like my brother and i fucking hate him. and i want to tell him soo bad that i remember everything. i remember when he used to kiss me when i was asleep in highschool cause i wasnt sleeping i was just too scared to move. and i remember when he left for 5 years i thought it was my fault for not taking the hint and letting him have something romantic with me wit hmy fucking brother. and now i cant have a normal realtionship without having panic attacks in bed and freezing up and dissassociating and everyone thinks its so funny because i havent had sex and its like bro who the fuck would want to after that. god i fucking hate everyone right now

[bo0zey]

I hope you're doing ok, I only read about what happened at riot fest through someone who saw some of the people who fainted and had to be taken out, but to be in the situation that you were is so terrifying. I really wish I could whisk you to another concert of theirs, it breaks my heart that arseholes who have no regard to others' wellbeing ruined your experience. (And reading your post about how gerard was trying to control the crowd, I couldn't stop thinking about how disturbing it must have been to watch people fainting left and right and having to be surfed out of the crowd, and people still continuing to push.)

i'm okay!<3 i went home and hit the Hay afterwards lol. my abdominal cavity was still rlly sore tho lol like i couldn't eat my burrito once i got home :( which i shouldve expected cuz i couldnt even drink water without sharp stabbing pangs from my diaphragm n intestines still on bad terms with each other skjskjng . but i was better the next day :) . and i was so sad for the band you're 100% correct i can't imagine what they must've been thinking up there having to perform while so many people were getting hurt :/ . like gerard handled everything so well, better than the event organizers ffs, and i was so mad because then the tabloids were released ranking the 13 most "dangerous bands/crowds" at riot fest & MCR was right up there and it's like!!!!!! the band was doing everything they could to keep the crowd safe, pausing between every damn song, literally ZERO bantering from gee in between because he was too busy counting the steps he wanted the crowd to take back.

that's why i'm still kinda annoyed abt me almost fainting bc i know it's not my fault but i still feel so stupid n weak bc i feel like everyone thinks it's my fault too and i 'couldn't hang' but i was literally being crushed from all four sides of my body and my nose was in this stinky bitch's armpit like:((( it's not fair. and like i tried not to let the fact that i was almost barrier, ~1hr away from seeing the band whose music was literally the only thing i listened to from 12-16yrs old when my mom was sick and dying and i deadass had nothing left that resonated with me aside from mcr & the boys' side projects for 4 years straight. it sounds corny as fuck but it honestly felt like a dream come true to be able to see them live and so up close like??

but i'm not gonna lie i couldn't stay positive lol. i was in a fog and dissociated for their entire set. n like the fact that i was 1000000s of feet away from my original spot so i couldn't even see them on stage, just the big screen, it just made the dissociation worse because everything had already looked and felt unreal and now mcr felt unreal too but like in the worst way possible, like they actually WERE NOT real and i was watching a youtube video at home lol. and i've literally never tried so hard in my LIFE to re-ground myself because i wanted to be at least somewhat present for this once in a lifetime chance u know?? so i tried singing along but i couldn't because it made the shooting pains so much worse. then i tried just mouthing the words but the pain kept getting worse and i literally had to leave during the middle of TKFY because i was getting nauseous and lightheaded again. aside from the pain i truly couldn't feel anything while watching them perform i was just so numb from everything and i couldn't stop crying because i deadass felt zero happiness, and that realization made me cry more because they weren't even happy tears, they weren't the ones i'd expected to cry. it was honestly one of the worst feelings i've ever experienced, feeling nothing, just numb as fuck inside despite being live and present at the concert of the band that had at one point made me feel everything, every emotion, tenfold all at once. and there i was 10 years later, feeling nothing. tis a veerrrryyyyyy hard pill for me to swallow lol n im still tryna choke it down. i haven't been able to listen to any mcr songs since bc i'm afraid i'm going to experience the same empty feelings again orrrrr worse break down and cry like a little bitch n feel sorry for myself bc i was so.close. to having this 1 thing i always wanted but never thought i'd be able to have and then *poof* IT'S GONE. like i can't have shit in this world lol i jsut wanted to give my inner child some peace and remember happier days before mom was gone and what happpens instead??? god yanks mcr away from her too lmaoooo. it's like funny and ironic tbh idk. and then ofc for their last song gerard played cancer and i was 10000000000000 of feet away in pain while my stepmom tried 2 find me water n im just sobbing next to some trashcans bc suddenly im 12 years old realizing i just lost the last piece of my childhood n mcr can't soothe me anymore and mom isn't there either and now i truly have nothing left inside or outside myself that makes me happy:-). like i don't think i've EVER even cried to cancer bc i didnt think it was /that/ sad and my mom literally died of cancer and i still never cried??? But idk that was another weird sad thing that jabbed the knife in deeper lol.

