#idk things are weird and undefined with them

[angelbitezzz]

Hey girl your listless nature and unbalanced humors finally attracted someone

[pulchrasilva]

Thought too long about non-standard relationships where you don't bother with a label and there's no "confession of feelings" it's just deep care for each other and a determination to stick together and intimacy with no regard for what type of relationship it is. SOMEONE make it stop before my little brain explodes from the gay feels

[arikashimorika]

Oooo. the Color Gang being so young means they've probably latched onto Alan as some sort of parental figure, not definitive, but it'd be there. Esp TSC, though bc Alan and TSC spend more time together esp when animating, TSC might encounter Noogai. Though it'd be unlikely to happen too often. But regardless, due to these varuous factors and how they dont have other bigger influences other than the internet and Purple and Mango, Alan's behavior is basically normal for em.

DJ living with Alan... Now im just imagining there just being a bunch of sticky notes around the house for Alan to see just in case Noogai kicks in and causes him to forget. Sometimes(atleast in my experience, may be diff for others with DID), My alters can like manifest as voices in my head, undefined. I do know its them bc only bc theyre distinct voices. However this applied to Alan...

Alan definitely thinks Noogai providing commentary is simpky his intrusive thoughts, especially with how violent those thoughts would be if theres conflict that violence can be used in.

Also, the thing about Purple and Mango, Purple would notice but likely takes abit longer, Mango on the other hand would kinda clock in that Alan's behavior is weird, not exactly that Alan has DID, but that Alwn's behavior is just. Off.

Theres also Chosen and Dark! If ever Dark survives in this AU or not, i think he'd be insulted Alan remembers Chosen but not him /silly. Althought their reactions would be kinda on diff ends, in the end they're both likely experiencing some whiplash with how DIFFERENT Alan is now compared to then(in their own eyes.), unaware of Noogai(for now...)

The one im fascinated by the most is Victim's reaction however. Like how would he feel if the man that tortured him for months on end was somehow also not the same man yet is? And that man doesnt remember him at times but other times he can. That the person he sees behind the screen either looks so kind or so cruel you'd wish you escaped sooner. Idk im rambling again! hehehe

Stupid Alan and Noogai doodles bc theyre so funny to me. Noogai abt to juggle the sticks like in that one short here /j

He has done nothing wrong ever (LIAR.)

Oh! I’ve seen that. Those poor little kids, Lol

Continuing with questions about DID!AlanAU

I see.. the relationship between Alan and the Color Gang as being similar to someone taking care of "a friend’s kid" (yes, I mean you. DadyDJ). Perhaps DJ just wants Alan to take a break from work and do something lighter for a change.

Even though, sometimes, the result turns out to be the complete opposite... lol

As for Sec, I think he’s like a character Alan hasn’t fully created yet (because he hasn’t been named). But somehow, Sec "came to life" on his own. It’s fun to imagine Alan opening Sec’s file only to discover that his name has already been set as "The Second Coming.exe – The Chosen One's Return." That would definitely leave Alan confused, wouldn’t it?

With Alan’s tendency to be forgetful... yes, DJ sticks reminder notes everywhere Alan might see them—on the whiteboard in his office, the fridge, even on his computer screen. But Alan always takes them down, finding the sheer amount of notes overwhelming and annoying.

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As for TCO and TDL, I’m not entirely sure about TDL’s fate in the canon, but in this AU, I want him to be alive. It doesn’t seem fair for him to bear the consequences of everything, especially when part of the chaos stemmed from Noogai’s command codes.

After The Showdown

After clearing things up, TCO occasionally visits TSC (sometimes dragging TDL along to apologize for the chaos they caused).

Of course, Noogai tries to stop TDL from harming the Color Gang, but it usually fails (it's kind of like Noogai thinking, Only I get to mess with those kids!).

The Moment Alan Encounters TCO and TDL Again

*Alan introduces TCO to the Color Gang*

TSC: "So, did you create TDL too?"

*Alan looks at them with a confused expression* Alan: "Who’s TDL?"

*The room falls into silence*

TDL unable to hold it in, shouted : "What the HELL kind of joke is this? Are you Kidding me?!"

*DJ, who had been listening from a distance, knew the reason but wasn’t sure how to explain.*

As for TCO, he is indeed a quiet person. Even though he caused quite a bit of trouble when he was first created, perhaps that’s partly due to the influence of the name Alan gave him—who knows? And I think it would be amusing to see TDL sulking at Alan for not remembering him, even though, deep down, TDL is the kind of person who’s too stubborn to openly express his feelings.

Extra scene..

Before the AVM Introduction Scene

DJ was sitting at his desk, playing Minecraft while uploading a video to the AVG (Animators vs. Games) channel.

Alan walked over, glancing at the screen with curiosity.

Alan: "Hey, buddy. What game are you playing?"

DJ turned to Alan, looking utterly shocked before blurting out:

DJ: "What?! You know every drawing program out there, but you don’t know Minecraft? Where was your childhood, man?!"

Not letting Alan off the hook, DJ immediately made him download Minecraft and try it out.

Thoughts on Alan:

To me, Alan wouldn’t have much of an enthusiastic reaction to Minecraft. In his childhood, he probably couldn’t afford the equipment needed to play games. Or, perhaps he just didn’t care about games, choosing instead to spend his time learning and finding ways to create a career for himself.

