#i went with sc bcs why not

[aeb-art]

cringe is dead or whatever so… here's a super rough comic about geo getting smooched at a new year's eve party o7 (the mall toons of course belong to @8um8le)

happy new year, go kiss a robot xoxo

[yay-depression]

every day i set expectations and every day i’m reminded why i told myself not to do that

[kaahgyuya]

Scaramouche Nfsw headcannons lol •

♡ Scaramouche nfsw headcannons bc why not + SMUT STORY 😍😍‼️

Dom/ Scaramouche and Sub fem! reader

– Warnings • None really, I don't think so /mentions of throat fucking

▪︎ DNI IF YOUR 16 AND UNDER! (Or not I don't really care what you do I can't stop you)

~ Bro, he's one to be right at it he wastes no time

~ he like to tease you and whisper gently in your ear while he's at it. "You're doing so good for me."

~ sometimes when he's close, he likes to stop and it makes you beg for more which makes him even more harder. And once he enters again he's even faster and when you come he doesn't stop <33

~ he sometimes puts two fingers in your mouth just bc he has a kink

~ he likes to praise you and once you've reached your climax, he always begs for a second round, but he always lies through his ways so he does multiple in one standing.

~ sometimes his cock is just too good for you so you pass out during a session or two <3

~ sometimes when he's hard in public, he likes to caress your thigh and once your home he takes it all out on you

~ he likes to praise you a lot like call you a good girl or boy or whatever gender you are and he likes to pull your hair a few times and if it hurts he'll stop because he doesn't wanna hurt you <33 (how sweet)

~ sometimes he makes commands and if you don't follow them, he'll go faster and faster until you do it 😨

~ when having sex, he likes to touch and squeeze your boobs because he just likes it.

~ when watching movies at home or watching smth etc he likes to make you sit on his lap so he can caress your boobs.. sometimes he goes to far and ends up fucking you anyway

~ sometimes when you pass out while having sex he likes to go kiss you in order for you to wake up, if not he throat fucks you

~ he likes it when you ride him because he gets an advantage of your sweet spots <3

~ when riding him, he likes to hold your waists and sometimes forcefully pushs you onto him which makes you scream his name even louder!

~ he likes to see you so miserable <3 so when having sex he likes to go rougher

~ he LOVES to hear your sweet sounds and when he does he just gets harder and harder! That's how much he just loves you, but he doesn't say it until end of sex.

~ sometimes he just isn't satisfied, so he does it over and over again until he is fully satisfied. (Within 4 or 6 rounds he'll be satisfied.)

Now lemme show a little smut with all of these headcannons bc I just love writing /hj

you were making dinner for your roommate, Scaramouche because he can't cook for shit. No, he can cook he's just too lazy too.

Today Scaramouche felt very very touched starved.

"Nhh.." Scaramouche groaned as he approached you.

"What's wrong?"

He wrapped his arms around you as you didn't expect that, you guys weren't dating. (Soon 😜)

He lied his head on your shoulder.

"Uh, what's wrong..?" You asked questionable.

You looked at him and when he opened his eyes they looked hazy and lustful.

"Feelin tired today?" You asked.

"I want you." Scaramouche said.

"Huh?"

Scaramouche snuck his hand into your shorts and played with your clit. You flinched at that knowing you've never done it before.

Scara bit your neck and licked it as you were his territory.

"Nh!" You covered your mouth and he became rougher.

"N-nows not the time, Sc-Scara." You said trembling.

Scara picked you right up and he went to his bedroom were you flopped right on top. "Scaramouche.." you said.

He took off your shirt quickly and put his face between your boobs.

"You smell nice." Scaramouche muttered under his breath.

"U-uh.."

You felt Scaramouche take off your shorts and underwear as he fingered you.

Breathy moans came out of you as your covered your mouth with the back of your hand.

"Already? You're so sensitive." Airy chuckles came from Scaramouche.

The dark room only being lit up by the sunset made the room feel sweaty and hot.

"Sc-Scara we can continue this later I ha—" you felt something thick enter your body as you look down to see yours and Scaramouches connection.

Sweet sounds came from you as Scaramouche went harder.

"You're doing so good for me." Scaramouche caressed your cheek he said panting.

Scaramouche squeezed your boob as he held both of your hands on top of the head board.

"I-I can't, p-lease.."

Scaramouche lied kisses on your body and hickeys everywhere.

"You're mine now." Scaramouche said deeply.

He thrusted faster into you and you felt your mind go crazy, it felt so good yet it hurt.

"Scream for me, ____." He squeezed your boob harder.

"Ngh, I ca-n't..." He thrusted even faster.

"Scar–" he released your hands as he grabbed your waist and slammed you onto his body. And there you were, all miserable and almost crying and screaming his name.

"That's a good girl." His held your cheek and inserted his thumb in there as he circled your clit.

You moaned louder and louder with every thrust he impaled in you.

"You, n'.."

His big cock was just too much for you as you felt like passing out.

Then he stopped.

"Eh... why did—" as soon as he said that he thrusted into you faster and faster.

With that hard thrust, you screamed his name as he grabbed your waists while you were holding on the bed sheets for dear life.

"Be a good girl for me and moan for me." He chuckled.

"Y-yEs!" You said weakly.

He had so much stamina, that you were about to come.

"S-so cLose!" You screamed while chopping your sentences apart.

"You're such a little slut for me." Scaramouche chuckled.

You came but Scaramouche didn't stop.

And there you were, begging him to stop but kept on going.

"I'm not satisfied yet."

"Wha?!—" You screamed his name louder and louder with every thrust trying to make him stop.

You were a mess as Scaramouche ignored your calls.

"Hmm." Scaramouche hummed.

Scaramouche stopped and he quickly changed positions, and there you were on top on him as he forcefully pulled your body up and down on him.

You flinched even harder at one thrust.

"Feel good at that spot?"

"Huh?"

He moved a bit and kept on going as he hit that good spot everytime.

You were a spilling mess moaning and moaning for him as he felt even harder. He was destroying you and you felt amazing. Your head was going crazy at every thrust you felt so tired.

"You're such a good girl."

"Sh-shuf up." As you trembled on your words.

Airy chuckles came from Scaramouche.

"I'm close."

Scaramouche came into you, but he didn't stop now.

"What!?—"

~

"Ca-canf..i canf feel my leghs.." Your body felt numb as you mumbled your words over. Your legs were twitching unbelievably fast.

Scaramouche on the other hand was helping you get cleaned up.

"Next time we should do it again."

"Whaf?"

He put on your shorts and he cuddled you in bed.

"Just know I love you, ____." Scaramouche said in your ear gently.

"You broke mhy legfs." You closed your eyes as you fell fast asleep.

