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olde-scratch · 3 years

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So I watched LUCIDS 1-4 without any prior knowledge...

and here were my thoughts. I didn’t watch any backstory or anything so enjoy my suffering.

PART 1

“So what happens when the people inside of their dreams go to sleep?” They die

“What happens when we wake up? Do they go on living while we’re not there?” THEY DIE-

“Who are they anyway?” they’re faces that our brain catalogs and stores for later use, although it’s also arguable that every time we dream we go to an alternate reality and inhabit the body of another version of ourselves. Now, were you in a car accident and trapped underwater or-

Are they twins?

(Me tuning out to do something)

“-the squirrel in spongebob was your soulmate, making you a Sandy simp-”

Me, snapping back to the video: hold up-

[missed the part about the worksheet, realized it when i rewatched 10 mins later to make this post]

yall speakin gibberish idk what youre saying-

“I’m gonna go to bed.” bro it literally looks like morning-

“You should get some sleep you look terrible.” i get six hours of sleep a night minimum and i look worse than him shut up bro-

“jump into someone else’s dream” ah i know this con-

why they all got the same face-

haha funni meme

“--an interruptiion can create feedback and tear them apart.” Death. I long for thee.

Is that Karl Jacob’s jacket?

“a second grader” makes me think this is a different school system. [i was wrong? i think?]

“[get him to] eat your apple”

[in the dream sequence] weird dream, but ive had weirder. now, Why Pamper’s-

why does he suddenly have a knife-

“You put a filter on the Dreamscape feed?”

“Technically, you are seven years old.”

???????????

the second hand embarrassment is UGGGHHH

[reading the description] you mean like the guy who was knocked out for 2 minutes on a football field and woke to find he’d dreamt 17 years of his life? oh this shall be Fun

PART 2

[I check the description] “jasper cult” what the fu-

how many camp camp references can i make during this

Is the apple a reference to religion or does the creator just really ilke apples?

“meal.”

“meal?”

meal????

Wait why couldn’t that guy eat the apple? If he wanted it in the fruit bowl, wouldn’t there be a chance of the guy eating it anyways?? Why can’t the guy who brought the apple eat it?

well he’s Dead

[debating if I should read the backstory}

n a h h h h h -

Was he gonna feed the dead guy the apple or something? Why is he upset about the apple in this scene???

oooo the grownups are fightinnnngggg

Is he an antagonist?

HE WROTE A BOOK???

oh now i want food

ESTABLISH JUSTICE ENSURE DOMESTIC TRANQUILITYYYYYYYYYYYYY

“I watched all those aforementioned shows” what shows did i miss something what-

man why you gotta hate on her jane austen fanfic let her live bro

string theory! i can get behind that! sorta-

o no he found the memes-

BOY GOT KNOCKED OUT-

kim there’s people that are dying-

is SHE an antagonist?

quinn? calling himself jasper? u sure hes not just nonbinary? is this just a metaphor for transphobic parenting?

“He died... but somewhere, he grew up.” So is your plan to take a Quinn from a different universe and make him your own, thereby robbing another version of yourself from happiness? When does this ever go well?

Yknow most people, when they lose a kid,,,, kinda,,,,,,, dont go on a ceaseless quest to find another version of their kid that grew up without knowing that another version of his mother was invading other peoples’ dreams to find and kidnap him,,,,,,,, like aint u got a therapist-

“Once you get past the point of not knowing what’s real anymore, you realize it doesn’t matter.” Well, I Got Called Out-

PART 3

“you’re real, oliver.”

aRe yOu sUrE aBoUt tHaT-

“you’ve been infected by the anti-love parasite of Mandadon” the amatonormativity is strong

so anyways ive been infected since birth hbu-

“James Jasperson, creator of Japple” did you mean to Fancy Well-Educated Man in a Black Turtleneck? cause the only FWEMBT i allow near me is prof. hidgens

“are you winning?” says the capitalist

why did you rewind to see his face?? you have the same face????? is this just bc the creator doesnt like working with other people cause in that case same but???????

“it’s a bad idea. i’m not gonna do it.” we’ve all been there. and we’ve all done it.

looks like me trying to study. (i say, a person who has studied a total of five minutes throughout their entire life.)

your “Spartan trial” looks like a bunch of guys standing on a hill pretending to be something they’re not. Let The Man Bring His Snacks.

eat the apple.

is this your first existential crisis or something what a loser lets all point and laugh

“One of you should be spared, the other shall’nt.” did you mean shant or was that a choice-

yall gonna get called out for talking shut UP

“sorry if this is too personal, btw. are you okay?”

me, confused and half understanding what’s going on and also needing to sleep cause its almost one in the morning but wanting to finish what i can find of lucids which i only starting watching cause i saw an animatic of ranboo and dream w audio from it: i don’t know anymore

“i just want my life back... i was gonna get married-” AREN’T YOU LIKE SEVEN-

ay man if this is a sacrificial cult yall gotta get daniel-

UPDATE: I H A V E N O T F O U N D I T -

“oliver”

I F O U N D I T -

WHICH ONE IS QUINN?? WHO’S JASPER???? WHICH ONE IS BENJAMIN???? I THOUGH BENJAMIN WAS SEVEN BUT I THOUGHT HE WAS THE ONE GETTING MARRIED WHAT-

oliver. eat the apple.

“Can you still have memories even when you’re dreaming?” One time I woke up to my alarm and fell back asleep and in my dream I remembered that I had class in a few minutes and my dream self woke my real self up so fast I thought I was gonna get whiplash. Anyways, I was late to class bc of my computer but that doesn’t matter.

NOPE I FOUND IT. HERE’S THE AUDIO. THE ANIMATIC ONE. FINALLY.

im thinking car crash. but also maybe murder. but also maybe both? is it raining or was he drowning? is he in a coma? hmmmmmm?

wait olivers the one with the apple does that mean he’s the one dreaming? is the ending gonna be him and jasper (quinn? idk) fighting against ben and mrs hills about jasper eating the apple to save oliver from the dream? hmmmmmmmmmm-

waitwaitwait i thought oliver was 7 how is benjamin 7 years younger than him if they look the same age what what what explain america explain what you mean arkansaw-

are the cuts on his nose plot-relevant or

“What if you hadn’t been driving?” So I was right about the car accident but Mrs. Hills still said he was seven so did i mishear her say that BENJAMIN was seven? but even then oliver would be 14 and that would still be illegal-

“How are you feeling?”

“Like you’re a pretty bad therapist.”

mood

“--it makes it all bearable to have power over the stories we write in our heads” that’s why i write fanfiction

HE’S GOT THE NOTEBOOK HE’S GONNA WRITE SOMETHING ONE OF US ONE OF US ONE OF US

WHAT YOU MEAN AN EXPERIMENT THAT’S HIS NAME-

[upon reading the description] so i was right.

wait was that supposed to be the twist in part 2 about the apple in his pocket is that what the existential crisis was about i thought it was because he was introduced to the multiple worlds theory-

PART 4

wait wasnt the other one january 2018 why we going back to 2017-

appol

“--the future and the past all already exist” mhm yep figured this out long ago

there was simultaneously a point in time in which i hadn’t known about this, had been looking it up, had been watching it, and had been writing an ending to this post, and had been posting it the next morning before class. that time is both now and not now. Welcome To The Multiverse Theory or whatever its called-

“--my favorite scene of the movie is waking up next to you.” Mine is eating fast food as I listen to AJJ and play Minecraft. We are not the same.

Now I’m hungry but it’s 1 in the morning and i already put my retainer in god fu-

[reading description] what do you mean previously??? she did that in the first episode????????

[still on description] WHAT DO YOU MEAN WILL QUINN BITE THE APPLE AND GO TO BENJAMINS REALITY ISNT THIS OLIVERS REALITY AND HE HAS TO GET BEN TO BITE THE APPLE WHY IS APPLE CAPITALIZED IS THIS THE DOING OF THE FWEMBT

i should have watched the backstory i should have watched the backstory i should have watched the backstory i should have wa-

[description] oh ive been spelling quinn right the whole time nice

i hope she rejects you /j

WAIT BENJAMIN WAS THE ONE GETTING MARRIED TO ISABELLE

ISNT HE IN SECOND GRADE-

HE IS SEVEN YEARS OLD HOW IS HE GETTING MARRIED ARE THERE TWO BENJAMINS THAT WE’RE FOCUSING ON-

bro get out of the road ull get hit

how do you knOW WHICH ONE IS QUINN THEY ARE THE SAME PERSON-

wait

hills wants ben to feed quinn the apple bc in his mind, that will give hills and quinn a happy ending and she doesnt want ben to see the apple bc thats gonna mean ben will know that his reality isnt reality at all. so then oliver has to,,,, not let anyone eat his apple? he just has to wake up?

IS HILLS THE VILLAIN AFTER ALL ORRRRR

wait but if ben sees the apple wont he realize that his reality is wrong and his reality will change, making it so that hills doesnt get her son? or is there some time-based rule that says they’re only transported to the reality that the person believes at that moment? or is this another stab at the multiverse thing where an infinite amount of hills gets their happy endings while an infinite amount of hills doesnt and etc etc?

i should have watched the ba-

oooo dramatique

they’re in a time loop?

nope thats a new powerpoint

wait so theyre,,,, no-

wait-

nvm-

IS THE BEN WE KNOW AN ADULT GETTING MARRIED TO ISABELLE OR NOT-

“they were actually pretty nice” didnt they throw someone off a cliff-

oh so it got confusing THEN??? NOT BEFORE?????

“it all seemed so real.” is that Not the point of vivid REM sleep hallucinations-

is oliver gonna show ben the apple and ruin hills’ whole operation

WHO ARE ALEX AND RYAN-

“what’s 25-8″ bro dont do this to me-

yep hes gonna show the apple

ayyy the guy who stole karl jacobs jacket it back

the second hand embarrassment is back and I Hate It

all that happens in episode ONE??? bro get some better writers that is bad pacing

“it’s the best!” wait until season eight. no show has a good season eight.

quinn knows about the apple thing w the dreams and multiverse and realities dont he

YOU KILLED HIM

NOT KARL JACOBS NOOOOO HES ALREADY DIED ONCE

oliver is v relatable

wHaT iN tArNaTiOn-

lemme hear that explanaton again-

is bill cipher gonna show up? i hope bill cipher shows up. i miss gravity falls

“ah! a tree! ah! a tree! ah a tree!” moooooooood

did hills murder quinn

is your family the jasper cult

TOXXIICCCCCC get that lady out of your life quinn that is so toxic

“ ah! a tree! ah! a tree! ah a tree! ah! a tree! ah! a tree! ah a tree!” mooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooood

WHAT DO YOU MEAN THAT’S THE END NO WHAT WHY NO

The Adventures of Benjamin and Oliver

he is Not Good

ope-

wait so ben is equal parts an adult AND a child?? okay that clears a lot up

I MEAN HE WAS RIGHT THO BEN U CAN’T REALLY ARGUE ON THAT-

ew get off the floor

butterfly effect, multiverse theory, memory decay, and your imagination ALL exist yall gonna ignore that cause you wanna be famous?

