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sl33p3r-fr4ud · 5 months

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may fuck around and try to get back into writing

#i used to love it sm idk what happened #acc i do know #but i need to not do that to myself anymore #im gonna throw up bro #jk not actually #i have to wake up so early tmrw and its almost 3 #i failed the allnighter to fix my sleep schedule #and now its even worse #i went to bed at like 9 #fms #whatever #ill figure it out #okk byee!!

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martyrbat · 4 months

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also while im having my afternoon bitching moment i think a lot of analog & common horror games relies on being ableist and having the 'scary disfigured person' trope that harms actual people, even if it isn't the creators intent. if youre old enough to publish actual games youre old enough to get some perspective on how you may be hurting others—especially when it comes to horror and using disabled bodies as a visual meant to horrify people.

#i went to bed at 5 am with a spiraling mood and woke up at 9 angry and now it's noon and im just solidly annoyed and carrying a bad migraine #but im so tired of people just getting a 'well they didnt know better!!!' like okay but what are they doing to actually educate themselves #to not harm a community. to not be ableist. what are they doing to learn and actually grow.#why are people so quick to defend ableism and make us the mean disabled people. why is that your first instinct.

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spaghett-onaplate · 4 months

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depression is really weird actually wdym i spent 2.5 years of my life in bed

#and wdym that lifestyle changed so quickly into being out and about and an active member of the world??#very proud of myself #and i mean it wasn't that quick of a change #it was like 1.5 years primarily depression bedrotting with occasional school -> primarily depression bedrotting ->#primarily depression bedrotting with 3-9 hours of work weekly -> straight into 31+ hours school+9-12 hours work weekly #so there was somewhat of a gradual progression #but still #also wowza i wake up 7-7:30am every morning now. 1pm was an early wake up for a not so insignificant amount of time #i mean of all fundamental growth years to miss out on the ages like what 12/13-15 aren't too bad? they would suck in a different way if i #had been socially involved #anyway it's just. yea i'm proud of myself but it is a crazy lifestyle change #and even when i was deeply depressed in a horrible routine i feel like i learned a lot. how to regulate my emotions and cope well and find #the joy in everything. bc if i stayed in bed all day then i would at least be happy about the sun or whatever #and for the while of being not at school at all i WANTED to be at school i just could not find one bc our school system is so cute like tha #(basically every school is at capacity and the local school that has a guaranteed place for me would have been an all boys or girls 😭)#but i miraculously found and got into this school and miraculously made it work so well for me socially and now academically #it's also a good time to get back into school for my education bc any later and it woulda been pretty bad for all my certifications and uni #ive missed out on so much maths that its not worth it to me to try and catch up but my teacher knows that #but ive always hated maths regardless i only ever understood it for the first half of yr 7 then my attendance dropped #and after my recent exam i decided to try harder at school. but i still got an A on the exam i didn't study for!! academic weapon fr #i'm just idk thinking back to myself in the past few years #and how hopeless it all felt. but i got out of it!! i beat the depression and social anxiety and found a good place and made the most of it #and during the peak of my depression i remember i went out someplace near my old school and panicked so so badly about seeing #kids from my old school. and the friends at the time didnt really check on me when i went to shake and cry in a side street lmao #i kept the best of that friendgroup and have better friends now. but anyway now i take a bus each morning with some kids from my old school #and you see these hands? they look like they're shaking to you?#anyway yeah it's just cool i got to this point :) i really had no hope for so long but now i have a life i'm living and a future i'm build #--ing towards #which is funny i just decided some random day last november after watching some better call saul 'huh actually lawyer would b pretty cool'#and will i get there? we'll see but i do have hope now

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front-facing-pokemon · 1 year

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#mega swampert #NOW they're angry! what about? i dunno‚ but they're gonna tell you!#this mega is definitely *cool*—it actually introduces a significant difference. turns swampert into a big tank guy #which i think is badass‚ even if i wouldn't really take it over regular swampert‚ personally. it really changes the look and vibe #and i'm a bigger fan of the more lanky regular swampert‚ honestly #i'm running on three and a half hours of sleep i'm Desperately trying to come up with something interesting to say here #my bedroom has two big-ass windows in it that let in sunlight so it always wakes me up at like 9 AM sharp #and i went to bed at like 5 PM last night. didn't even fall asleep until like 6. so i'm a little bit wrecked this morning but y'know #this isn't the place to talk about that. this is a place to talk about mega swampert. and here that is!!!

