#ifmlam

[savrenim]

There is one line from ifmlam that may have genuinely rewired my brain. Like, more than anything else I have ever read.

"Death is a rather permanent solution to things that are often rather temporary problems."

Or maybe it just put into words things I already believed, or needed very badly to believe. But either way, it sometimes feels like a sort of motto for me, and I'm very glad to have read it.

You don't need to respond to this or anything, I just wanted you to know.

honestly not to get super personal here but like. back when I was an Angsty Teen it was a thing that one of my best friends said to me a bunch and it wired itself into my head and what are creative outlets for it no putting the most important weird secrets out in plain view for someone else to pluck and find their own meaning in

[thatqrfanblogger]

Me: Let me take a week off of Tumblr and just tag one post per day in my queue I’m sure nothing exciting will happen.

Me: comes back

(is there a happy version of that Troy gif?  This news is basically the opposite of a garbage fire.  ANYWAYS)

So just a summary of the important shit I’ve missed this week:

* I’ve gotten more notes and followers from REAL ACTUAL LIFE HUMANS on my Tumblr in this week than I’ve gotten the whole past year since I got back on Tumblr?

* And they’re Hamilton fans??  This fandom is not dead apparently???

* legit one of the most amazing stories let alone fanfics I’ve ever read UPDATED for the first time in LITERAL YEARS WHAT THE FUCK?

(As a sidenote I guess that explains why my round 2 fic notes exploded...)

So anyway thank you so much to my new followers, I appreciate y’all so much and now I just need to emotionally recover from the fact that ONE OF MY FAVORITE FICS EVER UPDATED OH MY GOD I WAS NOT PREPARED

[viviantimmet]

Re-reading Ifmlam for the third time and just… BurrMads OPT (not a typo: One Perfect Team)

[luciemiddleford]

Should fortune ever frown upon you; should those you now call friends forsake you; should the clouds gather force on every side, and threaten to burst upon you, I will still be there. And if my heart, my life, or my fortune can assist you, it is yours. (...) I will stand by you to face any future, no matter what might occur. You are like the heartbeat interwoven into my life, I could not imagine any of this without you. And this will never change.

Aaron Burr, it feels more like a memory [Life #2]. By @savrenim

[mollypaup]

I keep trying to leave the Hamilton fandom, but I can't.

[gabriellawrites]

Hello everyone!

So, this is my writing sideblog! I’m Gabriella_Marie on AO3 and GabriellaGadfly on FF.net (though I’d recommend that you check out my AO3 instead - there’s stuff on there that I can’t post on FF.net because they don’t have the fandoms up, I always post on AO3 first, and there’s formatting I’m able to do there that FF.net doesn’t allow.)

Anyways, feel free to send me asks or message me, or ask me questions about anything! I’m always down for that!

Writing Progress: In-Progress Fics: (last updated 2/1/21)

Chirality (Invader Zim) (inspired by the sick human Zim AU of @mlhmoo ) (In which Zim actually is just a sick kid but Dib is still utterly convinced he’s an alien invader): Chapter 7 Progress: 691 words/ >1000 (also some of that is out of order so I also need to connect those scenes together)

か (BNHA) (In which Bakugou’s quirk is that he wakes up in a different body every single day, with no control over who he ends up in): Chapter 2 progress: 1809 words. While this is more than my self-imposes limit of at least 1000 words per chapter, I wanted this chapter to cover an entire day, from the time they woke up to the time they went to bed, in order to do a sort of, in media res introduction to essentially what their life’s like now, and there’s still some parts I need to write more in to get them to connect fully and some parts I’m thinking of deleting/reworking

Writing Progress: Unpublished Fics: (Last updated 2/1/21)

Ishvalan AU (FMA) (Unpublished): 13525 words in story doc, 2822 words in notes doc, 1187 words in conlang doc

Tetsutetsu Dimension Travel AU (BNHA) (Unpublished): 662 words of story, 92 words of notes