but also ik why gee played it, they were supposed to close with TKFY but played cancer bc it's their slowest 'saddest' song which would hopefully make everyone chill the fuck out & leave without trampling each other. which, AGAIN, gerard is literally an amazing fucking frontman for once AGAIN going out of his way to try and mellow ppl out n keep everyone safe aND FOR TABLOIDS TO ATTACK THEM calling them the most dangerous band like!!!!!!!! it literally wasn't their fault ppl are just fucking idiots and don't understand BASIC PHYSICS/HUMAN ANTOMY DKDFNSKD. ngl the only reason i'm not wrathful abt the article is bc it's validating 2 me n my experience that Yes that crowd was actualyl fucking awful and what happened to me was OUT of my control n therefore it wasnt>:(my>:(fault>:(((

[themostnormalguyontheinternet]

if im clingy and annoying fine!!!!! if people get tired of me ok!!!!!! what the fuck ever life is too fucking short and full of fake social rules for me to pretend to feel/not feel something!!!!!! im sick of it!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i will not feel guilty for my emotions!!!!!! i hate lying! i hate liars! people make me sooo paranoid. i hate having to say im fine when im not!!!!!!! its so fucking tiring it makes me feel worse im not gonna do it anymore. i havent been able to talk to anyone about anything for days i need to share.

ive been off my meds for i think. 3-6 days now? ive lost count. and i only have like 2 doses left but i cant get the perscription filled for like 5 days. i havent been eating. my dad thinks i should go back to the hospital my mom doesnt want me to. i have therapy for the first time in two weeks tomorrow. im going to make that guy wish he never became a therapist. i got red ink stains on my new white shirt because i washed it with a red pen and if i go into work with my old one they will send me home. today i got bleach on my new blue pants and these are the only ones im allowed to wear. fuck!!!!!!! i also!!!!!!!! smashed my phone and broke it all up because i missed a shift at my job BECAUSE I READ THE SCHEDULE WRONG and got a warning (two more and i get fired!!!) also that same night i smashed my head into a tree. because i was mad. and also off my meds. also i think monday or maybe the night i got home from my friends house (if u read this hello thats u) i got in a fight with my mom and didnt feel safe being a. by myself and b. in my home, so i drove to my other friends house and spent the night for two days. i start working as a waiter tomorrow. hopefully i get some good tips. im really nervous about it. my goal is 100 dollars a night if i dont get that im going to be so sad!!!!!!!!! thank you for reading. if u did. i dont really care i just needed to say it somewhere. no one would want to listen otherwise i guess. maybe its just that im unmedicated. idk . bye

[alternateanonymous]

