#ik y’all don’t care abt personal stuff but

[joong-tori]

hi girlies (gender neutral) i have some concerns with aiiprn and it’s mostly geared to the few fem aligned (she/her, she/they, they/she) ppl who have interacted with the posts so far

but uh don’t do that pls LMFAO

while my blog is inclusive and i make content for all genders it does make me uncomfy if y’all interact with my mlm stuff

especially since i do make content that is specifically for fem aligned ppl

ik me saying this isn’t gonna stop y’all from reading it (which i don’t particularly care abt, i’m not ur parent i’m not gonna police u on what u should or shouldn’t read) but as a transmasc gender-fluid person it does make me uncomfy when i see y’all interact with my mlm content

there is and will be content for y’all i promise, just pls don’t interact with the stuff i make for specifically masculine aligned ppl 💜

[soupieoopieisloopie]

Oh my GODDDD headcanon Drabble thing idk I’m just typing and hitting post atp

OM!Brothers x reader who has a hard time showing emotions around other people and correct reactions to things‼️‼️

Bc ik so many ppl in the fandom (me included) don’t know how to react to compliments, or gifts, or people confessing feelings, or affection, etc..

So, if the brothers are paired up with a reader like that I’m SO curious to see howd they’d reacttt

Also, pls tell me how you think they’d react, I want to be exposed so as many headcanons as possible aaa also I just got to lesson 17 I’m SO behind BAJAHA never played nightbringer so forgive me 😭😭

I feel like Lucifer, Satan and Beel would be the most chill abt it, seeing as (imo) they’re the kinda demons to do gifts and stuff in private or be really lowkey in their own ways.

“Do you not like it?/ Do you feel the same?” “…oh I see, I’ll keep that in mind” and then carry on.

While Mammon, and Asmo might kinda get sad and think you don’t feel the same/ don’t like the gift/ are unhappy.

“TADAHH! A gift from me! Your favorite!” “…is something wrong? Do you not like it?” “I’ll get you more and will only stop when you’re beaming with joy…now let’s see that gorgeous smile I love!”

PERSONALLY I think Belphie would be a total brat about it maybe-

“You don’t like it? Not like I care about how you think. Accept it or don’t I’m gonna nap.” And then you have to baby him and explain you just don’t know how to react and shower him with affection and tell him to stop being such a brat sometimes.

Lqevi would be the most heartbroken if you don’t react the way he’s expecting you to, once you explain tho I think he’d be like “omg lol same” and then y’all will play multiplayer video games or make Lego flowers together

[kgbird]

Did I tell y’all that my class did a “superlatives” thing? Like I never had that in high school or college or anything. But sga sent a google form out n asked people to vote stuff for other classmates.

And I was like ok another popularity contest. And I briefly worried that I would be nominated as greasiest, ugliest, weirdest, worst fashion/style, etc.

But they ended up doing one for everybody which whatever. And none of them were hateful so that’s something.

Mine was “most mysterious.” Like ofc I don’t care but I was like just say you don’t know me and let me go home. Its just a less rude way to call me the weirdest.

Other peoples had cute drawings on theirs and what not. I got scribbles and “the payback on yt” and I really don’t think it’s the James brown song. There’s a channel by that name but it is odd and has very few subs. And I srsly cant think of anything I’ve done to any of my classmates like I’ve never been mean to them or done smthn sneaky or literally anything. So I didn’t think that’s what they meant by payback. Also there was a picture of sunglasses and the yt channel uses those same glasses. I haven’t watched the vids but they look odd and maybe true crime which I don’t even like so I really don’t know. Insight welcome.

But anyway I would have preferred to have not gotten anything at all frankly. They didn’t have to include everybody. Just let it be the popularity contest it’s supposed to be. At least I didn’t overtly get called out and ik I’m the only person who remembers it.

Like I know I’m weird and off-putting and awkward in social situations but I mean… whatever idk what I expected

What’s weird is that I know at least two people who put me in for “best music taste” which was super sweet and that’s what I gotta focus on is the people who DO care to know me. But like if two people said that, why did you just… not use that? And instead actually think and work to come up with something to deliberately jab me. And the YouTube channel like idgi.

Kevin got most likely to answer every question correctly and idk why everyone loves him even tho he’s just as awkward as I am. Anyone I’ve talked to abt it says it’s bc he’s a guy. Like literally my therapist was like the hades gif “he’s a GUY!”

Mackenzie got “most likely to work in the ER” which, she hates the ER. But that is what she did for hours and I guess that’s the only thing ppl know abt her. I def think the two of us are on the bottom of the totem pole, but it doesn’t matter really cause it’s no big deal in the grand scheme, and this year I won’t be seeing anyone anyways. Plus there’s not as clearly defined social strata like high school.

Lowkey Mackenzie was trying to get in on my pity party about how no one cares about her either. And on one hand true igi but the other I was like,,, at least they knew SOMETHING about you to say… so let me have this lol.

So it’s whatever idc but I’m afraid that when I finish this rotation and any of my classmates get assigned to the office I’m at now… technically we’re not supposed to talk about each other in the clinical setting but. I have a feeling that one nurse in particular would talk to this theoretical classmate of mine and whoever it is will dump on me or whatever.

And I don’t dislike the nurse he’s just a kid so whatever but he’s also super smart in the same way kevin is. But even the other nurses or the other providers or anything! I KNOW I’ll never hear from them again but I’m scared that they’ll all talk about how weird I am. Or, to a slightly lesser degree, they’ll like my classmate a lot more than they like me and think they’re smarter than me and better w patients and not such a little crybaby. I really try to be nice at word and all that but I literally can’t help being weird like I’ve tried to be normal, but it’s so stressful bc I’m afraid people will see through it.

And I know: so what if people you’ll never see again think you’re weird? What’s the worst that could happen/whats it to you? And idk how to answer that because short of failing the rotation, that feels like the worst thing that could happen. Like if there was something I could actively do to prevent that I would. But like I said when I try, I get extremely stressed and frustrated and overwhelmed and depressed. Idk ig if the yt thing makes any sense to you, lmk.

