#idk it is just ROUGH. not unexpected but on top of the other shit that has happened this year?

[autisticaradiamegido]

day 124

aint that just the way though huh

[tichiox1]

Bill kaulitz☆ headcannons (with nsfw)

Word count:560

Sorry yall i was thirsty and bored

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Sfw

☆-When you two met you two instantly clicked like puzzle pieces before you knew it the both of you started to become friends .

☆-Bill started the first conversation (he's chatty ) you were tense and nervous at first i mean why wouldn't you he's Bill Kaulitz!!

☆-The favorite thing you two do together is either shopping or just talking to each other about anything (gossiping).

☆-Bill sometimes ask for your help with writing songs and translating it to english (he wants it to sound good in both!!).

☆-But before you realised it you started to have feelings for Bill , He's always so sweet and nice about everything but he's also a menace .

☆-Bill was the one who confessed , The two of you was just watching Tv and hanging out and he just dropped the bomb and blurted it out .

☆-"I like you" He suddenly said and you were like "Huh" (but of course you accepted but it was very unexpected).

☆-Tom's really happy for Bill ! He sometimes makes jokes that he's not gonna be a virgin anymore infront of everyone which makes Bill flustered.

☆-Bill's public about his relationship with you which makes some fan girls sad and some of them bad mouths you but you don't care (At least you got your mans).

☆-Bill writes songs about you!!

☆-He likes to go on dinner dates with you and watch movies at home after.

☆-He likes cuddling , he doesn't mind if he's the big spoon or little spoon he just wants to hold you.

☆-He makes you wear matching bracelets or rings with him (It's really cute ngl).

☆-Even when you aren't looking you sometimes feel him looking at you and smiling.

☆-Holding hands ✅✅

☆-You sometimes hug him or kiss him before he performs (he gets really nervous).

☆-If you don't like the Paparazzi he'll take off his jacket and cover you with it .

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Nsfw

☆-He likes to make out with you after performing .

☆-He's really sweet in bed but also very kinky(Chains , collars , blindfolds , handcuffs , ect) .

☆-He likes to take his time , not that rough but if he's extra sexually frustrated buckle up and get ready.

☆-When he makes out with you there's always tongue if it's heated then expect it.

☆-Whenever you two make out he leaves alot of hickeys like a shit ton of it all over your neck , collarbone , shoulder ect(Mans just kinky like that).

☆-He's a switch don't fight me ,i get that feeling he is , (he radiates that feeling jk).

☆-He likes to grunt , groan if he's really feeling it he'll softly moan .

☆-He likes to eat you out like a full course meal .

☆-When i say he's sweet he really is , when you feel uncomfortable he'll stop immediately and ask you "what's wrong?" "Are you ok?" softly almost a whisper.

☆-Foreplay.

☆-Whenever you two make out he rubs his knee on your crotch .

☆-He wants to make out with you anywhere anytime if you're up for it , against the wall , On the bed while he's on top of you , Just as long as you give him permission it's all good .

☆-He's good with his hands.

☆-If you do want to lead it's fine with him , he doesn't mind .

☆-alot of teasing like alot lot , but he'll feel bad eventually and touches you where you want him too.

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Nah bro why did i write this i haven't even held someones hands romantically before what am i doing😦

I was once an innocent gorl just a year ago idk what happened 😭😭

But hope you guys enjoyed and ill write more don't worry (i was also bored when i wrote this so )

[mothwithteeth]

god forgive my tasteless tongue

you can either be good at dialogue, or you can be good at the rest of it. I'm not that good at either but i definitely write more dialogue

pairing: Bakugou Katsuki x reader

contents: reader has piercings and a clit, pining but not for each other, angst, weed, dubcon bc weed but both parties are equally stoned and consenting, explicit smut

you can listen to Despite What You've Been Told by Two Gallants if you want to get *the vibe* (and title) but you don't have to

Why do you keep doing this to yourself? You’re at Eijirou’s apartment again with takeout and a shitty action movie you don’t actually care about watching. You just know he’ll like it. Pathetic. Anything for just a sliver of attention, only to flagellate yourself for it later. You’re a masochist, but not in any fun way. It’s sick. You’re sick. 

But then he smiles at you, all bright and sunshiney and happy to spend time with you and you can’t drag yourself away, no matter how hard you try. He’s a star that you can’t help but orbit; a lightless planet drawn in by gravity too strong to resist.

You’re not a planet, though. You’re a black hole. A point of pain so dense it eats anything that dares shine on it. He deserves better than you. It’s so hard to keep on the outer edge of orbit, threatening to pitch off into nothing at the slightest cosmic shift.

You’re torn from your reverie by the last thing you want to hear right now. Halfway through whatever movie you brought this time, Eijirou’s pager goes off. “Shit,” you hear him fumble for it. “Duty calls. You mind waiting here? It shouldn’t take too long; thirty minutes, tops.” He crosses his heart for emphasis. 

“Yeah, sure. Go do your thing, Mr. Hero.” he gives you a mock salute before ducking out the front door. 

You turn off the movie, usefulness outlived. That leaves you in the dark. In Eijirou’s apartment. Alone. This must be a new low in your lovesick gallantries. For the time being, you think you’ll spend the next half hour in quiet contemplation of your own faults and the decisions that have led you here. Maybe then you’ll get some sense through your thick skull. 

You’re not exactly alone in Eijirou’s apartment; a fact that you’re reminded of when the living room light flips on without warning. A yelp of surprise comes from the other side of the room. “Fucking hell!” How long have you been sitting like that? Fucking creepy.” It’s Bakugou. The roommate. The roommate who hates you. Wonderful. 

“Wouldn’t you like to know.” you answer with a roll of your eyes. Maybe you’ve never given him a reason not to hate you. Maybe he recognizes you for what you are. 

“No, seriously, did he just leave you here?” 

Your phone buzzes. A text from Eijirou: “def not 30min. Idk if im getting home 2night. sorry” Oof. Way to add injury to insult. How are you supposed to answer that without giving him free reign to ridicule you and your stupid infatuation? So you just roll your eyes as loudly as possible without saying anything. Bakugou sucks his teeth. “Alright then. I’m going outside to smoke. Do you want some?” 

“Really?”

“I may be an asshole but my mother would kill me if I was a bad host.” 

You don’t need his pity, but you will take his weed. “Yeah, alright, sure.”

“Don’t act so grateful, damn.” 

“Sorry.” You take a deep breath.  “Thank you, Bakugou. Yes, he did just leave me here. I don’t want to talk about it.” You follow him out onto the balcony and settle into the chair across from him. 

Bakugou produces a joint, already rolled, and a lighter. There’s no breeze, so it catches near instantly. He inhales deep before handing it over to you. You take your own deep inhale, letting it out slowly. “Thanks,” you hand it back. You keep going like that, handing it back and forth. He’s more generous than you anticipated. Before long, you’re both slouched in your chairs, joint finished and silence hanging. “You down for one more?”

“Rough day?”

“Yeah.”

“Me too. I’m down.” 

“Rad.”

It’s unexpected enough of a response from him that you break into a fit of giggles. “Rad,” you repeat. That’s an Eijirou-ism. You hate to admit it, but you’ve picked it up too. You can’t stop giggling. 

“Alright, alright. Shut the fuck up.” Bakugou shoves the second joint in your face. He’s successful in his efforts to get you to shut up, at least. 

“Soooooo…” you lean forward in your chair, elbows on the patio table. “Rough day?” 

“Rough day.” He agrees. 

“Rough day.”  You echo. This time, both of you erupt into giggles. 

After a few minutes, though, Bakugou gets this look on his face. “Why are you even here?” 

“What?” 

“He’s not coming back tonight. Dickhead finally texted me.” You didn’t get that update. Somehow you had held out hope but now you look stupid. Your giggles die in your throat. 

“He didn’t tell me that.” you admit, suddenly much less interested in conversation, despite your day getting significantly rougher in a matter of moments. 

“Well that’s fucking rude of him. What do you even see in him?” 

The record in your brain scratches. “What?” 

“Oh, don’t even start that with me. You’re so obvious. I thought you two were all but official.” You can’t place it, but something changes in his voice as he says it. 

A bitter laugh makes its way out before you can stop it. “Yeah, right.” 

“No?” he asks, head cocked. 

“Eijirou deserves much better than a jaded cynic,” you tell him, sitting back in your chair; daring him to mock you for it. 

“Finally, something we can agree on.” 

“Oh.” 

“The fuck do you mean ‘oh?’” You can almost see the steam coming out of his ears. Embarrassment? Anger? 

“Don’t ‘the fuck you mean’ me! You can’t tell me I’m obvious, and then do shit like that! You’re worse than I am!” 

“I am not!” 

“You contribute to his rent, and therefore you are the more lovesick one. I win.” You want to be laughing, you really do, but you’re not. You sigh. “We’re so fucking stupid.” 

“Two things we agree on.” 

The two of you stumble into Bakugou’s bedroom mere moments later. Only the stars know who moved first, but now you’re struggling with the button of these too-tight jeans with one hand because you don’t want to untangle your hand from his hair yet. “Fuck, this is so stupid,” you gasp between long, desperate kisses. 

“Yeah,” Bakugou nods, pulling his shirt over his head, forcing your hand free enough to strip yourself. You don’t even bother with your socks before falling into bed with him. 

He’s on you in an instant, lips and tongue hot against your neck, your clavicle, down your chest. “Holy shit,” you hear him exclaim. His fingers twist your nipple ring. “Does Eijirou know about these?” he asks, only half joking. 

“Nope,” you laugh. “I don’t usually lead with that.” 

“You’d probably have better luck if you did.” 

“Shut the fuck up,” you press his face back into your chest. Bakugou doesn’t complain. Instead, he sucks your nipple into his mouth, flicking at the piercing with his tongue. Your back arches into his touch as his hand trails down your side and between your legs, which spread in response. 

He has skill. You have to give him that. Maybe it’s the drugs.  His fingers enter you easily, spreading and scissoring to make room for himself before pulling out to rub your clit. You drag him back up to your face to kiss you. “So fucking good,” you whimper, hips thrusting to meet him. 

“Yeah?” Bakugou tries to preen. You roll your eyes. 

While Bakugou takes a moment to grab a condom from his nightstand and open it, you take your chance to get on top. “You have got to shut up sometimes,” you tell him, kissing his jaw and neck and rolling on the condom. In moments, you’re situated over him, the tip of his cock pressing against you. You slide down slowly, relishing the fullness as you descend. Bakugou groans, head tipped back, eyes closed until your hips meet his. He lazily opens his eyes to look at you and almost instantly regrets it. You look fucking incredible taking his dick like that, and the tight heat of your cunt just might be enough to kill him. 

You try to lift your hips up, but Bakugou pins you in place. “Gimme a second,” he grunts, teeth grit. You feel too good. His squirming and grinding, however, stimulates your clit, and you can’t stop yourself from squeezing around him and moaning yourself. It takes him a long moment to recover his composure before he starts guiding your hips. Neither of you is going to last long at this point. You’re too high and too pent up for this to be a long, drawn out affair. 

Your hips move faster despite Bakugou’s attempts to slow you. He doesn’t even seem to realize his hips are rising to meet yours thrust for thrust. It just feels so good in the moment to touch and be touched. Your hands press into the hard muscle of his chest to balance yourself, and he takes his time with your nipple piercings, seemingly fascinated. 

Faster and faster, the two of you grow sloppy in your need for release. Your hips finally slam against his, and his hands hold you in place. You grind your clit against him and both of you cum spectacularly. Both your eyes shut tight, and you both picture the same person. 

When your orgasm fades, you fall over to the side to catch your breath. You carefully move to the far side of his queen size bed to make as much space as possible while the two of you come down. As soon as you catch your breath, you get up to gather your clothes and get dressed. It takes you a few minutes, still stoned, but you manage. You get dressed pretty quickly from there. “I’m going to grab my stuff and head out.” 

“You don’t want to cuddle?” Bakugou asks sarcastically. 

“Bye!” you shout, closing the door to his room behind you.

[lem-cup-rev]

4.2 | The Valley of the Lost

She-Ra and the Princesses of Power (2018)

🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸

Talk about every episode being great in a completely different way!

Every episode of this show kind of feels like fanfiction of the other episodes, and this one more than ever with its extremely fresh madcap playful energy. This time, the characters were silly and over-the-top in a way I really liked. I think it had more bite to it! The characters had more conflict and rough edges, rather than trying to be valid and charming during their sitcom hijinks. It honestly felt very different from any She-Ra episode in my recent memory. But it also clearly had some of the stuff I loved from even the first few episodes, when I was praising the writing’s childishness.

Speaking of, if there was one annoying eye-rolling line, it was the way Bow contrived to hide the missing ship from Glimmer. I guess that trope is just one of my personal legos that the show is just gonna keep stepping on.

It was wild to have Perfuma relevant again! I think she essentially hasn’t been since her introduction. These writers have such a great sense of the comedy of her. The way she speaks exclusively in pleasantries but her frustration is extremely close to the surface. Her little arc was really fun, and the writing and acting just constantly had so much punch that it never felt too simple or contrived. I think her crisis of self-confidence could easily have been frustrating to me in a different episode – like ‘really? she can’t help save the world because she got mad at plants?’ It could have been a mismatch of childish and serious tones. But here, the tones were balanced so nicely that I knew the childish and serious stories would mesh perfectly instead of grating. Also, I love the way she didn’t get good at cactus tops but discovered their roots! I love cute little parables with an unexpected twist!

Coming in, I had no memory of Perfuma and Huntara interacting, but now I hope they get married and are in every scene from now on. The butch-femme electricity is insane.

It was pretty bizarre to have Glimmer extremely chipper right after that last episode, but I really liked her background plot of having FOMO. I love when the thoughtless competitive jock streak strikes up in Adora, I feel like that hasn’t been part of her character since like the Sea Hawk episode. Idk if I have anything to say about Bow, as usual, but he also channeled the fresh, energetic vibe and was a pleasure to have in class. The gag of his pad ringing like a cell phone also struck me as so fanfiction-y in the best way – like, it’s never worked like that before and that modern thing has never been part of the setting, but it’s a charming idea that is used to play with the existing character dynamics.

I. Like. Double Trouble! On my original watch, I hated them. I was like “Wait, this is the nonbinary character we get? Their only personality is flamboyant drag queen?” Though of course, Jacob Tobia just is like that in real life, so you can’t say it’s not accurate representation. My friend and I even coined the trope Double Troubling for when a character loudly demonstrates their own gimmick even though no one else in the scene is engaging or making it feel part of the world.

But this time I find them fun! I think their theatre thing is pretty creative and charming and didn’t really feel tacked-on so far. Also, I honestly didn’t know they were Catra in the battle, even though nothing could be more clearly set up. Good stuff, DT!

We better get some shit episodes in here soon, or all my star ratings are gonna be the same!

Next time: The most cutest widdle pwincess.

[spikesbimbo]

Their kinks/ Turn ons

- Gao, Hirugami, Suna

Cw: Harassment, pet play furry shit, *!degradation!*, *slight* cnc

a/n: i wrote a lot for suna bc we’re the same person

18+ Minors DNI

Gao:

Doesn't have a specific one so its usually a combo of them.

And as confident as he is that doesn't necessarily mean he's also intense/rough. (tbh its gnna be rough no matter what taking his dick but he doesn't mean it, okay?)

Size kink, duh.

He also likes to see your face.

