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cubbihue · 10 days

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Does Timmy have any regrets about becoming a fairy? Does he ever wish he never done it? Or at least wait until he was older?

The closest Timmy's ever gotten to wishing he had never done it was when his wings were growing out. He immediately felt guilt when he remembered about Peri. Timmy doesn't believe in having regrets. The only way through is forward, and the only way out is up!

If presented with a redo, Timmy would do it all over in a heartbeat.

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skitskatdacat63 · 5 months

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2024 Chinese Grand Prix - Fernando Alonso

#hello here are your daily old man gifs!!!#every time im like no no i shant gif this no one will care #he always sucks me back in w his cute face #i just love his polite listening smile ITS SO CUTEEEE #this is MY race debrief #anyways about the race itself #im still a bit sad about the whole strat thing like agh idk if he could have done any better if not #but it was really so much fun to see him cut thru the pack like that at the end with fresh tires #it just felt so effortless and it was so hot. especially that part where he almost completely wiped out but saved it so easily???#but ofc the best part was the unintentional war criminal lockup #apparently it wasnt fully his fault but nah im blaming it on him cause its so funny #f1 #formula 1 #fernando alonso #we do a little bit of f1 #2024 chinese gp #also man aston takes so long to upload their fernando debrief vid #i wanna stay up for it cause i missed the other one and it was too far gone to gif #so i wish i could catch it but ah i gotta sleep its so late

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opens-up-4-nobody · 7 months

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#i walked into a situation today where my mom was effectively already dead. effectively bc her body was and is still alive. still breathing #painful groaning purrs. but her mind was gone yesterday. my dad said he showed her a picture of the mountains i took that day and told her #i loved her and she smiled. thats what he said. maybe he was just being nice. or maybe thats the last time she thought of me. i dunno. but #the human body is an incredible thing. shes got a heart still powering a broken body. too full of tumors to function anymore. stomach #streched like a pregnant mother. it happed really fast and now its happening very slow #im somehow probably better off than the rest of them. i only got here for the aftermath of a downslide. my daily life will b least effected #i only really saw her twice a year living so far away and she didnt text much. didnt call often. so life wont change much ill just kno shes #not there. which is sad. but theres nothing to b done abt it. life goes on. it hasnt been all bad tho. its nice to talk to my family abt her #how incredible she was. bc she was. wish her mom wasnt here tho. she doesn't deserve to b here. my mom wouldnt want her here. she didnt want #her here. but anyway. i wish her body would just let her go now. so we can sleep. so this can be over. so she can rest #but even like this shes stubborn and resilient. they say it could go on for days but i hope not. may the universe let her rest shes gotta b #so tired after 10 years of this. but i have no regrets. she knew how i felt abt her. and i dont think she had regrets either. she did so #much up to the very end. went out on a high note without the burdon of knowing it was coming #i dunno. its just such a strange experience to watch the empty shell of your mother sleeping like a gurgling baby #unrelated

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strangerhands · 6 months

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mmmmm heyyy👁️. ive basically been gone from tumblr for over two days because ive been feeling like a shitty piece of shit. BUT. i finally saw dune part 2 and ohmygoddddd it was so so good. but yes. i was missing leto so bad the entire time. Father come back pls. i need you.

#it was so good tho #like so cool i was internally freaking out about how cool things looked #the fight scenes🤌#the environments/settings🤌#all of the fuckin machinery🤌#the acting🤌#the everything🤌#yum #also i dont find austin butler attractive but funnily enough feyd was the only time ive found him hot😭 yes i have issues. but like. okayyy..#i watched it alone and i wish doing things alone wasnt seen as such a weird or sad thing like. theres nothing wrong with it #sorta vent->#but basically ive been feeling like an annoying piece of shit so ive been staying off of here for the most part #because ive been convincing myself no one likes me and everyone in my life would be better off without me😝😝#just tee bee ehch #and idk i was just feeling like ass and was doing nothing and when i finally would go to use tumblr i was already too tired to do shit #so i just went to sleep #and i was busy today #yesterday*#and ill probably be a bit busy today too but idk maybe hopefully ill catch up a bit #idk ya boys just been hating himself like usual but not as usual bc it was worse but it is what it is #i felt a bit better yesterday though #and also my new antidepressants ive been on havent been doing shit for me so im going back to a previous one i used to be on so yea #hopefully that helps soonish idk #i never vent on here so i feel kinda bad for doing so but i just wanted to puke my thoughts here #also since im already here complaining ive just like. not written at allllllll basically like i got into my head and made myself discouraged #so. that sucks. but also nothing out of the ordinary there #why does Everything i say sound so embarrassingly depressing and pathetic hhhhhhhgggggggggggggghhhghghg #anyways yea i was doing bad im still not doing good but hopefully will be a bit better so ill be back and caught up later today or tomorrow #idk if anyone gave a fuck or noticed but i just like complaining into the void so yea #talkin shit

