#i’m not good at explaining things

[swndmehelp]

Another OC thing :3 this time my Fallout 4 one.

Okay so Silas is a Gen-3 synth prototype. I started making him when I first started playing fallout two years ago but kinda scrapped him till now and he’s kinda based off of Nick’s story just a little more complex.

Silas was one of the first Gen-3 synths built, and kinda like Nick he had memories implanted into his mind from different pre-war personalities that were scanned- just like Nick Valentine. Except the twist on this was that they wanted to see how many personalities they could fit in one synth brain until it broke- of course they inly did this to Silas. They put in about 14 personalities until Silas finally got really unstable. They out a range of just everyday people into the mind to criminals or unstable minds.

I actually came up with the different personalities names and what they were pre-war.

Silas- Fisher

Diana- housewife

Noah- prisoner

Lucas- Bartender

Dillon- Scientist

Luis- Doctor

Pedro- Business guy

Ella- Painter

Sophia- Psychologist

Luna- Lawyer

Parker- Soldier

Camila- child

Quinn- High school student

Sage- psychiatric patient

So Silas is the one that’s mostly out kinda like a front of a DID system, most of them are non hostile when they come out but about 4/14 of them are but only one will attack on sight. A way to know if he’s going to switch personalities is by his darker eye, usually it glows blue but if he starts to freak out he will lose control of the body and any of the 13 others will come out.

They eye will flicker between blue and yellow at first when he’s in any sort of distress, when it gets to yellow his voice will start to glitch out between 2 to 3 different voices including his own, then finally if it goes to red he has switched and the voice will change. After a few seconds after switching the eye will return to blue if their non-hostile, if they are hostile but don’t attack then it will go back to yellow, but if it stays on red they are going to attack.

Silas over the years had come up with a way to keep the other personalities down and from coming out erratically unless he goes into one of his episodes. If he experiences high levels of distress then his eye will flicker between all three colors and his voice will glitch between all the voices, he’ll have no control over what happens and usually just does an automatic shut down so he restarts and is able to have control again.

All the voices can only be heard in by Silas but sometimes they can be heard echoing Silas’ voice. He can be caught talking with himself a lot.

Silas loves fishing and doesn’t know how to fight. He can be found at one of the cabins at Far Harbor and refuses to go to Arcadia in fear he’ll accidentally hurt someone. He’s very nice and gentle overall tho.

[fujii-draws]

OKAY! Chatot rant in tags below! Read at your own discretion.

[luuxxart]

spoilers: he met her anyway and she did her rita voice, causing him to promptly collapse on the dance floor

[industrations]

Hello Indi. Love your art!! Any advice for beginner artists? I’m trying my hand at drawing portraits and bodies but I don’t know where to start from :(

It’s so overwhelming

It is very overwhelming! But i’m proud of you for trying. I would say take screenshots of a frame of your favorite show/series, or take a picture of a friend, yourself, a family member, and just try to replicate it. Sometimes having a reference is frowned down upon for some reason but that’s the way we learn. There’s no way you’re brain can just remember what everything ever looks like.

Also keep in mind that sometimes it’s better to just finish something and move on then to be stuck on it forever. If its finished then boom, that’s just another piece of experience.

I’m also still learning! I will never stop learning, and especially in anatomy there is a lot of things that i still lack. It’s just one of those things that will keep evolving forever

[losthalfelf]

Nandor: “Guillermo and I are officially a couple now! I know this is very exciting but-“

Nadja: “Finally! It was honestly pathetic having to see-“

Nandor: “I know, it was so embarrassing having to see Guillermo lust after me all these years.”

Nadja: “What? No! Having to see you pining after him like a baby donkey! We kept thinking just fuck him already Guillermo, please, for all our sakes!”

Lazslo: “We even considered paying Gizmo to do it, but then realized we didn’t actually have any money.”

Nandor: “Pining?! Nandor the relentless doesn’t do any pining! Especially not for a human!”

Lazslo: “Sure, Pal.”

Colin Robinson: “Actually, as someone who has been feeding off of you two for almost 2 decades now, it was, one could say pathetic, seeing you do everything to get Guillermo’s attention. I mean the wedding was just-“

Nadja, Laszlo, Nandor: “Shut up, Colin Robinson!”

[finleycannotdraw]

I love being transgender

[triggerhappychildren]

I can’t be the only one who never liked the “Ishimondo are Chihiro’s parents” thing right?

