#i’m shitty in english

[someonewhogotanaccount]

what's new?

I… am not so familiar with some English expressions, so I’ll interpret this as a “what's up”. Correct me if I'm wrong :).

So far I'm having a relatively relaxed day, got woken up by the alarm clock at 6am this morning and spontaneously decided not to go to school. Well, I would have had only substitution and PE today anyway, so I didn't miss much. To be honest, I almost went to school (because I’m a nerd and don’t want to miss school), but I was so tired and my mom talked me into staying home. So, I mean, if anyone from my school is reading this, I'm totally one-hundred percent sick, of course. Cough, cough. Plus, I was only like six absences last school year, so that's kinda justified.

Stupidly, no one sends me the book pages we are supposed to work on, so unfortunately I can't do any assignments. Cough, sneeze, cough, cough. (Oops, chain reaction)

Also shit just realised I lost my key. I dunno where I left that stupid thing… and my mom won’t be pleased by that (I always lose something).

Anyway, I have English exam tomorrow and haven’t learned yet because… I think I already mentioned that I am a lazy person learned to appreciate the perks of procrastination. And I used the wasted time to read so it’s valued wasted time. Oh, and I've been playing the piano more often again lately. Now my left wrist hurts like hell again, but my conscience is satisfied at least. My story (the one you kinda helped me with) was also a little bit continued and I had my first “author getting more brilliant ideas under the shower” - experience the day before yesterday.

Sadly, I don’t have any time left to write further (maybe that’s good ‘cause this answer is already pretty long ;). As I said, I still have to practice English (and now slightly start panicking because I forgot the time).

How was your day? What’s new? :)

[atopvisenyashill]

i was thinking more about characters Performing Gender, but not necessarily Transgressing Gender. I wound up focusing on Ned and Sansa bc I feel like I understand them the most but-

Sansa as a hostage is imo the most obvious (bc it’s so well done) moment of someone clearly Performing Gender but not being transgressive in that performance. Which isn’t to say it’s not a complicated performance; it’s a fine line Sansa walks between weaponizing her gender to protect herself without seeming too fake. She’s trying to placate the Lannisters by playing the perfect, dedicated, air headed betrothed because it’s the only defense she has - if she outwardly rebels, she will be punished in a likely violent and/or sexual way (which isn’t even conjecture - when she says “or maybe he’ll give me yours” Joffrey has her struck with an armored hand). She’s not quite successful in being convincing but that’s because it’s a rather extreme situation; despite no one believing her, she does make herself seem meek and stupid enough that no one suspects she’s plotting to escape with Dontos until she’s well away from KL. The fact that she even has Dontos to confide in is because of Sansa’s relationship with gender! When she saves him, she covers her rebellious slip by playing up Joffrey’s intelligence & his role as King; she reaches for “tools” of her gender AND of ~proper manhood~ to save a life and herself from another beating. Her retreats into the godswood and silence are very much Sansa attempting to recharge from these draining interactions, the same way a knight would need to stop and eat and rest after a fight. She is fighting, constantly, by forcing herself to stay within the narrow confines of a specific type of gender performance as a way of shielding herself from harm.

Ned yelling at Cat is another big one, and I’ve seen the scene referred to as Ned using his patriarchal power to scare Cat, which is a great description. It feels like a Performance because Ned is putting on this terrifying Lord Stark mask in an attempt to get Catelyn to stop asking about Jon (and Lyanna). This is not how he usually acts with those he loves! When Ned is with His People, he is welcoming of questions, curiosity, emotion, even transgressive thought (to a point! the idea that Ned is a feminist because he lets Arya learn to fight is Not accurate but you can’t deny he allows significantly more flexibility wrt gender expression than most of the fathers we meet in this series. the bar is in hell tho). Yet when Cat asks him about Jon’s mother, Ned scares her so well she stops asking & still remembers the moment bitterly over a decade later. And if that snippet we see through Bran’s eyes of Ned praying that Cat will forgive him does come after she asks (like it’s suspected), it’s clear not only that this is a performance he’s putting on & weaponizing against Cat, it’s one he does not like using as a weapon against someone he is close to. After using the power his gender gives him to cause harm, he retreats to the godswood and silence to pray and rest, much like Sansa. A spiritual cleanse, the way a soldier may pray after battle, to reset and reconnect Being A Proper Man to Being A Kind Man.

I think there’s something interesting in that two of the characters most widely defined by how well they adhere to Westerosi gender norms both dislike feeling like they had to weaponize their gender. They are exhausted by the performance, because it’s a performance. This isn’t Sansa getting excited over tourneys, or Ned teaching his sons to fight; it’s toxic masculinity, it’s structural misogyny. It’s something they’re good at, excel at, and connected to something they enjoy but when it’s paired with violence, whether done by Ned or done to Sansa, it crosses over in their minds from an innate part of themselves (The Gender) to a performance necessary due to survival (The Gender Role). And that after these performances, both retreat to nature & god as a way of resting and cleansing from the experience.

[t3acupz]

Going off of the tags about "what if guinea pigs instead of dogs"

Can you imagine hannibal going into will's house to snoop and instead of dogs who want sausage it's like 30 guinea pigs SCREAMING for snacks.

you’ve had guinea pigs before haven’t you 😂 because yesss they make better guard dogs than actual dogs! hannibal can’t just bribe them with some sausage links, he would have to bring a truck load of vegetables that they’d devour in minutes and then chase him around the house nipping his ankles until he gave them more

[akechi-if-he-slayed]

how it feels being a true anti-hero lover and analyzer when most regard it as an overplayed weird-lyric radio song

[roseofcards90]

Man 😔

[taylorhawkins]

[thankspete]

calum & michael <3

boston, ma | aug 12 & 13, 2023

[cleocatrablossy]

Why must my sickness not also zap my energy?

[sleepy-bear-tm]

Me feeling crushed after the weight of a heavy therapy session: yuh it was great I swear

[milo-is-rambling]

Who was gonna tell me that reading is fun sometimes

[prettyboysmlm]

tomorrow is my last full day of freedom…

[always-andromeda]

not me angrily opening up canvas to take screenshots of my discussion posts and replies because my history professor docked points from me because I supposedly didn't do part of the assignment when I literally did. 😀

[spinsterennui]

Can’t believe I have to actually do things for money. I have to work. Work!!! This is an injustice 😫😭 I should get paid (generously) for existing.

[two-sugars-pls]

good luck on the results! - year 12 who does not envy your position

aaa thank you!! I didn’t see this in the morning but it means a lot, I’m very happy with what I got, thank you xx

It was very very nerve-racking so I’m glad it’s over 😅 tbh it’s so scary having your key academic years put in a blender like that lmao but despite all the scary headlines we did know in advance about this and !! my grades & my friend’s grades were very close (one grade off each) to our predicted grades so if you’re in year 12 just like . don’t stress too much (very rich I know lol) & listen to your teachers… although I’m sure you’re doing that already lol best of luck to you going into year 13 💕

[digitaldiseas3]

man if i don’t like a mf it is Easy for me to be hilariously and casually snarky to them. like if they say something stupid or pretentious or i can catch them in a lie, it’s so effortlessly fun to call them out on it

[thatlonelycactus]

Just a girl eating chocolate and really wanting to stab Edward Fairfax Rochester