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bunnihearted · 8 months

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#i hate being in pain like this #bc it completely takes over my life. like im incapable of thinking of anything else #im incapable of relaxing or enjoying anything. i cant do important things. cant do anything else but sit still nd be in pain #it just renders me completely useless and makes me stop functioning properly #im just a hopeless mess made of anxiety nd sadness. idk why but i just hyperfixate on it and i cant 'let go' or relax or not think abt it #idk how other ppl do it.... i wish i wasnt like this bc it's awful. it's like the only thing that exist nd ever will exist is this pain 4evr #im dramatic i know but it genuinely feels like my entire life is over and i'll ever know is pain nd nothing will ever get better again #im so caught up in it i cant see anything else but my pain. i cant think of the future bc do i have one?? i dont know #im just not feeling good at all. and everything feels bleak and depressing and i dont want it :((#i cant have any fun or nice moments at all and im just tired of life #i feel so fkn stressed abt all the things i need to do nd all my responsibilities and idk how i'll do them when im in this pain #i just hope it can calm down soon i just want it to be a little bit easier just a little bit #getting thru each day now is so fkn hard i barely sleep but when i do i wish i never wake up #i hate everything and it feels like my future is fucked #which makes me wanna die!! but it also makes me sad bc there is actually sm i want to live for #i dont want it all to be ruined bc i want to try to live!!!! :(#and yess im know im being dramatic but i cant help it. im weak nd im terrible at dealing w pain nd issues #im not a strong person who can withstand everything nd finds ways to live either way. maybe it's bc my will to live isnt that strong #idk. i just hate this i want it to be over. it's taking over my life nd idk how to still function like this

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pcktknife · 2 years

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I miss having like a major hyperfixtation

#literally no point of me drawing if i dont have some stupid little things to be obsessed with #i just cant bring myself to be into anything anymore and its making me feel awful #all my recent ones fizzle out too quickly #longest one since bnha has been genshin but thats kinda pissing me off rn idk #wish all my motivation wasnt tied so heavily to whatever interest im currently goin thru cause it makes my art blocks so much more worse #kae.txt #ugghggh whatever ill go to sleep n forget abt it tomorrow

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chumpovodir · 2 months

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have go to stop being a fakeass castlevania fan and start playing more of the games already

problem: i am very good at starting games and very very very bad at finishing them

#theres nothing wrong with the games i'm sure #bc this happens with any game i play #my brain just shuts down and decides 'bed. now' and i have to sleep for 388364929492 years to recover from #even the mildest of mental stimulation #i wish i wasnt like this bc i woule really love to do something to unwind after work #dunno if its a burnout thing or a mental illness thing or a medication thing #i do all the things that are supposed to give you energy. and yet i do not have energy

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atypi-cals · 3 months

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Theres something wrong with me I've slept in until like 9 seven days in a row :(((((

#i just want to get up at 6 am like normal!!!#im only awake like 12 hours a day now. i do NOT want to be spending half my time asleep. i have things i want to be doing!!!#itd be FINE if i could stay up until 3 am but NoooOoooOoo SOMEONES (me) gotta be in bed by midnight #or it'll literally stay up ALL NIGHT #im SO pissed off and people are always like. Oh nice you got to sleep in!! :)#and im like. sigh. yes. its So Nice.#but its not and im tired of pretending it is. i woke up at 6 am every day for like a year. and now i just. cant.#well i do actually. every day. to feed the cat #and then i go back to bed. and i ALWAYS regret it >:[#(op is a hater of being asleep and wishes it wasnt a thing people had to do to survive)