Alan’s Situation with Purple and Mango

Alan accidentally encounters them about a week after The Showdown...

*Purple and Mango appear after being invited by the Color Gang and Orange.*

As Alan finishes his work and prepares to head to bed, following DJ's advice...

Alan: "Uh… Dude, did you make two more kids?"

DJ (walking behind Alan to check on things): "Excuse me, What?!"

Thoughts on Alan: From my perspective, Alan sees all stick figures as mischievous kids (Color Gang) or troublemakers (The Chosen One and The Dark Lord). He never bothers asking about the age or details of Mango and Purple at all. lol

Victim's reaction however..

In AVA 9 'Wanted'

After the events of The Showdown, TCO was issued a warrant by Rocket Corp, while TDL was recovering from the battle with TSC.

As both were being hunted by mercenaries, TDL was caught first, while TCO managed to escape and seek refuge with the Orange and Color Gang.

After TSC was dragged into the portal by TCO, the Color Gang quickly followed suit.

Alan, concerned about the kids, decided to implement the backup plan he had prepared with DJ since the events of The Showdown.

...And BOOM!!

The backup plan involved using VR to connect with an avatar that was created (of course, all the equipment and avatar design were done entirely by DJ himself—don’t even ask where he got all the materials from; it’s DJ™ business).

This could allow Alan to meet Victim directly, but their first encounter will likely confuse both the kids and Victim when they meet Alan in avatar form, as they have only known each other from the perspective of the cursor (to Victim). Furthermore, Alan has kept this a secret between himself and DJ (to Color Gang).

Of course, DJ has started to worry about Color Gang, who are always looking for trouble. He’s already lectured them, but did the kids learn their lesson? Nope!

[blrbaileys]

minecraft movie thoughts n stuff

okay finally digested that movie time to ramble although i don't know how much i have to say! usual stuff applies, this isn't a thought out essay this is me rapid fire typing thoughts as i think them.

first, yes it was aimed at kids, kids might even enjoy it, but as someone else said, my dog enjoys eating shit i'd be an asshole if i fed it to her. kids deserve better movies! i don't think it should've been live action but thats like, it was live action and here we are.

a friend of mine said the movie felt like a funny moment compilation for a movie that didn't exist and i really couldn't agree with the sentiment more. the timeline of the movie is like a day even in a weird minecrafty world that not physically enough time for much development, we barely get to know the characters or the world.

also the isekai stuff is just annoying in general, why at the end of every story is it "oh we must go back to the real world" like, none of them were actively benefiting from that choice, the movie went out of its way to establish that most of them didn't have any real-world connections to go back to aside from each other who all could have stayed anyway!

the movie fundamentally doesn't want to take minecraft seriously to any degree, which means the weird tone changes when they need to have a serious moment like discussing the Dead Mother and presumably Absent Father (who isn't mentioned) giving everyone whiplash. the "beauty" of the Overworld is purely surface visuals, it isn't about the deeper aspects of creation, the stories something as open as Minecraft lets you tell, etc.

i appreciate the technoblade moment, glad that was done how it was, he'd hate the movie but damn would he love the clout.

it has funny moments, theres comedic value in the movie especially if you go in with like, lower-than-floor level expectations, i wouldn't say the movie itself is funny overall because its impossible not to notice how bad it is.

also it felt like they wanted what [arcane S2 spoilers] viktor and jayce had for garret and steve in that they wanted a weird undefined relationship between them but viktor jayce made it work because they became space and time gods together and just skipped dating altogether, steve and garret didn't have that. they should've stayed in the overworld together or something idk. i do still ship it though don't fight me i won't engage.

i had a fun cinema experience, i went with like 20 people, some close friends who are as invested in minecraft as me, we struggled our way through the whole thing, screamed about how bad it was in a pub after until we were the only people left in the pub.

but just, what was the plot they wanted, it feels like the whole movie was just "and then".

summary: movie didn't want to acknowledge the games true nature as a powerful media that has build incredible communities, it wanted to take the "creative game" and use it for laughs at the funny things people can make. 5/10 and thats probably only because i enjoyed the cinema experience and its so bad its laughable.

don't destroy your local theatre when steve says chicken jockey, for good minecraft tv content watch WHITEPINE by IvoryTV btw.

[lostsyren]

I’m lowkey still scared for what will happen with Sofia and rafe in season 5 and yk the whole riara thing the people are pushing but after seeing madelyn’s replies to some comments on her TikTok (talking about shipping riara and wanting them to get together in obx5) I feel like it’s not happening so maybe it’s safe to say there’s a chance for rafe and sofia to get back together. I mean you never know with the pates but it would be crazy to just let them go since one of the pates already said in an interview that their story continues in S5.

(Madelyn also shut down the rumors /theories about Sarah losing the baby so they probably got the scripts for S5 already).

I’m scared and excited at the same time ugh

Sameeee! Idk I’m tryna accept the show is gonna go in the direction I don’t want it to (rafe and kie becoming a thing, Sofia being an afterthought, storylines sacrificed just for a ship– like they did with jiara…) because at least then I won’t be disappointed if I expect it.

