#idk i just find it soothing

[garden-eel-draws]

Sounds to fall asleep to: middle-aged civil engineering dads talking with calm indignation about building and bridge collapses that were obviously incoming, with details about what bits of the building collapsed specifically and why.

[rillils]

‘all my favourite ships have:’

stucky + this post

[soldier-poet-king]

Redacted health problem that is ongoing and kinda just...should I be worried or do I just keep waiting + Redacted thing that's been everywhere the past few days but I find horrifically triggering in a way little else is but I can't seem to avoid it no matter how hard I try + it's fuckin February + all my usual brain shit

I have not had a single consistent emotion in???? and I feel like I'm in an endless period of limbo

[ughgoaway]

I guess this is a little cute thing about my life but I’m finishing a cross stitch project today that’s for a friend of mine that had a baby :)

omg, olive, that is SO CUTE!! I wish I could cross-stitch but the pain in my hands makes it impossible, but I fucking love watching people do it lol. sometimes I just play like 2 hour long cross-stitch videos and draw whilst watching!! im sure your friend and their baby are gonna loveeeeee it <33

[mueritos]

Autism is not something you question, ask your terapist or whoever gave you your gender dysphoria diagnosis to assess you. Those tests on the internet are not reliable. People who get diagnosed later in life don't do so because they seek it but because they are admitted for co-morbidities.

any neurodivergence is always something u question, especially when u live in a society that is not built for people with neurodivergencies.

therapists are not all ideal, and I think your assumption that i got my GD diagnosis from one is funny, any doctor can prescribe you with that shit without much question. The reason why im looking to research more into autism is because my therapist told me to, and so I can better equip myself with the language needed to advocate for myself. I have already spoken to my therapist about this several times but unfortunately, not every therapist is even equipped or informed enough about autism to guide people seeking information or a diagnosis.

yea, obviously all of those tests have a huge disclaimer to not use them as a way to diagnose. but they sure as hell help me understand what are my neurodivergent traits, especially on things that were completely normal to me or about things I never thought about. they provide me questions to delve deeper and understand where I fall on them.

there are a lot of people who seek a diagnosis because they just simply want to know, IF theyre even of the privilege to seek an official diagnosis. people can seek answers to things that are a concern to them regardless of the severity. Sometimes it just helps to know. It helps to know so that you can better understand yourself and how to navigate your life. I have many friends who have self diagnosed themselves with various other neurodivergences because they know they have it, and having the word and the community helps them understand how to cope and learn.

so yea.

[junmyeonists]

no song will ever make me feel the way she does btw.

[downfallofi]

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[pepprs]

this is the most cringe post i will have ever made up to this point in the history of my blog i think. but idk if i posted about it but ive been having horrible dreams recently and also separately from that ive been on a mission to recreate my childhood by cataloguing every piece of media / meme / internet thing / song / etc that i remember encountering and put it in a nice little listography (that i may or may not share bc it’s a lot) because a) i need to have every piece of my life readily accessible to everyone at all times and b) i need a distraction from the minneapolis thing lol. and bc of all of that i rediscovered the baby einstein videos i used to watch all the time as.. you know. a baby and i thought to myself ykw these were pretty relaxing so maybe these will help me sleep better and not have bad dreams anymore. and guess what. it worked. so then i started doodling some of my favorite characters / skits from the videos ive fallen asleep to so far and ive been adding to it a little bit every day and well.. i leave you with this

[enhalpy]

hii far 🧸

[yuriyuruandyuraart]

Jumping on the bandwagon to show you much love and appreciation!!

I absolutelyyyyyyyyyy adore your artwork and the beautiful creations you make!! You are so flipping fantastic that every time I see you on my dashboard I get a smile on my face !

The doodles and drawings you’ve done for killer nights made me so happy I couldn’t stop smiling and I continue to look back at them cuz they being me such joy!

I enjoy seeing your original characters and just your art in general is so fantastic! You’ve grown so much as an artist and I feel so honored and privileged to have known ya since you were writing anon on Zu’s blog!