“We already know what the future looks like!”

aRe yOu sUrE aBoUt tHaT-

to add to the list of bad things: Cats (2019)

YA BOI THINKS IT’S NOT ALREADY FIFTY YEARS TOO LATE TO START FIGHTING CLIMATE CHANGE FFFFF

BINGO BABYYYY

get what what

what mapped-

awwwww he thinks THEY’RE creating the multiverse

you gonna dismiss the multiverse theory bc of something you created in your current reality? loooserrrrrr

ABUSE YOUR GODLIKE POWERS

she draggin that seven year old

a lot makes sense now why didnt i do this first-

Jasper

the food shortages-

bro that calculators like 90 bucks at walmart

imagine meeting a stranger and they know Everything about your life like that’s gotta be so weird

what’s even weirder is them telling you you’re the deity of a cult that sacrifices animals

THAT FOURTH WALL BREAK WAS-

KARL JACOBS IS DEAD NOOOOOO

ooohhh there’s context for that

OOOOHHHH THERE’S CONTEXT FOR THIS TOOOO

w h a t -

W H A T -

Conclusion:

it’s 2 in the morning and i need sleep but hOOOOO MY GODS THAT WAS GOOD IS IT OVER OR NOT IDK ANYMORE IM TIRED THAT WAS CRAZY I HOPE QUINN AND JASPER GO ON TO BE VERY GOOD FRIENDS, AND I HOPE BENJAMIN AND OLIVER STAY VERY GOOD FRIENDS AND I HOPE HILLS FINDS A THERAPIST WAS A LITTLE CONFUSING BUT I ENJOYED IT

if i dream about apples im suing /j /lh

#lucids #nicholas podany #there's a metaphor in there somewhere #but im not gonna be the one to find it #i dont think i dreamed about apples #youre safe for now podany #for now #EDIT #I PUT 'something their not'#WRONG THERE #I HAVE NO EXCUSE #IM SORRY

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violasmirabiles · 3 years

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Rules: Answer 30 questions and tag 20 blogs you want to know better.

i got tagged by @ruskatuska which i somehow forgot to mention first jesus christ why am i like this

1. Name/Nicknames: ali

2. Gender: who tf knows

3. Star Sign: aries

4. Height: 160cm

5. Time: gonna be 1pm in a bit

6. Birthday: march 26 so yall still have time to get me presents

7. Favourite Band: pink floyd and wigwam are my go to bands to put here but really there are So Many

8. Favourite Solo Artist: also So Many but bowie and kate bush are safe choices

9. Song Stuck in My Head: rufus wainwright - cigarettes and chocolate milk

10. Last Movie: it chapter two

11. Last Show: uhh. god i dont know.

12. When I Created This Blog: late 2011. like late november, early december. i know it was before i saw paul mccartney in helsinki and that was on dec 12 2011

13. What I Post: whatever fandom shit im into at any given time, bands/artists/music i like, whatever pretty and or interesting and or funny catches my eye. just posted a selfie, i do some of those. some text posts. i do use this blog to vent and i do have a shit brain so yeah

14. Last Thing I Googled: the model of my vacuum cleaner so i could find the right kind of filters i need for it lol

15. Other Blogs: @ihmekukkavesi for my photography, @shineondoc for university hell with some stephen king peppered in there. but it like. its relevant

16. Do I get asks?: sometimes. not super often. but like, i dont reblog those ask memes very often and the one good update this piece of shit website ever did is the chat system so thats good

17. Why I Chose My URL: i mean i wanted something related to my name (it is, trust me), coulda been another species but this one can also be a sneaky reference to a character from a thing im into so . yeah lol. also aesthetic. i mean it looks cool. pretty.

18. Following: a lot of people, many of whom arent active anymore but i keep following them anyway because what if they come back one day

19. Followers: a little under 2300

20. Average Hours of Sleep: eight-ish so thats good

21. Lucky Number: dont really have one of those but if a number is even OR divisible by 5 its a good number. i like 12 more than 10

22. Instruments: i have a 20-year-old shitty electric piano my dad gave me when he needed room for a newer, better electric piano. only in my current place i dont really have enough room for it even though i need it to practice choir stuff independently and just like having it because sometimes i just like to fuck around with it yknow? not calling myself good cos im not im super out of practice cos ive never been diligent abt that sorta thing but i can accompany myself and thats enough. so i keep it under my bed, not the best place, and practice on the fucking floor. cant even use pedals that way and that sucks ass. one day i will move to a bigger apartment and set it up again. i also have a baby blue ukulele with a picture of jack nicholson as jack torrance doing his heres johnny face taped on it. i got it in 2019 from my brother and his girlfriend as a christmas gift and was doing my ba thesis at the time, which i think a lot of the people who follow me know was about the shining. also also i can play guitar and bass but am not excellent at either because i never practice either of those and have neither in my apartment. and i never practice the ukulele either so even though i know a few chords i fucking suck. maybe someday.

23. What I Am Wearing: black leggings. black shirt. one black sock and one white one

24. Dream Job: i want to be able to write in some capacity and get paid for it but thats all i know and if i think too hard on it ill work myself up and wont be able to sleep so im gonna leave it at that

25. Dream Trip: right now i just want to be able to visit my True Home Town which is not this piece of this place where i live and study and also happened to be born in

26. Favourite Food: yeah. not olives

27. Nationality: finnish

28. Favourite Song: feel like this woulda been more appropriate with the other music/art questions but hey whatever. also how the fuck am i supposed to have a favorite song when so many different gems exist. go listen to the musical box by genesis though it fucks me up every time i dont care what it does to you

29. Last Book I Read: still working on white noise by don delillo im fuckin slow i didnt use to be this slow

30. Top 3 fictional universes I would love to live in: the one where i can fucking FUNCTION, the one where i can Fucking Function and am also some sort of professional™ writer™ , and uhh. yeah idk

im gonna tag @panwriter, @appelssiini, @stokoetopia, @slip-sliding-away and @kukkahattumursu but no pressure or anything no ones gotta do this if they dont feel like it

#got tagged

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ninaahelvar · 5 years

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Chivalry Fell On Its Sword (9/23)

Summary: All Arya wanted so to feel normal and go outside of the damn castle. Now, through a series of unfortunate, she’s stuck with a bodyguard that she accidentally flirted with: Gendry Waters.

AO3

A/N: what? two chapters in one week! well one is a joke chapter, we get productive. i'm only here for the laughs. xx and i did promise slam poetry so,.......

10:31pm - Arya: So, what youre saying is that you were awkward cause you could see through my blanket?

10:32pm - Gendry: dude, your nipples were showing through it, it was a turn on and then because incredibly awkward when your fucking mum walked in.

10:32pm - Arya: and everything else?

10:32pm - Gendry: fucked up universe keeping us apart, sorry

10:33pm - Arya: awwww you’re so cute when you’re desperate

10:33pm - Gendry: i don’t think you’re allowed to complain when you fucking yell at me in a hallway begging me for an answer for something i wasn’t intentionally doing

10:33pm - Arya: i stand by my reaction

10:33pm - Gendry: ok then

10:33pm - Arya: alright

10:35pm - Arya: soooooooooooooo

10:35pm - Arya: you still in the palace?

10:37pm - Gendry: You’re seriously horny right now?

10:37pm - Arya: aren’t you

10:38pm - Gendry: literally always, but i’m still in my meeting

10:38pm - Arya: i’ll send you nudes to keep your spirits up

10:42pm - Gendry: pls for the love of the gods, don’t, cause my spirits won’t be the only thing that’s up

Arya chew on her lip as she read over his name. His apology. His casual confession of love. And she beamed.

10:43pm - Gendry: can i see you later?