I’ve seen Madelyn’s comments too, but that doesn’t really instil much confidence, seeing as she’s just an actress and only the writers will know what they’re doing. And from interviews in previous seasons, it seems like a very “make it up as we go along” type of set environment, so I doubt anything is outlined fully. So even if they’ve gotten the scripts, it’s probably just for one ep😭

But I have hope!! Sofia’s “end” felt very rushed and undefined– like they have to have some mention of her. My moots and I were just talking about that today actually. About how they forged a connection between Sofia’s dad and Hollis and completely left it open ended. And now with Hollis’ murder, I wonder if Sofia will get involved in something else? (Idk about her and Rafe’s fate– as long as she’s there in some capacity).

That whole scene with her dad felt odd. The way she greeted him compared to the rest of her family, and the weird, off handed look he has before trying to involve his daughter and her bf in some shady business?? I thought he’d have a bigger part to play in part 2 but ig not😭 Tbf she’s a side character– I wouldn’t blame them for not focusing on her. But to kinda just let her story fizzle out after they’ve set up so much feels stupid.

“the whole riara thing the people are pushing” –This made me laugh because I feel the same way😭. The ship feels very reminiscent of jiara, in the sense that it very much started out as a non-canon, unplanned ship spearheaded by overzealous fans and now is consuming the show for the worse…“the whole riara thing” is literally just a thing because wdym they’ve had a whole ass fling in Kie’s kook year? The writers need to stop reading fan theories and stick to the original plan😭. Fans are again revolving the entire show around two characters and kinda ignoring or understating the rest of the relationships/dynamics the characters have with everyone else. Like the way they interpret their scenes being cold hard fact that Rafe and Kie have something…but really??? Did they? Do they?

Maybe for “Kie’s season” we don’t veer into another romance after her “soulmate” just got murdered. Maybe Rafe and Kie can have scenes and meaningful development and it doesn’t have to be romantic. They don’t even have much chemistry if I’m being honest. If they do end up becoming romantic, the casual watcher, (who isn’t riddled with the chronically online/overly dissected takes of the show), will be left feeling confused. Because all of their so called “development” and “chemistry” is really just headcanon and is unsubstantiated in any real way.

Ig you could say not everything needs to be shoved in your face, what happened to reading between the lines and media literacy…but sometimes you need to just take a step back and consider if it’ll actually make sense and if the show you’re watching is what you’ve made it out to be.

But I digress😭 I’d love for Rafe and Sofia to get more development. Now that they’ve hit the first major pothole in their nearly two years of being together it’ll be interesting to see all the cracks in their relationship they covered up. For Sofia to finally stand up for herself, for Rafe to clock how horrible he was to her, to see how they fight, how they make up.

But again, keeping my hopes at a low level. I’m not delusional, like ik it’s the final season, and ik Sofia is not as important as the other characters. But a girl can dream😭 (and I stand by the fact that they can develop her/rafia in an interesting and meaningful way…Idk if they will, but I can see another storyline intersecting with the main pogues vs Groff one, where the story returns to Kildare…maybe then Sofia will be involved more in tying up loose ends: with Hollis’ murder, the whole pogue vs kook riot plot, Shoupe still investigating Peterkin’s murder…there’s probably more but I can’t remember– there’s many avenues for her to take. They find a way to make Topper relevant every season, I expect the same treatment for Sofia😭)

[altocat]

Why do you like crisis core/Final Fantasy 7?/pos :D

FF7 needs no introduction. Without getting too much into detail I'll just say it has great characters with a great story. Its legacy speaks for itself.

As for Crisis Core...that's an interesting question. CC is INCREDIBLY flawed. Like holy shit levels of flawed. It was originally supposed to be a trilogy and it SHOWS. The dialogue is clunky, the characters are often undefined or underutilized. Sometimes the pacing is weird. Sometimes the conversations are borderline nonsensical.

And yet I still kind of love it? Idk I love the cheese factor. And for all its flaws, I still think its story is pretty interesting. It has a nice coming of age plot for Zack and the stuff with the First trio has some interesting lore. Angeal and Genesis have some pretty unique qualities about them that make them memorable. And Sephiroth's characterization, as you well already know, is extremely interesting and appealing to me. The ending is heartbreaking. The music is pretty nice. I think there's a lot to like. It just...fits for me. It's that messy partner you can't help but love despite their flaws. It's sincere and it wears its heart on its sleeve. And that speaks to me. So yeah, I love Crisis Core, warts and all. It's doofy and clumsy and at times quite stupid. But I feel things when I play it. And sometimes, that's enough.

