#i've been wanting to read more for a while now so LET'S GOOOOO

[nadjabear]

Me: "Yeah I've been listening to the audiobook I'm Glad My Mom Died and it's been pretty good so far" Friend: "That book is so sad tho"

5 minutes later

Me: "Look I just read this one and it was pretty good!" *points to My Lesbian Experience with Loneliness* Friend: "That looks like it's a pretty depressing book" Me: "It is but it's really good :D"

Another 5 minutes pass

Me: "Alright I'm going to buy this book!" Friend: "What's the name?" Me: "The summer Hikaru died" Friend: "WHY ARE YOU ONLY READING SAD BOOKS!?"

[patscorner]

Night, Night

Summary: You and your girlfriend expose your relationship at night.

wc: 2,027

Contains: just fluff, one of the worst endings I've written, but I hope yall enjoy.

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“Let's gooooo!!! Suck it, Kamorea!!” Paige shouts, standing from the couch and throwing her controller down before doing a victory lap around the dorm room. KK rolls her eyes at the blonde's antics and turns to her phone on the desk.

It'd been a while since all the girls had been able to really hang out, but since summer sessions had just ended, you decided a little gathering was well deserved. You invited the team to your apartment to chill, which is what led you to now; sitting next to your girlfriend on the couch, watching KK and Paige play rocket league, occasionally laughing at the comments that came from KK's live. You and Morgan weren't public yet, so you made sure you stayed a safe distance away from her so as to not raise suspicions.

You were doing an okay job, having to stop yourself from lacing your fingers with hers. Aubrey was at the desk, monitoring the comments, reading a couple out loud, and ignoring the out of pocket ones. You watched as Paige ran out of the room shouting, probably bothering anybody who was possibly sleeping. You can't help but giggle when you hear her being scolded by Azzi in the kitchen.

What you don't see is Morgan staring at you, hearts in her eyes, watching the way your eyes squint close and the way the corners of your mouth crease as you laugh. Aubrey sees it, though, and so do the other 1,527 viewers. Aubrey turns around and looks at Morgan, wordlessly waiting for her to stop looking at you. When she eventually does, Aubrey makes a face, and her eyes flick to the phone screen.

You look between them, eyebrows furrowing in confusion. “What, what happened?”

“Nothing.” The girls say in unison. Morgan clears her throat, trying to will the blush that had crept onto her face. KK turned around and smirked.

“Morrrrgggiieeeeee,” She teased, drawing a laugh from Aubrey and an eye roll from the freshman.

“Oookay!” Morgan stood up abruptly, the blanket you were sharing, falling off of her. “Where are you going?” You ask, pouting as she walked towards the door.

“Just to the kitchen, you need anything?” She turns, sliding her phone in her right pocket. You smile at her gesture. “Just some chips, if we have any.” She nods before walking out.

“I'm all good, thanks for asking, Morgie!” KK calls after her, Aubrey shaking her head as she turns back to the phone. “Shut up, KK!” Morgan calls back.

Paige comes back into the room with a pout on her face. “What's wrong with you?” You ask as she plops down on the couch next to you, opposite where Morgan was sitting. “Azzi is being mean.”

“Me telling you not to sit on me is not being mean!!” A voice calls.

“Whatever.” Paige groans, pulling her phone out.

You shake your head before going on your phone. You already feel your stomach tighten in the absence of the love of your life. You both have been dating for eight months, and it's been everything you wanted and more. It didn't take long for the team to figure it out, and as soon as they did, they teased you both relentlessly. You couldn't even smile at your phone without them asking if it was Morgan. Granted, it always was, but that's besides the point.

You think about the moments you've had with her. Whether it's playing 1 on 1 with her at 2 am, because she couldn't sleep or sitting next to each other on the couch after an argument, talking out your feelings. You think about the times she would leave the house when you were sick to get the medicine you wanted, even if you already had some that would've worked just the same. You think about the subtle sparks that burned until they were blazing inferno whenever you grazed each other during a game or at a party. You think about the heated makeout sessions that turned into more and you think about the slow, lazy kisses you shared while drifting in and out of consciousness.

Where is she?

You're about three seconds from getting up and searching for Morgan when she walks in with four bags of chips and a bottle of water. “Wha- why do you have so many?” You question.

The brunette gives you one of her dopey grins before as she sets them on the table. “I didn't know which one you wanted, so I brought one of each.” You can't hide the smile that sneaks its way to your face as you take the water from her. “Thank you, ba- Morgie.” You correct yourself quick enough that only the girl in front of you could hear it. Her eyes are wide with amusement. “You're welcome.” She says, plopping down next to you.

KK turns around and looks at the chips in Morgan's hand. “Whipped.” Is all she mutters and the other girls burst into giggles, including yourself.

Morgan grabs a pillow and throws it at her, hitting her in the back of the head. KK glares at her, and Morgan sticks her tongue out.

“Girl boo!”

“If Morgan could pass the ball like that, Coach would stop making us run suicides.” Paige muttered quietly, but not quiet enough because the room erupted with laughter. You place your hand on the freshman’s thigh, patting her lovingly as she glared at you, who was struggling to stifle your laughter. You bit your lip, and Morgan's eyes trailed to them, and suddenly, your breath hitched.

“Not too much on my kid, c’mon, yall.” Aubrey says, giggles escaping her lips. She glances at the comments, some people talking about the way Morgan was looking at you. She ignores them. “You act your any better, P, how do you miss a layup?”

“Woah! There were two people next to me!” Paige defends herself.

“Please, they were practically social distancing. You had plenty of room.” You say, earning a glare from her. You attempt to ignore the girl on the other side of you, whose arm is subtly wrapping itself around your waist from behind. You raise your eyebrows as you turn to Morgan, astonished by her boldness. She ignores you and pretends to be on her phone.

The night drags on as KK has started the talent show. Paige migrated to the floor after telling Aubrey she could get more kills than her in fortnite. You've sprawled out, legs where Paige once was, head in your girlfriend's lap. The day was starting to catch up to you as you started to drift in and out of consciousness, and Morgan, running her hands through your hair delicately, was lulling you to sleep. Despite your efforts to fight sleep, she could feel your body relax when you nodded off and tense up again when you realized you'd done so.

A small smile made home on her lips as she leaned down to your ear. “You tired?” she asked, pausing her hand movements. You shook your head. “Mmm-mmm. Wide awake, you?” You mumble. She scoffs playfully, resuming her hands.

“Do you wanna go to your room?” she whispers. “No.” You say. “‘m good right here.”

“Go to sleep, then.” She hums. You nod sheepishly before drifting off once more.

You'd been asleep for no longer than five minutes, before KK was yelling at Paige, who was trying to beat Aubrey's five kills in Fortnite.

“Paige, go left! There's like three peop- no! Your other left! Dumba-”

“Watch your mouth!” Aubrey yells before KK finishes the word. Just then, Paige gets a kill, and she exclaims loudly.

“Let's go!!!” She shouts before locking back in.

“Could yall quiet down?” Morgan says, causing Aubrey and KK to look at her, then glance at you, dozing off again, before looking at each other. “Is she really sleeping, right now? It's only 8:30.” KK laughs. Aubrey giggles. “Guess my kid is a grandmother.”

Morgan shakes her head, looking down at you. “No, just between school and practice, she hasn't been sleeping well.”

She can't help the smile that crawls onto her face as she glances down at you, eyes fluttered shut peacefully. The peace had been missing from your features for weeks, and been replaced with furrowed brows and stressed wrinkles.

KK and Aubrey look at each other before bursting out in loud laughter, waking you up once more, causing you to groan.

“She's so whipped, bro.” Paige mutters, her eyes never leaving the screen. This only eggs the other girls on, everybody forgetting about the now 2,000 people watching them on the other side of their phone screens.

"I know you're not talking." Morgan shoots back.

"Ay, not too much." Paige laughs.

Morgan rolls her eyes at the girls before leaning back down to your ear. “Let's go to bed, sweetheart.” She mumbles.

You don't even try to fight it this time. You just hum and sheepishly sit up before leaning your head back on the couch and letting your eyes close once more. At this point, nobody cared about the live, it being long forgotten on the desk.

Morgan patted your thigh before standing up. “Come on, pretty girl, let's get you to bed.” You whine as she wraps her arms around your back, pulling you up to your feet. “No..” You slur, your voice muffled by her shirt. She laughs as you reluctantly wrap your arms around her neck, and she taps the back of your thighs to signal you to jump, and you oblige. KK eyes widen, looking at you guys, then back at the live, watching people slowly start to freak out.

“Do I need to-” She cuts herself off when she sees Morgan shaking her head. “Don't worry about it. It was bound to happen.” She offers a small smile before kissing your head and walking out of the room. She hears the girls laughing in shock before she closes the door behind her. She earns giggles from Ice, Azzi, Ayanna, and Jana, who are playing a quiet game of UNO.

It's almost funny how easily she carried you to your bed, laying you down before standing back up. You whine and lift your arms up to her, signaling you want her to stay. She laughs before kissing your cheek. “I'll be right back, baby, hold on.”

Morgan walks out of the room and back into the room with KK. She gathers your phone, as well as the empty bags of chips and other trash that had gathered. “Bro, Morgan, come give these people a backstory so I can stop avoiding these comments.” the shorter girl groans. Morgan, Paige, and Aubrey laugh as she makes her way next to KK.

She squints as the questions roll in. “How long have y'all been dating?” She reads. “Uhhh- almost a year.” she smiles as she answers.

“Who said ‘I love you first?’” KK reads, turning to Morgan, who's blushing.

“Me, but she knew first. She just didn't tell me.” She rolls her eyes playfully.

“Okay, okay, that's enough. This is not Morgan's live, and I'm not bouta sit here and listen to this story again.” She complains. Morgan sends her a glare before backing up. “Whatever, she's waiting for me, anyway. Goodnight, Live.” She smiles and waves. “Night, Morgie.” KK says, directing her attention back to the TV screen.

“Night.” Aubrey offers. Morgan looks at the blonde. “Goodnight, Paige.”

All she gets is a grunt. She rolls her eyes before walking back out and offering the other girls goodnight.

She walked back into your room to find you right where she left you. She smiles as she kisses your cheek, waking you up gently. “Get under the blanket, baby.” She whispers. You move automatically, still sleep.

She crawls onto you, pulling the blanket over you both. She put all of her weight on you, her face in the crook of your neck, where she presses a kiss. “Goodnight. Love you.” She whispers. All she gets is a hum back, but she doesn't miss the way your arms wrap around her body, holding her securely onto her.

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[hikennosabo]

#tristampparty day 4, episode 4: hungry!