A tired airy chuckle came from Scaramouche as he fell asleep with you <3

~~~~

Anyways I'm tired asf too and SPONSOR PLS READ MY HEIZOU SMUT STUFF ON WATTPAD /j

I hope u enjoyed ❤️❤️❤️ [or not then y r u even here at the end]

[criticallydreamingz]

i had to put some thought into this but like. as someone who was hospitalized due to one of my sysmates, i do feel a deep wish that DID was portrayed in some way in SC

im not gonna comment on tebbot(? was that the name i dont remember....) bcs i feel like that convo abt the character was done to death the moment it happened ngl

but like. to get personal for a sec, roughly two or three years ago(? i actually dont remember bcs of how much thats been clouded for me) i went to a hospital and had intensive therapy for about a year after. i wont specify what for, for the privacy of my sysmate. and the truth is, we were not treated well! they approached us from an angle of general mental health and did not adjust care needs to suit someone with DID. there was a lot of language used in later group therapy that would suit singlets and just confused us more bcs we didnt know what to say or do to fit into the mold that was being set up

and after that is when i found SC. and part of us resonated a lot with those early parts of the comic bcs that dismissive attitude reflected by the doctors and nurses in SC hit close to home.

and look everyones DID is different hence why im not speaking on the one character but like! idk. i think i just want more general DID rep, especially in mental health focused works like this. sure our communication is much better so we dont have situations like that anymore, but yk what i hated? i hated coming out about my DID bcs i was scared theyd send us back to the hospital for it. thats the kind of elements i felt like i would see in SC.

tldr: just some well written DID please, a sliver of rep.

(though, at this point i feel im better off making it myself)

[hostilemuppet]

Well, I stand corrected. Rewatched the last scene and I totally forgot they were both eaten. There is an argument in Creek escaping like Poppy but I understand why he's most probably dead

i think creek is generally not as quick thinking in terms of action as poppy is: hes a talker. hes charismatic, hes good at convincing people to do what he wants, the same way chef is (theyre very similar, just on opposite sides of oppression), but hes not fast on his feet. i really doubt he wouldve been able to save himself like poppy did. its definitely POSSIBLE, dont get me wrong, and if they brought him back in a future movie i wouldnt be MAD if they went with this explanation, but... i think creek would be too busy panicking to do anything to save himself. weve SEEN how he responds to threats: he told other trolls to "minimise their auras" when they were being hunted by an angry and hungry bergen. he can not be counted on in a crisis, he relies on other trolls to help him. and now he has no one left

also i took this sc of the death scene earlier today and i love it bc creek is so fucking small. he IS in there i promise, hes that speck of dust by chefs face

[cupcraft]

I think why it's important to support victims too is the reality of being a victim is that not everyone is going to have collected the evidence that ppl always ask for (and even then people always say the evidence is fake/not good enough).

Like I wont get too personal on details bc im not comfortable with that, but I want to use myself as example for my point because I don't want to speak for other people's experiences.

I was a victim of emotional abuse from a friend group for years that i only very recently went no contact with 1 year ago just about (2 ppl in the group specifically the most). And I didn't collect screenshots. I didn't collect video/recording (and even if i planned to thats illegal in my state without their consent). And for a lot of that relationship though I suffered and was in a bad place I never really quite realized it was abuse until I got out and had someone some else give me a wakeup call. And I currently still have no plans to report it or go through legal trouble with it personally (for reasons not important to this post's point.

And why I say this is because when I share my story with people I'm close to all I have is my word. My word of the things they did to me. My word on how the abuse was subtle, how I knew from a tone of voice if I'd get in trouble with them. How they'd belittle me under the guise of jokes and "game lobby culture". Etc.

And so when you think all victims need to come with you with a mountain of evidence you're really saying you won't believe people at their word which is my reality and many other people's realities for any type of abuse and harm. At the end of the day you're going to trust me or not if you're someone I'm comfortable enough telling my story to. At the end of the day you're going to see the post and decide if I'm making shit up or not.

Of course I wish I had scs of things for many reasons, but even then a lot of my experiences were verbally related with no recording (some of which is subtle anyway ill get into that in a second) The angry comments on Instagram I got were quickly changed while I was too panicked to sc them at the time. A lot of my texts were over kik of which never saved the history.

Sometimes people's words are going to have to be enough for people because that's all you're going to have. Because when you say evidence is important you're really saying that I expect every person in a situation to: know they're a victim, and once knowing theyre a victim collect evidence (even if that evidence collection could harm the victim/or isnt possible) and to somehow make sure that evidence is enough for people, plus be able to have evidence for abuse that is publicly subtle.

And on another point this expectation doesn't really cover how abuse can sometimes be so fucking subtle. You know? How can you explain to people how a tone of voice is a part of the abuse? How can you explain something that could be a joke between friends wasnt a joke in that situation and a part of the torment? How canyou explain to someone when they say something normal its the smile that tells you its belittling/anger? Like even if I had a believable recording of the interaction for the smile example, like it may not be noticeable to you because thats the pt in why its so fucking subtle! you're just gonna have to trust ppl when they know something is sinister or not idk how to explain this. How do we collect evidence for the things that are so subtle and innocuous and meant to fly under the radar in public?

So when people tell you to check your victim blaming rhetoric this is part of the reason why.

You may reblog this btw and you free to rb with additions of your own too this is an important and open conversation. And before it's said this is not specifically about any one situation it's something I've wanted to write about for a while based on both fandom experiences, irl experiences, and just witnessing how abuse victims are treated in various situations. So it's not a vague.

[pub-lius]

John and Henry Laurens for @thereallvrb0y

i hope you don't have trauma bc this is gonna be an emotional rollercoaster

tw: sewerslidal ideation, childhood neglect, shitty parenting, and like really blatant racism, oh and also discussion of homophobia and shit so be prepared

my sources for this are mainly the US National Park Service, but also Gregory D. Massey's John Laurens and the American Revolution. other good resources available online are the South Carolina archives, American Battlefield Trust, Britannica, George Washington's Mount Vernon, and this john laurens blog here on tumblr. now this isn't EVERYTHING i know about laurens, because like ive been fixating on him for a while and i can't put massey's whole book in here, but you'll definitely get a good understanding of him because this is a long one.

Henry Laurens

getting the boring one out the way. Herny Lauren (i don't like him having the same name as me) was born in Charleston (i will occasionally be calling it Charles Town in the names of shit) in 1724. His grandparents were French Huguenot immigrants. They were members of the Reformed Church, and fled to England and then Ireland after the Treaty of Nantes was revoked. Then they went to NYC then Charleston when they got rich as fuck.

Hreny was the first son, and was educated in Charleston, and later in England. He worked in a local counting house and worked under a prominent British merchant.

