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vampiricmechanic · 1 year

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i've been trying to write a zhayu spirit would au fanfiction, hopefully i can get it somewhere

#i'm so restless help #damned meds

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lizzieisright · 8 days

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what my meds treat: anxiety disorder

what side-affect they cause: anxiety

#brought to you by me being restless and nauseous despite taking additional sedatives to help with the side affects #fuckin hate it here #can't fucking sit still it's so annoying #I'm taking SSRIs since they help with depressive episodes and anxiety if you're confused why I'm taking sedatives as well

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naamahdarling · 1 month

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#oh god it's bad brain times right now #im crawling out of my skin with how terrible everything is #I'm ao restless and pent up and angry and lonely and confused and just ...all bad things #this feels So Bad guys #i want to just scream to let it out but my throat hurts #oh this sucks so bad #im just. not coping.#I'm trying so hard i really am #but most of the things that help me or make my life better are unavailable right now and i can't find help to fix the things that are bad #ill be fine in a few hours but this is so unpleasant

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neverendingford · 2 months

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skyglow:

(alternative title: photo dump of a midnight desert run)

#photography #Ford's Art #color says shit #it was either go on a twelve mile run or re-download grindr and get absolutely blasted so I went with the more responsible option.#b because damn I'm feeling it tonight. or at least I was before the run. I need to shower and then I'll cook dinner and go to bed satiated.#I did also jerk off under the bridge and then piss on someone's flowers on the way home. gotta get those animal instincts out somehow right?#anyway I've successfully vented most of my manic energy and a cold shower will finish it off and then we're good.#the mood meds have been helping a lot. last time I got hit with this kind of a mood I came out of it with huge bite marks and chlamydia.#and I haven't been feeling it nearly as bad this time so that's nice. more like a restless dog and less like a caged wolf thirsty for blood.#yes I'm making references to Call of the Wild again deal with it.#anyway sorry to anyone who sees this from the tags and not because you follow me. you didn't sign up for this lmao.#also. this is why I can't be a binary trans woman. this night photography shit is the most gay-man thing ever and I enjoy it.#I was doing it before my last boyfriend but he got me even more into it.#anyway bye I'm gonna go shower and then eat food. I've been hungrier more recently.#between the meds and the hrt my appetite is bigger and I'm gaining weight with the hrt fat redistribution which is cool and good.#I want to be a healthy weight and maybe even a lil chonky? we'll see we'll see.

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things-that-make-sa-happy · 2 years

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You know, I think I am gonna go to the party.

#The Summer I Turned Pretty #tsitp #tsitpedit #Jeremiah Fisher #my beautiful boy!#I just love him okay?#Sa loves TSITP #Sa makes GIFs #I need to go to bed #i've not been sleeping well lately- work is making me nervous and anxious and restless #and I'm so tired #but I can't help myself and can't stop making these

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lunarharp · 1 year

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collection of some 2023 qifreys & orus. for my own fun and reflection

#witch hat tag #putting this here too! i'm allowed.#i DO want to do colour more but black & white is fun. it's their home. and being restricted to it has helped me focus on lines.#they really are characters that let you explore the full range of desperate restless seriousness AND Silly Time. i NEED that #i think qify is fully in love with the silly parts of oru like head OVER heels he needs it he needs it he needs to live with that #draw it out of me.... take me there. don't let me go #don't come any closer but don't let me go #and one day....some day together........ no you cant say that that's yuri. LITERALLY QIFREY & ANTHY NEED TO DRINK TEA TOGETHER THO.#like her and 14 year old qifrey. where brushbug is there so they both have an unfathomable creature. anyway

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dollypardonne · 5 months

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tracker 122923 (last updated 010924)

i don't know where to put this where i won't lose it so here's a tracker thingy that i'm hoping to get done without taking like 6 months

starters for @minghs, @jenubyjane, @sachurisu, oedonbin, ssamuwos, @yaywons, @clemencetaught, @urianius, @yaoogui @94vousmevoyez @rarenight replies for @eroticabomination (love, junko), @yaywons (xingqiao), @geaesaekki (evan), @minghs (ruka thread, ruka prompt), @hearstring (haru), @yanagochi (kyu) drabbles - jennie, joy, ruka, kozue, needy, maybe benjiro finally

if i've followed you first there's gonna be a starter coming your way so dw about initiating (unless you rly want to aha ofc i'll appreciate it) so if you see your name here it means that or that i owe you and you have the permission to bonk me anytime if you notice i'm taking too long. i won't be mad, i need a push

#ooc #smth about the end of the year makes me so restless like i wanna do so many things all at once help #but im putting writing on top of that priority list while i'm still enthusiastic abt it #also thanks to everyone to followed back #my activity is rly sparse here and im hoping to change that

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doggirl-narcolepsy · 10 months

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.........................................i haven't slept all night and i have a job interview in 2 hours :)