10:43pm - Arya: yes

~~~~

Bran wheeled up to the stage, a few stares and whispers as one of the wheels caught on the last step. In the end, the manager of the club and a few bystanders had to help him. It wasn’t embarrassing, just a little awkward to have three grown men fondling his chair and not him.

He had invited Arya, who happened to bring along Gendry - funny how her security followed her absolutely everywhere, but Bran wasn’t. He thought it may have been some ableist crap, but when he saw Arya’s hand on his wrist as Bran edged towards the mic it was clear what the real reason was. Also the hickey on his neck was a dead give away.

Bran cleared his throat and Arya and Gendry stopped speaking. The open mic night was his idea. Bran had worked up this plan for a while, knowing full well he could get away with it - but now he was here, and only confidence and determination ran through him. Chaos wheeling - if you will. He took a breath, then spoke into the mic.

“I’m a theology major, I can take confession, even with this wheelchair condition. My legs stopped working when the car flipped, now it seems like I’m the one that’s dicked. I make light of the frame that holds me, even when it’s the thing that has made me lonely. I smile and wave, even when no one thinks I’m gay. The wheels tend to avert the eyes, even when I wanna talk to guys. I hear sympathy from women across the world, but I can still make your world whirl. I don’t wanna talk about how the chair feels or what kind of drink I want with my meal - I’m a grown ass man, a man that just can’t stand. I’m filled with love and wanting, and I’m a fun guy that deserves some flaunting. I’m a theology major, I can take confession. And yes, to answer your question, my dick does work, and I have a suggestion. Either mind your business, apologise for the transgression. Or date me, I can still fuck, no repression, in succession, with or without discretion.”

When everyone was roaring with laughter, and Bran was helped from the stage, he wheeled over to Arya and Gendry’s table. They were trying hard to catch their breaths, hands on the ribs as they tried to form sentences.

“Your highness,” Gendry started before promptly bursting into laughter, patting Bran on the shoulder as he wheezed out another laugh.

“What the fuck was that?”

“I wanted everyone to know that I still fuck.”

The pair looked at each other before banging their hands on the table, the entire venue a stream of laughter. It made Bran happy.

The next day, Robb texted the group an article.

TO GROUP ‘The Ghost Fan Club (Jon fuck off)’

9:40am - Robb: “Prince Bran does the worst, most inappropriate poem at an open mic night”

9:40am - Robb: What the fuck did you do?

9:41am - Arya:

9:41am - Rickon: YOU FUCKING DIDN’T!!!!

9:41am - Sansa: i thought you were joking!

9:42am - Bran: I’m single, and the people deserve to know that my dick still works

9:42am - Jon: He’s right

9:43am - Davos: PRINCE BRAN - YOU DID NOT SAY THIS IN FRONT OF PEOPLE

9:43am - Arya: he said, and a quote ‘to answer your question, my dick does work’

9:44am - Davos: I might actually have a heart attack

9:44am - Rickon: HE NEEDS SOME MILK

9:45am - Davos: i think this is it for today. I’m not angry, I’m just disappointed.

9:46am - Rickon: press f in the chat for a fallen brother

9:46am - Robb: oh...that’s cold davos

9:47am - Sansa: this year we lost our dear brother bran

9:47am - Bran: quit telling everyone i’m dead

9:48am - Sansa: sometimes i can still hear his voice

The Memes of the Royalest Kind @TheRoyalMemeFamily: The family portrait for the Stark siblings is FINALLY out!

@TheRoyalMemeFamily: they are dressed in traditional Winterfell garments - only the royals now wear them. And they stink.

RobbWinterfell: @TheRoyalMemeFamily how can this be a family portrait if i’m not there

TheRoyalMemeFamily: @RobbWinterfell ohhhhh…..you must be that imposter king. We know you’re related to the actor Richard Madden

Sansa Stark of Winterfell @PrincessSansa: also, the only reason Arya likes wearing this outfit is cause hers comes with a sword

@TheRoyalMemeFamily: @PrincessSansa can confirm this outfit was made for a child

@AryaStark: @TheRoyalMemeFamily @PrincessSansa still as sharp as a real sword

@wetbreadvevo: so...the fucking starks have been posting pics from their family photoshoot this entire time and no one has questioned it? What the fuck

3:14pm - Jon: hey, mate, you know Richard Madden in gonna be at this event night, right

3:15pm - Robb: fuck….are you serious?

3:16pm - Jon: yep, saw the guest list last night

3:17pm - Robb: *typing*

3:17pm - Jon: yes it’s too late to cancel

3:17pm - Robb: fuck

3:18pm - Robb: can we just avoid him the entire night?

3:18pm - Jon: I mean sure but it’ll be a bit rude

3:19pm - Robb: okay new plan, I’ll greet him at the event, but if you see anyone taking pictures, tackle them to the ground

3:19pm - Robb: I don’t need the girls finding photographic evidence that I’ve met him

3:20pm - Jon: you know that I know you’ve met him before right

3:20pm - Robb: yes...but the girls are gonna give me so much shit, especially if we look buddy-buddy in the photos

TO GROUP ‘The Ghost Fan Club (Jon fuck off)’

8:20am - Sansa: so

8:20am - Sansa: richard madden was at that even last night huh?

8:20am - Sansa: the fuck robb

8:21am - Robb: i’m very proud of my ability to ignore the man all evening

8:22am - Jon: he hid behind a plant at one stage

8:22am - Jon: yes, everyone noticed

8:23am - Bran: who’s the idiot now

8:24am - Arya: still you

8:25am - Bran:

The Memes of the Royalest Kind @TheRoyalMemeFamily: rare photo of Arya Stark growing up

TO GROUP ‘The Ghost Fan Club (Jon fuck off)’

2:11am - Bran: you guys

2:11am - Bran: anyone awake

2:12am - Arya: yes but i’m trying to sleep

2:13am - Bran: too late now fucknuts

2:14am - Bran: you ever think about davos hears the message alerts for this chat and just kinda….dies inside?

2:15am - Sansa: oh for sure

2:16am - Jon: I’ve seen his eyes close and pray for it

2:18am - Robb: once in a meeting, i swear i saw him almost throw his phone across the room cause you guys wouldn’t shut up and he doesn’t know how to mute his phone

2:20am - Rickon:

2:25am - Davos: i think this is how you kids say it

2:25am - Davos: mood

2:25am - Bran: DBIGIWEBGOUWR

2:25am - Arya: IUQWBIUBUIBUIBIUNOI

2:25am - Sansa: WTFFFFFFFFFFFF

2:25am - Jon: i’m fucking dreaming

2:25am - Rickon: I CAN’T BREATHE

2:25am - Robb: im

2:26am - Arya: WHAT IN THE WORLD IM LIVING

2:26am - Davos: go to bed

The Memes of the Royalest Kind @TheRoyalMemeFamily: a queen can party

@PrincessSansa: @TheRoyalMemeFamily we stan a legend

Mother of Dragons @QueenDany: @TheRoyalMemeFamily @PrincessSansa i seem to remember this was at least two bottles of wine in for you

@PrincessSansa: @QueenDany @TheRoyalMemeFamily pretty sure you were 4, but who was counting

@DailyMail: it’s highly inappropriate for a sitting monarch and other royal members to be out drinking and showcasing that online - read the article here

@QueenDany: @DailyMail

@PrincessSansa: @QueenDany @DailyMail

The Memes of the Royalest Kind@TheRoyalMemeFamily:Royal bodyguard spotted yet AGAIN with a different model

@TheRoyalMemeFamily: who is he

@PodrickPayne: @TheRoyalMemeFamily

Arya ‘Not Today’ Stark @AryaStark:

@JonSnow: @AryaStark 👀

@PrincessSansa: @AryaStark 👀

@RealBranStark: @AryaStark 👀

@RickonStark: @AryaStark 👀

@RobbWinterfell: @AryaStark 👀

@RickonStark:

@RickonStark: That’s it. That’s the tweet

8:29pm - Pod: so what youre saying is that i’m a chad?

8:29pm - Sansa: no a himbo is necessarily a chad

8:30pm - Pod: im more himbo than chad

8:31pm - Sansa: you can be a chad if you’re not a himbo but you can’t be a himbo if you’re not a chad

8:32pm - Gendry: you guys know this is the group chat right?

8:33pm - Sansa: now gendry is a chad

8:35pm - Gendry: low blow sansa

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saccharineomens · 4 years

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I want to know all the answers from your 100 question meme

Something you find romantic? Answer whichever #'s you feel comfortable answering; I want to know all your inner musings 😝

cat why do you do this to me

i’ll be sticking them below a readmore, then!

1. Is a kiss considered cheating? Yes! Unless you’ve communicated with your partner that it’s okay.

2. Have you ever faked an orgasm? Nope

3. If you could have one superpower, what would it be? Hmmm this is a really hard decision. I usually say telepathy, but I like shapeshifting, too. I loved the Animorphs books as a kid, even though I didn’t read them all.

4. Do you think you are going to be rich in 7-8-9 years? Monetarily? Nah. But I like to think I’ll still have strong, rich friendships and I think I’ll have enough money to live comfortably alone.

5. Tell us some funny drunk story. I just don’t really have one rip. Drunk people are hilarious but normally I’m the DD. I’ve got several pleasant stories, though! There was a time me and my best friend went to a pub and drank cider and played board games and video games until closing time. Afterwards we stopped at an Insomnia cookies, a storm caused the electricity to go out, and we got a half dozen cookies for free. (well, I felt guilty, so I left them a very large tip.)

6. Why are you no longer together with your ex? I was going through college, it was long distance, and I felt he deserved better. We keep in touch, though.

7. If you had to choose one way to die, what would it be? Well, painlessly, of old age, in my sleep, of course. But if that’s not an option, out of all the ways of dying, freezing to death seems the most humane. You just get tired, cold, and sleepy, and then you just...don’t wake up.

8. What are your current goals? Graduate, mostly. Long-term I’d like to live with friends in a big house and my cat, and have enough free time to garden and craft at my leisure, and have the ability to travel wherever I’d like. I’d like to work on a game or movie I’m really passionate about, and I’d love to become a director someday.

9. Do you like someone? I mean, I like a lot of people, but I assume this means romantically. So, kind of? I find a lot of people attractive and have a ‘if they wanted to date I’d be down’ feeling, but I don’t have serious feelings for anybody specific.

10. Who was the last person to disappoint you? Hmmm I have a terrible memory. Myself, perhaps? I have a really hard time with getting up when my alarms go off. Sleep inertia’s a big problem for me. This has led to me being late to classes and rushing to get ready, which is stressful.

11. Do you like your body? Ehhhh. I guess. It could be improved, like by not having health issues.

12. Can you keep a diet? Ha! No.

13. If the whole world listened to you right now, what would you say? I hope you have a wonderful day. The universe doesn’t care about us so be excellent to each other!

14. Do you work? Constantly, every day. I work to learn new things, accomplish school assignments, make money, feed myself...All my life is is working, right now.

15. If you could choose only one food to eat to the rest of your life, what would it be? Salad! Because anything can be a salad. Tuna salad, fruit salad, salad with salmon...

16. Would you get a tattoo? Oh, absolutely. The only reason I don’t have any is because of money. I have like five small ideas and one very large one that i’d like across my back.

17. Something you don’t mind spending all your money on? Food, my family, and my friends.

18. Can you drive? Yes. Do I have a license? No.

19. When was the last time someone told you you were beautiful? Probably sometime in the past month by my mother, but she’s just about the only person who does.

20. What was the last thing you cried for? asdfjal;ksdjfs it was Treasure Planet. Jim and Silver’s relationship is just [clutches chest] so beautiful.

21. Do you keep a journal? Sort of, sporadically.

22. Is life fun? Yes!

23. Is farting in front of people irrelevant? I mean, I prefer you excuse yourself, but more or less yeah.

24. What’s your dream car? My sib got this really nice Prius used at a good price, and it has a lot of room and it’s a hybrid, so Nice. I don’t tend to pay much attention to cars, as long as they’re comfortable and low-waste.

25. Are grades in school important? I admit that they’re important to me, but that’s something I have to unlearn. My worth isn’t determined by other people.

26. Describe your crush. Ugh. I’m bi, guys. I get crushes on people all the time, every day. Saw this really pretty redhead in the cafeteria over a month ago, and I saw her again yesterday. She’s a couple inches taller than me and has really pretty curly hair, but I didn’t really, like, stare, so I couldn’t describe her face well past ‘cute nose’.

27. What was the last book/movie that really impressed you? Nothing jumps to mind. I guess I’m still falling over myself after seeing Mad Max back in like 2015, that was just the coolest experience ever. I find delight in just about every movie I watch, though. The second Jumanji-sequels movie was just as fun and amazing as the first. Klaus was just incredible in so many ways.

28. What was your last lie? I...really just do not remember. Probably telling myself “I’m gonna do my laundry today” a few days ago? Whereas I DID do my laundry today so HA

29. Dumbest lie you ever told? I saved this question for last and it’s late and I honestly can’t remember anything, asdjls sorry. My memory’s awful y’all.

30. Is crying in front of people embarrassing? Oh absolutely. I mean it wouldn’t be if they weren’t uncomfortable with it, but they always are.

31. Something you did and you are proud of? I did my laundry today? washed dried folded and everything. I also braved the nighttime neighborhood around my school to solo a Pokemon raid, which was cool. I’m proud of my animation done at the end of the last semester, and of how my teddy bear modelling is doing this week.

32. What’s your favourite cocktail? How am I supposed to choose this? How can you ask me to choose this? I’d have to line them all up and try one by one, honestly, before I could tell you.