He returned to South Carolina in 1747. Charleston was really sick bc you could ship directly to Spain from there, and it was the busiest port in America for a little while. So, obviously, Homophobic Laureli had to get in on this and opened an import-export business (aka a mercantile) called Austin and Laurens. They imported rum and British mercantile goods like beans on toast, also trading in Carolina Gold rice, indigo, deerskins, tar, pitch, silver, and gold. They exported Colonial merchandise to England on returning ships.

Here's the slavery party. Huckleberry Laugens entered the slave trade with Grant, Oswald & Company, another mercantile that controlled the slave outpost Bunce Castle located in Sierra Leone. The company was contracted to receive, catalog, and market human cargo by conducting public auctions in Charleston. They handled the sale of over 8,000 people, receiving a 10% commission. Expenses incurred during the transportation of people were the responsibility of Austin and Ally (Laurens).

Now Laurens had some hot takes on slavery. He was an "abolitionist", which at the time usually meant a rich, white, slaveowner who made excuses. For example, this is how Fugly Laurens described to another business, Smith & Clifton, what slaveowners looked for in slaves.

“very likely healthy People, Two thirds at least Men from 18-25 Years old, the other young Women from 14-18 the cost not to exceed Twenty five Pounds Sterling per head… There must not be a Callabar (sic) amongst them. Gold Coast and Gambias are best, next to them the Winward Coast are prefer’d to Angolas. We would not choose them sent in the Hurricane Season but rather to come in the months of October or November. Pray observe that our people like tall Slaves best for our business and strong withall. Such as small, meager or other ways ordinary won’t sell better here than with you. The difference in price between Men and Women is never less than £3 per head, sometimes £6.” -Henry Laurens 1755

How disgusting is that. I fucking.

But its okay. Here's his list of excuses for why he can own slaves.

“I told you in my last that I was going to Georgia… My negroes there, are all to a man, are strongly attached to me – so are all of mine in this country [SC]; hitherto not one of them has attempted to desert; on the contrary, those who are more exposed hold themselves always ready to fly from the enemy in case of a sudden descent… You know, my dear son, I abhor slavery. I was born in a country where slavery had been established by British kings and parliaments, as well as by the laws of that country ages before my existence. I found the Christian religion and slavery growing under the same authority and cultivation. I nevertheless disliked it… I am not the man who enslaved them; they are indebted to English for that favour (sic); nevertheless I am devising means for manumitting many of them, and for cutting off the entail of slavery. Great powers oppose me – the laws and customs of my country, my own and the avarice of my countrymen.” -Henry Laurens to John Laurens 1776

Okay, let's break this down. 1.) all of the people I enslave are so happy because I'm such a good slaveowner that they don't want to leave! 2.) other people's slaves are sad, so I'm better than them 3.) its the British government's fault that I HAVE to own slaves 4.) I'm a Christian 5.) I'm gonna free them eventually but like I don't want people to be mad at me 6.) I'm saying I hate it, but I'm doing nothing to stop the spread of the institution, but that's not important because I SAY i hate it. 99% of people who owned slaves at this time used at least one of these excuses.

Henry Laurens never publicly spoke out against slavery.

Dumbass married Eleanor Ball on June 24, 1750. She was pregnant a total of twelve times, but only four children lived to adulthood.

Hairless Laurens became a member of the Commons of House of Assembly in 1757. He was a member of every session until the American Revolution, so that's... something ig. The Assembly was the dominant institution in Colonial South Carolina, like the Virginia House of Burgesses or however you spell it.

Heterochromia held the rank of Lieutenant Colonel in the South Carolina Militia from 1757-1761, and engaged in many campaigns against the Cherokee natives and also in the French and Indian War, so don't worry, he wasn't just racist to black people. His business contributed £7,000 towards the war against the Cherokee. He kept a diary which is in the South Carolina Archives (cited above).

Hypnotizability Laurens was appointed to oversee Charleston's defenses in 1758 as "Commissioner of Fortification." I don't know why that's in quotes, that was his title.

Then, Hypopharynxes was designated to accompany the Cherokee to the capital for a peace treaty in 1761, which was probably a scam bc yk. Europeans be Europeaning.

Uh oh. Austin and Laurens dissolved in 1762. But it wasn't really a big deal.

Hamburger Laurens purchased a big ass plantation called Mepkin in 1762. It was 3,000 acres, 30 miles from Charleston, and cost £8,000, which was, to put it in modern financial terms, a shit ton. Mepkin housed fifty enslaved people, and generated corn, indigo, and wheat. Then, Habitual Laurens got like addicted to buying rice and indigo plantations, and ended up having around 20,000 acres. By 1766, he owned 227 enslaved people, yk, because he hates slavery.

He was offered appointments to the King's Council in Carolina in 1764 and in 1768, and denied both of them, because he was starting to separate himself from British politics.

He didn't do that fast enough bc in 1765, the Stamp Act happened. The Act was opposed by colonists, obviously, because it sucked. The stamps that arrived in Charleston were deposited at Fort Johnson and people were like rampaging the city looking for them.

Now, Hemorrhoid wasn't exactly known for his revolutionary thinking. He urged peaceful compliance until the law could be repealed, and viewed the Sons of Liberty as illegal, extreme, and likely to encourage harsher measures from Parliament. So, a rumor spread that the stamps were hidden in his house and a fucking mob stormed their house on October 25. There was no damage to the house, and Henry was really happy with that so. It traumatized his wife and kids but like. at least the house wasn't damaged lol.

where am i. oh okay. So after that, since he wasn't one of the family members traumatized, he was critical of British involvement in the Colonial economy, but that was mostly because he was a merchant and he had a lot of beef with customs agents.

Oh and then his wife died in spring of 1770. We'll talk more about that with John (foreshadowing)

HHHHHHG was appointed to the Safety Council, where he acted as president. Then he became Chairman of the Charles Town General Committee and President of Provincial Congress. He was also in SC's mini constitutional convention. He was elected VP after SC adopted their new constitution on March 26, 1776.

Then, Hyperthyroidism represented South Carolina in the Continental Congress from July 1777 until 1779. He replaced John Handcock as president in 1777. He served on the Commerce Committee and the Treasury Board. He also had really bad gout had to work from bed at one point in time. He tried to retire but they didn't let him.

He was elected on November 1, 1779 to negotiate a treaty of amity and bullshit with the Netherlands, but he got caught by British narks and was charged with suspicion of high treason and got locked up in the Tower of London. He was the only American held prisoner there, and it sucked ass. Family could only visit every ten days to two weeks and he wasn't allowed to leave his room for a while. He was imprisoned for two weeks, writing articles for a rebel newspaper secretly, until he was exchanged for Burgoyne, and fully released on April 27, 1782.

He went back to America and was like "fuck my 16 year old daughter is trying to marry this 29 year old asshole that I have beef with" and he didn't let them get married for two years, which like, why'd you give up bitch, don't let that creep near her!!!!

Hexylresorcinol served on the SC ratification committee and was the Presidential Elector for SC in the first election, and voted for Washington, bc obviously.

He retired officially from all politics and spent the rest of his life at Mepkin concentrating on agriculture.

He was really sick, and was also scared of being buried alive so when he died on December 8, 1792 because of heart problems, he was cremated bc he was definitely dead. This was the first cremation of a major political figure in the US bc he just HAS to be the first for everything. His ashes were buried next to John. Speaking of.

John Laurens