Idk, it just always felt weird to me. Like, I like Ishimondo and I do enjoy the Taka+Mondo+Chihiro dynamic, but when people put them in the stereotypical family dynamic (ie; Taka’s the mom, Mondo’s the dad, and Chihiro is the child) it just loses it’s uniqueness y’know?

And it kinda infantilizes Chihiro which I’m also not a fan of.

From my perspective, I’ve seen people treat Chihiro like they’re a toddler who doesn’t know what sex is or needs their ears blocked from no-no words and stuff.

Hello!? She’s an adult with a teenager’s mind basically. Not a toddler.

[fumifooms]

You’re the resident chilchuck expert, so I was wondering about it there’s any canon evidence that he did smoke or drink alcohol when the kids were younger. I always thought it was something he picked up due to the strain of long jobs, when the kids were already older, but you seem to think differently and I was wondering if there was anything in canon that made you think that way!

Now that you mention it I guess it’s true there’s no evidence he did. Smoking we literally only know he does at all because of one post-canon panel where he has a pipe, so no, maybe this stick-looking thing in the panel below too though, I’m not familiar with medieval blunts eh. We’ve only gotten one panel of him and his daughters interacting when he was younger so that’s not too insightful on that end, and every time we see him young and freckled it’s in a job context so again not really where we’d expect him to be drinking. The earliest proof (/heavy implication since we don’t see inside his cup I guess) is 3 years before canon when Laios hired him, where he’s at a bar, classily placed in front of all the bottles ✨

Yes alcohol is almost certainly a way through which he copes especially with stress, so if we go with the theory he started around when work got stressful, well… Chilchuck started working as a dungeon diver ~10 years ago so when he was ~19, making Mei, Fler and Puck ~6 and ~4 respectively, so from that draw the ‘stressful enough to start drinking’ line wherever. We don’t know what he did before that with any certainty, and it could be he did odd jobs, lived off mostly mutual aid and community work, or just focused on only raising the girls. Half-foots tend to be poor and I see a lot of that in Chilchuck specifically so I don’t think he could have afforded to not have some paying work though.

Alright, so then why do I think he did drink when the girls were younger?

I give a more complete rundown of the info we do have on his alcoholism & his family with panels and references + all the speculation I make from it here. But the most targeted and objective answer I can give is:

Of course there’s just very very little we know of Chilchuck’s life with his family, and I think that’s by design too. I think the details being up in the air is to allow more nuance of the topic, like, will trying to reconcile go well, is their relationship salvageable? We don’t know, because we don’t know. So the message of giving hope a chance even if it’s a long shot, that things could truly go either way, is more relevant, impactful and meta in that way. How long was he usually away for work travels into dungeons here and there? How did he act with them? All we can really do is "it’s likely that", it’s a game of which way we think it’s more implied. There’s no right and wrong answer, it’s all Marcille-like larping the events out.

My main reason for thinking he did is that his father died from overdrinking and Chilchuck is very aware of that. He mentions his death casually in the extra about their stance in alcohol and in his Adventurer’s Bible profile, etc. He acts towards the alcohol presumably the same way his father did: with abandon, uncaring for the health effects, probably happily too considering Chil says "dying doing something you love is a good way to go". Very nonchalant. So you see what I’m saying here right, wether he started early or late, his view of alcoholism is very influenced by what he saw of his father growing up, it’s something he’s always been aware of and saw in a mostly positive light, something that was inherited you could say. It’s something that was normalized to him from a young age. Regardless or where it goes from there I do think this part is pretty inarguable. If he views it positively and we know that in the present alcohol is his favorite food that he loveees, why would he have held out on it? Personally that all makes me think he started drinking very young, especially since I don’t think they limited alcohol to age as much as modern standards (and I mean, teen drinking is obviously still a thing). And here you could argue, maybe his father only started being more alcoholic later when Chilchuck moved out, or something! And to that there’s nothing I can say except I think that’s a strained theory, and that Chil might even have largely cut contact with his family after moving out (since he and siblings are listed as almost strangers and he doesn’t seem to have much emotional attachment to his parents, but also we know he rents out his place to "a relative"), but it’s true we have no evidence. "I’ve picked up the same unhealthy substance abuse as my father haha! No big deal right haha" repeated several times to me just reeks of intergenerational trauma, & the alcoholism gene as they call it. Like effortless sliding into drinking as if it’s second nature, it’s natural after all, it’s normal after all, it just makes sense, it makes you feel good and that’s what matters.