33. Something you are good at? I’m pretty good at drawing anatomy and expressions, I think. I’m good at baking/cooking, although I lack creativity in the kitchen. I also think I’m a pretty good listener, and a good friend?

34. Do you like small kids? Most of the time!

35. How are you feeling right now? Frankly, a little drained with all these questions, but determined to finish them. I’m a little hungry. I’ve got a lot on my mind, and wish I was doing homework, but I also can’t get myself to do it right now.

36. What would you name your daughter/son? Not sure! Every once in a while I’ll be like “ooh, that’d be a great name” and then don’t remember to write it down. Besides, I plan on adopting, and most kiddos already have names.

37. What do you need to be happy? Money, friends, family, good food, and a place to explore.

38. Is there some you want to punch in the face right now? Not particularly. No one other than, well. The rich people I’m pretty sure everyone knows I dislike.

39. What was the last gift you received? Well, anything my mom cooks for me is a gift, but the last Proper gift was from my friend @ wefflebugs , who got me a blu-ray copy of Into the Spiderverse and some coffee for Christmas c:

40. What was the last gift you gave? I gave my sibling @ aconfusedbird a keychain of one of the two Bubble Bobble dragons and kept the other for myself, for their birthday. Handmade from Perler beads. We’d play that game for ages as kids, and we always fought over who’d be the blue one.

41. What was the last concert you went to? I think it was The Shins? They were so awesome!

42. Favourite place to shop at? Well, I quite like Target. But I also adore small resale shops. They always have some really awesome things hiding there.

43. Who inspires you? Oogh, a lot of people. Like a million and a half artists I’ve met online, ones I only know their screenname for, inspire me to get better at art. James Baxter and Sergio Pablos inspire me to get better at animation. Wefflebugs’ art always has such lovely colors, which I adore. featherdragon15′s art has gotten a lot better lately, and that inspires me to keep working hard too! Not to mention they’re working for nasa which is rad af, and also inspires me to keep working toward my dreams. My sibling aconfusedbird inspires me a Lot in a lot of personal ways, like to be more kind to myself and to keep moving forward. My mom inspires me to keep gardening. roachpatrol/roach-works inspired me to get into welding, lizardlicks inspired me into wanting chickens and a small homestead. My teachers inspire me to keep working hard in school.

44. How old were you when you first got drunk? 19, I think? I’ve only gotten properly drunk once. I don’t think I’ll ever be able to eat another boiled peanut, but other than that it wasn’t a problem lol.

45. How old were you when you first got high? I haven’t, actually. I don’t have a reason not to or anything, but it’s just never felt like the right vibe yanno?

46. How old were you when you first had sex? I guess it really depends on your definition. Personally, I’d say I haven’t yet.

47. When was your first kiss? Well, I played spin the bottle when I was seventeen, which was technically my first kiss, but if that doesn’t count then it was about a week before I turned eighteen, and I kissed the guy who’d become my first boyfriend.

48. Something you want to do until the end of this year? Play video games....I wish I had infinite time to play video games and watch movies and draw and just...enjoy my time on earth, you know? Without feeling like it had a deadline.

49. Is there something in the past you wish you hadn’t done? I try not to live with regrets.

(50 is ‘post a selfie’ but im on a computer)

51. Who are you most comfortable around? Either aconfusedbird or featherdragon15, i think.

52. Name one thing that terrifies you. asdkfjal;sdf i’ve been listening to too much magnus archives and got recommended to ‘not be too scared of one thing’ if i want to avoid the creatures, so uh. hard to decide. I guess I’m scared of...hm. people who just lack the ability to create bonds with people? people who don’t care about other living things. humans can be fucking terrifying.

53. What kind of books do you read? Oh, just about anything. Fantasy, realistic fiction, romance, mysteries, thrillers, scifi...all are great. I didn’t used to enjoy nonfiction but it really depends on the nonfiction.

54. What would you tell your 12 year old self? You’re going to have a best friend someday, and it will be everything you wanted. Things with your mother will improve when you’re in your last few years of high school. You’re going to become a great artist.

55. What is your favourite flower? Not sure! I like many. There was this one flower i found in high school that smelled incredible, but I’ve no idea what it was. I should find it again.

56. Any bad habits you have? ...Well. Not waking up when my alarm goes off is pretty annoying. My procrastination in general’s frustrating. And, well, just between you, me, and the rest of the internet, (tw: self harm) my trichotillomania causes me constant distress and anxiety.

57. What kind of people are you attracted to? People who want to learn new things, are kind and compassionate, respect me, and have a good sense of humor. Someone I can be adventurous with.

58. What was the last thing you cried for? Well, i answered a similar question earlier, so I’ll answer for the second most recent time I cried. I was in Pennsylvania, the day I had to fly home, and when I went to check in for my flight, all the seats were taken, and I needed to pay for an upgrade if I wanted to guarantee a spot on the flight. This wouldn’t be a huge problem, except that for both of my flights to get home, an upgrade cost $70. And seventy dollars was a big chunk out of my budget for, you know, food. So I cried out of stress and frustration with the airport companies for charging me seventy bucks for ten more inches of legroom that I didn’t want nor need.

59. Is there something you don’t eat? Some food that truly disgust you? Not really! In terms of what’s normally accepted as “food” in American society, that is. I don’t care much for worms or insects. Other than that, I’m interested enough to try almost anything once.

60. Are you in love? In love? No. Am I full of love? Yes, for many, many, many things.

61. Something you find romantic? Oh man, anything could be romantic if done by someone I care for. I think gentleness is romantic. Quality time is my love language, so if my partner cancelled plans to spend time with me, that’d be romantic. I find romance in trying new things and going to new places.

62. How long was your longest relationship? Four months or so. It’s the only relationship I’ve been in, though, and I hadn’t intended for it to go past summer, so that was longer than I’d even planned on haha.

63, 64. What are 3 things that irritate you about the same sex? Opposite sex? Uhhh kind of hard to answer this one. I mean, i hate the culture in which men are raised to be, but I’ve heard that ‘male’ and ‘female’ brains aren’t particularly predisposed to anything in particular? Like, both men and women are capable of emotional intelligence and compassion, it’s just that our culture doesn’t encourage it in men.

65. What are you saving money for? Food, college. I might treat myself to a school trip to Disney, but I don’t think I have the budget rn. As a student I’m kind of coasting by on the bare minimum rn, I don’t have anything i CAN save up for.

66. How would you describe your bad side? I mostly just avoid you or try to not spend time with you.

67. Are you actually a good person? Why? I think I am. I care about other people and try to make other people’s lives easier and happier. I try every day to become more sensitive to other perspectives. I do what I can to benefit the earth for those who will come after me.

68. What are you living for? Ooh, deep stuff. I’m living for helping other people. I’m living for my friends and family.

69 (nice). Have you ever done anything illegal? Pfft, guys, jaywalking is illegal. So yes. I’ve also drank while underage before. But nothing really big, no.

70. Do you like your body? Wait a second. This was number 11, too. Well, I guess I’ll change it to What don’t you like about your body? Which is my under-chin. It’s kind of a double chin, kind of not. But while most things I could change about my body, I don’t think I could change that without surgery. And yeah, I’ve thought about it. Not that I have any of the cash for it. I also wish I didn’t have (tw: self-harm) trichotillomania, so I’d have more eyelashes and eyebrows.

71. Have you ever made someone feel bad about themselves intentionally? I think I probably have, to douchebags. Like “hey, that’s inappropriate”.

72. Ever sent nudes? Nope!

73. Have you ever cheated on someone? God, no. Big #1 no no for me.

74. Favourite candy? I RECENTLY DISCOVERED TAKE 5′S AND REESES HAVE COMBINED INTO ONE GLORIOUS CANDY BAR, SO, THAT.

75. Is there a blog you visit every day, or almost every day? Tag it! Agh, okay. @ aconfusedbird, @ busket, @ loreweaver-universe, @ orange-plum. The four blogs I don’t actually follow, but whose blogs I visit every day. It changes around every few years. It used to be a different bunch back when I first got on tumblr. I really have no idea why I haven’t followed them. Habit, I suppose? Also, it still won’t let me tag my sib for some reason. (nvm I removed the tags, i don’t want to bother them)

76. Do you play any computer games? What is your favourite game? lmao uh, that’s kind of an understatement. I can’t list all my favorite games, but I’m very fond of The Last of Us. I have played. So many video games. I’ll chat about them anytime!

77. Favourite TV series? Avatar: The Last Airbender, I think. It’s really hard to top that.

78. Are you religious? Does God exist? Not really religious, no. I do think that there’s probably a god out there that sparked the Big Bang. I don’t really follow the Christian God because despite what every church service said, I never felt like He loved me. Jesus was a super cool guy, though. If there’s a god out there, I think they pretty much keep to themselves. Maybe have some fun watching creation, but don’t really interact with it at all.

79. What was the last book you read? Did it impress you and why? asdkfj;as i don’t remember. probably my textbook Directing the Story by Francis Glebas? It was a pretty cool book about moviemaking.

80. What do you think about vegetarianism/veganism? I’ve reblogged a lot on the subject. I respect those who practice it, but it can cause a lot of environmental harm. In theory, it’s not bad!

81. How long have you been on Tumblr? Like eight years or so? Maybe nine? wild. I visited blogs daily before the number got high enough i was like ‘okay i’ll just make an account’.

82. Do you like Chinese food? Oh, yes!

83-85. McDonalds or Subway? Vodka or whiskey? Alcohol or drugs? Subway, whiskey and alcohol.

86. Ever been out of your province/state/country? Yes, yes, and no!

87. Meaning behind your blog name? I’ve had this one for many years now. I really like the word ‘saccharine’ -- inspired by @ saccharinesylph back in the old days -- and i couldn’t just name myself ‘saccharine’, so i needed something else. and I was pretty big into Good Omens at that time, and I was like ‘haha! saccharine, good, omens. saccharine omens!’ Plus, it feels like a very positive and comforting name, and I strive to be a comforting person.

88. What are you scared of? ok i def answered this moving on

89. Last time you were insulted? uhhhhhhhhh no idea. oh, wait! i know. i was getting graded on my performance at my job late last year and i disagreed with the grade my boss gave me. It was like ‘person shows considerable care of their community and goes above and beyond to educate others’ and i was like ‘oh yeah that’s, like, my whole Thing, my whole Goals and Personality and Ideals’ and then my boss came in and was like ‘2/4′ and i was like ‘wtf??’ Apparently she felt that i just wasn’t really applying that part of myself to my job, and i was like ‘you serious? i’m doing a lot!’ but also she’s my boss.

90. Most traumatic experience? A series of emotionally/mentally abusive things my mom did during my childhood. It’s definitely had the longest lasting effects of any trauma. Permanent anxiety problems, ptsd, my self harm, the whole shebang. Don’t worry, though, like. Things are way better between us, and she’s apologized many times.

91. Perfect date idea? Going on a hike! Maybe walking on a beach. Just spending time together and talking. Eating some delicious food. Spending the entire day with each other, then curling up and cuddling at home and watching a movie. then talking some more. lots of handholding and kisses. im a super hopeless romantic.

92. Favourite app on your phone? the internet, ofc lmao. But other than that I use Animal Crossing Pocket Camp and Pokemon Go an awful lot.

93. What colour are the walls in your room? At school a boring white, although I’ve taped some art up. At home a really pretty light blue color that I did all myself.

94. Do you watch Youtube? Who is your favourite youtuber? I do! And I like so many channels, honestly. I really like Rachel and Jun, and I really like Pop Culture Detective. I’ve seen a lot of jackscepticeye’s stuff, too. Proko, Vox, and Sinix Design are all good too.

95. Share your favourite quote. “Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who matter don’t mind and those who mind don’t matter.” -Dr Seuss

96. What is the meaning of life? To be happy, enjoy yourself, and love others!

97. Do you like horror movies? Ha ha ha, not really. I liked A Quiet Place though.

98. Have you ever made your mum cry? What happened? She’s cried sometimes over how she treated us in the past. Sometimes it happens because I talk about how she’s hurt me. She always expresses regret and apologizes again.

99. Do you feel lucky or special in a way? I feel lucky with how I met my best friend. We’d had band together and kind of both thought each other as a cool person, but we didn’t really hit it off until a couple years later and she saw me drawing Homestuck fanart in Psychology lmao. The rest is history. Love you so much, Haley. I feel lucky my mom realized she was being abusive and stopped, too. Not everyone gets that.