[pigeonfisch]

using audible at work is changing my life and reigniting my passion for literature there are so many wonderful books I just never got around to reading and I am so happy!!!!! I used to read so often and then I got so busy with work…..man!!! how lovely. i am filled with joy and inspiration again. hopefully this means I’ll be able to write again soon, my motivation has been absolutely horrible

[yyunari]

nari as one of the younger kids on sfw enhablr (i’m assuming you’re around 05’ - 08’) how do you feel abt the current content for the maknae line? like ik it’s not always super sexualized or anything but sometimes i see stuff that’s just the way it’s worded really rubs me the wrong way ☹️ esp bc some of the kids on here like you are so young it makes me feel like if they see stuff like that , they might start think it’s okay for others to treat them the same or vice verse … whenever i see edits of niki on tiktok , i have to avoid the comments bc there’s almost always like a “daddy” , “how is he 16” or “you don’t know what you do to me” like wtf he’s a literal child ?? it makes me so mad and honestly so uncomfortable :( and i saw an article on kboo today too that said niki apparently has around 200 explicit or mature fics written abt him on ao3 … sometimes even the fboi trope (usually when it’s written abt minors) bothers me bc i see minors writing abt it (like 13-15 y/o) and i don’t understand why they don’t just use the term player or smtg … bc they’ll go out of their way to mention how the character has sex a lot an whatnot , even that feels way too suggestive for me personally for a minor too write let aline abt a minor too , sorry for the rant,, i was just wondering how you felt … omg also though tbh i noticed that some of the minors on here / blogs in gen seem way too comfy on here like they’ll be sharing where they live , their actual names and sometimes like giving a lot of personal info … like did they not learn abt internet safety or do they just no care? as one of the older kids , i kind of worry abt them :( i really hope everybody stays safe on here <3 & some reminders: never be afraid to block anyone ! bc i’ve seen a lot of minors on here get sent stuff from the p*rn bots or just weird dms :( & u don’t need to force yourself to interact with someone , make sure ur comfy with them first !

oh my god i’m so glad u sent me this because ive been wanting to talk about it for a while 🫶

im quite literally the same age as niki and seeing how many people are constantly sexualizing him makes me EXTREMELY uncomfortable. most tiktok edits of him are borderline sexualizing him too, when the songs people use are about sex and things like that. even if the intention wasn’t to sexualize him, they still do so by using sexual content for him. it pisses me off how people see that as normal and even comment weird things (like how u said ‘how is he 16’, i see that comment a lot and its SO weird. why do people think this is a normal thing to say?? its implications make me feel iffy.) when niki is still a child. he is a child. “how is he 16” because he was born in 05 that’s how.

also 200 mature fics on ao3????? the majority of writers on ao3 are adults so thats really fucking weird and honestly disgusting. fuck anyone whos ever written a mature fic about niki or even portrayed him in a mature light. i agree with ur point about him being portrayed as an ‘fboy’ or whatever, why would u put him in that position as a minor????? “hes aged up” “hes in college” so its okay to change a real person’s age when it’s convenient for you?? enhypen has a hyung line, write your fboy fic about someone else.

im not saying you have to baby him or only make cute edits about him, but what i am saying is if you can’t appreciate niki without borderline sexualizing him, then unstan him. and this goes for other idols who are minors as well.

and dont even get me started on jungwon and sunoo. from my understanding jungwon is a minor because legal age in korea is 19? koreans please correct me if im wrong. but regardless of whether or not jungwon is a minor, he’s still just barely an adult. it’s still weird to make sexual things about him when he’s in this place in his life. and when sunoo became legal, y’all were fucking rushing to make smut about him and it was GROSS. yes he became legal, but he was still the same person he was before. you can wait for a while after they become legal to write things about them. they need to go through the transition period from being a minor to becoming legal.

and yes, some minors on here forget that there are sex bots and just gross people on this app. i got one of these bots in my asks a few days ago and it grossed me the fuck out (i blocked the user, and if u ever get one of these u should too). this is why i share so little about my personal life, and if i do im very vague. if you are my age or younger, please be careful on the internet. p3dos are so fucking gross and are something you don’t want to risk being involved with. so as much as u can, hide your personal life. i promise you that your life is worth so much more than some stupid app :))

anyways i really like answering questions like these so u guys should ask more, i like speaking my mind 🤗

[scims-stuff]

right ik that this is a tma/mechs acc and so i don’t really talk abt cr on here but there’s a few problems i’ve been seeing in the fandom after the finale, and i wanna address them

SPOILERS FOR CAMPAIGN 2 EP 141

To preface this: I am a gay trans man, keep that in mind because I think that it provides perspective for a few things I’m about to say. Also I am not going to address any of the gripes people may have with white people playing woc or any stereotypes Beau may fall into because I’m white and not a lesbian, so it is not my place to have a huge opinion on it.

1) Matt confirming on twitter that some npcs are trans is fine

It is not always appropriate or necessary to outright mention someone is trans if it is not directly relevant to their life or how we view the character. Stealth trans people exist irl, and it’s weird to describe someone as trans (unless the pcs knew the person prior to their intro) as it implies that trans people are inherently different (in terms of gender) than cis people (why would you specify someone is trans but never do that with cis characters?).

For example: Yussa is described as looking old, even for an elf. Putting him at definitely over 500 years old. He most likely transitioned magically hundreds of years before he met the nien, there would be no reason to bring it up. Also, he is shown to be a reserved person, it would be out of character for him to tell them anyway.

To me it’s technically not dumbledoring them. Dumbledores relationship with Grindelwald was technically relevant to the plot/his character in the main series, what’s in an npcs pants isn’t.

Also I don’t want to see any comparison with Brennan Lee Mulligan, dimesion 20 and critical role are very different, with different moods, expectations, and most likely ways of transitioning. They may have hrt in modern New York, but they probably rely on magic a bit more in Xandria.

I admit, it may not be the best rep out there, but I think it’s good there wasn’t any transphobia or coming out story lines because they’re usually not handled the best by cis creators.

Trans people feel free continue a respectful conversation about this with me, cis people I don’t care.

2) Please god chill it with how shadowgast ended up

Not all relationships need a dramatic love confession. The way Liam implied that Essek and Caleb were romantically involved at one point but ended up as friends (both due to lifespan and, personal headcanon here, maybe a lack of romantic compatibility) was perfectly clear. This is why we pay attention in literature class.

