#i'm a fake fan :( i'm a poser :(

[xenon-demon]

ok so HI 👋 you're gonna get multiple of these by me because I wanna know everything. but first. I wanna know about the steddie soulmate tattoos because I looOOove a good soulmate fic??? 👀👀

LUIIIIIIII please ask as MANY questions as you want I love talking about all the different versions of steddie that exist in my brain 🤩 thanks so much for the question!!!

SO this is actually my First Ever Steddie WIP 🥲 and it was inspired by something I saw on Twitter where the make up artist who designed Eddie’s tattoos was like “yeah the bats tattoo is actually a reference to Steve and how both Steve and Eddie were chomped on by the demobats” and everyone was like "OMG STEDDIE SOULMATE TATTOOS REAL?" So I took that and ran with it lmao. The conceit of this soulmate universe is that a tattoo forms on your body the moment you fall in love with your soulmate, and the tattoo is in some way symbolic of that moment.

Eddie's tattoo is the bats, obviously, and Steve's tattoo is of Eddie's guitar, spanning the length of his ribcage on his left side. That tattoo appeared when Dustin gave Steve the play-by-play of The Most Metal Concert Ever™ while they were both in Eddie's hospital room waiting for him to wake up from his post-near-death-experience coma; Steve visualized Eddie doing that in all his glory, though about how Eddie saved Dustin's life, and then BAM. Soulmate tattoo. Dustin will never let him live it down.

Also Steve and Robin have a tattoo for each other because I refuse to write a soulmate AU where Stobin are not soulmates in some way, even if platonic soulmates are not a thing in universe <3 (although in this particular AU platonic soulmates ARE a thing)

Have a look under the cut if you'd like to see Eddie's POV of the moment he got his soulmate tattoo ;) (yes it's That Scene from canon because of course it is)

Send me an ask about my WIPs!

He stops short the moment his brain registers what’s happening in front of him. Steve Harrington, in all his shirtless glory, is currently wailing on that goddamned bat with nothing more than his bare hands. He’s got it by the tail and swings it around over his head before slamming it into the ground, grunting with the exertion of it. Before it has a chance to move, Steve swings it back up again and slams it back down just as hard. Even in the gloom of this nightmare realm, Eddie can see the way his muscles flex with the strain. It’s not like Steve’s muscles are difficult to spot, okay - for all jocks are the enemy, Eddie can respect an attractive man, and he’d certainly been respecting Steve’s athletic physique when he stripped off in the boat ten minutes ago. Seeing Steve shirtless and seeing Steve’s nicely toned upper body in action are two very different things, however, and Eddie most certainly was not prepared for the latter.

It doesn’t end there, though, because Steve’s next move is to step on the damn thing’s neck and pull its tail until its head tears clean off its body, with his bare hands. Eddie thinks he mentioned the ‘bare hands’ bit already, but fuck it, it bears repeating. Eddie’s just watching this happen, wide-eyed, when Steve fucking spits blood onto the bat’s corpse, leaving a string of sticky red fluid trailing from his lips. Holy shit, when did he bite that thing? He’s breathing hard, chest heaving from the adrenaline, and even though it’s on the chilly side his torso is shiny with sweat. Steve tilts his head back, mouth open and chest still heaving, and it makes the blood trailing from his mouth fall back against his chin. Eddie could almost pretend it’s something else dripping from those plush lips, if he tried, but he’s so buzzed from the adrenaline and the absolutely obscene display in front of him that he can’t quite make the fantasy consolidate.

It’s the hottest thing Eddie’s ever seen.

He doesn’t even get to enjoy it though, because as soon as he registers that thought in his brain, there’s a tingling sensation on his right forearm. It starts near the crease of his arm, and within a few seconds it’s spread outwards and down towards his wrist, about halfway down his forearm. The tingling starts to intensify, turns more into a warm, not-unpleasant burning sensation, and Jesus fucking Christ this had better not be what Eddie thinks it is.

[renard-dartigue]

Hi now i'm curious what is the beef with the rappers

Man this is going to be long so I'll try to keep this simple and entertaining. I hope this comes across as clear cause I'm shook right now.