[fightclubgayporn]

please ignore how wonky the composition is LOL. i was inspired by @lakesparkles and his gravespowers swap au, soo. i decided to make a (kind of) similar one with sandra and envy!! its far less of a swap au and much more of just. what if envy's exes did the league instead of ramona's exes. a better explanation under the cut!!

so in this, ramona and scott (probably?) never met because scott went joker mode after the breakup with envy. he formed the “league” as a revenge plot but none of the other exes take it as seriously as he does. they’re mostly just there to bitch and, in julie and gideon’s case, have weird evil date night with each other

julie doesnt even really count herself as one of envys exes, but she’ll never turn down the opportunity to be a bitch, or to be a bitch with her boyfriend. she made out with envy in college like twice when they were roommates so she technically counts

scott and envy's relationship plays out pretty much how it does in canon, except instead of wallowing and eventually getting over it, scott gets super trapped in his head, and ends up merging with nega scott, except not in a "im accepting my past!" way, in a "i am never going to change and in fact i am going to become worse" way. he just sort of self-isolates and stews in anger until he hears about the clash at demonhead breaking up, when he gets the idea for the league. speaking of which.

todd and envy get back together after she breaks up with scott (its the same as in canon basically) except instead of todd cheating on her with lynette, envy cheats on him with lynette. for envy, it's just a way for her to release a little stress and cope with the fact that she's not happy in her relationship, but lynette sees it as an actual relationship. she'd been pining for envy ever since the band formed, and so when envy finally propositions her, it's like a dream come true. until todd finds out and envy defends herself by saying that lynette didn't mean anything to her, ruining her relationship with both of them and breaking up the band. todd and lynette hate each other now. todd hates lynette for sleeping with his girlfriend and lynette hates todd because he "got to envy before she could." and they both hate envy because she broke their hearts. (todd was never all that in love with her, he saw the relationship as more of a status thing, but like, it still sucks to get cheated on lmfao)

gideon and envy's relationship is pretty similar to in the comics? after the band broke up, she decided to pursue a solo career under gideon's label. it was all very nebulous and they never were officially dating or in a relationship or anything but it wasn't. normal. envy was into him, but only really into the status and the money. he was sort of who she wanted to be. gideon didn't particularly care about her, but he liked having control, and she was something he had control over. it was all very weird and undefined and toxic and she left his label and decided to become an independent musician. yayy

which leads us to the present, where envy and sandra meet after one of envy's shows. sandra is there with monique (duh) but also with stacey and idk. comeau i guess. he knows everyone. stacey and envy are still friends despite scott, and so envy joins them after the concert and sandra's pretty much instantly in love. she already had a celebrity crush on envy, but having her be Real and There just solidified it. she asks envy out that night (albeit very desperately and awkwardly) and envy figures, why not. oops the relationship kinda goes great and the gossip pipeline of stacey -> julie -> gideon -> scott happens and now. sandra has to fight envy's 5 evil exes! or at least, like, three of them. whatever

god that was longer than i thought it would be. if you read all that a) thank you and b) sorry

[biancasaidstfu]

I'm also European and agree with the other anons that chimed in, there are cultural differences North Americans don't seem to be aware of. American dating is so... idk, formal? Compared to European. There's this whole politics over there about where you take someone out, who pays, when you dtr... That stuff is much more fluid and undefined by those standards here. Here the only difference between a friend and partner is usually the physical stuff.

We usually hang out in groups, even with our partners, and it's more rare to go out on a date just the two of you. You can for example get dinner alone and then join friends at a bar later. You might hang out throughout the day just at your house or do chores together both with partners and friends and it's not unusual to meet family early on, simply because people either keep living at home until later or stay in the same general area. Things aren't as focused on the nuclear family or couple here. On the whole, at least where I'm from, family is more involved in our lives, and so are friends and their respective families, especially if they're since childhood. My parents even went on their honeymoon with other couples. It's not uncommon to be physically affectionate with people in your group, even ones you don't know that well. I've gone on group vacations where I've only known one person there and I wasn't out of place.

Usually, if you've made out with a person, you're considered together, unless understood situationally that it's just a hookup (for example, you're on vacation and likely won't see them again), but there can also be agreed-upon long-term situationships because of life circumstances or just both of you agree you're not good for each other in the long run, that's not uncommon either. It really runs the gamut - you'll meet couples that are 100% exclusive, you'll meet poly folks, you'll meet people with unusual arrangements and they might not even have a label for what they are. I feel like Americans have more of a protocol and expectations, whereas we Europeans don't sweat it as much. I've had months-long relationships where it was simply implied we were together or we never formally broke up, just drifted apart and stopped hanging out/talking.

That's why I don't think what Nicola told Time was weird - they're probably in that grey area with each other and she's just being truthful, but Americans don't know what to make of it because things are more delineated usually for them, whereas here we go with the flow more. They probably have good reasons for the parameters that their relationship has, they've probably discussed it, and it's their prerogative whether they share it with us or not. At the end of the day it's none of our business, we're just nosy haha.

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[stuck-in-a-forest]

★ intro post ★

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basic info part 1: names

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Clover* Onyx Shenanigan/Shen* Axes Sparrow* Jinx Rumor Forest* Flux* Bug*

basic info part 2: pronouns

pronouns page (its not done yet just so ya know)

mainly they/them but my gender is weird asf so therefore use whatever the fuck you want /silly including neopronouns :3

basic info part 3: age :o ?????

just kidding not giving away my exact age lol but im a young teenager and my birthday is on february 2nd

