#i'm just. blehhhh

[linedwithmorecedar]

couldn't get this page right and I'm honestly just rlly tired of it so here u go tumblr!!! Messy wip i might pick up later!!!

[endwersed]

what happened to just backing out of a fic if it goes a direction you're not a fan of

[ink--theory]

stayed up til like 7 am playing splatfest last night getting to ruler, forgot I was playing in spanish still so when I got it my rank was star instead of standard ruler (so like estrella de [insert team name here])

so all my sleep addled brain could think of when I saw it was just

"i'm your star..? really???" 🥺🥺🥺

[clouds-of-wings]

I don't even know what my top albums of the year are, but here are some I discovered this year that I really liked, so that I don't come across as ONLY a hater. Linking my fav track, or one of my fave tracks, on YT every time.

Molllust - Mother Universe (A glimmer of hope in the irradiated wasteland that is symphonic metal at present. Also one of the four female-LED metal bands I know. Like with a female composer! Such wow!)

Knights of Heliopolis - Ferrum Fero Ferro Ferror (ditto about the hope thing. Also they have an operatic bass frontman and holyyyyy shiiiit that is the best thing ever! I keep fangirling about this band but they used to be called "Phoebus the Knight", so that's the tag that's in.)

Nostra Morte - Sin Retorno (A flicker of light from the NON-wasteland that symph was 12 years ago)

Silent Opera - Immortal Beauty (ditto. Oh how I wish for soothing rain and some fucking OPERA VOCALS in the fucking OPERA GENRE. Why is symph metal full of COWARDS and CASUALS? I know I sound like Holden Caulfield, but that's because he's right and my role model.)

Nanowar - Dislike to False Metal (Power Metal, Nanowar being awesome as usual. I link perhaps one of their less surprising songs bc I'm a sucker for that Rhapsody stuff but plz listen to the whole album, it also has tracks like this - great variety really, and greater wtf! I gently pat Gatto's head and wonder what he will do next, clearly he's called Cat for a reason.)

Elina Garanca - Habanera (These are just some famous arias, but her voice is really nice! Dark-voiced mezzo-sopranos rule the world!)

Snowy Shaw - White is the New Black (I have been listening to this so much lately. Somehow I always ignored his solo work after the Notre Dame stuff except for some of his singles, but this album is actually really really cool! I don't know which genre it is lol. Metal Archives says "Heavy Metal", but that doesn't really describe it so well. Snowy has a lot of personality, and so does his music. Just click! You may not even regret it!)

Wolfenmond - Can't pick an album... Galdra (EP!) I guess. Folk metal or medieval rock with a woman who doesn't get forced to sound cute.

Grendel's Sÿster - Myrtenkranz Heavy metal / folk metal with a woman who REALLY doesn't get forced to sound cute. As SATW said, women should be respected, but sister Germany should be feared. Damn straight. This is an EP, same music first in English, then in German.

Kornalyn - Intemporel (French acoustic folk, revolutionary communist and anarchist songs. This guy is a folk song recording MACHINE and I like almost everything he releases.)

Therion - Leviathan 3 (I still wrestle with this album. A lot! I also know from past experience that in retrospect I'm more likely to regret not including it than I am including it.)

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I also watched like 20 operas this year in an attempt to be a little less of a poser in the genre. I don't know which I would recommend the most. Wagner's "Die Walküre" touched me the most, both in terms of story and of pure epicness of the music. Kinda wiped the floor with everything else :/ It seems Wagner is the only one in opera who isn't shit at plots. Lohengrin also had a good story! Vivaldi's "Juditha Triumphans" (not technically an opera but an oratorio, but really I don't care, it's basically an opera) and Bizet's "Carmen" (I'm not linking that, there are 8945098340 good recordings, just find one that looks appealing to you) had the most pleasant music.