HAPPY WOLFWOOD WEDNESDAY AND DAY 4 OF @tristampparty!! i've watched this episode at least half a dozen times so... LET'S GOOOOO

it's been pointed out a million times already but lol lmao even. i want to eat rocks.

this is more subtle if you dont know japanese but wolfwood being introduced in episode 4 is also a death flag. did they plan it this way on purpose. (4=shi=death)

also the radio dj for this episode is masaya onosaka again!

it just breaks my heart, man. god when i read volume 7 and realized that's where orange got this from. man. man.

wolfwood getting hit by the truck is funny i'm sorry.

okay i'm kind of confused actually about what the plan was here... like we know that wolfwood was sent to be vash's guide, but him getting hit by the truck was OBVIOUSLY NOT PLANNED so the group finding zazie at the fuel station wasn't planned either. like. based on what zazie says later in the episode, they were "helping" wolfwood gain vash's trust by creating an enemy for them to face together. so did zazie just do all of this on the fly? should i just assume that zazie knows everything that's going on all the time? did they see what was going on from the worm cloud above that we see at the start of the episode? even though those worms were just... microbial? so they determined which fuel station the truck was going to stop at and killed the people there and disguised themself... that must have been what happened, right?

and what's with this. there was a post i saw a while ago where op said they don't like how orange adapted this scene. because the context is changed. because zazie and wolfwood are working together so instead of this being an act of genuine kindness wolfwood is just... acting i guess. but i don't know. does wolfwood even know this is zazie at this point. maybe he's stupid idk KLJDSFKLSDFJ or is it that he can't help himself because zazie LOOKS like a child?? I REALLY DON'T KNOW WHAT TO MAKE OF THIS SCENE NOW.

this is clearly an act though i mean unless orange has some insane as-yet-unseen backstory for zazie, these aren't genuine tears

it's so funny how vash gives roberto the bill like this. like, "daaaad..."

so he says, with zazie at the center of the composition.

they tried to spike him up a little bit, but no matter how you look at him, i don't think he's worthy of the title of needle-noggin. this is just wolfwood subconsciously remembering what he called vash in previous timelines (<- JOKE)

i wonder about this. the only "human" who can control worms is zazie. humans, plural, though? how many human disguises has zazie taken on over the years?

wolfwood has given negative reasons for vash to trust him. this is just vash subconsciously remembering his relationship with wolfwood in previous timelines (<- JOKE)

vash's little sneeze after him and wolfwood get sneezed out of the worm is sooooo cute

they're just lying out their ass they're fully aware that vash is a plant

ehhh i've said this before but i don't like how orange adapted zazie... they're very different from their manga counterpart. they're one of the most changed characters i think. i don't like their design that much either... the half-pants... idk... i like the bug mask at least...? i like that there's some insect-like design elements but... eh...

honestly shout out to these guys. the real stars of this episode fr

interesting how roberto is the one who distrusted wolfwood the most but doesn't actually oppose wolfwood going with them...? meryl is the one most opposed...

I'VE WATCHED THIS EPISODE SO MANY TIMES AND I STILL DON'T UNDERSTAND WHAT ZAZIE MEANS HERE. WHAT DO YOU MEAN KILLING FRIENDS. WOLFWOOD DOESN'T DO THAT. HE HAS NEVER DONE THAT.

what moment does he mean. talking about his gate so does he mean in episode 3? from when... right before he shot his gun at knives, maybe? there was a weird aura... i thought it was because of what knives did to vash's gun but... uhhh.... uhhhhhhhhhhhhh (steam comes out of my ears from thinking too hard)

uhhhh. this is ninelives. there's more than one of him. is this how they adapted ninelives... instead of being piloted by nine guys there are nine... of him... like... nine big guys... nine robots(?)...????

haha. yeah. and knives hates that. :')

that ends episode 4... we're really getting into it now...

[amplifyme]

S3 underway!

Though Lovers Be Lost: You weren't lying when you warned me about the over-the-top summary. XD This episode got me, btw-- showing how V and C's dynamic could change and thrive, Vincent struggling, and Cathy wanting to celebrate their new gift only for Gabriel to claim it (literally believing in gifts now) as his own. Cathy's death was no her fault; and I'm glad, because it's more tragic and honoring to the best in her character rather diminishing it with another thoughtless action. Father and the community just waiting outside the tunnel for V and C got me laughing... little did anyone know. Vincent not remembering at first, his face very Buster when he was brought back home, slowly regaining names and his normal memories (the constellations with Father and Father realizing he's healed enough to joke with), and struggling over the loss of their bond... which, all told, was the worst thing to happen to the both of them. His tenuous bond with his son is intriguing. Cathy's betrayal (Moreno is brilliant), torture, imprisonment, labor, and death was cruel, cruel, cruel; but I am so glad the writers gave her dignity and strength. Gabriel: really enthralled with his character. Eyyyy, Elliot and eyy Bruch's right-hand man. Eyyyy Joe (though Joe forgets Cathy's special someone in the next ep., or assumes it's Elliot Burch.) Moreno: stellar.

Walk Slowly: Top-tier. The new theme song-- I LOVE IT. Vincent's walk as he carries Cathy's body back to her apartment; and his vigil until dawn forces him to go. His and Below's mourning was exemplary. Joe's tears and shaky and referral to Diana and meeting Diana was fantastic. DIANA. DIANA, DIANA, DIANA. I love her. I never would have imagined her so serious-- for some reason, I read her voice as fast talking, higher pitched-- a far cry from measured and deliberate. Her case... and jumping into a new one. I adore that Diana "met" Catherine first, and really connected with her through her little doll. (I also noticed that she seems to get flashes or insights by touching objects... hmmmmm.) Mark took me by surprise, wonder how long he's going to be around. Her interrogation of both Joe and Elliot was spectacular. Vincent finally seeking out Father, and Father knowing Vincent's grief and guiding him through it... wow. Vincent's fight with the Other, Catherine's necklace, remembering her words, shocking Father to death with the revelation. Joe and Jen and the FUNERAL-- all the people Above and Below. Diana observing everyone, marking their pictures with question marks (and Father with the most.) The children hugging Vincent while the others are at the funeral.... Diana's contemplation and Vincent visiting the grave after dark. Wonderful, wonderful episode.

I'll stop there; but I am seriously addicted and want to watch more and more. I love everything about S3 and it's making me way, way too happy for so unhappy a time in the characters' lives. :DDDDD

Here we gooooo...

Though Lovers Be Lost. I'm going to address a few things you've written and then pose a few questions.

Cathy's death was no her fault; and I'm glad, because it's more tragic and honoring to the best in her character rather diminishing it with another thoughtless action.

Yes! I've always thought, given the corner the creative staff had been shoved into by circumstances beyond their control, and knowing there was no way they were going to please all the fans, they did a tremendous job of making sure Cathy's death had meaning and some dignity and that the events that followed it honored her and her impact on V's life and the lives of all those she loved.

Father and the community just waiting outside the tunnel for V and C got me laughing... little did anyone know.

C'mon, how ridiculous was that? I snicker every time Mouse says, "So quiet." Ladies and gentlemen, let me introduce you to the two most quiet lovers in the history of ever. And exactly how long did they wait before Father decided to go in after them? And how did Cathy manage to undress an unconscious 200+ pound man, ravish him, and then redress him? I still have so many questions about this opening scene. It could have been so much better. But then I remember that Linda Hamilton was ripely pregnant when this was shot and had only agreed to 10 hours of filming for these first two episodes and likely wasn't up to a love scene - supposing they'd even considered shooting one. Not going to say any more about the whole lava and roses thing either. Like GRRM said, at that point the writers were scrambling and doing the best they could with what they had. Let's move on to better things, shall we?

struggling over the loss of their bond... which, all told, was the worst thing to happen to the both of them.

Here's the first of the questions I'd like to ask you. Any theories as to why the bond was lost? Because that's a debate for the ages and I'm always up for digging into that.

Yes, it was a bad thing to have happen. But I also think it was inevitable.

I also think Cathy was very ambivalent about having the baby once the initial shock of her pregnancy wore off. She looked distressed when she went to visit the nursery after she got the news. And then there was her daydream about telling Vincent, and his less-than-thrilled reaction. I know from a storytelling standpoint that she couldn't tell him she was pregnant when she went Below to do just that, and I love the way she was so gentle with him and her speech about gifts lost and found, but I've always wondered what would have happened if she'd told him then.

Are you picking up on the signs that Vincent possibly walked out of that cave more comfortably integrated with parts of Buster's personality than we'd seen before? We know he's stressed out and frantic, searching for Cathy, but he also seems less... patient overall. Less willing to swallow down the kind of emotions he would have before the cave and the madness, maybe? Thoughts?

His tenuous bond with his son is intriguing.

Yes, it is. Especially when you consider that he thought his bond with Cathy was being restored and it wasn't that at all. I love how he actually empathically experienced the birth of his son but didn't know that's what it was. He was convinced Cathy was on that helicopter with Gabriel and didn't have any idea she was wasn't until she called out to him. And he didn't have to "feel her go" again, as he did in The Watcher, and I'm so grateful for that, because once is enough. I also like that it took a while before her revelation to him about what happened in the cave and their son sunk in (after finding her crystal there, mid-fight with Buster).

Gabriel: really enthralled with his character.

I'll admit it: I love Gabriel. He's the perfect nemesis for Vincent at this point in his journey. He's batshit crazy, but in a whole different way than Paracelsus. And he has some of the best lines. Stephen McHattie nailed this role.

I noticed, too, that Joe seemed to have forgotten the convo he had with Cathy at the beginning of TLBL. I decided to chalk it up to it being late at night and he was tired and it was more than six months later that Diana questioned him.

Speaking of, I'm going to take the rest of the discussion of Walk Slowly over to its own post. See ya there in a bit!

[returntosaturn271995]

Monday, March 18th: On the Run

Last week? From my feelings, therapy, cooking

This week: To all that good future stuff/enjoying the present

That's actually a little harsh. While being home almost always throws me off my game and has me crying at least once, there's still so much beauty about the Bay Area. The ways the trees smell, walking the Mary Stutz path with Dad and George, and sneaking some cigarettes with Mom to talk shit on the rest of the family to name a few. I also got quality time with Rosie (I sang her "Over the Rainbow" and fed her treats, and she had a massive diaper blowout and then tried to give me kisses and cuddles. That's how I know I love her tbh.)

I went to work and got an epic massage and a lot of sushi. All in all a girl could do worse with her life.

Today, I re-entered the stratasphere of self-improvement/general adult behavior and I feel vibrant. Is there a word for returning from vacation with renewed appreciation for your life? There should be. I bet there's a French word for it.

Seriously. It's just been a good day. I got back into running with a 555 Nike Club guide (my mile time has survived a week or so off). Wore an adorable skort and cropped polo set from Beyond Yoga along with my "Yes, Chef" hat and simple necklace.

At work we had an IAT meeting for Froot Loops and one of the benefits of shilling a sugary cereal is the advertising is pretty fun. Chelsea Sams at one point did a physical back bend during the presentation. And the group chat pops off! Not for nothing but I always get a ton of likes. We are currently creating briefs based off of Love is Blind Season 6 and the popularity of "Let's Gooooo".

Yes, this is my actual job.

I also got back on my reading game by re-opening the Spy rom-com book, The Blonde Identity, about a girl who is also on the run with amnesia trying to find her spy twin whom she's been mistaken for. It's very silly and fun, but after all of the heavier stuff I've been reading lately, it was almost too sweet. I found myself embarrassed to read it, of the lady who wrote, of the women who like it. But after a while, I let myself just enjoy something for what it is: something fun and cute and corny.

