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joestarfucker420 · 4 months

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going from being ashton all week to being my legal name again is honestly one of the worst feelings in the world

#ashtonstfu #also i either have to quit my job and move to illinois with my parents in like less than four months or uh hope i can find a job that can #support me AND a place to live based off that salary before they move and honestly #i’d rather fucking die than have to move with my parents but i have zero job prospects so #idk i guess i’ll just hope i die in my fucking sleep #and like i can’t blame my parents like i know it’s a good paying job my dad has and like he likes the area but like #CAN YOU FUCKING GIVE ME TIME #i won’t even offically have my degree til like may even tho i’ll be done in march #i’ve applied to literal hundreds of jobs but since my skills aren’t the best cause i don’t have any real world experience no one wants to #even interview me or train me or ANYTHING and the only way to get better is my practicing but i need more structure or something and if #someone would just be willing to train me at a fucking job i could do it!! but no one wants to do that except fucking sales jobs and i cant #do that shit again it is soul crushing #anyways i’m gonna have a full on mental breakdown cause uh #i’m too fucking overwhelmed i don’t have anything and i can’t move with them it’ll be a nightmare #if they would just slow the fuck down i might have a chance but we have a fucking realator coming thursday and i have so much shit to clean #i don’t know what the fuck i’m supposed to do #even if by some miracle i get a job i have no credit and no money so fuck finding a place to live #it’s impossible #i’m gonna go throw up probably

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urahara-lovepage · 2 months

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honestly fuck aizen but you know how insane and sicknasty it would have been if kubo gave him a better motive than “loneliness” or at least explained it better. you’re not getting me w some sob story abt how he had no equal so he committed mass murder and colonized a place. that’s straight nonsense.

#that is such a loose motive w such limited context #PLUS literally every interaction he and urahara had at the end of arrancar arc #DOUBLE PLUS urahara’s dead silence at ichigo describing aizen’s blade?#w that you can’t tell me they didn’t have history tf #i’m going to throw up bc now i’m invested #it’s almost like it’s my job to make a history for him sigh…#there’s a good bit of evidence that suggests (to me at least) that they might have worked together in the past which would probably better #explain aizen’s motivations but no kubo js wants to play w me #i’m actually gonna kms TELL ME why he knows allat shit abt the hogyoku and even had his own version #and then on TOP OF THAT urahara’s the one person that he claims to revere #bc his mind somehow exceeds aizen’s???#wild thing to admit to the enemy all i’m saying #nigga gave him parting words i’m gonnnneee just say you miss him lmfao #that’s the yap sesh folks 💀#i wrote this while falling asleep so if this isn’t cohesive now yk why #bleach #clorox bleach #kisuke urahara #sosuke aizen

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crippled-peeper · 5 months

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how do I feel not worthless and suicidal

#probably helps I haven’t been able to eat anything and I’m so fucking sick #I have a dr appointment tomorrow #I’m gonna go take my seroquel and try not to throw them up

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thehappiestgolucky · 1 year

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Thinking about Moth in Hisui again, and honestly I feel like I’d get a better grasp at a sort of storyline for it if I did a playthrough as Markoth

my only problem is the player character is just a lil guy and markoth is not-

#happy screms #especially like ‘you look 15. old enough to work’#line. that is a whole ass man right there-#i’ll probably just hide markoth’s face behind the zorua mask #make it more palatable like ‘yeah sure that’s markoth. stunted expression-‘#in terms of batiso and eggmu? i willll probably just home them #i am not gonna shiny hunt a male gligar again with NO shiny charm this time-#or a female alpha togepi that was just a stroke of luck sksksksksks #also. god i wish i could write fanfic of a moth in hisui but i’m…low-key embarrassed? it’s easy here on tumblr #but like throwing a fic like that onto ao3 is scary #finished fic for once vs the fear that it’s cringe i will somehow do it wrong FIGHT #anyway gonna start up a moth in hisui playthrough. third switch profile go- (why does pokemon have this. just make multiple saves-)

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housewifebuck · 6 months

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Attempting to get two of my wisdom teeth out later today I am shaking like a scared chihuahua

#it’s 654am and I’ve been lying awake for two hours lol #and by attempting I mean I know they are not going to be able to do it while I’m awake #and they can’t put me under in the dentist chair bc I will stop breathing #so I basically have to go. let it be a disaster. probably throw up on the surgeon. and then once it doesn’t work #go to my insurance and beg and cry and scream until they cover GA in a hospital #and I’m so so so scared of throwing up and I know that’s gonna happen today #I feel like I have a throw up appointment basically #I hate it here #and on top of it all the surgeon is an hour and a half away. AUGH #and they’re gonna give me laughing gas so I’m probably gonna say something mean to someone by accident #which I’m also so scared about #personal