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olibavee · 3 months

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SLEPT THROUGH THE NIGHT

#liv rambles #my insomnia has been getting soooo bad so any time i sleep through the night it's like WOAH...#yday i went to bed at 9:30 pm and couldn't fall asleep until 8 am. hell on earth

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toastsnaffler · 3 months

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taking an extra half an amfexa before I leave work bc [redacted] (popular artist) is playing my city tn and I'll need it to cope with how awful the traffics gonna be when I'm on the bus 💀

#thinking of that post abt the customwr who tried to pay for smth with a piece of paper that said $40 voucher on it #and the guys coworkers being like how are u so calm? and the op is like i went to the break room and took an extra adderall #NOT TO MENTION PPL ACTUALLT GOING TO THE CONCERT ON MY BUS.....theyre gonna be soooo annoying 😭😭😭😭#but i wont care ill be listening to the katamari damacy ost and reading dorohedoro v10 peace and love on planet earth #i hope i get a seat at least #ALSO NINTENDO DIRECT WHEN I GET HOOOOME YAYY #.diaries #its fine cuz i didnt take a dose at lunch since i wasn't crashing anyway.. its only rly hitting me now #i didnt have anything to do at work this afternoon so didnt need to be able to focus.. someone from qc was using equipment i needed to #so i had to move it to another day. was nice tho i gave a coworker some of my leftover brownies n we took an extra half hour break >:)#and then went and complained abt [artist] to another coworker bc hes not a fan either LOL #very productive day 😇#im gonna need the focus to be able to call my mum tonight tho.. amfexa save me save me amfexa #and im gonna go to bed even earlier. i somehow got 7.5 hours last night which is a rarity for me but still felt knackered when i got up #maybe like 9:30 tn and hopefully it wont take longer than an hour for me to fall asleep and i can aim for 8hrs🤞

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aefensteorrra · 7 months

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Normally I go to the office like fortnightly, if that, but this week I have to be there 4 days in a row and don’t get me wrong I’m thankful this isn’t the norm but I really think working from home is where it’s at because I have had zero time to cook or clean this week (because we’re also having to work till 7pm… screaming crying throwing up) and also can’t sort out any of the admin stuff with my energy provider which is really stressing me out

#also. I like the people I work with but many of them are really dissatisfied #so being in the office is a lot of listening to people vent and rant #and it doesn’t stop. like last night we went out after ‘to decompress’ but it was literally just like a work meeting with cocktails #so yesterday I had 11 hours of nothing but work talk #and I was so so so done. got home at 9:30 so was also out for 14 hours #showered and went to bed. had no appetite to eat from how insane the day had been #not a fan I must say

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davidtennantpussytulpa · 6 months

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i appreciate a quick response but it also scares the shit out of me how fast my PI responds. like FUCK!!! i wasnt prepared to deal further with this for at least a couple hours

#like when i first emailed him last summer to ask about joining his lab i expected a response within like maybe 3 days bc thats what im used #to with most academics and professionals but he literally responded in three MINUTES and i felt like shitting myself #like. when does this man sleep. bc im emailing him my draft at 10pm and get a response right away when i know hes also in the lab at the #first moment he can. i have no way of saying if he gets there earlier than 8 bc you know my ass is getting there at 9 but im pretty sure its #8 at the latest. AND he works out in the mornings. GIRL????#hes like yeah during my phd i went to the gym at 5 was in the lab for 8 hours went home cooked dinner etc and would go to bed at midnight #so. he functioned on about 5 hours of sleep for at least 4 years and im pretty sure he still does. what fucking witchcraft is his body #chemistry doing in there. HES IN HIS 50S TOO

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the-pea-and-the-sun · 4 days

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this morning i saw that my roomate didnt go to bed last night and just slept on the couch for some reason, and i just got back from work and shes still (or is back to?) sleeping on the couch?? hope shes alright?

#she is in fact breathing. so #also for context i saw her this morning at 9 and i get off work at 8:30pm #so. either she got up at some point after i left and went to bed at 8pm or shes been sleeping for like. absolute minimum 12 hours #this is the rotting meat roomate. btw #charlie words

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clowndensation · 9 months

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i'm like the hungry hungry caterpillar but for sleep. "and then he slept for almost nine and a half hours. but he was still tired." kinda guy.

#how is it that during the weekend 7:30 hits and i cant go back to sleep no matter what. even if i went to bed at 2:30.#and yet i go to sleep at 10pm on a work night and feel like i could sleep in until 9 suddenly. what gives.