Here is a glossarie to break thing up:

Prologue (The Spark 🔥)

Round 1.1 (Physical Education 💪🏾)

Interlude part 1 (Roots 🏠)

Round 1.2 (2 Warning Shots 🔫)

Interlude part 2 (Pusha the Seer 👁)

Round 2.1 (Knifes Out 🔪 )

Round 2.2 (The Nuke 💥)

Epilogue (All eyes on him 👀)

My Theory 🤷🏾‍♂️

Highly recommend checking out the tracks yourself while you read along.

Prologue (The Spark)

Let it be known that I am a neutral party and that I don't take sides when it comes to rap beef. I was here for the music and creativity. I am just trying to recount events to the best of my knowledge. Sorry if some details are inaccurate.

Okay so basically, Drake, J Cole, and Kendrick Lamar are the Big 3 of the rap world right now.

A month ago, Future and Metro Boomin (two rapper who supposedly don't fuck with Drake anymore) released a song with Kendrick Lamar called "Like That". In the song Kendrick took a shot at Drake and J Cole, saying there isn't a big 3, its only him on top.

4 weeks ago J Cole dropped a track called "7 Minute Drill" that is dissing Kendrick. However, in a move that is very uncharacteristic of J, he took down the official track and formally apologized to Kendrick. Thus signaling his exit from the rap battle.

ROUND 1.1 (Physical Ed)

Drake on the other hand dropped "Push Ups" 2 weeks ago, a diss track that went after other rappers he doesn't like but mainly Kendrick. In it, he made fun of Kendrick's height and his contracts. He then ends the song with "I was really try'n keep it PG" meaning he has a nuke on Kendrick that people don't know.

Not long later, Drake dropped ANOTHER diss track "Taylor Made Freestyle" with Ai voices of Snoop Dog and fucking 2PAC! Kendrick has stated before that 2pac is one of his idols so this must have been a deep cut. In the song Drake claims Kendrick doesn't write his own music and uses the writers of Taylor Swift. Relating a rapper to pop music is seen as disrespectful.

INTERLUDE PART 1 (Roots)

Before I continue, I want to give a brief run down on how the public perceives these two rappers.

Drake portrays himself as a superstar, he's always on social media flaunting his success and partying with other celebrities, seeing alot of women and living a lavish lifestyle. His music is catchy, something you put on in the club. Most of his fan base praise him for his sick beats and witty lyrics. He's been in the music industry for a while and is no push over.

Kendrick Lamar is a very private person, doesn't expose anything about his personal life unless its on a track. He almost never gets into fights with anyone. He is a family man, stressing the importance of being there for his wife and son and encourages other fathers to do the same. His fan base praise him for his creative lyrics and highlighting the black American condition.

ROUND 1.2 (2 Warning Shots)

2 Day ago, Kendrick Lamar came back with his first official diss track on Drake called "Euphoria". In this song, Kendrick goes in on Drakes fake personality. Drake has always been known around the community as a bit of a poser, he grew up in Canada and was raised by his white mother, a relatively comfortable childhood. He was a star on the popular show Degassi when he was young. garnering him a fan base early in his career. Kendrick doesn't approve of Drake appropriating black American culture and acting like he some tough guy. When in reality he is a Canadian nerd thats disrespectful to 2pac. All throughout the song, Kendrick hits at things that many people have know about Drake, such as his behavior around underage girls. He also called Drake a deadbeat father who isn't in his son's life, even referencing his lost battle to Pusha T. Then Kendrick finally warns him that he has more dirt that he is willing to share if Drake takes things further.

Similar to Drake, Kendrick dropped another track called "6:16 in LA" later that day. This song focuses on Drake's environment, specifically the people he hangs with. Kendrick implies that Drake paid people to dig into his background and when they didn't find anything, Drake made up stuff instead. Kendrick then says that someone in Drakes group is leaking information to him about something even more serious. Also planting a seed in Drake's mind that his supposed friends don't actually like him, just like the clout from hanging around him.

INTERLUDE PART 2 (Pusha the Seer)

Taking a quick break again, we need to discuss something that occurred long before Drake's battle with Kendrick.

5 years ago, Drake was in a rap battle with rapper Pusha T, someone who was smaller than Drake at the time in terms of popularity. Pusha dropped a song called "The Story of Adidon" where he dropped a bomb that Drake had a kid and wasn't taking care of him. Drake initially denied it but it was later revealed to be true.

Since then Drake has never responded to Pusha T's diss track, making Pusha the current winner. And Kendrick is bringing it back into the light.