To be more specific seeing the way its twists and turns, sweat dripping down it, your baby hairs sticking to your forehead, the way your eyes can't stay open while he fucks you. 

Also lovesss kissing all over you because it gets you wet enough to take him.

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“Shhh baby I got you, look at me” he cooed coming up to kiss your lips, lingering on them for what feels like forever. 

He started kissing down your neck, all the way down your body until he reached your core, slightly pushing his fingers in, making you let out a deprived moan. Your arms immediately reaching out for him, grabbing onto whatever they could get their hands on, them ultimately landing on his arms and wrists. 

“You gotta let go if you want me to make you feel good honey” he softly said, pausing his movement, his fingers now resting on your needy cunt. “Its gonna hurt without prep” 

You whined, not being able to voice your wants, instead just dragging his hands away, to which he let you, and scooting yourself up under him under you were pressed against his erection.

“You want it now baby?” he asked, already knowing how drenched you were just from kissing him. The effect he had on you made him gleam, just praising you could turn you into a puddle.

You quickly nodded, with him listening, steadily spreading your legs apart, inching himself inside you. After a few minutes he was almost fully in, you were a sobbing mess, already crying from overstimulation while he told you how much of a good girl you were being.

He started thrusting after you started rocking you hips against his, getting faster with each thrust. He was going insane looking down below him, you tiny little body accommodating his fat cock inside you, fuck.

 You couldn’t focus just hearing him whimper and moan “ah fuck” getting to you, hiding the embarssing look on your face with your hands, letting you feel special that you were making him feel this good.

He dragged your hands away from your face finally letting him see those oh so cute expressions you made while he was fucking you, making him get a little too excited as he fucked your harder until he came, him already doing the same to you multiple times. He went limp on your body, cum still in you, you wrapping your arms around him playing with his hair before he muttered  “fuck baby you drive me insane.”

Hirugami: 

PET PLAY

Pls, put on some animal ears and watch this boy go crazyyy. pls why do you tolerate his furry shit

You can use it to your advantage too

Let's say you did something bad, and now hes upset :(

Go up to him in your little outfit with some puppy ears on accompanied by puppy eyes and boy will forgive you right then and there.

Not without having a little fun first tho ;)

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“Your such a little greedy slut” he said, tugging on the tail in your ass making you squirm. Your ass was still sore, littered by his handprints. “You want some one else to fuck you huh? Fuck you with me?” 

“N-no daddy.” you cried.  “j-just want you, only you” you whimpered trying to prove your innocence, and that the guy you were talking to was just your classmate and nothing more.

“Really puppy?” He said now tugging on your leash pulling you off all fours until your face was eye to eye with his crotch. Did he already know you were telling the truth since the beginning, yes. But he also loved to play with you, getting a high out of the way you were acting.

“Mhmm” you said, nuzzling your check into his thigh, ready to do whatever it takes to make him happy again.

“I only want you daddy, you’re the only one I ever think of.” You said looking up at him with your big eyes, red from crying earlier. God you were too cute, always being his good girl, trying your best to not to disappoint him.

You were such a shy thing behind closed doors, dressing in baggy pants and jackets outside but as soon as you were home all you wore was little frilly dresses, barely covering your ass, cute little aprons, tiny tops with equally tiny booty shorts; striving for his attention in the most roundabout ways.

He turned you around, still on all fours, until your ass was facing him again. Sliding his finger down your slit before shoving them inside you, making you squeal, rocking your hips back into them.

He wasn’t afraid to show you that he was wrapped around your finger, he loved taking care of you just as much as you did him. He continued fingering you, roughly thrusting his fingers in and out of you, while tugging on your tail, suddenly hitting your g spot bringing you to an unexpected orgasm. 

Your arms gave out, him grabbing you before you fell, whispering praise into your ear while dragging you into his lap, not caring about the mess all over you.

“L-love you gami.” you muttered curling your head into his arms. One of your puppy ears falling off, the other one sliding down your hair.

“Love you too puppy.” he responded, kissing your forehead, slightly laughing at the state you were in, before taking you two to the bathroom to wash you up.

Is it obvs im a gami fucker?

Suna: 

Ok bby boy is most likely into everything, but doesnt care enough/ too tired to try it out

Sooooo, you have to bring it up

And hell glady follow

But deep down he just wants to get his dick wet most of the time.

So idk bout yall but that screams vanilla sex

Just sliding it in you in the morning and rocking you back and forth>>>>> some intense ass long freaky session

But this post is about their kinks so vanilla isn't enough…. sooo restraining if def one of them that you two frequently use. 

He’ll either tie up your hands, legs, etc., with whatever he can find or he’ll use his hands.

But dont think his attitude will leave with it. *!degradation!*

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“rin” you sleepily groaned, not wanting to be awake at the crack of dawn, his hands working their way up your shirt grabbing your boobs. “Lemme fuck” he whispers into your ear, his chest to your back with his erection poking your ass.

“Rin” you say this time, letting out more of a moan than a groan, him sliding one of his hands down your shorts, resting his fingers on your embarrassingly wet cunt, smirking at the way he made you.

“You have a wet dream bout me princess?” he teased, his breath in your ear. No you didn't have a wet dream about him, you were just… always needy. 

You'd hate to admit it, but your boyfriend was quite the sight. You always took pictures of him instead of staring, not wanting him to “bully” you any more. In fact you've even got off to his pictures, but you'd never tell a soul, especially not him.

“Fuck off.” you quickly said, slapping his hands away while scooting away from him, hiding your now flushed face.

He doesn't take that well and moves to grab your wrists above your head with one hand while shoving his fingers in your mouth with the other to get you to shut up, not wanting to hear any more shit come out of that pretty mouth of yours.

“You gonna let me fuck you right now?” he questions, cupping your jaw with the hand that still has his fingers in your mouth, already knowing he was gonna get what he wanted. 

You couldn't respond, getting embarrassed again that this was getting you so wet, you only open your legs more letting him slide in, the burning feeling still happening even though you were dripping.

“Fuck, youre so tight.” he groaned rocking back and forth in you, his hand gripping your wrists even tighter making your whine, pushing your self back into him.

“Fuck, you’re such a little slut, arent you doll?” he said catching your movement, shoving his face into your neck. “Oh that's right, you can't talk because you were being a bad little whore earlier.” he continued shoving his fingers more down your throat making you gag, tears running down your face, your cunt swallowing him whole, being on the brink of cumming.

You body freezes, locking up as he continues fucking you, your cunt tightening around him making him groaning out a mantra of your name and curses. The both of you cum, his grip loosening around your wrists setting them free and his fingers coming out of your mouth wrapping his hands around your torso, borderline hugging you. 

You two lay there, seeing that the clock still says 6:35 am, both of you simultaneously deciding that you'll clean yourselves later, and the only thing you two want to do now is go back to sleep.

[august-anon]

Ok 1 more, 4 & 15 with the Jaskier & Geralt again? Love ya!

You are an angel for being so patient with me, my friend, lol. I don’t even know how long I’ve been hoarding this because I have no sense of time, but thank you for being patient with my prompt-hoarding tendencies!

Also, this is very rough, I have not written a tickle fic in a while (everything I’ve been posting is months or weeks old oops lol), my apologies that your prompt is my warm-up!

Edit: idk why the read-more got all messed up :/

4. “You’re faking.”  15. “You’re not allowed to hurt me.” 

Also,,,,,,, modern AU anyone?

Dissonance

Fandom: The Witcher

Ship(s): could be platonic, but y’all know I’m about Geraskier lol

Characters (lee/ler): Lee!Geralt/Ler!Jaskier (little bit of lee!Jask/ler!Geralt at the end)

Word Count: 906 words

Summary: Geralt thought that Jaskier should know better than to annoy him. Jaskier proved to him that Geralt should know better than to provoke him.

[ao3 link]

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Jaskier loudly strummed yet another dissonant note. Geralt’s eye twitched.

“Are you finished?” Geralt grit out, turning a glare to the other side of the couch.

Jaskier rolled his eyes. “Geralt, I am an artist,” he said, playing another dissonant note. “I need to find the perfect off-putting chord, I can’t just play any random chord that comes to mind.”

Geralt growled and shut his laptop, barely refraining from slamming it. “Sure as hell seems like that’s all you’re doing.”

Jaskier scoffed and gave him an offended look. Then, in revenge, reached up and purposefully untuned a couple of his guitar strings and began strumming as loud as he possibly could.

Geralt lost it.

He launched across the couch and wrenched the guitar out of Jaskier’s hands, holding it high above his head. Jaskier stretched up to try and reach for it, but, despite how close they were in height, Geralt still had the advantage.

“Maybe if I beat you over the head with it, it’ll make the note you’re looking for.”

Jaskier scoffed again and cocked his hips to the side, putting his hands on his hips. “You’re not allowed to hurt me. As if you would ever.”

Geralt let out a frustrated huff. It was true, he wouldn’t.

Geralt resisted the urge to step back as Jaskier moved closer, beginning to smirk. “I know how to get you to give it back, anyway.”

Geralt raised an eyebrow. “Hmm?”

Jaskier wiggled his fingers in the air above Geralt’s armpit, smirk growing into a teasing grin. “Big tough guy like you? No way you’re not ticklish.”

Geralt locked every joint in his body, taking measured breaths to help him keep a straight face. “I’m not.”

Jaskier gave him a patronizing smile and touched his fingers down in Geralt’s armpit. It took all of Geralt’s willpower not to break immediately. He’d forgotten how truly ticklish he was, since he and his brothers had grown out of the playful torment so many years ago. Not to mention, it was usually him and Eskel against Lambert, anyway. He didn’t have much experience on the receiving end.

His stomach swooped as Jaskier let out a little evil laugh. “You’re faking.”

“You can’t prove that,” Geralt replied, speaking far too quickly. He barely stopped himself from gritting his teeth through the words and making it even more obvious.

“You’re cute when you’re lying,” Jaskier said.

And then he lunged.

Geralt couldn’t help his yelp of surprise as Jaskier managed to tackle him to the ground. Most of his focus went toward making sure Jaskier’s guitar didn’t smash against the floor, as well, and both hands went up to protect it.

In both an expected and unexpected move, Jaskier’s hands shot up into both his hollows. Geralt’s guard had gone down in his worry for the instrument, and he had no defense left to stop the startled laughter that was forced out of him. Geralt dropped the guitar the last few inches and it dropped harmlessly to the carpet with a gentle thud. 

“I knew you were ticklish!” Jaskier crowed.

Geralt couldn’t respond for a few moments, trying to adjust to the sensation. It was far more intense than Geralt ever remembered it being, and either Geralt had gotten more ticklish over time, or his brothers and Vesemir were just shit at tickling.

“Jaskier!” He eventually managed to growl out through his laughter.

“Yes, dear heart?” Jaskier cooed.

“Get out!”

Jaskier gave him a little faux-pout and tugged lightly at his hands, caught in Geralt’s armpits from his arms pressing into his sides. “You see, darling, I would, but the thing is, I’m trapped! You’ll have to raise your arms and free me if you ever want to be free from my tickles!”

Geralt squeezed his eyes shut and tossed his head back against the floor as Jaskier switched from lightly skittering his fingers to wiggling them as deep into the muscles as he could manage, with his limited movement. Geralt wheezed and cackled and tried to roll away, but Jaskier quickly planted himself on Geralt’s waist and foiled his escape.

“Wow, you’re not even trying! I wonder, maybe the big, bad gym rat likes the tickles? Maybe he doesn’t want them to stop?”

Geralt swallowed a squeal as Jaskier hit a sweet spot on the edge of his armpit. He’d never admit it out loud, but Jaskier wasn’t necessarily wrong. Geralt wasn’t not having fun.

But Jaskier was getting a little too cocky for his own good.

Geralt tossed his body to the side with as much of his weight as he could, making Jaskier yelp as the two of them rolled. His hands slipped out of Geralt’s armpits at the sudden move, and they grappled for dominance for a few moments.

Geralt wound up being the one on top, straddling Jaskier’s hips and pinning his hands under his knees. He let Jaskier struggle for a few moments before planting his hands on either side of Jaskier’s head and leaning in close.

“You made a mistake, Jaskier.”

“Wha--”

“I have two brothers.”

Jaskier’s eyes went wide, but he didn’t have a chance to beg for mercy before Geralt attacked, reaching one hand behind him to dig into Jaskier’s thigh while the other started kneading at his stomach. Jaskier screamed in laughter, his voice reaching octaves Geralt didn’t even knew he had, but Geralt didn’t stop.

The noise complaint was worth it.

[buttered-ghost-toast]

OC background story//Secondary Characters

1: i’m aware they’re sorta boring in a sense (literally all 3/4 profile busts lol) but I couldn’t be bothered to get super detailed about them yet. I was trying to work out a look, and this is the quickest way lol. Lots of mistakes here, don’t focus on that. Just...jive with me.

2: idk that anyone is going to be interested, but i’m happy with my little babies! :) This kept me busy lol. 

Long post ahead!

Okay, so the band, Adria was formed sort of by accident. None of the members thought they were really going to get anywhere and were mostly just learning to play instruments and jamming to escape the pressures of adolescent life. 

Niri--her parents were very strict and proper. “Yes, sir. No, ma’am.” type people who do what they can to keep up appearances. Her father is a police detective and her mother was a homemaker after the birth of her children, but was once an attorney. They expected the same level of success from their children, having picked out career paths before the kids were even a speck in the womb. When Niri and her older brother showed excellence in academics, they moved to a new city, enrolling them in an academy that was known for churning out high level success stories--Politicians, Judges, CEO’s of major corporations...you get the drill. They were happy to practically go into debt forever if it meant their kids would be successful. 

Year 1...Enter KOU. 

Kou’s dad was always business first. He expected his son to be the same. So much so that the day after the birth, he went out and bought a whole building to keep for his son, the future doctor, to house his practice. Being from an old money family, there was never a shortage of opportunities to rub elbows and make a way for this kid to be a success no matter what. Through years of primary education, he was a quiet kid, but there was something under the surface that loved to go against the flow of where his life was forced to travel. His mother passed when he was very young, but she was the reason he was able to have few moments of peace and fun. He and Niri were school rivals, fighting for the top spot on the scholar’s board, but...they wound up giving up the struggle when they realized they had a lot in common and neither really cared to pursue their parents’ dreams. They stopped attending after school programs and chose to graffiti and vandalize the building Kou’s dad bought while it was still empty. When they weren’t tagging, they were listening to “inappropriate music” and that soon became them teaching themselves to play the songs on instruments they bought...with Kou’s dad’s credit card. They didn’t sound bad after a while! 

One day, the pair skipped school altogether to avoid an exam they had not studied for. On their way out of the academy, they were tailed by someone they never expected would keep their secret so well...

KRISS

Kriss and Kou are cousins. Their mothers were twins, so the two share a few features, but their personalities couldn’t be any more opposite. Where Kou is a grounded, sensible person, Kriss is carefree and...kind of an idiot. His mother raised him on her own and as a very open, artistic soul, she taught Kriss to always follow his heart and his dreams. He’s basically never been told “No” in his entire life. He was a very energetic kid, so his mother urged him to try out the drums (maybe it would tire him out enough for a nap) which he ended up falling in love with. It’s one of the few things he ever really kept an interest in despite being pretty flighty with his pursuits otherwise. Once he realized what his cousin was up to, he set up a drum kit within a few hours and was glued to their side ever since. 

Kriss’s mom is the only person who really believed in the band from the start. She would be a big help through their early years and to this day has a reserved spot to watch them play shows whenever she wants (usually stage right). 