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theresa-of-liechtenstein · 8 months

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i’m going to scream what in the fuck am i going to play for this audition

#probably going to be 2 pieces so i’ve decided to make one the fourth movement of the handel sonata in A #and the other is a tossup between the 1st movement of the handel in A #and the 2nd movement of the bach concerto in a #but the thing is i’ve already played handel for her so i dread her saying ‘handel AGAIN?’ and making me play the 1st movement of bach #which is. ok under my fingers but it was the piece i was doing when i switched instruments so it feels less than comfortable #scales are whatever i eat scales for breakfast i should be fine #if she makes me sightread i’m gonna throw up i already sightread for her in class yesterday #em jumped up busker #iskul bukol: undergrad edition

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riaki · 4 months

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hi guys sorry i’ve been dead lately i see ur asks n i want to get to them but i’m currently not home and i have no service and i. also started fevering really badly today 😭😭 i will try to post + answer asks soon ! thank u for being patient

#i feel soooo dead #uk im like always dhing #my throat hurt yesterday and today my face started feeling so hot and i got so dizzy and lethargic #it’s probably bc i didn’t wash my hands or something idek #the few times i accidentally ate cement got me sick ☠️#yapping #i just hope they’ll let me go home #and i have school when i get back noooooooo #i would say never coming back b i kinda have to the next few years #this sucks so bad #i also might have brain eating amoeba but whatever #living off of welsh gummies rn 🤞#feel like i’m gonna throw up

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pixel-with-wings · 5 months

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nononono I am nauseous af feel like I’m abt to barf as soon as I get to school im gonna need to go home but I have to get to school first fuck periods

#calling on the power of any and/or all gods that exist to keep my body from throwing up until I get to the nurses office #I also has milk yesterday which my body usually isn’t too opposed to but it depends #So that probably isn’t helping #It’s gonna be so awkward to go to the nurse though like #“yeah ik I got here 30 seconds ago but I need to go h o m e”#pms #menstration #period #fuck pms #I’m not even dysphoric and it’s still so miserable please say this is a one time thing

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seventh-district · 10 months

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screaming shaking crying trembling wailing sobbing throwing up punching the wall in anguish and agony and angst etc etc etc

#Seven.txt #Seven’s Public Diary #cw vent post #kinda?? i guess??#cw dentist #anyways yeah. i have to go to the dentist soon and i wanna throw up just thinking abt it #someone just fucking hit me with a tranq gun and get it over with already oh my god i don’t wanna do thisssssss #but don’t actually do that cause i would deadass revoke someone’s breathing privileges if they ever sedated me without my consent #that’s part of what i’m so afraid of. i don’t know what i’m gonna do if they say i have to be put under general anesthesia for this.#i will literally cry and run out of the building #so here’s hoping that they can just numb it and keep me awake #i need to stay awake for this man it’s the only way i can handle it. i don’t wanna be vulnerable like that.#hhhhhhh last time i was in a dentist chair i was shaking uncontrollably and it’s so embarrassing when my body does that shit #i’m so afraid it’s gonna be like that again cause my fear has gotten so much worse as i’ve put off going #but my father will be there with me so maybe my need to appear strong in front of him will override my body’s need to shake in fear lmao #so i’ve got someone to take me and i’ve thankfully got the money saved to afford it so realistically i shouldn’t be upset #but i am so so afraid and no amount of logic is gonna help me out here. i already know that #i just have to go do it like i have to force myself to do all the other things i’m afraid of #ugh. i can’t tell if i’m nauseous cause of the pain radiating from my jaw bone to my brow bone or if it’s anxiety #or if it’s cause i couldn’t eat last night. or all three. probably all three #i’ve never had any cavities or serious issues with my teeth before in my life so this is so so so new and scary and i hate it #but i want the pain to stop so i gotta get this fixed. and never eat anything with sugar or acid or anything ever again #and brush my teeth one million times a day so this doesn’t happen again #sighs and collapses on the floor. i guess i couldn’t run from the consequences of my mentally ill actions forever #also no for once i didn’t actually punch anything. that was just a figure of speech. and i’m in enough pain as it is rn lmao

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1ovestay · 2 months

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oh man i am running out of time!!!!!!!