alright this is gonna get long, and there's a lot of quotes, but i don't feel like making separate posts bc this is what you signed up for, richie. everyone point and laugh at richie (jk ily bro)

John was born on October 28, 1754 in Charleston, South Carolina.

His mom died when he was sixteen. This was right before he and Da Boys were supposed to leave for England, and John was really upset that the trip would be delayed, more so than that his mom had died. Now, this is probably because he was in the denial stage of grief, but because he wasn't mourning his mother's death as openly as the rest of his family, he developed an insecurity that he was selfish and a bad person. This comes up later.

He, his father, and two brothers, Harry and Jemmy, went to England and John attended prestigious ass schools.

He wasn't really sure which course of study he wanted to pursue, stuck between ministry, medicine, and law.

“For my own part, I find it exceedingly difficult, even at this time, to determine, in which of the learned Profesesions I shall list myself… Thus I am agitated. ‘Tis beond far beyond the Power of one Man to shine conspicuous in all these Characters. One must be determined upon, and I am almost persuaded that it would be that of the Divine [clergy], if this did not preclude me from bearing Arms in Defence of my Country… No particular Profession is in itself disagreeable to me; each promises some Share of Fame.”

What he did know, was that he DID NOT want to be a merchant, which is what his dad wanted him to do. He thought it sucked absolute ass. Eventually, he chose law, because that was his dad's second choice.

"I have weighed the matter very seriously & considering that my Dear Papa & the majority of our judicious friends give a preference to my studying Law... I ought not abandon myself wholly to my own inclinations, but persue (sic)... which it is generally thought will render me most useful. I leave my favorite Physick, grieved to the Heart, that it is not to embrace that which I know would give my Dear Papa the most pleasure."

Also they moved to Geneva, Switzerland for a little while, bc it was cool, and his dad left John and Harry unattended, which turned out to be a bad idea, because John was gay! and he got a boyfriend

This boyfriend's name was Francis Kinloch. Now the whole gay thing is disputed bc historians are homophobic (*cough* massey *cough*), but like. if you think gay people are real, John was gay.

So Francis and John were in similar courses, with John studying French, Latin, Greek, and drawing along with the classics bc this is the 1700s, and Francis would be studying similar things. John and Francis exchanged letters that have a lot of romantic undertones, similar to John's letters to Hamilton.

John also might have had a relationship with a Frenchman named L. de Vegobre, who he tutored in English. The two of them bonded over studying law despite their passions for science.

"I can think of nothing more sadly insipid than to live without any affections of the heart." -Vegobre to John Laurens

Anyway, back to Laurloch. Tensions rose between the two of them later on (after John returned to London) with the developing American Revolution. Kinloch was a bitchass pussy Tory and Laurens was normal (kidding, Kinloch thought independence was dangerous for all the reasonable reasons, and John thought independence was necessary for all the reasonable reasons).

"My Ambition Kinloch is to live under a Republican Government. I hate the Name of King."

Also, Kinloch started pre-courting a girl, and John was really upset (foreshadowing).

This led to a messy break up, and, combined with John's religious and filial guilt, this could have led to John's one-night-stand with Martha Manning. If you don't know the story to that, John and Martha banged once, Martha got pregnant, and they got married out of necessity. Their daughter was named Frances, which. is awkward.

Okay, back to Geneva (sorry my timeline is messed up but these things kinda extend through different points in John's life). So Geneva was a pretty secular place, meaning there wasn't a really large religious population as much as there was in other parts of Europe at the time. John never really seemed to be more religious than the average dude in Geneva, and barely mentioned religion in his writing, but he did have some thoughts on Voltaire's takes on religion.

"...with respect to the Christian Religion, I believe Voltaire has done more Injury to it, than any modern Author; for I believe it is greatly owing to him that Deism has crept in even among the younger Branches of the Clergy here... but happily Instances of this are rare... [when such beliefs prevail] each Man supposes the existence of such a God as best suits his Purpose."

Now, you've probably heard some things about Henry Laurens being an abusive parent in fics or just people talking shit about him. I think this should be clarified as emotionally neglectful, which is still abuse, but not the definition that usually comes to mind.

So, in Geneva, John not only had to take care of his younger brother, he also had to take care of two other dudes, Jacky Petrie and Billy Smith. He said a few things about suicide in his letters to his father. John was also the eldest son, had already lost his mother, and was already showing he had a very low self esteem. So, not a great starting point for what I'm about to add onto that.

Henry Laurens had several parenting techniques, so I'm going to go through some of those.

He often used other people's sins as examples of what not to do, and honestly he seemed unnecessarily judgmental. He especially focused on sexual deviancy, and taught John that sexual deviancy was a sign of poor self control, which was unacceptable. John had a duty to his family and to society, which required him to have control of himself, and his natural urges. "A life of Indolence," Henry said, was, "the Source of all Evil."

A big theme with him is the concept of conditional love. It's clear Henry loved his kids unconditionally, but the things he said to them seemed like his love WAS conditional. For example, Henry said things to John like, "...you know how to please your Papa & at the same time... you love to please him," or "I shall recieve vast Pleasure if you continue to live in Temperance & Regularity, an example worthy the Imitation of your Father."

John's feelings about this are made clear in his letters to his Uncle James. (tw for discussions of suicide and self harm)

"My Father repeats to me his Commands relative to my Studies, and adds some such Expressions as make my Heart bleed. My good and Dear Uncle what shall I do. Is it not dishonour (sic) to stay [in London and not join the war]; and how can I disobey such good a Father[?]"

"I am ashamed to own that I am an American. Young and free from bodily Infirmities, in England, as a dear Father's Command[s] oblige me to remain in the humiliating Situation being pointed at others, and almost think[ing m]eanly of myself."

I have several concerns with these quotes. First of all, "adds some such Expressions as make my Heart bleed." There's several instances where John says his father's letters have severely distressed him to the point of despair (definitely more on that later), so this phrase sounds like a milder instance of that. Then there's him "almost thinking meanly" of himself, which, given the previous expressions in that quote, imply demeaning thoughts about himself and his abilities. Also, the "free from bodily Infirmities" being a specific thing he notes appears to me like thoughts of self harm. A lot of the time, people with suicidal tendencies will have self destructive thoughts indirectly or in ways that don't immediately stand out as "I want to hurt myself" or "I feel like I deserve pain". I believe this is an example of that.

John had an active social life, and ended up spending a lot of money, and was scared it would make Henry angry. John freaked out about this because Henry really drilled in that over-spending and wastefulness was really bad.

"An Industrious Man may gain near 12 Months in a Year over the bulk of his contemporaries. How much Time is lost in what is commonly stiled Pleasure, but deserves no better peithet than barbarous dissipation. Sleep & Indulgence unites in stealing another large Portion of Time from the Sons & Voltaires of Pleasure." -Henry Laurens

Henry also added on the weight of other people's expectations.

"Your friends on both Sides of the Water will expect to See in Jack Laurens the Man of Honour, Modesty, & prudence, the Scholar, the Christian, the Gentleman. Surely no endeavors on your part will be wanting to answer their utmost wishes & expectations." -Henry Laurens to John Laurens