Did I mention Kriss was part of the percussion section of the academy band? Well, it was more of an orchestra, but still. He felt there was something lacking in their sound during jam sessions so after a few weeks, he called up a few friends. 

Vash

Vash is a complete wildcard. He’s the sweetest person you’ll ever meet, but it takes a while to realize that because his personality is quite...Sharp. He has no problem speaking his mind, never has, and he’s not afraid to call anyone on their BS. Does an expert job of providing entertainment with his outbursts. His first words when he dropped by the “clubhouse” were “so you expect me to play in this shit hole?” His mouth usually got him in trouble at school so he was somewhat happy to have something to occupy his mind so his mouth wouldn’t run so often. He’d been playing music for many many years, his parents both being famous musicians themselves, so he has mastered quite a few instruments and often provides backup vocals because “none of the rest of you dingbats can be trusted to stay on key.”

He is the glue that holds everything together and his honesty keeps everyone grounded. He expects everything to run smoothly and on time, so he was made leader of the band within the first hour. It’s effortless and he keeps his cool pretty well under pressure, but the one person who manages to make him snippy is Eri.  

ERI

Eri is a mess of a human being in the most endearing way. He’s a walking contradiction and he loves to push buttons. He and Vash have been neighbors and best friends since they were born. They’re the Yin to each other’s Yang and act like an old married couple, always  disagreeing on the most basic things. It has never been an issue and the others love to watch a match go down. Where Vash is hands-on and always on track, Eri is laid back and couldn’t care less if something goes wrong. That’s not to say he’s not passionate about their dream, he’s just more of a “Things will happen as they happen, just go with the flow” type. His easygoing nature lends him a very grounded and rhythmic personality...perfect for a bassist. His favorite thing is spending time with friends and being able to just do what his soul calls him to do. He does, however, absolutely hate attention. It makes him feel pressured to act a certain way or do a certain thing and it just clashes with his entire vibe. He broke out in a rash when they got their first major gig and had to do a meet and greet. He loves his fans, but...can they not want pictures all the time? “I look awkward when I smile.” He really does. The boy doesn’t smile, it’s always a grimace. 

Eri’s dad owns a very successful restaurant and often got the band small gigs like birthdays and weddings that he was hired to cater for. He doesn’t understand what they’re hoping to do, but hey, the kids play some mean covers of songs he grew up on. Besides, if his son is happy, that’s good enough for him. 

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- For the first few years, they snuck around and the others lied for Niri and Kou when their parents had questions. They couldn’t say they weren’t all hanging out together, so once things got real, they moved their practices to Vash’s house since his parents had all the equipment they needed and didn’t really care one way or another about what was going on, too busy with tours and things.

Once they graduated, it was harder to cover. Niri came clean to her father, her mother having found out shortly before but promising to keep it quiet if she just quit and focused on school. Her father was furious and demanded she cut ties with her “hooligan friends” immediately as she was set to go to college and become a lawyer like her mother. Niri refused and was kicked out of her home after being called a failure of a child. This only fueled her fire to pursue her dream. She called Vash, mostly to cry in frustration, but he met her at the front of her neighborhood saying “I just felt something was up with your dumb self so I came by to check. Good thing I did. Let’s go, you’re moving in with me til we figure all this out.” The two soon became three when they got an apartment with Eri two months later. 

Kou had a similar experience once he told his father he didn’t want to be a doctor and had no plans to attend his father’s alma mater (which he only got into after his father wrote a very generous check being Kou’s grades had slipped to an abysmal level) he was removed from the premises by security, cut off financially, and removed from the will within 2 hours. The only thing he managed to keep (for a while anyway) was his car, so he hopped in and drove over to his aunt’s house and lived there for a while with her and Kriss. 

During this time, they still had small shows coming left and right. One night after a few years of a rough grind with no money and shitty daytime jobs, while playing a local club (that didn’t even pay them by the end of the set), they met a small time producer who liked their sound and asked them to record a demo. The producer played the demo to a group of friends that called a separate group of friends and eventually their little song made it to the ears of a real band who had an unexpected opening in their roster for an upcoming festival tour. Adria got the call and had to scramble to get their set list ready. It wasn’t anything big, just a side stage gig, but the more stops they played, the bigger the crowds they drew. 

When they made it home after several stops, they were met by the producer who found them, asked to record a whole album and from there they filmed a very low budget MV and soon after their first single was playing on the radio. They were asked to appear on small time local talk shows. They spread like wildfire once their second single dropped, played on stations nationwide. More MVs and a headlining tour followed with a second album set to drop. Kriss and Niri were asked to be part of a 6 episode arc on a popular TV drama and a second tour.  It was a tough climb, but they’ve been at it for 15 years. Niri and Kou did go back home at one point and faced their parents, attempting to make amends and build a bridge. Kou and his dad are in a much better place now, the old building they used to play around in was transferred into Kou’s name and they now use it as their recording studio/ band headquarters. 

Niri’s family reunion was a little less of a happy ending, in fact, it’s still a work in progress. Her mother apologized and they cried a little over the years missed, but her dad is a very tough man to get through to. He acknowledged he was harsh in his actions but still feels justified in what he did. He says if it weren’t for his tough love, Niri wouldn’t have felt the need to work so hard to get to this place in her life. He did at least say thank you when Niri handed him a check to cover the hit her parents’ savings took when her brother went to medical school. She has weekly calls and video chats with her mom and her brother often makes it out to shows and sends her snaps when he sees her on TV or hears the band on the radio. Her dad sometimes texts her “Heard your new song. It’s loud.” That’s his way of saying he's giving it a chance and doesn’t exactly hate it.

[remi-demi94]

What would Remy be like "intimately" with the main six and Anastasio? Is she a virgin in each route? What would her roles be (like is she a top, bottom, switch, etc.). If this is too spice I'm sorry lol. I'm so curious about this.

👀👀👀👀😳😳😳

This is juicy nonny!! Lol

And no you're fine! I like answering questions like this because I like telling more of Remy's relationships between them all and Anastasio! So here we go!

Warning!! ⚠️⚠️⚠️ This is very NSFW!!

So Remy's virginity was taken by Asra before the plague in all 6 routes and with Anastasio, because they were a lovey-dovey couple before the plague f*cked everything up. But unfortunately... poor Remy doesn't know this, so technically post-plague, she's a virgin... again?? I guess? Lol idk. I'm just gonna say that she hasn't been super intimate post-plague... until the events in the story lol.

Nadia

Remy's a bottom for Nadia, sometimes a switch. She's not necessarily horny on the main with Nadia but she does have her moments when she just wants some intimate times with Nadia. She's too shy to initiate it, but she'll give Nadia lingering looks, or brush up against her. "Nadi... can we?... Are you busy tonight?, Can I kiss you?". She still feels like Nadia is waayyyyy out of her league strictly because of their difference in status (royalty and average citizen lol), so she's aways unsure if she has the right to ask something of Nadia who is so important to Vesuvia. Remy has no reason to act like that though because Nadia always treats her as her equal, even more so when they're intimate. Remy's a giver too, whether she realizes it or not. Like Remy would gladly give Nadia oral while she fingers Remy.. it's stuff like that...She's unconsciously shakes her legs if Nadia hits the spot... which is every time. Nadia is usually the one with the strap-on, and Remy always likes to wrap her legs around her. Remy likes giving and receiving love bites as well. Remy accidentally ends up dragging her nails on Nadia's back, and she feels bad about it every time, but Nadia loves it. Remy does a lot of heavy sighs, panting, gripping anything close to her, throwing her head back, hip bucking, and curling toes. She tries to hide her moans by biting her lip but Nadia always encourages her to let her voice out. It's cute. She's super shy at the start of it, but Nadia always reassures her and they both end up very satisfied and worn out, more in love than before. You can bet she's flushed the entire time too. Nadia and Remy enjoy getting sexual in several areas of the palace and when they go on their outings through Vesuvia and more. They have absolutely had sex in the hallways of the palace, her contemplation tower, Lucio's wing, the baths, the veranda, Nadia's bedroom, the guest rooms (all of them), the dining hall, the red Market, the shop, the cave, the carriages... it's been quite a few 😳😂 . They also like to wear certain "items" throughout the day until they can be alone with each other. For example, Nadia will put a vibrator in Remy's panties and bra and she'll turn it up, down, on and off throughout the day, driving Remy insane as she tries to keep her composure. It's awful when Nadia does this to Remy when they have a meeting with the Courtiers or they have to greet important guests. Remy's standing there with her knees about to buckle from the pleasure, but then Nadia would turn it off. Remy's all over Nadia by the end of it all and it always amuses Nadia.

Julian

Oh boy. When I say Remy is a dominant service top for this man, I MEAN IT. Ya girl is horny af with this man, so they're always making love, sometimes f*cking lmaooo. Ya'll know how horny and dramatic Julian is, and Remy fully takes advantage of that. She's very passionate with Julian as well. She doesn't like how hard he is on himself, so she likes to make him feel good emotionally and physically. It's a lot of "I love you", "you're so amazing", "Does this feel good?", and more praising. She's not usually rough unless he wants it like that, but she always ends up being really passionate again. So ya'll know how he doesn't take good care of himself? She nips that in the bud real quick. He's not eating? Ya girl will sit on his lap and feed him herself if she has too. He won't come to bed? Okay, Remy's gonna tease him something terrible, lead him to the bed, and they can cuddle, make-out, have sex, whatever, until he's sleeping in her embrace. Can't sleep? She'll use that temperature trick and massage him until he dozes off. He's stressed? Remy will calm him down with her touch and help him. Let's say he wants to try being tied up, where he can't touch her while she teases him, she'll definitely oblige, but eventually she'll free him because she likes being in his embrace too. She'll happily peg him if that's what he wants too. She usually can hold back her moans or jagged breaths, but it's hard for her when she sees his heavy lidded eyes and blush. It drives her mad. She's a switch too because there's no way he would want to be the bottom all the time. I refuse to believe he's strictly a bottom lol. When he tops, that's when Reny loses her composure. Of course it feels amazing, but she loves the confidence he shows when he tops, and it makes her reach her orgasm faster too. I mean it's legs shaking, arched back, toes curling, heavy breaths, back scratching, name screaming good. Your girl can't handle Julian when he's a top. She's embarrassed after that 😂 and ya'll know Julian's gonna say something about it. They tend to do some serious voyagerism too, sometimes they almost get caught. They've done it at the Rowdy Raven, the palace gardens, the palace's library, palace baths, palace guestroom (So sorry Nadia), the dungeon (long story), the reading table at the shop, the south end, the marketplace, the docks, the forest... pretty much every where tbh. And they do it for all occasions: angry sex (which is rare), makeup set, morning sex, late night sex, sleepy sex, bath time sex, 'you work too hard' sex, 'I miss you' sex, unexpected sex, just because sex, 'I love you' sex... the list goes on lol.

Muriel

🥺🥺🥺 Remy's a top with Muriel, mostly a service top for very obvious reasons. Mountain man has been through SOME F*CKED UP SHIT, and he deserves the world. She knows he's hesitant to get really intimate so she always asks first, always, unless he asks or initiates it first. She gets so happy and excited when he does, and sometimes she gotta stop herself from getting too excited. She's also very patient with him too. Of course, she has her moments were she just wants to get really passionate and touchy, but she wants him to tell her when he's ready. She likes that they can kiss and make out with each other, and she lowkey notices how he more and more comfortable he gets with touching her, especially in between her legs. It's strictly vanilla sex with them and that is absolutely fine with her. But their vanilla sex is always sweet and romantic. Forehead to forehead, jagged breaths, embracing each other, slow but gradually faster paces, kisses in between thrusts and grinds, hand-holding, climaxing together. She's very encouraging and she praises him too. She always picks up on when Muriel holds back from touching her somewhere, like her breasts or butt, so she may gently grab his hands and place them there for him, quietly saying something like, "It's alright, Muri, I like that". She really only cares about loving Muriel and making him feel good. And when I say that Remy is a service top, I mean that she'll give Muriel hand/blow jobs or just massage him because she wants to, and she's perfectly fine with getting nothing in return. She'd be a little worried about letting her voice out because she wouldn't want to freak him out, so she tries to whimper and bite her lip instead, sometimes accidentally letting her moans slip out as she calls out his name. Sometimes... just sometimes, Remy gets carried away and moans really loud and they both get hella embarrassed but excited. I feel like Muriel would switch sometimes, or at least initiate it, and Remy would happily let him take charge. They don't really get intimate besides being in his hut, the magic shop, or the forrest. They have done it in the cave before, and Muriel won't admit it but it was his favorite spot. (I cannot wait for that horny Muriel sprite)

Anastasio

(Anastasio is @wingcinna 's OC, not mine, and this beatiful artwork is hers, I'm just posting it to show you his look)

Cinna said that Anastasio is a top... which is perfect because I already imagined Remy being a bottom with him 😂😂😂. Oh but she's a service bottom. They're both really competitive so I feel like it'll be ravenous kissing and touching if they're really horny. Remy is really passionate too so she'd tell him how good it feels and she'd usually want to be really close to him, like skin-to-skin. She loves playing with his hair most of the time so when they're intimate, she's gonna have at least one hand kinda massaging at his scalp. Idk she likes doing that lol. Cinna also revealed that Anastasio likes to do it on hard surfaces 😳😳😳. Remy learned very quickly why he likes that lmfao. With Anastasio she can get a little loud but most of the time it's jagged breaths, moaning his name/nicknames, praises, gasps, lip biting, body licks/bites/kisses, trailing her nails across his skin... all that good stuff 😂. Idk if he likes this but sometimes she likes to kiss on his scars, as if they'll be fixed by her kisses. He has the gift of making Remy's back arch, her legs shake, and her toes curl from his movements and she can never control it. She really, REALLY likes to tease him or play a little more attention to his sensitive spots because she loves the looks he gives her when she does it.... and what he does to her afterwards 😈😈. So he can expect her to tease him often... Sorry Anastasio (She's not sorry at all). If he's giving oral or something to her, she's going to want to do something for him at the same time, because she's just like that. It could even be as simple as ear licks or bites. She just wants him to know that it feels really good and she hopes to do the same for him in return. Sometimes... well no who am I kidding, this is all the time, Remy would just kinda stop functioning if he hits her sensitive spots, especially if he keeps at it. Like ya girl Remy will lose her voice and just sit there with her mouth agape, face completely blushed and filled with pleasure. She doesn't mind if he tugs her hair sometimes, I mean she's got a lot of it and im sure it gets in the way sometimes. Omg if he moves her hair to the side so they can gaze at each other while they're intimate??? She's done for. Eye contact in general is a turn-on for her, especially HIS eye contact.. I feel like they'd get busy a lot too, maybe not get crazy and do some voyagerism, but they'd be intimate a lot...for sometimes silly reasons too. Anastasio brought a bracelet for Remy? Cool, she's gonna treat him big time for that. She likes finding matching lingerie for them too, but her favorite part is taking it off of him. Remy likes to cuddle a lot too, so I'm sure they'd be cuddling afterwards. If she's on top, she likes to slow down her pace and enjoy the view, trailing her hands on his abs and chest because c'mon, he works really hard on his body, so of course she's gonna recognize it!!! Since they both use magic, you can bet she'll use it to tease or make the sensation even more intense for the both of them. I'm telling ya'll, she loves this man. She likes to be romantic with Anastasio too with legs wrapped around him, chest to chest, hand holding, loving looks, just passionate moments in between the fun. And if there's anytime where she may reach her orgasm before him, she always makes sure he reaches his too. She gotta take care of her man 💛💙.

