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paddooo · 5 months

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Absolutely paralyzed with fear

#what if he really was just joking #what if he was playing the ling cin and reaping the benefits he could get from me #long con***#i just. he joked about saying no and now its all i can think about #if he says no im going to be a mess #at least i know what bus to take to get to moms house #and i could see if sophie has the weekend of and go hang out with her #i could also just. walk into the ocean and never return #if he says no i can go to the beach and throw rocks as hard as i can until i feel better #yeah. its not a big deal. not a big deal at all #i will be crushed if it happens i will but ill be okay. my life will not end if a man i see once every 4 or so months led me on and then #rejects me. knowing i was coming here to ask him to be my boyfriend. knowing i want nothing more than to be wirh him #ill also tell his mom he fucking crushed my heart #god i hope he says yes

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thewinchestah · 8 months

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and that’s a wrap guys!! I’m not okay!! But at the same time I’ve never been better!!

#alastor swearing is my religion #im Brazilian I use cuss words as ponctuation #also I love that he clearly cares for Charlie and the hotel but they didn’t make him a Good Guy TM #that motherfucker still has his schemes and im here for it #ALASTOR DANCING #ALASTOR SAYING I KNOW SOMETNING YOU DONT #“you look and absolute mess Charlie #HE JUST GOING LITERALLY INSANE VANESSA LOPES LEVEL OF INSANE IN THW RADIO TOWER #I WANT HIM TO BROACAST VOX’s DEATH WHILE I SING ALONF #HIS FIGHT SCENES WERE SOOO GOOD #EVERYTHING WAS PERFECT #alastor #hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel spoilers #the radio de on #O ALASTOR TA VINDO AÍ E O BICHO VAI PEGAR VOX É O CARALHOOOOOO NUNCA BOTOU O ADAM PRA AMAR

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carnivalcarriondiscarded · 1 year

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finally colored that Eddie scribble <3 rough day p.2!

#am i happy with this? no! but im tired of messing with it so this is what we get #i mean its not Bad but. sigh #i gotta get better at coloring stuff its my Art Weakness #no matter how much i try i cannot understand color theory #my brain simply says No <3 #i have perfect color vision and yet. and fucking yet. cant use it for shit! yeehaw!#scribble garnish #welcome home #welcome home puppet show #eddie dear #i hope he enjoys that ice cold soda - sold exclusively at howdys for a stellar deal only one hundred percen- *gunshot*#i would like everyone to know that i unironically initially wrong 'seld' instead of 'sold'#and genuinely didnt know why there was a little red squiggle friend underneath it for a solid minute #the brain is rotting <3 i go outside and the ravens start divebombing <3 #i am living up to my url of 'carrion'#dead meat walkin babeyyyyyy #i think the chronic migraines are actually frying my neurons!!! yee! haw!

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gigamuffinsofie · 4 days

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autism to autism communication

#aubreyad #the autism 2 autism communication is just irish #i wanted to draw padeen soooo much im nr one padeen fan #if no one likes padeen im DEAD alright?? he's a shy gentle giant alright?? he's everything #im compensating for the absolute radio silence this character gets #i must say the guy they cast in the movie is so so good if you'll excuse me ill go from there #i may redesign him a bit actually but i just want this one to be done lmao. i like the face but i know he should be stronger built #the sketch i made was calculated but man did those clothes mess me up

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bunnieswithknives · 25 days

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Wait so Dev STILL needs a cane anyway? Oh the irony.

There are days where he does need it and days where he doesn't!

#fop nature au #Im not a doctor so what I say might not be very medically accurate #I pictured the bullet going through his knee and kneecap #and basically permanently messing up his ability to put weight on it #he probably would have had to get some kind of implant #but it would have been less traumatizing than having his leg entirely chopped off #With the metal leg once it heals at least there will be good days and bad days #days where he can get by without the cane and days where he absolutely needs it

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usertoxicyaoi · 4 months

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"I was afraid of facing you. I can't even call you by your name."

THE NOVELIST: PLAYBACK (2021). DIRECTED BY: MIKI KOICHIRO.