Hamilton POV from the ‘verse of Timeline 2 of it feels more like a memory (also inspired by IFMLAM musical, round 2) (Unpublished) (Hamilton) (In which Burr is a seer, friends with Hamilton, and becomes the more successful one of the pair): 724 words in doc

Quirkless Aoyama (BNHA) (Unpublished): 74 words

FMA Ella Enchanted AU (FMA) (Unpublished) (In which Ed’s arm and leg were taken by the original transmutation, and instead of giving up a limb to save Al, he has to give up his free will) 2123 words of story, 10 words of notes, 9332 words of meta

BNHA Prototypes AU (BNHA) (Unpublished): 1500 words

Stolen Quirk AU (inspired by parallel) (BNHA) (Unpublished) (in which Izuku has AFO, doesn’t realize, accidentally steals Katsuki’s quirk at 4, and accidentally gives it back when they’re teens): 700 words

In which Izuku has lost his name to the fae, and thus, his ability to be remembered, focusing on his attendance of UA (Inspired by tread softly as you go) (BNHA) (Unpublished): 1388 words

Vengeful Spirit Izuku AU (BNHA) (Unpublished): 1518 words

Secret Santa gift (Shaperaverse) (Unpublished): 1266 words

Prototype Dimension Travel AU (BNHA) (Unpublished): 117 words

Stuff about being basically the only human in space (Guardians of the Galaxy) (Unpublished): 1514 words

Edward/Eduard Bodysharing (FMA) (Unpublished) (In which Alt!Ed and Alfons are brothers, Alt!Ed, after months of being trapped in his own head, finally manages to make them aware that he’s still there, and our Ed has pretty much complete control of the body): 1069 words

Cursed DONA ABO AU (Dolls of New Albion) (Comissioned) (Unfinished): 650 words

In which Steven tries to adjust to and deals with grief over the loss of his hearing loss (a Connieswap omake) (Steven Universe) (Unpublished): 603 words

Hamilton Ella Enchanted AU (Hamilton) (Unpublished) (In which Burr deals with an obedience curse): 1534 words

Nathan (Every Day) (Unpublished) (dealing with Nathan’s feelings over being possessed and in which him and A have a chat): 1546 words

Zootopia Dimension Travel (inspired by Through a Glass, Darkly) (Zootopia) (Unpublished) (in which our Nick switches places with the Nick from the og collar!verse and in our Zootopia, they’re unable to get the collar off the other Nick): 1094 words

Bakugou Bewitched AU (Inspired by Bakugou Bewitched) (unfortunately, the point of divergence is spoilers for the original fic) (unpublished): 335 words

Animorphs Dimension Travel AU (Animorphs) (unpublished): 439 words

Fairy Dance Arc, focusing on Kirito dealing with PTSD from being trapped in a death game (SAO) (Unpublished): 1436 words

Zygerria Arc AU (Star Wars) (unpublished) In which Anakin objects to the original role distribution and decides he and Ashoka will swap roles): 747 words

Hamilton Dimension Travel (Hamilton) (Unpublished) (in which reality storms causing different dimensions to collide for short periods of time are known phenomenae, one happens during the war, leading to a platoon of women from a world where gender roles are reversed passing into our dimension for a few weeks, including Alt!Hamilton, who disguised himself as a woman to join the army): 430 words

War Dimension Travel (Hamilton) (Unpublished) (in which our Hamilton wakes up in the body of the Hamilton described in the previous AU): 526 words

DONA/Terra Ignota Fusion (Dolls of New Albion, Terra Ignota) (Unpublished): 1862 words

Jackie & Lloyd (New Albion Radio Hour) (Unpublished): 2082 words

(Note: list of unpublished fics is incomplete ATM, but I’m hoping to get everything down at some point in the future!)

[shrinkthisviolet]

Hamilton Fic Recommendation

So I just finished reading this amazing fic, and it only has 36 chapters, but they’re long, and it’s super immersive. I don’t want to spoil anything, so I’m just going to say it involves Burr being a Seer and time loops (Groundhog Day style) and just link it below:

https://archiveofourown.org/works/5456225/chapters/12613484

Don’t be fooled by the last update being in February–the fic is still very much ongoing! It’s written by @savrenim and I recommend it to and and all Hamilton fans. It follows musical canon first and foremost, but it’s supplemented by other historical events, and it’s super interesting! And super complex, too, so be aware of that. Overall, just enjoy it–it’s an amazing and impressive read!