So these next ones are hypothetical because Remy isn't for Asra, Portia, and definitely not Lucio (because she's with Anastasio... which is Wingcinna's Sajna and Lucio's son):

Asra

If Remy is with Asra, she's a service switch, mostly a bottom though. So Remy would be curious about their past relationship especially since they share a bed and live together so well in the shop. Of course Asra doesn't tell her at first because of those mind-numbing headaches she gets, but after all the events in the story, he finally feels comfortable enough to reveal the whole truth. It breaks her heart to know that they were such a cute couple before the plague, but that just gave her all the more reason to love him even more. She also asks about her virginity, and Asra tells her. They've been tighter than ever after that. Her first time with him pre-plague was really sweet and passionate, and it's exactly like that post-plague as well. Actually, it's really passionately and mystical every time they get intimate. I can't really describe it, but Remy shows how much she loves Asra when they get intimate. It's a ton of caresses, soft/light body kisses, hand holding, skin-to-skin, slow paced to fast paced loving. It's just always really romantic. They do a ton of teasing to each other too, especially with their magic because they know it drives each other wild. Asra is the confident praiser in the relationship, but sometimes Remy does it too and it makes Asra a blushy mess. I wouldn't say that Remy can get a little rough, but she does get carried away sometimes and take over... Asra loves it. When she takes over, she goes into a ton of foreplay, making Asra's whole body feel good. She unconsciously may use her magic to heat up her touch, which Asra finds cute, so he does it in return. Asra flusters Remy a lot but she likes it, she has a low key "Master and apprentice" kink with him. He knows this even though she doesn't admit it. Remy occasionally likes Asra to be dominant, just lightly though... like pinning down to the bed or whatever surface they're on, a little spanking, praises, hair pulling... but they always go right back to being passionate once they've both reached their teasing limit. They absolutely practice voyagerism, especially since they can manipulate their appearance with their magic. You can bet that they've done it in Nopal, the palace gardens right under Asra's tree (you know, they one you touch in the story and he blushes from that sensation... 😈), the palace gardens, the baths, Nadia's contemplation tower (I know they are terrible lmao), in Asra's realm, all of the major arcana realms (only once in the Devil's and the Hanged Man's realm), the Forrest, the cave (their favorite spot), the fields, the Rowdy Raven, the red market, the new hot springs (from the new tale 😍😍😍), the front of the shop... omg the list goes on. Remy also asks a lot of questions about her tastes when before she died, and surprisingly they aren't really different than before. Pre-plague Remy was into some more kinky stuff like shibari, whipping, orgasm denial, and more but post-plague Remy would try those things... just not make it a permanent practice between them. Asra and Remy also have a TON of sleepy, lazy sex because they're both sleepy heads lmao. They both do a ton of whispering sweet nothings to each other while they're at it, but Asra does it more. They always, ALWAYS, climax at the same time... that's how connected they are.

You know what... I take that back, Remy is for Asra too like Nadia, Julian, and Muriel, expect more Asra and Remy art 🤣🤣🤣.

Portia

Remy is a switch with Portia too (idk why but I'm picking up switch vibes when I play Portia's route). They both equally initiate it lol. They both wear strap-ons and they both really like to tease each other. Remy, however, likes to tease with lingering touches and batting her eyes at Portia. They're both curvy curly girls so Remy likes to embrace Portia's curves and play with her hair. They like to pin each other to the wall and make love. Portia's really busy with palace work so they get intimate whenever they can. Portia has a 30 minute break? Great, Remy's gonna make out with her while they finger each other. Got a little bit more time? Maybe they can do oral or even grab the strap-on. If Portia is worn out from the day, Remy's gonna give Portia a nice, calming massage before they go to sleep. They do a ton of cuddling too. They're intimacy is a really playful and cute... with a pinch of edginess. They mostly do it at the shop or in Portia's cottage, but they done it in the Palace a few times and went through the portals if they were ever close to being caught. Remy can be more of a top sometimes, because she likes to treat Portia after all the hard work she does and Portia deserves it dammit! Since Portia shows a ton of interest in magic, you can bet that Remy teases and uses it to get her riled up.

Lucio

*Don't be mad at Remy, Anastasio, this is only hypothetical and nonny asked me about it* 🤣🤣

Remy would probably be a switch with Lucio, but a dominant one. The way this man acts in the story just tells me that he wants to be wrecked 😈, and you can best believe that she'll do that for him. Their intimacy is really similar to Julian×Remy, except Remy rough with Lucio, because that's how he likes it most of the time. He likes to be teased and she does it all the time. They are really horny for each other so they would do it anytime, anywhere. It's that hot and heavy, needy, clingy, stuff. I'm talking always skin-to-skin, body praising, loud moaning, sex. That horny lip bite Lucio has is enough to make Remy take him right there. They've absolutely done it in front of the courtiers and none of them would notice because Lucio and Remy are slick like that. I'm talking about Remy sitting on his lap in a long gown, sneakily grinding on him until he almost cums, and then behaves herself until they can do it some where private. That type of stuff drives Lucio insane and Remy knows it. "Be good for me and I'll give you your present, okay Luci?", and you know she'll whisper that in his ear while playfully playing with a piece of his clothing. It's even hotter because she does this when they're in public places or at an important event, so he has to sit there and take it. Don't get me wrong though, Lucio easily can work her up too. It's when he kisses her hand or the inside of her wrist and up her arms that get her in a tizzy. If he's wearing his gauntlet, she likes it when he scratches her hips and thighs. If he just using his magic arm, he has a way of making her climax by just fingering or eating her out while he plays with her goods. Either way, they both work each other up and once they're alone, they're all over each other. They can be romantic too, sometimes it's just cuddly, loving sex and they don't want to let each other go. Gentle kisses and caresses until they fall asleep, sweet nothings in each other's ears, body worshiping, moaning each other's names... just soft, gentle love.

[pekorosu]

no.6 novels thinky thoughts

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so… i ended up finishing all 9 vols in about a week haha.

my overall impression? it was… alright, i guess.

not that i didn’t enjoy it, in fact, the first half was great! by the time i reached the end though, i had mixed feelings. sat on it for a week or so but a lot of it remains a vague hhhmmmmmblah blob that i’m not done figuring out. 

i still wanna make a post as a form of closure for myself though, so i’m just gonna dump whatever comes to mind here. don’t mind me.

so... the ending. i guess it was supposed to be open-ended in a hopeful way, but it just came across as unsettling to me. the ~chosen one~ thing rubbed me the wrong way, because shion was entrusted with an enormous responsibility that no 16 year old should even be shouldering in the first place. (i mean yea okay he did willingly accept it, but still. why only him? why aren’t they all collectively responsible?) 

meanwhile the actual perpetrators get to escape all the consequences by just… dying. just like that. and the rest of them, especially the adults… they’re pretty much useless? even the ones that wanted to do something by staging a revolt ended up being unreliable either bc 1. they were drunk on revenge or 2. all that power was getting to their head. ironically, rou was like “it’s all on us, the adults” but in the end even he decided to just spend the rest of his life chilling out underground -_-

on top of that, shion had to let go of nezumi. idk about y’all but that ending, that “promise to meet again” kiss was like… i couldn’t help but wonder if nezumi only did that because shion was all “a world without you is meaningless” and he had to give him something to cling onto. followed by shion’s devoted “i’ll keep waiting” which… idk, something about it felt utterly depressing. to be fair, nezumi always keeps his promises and the epilogue was vaguely hopeful i guess, but it still didn’t give me the sense of closure that i needed. 

to clarify, i’m not saying it’s a bad ending. it’s realistic and the implication that there’s still a lot of work to be done is very much in line with the story’s themes. just that something about it didn’t work for me personally, plus the lead up to it felt rushed, so it left me feeling :/ when i was done.

the plot… well, it started out exciting but turned out to be rather anticlimactic? the shift from science to supernatural had a proper build up, but still felt like a letdown for some reason… 

i think... maybe it’s bc dystopian stories tend to culminate in a huge battle and stuff like that, while this one just… didn’t. there was no final showdown with the Big Bad. there was chaos, but it hadn’t descended into total devastation yet, with the ultimate message that maintaining peace is always more preferable in order to prevent any more senseless deaths. and i guess that threw me off a little? not in a bad way, it was just unexpected bc i’m so used to the whole “final boss” format.

speaking of which, the antagonists were very one-dimensional, and for dictators they were surprisingly… weak. i mean, i get that hubris was precisely the reason for their carelessness and subsequent destruction, but it felt too convenient, too simple.

and i was sorta expecting something more gruesome when they got to the top floor of the correctional facility. idk, i guess brains floating in tubes just couldn’t compare with that scene of them climbing a mountain of corpses+half-alive people, which i had the misfortune of reading right before dinner. that was straight up horror.

and for all its depiction of the horrors of a police state, of poverty, famine, genocide… i felt like it stopped short of something. this isn’t meant to be a proper critique ofc, just that i remember feeling like the writing came across as wishy-washy or superficial at times, even though i knew the author’s intention wasn’t to hand out answers, but to get the readers to think. something about the way it was handled left me feeling unsatisfied i guess. 

that said, there were stuff that i did like! eg. i liked how the story dealt with the “we’re all human beings” statement from shion. it started out as a simple, idealistic “all lives matter” kind of thing, only to be turned on its head when he comes face-to-face with the kind of atrocities no.6 has committed. then it becomes less about that and more “our shared humanity means that we too have the capability to become cruel and apathetic.” or at least, that was my takeaway. 

hmm… in hindsight, i think it does what it set out to do well enough. that is, to convey a certain message to a certain group of people (teenagers i guess. this is YA after all). to inspire them to think for themselves, to realise that apathy is dangerous and to take responsibility for their own learning, but also to know that doing the “right” thing is not just about good intentions; it is constant hard work but still important work... among others. all of which are solid themes and messages. god knows when i was younger and learning about all this for the first time, even the simplest things would leave me mindblown for days. if i’d read this back then i imagine it would’ve left a bigger impression too.

the main highlight for me though, was probably the character scenes. i was surprised to find out how introspective the story was, with the majority of it dedicated to the characters’ internal thoughts and conflicts. 

sadly though, the side charas’ POVs (like inukashi’s and karan’s) ended up becoming tediously repetitive and draggy despite starting out strong. and safu… poor safu, she pretty much got the shortest end of the shit stick being the Plot Device Damsel In Distress Who Is Eventually Fridged. i had higher hopes for her ):

as for the rest… i don’t really care about rikiga… and who else… oh right! small nezumi team! hamlet, cravat and tsukiyo. 10/10 love them, would never get tired of their cute little squeaks.

and the protags… shion started out kinda bland but ended up being the easiest to relate to haha. eg. his constant struggle to reconcile his personal ideals with practical reality. and it was interesting to see how he confronted and came to terms with some harsh truths. he always tries so hard. sometimes it hurt to read, but it made me want to root for him and in a way, it gave me strength too. 

also his apparent “lack of interest” in sex/women/etc... i know it’s generally played for laughs or to highlight his ~naivete~ or ~immaturity~, but whatever lol it’s something i can relate to it v strongly.

nezumi took a while for me to warm up to even when i understood why he is the way he is. the callousness, hostility, volatility… they’re all defense mechanisms rooted in his trauma, but still, knowing that didn’t make him any less irritating lol. he could be deeply hypocritical at times and his tendency to randomly explode at shion was grating. on the plus side, it’s always very satisfying whenever we do get a glimpse of his more vulnerable side.

them as a pair though… i’m not a huge fan of the “fate brought us together” trope so i was skeptical at first. nezumi being so prickly and moody at first didn’t help either, but shion. oh shion, he tried so hard to worm himself into nezumi’s heart, to prove himself worthy, that i couldn’t help but be charmed. to me, they started out more like “snarky senpai and curious kouhai” as opposed to “friends” or even “potential enemies” as nezumi liked to insist they were, which made for an amusing dynamic. 

and while they did grow on me over time, they don’t make me feel that INTENSE CHEST STABBING feeling that i get with other ships. idk why, i mean, their sarcastic exchanges were amusing, their brutally honest arguments were compelling, and the pining (which is my #1 weakness) was through the fucking roof with shion. but still, something was missing.

sidenote on something the author mentioned in the guidebook interview (my own rough t/l):

I like writing about relationships between people of the same sex, not just boys. When it comes to the opposite sex, the end result of being attracted to each other is always romantic love, or getting married…… To a certain extent, the “template” for that is already fixed, isn’t it? But when it comes to the same sex, there can exist a connection that can’t be expressed in the usual cliched words like friendship, camaraderie, love, hatred… I think there’s meaning in writing about relationships that can’t be clearly defined. What’s between Shion and Nezumi is a “one-of-a-kind connection” that’s born out of a certain situation, out of certain experiences that only they have gone through. I wanted to find out what exactly that connection is, which was why I wanted to try writing it. Of course, that “one-of-a-kind connection” would probably exist between people of the opposite sex as well. After all, the feelings that emerge from a chance meeting of two human beings can never be something that’s mass-produced. But still, I think the one thing that I really enjoy writing about has got to be the unique emotions that develop between people of the same sex.

i know she doesn’t mean anything negative here, but idk… it kinda reminds me of the way yoshida akimi discussed ash and eiji’s relationship in banana fish, and the way she discussed what she found so special about same-sex relationships that is lacking in m/f relationships. and something about it bugs me so much. i don’t even know why or how to explain it… 

it sounds like to them, there’s something fundamentally “different” about same-sex relationships. "different” doesn’t necessarily mean “bad” and in fact, it even sounds positive in this context because the implication is that that “difference” allows for more freedom and variety in relationship dynamics. but i guess, the closest thing that i can come up with is that it sounds… othering? i don’t know….......

speaking of which, i suppose shion/safu is a subversion of that typical m/f relationship. shion can never love her the way she wants him to, which is heartbreaking, but also refreshing in a way.

and you know what… it just occurred to me that maybe, maybe… it’s the same with shion and nezumi. and maybe that’s why something about them feels off to me. i mean, obviously the strength of their feelings for each other is indisputable, but idk if the essence of it is the same. 

shrugs. anyway, yeah.

the honest truth is that, while i enjoyed their interactions immensely, they just don’t ignite the same fire in me as all my other otps. that said, i still do have a lot of thoughts on them! maybe that’s a post for another day.

some other stray thoughts:

- was it ever explained how nezumi built his robo rats? or where tf he managed to gather so many gold coins? was this something the story just handwaved or did i just forget?

