I found out that India has one of the worst rates of rabies deaths in the world because there's this mass hysteria called "puppy pregnancy sybdrome," which is the paranoia that if a dog bites you, it can impregnate you and you have to go to a witch doctor to get the puppies out.
and you know.
India has a lot of dogs. which means it also has a problem with rabies, and if people choose to go to witch doctors after being bit instead of getting a rabies shot, well...
I was taking pesto bismal and there was like crusted bismal around the rim of the bottle and I waterfalled it and a crusty bit fell into my mouth and I almost threw up
I was watching a rottmnt edit and thought "what if the kraang attack went through something other than his shell... what if it went through his head" and then proceeded to think about how that would result in his brain splattering on Leo
today is a bad mental health day. i know. i know. but what if i just… disappeared?
im feeling really lonely, but i don’t have the social energy to like entertain someone, i am just v alone w broken record thoughts abt my own worthlessness
sometimes on nights like these, i consider scorching the earth — orphaning my fics, deleting my blog, deleting social media, and just going away
a redraw of the first drawing i posted here to celebrate the fact that ive been in tumblr for more than a whole year posting my shit and havent deleted my blog in panic yippee \:D/ (mushy rant in tags)
in sophomore year, one of my friend groups was with w these 4 freshman (one was my best friend from middle school), and we created like 3 really elaborate self insert universes like omg it was so intense. one was a magical girl AU, one was a band AU (our band was called black list 5 💀), and some other one that one of the girls made OCs for cus she wanted to write a book. WAIT WE POSTED A DIFFERENT ONE TOO AND LEGIT PUT IT ON A03 IM CRYING???? that one was like some weird futuristic technology magic AU idek but i was the fucking villain in it 😭
also i had a Thing w one of the girls and we'd keep having us be a will they wont they in the universes like omg....
what do u do when someone wants to be heard by u and u want to hear them but smth or the other fucks it up?
what do u do when the person u love the most tells u that youre the reason theyre being dragged down? that youre the reason their mental health was doing better when u werent there?
what do u do when youve been putting so much effort to keep the relationship, that matters to u the most, going just to know that its just not working?
what do u do when youre just not ready to let go but ur s/o is already losing confidence in you?
Apparently there is also a YouTube year music wrap and I listened to 22,077 minutes on there so my actual music time this year was 58,611 which is actually insane and this shows that I have problems in multiple areas of my life which I already knew but I wasn't expecting music to be among them. I actually kinda proud for some reason......