[ao3feed-hamilton]

by saffron612

it feels more like a memory addresses certain alternate versions of history of how the events of the musical Hamilton could have played out. This leads, of course, to the question of, extending over two centuries in the future of these potential alternate histories, what happens in 2008 when Lin Manuel Miranda picks up a giant autobiography in the airport and decides to write a musical about all of this.

As entitled, musical, round 3 provides information, background, and a partial rewrite of one of these such extensions of a timeline to a musical from ifmlam. This contains spoilers through ch 35 of ifmlam, and it is highly recommended that you do no t read this before having caught up.

Words: 7891, Chapters: 2/?, Language: English

Series: Part 2 of it feels more like a memory

Fandoms: Hamilton - Miranda

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Characters: James Madison, Dolley Madison, Maria Reynolds, Aaron Burr, Alexander Hamilton, Elizabeth "Eliza" Schuyler, Thomas Jefferson

Additional Tags: musical rewrite

from AO3 works tagged 'Hamilton - Miranda' http://ift.tt/2mqLFf6

[savrenim]

i saw your post about anime bullshit vs ifmlam and can i just say im so glad you're having so much fun writing? i discovered you through ifmlam but i've been shoving your other fics and patreon and original stuff straight into my mouth because i love your style and knowing that you're having a good time even with the fic that definitely comes from a Different Time Of Your Life is just. really cool idk

aaaaah thank you so much!!!! 

yeah it's really fun and funny looking at my writing over both short and long time frames because there's so much of me stamped in? like there are the tiny things like sometimes when I'm lazy coming up with idiosyncrasies for characters (everything from "I'm going to give you my coffee order" to "I'm going to give you my childhood hyperfixation with volcanoes"*) to obviously with my fanfiction there is the Piece Of Fiction I Was Obsessed With At The Time but also a lot of the original fiction that I have I can pinpoint the setting influences and vibe influences of both stories that I liked but also Other Things That Were Going On In My Life and it just kind of feels like my whole body of work traces my emotional state and the things I was excited about and loved and hated in weird subtle ways and I really like that, the same way that like. the playlists that I've made and listen to on repeat for months at a time have. 

and it also kind of feeds into most of my projects are multi-year projects to ever finish but I never really try to build them around the expectation that I'll feel the same way for a decade, I build them around feelings that I know will be meaningful time capsules? like the way that I choose tattoos: as things that will mean something to me because they represent something important that I felt, not that I feel 

and I guess I'm really glad that I'm in a space where ifmlam is actually exciting to me again, bc it was something that was a huge positive to me for so long and it was a piece of work that not only am I really proud of what I'd written but there are so many upcoming parts that I'm even prouder of and I'm really glad that I never gave up and posted the outline of the rest of it bc it is fun to look back on who I was and how I wrote and take a break from who I am and what I've been doing for the last 5-6 years and return to a previous place both with what's changed and what hasn't. it's nostalgic and it feels right. I think I needed the break but also never needed to throw out the baby with the bathwater and I'm glad that I didn't. and like. maybe I'm having Emotions bc my life is Changing right now faster and more drastically than it ever has before and I think vastly for the better? but boy is it Emotions.

anyways this is a long and rambly way of saying that yeah, ifmlam is officially coming back; there are 2130 words of the next chapter (and oops a bit of a life update) on my patreon right now, and whether or not the patreon keeps voting for that as my open work to guarantee my working on it, I think enough momentum is built up that a new chapter will be posted-posted in like. 3ish months tops? and I'm loathe to make predictions about my life given how unpredictable my life is being right now but maybe possibly it's getting to a place where ifmlam is back on a "sporadic every few months updates" track rather than a "several years of hiatus in between new chapter drops" track???? but I guess we'll see. I'm really having a fun time letting my patreon vote on stuff bc while "wait for inspiration to strike for any given project" is a fun way to do things, I've also realized that I've got so many multi-year projects to finish that crowdsourcing some of what I'm working on makes me feel like I'm making progress on things that matter rather than stalling out on everything bc it's all going at once 

although also speaking of next few months and things no longer stalling even with it being The Most Anime Bullshit thing I've ever written GODS am I excited for Opus I and I think that one's also???? coming really soon??????? as in only a few months??????????