John eventually returned to England, and there was. an incident. Basically, there was a party at Cambridge that a bunch of John's friends want to, and Henry really didn't like John's friends, and he really didn't want John to go to the party.

John said he didn't go to the party, but Henry didn't believe him. He basically tore into him for having bad friends, that he told John that John didn't really like his own friends, and asked if he immediately started being a slut (my word, not his) after Henry returned to the states. He told him, "...the Eyes of your friends & of your Country are upon you, they are in expectation & think themselves in view of a valuable Casket, for your own sake, for theirs & for the sake of posterity disappoint them not by becoming a bundle of Carolina Rushes."

Now, John's response letters is one of the most heartbreaking letters I've ever read, up there with Lafayette finding out his daughter died across the Atlantic and Hamilton's final letters to Eliza (spoilers lol), so I feel like paraphrasing it won't really get the full picture of just how emotionally destroyed John was by this.

"I feel my Mind a little eased, tho’ it will not be free from Pain and Anxiety, ‘till it receive some words of Comfort from you. And I am persuaded that however greatly I have offended, you would pity me, could you conceive the Tort[ur]e of Mind that I have undergone this day. I have experienced the same distressful Sensation in putting Pen to Paper to address you, that an offender does in lifting his Eyes, which Shame had cast down; to meet those of his injured Friend. Oh such a Letter from you my Father, and I, distracting Thought, to have given occasion for it. But your Words are a Seasonable, tho’ most severe, and trying Medicine. Yes you have shewn me myself. I was very well satisfied, before your terrible Letter gave the Alarm and call’d me home to Self-examination. You have shewn me such a Man as I almost hate. The more I look into my past Conduct, the more I despise what I was, the more I wish that a long Series of such Deportmant, as I now, dares such an irresolute man, say, resolve upon, were already past, and had regained your Confidence. The Remorse I have felt is known to none, but myself, and can only be conceived by one, who has been so unhappy, as to sink in his own, and the Esteem of his best Friend. I supplicate Your Pardon, and Pity, how dare I ask to restore your Esteem, Your Unworthy, tho much afflicted and pentient Son John Laurens.” -JL to HL, 29 March 1775

So, to summarize all of this, Henry taught his children to avoid being arrogant, hedonistic, selfish, atheist, dishonorable, degenerates, and that his definition of that was someone who overindulged in pleasures, who did not care what people thought of them, and did not control themself. In John's mind, he fit this description. He wasn't very religious, he was attracted to men, he had a child out of wedlock, and he had no real desire to study law. This would only get worse with time.

Now that was a lot of really sad things, so I will follow it up with something just as bad because John didn't get a break, so neither will we.

John moved back to London to get his law education but also to look after his younger brothers. His younger brother, Jemmy, he placed in a school in Greenwich. After he made the decision, he rushed home to inform his father and William Manning, his future wife's father. There, he ran into Manning's clerk, who informed him that Jemmy had suffered a critical injury. He had attempted to do parkour, but he was not hardcore, so he fell and hit his head. Doctors determined the injuries were too severe. John stayed by Jemmy's bedside until he die the following night. John described the situation in the following quotes to his uncle and his father.

"At some Intervals he had his Senses, so far as to be able to answer single Questions, to beckon to me, and to form his Lips to kiss me, but for the most part he was delirious, and frequently unable to articulate. Puking, Convulsions never very violent, an latterly so gentle as scarcely to be perceived, or deserve the Name, ensued, and Nature yielded." -JL to James Laurens

"what unexpected Cruel Misfortunes await us, of what can we promise ourselves any lasting possession[?]" -JL to JL

"What is there most dear to us in this world, that we are not liable at every moment to lose by some unforeseen Accident?" -JL to JL

"Suffer not one moment to be spent in useless moans for the Dead, which might be employed to the Service of the Living. You have great and important Duties to perform upon the Earth. Your Family your Country looks to you with Confidence." -JL to HL

So, add that to the list of shit John went through. His younger brother died under his care, and while it wasn't his fault, you know he thought that it was.

Anyway! John returned to America in 1777 and joined Washington's office as an extra aide-de-camp, then as as official one, because he finally snapped after he had to marry a girl he accidentally got pregnant, and his dad made him get an administration job instead of enlisting. He was present at all of Washington's major battles during his time in his office. His personal bravery/rashness was noted by his bros.

"It was not his fault that he was not killed or wounded; he did everything that was necessary to procure one or t'other." -Marquis de Lafayette after the Battle of Brandywine

That quote is really concerning considering what we just discussed but im too tired to unpack that.

Oh, and then there was the Lee Scandal. Laurens testified against Lee at his court martial after Monmouth, and absolutely fucking roasted him. Afterwards, Lee insulted Hamilton and Laurens- "those dirty earwigs who will forever insinuate themselves near persons in high office." Which like. he was right but he was rude about it.

So yeah Laurens challenged him to a duel on December 23, 1778. Lee proposed a deviation from the standard practice, where instead of being normal they would stand at a "proper distance" (roughly six paces), face each other, and shoot simultaneously. Lee's shot was errant, but Laurens shot him in the side. Contrary to what Lin Manuel Miranda wants you to believe, Laurens was not satisfied, and he and Lee wanted another round, but their seconds (Evan Edwards and Hamilton, respectively) wouldn't let them.

John returned to South Carolina in early 1779 to defend his state when the British turned their attention to the Southern states. He also went there to gain support for his manumission plan.

In March 1779, the Continental Congress authorized a payment up to $1,000 to the slaveholders of Georgia and South Carolina for each slave who enlisted in the army, and promised emancipation for those slaves who served until the end of the war. These "black battalions" should be raised and led by white officers. This plan found little support at the time in the southern American army (similar plans were put in place in the British armies and also in Rhode Island), but would have a development during the Civil War. John would continue trying to get this to work until his death.

Oh, oops, John was captured during the fall of Charleston in May 1780. He was transferred back to the Americans as part of a prisoner exchange in November of that year.

Then, he was selected to serve as a special envoy to King Louis XVI of France. He was almost crushed by an iceberg on the way there, and also Thomas Paine went with him. He appealed for supplies for the relief of the American armies. The active cooperation of the French fleets in Virginia that led to Yorktown was one result of his mission. It was technically a failure because he trusted some guy to transfer the goods and everything went to shit but like he technically did it. He wasn't known for his diplomatic skills I don't know why they picked him.

John rejoined the army and was at the head of the American storming party (along with Hamilton) of Redoubt 10 at Yorktown. Then, Washington designated him along with Louis-Marie, Viscount de Noailles to arrange the terms of surrender, and John was petty as shit about it.

John Laurens was killed in a skirmish on August 27, 1782 on the Combahee River in South Carolina before peace was formally concluded. He was shot multiple times off his horse after he ordered his men to attack despite orders not too. His men left and later returned to retrieve his body, leaving a gap in time in which Laurens likely bled to death, alone.

