#i’m so tired of myself and waking up and making a fool of myself every shift fucking stupid loser i hate myself i try so hard and it’s not

[crowsource]

🐦‍⬛ 𝐃𝐈𝐕𝐈𝐍𝐄 𝐑𝐈𝐕𝐀𝐋𝐒 —quotes taken from the first novel in rebecca ross' letters of enchantment duology. some edits have been made to allow for rp purposes. feel free to adjust for pronouns/names/etc.

❝ It takes courage to let down your armor, to welcome people to see you as you are. ❞

❝ I can’t risk having people behold me as I truly am. ❞

❝ You will miss so much by being so guarded. ❞

❝ I don't think you realize how strong you are. ❞

❝ Sometimes strength isn't swords and steel and fire, as we are so often made to believe. Sometimes it's found in quiet, gentle places. ❞

❝ I hope you will find your place, wherever you are. ❞

❝ I think we all wear armor. I think those who don’t are fools, risking the pain of being wounded by the sharp edges of the world, over and over again. ❞

❝ I am coming to love him, in two different ways. Face to face, and word to word. ❞

❝ I am destined to always be at war within myself. ❞

❝ Your grief will never fully fade; it will always be with you--a shadow you carry in your soul--but it will become fainter as your life becomes brighter. ❞

❝ You are not alone. ❞

❝ I never told you that I love you. And I regret that, most of all. ❞

❝ That’s it. You’re doing great, ____. ❞

❝ I think there is a magical link between you and me. A bond that not even distance can break. ❞

❝ It’s not a crime to feel joy, even when things seem hopeless. ❞

❝ ____, look at me. You deserve all the happiness in the world. And I intend to see that you have it. ❞

❝ I don’t want to wake up when I’m seventy-four only to realize I haven’t lived. ❞

❝ I’m not going anywhere, unless you tell me to leave, and even then, we might need to negotiate. ❞

❝ I realize that people are just people, and they carry their own set of fears, dreams, desires, pains, and mistakes. ❞

❝ I can’t expect someone else to make me feel complete; I must find it on my own. ❞

❝ I pray that my days will be long at your side. ❞

❝ Let me fill and satisfy every longing in your soul. May your hand be in mine, by sun and by night. ❞

❝ Let our breaths twine and our blood become one, until our bones return to dust. Even then, may I find your soul still sworn to mine. ❞

❝ I’m not afraid to be alone, but I’m tired of being the one left behind. ❞

❝ I broke my engagement, quit my job, and traveled six hundred kilometers into war-torn land to be with you. ❞

❝ And yet I keep moving forward. On some days, I’m afraid, but most days, I simply want to achieve those things I dream of. ❞

❝ Let us make our names exactly what we want them to be. ❞

❝ How do you make your life your own and not feel guilt over it? ❞

❝ I am so afraid. And yet how I long to be vulnerable and brave when it comes to my own heart. ❞

❝ I grew something living in a season of death. ❞

❝ I don’t think you can even begin to understand what your words mean to me. ❞

❝ I want your hand to be in mine, no matter what comes. ❞

❝ You’re distracting me, ____. ❞

❝ Endings were often found in beginnings. ❞

❝ By law, we’re both legal adults who can drink and be formally charged for murder. ❞

❝ Be safe. Be well. I’ll write soon. ❞

[luimagines]

Sequel to There’s Only One Bed Part 3

Masterlist

You can read the first half right here!

Part 1 Part 2

Part 3 will include the same boys as before which are Hyrule, Four and Sky!

Content under the cut!

Hyrule

Hyrule actually fell asleep much faster than he anticipated that he would.

Between the soft rhythm of your breathing and the warm of two living bodies next to each other, Hyrule has never felt as secure as he did in that moment. There was never a time where he could pin point feeling safe and loved enough where his eyes hit the pillow and he was out cold.

It was as if someone hit the light switch and he was unconscious.

Not to mention he hadn’t even woke up once the entire night. He closed his eyes in the dark of the room and when he opened them again it was daytime.

And you were gone.

Seeing as Hyrule isn’t used to sleeping as deeply as he had, it takes him a while to come back to speed.

Something is telling him that there’s something wrong. Something is missing. But he can’t figure it out.

He came in the night prior. Tired and he fell asleep in the bed. Was there someone else there? Was it you? Or did he dream you up? It was very likely that he dreamed you up. Why would you want to sleep next to him?

It hurts his heart a little bit that he fooled himself that way, but it was a very nice dream.

“Are you awake yet, sleepy head?” He hears you knock gently on the door as you open it.

He sits up and ruffles his hair for no good reason. It is to make it look better? Get rid of the bed head? Make it seem neat? It accomplishes none of those things. He slaps himself wake up a bit more and shakes his head. “I’m up.”

You see the last bit of his drama and snort. “I brought you breakfast!”

Hyrule smiles. “Thank you.”

He throws his legs over the bed and pulls at his shirt nervous, hoping that it only looks that he’s adjusting it. “I could have gotten it myself. You didn’t have to go through all that trouble.”

“If I didn’t then no one would have saved you anything. Twilight and Wind are eating their weight in pancakes and Wild only just sat down to eat his own food so he’s no longer cooking anything.” You say kindly and sit n the bed next to him. “Here.”

You hold out the plate to him and Hyrule can’t help the blush that spread across his cheeks. It’s a small tower of four pancakes with scrambled eggs, some potato patty and a few pieces of bacon. There’s a little bit of butter on the side with syrup that was once poured into the relative shape of a smiley face on top. 

It’s cute.

Hyrule smiles back and begins to cut into the food. It’s soft and fluffy and perfect. If only every morning could be like this, Hyrule would begin to understand what Time meant by basic happiness.

“You talk in your sleep.”

Hyrule almost chokes on his food. His head snaps to you with lightning speed. It’s a similar scene to the night before but Hyrule can’t bring himself to fully remember the experience.

You smile shyly and pump your legs as they hang off of the bed. “Nothing to bad. It was funny.”

Hyrule bits his lip and can feel the shame creep up his back. “Oh on courage what did I say?”

You giggle enough to snort. You cover your mouth with your hand, clearly delighted by whatever he had said in his sleep.

He gets no answer.

Four

Four woke up peacefully.

It wasn’t necessarily out of normality for him but it also wasn’t common place. He likes it and snuggles back into the pillow by his face.

It takes him a while to be aware of his surroundings once more. His brain is defrosting at a slower rate than usual. Four notes that it must be a very uneventful morning for no one to want his attention just yet.

The bed shifts closer than he anticipates and he blinks his eyes wearily to the sleeping form next to him

Oh. It’s just you... Four closes his eyes again, willing for more time to pass so that he can wake up more. That’s right, he thinks. You spent the night in the same room. There’s only one bed. You were tired and sleepy and still sleeping.

Good. It’s good that you both get to sleep in today. Four thinks that it’s a start of a good day then

He yawns and stretches, letting his eyes blink open. Four lets his body be laid out flat and tries his best to not touch you, just in case it might wake you up in the process. Four stretches his arms over his head as well, letting his palms touch the head board and feels a few joints on his back pop when he takes a deep breath.

It feels good.

He rolls over slightly, not wiling to disturb you in the slightest.

Four is still tired himself and is unwilling to get out of the bed just yet. So he tries to memorize this moment the best he can.

You’re just as cute asleep as you are awake. Four smiles, reaching over to poke your cheek gently before running the same hand over your hair, moving it aside before it can get in your face. Your hair is also softer than he realized. He’s taken aback by the feel of it.

He pinches it softly, letting it run through his finger tips as he pulls back.

He breathes. If only all his mornings could be like this. No places to be first thing. No one ushering to move faster. You still sleeping peacefully next to him. Neither of you have a care in the world and there’s no threat to it either.

It’d be a quiet life if Four got it is way, but he finds that the thought doesn’t bother him as he thinks someone of the other boys would think. 

You make a small noise in your sleep and Four has to bite his lip to keep from grinning to widely. He doesn’t want to laugh, even if you won’t know it. Feels wrong. Although it was very sweet.

You also take a deep breath and Four shuts his eyes just in time to miss yours blink open.

Four pretends to be asleep a little while longer and even adjusts his position a bit so that he can be more comfortable. 

You yawn just over his head and shake his shoulder. “...Link... Wake up. Time to eat.”

Four mimics your breath and blinks up at you. “Yeah?”

You smile. “Mhm... Come on.” You yawn again. “Breakfast time.”

Four nod and pushes himself up, trying to aim his legs to where he dropped his shoes the night before. “Alright. Time for food.”

It seems that you also need a moment to defrost before going anywhere. Four looks over his shoulder, hoping to keep the look of adoration on his face to a minimal. You’re so cute.

Four coughs a bit, standing up. It seems that you need a little more time to get ready to head to the lounge. That’s ok. Four can wait. Then you can have breakfast together too.

Sky

Sky wakes up unceremonially. Something had hit him on the head.

He blinks his eyes open and takes in a deep breath. There’s no reason to be in any hurry after all.

“Link- for all that is good and holy- get off of me please.” You grit out from underneath him.

Sky frowns and looks down to you. Your hands are on his shoulders, trying to push him off with as much might as you can in the morning. He tilts his head, effortlessly lifting himself off of the bed and consequently off of you. His brain takes a little more time to catch up though.

“Good morning.” He yawns away from you to save you from his morning breath. He closes his eyes again to scratch his head and mess up his hair a bit more. Knowing that you want him to move, he rolls over.

Right onto the floor.

That wakes him up and leave shim looking around once more.

That’s right. He was tired yesterday and so were you. You pulled him into the room and made the two of your share the bed. Sky rubs his eyes this time, taking in his surroundings for the first time since you both arrived here.

“I’m sorry to hit you but you didn’t want to let go.” You say, getting off of the bed as quick as you can. You fall over in the process but stand up quickly. “Ignoring how my legs are asleep- I really need to pee. Good morning by the way!”

You run out of the room.

Sky is still trying to catch up. He doesn’t even register just how much of his body weight you were subjected to. He yawns again and stretches his hands over his head.

Well, it’s not the worst way to wake up, he supposes. Zelda certainly had to take drastic measure to make sure he would wake up on time. Sky can’t even find it in himself to be mad.

He stands up finally and moves to the bed. He’s still tired. How much sleep did he actually get last night? He doesn’t remember waking up at all so he can assume he slept the whole night through but he’s still tired.

He flops back onto the bed, making sure to hit the pillow with his face while he’s at it.

He spent the night with you, Sky realizes belatedly. And he didn’t even give the mercy of not being crushed. He knows he’s not exactly the lightest guy of the group and he knows he can throw his weight around.

And he was all dead weight.

Part of him wants to feel bad about it but he’s too busy falling asleep again now that he’s back on the bed.

“Skkkyyy!” You groan after opening the door again. “When the others said you would be hard to wake up, I knew they weren’t joking but this is ridiculous!”

Sky only hums in response, too lazy and too tired to lift his head and respond to you properly.

He can hear you huff and puff, no doubt trying to think of something to get him to move and be a functional human for the day. You come over and shake his shoulder roughly. It does the trick to wake Sky up a bit more but now he’s going to be stubborn.

“SKKYY!!” You groan louder.

Sky only hums back in response again.

“Wake uuppp!!” You audibly pout. “Don’t you want to go get breakfast.”

“Mmmm.”

“With me?”

“...Mmmmm..”

“Please?”

“...”

“...”

Sky sighs and finally pushes himself off of the bed. He points a finger in your face, just shy of missing your nose. “Only because you asked nicely.”

At least you seem happy that he’s not spending the day in the bed- no matter much he wants to.