#i hate how my adhd gets when it's like anxious or excited for something #just won't let me sleep all night #because I'm so restless #anyways I'm interviewing for an internship doing warehousing in a toy shop so i hope it like goes well #it sounds like a cute job and like something that shouldn't stress me out *that* much with my current situation #hoping it could turn into a paid position though probably won't :c #y'all know how job markets is and all that #the work experience is nice i guess #helps cover up that 3 year gap in my resume lol #i just really need to start getting out there so i can make enough to get my adhd re-vetted privately to avoid the 2 year wait list im on #and then get the fuck out of this town and/or country

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joyridingmp3 · 2 years

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never thought I'd say this but I think i prefer alcohol to weed idk

#like I have a sativa kind which is my favourite #and i enjoy the way i feel limitless creativity when I smoke #like. yesterday I wrote some of my fic and the ideas were just coming to me so freely #and the words flowed freely from my brain to my fingertips #but idk #I think i just have been so restless lately and feeling like I have so much lost time to make up for #and i want to feel ALIVE which alcohol helps with #but i find weed kinda numbs my feelings #like don't get me wrong I still love her #maybe it's because I've had my stoner days so I'm just not as invested now??#such a weird feeling though I never thought I'd think this #but it's cool! it's good. it means I won't be like breaking the law as regularly I guess #mine #drugs

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noxtivagus · 1 year

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I LOVE LITERATURE SO MUCH. MY FAV COURSE FR

#🌙.rambles #ARGHHH TODAY WAS SO GOOD #w biology w the. oh my god i missed lab so much 🥺#i was just so curious n interested the whole time n it made me so so happy looking n managing stuff yk n #i'm rlly a fast learner 😭 i ended up helping some classmates w their own yk #literature tho i was so happy oh my god i was the only one who liked the 3rd short story the most #MARK ON THE WALL BY VIRGINIA WOOLF !!!! 🤍#ms. was talking abt how out of the three it's the most. complex? idk but a lot of ppl didn't understand it as well i think #MY CLASSMATES CLAPPED WHEN I STOOD UP BCS #for each story ms asked us all to stand up for which is your fav n so with mark on the wall i was uh. the only one #hflsfksjfs n then the last question before ending class.. smth w element of plot n what does it mean to be human #i was fucking restless in my seat but i'm so shy so my hand was shaking but #at the end i finally got the courage to recite 🥺 IM SO HAPPY IM SO PROUD OF MYSELF #n then today i think i actually felt for once that i'm part of my class bcs i'm usually so shy #back to that question tho. this is my fucking expertise #made me rlly realize i am such an empath :^) i won't deny my intelligence i love it actually #i think. a Lot. i do consider myself to be decently self-aware. i know myself well #i can. understand others more personally too yk? oh my god i'm rlly glad w what i recited in class hehe #i cld've said sm more but hflsjgksjfs >< i'm happy w how i presented myself #honestly when i'm not nervous or anxious i really thrive. i'd be a really good friend n lover maybe n. speaking comes naturally #when i'm not nervous 💀 n when i'm passionate abt smth bcs i cld speak on the spot n have a coherent yk lil impromptu recitation or speech #n do well <3 i rlly mean it when anxiety just fucks me up bcs i'm confident in my own self #in the car rn n earlier dad brought up the concert n said he was actually rather interested in going #yh he knows their genre n all 🥺 n uhm. of how lyrics aren't very 'wholesome' as he said T_T #OFC.... MY DAD LOVES MUSIC YK HFLSKFJS #he's interested in accompanying us bcs we need an adult but he. has work so :c #we'll buy the tix later i think but mom said like condition no tailor for our prom dress this year #YEAH NP FUCK LOOKING PRETTY. MUSIC IS BETTER.#maybe tailor w grad ball or wtvr next year >.> honestly i'm just all in for the experience.#i don't care much for looking pretty or having a date for just shows n looks n confidence. i care more for the experience as a whole

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bredforloyalty · 1 year

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category 5 alcoholic moment

#booze alleviates some of the anxiety but completely prevents me from any kind of productivity.. while the emotions just flow bc #the dam's burst #while coffee in theory should help me focus but actually it just makes me so anxious and restless i tear all my hair out #so i'm supposed to hack this with nothing in my system? 😧#lol #kata.txt

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420pogpills · 2 years

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any fellow adhd havers on here can recommend me something to occupy my restlessness with whilst on public transport? i get so many weird looks when i'm on my way to work in the morning whilst people are just standing there calmly and i'm there almost dancing on the spot, cracking my fingers, constantly looking back and forth, changing my stance, bouncing my leg.. i need something to focus on whilst standing up (usually no seats in the morning due to rush hour) preferably compact? 😭

#not mcyt #i also have bad anxiety so just being in public is hard #it makes me more fidgety and more restless #i'm gonna have a browse on amazon but wondering maybe someone has tried something #that they can vouch REALLY helps #to delete later

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imagineagreatadventure · 9 months

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idk i'm still feeling really not great about the work situation that happened this week and really strongly considering looking elsewhere and it's not even entirely that situation's fault

#most of my company is actually pretty great but i'm just.... feeling very restless #going to see if my vacay helps that restlessness feeling but i have a feeling it's more career focused than anything else #like i feel like i'm a snake who needs to shed her skin #idk how else to explain it #and actually my boss was really great about it and so were a few other people (re the work sitch) but i'm just upset still tbh #it just might not be the place for me atm as much as I respect the company and the people i work with #also probably not helping that i'm pmsing atm #but i really have been feeling like this in a broader sense for months #maybe my vacation will help me pause and figure out what the hell i want to do generally

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joyflameball · 2 years

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You would think being MORE coherent wouldn't be something causing distress. And yet.