John was known to attack despite orders not too, being rash on the battlefield. It is possible that these were attempts at third-party suicide, so that he would die an honorable death, but die nevertheless.

This is really long, so I'm not going to go into lams and other things like that. If you have any further questions, absolutely feel free to ask! I personally feel like these are the most important things to understand about John's motivations and behaviors. Also I didn't think I would go into that much detail about Henry, but the National Park Service really is holding up the weight of the entire US government.

Anyway I hope that was helpful, even if it was very emotional. I thoroughly believe that mental health really needs to be a big discussion when it comes to John, even if it means putting myself through the ringer. anyway, love ya, @thereallvrb0y

[asteriaas-stuffs]

hey! if u have free time i just want to share and ask about something void related!

i thought i went into the void 3x either by sleeping paralysis and lucid dreaming

i always dreamt of going underwater (i love the quietness maybe thats why) and then hearing nothing and seeing either a black or white space & felt floaty but i really couldn’t feel my body. i affirmed during it and then slept knowing i’ll wake up in my DR… however my life stayed the same.

do you have any suggestions as to what happened and what i should do?

oh! i hope that you’re having the greatest and happiest days bc u deserve it for being a helpful and patient person esp w/ anons! 💖

So you are sure that you were in void right. It might not me void cause as void is always instant and you should for woken up with your desires. After this incident have you tried entering or waking up in void ?? Even I'm confused cause it's my first time hearing about this .For now if you haven't done anything then you can start doing pinks void challenge and if think it harmed your sc then start improving it. I hope it helped. Thank you so so much. WISHING you will enter void as soon as possible. Goodluck.

[shallyne]

you know how babies sometimes have different colored hair and eyes that change as they grow up?

so i lowkey came up with this headcanon that when artemis was a baby, her hair was blonde and she had green eyes. like unaturally green. artemis' powers involve shapeshifting into animals and connecting with them, and its a spring court related ability that she inherited from feyre, so it temporarily gave her green eyes when she was born. (since green is the color of the sc)

everyone in the family knew this of course, since tem started showing her magic pretty early, and she did eventually change into feyre's golden brown hair and blue grey eyes when she grew up. but when tem was younger and still blonde and green eyed, there was a nonsense rumor that went around. people were saying that she and atlas weren't really twins, bc she is actually tamlin's daughter and her hair and eyes are evidence of that.

this sent her parents into a rage. rhys was pissed that his daughter is being scrutinized and gossiped about, and he's appalled at how people can assume that feyre would cheat on him and go back to her abuser. on the other hand, feyre was just angry and scared for tem, bc she knows how a rumor like this could affect her daughter mentally and emotionally.

the rumor died down at some point, especially when tem grew up and started showing how much of a feyre carbon copy she really is. her parents never told her about any of it, but she found out at some point. she wasnt mad, and she did appreciate her parents intention of protecting her from it, but she never admitted that she was a lil curious, bc she has no idea who tamlin is and she doesnt really give a fuck, but she lowkey wants to know what he looked like and why people once thought she was his daughter.

OH MY GOD NOW WAY, NO FUCKING WAY

We are again proved to be twins because I had a similar plot planned for Bragi 😂😂😂

When Bragi was little there was a rumor going around that Bragi wasn't Rhys's but Azriel’s child because Bragi has hazel eyes (from Rhys's mother) a different hair structure and they are quiet and introverted and didn't show any powers (they were simply not interested in learning them), they weren't considered to be the heir (because they don't want to) and they love traveling outside of the Night Court.

Azriels isn't even Bragi's favorite uncle lol

[sohnric]

eric angst would just be heartbreaking!! we only need fluff ig

I DO REMEMBER U SENDING IT TO ME HIHIHI i was all giggly

wdym i will have to fight over my man when u write the loser fic🤨🤨🤨stay in ur lane bar i will snitch to ur bf to keep u in check what is this🤨🤨unacceptable behavior smh/lh🤨🤨

I AM SO AHSJDJJFKSHDNX THIS FIC MADE ME SMILE SO MUCH DUDE like u went off again (like u always)!!!!!! love at first sight is just such and eric thing tbh the whole fic is just such an eric thing i loved it!! main characters and eric's convos were just so fun/funny to read like the way they were both obviously in love shdhdnfbndbc BUT ALSO THE LOLLIPOP PART u are crazy for writing that i'm🧍🧍and not u trying to make sunwoo a loser again poor boy ain't getting bitches in ur fics cuz he has me irl(real and confirmed)

and this is my only screenshot i can contribute to my review rn cuz i got to into reading i forgot to screen my fav parts💔💔

( ^ this is me with sunwoo ngl lie)

funny how i said that but then got an eric angst idea. i wont write it tho that would like,, kill me i think TT

and sunwoo is not allowed to have good things in my writing i am SO sorry i just always need to portray him as the biggest loser there is AHAHA. snitch all u want u know this doest scare me :pp

AHHHH THANK U SO MUCH FOR ALWAYS BEING MY BIGGEST HYPE MAN :(( it means the world to me. glad u thought this was very eric bc i was worried this fic was a little ooc (altho im not against ooc fics lmao) hh but he is the cheesiest person alive after all so :// couldnt miss w the love at first sight trope. THE LOLLIPOP PART..... DONT TALK TO ME ABOUT IT. IDK WHAT POSSESSED ME BUT THE WAY I NEED THIS TO HAPPEN IRL BETWEEN ME AND ERIC LIKE WHY IS IT SO INTIMATE AND SENSUAL IN MY EYES BYE you only speak truth queen i gotta make him seem undesirable in my fics so no one hits on him and he is all yours

HHHH THANK U FOR THE SC!!! i was gonna say i ghostwrote this abt eric but then i realized i actually not only ghostwrote it i did write it myself so. :)

[angelgoddard]

I think I wanna manifest my sp back. We were dating for a while and I broke it off because I though he wasn’t “doing enough”. I was constantly overthinking and other stuff. And I know my self concept was not good, and not so good stuff happened to me😬

I’m embarrassed to say this…. But a while ago, I started thinking about him and I… wanted him back (but better, spoils me, worships me, truly shows how much he likes/loves me etc) so I messaged him…. I KNOW I SHOULD NOT HAVE DONE THAT NOW😭 but i did, and I asked him how he was, and then I asked if he wanted to meet and talk and he said yes. A week later, still nothing and I tell him that it’s ok if he’s not interested anymore and we’ll go separate ways, but he kept saying he wanted to but was busy 😐 and I was like ok. And then another week went by and I told my friends and they all told me to stop messaging him and I did. He didn’t reach out so I felt like he was lying about wanting to meet and talk idk. But I know it was bc of my bad self concept😩

I want him, but when I tell my friends they tell me I should move on, I deserve better, he doesn’t deserve me… but here I am, STILL thinking about him, wanting him to reach out, apologize and maybe even meet & talk and then date again but better. But everyone is saying I shouldn’t, and then when I ask myself for signs or say I know what I want (with him) then I get so many TikTok’s saying leave him and all that. Idk what to do, I really wanna focus on myself and my sc but I also want him…. I think… bc I also got TikTok’s saying why I’m so stuck on that person which made sense. So how do I truly know if I truly want him or not? Bc what if yes it’s true why I’m still stuck on him but what if even with that, I still want him? I know I can manifest anything, so I can manifest him as really great, perfect bf. Idk what to do.

I’m also manifesting my dream life, which I’ll also be revising a lot and wake up in another country lol, and with how I’ve planned out my life, my dream life he isn’t there. Not bc I don’t want to but I wanna revise these last years differently, but that’s when I met him, so if I revise that, I will not have met him, at least not in that way.

And then idk if I truly want to manifest a celeb to be my sp instead that I really like, so I’m just like ???? 🧍‍♀️