[bidisasterevankinard]

Seven Sentence Sunday

Tagged by @giddyupbuck <3333 thank you love

Me really post seven? hahaha

I wrote this scene of exes to lovers some days ago and need opinions

prev snippet

context: Buck and Eddie dated after 3x10 till 3x15 when Eddie ended their relationship for "not to fall in love" cause it would make everything not convenient on work. But after lightning he can't deny he's in love and he wants to try again and tries to wait for Buck to feel better after lightning and when Buck in 6x15 talks about Natalia Eddie thinks it's too late and tries to date Marisol but after one date he goes to Buck and tell him he loves him

He never let Buck love him how the man did, but Buck still showed it to him.

But he hates that right now Buck is not just showing that he still may love him, he also shows Eddie he hates him, showing him he’s hurt. Showing that Eddie hurt him and still does it. And Eddie wants to make it better. 

He wants to put his medic hands on the wounds he created, invited under Buck’s skin, on his heart, and heal it. 

Thinking about best ways to put the bandages on Buck’s heart to give Eddie time to find the way to make Buck trust him with this again, to give him chance to keep it in his hands forever, Eddie feels how Buck ends the kiss, but doesn't go more than some centimeters from their faces.

Teal meets hazel for the first time tonight.

“I hate you so much right now,” opposite to his words, Buck only squeezes his waist tighter, almost till his nails can make him bleed.

(more feelings under cut if you want) 

Eddie wants to bleed. He carves all the pain and poison of the last days to go away with some dots of blood. He wants Buck to make him bleed how Eddie left him years ago with a bleeding heart.

“I thought I had stopped hoping. I thought I had finally moved on from you. Three years, Eddie, I was hoping for three years. I dated Taylor and sometimes hoped to wake up with you, not her, but all those times told myself to stop. I tried so hard all those years to move on, but I-I held on you, on pieces of you I still could have, so hard till I felt like trash, like a failure, like I wasn’t enough, but I never could stop. You always let me hold on to you, and I thought you do it for Chris, that you hold on me and let me hold on you for Chris, and you would never do it for us, for me. And when I found powers to finally feel like I moved on, like I’m ready to keep the hope about you aside, like I’m ready to think about my happiness, to put me first, you-you went and said you loved me,” Buck shakes his head from side to side, closing his mouth and clenching his jaws so tightly, “and I'm like a fool coming back after one snap of your fingers,” Buck is crying and Eddie knows he is the reason for every tear from blue eyes, knows he's the reason Buck is so hurt, but he's ready to beg for forgiveness every day, he's ready to never stop trying, he's ready to always admit when he hurt people he loves, even if he did it unintentional. 

“Don't start it if you’ll get scared and break up with me again. I will stay only if you promise to never do it again. Scream at me, cry with me, cry alone, have your time to collect your thoughts and come back to me, but-but don't break up with me, promise me. Promise me, Eds, or I will go away and never get back. Not for loving you at least. I’m tired of holding on to people who don't need it. Who doesn’t ready to work with me to keep us alive, to keep magic when we need fight for it,” Buck looks at him with tears streaming down his face but with face impression showing he is determined to go away if Eddie is not going to be on one page right now, ready to protect his heart and fight for himself. 

And Eddie loves him for finally putting himself first, even above Eddie’s feelings. “I promise, Evan. I promise I'm done running from my feelings. I'm done running from problems. But most importantly I'm done running from happiness. I'm ready to admire all the magic around us when it’s so easy and work for it and our love when we should if it's with you,” Eddie joins their foreheads. “I want to love you when I can, to never feel how I felt after lightning. Tomorrow isn't promised to anyone, and I want to love you today and tomorrow and all next days like the day before and only more, not just hope for the possible tomorrow to start. I want to start today,”

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[soaringthroughthegalaxy]

Prompt list

Need inspo for the ask box? Here are some generic, fluffy, romantic, angsty, and Batch-specific prompts.

Prompts already written will be crossed out and hyperlinked to the fics for them.

Angst/Emotional:

“All I’ve ever wanted is for you to see me.”

“When did you stop loving me?”

“Just please open your eyes.”

“Wake up. You have to wake up. Please. For me.”

“Just please, don’t leave me.”

“When was the last time you said you loved me, and meant it?”

“Why does everyone always leave?”

“It hurts so much. Why does it hurt so much? I just want it to stop.”

“Forget it. Just like you forget everything else.”

“I never ask for help because I’m not sure I know how.”

“It’s alright to feel broken every once and a while. And it’s alright to take time to heal.”

“I feel like I’m falling apart.”

“What is it about me that isn’t good enough?”

“I wish I was brave.”

"Don't you see that I'm hurting?"

“You almost died and you’re making jokes?”

“I’m scared.”

“I don’t need you to tell me who I am!”

“I thought I’d never see you again.”

“I can’t lose you.” “You already did.”

“Don’t look at me like that.” “Like what?” “Like you still love me.”

“Will you even miss me at all?”

“I would give up everything for the chance to hear your laugh again. To see you smile. To see you happy.”

“If I never see you again, just know that I love you so, so much.”

“All I wanted was a happy ending.”

“You don’t have to hide your tears from me.”

“I’m not leaving you here.”

“You left without saying goodbye.”

“Being strong doesn’t mean never asking for help or admitting you’re in pain.”

“No matter what they made you think, you are worth saving. You are worth loving.”

“You said you wouldn’t leave, and then you did.”

“I’m a fool for believing you meant what you said.”

“For what it’s worth, I never gave up on you.”

“You are not your past.”

“Whatever you do, do not close your eyes.”

“I know you’re tired, but you have to stay awake.”

“I’m just tired of being tired.”

“I always said I’d die for you.” “I didn’t think you meant literally.”

“I almost lost you.”

Fluff/Romantic:

“I just can’t see myself ever living without you.”

“If there was ever anybody meant for me, it’s you.”

“The closest thing to love at first sight I’ve ever experienced happened when I first laid eyes on you.”

“I didn’t believe in soulmates until I met you.”

“Did you just tell the person I was going to go out with that we’re dating?”

“You owe me a kiss.”

“I’d feel much better if you’d let me walk you home.”

“If I asked you to stay, would you?”

“You make me feel alive. For the first time ever, I feel like I can breathe.”

“I’ve never felt this way before, and truthfully it scares me. But the idea of never trying scares me even more.”

“I promised to love you forever, and that is a promise I intend to keep.”

“Is that my shirt?”

“You give me a reason to be better, to do better.”

"All I’ve ever wanted was a place to belong. Somewhere I could call home. And you gave me that. Because you are my home.”

“They don’t compare to you. No one does.”

“No matter how much time we’ve spent apart, I never stopped loving you.”

“I could see the worst parts of you and still think you are the most beautiful person I’ve met.”

“I think I’m in love with you.”

“You brought me breakfast?” “Well you said you always forget to eat before you go to work, so I thought I’d make sure you ate something.”

“Everything feels right when you are with me.”

“I don’t care what others say, I want to be with you and that’s all that matters to me.”

“You bought me flowers?” “Yeah, well I noticed you’d seemed kind of down, so I wanted to cheer you up.”

“I wasn’t sure what love really felt like until I met you.”

“You owe me.” “I owe you 20 credits, not a day of pretending to be your boyfriend to get your parents off your back.”

“Maybe if you stopped staring at them and actually talked to them, you might have a chance.”

“You said you wouldn’t fall in love with me.” “I lied.”

“I want you. All of you, and not just half-heartedly, but wholly. And maybe that’s selfish, but I don’t care.”

“Can you stay? Just for tonight, please. I don’t want to be alone with my thoughts.” “'l’ll stay for as long as you need.”

“You are my family.”

“We’ve been by each other’s sides for years; you think I’m going to leave now?”

“Take my jacket, I don’t want you catching a cold.”

“I’d wait a thousand lifetimes for you, because you are worth waiting for. So, when you are ready. I’ll be right here.”

“I will never stop fighting for you. I will never stop protecting you.”

“I can’t stop thinking about you. No matter how hard I try, you’re always on my mind.”

“Don’t go on that date.” “Why?” “You know why.” “Say it.”

“I can’t remember the last time I laughed like this.”

“How long have you had this planned?” “Since the moment I fell in love with you.”

“You came all the way here for me?”

“Why are you staring at me?” “Because I think you’re beautiful.”

“I think I’m falling in love with you.” “I think I’m okay with that.”

“What are you doing here?” “I wanted to see if you were okay.”

“The world gets a little brighter when you’re around.”

"I can't stop thinking of you. You're always on my mind."

"My life is empty without you."

"I can't risk losing you again."

“Wait a minute. Are you jealous?”

“I’ve seen how you look at me when you think I don’t notice.”

“I think I’m in love with you, and I’m terrified.”

“You fainted…straight into my arms. You know if you wanted my attention, you didn’t have to go to such extremes.”

“You did all of this for me?”

“Can I hold your hand?”

"Say you want me, and I'm yours."

“Maker, I love you.”

“You’re adorable.”

“Do you want me to stay?”

“I love seeing you smile.”

“I’ve been thinking about you all day.”

“Don’t go on that date.” “Why?” “You know why.” “Say it.”

“Here, let me help you.”

“I told you I’d come home to you.”

“I’ll keep you safe.”

“I’ll spend a thousand lifetimes coming back to you.”

“Would you just shut up and kiss me already?”

“Do you know how beautiful you are? It’s truly distracting.”

Miscellaneous:

“I don’t think I’ve ever seen anyone screw something up that fast before.”

“I’ve never told you that before.”

“You come here often?” “Well, I work here. So, I think I’d have to say ‘yes’.”

“At least it couldn’t get any worse.” “I really wish you hadn’t said that.”

“I’m too sober for this.” “You don’t even drink.” “Maybe I should start.”

“You couldn’t handle me even if I came with instructions.”

“Wake me up when it’s over.”

“Next problem… we might die.”

“I think… everyone deserves a chance to prove themselves.”

“…Did you just sniff me?”

“Of course I noticed, I notice everything about you.”

“You can’t get rid of me that easily.”

“You don’t actually have to like me; you just need to pretend you do.”

“I don’t think I’m alone in here.”

“You’re bleeding.” “No shit.”

“In case you haven’t heard, there is a bounty on your head.” “Is that why you’re here? To kill me and take the bounty?” “No. I’m here to protect you.”

“For the most part, I am, in fact, an idiot. But I fully admit to it, which should count for something.”

“Stop grumbling and just tell me where the medkit is.”

“Close your eyes and hold out your hand.”

“I hate that I let you convince me to do this.”

“Where are we going?” “It’s a surprise.” “I hope the surprise involves food.”

“I am nothing if not consistent.” “Yeah, a consistent pain in my ass.”

“What happened?” “Do you want the long version or the short version?” “Uh, short?” “I made a mistake.” “Okay, long version.” “I made a very very big mistake.”

“Do you take constructive criticism?” “Not without crying.”

“Are we all on the same page?” “Yes. Just of different books.”

“Why did you break up with them?” My loth-cat didn’t like them, and that is never a good sign.“

“What happened to your hand?” “I hit my hand on something.” “On what?” “Your ex’s face.”

“I’ve been thinking-” “Uh-oh”

“If I survive this, I’m killing you.”

"That was such a dumb idea."

"Do you have a better plan?"

"A little help would be great."

"I know what I'm doing."

"If you interrupt me one more time - so help me god."

“Looks like we’ll be trapped for a while…”

“You’re not as funny as you think you are.”

“I’m just getting comfy.”

“You’re such a nerd.”

“You were put in this galaxy to give me a headache.”

“Sleep is for the weak.”

“In my defense, I really wanted to.”

“I don’t hate you.”

“Don’t call me that.”

“Did I stutter?”

“There is no way this much stupid can fit inside one person.”

“Uh, am I interrupting?”

“Stop being an asshole.”