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valerian-riverheart · 1 year

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Looking for stuff in the Bazaar nowadays is so funny to me. It used to be where I would buy reagents I need for the crafting quests, but now there's moments where somebody decided to buy the entire inventory of reagents minus five cattails and a single ruby. Why did I have to spend 30 minutes getting 30 mist wood

#wizard101 #rambling #i know i shouldnt be shocked that item circulation isnt as strong as it was years ago but #it feels so weird when there is a lack of things that shouldnt be lacking.#if it wasnt for the fact that i too would like to craft things i would sell all my things in a heartbeat #also?? why must the spellement stjff be in the same place of the reagents. csnt it have its own category #im i asking too much for wishing there was a way you could trade or exchange your spellements or something #unless thats a thing later but wuh #i need to sleep gn

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emulation-0 · 6 months

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im a little sad today

#i wish i was a little more functional. that i could understand integrals. that i could finish my projects on time and not get distracted or #bored or upset five minutes in. that i could write everything i want to write without getting exhausted. that i could draw everything #i wanted to without feeling dread and like. idk. maintain something? that i could keep a routine without getting tired of it immediately #that there was enough time in the day to do everything i have and want to do and also sleep and eat and drink and keep clean on time #and be like. healthy. i wish applying for school and aid didnt actively fill me with dread. i wish it didnt feel like so much effort to make #a future for myself. i wish i could be like the others i know who seem to have such a clear and light weight mind unimpeded by roadblocks #i wish i could see my family more often. i wish they would respond when i ask after them. i wish i wasnt filled with panic everytime they #dont because i know that things arent the way they were but i cant seem to let that go even though its been years. i hate that the panic #doesnt go away. i wish i was fine living without them. i wish i was fine on my own. i wish i wasnt so detached to others and that i wasnt so #attached to the ones i love. i wish things were easier and so many things feel out of sight and i KNOW thats not true. i KNOW there is #something there waiting for me and i will be taken care of. i know everything will be fine and nothing is hopeless #but still it feels that way and i hate complaining about my feelings but its not wrong to feel and i know this.#somehow the repetitiveness of my feeling makes me just as tired as if someone else was talking to me about their problems all the time #which is so stupid. idk.#delete later #hanancouldyounot

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xiaoluclair · 1 year

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#just a little waffle #xiao: waffle #waffle: miscellaneous #okay turned into a little bit of a long waffle #WHOOPS #shoving it all hopefully under a read more ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------#*tag equivalent read more #i have a practical exam coming up in a few days and whenever i think abt it i feel so fucking sick i cant do anything #well i mean #i can do things obviously but i kinda want to hurl while doing them #things like writing and reading become so jarred and misplaced and i cannot enjoy them at all #i cant even write tbh #i hate it sm i just want it to be over but i also never want it to arrive #and i keep thinking abt everything i have to do and how im not prepared at ALL to do them #argh its just so annoying and its not the worst thing anyone could go through i know but it does not mean i do not still wish i wasnt #SIGH #and then i get a headache. and cant sleep either i keep thinking abt it when im just lying there and then im wide awake going through #everything im gonna screw up #god. bleugh. anyway.#waffle over #love and light to yall💫

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opens-up-4-nobody · 1 year

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The way that the sun hits leaves and clouds. I feel like I could watch the colors change forever. If I could slow down for that long.