*neither of these have appeared yet in anything published please no one waste time pouring through everything I've ever published to try to find these examples

[savrenim]

I’ve decided to try something new with my patreon, as I both currently (a) am in a tighter spot financially and currently need to be taking up extra work, and (b) would really like some of that work to be creative writing, so that I do not lose all time for writing in my life. So I will begin my patreon like a monthly writing commission: I will write [monthly earnings] x 10 words for whatever current work of mine the $5 tier or above votes for in a monthly poll.

I will continue to work on all other writing projects as the inspiration strikes me; this simply acts as a guarantee that I will produce a certain number of words for the chosen project in addition to that.

This means both fanfictions — ifmlam, ttbotr, wriu, aiimbp, abbabf — and the drafts that I am working on for both original short stories and novels. The full description of all of the options will be posted on each poll. I will post all words written from the previous month’s poll in the access to everything tag. Maximum possible words per month will cap at 10k, because that is the amount that I amount that I can reasonably do while still working my day job.

Full descriptions of the options below the cut.

Fanfiction: it feels more like a memory: [https://archiveofourown.org/works/5456225/chapters/12613484] fandom: Hamilton. Aaron Burr is the Seer — a figure of religious and political importance, due to his ability to see how someone dies the first time he touches their bare skin. An extremely detailed series of eight different alternate histories emerge from there. This probably has at least 200k to go, with an existing outline of plot points to hit and scattered scenes written amongst that.

as if it must be pure: [https://archiveofourown.org/works/43954528/chapters/110519095] fandom: Boku no Hero Academia: I am gonchposting my way through a canon retelling healer! Izuku fic. featuring All For One having an existential crisis about a Yoichi-shaped child turning up out of the blue and sure is doing something with this ‘second chance’, big brother Tomura, the entire League of Villains’ original founding tenet being the Izuku Protection Squad, Aizawa is so tired of all these extra Problem Children he has accidentally adopted, All Might did not realize what he was getting into choosing this successor, Class 1-A unanimously deciding that their precious cinnamon roll must be shielded from this world and if the HPSC needs to go down to do it that is an acceptable price, and an incredibly tired hacker! Hitoshi who is not being paid enough to deal with the insanity and also terrible opsec of said Class 1-A conspiracy and almost certainly going to get a spinoff fic of his own.

we raise it up: [https://archiveofourown.org/works/23608963/chapters/56655328] fandom: the Magnus Archives. Jonathan Sims reads a Leitner, gains foreknowledge about the course of canon through the end of season 4, and everyone proceeds to run around like headless chickens with the playing in the background fixing everything. The five remaining chapters + four epilogues are painstakingly outlined and/or partially written, probably tentatively around 50k remaining with 20k of that already written.

to the bottom of the river: [https://archiveofourown.org/works/11066571/chapters/24678171] fandom: Yuri! on Ice. A retelling of the anime with a twist on the world background: people can lease their souls to demons in return for making various supernatural deals. There is a single chapter mostly written remaining that better emotionally wraps up and concludes the whole thing, then some additional content already ready to post as a patreon exclusive.

a buried and a burning flame: [https://archiveofourown.org/works/32158693/chapters/79679947] fandom: Victoria Goddard’s The Hands of the Emperor. A retelling of the canon universe with the twist of two different sorts of culturally specific soulmates.  

Unpublished Fanfiction: the wind, the wind, the wind: lesbian Hadestown in space. need I say anything more.

shade of the morning sun: a crossover of my unpublished novel Opus (characters appearing in a beating heart of stone) with the Star Wars prequels. possibly the most insane and indulgent thing I’ve ever written.