They both care for each other in a unique and deep way but that doesn’t mean it has to end in romance, there’s a value in deep platonic love. Also, at one point Essek did say that he wasn’t really interested in romance at all.

Additionally, it was an epilogue scene so Liam would want to focus on the important stuff to do with Caleb’s character (burning the time travel room and visiting his parents graves), because, surprise, Caleb is more than who he cares for romantically and he is still bi no matter who he ends up with.

Remember y’all, it’s pride month, Liam and Matt may not see your posts complaining about the lack of gratuitous romance and the fact that Caleb was apparently not good bi rep because he didn’t end up with anyone, but your bi and aro friends and followers will.

3) THIS IS NOT THE LAST TIME WE ARE GONNA SEE THE MIGHTY NEIN

Although I was definitely not in the fandom when they were released, we have 5 canon Vox Machina one shots.

Considering how much the fandom has grown since then, we are very likely to get the same amount, if not more.

So just hold it with the “we never got [insert thing here]” for a bit. I’m personally a bit sad they never got the basilisk oil for Pumat, but hey that’s a good oneshot idea.

In conclusion- chill

EDIT: Essek is canonically demi

[thekinkydyke]

quarantine changes (day 5: masturbation)

(Disclaimer: this is all fantasy. No one’s forcing me to do this, I’m doing it because it gets me off, and I know that I can stop at any time.)

sooo things have been starting to get harder, but it’s been interesting! looking at porn all day is def kinda frying my brain, but i’m taking care of myself and enjoying the horniness and humiliation hehe. something difficult that i found today is that most of the stuff on my timeline is girls, and now that i’m straight it’s a little harder to find stuff that i’m into. i haven’t gotten any suggestions abt hot guy blogs or straight porn to look at, but it wasn’t too hard to find straight porn videos obv, so i’m getting by okay!

i feel like the appearance stuff is helping with the identity stuff and vice versa! like i still don’t feel like a girl but when i look at porn sluts all day and then look in the mirror and see a girl in a cute girly outfit with full makeup and a skirt and heels it’s like super easy and hot to tell myself i’m a girl and start playing with myself thinking abt it

which brings us to today’s additional change! since i’m masturbating like a whole lot during quarantine, i figure changing my rituals around a little bit will be a big thing. i could use some suggestions on this one because y’all always have good sadistic ideas >:) for now tho, going back to what i was saying earlier, my new rule is that i have to be looking at myself in the mirror or on camera any time i masturbate.

my wardrobe rule is gonna be no panties/underwear :D i might do no bras later too but the dysphoria i get from bras is hot enough to keep them and i think skirts + no panties + porn etc is gonna be a super fun combination

for routine, i’m replacing my phone background with a degrading picture of myself. idk exactly what it’s gonna be, but i think it would be fun to have me in a slutty girly outfit with runny makeup and a dildo in my mouth with “straight” or “she/her” across my face or something just to really soak in the identity changes hehe

for identity, i’m doing another name change! ik i did one not too long ago but that one’s kinda annoying to use and i have personal reasons for adding this one to the other ones, so yeah! i’m just gonna pick one myself, but you can send in suggestions for girly, degrading names and i might pick yours!

and for speech, i’m gonna stop correcting any typos or misspellings and start trying to use shorter and simpler words whenever possible! to recap...

Wardrobe/appearance

- feminine clothes, full makeup

- heels only, stockings not socks

- no body hair

- skirts and dresses, not pants

- no panties/underwear

Routine

- sleep naked

- replace as much media as possible with porn

- eat on the floor

- replace phone background with degrading picture of self

Identity

- nonbinary cis girl she/her

- lesbian straight

- new degrading girly name (send suggestions tonight!)

Speech

- high pitch, giggle often

- don’t correct typos, use simpler words

Masturbation

- always looking at myself in the mirror/on camera while i do it

[herotheshiro]

ok discovered the side story for the manhwa antimony (it’s localized as another name) and i was like ok this looks cute, i like the dynamic i’m being shown even though i literally don’t know the characters bc i never read the main story of antimony and don’t really plan to. and you’ll know that now i have even less desire to once you finish reading this rant post lmao.

anyway so i didn’t really know any relationships in-comic (bc they assume you know it already) so it wasn’t until i read reader comments that established who these ppl were so quick summary for those like me who don’t know shit

red-head actor: apparently tried to kill the main character during the main story. currently under social fallout after his almost-murder(s?) were found out by the public

redhead’s stepbrother: prob the main antagonist of the main story, but apparently toxic and low-key deranged i guess. idk. also he’s like a ceo or something i guess? anyway he and redhead were in a relationship to some degree, don’t really know; rn at the beginning of the side story i think they’re either on break or just not talking to each other

redhead’s manager: all-around nice or at least patient dude. although i think they were trying to indicate maybe he wasn’t so nice/had ulterior motives but idk korean so i couldn’t garner that. but basically he’s trying to take care of redhead post-fallout

(spoilers for the side story from now on) so the side story starts with the manager taking care of redhead and eventually they hook up bc redhead, in a drunken state, mistakes manager for his stepbrother (afterwards he does realize he slept with the manager not the stepbro though). which like ok so maybe the redhead is gonna move on from his ex and get together with his manager.

skipping through the rest of this like 10 ch side story for this review: they don’t! the redhead ends up back with his stepbrother! and i was so betrayed even though i don’t know ANYTHING abt the main story bc i like stories of nice, patient dudes taking care of tsundere guys. it’s a case of (1) ‘i don’t know what i had until i lost it’ on the stepbrother’s part, he was aggressive towards redhead but when he sees/hears of redhead being with another dude he’s like wait no i want you back and (2) the classic history-beats-all. the final scene where the redhead chooses bw the manager and the stepbro is very much imo the redhead being like yeah stepbro is a bitch but i grew up with him and we’ve been together all this time and i can’t imagine life without you (i’m making this up. idk korean). it was a good scene technically, having it take place on a crosswalk, basically indicating that the redhead has the choice to cross the street towards the stepbro or stay on the sidewalk with the manager (omg wait. now that i think more abt it, is it subtext indicating he’ll be safe with the manager but pursuing a relationship with the stepbro would be more dangerous? i mean idk maybe they explicitly said that in the dialogue but if not wait hold on holy shit) but when they cut to the next scene with the main story’s main character seeing redhead and stepbro smiling happily at each other i was like DAMN..... BRUH YOU REALLY DRAGGED ME ALONG FOR THESE 10 CH TO SEE THIS ENDING ....