#vent #medication discussion #i thought antidepressants would like. help more #but NOOO these lessened my adhd symptoms.#and i. fucking. hate it.#i don't feel like myself #i wanna be stammery and stimmy and constantly moving and fucking up my words #like when i was at my best before i mentally crashed because of depression i was all of that #and now i'm not and it's freaking me out i don't feel like myself i hate this #like. i'm less depressed. that's good. my depression was mentally wrecking me.#my adhd symptoms have been decreased. that's bad. i hate that.#like. my adhd is a PART of me. take that away and you're taking away a part of who i am.#my depression isn't the same it nerfs my energy and if it were gone i would be the same person just happier and better mentally #my adhd is not that #i'm gonna. stay on these for a bit longer. and if my adhd symptoms don't come back. if these got rid of my adhd symptoms.#we're finding different meds.#because i am NOT going to get rid of my adhd.#i love my adhd. i love how it makes me who i am.#i love my stimming. i love my restlessness. i love how much i fuck up my words. i love how it affects my sense of humor.#regardless of the problems it can cause me i love that part of me so fucking much.#IT. STAYS.#ok to interact #do not reblog #hey at least this is getting rid of my imposter syndrome and crisis over my neurodivergence #yeah okay i definitely 100% have adhd #now medication GIVE IT BACK GIMME BACK MY ADHD I WILL FISTFIGHT YOU #the rsd can go though get rid of that forever

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wizardnuke · 1 year

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the shadowgast pacific rim au that exists in my brain.

#LONG TAGS LORE DUMP FOR A FIC I'M NEVER GONNA WRITE PROBABLY #deirta is pentecost she lost her husband in a battle and piloted the jaeger to shore alone - verin is tendo he could fight but deirta #doesn't want either of her sons in a jaeger ever. verin is okay enough with this. essek is not.#caleb ran a triple arm jaeger with astrid and wulf and lost his mind a little bit when they died. he felt them die. the added stress of #piloting a jaeger to shore on his own put him in the hospital and then a psych ward for three months #before he began helping with wall construction as equipment maintenance. clearly this is still a magic au and tech = magic etc etc #I CANNOT stress enough that jaegers are powered by luxon beacons.#anyway essek is in mako's position and caleb is beckett. the restless assistant and the tired veteran #essek chooses caleb's candidates - the candidate process is a little more complicated because these fantasy jaegers #work off of both magic and manual physical effort - candidates have to be evenly matched in both physical and mental fields #blumendrei only worked because caleb and astrid combined matched wulf in physicality. astrid and wulf matched caleb in casting.#it was. unhealthily competitive between them at times and astrid was the worst about it. he still misses them every single day.#it's like. shit hurts to do when one arm or leg is weaker than the other. it's like that. it has to match #essek and caleb have little noodle arms and truly insane skills w casting. so they're compatable. essek is sure. caleb does the same #'why do you keep making that face' bit like beckett did bc he's tired of essek's attitude and deirta's flat dismissal of him #they metaphorically roll the same exact initiative and the fight ends in caleb casting firebolt/essek casting sapping sting #and the two of them both use their reaction to counterspell. they both move to cast again when deirta is like Okay Stop Fighting I Get It #heehoo. the first time they drift together caleb leans that essek secretly recovered a beacon from a downed jaeger and has been using it to #advance his research while passing himself off as a genius - not that he isn't. he just has another stepping stone as well.#essek gets to live thru caleb's experience of feeling two (2) people die at the same exact moment. yeah verin has to pull that fuckin plug.#other notes. veth and yeza r the scientists. OBVIOUSLY veth drifts with a kaiju brain like are u KIDDING me #other jaeger teams are fjord+jester yasha+beau and the tealeaf triplets.

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allisonreader · 2 years

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I am so tired. I'm kind of in that state where I'm so exhausted that I'd love to go to bed already, but it's too early to do so. If I let myself go to sleep now, I'd wake up at like 4am and not be able to go back to sleep. Today was just so busy at work, and our new manager started today. Lucky me got to start teaching her our point of sale system. So I'm extremely drained and don't feel like doing anything. I don't want to watch anything, read anything, craft anything or even really write this post, but it's keeping me awake. I just really want to go to bed.

#my ankles are also killing me #that's neither really here or there but still needs to be said #I really want to go to sleep #but it would only lead to a restless sleep and an early morning #at least I like the new manager as a person so far #but it also sort of didn't give me anytime to slack off which would have helped how I'm feeling #I could/should try to work on my Inkling's story #but I really don't have the energy to

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