#looking at my calendar feeling so stressed i’m running out of time #and so many people are like all of a sudden wanting to catch up before i go #tried to throw a going away party but half the people can’t come #and of course they wanna see me another time before i go #i’m working real hard to fit in the people i want to see before i go #like there’s some people that really just take priority #sorry to my other friends.. not to sound horrible but sometimes i really just have too many friends #there’s not enough time to see them all especially when they’re all in different groups #and in between all of that i have to do all of mt last minute organising and packing #feeling overwhelmed lol… friday is my last day of work i think i’ll probably cry #it’s so crazy i’m gonna be jobless for the first time since i was 15 #anyway this is all A LOT!!!! i think if i was just moving interstate or something it wouldn’t be a big deal but im not gonna see most #of these people for 2 years cuz i’m literally moving to the opposite side of the planet lol #p

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mattodore · 11 months

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#river dipping #playlist #theodore core #echthroi #the ‘it’s dripping from my gums / it’s not enough’ line……. lord.#the amount of songs on theo’s playlist that relate (to me) back to his addiction as well as his need for love #throws up #got super distracted while messing with presets again but i finally finished making some bg recolors #so now i’m gonna go through them and see which ones i like while listening to music #(will probably like the light grey blue one the most… then maybe the orange-red or dark grey… hm)#by music i do just mean theo’s playlist lmao #i seriously do not listen to anything else anymore #unwell. this little skull of mine is riddled with holes

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josephtrohman · 1 year

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i actually am so genuinely scared for tour besties bc this is the first fob tour i’m going to be actively following (NOT TO MENTION GOING TO BTW) SINCE 2016 AHHHHHHHHHHH

#i’m out of practice bc i was stupid for a couple of years 😔#but i do remember feeling ill with jealousy like all the time during all the other tours i was actively following </3 #tho hopefully it’ll be different bc i’m actually going to tour dust #although i probably will be sick with jealousy if any of you have pit bc there was no way i could justify spending that much on tickets rn #FOR ME especially with having to travel so far anyways i’m sooooooo scared #just thinking about it has me feeling like im gonna throw up HELPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP i feel like a lil nervous dog #shut up kelci

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bitchdafuqyousay · 1 year

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y’all this morning SUCKS already- first thing i heard when i left my dorm was gun shots from downtown n there’s this weird fog hanging rn, like it’s hanging at an eye level n smells sickly sweet like rot n is making me ill like i got to main campus n fuckin hurled in the union bathroom wtf

#going to college in a city is…. it’s sumn else #the fog might be from one of the factories but like i’ve never seen/experience this fog in the entirety i’ve been here #n now the dining hall is playing fucking dynamite by bts i’m gonna kms #i’m gonna throw up again turn this shit off #i didn’t eat yesterday either aside from a lil sandwich in the morning so that’s probably making it all worse #look at my posts boy

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pissfizz · 1 year

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The mental unwellness has transferred into physical unwellness

#i feel like vomiting and also passing out lmao #i have so many fucked up thoyghts going through my head right now el oh el #goddd I should probably just delete my tumblr without telling anyone at this point #do you know how much it sucks knowing that every single person you interact with is constantly worried for or by you #the price to pay for using this as a vent space. now everyone’s scared that with one wrong move I’m gonna go psycho on them too or just -#- straight up kill myself and that’s the only reasons they stick around because they have morals and a conscious and are good people #but it’s in every interaction I have with anyone and I actually want to drown myself throw myself off a building etc etc #i am so fucking self centered Jesus christ. urghhh so many thoughts so many thoughts #everyone hates me but I need everyone to love me more than they love anything or anyone else #i want to get hit by a train #urgh maybe I should try that tylenol thing someone mentioned earlier on here I wonder if that actually works #vent

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bbreaddog · 1 year

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#personal #just had to leave my shift early bc anxiety attack lmao #so much for getting a break just by taking the week off teaching #my boss is gonna be like ‘feeling better :)?’#and I’m gonna have to lie and say yes i am not still very burnt out bc i have most definitely had the week off to recover #fuck me.#i just texted my disability employment services provider to tell him i wanna quit this call centre job #I’ve been holding out on it for the past 3 weeks bc I’d have to look for jobs if I don’t do this job #but I don’t think it’s worth signing into a job you already wish was over an hour before it starts #I’d rather do one job that I’m confident in and doesn’t make me feel like throwing up my stomach out of my tear ducts #and search for something small on the side that only needs me casually instead of part-time #2 part-time jobs makes a full-time anxious mess #i haven’t been able to do any lesson planning for next week either like i thought I’d have time to do #anyway…#I’m gonna go cry for a bit and then take a nap #and I’ll probably take myself out for a mental health walk bc i havent been doing any exercise or sleeping well or anything for the past lik #2 months #it’s a hard knock life

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gothcoast · 2 years

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taking a break from studying bc it’s stressing me out

#i feel like i’m definitely going to start crying and probably gonna throw up #d22

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