Round 2.1 (Knifes Out)

Around 2 am EST time of May 4th, Drake drops his diss track, "Family Matters" one of his strongest songs, switching his flow 3 times in the span of 7 minutes. In true Drake fashion, its a club song with a catchy beat. Like his previous diss, its aimed at multiple people but the main focus is on Kendrick, even bring up "I was really try'n keep this PG".

Drake doubles down on his black identity and mocks the fact that Kendrick and other rappers are saying he isn't black, (incorrectly assuming that they are coming at him for being mixed when the real issue is that he is appropriating black American rap culture as a Canadian mixed man who grew up in a safe environment) Drake not only calls Kendrick a fraud who only raps about black issues for attention, Or that his activism is performative. He makes a shocking claims that Kendrick is a wife beater. Then Drake says that Kendrick's son doesn't belong to him and implies Kendrick's producer was the real father.

The track caused an uproar. But only for the span of 15 minutes. Because Kendrick did the unthinkable.

ROUND 2.2 (THE NUKE)

Almost as if expecting Drake's move, Kendrick Lamar did what no one saw coming. He dropped his diss track "Meet The Grahams" about 15 minutes after Drake released "Family Matters".

This time around, in a fashion almost unheard of from him, Kendrick strips all the usual metaphors from his lyricism and structures his track like he is speaking to Drake and his family, 4 parts per individual.

Kendrick begins by speaking to Drakes Son, Adonis, the same son Pusha T exposed Drake for neglecting 5 years ago. He's apologizing to him for his father's behavior. Kendrick speaks to him softly but sternly like a mentor, telling him not to be like his father. Kendrick tells Adonis all the things Drake did and warns him not to do them too: involved with escorts, plastic surgery to appear more black, surgery to look more muscular, hiding a kid. (Kendrick stresses that Adonis is black regardless of being mixed, further highlighting that he isn't discrediting Drake's blackness because he's mixed but because he isn't being himself.) Finishing of by telling the kid to be proud of who he is.

The second half is Kendrick addressing Drake's mother and father, Sandra and Denise. Kendrick speaks to her like he's revealing tragic news, explaining to her that her son is involved in disgusting things. He goes down a list of things, his tone growing more intense and angry. Kendrick then claimed that Drake is employing and enabling pedos in his group, and hopes they die. Even implying that his group is going to be raided by the feds some day.

The third half is the MOST shocking of all. Kendrick begins talking to an unnamed individual, simply calls her babygirl. Similar to Adonis, Kendrick takes on a somber tone and apologizes to her for Drakes behavior. He says its not her fault Drake abandoned her, says that she is deserving of love. He warns her not to become a target for people like Drake to pray on and says she has so much to offer the world.

Kendrick revealed Drake has ANOTHER kid and isn't in their life! (Allegedly)

To close of, the fourth half is Kendrick speaking directly to Drake, his tone tired. He tries to reiterate that he doesn't have hate for him. However, Kendrick says Drake was the first one to go after his family and he couldn't let it slide. He once again calls for Drake to take the mask off. Then says this isn't a rap battle anymore, tells Drake he is fighting himself.

Epilogue (All eyes on him)

And so here we are, waiting for what will happen next.

Drake posted an Instagram story denying the claim he has another kid. But given what happened with Pusha T, we can't quite take his word for it yet. We should wait a bit to see if anything comes out.

Kendrick hasn't put out a statement on Drake's claims about him but given the recurring theme of Drake being a manipulative lier, Kendrick clearly denies it. Given how private he is, its difficult to prove or disprove it. Much like Drake's claims, we will have to wait and see if any evidence comes out about it.

Drake and Kendrick stans are at eachothers throats right now, arguing over who one and whats real or fake.

Right now everyone is looking to see if Drake is going to continue the battle or stay silent like he did with Pusha.

My Theory

Personally as an outside observer who only followed the beef for good music. I think this goes beyond a simple rap battle.

Here is my theory: Someone from Drake's clique told Kendrick that Drake and his producers were writing something about him. Real or fake, Kendrick was pissed. And so he drafted 3 tracks, dumping everything he hates about Drake into them. And then, with the leaker's help, Kendrick baited Drake into a battle, goading Drake to drop the "Family Matters" track so he can shut the battle down with "Meet the Grahams". Or maybe his first 2 tracks were a warning to Drake that if he released a track with lies on him he would reveal he has another kid.