Original Works: Opus I: incredibly tired diplomat is annoyed that his assigned assassin-pretending-very-poorly-to-a-bodyguard’s murderous love polygon drama is going to have political ramifications that will in fact be his problem. featuring: Seers, except this Seer can only see 10 seconds into the future and uses it to be Extremely Good At Punching Things, the red/blue/gold relationship system, a magic system based around hiveminds, and an incredibly complicated and fucked-up language with plot-relevant linguistics. some characters and draft 0 concepts appear in a beating heart of stone to get an idea of the Vibes. This is the first in a series of, like, 15 books that will eventually become a multiverse-spanning space opera.

The Numanok Files: Murderbot Diaries crossed with non-sexist Dresden Files crossed with that TV show that was a psychic and a home inspector investigating supposed hauntings, but like, in space, and sometimes the hauntings are real. Valryka Numanok is a bounty hunter who specializes in dealing with ghosts, except while half of the time, a haunting is a haunting, the other half it is poorly covered wiring being affected by solar flares / an alien fungus / hi welcome to me infodumping about everything that might possibly go wrong in exoplanetary settlements. This is a series of novellas each following an individual case.

Strangeside 7: this is Redline but in the aesthetics of a Miyazaki movie; a civilization that spans a galaxy is constrained by the existence of the ‘Strange’ — think sci-fi Fae Wilds. Every year the Strangeside7 race runs through seven unannounced segments of the edges of the Strange. We follow the motley cast of characters as they attempt to qualify and run in this year’s race in a stand-alone novel.

The Heart And The Heartless: shounen anime of ‘kids going to sorcery-warrior school to learn how to wield their innate sorcerous abilities to hunt down and seal revenants’ except told from the perspective of the Incredibly Tired and Perpetually Overworked teachers. Also a stand-alone novel.  

Link to my patreon is here: https://www.patreon.com/savrenim

[savrenim]

do you think you’ll be releasing the outline for ifmlam in the coming year?

honestly probably not. the thing with releasing the outline is.... just with respect to my brain and how I view stories and closure, if I release the ifmlam 'outline of what I would have written' that will be me declaring the story as incomplete and discontinued with the outline giving people the sense of how it would have ended. and I'm not sure I'm ready to give up on ifmlam like that yet?

[savrenim]

.

I've got to say wrt writing and plotting and Boy Do I Like Nonlinear Narratives so that I can Maximize The Narrative Impact Of When Information Is Revealed is that, like. there is a very interesting aspect that is "how obvious do you make The Timeline vs how much do you expect your readers to Figure It Out based on context clues" and I tend to be pretty firmly on the 'eh my readers aren't idiots they can figure it out' side of things but that's not ALWAYS the case and just. interesting to think about Should I Be A Bit Nicer or is My Readers Aren't Stupid always appropriate to assume

[savrenim]

legit so excited for my December Nightmare Schedule to be done and I Actually Get To Sit Down And Write Some Stuff

[savrenim]

Holy crap I was reading your yuri on ice demon pact fic (which is so incredible btw I loved it so much the characterisation was incredible) and I find out you've also written that one insane amazing Aaron burr time fic? Small world?? Love your work, pls leave the rest of us with some talent.

<3<3<3 yeah I tend to write One Fanfic for every fandom that I decide I Need To Write For and I try to Make It Count

v glad that it seems to in two fandoms

[savrenim]

gods it’s so weird staring at having actually decided to rewrite the trash novel draft and being really excited about the changes, like, honestly some of them even just really minor but makes everything so much better and, like. being terrified to make them because I’m worried that it’ll suddenly stick out that much more that Does This Thing Even Have A Plot and There Really Is No Underlying Theme Or Message The Book Was Written For The Purpose Of ‘What If A Bunch Of People Did Some Badass Things’ And It Doesn’t Get Deeper Than That

[savrenim]

I've got to say. I feel like the current thing holding me back from Writing the most is, like. the.... drag in the physics sense of the word of having Long Unfinished Works making me suddenly extremely cautious about publishing anything that I do not have The Rest Of The Story Written