#the novelist #the novelist: playback #asianlgbtqdramas #asiandramasource #jdramasource #tvedit #mediagifs #*#faiza gifs #THESE! CODEPENDENT! BITCHES!#GOD im so glad i could find a decent t*rr*nt of playback last night i can FINALLY gif it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#anyway. THIS SCENE. my GOD.#rio FINALLYYYYYYY breaking down ALL this walls ALL HIS EGO on the fucking FLOOR #just being VULNERABLE in front of haruhiko after training it through to japan JUST TO COME #AND SAY SORRY TO HIM.#yalllllll theyre just SO .... SATISFYING.#the WHOLE novelist franchise is THERAPY. u see them go thru EVERY stage of toxicity right through to tenderness.#i mean theyre still HUGELY filled with issues. but. THEYRE OKAY. theyre messed up bitches PERFECTLY codependent on one another.#god and dont even GET ME STARTED on rio not even being able to SAY haruhiko bc it just weighs GO MUCH TOO MUCH on his tongue #BC THAT MEANS BEING VULNERABLE AND LETTING SOMEONE IN AND HE COULD NOT LET HIMSELF DO THAT.#NOR DID HE THINK HE WAS WORTHY OF HARUHIKO TO EVEN SAY HIS NAME IM GOING INSAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAANEEEE

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hanzajesthanza · 6 months

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andrzej sapkowski in the witcher presents his reader with many curious and refreshing takes on the fantasy genre, such as "what if dragons were good" and "what if elves were incels"

#i joke it's more like what if the ethereal being had angsty mournful man feelings #that he has feelings but can't work through them because #overemotionality is considered base and human so he's basically been bottling all of this for centuries #the elbow-high diaries #plus that his only purpose was really to be with lara and now she's gone and so what does that make him #i'm not getting all MRA lmaoooo what i'm saying is that there needs to be two to make a baby so he was one-half of that #and destiny didn't work out as planned so ... this is all that's left #reading ch 5 of lotl for the first time: THIS IS SO MESSED UP WHAT THEY ARE DOING TO CIRI!!!#reading ch 5 of lotl again and again: my god EVERYONE here is so messed up and SAD. well except eredin #eredin is like cool im gonna go fight a unicorn #'what are you talking about he wanted to kill auberon?' but not in a very intelligent way he was like to ciri 'so you wanna... kill him?'#imo book eredin is kind of a meathead and it's kind of refreshing with all these 4D chess players around

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justaz · 3 months

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as much of a fan as i am of arthur falling head over heels for merlin in the lower town during their fight and knowing the entire time while merlin reluctant to admit he actually finds arthur sometimes pleasant to be around until like a year later when he's like "fuck i kinda like him as more than a friend" when he's actually in love with him,,, the alternative has been plaguing my mind recently.

merlin is like "aw man he sucks but destiny is destiny" until like around the poisoned chalice when merlin drinks the wine and falls unconscious and he's wondering to himself why he would do such a thing and like yeah nimueh probably cursed it so he would drink it but also he's not really that upset about it?? he's kinda relieved??? why???????? oh bc arthur didn't drink it so he's fine and alive and oh he's checking up on me and his voice is soft and not at all mocking or brash like normal and his hand is on my shoulder and my heart is racing and i'm blushing and his touch is so warm and- oh fuck. so merlin is like reluctant about feeling this way but makes his peace with it, hoping that one day it'll just fizzle out. but the thing is: it doesn't. merlin continues to fall deeper and deeper in love with arthur and it just becomes a part of him like his magic. it's a simple fact. he has blue eyes, he has black hair, he has magic, he's in love with arthur. it becomes intertwined with his very being and he can't imagine ever not loving arthur.