Bad Batch Asks

If you had to marry a Batch member, but it couldn’t be your main crush, who would it be?

Which Batcher would you most want to be trapped in an elevator with?

Which Batcher would you want to be your BFF (not SO)?

Which Batcher do you think would be cutest with a pet?

Which Batcher would you take camping with you?

Which Batcher would you want to be rivals with?

Which Batcher would you have taken with you to your High School Prom?

Which Batcher are you getting to help you when you need to fake your death?

Which Batcher is going to become a hermit in the woods with you?

Which Batcher are you having a sleepover with? (painting nails, gossiping, watching movies, the whole shebang)

Which Batcher would you have crushed on in high school? (Not who you’re crushing on now unless you genuinely believe your tastes in men are the same)

When you first entered the fandom, who did you think was gonna be your main man? (and were you correct?)

If you had to pick one Batcher who most needs to be given a bouquet of flowers (not who you most want to give it to), who would it be?

Gush about your favorite Batcher

Which Batcher is most likely to fall up the stairs?

Which Batcher is the first to fall asleep at a sleepover?

Which Batcher has the ‘weirdest’ taste in music?

Which Batcher is the best cook?

Which Batcher do you think had the most awkward first kiss?

Which Batcher(s) know how to braid hair, and how did they learn?

Which Batcher is the prettiest? (I want DETAILS!)

Tell me a random headcanon you have about Hunter

Tell me a random headcanon you have about Echo

Tell me a random headcanon you have about Tech

Tell me a random headcanon you have about Wrecker

Tell me a random headcanon you have about Crosshair

Tell me a random headcanon you have about Omega

What is your favourite episode?

What is your least favourite episode?

Tell me your number one conspiracy theory about how Tech survived the fall

What are you using to beat up Nolan?

What is your favourite ‘inside joke’ from the fandom?

Shoutout your favourite fic writers in the fandom

What colour do you associate with each Batcher?

Who is your least favourite Batcher?

FMK, dealers choice

Tell me an angsty headcanon you have about Hunter

Tell me an angsty headcanon you have about Echo

Tell me an angsty headcanon you have about Tech

Tell me an angsty headcanon you have about Wrecker

Tell me an angsty headcanon you have about Crosshair

Tell me an angsty headcanon you have about Omega

What is the worst possible outcome you think is plausible for Season 3?

How do you hope the series will end (as basic or as detailed as you want)

Scenario prompts

For prompts with Characters A and B; you can choose which is reader and which is your clone of choice

Huddled together to keep warm.

Fall asleep in same bed, on opposite sides, wake up in each other’s arms.

Character A comes to talk to Character B, pretending to be B’s s/o when a stranger is making B uncomfortable. Leads to them asking B out on an actual date.

Running from dangerous person or monster.

Hunting down dangerous person or monster.

Separated forcefully or for reasons you can’t control, run into each other again years later accidentally.

Get locked in somewhere together.

Continuously running into one another for days after having a meet cute.

Hands brush as you stand next to each other, you think it’s on accident until their hands gentle wrap around yours.

Shielding the other with their body to save/protect them.

Caught staring too many times for it to be a coincidence.

Size difference hug; they engulf you.

You refuse to leave so they pick you up and throw you over their shoulder.

Character A can tell Character B is getting nervous in a big crowd, so A slips their hand into theirs to help them calm down.

The panic between thinking you lost them and the relief of seeing they are okay.

Character A teaching B to ice skate/roller skate.

B taking care of A when they are sick.

Holding hands underneath the table.

Bandaging the other and then kissing the injury gently.

A surprises B with a picnic.

B sitting/standing behind A and leaning into them as they show/teach them how to do something.

As you begin to fall asleep, you feel a gentle kiss pressed to your temple and a blanket draped over you.

B comforting A as they wake up from a nightmare.

A realizing that they have feelings for B when they see them with someone else.

B bringing A hand-picked flowers.

Cliff/floor breaks out beneath A and as they fall B manages to grab their hand at the last second.

A leaves baked goods for B anonymously, but B already knows that it’s A.

B surprises A with a cake for their birthday even though A forgot what day it was/or didn’t know B knew it was their birthday.

Sharing an umbrella.

Walking together and it starts to rain, so they grab your hand, and you start running until you can find somewhere to escape getting wet.

A game of 20 questions that ends with “Can I kiss you?”

A hears that B got hurt and rushes over in a panic to see if they are okay.

A falling asleep while sitting next to B, as there head falls onto B’s shoulder, B stays as still as they can, afraid to wake A.

Cloud-gazing or star-gazing together, as you lie next to each other, their hand slips into yours.

B get’s so nervous about their dinner date with A that they accidentally make enough food to feed ten people.

A hand written love lover left at your doorstep.

B dancing to music as their cooking or cleaning, and as they spin around A suddenly appears, grabbing onto B and continuing to dance with them.

A grabs B’s hand instinctively out of surprise or fear, and continues to hold it.

A finding a hand-sketched photo of them in B’s notebook.

B hearing A sing for the first time (due to karaoke, or walking in on them, etc.) and being surprised at how good they sound.

B helping A step down from a high place by taking their hand, and then not letting go as they continue to walk.

Comparing hand sizes, then linking fingers together.

Long distance relationship; receiving a good morning message every morning, until one day you don’t. You are worried, but then there is a knock at your door.

B is sunshine, rainbows and kindness. A is night, rain-clouds and anger. But when A meets B, they bask in the sunshine and never want to leave.

A asking B on a date until they say yes.

B asking A to attend a wedding with them, to get out of going with someone their parents tried to set them up with.

[sixeyesgojo]

At some point I just want to be yelled at by Kyrgios for not taking care of myself, or remind me when I forget something. I’m tired, stressed, and lonely but I can't afford to feel that when there's so much to do.

Imagine having a doll house somewhere in your bedroom, preferably near your bed that you designed for Kyrgios and he appreciates hates it. And although you know that he hates, you always take time to organize the things in it, sometimes adding some decorations and things here and there. During the night, when your asleep, rather than staying in whatever places he goes to when he disappears, he stays at the dollhouse and roam around and see what you got him today. And please not you trying to brush his hair and tie it into different hairstyles but he's so cute and tiny ✨

Gosh Tinkerbell much?

I hear you loud and clearly!! As a treat for coming to visit me so frequently, here are some Kyrgios hcs just for you ♥

Kyrgios who scolds you when you don't work hard and yet scolds you when he notices that you're overworking yourself. Whereas he is that type of pygmy that disapproves of slacking off, he is very well aware that a human body can only do so much - physically, mentally, spiritually.

Kyrgios who yells at you and maybe even insults you when you don't take care of yourself because "it's no use when you become even weaker". "You fool, what will you do when you're sick? You'll be useless if you can't do anything."

Kyrgios who looks at you weirdly and with something akin to contempt when you show him the Barbie dollhouse you got for him. He claims that he could just destroy it with a flick of his finger. And it unpleasantly reeks of "otherworldly material".

Kyrgios who doesn't say 'sorry' or 'thank you' when he sees your face fall at his remarks towards the dollhouse, but instead, he turns around and tells you not to spend money on useless things anymore. He claims he doesn't need anything and the money is better used when you spend it on things you enjoy.

Kyrgios who exits through your window and leaves you alone with your thoughts and feelings. For a moment, you might think that he's cold or even cruel but that thought soon perishes.

Kyrgios who is just far away enough to not be seen by you, but still close enough.

Kyrgios who plays the violin from a distance. You don't know who plays this lovely sound at night, but you know that every night, without fail, you get to hear this heavenly melody. It soothes you and takes away some of the everyday stress, worries and gives you just a little energy boost for the next day to come. You don't know who plays it but you don't need to.

Kyrgios who plays for as long as you need to fall asleep. And when he's sure you're fast asleep, he floats through your window again.

Kyrgios who looks at you, to make sure you don't have any unpleasant dreams.

Kyrgios who quietly mutters a "Good night" under his breath, hides his small violin in his secret spot again and then returns to the dollhouse to see if you got him anything new, if you re-arranged furniture and so on. He tuts when he sees that one of his carefully arranged vases has fallen over. Kyrgios takes it and puts it back to its rightful place. He even fixes the position of the plastic flower that you put into it. He carefully removes the dust from the dollhouse and gets ready to lie in bed.

Kyrgios who rests on his little dollbed. But worry not, he will be there if any danger dares to threaten you.

Kyrgios who wakes up earlier to wake you. "You'll be late if you don't wake up now."

Kyrgios who lightly hits you with a fan when you forget something. He points at the object with his fan and says, "You forgot something."

Kyrgios who waits patiently on his dollbed for you to come home from school/work. He doesn't have anything to do. Sometimes, he follows you to make sure no harm will come to you. And he pretends that he never did that.

[lale-txt]

💌 birthday letters to Rayleigh (gn!reader, no pronouns)

a/n: today's the day!! i've been telling myself that i would just write something small for his birthday but who am i fooling anymore at this point lmao. blorbo brain taking over; he's my favorite of them all. it's soft and fluff, it's a bit suggestive (not full on smut), it's a bit heart-wrenching. it's everything, he's everything. the happiest birthday to the dark king who i'm completely normal about <3

word count: 2.3k

❦ 35

Rayleigh wakes up with his head drumming. Next to him a naked Roger, all limbs stretched out like a starfish, the blanket only covering the bare minimum (that was actually not so mini). Must have been a wild night in that bar? He tries to collect his memories, but the booze from last night was still making things very foggy. He rubs his temples and reaches for his glasses on the nightstand, neatly folded next to a glass of water and some pain killers. He can’t remember that he put this up there. Geez, he was getting old. Only when he puts on his glasses does he see the little note on the back of a wrinkly receipt…

“Good morning, stranger. Had to run back to the bar to clean up. You pirates sure know how to party, huh? Anyway, thanks for the fun night and the love bruises. And the bite mark on my ass. Wish I could have kissed you a little more. Somehow your lips on mine felt a lot like coming home… is that a weird thing to say? Oh well. My heart feels very full. Oh, and happy birthday again! 35, such a fun age, started with a bang (literally). PS: Your captain didn’t join the fun, only stripped and crawled in your bed, mumbled something about how he always does that… I had a feeling we both hoped he would join us, though? Left my panties in the pocket of your jacket, maybe you want to return them tonight x”

❦ 36

Soft linen sheets, early dawn. The sea is quiet today, the Oro Jackson floating on the gentle waves towards the next adventure, their jolly roger blowing proudly in the wind. In the ship’s kitchen the birthday cake preparations for the first mate are in its final stages. After having to start all over again because a certain captain accidentally sat on the first one, the second one turned out even more grandiose than before. It all went unnoticed by Rayleigh who fell into a deep booze induced slumber early…

“My birthday king, you’re sleeping so peacefully next to me, it makes it hard not to cover your pretty face in kisses, but I fear I might wake you up from it. It feels kinda nostalgic, writing you a note like that even though it’s only been a year since that fateful night. I asked you to return my panties and you just stole me away from that lousy bar, making me join the crew on the spot… And boy, how happy I’ve been ever since that day. There are no words. My heart has been the fullest ever since you touched it. Oh, how I love you. Happy birthday, my love, my everything. x PS: I’m gonna go look for Roger, he seemed pouty that he had to share the tradition of a ‘birthday handjob’ now…” 

❦ 44

Rayleigh wakes up and stretches his tired bones. Why did he have to learn it the hard way that the older you get, the more your body just starts aching? He ruffles his golden hair, reaching for the empty sides of his bed. When did it become a tradition that his lovers let him wake up alone on his birthday? He wondered what they were up to today, they sure managed to surprise him every year with new mischief… He could hear muffled laughter from outside his cabin door, hushed voices speaking to each other, the overly-excited laughter of children bouncing from every wall. Someone hisses the names of the ship’s apprentices Shanks and Buggy, followed by more giggles when a folded envelope is pushed underneath the door. Then, the sound of several footsteps running down the hallway until their laughter is only a faint echo. Rayleigh smiles softly and gets up, unfolding the letter that had his name sprawled across in a wonky handwriting (he couldn’t tell if it was from the kids or Roger).