#i keep forgetting a have a deck now. i can go outside and sit there #im doing that now. sitting in the corner of a deck full of empty chairs. staring up at a big pine tree where the sun is striking it gold #at the top. i like how thr light hits the needles. if the sky was black it would look like its on fire #theres a tree outside my bedroom window too. in the morning. after the sunrises it catches thr light and refelcts the most perfect shade #of green. the kind of green that flutters translucent like youre looking up from the bottom of a pool. the light the light its all about #the sun. everything everything is about the sun. when i start my project I'll be focused on understanding how organisms catch the light bc #its so incredible and complicated it would make my chest swell to bursting if there wasnt an empty bleeding wound in my gut. a #metaphorical wound of course. i dunno. its just difficult bc right now my mood is inflated by hormones. not even that much i think I'm #just at what shoulf be a normal level of happiness so i can be slow for a minute. but just a minute bc i kno it won't last long #sorry i cant shut the fuck up when im like this but i dunno i just feel like i havr to document these ephemeral moments before they're gone #its just difficult when you kno the world is so full of beautiful things but 95% of the time your eyes are too clouded to see it #everyone tells me i work too much but i feel like im just staring off into space being miserable 60% of the time. ive just done so much #damage over the past few years im coming into a new lab as damaged goods. ive got an albatross around my neck in thr form of data i #collected so self destructively that the idea of having anything to do with its publication makes me hate myself. everytime someone tells #me good job on collecting so so so much data it feels like they're congratulating me for breaking something within myself. like i slit my #wrists and bled out on a lab bench and theyre saying good job and theyre excited for me and i have to grin and bear it and pretend im #excited too. but im not bc ive burned everything inside me to ash. so when im elevated enough to be distracted by the clouds and trees it #feels like healing. like seeing angels. beautiful ephemeral beams of light. i wish i could slow down enough to watch them. but now thr sun #is hitting the horizon and the sky is going gradually dark and i should go inside. bc i have many things to do in the morning. so that's #what ill do. and ill try to get more thsn 6hrs of sleep but its hard when your body is vibrating over with energy #but at least i dont feel tired in the morning. something in my head must be on fire #unrelated #hm i should maybe add a tw to this #tw self injury #but its the kind thst makes u good at ur Job. its the kind ppl reward. so they don't understand when u say its destroying ur life #but im trying to get better. i say as i gear up for an insane semester lol but i do mean it

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navramanan · 9 months

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I feel so horrible

#last evening i spilled tea it was obv an accident but i should have been more careful it was through a too careless action #some spilled on the book i got from the library. i thought that was the worst part #a bit spilled on my laptop. very little. while i was busy with the book my mom wiped my laptop #my brother immediately turned it off & told me to keep it upside down overnight #so i put it upside down. for hours. at least 4. before that i picked it up to look i could still see the water #but my laptop reacted to me picking it up & showed the battery percentage on the screen like it does #i didnt do anything else and put it back upside down. so again later i picked it up to check #it look dry. this time it didnt react to my ''touch'' to me picking it up #i didnt think anything. i wanted to do something on my laptop and tried powering it on. idk if that was a mistake or not #but it didnt react. the night is over it's almost noon it's still not turning on. it's been in rice the whole night #but honestly i dont even know if that actually helps. i know it's a popular method but idk #my brother works in IT he knows computers he said he'd unscrew & remove the storage disk to be safe #and to call someone they know who repairs computers. neither of these things happened yet bc we dont have the right screw #my brother i believe asked the neighbor #i'm not really hopeful. i've slept 4 hours last night bc i was so worried i couldnt sleep #went to sleep at 3 woke up at 7 couldnt sleep again #i said i'm not hopeful but one thing about me i never think bad things like this could happen to me so there's always this #''it's not real this isnt happening'' in me. i wish it wasnt bc if it turns out to be real it devastates me #i feel i get swayed so easily by things going wrong. it just immobilizes me #it happened when my luggage got lost. i was completely scatter brained fully gone when it happened #i was staying at my aunt's place. she poked fun at me for how much it affected me. said i have euros i could raplace my clothes #i spent four days this way. i was there to see a friend. i felt i was robbed from truly having a good time. it was our first time meeting #i cried every single day. called the airport lost & found every single day. this one thing occupied my whole being #i got my luggage back but what i'm getting at is for one i actually got it back so it wasnt a real bad thing that happened. it got fixed #and two it just had me in its clutches this one incident. so now my laptop wont turn on i cant think of anything else #cant do anything else. and although it looks real and i DONT want to be hopeful so i can let go and not be devastated when i find out #it's irreparable. idk where i'm getting at with this. except idk i really really really want it to work again #nesi rants

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loverboybitch · 1 year

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knit sweater i made drying out after i dyed it in my kitchen sink.//.