I do think Kendrick initially had good intentions in trying to help Drake be a better person. But maybe the more he learned about Drake the less sympathetic he felt.

But I don't know thats just how I see it.

Thanks for reading my essay. I hope it made sense heh. I encourage healthy discussions in the comments and reblogs please. But everyone agrees that Drake is inappropriate with young girls. We won't argue over that.

[punkeropercyjackson]

I cannot fucking get over how the Pjo fandom depunkified(for lack of a better term)Percy.Keyword being 'how'-Because in canon,Percy is an actual punk.He grew up poor,getting bullied for being neurodivergent and with an abusive stepdad due to his birth dad abandoning him so that lead to him developing an attitude as a coping mechanism and hating rich people and other privilged groups because he knows from experience how awful they are most of the time but another thing it did to him was making him incredibly kind to minorities especially and a Team Parent to the ones younger than him(those being Nico and Hazel in his case).And i know for a fact that if Rick didn't hate Perachel almost as much as the fandom does,he would've written him as also going to protests and doing charity work with Rachel

But the fandom dosen't ONLY pretend that none of those are traits of his but also says he's punk for headcanons that are either not canon or straight up contradicted by it.He dosen't want to be a god and finds the thought actively distressing because he's scared of his powers and hates authority.The only reasons he treated Nico badly in Hoo and wasn't the Team Mom of the Seven instead of Hazel was that Rick retconned how much he loved him as a brother in the og series because he wanted to torment his first gay character and to adultify his first darkskin black fem mc.He's not a stereotypical guy,he thinks hypermasculinity is gross and weird(see his descriptions of and interactions with Ares)and has a deep respect for all the different women in the franchise,which includes gnc ones.He dosen't dress grunge,he barely got outfit descriptions in the books and when he did,they were just normal clothes.And he's not even a skater boy,him skating was mentioned exactly once in the entire saga and it was in Sea of Monsters,when he was 13 and that book came out over ten years ago,and Piper saying he looks like one dosen't count for jackshit because she also thought she was straight at the time and it showed in her ideas of gender as shown by the Jasiper vs Jeyna fiasco

How'd y'all take a canon punk protagonist and throw away the traits that make them punk to go 'No,actually,they're punk because of these things i THINK are what punk is because i've never read up on it's history and headcanon them to have!!!'.It's making me go fucking insane,my Percy stan ass who's been exactly like him since i was a kid should ask y'all for reperatitions over this(Also:When i say fake punk traits,i'm including being a Harry Potter/Marauder's Era fan and a Switfie,that's like the basics of Poser Punk)

@desi-pluto @jelmet @jellyjays @leo-thecactus @moonage-gaydream @insomniac-jay @julieemarine @floof-ghostie @honeypotsworld @cottoncandyteeth @biandbored @mik3stuff

[basiatlu]

Guys I'm a fake harry potter fan artist - I don't know how to draw glasses. Such a poser ahhhh

[bronzetomatoes]

anyone else feel like a poser for just listening to music. like in your headphones on your own like "i'm such a fake fan" while you're just, like, listening to it. or when you mention it to someone and think i'm literally such a poser. look at me pretending to know shit about this thing that i like but i barely even like it compared to some people and like you actually do in fact know what you're talking about. lmao. don't even get me started on merch

[whoiwanttoday]

Leni Klum was at some even with her mom and she looked great but it is always a bit weird when I see her with her mom. Like, you can 100% tell they are related, they are not twins but you can see the line continuing there and it's strange because I was never into Heidi Klum, so I don't know why Leni definitely does it for me. That's not a knock on Heidi Klum, I have always had extreme fondness for her, it's just models have this weird impact where I never think they are like, gross. I'm no @kat-eleven I don't declare girls gross to look at. It's just they don't click and I never know why. Like I said, I have fondness for her cause I think we'd get along very well given her extreme dedication to Halloween. I mean, I think we would. Maybe we wouldn't, maybe she'd fucking hate me and think I'm a fake Halloween fan. "You don't decorate until September 15th? Wow… I mean… I guess you put in some effort. Oh wait, you only decorate one room and your front door. Yikes. I thought you said you liked Halloween you fucking poser". It's possible. And you know, I have no idea about Leni Klum's thoughts on Halloween. Maybe she really likes it or maybe she fucking hates it because she grew up with these massive Halloween parties and was like, "Can't I just do homework like a normal kid?" I don't know but all of that said… for some reason I find Leni Klum clicks for me. She's hot. Today I want to fuck Leni Klum.