also the other annoyance is that they basically removed the manager from the story right after that scene and i’m like bro. his last scene was him watching after redhead when he runs out to the crosswalk after stepbro almost gets run over bc the fucker is standing in the middle of the crosswalk when the light is red. not even a single panel of the manager accepting that redhead doesn’t like him like that. like fine ok in every love triangle that doesn’t end in poly, one person gets left out but at least give them some resolution even if you don’t write a new love interest for them. it’s ok to have them not end up with anybody, but at least let them accept and move on and have SOME degree of closure (if not for them, for the readers who were rooting for them).

i think i got everything i wanted to get out. i prob won’t read the translated ch even though i think some dialogue during the hook-up scene might be important bc ik what happens in the end lol. maybe this is just frequency illusion speaking, but after love or hate ended with (spoiler if you didn’t know) the main getting together with his “stepbro” (i’ll play devil’s advocate though bc TECHNICALLY they aren’t stepbros at the time of their main story relationship. did their parents get back together or not? i didn’t read this manhwa tbh lol. anyway i say devil’s advocate bc y’all should know my stance on these kinds of things by now), i’m like damn are other ppl just like ‘alright i’ve been validated and i’ll do that too!’ but also there was the older manhwa unfather that also ended with the main x his dad (i think it’s old enough that this wouldn’t be a spoiler. also btw i never read that manhwa either bc i tend to drop manhwas when i find out the love triangle involves a relative most of the time, i just found out the ending via IG lol. i’m menaced by those accounts to find out stuff abt stories i have no intention of reading).

other than the incest thing, i mean some reader comments were like ‘the redhead is crazy and so he should end up with his also crazy stepbro instead of the nice, “normal” manager’. which in some cases ok sure that makes sense but also damn just give the manager at least a single panel or dialogue of closure. idk maybe they did give him a dialogue of closure which i wouldn’t know since idk korean but damn. feels bad if he was demoted to only a line of dialogue

[honeyfreckled]

Let’s have a convo!

right off the bat tagging a few bbs who idk might be interested 

@sebastiansloserclub @sgtbookybarnes @junk-food-forever @asadmarveltrashbag

Now that I’m fully investing myself in this, I am FULLY investigating.

I know a tiny bit of what is expected of me, what a few of you enjoy from me, and what tropes or characters and such the fandom fawns over in general. But----

I NEED to know what it is that will be what YOU in particular are interested in of my body of work/future projects. What is it that makes you wanna keep investing your time (and in the case of those who will subscribe- money) in me? Is there a certain thing I do that you could pinpoint and tell me you enjoy so that I could cater more to that?

Forget all those knee jerk responses ppl are prone to give on here along the lines of “oh, don’t care so much what your followers want! just go for whatever and do what you want!” as this goes against everything my research abt patreon says. On patreon I will need to know what it is that will incentivize subscribing as well as additional things I can put for you that will make subscribing to me that much more special and worth it. 

IMPORTANT!!!!! Prices STILL TBA. I’m looking arnd, I’m still researching and obvi my sense of worth is v low but also I just dont wanna break anyone’s pocketbooks or sound like i think I’m sooo important and worth soooo much money bc ik this is not the case lol and we all broke af out here okkkkk and this is still just my goofy ass weird stories and mdbds at the end of the day, so it’s not like I wanna charge an arm and a leg. That being said-

Is there anything you have seen others do that you would be interested in seeing me try? Are there things you would def be willing to pay for like certain fics or maybe access to how I edit or how I brainstorm and format? How I make moodboards? Music playlists I’ve made that are companions to the fics? Does seeing my handwritten outlines sound like something cool? What about if on a higher tier you were able to find out about the events that inspired content or get a special personalized moodboard or ficlet? Or have access to the nsfw content and the EXTREMELY nsfw stuff that gets dark, kinky, filled w taboos, etc? What abt access to my works that are NOT seb related? would any of that interest you?

Just let me know what would draw you in! Think about what you’ve seen on here of me and what it was that made u want to keep looking. Any info abt yr feelings/opinions/preferences surrounding my stuff that you can give me will be extremely beneficial in setting up my patreon so that it becomes somewhere you feel excited to stay tuned in to. I want this to be as worth it for y’all as possible! I want to give u what u want and continue to create for this fandom while still of course staying true to how I create outside of seb stuff and keep building on what I feel is content that goes beyond just a fandom centric body of work. 

pls don’t respond in replies- i am never able to view them. messages, sending me an ask, reblogging and commenting- all that is a much surer way of reaching me 

[lil-nct-scenarios-11]

Jaehyun- Hubby

Group: NCT- Jaehyun 

Theme: Request- Jaehyun as a husband 

Type: bullet-style reaction - fluffff 

whooooooop here we go!

first of all congrats on being this peach’s wife

where was my invite to the wedding

jk I play too much 

let’s get into this 

ok 

I gotta start off with the nsfw stuff first 

(jk I don't do that on my blog ahahah, anyways)

gurlll u know you’d get that good good *wink wink*

I meann if you’ve seen him perform ever then you know what I’m talkin abt 

I mean ik he a peach but everyone knows he highkey a freak 

so like have fun 

plus 

he’d be such a good kisser both passionately and sweetly 

aighht so now that that’s out of the way lets go onto the fluff cuz everyone also knows he aint called a peach for no reason 

he’d be sweetest hubby ever 

don't fight me on this 

like he’d leave you the sweetest notes in the morning before he leaves for work and when he’d come home he would always greet you with a hug and kiss no expections 

he would not be shy with his love for you, you’re his wife after all why would he?

butttt when you would kiss him in public or something then this fluff giant would be so shy that you wouldn't know what to do with him 

he would spoil you rotten like oml 

he’d shower you in brand named gifts and luxurious dinners

basically he’d make you feel like the queen that you are 

aww if you’d ever have a hard time falling asleep then he’d take care of the problem one of two ways 