meanwhile, arthur is fond and protective of him idiotic, bumbling servant. he's also a good friend not that arthur would ever call him that but anyways arthur keeps him safe bc if it weren't for him, the fool would trip over air and impale himself on his own thumb. so arthur grows more fond and protective of merlin as the series progresses and yeah at some point he finds it in himself to murmur the word friend to merlin but he blames that on the wine and the late hour. then he finds out merlin has magic and it hurts. arthur isn't entirely sure why either but he knows it hurts to be around merlin, to hear him, to see him, but it also hurts to be apart. so he swallows it all down and sits with merlin to lay it all out. anyway time skip and he sees merlin as he truly is without all the hiding and lying and the fondness and protectiveness just continues to grow and grow and grow. he watches merlin cast spells and watches his eyes light up gold and gods isn't he just beautiful. no wait- okay he's in love and gods is he fucked because now he can't managed a damn sentence around the man and morning and evenings are torturous in the best way. merlin bodily dragging him out of bed, his touch never leaving as he strips him of his night clothes and dresses him for the day and sits him down at the table before sharing stealing his breakfast. at night he's much slower as he strips arthur, his fingers dragging across his skin and his words spoken low and soft. the sweet heat in his blood isn't new but the force of it almost knocks him on his ass.

just merlin being his usual enamored self while arthur is flooded with these feelings he couldn't name before but now that he knows just what they are, they lodge in his throat and block his words from escaping him, they block air from filling his lungs, and they keep blood from flowing through his brain. arthur shutting down while merlin is oblivious and concerned and pressing his hands to arthur's face and pulse and leaning in close and asking all these questions as his eyes shine with worry and this isn't helping-

disaster!arthur x oblivious!merlin is actually my new favorite dynamic. forget what i said at the beginning. this is it.

#merlin fell first #arthur fell harder #merlin had a nice slow descent into madness (as he would say)#while arthur didn't realize there were stairs and walked on air for years until he looked down and plummeted hundreds of meters in a second #once he landed on the stairs he rolled down them and bounced like a ball breaking every bone in his body #uhhhh #anyways #disaster arthur #oblivious merlin #bbc merlin #merlin emrys #arthur pendragon #merthur #sorta like polin from bridgerton LMFAO #penelope and merlin being in love with their himbo bfs for years and keeping that hidden away #and their secret identities (wait hold on im cooking)#colin and arthur not realizing their feelings for their powerful best friends until it smacks them in the face with the force of a 100 suns #(pen had the ton eating out of the palm of her hand as lady whistledown while merlin had camelot doing the same just as himself)#but while polin is rocking the carriage merthur over here is...um...eye fucking. i guess.#penelope gets some fingers. while merlin gets some stuttering mess that doesnt even sound like english #honestly it probably makes more sense for arthur to go for what he wants like colin did but this is so much funnier #wait no arthur is kinda traumatized. he probably wouldn't go for it bc he fears loosing the people he loves and cares about

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iknowicanbutwhy · 4 months

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Puyo/Madou, meet ISAT. ISAT, meet Puyo/Madou. I'm sure you have everything in common and this is not at all a completely random crossover of my two current interests

#dont look at Salde for rhe love of my sanity do not even percieve Salde i dint kwno what ifmf doing g #art #fanart #ISAT #puyo puyo #in stars and time #madou monogatari #kitscribbles #sig puyo puyo #schezo wegey #arle nadja #ringo ando #sig really do be sig no last name #prince salde #their ages are different in this one. oldest to youngest - schezo > arle > sig > ringo > salde #you see that stubble on Sig thats baby stubble. thats unfortunate facial hair on a teenager #sometimes it works out for people still in their teens but not sig #Ringo is!! Perhaps a bit too young to travel!! She's basically a foreign exchange student #i have to admit all the roles and dynamics in ISAT are NOT 1:1 in this AU #i have it all mixed up #when i say sig and schezo are besties i mean theyre both awkward with people they just happen to have an understanding. also sig bullies hi #Sig is he/they here!! I dont usually mess with canon genders (hella respect those who do) but honestly i just like it for Sig...#I still need to learn more about Salde but imma just go ahead and say that Salde is kid gender #Was tempted to hide Sig's lil hair thingies under his hat but then was like. Why would i do that #favorite joke in all this is that Schezo tried so hard to Change that he fucked up his own speech patterns and now socializing is. well #sig didnt shave before the loops and now he has to do that every time or suffer the teasing of his friends at some point in the house #thanks guys im going insane over here and youre laughing. going nonverbal now #How does Salde balance a fish on their head? uhhhhh well you see. have you ever balanced a massive bag of frozen peas #Salde doesnt cook but there's money in that fish. Nobody feels comfortable enough to ask a kid for cash but they WILL reward good behavior #in puyos and time

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ywpd-translations · 7 months

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Ride 764: Dearest wish

Pag 1

1: The one thing the third year Onoda Sakamichi desires is....?