[uglyguygames]

see, THIS is the reason why i'm ashamed to call myself a reigener. y'all won't shut up about reigen but when it's time to vote for him you're quick to switch sides. now shut up and listen up because clearly you don't understand: being a reigener is about making reigen succeed. it's about the blood sweat and tears put into making reigen be number one. it's about the sleepless nights being haunted by visions about reigen. if i had to choose between my family and reigen, i would choose reigen because that's where my heart belongs. if i had to choose between my life and reigen, i would choose reigen because he's my life. not that any of you would understand since half of you are voting for that eyebrow ass. every vote for him is a tear rolling down reigen's cheek. is that what you fucking want? reigen weeping all over himself? well i want him to smile because he's all i've ever fought for while you were hating on him. you know what urban dictionary calls people like you? posers. sorry but it had to be said. you only call yourselves reigeners for the reputation and then do nothing to support him after all he's done for us. i can't stand you fake fans anymore

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[chaifootsteps]

I'm the first anon who sent the tourist ask, I'm aware of the Japan fetishists that use it. Everytime someone uses tr*p or l*lisho or whatever I run for the hills, wish the term didn't have that connotation with gooners because tourist is a really funny word to me, like the people who say "fake fan" unironically. I just don't know what else to call Viv when she's giving mid portrayals on demonology and thinks clowns and jesters are the same job(a poser? idk), hope this cleared things up

Unrelated to any of this, I fucking love the word "gooner."

[baronaliswritingcorner]

TOS Replay Stray Thoughts #2 (Ossa Trail/Luin/Early Palmacostsa)

-Those trees on the Ossa Trail look like paper-mache -- like something out of Paper Mario. The rigors of early 3D. It's charming in a way. -"Those clothes..."

This is foreshadowing Raine's Tethe'allan origins, but if you think about it, how would she recognize Mizuho clothing when they live in secret? Might her family have had contact somehow? Fun headcanon abounds!

(While I'm at it, I imagine this dialogue -- alongside a certain other line from Sheena -- is one Raine/Sheena fans latch onto like glue. "Those clothes" and "they're rather unique", indeed.) -"Even if I Become an Angel" is a top Colloyd moment in my book -- Lloyd recognizing Colette's subtle discomfort while Genis fantasizes about her next transformation? The classic "You're still you" line? Perfection. Young love. <3

-Ah, feel the salty seaside air of Izoold. A shame it's not more relevant -- I live for that "out in the sticks" feel -- but I suppose that suits it all the same.

-"Hey, did you hear? There's a weird guy who drifts around the ocean in a homemade built!"

...is there an NPC I forgot about? Aifread?

-SPEAKING OF THAT DIPSHIT, what is up with them shoehorning the Aifread sidequest into the main storyline??? Like, fun story, sure, but it's a total non-sequitur and they drop it right after.

-The Fake Chosen stuff that happens right after, too! That could've actually been pretty fun -- imagine they had a big moment or something.

-The whole "giant monsters at sea" thing doesn't amount to anything either, huh? Hmm.

-"I'm the mysterious gourmet, the Wonder Chef." No, you're not. Between this poser and the Dark Wonder Chef, the life of a Wonder Chef must be rough. More on that later. -"Sorry, this area is off-limits. It seems everyone who goes up gets sick." Man, you pull the camera all the way back just to tell me that? Whatta rip-off

Not gonna lie: I'm not that crazy about this part of the game as I find everything about Magnius/Dorr/Palmacosta pretty boring, so I'm looking to get outta here ASAP lmao.

[damnfandomproblems]

I posted 1,647 times in 2022

That's 764 more posts than 2021!

1,593 posts created (97%)

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I tagged 1,499 of my posts in 2022

Only 9% of my posts had no tags

#blog answers - 725 posts

#other fans - 564 posts

#ask box submission - 491 posts

#general problems - 270 posts

#character problems - 197 posts

#shipping problems - 189 posts

#fanfiction problems - 111 posts

#submission - 102 posts

#non fans - 60 posts

#tumblr fandom - 56 posts

Longest Tag: 74 characters

#thank you to the kind person in the replies who help me get this captioned

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

The amount of casual ageism in fandoms is so gross.