#uploads #fashion #fibres #the color is kinda weird but i like it alot that really washed out wine red #gonna fuck around with this more still myb do a little bleaching and some more dying but for now she rests #also shrunk a bunch lowkey after i washed it so hope i can stretch it back out a bit we will see #reflecting several hours later now that its mostly dry and i got to try it on #i think the color looks kinda washed out cause i wrung it out really realyl hard when i was washing it #i feel like that wasnt super smart cause i do wish it was a bit darker but also maybe i just need a darker dye mix #but i really was squeezing that shit to get the water out and i think it probably desaturated the color a bit #lessons for next time #also rewrote and made a edited version of the pattern ive been working with so its more my own #changed a couple things so im gonna try and make another sweater soon i think #gotta figure out what wool i wanna use maybe ill go back to the galler yarns WOW wool but also the mohair was really nice #i have a ton of fine alpaca but ive been using that for my woven project instead and its alot thinner #idk how it would look esp cause im using such big needles #maybe i could size down and try that but id have to really figure out a whole new pattern n knit counts idk maybe #anyway just thinking out loud cause its 5am and i cant sleep but i also cant work on sweater anymore cause its just chilling #n i need bleach n some other stuff #also gonna knit a trim for the bottom and sleeves fuck weaving it thats too hard #but then im gonna have to figure out how to dye it so it matches but uhhh haha idk #good thing its kinda a tester

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justinefrischmanngf · 2 years

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going through it.

#i literally thought to myself i need to be 6 again which is how you know things are Not Good!!!!!!!!!!#i don’t know what i Want and it’s driving me CRAZY and every option feels so scary but i don’t think in actuality it is #i’m so fucking tired but i can’t sleep bc i was stupid and slept at 6pm and fucked it up #i have two classes tomorrow and i havent done the work for either of fjem #* them which is embarrassing and i need to make a decision that is quite significant and i thought i knew what i was going to do about it #but now i’m not sure and every minute is getting closer to when i do have to decide #and i’ve got a roommate again so i cant even just. like. idk.#and physically i feel like shit and i have to see my dad tomorrow night and i just wish i wasnt attached to anyone ever #but clearly i dont bc i keep doing things that make me attached to things/people so i need to get over myself #and i’m really worried abt something happening at home like idk it’s set off alarm bells in my head #all of this will be absolutely fine i just wish there wasnt an all of this in the first place #and i wish i could fault something other than my bad decisions but at the end of the day these are consequences of my actions so like.#that’s that and now i have to deal with it

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ethereiling · 1 year

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counted up how much time i spend doing nothing but work + sleep + eat and turns out it leaves me with like 2 and a quarter hours of true free time a day at most and . well. i think i know why im so fatigued lmao

#avpswjy #like i knew it was about that much but seeing it counted up is. a bit dire #literally if i didnt have sleep issues that REQUIRE me to sleep 9ish hours a night id be fine #but no i have to do that or i get horrible migraines :)#also i didnt count stuff like.. basic chores and prepping for bed which is at least like 30 min? so that leaves me with. under two hours #genuinely how am i supposed to live like this!! please #i was gonna just power thru with the mandatory overtime but like. its been months with no update #and they keep saying soon ! and im like bitch When #maybe if there was an end date in sight i could stay strong but it. could be months more. and i cant do that #it stresses me out sm because like i like this job! i like the people there! but i cant live like this #i wish i could just make stories but i. dont have the following or skills for that #i dont care about still needing to learn but it sucks when im prevented from doing stuff i care about bc of it. lmao #i dont want to just despair nonstop but it kind of sucks when every time i start to think things will finally be manageable and okay #it turns out that its still like extremely too much for me #anyway :) i have to go back to work tmmr after a week of being sick #and im so scared of being told that i have to make up all the time i wasnt working #bc i ran out of pto #but like brother. i cannot do it. im already so fatigued. i cant do it #i just hope that it goes okay :')

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