BUT from my interpretation then we have a whole other layer: Alcohol is of course not all bad always. I think he’s always liked alcohol and drank it on occasion and it brought him joy etc etc, but I think here the implication in the question is, how much effect did his drinking have on the family relations and how early? And that isn’t so much about when him drinking started but when the alcoholism started. Addiction is defined by a habitual need, that has negative effects from filling that need (physical, psychological, social, etc) and negative effects from withdrawal. If Chilchuck drinks to cope and he can’t not cope without it, that’s addiction, if it affects his relationships, if it’s a need he has, it’s addiction. Addiction can be very insidious or look very casual, and how much people around the person are affected by it is case by case. Cheerful drunks can be sooo annoying and uncomfortable though let me tell you. Drunks are drunks. And this sounds harsh, but even if people around them don’t mind drunks it’ll still have some effects here and there, living with one can be such a challenge, ily drunks good luck with everything much like Chilchuck you deserve good things 🫡　

Ok so with the dad thing and the "ok well maybe he’s always drunk casually but it grew worse with time around when he started working as a dungeon diver" precision made, the other bit of info we have that can inform this is that Chilchuck is on a harsh diet and that alcohol is a hunger suppressant. We know Chilchuck "used to be fine not eating for two days", that literally on screen to quench his hunger so it doesn’t keep him awake he goes to drink water, drinking is his instinct to hunger. Again alcohol is a hunger suppressant and if you want info on that the internet has a lot of research and anecdotes about it. He diets to be light enough to not trigger traps, so it’s something he’d have started after dungeon diving most likely. Between the stress and the diet, yes it’s extremely likely he started going harder on alcohol after he started working in dungeons. There’s arguments on wether two days without eating is less bad for half-foots than humans, but apart from smaller portions there’s nothing that indicates half-foots should get less than 3 meals a day. They need less food but that’s because their bodies are smaller: the need is proportional to the body, not smaller than others’ races, the % of need is similar even if the kg amount of food isn’t. There’s also a popular headcanon with support basis that half-foots run hot and have a faster heartrate and whatnot, and that points towards a faster metabolism rather than a slower one: a bigger need for eating rather than a smaller one. He has the same bmi, 18, as Mickbell, but perhaps because Chil is much taller he’s less intensely visibly underweight with ribs showing than Mick during the bath extra, it’s most apparent when he becomes tallman.

Alcohol is something so important and omnipresent in his character that I have trouble believing it’s something that was part of only a small fraction of his life. It’s his immediate go-to, his no-brainer solution to a good time, I’ve sort of always assumed especially after looking at his family that it’s something he discovered decently young. Like he just acts like someone who’s always had alcohol to fall back on and started young idk. Alcohol is one of his 5 keywords. Alcoholism is very ingrained into his world view and life, his "it doesn’t matter" stance his ‘work hard play hard’ mentality his idea that the world is harsh so you get relief where you can, so it just makes sense to me that it’s always been in his life, if not actively then at least looming.

So yes, in summary, my take: Alcohol was always something he wholly enjoyed to an unwise level, but it could have been considered casual until he started working into dungeons and his need for it on a regular basis intensified. Alcohol has always had positive association to him as far as we see, so when it started being a problem he didn’t see it as such. To quote him, "I drink anytime I get the opportunity to". Why always? Approval of father’s alcoholism. Why alcoholism at all? Diet + stress & coping mechanism & emotional stunting + relationship issues, and she decided she had enough after they went out for drinks.

Conclusion

Chilchuck having drunk from a young age makes sense to me and it’s the strongest narrative angle I see on the table, but that’s objectively a me opinion, yes! There’s no evidence, moreso there’s canon basis and supporting info, but it’s all very left up to interpretation. I’ve made my own interpretations of things from the scraps we see, like everyone else making Chilwife and daughters content. Wether you have a stance on the topic or prefer to leave it vague in your takes, it’ll be a matter of what you think makes most sense, or what you’d rather believe I suppose (which is literally fine)

There’s a lot of subjectivity in even just setting up causal links like you probably noticed during this and I was careful with my word choices, because we’re just extrapolating from what we see and unless Kui states it explicitly from a reliable mouth all we can do is have informed opinions on most things. This particular interpretation is influenced by other details I’ve come to form about my interpretation of Chilchuck too, the more psychological and emotional sides of him and the timeline and how his marriage even happened, unplanned pregnancy imo. Like I hope you see what I mean, this wasn’t supposed to be a speculation post just a quick simple answer but there’s sort of just no other and concise but complete way with the subjectivity nuance to put "maybe it could be yes because of this but maybe it could be no because of this" haha

[new-ronantics]

i don’t think people realize that at this point it’s much more important for queer stories to be shown in a positive light than it is to portray them “realistically”.