100. Can you keep a secret? Oh, definitely. But do tell me what needs to be secret, otherwise I won’t know. For example, my sib asked me to keep their gf busy while they bought her a present, so I tried, but then she was like ‘oh, where’s your sibling? we should find them’ i was like ‘oh no, i think they’re just buying something, it’s fine’ but she was stubbornly moving toward the checkout and i was like ‘stop, i think they’re buying something for you’ so i. kinda told a secret? i didn’t tell her what the present was though.

JESUS THAT WAS A LOT OF TYPING, LMAO. IT’S THREE AM. GOODNIGHT

#axbox #omishu #about me

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des-det-fo · 5 years

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Hehe i really like this kind of tag games

Nickname: Desd and Sa with friends (which is short for Sara... but like... super short)

Height: Around 150? Maybe 153? Yeah I'm short

Time: 2:09 am

Favourite song/band: Pink Floyd definitely. As for my favourite song, probably Time or Wish you were here (big emotional sorry) I also really like The Beatles (Strawberry fields forever is 👌)

Song stuck in my head: as of now, Everybody loves me (I KNOW but it's just because of an animation I saw and i couldn't stop watching it.. it was so good). Other songs that were stuck in my head for days were Two Time by Jack St(etc..surname that i can't write) or Blonde Hair/Black Lungs by Sorority Noise

Last movie I watched: Hmm i never really watch movies, it probably was Midnight in paris or, if it counts, i watched some episodes of The chilling adventures of Sabrina

Last thing i googled: This game because i can't remember all the things i have to say haha (before that the translation of an italian word because I'm stupid and i couldn't remember how Pronome (pronoun) was written in English)

Other blogs: Well there's my main @/desdetfo or also @/positive-inazuma-doodles but nobody is requesting anything soo i guess I won't really post anything until someone needs a doodle

Do i get asks: Hmm not really, unless i make an ask game or ask people to request some doodles (ask me... stuff if you want.... i love talking..). I got some asks about my url around the time the Alexa meme went viral (some people said my name reminded them of despacito)

Why did I choose this url: Desdetfo is a word in my dialect and this is my ina sideblog so i added the -

Following: how do u see that... sorry im dumb i can't find where i can see the following count

Dream trips: THE NETHERLANDS (big childhood dream), Ireland again (Dublin is... so good), London. Oh and many Italian cities

Favourite food: Pasta with fish ragù (lmao that word sounds so wrong in an english sentence) and Pistachios. Dark chocolate also gets lots of uwus

Instruments: Hmm i can play the guitar, bass, ukulele and like.. 1/2 serious songs in the piano (string instruments are the BEST ). Well the plastic middle school flute too if it counts haha. I really want to learn to play the Sax or some smaller instruments like the Ocarina or the Lire (I wish i could find some cheap ones but life is hard 😯😯) sorry I'm a big music nerd

Hair Colour: Dark brown

Languages: Italian and English, i did French in middle school but I remember like.. 3 words (sorry Mar)

Most iconic song: I want to break free was a big song in my life hehe, also apparently my father used to sing me Asereje as a lullaby so uh yea (i dont even like it but it's just a big icon)

Random fact: Uh i can move my left foot's pinky alone??? Random fact are always weird haha. I also have super small hands which is unfortunate because playing the bass is hard ⬇⬇

Zodiac: Sagittarius as my sun sign, Pisces as the moon sign

Favourite fruit: Pistachios, peaches and Bananas

Seasons: Late spring is... the best... not too warm, not too cold. You can wear a skirt and something light to cover your shoulders. Perfect season to be honest. And Late summer too is very nice!

Scent: Scented candles, perfumes, fresh and washed clothes, bonfire, oh and hospitals (i hate it... but i like it... its somehow nostalgic)

Colour: Green, Pink and yellow! Big love (orange too sometimes!!)

Animals: Froggies, snakes or cats. Turtles too sometimes?

Coffee, tea or hot cocoa: Coffee usually, Tea in the afternoon

Average hours of sleep: 7? 8? If i could i would sleep more. How do yall sleep so little time... i could sleep for the whole day lmao

Favourite fictional characters: well you already knoe my favourites from inazuma (i made that 11 favourites post). I really like Amalia from wakfu (hmm sometimes i also hate her... but I love her.. aah), the WKTD worst girls since Eve (Jupiter is a big fave and relatable gal), Dave Strider and Jake English from Homestuck (tho Tavros, Dirk, John and Jane are some of my favourites too) and uh Finn and FP from adventure time

Year in which this blog was made: 2018? Around May

Hogwarts house: I'm not a big Harry Potter fan but my friends made me do the test and I got Hufflepuff! Funky yellow kids are cool

Favourite artists: Mar and Toca's cartoonish styles are my favourites, (@/hidadeis and @/jounetsulovers), @/pir8, @/kirigirikin from instagram and @/narutosmom from instagram.

Whew that was long!! Thank you @inazumafocus for tagging me!

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whipped-for-kpop-fics · 6 years

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A message to Protection Squad readers

This was originally going to be posted after part 15 but I feel like I shouldn’t wait to post is so just ignore me talking as if the story is over already thank you

To everyone that has been on this journey with me, thank you so much. I really do love and appreciate you all more than you realise. I never thought this little series would get ANY love let alone the amount it has and I thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading/liking/reblogging/commenting.

I found that part 13 gained a lot of response due to the issues mentioned and portrayal of those issues and how real it was. I don't know if I should be happy about that or not because that tells me a lot of people have been in that place(if not taking it as far as to try to end it permanently like Y/N did but certainly experienced such pain as she did) and can understand on a personal and deep level how she felt, how feeling numb is often worse than the pain. I wish that none of you had to ever feel this way because I know how much it hurts, how it destroys you and takes away everything even slightly resembling something good and blows the bad out of proportion.

I hope that if nothing else, the character of Y/N has shown you that your feelings are not invalid, it is perfectly normal to have bad days and to wish things are better. But, you should always seek help if you need it. I know I'm a hypocrite for saying such a thing but please please please, go to a doctor, talk to your family, your friends, a random stranger on the internet who wishes you nothing but good things in life(I'm talking about me here yes hello I am random stranger). The last thing you want is to keep it to yourself, especially if you yourself are ignoring the problem(s) and acting as if everything okay. Because I can tell you right now from personal experience that it will one day come back with more strength and malice than it originally held, it'll be too late to just talk about it and chances are, you may not be able to handle the pain it brings.

My whole point here is that I am here for you all. Please, talk to me if you need to, I'll leave my Kakao ID at the bottom for anyone that wants it and you don't even have to make small talk(because im shit at it anyway and a terrible conversationalist when it comes to fucking small talk) just legit be like "Hi Chee so today this grade A fuckwit from school said such and such and it really got to me and I just wanna talk" or "I saw a thing online and it got to me for various reasons and I just need someone right now" or if you just want some to talk to I’ll do that. "Here is a dumb picture of a cat that made me laugh and I wanted to share it with someone" (please do this one I love animals doing dumb shit pictures/gifs/memes)

I have already said this multiple times in response to asks and such but I really do understand more than you realise the issues Y/N has because she is heavily based on me. This story started because I was having an especially bad day and as writing is a good coping mechanism for me already, writing how I'd like to deal with my issues (chapter 1, the animal therapy) really helped. The beginning paragraphs of part 1 stating how Y/N has been struggling for like 8 years(i can't remember how long I wrote) and how she's settled for something she's not even sure is real happiness, that is 100% me. I've been struggling with depression since I was like 14(i think) and I'm 22 now and anxiety? fuck, I've had that my whole life but didn't know what it even was until I was like 18/19, I had always just been “shy”.

So trust me when I say, I understand so fucking much and I want nothing more than to prevent people getting to the same feeling of hopelessness I've had to face many times over the past I don't know how many years.

I love you and you deserve happiness I hope you seek the help you need when you need it, even if you don't necessarily want it

You all deserve to feel like you belong, like you'll always have a friend and I'd be honoured to show you as much, if only you'd give me the chance

Now back to what this note originally started as; a thank you. Thank you so much for reading my little story, I can't thank you all enough. I've loved reading how much you've all enjoyed it and I hope I can continue to see you all on future stories.

Just because Protection Squad has ended, don't feel as if you have to stop sending in asks for whatever reason.

I feel like there may be some unanswered questions even now that part 15 is up because I'm easily distracted so probably forgot to put in the information I was supposed to or I simply felt like putting it in would've been messy or just wrong to the flow of the story. So if you do have any questions regarding Protection Squad(or any story or just anything really idc) don't be shy to send them in!

For the final time, thank you so so so much for reading Protection Squad and I love you all ~Chee

And for anyone who needs/wants it to talk or whatever, as promised, my Kakao ID is Chee95

#protection squad #cheemiwriteskpop #admin chee #thank you so much

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all-ringils-blazing · 6 years

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I WAS TAGGED IN 2 TAG GAMES SO IM GONNA ANSWER IN 1 POST FOR ECONOMY GUYS, WE LIVE THROUGH DIFFICULT TIMES. WHY AM I SCREAMING?

1- 20 questions

Answer 20 and tag 20 people you want to know better

Tagged by @lovefrombeelzebub666

Thank you once again, mate !!! ❤

Name: Louiza

Nicknames: Loutsos (the main one), Lou, Loulou, Boss

Gender: Female

Orientation: Straight I guess

Nationality: Greek

Faith/Religion: I was baptized as a Christian Orthodox but, as long as my mom and her family is Christian Catholic, I can say I live both as an Orthodox and Catholic. And about faith, yes I really believe in God.

Hobbies: Listening to music, eating, sleeping, walking, playing the guitar, cooking (even if I am not the best chef but at least you are not gonna die of food poisoning I guess xD)

Pets: A dog aka my baby, my boy, my sunshine, my world, my whole life, my heart and soul, my moon and stars, my Leo 💕💕💕

Favorite Color(s): Red, Black, Purple

Favorite Holiday: Chriiiiiiiiiistmas

Books: The Silmarillion and the Witcher books I’m reading lately with Sword of Destiny being my top until now cause it’s where we met my Ciri 😭💕

Movies: The Lord of The Rings, The Hobbit, Harry Potter, Indiana Jones etc.

Tv shows: I haven’t watched anything for years but I’m living for the last season of Game of Thrones.

Music: Oh man the bands/artists I adore are too many but I always loved Queen and Judas Priest a little more.

Coffee, Tea or Hot Chocolate: Coffee, always coffee !!!!! ☕💕

Favorite meme:

I want to live long enough to: Have a job I love and earn a big amount of money, live on my own in the house of my dreams, raise my dog child, travel the world alone or with close friends, be a decent guitarist.

Weird Obsessions: I don’t even know if it is supposed to be called “weird” but I die for tahini, you know, that sesame cream thing. I eat it every day for breakfast as a spread on bread. I just mention it ‘cause most of the people I know hate it so much can you tell me W H Y ?! x’D

Random Fact: I never sleep without a cover. Even with 40 degrees, I always must keep my body covered with a sheet.

Goals for 2018: Pass my classes and .... be happy?

2- Get to know me tag

Tagged by @vampearlgrey and @silenthorrorfilm

Thanks thanks thanks thanks bros !!! 💕

Rules: Answer 30 questions then tag 20 blogs you’d like to know better

Nickname: ↑

Gender: Female

Zodiac: Scorpio

Height: Around 1.72-1.73 ????

Age: 22

Time: 12:39

Favorite Bands/Solo Artists: Shit not again !!! ↑

Song stuck in my head: Storytime by Nightwish and the atmospheric theme from The Elder Scrolls IV: Oblivion - Minstrel's Lament

Last movie I saw: The Shining

Last thing I googled: Something about a youtube channel I’m following

Other blogs: None

Do I get asks: Yeah every never

Why I chose my username: It’s a combination of Judas Priest and my fav Silmarillion character. Basically his sword.

Following: People I share the same interests with.

Average amount of sleep: Now it’s around 8. When I have classes, it’s 5-6.

Lucky number: I don’t think I have one.

What am I wearing: Oversized blue t-shirt (my brother’s), black shorts.

Dream job: Maybe something around the renewable sources of energy which is the closest to the major I’m stuDYING, or electronics who knows. But I would really love something with music, like having my own rock/blues/jazz bar (hahahaha......yeah, dream job right?) or a radio station or playing in a band but not a famous band touring around the world like Metallica or something, I mean a small local band that plays in bars, or maybe a sound engineer which is close to my major too, I mean something with music but not soooo into music, you get me right? x’D I don’t know, dream job.