“Your birthday treasure hunt starts now! Put some pants on and come out to play, old man! Here’s your first hint: (a wobbly drawing of a man with a glorious mustache holding up a mushed birthday cake, some suspicious butt-shaped prints on it, someone drew lots of hearts next to him)  PS: HBD WE LOVE YOU PPS: the kids (and Roger) are out of control, not saying that one of them caught fire earlier but… just come save me now my birthday king, I LOVE YOU xx”

❦ 52

A small handwritten note lies on Rayleigh’s nightstand, next to his glasses and a vase holding a big bouquet of flowers. Their scent makes him wonder for a second if he’s lying in the grass of a wild meadow, with the morning sun kissing him as if he was a gift from heaven. His heart felt the fullest it had ever been; he just knew that big things were about to happen soon. But for now he just had another birthday to celebrate with the people he loved the most…

“Good morning, Love! Find us outside, hope you’re in the mood for cake and lots of sloppy kisses. Roger and Oden got sentimental and drank your birthday booze while you were still asleep… hurry, I miss you and I can’t wait to plaster your handsome face in lots of kisses. Happy, happy birthday. You are the love of my life. xx”

❦ 54

“Happy birthday, Ray.  May this day be filled with nothing but sweet memories for you. Am I part of them, too? I’m writing these lines and can’t help but wonder where you are right now. It still feels surreal that the Roger Pirates were disbanded. I know Roger was setting us free, but still… It's been a year and I feel so lost often. I miss my family. I miss you. I don’t know where I belong and dream every day about the Oro Jackson. If only we could set sail all together one last time. It’s strange, right? How things just change and there’s nothing you can do about it? It feels like time is running through my fingers and I just cling to the past, leaving claw marks all over it. This might be the most depressing birthday message one has ever received, huh? I’m so sorry.  I think of you often and with often I mean all the time. I miss your kisses. I miss your hand in mine. With love, forever yours. xx”

❦ 55

“Rayleigh, can I wish you a happy birthday or is that too much to ask for? Have you known happiness ever since he’s been gone? Can you stare at the sea without shedding a tear, thinking about his smile? Because I can’t. Sometimes I still hear his laugh, like a faint echo from another life. When I close my eyes, I can still feel his hand on my shoulder; as if my whole body was made of memory foam, desperately trying to keep him alive. I couldn’t watch it (I know you couldn’t either) but I heard that he was smiling. I wouldn’t have expected anything else from our captain. From our lover. Are we still lovers? Because my heart still yearns for you, it’s calling out your name over and over again. I know your heart is bleeding but do you think there’s still some space for me in there? I haven’t known peace ever since you let me go. My home was never on the ship, it was right in your arms. Sending you a hundred kisses, with love. xx”

❦ 64

“My Love, what is life like on Sabaody for you? Are you having a blast for your birthday? I really wish I could be with you today, but you know, the sea was calling out my name. But be sure that I’ll make up for it another time, I still have so many kisses for you that haven’t touched your lips yet.  I met Shanks a while ago, he told me that you looked as handsome as ever (those weren’t his exact words, but I saw you before my eyes vividly). Seeing him all grown up made me feel so old, haha! I think in my heart he and Buggy will always be the little kids they once were, falling asleep on top of us after a long day of pirate practice. Those were the times, huh? It was quite a shock to see Shanks’ missing arm though, wasn’t it? He told me the same story as you, about this boy in the East Blue who said exactly the same words as Roger. I’m still getting goosebumps when I think about it. You must be dying to meet him, right? Because wow, SAME. The world is about to change, I can feel it… Running out of space, so happy birthday again, my darling! I love you so, so much. Forever yours, x PS: Give Shakky some kisses from me too, please! I can’t wait to see you both again very soon.”

❦ 76

A small island in the calm belt, Rusukaina, not far from Amazon Lily. Population: 2, a rubber boy and his mentor. On an island that changes its season almost weekly, it’s a warm spring day. The post seagull drops its letter into the lap of the old man, the familiar handwriting on the envelope putting a warm smile on his face. He was wondering when he’d get a life sign again… He takes a breath to let his fingers run over the paper, thinking about the person who carefully put so much love between those lines; a ritual as steady as the tides.

“Ray, my love. I don’t know where to start. Maybe with a happy birthday and that I love you always? Can’t believe I’ve been wishing you that for more than 40 years now. Who would have known back then in that shabby bar that we would grow old together, in our own way? I’ve overheard a group of young people gushing over your bounty poster recently, saying that you’re quite the silver fox! They didn’t use the word silver fox but a four letter word and it’s very fitting. Can you guess it? Now. Roger’s son? I think my heart shattered all over again. For Edward too… I’m on my way to their funeral right now and I can’t help and wonder if Roger is watching? That… fucker (affectionate). I don’t even have the right words. I know he had all his reasons to trust old man Garp with his child, but my head has been spinning ever since I’ve heard the news. I felt so helpless and mad and… guilty, thinking we should have been the ones to raise him. Fuck. He looked just like Roger when he was younger. It should have been us; we would have loved him so, so much. You saw that pain in his eyes too, didn’t you? I think it pierced right through my heart. I’m glad he found a home with Edward though. That must have been son number 1600 for him, right? It feels like yesterday when we met him and his crew on that island. He was one of the greatest. Still standing, even in death… Now, my vision is getting blurry. Roger’s last words to us are still echoing in my head and maybe that’s one of the greatest burdens the living have to carry; the pain of still being here, despite all, of breathing through shattered glass, trying not to pity the dead. Let’s make the best out of the life we still have, shall we? I love you for as long we still have and longer, in the next life also and in the one after that. How lucky, to love and be loved. I’ll write to you again soon. Awaiting  your letters and your kisses, loving you always. xx PS: So, I’ve heard you put that boy Shanks told us about under your wings… I can’t wait to meet him myself. I’ve been watching his journey with so much joy.”

❦ today

“Rayleigh, how many letters have I written to you by now for your birthday? Countless. And yet none could have fully said how deep my love runs for you and I don’t think this one will either. Guess I have to continue writing to you until my last breath, because that’s for sure how long I will love you. I just know you’re smiling while reading that. You always were so calm and collected on the outside but such a romantic at heart. Remember when you proposed to me and just bawled your eyes out as soon as you got on your knees? Roger had to dry your tears with the sleeves of his pink shirt and sat next to you cross-legged, rubbing your back until you calmed down, all while Gaban and the kids held my hands because you weren’t the only one sobbing. Actually, I think everyone was crying that night. It’s still one of my favorite memories. How we ate cake from the floor that night and we all made flower crowns together. I still have mine, dried and preserved for an eternity. Rayleigh, please find me again in the next life, just like you did in this one. I’ll recognize you from the way you kiss my eyelids and how you push those golden strands of hair behind your ear; I’ll recognize you by how you peel a peach and cut it into small slices because you know that’s how I like them the most and from how the way you set my heart on fire with your gaze alone. Cheers to a love that’s bigger than life and cheers to the man who I devote my heart to; who I will love forever and ever, until we aren’t no more. Happy, happy birthday, my darling. Forever yours. x”

[goosewriting]

500 subs prompt event! 🎉

gather round, my goslings, 'tis time 🦆🐤🐤🐤🐤🐤

under the cut you will find a prompt list, which i selected from here: writing prompt list by @make-me-imagine. it's pretty long, so take your time looking at them all lol as always, thank you so much for the support!<3

THE RULES:

PLEASE read my main rules which you'll find right here in my pinned post. while you're there, take a look at my masterlist to see what has already been requested, to avoid being too repetitive

only 1 turtle per request (Leo, Raph, Donnie or Mikey x reader)

these will drabbles, so around ~500 words each

only 1 or 2 requests per person!

remember: requests for these open on January 7th at 14:00 CET

Your request must include:

one turtle of choice

1 or 2 prompts from the list (as in the colour-coded numbers). please specify who is saying which!

specifics on the setting/situation you have in mind

Example of a request:

“purple 3 for Raph, pink 1 for reader, where reader got badly hurt in a fight”

this example would be a Raph x reader, with the prompt 3 from the angst list is said by Raph, and prompt 1 from the fluff list is said by reader.

if you have any questions, please ask!

any reqs that don't follow the rules will be ignored :)

the prompt list: (colours are only for visual reference)

Angst/Emotional:

“All I’ve ever wanted is for you to see me.”

“Just please open your eyes.”

“Wake up. You have to wake up. Please. For me.”

“Just please, don’t leave me.”

“Why does everyone always leave?”

“It hurts so much. Why does it hurt so much? I just want it to stop.”

“I never ask for help because I’m not sure I know how.”

“It’s alright to feel broken every once and a while. And it’s alright to take time to heal.”

“I feel like I’m falling apart.”

“What is it about me that isn’t good enough?”

“I wish I was brave.”

“What's the point in trying if only one of us is willing to?”

“You almost died and you’re making jokes?” (this one screams Leo lmao)

“I’m scared.”

“I don’t need you to tell me who I am!”

“I thought I’d never see you again.”

“Will you even miss me at all?”

‘“You weren’t there…why weren’t you there? I needed you! I needed you! And you weren’t there!”

“I would give up everything for the chance to hear your laugh again. To see you smile. To see you happy.“

“If I never see you again, just know that I love you so, so much.”

“All I wanted was a happy ending.”

"Whatever you do, don’t let go.”

“You don’t have to hide your tears from me.”

“What happened to their happily ever after?” “Not all love stories get a happily ever after, sometimes it’s just once upon a time.”

“I’m not leaving you here.”

“You left without saying goodbye.”

“For once in your life, do what you want! Be selfish!”

“Being strong doesn’t mean never asking for help or admitting you’re in pain.”

“Whatever you do, do not turn around.”

“No matter what they made you think, you are worth saving. You are worth loving.”

“You said you wouldn’t leave, and then you did.”

“I’m a fool for believing you meant what you said.”

“For what it’s worth, I never gave up on you.”

“You are not your past.”

“Don’t look at me like that.”

“Whatever you do, do not close your eyes.”

“I know you’re tired, but you have to stay awake.”

“I’ll come back for you, I promise.”

“You would risk letting all those people die for one person? Why?” “Because it’s not just one person…it’s you.”

“I’m just tired of being tired.”

“Whatever you do, do not make a sound.”

“I always said I’d die for you.” “I didn’t think you meant literally.”

Fluff/Romantic:

“I just can't see myself ever living without you.”

“If there was ever anybody meant for me, it’s you.”

“The closest thing to love at first sight I’ve ever experienced happened when I first laid eyes on you.”

“I didn’t believe in soulmates until I met you.”

“You owe me a kiss.”

“Go with me?” “Only if you hold my hand.”

“I’d feel much better if you’d let me walk you home.”

“If I asked you to stay, would you?”

“You make me feel alive. For the first time ever, I feel like I can breathe.”

“I’ve never felt this way before, and truthfully it scares me. But, the idea of never trying scares me even more.”

“You’re telling me you believe in love at first sight?” “I’m starting to.”

“I promised to love you forever, and that is a promise I intend to keep.”

“Is that my shirt?” “You mean our shirt?”

“You give me a reason to be better, to do better.”

"All I’ve ever wanted was a place to belong. Somewhere I could call home. And you gave me that. Because you are my home.”

“They don’t compare to you. Nobody does.”

“I thought I had the worst luck, until I met you.”