A: pat-a-cake with no hands 

ahem gunna keep my blog pure so we’re sticking with that  

B: he’d pull out his guitar and play you a lil lullaby cuz you’re his baby

he’d care for you so much its almost pathetic except its not 

it’ll kill him to see you sad or hurt in any way, shape, or form 

his sole duty towards you would be to keep you happy at all costs 

let’s just say y’all ever got in a fight 

it would never be over something serious bc when y’all serious then y’all talk shit out and all that good stuff 

but going back to the fight it always be abt some petty shit like what kinda peaches to buy: the white ones or the golden ones 

get the golden ones 

so like when yall having your lil petty fights then he would be hecka extra n he would get so into it 

if yall ever doing something like just having breakfast then he’d forget to eat cuz he’d be too busy just checking you out cuz you’d be the most angelic n prefect person in the world to him 

and if you’d ever feel insecure then he’d go out his way to make you feel special 

like let’s just you’re insecure about your stretch marks or the way your tummy sticks out then he’d kiss those areas and tell you how much he loves them on you or he’d buy clothes that would bring out those features and help you to embrace them

when yall cooking food then he’d always try to distract you by either touching you a lot or start singing or dancing out nowhere 

orr is he’s feeling extra playful that day then he’d place your ingredients in another location when you aren't looking and watch you struggle to look for it 

and once you’ve had enough you’d put your hands on your hips then he’d know you’ve had it but you couldn’t bring yourself to stay mad or annoyed at him for him cuz he’d do some cute shit like hide the carrot behind his back and say something like ‘you gotta kiss me in order to get it back’ 

and oml you guys would start so many fires or be close to cuz his distraction methods would work 

rip all the burnt food 

he would always have a smile on his face or just be lost in his thoughts 

“Jae, what's on your mind“ 

“nothing, just wondering how I got so lucky to be able to make and to call you my wife“ 

*insert a blushy you*

BASICALLY 

lemme wrap this up 

gurl he would love you so much and treat you with lots of care and compassion and he would be an excellent hubby 

[dokyungsu]

Who are some of ur favorite people here and why?

💘💘💘 HAPPY VALENTINES DAY TO ALL MY MUTUALS 💘💘💘 WROW REN LOVES YOU???? 💘💘💘 HELL YEA SHE DOES !!!!!💘💘💘

i had this in drafts for so long bc i wanted to post it on valentines like di cheesy person that i am so this is kind of like my version of sending u guys a love letter of some sort,,, flowers n chocolates all that… bc i obviously can’t send u guys flowers n chocolates irl 😣😣😣 anyways aasdjhakdkjh this is gonna be long so ima put a read more right here ♥

@zyxgf​ aka jackieMISS JACKIE!?!?!? uhm i say this all di time but she’s my baby girl 🤢🤢 she’s given me nothing but love n affection and laffs for di whole time we’ve been mutuals,,, 💗💓💕💖💞💗💓💕💖💞 she’s so funni n a relateable kween. giffing kween. kween of being cute… superior xingmi n exo m stan wrow… i’m always excited to see if she’s tagged me in stuff (laysoo) or if she’s messaged me or has made posts abt me or has sent me asks…. like she’s rly one of di reasons i love being here :((((( she’s so cute ohhhh my god..  also she sends me death threats abt yixing pls dw jackie i won’t steal ur man… i’ll steal U from ur man.. 😣😣😣 i’ll make him lose his balance n sweep u away 👀👀👀 i also lowkey wished we talked but ajsdbkjashdkj 

@exoistheuniverse aka ali (formerly sooweetlies a god-tier url wow)ALI IS THE SOFTEST MUTUAL EVER !!!!!!!! AND ONE OF MY ALL TIME FAVORITE KSOO-LS :(((( everytime i think of her i think about cotton candy and clouds and penguins and ksoo :((( … she’s so talented have y’ALL SEEN HER EDITS??? AND GIFS?? AND HER CUTE KSOO ICONS !!!! when will i ever… her voice is also di cutest… she always sends me love asks and asdhkas honestly how can i ask for more when she gives me di Most… pls i have a lot of love in my hort for her i always wish her the best n hope that she’s always happy 😣😣😣

@pcys-l aka rimi (formerly loeysoul i mean its true loey is in her soul)RIMI di LOve of my LIFE!!!!!! the first ever mutual i talked to because we both cried abt bruise 🤕🤕 meme queen, is Nasty in her tags abt pcy 🚶‍♂️🚶‍♂️ THINKS I’M UNLOYAL WHEN I’M NOT but she makes me happy n holds a special place in my hort.. I LOVE RIMI SO MUCH SHE DESORVS DI WHOLE WORLD SHE’S SO FUNNI AND HAVE MADE ME LAFF COUNTLESS OF TIMES AND I’m happy i got to be mutuals w u :(((

@yiffxing aka gabbyPREDDIEST FURRY QUEEN !! YIXING’S SEKSI SHEEP BACK-UP DANCERS R SHAKING !!! even tho we’ve only started talking uhhhh she’s rly di sweetest person ik 🤕🤕🤕 is trash for ksoo but i’ll let her off bc i luv her :\ the person who’ll date will b di luckiest bc uhhh she’s a whole package… fun fact: i was intimidated by gabby at first bc she was too beautiful n i thought i couldn’t b friends w her but 😣😣 I SEND HER LOVE MSGS EVERY CHANCE I GET💗💗💗💗💗💗

@kiungsoo aka livLIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIV!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i haven’t seen her on my dash in a while bc she’s on q but i miss her :((( she a fellow twenty-four enthusiast so if u wanna slander miss twenty four u gotta go thru US !! 😤😤😤 she’s also another talented mutual :(( y’all seen her countdown bday posts for ksoo?? go check it out binch!!! go d i love liv 😩😩😩 i hope school and studying is going well for u i wish u all di best i love u 💗

@suhopps aka sunnie my SUNNIEshine (i’ve appointed u that nickname there’s lideralee no escape from it) we talked heaps before but everyone who’s… mutuals w me.. like basically everyone in this list knows i am The Worst at keeping convos 😰😰 but sunnie is so so so so sweet and soft and i love when i talk with you :((( we have so many things in common lmfao and she’s such a dramatic gay but i love it !! i always wish for your happiness and i believe that u can overcome any hardships you’re facing right now,,, i love u sunnie!!!! take care always 😙💘

@sophrosynes​ aka robertaI LOVE ROBERTA SO MUCH !!!!!!! I KNOW WE DON’T TALK BUT I HOPE U KNOW THAT I THINK ABT U AND HOPE THAT UR ALWAYS WELL :((( miss sophrosynes was my very first anon and honestly… she’s so thoughtful and considerate and nothing full of love and g od d dd she has a face to match her beautiful hort :(( thank u for sending me love always 💗💓💕💖💞 id die for u.. 