Dream trip: I R E L A N D 😭😭😭😭😭 !!!!!!!! If you’re reading this and live in Ireland, call me ;D 💕

Favorite food: Pasta with tomato sauce 💕

Play an instrument: Still need a lot of practice but let’s say I play the guitar.

Favorite song: Don’t you know it’s illegal to ask people about 1 favourite song? Be careful next time .... (But The Show Must Go On by Queen Means a lot to me)

Play(ed) any sport: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA NNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNEVER !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I only loved to play football at school sometimes.

Hair color: My natural is light brown but I have it dyed black since my 15 years.

Eye color: Light brown

Describe yourself as an aesthetic: Rainy night, a blues bar, low lights, abandoned beer glasses on the tables, a live band plays slow, emotional songs, whispers and laughters from the still reserved tables (wow deep)

Random fact: I don’t think I have something else to share right now. ↑

My Tags: @rosenazair @maerda @holographicsneakers @emperor-draygon @mercuryhymn @the-music-dork @angelusxardere @goodbyetogravity @arnoediad @murasakihime @ace-bi-says-hi @space-coyote-judal @mochibat @harmonicstupidity @kittyinhighheels @integrathegreat @astraxh @noinobonoto @killinguwithumbrellas @maumauxmau @elvenwitchychild @vitrielle @juhaku-inspired @luciells

and @lovefrombeelzebub666 @vampearlgrey @silenthorrorfilm to do the one you haven’t done if you want guyz ;D

#personal shit

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chickenfetus · 7 years

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all moongan

thank you for asking falen tbh i love u sm and i love doing these

omg is this ask for this ask meme i literally almost posted this along with the wrong ask fml

1: when you have cereal, do you have more milk than cereal or more cereal than milk?

more cereal than mik because.. i dont eat cereal with milk……… i love the crunch

2: do you like the feeling of cold air on your cheeks on a wintery day?

as someone who lives in a tropical country is that what its called idk we dont have seasons and it never gets lower than 25 degrees so yes that would be ideal

3: what random objects do you use to bookmark your books?

hrmmmmm… i just remember the page number?? or try to lmao if i dont remember i just skim through the pages and try to recognise where i left off

4: how do you take your coffee/tea?

with at least 2 packets of sugar tbh…. i dont drink coffee

5: are you self-conscious of your smile?

omg story time i went 2 get my braces removed and the dentist wanted to take pics so he was like “smile with your teeth!” and i was like ok! but then he kept saying i wasnt doing it right lmao… guess whos never smiled b4… (me) so he told me 2 practice my smile lol i didnt answer the qn but ya,,, i am probably

6: do you keep plants?

i used 2 be very against plants… now theyre okay i guess i dont rly keep any

7: do you name your plants?

refer 2 6

8: what artistic medium do you use to express your feelings?

art??? i havent drawn in awhile

9: do you like singing/humming to yourself?

no LOL

10: do you sleep on your back, side, or stomach?

on my side!!!! i cant sleep on my back bc i gotta hug smth.. and my stomach is out of the qn

11: what’s an inner joke you have with your friends?

🅱️… and .. same brainwaves…. poor mans ____…. this is all from the shady hq im so sorry my other pals

12: what’s your favorite planet?

the moon for no real reason

13: what’s something that made you smile today?

hMMm, watching astro and mx perform??? and just being shady with bell lmao

14: if you were to live with your best friend in an old flat in a big city, what would it look like?

this… question,,,..so im thinking of a bright place with white walls and translucent curtains so the light call fill the (living) room perfectly and everythings really ??? sunny and shit idk its warm… the floor’s made of (fake?) wood and theres a small kitchen bc i cant cook and idk if my friend would be able to lol.. theres 2 bed rooms both are painfully small but it works.. theres one other room with a closet for clothes… the bathroom is just a shower, sink and toilet… theres no washing machine rip and ?? thats about it poor mens life

i watchd the like we used mv again and i realized ...... that is literally where i got this imagery from thanks the rose i love a relatable band

15: go google a weird space fact and tell us what it is!

heres a fact (?) from me first: it rains diamonds on one planet ?? mecury maybe?? mars??? whomst.. this isnt even a fact its ,me trying to recall shit

ok real fact: There are thousands of other planets out there. sorry lads this website doesnt wanna have fun

16: what’s your favorite pasta dish?

is spaghetti bolognese a pasta dish

17: what color do you really want to dye your hair?

im chill with my current hair colour??? bc its brown sometimes idk shitty hair

18: tell us about something dumb/funny you did that has since gone down in history between you and your friends and is always brought up.

i asked my irl friends (group name: panic support group) and this is what they said

K: everything

E: when u were one hour late (i dont remember this happening but i do know im always late but never for an hour past me wyd)

19: do you keep a journal? what do you write/draw/ in it?

goDD i dont but i sure want to

20: what’s your favorite eye color?

this is strange but every eye colour is my favourite although ppl with two or more colours in their eyes are so cool

21: talk about your favorite bag, the one that’s been to hell and back with you and that you love to pieces.

its just my school bag lmao i got it 4 years ago and i take it everywhere even if the event is “small” and they ask us to bring “smaller bags” ill bring my big ass school bag anyway it looks like this (i dont have to but linking stuff is so fun)

22: are you a morning person?

technically.???its the holidays but i still manage to get up before 10 (most of the time) and … even if i have like 5 hours of sleep i manage to feel awake really easily????

23: what’s your favorite thing to do on lazy days where you have 0 obligations?

tf i just use my phone lmao this is what ive been doing for like a month now… i could watch every vlive i havent watched yet, i could make video compilations i could practice my art but… even though im out of school im still procrastinating.. legends only

24: is there someone out there you would trust with every single one of your secrets?

mmmm falens the closest to that

25: what’s the weirdest place you’ve ever broken into?

my classroom

26: what are the shoes you’ve had for forever and wear with every single outfit?

white converse?? i have 2 get new ones every like 2 years since theyre also my school shoes and break easily….. other than those i have my blueblack converse too (i dont wear them as much so theyre still in one piece)

27: what’s your favorite bubblegum flavor?

i dont eat bubblegum bc im always afraid ill swallow it and die and im p sure its illegal here

28: sunrise or sunset?

sunset but i dont look outside enough for either

29: what’s something really cute that one of your friends does and is totally endearing?

hm……… with jen its when she sends me asks on anon despite it being super obvious like im not a Fan when my friends send me asks on anon bc sometimes i cant tell and i get a sense of false hope but w/ jen its okay but i know its her

with bell its when they reply to my keyboard smashes with their own keyboard smashes lmao and when they just??//?? say smth cute abt their faves (lately its been sanha thank u sh)

30: think of it: have you ever been truly scared?

ya lmao when i have 2 sleep alone and its completely dark i have half a mind 2 believe some random supernatural being is out for me

31: what is your opinion of socks? do you like wearing weird socks? do you sleep with socks? do you confine yourself to white sock hell? really, just talk about socks.

hmM. socks are great i always wear them bc i wear shoes almost every time i go outside… i dont have any weird socks bc im Boring but i have 3 pkmn songs and 1 gudetama socks/.. bUT I DID buy my friend those socks with individual toe pockets… it was so funny when my other friend saw it she choked on her drink and almost spat it out. we laughed so hard we hit our heads against each other i love friendship.. i have 2 wear white socks for sch bc… aesthetic? god if i know lmao….. i only ever wear ankle socks bc….. socks any higher than that? cancelled.

32: tell us a story of something that happened to you after 3AM when you were with friends.

listen ive never stayed up later than like 1am ok maybe 2am??? but i was working on like a project that was due the next day for school with my groupmates (friends) so does that count lmao

33: what’s your fave pastry?

bread………. sugar donuts…….. i am Aware that thats not how u spell it but wtv

34: tell us about the stuffed animal you kept as a kid. what is it called? what does it look like? do you still keep it?

why does this ask so many qns in 1 qn……. i had a cat?? it had pink stripes and it didnt have a name bc i dont name my stuff… even my pokemon.. and yeah i still have it except its in a big dusty bag where all my other toys are kept

35: do you like stationary and pretty pens and so on? do you use them often?

i kinda have to use stationary for school so ya.. p often is correct… pretty pens??? i dont rly see the point whoopS!!! in exams u can only use black or blue so

36: which band’s sound would fit your mood right now?

im listening 2 day6 so like day6

37: do you like keeping your room messy or clean?

my room isnt even my room i just go there to sleep .. the place im always at is like a study area except its open?? so everyone can see me lol and . its not messy?? if u look at it from far but the shit on the desk and shelves are so fucking messy god i need to pack those

38: tell us about your pet peeves!

aLRIGHT LADS welcome 2 megans ted talk

(skip this if ur not fond of drama)

so something (refer to the song he said suits myday) happened with jae recently and ive seen fans trying to defend him by @ing him and saying that they love him which is fine - great even! but what i dont approve is how everyone’s basically forgotten about the whole matter because they had concerts so instead of @-ing him and asking him to explain himself, they tell him what a great concert it was which is also great bc their concerts are honestly amazing. basically my pet peeve is when ppl dismiss the problematic action of some people just bc they like them.

another thing is that there were some fans who started guilting others for wanting to drop day6 completely because of what jae did and in my opinion i think it is totally cool to want to drop a group if they did smth bad like??? its ur life???? u can choose who you want to like. what is not cool is pulling out all the good things the person has ever done in their entire life and try to remind others about the positive sides of the person. yes. they’re an encouraging person, etc. but that does not cancel out the bad things they’ve done until they explain/apologise. what is infuriating is just the manner some people took it?? they literally went ahead and tweeted shit like “would your parents drop you if you did smth wrong?” and “you’re seriously gonna drop someone whos been nothing been nice because of one incident?” yes. people will and you dont have any fucking right to stop them? so dont go pulling out receipts.

another thing. its also okay to want to stan the whole group even if someone has done smth problematic. like? to me youre cool if youre able to see and acknowledge the bad shit someone has done and still stand by their side while educating them at the same time its nice to have faith in your idols. however, i wont say much when your idols dont respond and/or respond in a way that shows absolutely no remorse. its cool if you want to support them too, despite that.

tldr; dont fucking excuse someone’s behaviour/action just because youre so far up their fucking ass. dont pull out shit from before either, be it good or bad. and lastly, its okay to want to drop/continue supporting them, its your life.

i just wanted to talk about this tbh,, it was nice to see a few mydays trying to urge jae to explain the whole situation but seeing as he still hasnt and couldve it really irks me :-/

okay update its been a day and i havent really thought about this but im kinda conflicted now bc jae still hasnt talked about the song and im probably just making a big deal out of smth that will never happen again but it really doesnt sit right with me knowing that jae recommended that song to his fans and said it suited mydays?? bc looking at the lyrics... i SURE hope not... idk i have neither forgiven or forgotten but he’s okay now.? i cant stay mad at someone for that long anyway ill never forgive him 4 it though lmao petty ppl only

another thing... jae’s still an amazing person to me with all the encouraging words he says to mydays but this one incident is just soOOOOO hrm and i did go off tangent with the question as usual lol

39: what color do you wear the most?

i wear a lot of colours tbh??? but bc its rly hot out ive just been wearing the same shirt every time i leave the house and its black so

40: think of a piece of jewelry you own: what’s it’s story? does it have any meaning to you?

i dont wear jewelry rip

41: what’s the last book you remember really, really loving?

challenger deep

42: do you have a favorite coffee shop? describe it!

hm,, ive only ever visited this coffee shop like more than once bc the girl i used 2 like showed it to me b4 like 2 years ago and it was nice i liked their mocha frappe and its cozy i guess??? sometimes i go there with friends to study/just eat but i havent gone in awhile.., its two stories and it has an open air sitting area too i prefer sitting inside bc the sun is a big no thanks.. the ceiling is kind of like?? going downward?? like the kind iin attics???? idk man it was nice