Pag 2

3: His dearest wish!!

4: Right!!

Pag 3

1: That's definitely Onoda's dearest wish

Pag 4

2: Do your beest

They're so fast!

They move the wind

The jerseys are so brightly colored

3: No no no no

4: That- that's not it

That's not-

Is Sohoku arguing over something!?

Pag 5

1: That- that was just the spur of the moment

I ended up just saying anything

2: That's not my dearest wish at all....

So- uhm

3: Please forget about it, everyone!!

4: No way!!

Yeah

Teh!!

Yep

Yeah

Pag 6

1: That must be our goal this year!! Our third victory in a row!!

Pag 7

1: Yessir!!

On!!

Yeah!!

2: The three day long stage is harsh and long, that's why everyone's strengths will be necessary!!

Yessir!!

3: If we can all unite our strengths and support each other as one...

4: The I'll be able to win brilliantly!! Yeah!!

Just like I did during the prefectural qualification!!

Ohhhh

Tch

Pag 8

1: I'll sprint desperately, Hotshot-san will accompany me, and I'll do a grand finishing dash, just like that day!!

Okay!! You've been saying it over and over again!!

2: You're really a guy who clings to the glory of the past

The prefectural qualification is connected to the Inter High, it's not in the past!!

You're the type of guy I hate the most when you get carried away

Naruko-san was amazing, teh!!

That day, yeah!!

Naruko-san!!

3: Sto-stop iit, you were both amazing that day

4: Come oon... we're in the middle of an important meeting

6: Now that I think about it

Onoda-san's....

7: This is all

Pag 9

1: Can I say one last thing?

2: I also think our goal must be a third consecutive victory

3: There's just one thing I'm curious about we still haven't asked

Onoda-san

5: What's your goal this year?

What are you running in the Inter High for?

6: When I asked you this last year during the first years' race

Pag 10

1: I want to report it

2: You said you wanted to report the victory to your senpai

3: And you

4: Accomplished that

5: Honestly, when I first heard that I thought “what is he talking about, that's such a small goal”

But that day, after the race, when I saw Onoda-san doing it

6: I was shaking

I thought from the bottom of my heart that it was amazing

Pag 11

1: I thought you were super cool

5: Wh- no no

That- I was just reporting, there's nothing cool about it at all, okay

Pag 12

1: So I want to know what your goal is this year

Please tell us what you're thinking about!!

2: Is it “I want to report to that senpai once again”!?

4: Crowning your third victory in a row as the captain!?

6: Is it the mountain's bib!? Is it winning a stage!?

Please tell us... your goal during the race...

7: or maybe for when the race is over!!

8: A.....

9: No no no

It's nothing- yes, it's nothing!!

Pag 13

1: Onoda's goal....

2: I see, what Onoda-kun wants to do....

3: Now that I think about it....

4: What is it!? You started saying it now, “a”!!

Is it “running as an assist”!?

5: Does it mean you don't want to bear the last heavy burden!?

No no no no, that's fine, if the situation calls for it I'll do my best

6: That's enough, Issa

7: There are things Onoda-san doesn't want to say too

No, if it can become motivation for the team then he should say it

Pag 14

1: Onoda-san's goal!!

2: But still, Issa!!

I'm telling you, anything is fine!!

Ah, uhm...

3: It's a really personal thing, so.... don't get your hopes up...

But.... that's... always been.... my dearest wish...

4: Dearest wish!!

5: If we run with all we have in this Inter High.... putting together all of our strengths and deliver our jersey to the finish line

6: If we get the best result....

Pag 15

1: No no, I really can't say more than this

3: Say it, everything's fine. I'm curious too

4: Ah.... if we get the best results.... I....

5: I want to reserve a room somewhere...

6: A room?

8: Prepare teacakes

9: Cakes!?

10: Ask for everyone's cooperation...

Pag 16

1: Gather five people

5: It's something I've been imagining.... since before... entering school in my first year.....

7: Even just for one day

8: Even just a few hours after school

Everyone will bring what they like

9: A.....