- nezumi wanting to leave on a journey at the end baffled me. even though him eventually leaving was foreshadowed a couple times, he never really struck me as a wanderer to begin with. but now that i think about it… i wonder if he’s leaving bc he wants to, or rather, needs to look out for any other remaining forests and natural environments. that’s what his people did, didn’t they? protect the forests. i wonder if he’s going to go look for others like himself. after all, he’s the only surviving indigenous person left in the area surrounding no.6, isn’t he? hmmm.

language-wise... this is my first proper japanese (light) novel so i’m feeling kinda accomplished rn! lol. it was surprisingly not as tough as i had expected. i think the most difficult part was actually reading the quotes at the beginning of each chapter bc it’s in a font that’s so hard to make out.

oh, and again, some parts felt really redundant. i kept wondering if it was a language thing or an author thing. either way, i felt like there were quite a few unnecessary rehashes that could’ve been omitted to improve the pacing. 

sequels, other adaptations...

i’ve not read “beyond” yet, which apparently has sequel-ish bits? i’ve ordered it, it’s on its way, but i have a feeling my impression won’t change that much even after i’ve read it. heck, it might get worse judging by all these lukewarm reviews. i’m definitely gonna see this through to the end, but i’m feeling kinda scared now lol.

i might check out the anime? based on the summaries on wiki, it sounds like quite a lot has been altered, but i’m still curious about the visuals. dunno if i’d wanna check out the manga. if it’s exactly the same as the novels or the anime then maybe not…

oh yeah, their anime/manga versions look quite different to how i imagined them! mine’s closer to the novel covers i guess. especially nezumi. i imagined him with short hair. maybe not all super saiyan like the one below, but yea.

lastly, i just had a good look at all the vol covers and i actually think they look pretty cool! i’m really glad i chose to get this version instead of the bunkobon. i mean, i don’t know if i will ever reread this again, but at least the covers are nice to look at haha.

[surveys-at-your-service]

Survey #165

“if you’re in danger, i’m here to save ya.”

Do you own a water gun? No. What item most embarrasses you to purchase? I wouldn't really know, I haven't bought much for myself... but I suppose probably some kind of sex toy. Favorite thing you’ve ever painted? Two meerkats grooming. It's on a huge thing of burlap. Are there any songs that remind you of your mother? "Wherever I May Roam" by Metallica, because she aaaalways says she wants the lyrics "my body lies, but still I roam" on her urn. I'm making goddamn sure that happens when she passes. Have you ever picked wild flowers? Yes. Have you ever walked through a forest? Yeah. Have you ever seen a mountain in person? Yes. Do you prefer jam or butter on your biscuits? Jam. Have you ever explored somewhere abandoned? Yes, but I wanna do it morrreee! Take my camera with me! This is exactly why I'm getting into exploration channels on YouTube, finding shit like this. I'm addicted to Sam & Colby because of this. Where is the last place you went to as a tourist? Chicago. What country do you most want to travel to? Germany. Do you have a garden? No. Have you ever kept a physical, hand-written journal? Yeah. Have you ever caught a butterfly in your hands? I know I've picked up injured ones as a kid, dunno about otherwise. Are there any interesting landmarks where you live? Not that I can think of. Which fairytale is your favorite? I'mma throw hands if you say Shrek isn't one. Which mythological deity or creature is your favorite? Dragons. Which type of muffin is your favorite? Chocolate chip. What is your favorite shade of blue? Pastel. Do you prefer iced tea or hot tea? Iced coffee or hot coffee? Hate both. Do you like sprinkles on your ice cream? Nooo, not a fan. Honestly, have you ever crashed a party before? No. Do you know how to do the moon walk? No. What is one of your favorite comedy movies? White Chicks. Has anybody ever told you that you have a good singing voice? Yeah. Onion rings or french fries? The latter. I am /picky/ with onion rings, but usually don't like them. Has anybody ever told you that you talk too fast? I've been told so when I'm hyper. Who is the best cook that you know? I don't know. I guess Jason was? His initial career path was chef, and he was in fact great at it. What’s the largest amount that you can juggle at one time? I can't juggle. What was your favorite thing to go on at the playground as a kid? Swing. Do you know how much you weighed at birth? How much? 7-something pounds? When you do a puzzle do you find all the edges first? Do some people not??? (If you sleep with the tv on) what’s usually on tv when you wake up? N/A Who was the last person to ask you to hang out? Did you agree to hang out with them? Colleen, and no. Have you ever had to take a stool or urine test? Why did you have to do this? I've had way too many UTIs because I used to drink literally zero water, so. Before my surgery, they needed a sample too to ensure I wasn't pregnant. Is there a food that you eat basically every day? What food is that? No. Do you have Oovoo? No. Do you know anyone who has ever been in a movie? Who and what movie were they in? What was their part? No. Do you know anyone who has had salmonella? Did you ever have it yourself? What about e coli? No. When was the last time you brought a pet to the vet? What was wrong with it? Last winter when we had to put Cali down. A tumor on her spleen ruptured and filled her body with so much blood that she almost couldn't breathe as her lungs were running out of room to expand. She also had some kind of mass on her liver that was probably causing more issues. Name something that you used to do with your family that you no longer do with them or at all: Trick-or-treating. Who was the last member of your extended family to visit? Where were they visiting from? Grammy and her husband. They were heading back down to Florida. Have you bought any new clothes in the past week? Nope. At what age do you think you’ll be ready to have children? Never. If I wanted kids, mid-20s/late-20s, probably. How many children would you like? Once more, if, two, or even just one. I'd really want my child to have a sibling at least somewhat near in age, but I don't know if I could handle two. Is there anyone in your friendship group that your parents don’t like? Not anymore. Have your grandparents ever asked you about your love/sex life? No. Have you ever been diagnosed with anything unexpected, mental or physical illness? How did you finally find out? Hm... I think everything I've had was at least somewhat expected. Like, I knew something was wrong. The most surprising though was I suppose inactive MRSA after my surgery and the incision re-opened to heal on its own for seven damn months. ACTUALLY, vertigo was random as hell. I started experiencing it and went to the doc. Where do you like to sit when you’re on the computer? In bed. What is the biggest decision you’ve made in the past year? Return back to school. Would you rather hike through the desert, the prairies, the forest, or the tundra? The prairies. If you could reconnect with someone from your past, who would it be and why? Megan. We were absolute best friends, and hopefully she's grown up by now. What movie/show "emotionally scarred" you as a kid? Courage The Cowardly Dog. Watched it anyway lmao. What’s your favorite flavor of jello? Strawberry, probably. Have you ever been thrown out of the movies? No. What would you do if you found out you were moving to Tennessee? I wouldn't complain, Tennessee is beautiful. My brother lives there anyway, and I haven't seen him in years. What does your favorite hair tie/accessory look like? I don't wear any. Do you have a favorite kind of milk? 2%, whole, etc? 2%, maybe. Do you have a favorite drummer? No. Are there any symbols that have personal meaning to you? i.e: dice, a necklace, etc. What are they? Not off the top of my head. What’s the biggest spider you’ve come across? Writing spiders. Have you ever been bitten by anything venomous? No. Do you know anyone who has been knighted? No. Which Mario game would you say is your favorite? That is, if you even like Mario? I've only really played Mario Kart. The others don't interest me. Do you have a deviantART account? Yes. Have you ever had acne? If not, you’re so lucky. I did through puberty, of course. Mine was rough then. It stopped when I was about 19. Now I just have the occasional blemish or two when I'm on my period. Ever walked into a facility of the opposite gender - like restrooms? I did once in elementary school on a work day (teachers come to get shit done; Mom was an assistant teacher) with my friends lol. Ever lost your car in the parking lot? If so, did you use your car alarm to find it again? Don't have my own car. I don't even know if Mom's ever had a car with an alarm. Has there ever been a Christmas where you had to do without gifts-wise? No. Do you type with capital letters and proper punctuation? So this is super weird: It's actually whatever I find aesthetically pleasing wherever it's being written, as well as what "voice" sounds more appropriate??? But I usually write properly. Honestly, do you think that you’re going to be an overprotective parent? Hypothetically once again, I know I would be. The world's evil. What was the last kind of chips you ate? Hot fries. What is one thing that you really wish you could understand, but don’t? Economics so I could actually know how the fuck to handle money. What brings out the worst in you? Treating me like a child that knows nothing. How many friends do you have that don’t smoke? Idk. There's only one friend I see even rarely, and he doesn't though. Doesn’t it drive you nuts when people think they ‘need’ to have a boyfriend/girlfriend? Yes. You need to learn that you're not an unfinished puzzle. You're complete on your own. Some people were really destructive as a child, were you? No. On average, how many songs do you listen to in a day? This greatly varies. Do you ever buy your pet(s) birthday or Christmas presents? Always. Do you think your current relationship will last forever? No exaggeration, no over-optimistic thinking, yes. One thing you promised yourself you’d never do and then did? Attempt suicide. Are you more scared of going to the doctors or dentists? Doctors. Have you ever rolled off your bed in your sleep? No. Who is the most overrated singer? Uhhh. I dunno. Maybe Ed Sheeran. What is your greatest weakness? I guess how insecure I am. Do you have any pets that you had since you were born? No. Favorite undersea creature? Seahorses. Favorite type of chocolate? Milk. What toys did you play with as a child? Plastic animals, Pokemon figures, Barbies or Bratz if Nicole wanted to, stuffed animals... What types of music do you listen to? Loads of different kinds of metal. I'm finding I'm really getting into indie as well. What, without fail, makes you cry? Mark crying for any reason be it sadness or joy I am pathetic. What makes a movie really enjoyable for you? Well thought-out, interesting plots and charismatic characters. Name a game you are really good at. Shadow of the Colossus. The most childish part of your personality? I can occasionally be a bit of a brat if something I'm serious about doesn't go my way oops. What did you last put on a piece of toast? Butter, cinnamon, and sugar. Have you ever witnessed a serious physical fight? No. Do you enjoy corn on the cob? YES, though my lip ring makes it a pain. Have you ever bought alcohol or cigarettes for someone underage? No. If you use Snapchat, have you ever had a screenshot taken of you? N/A When in a waiting room, how do you pass the time? Mess around on my phone. Usually wander through Pinterest. What was the last brutally honest comment you made about someone? I'm not sure. What is your favorite thing to do with just one friend? Go out to eat and talk. Have you ever been kissed under the mistletoe? By who? Jason may have, but I don't remember. Are you prone to paranoia? YUP. Has anyone ever bought you a ring? Mom and Jason. Accidentally dropped the one Mom gave me down the drain semi-recently, then Jason's broke within a few weeks. Kept the jewel for a while but eventually threw it out. What was the most stressful project you had so far while in school? Jesus, when I was still in a game design class and we had to read the most fucking boring book and then do some analysis shit of it. Who in your family are you closest to? Mom. In your opinion, what is the scariest natural disaster? Earthquakes, maybe. Or tornadoes. What time of the day is the best for you? I'm usually in my best mood in the morning. Do you have an electric toothbrush? No. Have you ever had to board up your windows because of a hurricane? No. What do you think about employers checking on personal sites before hiring employees? Sometimes I actually think it's a good idea, other times no??? Like you can get important details of someone by looking at what they post, but at the same time, social media doesn't always portray someone that well. You can get the wrong idea. Have you ever visited anyone in a rehab? No. Ice in your drink: yes or no? No. Do you prefer getting money, gift cards, or an actual gift on your birthday? Money. When was the last time you got a new bed? Is your bed comfy? Long time ago, and I guess. What was the last job you applied for? Ummm I'm not sure. Oh, I think for newborn photography. Do you have any mild food allergies? No. Who was the last person you were with that smelled REALLY good? My younger sis. Last person to make you seriously mad? Colleen. How is your mom? Stressed, always. Do you like going through old photos and recalling memories? Depends on the picture. And time. What movie coming out are you most excited to see? Why? The live-action The Lion King because it's my favorite movie. What song really gets to your heart and inspires you? "Life Won't Wait" by Ozzy. Do you see a lot of stray animals around your home? No. Do you have fireflies around where you live, or do you wish you did? In the area, yes, but we don't really see them in my yard much. Did you used to do Easter egg hunts when you were a child? Yes. Have you ever bought anybody a mug? Omg, I found one that said, "Be nice, I'm in control of your happy pills" in this random store once and I HAD to get it for my psychiatrist. He's not supposed to accept presents, so we just pretended it was from mom lol. He has it on his desk. Do you believe in divorce? In cases such as abuse, infidelity, or other pretty serious issues, yes, but I usually don't advise divorce. Communicate like mature adults and fix what you got married for. Who taught you the most valuable lesson in life and what was that lesson? "Deal with the past or the past deals with you," maybe. My Holly Hill teacher taught me a million lessons that greatly affected my outlook on many components to a healthy life. Have you ever fallen into a hole or crevice whilst hiking? While getting to fishing spots with Dad, my foot may have slipped through rocks or something. Have you ever had a serious conversation with your dad? One that I remember. He took me out to lunch one day when I was still struggling with Jason to just talk to me about relationship stuff. I cherish that memory dearly. In YOUR eyes, which of the three is the most dangerous, and which is the least: Marijuana, Alcohol, Cigarettes? Alcohol, then I'm not sure. Marijuana has a lot of dangers people like to ignore, but then again, it has some health benefits while cigs have none. What is the nerdiest thing that you own? Probably the big Illidan poster I have beside my bed lul. What is the preppiest thing that you own? *shrug* If you are popular, have you ever wondered what it would be like to have no friends? What do you think it might be like? I already just about have none, and it's lonely as fuck. If you are a loner, have you ever wondered what it would be like to be popular? What do you think it might be like? No. I don't seek popularity, just not such a lack of company. Every tattoo has a story behind it; if you have any, what are the stories behind yours? My semicolon butterfly is tribute to both the butterfly and semicolon projects. "Ohana" is obvious. "How rare and beautiful it is to even exists" just speaks deeply to me as someone who wanted to die for years. "Perfectly flawed" also means a lot to me and comes from an Otep song of the same name. "You're awful... I love you!" written in Sara's handwriting I adore because we pretty much call each other evil all the damn time all the while loving each other. :') Who do you know that has a particularly funny or annoying laugh? HA ME I HATE IT. Is there anything you do that is annoying to your friends or family? Oh, I'm sure. I'm told all the time by people to make myself at home when I'm at someone else's house standing like a statue, for one. I do this sooo much, even a bit at my sister's house when it comes to wanting a drink or something. My pacing makes people anxious, I'm told constantly. Sure there's more. What is the most number of sodas that you have drank in one day? I. DON'T WANT. TO KNOW. Until two-three months ago, I lived mostly off soda, and I do NOT know how I didn't gain weight from it. Now I absolutely refuse to go past two, but usually only get one. The idea of drinking as much as I did almost makes me nauseous. Have you ever gone through a period of mass weight-gain/weight-loss? What was that time like for you? Well first Paxil made me gain weight, but I quit it and did WiiFit all summer and lost 40 pounds. I was so proud of myself. Then, I was put on Abilify when I had no need to be, and let's not say how much it made me gain because my then-doctor was a fucking idiot that thought I was doing something terribly wrong and kept me on it, not knowing the side effects. :^) My current psychiatrist was lost entirely as to why I'd been prescribed it, and he immediately connected my weight gain to it because it *murders* metabolism. Was taken off it immediately, boom, started to melt weight with no change to my diet for quite a while. I'm still far from my normal weight. I could write a novel on how this was/is for me, but I'll just say I'm bitter as fuck and ~so~ confident in my shit body. (: If you have one, do you and your significant other have a similar taste in music? Yes. Longest plane ride you’ve ever been on? I'm sure to Michigan, but I don't remember how long it was. I was a kid. Favorite kind of bean? I absolutely loathe beans. I can't even swallow them. If you had to move to another country, where would you move? Canada, realistically. I'd love to live in Germany, but that would be much different from where I am now and would require learning an entire new language. I like Canada anyway. Does it bother you when people call you ‘ma'am’ or 'sir?’ No, it's polite...? Did you partake in senior skip days? Yup. Would you ever consider having an abortion? If my life was endangered, yes, and if - God forbid - I was raped, I possibly would because of how scarring that would be. I've said before I think pregnancy would legitimately be traumatic to me, and if it was because of that, I couldn't even begin to imagine. Have you ever lived in an apartment before? I've told the Jason & co. story before. I also stayed with Colleen for at least a month when I was technically homeless, and she was in an apartment then. Have you ever been questioned by the police? No. Have you ever been to an amusement park out of state? Yeah. Have you ever been responsible for someone’s death? Yeesh, no. Do you know a lot about serial killers? No. Have the police ever been looking for you? HAHAHAHA YES. When I went to the beach one time, my sister, a friend, and I went walking along the shore one night and apparently Mom didn't hear us mention it. Freaked the fuck out and called them to find us. Sorry, Mom. Where do you get most of your accessories from? *shrugs* Maybe HotTopic? Do you know how to shoot a gun and hit a target? No. Are you a good listener? It's complicated. I try very hard to be, but even with people I seriously care about, my mind can wander. But I really try. What was the last bad thing to happen to you? Serious, continuous loneliness. The last good thing to happen to you? I guess finding out I don't have hypoglycemia. Do you think today’s youth is being corrupted/messed up because of TV? It depends on what they watch. Some things they of course shouldn't see, but people tend to take it too far. Have your parents supported every decision you’ve made? I'm sure they haven't. Do you like to listen to rock music/screamo music when you’re angry/upset? Lol did you really just group rock and screamo up???? I'm pretty much always listening to metal or rock. I don't like purely screamo. Are you embarrassed to tell your parents you love them around your friends? Not at all. It bothers me immensely when it does bother people. What’s your favorite sappy/romantic song? Shit, I dunno. I'm a sucker for a lot. Do you know anyone who has changed their first name? Not legally, to my knowledge. Which one of your senses would you be the most devastated to lose? Sight. Hearing almost ties it. Have you ever dated someone who posted a ton of selfies on social media? No, but why does that matter??? Do you know anyone who has been on life support, and survived? I don't think so. Do your parents have a strong relationship together? They're divorced. Mom fucking hates Dad, while he's totally over it. When was the last time you attended a religious service of any sort? Well over a year ago. Do you ever feel like you're sharing too much about yourself online? Eh, nah. Are you on good or bad terms with your most recent ex? Good. What was the last necklace you wore? A spiked choker. Have you ever read any of Charles Darwin's works? No. If there was such a thing as a mental health first aid kit, what would you want to be in it? Oh boy. I'd say it'd be personal to each person. Do you think there are more dimensions than what we're able to perceive? Maybe. What was the last carbonated drink you had? I think Mtn. Dew. Does anyone in your family have schizophrenia? Yes, my half-sister. What light in your house was the last to have a bulb burn out? Living room. Have you ever been fired? If so, did you get unemployment benefits? No. Never really worked long enough to be. Do any of your neighbors have loud children? No. Have you ever been in an abandoned house? No, we were too scared to go past the doorway lol. What's your favorite YouTube channel? UM Markiplier????????????????????? Do you go to church? No. If so, what denomination is it?  N/A What is your favorite thing to make wishes on? Just birthday candles. Don't believe that does anything, but. C'mon, you gotta. What is your favorite phase of the moon? Full, duh!! What is your favorite way to get high, if applicable? N/A Which name do you like best: Cora, Flora, Dora, or Laura? Laura. If applicable, what is your favorite version of the Bible to read? N/A Are you contemplating/debating something right now? No. Have you ever had a book completely come unbound from its cover? Childhood books, probs. What design is on your shower curtain? Blue and white waves, I think?? I clearly pay attention to something I see every day. What’s the highest you can count in a different language? To like a million in German. Where would you like to be buried? Cremate me, please. Have you ever seen a ghost orb picture? Quiiite a lot in our old house. Do you think abortion should be illegal? No. Do you know how to double-dutch? I did as a kid. I couldn't jump into it, though.