I don't want to be someone who can't enjoy silly, fun things. Those people suck. And oddly enough, the overpaid researcher for Froot Loops found evidence that silliness is good for people.

So, fucking, there. Enjoy. If you get pink in the cheeks over earnest love interests but not over HBO murdering people every two minutes then maybe rethink some things.

I still have skincare and yoga and cooking to get to. I'm cleaning and organizing the house. Right now? It's good to be in a pretty home, enjoying the girlier things in life. Sometimes it isn't about fixing what's broken, but rediscovering what isn't. I don't have to pretend to be more badass than I am.

[totaldramafan-lauri]

My Top 5 Songs in Hazbin Hotel (season 1)

W-well.....it's been a week since the finale, and while Hazbin still occupies a lot of my thoughts, I've mostly calmed down and have returned to thinking about my other hyperfixations alongside it again. Now that I'm not reeling with excitement anymore and I've rewatched the episodes and have let all the details sink in.....I have a few posts I wanna make!

This is the first one I wanna do. I LOOOOOVE the music of Hazbin to flipping DEATH. You can tell this is a show that was made by people who adore musicals and wanted to embody that in their show. Two songs per episode, and not a SINGLE dud. I mean it! While I have my personal favorites, I can say with confidence that every single song in this season is GREAT. I can easily see each song being someone's favorite, and I can see soooo many fans having unique top 5s filled with songs outside of mine. The soundtrack is THAT varied. There's something for everyone!

B-but, yeah, these are MY personal favorites. I'm not expecting my opinion to be the popular one, I just wanna show appreciation for five songs I love and have been playing on repeat since I first heard them. Anyone who's been around me during Eurovision season knows how much I love rambling about music I love, even if I'm by no means a music critic. It's just something I LIKE doing, and am maybe a bit passionate about too. S-so, if you disagree with me, that's fine! ^^

I-if you're interested in what I have to say, then feel free to read, as long as you know that I'm a rambler, so...be warned. Here we gooooo~!

"Poison"

Yup, can confirm, I'm still obsessed with this song. I haven't been listening to it AS often since the other songs came out, mainly cuz they're newer and I wanna spend more time with them, but I still go through withdrawal when I don't listen to this song a few times a day. Fittingly, it's....well, addictive to me! I-I can't help it....When this song was released on its own in early January it blew my mind! I did NOT expect this kinda song from Hazbin! Before it, I was fully expecting all the songs to be in the vain of Broadway, like "Happy Day In Hell" was. So, when this song hit, and I listened to it for the first time, my synthwave-loving heart was smitten within the first few seconds. It was love at first listen! I-I listened to this song on repeat for TWO HOURS STRAIGHT when it was new, and even after that, I could BARELY pull myself away from it for long for the next week. To say I was frothing over this song would be an understatement. And that was only because of the beat and instrumentation! That was enough to make me love it, like....I can say that even if I had never heard of Hazbin, I would still love this song.....but not only that, the lyrics are also FANTASTIC and make me feel so badly for Angel, showing how he blames himself for the situation he's trapped in. The first verse and chorus making it sound like he's having a good time, only for the second verse and chorus to start showing the cracks, and the ending absolutely gut-punching you by showing you the real him, with absolutely amazing voice acting. It's the perfect progression. And it hits even harder when you get the visuals along with it....

N-not gonna lie.....The scene that this plays in is hard to watch. That's not a complaint, since it was clearly the point, but....y-yeah, while I adore the song, I do tend to look away during its part in the episode. I love LISTENING to it on its own, but watching it is another story. Still my favorite song, but if you were introduced to it within the episode, I can definitely understand why it wouldn't be yours.

If I do have one complaint with this song, it's the lack of bridge. While a lot of great Hazbin songs are short, this is one that feels like it SHOULD be a full-length song, but isn't. However, this doesn't actually bother me. Never has. It's perfect as it is, it's just more of a "what if" thing, really.

2. "Stayed Gone"

When it comes to songs that feature Hazbin's resident scene-stealer, Alastor, you have two choices to pick from (W-well, there IS his amazing verse in "Finale", but I'm talking about songs where he's one of the main singers), and this is easily my favorite of the two. "Hell's Greatest Dad" is catchy and fun and all, but at least to me, it PALES in comparison to "Stayed Gone". I love this song to flipping death, holy crap. I can't WAIT to see Vox be the main villain of season 2 as Viv told us. I NEED to see more of this rivalry, cuz it gives me LIFE. I wanna talk about Vox as a character in another post, but in short, I really ended up liking him. The way he tries to be all cool and collected, but LOSES HIS MIND when Alastor comes up is extremely entertaining. The way he's so insecure about being rejected, yet tries to act like he doesn't care, it's great. Just the way he laughs nervously when he says "Where's he been? Who gives a shit!?" says it all. His VA is amazing. But really, Alastor just steals the show here, like he always does....The main reason why I like this song more than "Hell's Greatest Dad" is Alastor's demeanor here. H-he's SO confident and in control the whole time....acting so effortlessly level-headed as he puts Vox on blast, calling him out for his insecurities, his reliance on the other Vees, AND him still not being over being rejected all in one perfect verse....and then, capping it all off with that incredible, chilling ending, that ominous warning that he's got more in store, and he can't wait to have his fun....Easily my favorite single verse of the whole soundtrack. Exactly the kinda thing I wanted from the Radio Demon....J-just....the fact that he hijacked Vox's diss track on him, flipped it around, and ended it with THAT.....Holy crap....just....wow. Perfect....

A-also, this song is just....incredibly quotable, too? SO many memorable moments-

-Vox's drawing of Alastor -"Now his medium is getting bloody rare! *holding a plate of venison*" -"Clout-chasing mediocre video podcast" -"Every day, he's got a new format!" "You're looking at the future, he's the SHIT THAT COMES BEFORE THAT!" -"I said no and now he's pissy, that's the tea!" -"Uh-oh, the TV's buffering~"

Overall, I can't get enough of this song. It's a VERY close second. The only reason I put it below "Poison" is that this is a ranking of the songs as songs specifically, and "Poison" is easily the song I listen to the most on its own more than this one. To compare them, "Poison" is my favorite song to listen to, while "Stayed Gone" is my favorite song to watch in context. It's probably one of my favorite scenes of the whole season! The song's great, but the episode around it, knowing the characters, makes it even better. If you aren't a huge Alastor fan, I can't see this being one of your favorites, but if you are, it will most likely be. It's not really a song that can stand on its own without you knowing the characters.

3. "Hell Is Forever"

Now that Adam's dead, and we know we won't have to worry about dealing with him in the second season (unless he's in flashbacks)....we can come together and agree that this song is a flipping BANGER, right? I mean, holy crap, this song blew me away when I first heard it in a similar vain to "Poison". I heard it, and immediately knew I had to hear it again. I did NOT expect a song this epic in the first flipping episode. This sounds like a song you'd hear during the CLIMAX of some shows, it's so big. Seriously, it's BIG! Like, the way this song builds is incredible! That's the best part about it! I love a good rock song to begin with, and I LOVE the chorus, but then the song just kept topping itself! Each separate part- first chorus, great, second chorus, great, then it RAMPS UP with the instrumental break ("GUITAR SOLO FUCK YEEAAAAH"), clap along part, and FLIPPING KEY CHANGE ("Fuckin' HELL is forever, and it's meant to suck a lot!") that STILL gives me chills! This song has SO MUCH packed into it, it's crazy! It feels complete in a way a lot of other songs don't. This is the song that makes me wish I knew more music terminology cuz of just how many parts it has. I don't really care for Adam as a character, even if he does do his job at being a hatable villain, and cuz of that, for a while I was a bit ashamed of loving this song so much...but y'know what? Why SHOULD I be ashamed? Yeah, I don't agree with him, but I'm happy he gave us this song. AMAZING chorus, great buildup, just a dang epic song and I will NOT apologize for loving it! This is probably THE song I've been singing along with the most recently. It feels great to just....belt, even if I don't agree with the lyrics. XD

4. "Out For Love"

First off, I LOVE Carmilla's voice. Every song she's in gets bonus points from me by just her being in them. I can't explain why, I just find her voice very ear-pleasing. Part of that might be how distinct it is, but I know that's not the only thing....in any case, she's great. She's my second-favorite singer in the cast (after Alastor, of course). But even if she wasn't the one singing this song, I would STILL ADORE IT. This is a song that lives on its melody rather than its vocals, and holy CRAP is it catchy. The chorus, particularly the "LooooOOOoove, lo-o-o-OVE"s, live in my head rent-free. I also just tend to adore energetic fight songs and training songs, and this one definitely succeeds in hyping me up! It's a great song to put on when I need an energy boost cuz of how much of a punch it packs! The lyrics are great too, really tying Carmilla and Vaggie's motivations together as well as giving me inspo for my writing (let's just say that fighting for someone you love becomes relevant in the fic I'm working on, so...bias). It's too bad that this song is SOOOOOO SHORT! It's not even two minutes long! I would've loved for it to be longer! But, I guess not all songs can be long....*grumble* doesn't mean I can't be at least a bit bummed....I-I can't put this song on my playlist only cuz of how short it is....but for what we got of it, it's still incredible.

Also, I know that I'm only listing the songs here, but I do still wanna mention the visuals for this song, and how COOL they are. The choreography, ugh, it's soooo pretty! Carmilla is magnetic to watch, and I hope we get more of her in season 2!

5. "Respectless"

"That was a productive meeting!"

OK, n-now that that obligatory comment is outta the way, heh....

Yet another song that's shorter than two minutes, yet still packs a heck of a punch! This song being as catchy as it is is even more impressive than with "Out For Love", cuz unlike that song, this one has no chorus! It's just a short conversation in song form, that's all....and it goes SO unnecessarily hard!? Carmilla's voice is amazing like always (Her coming in mid-song with "You and the Vees are inane and uninfoooormed" is probably my fav part of the song), and Velvette absolutely crushes it here, calling out the older Overlords for being scared to fight and calling into question Carmilla's apprehension given that she's the one who makes guns for a living. Velvette's a brat, but she's smarter than you think she is, and I like that a lot. This song does lose a bit of impact following the finale, knowing that she doesn't follow through with any of what she says here and sits out the extermination with the other Vees, so....that's unfortunate, but this song still KILLS. It's basically an Establishing Character Moment for her, letting you know exactly the kind of person she is- confident, childish yet somehow smart, and showing her domain being social media by throwing in "I'm the hashtag bitch" and "Sorry bae, but I ain't swipin' right". This song makes you wanna see more of her, which we'll hopefully get next season! But honestly, that's all just the cherry on top for me. The main reason this song's one of my favorites is just the beat. I can't really explain what makes a song catchy, but....yeah, this song's catchy catchy CATCHYYYYYYY. All there is to it. It makes my monkey brain that likes catchiness happy.