5:16 am

Hey yall, nothing new. Me and stefan had a little dispute but it wasn't crazy. It was just something out of nothing so lol, nothing new. I played valorant and ow on pc which was crazy. Stefan said he was gonna call me but went to sleep and didn't even say goodnight. Kinda sad about that not gonna lie. Had a good night regarless, decided to not go bnack to amherst yet because I have an appointment for my skin on wednesday and it wouldn't really make sense for me to go all the way to amherst then come back the next day so well see. just had a big snow storm too, so that's cool. also, im getting alot better at typing on this thing, honestly it took a minute but we are here and making it all fluid and shit, I love it lol. Also, praise petar he is a real g because he helped me figure out my shit which was nice. also, ugh being president is hard lolll. Ugh. also, idk discord is cool it just sucks that it has such a bad reputation lol. i went to get pizza with my mom today it was good. i talked to here about a lot of things so that was nice. I also called syka last night to check in and everything seems to be going well, she is going to be seeing her boyfriend rin soon so that's cool. stilll haven't played overwatch with them yet but that will come with time. i feel like sykaa still has a lot to learn and grow and develope in terms of realtionships but isn't that just life lol. I do wish stefan would at least text me or whatever. He did this the other day. Yea he's already asleep but i at least text him if i am going to sleep or whatever, idk. i am just scared or overthinking lol. Idk, not even. lately i've just been finding a lot of inner peace with myself and that's really rejuvenating. Like idk, honeslty once i joined the server i feel that apart of me has been restored in a way and i don't fully know how to describe it. it's like the good girl feminine energy that i have always wanted throughout my life has been finally restored in a way that i have never really had or never knew i needed. Call it cringy but lol whatever. like i said, i don't get as caught up with shit i would normally get caught up with. Idk. I mean partially some of that is due to weed because it helps distract and calm me. Like the night with stefan where shit was supposed to go bad, like yea it was bad in the moment and yea i cried, but then i just said fuck you imma do what i want if you wanna be impossible just be impossible i don['t care imma do what i wanna do. And i did and it was nice because the weed helped me. turned my thoughts back onto me and it was nice because i felt relaxed lol. yea am i still annoyed at stefan, yes but the chances of that happening again= maybe, so maybe I'll bring it up to him bext time i see him and just be like "yea, i am ok now and i ave had some time to sit and process it, and im not mad at you or annoyed at you and i recovered pretty quickly after our disput but it still doesn't make me feel ok that you resorted to not wanting the video regardless of the effort i decide to put in or not, because even though i was confused it stil doesn't make it right for you to revoke your intentions and say you don't want the video,. At that point it just made me feel worse. proved that you got to your breaking point of carelessness, and made me confused and sad that you didn't want what i was trying to give to youy regarless of if i complained or not. Idk, just didn't sit right with me. So what i ask of you for the future if we get in a situation like that again, please just let me deal with my own self and complaints and just don't revoke your inital intentions because that makes me feel worse and sad. So yes a. don't revoke your intentions and b. just let me complain when i want to complain. and understand that i am just complaining about it. Besides, you know me well enough to know that i can complain a lot about things but it doesn't mean that i am going to quit what i am doing. Just be patient with me ok? regarless of if i complain or not. because as my boiyfriend you know me better than most people.

Right thanks, so yea that is my shpeel ahout that, it is currently 5:30 am and i am lisening to death by dishonor by ghostmane. Shit goes hard lol. So yea, maggie just make sure you talk to stefan about this when you get a chance, preferably in person!!!!! Great thanks. Damn, that's actually crazy that this whole thing only took me 15 minutes to write lol. I literally love this fucking keyboard and pc so much, i honestly didn't think id like it this much but i love it, I love the keyboard and the mouse and the pc itself. the monitor is fine lol. and the applications that come with a pc are really cool, like bro. I can play overwatch and valorant which is cool. valorant i can finally play since it is apc exclusive game and also i finally feel valid enough to go on discord. Idk, some apps i just hate on my phone and would much rather prefer their layout on pc which is now where we are which is fire. But yea, ahhh we are making it mags. we're making it. Just keep your head up and keep striving for greatness because that's what you were made for. what were you made for= whatever you choose, you were given the ability to decide what is right wrong good and bad, and (most imporanty) answer those decisions with a why. You put the intention behind the decision, so thats your purpose. to be the voice of the world. Goodnight maggie, i love you. hahah YAAA that's weird, lol self love is weird. But legit this is the first time i have ever felt like i loved my personality and found purpose. My purpose is whatever i decide because i have that ability. So thanks!!! im just gonna keep trying to be the best person that i can be!!! yasaaaaaa,, fuck it we always positive in this bitch.