[cheezybiouwiou]

a briefing so i don’t have to repeat myself

My parents got divorced when I was one. He ‘went on holiday’ to Switzerland when I was about 6, the only contact I’ve had with him has been like through letters when we’ve tried to change our names in court or something.

I’ve lived in three countries and moved house over 30 times - it sounds weird but there’s always been a good reason.

We were like the famous five kids (my cousins, my sisters and I) for years, but then my aunt’s a little crazy, so long story short we fell out and didn’t see them for like 8 years (side note, saw them this summer and it was weird but nice).

Uncle is batshit crazy and a psychopath, we don’t talk to him. He likes to remind my mum that he could kidnap/murder us every so often which is fun. My grandma has alzheimers (so does my great aunt), and my dad’s side of the family we don’t have contact with. Everyone else just isn’t around or is dead I’m pretty sure (that’s not tragic it’s just old age yk).

Umm, so, mum was determined to send us to private school, so after the divoce although we stayed in private education, she/we sacrificed a lot to get there. We weren’t poor or anything, just life was tight. That at one point led to us moving to Spain for a year (wonderful but crazy experience, I was like 6 at the time and genuinely my heart is in Spain. We have a house there in this tiny village, it’s kinda the only constant I’ve had in my life.

After that we moved back to England and I went to a boarding school (very minimal boarding at first though, so easy). Had an amazing time, yada yada then my mum met my soon-to-be stepfather. Long story short again, he had a bit of money and they got married quick, it seemed great at first but he turned out to be a wackass hoe as well.

A series of unfortunate events involving us moving into my grandma’s to look after her and my batshit uncle threatening to kill our cat and kicking us out of that house led to us moving a bajillion times between holiday rentals for like a year. We then ended up moving to Shanghai, again seems incredible at first until you remember that this is the point at which he started showing his true colours and being super emotionally abusive to my mum. Shanghai also happened to be a really convenient way to isolate a person. Anyways, I got sick of it after a year because the education was shit so ended up going to the UK and going to a super uptight full-time boarding school for the next year.

Went here, homesick as shit and my brain decided it would be a perfect time (when I’m in a super intense academic and conservative environment where the only person I have in the country is my sister) for my ✧・ﾟ:* issues *:・ﾟ✧ to manifest/me to actually understand shit. So yeah, bad year for me. This was also compounded by my mum (yk cut back to China where she’s being emotionally abused and my other sister is having a shit time) having an absolute breakdown. Idk the timing worked out great bc my shit time coencided with hers and she couldn’t cope with that on top of my homesickness and on top of her issues so this, combined with the multiple arguments that I had with her, meant that she told me to stop bothering her and so I did. We didn’t talk for weeks, and now I have ✧・ﾟ:* emotional scars/trust issues and our relationship has never been the same *:・ﾟ✧. 

Anyways, she escaped by some miracle and we ended up back in England all together. This was when we returned to the flexi-boarding school (the one from before China) because it was the only one we could afford to go to. Sooo that place was super negligent and basically all I can say is that they had a really good PR team to stop all those suicide attempts within that school from going public.

Anyways, the first year was iffy, but as I said before, the issues that were becoming more apparently at the last school were kinda becoming more and more apparent (I now know it’s anxiety, depression, and then a possible spicy element of ADHD that we haven’t even got to yet). There was also another issue in that I’m bisexual and I was figuring that whole thing out (this is a side note but I’m probably non-binary but that’s a whole other issue that I’m confused/in denial about), but that led to me becoming friends with basically just the queer kids in my year because all my friends stopped talking to me. At this point I started almost full-boarding again.

Then I started dating one of my friends (Draco, AFAB but confused about their gender identity). Started off sweet, but long story short we dated for a year and a half and I’ve never been more broken (tried to kermit the frogicide 3 times hehe they barely counted as attempts yeet). Uhh there’s a lot to unpack with this one but I’ll try to simplify:

They had abusive parents (physically and emotionally)

They had bipolar

They also were raped by their dad multiple times

They were super manipulative. I wasn’t allowed to be happy about anything because it made them feel bad. 

I wasn’t allowed to feel confident in my body because they had severe body issues. I ended up developing an eating disorder (all I ate was tea, toast after midnight and like milk and digestives).

I started self-harming.

My relationship with my sisters and mum was atrocious. It was definitely a huge part my fault, but not entirely.

As a group we were definitely very toxic. But yeah, on top of all this their best friend committed suicide, and they’d been in emotionally abusive relationships. This led to them being super suicidal. There was I think from November to February where every time they left school to go home, they’d literally try to kill themself. And I’d be stuck while they’re messaging me the whole time saying like “sorry you’re not enough to save me”. Every night. For months I was spending my whole life literally just trying to keep them alive.

Idk if I blame them, because it was definitely their trauma that made them act like it, but some of the stuff they did was manipulative and shit. Lying to me a lot, promising they’re telling the truth when actually lying. Constantly pushing me away, and then being mad when I couldn’t talk to them because they blocked me. Telling lies to my friends to get them to stop talking to me and then stopping me from telling my friends the truth (I wouldn’t tell them just because Draco made it seem like it would hurt Draco, and I was terrified of doing that). That sorta stuff.

I became a therapist for a lot of kids in my year, and so all that pressure of keeping like 20 kids from committing not-alive, on top of my issues just wasn’t a good look for me.

This led to as I said, the eating disorder, and also heavvyyyy dissociation. It also led to alcoholism which was just an unexpected turn. I just didn’t realise how bad all of these problems were at the time. Not a good time, a lot of loneliness, skipping lessons, that sorta thing.

Anyways, mum managed to get me out of the school (after a breakdown and an ambulance having to be called to the school because I drank too much). I did my GCSEs from home by some miracle, and she moved me to the local sixth form. I broke up with the person, and then had a few months over the summer that were life changing.

I moved to a new sixth-form, and it’s been rocky and uphill and super hard but I worked my ass off and I’m in so much better of a place than I was. It was rough at the start, but basically I had a pathetic amount of CBT therapy from the NHS, and the only good thing it did for me was to let me know that 1) I hate CBT, and 2) I already managed to teach myself a lot of the coping skills in the last year.

Then corona rolled around, and my anxiety went through the roof again, depressive episodes came and went and I’m still getting no help. But yeah, it basically made me realise that sure I’ve come a long way but I’m barely holding it together. It most CERTAINLY isn’t helped by the astronomical stress levels I’m getting from my A-levels and just generally existing at the moment is hard. I’m also low-key lonely because people kind of suck (I lost almost all my friends from my old school, don’t get me wrong that was for good reason, but that doesn’t mean that it didn’t suck. But yeah, I also got into a group of people at the start that were kinda shitty and so now it can be kinda lonely because it’s hard to make new friends).

My relationship with my mum has improved but it’s rocky as fuck. She’s very childish and I’m pretty sure hit the jackpot for trauma in every capacity but just pretends that sHe’S fiNe. While I’m writing this, she’s been incredible. Genuinely incredible. But also she can be one of the biggest problems in making me want to cease existing. She can be extremely manipulating and invalidating of my emotions, and generally make me feel like I’m going insane because she knows that I have no power over my life. She’s admitted it’s because she has to be in control of everything, but admitting it doesn’t mean it’s not toxic. It’s one of the hardest things in my life when it gets bad.

So yeah, I think that’s most of it!

Also side note, I may have attachment issues from the constant moving schools/houses/issues with my mum/dad leaving/crazy stepdad/i completely forgot to mention my step-brother who nearly got institutionalised in china because of schizophrenia that i didn’t see after that/constant changing schools.

Also second side note, only figure out recently and I’m probably completely wrong and I can’t remember it properly because I was so young but a kid a few years older than me might have touched me up when I was younger. It wasn’t anything serious, it just made me uncomfortable when I realise. I don’t know if I want to talk about it though because there’s a part of me that wonders if I just invented this trauma to make me feel special or some shit and YES I’m aware that’s the dumbest shit to ever think but oh well. Edit: also I feel like I have no friends/they're constantly changing. Also, childhood Moreton bullying.

[nctmaginesmut]

NCT As Boyfriends

Anon requested:  Hi I hope this isn't too much to ask for but can you guys do nct as your boyfriend? Thank you!

Genre: Fluff & SMut

Author: admin Karma

A/N: Hey, i'm sorry you had to wait so long These are all members besided the minors and Lucas & Jungwoo since I don't know much about them yet......... Also since it’s 10 members this is a long one....

Reminder! This is completely how I see them as boyfriends and it's probably very inaccurate as I am not that good at reading people but i'll do my best!! (this is for all genders) and since this is a smut acc, I will add some 16+ content to it ;)

Taeil 

- Okay 

- So this boy is pretty quiet and shy sometimes always 

- And I don't see him as much as the PDA person 

- At all tbh 

- But he would show you love in his own way 

- It's not like he's afraid to show affection 

- He just doesn't know how 

- He also wouldn't love skinship I would say 

- But he wouldn't hate it 

- If you like/love skinship it would be all fine by him 

- He would get all shy and shit every time you would grab his hand or touch him in any way to be honest 

- He would also be very casual about your relationship.. 

- Sometimes.. 

- On certain days he would mention you like once and keep it cool 

- But on other days you would be the only thing he would talk about 

- Moon Taeil is a very strange man 

- But I love him 

- Ok and now the 16+ shit 

- Oi 

- Lego! 

- Sorry 

- Ok. He would be slow, but like very fucking nice 

- And it would be about both yours and his comfort 

- He wouldn't really want to dominate you or be dominated. 

- He ain't about that 

- All he wants is to show you how much he cares about you 

- He so soft 

- But if you asked for something rougher he would try his best 

- At first he would be a bit awkward and not knowing what to do 

- But as he got to know what you like and how you like it 

- He would do an amazing job 

- Wow 

- Rough!Taeil 

- Is that how you use that????? 

- I think he wouldn't mind you being rough on him either tho 

- He likes being pleased just as much as pleasing you 

- Also, he would be quiet I think.. 

- But with soft moans here and there 

- What is my problem?? 

Hansol 

- Okay let's see how this beautiful boy would date 

- This boy is v quiet 

- Woop! they all are in my eyes apparently 

- Jk 

- But like at first sight.. 

- When you two get to know each other 

- And he will get more comfortable 

- I think he would be a completely different person 

- Very funny 

- Dorky 

- Cute 

- Awkward still sometimes 

- But that's just his cute trait 

- HEY! STOP IT!

- I think he would like skinship 

- But not over the top 

- He likes to show affection without words 

- ???? 

- Does that make sense? 

- Yes it does 

- He would love dates and going out a lot 

- Especially midnight dates maybe?? 

- Like just the two of you late at night in a cafe 

- Idk 

- Save me 

- But he is just a very out doors person I can imagine 

- He likes to make memories with you 

- Wow 

- I am in pain 

- MATURE TIME THO 

- He is all over the place tbh 

- Would be soft if he wanted to 

- Would be rough if he wanted to 

- He would also be giggly sometimes?? 

- He loves kisses 

- L 

- O 

- V 

- E 

- S 

- Them 

- Save me 

- He likes touching you all over and shit 

- This fucker also likes it when you moan loudly for him 

- Yeah 

- Ji Hansol is great 

Johnny 

- okay ya'll 

- HERE IS.. 

- No 

- This dork would be great tbh 

- Like he my low key bias wrecker and I am not okay 

- I don't think he loves aegyo 

- (Does anyone??) 

- But he would do it for you 

- If you wanted to 

- You two would go out on cute dates 

- But mainly stay inside and do cute stuff there 

- Like watch tv 

- And like make chocolate dinosaurs 

- ........... 