Oi.... don't tell me you mean.... you

Pag 17

1: I'm thinking of reviving the anime research club!!

Pag 18

5: No way!!

Pag 19

1: And then, there

2: I think I could call Makishima-san, who likes figures

I feel like you've misunderstood something here

3: And Midosuji-kun who likes anime

Would you be able to hold a conversation with him!?

4: Isn't that good!! The best goal!!

5: You'll gather five people in no time!!

6: Kakaka mine will be the first name you write down

7: Amazing

From England and Kyoto....!!

Pag 20

1: I don't really get it, but somehow that fired me up!!

2: That's Onoda-san's dearest wish!!

3: Ah

4: N-no, it's really nothing much, so I take it back...

Revive the anime club!!

Let's do it, for Onoda-san!!

I don't really know what an anime club does, but I'm in!!

Me too!!

5: Yeeah!!

Let's do it!!

Issa, calm down

Pag 21

2: Your goal is to “revive the anime research club even for just day”?

Oi oi, that's such a small

3: but splendid goal!!

4: You managed to unite the club's intentions as one with such bizarre words!!

5: You're really are an unpredictable guy!!

The plate will soon become green

“Real start”.... the real race will start!!

#yowamushi pedal #yowamushi pedal translations #yowapeda #yowapeda manga #yowamushi pedal manga #yowamushi pedal spoilers #ride 764 ONODA YOU LITTLE WEABOO I LOVE YOU #im so stupid bc this was to be expected OF COURSE THATS HIS DEAREST WISH #but was i expecting it while reading this chapter? honestly no #i love it this manga will go full circle and im already a mess of emotions oh my god #onoda: i want to revive the anime club!!#me: *cries*#onoda could say literally ANYTHING and the other members would absolutely lose it #they get fired up for anything thats onoda-related #they dont even know what an anime club is but theyre excited!! as long as thats what makes onoda happy!!#kaburagi is annoying as usual (affectionate) but at least he got the right spirit saghsdfkasdgf #onoda wanting to invite makishima and midosuji too ahsdsadgad i cant see it ending well lmao #hes so pure i love him #pag 5 last panel is the best thing ever tbh #i love sohoku so much #best team in all sports manga ive ever read

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stormyoceans · 3 months

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LINE READING SO DEVASTATING I NEED TO DIE ABOUT IT

#THE WAY POND'S FACE GOES FROM CLOSED OFF AND ANTAGONISTIC TO SLIGHTLY CONFUSED AND OPENLY VULNERABLE #[CLAWS MY FACE OFF AND THROWS IT INTO THE OCEAN]#i didn't add phum in the poll about my faves because we still have four episodes left and palm was already there but #GOD I LOVE THIS BOY SO MUCH #I COULD TALK ABOUT HIM FOR DAYS #and it's just so interesting how up until this point you buy into that mask of cool popular asshole he has been wearing around peem #and when in the first episode q says 'i've heard he's a top brat' and chain adds 'nobody messes with him unless they want trouble'#you're like yeah that checks out #and it's not like that's not true because phum can be all that #but also it makes you think about how people must have treated him in the past #not just his parents but his peers as well once he got back to thailand #because he puts that mask on with everyone when at his core he is actually such a soft boy who feels so much #toey used to get bullied and he took him under his wing #he learns that peem waited for him and feels so bad he keeps asking for forgiveness #the story started because phum wouldn't say sorry to peem but now the sorrys and the thank yous are like a second language to him #AND IDK WHERE AM I GOING WITH THIS OR WHAT AM I EVEN SAY I JUST KNOW I HAVE SOOOOO MANY FEELINGS ABOUT PHUM #IM ONCE AGAIN ASKING FOR HELP #we are the series #m: txt

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carnivalcarriondiscarded · 1 year