Remember not to push yourself too hard, take breaks, and know that we absolutely love ya <3

ZQFAGETFFFFFFY JANNN YOU ABSOLUTE MENACEE OMG<3333

why is it always you guys sending me the sweetest little surprises in my ask box ever like?? you DO know i'm mortal and your kind words might just kill me right??? RIGHT!! you're ALL such awesome fantastic people i dunno what to even DO about them sometimes-

like this!! jann you're such an amazing artist AND writer yourself and you should know how much this means to me!! i never ever expected this amont of support coming from anyone when i started out really- much less coming from people so talented like you!! still can't fully wrap my head about it honestly hhh-

what started out as harmless fun trying to improve my english by writing small oneshots grew to having a blog of my own where everyone is just!! so SWEET i genuinely feel like a broken record repeating the same things like "sweet awesome kind amazing" but can you BLAME ME??? YOU'RE ALL SO FANTASTIC!!

i enjoy seeing the repercussions of my stubborn self sticking to people's posts and throwing love at them so much too so it's always such a pleasure to see familiar (and new!!!) names on my blog!! i hope you'll get even mORE support for your awesome works (ESP KILLER NIGHTS you know i like r&r but that fic was just. such a good beginning to their story istg :'Dc <3333)

[mellarkandart]

woke up this morning and suddenly remembered how much I adore these two

[soldier-poet-king]

Someone explain to me how scent and perfumes work but for like. Idiots. Because jasmine, bergamot, those scents are 100x better calming good for when I'm falling apart and are like magic for my brain, but the florals or citrusy or the "woodsy" smells, while sometimes nice, don't have the same effect. And I want more things with those smells but have absolutely none of the correct terminology for that 'class' of smells and the smell people will laugh at me

[mrs-kelly]

Good morning, yep I dreamt of Bigby all night afjdskl

[hyvee]

Got too high and contemplated the meaning of life and thought i got close to the answer, started sobbing uncontrollably. (I usually have stupid ‘revelation’ moments when im high lol) I don’t even fully remember the answer i came to, had smth to do w evolution and consciousness LOL. Anyway i remember feeling extremely alone, devastated. But what made the tears come was the thought “i am so happy and lucky to be alive.” That’s when i started crying. And right at that moment, my right hand moved to caress the left side of my face. It wasn’t a voluntary movement, it’s never happened before when i’ve been crying. My right hand held my face while i cried. And it was a strange cry, the tears felt heavy. Like a Ghibli cry LOL

[youngestdaughtersyndrome]

more on my cousin……..today i found out she’s moving to a big big city this summer bc she graduated high school this year and is going to uni in that city and it’s like kind of making me panic bc like. my whole life i’ve been able to calm myself down from the passage of time going too fast by telling myself things like. oh maddys not done x yet. maddys still doing y so i’m good it’s still far away but like she’s only a year older than me and i know it’s like ughhhh to panic about that but idk her graduating a couple weeks ago and now she’s moving to a big city with her boyfriend and she’s going to university and she’s like growing up and it’s scaring me because i’m next and i forget i’m not still in middle school and things are so big now and the world is so big and it’s so fucking terrifying to think that a year from now i’m gonna be thrust into it againsg my will and i can’t do anything but stand and face it the best i can but i don’t know what my best will look like like what if my best is me breaking down and ruining my own life at like 20 and i don’t wanna grow up i don’t want responsibilities like that like one day i’ll be this little kid and the next i’m an Adult obvi not like psychologically but legally and people are going to have expectations of me and i don’t know if i can live up to those expectations and i’m so scared of leaving high school bc things are actually kind of good and i’m scared of losing them i’m scared of losing my friends i’m scared of losing my girlfriend and ending up lost and alone and Legally an Adult in the world but still a child to myself it’s just. finding out she’s moving has really made me spiral tonight.

have u seen 13 going on 30. i think the scene where jenna goes home and cries in the closet and begs 2 be 13 again and can’t fall asleep until she’s in bed with her mom might be particularly cathartic to u rn <3

[autistic-britta-perry]

cellbit stuck on a costumer service job post prison and having not great therapy and being like ugh. ugh. trying to 'make it up to people' and get better while not disclosing he's done actual murders because he would not be free if he did. He roomed with Felps for a bit but then he found this very cheap place to live in and he just got that job and he knew Felps is not taking him changing seriously and was probably still doing bad shit that could get him in trouble. And he does want to keep having the somehow friendly relationship he has with Pac and Mike now, so.

He goes to check it out, and it's cheap it's very small but he's lived in worse places. If he feels there's something off about the residents and if the meat they cook tastes just like human flesh that's surely his own imagination right? if his hot new neighbour Roier sometimes has an odd look on his face or says strange things that's probably Cellbit projecting that he somehow knows about his past and is seeing right through him, RIGHT?