GENDEEEEEEEEEEER

so i have a very funky gender but imma explain it using termss

nonbinary: not a boy, not girl >:3

demifluid: when your gender is partially static and partially fluid

demiflux: when your gender is partially static and partially flux

demifluix: when your gender is partially static and partially fluid and fluctuating

attraction :o

romantic attraction: aromantic, aegoromantic, im fine with romantic stuff sometimes but sometimes it makes me feel icky

sexual attraction: asexual, aegosexual, same deal with sexual stuff sometimes its fine and sometimes it makes me spontaneously combust

platonic attraction: aplatonic, aplspec, aplflux, grayplatonic, but it varies so much like omg all my online frens r so cool so yeah

familial attraction: afamilial, afamspec theres literally one person im familialy attracted to. one person. oh and im also @zithergiltscorner dad now so also that :D

aesthetic attraction: omniaesthetic? lesbian but aesthetic attraction? idk women r pretty tho

bork bork im a creature (alterhuman things)

sooooo ok

labelz:

nonmorph: somebody who is decidedly nonhuman but otherwise undefined

otherfix: somebody whose identity changes based on hyperfixations

quadrobist: somebody who does quadrobics

mental thingies

um ok sooo

i've been diagnosed as a highly sensitive person and i suspect i am some other kind of neurodivergent but idrk how *shrug*

my fandomssssssss

Hilda, Carmen sandiego, epic the musical, arcane, Hamilton, riordanverse, osmanverse, Harry Potter

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[cruyuu]

OK so it wasn't just me who thought that Yuuji and Sukuna went on a hiking date

Im sorry but if Yuuji was a girl (or Sukuna) this would be 100% considered romantic and atp im rolling with love

These two idiots will be the end of me i swear LOL

Hii anon!

You're not alone! That chapter lowkey read like a date and like Yuuji really wanted to change his mind before the end and also get to know him more, learn more about him while baring parts of himself he never bared to anyone else (like sheesh... that's pretty deep). He was hoping for an equal exchange (I bare out my heart, you bare yours) but Sukuna wasn't giving anything (even him recognizing hydrangeas got brushed off as Megumi's memory... why is he so afraid of admitting he likes flowers smh)

It's really funny because with them every single thing works somehow? Like there's a solid basis for every interpertation regarding their relationship. Do you see them as enemies? Do you see them as reluctant friends? Do you see them as soulmates? Do you see them as two parts of a single soul? Do you see them as each other's curse? As each other's salvation? Platonically or romantically? Do you see them as lovers? Do you see them as reincarnated uncle and nephew? Do you see them as ??? aka "I don't even know"? All of those are correct interpretations because the ground work to cover all those explanations exists. That's why they're like crack cocaine to me. They are many things in a single package. Mirrors. Foils. Twins. Equals. Opposites.

Objectively— it's true that Yuuji chased Sukuna around, trapped him (frantically) in a domain so he could parade him around his hometown and get them to hang around (while Sukuna, unnaturally, obliged). It's true that Sukuna, no matter how much he claims he doesn't care, cares about him in a weird way. It's clear because he acts a lot more differently with Yuuji than he does with the rest (plus him being the only human for Sukuna who's different than the rest... you already know what canon said lol. I'll get carried away). It's undeniable that there's something very special between them. That's canon! So seeing chapter 265 as awfully romantic isn't a bad interpretation. Their relationship is just... undefined. They're weird and tied to each other, in a love-hate relationship <3

Now personally, I see them in many different aspects. I love them as a ship, platonically, romantically, as die hard enemies or whatever. Their dynamic is the highlight of jjk for me because nobody does it like them. Their chemistry is off the charts and they match each other even if they're so different from each other. Idk I'm insane.

Im sorry but if Yuuji was a girl (or Sukuna) this would be 100% considered romantic and atp im rolling with love

Well, they are a bit iffy to ship to a lot of ppl because Yuuji's a minor (even tho he lived through hell and back at just fifteen and is more mature than actual adults in this manga) and because of reincarnated incest (uncle and nephew) which is invalid if you apply the logic of reincarnation– Yuuji doesn't have Sukuna's twin brother's soul, after all, (He's a completely different one. Biology doesn't equate soul sharing lol.) so it's not just about heteronomativity. After all, people have latched onto other m/m ships without problems but consider these two not shippable even if canon ties them together again and again and they embody good tropes and their relationship is 101 how you can write some damn good tragedies or redemption arcs (because their dynamic and them as characters just work so well together that it's insane).

As somebody who really doesn't care about all the problems this ship carries (because I see them as characters in a fictional world), all of that is irrelevant to me because I, like you, am rolling around in love and screaming into the void because Gege finally brought them together again. That was all that mattered to me! Now I'm excited for what's to come and am really curious how jjk will end.

They'll be the death of me as well. I'll miss them a lot once jjk ends :( Thank you for the ask!

[angelbitezzz]

Hey girl your listless nature and unbalanced humors finally attracted someone

[nickeverdeen]

hiiii could i have an arcane matchup?

i'm agender (they/them, but feminine terms/titles are fine by me) and queer (STRONG preference towards women), and i'd prefer a romantic matchup but platonic works fine as well. i'm 5'5" (average height queen), i have curly, black, shoulder length hair and bangs. sometimes i straighten my hair if i have the time and energy but usually i just leave it natural. i have fairly pale skin with slight pink undertones, and a few freckles on my nose. my eyes are mostly blue with a little bit of green (my mom used to say i had some gold specks in there so idk what color they are really tbh). i have a pretty casual/somewhat athletic style, since my job does require me to be active, but i accessorize to high heavens with necklaces, bracelets, earrings, and any ring i can find, pretty much. i try to look as androgynous as possible at any given time.