I also liked Alessandro nell‘Indie by Leonardo Vinci (no relation). I link my favourite scene. Don't worry about the lack of English subs, the plot is 4 hours of soap opera. They did a very traditional staging of this, like back in 1730, which means it's all countertenors and sopranists, half in drag. Thus it pairs nicely with the all-female Vivaldi one above. Back when women were real men who led armies and men had fake boobs or danced under falling rose petals singing about love, LIKE GOD INTENDED! TRADITIONAL VALUES!

[mnty-bubblegmyum]

i feel bad for people who see the intro post and think it's gonna be all ⋆⁺₊⋆ ☾⋆⁺₊⋆ sparkles in every post and the first thing they see while looking thru my posts is me telling my gf imma eat her ass

[hellishgayliath]

been at a block party basically all day long

I'm mentally checked out and buzzed ヽ( ´¬`)ノ

[kohaioi]

OH RIGHT my edit blog exists

[naritaren]

So I panicked because I can't find my holiday brown bags or my tissue paper, so I doordashed myself some gift bags from Walgreens. Except I fucked up the sizes, so I have three small ones, three medium ones, and one large one. I feel bad, but two people's gifts are in the big bag. (they're a couple anyway) I ended up grabbing a few hats, a couple of cowls, and some cup cozies. I also got candy canes to throw in there. I still feel weird about grabbing stuff from the bins, but it's the best I can do on short notice.

[someprettyname]

sigh calculations

Everytime I see such calculations I sigh

[a-chilleus]

sooo am i just gonna get sick *every* term around 2-3 weeks in? is that what the universe has decided?

[icebrooding]

I've been super low energy the past few days (I hit my absolute low on social energy (whoo introversion and neurodivergencies!) and then whoopee minor health issues) so it's been hard to rlly get stuff done but. i just wanna do Stuff :sob:

[hostess-of-horror]

I officially have a cold. 🙃

[i-miss-music-247]

I really gotta stop overthinking. Why can't I just do something without worrying whether it'll be good enough?

[crunchetime]

VOREK "STYG" GOLDFANG (they/them)

Gnoll Blood Hunter - Order of the Mutant

Mad Scientist meets Bandit Warlord. Undergoes many physical transformations regularly. Says things like 'blehhhh' and 'you will NEVER match my freak' in the midst of battle.

D&D OCs - Redesigns 2025 - Set 3 #4

UNDER THE CUT: old 2024 design & notes

there are many elements of Vorek's / Styg's old design that I want to reincorporate in different outfits that they wear; I think it makes sense that this character would have a lot of different looks especially since their appearance changes a lot due to all the alchemical experiments they perform on themself regularly.

I wasn't drawing a lot of anthro characters until my Furry Arc began in 2021, so I'm still learning how I like to draw head / face shapes for folks like this in my repertoire. I definitely want to draw more of Styg in the near future though, it's just now that I've finished all these guys I've been very burnt out on character drawing. I'll be doing lots of little doodles and stuff eventually though.

[kohaioi]

dances around while humming a song lalalala :]

[carpwood]

♱ andrej / andrea(s)｡ ´ཀ` 17 He / She Sys permahost (1) genderfluid/boygirl rabid deadboy corpsething. human but in a vague foxlike animal way.. i like masc & fem terms Never use they/them for me unless referring to me as the mortuary (my system as a whole). autistic w bpd & did, i have memory issues. (book) simon henriksson + smile dog fictive/irl and extremely delusional about it Not even in an "omg hes literally me" way i just am him and he is me and we are one. dead ass. i'm Him. theeeeee book simon. i cannot stand doubles but i do judge comfortability wit U all based off of whether i fw u or not. EXTREMELY mixed individual; indigenous (tribally enrolled), hispanic + sephardic, kurdish, serbian, czech, russian, and semi-distant swedish, hungarian + mongolian blehhhh. english is my first language but i can respond in swedish & russian. criminal justice major & chronic clip studio paint truther. general disclaimer i don't condone the shit i write about. normally i am the only person in my system that uses this acc but posts from the brainworms will be signed off with our names thumbs up emoji i post art and occasional ramblings about my ocs and my interests. i don't really call myself religious but i am definitely spiritual and i practice a mix of my tribe's traditional beliefs mixed with kemeticism & reverence for angels. set/sutekh is my primary patron deity & i also work with bastet & archangel chamuel, with connection to archangel micheal. i'm in a lot of subcultures but my mains are metalhead, scene & gyaru ^_^