“No matter how much time we’ve spent apart, I never stopped loving you.”

“I could see the worst parts of you and still think you are the most beautiful person I’ve met.”

“I think I’m in love with you.”

“You brought me breakfast?” “Well you said you always forget to eat before you go to work, so I thought I’d make sure you ate something.”

“Everything feels right when you are with me.”

“I don’t care what others say, I want to be with you and that’s all that matters to me.”

“You bought me flowers?” “Yeah, well I noticed you’d seemed kinda down, so I wanted to cheer you up.”

“I’ll be damned if anyone makes you feel like you aren’t worthy of being loved.”

“I wasn’t sure what love really felt like until I met you.”

“I can braid your hair for you- I mean, only if you want.”

“Maybe if you stopped staring at them and actually talked to them, you might have a chance.”

“You said you wouldn’t fall in love with me.” “I lied.”

“I want you. All of you, and not just halfheartedly, but wholly. And maybe that’s selfish, but I don’t care.”

“Can you stay? Just for tonight, please. I don’t want to be alone with my thoughts.” “l’ll stay for as long as you need.”

You are my family.”

“We’ve been by each other’s sides for years, you think I’m gonna leave now?”

“Take my jacket, I don’t want you catching a cold.”

“I’d wait a thousand lifetimes for you, because you are worth waiting for. So when you are ready. I’ll be right here.”

“I will never stop fighting for you. I will never stop protecting you.”

“I can’t stop thinking about you. No matter how hard I try, you’re always on my mind”

“Don’t go on that date.” “Why?” “You know why.” “Say it.”

“Can I kiss you?”

“I don’t want you to die for me, I want you to live for me.”

“I can’t remember the last time I laughed like this.”

“How long have you had this planned?” “Since the moment I fell in love with you.”

“You came all the way here for me?”

“Why are you staring at me?” “Because I think you’re beautiful.”

“I think I’m falling in love with you.” “I think I’m okay with that.”

“What are you doing here?” “I wanted to see if you were okay.”

“The world gets a little brighter when you're around.”

“They say we won't last.” “Then let's prove them wrong.”

Miscellaneous:

“I don’t think I’ve ever seen anyone screw something up that fast before.”

“You come here often?” “Well, I work here. So I think I’d have to say ‘yes’.”

“At least it couldn’t get any worse.” “I really wish you hadn’t said that.”

“I’m too sober for this.” “You don’t even drink.” “Maybe I should start.”

“You couldn’t handle me even if I came with instructions.”

“Wake me up when it’s over.”

“Next problem… we might die.“

"Where have you been all my life?” “Hiding from you”

“I think… Everyone deserves a chance to prove themselves.”

"Abort mission, I repeat abort mission.” “What? Abort what mission? All you were doing was introducing yourself to your neighbor?” “Yeah, and they’re too attractive. I can never speak to them again.”

“At least I kept my promise.”

“I saw you looking at it last time we were in the store together, so I got it for you.”

“…Did you just sniff me?”

“I hope you find it someday.” “Find what?” “Whatever it is you’re looking for.”

“Of course I noticed, I notice everything about you.”

“You can’t get rid of me that easily.”

“Can someone explain to me, in not so many words, why they are here?”

“Why didn’t you answer your phone?” “Why didn’t you text?”

“You’re bleeding.” “No kidding.”

“For the most part, I am, in fact, an idiot. But I fully admit to it, which should count for something.”

“Close your eyes and hold out your hand.”

“I hate that I let you convince me to do this”

“We really need to stop meeting like this. "Then stop breaking into my house!”

“Why are you creeping outside my bedroom window?!” “I thought it would be romantic if I climbed up here.” “You gave me a heart-attack!”

“What are you doing here?” “I got locked out of my house.” “Again?”

“I can’t stand you!” “Then sit down.”

“Where are we going?” “It’s a surprise.” “I hope the surprise involves food.”

“You wont regret it!” “Already am.”

“I like being wanted.” “You should NOT like being wanted by the police!”

“I am nothing if not consistent.” “Yeah, a consistent pain in my butt.”

“What happened?” “Do you want the long version or the short version?” “Uh, short?” “I made a mistake.” “Okay, long version.” “I made a very very big mistake.”

“Do you take constructive criticism?” “Not without crying.”

“Are we all on the same page?” “Yes. Just of different books.”

"I’m sorry, were you talking to me? I tend to zone out whenever you start speaking.”

“What happened to your hand?” “I hit my hand on something.” “On what?” “Your ex’s face.”

“I heard that!” “You were supposed to!”

“I’ve been thinking-” “Uh-oh”

“If I survive this, I’m killing you.”

Scenario Prompts:

For prompts with Characters A and B; you can choose who is the reader/character in your request.

Fall asleep in the same bed, on opposite sides, wake up in each other's arms.

Character A comes to talk to Character B, pretending to be B’s s/o when a stranger is making B uncomfortable. Leads to them asking B out on an actual date.

Running from dangerous person or monster.

Hunting down dangerous person or monster.

Get locked in somewhere together.

Hands brush as you stand next to each other, you think it’s an accident until their hands gently wrap around yours.

Shielding the other with their body to save/protect them.

Caught staring too many times for it to be a coincidence.

Size difference hug; they engulf you.

You refuse to leave so they pick you up and throw you over their shoulder.

Character A can tell Character B is getting nervous in a big crowd, so A slips their hand into theirs to help them calm down.

B taking care of A when they are sick.

Holding hands underneath the table.

Bandaging the other and then kissing the injury gently.

Getting stuck at the top of the Ferris Wheel.

B sitting/standing behind A and leaning into them as they show/teach them how to do something.

As you begin to fall asleep, you feel a gentle kiss pressed to your temple and a blanket draped over you.

B comforting A as they wake up from a nightmare.

A realizing that they have feelings for B when they see them with someone else.

Cliff/floor breaks out beneath A and as they fall B manages to grab their hand at the last second.

Walking together and it starts to rain, so they grab your hand and you start running until you can find somewhere to escape getting wet.

There’s a big storm going on outside while A is at B’s house, so B insists they sleep over.

A falling asleep while sitting next to B, as their head falls onto B’s shoulder, B stays as still as they can, afraid to wake A.

Cloudgazing or Stargazing together, as you lie next to each other, their hand slips into yours.

A grabs B’s hand instinctively out of surprise or fear, and continues to hold it.

A bringing B groceries because they knew they forgot to buy themselves food again.

B is sad because they accidentally threw something important away. A shows up later with said thing, smelling like trash.

A finding a hand-sketched photo of them on B’s desk.

B helping A step down from a high place by taking their hand, and then not letting go as they continue to walk.

Comparing hand sizes, then linking fingers together.

[lindsaywesker]

Good morning! I hope you slept well and feel rested? Currently sitting at my desk, in my study, attired only in my blue towelling robe, enjoying my first cuppa of the day.

Yesterday morning, I woke up just after 6.00. I had turned the alarm OFF and hoped for a lie-in. No such chance! My body had other ideas. I came downstairs and posted my status on Facebook (and copied it to Instagram and Tumblr, as I normally do) and then I suddenly felt tired. I went into the front room and opened the curtains. It was still dark outside. There was frost on all the cars. I sat down in my favourite armchair, pulled up the footstool to support my legs and covered myself in a blanket. The next thing I knew, it was 8.10. It was light outside but there was still frost on all the cars.

As you know, I always obey my body. I needed a little more sleep, so I closed my eyes. I’d no idea I would wake up two hours later. I am going to grab every opportunity to sleep because, when February begins, I will be working a 40-hour week, not including my radio show and gigs. Plus, I am son, husband, father, grandfather, brother, cousin etc., so I have family responsibilities too. I would estimate 80% of the DJs in the UK can relate to this schedule. However, I’m not a young man anymore. I can’t live on three hours sleep! Remember the days when we could? We thought we were superhuman, didn’t we? We were young. Our lives had so much promise.

I was speaking to a mate the other day. We went to Harrow College Of Further Education (in Hatch End) together. He’s known me 40-odd years. We’re the same age. He lost a grown-up son recently. As both my mum and mother-in-law know, burying a child is brutal on the emotions. In fact, two of The Trouble’s closest lost sons recently. They will never be the same. I was only calling up to find out how he was. He told me how remarkable I was and how much he admired me. He said, “Despite the disappointment of losing your job, you picked yourself up, reinvented yourself, and now you’re doing something new, something you love, and you’re good at it!” This is what real friends are for. They remind you who you are because they know who you are (and where you’ve come from.) I thanked him for the compliments. I said to him, “I only called up to find out how you were!” As we both said, “Goodbye,” he said, “Love you, Linds.” He’s never said that before. I told him I loved him too. And I do. He’s rock solid. 40-odd years? You couldn’t ask for a better friendship.

As you know, I’m almost at my favourite day of the week. Friday promises so much. ‘Promise’ is an amazing word, isn’t it? We are all seduced by promise. A relationship contains promise, a night out contains promise, a new job contains promise. We go into situations with optimism because they have promise. And then we have people that make a promise to us; sometimes they keep their promise, sometimes they break it. As Gregory Isaacs sang, “A promise is a comfort to a fool.” For me, Friday is exciting because the weekend promises so much: now work, The Mighty Josiah, Chinese food, my radio show and my gorgeous listeners, family time, and maybe three points? Friday makes today so much easier.

Have a throbbing and thrusting Thursday (with hopefully a few thrills through your thoroughfare?) I love you all.

[r-is-typing]

prompt list

r is typing…

i recently decided to add a list of prompts, hoping to draw in more requests, as well as new readers!

credit for the list can be found at this link here.

below you can find all of the prompts i am currently writing!

when requesting prompts, please name the character you’d like and the prompt number, or just the prompt quote.

ex: fluff 20 w/eddie, angst 5 with steve

Angst/Emotional:

“All I’ve ever wanted is for you to see me.”

“When did you stop loving me?”

“Just please open your eyes.”

“Wake up. You have to wake up. Please. For me.”

“Just please, don’t leave me.”

“When was the last time you said you loved me, and meant it?”

“Why does everyone always leave?”

“It hurts so much. Why does it hurt so much? I just want it to stop.”

“Forget it. Just like you forget everything else.”

“I never ask for help because I’m not sure I know how.”

“It’s alright to feel broken every once and a while. And it’s alright to take time to heal.”

“I feel like I’m falling apart.”

“What is it about me that isn’t good enough?”

“I wish I was brave.”

“Whats the point in trying if only one of us is willing to?”

“You almost died and you’re making jokes?”

“I’m scared.”

“I don’t need you to tell me who I am!”

“I don’t miss you. I miss us.”

“I thought I’d never see you again.”

“I can’t lose you.” “You already did.”

“Don’t look at me like that.” “Like what?” “Like you still love me.”

“Will you even miss me at all?”

“You weren’t there…why weren’t you there? I needed you! I needed you! And you weren’t there!”

“I would give up everything for the chance to hear your laugh again. To see you smile. To see you happy.“

“If I never see you again, just know that I love you so, so much.”

“All I wanted was a happy ending.”

"Whatever you do, don’t let go.”

“You don’t have to hide your tears from me.”

“What happened to their happily ever after?” “Not all love stories get a happily ever after, sometimes it’s just once upon a time.”

“You said we’d be together forever, but I guess forever really isn’t that long.”

“I’m not leaving you here.”

“You left without saying goodbye.”

“For once in your life, do what you want! Be selfish!”

“Being strong doesn’t mean never asking for help or admitting you’re in pain.”

“Whatever you do, do not turn around.”

“No matter what they made you think, you are worth saving. You are worth loving.”

“You said you wouldn’t leave, and then you did.”

“I’m a fool for believing you meant what you said.”

“For what it’s worth, I never gave up on you.”

“You are not your past.”