And there we go, my five favorite songs from Hazbin Hotel! Like I said, I like all the songs in the show, these are just my favorites, and I hope you enjoyed me rambling about why I love them all just so, so much! But, I do have some honorable mentions that I also love almost as much, sooooo.....here's the rest of my top ten, if you're curious!

6. "Finale" 7. "You Didn't Know" 8. "Loser, Baby" 9. "More Than Anything" 10. "Whatever It Takes"

[glowingbadger]

I saw arranged marriage Hubert- ...can we have a part two? Thanks!

IT. IS. TIME.

Seriously I've known I wanted a part two of that one since I posted it loool which is actually super rare for me. As a heads up guys, I'll almost never do direct continuations, or multiple fics from the same prompt or specific concept- only if I feel there's genuinely more material in there to explore.

And we didn't get to be spicy with Hubert in the OG arranged marriage post (here, btw) so let's gooooo

Also man I gotta take a break from fics and do some headcanons for a while, these are making my brain flail wildly lol like this was another one where I'd been just staring at it and going back to it for so long that I have no idea if it's good anymore

Hubert (FE3H) x AFAB/Fem Reader

Arranged marriage, pt 2

NSFW 18+

"Linhardt, I swear to you, if she does not make a full recovery, and soon, I will ensure that your own suffering is many times worse than-"

A bemused sigh cuts through harsh words. Then,

"Don't waste your breath trying to intimidate me, Hubert, you know it's never worked," then, muttered irritably, "if you're hoping to annoy me into efficacy though, you may see results."

Something cools your skin, and then gradually warms it and seems to seep into you. Healing magic, perhaps, though you've only experienced it a handful of times before to compare it to. You feel your aching muscles relax on a familiar bed with a very familiar scent. You're so desperately exhausted that even moving a finger seems daunting- yet the magic entering your system gradually restores you. Slowly, very slowly, your mind is introducing you to ideas one at a time. You'd heard Hubert's voice nearby, and Linhardt's soon after. You don't think anyone else is present. You're being tended to for some reason. Think, what happened...

"Have you checked for signs of the full list of toxins that I provided?"

"Yes, and if you would actually listen to me, you would know that she's not poisoned and she's not injured- just acutely exhausted. Which makes two of us, I suppose."

The scraping of a chair across the floor finally shakes you enough to open your eyes. You watch Linhardt's back as he heads toward the door of the bedroom, passing by a visibly agitated Hubert. You wonder what has him so riled up.

"Hubert..?"

His golden eyes widen, and he hastily comes to sit beside you. He speaks your name with a strange rasp in his voice, and for a moment, he seems to reach for you. Yet he stalls himself, instead only shifting the chair closer to you.

"See? What did I say?" Linhardt says over his shoulder before departing. Hubert pays him no mind.

The magic infused into your body seems to work more rapidly now. Already, you feel more alert, more grounded. You sit upright on the bed, but notice how Hubert's cutting gaze narrows.

"Don't exert yourself-"

"I'm fine, really," you say, taking in a deep breath and letting it out in a sigh. You look to Hubert once more, thinking to apologize for taking his time. And it strikes you that somehow he seems even paler than usual, his eyes weary. You open your mouth to speak, but he begins first,

"I... Have a number of questions for you."

You nod. He pauses, unusually hesitant. You've never seen your husband at a loss for words. Eventually, he says,

"The letter you delivered to me- the seal was unbroken. You never opened it. Why did you come so quickly to bring it to me? You..." He frowns, and can't meet your eyes, "surely you knew it would be nearly impossible to get it to me in time."

Through his uncharacteristically rambling words, you realize he's asking you quite a few questions at once. Well, you do owe him some sort of explanation.

"All of the letters with that particular seal- you burn them immediately after reading them. So I figured- I mean, I wasn't trying to spy on you-"

"I know," he says softly. Then, his voice more sure, he says, "No spy would put themself at risk to deliver such sensitive information without even investigating its contents. So now, I must ask you why."

You don't reply immediately. Taking a breath and steadying yourself, you recall the events of the last evening, forcing your mind to place the pieces into a comprehensible image.

"The letter was delivered here after you'd already left for your mission- and I, uh, happened to recognize the seal. And... I was worried about you," you notice his lips tighten to a thin line, his jaw clenching, but you go on, "I couldn't risk you going into this mission without potentially important intel, so... I had a horse readied."

"And you made what ought to be a day's journey in four or five hours, by my estimate," he replies stiffly. You remember the frigid air of the pitch black early morning as you pushed yourself and your mount forward. You remember your body aching and your lungs burning. You remember collapsing into red and black fabric that smelled of bitter coffee and the iron tang of blood, clutching the letter in a trembling hand.

If the intel in this letter is as important as the others bearing the same seal, then Hubert can't carry out a mission without it, you had pushed yourself forward with the thought, The Empire needs him. His allies need him. His allies care about him- and so do I.

"I guess so," you almost laugh as you shake the memories from your head, "no wonder I passed out, huh." Your husband doesn't look amused in the slightest.

"Your actions were foolhardy and short-sighted," Hubert narrows his gaze at you, "However... because of the information you delivered, we were able to change course, and avoid catastrophic losses. You saved every one of my operatives. You saved me," he says it as though irritated by the fact, then trails off into silence.

"Well... It was worth it, then," you say simply.

He gets to his feet abruptly, startling you a bit. Refusing to meet your eyes, he says,

"I... have been extraordinarily cruel to you."

"No, I understand you had to be cautious-"

"And I can't begin to comprehend what compels you to make such excuses for me," he raises his voice over yours. But when he speaks again, it's softer, and with a note of finality, "I am... relieved that you are safe and well."

He turns toward the door, but you scramble out from under the sheets and grab hold of his sleeve.

"Wait- Hubert-"

You practically stumble into him on your way off of the bed. He catches you by your arms, but his posture is stiff, his touch distant as though he might flee at any moment. You recall what he'd said months ago now- that he wouldn't lay a finger on you until you knew the truth of how you felt about him. At the memory, you blurt out,

"I- I really admire you!"

His brow furrows deeply, his pale complexion tinted red.

"What manner of utter madness-"

"You work relentlessly for your ideals, with no expectation of personal reward or gain," you go on breathlessly, "You care so deeply for your allies- I know you do- and you're brilliant at encouraging their strong points and warning them away from dangerous habits. I'm not being naive," your hands cling to the front of his clothes, as though you could possibly keep him in place, keep him from pulling away from you yet again, "I know the things you've done, Hubert. But I also know why you've done them."

A gloved hand cups your cheek and spreads long fingers into your hair. His lips press firmly to yours, and a rush of heat washes through your body. You lean into him, fists clenching around his clothing, pulling him against you. How often had you recalled how his kiss had felt in these past weeks and months? Even then, you knew your memory couldn't compare with the feeling of his body near yours and his tongue brushing along the crease of your lips. You welcome him, and at last, you risk releasing his clothes from your grip, instead running your hands firm up his chest. He inhales deeply. You can feel his heart pounding beneath your touch.

Then, as suddenly as the kiss began, he breaks way.

"Forgive me," he mutters, turning his gaze away, "I- I had sworn I would not lay a hand on you-"

"Until I was certain of how I felt about you," you say, "That's what you promised me."

Once again, a light red flush creeps across his high cheekbones.

"You... ought to be in bed," he says, and clears his throat. But he hasn't pulled away from your touch.

"Only if you join me," you reply. You're not sure when you became so bold with your infamously cold husband. Perhaps it's the red tint across his face, or the way you know his heart is fluttering in his chest, much the same as yours. Hubert takes a breath and levels his cutting gaze on your expression, as though looking for any hint of hesitation. Then, without a word, he unclasps the cloak around his shoulders and lays it across the bedside chair.

Smiling warmly, you stand on tiptoe and press another kiss to his lips as he begins to undo the extensive series of buttons and clasps down the front of his militant attire. You do what you can to help, pulling aside layers of clothing between curious but insistent kisses. Once he's finally left in dress pants and his white undershirt, you run your hands up his torso, murmuring,

"You wear far too much clothing."

His hands slide around your waist, pulling you to him, and even this smallest gesture to affirm his own desire for you sets your pulse racing.

"Perhaps you are simply impatient," he whispers, heated breath brushing your skin.

"I think I've been plenty patient with you," you say, pulling him back towards the bed, a little surprised when he willingly follows. Then, he chuckles softly, the sound short and subdued, and says,

"That you most certainly have."

He follows you onto the bed, brushing your hair from your face before kissing you once again. Yet the feeling is completely different. It's deep and unrestrained, baring a kind of passion you hadn't realized had been lying dormant in him. Whimpering against his lips, you drape your arms around him, allowing all of the pent up longing of the past months to roar to life within you. Your body arches up against him as his tongue runs along yours and you finally feel his hands- the touch he'd denied you even when you'd kissed him the very first time. His hands run along the curves of your body, tracing and studying you. His breath comes quicker, and at last, you feel the heat and pressure of his manhood, hard between your thighs as it fights the confines of his trousers. Without thinking, your heel nudges the back of his thigh, urging him closer to you while your nails rake down his chest atop his shirt.

Hubert draws in a sharp breath and seizes your hands, pinning them to the sheets beside you. His face is flushed, his lips kissed pink and his hair rustled out of place.

"Behave," he says, his voice low and husky, "I... I can't bear it when you provoke me like that..."

You grin and bite at your bottom lip. Could it be that the Emperor's left hand is unusually sensitive to touch? Your eyes flicker down his frame and see his member already throbbing hard.

"I want to make you feel good, Hubert," you say softly.

"There will be other nights to indulge my... predilections," he replies, and releases your wrists to settle at your side, "For now, I insist that you allow me to atone for how I've treated you."

You're about to protest, to insist that he has nothing to make up for. But then, his lips are at your neck, his tongue pulsing against sensitive nerves that have wanted him for so long, and the words dissolve into a pleasured whine. You hardly notice, but his hand is marching down the front of your shirt, undoing buttons and exposing inch by inch of flesh. His lips soon follow, trailing down over your collarbones and across your chest to your breasts. An arm around your waist tugs you against him as the warmth of his mouth surrounds one of your nipples. Your head tilts back on the pillow, and you have to stop yourself from tangling your fingers through raven black hair. You don't want to overwhelm him. Instead, your hand finds his at your hips, drawing it upwards so you can remove the glove keeping you from him. Hubert is surprisingly compliant, watching you with a blaze of lust in his eyes as you tug away the fabric. He removes the other without a word, and sets them both aside. Now, you can feel him against your skin, his caress worshiping every curve of your frame while he kisses and gently bites at the swell of your breasts.

Without realizing, you'd been rubbing your thighs together as though you could possibly find relief from the rapidly building need between them. Then, Hubert's touch slides beneath the hem of your breeches, and your hips instinctively rise to meet his touch. You let out a trembling sigh as his long fingers ease between your folds, gliding across your aching clit until the tips tease your entrance.

"You're soaked..." he murmurs as though in disbelief. You offer him a hazy smile and say,

"I've wanted to be with you for so long, Hubert..."