[f1nalboys]

Peacemaker S1 Ep4 The Choad Less Traveled live watch @tinalbion

-the little screenshot thing of adrian in his prison get up….oh yeah SORRY ok time to play

-i do in fact watch the recaps everytime idk why

-like i’m binging this shit but i still do it

-ugh this is an auggie centered episode i guess 👎

-everyone in the car together :3

-“you’ll fall over all the time and look stupid and everyone will laugh at you”

-peacemaker and vigilante both going to shoot judomaster 😭😭😭

-peacemaker is in trouble 😦

-“i started to feel sorry for it” IFKWKDNKWJD STOPPPP

-“right now this world needs a son of a bitch and you’re the only one i got” stop making me feel bad for christopher smith

-HEJDJEODJD

-ADRIAN WALKING ON HIS FOOT JUST SCREAKINF HES SO FUNNY

-MATTER EATER LAD

-adrian screaming abt walking on his foot and then walking off perfectly fine

-fuck off emilia

-SORRY harcourt is so annoying

-girlboss cunt tho fr

-but leota

-my beloved

-economous trying to make her feel better :,)

-“don’t FUCK with john economous mother fucker!” PERIODDD

-HNNGGH

-adrian without the mask

-“i’ve been meaning to thank you for allowing me to get tortured last night”

-he’s so hurt :((( my poor baby

-him staring at christopher like >:( after saying he’s fine he’s just like me

-“or your dad is a racist whack job” “yeah well your dad left your mom for another dude” “HEY?!” JFWOFNOWNDISJDN adrian ur just like me except my mom left my dad for another girl

-“yeah and they’re deeply in love!” “yeah i doubt it. u know i think he’s just pretending to be gay to get away from you” FUCM OFFFFF

-oof yeah he has no idea his dad got arrested

-oopsie hehe

-adriannnnfjfng

-sorry

-JJFJDJEJD HES TAKING ALL THE MASKS i bet he or someone else (prob adrian or maybe economous) r gonna put the scabies on one by accident 😭

-oooh the suit

-the duck wearing a human costume line PLS

-this episode is my fave so far i think

-he’s so mad at this old man

-“bat man doesn’t kill people” “BECAUSE HES A PUSSY” “he’s a dark creature of the night!” “HES A JACKASS”

-“Jesus! i was just trying to make conversation :(“

-oop.

-he revealed his dads in prison teehee

-HDKWIFNWKND

-murn angrily staring at economous and him going “me?? 😦”

-MURN WHISPERING “fuck. you” TO ECONOMOUSJFKWNXOD

-“i told u those people weren’t best friends material! 😌” HES SO CUNTTY

-aw them becoming besties again :3

-HFNWOFNKS

-ADRIANS REACTION TO CHRISPTOPHER SAYINF HE LOVES HIS DAD

-“oh….. 😀”

-leota 😵‍💫😵‍💫 sorry

-guys judomaster is awake

-not him slipping the stuff off his wrists

-NOOOOOO

-chris called her by her last name :(

-:((((

-his dads abuse being in his file :((

-WAHHHH IM FEELING SO BADDD

-“your dad is NOT a good man! not to the world, and especially not to you” WAHHHH

-:((((((((((( im so sad

-chris walking into a police station w his costume on cmon does this man not have regular clothes

-“i take it ur vigilante” “…..😦no”

-he’s so funny i love love love adrian

-can he and leota be besties :D

-“you’re so not killing it right now :/“ JFJWIDJIWND

-i hate his dad

-can someone kill this man 🗣️🗣️🗣️

-“him i fucking loved, but you? you were just a blob of flesh i felt nothing for” CAN SOMEONE KILL AUGGIE SMITH RIGHT FUCKING NOW????