I’m sorry if this is confusing, I get it, it’s confusing for me too don’t worry😭🫶🏻. and I get it if you don’t reply to this ❤️

honestly if i were you, i would just manifest my desired sp from scratch. im doing it now and it's so much fun and way less stressful <3

[sanstropfremir]

I remembered an ask you got talking about how exo got really successful so quickly they didn't really get a chance to branch out and develop artistically, so I wanted to ask you about your thoughts on the members as solo artists since they all have atleast a solo album out (you might as well include exo sc since they got to put their own ideas in everything) and all of them were allowed to have a say in things creatively from lyrics,concept and packaging if they wanted too, especially since all their music except for the ballad singers is so different from each other

also wanna know if you were completely surprised with a member like a performance or a concept was something you'd never imagine them doing

omg did i???? i don't even remember my own asks anymore at this point sldkfsdlkfjl. i don't even know if i agree with my own statements there in the first place since exo has done a pretty wide variety of concepts over their lifetime as a group. ....WAIT i think this is about the kai v taemin ask re: image, where i said that kai hasn't been a solo artist for as long so there hasn't been the same type of exploration of image the way taemin has done. i think that is a fair point to extrapolate across to the rest of the exos, since none of them (except for yixing, he's a bit closer to taemin) have been soloists for very long, comparatively, and they all started as adults. personally i think it's a lot more apparent with their solo endeavours that they're confident in their artistic personas and personal tastes, and that comes across in the ones who have multiple releases. yixing is the one with that's shown the most variation, because he's been a soloist the longest, but i do still think that his stuff has some pretty obvious artistic fingerprints and consistency on it. he's matured a lot and in a very specific direction now, but you can see the genesis of a lot of his style early on.

as far as my personal opinions of all of their work goes, i do like that sm chose to debut them solo later in life. i'm sure it was an annoyance to the members themselves, but i think there's a benefit to being older and having a clearer sense of artistic identity and a long time to sit on ideas. it's hard to churn out solo work at the speed to match kpop turnovers and sitting on something so it can be exactly how you want it is good, actually. i like that kai's debut was really delayed bc it meant that there was a LOT of work put into it, and it shows. and i like that he took a full year for the first cb too. it was really clear to me that suho sat with grey suit for probably the entire time he was in the military, bc he came out rip-roaring with an incredibly well put together cb. the exos that have put out more solo work pretty clearly want to and care about what they're putting out, which i think is exactly how it should be. i don't listen to all of them equally, but the ones that get the most plays for me right now are baekhyun, suho, and xiumin. and then sc, probably.

i think my most dramatic surprise was by hurdle, actually. in hindsight it makes a lot of sense with where he's arrived after coming out of the military, but i wasn't expecting something so stylized from him, since he was tending towards the sort of artsy ballad type. tbh suho's discog is very artistically consistent and i can trace the things he's interested in visually, which i didn't even realize until i went back and watched the let's love mv and the dinner station. his stuff tends towards a more melancholy tone so that's why hurdle surprised me so much, because it's much more upbeat, but i think it stylistically matches with grey suit in a weird way (it's probably the colour matching). maybe next would be peaches? but that was mostly because i didn't like ANY of the songs on the album, which i'm still kinda disappointed about bc i really liked almost everything off mmmh. i wasn't that surprised by any of the visuals. sc is pretty much exactly what it says on the tin, chen's ballads are pretty typical also. i wasn't that surprised by kyungsoo's solo even though a lot of people were, because i was already kind of expecting him to do a ballad solo so rose wasn't that far off (and kind of preferable, personally). xiumin's was exactly what i wanted from him and i have zero complaints. uh who am i forgetting................oh baekhyun. nothing surprising about his discog, although i WAS surprised by how good bambi was. like he did not have to do that kind dance performance and nor was i expecting him to, but damn. honestly i'm still surprised every time i watch the mv.

[golbrocklovely]

I honestly thought that when the core 4 went to the UK Kat maybe tried to set up SC girl and him up and she knew and that’s why they were split up during some of their time there (as well as more couple time for Kat and Sam) but it didn’t work out and maybe that’s why they didn’t see each other for a while after that but idk. We don’t know what really happened but that’s just my thinking lol

i mean, that is very possible. i kinda think it happened long before that. i think kat started pushing for them two to date probably when snapchat became a prominate person snc were hanging out with frequently. definitely by coachella, bc that's when they were wearing matching outfits and being alone together while sam and kat were off doing whatever they wanted to.

i think snapchat has had a crush on colby for a hot minute, and kat knew. so she was trying to help a friend out. and that's great and all. but at some point, you gotta accept that if the second party involved ain't interested… this isn't gonna go nowhere.

[always-andromeda]

well well well i see people telling you their high school dramas n thought ad share one!! TW for implied grooming btw!!

so basically a girl the year/grade below me wrote fanfiction about the young male teachers in our school. she showed her friends then the friends spread it like wildfire

i remember i was in drum practice at the time and the guy i was practicing with (who is now on the ssx offenders list btw, but that’s a whole other story) showed me the story. it was literally written like normal smut but about the teachers and i was like “ummmm”

the police eventually got involved, but bc both police and teachers had no idea what fanfiction was, they thought they were DIARY ENTRIES and that IT ACTUALLY HAPPENED so the ordeal cost the teacher’s their jobs. i kinda felt bad for the girl bc she was begging them to believe it was made up and not to sack the teachers. then a rumour went about that someone seen one of the teachers crying in his break room.

they eventually caught on it was fanfiction and the teachers didn’t get sacked. but my god,,, after that the school was HAUNTING for more. i remember one guy in my year said in his sc story “to any weirdo lassies out there, i’ll find your fanfictions and out you” and me, a fanfiction writer, was scared people would find mine lmaoo.

this is why i only write fanfic for fictional characters lmaoo

Hey hi hello, Scout!! So sorry it took me a hot second to get to this one (I’ve been having a bit of a difficult time today lol 😅)!!

But OH MY GOOOOSH. 😀 This is…the worst possible outcome for RPF. Like I’m not surprised it got spread around but DAMN. SNITCHES. But also if this had happened at my school…goddamn I would be equally as terrified over the fuckin’ fanfic writer witch hunt good lord, that’s a nightmare in like every possible way. 🥲 Thank you for sharing this ordeal with the class, goodness gracious lol.

[nyxokal]

So I finished Diamond is Unbreakable

I typed one of these for Stardust Crusaders ages ago when I finished it and I wanted to do the same for DiU since like, my reactions to this one were so Big and visceral. Long post ahead!!

Again a disclaimer that I have been livetweeting JJBA in this thread, and specifically from here onwards was my DiU livetweet if you wanna experience it. It might provide some context but I'll be sure to add most of what you "need" to know here as screenshots anyway

What I liked

First things first the back and forth mood between tension and funny moments dot com was actually kind of nice, in retrospect? It really did do for a nice change of pace from the absurdity of SC and brought me back a lil to how BT handled its mood. Granted this is also a bit of a negative for me as well but I felt this flowed better than it did in Stardust Crusaders, so much so that the dychotomy really did feel earned