“Don’t look at me like that.”

“This is the third time you’ve broken a promise to me, I’m starting to think you are doing it on purpose.”

“Whatever you do, do not close your eyes.”

“I know you’re tired, but you have to stay awake.”

“I’ll come back for you, I promise.”

“You would risk letting all those people die for one person? Why?” “Because it’s not just one person…it’s you.”

“I’m just tired of being tired.”

“Whatever you do, do not make a sound.”

“I always said I’d die for you.” “I didn’t think you meant literally.”

Fluff/Romantic:

“I just cant see myself ever living without you.”

“If there was ever anybody meant for me, it’s you.”

“The closest thing to love at first sight I’ve ever experienced happened when I first laid eyes on you.”

“I didn’t believe in soulmates until I met you.”

“Did you just tell the person I was gonna go out with that we’re dating?”

“You owe me a kiss.”

“Go with me?” “Only if you hold my hand.”

“I’d feel much better if you’d let me walk you home.”

“If I asked you to stay, would you?”

“You make me feel alive. For the first time ever, I feel like I can breathe.”

“I’ve never felt this way before, and truthfully it scares me. But, the idea of never trying scares me even more.”

“You’re telling me you believe in love at first sight?” “I’m starting too.”

“I promised to love you forever, and that is a promise I intend to keep.”

“Is that my shirt?” “You mean our shirt?”

“You give me a reason to be better, to do better.”

"All I’ve ever wanted was a place to belong. Somewhere I could call home. And you gave me that. Because you are my home.”

“They don’t compare to you. No one does.”

“I thought I had the worst luck, until I met you.”

“No matter how much time we’ve spent apart, I never stopped loving you.”

“I could see the worst parts of you and still think you are the most beautiful person I’ve met.”

“I think I’m in love with you.”

“You brought me breakfast?” “Well you said you always forget to eat before you go to work, so I thought I’d make sure you ate something.”

“Everything feels right when you are with me.”

“I don’t care what others say, I want to be with you and that’s all that matters to me.”

“You bought me flowers?” “Yeah, well I noticed you’d seemed kinda down, so I wanted to cheer you up.”

“I’ll be damned if anyone makes you feel like you aren’t worthy of being loved.”

“I wasn’t sure what love really felt like until I met you.”

“You owe me.” “I owe you $20 not a day of pretending to be your boy/girl-friend to get your parents off you’re back.”

“I can braid your hair for you- I mean, only if you want.”

“Maybe if you stopped staring at them and actually talked to them, you might have a chance.”

“You said you wouldn’t fall in love with me.” “I lied.”

“I want you. All of you, and not just halfheartedly, but wholly. And maybe that’s selfish, but I don’t care.”

“Can you stay? Just for tonight, please. I don’t want to be alone with my thoughts.” “'l’ll stay for as long as you need.”

“You are my family.”

“We’ve been by each other’s sides for years, you think I’m gonna leave now?”

“Take my jacket, I don’t want you catching a cold.”

“I’d wait a thousand lifetimes for you, because you are worth waiting for. So when you are ready. I’ll be right here.”

“I will never stop fighting for you. I will never stop protecting you.”

“I can’t stop thinking about you. No matter how hard I try, you’re always on my mind”

“Don’t go on that date.” “Why?” “You know why.” “Say it.”

“Can I kiss you?”

“I don’t want you to die for me, I want you to live for me.”

“I can’t remember the last time I laughed like this.”

“How long have you had this planned?” “Since the moment I fell in love with you.”

“You came all the way here for me?”

“Why are you staring at me?” “Because I think you’re beautiful.”

“I think I’m falling in love with you.” “I think I’m okay with that.”

“What are you doing here?” “I wanted to see if you were okay.”

“The world gets a little brighter when your around.”

“They say we wont last.” “Then lets prove them wrong.”

Miscellaneous:

“I don’t think I’ve ever seen anyone screw something up that fast before.”

“I’ve never told you that before.”

“You come here often?” “Well, I work here. So I think I’d have to say ‘yes’.”

“At least it couldn’t get any worse.” “I really wish you hadn’t said that.”

“I’m too sober for this.” “You don’t even drink.” “Maybe I should start.”

“I’m telling you, I’m haunted.”

“You couldn’t handle me even if i came with instructions.”

“Wake me up when it’s over.”

“Next problem… we might die.“

"Where have you been all my life?” “Hiding from you”

“I think… everyone deserves a chance to prove themselves.”

“At least I kept my promise.”

“I saw you looking at it last time we were in the store together, so I got it for you.”

“…Did you just sniff me?”

“I hope you find it someday.” “Find what?” “Whatever it is you’re looking for.”

“Of course I noticed, I notice everything about you.”

“Are you alright?” “Yeah, why?” “You look mad.” “That’s just my face…”

“You can’t get rid of me that easily.”

“You don’t actually have to like me, you just need to pretend you do.”

“Can someone explain to me, in not so many words, why they are here?”

“I don’t think I’m alone in here.”

“You’re bleeding.” “No shit.”

“For the most part, I am, in fact, an idiot. But I fully admit to it, which should count for something.”

“Stop grumbling and just tell me where your medicine cabinet is.”

“Close your eyes and hold out your hand.”

“I hate that I let you convince me to do this.”

“We really need to stop meeting like this. "Then stop breaking into my house!”

“Why are you creeping outside my bedroom window?!” “I thought it would be romantic if I climbed up here.” “You gave me a heart-attack!”

“What are you doing here?” “I got locked out of my house.” “Again?”

“Run.”

“I can’t stand you!” “Then sit down.”

“Where are we going?” “It’s a surprise.” “I hope the surprise involves food.”

“You wont regret it!” “Already am.”

“I like being wanted.” “You should NOT like be wanted by the police!”

“I am nothing if not consistent.” “Yeah, a consistent pain in my ass.”

“What happened?” “Do you want the long version or the short version?” “Uh, short?” “I made a mistake.” “Okay, long version.” “I made a very very big mistake.”

“Do you take constructive criticism?” “Not without crying.”

“Are we all on the same page?” “Yes. Just of different books.”

“Why did you break up with them?” My dog didn’t like them, and that is never a good sign.“

"I’m sorry were you talking to me? I tend to zone out whenever you stark speaking.”

“What happened to your hand?” “I hit my hand on something.” “On what?” “Your ex’s face.”

“I heard that!” “You were supposed to!”

“I’ve been thinking-” “Uh-oh”

when requesting prompts, please name the character you’d like and the prompt number, or just the prompt quote.

thank you <3

r is signing off…

[mirrorballtales]

I guess I should talk about what happened earlier today.

Or yesterday I should say.

It’s 1:34 am.

I am a burden. No one can refute this. You’d lose the argument. I’ve been told I’m a burden. I’ve been told I’m too much. I’ve been told how unloveable I am. How unworthy I am of anyone ever caring. Every time I try to put myself together those pieces are embedded in me. There’s no etching it out. There’s no discarding it. It’s infiltrated every cell within me. It is almost biological - this burden I’ve become to people. They always, ALWAYS, get tired of me. They always leave. ALWAYS. They find all my scars and run. They can’t understand that I can’t let them in. I try. I try and then that voice, it gets so loud, it screams, it shatters glass and tells me not to let them in. They’ll hate everything they see inside. They’ll blame me. They’ll tell me this is on me. They’ll point the finger like they did all those years ago. They’ll tell me they hate this version of myself, so every version gets locked up. Hidden in a labyrinth of pain, the pain that is such an imposition.

The concert tickets I bought, I put up for sale today. I’m scared I’m not making it. I’m scared. I’m so scared. The lights seem to be turning off and I don’t know if they’ll be on for me to go. I can’t tell anyone because they’ll just tell me to fight but I’m so tired. I’m tired of fighting. I’m tired. I’m so tired of staying on guard. My mind is weary. They all get tired of me too. So what am I supposed to do? TELL ME! I’m begging for someone to tell me what I am supposed to do? Would it be so bad if I stopped breathing? Is this darkness fooling me? Is this voice inside of me wrong? Am I losing my fucking mind? Who do I ask to fight for me when I’m already done? It all hurts. Everything hurts.

Who do I scream at? Who do I pour out my anger to? No one has been crueler to me than me. Who do I shake and ask them to be angry with me? Who do I claw at and beg to take my hand and get me out of this? Who do I ask to reach me? Who do I ask to find me when I’m already gone?

I keep waiting for this to leave me. I’ve tried expelling it. Telling myself I survived but I’m a soldier returning with nothing but horror. So how can anyone reach me? How can anyone sit in the trenches with me when the last shot has been fired? Who would stay? When they know that I’m not strong enough to fight anymore. When they see I’m empty. Everything I touch turns sick with sadness. That’s who I am. How do I tell them I hate myself? I hate my reflection, it makes me physically ill? How do I tell anyone I look in the mirror and see every bruise, every curse, every scar, every mark. I see myself battered. I don’t even recognize myself anymore. I hate my body so much. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it! Who do I take from when I have nothing to give? Who will burn it all down for me? Who will wake me up when I don’t want to?

I fall before my walls do. There’s a storm inside me and I can’t escape it. How do I tell anyone I’m scared? I’m scared I won’t make it. I’m scared one night I’ll sink further into a place I can’t come back from. I’m begging for time but the clock is broken. It’s been years of waiting for it to fade but in the wake of the aftermath it’s me who is lost in the haze.

Tell me, why did no one look after me? Is it because I could never give them peace? Is it because there is something fundamentally wrong with me? Is it because if you look too closely, if you look me in the eyes you’d understand what is wrong? You’d see the color of my soul? The ugliest of them all. You would see that there’s more without me here.

Do I keep fighting? Do I let it change everything in me? I’m holding on. I’m damaged at best like you’ve already figured out. I’m sorry for existing. I’m sorry for breathing. I’m sorry for crying. I’m sorry for being guarded. I’m sorry for being an open book. I’m sorry for being angry. I’m sorry for being sick with sadness. I’m sorry for falling apart. I’m sorry for me. I’m sorry. I’m just sorry. I’m sorry. I’m scared but I’m sorry. I’m trying to hold on. And I’m sorry for that too.

I don’t want to write anymore.

[loucipherrrrr]

Talk to ya later

but probably not.

Tbh i’m tired, fed up, bored, annoyed, beat down, exhausted. Tired of checking up on you. tired of asking how you are. tired of begging to hang out. tired of you not making time to do things with me. tired of you flaking.

NO: I have been talking about going together since november maybe even october. every month you’ve pushed it back. one month we were supposed to go and the week of you tell me your friend is coming too… “she always comes anyway” like i was supposed to know she was coming this time like she has a permanent spot when you go back home. how are 2 large dogs and 3 adults supposed to fit in your lil honda? why didn’t you think about this before i took those days off. why didn’t you say she was coming to begin with? yeah she’s Always going with you, so i thought you’d tell her not to come this time bc i Never go with you. wtf. Then january comes around i’m asking ab going again and you say you’re going for madi gras…???!!!! in february the weekend before my birthday like I don’t have plans. bitch come on!!! you got into a accident so you have no car. this literally reminds me of louis. LOL!!!!!! I would have to take my car so we’d be taking 2 cars I might as well go alone. why sit here and say let’s schedule something so we can just do things with the dogs. i think we’re actually scheduling something looking for days i can take off so we can actually do it and you FLAKE every time.

R/L/L: I’ve dropped people over flaking. Why you’re so dif idk. You flake all the time. we’d make plans to watch movies together and instead you’d be sleep. you’d rather pick up a bottle than stay up sober. “i’m so tired, i just need a nap. why didn’t you wake me?!you can still come but i’ll be sleep.” Every time i think you’ll actually wake up ON YOUR OWN to make time to WANT to hang with me. but instead i’m begging you to hang. IM always coming to you. When you did have a car you rarely came here. yes theirs stairs and blah blah bs but you work 5 minutes up the road but i’d always be meeting you at your house? I’m so tired of doing things for fuckers that wouldn’t do the same for me.