His free hand guides you to face him, and he presses a slow and tender kiss to your lips. Before long, you're forced to break from him with a pleasured gasp as his fingers gently work into your drooling pussy, massaging just behind your clit and steadily pushing deeper, careful never to hurt you.

"I dearly regret having made you wait for so long," he says softly, watching your expressions as his fingers curl and pulse against your inner walls, "I have been a terribly neglectful husband, I fear."

Face flushed red and thighs tensing in around his hand, you force your hazy eyes to meet his. You want to reach out to him. You want to cling to him as your release takes you. Instead, you merely raise a hand to cradle his face and whimper his name. And he watches. He watches like he's never seen anything so beautiful as you gasp aloud and cum around his fingers. They stroke you deep inside, pushing you through your climax as you pant and moan for him- for your husband.

"Mmh... Hubert..." you gradually catch your breath as he slides his fingers out from you. You barely notice a subtle shift in his expression as he watches you gather yourself.

"I ought to do more for you-"

"No, I-" you cut him off, "I want you, please-"

Then, he's atop you on all fours, pulling your breeches down your legs with an urgency that catches you somewhat off guard. He doesn't bother with the rest of his own clothing, or with the shirt hanging from your arms and pooling under you on the bed. Hubert merely guides your thighs around his hips and opens the front of his trousers. And he kisses you, over and over, stealing your breath and sending your head spinning, and before you can track, you feel the hot tip of his cock pressing between your lower lips.

As the head pushes into your tight, wet cunt, Hubert tries and fails to bite back a primal, lustful groan. The pressure of his member gradually filling you is incredible, but despite this, you can't take your eyes off of his expression. You've never seen him look so earnest, and so strangely vulnerable. And this time, when you wrap your arms around his shoulders and hold him close, he doesn't deny you.

Soon, the head of his cock hits your deepest point, his pelvis fitting firm between your thighs as his full length nestles within you to the base. With a whimper, you feel yourself tighten and squeeze around him. Hubert breathes out your name and presses his lips to the crook of your neck, only shifting his hips slightly, slowly and rhythmically rubbing himself against your inner walls. His brow furrowed deeply, his lips at your neck press firmer, followed by his teeth, and soon he's marking you along your throat and down your collarbones as the pace of his thrusts gradually increases.

One arm hooks under your knee, drawing your leg upward and allowing him to push deeper into you, while the other arm slides under your waist to hold your body flush to his. In a tangle of limbs and half-removed clothing, your bodies move together, gasps and moans harmonized as Hubert's hips sway and his member pistons into you. You feel his abdomen flex tight with each thrust, his body harder and just a little more toned than you'd expected, but with a slender elegance you can't help but admire. Your fists clench around his shirt, scraping your nails across his back as his teeth lay into the crook of your neck. He must have marked you half a dozen times by now, but the heat of his mouth and the passion of him pressing himself against you is only more addictive each time.

Then, without even realizing, your hand runs up along his neck, and a shudder runs through his frame. Caging you against the bed, Hubert bucks his hips forward, suddenly thrusting into you deeper and harsher. You gasp out his name, your fingers curling in his hair, which only provokes him further.

"If- if you don't... I can't, I'll-" he can't make his words coherent, but you feel his cock swell and throb inside of you and know he's close.

"I- I want it..!" you whimper in his ear, "Please, Hubert- cu-cum for me!"

Hubert's restraint breaks like a cracked dam, and with a shaky moan, he drives into you to the hilt, nearly pushing you back on the bed. Then, his cock pulses and throbs as he cums, each volley causing his length to swell out against your clenching hole. In some distant corner of your mind, you think that your husband must not indulge in physical pleasure often; he's cumming so hard you can feel his entire body tense, and before long, he's filled you so thoroughly that you swear his release must be dripping down the curve of your ass. Then, at long last, he eases his cock out from your folds, and practically collapses on the bed beside you.

Smiling warmly, you brush stray bangs away from his face as you both catch your breath. Hubert clears his throat and says rather formally,

"Do you, er... require anything of me?" when you look at him curiously, he adds, "I have... never before been with anyone whom I cared to remain with afterwards."

You ease closer to him on the bed. Then, taking his hand in yours, you guide his arm around your waist and say,

"Well, we should probably clean up."

"Yes, of course, I'll prepare a bath for you." he says, and seems about to get up before you cut in,

"Wait- just..." you rest your hands on his chest, speaking softly in the quiet of your bedroom, "stay with me a little while?"

Hubert exhales, and pauses for a moment. Perhaps you should have known that his relative inexperience with true intimacy would blend strangely with his pragmatic and devoted personality. Yet then he draws near and places a lingering kiss to your forehead.

"Of course, my dearest wife. For as long as you will have me."

You're still a bit shaky, bitten and kissed everywhere, and not to mention practically dripping with your lover's cum. Regardless, you nuzzle your head against Hubert's chest, smiling as you note the uneven, fluttering rhythm of his heart. Then, with some surprise, you feel his arms draw around you and hold you close to him, unabashed and certain at last.

[kpop-dungeon-dark]

The King's Bitch. (King!Taehyung x You)

•TRIGGER WARNING•

Pretty much plot credits to @taesluttt.

Warning(s): Non-con, Punishment, King!Taehyung, brat!tamer Taehyung, choking, slapping, spanking, face fucking, hair pulling, sadist!Taehyung, watersports, spit play, historical au, fear kink, royal au, objectification (duh it's me so), anal, just rough shit basically. You're both legal in this. Read at your own risk.

His arms were held behind his back in the royal manner they'd taught to be in ever since he was a little boy, eyes focused on the little figure shivering just slightly due to the chill air of the dungeons from where he was standing, the bars of the prison cell separating King Taehyung and his rather young and newly wedded wife, the younger not having any idea that he was even there in one of the shadows, watching her hug her legs as she rocked back and forth.

"Bring her to me." Instructor Jeon was ordered in the King's heavy voice, it's rumble almost shaking up the walls as the younger man bowed respectfully before one of the dungeon keepers unlocked the cell, followed by Y/n being escorted out who started to try to challenge and fight Jeon, causing him to sigh as he bit the inside of his cheek, just pulling the reckless Queen without any conversation.

"LET ME GO! I AM THE QUEEN! HOW DARE YOU LAY YOUR LOWLY HANDS ON ME YOU IMBECILE! I WILL REPORT YOU ALL TO THE KING! HOW DARE ANY OF YOU EVEN TOUCH ME LET ALONE LOCK ME IN THIS HIDEOUS GOD FORBIDDEN DUNGEON! THAT FUCKING MAID AND YOU AND EVERYONE ELSE JUST WAIT! YOU WILL FACE MY WRA-" her threats turned into an embarrassing loud squeak when a now irritated King exposed his huge figure from the shadows of the dungeon before landing his hand on her soft cheek in full swing to shut her up, catching the young woman off guard as she lost her balance and fell on the ground.

"So very disappointing." Y/n was about to get back up and start screaming when she realises the voice to be her husband's. Oh no. He was one person she had to be good in front of so she could have him bring all her wishes true. Blinking her eyes to get rid of the stars in her eyes due to the impact of the King's slap, the Queen looked up at her husband, bottom lip jutting out.

"Y- Your highness! I've been disrespected so bad!" The man felt himself cringe from her vocabulary. What noble family raised their daughter like this? It was like she was raised in the slums. "You've no idea! I was disrespected by all these cruel people! They put me in prison! The Queen! This is unacce-"

"Enough!" A little gasp left her as he grabbed a huge handful of the air from the top of her head, pulling her up on her feet forcefully before starting to drag The Queen of the dungeon in front of everyone, the girl stumbling as she whined from the pain and tried to keep up, her small figure and strength nothing compared to the 40 year old King.

"I- Owww! Let g- gooooo~! It hurrrrts!" Y/n's cheeks were red in embarrassment as she caught all the staff of the Royal Palace watching her being dragged to the Royal Residency and then their chambers as her husband kept a firm grip on her hair, both of her smaller hands that were cupping over his unable to aid her. "You o- old man!" She grunted to herself as he dragged her towards the double doors of their chambers, a huge pout on her face along the pained expression. "Ugh! I told mother you looked like a cruel old grandpa King! But they forced me to marry you and now I am being abused!" Although she was only mumbling it, Taehyung could hear it and it angered him only more.

So his own wife thought of him as a cold and cruel King with no regard for anyone like the rest of the kingdom too, huh?

"OUCH!" The Queen squeaked when she was swung against the ground as her husband locked the door from the inside, unbuckling the leather belt around his pants before pulling it out of it's hoops and doubling it. "THAT WAS SO CRUEL OF YOU! NOW THE MAIDS WILL THINK DISRESPECTING ME IS OKAY! WHAT KIND OF-"

"Oh, shut up!" Turning around, the King moved before his young wife could even decipher what was happening, grabbing her smaller body and forcing her on her knees by her neck, pushing her further down so she was on all fours before locking her in place like that by the back of her throat, landing merciless belts on her sensitive still clothed buttocks, his strength enough to make it hurt still even through all the layers of fabric she wore. "You talk and complain too much."

Y/n was screeching as she tried to get away from the strong man, starting to crawl like a bitch almost, jerking with each hit as she tried to get away although having no luck, her husband's huge hand holding her nape tightly which controlled her whole body. "AHHH! PLEASE! PLEASE! WHAT DID I EVEN DOOOOO!" The girl pathetically crawled in circles, sobbing already.

"Humiliating me as a King and a husband is what you did." Came an angered reply before the King just ripped her beautiful and expensive robes off from behind, now landing his belt on her exposed skin, causing her to scream even louder.

Y/n hated it. All the fucking maids could hear it too. Nobody would respect her or be afraid of her anymore. She was just a laughing stock now. Being disciplined by her own husband like a child. Spanking at that.

“I DID NOT DO ANYTHING! IT WAS THE MAID’S FAULT! SHE MESSED UP WHAT I WANTED TO EAT- OUCH!” Her ass was on fire as she kept crawling in circles like an animal, whining and crying from the pain. “THEN THEY PUT ME IN PRISON AND INSTEAD OF ASKING THEM YOU HUMILIATED ME IN FRONT OF THEM! THIS IS NOT FAIR! THIS IS ABUSE!”

Taehyung deeply chuckled in disbelief as he finally stopped. “You really do not get it, do you, huh?” When Y/n continued to cry like a child and just stare at him in confusion, the King clicked his tongue in distaste and made his way to the edge of the bed while dragging her with him by her nape like a toy, taking a seat before wrapping the belt around her neck. "This is what they do in your Kingdom? Explains why you are all so illiterate and beaten up by the neighboring Kingdoms." The girl's eyebrows furrowed as he pulled her closer by the makeshift leash, their faces inches away now.

"How pathetic" Taehyung's eyes were dark and full of fury as he stared down at her through the long strands of his coal coloured hair, landing a wad of spit straight on her nose which dripped down to her lips, causing her to whine out only to be shushed with a slap. "You do not even know what you did. Tsk." His hand jerked at her leash when she tried to get away followed by a slap landing on her cheek.