I genuinely did love the characters also!! I have Four (4) that were my favourites, but a lot of them brought at least SOMETHING to the table. There's a big problem again of Araki having way too many characters at once and introducing too many and making them less developed as a result, and a lot of them are one-off, but at the very LEAST he manages to pull what I called a Ducktales 2017 and mix and match different characters together

I think a good part of why this worked at all is how things were contained to just Morioh, which means everyone has to interact one way or another. It's a small town, everyone is neighbours, which means there WILL be overlap. I think that was a brilliant idea for Araki since he likes making way too many OCs so, this worked, in a way

Also, Josuke and Okuyasu's friendship… I was legitimately sold on it. I like how it felt like it developed over time and they found a common ground, because that is exactly how it was depicted and how it felt. But I really liked it, it made the last few episodes hit HARD for me. I deadass felt Josuke's rage. He was devastated and covering it up with anger

That brings me to Josuke. I was also on the fence about Josuke for a long time, but he won me over in the end. He's a lot like Joseph (I'll fucking get to that) which was a welcome change from Jotaro, and I do think I prefer characters with his energy. But he's a lot less like... mature, I'd say? Than Joseph was (and that's saying something), and that helps them both be distinct from one another. I think Josuke utilizes his anger to cover up for a lot of emotions he doesn't like or doesn't want to feel, and to push himself through situations that need it, but he's really a chill guy, if stupid. I like that about him

Oh wait, back up, speaking of Jotaro. I like how DiU utilized him a LOT in the sense that it recontextualized what he went through in SC, what he is like now, and the way he copes, which is in no way. I really liked his relationship with Koichi, actually. And I wish he'd been actually Josuke's like dad or something bc not only do I think that would've been a much much more interesting story, I also think the dynamic between him and Josuke was rather underutilized and adding this change of them being estranged father and son would've been a good way to toy with it, considering weird Joestar bonds have been a thing before

This man is so traumatized it's not even funny

I liked the presentation of it all, the creative use of Stands, the silliness, the mystery at the end, a LOT of it. I think DiU is a good part. I just have to tell you what I hated next

What I didn't like

Joseph.

If you go through the thread you see that the IMMEDIATE reaction I had to the bastard child twist was to get pissed and stop watching. I don't know why this had to be a thing, it's just so stupid. Can we seriously have no Joestar relationships that aren't a direct descendant kinda thing here? It's part of why I wish Josuke had been Jotaro's son instead, or at the very fucking least, a cousin. It's more interesting, but Araki barely even used Joseph anyway. He's senile for crying out loud. There's not a lot he CAN do, and everyone knows it--he's only there to further convince me that Araki hates him

Oh, also? Fuck Yukako and the way the show pushed her and Koichi together. Like, WHY? Why did that make sense in your head, Araki? Because it doesn't. I'm fully convinced Koichi is under Cinderella's influence even though Aya's dead. Shoo. Fuck Yukako.

I also felt like a lot of episodes were just there to drag the plot out and the quality of the Part was like... a rollercoaster. I could be watching a great episode one moment, then a shitty one next. Also, the story really only picked up with the introduction of Reimi and the Kira mystery, and I resent it for that because it really did feel like we were just fucking around wasting time before that, but I also recognize that Araki DID use the start of the Part to lay down a lot of groundwork and worldbuilding--it's just that he did a piss poor job at making it interesting

Also while I'm ambivalent on it, the fact that so many characters were introduced as total freaks and then they mellowed out and became like, relatively normal... why? All it did was make me hesitant to like some characters, like Yukako, Hayato, and Rohan. Rohan became one of my favourites and I still could not stop thinking about how he almost killed Koichi (although I did think him thinking that Koichi was his best friend after a long time passed was honestly kind of adorable?)

Another thing I am disappointed about was that flashback that Josuke had where a really injured man with a pompadour pushed the car out of the snow. EVERYTHING was pointing to that being Josuke. That was Josuke and you CANNOT convince me otherwise--he was way too stylized as him to not have been. And then nothing came of it!! I'm disappointed!!! Like, mnior I guess but that had me on the edge of my seat the ENTIRE show!! I was so ready!!!!! That was so!!! It would have said a lot about Josuke's self love!!!! I am mad that we fucking lost it!!!!!!

LIKE THIS IS JOSUKE. THIS WOULD'VE BEEN SO FUCKING COOL. WE'VE ALREADY FUCKED WITH TIME ONCE WE CAN DO IT AGAIN

Ugh anyway

I liked Kira as a villain but I feel like he was kind of underutilized. When the show introduced his dad, I started to feel the exhaustion of yet another bumbling moron except this time, it wasn't even a bumbling moron I liked. The guy was just... an annoyance both mechanically and as a character. Kira playing house was interesting and his weird relationship w his fake wife and kid was something I Wished got explored more, because when he had to go into hiding... god that was tense. The problem is we didn't get to see him hide much

Final Thoughts

I think Araki improved a lot on what made Part 3 so flawed and decided to take a page out of his Part 2 book for what worked there, and made something pretty solid. Part 4 is still really flawed, but I must admit it is a general improvement on what he's laid down on the table. This energy is fantastic, I just wish he'd reign it in a little and not get so carried away

Anyway, I don't have a LOT of thoughts on Part 4 actually, so I'll end this post by showing you the blorbos I made in this Part

I'm looking forward to Golden Wind, actually. I want to meet everyone. Everyone says I'll like everyone, but mostly Bruno and Narancia, so here's to me meeting them!!

[smallboyonherbike]

i was driving and literally had this moment where i was like the story of how i moved to SC is so fucking batshit and funny in retrospect even tho it was horribly painful for awhile.

like i was in college met a girl on t and s fan tumblr fell in obsessive toxic love that ruined a lot of my senior year was in an LDR then moved straight from college grad in MA to SC to live w her and her MOM got pressured into proposing then somewhere in there we were fighting constantly she started sleeping w other ppl openly (which i had to be Fine w bc the fighting made me not have any attraction) then she dumped me (thank god bc i never would have left) and i had to stay in the house in separate rooms for like two months until i found a new place. that was all in like less than two years lol.

and i truly don't believe in everything happens for a reason bullshit but it's soooo weird to think about how everything in my life would be totally different if none of that happened. like i have no clue what i would have done or where i would have gone post college without that. like i got squishy and jerry directly from that relationship, made these close beautiful friends from living and working here, bounced around then finally found the career i love and can see doing forever.....and there's been a couple times i've seriously thought about moving away but unless i went home to MD there wouldn't be a Purpose to it.

and whenever someone asks why on earth i moved to SC bc no one can comprehend moving here (esp not being on the coast) that's the backstory but i either lie and say i moved for work or just go it was for a relationship but it didn't work bc i don't wanna come out just to explain that. idk man!!!! life is wild! and living here in the south for 7 years has changed my ignorant previous conceptions so much. i do think everyone should live other places if they can tho i'm certainly not well traveled having only lived on the east coast and never been out of north america (and don't really care to bc lol anxiety)

what a ramble but what else is tumblr for yknow