-him begging his dad to be a good guy and let him do his job :/

-“i’m no rat but the first chance i get i’m spilling everything” “i don’t mean to be a jerk or anything dad but technically that exactly makes u a rat” “GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY SIGHT”

-fuck u auggie smith i hope someone actually kills u in there

-adrian’s hair 😵‍💫 sorry

-“he’s a good man, like you” “you think i’m a good man?” WAHHHHHH

-“i don’t think chris is ever gonna be happy as long as his fathers around” is adrian going to jail so he can kill auggie JTNAOXNWIBD

-chris is just :( so worried :(

-guys. do i like chris? NO. STAY BSCK. INDONT

-“ur gonna be alright” “ha. my dad hates my guts. everyone hates my guts. i’m a choad and not the good kind” “i don’t hate ur guts….and i think ur the good kind of choad” and chris sad smileanD HIS VOICE CRACK WHEN HE SAYS THANKS

-IM PUKING

-THEKFNWINFKE

-“i’ve sustained an injury on my pinky toe 🤓”

-and judomaster is gone

-“oh shit 😀” LFNWONFIE

-not cobra kai

-ECONOMOUS EHEEZINGISNDJWJ

-chris is a good guy bc even tho he’s pissed at economous he’s still gonna help :3

-“rematch motherfucker!!”

-GOD DAYUM

-chris just slamming him around

-“FUCK YOU!” “FUCK YOU” “FUCKER” JFNKWJF

-“you have a weird bubbly shaped body” JFKWOCKSKD

-NOOOO

-THEY SHOT JUDOMASTER

-BUTTERFLIES ARENT WHAT THEY THINK THEY SRD???

-leota shot him shit and

“i’ve never killed a man before 😰” “u still haven’t :3” JFNDJJF

-HES IN JAILLL

-so fucking

-hbbggg

-THE JAWBREAKER SONGGG AND HIMMMM

-fuck me

-fuck u emelia

-“and then it gets easier?” “no not really”

-“everytime i turn around if you is doing something fucked up” no literally murn 😭😭

-“why is everyone ‘fuck you’-ing to me today”

-“ur gullible i call out sick all the time and i’m lying” “i KNOW ur lying i jsut don’t give a fuck” STOP HARCOURT AND ECONOMOUS R BESTIESSSS

-adrian chase 😵‍💫😵‍💫🙏

-my god

-sorry

-i don’t have any thoughts on adrian’s fight scene

-except ‘gnnhghh’

-also he’s so cunty the way he smiled at them and took his glasses off and and and and

-yeah. YEAH. i want him

-chris being worried abt what everyone knows abt his dad :(

-:((((

-“thanks” “that’s it?” “no ur tits look stellar in that shirt and i’m saying that as a compliment, that’s not in a sexist way” STOP FJJWIXJWJD

-STELLAR

-king

-he’s a bong guy as well <3

-and a drinker

-he’s just like me

-NOT HIM GETTING THE BUTTERFLY HIGHHHH

-the way he’s dancing to this song 😭

-adrian still in jail :( HES OUT

-that was easy

-noooo leota ignoring her wife’s phone call :(

-ADRIANNNN

-sorry

-harcourt picked him up

-we she better not fall for him sorry

-“i think i might’ve made things worse” HES SO SAD IM GOING TO DIE SO HARD

-HE JUST WANTED TO MAKE THINGS BETTER FOR HIS BEST FRIEND FUCK OFFFFFFFF

-oh he tortured someone as a little kid :(

-:(((( NOOOO

-that was a great song to put in the background md

-glam tai

-NO I KNEW HE WAS A HUTTERFLY

-I FUCKING KNEWWWW ITTTT

-NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

-damn I AM SO SMART

-literally after last episode when he got blown up and like was on the ground and gave harcourt a thumbs up i was like hm….soemthing is up FUCK

-ok end credits

-“and it’s offensive to me. bc i have a soul. not a duck.” BYE

OK FINAL THOUGHTS OF THIS EPISODE it is easily my fave episode so far!!!! loving the increase in adrian content bc besides me wanting to smash he is such a fun character!!! he’s very clearly neurodivergent coded and i cant wait to see him interact w the rest of the team :3

i am feeling so god damn sad for chris rn :( i hate auggie smith all my homies hate auggie smith 🗣️ i wish adrian had been able to kill him but i think it’ll be more satisfying if chris does it

loving leota per usual, very excited to see the murn butterfly arc HEHE and also harcourt is slowly worming her way into my heart i guess 🙄🙄 her and economous are so fucking funny