a basic list of my interests: animation, digital art, creative writing, acting, broadway, theater tech (such as running lights/sound/spotlight, being a stagehand, just all of the cool backstage stuff), painting, cosplay and costume making is a BIG one, really anything artsy.

now the weird interests that don't really fit into the above category: roller coaster mechanics/accidents and how to avoid them, herpetology (mainly snakes but other reptiles as well), self defense, airports (not anything specific about them, i just really like the environment in airports)

i really like music! music is a HUUUUUGE part of my life. my favorite style personally is fast paced punk rock kinda style, but any sort of alt rock fits my vibe. i really like MSI (the music, not the people themselves, screw those guys), and some various songs by FOB, The Used, Pierce The Veil, Destroy Boys, etc. I do also love music of other, more undefined genres. I'm absolutely in love with Panic! at the Disco's Vices and Virtues album, specifically Sarah Smiles and Nearly Witches. And a few other songs/artists here and there (like will wood? and jack stauber) but those are my main ones. Sharing music I like is such a big deal for me in literally any relationship.

Speaking of relationships! My love languages are mainly physical touch (receiving) and acts of service (giving). But other "love languages," or just little things that I do with people I'm comfortable with are: rant about my interests/try to get them into said interests, sharing music (like i said), sharing memes and things that remind me of them, and (here's a really niche one) making cosplays of their favorite characters (if applicable, there are some cosplays i just can't do). the way i love is just pure devotion. if i'm in a relationship with someone, they are my everything, i would do anything for them.

i'm an enfp, 6w7, i'm extremely outgoing and have a tendency to strike up conversations with random people. i'm a performer, an actor, everything is a performance to me. i'm an incredibly artsy person, constantly creating something (mainly in the form of writing or physical art/drawings and sketches). my humor is very much just one-liners that are kinda hit or miss, depends on the audience. i understand very well the concept of masking who you are for the sake of acceptance, progress, etc. in public, i'm a completely different person, putting on somewhat of a professional, agreeable front for the sake of getting people to like me. i'm a performer with connections, i know the right people and they'll give me a huge advantage in my future as i try to get where i want to be. i'm not afraid to abandon some ideals and morals to get there. this is not something i'm proud of.

i'm neurodivergent, but incredibly good at masking it. when i'm around the right people, it's obvious, but i don't usually let myself unmask in public. to really know me is to know two different sides of me. anyway, i'm surprisingly organized. i have a meticulous morning routine (i'm a morning person through and through) that requires me to wake up two hours early every morning, but i don't mind (even though i don't really sleep). i get easily overwhelmed specifically by temperature. if it's too hot, i shut down, it makes it hard to function. i'm also somewhat prone to anxiety attacks, and i have bad paranoia, so it takes me a while to really trust someone.

i think my main personal struggle is that i focus on other people more than myself. relationships tend to feel like a sacrifice. i will abandon my own mental and physical health if it means helping someone that i care about (or someone who makes me feel validated but thats a different story). i'm also an incredibly hard worker, so much so that getting things done tends to be my main focus, even over essentials like eating, sleeping, showering, etc.

is this too much info this feels like too much info sorry if this is too much

Your Arcane match is…

Vi (Violet)

Vi would love your taste in music, and you’d often share playlists, bonding over bands like The Used and Destroy Boys

She’d even attend concerts with you

Vi would support your artistic pursuits, whether it’s digital art, writing, or costume making

She’d often help you brainstorm ideas and give honest feedback on your projects

She may not understand it, but she’s trying

Given your active lifestyle, Vi would enjoy working out with you

She’d teach you new self-defense techniques and incorporate kickboxing into your routine

Vi would be incredibly patient and understanding with your anxiety and paranoia

She’d create a safe environment for you to express your worries and help you through anxiety attacks

She had experience with them herself so she knows it sucks and don’t want you to have to deal with it alone

Knowing that you often put others before yourself, Vi would remind you to take care of your own needs too

She’d bring you food when you forget to eat and make sure you get enough rest

It’d probably be pizza or something like that as she can’t cook for life

Vi, not being much of a morning person herself, would admire and be a bit confused by your meticulous morning routine

She’d occasionally join you for a morning run or breakfast, though

Vi would try to share your interest in roller coasters and mechanics

She doesn’t understand that stuff, but would let you talk about (almost) all day

She’d be genuinely interested in learning from you and sharing her own knowledge and experiences

Vi would be sensitive to your struggle with hot weather

She’d make sure you stay cool and comfortable, finding shaded spots or bringing along cold drinks when you’re out together

Fortunately she understands as she isn’t a fan of big heat either

Vi would respect your need for physical space initially, but as you grow closer, she’d be affectionate and provide the comforting physical touch you crave in a relationship

Vi would appreciate your acts of service and reciprocate by doing small things to make your life easier, like running errands or surprising you with thoughtful gestures.