"Oh you're a young boy and you like barbie and my little pony? Good for you! It's about time we break gender norms!"

"You're an adult male and you like my little pony and barbie? Ew!!! You're clearly a massive creep and a p*do just by existing! Go die in a hole!"

"You're a young girl and like action figures DBZ? Good for you! Be a strong young lady!"

"You're an adult woman and you like action figures and DBZ? Omg, you're such a loser/fake fan! Get a life you poser! You're clearly just a (insert transphobic slur)!"

"I'm allowed to criticize whatever I want! Nothing is free from criticism!"

"Pfft, come ooonnnn. You can't criticize that movie too harshly. It's for kids! Everyone knows kids don't deserve quality entertainment like us grown adults!"

396 notes - Posted March 16, 2022

#4

I hate that things have gone from "be careful on the internet, don't give out any personal information, and there's gonna be some stuff you won't want to see so just do your best to avoid it" to "the internet is my playground, I can go where I want and do what I want and if I see anything I don't like it's YOUR fault, these content warnings can't stop me because I can't read, here's my carrd where i dox myself by listing more information about myself than anyone would ever need to know" and it's just…accepted as okay and normal? Keep your private information private, you don't owe strangers ANY information, but also just stay AWAY from places where you're not comfortable, especially if you're underage (DON'T go to 18+ websites and demand that they bend to your whims) though there are definitely also adults who need to hear it too. Strangers online aren't responsible for your comfort.

439 notes - Posted September 21, 2022

#3

A lot of people don’t seem to realise that when we talk about fiction not effecting reality, we mean that it’s not a 1-to-1 type thing— an author killing off a character is different from them murdering an actual person, people can enjoy dark content in fiction & fantasy without thinking it’s good/wanting it to happen irl, and of course fiction can never truly make someone do something— if a murderer is inspired by a fictional murder, they still chose to kill someone and can’t blame the writer for that. The same with unhealthy relationships in fiction— so long as young people are taught about healthy relationships they’ll understand what they’re reading about isn’t one, and if not, that’s a failing on their guardians not the writer.

503 notes - Posted January 3, 2022

#2

JK Rowling is criticised for claiming Dumbledore and Grindlewald were gay but only showing them interacting platonically. Neil Gaiman claims Aziraphale and Crowley are “a love story” but only shows them interacting platonically, and is adored for it. I’m sorry, but that is a double standard caused by the popularity of the author.

1,821 notes - Posted January 21, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

not submission. I really hate the "My OC, my rules" thing. Cause like, no? Just because they are your oc doesn't mean you can do whatever you want with them. If you want to make your oc suffer and not like them get help, you deserve to lose rights over them. Especially if you only do that stuff to purposely trigger people. Once you do that, your oc no longer belongs to you. they belong to the public who will take better care of them instead

Making a comment to get this to post.

79,893 notes - Posted May 25, 2022

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[the-s1lly-corner]

Vent ramble thing///

Idk if this is a me thing or not but I feel so guily about it

When I get hyper fixiations, I get them hard

But that also means when it eventually dies and fades it just

Stays dead

I'll still enjoy it, just no where near the degree I used to and it makes me

Miserable

It makes me feel like I'm a fake fan even though I still enjoy whatever the thing is; I just have a strong focus on it that keeps burning until it snuffs itself out

I feel so bad when I see posts like "oh you're not a REAL supporter of (x media/character) if you drop them fast!!"

I legitimately can't help it

I legitimately got so distressed when my owl house rot didnt refresh itself when the final episode dropped

But at the same time, I can only focus and really have one fixiation at a time. Idk if I'm built different or what but

Yeah

Dont get me wrong, I love that I got back into Overwatch, its been an absolute joy

But

Idk

I miss owl house, and I miss my old fixiation on it

I feel like a poser, even though I enjoy the show and in total it's been my fixiation for (non consecutive) 6 ish months

And it just

Fizzled out the second I got back into OVW

Idk

Its days like these I wish I could consume media normally, because now even my OVW fixiation is starting to fade and I'm not ready to let go yet