[triple-hijueputa]

Today was a good day

I felt really accomplished for having doubled my daily goal

I only need $60 more to meet my weekly goal and I haven’t even made it halfway thru the week yet

It’s only been 2 days of driving again but I feel optimistic

I’ve been in my own orbit lately and it feels kinda nice

It still makes me a bit sad to know that everything is very different. And if I focus too hard on it I acknowledge that I am alone. But I’m also acknowledging that its nice to start over

I feel a weird kind of sad when I think of Paige now. Maybe it’s because we haven’t ceased contact. We talk about our appointments and rent but lately we’ve also been talking about the ferrets and sending videos. At times I feel she texts me just to get a response. I’m sure she misses me. And in a way I miss her too. I bought a ginger ale today and I thought of her. I miss her energy but I also can’t ignore the reason I left. And that’s what makes this different than liyah. Who btw is lowkey annoying me again lmaooo

I feel like if I get too invested in her life I get annoyed lmao she’s so lazy so unmotivated anxious and afraid of everything lol rlly a huge bummer.

She flipped out because her other boo was babysitting her cat and she was anxious to go see him everyday and when the girl said her mom didn’t want her to come over that night she flipped out was talking about stealing her cat and felt entitled to go to her house and frankly I did not have the energy to deal with this girl in her manic state. She told me she cried that she can’t live without her cat I tried to calm her down but I guess she got mad at my response and told me goodnight 💀 she was extremely distressed and overwhelmed and I just looked at my phone like .-. Okay and that was that

She messaged me this morning with a lite apology but honestly that whole thing turned me off

I was driving most of the day and it seems like she only ever has the same 4 things to say to me and then it cuts to me asking about her life but damn bro I dead do not want to know 💀 this girl rlly annoyed by everything and everybody. Literally seeps negative vibes. And yet.. the sex is mad nice 💀💀 let’s see where this goes. Im gonna try to put some distance between us so I can focus on my shit and she can keep her toxicity to herself.

I’ve been feeling a higher vibration about me. I feel like I’m going thru another metamorphosis

I’m anxious about spending $300 on the perm but fuck I rlly want it. I need to get back to the gym too but ugh to buy another membership and then fit a workout routine in too? I wish I had a free coach lol

[iwantlarry]