@kokobaekhyun aka jasmineY’ALL JASMINE’S A WILDT ONE Y’ALL SEEN HER TAGs??? when i thought no one can match rimi in being the Nastiest but.. ANYWAYS i love her either way 🤕🤕🤕 when she’s in soft mode it’s wholesome rly…. WE BONDED OVER MULLET!BBH BC IT’S GOD TIER AND WILL NEVER BE TOPPED anyways yea… love jas… she’s so funny n fun to talk to 😩💘 also if ur in a mood to talk about hard bbh she’S THE GIRL UR LOOKING FOR she’s always in the mood u won’t be disappointed KAJSHDjkas 

@my1ady aka arelyUHMMM NOT TO START BUT SHE’S MY BIGGEST FAN :(((((( WHEN SHE TAGS ME IN STUFF??? AND HER TAGS?? heart n*t :\ I LOVE HER SO MUCH THE LOVE SHE GIVES ME???? i don’t deserve… 😞😞😞 my anons asked abt her a lot lmfao idk why adkjahskj ONE OF MY FAVORITE XINGMIS HONESTLY!! HAS A GOD TIER URL WROW… my_lady_by_exo-m.mp3 amazing.. and uh loves my man so that’s a bonus… we share mans 🤕🤕🤕 love u arely.. 💗💗💗

@byunchen aka melqueen of making me want to d*e bc of soft n sweet bbh/exo imagines :(( also queen of making me want to KERMIT SUE OF SIDE BC OF THE NSFW BBH POSTS SHE MAKES I H*TE akjdhaskdjh SHE RLY BRINGS OUT THE BBH-L IN ME :\  ALSO MY FELLOW TRIPLE STAN??? VALID ! she’s full of nothing but love and AHHHHHHH I LOVE U MEL !!!!!!!! 💗💓💕💖💞

@exosvisual aka cindySHE ONE OF DI LOVELIEST XINGMIS IVE EVER MET PLEASE !!!! we cry about idol producer trainees together but mainly how hot and yixing distracting looks in all of di goddamn idol p episodes :\ I LOVE HER so much she’s rly so sweet and i’m rly glad i got to meet her :(( and also may i add that she’s… rly beautiful  😭😭😭 💗💓💕💖💞

@byunparks aka maddyMADDY WHO I BONDED WITH DURING THE 3 NIGHTS OF ELYXION !?!?!!?!!!! NEVER FUCKING FORGET !!!!! SHE WAS THE ONLY ONE I WAS TALKING AND UH we were both crying and truly losing our minds pls… i haven’t interacted with her much nowadays but she’s one of di best bbh-Ls i know n i love her… thank u for making me happy so i also wish for you happiness ily 🤧💖💖💖

@byunbread aka veraQUEEN VEWWA WHOMST I WUV SO MUCH :((((( not to b dramatic but she’s lideralee one of di best bbh blogs out there… (also random fact; she’s 179cm like… i’m so sorry baekhyun sweetie akshdakjsHDAAKJHDKJA) also uhhh queen of being di most beautiful ??? i’m not kidding :\ altho we’ve only interacted through posts and what not i rly love seeing her on my dash 🤧🤧🤧 i wish you di best for ur studies i wuv u vewwa 💕💕💕

@stanbaek aka ashleyASHLEY !!!!! A-SHE!!!-LY!!! uhm she’s is sososo sweet and her love for bbh is so so wholesome and beautiful and there’s A LOT of it :((( HER BBH BLOG CONTENT IS AMAZING AHH!!! we’ve talked a few times and she’s rly so sweet please.. 😞😞😞 honey i hope you know that you deserve to be happy 🤧🤧 i wish that you’ll always have strength when you experience days that are difficult to go through, i told u that i believe in u okay!!! i love you and i mean it 💞💞💞

@littlechefsoo aka courtneyONE OF MY FAVORTIE KSOO-LS AHH!!!!! i think courtney has been one of my oldest mutuals since i came on tumblr and she’s always been such a lovely person :(( her love for ksoo??? WHOLESOME…. i love it whenever she tags me in di tag games and even tho we’ve only interacted/talked a few times i love her 😣😣💗💗 also have y’all seen her ‘do it for him’ post and the pics were filled with suho’s tiddies from gayo daejun???? YEA MOOD. i love my fellow kyungmyeon-Ls 💖💖💖

@kyungsooslatinagf aka jossyJOSSY I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!??!?! i love reading her tags when she reblogs from me pls kashdkahs also another one of my all-time favorite ksoo-Ls ♥♥♥ she’s one of di few people who came to check up on me during… a hard time so thank you for that :(( a fellow shawol-L and honestly miss jossy is beautiful my gosh 😩💘 we’re both tauruses so i think we have a lot in common lmao i wanna b able to interact n talk w u more miss jossy ily 🤧🤧💖💖

[threeracha]

in honor of earth day tomorrow, who are your top 10 closest human friends (both irl and mutuals combined) and how have they inspired you??? 🌎💕🤧

IN HONOR OF EARTH DAY LDFMSOF OMG thank u for sending this ;_____;

hHH ok ok ok i totally got emo during this but like ig im more emo than i thought 🤑✊🏻im literally that one dude crying but posing still 😩

1. my IRL BEST FRIEND is my fav person ever she’s like the only irl i have that actually wants to keep in contact w me like forever 😩 legit in 7th grade she told me she had a dream she died and was crying bc she wasn’t sure if we’d be in the afterlife together LFMAOFOAOOFO we have out entire lives planned like if our s/o’s don’t comply they’re canned, no exceptions :// i think she inspires me to be me bc she’s the only person im comfortable being myself w :( but she also inspires me to not get into a relationship bc she’s super soft and doesn’t know how to take a firm stand on anything LMFAOOO im Boutta save her from The Monster that is her bf dwdwdw *sideeyes* jk im also weak how do i handle This