N: I’ve watched your child multiple times for you while you’ve gone to wherever. i’ve asked you to watch stella once. i never go anywhere as is but if i were to “need a break” i’d still have to deal with mine bc you’re normally “going through it” too. like it’s never equal? “i’m getting another job can you watch her until i get my life together?” i say sure bc my child needs a play fucker but what if i’m tired of mines but you’re going through it too? like wtf.

Tired of me asking you if you’re good. asking if you’re alive. asking if you’re okay. asking about you. asking this that and the third without you asking me for shit. yeah i can’t keep my mouth shut and i’m just rambling half the time anyway. but when i’m not you’re silent… no are you okay without me saying i’m not. no are you goods from you.

You always got company. always doing some shit then complaining about it later. Complaining about having people at your house till 4am then saying you didn’t get any sleep and also getting drunk after you said you’re done drinking. “this is my last night out” Everytime you go out. Lmao i just be wanting to be included but for that to happen i have to ask instead of you just offering… but you’ll tell your company about whatever y’all got going on she’s always invited. Am i to much? To little? What’s the problem??If you don’t want me there just say that before I make a fool outta myself. I swear you be thinking that shit is funny.

you said you were spirling i said i am too. i asked you the next day if you were good but you didn’t ask me. haven’t asked me shit since actually. you stay MIA often and i’m always trying to figure out if you’re okay or not. If you need anything or whatever but i swear you be forgetting ab other people around you. But I’m not talking about your company that you have around you 24/7 i’m taking be me the nigga who dropped whatever they got going on to make sure you’re good thinking you’ll do the same. LMFAO.

your company you always got with you is all you think about. i’m so mf tired of it. i bet you lost my house key i gave you. lmfao i’ll be changing my emergency contact soon. don’t worry ik you’ll be to busy to come out anyway

ps: lol you remember when i made a matching set of earth girls and the one i made you, you didn’t want ᵒʳ ˡⁱᵏᵉ. ʷᵉ ʷᵉʳᵉ ˢᵘᵖᵖᵒˢᵉᵈ ᵗᵒ ᵍᵉᵗ ᵗʰᵉᵐ ᵗᵃᵗᵗᵉᵈ and that never happened. but now all of a sudden i make a betty pic that you like better and you want to get that tatted instead… it doesn’t work like that.

definitely weird behavior. don’t wanna be around it anymore. tbh i’m good in solitude. 🧑🏽‍🦯😘🕺🏽🫡

[apopticghoul]

a wild vent post appeared!

tonight my parents gave me another “pep-talk” about going to school and how it’s not sustainable staying home anymore. i understand that i am missing out on stuff, i understand that it’s hard for them to know what to do with me, i understand that i have potential and that my predicted ATAR is high with not much effort, i understand that i was functioning last year and last term i was at least going to school for most days. i understand that sleeping to twelve is bad and that gaming at night is also bad. all this i understand, and they do too.

what they don’t seem to understand is that i’m painfully aware of every second i’m away from school. fully aware of how much i’m missing, and the guilt and self-hatred that comes along with not being able to set foot on campus without going into a suicidal spiral or a panic attack. they don’t seem to understand that i tried so hard at the start of this to keep up, and that i’ve eventually slowed to a stop because i cannot see myself graduating from such a school. they can’t see the pressure placed upon us by ourselves and our peers and how borderline impossible it was for me to survive these past years in this environment. they don’t see the toll this takes on my already shitty self esteem and mental health.

mum is even going so far as to blame it on my starting of T. and i understand how she came to the conclusion, last term i wasn’t on it and i was fine and now i am and I’m not fine, and i hate it because it’s not true. testosterone is not making me more depressed or anxious than i was. that’s a separate thing.

they said maybe they’re being too nice to me. maybe i need to be kicked in the ass, basically. im terrified they’ll force me to go tomorrow and im terrified of what i’ll do to myself or others if that happens.

and they say “sleeping all day, gaming all night”- and it irks me, because that’s not what’s happening under the surface. it might appear that way but it’s not. i get terrible sleep, i have always had bad sleep and i need more than others. any time i sleep that isn’t normal afternoon nap time i have nightmares that make me feel ill when i wake. so i grab as much sleep as possible in the hopes of having a bit thats undisturbed. and “gaming all night” - it helps me feel in control of myself, helps me calm down and quiet my mind, makes me tired enough to sleep when i do go to bed… i understand how it looks. i’m just afraid if i say any of this i’ll fuck it up and make a fool of myself. it’s happened before, and then they don’t believe me.

i can’t go back to that school. i hate it with every fibre of my being. everyone is so stuck-up and opinionated.. it’s like wading through the student embodiment of twitter. everything you say is wrong or cringe or something. my therapist agrees we need to get me out of there, but it’s just.. not possible until the end of the year and i despair. this has been bubbling for 5 years, why didn’t i say anything sooner?!!!

[alyjojo]

February 🐉 2023 Monthly - Taurus

Whole of your energy: Knight of Swords rev

You’re probably going tf off on somebody this month and ending something, a relationship of some kind, doesn’t have to be romantic. You’ve avoided dealing with whatever this is for some time and you’ve finally had it with this person.

What’s going on in February:

2 Wands:

You seem to be the one ending whatever connection this is, you want to move forward, but don’t know if you can do that and also heal. Or whether this person can. Whatever has gone on between you is maybe not fixable or you perceive it to be that way.

The Tower rev:

If someone is coming back around, you’re ending it before it even begins, assuming you’ve already been around the block with this person before. The Tower rev is one you can see coming & prepare for, and you’re not cooperating with this person in any way because you seem to know where it leads you.

The Hermit:

Staying to yourself, 4 Pentacles pushes that message even harder. You’re conflicted about it, the whole rest of the reading is you second guessing yourself, but you’d rather be keeping your own company than dealing with this person’s drama or whatever chaos they bring to your life.

Ace of Cups:

This is what you’re staying away from, some new beginning. Could be love, could be any sort of connection, but the “newness” of it. A fresh start, a new beginning. You’re like this is not new, it’s the same shit, that’s the vibe here, and with this Ace and The Fool with your defensive energy in the middle…you’re either right, or you are certain that you are anyway, and The Hermit & 9 Swords both show incredibly deep thought having been put into this, rumination even, whatever you’re deciding or defending is no spontaneous thing. It’s a nope.

9 Swords:

You’re worried you’re wrong, that you’re going to fail, that you’re making the wrong decision. Not openly, obviously, with 7 Wands showing you standing your ground, but deep down you are much more reserved and unsure, because you’re afraid of whatever it is you’re deciding. Or maybe you’re hurting and doing the right thing doesn’t always feel good, you can still care about people that aren’t good for you, people do every day. Knight of Swords rev is a vicious & cutthroat bully, and you’re sick and tired of it, so whoever that is would be this person. You may not be saying anything at all, just refusing to entertain it. You don’t want any new beginnings anywhere, you just want to be left alone to process, which is probably necessary. Taurus and change are not friends. With Raspberry, and 4 Pentacles, it is possible you’re being too harsh in how you’re judging something/someone as well. I’m sure there’s a reason.

Signs you may be dealing with:

Gemini, Scorpio, Aries, Leo, Capricorn & Libra

Oracles: ✨

2 New Beginnings 🌅

Water, emotion, energy, all life affirming and life giving. Patience is the key. Once the deluge of emotion passes, you will see that left in its wake is a wondrous new day, a rainbow of possibilities. Do not get attached to the emotions that surround this situation. This will only attach your identification with the emotion itself - giving it more power and hindering the release, so that the door to your new beginning will not open. Sit in the emotion, cry, journal, talk it out with a friend, and then let it go. Be thankful for the experience of the situation and proclaim to Spirit that you are ready for the newness that is about to come into your life.

We enter into February as:

Righteous Raspberry 💅🏽:

“I have the same high standards for myself as I do for others.”

This is a message to lighten up! Notice your present attitude towards others. Perhaps you’re being too hard on yourself, and others as well. Allow others to be as they are. Supporting others around you creates allies. Watch your expectations, you could be setting yourself up for disappointment. You cannot be satisfied if you expect others to live up to standards you can’t even live up to. Besides, others are not you. Do it wrong, mess it up, have flaws. Trying to make the world perfect will only exhaust and alienate. Allow things to simple be. Look for what’s right in your world.

What is to be learned in February: You’ve pulled two

Wolf of White Light 🌙

“There is a guide inside of us.”

Wolf of White Light comes to remind you that you must use your instinct, for it is what protects you. You are more aware of this than you realize. Your instinct is finely tuned and accurate, so why doubt it? He reminds us that focusing on past injustices will not prepare us for the present. Wolf of White Light warns that time spent in the past also leaves you defenseless in the future. Letting go of the old is signified, for if you do not, you may miss the opportunities that Spirit has planned for you. Wolf is the spirit guide that comes to lead you up the mountain you are about to climb. He only appears to those seeking a guide. Allow him to guide you, and follow your instincts. Remember that when the Wolf appears, it’s time to move on. He is a reminder that your journey is guided. With your eyes focused forward, the Wolf is waiting in the distance for you. Now is the time.

Sun Sparkler 🎇:

“Integrity is what turns on the light.”

Sun Sparkler reminds us that it is through kindness to others and being of service that we are abundant. Are you living your life as fully as you can? Are you being honest and kind to others? Do you hold the door open for people on the elevator, or let it close? Do you let people merge over in traffic, or pretend not to see them? When we put a blinder on one area of life, it creates the same blind spot in every area. You can’t shut out pain without shutting out pleasure too. Sun Sparkler reminds you of the miracle of honesty, it leads to integrity. You may have done work for another but do not expect a reward, revel in alignment with Spirit, self-esteem is the gift. You’ve been elevated to a new level spiritually, continue to serve others and life will prosper beyond your wildest dreams.

White & Yellow may be lucky colors 🤍💛

[thearchivistsjournal]

Day 143,

Wound up playing the role of adult comforting a distressed child today.  Not sure how well I did, but I think I at least didn’t make it worse.

The plan going in this morning was that the first half of the day would proceed as normal, and then after recess we’d give the paired tutoring its trial run.  Overall that basically happened and went well enough, save for the expected complications of trying something new.  Less expected was that one of the children, Saffron,  who’s normally enthusiastically engaged with her lessons, spent the morning uncharacteristically withdrawn and distracted.

When she didn’t even get up to join the others for the lunchtime recess I decided that something was wrong enough to warrant my intervention.  Leaving Cass to supervise the rest (or at least watch and come get me if anything comes up; it does feel wrong at times putting a twelve year old in charge of so much, the more wrong the more I stop to think about it really) I took Saffron aside and asked what was bothering her.  It took some coaxing, and encouragement that she wouldn’t get in trouble, whatever it was, but she eventually admitted with a hint of embarrassment that it was “just a bad dream.”

Acting on a hunch, context, and personal experience, I told her that I had a bad dream last night myself that left me anxious and tired - as much as I tried not to show it - and proceeded to describe the Catacomb Depths.  The endlessly winding grave-filled tunnels, some ornate, some dirty-covered.  The eerie sourceless light.  The vast bottomless chasms spanned by a web of bridges.  The claustrophobia.  The sense of being there, sharp and alert as any waking moment.