"We do not hit our servants here, you illiterate little disrespectful slut" Y/n's eyes widened at his sudden choice of words, the King's cock getting hard from the sight of her on her knees on a leash like this after getting spanked. Completely at his mercy. "What are you in this Kingdom? An outsider with no knowledge or skills whatsoever; nothing." The girl gulped from his deep tone and harsh words, her hands free by her sides but unable to get up and try to defend herself. "You are nothing. But my mere wife. How dare you think you could order anyone here and then hit them for it?" A slap landed on her face before he grabbed her hair by his other hand, pulling at it and making her cry out, causing her lips to part as tears formed at the corners of her eyes.

"You're nothing without me." Taehyung deeply spoke, maintaining the eye contact while tightening his grip around her soft hair. "You're nothing to order or punish anyone here." A soft whimper escaped the girl when he spat on her tongue, squeezing on her throat just a little bit and cutting off her oxygen, watching her face get red as she ran out of breath, only adding to his need. "You're just a little bitch. A bitch for me to breed and take pleasure out of." While still choking her, Taehyung unclothed his cock with his other hand, pumping the erect organ just a little before loosening his grip. "What are you?" Y/n gasped for air as more tears streamed down her face, drool dripping out of her already swollen lips. "What are you?!" The man roughly jerked her by the throat, eliciting a squeak out of her.

"A- A bitch! A bitch, y- your Majesty!"

"Good." Taehyung's lips curled into a satisfied smirk before he forced her face closer to his cock, pushing it straight into her mouth with full strength, causing her to gag instantly as the girl's  eyes widened in alarm of what was happening. "Fuck…" The King threw his head back and arched his hips, getting used to the feeling of her tight and warm mouth clasped around his shaft. "So fucking tight and warm" a shudder ripped through his whole body from the feeling.

Y/n was struggling to breathe as she felt more and more tears escaping her eyes, limbs trembling from the intensity. "Just a bitch…" Taehyung's beautiful lips parted as he threw his head back, starting to thrust in her throat as he made her face meet him halfway, literally stomping it up and down his cock with the help of her hair. "I think I need to teach you your place since I didn't really have the time to when you arrived, hm?" His breaths were getting heavy as he glared down at her, pulling his cock out of her mouth and slowly pumping it, whimpering silently before he started to release his piss out and all over her face, causing it to drip down her chin and on her chest.

"Open up!" Prying her mouth open before landing a slap on her cheek, the male forced his leaking cock in her mouth and moaned, his balls hurting from how horny he was. "Drink it! Don't waste it!" Her face dangled to the side when he slapped it again, spitting on her. "Look at you! Nothing but a filthy little disgusting fucking urinal! Thinking she could do whatever in MY Palace just because she married me!" Tears were escaping her eyes and trailing down her cheeks as her throat slightly burnt from the abuse it underwent a few moments ago and now the hot piss she was being forced to consume.

"Move over" Taehyung growled when he was done, pushing her out of the way before kneeling on the ground and forcing her face against the ground that was wet from his face, pushing it in the small puddle. "Fuck… you're so much better when you're being like this, tsk." Smacking her ass and making her whine from the pain, the King spat copious amounts of spit on her pucker before massaging it in, causing her eyes to widen in realisation.

"Y- YOUR HIGH-"

"Shut it." Her eyes widened to the shape of saucers before rolling just slightly upward when he suddenly tugged at the belt, pulling her backwards all the while pushing his thick and long cock right up her small, unused ass. "You don't get a say in anything, 'dear'." The endearment was a mere taunt, the King's cock twitching in her soft walls as he pulled it out a little before pushing it back in, causing her tiny rim to forcefully expand and restrict it from defensively contracting, drilling the hole in strong and small paced thrusts.

"A foolish fucking child is what you are. No sense of responsibility." His deep voice was firm and Y/n couldn't help but gulp, helplessly being used in whichever way husband liked. "This can't go on like this. The Queen's court is a laughing stock at this point because she is not even there!" Y/n desperately tried to breath as he harshly slapped her ass, trying to force his balls in too. "Only enjoying her privileges!" Tilting her head back by her chin so she was forced to look up at him although upside down, the King spat in her mouth, shaking his head in distaste.

"I- I am sorry! I am sorry! I- I swear! P- Please! Please! I won't b- be bad again!" Y/n was crying as her ass burned. "Please, Y- Your Highness!" He wasn't an old and foolish King like she'd thought. Oh no.

"You better be." Harshly pulling her closer, Taehyung kissed her despite the piss coating her face, hands hastily slipping to her chest and fiddling with the little fabric left on her body, thumbs stroking her nipples and hardening them in an instant as his hands palmed her breasts. "You will only know obedience. I was letting you off because you were just a young little bride that had to leave her Kingdom and family. But I refuse to let you make a joke of my Kingdom and I."

Brats was one thing King Kim fucking despised. All talk no work.

"Y- Yes! P- P- Please stop! It hurts!" His heart fluttered from how she whined and pouted, looking cute even with her face all red and literally piss covered.

"That is the whole point." Peppering kisses down her neck, Taehyung but the tender skin and sucked harshly on it, marking her as his property. "When I have time one of these days, I'll make sure I force fuck some sense of responsibility in you, you pathetic brat. You will be a useful Queen, faithful wife and loving mother." Her eyes widened when she realised what he was saying. "I'll fill you deep and well with my heirs and you will raise each one yourself."

"I A- AM T- TOO YOUNG THOUGH! P- PLEASE!"

Taehyung grunted upon her pathetic attempts to try to break free from his grasp, only earning a harsh pinch to her nipples as he continued to give her hickeys all over her neck.

"You still think you get to decide?!" He chuckled in disbelief, biting down on her skin and softly grunting when he felt his balls twitch, forcing one of her hands to touch them as he tried to force them up her small rim. "No. You take what's being given to you and you be grateful for it! Bitches like you open their legs for their Masters and breed as much children from them as they want. That's all they fucking do."

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[pencilofawesomeness]

003 Yue

Aw man it's been a hot second since I've done my re-watching of ATLA but let's gooooo

How I feel about this character: I didn't think much about Yue when I was a kid, but the older I got, the more tragic of a character she became. She's a kid, but she has so much responsibility on her—that she willfully maintains—both because of her position as princess, and because she happened to be blessed by the moon in order to survive as a kid, neither of which is something she chose for herself. Yet, she follows through, even when it pained her. Yet, Yue did try to balance her own desires with what was best for her people by exploring a relationship with Sokka, which was incredibly clutch because she didn't throw responsibility but she didn't remain impassive either. Ultimately though, Yue had to sacrifice herself anyway, and it's a wonderful but heartbreaking moment. Her sacrifice isn't taken lightly in the show, but it's still tragic that for all of her attempts to find a compromise, she never had a chance. In a show that is all about the balance between childhood and responsibility, she's one of the losers. Yue was such a pure bean and I mourn her greatly.

Any/all the people I ship romantically with this character: Uhhh I'll be honest, I don't really have any. Her and Sokka aren't bad, but I really want to see Yue be able to be an independent bean and travel and touch some grass for a minute, since she spent her whole life trying to be what other people wanted and navigate that. I dunno. I'm not much of a shipper XD

My favorite non-romantic relationship for this character: I don't know what the difference between this question and the friendship question is so I'mma go hypothetical for this one. I would loved some sort of dynamic or parallel between her and Zuko. They're both sooo similar, being royal teens with a lot of pressure put on them, that I would watch/read the heck of them spending a day trying to do normal kid/teen things or just go grocery shopping or something so they can be the awkward trying-too-hard nuggets they were meant to be. (If any fics of these two actually exist out there, somebody hook me up)

My unpopular opinion about this character: Low-key, she's just Sokka's fridged girlfriend. Now, the arc she was in was beautifully done and the weight was there, but afterward, she's mostly something that Sokka refers to and we see less of Katara's and Aang's side. But that's also nitpicky and I'm reaching; I can't say that I've thought enough about her to have these kind of hot-takes, and it's also been a while since I've actually watched the show so I could be forgetting some stuff.

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon: Aside from grocery shopping with Zuko, I honestly would have loved if she showed up more, somehow.

Favorite friendship for this character: Sadly, she doesn't really get much in canon besides with Sokka, but it would have been cool if she got to hang with Aang more for that spiritual shenanigans, like what happened that one time she helped him. I dunno.

My crossover ship: Uhhhhh hmmmm.... Not a ship at all, but I think it would be neat if somehow she took Ruu from Genshin Impact under her wing up in the spirit world, and they bonded over being turned into spirits/ghosts and then they explore the world/multiverse together under the guise of the moon. Yue's got some big sister energy and Ruu has allll of the little brother energy, and they're both pure beans that got sacrificed and deserved better. I'd read the heck out of that.

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Fandom Ask Game

[amynchan]

s...senpai noticed me. 0.o aight, then! I have been tagged to answer some questions and then tag 9 others. Let's gooooo

Favorite color: Purples and greens, though I've become more partial to purples. Which is funny, since my new work has a p lovely shade of purple as one of its colors. An excuse to wear it more! huzzah!

Currently reading: So much fanfiction, ngl. I've got quite a few on my subscription list. ^^; As for books, though, I've been rereading Black Cat to gain some equilibrium. I am having New Revelations about this series, which I adored back in high school, and they are making the experience so much fun!!

Last songs: I've been stuck on "Sorrow" and "In The Bedroom Down The Hall", tbh. "Older" has also been running through my mind. I'm a touch sad, but they all give me a sense that life doesn't stop just because you do for a bit. You can get up and go again as long as you're able to.

Last series: Last one I started fresh was probably the latest season of Blown Away (WHICH DID MAKE ME CRY AT ONE PIECE ACK MY HEART!!!), and I've been rereading Black Cat, as I've said. tbh, I don't really start things too much as I tend to hyperfixate for a while, and I am so not done with MDZS. Nope. Not done whatsoever.

Last movie: hrm... I tend--OH! I listened to Atlantis: The Lost Empire while I was doing some work! Had a Revelation about that, too. XD

Currently working on: too many fanfictions and ideas, honestly. I kinda ping-pong around them all, but the one I have open right now is a fanfiction about Song Lan, A-Qing, and Xiao Xingchen. It's mainly about Song Lan, but the other two are V Important.