- K 

- He would love to take pictures of you 

- And sing to you 

- Play piano for you 

- I hate myself 

- He would love to carry you on his back 

- A lot 

- This boy is so loving and lovable it pains me 

- night time tho 

- I think he loves to take care of you 

- But that's only when he is like just semi-horny 

- When he has been waiting all day 

- I bet you you'll need new clothes 

- This boy would be rough 

- He needs you and he needs you now 

- He loves to tease you as well 

- Telling you how horny you must be for him 

- He likes a bit of control 

- Knowing he has made you this turned on for him 

- He loves sucking on your skin 

- Hickeys 

- H i c k e y s 

- Moans 

- M o a n s 

- Help me 

- For everyone who was expecting a daddy kink. I don't think he has one just because he was asked to explain the meaning. Leave the boy alone! Kamsahamnida, Xiè xiè, Arigatou!111!!1 

Taeyong

- This boy was legit 'not everything is what it seems' to me 

- Oh boi was I wrong when I saw this guy for the first time 

- I thought he was all dark, mysterious and cold you know??? 

- But he is one big fluff!! 

- He is so kind and sweet 

- What was I doing again??? 

- Fuck 

- Ok 

- So Taeyong right 

- Like he would love love love loVEEEE his significant other to death!!! 

- You make him happy and that means the world to him! 

 YOU mean the world to him! 

- He would talk about you a lot 

- To the level of annoyance 

- But he's cute so it's ok 

- He would do aegyo for you 

- A E G Y O 

- You hear me?? 

- This boy a real 상 남자!! (Manly man) 

- He loves to buy stuff for you 

- He really does 

- He gotta stop tho

- SM not paying him enough to spend it all on you 

- He would treat you like you're his everything 

- Which you are to him 

- I became Taeyong biased while writing this.. 

- I'll give you a hint on what is next 

- "Cosplay" 

- I'll go home 

- Oh yes 

- It's sexy time 

- With Lee Taeyong 

- But ok this boy would be rough as fuck 

- He would love to kiss you so much 

- So much touching 

- So many sounds 

- So many thrusts 

- This boy would use all his energy left in him to fuck it into you 

- Wow I gotta calm 

- But seriously 

- He wouldn't give two shits about who is top tbh 

- He would love to see you on top of him 

- He is loud too ;)   

Yuta

- Can I skip Yuta tho? 

- I ain't doing this 

- I can't handle this man 

- I hate him 

- Can you tell he my bais? 

- Woops! 

- So this Japanese fucker here

- Yeah he all up in this skinship! 

- If it wasn't for him being an idol you bet your ass he would be all over PDA 

- He loves showing affection with his body the most 

- Because the only thing coming out of his mouth are roasts 

- And yes 

- He would roast you as well 

- No mercy 

- Go big or go home 

- He would be so biased over you as well tbh 

- He likes you and is not afraid of showing it 

- He get's jealous easily too 

- Even when you talk to other members he's like 

- "Wow back the fuck up bitch" 

- Not really like that tho 

- He'd probably wrap an arm around you 

- Kiss you 

- Yeah I think this boy loves kisses too 

- Lots of kisses 

- In the bedroom especially 

- I think this boy is definitely a fucking dom 

- He is a real mountain manly man and will show it! 

- He would love to have you under his control 

- He loves your reactions 

- When he kisses you all over 

- Hickeys will be a thing 

- He loves marking you 

- He loves to tease as well 

- A lot 

- I think this fucker would also have some rules in the bedroom 

- I think there would be definitely a "No clothes at all time" rule 

- Or you'll be punished 

- I hate myself 

- He better stop 

- Imma sue his ass 

Kun

- I see Kun having two sides to him

- He would be soft and squishy one moment

- But hot the other

- He also is very savage

- But he doesn't even try tho

- He's accidentally savage...

- But we're here to talk about boyfriend!Kun

- Not savage!Kun

- Ok

- He loves dates

- A lot

- Especially ice cream dates

- And cafe dates

- He loves taking pictures as well

- A lot of them

- He also loves having his arm around you

- Some casual PDA

- Nothing too much

- It's just a habit

- He also loves singing to you with his soft voice

- Singing/humming you to sleep is a thing

- He would also be very biased over you

- He would pick you over a lot

- But not risk any trouble of course

- When it's "bed time" I think he would love teasing you a lot

- He finds your reaction cute but hot as well

- Hickeys are a thing

- But not above the collar bones

- Only he can see

- He would be pretty audible as well

- This kid is somewhat at the rough side

- And he gets rougher the closer he is to his climax

- Brb

- Shower myself in holy water

Doyoung 

- sweet, bunny, soft, savage Doyoung 

- For some reason Doyoung is harder for me 

- I just can't read this guy! 

- Unreadable 

- But let's start with that 

- I think he doesn't open up too easy 

- But he would open up to you 

- You're his outlet 

- If something annoyed him he would tell you first 

- He loves talking with you 

- Late night conversations  

- Choke me 

- He's also very funny and loves making you laugh 

- He loves your laugh so much 

- He loves cuddles too 

- He is so cuddly always 

- He would talk about you so proudly 

- The members love you tho 

- He loves fooling around and messing with you a lot 

- He thinks you're cute 

- But sometimes you're hot too 

- He would be turned on easily 

- He loves taking your clothes off for you

- He loves it even more when you do it for him 

- I can't imagine him being a hickey guy 

- Sorry.. 

- But kisses are definitely a thing 

- Kissing down your body! 

- Oh yesss 

- He's a soft moaner 

- But so hot 

- He loves breathplay??? 

- Just me?? 

- Okay... 

Ten 

- It's my other NCT bias wrecker! 

- Yeah! 

- I am fucked 

- This boi to me was even more unexpected than Taeyong was 

- He looked so intimidating in the 7th sense mv 

- I cried for 3 weeks 

- But Ten is the smallest fluff ball on planet earth 

- This is why I think he has two sides to him as well 

- But in specific moments! 

- You see 

- He is all sunshine and fluff through the day 

- He's very energetic 

- He loves talking to you A LOT 

- You better like it 

- Bc this boy talkative! 

- He get's so excited all the time 

- So cute 

- But you're cute too 

- He loves seeing you happy 

- He get's upset when you are and won't leave your side until you're happy 

- He also loves home dates more than going out i can imagine 

- Like making chocolate dinosaurs 

- ........ 

- He doesn't talk about you too much tho 

- He loves to keep the time you two spent together for himself 

- He cherishes those moments 

- He would love to take pictures of you as well during your time together 

- And when you tell him to stop 

- It motivates him to keep going 

- Night time is when he changes 

- Not really.. 

- But he get's very serious during sex 

- While usually you could make him laugh just by doing something weird 

- Now the closest to a smile you'll get is a smirk as he undresses you 

- You bet your ass he loves it rough 

- Real rough 

- This Ten is a whole different Ten than you have ever experienced and you were not ready! 

- He loves hickeys a lot 

- Everywhere 

- He finds it even hotter when you need to hide them at work/school/etc. 

- He is very freaking audible 

- Not loud 

- Just likes letting out a lot of sound 

- It turns him on when you do the same 

- This boi needs to stay in his lane tho 

- Imma Kris tho bye! 

Jaehyun 

- lord have mercy 

- Jung Jae Hyun is a the cutest 

- People always talk about how hot he is and shit 

- But like have you seen his personality??? 

- And his baby cheeks?? 

- Wow he so smol 

- I think he would be the smoothest at dating 

- But like he wouldn't treat you like any other 

- He would love you so much 

- You're special to him 

- I think his words would get to you a lot 

- He is pretty good at talking and shit 

- Moving on 

- He loves spending time with you and hearing about your day 

- He also likes to tell you how practice went and tell you about what's on his mind 

- The time spent with you would be his favourite time

- He would be always smiling when he thought about you 

- the other members would tease him about it a lot

- SMUT JAEHYUN ALERT!

- This boy is dirty minded as fuck

- ‘’Not now the camera’s are still rolling...’’

- He would make you blush so easily and he loves teasing

- I think he is very open minded in the bedroom and would try out a lot of things

- k i n k s

- regular spanks is a thing

- he really likes your small squeals,

- A little dom!Jaehyun 

- yessss

- Pet names are a thing 

- he would call you those cute little pet names in public

- others think it’s jsut a little pet name

- But they have no idea 

- ;)

 Winwin

- SICHENG!! TT

- Winwin would be the cutest in dating

- I know he’s 19 and not a little kid anymore

- But he is still so smol to me

- He would be your medicine because he is so cheery

- he hates seeing you sad as well

- He will watch your favorite shows with you and make you your favorite food to cheer you up

- I need a SiCheng in my life wow

- He get’s shy sometimes tho

- When you kiss him or compliment him

- He can’t hide it

- But when it had become a regulare thing

- he would play it off cool 

- ‘’I know I look good, babe’’

- You would nudge him, making him shy again

- But shy Winwin would soon fade when you two had entered the bedroom

- Winwin who?

- He would love to touch you up and down

- really take you in 

- body appreciation/worship

- He would secretly love to leave marks on you as well.

- I can imagine him wanting to hold your hands next to your head

- But because this is lovely SiCheng

- He would intertwine his fingers with yours

- I’m melting

- He would like to go slow your firsts few times 

- but as you two get to know each other he would speed/spice it up 

-  😏

- He likes making love

- But just straight up banging after a bad day at practice is also an option

- Am I still alive after this?

- nope

[champhangman]

Shotgun

Characters: Roman Reigns x Unnamed OFC

Summary: Dean's little sister riles up the Big Dog.

Warnings: Graphic sexual content, rough sex, cursing.

Smut/Fluff/Angst: Smut.

Requested by: Anon, who asked for: Smut with Dean's little sister and Roman. I hope you enjoy!

Notes: First Roman smut I’ve ever written, so I hope I did him justice...

Tagging: @llowkeys (idk if you want Roman smut or not lol), @the-geekgoddes, @blondekel77, @horcruxhunter5972, @zombiexbody, @vebner37, @thiickreigns, @nickysmum1909, @imtoldimbabe, @taryndibiase, @devittslegos (Want to be added to my tag list? Drop me a line!)

It started with eyes meeting across a crowded room. She hated that she had fallen for that old cliché but what was done was done. Not only had she'd fallen, she'd tumbled head over heels into the most cliché of all clichés.

Eyes meeting across a crowded room? Check.

The feeling of butterflies in her stomach as they maintained eye contact? Check.

Starting towards each other? Check.

Losing sight of him and worrying she wouldn't find him again? Check – several times, even though worrying she wouldn't see him again was ridiculous. He wasn't a stranger.

Meeting in the center of the room? Check.

The only thing missing from her cliché? That he hadn't swept her into his arms and launched them both into a song and dance routine.

She was grateful for that. Old Hollywood musicals were great fun, of course, but she doubted that Fred Astaire had twirled Ginger Rogers out of the bar so they could go fuck. Rather, she hoped he hadn't.

But he had. Not twirled, exactly. They'd chatted, had a drink or two at the bar. She'd always found him charming, witty, and, to be perfectly honest, gorgeous. After years of being stuck with guys close to her own size, she'd all but drooled over his. He exuded strength. He exuded confidence. He exuded sex appeal. When he leaned close and suggested they move to a more private location she had agreed. For reasons still unknown to her, she had been the one to lead him out into the night. She had paid for the taxi.

Because tonight she was finally going to fuck Roman Reigns.

She fell in love with his hair in the hotel elevator. She loved the silkiness of it between her fingers. She liked the smell, the texture. She especially loved how it fell into a curtain around their faces when he kissed her.

When they reached her hotel room he had her against the door before it fully closed. She gasped into his mouth, kicking off her shoes and shrugging out of her jacket before tucking her arms and legs around him. The playful kisses in the elevator were now gone, and she relinquished all control. She was tired of being in charge.

They hadn't spoken since his whispered words at the bar. She would have said something, but each time she broke the kiss to draw in a clear breath he caught her in another. His large hands pulled her top up over her breasts, and her head dropped back with a dull thud against the door when he lowered his head and sucked a hardening nipple into his mouth.

"Holy shit," she gasped, his hearty suckle sending tremors down her spine. Threading her fingers in his hair, she squirmed, pinned between him and the door. "Fuck… Roman…"

He released her nipple with a loud pop. "Hmm?"

She opened her mouth to tell him she wanted him in the bed, but he latched onto her other nipple before she could. She reveled in the feel of his tongue and teeth working over her sensitive flesh, breath stuttering out of her mouth when his hand slipped between their bodies. "Oh," she blurted, eyes widening as his fingers skimmed over bare flesh. "I forgot to put panties on…"

Roman chuckled, a low rumble that rocked her. Biting down gently on her nipple, he stroked her with steady, sure fingers, other hand grasping her waist when he backed away from the door. He carried her over to the bed, mouth crashing to hers while his fingers rubbed along her slit. Too soon she was falling onto the bed and pouted at the loss of his fingers.

She boosted herself upright, slowly licking her lips as she reached for his belt. She worked quickly, eye on the bulge that strained the front of his jeans. She knew that bulge well, having rubbed up against him countless times since their first meeting. She'd even sat on it a few times. And, yes, at the cookout he'd given that she'd been invited to, she had grinded in his lap, the friction of his bulge against her pussy, separated only by his swim trunks and her skimpy bikini bottoms, getting very close to giving her an orgasm. Her only regret was losing her nerve.

Not tonight. So determined, she flicked open the button of his jeans and eased down the zipper, hand delving inside without waiting for the jeans to be pulled down. Wrapping her fingers around his cock, she matched his ragged sigh with one of her own. He was thick and heavy and… She gave him a few exploratory strokes. Long. Humming in anticipation, she pulled his cock free and leaned forward to guide it into her mouth.

"Fuck," he groaned, the low timbre of his voice filling the room. He cupped the back of her head, applying gentle pressure to guide her down further, and wound his fingers in her hair to keep her steady.

Moaning, she flicked her eyes up to watch his face, felt her pussy flood when she found him watching her. His eyes were dark, a muscle in his jaw ticking, and she was encouraged to go all the way when his teeth briefly caught his bottom lip. She felt her throat protest when the head of his dick hit the back and start going down, but swallowed away the discomfort. Catching the tang of him on her tongue, she moaned louder, bracing her hands on his thighs.

Roman's fingers tightened in her hair, urging her to go faster. She lightly dug her nails into his thighs, and her eyes widened when he began roll his hips to meet her mouth. "Mm… Fuck, baby girl…"

"Mm-hmm," she managed around his cock, keeping her head still. The tip of his cock kept brushing the back of her throat and she felt her eyes begin to water. Her tongue worked furiously along the underside of his shaft, and she felt her lungs begin to burn. Pushing against his thighs, she gasped for breath as soon as he pulled his cock free of her mouth. She had barely drawn in a lungful when he was pushing it back in, hips rocking faster this time, coaxing her to take him down her throat.

He continued to stare down at her, teeth still occasionally grabbing his bottom lip. She saw perspiration start to bead on his forehead, then his lips were parting with a deep moan. "You're gonna make me cum," he gasped, eyes closing briefly. His hips surged forward, sending his cock deeper than before, and he held her still while he strained, pushing as deeply as possible. "You gon' swallow it?"

She accomplished a brief nod, unable to breathe much less answer properly. He suddenly pulled her off, pushing her down on the bed and she stared at the ceiling, sucking air into her burning lungs. Lurching at the unexpected sting of his palms on her thighs, she spread her legs, panting, yelping when he dragged her to the edge of the bed. Her legs were draped over his shoulders and just when she lifted her head to watch, his lips began sucking hard on her clit. "Fuck, fuck, fuck…"

She dug her heels into his back, one hand reaching down to hold onto his head. His fingernails dug into her skin as her hips started to roll. Still breathing raggedly, she could only gasp the same word over and over again. A powerful arm wrapped around her waist, keeping her from moving too much. He scraped her clit with his teeth, eliciting a short shriek, then swirled over it with his tongue. Ignoring her whines of complaint when he lifted his head, he proceeded to spread her slit.