[jet-bradley]

i should be in bed but i think my problem is that i consider myself a poser in literally every community im in. i dont fit in with other engineers because i don't have it in me to spend every waking hour thinking about engineering. and like that's bad enough, right. but somehow i end up feeling like a poser when it just doesn't make any sense. i always felt like a poser in the chipspeech community for not understanding the internals of the original voice chips. i felt like a poser in the airplane nerd world because i wasnt really into airplanes until i got a job at an air museum and anything that i did know about airplanes felt elementary even though objectively i was good at my job and like, knew my shit. i feel like a poser in the zelda fandom because i've played like three zelda games and i've never even beaten oot (this one i'm probably correct tho tbh). i feel like a poser in the coaster community but tbh i dont wanna be a thoosie so this one is ok. but still. i feel like a poser in the splatoon community because i've never tried to go competitive. i feel like a poser in the fucking tron fandom and that one doesn't even make sense??? like, yeah ive posted some straight up wrong shit about tron before, but that doesnt negate years of caring really deeply about tron and constantly returning to it??

every time i get into something new its like i have a period where im allowed to be bad at it (still there with doom/doom modding tbh) and then after that i feel super embarassed by how much i dont know and learn as much as possible about it but then i never leave that state even after learning a bunch of stuff that interests literally no one. which is how im out here with the tron ghost in the machine reference icon still like "but what if im a fake tron fan???" BRO WHO DOES THAT??

[48787]

Tag 10 People You Want to Get to Know Better (except i don't do 10 either because know who else to tag lmao)

Was tagged by my favorite mutual @argoxnautilus over uuhh here (i think that worked? I am still figuring out this website lmao)

Relationship Status: @technicolorlove is my lovely wife

Favorite Color: Purple and gold

Something I want right now: FLESH in my MOUTH or like maybe a car or something

Song stuck in my head: Playing His Game from the Death Note Musical

Three favourite foods: Sushi, Soup, and the addicting lure of a McChicken

Last song I listened to: Get 'Em Out By Friday by Genesis

Last thing I googled: xkcd worlds longest escalator (One of my favorites, couldn't remember the number because im a poser and a fake fan)

Dream trip: The trip I'm going on this Summer to meet a friend!

No pressure tags: @trazynstolemygender, who has my favorite name on this website, @fuck-you-showerthoughts, who I don't think follows me but I always enjoy learning more about, and uuhhhh @spotifyreleasegaydar sure you too even though i know you pretty well lol

[leifedling]

you're why women who like metal aren't taken seriously

Maybe. At this point of my life, I don't care if other "metalheads" take me seriously or say I'm a "poser".

I've had enough of that.

This was never intended to be a serious blog, I was posting things to have fun and I'll continue doing that. I'm even sharing some material that wasn't around on internet just because it was needed.

I don't care if you think I'm a "fake fan" or I am less of a fan for being a "woman" or really having my terrible moments (I know they're a lot) of fangirling. I don't fucking care.

[giggly-squiggily]

Hi squiggly! I had a question (not blog related) and I hope it’s alright if I ask! Do you think someone is a “fake fan” for lack of a better term, If they haven’t read the manga of the series and only seen one season of the anime plus online spoilers? I’m asking because I see myself as a demon slayer fan, but I don’t want to be like a poser n such. Once it again I’m sorry about this! I asked you because I know you also like manga and anime and you seem very nice so I figured you’d be a good person to ask. Have a great day or night!

Hey anon! This is a really good question!

So short answer: No, you're not a fake fan.

Long answer is more or less that but with more detail.

In my opinion, if you like something enough that you'd consider yourself a fan, then you're a fan. There's no requirement on what you need to watch/read/consume of the franchise to be one; you just are.(And if I'm gonna be completely real with you- I don't like the whole "poser/fake fan" logic some have- it just reeks of Gatekeeping behavior and that's something I simply can't get behind.)

Like- take me for example; I would consider myself a fan of My Hero Academia, I've only seen the anime. Same with Jojo- I've watched all the way up to part 5 but not part 6, and I haven't picked up the manga. None of these things make me a fake fan, and only watching one season of Demon Slayer doesn't make you one either. You are a fan, and your way of consuming said series is valid. If anyone tells you otherwise, tell them to mind their own business.

So yeah, I hope this answered your question! If you do choose to carry on with Demon Slayer, I highly recommend it! It's so good, both the show and the manga! I hope it brings you lots of joy the way it did me and many other fans of the series! (And er- tears. This will probably make you cry at some point. I ugly cried like- five times reading it akjlerjarjkeajrk)

Have an amazing day!