Let's see who I can tag. XD @encyclopika, @citrinediamondeyes, @droff, @thesilvertophat, @born-potty, @oranjemonkie-blog, @hungryhungry-himbo, @chaotic-cheshire, @marl-writes

If anyone else wants to steal this, go for it! XD

[sukunasbabymama]

AHAHAHAHHA HERE WE GOOOOO!!! soorry it was so long that i had to had add keep reading, but i had sm fun doing this. cuz i thought about this all evening yesterday and i'd rather drink medicine then not share this! 💃🏿🙇🏿‍♀️😈

it started out when i was listening to my self-ship playlist with shinichiro (yes i made a self-ship playlist-💀) and a few songs i heard just screamed "BLACK DRGAONS FOUNDING MEMBERS" vibez.

benki - im sorry, but how is this not benki? this is his song, he literally made it 🙄👆🏿 and i can see him with his suit n tie + his glasses just swagging around ahhhhhhh!!

takeomi - reminds me of him a lil cuz, okay so remember when we got more of their backstory? at some point he started spiraling. idk but it's like at that one time, all he wanted was to be at the top, rich, his social status yk he didn't want to let any of that go

benki + waka or shin + omi - it's like 2 people singing the song, we needs to people!! either one can be backup for the other. i can't put it into words but, yea this is them!!

all of them - they're in the stage of their prime, #1 in japan. nobody can really go against them right? so what's better then spending life to the fullest?

takeomi - idk, but it's giving omi vibes. can't really explain, the brain's working mysteries. anywho #omi being soft for his girl!

all of them - there's 4 dudes, 4 founders- u get the picture right? i screameddddd, it just fits so well. shin seems like the one asking how to douige in the begging, yk cuz he wants to get the girls. then the guy after is giving omi vibez? he's hot and he knows. ok ok now guy after that? waka vibez 4sure, he seems so laid back and that sound older waka.

benki + waka - do i even have to explain this one? i can't even comprehend how is is like..them

all of them - is the vibe, kk. IT'S THE VIBEEEEEEEE!! YK LIKE PRE FIGHT VIBEZ, THEY WANT ALL THE SMOKE!! 💃🏿💃🏿💃🏿

benki or takeomi - listen, listen!! this ain't a song, but i was looking thru a album and i found this and i laughed my ass off. idk but it sounds like a conversation like yall would have, this wasn't even planned but i find it! 🙇🏿‍♀️

benki, shin or omi - idk, but i see it :? pls just imagine dancing to this song with them, i've been losing my mindd!!!

takeomi or benki - idk idk, but okay the song also kinda reminds me of this - maybe im wrong, but i like to see it that way

shinichiro freaking sano - i love this man with my life and he basically wrote this song for me...me told me 😐🤞🏿 omi is singing backup!! (omgjnrfnenfedeidm i kinda wanna write something for this one-💀) i've had 3 ideas for shin while i went to bed and almost cried, cuz i was afraid i'd forget it :/

*sighs dramatically* okie, that's all i have for now ;) have a good dayyyyy~

The fact that half of them are on my playlist I—

NO CAUSE BENKEI 6’4 ASS LIFTING HIS HANDS IN THE AIR WHILE MOVING HIS HIPS SPECIFICALLY WHEN YOURE MAD AND ALL TIME YOURE THERE LIKE 🙄🧍🏾‍♀️🥱

“Wake up in the morning feeling like P. Diddy” Thats what Takeomi wanted to say but my man was broke as hell uh😔🤧

THATS MY JAAAAAAAAAM AND ITS DEFINITELY TAKEOMI AND SHIN BC SHIN ANNOYING ASS KEEP SERENADING GIRLS LMAOOOOO [shin is there because he was promised cigarettes don’t mind him ladies]

I have this song on my top songs 2021 :’) catch them “UUUUUUUUUHHHHH😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨” while lifting their drinks.

I can make a whole scenario with Takeomi and this song, I can make a scenario with Takeomi and any Miguel song cause goddamn Miguel’s r&b are sensual as hell my godddd. But yeah, Takeomi and his girl:

Imagine being alone with him at his apartment, him with a cigarette on his left hand and a cup of brown liquor on his right hand, your behind press to his front while you move your hips softly to the rhythm of the song, your head falling back on his shoulder while he absently moves his hips with yours, leaving short pecs on your neck and singing specific lines of the song to you.

“You know that I adore you,” He whispers in a husky voice, humming when you suck a breath at his words.

Whole time the only one that can do it is Wakasa and they all giving him the nasty eye cause HE ISNT PUTTING THAY MUCH EFFORT AND IT LOOKS SO GOOD?

Benkei with the “You looking good with it fo’sho” and me going “of course I do, look at me🥴” WHY AM I LIKE THIS

OMGGGGF CATCH ME “WHATS COOLER THAN BEING COOL?” AND THEM SCREAMING AT THE TOP OF THEIR LUNGS “ICE COLD!!🗣🗣🗣🗣”

I love seeing that my fics reminds y’all of songs, I’m obsessedddddddd😩🙇🏽‍♀️

THAT BEAT? WRITE IT WRITE IT AND TAG ME AND LEMME FANGIRL OVER YOURRRR MAN RIGHT NAAAAAAAAUUUUUU!😭😭😭 omgggggg me think you can do it cause you’re my child🙇🏽‍♀️🤍

Also, what I do is that i put all my “messy ideas” on the note app but I don’t explain them in case I want to change it later, and I think about them with specific characters (that’s why sometimes it can be weird for me to upload for x characters like kisaki or whatever). You can do that love!

See? That way you have the general idea and don’t forget :)

I’m sorry if this is too long, I listened to them all and wanted to say something!💀🤍 love u for this baby.

[yuusaris]

Rules: tag 9 people you want to know better

@tenderwulf sniped me with a tagging like a deer in an overpopulated area, let's gooooo

Aaand since this is going into a readmore cvuz this... got... long... I'm gunna tag here!

@ferelden-loser, @eponymous-rose, @odin-n-out, @purge-that-urge-rhackathon, @millenniumringg @tortoistor @ygio @bakawitch aaaaand @super-lovely-collection of course, I encourage to do as well.... pardon the length, but even in text form, my favorite person to listen to is always me~

Favorite Color: Not sure about one solid color in particular, but I am a fucking SUCKER for gem tones.

Currently Reading: If audiobooks count, then Gideon the Ninth. The audiobook is really good, I'm having a good-ass time with this necromantic romp. (Or, if you will... necrompancy)

If not - thennn I JUST wrapped up The Witch's Book of Self-Care. I've been thinking of dipping my toes into the witchy-ness pool and this was.... well, I won't say it's a good start, but it did give me personally a good idea of what I want for myself spiritually in general. That has value to me. There's little tidbits about Center and Ground that are just - good for me in general, as my own disassociation from my body is really bad and I'm ready to start... like... being a person.

It's a decent book for me to figure out what I need?... but it's more a leveling ground book than something for any witch. Kinda like when you buy a plot of land to build on, you gotta check the ground before you buy it? I enjoyed it, but I'm not about to confidently call myself a witch from one book that teaches me how to ground myself and get an awareness for the body two chapters after teaching me how to make my own body butter.

Last Song: Last night, I carefully curated my music tastes on my drive home. This was to make sure I had a solid song to throw on this list so y'all can see how my music taste slaps. This is not a jokey ha-ha, I really did this.

Because I really want people who haven't listened to Kuchizuke by BUCK-TICK to listen to Kuchizuke by BUCK-TICK. I'm linking the lyric version so y'all can get the bop as well as the english translation. The sing slaps. The song FUCKS. Yes, it's about vampires, but it's in my Body/Life playlist because it suits it best. Shiki's a big mood for what I'm writing. And also it just

?>....But just now when I went to YouTube to find it, I learned the OBC performed Way Down Hadestown on Good Morning America was on my feed. So I clicked it. And I listened to it IMMEDIATELY, which counts because it's a song, so. There goes that.. How does he behave when his emotions contradict each other>

Last Series: Taylor and I watched the first few episodes of the English dub Code:Realize anime just last night and as someone who's slogging through the visual novel, it's such a breath of fucking fresh air to see shit MOVING.

I don't care if I'm spoiled. This is just a nice funtime translation of a slow-paced VN with a lot of plot and a lot of talking and not a lot of romance for five fucking chapters. It's only a lot because the game is a lot and it only has 12 episodes to do it in but- bro.

Bro, they made Lupin really charming. He isn't offensive in-game, but his charm and likeability are super-buried in the beginning and you need to dig, so the anime gets the top-dirt off for you early-on, which is great for me. He looks so much better animated than he does in stills and his English voice is like f u ck i ng b u t t e r r r r . This is a nice guy to look at and pretty to listen to and his characterization is much more clear from the get-go, whereas in the game, it can take a while. His actual characterization as a romanceable Arsene Lupin - the way he talks, his capability, his sensibleness, his actual skills in theivery - are all things the game nails right away, but it's just elevated by being able to see these things in real-time and not just text-descriptions and stillshots.

....Bro, Impey's tolerable. His English VA did a fucking miracle and made him not a fucking cANCER. It's insane how much more palatable he is and how much better his characterization translates. Impey is intolerable for me in the game so far and I haven't even gotten onto the fucking train yet. His introduction sucked. His dialogue sucked. His inability to leave me alone sucked. How tone-deaf. How people-ignorant. How utterly annoying and overactive to the point of middle-school syndrome. And the anime just.... pulls his character into the light. When he moves, when he emotes, you can finally see he's... he's just goofy. He's not just some hyper, brainless annoying fuck, he's active and confident and a goofball. I could romance this version of Impey, it's just a much cleaner cultural translation of this ambitious, silly character with big dreams and - what's better conveyed as - a big heart.

My boy Fran is wonderful. My man Van is wonderful. Saint-G is wonderful. My girl Cardia is amazingly weird. They really nailed how frickin weird this chick is. The way she talks and speaks are so weird and it works for his weird she is. Cardia is a really fun MC for an otome VN because she has a really distinct character and to see that really shine through as a story conveyed, instead of a story I'm part of, is so much fun. Her design gives her this ethereal, out-of-touch, oddness, like a monster could be. Her voice acting is spot-on, just what a good translation of a good character.

I'm not trying to review the anime, I swear, I'm just so fucking happy about the changes to the two weakest characters in the game as well as the banger showcasing of my favorite otome MC, Cardia's amazing. It's definitely an anime for people playing/already played the game, i feel like if you didn't it would just be a lot, so I'm really excited and feeling pandered to and I LOVE IT.

Last Movie: ....Oh God, was it Primer?

... I couldn't have been Primer, but... no.

...No! It was - okay, Taylor's family and I re-watched What We Did In The Shadows! Okay! Yeah! Yeah, I knew we watched something after Primer it was - it was WWDITS, the original movie.

Sweet, Savory, or Spicy: All at once, next.

(tho, I do have a particularly bad sweet tooth...)

Craving: Breakfast. A nice full breakfast. Hard to get full breakfast sometimes, cuz it's a lot of physical work at home, but going out relies on people having turkey or chicken bacon, which is surprisingly less likely than one would think. I've got three restaurants I like for breakfast and only one of them keeps it on hand.

OH! And a nice tea. A nice oolong. I had a Dark Pearl oolong yesterday and god it was so rich and dark... I might want a Tung Ting today, something lighter... or maybe a milk oolong. I usually like the Jin Xuan milk oolong, but that's actually not available anymore, I heard climate change fucked up it's production.

Actually, no, a dark one would be best right now, especially if I'm gunna be shopping and writing today. And maybe cleaning.... maybe I will get that Dark Pearl again....

Currently working on: .....

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Gimmie a second. Gotta rummage through my room.

So, these?

These are the character sheets I'm doing for Bakura and Ryou.