43: who was the last person you gazed at the stars with?

u cant see shit here sorry

44: when was the last time you remember feeling completely serene and at peace with everything?

cant relate

45: do you trust your instincts a lot?

yea?? sometimes i just gotta bc my brain wont shut the fuck up

46: tell us the worst pun you can think of.

suddenly all of the puns i know have left my mind thanks @ me

47: what food do you think should be banned from the universe?

vegetables

48: what was your biggest fear as a kid? is it the same today?

the dark and whats basically in it???? like ghosts zombies and shit u kno the scary shit

49: do you like buying CDs and records? what was the last one you bought?

i like buying albums?? theres a CD in those so it counts lmao i bought sunrise by day6

50: what’s an odd thing you collect?

boxes??? like containers????

51: think of a person. what song do you associate with them?

boxy and letting go by day6

52: what are your favorite memes of the year so far?

YOU KNOW I HAD TO DO IT TO THEM and oh worm

53: have you ever watched the rocky horror picture show? heathers? beetlejuice? pulp fiction? what do you think of them?

me: rocky.. ?????? from astro.. /?? no ive never heard of any of those and i saw the word horror so u wont hear abt those from me any time soon

54: who’s the last person you saw with a true look of sadness on their face?

i literally havent been outside for 2 days

55: what’s the most dramatic thing you’ve ever done to prove a point?

be petty aka yesterday i changed my twitter icon from jae 2 brian bc jae’s being a child rn so hes out

56: what are some things you find endearing in people?

when they ramble abt smth they like thanksk buds

57: go listen to bohemian rhapsody. how did it make you feel? did you dramatically reenact the lyrics?

is this the song from p!atd i have it in my playlist lmao oh i fucing hate this song i always skip it im not listening

58: who’s the wine mom and who’s the vodka aunt in your group of friends? why?

idk what either of those are but bell and boxy

59: what’s your favorite myth?

idk any

60: do you like poetry? what are some of your faves?

anything that eunwoo has ever written

61: what’s the stupidest gift you’ve ever given? the stupidest one you’ve ever received?

ive given eggs for karissa’s birthday b4 and i got a kermit its not stupid tho its just the closest thign i could think of

62: do you drink juice in the morning? which kind?

i drink water juice everyday every minute every hour

63: are you fussy about your books and music? do you keep them meticulously organized or kinda leave them be?

my books are all in shelves lads i just heard the fucking keys rattle im not doing this shit im logging off night

ok day 3 and im back like i said previously my books are on shelves i tried rearranging them by series b4 but my housekeeper rearrnaged them randomly the next day so i gave up

i make playlists for songs that i like, really like (i still skip them sometimes rip) and songs that my friend recommends me i have a seperate playlist for the songs i like in japanese 2

64: what color is the sky where you are right now?

light blue?? like its actually p white bc its cloudy

65: is there anyone you haven’t seen in a long time who you’d love to hang out with?

m not rly

66: what would your ideal flower crown look like?

just. leaves maybe??

67: how do gloomy days where the sky is dark and the world is misty make you feel?

Horror Movie

68: what’s winter like where you live?

oh winter is fucking fantastic it never gets colder than 25 degrees celsius here and if it does rain it lasts for like 10 minutes

69: what are your favorite board games?

i used to rly like snake and ladders and monopoly :-o

70: have you ever used a ouija board?

im not ready for that kinda death

71: what’s your favorite kind of tea?

english breakfast or earl gray??? those r like the standard right

72: are you a person who needs to note everything down or else you’ll forget it?

ya but i never do bc i either forget to or am just 2 lazy

73: what are some of your worst habits?

being lazy + procrastinating :-D

74: describe a good friend of yours without using their name or gendered pronouns.

okie :-o ..

they’re great ok ive talked abt them like 10 times in the span of 2 months but whatever folks

they’re super nice, kind and just all of the positive adjectives out there in the dictionary ...... they’ve helped me multiple times and they’re always there 2 lend me a listening ear (or in our case, eye lmao) idk??? im just super comfortable around them always and im honestly so thankful we became mutuals (and subsequently friends) last year!!!! i cant say a lot bc ill just get v repetitive but overall they’re an awesome friend and im glad we still communicate daily via twitter and sometimes our skype sessions even if they’re kinda awkward bc i never know when 2 talk bc im scared ill speak and theyll say smth and itll turn into a MESS which actually happened lmao

im looking forward to the day our skype sessions become super smooth and easy going!!!

75: tell us about your pets!

i have none but id die for boxys cats

76: is there anything you should be doing right now but aren’t?

well yeah always tbh but its not smth i have to do but more like want to do im just 2 lazy to get around doing it

77: pink or yellow lemonade?

?? i almost said lemons arent pink but i Remembered...... yellow lemonade

78: are you in the minion hateclub or fanclub?

i feel like this is an Attack? okay LISTEN so story time again.

on the flight back from japan i watched the alien covenant and i couldnt even get past the scene where the baby alien was gonna kill the poor guy who ended up being locked up with the infected dude as soon as i saw the blood and the alien emerge from the guy’s back i bolted lmao

so to calm myself down nd block that memory from my mind i went ahead and watched despicable me 3.. which HONESTLY im the worst critic ever but in my humble opinion.... the movie was good????????? idk i didnt watch minions the movie though i got lazy again whooopS!

anwyay i sidetracked but im neutral im not a fan but i wouldnt go out of my way to call minions annoying?? bc they really arent? i feel like its only seen that way bc of how people make posts abt how annoying minions are even tho.. they arent??

79: what’s one of the cutest things someone has ever done for you?

my memory hates me so every specific thing my friends have ever done for me has left my mind but .

the cutest thing? everything my friends do for me

80: what color are your bedroom walls? did you choose that color? if so, why?

theyre yellow and no i didnt theyve been there ever since i could remember

81: describe one of your friend’s eyes using the most abstract imagery you can think of.

lava cake

82: are/were you good in school?

yeah i was good in school for like the first three years and this year i just flopped so badly lmao and its my important year too oh well my exams r over and i still dont have a backup plan in mind

83: what’s some of your favorite album art?

all of dance gavin dance’s albums have awesome art

84: are you planning on getting tattoos? which ones?

back when i was really into 5sos i thought of getting a tally since that was their logo at that time but now no not really unless i decide to get lance’s face tattooed onto my forehead on impulse

85: do you read comics? what are your faves?

im keeping up with hq, bnha and tg manga!!!!

86: do you like concept albums? which ones?

idk what those r but sure

87: what are some movies you think everyone should watch at least once in their lives?

big hero 6

88: are there any artistic movements you particularly enjoy?

who wrote this whats up with these questions

i googled and.. not really?? they all look nice

89: are you close to your parents?

close enough to stand being in the same room as them but not close enough to want to initiate conversations

90: talk about your one of you favorite cities.

tokyo was really cool (literally) and if i ever go again id love to go with friends so we can explore more??

91: where do you plan on traveling this year?

japan was supposed to be the only plan for this year but my grandad passed away so i had to go to malaysia multiple times earlier this year ik this wasnt the qn but ive already went to the planned destination tm so

92: are you a person who drowns their pasta in cheese or a person who barely sprinkles a pinch?

BARELY SPRINKLES A PINCH im anti cheese

93: what’s the hairstyle you wear the most?

um. like?? i tie the sides of my hair that cover my face back??? bc i dont like hair in my face

94: who was the last person you know to have a birthday?

bell

95: what are your plans for this weekend?

hopefully something useful

96: do you install your computer updates really quickly or do you procrastinate on them a lot?

i also click remind me tomorrow lmao

97: myer briggs type, zodiac sign, and hogwarts house?

infp-t, capricorn, hufflepuff (same as falen nd jen yay)

98: when’s the last time you went hiking? did you enjoy it?

uh ive never been hiking and i dont plan on it sorry body

99: list some five (or id never shut up) songs that resonate to your soul whenever you hear them.

currently......

when you love someone - day6

like we used to - the rose

crazy sexy cool - astro

death of a strawberry - dance gavin dance

if it means a lot to you - a day to remember

idk if these actually “resonate to my soul” they just sound nice

100: if you were presented with two buttons, one that allows you to go 5 years into the past, the other 5 years into the future, which one would you press? why?

oh worm.. i wouldnt miind either???

i know i have 2 choose but like

if i go back into the past i could be less annoying?? but the past has actually helped me be the way i am today and i think im learning to be a better person?? im definitely way better than how i was previously 5 years ago and im just grateful i was able to learn from my mistakes???

so i wouldnt go back to the past.

if its in the future i can see how ill end up and if its not good i might end up being able to change myself so i dont get my “bad end”..???? maybe or i can just see what happens in the future and i can look forward to it

itll also give me a chnace to have the most fun while i can if its not too nice

so my decision is to go to the future

thank you so much for asking falen god this got so long lmao

#if anybody read through all 100.. thank u and have a good day!!!#softshouyous #asks

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piecyyy · 7 years

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Get to know me meme Rules: Answer these 92 statements and tag 20 people 1. Drink: Coffee and water 2. Phone call: Em i guess lmao I don't call ppl 3. Text message: Occasional group chat or em 4. Song you listen to: while we're awake colorblue 5. Time you cried: ????? HAVE YOU 6. Dated someone twice: I think in middle school 7. Kissed someone and regretted it: no  8. Been cheated on: Ya rip that 9. Lost someone special: toooooo many 10. Been depressed: LMAO 11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: ye LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS: 12-14: Green, purple, pink IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU 15. Made new friends: yes 16. Fallen out of love: ya 17. Laughed until you cried: Ye 18. Found out someone was talking about you: ye 19. Met someone who changed you: I guess 20. Found out who your friends are: ye 21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: This one's dumb no 22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: Why FB? 23. Do you have any pets: My pug who is also my son 24. Do you want to change your name: no It's unique  25. What did you do for your last Birthday: sit around and did nothing 26. What time do you wake up: depends 27. What were you doing at midnight last night: drumming and talking to em 28. Name something you can’t wait for: Seeing someone that I think is actually worth my time  29. When was the last time you saw your mom: Like an hour ago? 30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: my hatred  31. What are you listening to right now: My dog snoring 32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Probably ? 33. Something that is getting on your nerves: My lack of creativity lately  34. Most visited website: yt or Tumblr  35. Mole/s: Ya 36. Mark/s: good old scars  37. Childhood dream: teacher  38. Hair color: brown 39. Long or short hair: short 40. Do you have a crush on someone: a big one 41. What do you like about yourself: Idk  42. Piercings: no but I'm down a43. Blood type: idk tbh  44. Nickname: Pierceo or papi dong 45. Relationship status: Single 46. Zodiac: I'll have to look it up but I don't pay attention to that stuff 47. Pronouns: He but whatever works  48. Favorite TV Show: DW or R & M 49. Tattoos: no but I wanna be inked bitch 50. Right or left hand: Right 51. Surgery: no 52. Hair dyed in different color: Yeah Fuk this shit 53. Sport: drum corps 55. Vacation: I used to go to Oakland area 56. Pair of trainers: like... coaches? 57. Eating: I had too much pizza  58. Drinking: Cucumber water 59. I’m about to: post on yt 61. Waiting for: some drive to be a productive human being  62. Want: to march  63. Get married: Yeah sure 64. Career: Teach music 65. Hugs or kisses: any kind of affection come on 66. Lips or eyes: eyes tell more 67. Shorter or taller: idc 68. Older or younger: still don't care 70. Nice arms or nice stomach: I just wanna be skinny  71. Sensitive or loud: both bitvh 72. Hook up or relationship: Relationship I'm too lovey 73. Troublemaker or hesitant: Oops 74. Kissed a stranger: ye 75. Drank hard liquor: ye 76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: yeah I'm still pissed  77. Turned someone down: yeah I feel bad 78. Sex on the first date: I mean idk but I haven't  79. Broken someone’s heart: yeah I hate myself  80. Had your heart broken: Haven't we all 81. Been arrested: Nop 82. Cried when someone died: no  83. Fallen for a friend: ya rip 84. Yourself: also rip 85. Miracles: idk 86. Love at first sight: No that's dumb 87. Santa Claus: I never did 88. Kiss on the first date: sure  90. Current best friend name: All my friends tf  91. Eye color: brown 92. Favorite movie: Idk Im not tagging ppl because all my followers are porn bots but @dragonsinflowercrowns tagged me for the porn bots that are interested