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PLEASE MORE BUTTERFLY HOWDY CONTENT HES SO FUCKING SILLY

OKAY HERE'S A COMIC SHENANIGANS THING

#this looks best if you click through instead of scrolling #which is kind of stupid to say After The Post. but yk.#spent way too long on this. worth it tho #its always worth it For The Bit #and this was good practice! ty for the opportunity!#the version of butterfly!howdy i have in my head is. hes a lot. i love him <3 #scribble salad #welcome home #welcome home puppet show #howdy pillar #yassified howdy <3 #i am so so so soooo tempted to make a butterfly howdy tag just to compile it all #i love compiling things. i like having specific collections In One Uninterrupted Place #alright well my hand hurts and its 5 am so im gonna queue this and go sleepies #wait fuck whats in the queue for tomorrow. today.#hm... ok this is a sunday post then. tomorrow is Booked #yall get a brief break from the butterfly howdy shenanigans #*got. im speaking to future people from the past rn. wild. ty tumblr for allowing time travel #its a tangled mess of yarn anyways #i am once again So Tempted To Write For This #perhaps one day i will fulfill my dream of writing a fic about howdy chrysalizing. metamorphosizing. whatever #id make it slowburn laughingstock perhaps... Probably.... i care them too much not too....#something for future me to enjoy! as a treat <3

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kudakii · 3 months

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why must they be made to face the horrors

#look im a serial horror and fictional torture enjoyer. going through togainu no chi when keisuke did the screwdriver thing i cheered #but youji .... youji... he's just a sick anxious boy please leave him be #PLEASE LET HIM BE HAPPY #finished THREE routes (zenya makoto tetsuo 1) and im still like . damn just be omegaverse just let youji be an omega or some shit PLEASE #BUT BUT BUT SWEET POOL IS SO BEAUTIFUL ID SAY IT'S THE SCARIEST N+C GAME IVE PLAYED SO FAR #like tnc is set in a war torn world and akira a child soldier. sldm set in a messed up city and towa a hedonistic masochist. the stuff thst #are happening to them. are to be expected #youji . HE'S JUST A KID WITH LUNG PROBLEMS BRO. HE'S ALWAYS ANXIOUS AND FEELING GUILTY AND REGRETFUL #gonna finish the game once work is done. i need to read up essays on this #sweet pool #sweet pool youji #sweet pool tetsuo #youji sakiyama #tetsuo shironuma #n+c #nitro+chiral #my art #tetsuyou

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crumb-crumblet-s-crumbington · 2 years

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this is the entirety of the wintersberg community when someone brings up the times karl has harmed ethan in canon

(its me, im the wintersberg community)

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awwthenticc · 2 months

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Castiel art under cut!

guess whos thinking about his first appearance and. diet mountain dew (demo version) by Lana Del Rey.... 😁

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coquelicoq · 3 months

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this relationship between the emperor and his favorite concubine is something else. because apparently she was his DAD'S concubine and she reminds him of his mom...he's like you're the only connection i have to my mother (presumably because she was friends with his mom, because they were concubines of the same guy, and because after his mom died she used to take care of him and make him the food his mom used to make him because she "loves children") and i'm sitting there like 😬 ok where are we going with this. then i get to the end of the show and discover they weren't going anywhere with it in particular. they were just like, we want this guy to have a mommy complex and we want you to know about it. okay. thanks i guess...

#i'm like is his mommy complex relevant? and they're like no 😇#like they didn't have any reason to make her that much older than him or to have her be one of his dad's concubines #it never becomes relevant #they could have left out that conversation in which they talked about her taking care of him as a kid and it wouldn't have affected anythin #and not that this show cares about relative time ('eight years ago' never makes any sense)#but it's also not to make ji shuran old enough to be ruoyao's mom or anything...li-fei is jsr's younger sister #if she had to be older than jsr then that would be one thing. but she isn't! she's younger!!#which also means 1) jsr is old enough to have a younger sister who's 2) old enough to be the former emperor's concubine #(as of at least eight years ago since we know it's at least that long since he died) and #3) the mommy figure of the current emperor who is currently an adult but was not an adult eight years ago even though #4) jsr has got to only be in her 30s based on sun-mama saying she's been with her since birth 'over 30 years ago'#the show is clearly not thinking about any of this though. they're just like 'wouldn't it be fun if the emperor was a lil messed up'#the double #incest cw #to be safe #because in a sense she is akin to his stepmom #my posts #it is kinda funny tho that the emperor went ok im going to imprint on this older sexually experienced woman who was married previously #and xiao heng went oh shit that sounds fun. me too

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