Your quirky humor and one-liners would always make Vi smile

She’d enjoy your company and the light-hearted moments you share

She’d attend your shows and be your biggest fan, supporting your theatrical endeavors

Vi would value the trust you place in her, knowing it takes time for you to open up

She’d be loyal and protective, ensuring you always feel safe and respected in your relationship

Vi would help you find a balance between your hard-working nature and the need for relaxation

She’d encourage you to take breaks and enjoy downtime together, reminding you to take care of yourself

Vi would plan adventurous dates, whether it’s exploring new parts of the city, going on nature hikes, or attending underground music gigs

She’d keep your relationship dynamic and full of memorable experiences

[nuclearfaggot]

this isn’t discourse, or a callout post or anything i just saw something on someone’s blog and it really pissed me off.

it is really late for me, and i might be misunderstanding the original point of the post! however, i’m going to rant about this. it’s under cut cus it got long

the idea that friendships can’t just ‘be’, and that them being undefined and ‘weird’ make them more interesting is such an odd view to have?

dynamics, relationships, whatever— they can be strictly platonic. that doesn’t make them boring, or make them mean any less.

from what i gained from the post (it talked about how relationships don’t need to be defined and are typically much more nuanced then a simple template such as friendship or romance), i do agree! it made good points. however, acting like friendships means people aren’t important to each other immediately defeats the point of the whole entire post.

if you want to be “weird about relationships”, but you can’t even handle the fact that STRICTLY PLATONIC relationships can mean as much as romantic or familial or whatever the hell else, you cannot handle ‘weird relationships’. it is as simple as that. it’s like wanting to get weird with gender but not being able to handle people with neopronouns, or even just a transgender woman.

there is nothing wrong with people wanting to see family or friendship dynamics portrayed as important in fiction. and while i’m not saying that’s what the originals poster was implying, because again i totally could have misunderstood it, that’s what it strongly felt like to me.

and, for the record, saying “i think i’m aspec in a very different and more interesting way than you actually.” is? kind of fucked up? that’s like saying someone pansexual is better than a lesbian. it makes no sense to say things like that. different people have different views and different feelings on love, or friendship, whatever you want to call it. but saying that you think friendship isn’t interesting, that strictly platonic relationships aren’t interesting, sounds a lot like aphobia.

now that’s just me! but i think there is a fair point in saying that when you say things like that, you are actively putting down other (? they might not be aro idk) aromantic people.

no matter what you say about wanting “interesting”, nuanced and layered dynamics, if you cannot handle friendships meaning as much as anything else (romantic, familial, an unlabeled mix between all forms of love), or thinking that friendships are ‘boring’, you will be unable to really go anywhere with weird dynamics. and, worst case, that’s just aphobia.

[galaxyies]

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well its been about a year or almost a year since i moved from what was probably the most "home" home that ive had, for the most part. it wasnt exactly conducive to being productive but at least it was safe, but that still wouldnt have saved me from how absolutely and completely depressed and suicidal i was at the time

this also means its been about a year since my falling out with my previous good friend. i wish i could say i know how to feel about it but i honestly just really dont. ive certainly moved through all the stages of grief and accept it at this point but that doesnt mean it doesnt still suck in a weird disappointing way and besides maybe 1 or 2 other people, that was the longest standing close friendship i had with someone that really just imploded on itself at mach speed. i still think about how that person when wanting complete separation called our friendship a situationship and i just am so confused even now by what that meant or how they came to that conclusion

we certainly had gray area moments and conversations throughout the early years of being friends, but at the point of time in our friendship before things ended, i genuinely just saw them as my best friend and didnt desire anything more. we werent undefined, we werent romantic or flirtatious, and they were even dating someone else. i had also just gotten home from a job that had me out of the area for 5 months and had a crush on someone from said job, which i told that friend about on multiple occasions. i turn this comment around in my brain all the time because it just makes me wonder how i was even seen in their eyes. clearly it was not... how i viewed them?

the way things ended was so messy but not even in an explosive blow up way it was more like a sad fizzling that was drawn out but also really abrupt. idk man. certainly the weirdest friendship end ive experienced. i miss them but i dont even know what the hell i would say at this point and im not even sure they would like the person ive become which is fine and perhaps for the best but i guess it irks me that when i think about the entire situation i mostly feel Confused

[threeeyedharemp3]

hi yuo should tell me more about your ocs what is like. the main plot for them?

YAY YIPPEE & SUCHLIKE okay so

technically they are within the doctor who universe but for much of their general deal its not a hugeeeeee part of what they have going on. for strangeways, in the 1930s when she was 19 she was wandering through the woods as one does & fell into a well that actually a rip in the time vortex ♡ & now she ages really slowly. she thinks that she sort of died ? in there but it spat her back out, & as such if she really concentrates she can slip between this world & the world of the dead & talk to ghosts/temporarily become a ghost herself. but she doesnt like doing this it freaks her out & leaves her feeling. well. dead. in the intervening 60 or so years she has focused herself on researching time anomalies & paranormal & extraterrestrial stuff, in part because its cool as hell but also because she thinks she might find some answers for what happened to her, & how long she will live. she lives in cardiff in 1991 (though originally from england) & works at an archive as a folklore & folk music specialist, doing film scores & avant garde music stuff on the side.

mihangel was working at a newspaper in cardiff in the late 80s when he accidentally finds himself caught up in an Alien Event with the twelfth doctor, & ends up travelling with him briefly, when they are caught up in alien warfare on another planet, where mihangel is injured & dies. however, twelve, in his guilt, goes back & alters things just a wee bit so that mihangel Didnt Die, & then drops her off back home & dissapears to avoid the consequences of. all of that. mihangel is aware that Something happened to him but the doctor is the only person who could possibly explain that too her. mihangel just has these flashes of Being Dead, half memories of two different versions of events, as well as having been dropped off a few months after he was picked up.