(there’s also an issue in the idea that queer characters/couples not suffering 24/7 is inherently unrealistic, but that’s another can of worms.)

there are plenty of “realistic” queer love stories out there. we get it. most queer people lead miserable lives, never get happy endings, and are generally shunned from society, right? we know this. we see it all the time. we experience it. i’d like to think that we’ve come far enough to say that representation is no longer just about queer people being included—it’s also about depicting them in a way that’s somehow meaningful, fulfilling, and—dare i say—hopeful.

is will’s self-hatred, shame, and overall reluctance to come out to anyone a realistic portrayal of the experience of being a closeted gay kid in the 80s? yes, of course it is. nobody thinks it isn’t. the problem is that, ultimately, this is a TV show with a narrative. it’s supposed to tell a story, and a good one at that.

my question is this: what does will having unrequited feelings for his (supposedly) straight best friend do for the narrative? what does it do to develop any characters involved? the answer is nothing. it does absolutely nothing. it’s just another unnecessary tragic ending for a queer character who’s already suffered beyond belief. will’s arc could have easily been separate from mike’s; it could have been all about self-acceptance and gaining confidence in his identity, but this is very pointedly the route they didn’t choose, and that is why queer people are upset by the path vol 2 went down.

to watch a gay kid’s feelings be used as a prop to push the main heterosexual couple back together is humiliating. to see a lesbian watch as her crush kisses her shock-factor boyfriend is humiliating. it’s like it’s being rubbed in our faces—hey, look, people like you will never be happy! haha!

that’s not the representation we need anymore. it’s not impactful or satisfying or new, it’s just depressing. realism only matters so much in a sci-fi horror/drama, and i’ve honestly never seen so many people bitch and moan about realism until the conversation was about queer characters finding happiness.

so no, queer people are not just sad because their ship didn’t become canon. that is not what this is about. pay more attention, please.

[synthetic-rust]

What they don’t tell you about autism is that it feels like you’re simultaneously one step outside of reality yet two steps too far into it at all times

[dmclemblems]

“Claude in Hopes is exactly the same way he is in Houses! He’s always been like that and has the same feelings/morals!”

Claude in GW/Hopes:

Claude, literally, in Houses:

Let that speak for the fact that Claude was written with a 180 characterization in Hopes.

Claude wants peace and to bring everyone together; not to tear them further apart. That is his character.

[froqpi-art]

new gen lore according to twitter (sorry wish i had a better source haha)

according to japanese fans, in the extra information in vol. 27, gen seems to have?? a rare condition in which the organs are reversed (visceral inversion).

[dinitride-art]

Oh fucking- Mike’s been looking for Will this entire time. He didn’t find him in season one. He found El. Brb gotta write an essay.

[grassyeggroll]

idk if youre down to drop lore but how do you think fern and poppy met?

Fern was just walking back home one day and just stumbled into them on the way and was like “Wow! you’re coming home with me now!” And they became near inseparable ever since lol

In all honesty, Fern would’ve been shocked to see Poppy (because why wouldn’t he like wtf? Little green guy that looks like Jake?? In the middle of nowhere?) and tried asking them a bunch of questions to which Poppy didn’t really have all the answers to, then he just kinda offered him to come back to the treehouse with him

I actuall y did have a mini comic i made I think last year to show how they met BUT It didn’t turn out as well as I liked (mostly because I didn’t plan it out beforehand) so I might redo it at some point

[juminsfakecat]

ji changwook as a pathetic heart of gold ex-boyfriend and shin hyesun as a goofy optimistic female lead going through a hard time? can’t believe there was a show made for just ME

[dumb-doll-lips]

I’m really happy that like how I like feeling dumb and stuff isn’t like some kink I have to talk to guys about to get them onboadd. It’s cool like how normal it feels. Like either I just super give off vibes to tease me about being dumb and that I appreciate their help and direction and stuff or that like lots of guys will just treat you like that (I guess like as long as your not seeming mad or something maybe). Either way feels like a good thing for me lol.