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curiosity-killed · 6 months

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Part of me feels like a fraud for skipping class/rehearsal when I’m like. Not ACTUALLY sick and is trying to convince me to slog over in time for rehearsal even tho like. I know! That if I feel poorly enough to admit it aloud to other humans!! I need rest

#also the like #prolonged nausea and inability to eat don’t rlly like #add up to a worthwhile class/rehearsal time #like I’m FINE but I was sort of planning to take this afternoon off #and didn’t get to #and went to bed at like 9 last night and actually just #watched tv without being able to multitask #all of which are tried and true validated indicators of me being under the weather #personal

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thereigning-lorelai · 10 months

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i just want my energy back to create something. i've been sick for almost 3 weeks now and i can’t find any energy or motivation (or maybe even enough inspiration) to finish anything. i just want to feel better again. 😭

#when i thought i'd might finally get better again of course i had to catch a cold on top of everything #i went to bed at like 9 these past few days and i still feel like i haven’t slept at all #i just feel like i have all these ideas in my head and no energy left in me #haven't been this sick in a while and it sucks #*txt

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angelstrawbabie420 · 12 days

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in my quest to quell my pain ive only hurt myself worse. damned if i do damned if i dont.

#i need better coping mechanisms but it’s so easy to just turn to substances when you’ve never learned how to cope w your emotions #and physical pain. however a lot of it has been brought on by the substance abuse aka i did it to myself #so i probably deserve it #but i started with them in the first place to get rid of pain that was so overwhelming and constant #it feels like every time i do something to preserve myself im punished for it #and im so sick of it. i cant believe its gotten this bad #i drink to help the pain -> i get hungover and the pain is way worse -> i drink to stop that pain #and the worst part is it always works #realistically ive depended on substances for like a decade #i started drinking at 13 and fell into a rut of alcoholism at like 15/16 #my mom was going thru a phase of alcoholism and roped me into it so bad if be woken up by her bringing me a drink at 9 am #and we’d drink till she passed out and i had to walk her to bed and cook for everyone and do all the chores #it went on for months one summer #then it was weed and i smoked every day from like 18-22 #only thing thwt stopped me from drinking until i started again after both my parents died #i havent recovered since.#im still so traumatized and depressed that i looked for any method of relief #the dph phase was the worst. i think alc is even better than that lmfao it was horrible #once i got access to alc i stopped all that. wouldnt have if i hadnt had alc tho #it’s honestly been one addiction after the other for a decade #and my parents fueled so much of it #‘oh id rarher you drink under my eye than do it behind my back’#BRUH YOU WOULDNT LET ME GO ANYWHERE OR DO ANYTHING. HOW WOULD THWT HAVE HAPPENED #crazy how i was obsessed w drugs and shit by the time i was 10 and i remember thinking wow im gojna grow up to be an addict.#why am i so irreparably fucked up #idk whatever. like im not gonna drink abt it lmao.

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gaylightisminetocommand · 12 days

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I JUST FORGOT WHERE BRACKETS ARE ON THE KEYBOARD

#and it's even worse cause i'm one of those ppl who always overuses brackets so idk how i did that #just froze up and went. okay i've pressed shift. now what.#ended up pressing the ] and } key and was like hmm that's not right #had to scan the whole keyboard before going 'ah yes! 9 and 0 my trusty companions'#taking this as a sign that i should go to bed #gaylight post

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melancholicscoundrel · 15 days

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I really washed the fuck out of my hair like I did a great job. Granted it’s still frizzy but there is no residue it’s so soft and silky between my fingers, I did that I really went all out with the shampoo and the conditioner. Good job me

#context: I went like a whole 9 days without showering #now I gotta do my mountain of laundry. and my bedding which I haven’t washed in months…..#just found a new cavity 😔.. but good news! it’s in a spot where no one can see 👍#I am beginning the process of getting medicated ok I just got me a new therapist and I’m gonna have an appt with the dr for meds #I Might improve somewhat. I’ll never know if I don’t give myself a chance #depression #mental illness #my bullshit

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10-dutchies-12-bicycles · 1 month

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#was like today rly is a go lie in bed and be miserable day (pms)#but then i went to lie in bed and was like yanno what let me cuddle w my 2 fave plushies for the first time in Many Month #and then i immediately felt better :3 #PSA go cuddle w stuffed animals to self soothe!!!#ngl i do need to cry for no reason for a little while :( siighh.....#Little Tissue i love u sm <3 ive had her since i was a newborn. not my oldest plushie tho #also kitty <3 ive had her since primary school 5th year. so i think like 2 months before i turned 9? yea. math 😎👍#mine

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