not long after that he meets strangeways, who picks up on mihangels undeadness, & they bond over the fact they both had some freaky time things happen to them & also they both like goth music & weird movies lol. they are briefly romantically involved in a weird undefined way but now theyre more on a qpr sort of ? thing ? idk theyre undead butchfemme besties who spend all their time at each others houses & investigating/researching stuff. & they go to goth clubs & basement movie showings & go for long walks in the woods looking for stuff. idk the exact details but at some point theyre gonna meet the eighth doctor & sam & maybe fitz also hehe. & possibly torchwood cos they are in cardiff investigating time things hehe but i havent properly thought abt that ever. but yeah ♡ thats them

the only real proper thing ive written for them is mihangel's backstory the rest just sort of exists in my mind palace but oh well

[letteredlettered]

@yellowwallsbluesky asked about new Untamed end!

ahhhhh here is 27,745 words of wangxian that will never see the light of day. Thank you for asking!

I mentioned in my post about lwjwwx2 that I had a really hard time writing CQL fic partly because I just could not imagine WWX having any sex or even being particularly romantic. In CQL, he strikes me as very in love, but not in a romantic or sexual way. The problem was a little bigger than that, though, because I also could not imagine LWJ having sex. To be clear, I thought of LWJ as extremely romantic and sexual. But while LWJ's desire comes across as extremely intense, he's so hellbent on doing whatever WWX wants and whatever would make WWX comfortable, never pushing a single thing on WWX at all. In the second half of the show LWJ strikes me as extremely passive unless WWX needs him; he lets WWX get away with everything and expresses himself so little and so poorly that I just didn't see how these kids could get it together! That was 2020 - summer 2023. Then I was on the couch and thinking about them and could suddenly imagine it happening! So I started writing.

If this was a real fic I assume it would make some people extremely impatient. It takes place directly after CQL, and neither of them have any idea what they want from each other or what they can be to each other. I've seen plenty of people say it's unrealistic for them not to understand each other by then. But for me personally it makes sense that you could love someone with your whole heart and never once consider sex or romance, so to me CQL does not come across as romance but rather the prequel to one that is not necessary consummated (even with kisses) in the next scene after the end.

The premise is that after the end of CQL they go back to Cloud Recesses. LWJ knows that WWX arouses him and that he wants to be as close as humanly possible, but this doesn't really correlate in his mind to wanting to have sex and get married. He doesn't even think about sex. He just wants, all the time, a undefined longing that feels desperate and unstable to him. Meanwhile he's determined to do anything in his power to make WWX feel safe and comfortable and welcome.

It's not really a characterization of LWJ that makes sense to me now. I think I just needed to get it down to deal with idk, the way the censorship makes CQL so weird. I think the way I would read CQL!LWJ now is that he knows he wants WWX romantically and sexually but has difficulty communicating it with words and also does not want to impose, because people have asked so much of WWX and WWX is so willing to sacrifice himself for people he loves, and LWJ does not want WWX sacrificed. The reason this WIP is labelled "new" is that I went back and started changing the LWJ characterization so he was someone who knew what he was doing.

Meanwhile, the WWX is actually more knowing than I see him now. He comes back to Cloud Recesses with LWJ and feels restless and confused about his place there. He doesn't feel like he has a real role and even if LWJ really likes him, he doesn't understand what he could be here. But then LWJ just keeps giving and giving and giving, and WWX becomes very aware of what it looks like, from the outside. WWX has never been concerned about reputation for himself, but he is aware that reputation is a thing, and he cares about it for LWJ, so he notices. And when he notices that other people think they're a couple, he also realizes that it's what LWJ wants too. And WWX's reasoning is basically "well, why not? I'd give him anything; if he wants it, he can take it."

So he pushes and pushes on the boundary of friendship. It's obvious he's not doing it because he wants it because he thinks LWJ does. But it's also obvious he's not against it and that he doesn't know what he wants and that he would rather be something for LWJ than nothing at all. The idea was going to be that after they finally have sex, WWX grows addicted to the cuddling and intimacy that occurs afterwards and wants it all the time--because he doesn't really want it otherwise. He struggles to accept that kind of intimacy unless there's an act of service involved, because he doesn't really feel worth of it.

I actually think that this was the breakthrough for me. Once I realized that WWX would very much like to be held but doesn't really know how to let it happen unless there's a good reason for it, I finally felt like I could write him and write the whole wangxian dynamic. Of course, my WWX changed too; I am definitely more likely to write him now as not having a clue about what LWJ wants from him. That said, I read this fic, and I still buy that WWX could see that LWJ wants this from him and that his response is "sure, I'll do anything," even if he doesn't necessarily feel strong sexual attraction. That WWX gets off on service, which is still something I can buy.

Anyway I only got 25% of the way through shifting the LWJ characterization when I started writing Say More, and I realized I never really had a goal or end for this fic. It was just something I needed to write to get to know the characters--though I will say, I reread it to write this post, and I still really enjoy it!