"I've been dreaming about eating this pussy for ages," he confessed. His tongue flattened over her, dragging from her entrance to her clit in one thorough swipe. He made a sound of approval and did it again. "Ever since I felt you getting wet on my dick."

"Shit, Roman," she moaned, winding her fingers more securely in his hair. His tongue licked her again, then he was lifting his head. To her shock, he spit directly on her clit, and began spreading it with his middle finger. "Fuck…"

Lowering his head, he blew on her overheated flesh, tip of his finger teasing her entrance. Just when she thought she would scream in frustration his tongue returned to her clit, flicking slowly. His finger moved away, his mouth fused to her pussy, and this time she did scream, but with delight, as his tongue began fucking her with rapid, noisy strokes.

"Roman," she squealed, pressing her thighs to either side of his head. He didn't ease off, teeth scraping her clit, tongue plunging and slurping, fingers pressing down on her hips to hold her still. "Oh god…"

She was going to cum. She didn't want to. Not yet. If he— "Ahh!" she shrieked, head falling back when his tongue swept up and danced over her clit. The room became overheated. She felt perspiration beading on her skin, despite the goosebumps his mouth raised. It brought with it a chill, which swept through her body, stiffening her already hard nipples and causing her toes to curl. "Oh fuck, fuck fuck," she cried, clutching at his hair with both hands. "Just like – Yes! Right - Roman!"

Screeching his name again as her orgasm knocked her senseless, she threw her head back. His mouth remained, persistent, until she started to shake. With a noisy kiss to her clit, which caused her to cry out, he lifted his head.

"Good?" he whispered.

"Fuck yes," she gasped. Her legs slid off his shoulders as he stood up, and she could only stare while he yanked his shirt over his head and fully removed his jeans. Mouth going dry at the sight of olive-toned skin and thick muscles, she dragged her tongue over her lips.

He grabbed her waist, pushing her further onto the bed. The mattress dipped as he joined her. Still struggling to regain coherence and get control over her breathing, she moaned softly when he guided her onto her front. She lifted her hips, surprised when he shoved pillows beneath them. Boosting herself up on her elbows, she glanced over her shoulder, gaze moving to the bulging tip of his cock as he tugged her skirt down. The garment landed next to the bed, and she felt a thrill when he unceremoniously jerked her top over her head. She felt the tip of his dick nudge her slit as he knelt behind her. Rolling her hips, she breathed his name each time his cock bumped against her clit.

Roman's hands gripped her hips and she braced herself, a shrill cry escaping when he entered her. "Goddamn," he growled, pushing in until his hips dug into her ass. "So fucking tight… Shit…"

She felt her eyes roll back as he filled her completely. He stretched her. She could feel his cock twitch inside her and whimpered when he began to withdraw. He gave a few lazy, unhurried strokes. Never fully pulling out or going in all the way. His hands moved to her thighs and, at the sound of his soft growl, she knew.

He wasn't going to be gentle. Tenderness would not be involved. She braced herself, holding her breath as he began to fuck her with deep, thorough strokes. There was no time for romance, though she had a vague sensation he was capable of it. There was barely time to breathe, with his dick slamming into her so forcefully the mattress began to shake. He was wild. Untethered. He was focused solely on one thing now: his own pleasure. She knew hers mattered as well, but she'd already orgasmed once. He'd already seen to that.

And she would orgasm again. She could already feel it building. Her legs shook. She tightened around his cock, enjoying the way his fingers trembled at her thighs each time she did so. If she focused, she could— "Fuck!" she cried when he shifted the angle of his hips. Now each ruthless thrust of his hips sent his cock rubbing over that spot inside her that very few men had ever found. "Roman!"

He let go of her thighs, one hand coming down on her ass before giving it a harsh squeeze. Leaning forward, he grabbed her flailing hands and held them down. His hold was vise-like, and his relentless rhythm never faltered. His mouth, blazing hot, pressed to her neck. "You gonna cum?" he asked, just a little breathless. Squeezing her hands, he began a more concentrated thrusting. Still deep, still hard, but just a fraction slower. It seemed his cock rubbed that spot even better now. His soft chuckle came just before his tongue flicked over her earlobe. "Yeah, you are…"

"Yes," she agreed.

"Slower?" he asked, demonstrating by segueing into a series of gentle thrusts that had her moaning softly. "Or faster?"

"Fuck," she squealed when he launched into strokes so fast she couldn't tell when he was in her or not. His hips grinded against her. His cock slammed into her all the way and she saw stars.

She came back to reality when he let go of her hands and pushed himself upright. His cock throbbed deep inside her and she whined as he withdrew. Cum, thick and blazing hot, splashed onto her ass. Shocked when he slid into her for a few more strokes, she slumped forward, panting, enjoying his low moans. Again he pulled out, and this time she felt a thick burst of cum land on her clit. It sent jolts throughout her body. He pushed inside once more, fucking her with slow, deep strokes that made her tremble. When he pulled out, he quickly flipped her onto her back and she hurriedly sat up.

She had barely closed her lips around the tip when cum began landing on her tongue. Swallowing, making appreciative sounds, she watched his face twist with pleasure. Once she'd coaxed the last drops out, she bobbed her head up and down slowly, tongue working furiously to clean his cock. Sitting back, she dragged her finger over her lips then popped it into her mouth for a quick suck. "Next time, I want that whole load," she requested.

He leaned down, tipping her chin back so he could catch her lips in a quick kiss. "Whatever you want, baby girl."

"Right now, I want a shower," she mused when he let go of her chin and flopped down next to her. Swinging her feet to the floor, she felt the delicious ache of good sex and slowly stood. "You?"

"Not just yet," he panted, throwing an arm over his face when she switched on the light.

Was he planning on staying? She didn't mind. She would enjoy waking up next to him. Crossing the room to retrieve her jacket, she dug her phone and wallet out of the pockets and placed them on the nightstand before ducking into the bathroom for a quick shower.

When she came out, hair wrapped in a towel, he was sitting up against the headboard, arm tucked behind his head. "That was a quick shower."

"I just need to rinse off." She unwound the towel and tossed it into the bathroom. Combing her fingers through her hair, she moved to climb into bed.

He dragged her into a kiss before she was fully on the bed. Surprised, she straddled him, fingers sinking into his hair.

"I'm gonna need you to stay," she mumbled between kisses.

"Good thing, 'cause I'm not leaving," he replied.

"Good, because—" she groaned as her phone began to vibrate on the nightstand. About to ignore it, she caught the name flashing on the screen and groaned again. "Shit, fuck… It's my brother."

Her hand was halfway to her phone before he grabbed it. "He can wait 'til tomorrow," Roman murmured, guiding her onto her back.

"Dean's an impatient asshole," she reminded him with a roll of her eyes. "He'll come banging on the door within ten minutes if I don't answer."

Roman lifted an eyebrow. "Is he that overprotective?"

"Ugh, yes." She leaned up to press a kiss to his lips and reached for her phone again. Being Dean Ambrose's younger sister had its perks, but it definitely had its burdens too. "Don't worry, I won't tell him about this."

"You don't think I can take him?"

She leaned back, gaze roving what she could see of his figure. "Are you implying that you'd fight my brother?"

"For you?" He settled between her thighs as her phone stopped buzzing. "Fuck yeah."

She was sinking into his kiss when the phone started to vibrate again. But this time, she ignored it completely.

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Eray’s Exposé

I like to think about my dream guy. My mind works in numbers and figures and ideas. Once I find a pattern, I allow the pattern to direct my life. Even my love life. I don’t do blonde guys, except maybe Thomas Rider, who I was pressed up against on the M86 bus for about an hour today. He could be a brunette because he has dark eyebrows. I love brunette guys. Sharp jawlines and sprinkles of freckles turn me on. Tall guys who can pull me up against their thin chests.

Boys have this taste and smell around them, I think it might be Old Spice, or something, I don’t really know. But the warmth of their tongues and the prickles of their hastily shaven stubble against my nose drives me insane.

My type is the guy who I can’t have. The best friend. The three years older. The older brother. The foreigner.

Eray Ayd Williams. We had a shit ton of beef in the beginning of the year. He and Brady liked my dear friend Tutu, noted for her vivacious personality and determinedly large boobs. Breasts. Tits. I don't know how to talk about my friend’s chest in a not perv way. The boobs make Tutu who she is, not the other way around.

I remember when Eray got a nice haircut in like, November. That was hot. Nothing else really happened, besides a few interactions in Spanish Class, and brushes in the hallway.

At homecoming, I slapped Eray. He was being a dick. To someone. I don't remember. The not remembering part is either my brain trying to block it out or the alcohol that ran through my veins, or just that I don't remember. He wasn't of much importance. We had beef. That’s all their was to Eray and I.

I was invited to Roberto’s Sweet 16 because I was hooking up with his best friend Benjamin English. Guiffra and English. I got relevant after I gave him a hand job. I kinda feigned innocence so that I wouldn’t have to blow him. He was really nice. That was Benjamin. Funny and nice and sort of cute and had nice arms. But so nice. His chest was always warm against mine. Ben didn’t kiss my neck enough.

The sophomore guys have an obsession with me. I don't know why. They think I'm hot. I know I'm pretty but not hot as fuck id bang 10/10. Her tits are not big but like so perky. Her cheekbones like wow. Nice ass. She's actually hilarious what the fuck. Dibs on her. Thats the way the guys around me talk about girls. Wish there’d be more OMG we need more girls like Guiffra!!

Well, after Roberto’s birthday, Eray was smashed drunk. He was hooking up with this chick Charlotte Robersen. She's awesome. Really smart and athletic and kind. Model Trinity kid. Good friend. I found out that Eray lives a few blocks away from me. He definitely needed a ride home. I paid for his cab and he bought me an Evian at the Duane Reade by his house. We talked a lot. Mostly about people and our school and his older brother. We meandered the Upper East Side for about an hour and Eray finally sobered up. Enough. He added me on snapchat and yelled back a See you Monday! I love you!

The next week Eray talked me up to all of his friends. I was that good Samaritan who helped the poor drunk boy out. Not just my good deed pleased Eray and his guy squad, but my humor and comfort with almost everything. I was so comfortable with Eray and his friends in turn. Their easy-going love made me feel like I was a part of their group. Jiffy’s for the boys!

A week later, Eray and I were tight. We exchanged gossip and memes and music.

Then, the walks began. I was about to walk to the M96 bus, but I received a call from Eray asking me to walk with him across the park. I felt wanted. For once. It wasn't me putting in the effort in a friendship. I spotted his classic maroon tee shirt and enormously tall figure. He smiled and shouted at me.

That afternoon, I knew Eray and I were gonna be something special. I could trust this one. He opened up to me quickly, which was unexpected for someone who always held up a barrier between himself and anyone who wasn't a close friend. Oh my god, swear not to tell anyone that practically became his motto. I was able to tell him my actual opinions on people and things, without judgement or fear of exposure. 2 things I couldn't find with anyone else.

We became best friends. I called him my best friend and, wanted to think, I was his. God, he makes me so happy.

Special. Loved.

His voice and laugh and walk and attitude. I realized I had a thing for him at the end of spring break, just as I was ending things with Benjamin.

Eray ended stuff with Charlotte. He wasn't ever really into her.

Two days after a fiasco of breakups in the Class of 2020, I decided to host a free. Perfect chance to hop on Eray. To drunkenly slide in and confess my feelings for him.

At the party, he wore the maroon shirt again. We goofed around a lot and I flirted obsessively. I know he thinks I'm attractive. I don't know about much else. Almost an entire FourLoko in, he’s fucking sexy. The strip of tanned ab exposed makes my eyes roll back into my head.

I was lying on top of Eray’s warm chest. Warmer than Benjamin’s, than Matt’s, than Jacob’s. Our legs intertwine. My fingers play with the curling locks of hair behind his neck. I love this. I want to kiss his swollen lips and hold his rough hands and be held by his sore arms. I want him.

At the end of the party, I end up on the floor sobbing. He said something about some girl’s boobs and I slapped him. I couldn't stand up. I couldn't stop sobbing. I couldn't breathe. I just couldn't stand. May-Anne told me that Benjamin got with Andrea Sanchez. She's gorgeous. A sophomore. I sent Eray a long text confessing my crush-thing. We FaceTimed the next day and he said he would “definitely think about it” and that my crush was “a huge surprise! you really kept it on the dl.” This kid is dumb. I flirt with him incessantly.

We continue our walks, with a little more feeling. We walk a bit closer to each other. We make less eye contact. Serhat, Eray’s older brother, struts past us on a walk, and makes heart signs with his hands.

On our field trip to the Cloisters, Eray rejected me. He sees me as a friend.

I’m fat.

Ugly.

Annoying.

Unlikable.

Unlovable.

I think I get over him pretty easily. I met this ridiculously hot Nigerian guy named Mohamed who is covered in designer brands. He compliments my eyes and my cheekbones and my smile and my voice. I know he wants to get his hands into my underwear, but that doesn't stop me from indulging. Mohamed wants to see my eyes again.

I confide in Daniel. He promises to set me up with one of his hot miscreant friends. I love Dan.

It comes time for the rodeo. A huge, hormonal, grimy all-school nightclub affair. I want to rebound with a hot sophomore guy. Like Simon Gray or Paul van Dyrk or Thomas Rider or something. Anything to prove that I’m over Benjamin, and I’m hot, and I’m past Eray.

Eray is still my best friend. He bought me a giant bottle of Svedka. I wanted Bacardi, but it was alright. He’s wearing the maroon shirt again. Does this kid own any other clothes?

I’m almost blackout drunk. The strobe lights dance to the beat of the sweating teenagers. My heels make my feet burn. I feel like between each light is a few seconds. Time slows down.

His lips are on mine. Not Eray’s. Jake Andrew’s. Jack. Not Jake. Action Jackson. He's my type. Pretty hot. Go me.

Another millisecond between the strobe light feels like 5 minutes. Eray struts towards me. His arm snakes around my waist, down south to my butt. Fuck. His lips are on mine. A few seconds. They're soft but with force and plump , and wow Eray’s kissing me. He runs away.

I don’t remember the other two kisses. Just that they did, in fact, happen. Eray was blackout drunk. More than me.

We hook up. Our chests desperately press against one another. Fuck. Fuck. Finally. This is the first time a guy I’ve had a massive crush on has made out with me. Fuck.

Simon Gray was yuck. Still hot.

Eray. He’s all I can think about, yet “I see you as a friend.” “Idk. I don’t remember.”

They say drunk actions, sober thoughts. A small voice inside my heart says that he must have some deep hidden feelings for me. I was so close to getting over him. So fucking close. But I’m in love with my best friend and he thinks that I’m not good enough. I’m just Jiffy.

Fat. Ugly. Annoying. Unlikable. Unlovable. This mantra won’t escape the boundaries of my mind. I have generalized anxiety disorder. I think that’s the exact term. All I can think about is how inadequate and unlikable I am.

I think I love him. I don't know why. He can be a major dick. But he's so kind to me and his voice soothes me and his arms keep me warm. And all he wants is what I’m not. I’m stuck.