I want to write more within my Body for Body, Life For Life AU and I have a lot of ideas for it. I've got a lot written out for it too - but no consistant characterization.

So, to help me with this, Taylor gave me the list of questions he uses for his characters for his own characters, so. In order for me to really feel comfortable with the two of them, filling this out has been a HUGE help.

You can see I've got Canon interpretations in there as well. This is because if I'm going to be writing AU's, then it's important, in my opinion, to know what you're working with from the canon. This way I understand what will be changed and why it's changed. Plus, to write canon stuff, this is good to have on hand.

I clearly worked on Bakura's first, his canon characterization is actually more consistent than Ryou, which means I can identify the different reasons and results that would establish his characterization in similar ways. He doesn't have the Ring backstory in a demon Au, obviously, so what factors establish his behavior, way of speaking, reactions, beliefs, and so any of those reasonably change while keeping to the same character?

Ryou is particularly... both freeing and difficult to work with due to how KT doesn't know what to do with him in canon. His relationship with Bakura is never explored in the manga or anime. His actions and emotions need fan interpretation to make sense to a person and that can vary a lot. You could probably disagree already with stuff I wrote, or will write in the future. And in fact, for other stuff I'm writing for him, I'm already writing him in different ways depending on what I'm doing. Ryou can be really fun and freeing to write because you can feasibly write him in a lot of different ways, but this can also make it really difficult to keep consistent, or worse, could damage the writing's tone.

In regards to Body/Life, I need to find a nice balance between Ryou wanting to marry Bakura, being in love with Bakura, and being suspicious of him. Ryou is, by contradiction, rather naïve and rather keen. He's been through a lot of shit that could traumatize a person and may have traumatized him, but he's not unsubscribing himself from it. I need to work through his characterization to understand why he wants to marry Bakura, why he loves this demon, why all of this is acceptable, and why the issue with the marriage is one he can accept or breeze off.

I need a balance for Bakura to both care for this person, need to use him like an object, and blur the line in-between so it reads like it could go either way. I need to be very careful with how I write his language, because I established that language is important to demons, and keep it consistent with Bakura being an in-canon rude prick. I need to understand what he wants, why he wants it, and where Ryou falls on that scale.

And I need to convince my readers that these two belong together.

And once I finish these sheets - I can throw out everything I've fucking written and start all. Over. AgaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAIIIIIIIIIINNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN

[batmanisagatewaydrug]

reading update

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I put this off by a day so I could include another book on the "finished" list, and oh my GOD it was so good and I'm so excited to gush about it, so let's gooooo:

what have I been reading?

Starsoul (C.L. Polk) - what a DELIGHTFUL end to a series!! like Witchmark and Stormsong, it filled me with warm fuzzy feelings AND socialist rage! and I'm only a little miffed that [spoilers] we never got to see a certain promised wedding. C.L. Polk is tremendous, go read all their shit immediately.

The Body Is Not An Apology: The Power of Radical Self-Love [Second Edition] (Sonya Renee Taylor) - glad I read it! been on the list for a LONG time! do not actually remember a TON of things about it now that it's been a few weeks! but I'm sure it's doing a lot of really positive work for a lot of people, yeehaw!

Kink (edited by R.O. Kwon and Garth Greenwell) - okay, so. I made a point of reading this pretty quickly after it came out because so many people were harassing Kwon and Greenwell about it on twitter and I HAD to know what the hype was about, and it's... an impeccably well-curated collection of short stories, I'll give it that. the tone is pretty dang consistent throughout, and there are some real standouts - Brandon Taylor and Vanessa Clark's contributions come to mind. overall, though? man, these are some stories about sex that manage to never actually get very sexy. I don't want your literary prose, man, I want to intellectually nut.

Revolting Prostitutes: The Fight for Sex Workers' Rights (Molly Smith and Juno Mac) - this is hands down one of my FAVORITE books I've read this year. absolutely rock solid work, a great breakdown of various models of criminalization and legalization of sex work around the world and how it impacts the workers - written by actual sex workers. I feel like I really LEARNED reading this book, and I'm delighted. if you only read one nonfiction book this year make it this one.

Skin Folk (Nalo Hopkinson) - this collection didn't quite capture the delight I felt reading Falling In Love With Hominids, but the bright spots are absolutely radiant. special mention goes to "Fisherman," which offered up more tasteful smut in a single short story than the entirety of Kink.

The City of Brass (S.A. Chakraborty) - oh holy shit holy fuck you guys this was SO FUN, I love big sweeping fantasies so much!! I'm so excited to read the sequels!! Nahri and Ali are both delightful, the world is DECADENT, and the political intrigue is sumptuous. this is exactly the kind of shit I want in a doorstopper fantasy. can't believe Nahri and Dara managed to over 500 pages without boning but there's always hope for the sequel.

what am I reading now?

Book of Hours (Kevin Young) - okay, listen, we've established that I'm not good at reading poetry. but this one has a narrative so clear and coherent that even a dummy like me can pick up on it, and that's helping a lot!

what did I grab from the library to read while I hang out with my mom for two weeks?

Red at the Bone (Jacqueline Woodson) - Woodson is one of my favorite children's/middle readers authors in the entire world, and I'm super jazzed to read more of her adult fiction!

Children of Vengeance and Virtue (Tomi Adeyemi) - yes it's been more than two years since I read Children of Blood and Bone but I'm sure that it'll be fine!

Living a Feminist Life (Sara Ahmed) - this is another one that's been on my to-read list FOREVER, largely because of Ahmed's Feminist Killjoy work. can't go home without something academic to read so I can pretend my brain isn't in full vacation rot, etc.

[threeletterslife]

Hiiii I'm sorry I've been inactive for a while :/ I'm just less active on tumblr nowadays, and the fact that I can't post when I'm on the site really isn't helping ajshhshd (it doesn't let me add tags from my phone? but TAGS ARE MY LIFE and I can only go on my phone because of the vpn :( )

Anyway I am here!! For chapter 13!!! I'll try to read chapter 14 soon too ajshdhdbd

It is currently 1am so do not expect my thoughts to be coherent

A YEAR ON SOLARIA LETS GOOOOO

Rant on the general? Yes please, I will gladly listen to this

Omg not the meaningful(?) Dreams... (there's a word I'm looking for but my brain is not working I mean like...... dreams what have deeper meanings.... mystic? mmmmmmmmmmmmm I don't know you know what I mean)

Battlefield talks???? Things are PROGRESSING I like this

I understand why people would want her out on the battlefield but also my girl hasn't been trained properly??? Yeah she's learned to wield her fire but it'll take a lot more time to learn how to fight with it

Ah, yeah she's very empathetic and doesn't really deal with pain and death too well, as we've seen before. But also she's also been very open about her patriotism for solaria, so I'm wondering what she would have to say about this

Captain Im's speech ayyyyyy. (No but seriously) she's well spoken and a GREAT fucking debater, she handled that effortlessly

WAIT PLEASE I KNOW YOONGI'S GONNA BE TOO WORRIED ABOUT HER HES GONNA GO ROGUE

He went rogue 😭😭😭😭 this is so fun to watch look at him

“Officer Ryu’s going to give him a little visit and change his mind again.” — OMG PLEASE YES

You doubt it? Well, sir, its going to happen anyway because ✨plot✨ (and you're head over heels for y/n so you have to do what she says, and besides letting your emotions get in the way like this is a HUGE fucking mistake)

Also is this how she's gonna meet jungkook? Cause he's from darlaria.... ajshhxhsbs I should think so much ahead let's skip back (NO BUT SOMEBODY IN THE DARLAREAN ARMY WILL RECOGNISE HER I'M CALLING IT)

Yes, he's in denial. He doesn't want to admit he's in love with a darlarean :(((

Y/n knows she's darlarean right? She just doesn't care... her heart is solarian through and through

HES IN DENIAL THIS IS SO CUTE AJSHXHHXJSJS

Oh :( love and war and death :( YOURE GONNA KILL OFF YOONGI ARENT YOU??? YOU MAKE HIM GO ON THESE LONG SWEET TANGENTS BECAUSE YOURE PLANNING ON KILLING HIM YOUR MONSTER

I'm sorry, I shouldn't assume. bUT IF YOU DO IT I WILL BE AT YOUR DOOR FOR REVENGE

...no it doesn't make sense that she wasn't there? I don't know man I mean shouldn't she have a say in whether she fights?

WHY DID HIS BROTHER SHIFT TONE MIDSENTENCE I- "Am I good enough, brother? 🥺🥺🥺🥺" "Youre good enough for me" :))) "yoUR ENOUGH IS SUBPAR THATS TGE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN YOU AND ME" ??????????? Mid conversation??? his brother needs help 😭😭

This conversation hurts so much seeing it from yoongi's point of view like.... he's messing up so much right now conversation-wise but only because he's sOFT

Ah... yeah I think jungkook will recognise her and the the story will continue from there

Part of me is like LET THE GIRL FIGHT but on the other hand I DONT WANT HER TO MEET JUNGKOOK.please dear God just let her and yoongi have their love story, I'm sure jungkook's a great guy but live triangles stress me the HELL out and I will cry

Why would he ever care for a darlarean? Wow, it really shows how he's been raised to not even think of them as humans...

THE TENSION OHHH this isn't good for my heart

CAPTAIN MOON'S BACKSTORY HELLO??????? Sweetheart I want to hug you 😭😭😭

Captain moon is spiritual  I can see that, and I'm GLAD we got a meaning to the dream. Y/n is the ✨change✨

FINALLY THE GEM THANK YOU

THATS IT??? I WAS SO SURE IT WOULD B ESOMETBING IMPORTANT AHHHH

Great chapter as ever, love <3 ill try to read chapter 14 soon Have a great day!!

omg no don't apologize!! i can't believe tumblr has the audacity to mess with your tags >:((( ugh

nevertheless, you're here and i have received yet another one of your amazing asks!! (i can't believe you're writing these so late omg 😭 my brain shuts off at 11 these days 💀) but then again, i feel like the best time to read is at night because i'm more prone to ~feels~

ANYWAYS. yes! can you believe it's almost been a year? coincidentally, it's also been almost around a year since i've begun to actually write this series! time flies, doesn't it

LMAO i love writing the battlefield scenes! in the original plot, there weren't as many politics/technical aspects of the war involved, but as i began writing, adding it just felt right LOL

in this household, we love and respect captain im. that is all i have to say

LMAO i like your line of thinking 👀 we will see about your predictions!!! (please don't come for me; i am scared)

yoongi's siblings are... interesting. we'll get into them more in future chapters *wink wink*

the general's too soft for his own good LOL. but we love to see it

captain moon is totally an underrated officer! nobody thinks twice about her because she's always off praying to the spirits, but it's the only connection she has left with her family. a lot of the officers' backstories are tragic. like wait till we get to captain goe's 💀

:)))))) don't worry the gem will come up again <3

and THANK YOU! as usual, for writing such a long review so late at night!! i love reading through your scene-by-scene reactions LOL. it's one of the things that just motivates me to write more! have a wonderful day/night/afternoon!