Ugh anons on Tumblr scare me now lmao 😂 like we get it lmao 😂😂😂😂 but now that everyone's miserable all of sudden lmao 😂😂😂 let's not pretend to be stupid lmao 😂😂😂😵😂 it's funny getting exposed lmao 😂😂😂😵 into being oh so happy lmao 😂😂😵😂 what makes me laugh the most is that it's funny to laugh lmao 😂😂 in a very funny way lmao 😂😂😂 funny to me then hysterical now lmao 😂😂 I'm like huh lmao 😂😂😵 i wondered if internalized traumas lead to horrible decisions lmao 😂🤌😂 it's like the Bible lmao 😂🤌 or something lmao 😂🤌😂 but not in o gods not real lmao 😂🤌😂 it's like in a oh lmao 😂🤌 life's real and it don't stop lmao 😂😂 for no one lmao 😂🤌😂 ugh and now we're gon a get the brunt end of bad decisions lmao 😂🤌 its like everyones the age they always stayed in lmao 😂🤌 but man to be overexposed os the worst lmao 😂🤌😂 oh big whoop lmao 😂🤌😂 only the truth will prevail lmao 😂🤌😂 i have to laugh lmao 😂🤌🤘 nope not even an over exaggerated way lmao 😂 just to funny to make up lmao 😂😆😂 ugh what a time to be alive lmao 😂😹😂 funny nah mad annoying lmao 😂😂 now everyone better sat happy birthday Liam lmao 😂 he's gone be 30 nah 29 lmao 😂🤌😂 bro why paint y'all self's to be older lmao 😂🤌😂 like it's funny lmao 😂😂 now im tired lmao 😂🤌😂 it's 2 am lmao 😂🤌😂 and ots the best birthday ive had in years lmao 😂🤌😂 and I didn't get drunk lmao 😂🤌😂 just heard the drunk stories from my sister and man it aint good over there lmao 😂🤌 I'm just hoping when that fat bitch Karina goes to prison they get her good 👍😤👍 now theure trying to blame my tias friend conchita in saying that she could of stopped hok fr getting murdered by his mom yeah 👍 special place in hell for her and I can't wait to hear the Storys about her suffering in prison for life 🧬🥺🥺 definitely been to sad 😭 and hopefully praying she'll never set a foot out ever again 😤🥰🥰 like he was only 7 you guys and she's looking at 90 to life and all my dumbass cousins still on that dumb shit lmao 😂😂 it's like bro can y'all stfu lmao 😂😂 an quit doing drugs lmao 😂🤌😂 at least take care of ur body's before you end up worse lmao 😂🤌😂 like damn it lmao 😂 family to dramatic call me Dr dream lmao 😂😂 and it's not just the family now theyre having kids lmao 😂 an im like huh lmao 😂🤌😂 more shitty people in the family for what lmao 😂😂 oh but bo that their grown with kids its everyone else's fault lmao 😂 like bro whoa fault was it being shitty kids lmao 😂🤌😂 yalls fault lmao 😂🤌😂 oh but too cool lmao 😂😂 nah it wanst funny then to our parents an now its worse off for yall lmao 😂😂😂 its like wow honoring ur parents os the way to be blessed by god himself idk who said lmao 😂😂😂 oh but you can't taje it back lmao 😂😂 oh ok lmao 😂😂 but keeping up pretenses also makes u a dumbass lmao 😂🤌😂 oh well lmao 😂😂 ugh 😩😫 it's to funny I can't even make it up lmao 😂🤌😂 I have to laugh lmao 😂🤌 like huh lmao 😂🤌😂 oh but so changed ya cuando weyes lmao 😂🤌😂 5 kids in an ur still miserable lmao 😂🤌😂 to late now lmao 😂🤌 ugh it's to funny I can't even like log off lmao 😂🤌 it really is who's the drama me nah lmao 😂🤌😂 I'm to not fake I'll never be able to fake anything lmao 😂🤌😂 but I'll pray lmao 😂🤌 but gah damn I won't forget lmao 😂🤌😂 an that's on the real god lmao 😂🤌 oh so cute nah lmao 😂🤌😂 silent judgements lmao 😂 in not bitter way lmao 😂 in I'll laugh lmao 😂🤌😂 later lmao 😂🤌 ugh and this is why i never posted on Tumblr since I made one lmao 😂🤌 ugh 😩😫 man god is real and im glad people came to their senses quick lmao 😂🤌😂 embarrassing yeah lmao 😂🤌 but idgaf lmao 😂🤌😂 I'll laugh to their faces lmao 😂🤌😂 like huh lmao 😂🤌 i knew it lmao 😂😂 misread your text lmao 😂 no 😂😂 i gotta laugh with how fake everyone is lmao 😂🤌 now they can't even be mad lmao 😂🤌 promise I won't judge but fuck it's funny to me now lmao 😂🤌😂😂 now twitter is on to me and that's never good lmao 😂🤌😂 how I get trolls before most people got fame lmao 😂🤌 i have to laugh lmao 😂🤌😂 like huh lmao 😂🤌😂

[bujo-ie]

things i’ve been tested on this past week

who the fuck andrew jackson is

american conquest of phillipine islands

my nonexistent math skills

the fear of underpreparedness and public speaking

how to make whipped cream frosting

the nunmber of times i can get my family angry at me for having Emotions (and somehow, get angry at me for NOT Having Emotions)

my will to live