2. ariane : one of my longest w1 mutuals

3. rissa : she’s so nice and says good morning Everyday even tho i die off for literal Weeks ;;;; idk what i did to deserve a sunshine even tho im the only person she ever roasts it’s?? totally fine she inspires me to be nice n cherish friends n roast them w love :(

3. tina : like one of my og wives 💓💞💖💕tina is super soft like SUPER soft n inspires me to be down-to-earth, she definitely is one to emphasize self-care nd i rlly like that ✨

4. mae ; other half of the og wives😩 mae is so strong :( like she may deal w the Biggest problems in her everyday life but is still? always being a sunshine :((((((( if only i could not cry as often abt deffo less traumatic experiences LFMODSF

5. aurora : my coldhearted mother that actually is super tsun :( she’s super blunt and straight to hte point like a very No Bullshit Zone w aurora which is scary but also admirable in terms of getting things to be done the way i want,,, i just gotta channel my inner aurora :””””)

6. one of my closest friends in school (bc my bff and i live like an hr away from each other :/) is my rIDE OR DIE nd my school bff!! ;; she deffo has like Everything in life stacked against her but she works so hard in school and like actual work which i could Never do nd it’s super inspiring for me to think about all she has to do keep up in life whereas i don’t have to and still complain abt stuff a lot ;;; SLDFJLSKJF wow im getting emo abt my friends rn tbh LAHAHHAHHA

7. idek if this is lameass but my mother is one of my best friends? LFMAOFOOA she and i spend one day a week together w/ just the two of us nd sometimes im like :/// abt it but ik she just wants the best for me by taking a break from school nd all that and like tbh i dont think i’ll be a mom when i’m older but she’s a gr8 mom and is prob the biggest reason for me to want to work w kids when im older :”””)

8. karen!!!! y’all prob alr kno how much i love karen :( i’ve honestly never met ANYBODY so nice like karen cares so much about people i really wanna be like her one day like :(((((((((((((( i’m really reserved honestly so i have a hard time approaching ppl but i love how karen wants to get to know ppl nd to make sure they’re doing well  ;;;

9. allison is like one of my longest mutuals ever ;;;;; nd like even tho allison seemingly denies my Love :( she’s one of my fav ppl ever ;;n;; she always helps me out bc im literally so dumb nd i want to be as accomplished n intelligent one day 😩

10. omfg i want to include like every mutual i’ve ever talked to like i probably have died from our convo but trUST ME LSKDJFLKSDF D IF WE”VE ACTUALLY TALKED THEN IM totally comfortable n feel close to u alr ;;; ✨💌😌💗💘💞💓💒like honestly i have such a hard time getting clsoe to ppl but the face that anyone approaches me makes me Greet w the openest of open arms,,,,

[prettylilparker]

Soph’s 200 Celebration

(ignore my sappiness if you want and skip down to the CELEBRATION)

you guys have no idea how utterly grateful i am for each and every single one of you like every single follower i have, i’ve looked at your blogs and smiled to myself at the idea of you (yeah u bitch) liking my posts and my writing?? like wow it’s insane to think that ppl actually like my shit.

i’ve only been here for a month and i’ve only gotten an overwhelming amount of love and support from this whole fandom and i’ve met some beautiful, sweet, caring people that i’m so glad i’ve been blessed enough to get to interact with them. i can’t believe i’d get this many followers (ik i’m still a small blog but it’s never been abt the numbers anyway) within only a damn month?!?! i’m speechless like who would wanna follow this annoying ass rat? but always let me get to the good stuff!!

SOPH’S 200 CELEBRATION (saturday, december 2nd @ 7pm est and sunday, december 3rd all day)

SEND ME ASKS LOVES (u can send them now!!!) about....

BLURBS OR HEADCANONS

send me an idea with someone from the sm:hoco characters (peter, mj, ned, flash, and liz r included!!), the sm:hoco cast (zendaya, jacob, laura, and tony), the holland bros and haz (tom, sam, harry, and haz), and even stranger things characters or cast!! 

these can be platonic or romantic!! just specify if it’s platonic or else i’ll just assume it’s romantic

MOODBOARDS

send me a character!! and an idea for a moodboard and if u want it in a specific color    ex. “peter parker study date, warm brown tones” (if colors get out of hand i’ll just choose black and white lmfao)

these can be personal or not!! (if personal, send me a pic of yourself in my messages or give me a brief description of your appearance so i can choose pics that kinda look like u or don’t and i’ll just make it basic ((((: ) 

SHIPS

i’ll give you a ship and a cute lil head canon of ur relationship/ a quick blurb of something between y’all! send a description of urself aka physical and some personal qualities/traits   ex. “i’m straight, i have long brown hair and brown eyes and i’m 5′2″ tall, i love dogs and i’m the mom friend in my group bc i’m super caring”

specify whether it’s for the holland bros and haz, the sm:hoco cast, the sm:hoco characters, or even ur own people for me to decide btwn    ex.”can i have a ship with either haz, jacob, or aunt may”

the more specific u r abt yourself the more i can write abt cute relationship stuff you guys do!! so say ur interests, ideal dates, etc!!

I’LL TALK ABT MY CRUSHES OR U CAN TALK ABT URS!!

self explanatory; send me an ask saying “talk abt ur crush(s)” “u have more than 1 crush? ur a hoe” (i have 3 atm cuz im indeed a hoe)

OR send me stuff abt urs and we’ll fawn over their cuteness or i can add on a story abt my own crush!!

RECOMMEND ME SONGS OR BOOKS OR MOVIES!!

all of u have amazing tastes so i’d really like some recommendations bc i love reading and watching and listening to stuff so yea boi just send me an ask

TALK ABT UR DAY!!

how was ur day love? i hope good, if not then rant to me!!

ASK ME RANDOM QUESTIONS

“what’s ur fav tea? what’s ur fav color? do u like gossip girl? what’s ur fav book? movie? what tv shows have you watched all the way through? which shows did u watch (but not all the seasons)?”

yes i will answer every single one i get!! i promise no matter how weird!!