I can’t say if her eyes went wide at my description, for my own gaze drifted off of her and became unfocused as I began to go into details, but her voice had a tremor to it - awe or fear I can’t say - as she asked how I knew.  The sound of her question snapped me back to the here and now.  I blinked, returned to an attempt at friendly eye contact and gave a smile that I hoped was reassuring rather than unnerving.  I told her that I had the same dream last night, and every mist night.  That it’s something that happens to everyone at some point or another in their lives, unless you’re an outsider and then you have to deal with it all the time.  That it’s okay and normal to be scared of it and be upset afterward, and it’s nothing to be embarrassed about.  That it’s really easy to get fooled into thinking it’s real while it’s happening - I still do sometimes - and spend the next day or two remembering what the fear felt like and worrying that the next time you blink you might end up back there.  That despite all that, it’s not real and there’s no danger of getting stuck there.

She asked how I deal with it.

I said that talking to someone about it or writing it down helps.  Takes the bad feelings and blows them away out into the air or locks them up in the paper.  Also, finding something you like to do and focusing on it so the fears don’t have any room to stay in your head.  And if nothing else, the knowledge that it will get better after a few days makes it easier to bear.

Just above a whisper, she said she’s not supposed to talk about the Catacombs.  No one is.

I forced a laugh and said I’m an outsider; things I’m not supposed to are what I do best.  Like I said, she won’t get in trouble for anything she tells me and I always have time for my students’ worries.  Seeing that she still looked unsure, I declared that paper over air for now it is and led her down to the archive’s storage room to give her a few sheets of paper and a pen.  Let her know that the paper was hers to write or draw whatever she wanted on it, whether it be about her dreams or something more fun.  Or boring like a list of chores if she reeeaaally wants to.  The attempted humor of that last bit at least got a positive reaction from her.  At least, I’m counting objecting to that suggestion in a brighter tone than before and calling me silly as a positive reaction.

The rest of the kids returned, only slightly damp this time, not too long after we returned to the entry hall/classroom.  At least Saffron got a chance to eat her lunch.

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Is saffron even a plant or spice they have here?  Or is this a weird outsider translation thing happening again, converting a word for the color?

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[boozeforblues]

When You Drank, The World Was Still Out There, But For The Moment, It Didn't Have You By The Throat

Straw in hand, playing whack a mole with the ice cubes in my drink And I can’t focus enough to get my brain to think Of all the times you told me you love me While apparitions of angels danced above me Promising me that my pain isn't quite through I'm tracing my drunken footsteps back to you In a vain attempt to recapture the feeling you coaxed from my soul Pulling the short straw from a hat shaped bowl Let me know that my fate is set in the same stone That ricocheted off of every glass house and broken bone In my tired body, the flesh follows the heart And I can't tell you how much I hate being apart Because you already know, pointless repetition Is the bane of my shitty existence, behaving as if I'm in competition With the world for a prize that's never been worth much And I can still remember the first time we touched It's engrained into my skin, much like your name I'd be lying if I said there was no expectation of fame With every half hearted word I jot down, the same rules apply Fleeting moments where I was convinced I could fly On the wings of confidence that you instilled I'll pack my bags and mark the invoices billed Electricity illuminates the sky because lord knows I can't And no one's ever entertained by principled rants About the state of affairs and all their distractions They're just keeping us from honest interactions But honesty never got me anywhere but hurt I'll drag both of our names through the dirt Just to make sure they're forever linked together And I'm running out of slack on this makeshift tether A clever way to say I'm at the end of my rope And I don't think I can afford to put my stock in hope Trading on the exchange for a better alternative But it's a bear market and I'm full of superlatives About how pessimistic she is about her cubs With good reason, we've both had our fair share of snubs Still protective of what will grow older and leave us Finding in ourselves everything that will deceive us Compare me to the moon, it's not the only one going through phases In strange places, waking up in hazes And I'm just trying to forget about it all No one else could make me feel more important or less small In the end, it's no one's fault but my own Asleep at the wheel and ignorant to the orange cones On the side of the road, warnings are always subtle when you're blind And I don't know of a way to be kind To myself, and neither will history Begging once more for the sun to blister me I'm parched and lost like a biblical figure But don't call me a saint, I'm no better or bigger Than I was yesterday, a week from rotten Another month and I'll be forgotten At least that's what my brain has managed to fool my tongue into believing In record time, I went from ecstatic to grieving I think I'm jealous because you left and I'm still stuck with me Now all I encounter are lonely wives trying to fuck with me Dispassionate about everything around me until you enter my atmosphere Divined and deserted without so much as an atlas here Crawling back to you, but you keep changing positions While leaving bread crumbs to lessen my condition Call me a cab while I'm still lucid On second thought, leave me to stumble towards stupid...

[snzunii]

I CAN'T MAKE YOU LOVE ME. [2]

+ pairings. ran haitani x f!reader ft. sanzu haruchiyo

+ tags. angst, arranged marriage, cheating, unrequited love, pining, hurt no comfort

+ wc. 1.5k

+ note. hi hi part two is here hehehehe <3 this took me too long to write cuz i'm lazy af sorry 😭 anyway, this is the last part of this fic hope u like it hehe

reblogs are always appreciated! <3

part one | part two

“I’m so stupid.” 

If you were sober, you’d probably glare at the man who just laughed out loud beside you. Even though he was not wrong for laughing at you because you know you deserved it.

Because you are a fool. Fool for loving someone who isn't going to love you the same way. A stupid human being for giving her all to someone who’s not willing to give their everything for you. But was it really stupid? Is it even your fault to love someone? You just loved and in turn, you wanted to be loved. Was that foolish? Dumb?

“Shut up, Haru.” your voice was small, so close to breaking as you reached for another shot but a hand stopped you. “What? If you're going to laugh at me all night, you can at least let me drink to save me from embarrassment the next day.”

Sanzu’s face was serious compared to earlier, his hand still holding your wrist to keep you from drinking, “That's enough. Does Ran even know you’re here?”

“He doesn't. And if he did, it’s not like he would care.” a bitter laugh escaped your lips, “Ah, see. Now, I’m talking shit. Pitying myself.”

“It’s cause you’re so stupid.” he retorted, “How could you just stand there and smile, what the fuck even was that? Isn’t he your husband? Isn’t that your house and you’re just letting it happen? Wake up.”

“Ow!” you exclaimed when he flicked your forehead, it felt like some of the alcohol washed away from your system the moment he did that. “And excuse me, she was crying and shaking, I didn't have the heart to send her away.”

“Oh okay. What a saint.” Sanzu claimed with obvious sarcasm, following the roll of his eyes. “It’s your fault so stop bitching about it to me and go home.”

You scoffed and snatched your hand away from him, “You’re being an ass.”

“This ass is tired of listening to you bitch about your husband who doesn’t even give two fucks about your feelings—” 

Your hand was trembling the moment you realized what you just did. Did you just slap him? Sanzu Haruchiyo? Bonten’s No. 2? Your husband’s colleague and your friend who was nice to let you in his apartment when you’re crying your ass out?

You fucking did and you were regretting it each second you stand there. You doubt that he’s going to do something to you—because Sanzu’s cruel to everyone but you. You don’t know why he’s different to you but you figure that’s because he’s your friend—not that he considers you one all those years, but you were always there.

And you guess he was used to you being there.

“H-haru. I…” you dragged your breath and looked at him with your widened eyes. “I’m sorry-”

“Get the fuck out.” 

“Haru.” Even though you were a bit scared, you walked towards him. Sanzu just stared at you, a little frustration dancing in his eyes as you cupped his face with your hands. “I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to.”

“You’re frustrating me.” an exasperated sigh coming out of him, and every second that his hand was touching your face was giving you a different kind of feeling. It was disparate—it was unlike any other feeling that you had, even with your husband. It was comforting—and most of all, the look that he was giving you was like the piece of the puzzle that you have been looking for all your life.

You swore you’ve seen this before, this kind of look—and yet the problem is it wasn’t meant for you but now it is—and the bigger problem is, the person that was supposed to be giving you this isn’t the person that you had promised to spend your whole life with. You don’t have any idea how you ended up in this situation—with someone who isn’t your husband.

But the worst part is, you aren’t guilty because any of this was wrong—you were feeling sorry because every second of it felt right—asking yourself why haven’t you been doing this the whole time.

…

“Where were you? I was worried…” the concern in your husband’s voice was sincere, yet all you could feel was doubt, guilt and irk—all of it at once. “I left you a bunch of calls and messages and you weren’t answering.”

Setting your coat and heels aside, you walked towards your husband having his morning coffee alone on the empty dining table, “I was out with Kei. I’m sorry, my phone was out of juice last night. Couldn’t leave her alone, she had a boy problem, you know.”

People say that lying would get you nowhere, that it would eat you away to the point that you’re closer to an impending self destruction that would lead you to bursting at some point. But the thing is, lying in this situation doesn’t feel like you’re being forsaken to sabotaging yourself, it feels like a way to save yourself and this refuge that you have found to be in. 

In other words, this deceit wasn’t for the best interest of your husband—to save him from the pain that would befall him but for yourself. And it sounds bad at all, but you have chosen to do the thing that would benefit you. You have grown tired of picking anyone else over yourself—and to think of it, it isn’t bad choosing yourself this once—though, you have started it in a wrong way. “I see.”

“I’m sorry.” you plant a kiss on your husband’s cheek, “I’ll make sure to update you next time.”

Ran should’ve seen it coming, all the genuine smiles that you give him would soon turn to a feigned one, all the earnest talks you had would soon turn into nothing more but a hollow conversation.

“I’m home.” and all that he could get was a nod from you accompanied by a mere smile. “Have you eaten yet?”

You barely looked at him—it was just a simple thing, but it felt like a lifetime of pain. “Uh-huh. It’s in the fridge, just heat it up.”

And how ridiculously it hurt when he was sitting alone at the dining table and all he could see was your memories lying on the seat where you used to be.

It shouldn’t have fazed him, he knew all this time that he was just pretending to feel all these things for you and he knew it was unfair to you—but now, he was asking himself, if this was all just play pretend to him—why does he feel this agony eating him alive?

Maybe he wasn't just used to this—but this is how things should be, he should stop pretending to love you because he knows that you’re aware that you could never come close to her.

He should stop pretending to care, put an end to feeling this hurt when you have chosen to turn your back on him instead of curling up to him. When you have chosen to disregard his presence on purpose. When you have chosen to go out—instead of being with him on his time off. 

He wanted to laugh because he knows he was just lying to himself—he knows how and when you started to be like this but he wasn't aware that all that he did wasn’t pretending when he sees the look on your eyes once you’ve arrived at the hospital where he is but instead, the first person that you wrapped your arms around to was the man lying on the bed—and not him.

“Haru.” you whispered, tears brimming in your eyes as you held on to him. “You’re okay. I’m here, hm? I’m here…”

Ran was watching all these before him—the mirthful glint shining in your irises once you saw Haruchiyo opening his eyes, how you could never leave his side—how you were giving him the same look that you used to give him before—it was making him wish that he should've been the one who got shot, thinking that would you be the same way you are right now if that was him?

Would you also climb on the bed and let him rest on your arms? Would you hold him like he’s the most precious thing in the whole universe? You see the thing is, you have done that before—he just didn't appreciate it when it was there. 

He wanted to stop this madness and tear you apart from Haruchiyo—he was actually scared to death that he’d have to live without you but what right did he have when he had done this to you first?

What he was feeling was probably nothing when you had to stand there and watch him hold another woman in his arms. So, how could he take your happiness away from you any further? 

“Let me ask you one thing,” he started, looking at you while you sat inches away from him. “Do you love him?”

You bit your lip and looked at him, and there he noticed the difference when you looked at him and he knew that your answer would tear him apart and yet he chose to sit there while you break his heart.

It was clear who holds your heart even if you don't utter a single word. The look was enough to make his world crumble into pieces. 

“I thought I couldn't live without you, Ran… but it turns out, he’s the one I couldn't live without.”

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