i HEART psych horror, grungy gritty ps2 graphics, faux snuff, artistic gore, first person shooters & guns, old slashers, theology, the paranormal, catholic art & architecture, creepypasta, scp, zombies & apocalyptic media, rob zombie films, southwestern gothic, etc.... number 1 special interest of all time ever is cry of fear. obviously. competitors include horror as a genre, tornadic meteorology, cults, wolves, psychology, film, music, and art. i am also super into the walking dead, gta 4, afraid of monsters, texas chainsaw massacre, 3 from hell, house of 1000 corpses, metro 2033, the last of us, dark winds, reservation dogs, transformers, nuclear winter, postal, faith: the unholy trinity, marble hornets, ghost rider, mortal kombat, halo, reacher, metalocalypse, 28 days later franchise, s.t.a.l.k.e.r franchise, lollipop chainsaw, terminator, the alien franchise, call of duty, cs2, and supernatural

i listen to so much music bruh. fav genres are shoegaze, dsbm, death metal, stoner doom metal, psych/blues rock, russian post-punk, industrial metal/rock, 90s grunge, nu metal, death metal, goregrind, gorenoise, pornogrind Sometimes, breakcore, r&b, 80s-2000s rap, midwest emo & 2000s emo, dad rock, goth rock, doomerwave, blues rock, horrorcore, etc.... many many many favorite and loved bands. lifelover, electric wizard, досвидошь, psychonaut 4, xasthur, apati, sorry..., deadlife, fentanil, hypothermia, my useless life, decalius, carnica gore (GATEKEPT I AM CARNICA GORES NUMBER 1 FAN OF ALL TIME EVER SLASH SRS), mortician, couple skate, phyllomedusa, acid bath, mc bushpig, insane clown posse, south park mexican (sorry.), kraanium, happy days, malodorous, my bloody valentine, slowdive, alison's halo, swirlies, the breeders, radiohead, panchiko, kmfdm, ic3peak, last days of humanity, ploho, kino, lumen, sleep, cough, conan, bongzilla, bongripper, glukoza, deftones, alice in chains, nirvana, hole, together pangea, loathe, the nightblooms, starflyer 59, they are gutting a body of water, birth day, sign crushes motorist, ssshhhiiittt!, pisse, molchat doma, eyehategod, jack off jill, marilyn manson, slipknot, backhand (gatekept 😝😝😝), orgy, nine inch nails, rob zombie, white zombie, rammstein, none, suizid, lifeless, duster, monolord, chainsaw castration, toughguy, fulci, napalm death, pornofilmy, nero's day at disneyland, lauren bousfield, buerak, soundgarden, audioslave, hinder (Sorry.), stone temple pilots, big thief, razorrape, putrid stu, bile, sisters of mercy, scary bitches, she wants revenge, boy harsher, mindless self indulgence, polvo, pale saints, blue smiley, lsd and the search for god, the nightblooms, alex g (my goat), whirr, meat puppets, pavement, windhand, witchfinger general, pentagram, weedeater, igorrr, wipers, superheaven, zdechly osa, rory in early 20s, vestron vulture, filter, nails, cathedral, bloodbath, godsmack, black label society, get scared, korn, calabrese, the union underground, powerman 5000, blackbraid, medicine horse, harley poe, 1782, uncle acid & the deadbeats, diva destruction, paleface swiss, korol i shut, bishkek, genitorturers, sooo many more i am missing I LOVE SOUNNDS AND ARRANGEMENTS AND NOISE i also make music! very self conscious about i will get the balls to post demos someday but my primary projects are vidrig (dsbm), tikho/тихо (russian postpunk & doomerwave), reverse crucifixion (gorenoise), & slowburner (shoegaze) ☆

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