DON’T LET THIS FLOP I’M SO EXCITED lmfao all my mutuals undercut that i love and hope can maybe join in my lil celebration and signal boost?? <3 (lol sorry if u don't wanna see this and i’m being hella annoying, just ignore bc ik a lot of u r wayyyy bigger blogs than me and i’m hella grateful u goddesses think i’m not complete trash)

@arachnid-kid @hufflepuffholland @tomsh0lland @ttholland @bittersweetholland @iamnesta @tbholland @petesparkes @stormyparker @heartbreakerholland @spee-iderman @cutehollands @tomsaloha @ohparkers @purelyparker @ur-not-tom-holland-tho @tom-holla @cuteparkers @nedslaptop @spideyparkerfilms @parkerbenpeter @httpsamholland @tohollandback @venusparker @heavenlytom @screamholland @five-foot-two-joanne @game-of-spidey-imagines @phobicpeter @snetersnarker @tomhollandxreader @buckylicious @parkersbabe @honeynutholland @dearcindymoon @zendmylife @hollandbaby @pillow223 (wow that’s longer than i thought it would be) once again, sorry if i’m being annoying by tagging u and completely feel free to ignore u goddesses

[herotheshiro]

i wanted to post this online somewhere but didn’t know where to put it (not really something to put on any of my IG accounts and if you stay w me for the rest of this post you’ll know why i didn’t put it on twitter) and i almost forgot tumblr existed and no one really uses it (i.e., my sibling doesn’t follow this account. was going to put this on my personal blog which my sibling also doesn’t follow but i feel like this blog is better in the end) so good place to put it and let me release my thoughts. [put it under cut bc it’s pretty long lol]

but basically one of the worst decisions i’ve made in the last half yr is become active on twitter. i made an account back in october to try to order some hipmaic merch from a proxy which ultimately failed and had unexpected personal blowbacks as well... that in itself should have already indicated the dumpster fire that twitter would become for me (from the bad vibes of that failure i mean) but unfortunately in the time before i knew the proxy was going to fail, i got absorbed into fandom twitter. for whatever reason i have this weird thing of wanting to become fandom famous or like fandom well-known, which i think is partially due to me wanting to be like my sibling who sort of became a recognizable name due to their fanworks in some of their fandoms in the past. i feel like i used to kind of have that kind of recognition back during the young deviantart days but since i don’t really produce/publish fanworks anymore, i’ve gotten to liveblogging/livetweeting as my attempts to fame. ik some ppl have succeeded off of that, based on some of the ppl i’ve followed for a number of fandoms in the past few years, so i thought i could do it too ... but alas as y’all know, the internet is a big place and it’s hard to get ppl to care abt your one voice. and ppl noticing you also sometimes happens in unwanted ways, like that whole thing i got stressed over re: a/3 which i think i blogged abt on this blog before ... i mean still not even 100% they were referring to me specifically w that vague tweetinig but i was stupidly anxious over dumb shit like that.

also, as everyone knows, once you really get into a fandom, there is always the absolute mess of “problematic” content/call-outs. sometimes it’s valid critiques of the series content, sometimes it’s over stupid ass petty inter-fan drama. and even if you’re not involved in the drama itself, it’s so tiring to have to witness all the passive aggressive (or sometimes outright aggressive) tweets ... esp in this current global pandemic situation where we’re already getting negative news re: our real lives. i’m writing up this post really in response to me reading through threads of ppl calling out the problematic ways hipmaic handles hip hop/black culture which is definitely valid and basically something i’ve always been aware of even when i first came into the fandom bc non-black iterations of hip hop culture (esp overseas) usually do not hit the mark .... even though i’ve been aware of all this shit, it’s so tiring to read through and then the guilt of still consuming the fandom even w its flaws (which is still something you can do as long as you acknowledge the flaws and problematic aspects. but it also depends on the series i suppose, like imo a/o/t is just shit that prob shouldn’t be consumed lol, which is also funny bc i used to consume it a long time ago but that was like way before the timeskip like when the anime first got released ... i mean this kind of opinion/perspective is fraught w so many asterisks so i’m not going to go into it further but hopefully you get what i mean even if you’re not hearing all of my personal footnotes)... like i don’t think i’m going to give up hipmaic yet, bc i still do enjoy some of its music and i do enjoy seeing character content, but adding twitter to my life was honestly a goddamn mistake. not only for that one case of anxiety re: a/3 but also just me purposely consuming fans’ content that i literally KNOW will piss me off but i still do anyways. it’s tiring to read some of the comments hipmaic fans say, and a few months ago i wanted to interact re: headcanons and stuff but now i’m like you know what. keep your frankly incorrect and inaccurate headcanons to yourself (partly sarcastic but you know when you read a thinkpiece and you respect them for voicing their opinion but it’s also “wrong” at the same time...).

like recently i’ve gotten to thinking to literally just blocking any twitter account that talks abt hyp mic and just restricting my twitter to non-fandom stuff or japanese twitter accounts where i don’t understand what stupid shit they’re saying (if any). and also let’s not get into what a time-suck scrolling through twitter has become for me ... i’m already depressed and completely unmotivated to do work, and twitter is just a major procrastination device to continue wrecking my academic and professional lives and productivity ... i don’t have the app, but i can still access it through safari so of course it’s still a stick in my wheel. i really need to follow what my sibling said and try to rarely go on it and if i do, just stick to my dash and don’t stray too far out (i.e., looking up shit in the search bar). tbh, IG and twitter are both huge time-wasters for me, and i seriously need to consider deleting social media in general or at least for a good chunk of time which is something i wanted to do literally 2 yrs ago but just never did ... ik some of my friends are relatively inactive on social media (they do have it but they just never post or anything) and i really really need to be like that. everything for me (like many ppl at this time i assume) is remote, and i know from past experience that i am VERY BAD at being productive when doing remote working. and having IG/twitter drains is definitely going to make that worse, especially since they’re already major distractors when i AM physically going to school/work. i feel like i’ve tried to cut cold-turkey before, but i usually never keep up the block for long ... it’s also due to a lack of motivation in general (this is a whole other monster of a topic that should be put on my personal blog LMAO) but i need to just try to cut things that i have some control over that could further contribute to my lack of productivity.

tl;dr

fandom twitter truly is a dumpster fire

twitter itself is helping ruin my life (not bc of anything happening on it but just its presence)

i am just purposely consuming bad news and shitty takes and making myself feel worse and i need to stop