[alwaysinlimbo]

Body Image

-----If you're not a fan of discussing body issues than i urge you not to proceed and I am sending you love-------

A journal prompt for tonight

How have the media and societal standards affected your body image?

Back in 12th grade, there was a girl in my writing class that was taking a survey: "Have you ever felt self-conscious due to social media?" I said no. I lied.

Social media has been one of my favorite things, but has also been the bane of my existence. On one hand, I see it as a scrap book for my life, where I can share things with my friends and pretend I'm pretty cool for a little while. I enjoy sharing. Sometimes oversharing. I take it that stems from childhood trauma too, as most things seem to.

As of right now, I currently have instagram and tik tok off my phone. for one, cause I am in my senior year of college studying STEM and need to focus on finals, but also because I found myself in the never ending loop of comparison again.

I often see people online, and even knowing full well that social media is completely fake, I still compare and compare and beat myself up over stupid things. It's a dumb thing really, looking at a place full of filters and perfectly chosen photos and thinking "wow I must be a real wreck huh." simply untrue.

I deal with chronic bloating, and because of this over the past year and a half, have become very self conscious in my day to day life. My most recurring thought is "what if someone thinks I'm pregnant???" I have spent so much time pondering why that's my first thought and why I am so scared of people's perception of me (something I cannot control might I add). I've come to realize that I find myself doing that at times, looking at another woman and having that thought. But then I thought to myself, where did I get that from??? Well, I've chalked it up to social media. How many times do you see a celebrity post a photo where maybe her tummy isn't perfectly flat, and suddenly, the comments are flooded with pregnancy skeptics.

It's terrible. If people would stop commenting on other peoples bodies I think the world would be an easier place to live in. But either way, whether you like it or not, seeing repeated comments like that, you end up being conditioned into having those thoughts yourself. I once read somewhere years ago that your first thought is what you've been conditioned to think, and it's really your second thought that matters.

Social media now has also been overtaken by trends upon micro-trends upon consumerism galore. A terrible cycle really. Every week it seems there's a new buzzword for a new micro-trend, and then Shein picks it up and adds loads of clothes under that buzzword, and then millions of trend followers run after and spend all their money on those clothes, only to follow the next micro-trend a week later.

I found myself falling into this cycle I wont lie. I will always say that I hate trends, I've never been someone that NEEDS to follow trends. If a trend happens to be something I like, then I'll be on board and if not, I'll just keep doing my thing. But the problem is that with the rise of tik tok came the rise of these aesthetics and names, and then these tik tokers who make these aesthetics their entire personalities. And when you see someone have millions of people love them for sticking to one aesthetic, you get stressed and start telling yourself that you have to stick to one aesthetic or you'll be a poser, or people will stop liking you.

It's simply not true, it's a poison that the internet has fed us, and I'm convinced they've done it as a way to make fast fashion companies richer, but that's a story for another day.

What I want to say now is that it's all complete bullshit (I hope I'm allowed to swear on here still, I haven't been on tumblr in ages so if not tumblr i'm sorry). We are human beings, and human beings are complex creatures with complex brains. We weren't built to only like one specific thing. We were made to be curious, and continue to expand ourselves and our interests. We are not an "aesthetic."

I have spent many wasted hours and days sitting and pondering my entire existence because I don't fit into a box. I'm cottage-core, but I'm also goth, but I'm also punk, but also I'm goblin-core, and I'm also 2000s twee, but I'm also a 70s rocker, but also an antique 20s girl, but don't forget that I'm 90s grunge, oh and trust me, I'm also midwestern Americana and southern gothic. Read that sentence over again if you couldn't figure out whats wrong with it. and again and again and again until you get it.

WE. ARE NOT. AN AESTHETIC.

You are allowed to dress however you want. There are no rules. These "rules" that seem to be unspoken but very loud, they're completely fake. Made up by mouths that could not process the information their eyes received correctly.

We are so complex, and that complexity creates such beauty. It's quite cliche but when you really think about it, it holds: If we were all exactly the same the world would be a horribly boring place.

I hope this gave some solace to anyone who stumbled across it. I know it certainly quieted my mind in the way I needed it to today. If you're hear, thank you for taking the time to listen to what I had to say, and I hope if you related, your days get easier and your heart feels less heavy. Much love <3