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the-rift1 · 7 years

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8,13,14,20,24,29,40,51,54,66,67,74,81,88,97,100 :>

Oh boy, this is a lot of questions!!

8:what artistic medium do you use to express your feelings?Mainly digital, but if we’re talking about serious feelings, I tend to go back to pastel and charcoal because the colors are so vibrant and dark and I loveee that

13:what’s something that made you smile today?Hearing that my friend had a wonderful birthday today ^.^

14:if you were to live with your best friend in an old flat in a big city, what would it look like?“old flat” - ew “in a big city” - double ew

this is like the opposite of what I’m going for in my possible future lol.. ahem anyway, gosh idk.. I hope it’s pretty spacey, dark wooden floor, carpet in the bedroom, I’d probably lug my upright piano over… idk

20:what’s your favorite eye color?This is hard… Deep dark void-like eyes are fricking amazing and I’d probably stare at it forever, embarrassing myself and whoever they belong to as well in the process, but also grey/blue/green eyes as well, because I can never tell what color they really are and I’ll just keep on staring at them too lmaoo

24:is there someone out there you would trust with every single one of your secrets?Mmmm yep

29:what’s something really cute that one of your friends does and is totally endearing?Well one of them likes to say, “Pwee!” a lot so that’s something because they’re basically an Eevee

40:think of a piece of jewelry you own: what’s it’s story? does it have any meaning to you?

Boy am I glad I started wearing that fox otherwise I could have not answered this question ahhahaha.. ahem anyway, yes! It’s a metal fennec fox and I have several drawings of it here and here and I got it around late April or so. My friend @queer-space-elf picked it out for me cuz I sent them a necklace too and I wear it everyday and it has a ton of meaning to me!!! Like if I lost it, I would basically die…

51:think of a person. what song do you associate with them?

*thinks of a person* ok! uh.. yes . Beirut - Cliquot. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z7tkCJiHQM0

54:who’s the last person you saw with a true look of sadness on their face?

Do movies count? nah.. Probs Rowan, if you count snaps as seeing someone. Otherwise, Aidan? mmmm this is making me sad ok I’mma stop

66:what would your ideal flower crown look like?

https://dragonsdrawings365.tumblr.com/post/161568379235/day-69-pure-pure-pure-baby-boy-martin-with-a

67:how do gloomy days where the sky is dark and the world is misty make you feel?Well how dark are we talking about cuz if it’s just lightly overcast that’s pretty boring, but if it’s like dark asf before a storm, I get fucking excited as hell. Hmm but I don’t think that’s what you’re going for. If it’s like that sort of dark day, I would usually feel very calm n chill, and kind of like Im waiting for something.. guess waiting for it to pass.

74:describe a good friend of yours without using their name or gendered pronounsBut.. if I use they/them.. isn’t that.. akjhlasd what ok uhh I’ll just go with it

So they’re taller than me and has glasses and knows the internet super well and can pull up memes and relatable and funny shit in a split second. Also mad skills at programming and step mania. Also pretty nice ~usually~ upbeat music taste but has other stuff toos that’s also pretty good, haven’t hated a single song I’ve listened to yet. They practically wear the same outfit everyday which is really nice because then I can recognize them a mile away if I’m being observant of my environment.

81:describe one of your friend’s eyes using the most abstract imagery you can think of.

4a6334. There ya go.

88:are there any artistic movements you particularly enjoy?

Fucking Dada-ism, did you see that bullshit right there? Also the name? It also means utter nonsense. 4 minutes and 33 seconds will always be a favorited song of mine.

Also when people discovered chiaroscuro that’s pretty cool too

97:myer briggs type, zodiac sign, and hogwarts house?

INFJ-T(?) uh not sure on the T, Taurus, and ravenclaw/gryffindor

100:if you were presented with two buttons, one that allows you to go 5 years into the past, the other 5 years into the future, which one would you press? why?

Most DEFINITELY NOT the one 5 years into the past because that’s literally like when the Dark Ages™ of my life happened. I guess that leaves the future but,,,,,,,, the future is fucking scary and I don’t know what my uncontrollable self will do within that five years. There’s like half of all the possibilities I’ll be dead already, the other half being that I’ve gone insane, and finally like a tiny minuscule percentage that I’ll get slightly better as to where I am right now. The future is scary if you consider all the possibilities. Stop right there, don’t do that, you’ll just get yourself into constant anxiety.

so like.. I’m presented these two buttons.. can I just.. walk away.. be like. thanks but no thanks, bye

#ask #anonymous

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avada-matata · 7 years

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I was tagged by @kikikikimagure so we’ll see how this goes

Rules-answer the questions, tag 20 peeps

Nickname: Nellie, or nell irl just call me that here too w/e

Star sign: aries

Height: 5'6" ish

Time rn: 15:23

Last thing I googled: Yuri on ice (lol it’s for refs)

Fav music artist: prob like fall out boy, Hayley kiyoko, the cast of Hamilton, u no

Song stuck in my head: read u wrote u by ru Paul (yes from ru Paul’s drag race and specifically katyas part lol thx gab)

Last movie I watched: Hurricane Bianca on Netflix, fantastic movie and before that the Bee Movie I shit u not

Last show I watched: either Tokyo ghoul or Yuri on ice I honestly forget which one

What I’m wearing rn: black fuzzy socks, black leggings, gray turtleneck shirt and over that a penn state football crew neck I stole from my dad, 4/6 possible earrings and my hairs up if ur wondering

When I created this blog: probably like mid sophomore year which was like..2013? Maybe? (It was honestly disgusting and superwh*lock like if I saw my blog from back then appear on my dash I would hit block so fast lmao)

The kind of stuff i post: mostly memes and fan stuff of whatever fandom I happen to be in at the time and also art :D

Do you have any other blogs?: ya I got one just for art which is @lanadarthrey and one for a webcomic I’m planning which is @polariswebcomic and another one that I’m not tagging but just lets me keep up with stuff I make/is a URL saver

Do you get asks regularly?: lmaooooooooooo I have one friend who sends me asks when I rb the thingys and she’s amazing and that’s about it lol

Why did I choose my URL: ok it’s like avada kedavra and hakuna matata but like mixed up idk it amused me

Gender: female

Hogwarts house: I think I took the pottermore quiz twice and I got hufflepuff once and then gryffindor but at my hp club at school I got sorted into slytherin?? So I don’t know lmao

Pokémon team: Valor!!!

Fav color: its always been purple as #1 but I also like navy and maroon

Average hours of sleep: lmaoooo over break it was prob like 10-12 cuz I’d stay up till like 4 and sleep hella late but now that classes r gonna start I’m gonna say like..in the 4-7 range lol

Lucky number: 8 (it’s not lucky it’s just my favorite number for years so)

Fav characters: oh god here we go.. Ahsoka Tano, Darth Vader/Anakin Skywalker, Darth Revan (not the grease white guy revan, the fem or nb revan), Moana, Mulan, Princess Leia Organa, Luke Skywalker, Finn (sw) god I love him, Rey (sw), Yuri Katsuki, Touka Kirishima (Tokyo ghoul), Peridot, Amethyst, Yang (rwby) Sombra (even tho I’ve never played overwatch in my life lmao) um that’s all I can think of rn

How many blankets do you sleep with?: currently.., 4

Dream job: astronaut (shut up I love space), if not that then something else in the field of astrophysics, hopefully exoplanets

Following: 4991 lmao Im tryna go through that and narrow it down but it takes fucking forever man

20(ish) ppl: @veryverytired @gabalah @teenagecriminalmastermind @generalherasyndulla @gay-wastelander @snowflakes-and-firebombs @kotor-2 @crownedwlaurels @attonrand @a-not-so-amazing-disaster @nessaawr @zukos-honor-vs-melonlord @ossurita @admiralrevan @buddyfinn

#nell speaks #u don't have to do it if u don't wanna tbh

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lovelylovelyartist · 7 years

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#asks #answers #reply #replies #umbrie #Kevin #the artist has spoken

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internetdetectives · 5 years

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8/31/19 - Chat with Moonman and GHOSTBABEL

moonman31 12:04 PM: ((A screenshot of a news article reporting that hurricane Helena is no longer headed towards Moonman’s location is posted))

moonman31 12:04 PM: "damn y'all”

Slinky stinks 12:05 PM: "is that good or bad”

moonman31 12:05 PM: "it moved away”

Jos 12:05 PM: "Yes,”

Slinky stinks 12:05 PM: "dont tell me the goddamn ritual worked on the AO timeline too lol”

moonman31 12:05 PM: "what”

Slinky stinks 12:06 PM: "its kinda hard to explain without breaking the 4th wall a little so lets leave it there”

moonman31 12:06 PM: "Y'all fuckin with magic again huh”

Jos 12:06 PM: "

we did a little ritual to the "sun", the counter of luna, as a joke to move the huricane away, and it worked? lol”

Jos 12:06 PM: "Just kidding”

Jos 12:06 PM: "how it is going”

moonman31 12:07 PM: "I mean good now that I won't get eaten by a giant storm”

Slinky stinks 12:07 PM: "yeah are you good n stuff”

Slinky stinks 12:07 PM: “well, thats nice to hear i guess”

Jos 12:07 PM: "that might be the fetish of someone outthere on the internet”

Slinky stinks 12:08 PM: "rule 34 my friend”

Slinky stinks 12:08 PM: "huricane rule 34”

Slinky stinks 12:08 PM: "imagine that actually exists”

Jos 12:08 PM: "well, seems like AO is pretty chill rn”

Jos 12:08 PM: "and jid is the same”

Slinky stinks 12:09 PM: "and the elegy didnt do that much of a thing apart of making moony see that thing (sorry again)”

ARGdov 12:09 PM: "tl;dr a friend of ours performed a ritual as a joke to redirect the hurricane”

ARGdov 12:09 PM: "Well”

ARGdov 12:09 PM: "I dunno if he was joking, he got a few other friends to do it too”

Slinky stinks 12:10 PM: "oh rigth”

Slinky stinks 12:10 PM: "we also did it”

Slinky stinks 12:10 PM: "so it kinda counts”

ɢʜᴏsᴛʙᴀʙᴇʟ 12:10 PM: "sᴏ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴡᴀs ɪᴛ ᴛʜᴇɴ, ᴛʜᴇ sᴜɴ's sᴏɴɢ?”

Slinky stinks 12:10 PM: "nope”

Jos 12:10 PM: "Helios song*”

Jos 12:10 PM: "but with images”

Jos 12:10 PM: "lol”

Slinky stinks 12:10 PM: "we invoked helios with something”

Slinky stinks 12:10 PM: "yeah lol”

Slinky stinks 12:10 PM: "imagine now we can use gods aswell lmao”

Slinky stinks 12:10 PM: "that would be rad ngl”

ɢʜᴏsᴛʙᴀʙᴇʟ 12:11 PM: "sᴏ ʏᴏᴜ ᴘʟᴀʏᴇᴅ ᴛʜᴇ sᴜɴ's sᴏɴɢ ᴍᴀɴᴜᴀʟʟʏ? ᴏʀ ᴛʜᴀᴛ's ᴡʜᴀᴛ ʏᴏᴜ ᴅɪᴅ, ᴇssᴇɴᴛɪᴀʟʟʏ. ᴠᴇʀʏ ᴘʀɪᴍɪᴛɪᴠɪsᴛ ᴏꜰ ʏᴏᴜ.”

Slinky stinks 12:11 PM: "no, we didnt play any songs”

Slinky stinks 12:11 PM: "a friend did a kinda ritual and told us to draw a image so it would make more effect”

ɢʜᴏsᴛʙᴀʙᴇʟ 12:12 PM: "ʏᴏᴜ ᴍɪss ᴍʏ ᴘᴏɪɴᴛ. ᴇɪᴛʜᴇʀ ᴡᴀʏ ᴡᴇ'ʀᴇ ᴀꜰꜰᴇᴄᴛɪɴɢ ᴇᴀᴄʜ ᴏᴛʜᴇʀ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴛʜᴏsᴇ sᴏʀᴛs ᴏꜰ ᴀᴄᴛɪᴏɴs sᴏ ᴛᴏ sᴘᴇᴀᴋ.”

Slinky stinks 12:12 PM: "oh”

Slinky stinks 12:12 PM: "i dont know how to read sorry”

Jos 12:12 PM: "pff, songs are for casuals, manual is better…”

Jos 12:12 PM: "yeah”

moonman31 12:13 PM: "fuckin casuals”

moonman31 12:13 PM: "git gud like my ID boys”

Slinky stinks 12:13 PM: "songs are for normies reeeeeeeee”

Slinky stinks 12:13 PM: "so aprantly now if we do a ritual it may also work? or wtf does this mean lol”

Jos 12:14 PM: "The song of time fucked up AO on oyur time, the magic can also move the storm on your universe so we can affect stuff from here”

Jos 12:14 PM: "the thing is why, maybe because tyler is there?”

Jos 12:14 PM: "he is there and therefore that universe was affected”

Jos 12:14 PM: "as this universe was affected when he used to be in this one”

Slinky stinks 12:14 PM: "oh rigth”

Slinky stinks 12:14 PM: "bc he is our link”

Slinky stinks 12:14 PM: "ok it makes sense”

ɢʜᴏsᴛʙᴀʙᴇʟ 12:15 PM: "ᴍᴀᴋᴇs ʏᴏᴜ ᴡᴏɴᴅᴇʀ, ᴡʜᴏ ɪs ᴏᴜʀ ʟɪɴᴋ? ᴀʀᴇ ᴡᴇ ᴀʟʟ ʟɪɴᴋ?”

ɢʜᴏsᴛʙᴀʙᴇʟ 12:15 PM: "ɪ ᴄᴀɴ ᴍᴀᴋᴇ ᴊᴏᴋᴇs.”

Jos 12:16 PM: "probably your tyler”

moonman31 12:16 PM: "oof”

Slinky stinks 12:16 PM: "lol”

Jos 12:16 PM: "from your universe, or someone else”

moonman31 12:16 PM: "that's some deeplore humor”

Jos 12:16 PM: "Hiiija!”

Jos 12:16 PM: "pot break sounds”

Slinky stinks 12:16 PM: "GNHA!”

ɢʜᴏsᴛʙᴀʙᴇʟ 12:17 PM: "ɪ ʀᴇᴀᴅ ᴛʜɪɴɢs ᴏɴ ᴛʜᴇ ɪɴᴛᴇʀɴᴇᴛ.”

moonman31 12:17 PM: "can't really blame you lol”

moonman31 12:17 PM: "ok so”

moonman31 12:17 PM: "that is gud but”

moonman31 12:17 PM: "we are still kind of in a stalemate”

moonman31 12:17 PM: "plus now we have some new spooks about apparently so”

otherLiam 12:18 PM: "That’s true. Right now we’re sort of waiting on GB to get us into the subspace.”

Jos 12:18 PM: "I still wonder who is the AO with the alien mask”

otherLiam 12:18 PM: "As usual, we’re all dependent on his skills.”

ɢʜᴏsᴛʙᴀʙᴇʟ 12:18 PM: "ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ᴛʜᴀᴛ, ɪ ᴋɴᴏᴡ ᴇxᴀᴄᴛʟʏ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴛᴏ ᴅᴏ ɴᴏᴡ.”

Slinky stinks 12:18 PM: "yup”

otherLiam 12:19 PM: "Oh, awesome. Do you know how long it’ll take?”

ɢʜᴏsᴛʙᴀʙᴇʟ 12:19 PM: "ᴡᴇ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ᴏɴᴇ sᴍᴀʟʟ ᴘʀᴏʙʟᴇᴍ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ɪ ɴᴇᴇᴅ ᴛᴏ ᴅᴇᴀʟ ᴡɪᴛʜ ʙᴇꜰᴏʀᴇ ᴡᴇ ᴄᴀɴ ᴛʀᴜʟʏ ᴘʀᴏᴄᴇᴇᴅ.”

Slinky stinks 12:19 PM: "what problem…”

Jos 12:20 PM: "enemy eyes?”

ɢʜᴏsᴛʙᴀʙᴇʟ 12:20 PM: "ɪ ᴛʜɪɴᴋ ɪᴛ ʙᴇsᴛ ɴᴏᴛ ᴛᴏ ᴛᴇʟʟ ʏᴏᴜ ᴀs ᴏꜰ ɴᴏᴡ ʙᴇᴄᴀᴜsᴇ ɪ'ᴍ sᴜʀᴇ ɪᴛ ᴡᴏᴜʟᴅ ᴄᴀᴜsᴇ ᴀ ᴘᴀɴɪᴄ, ʙᴜᴛ ɪ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ʟɪᴛᴛʟᴇ ʀᴇᴀsᴏɴ ᴛᴏ ᴡᴏʀʀʏ ᴀs ᴏꜰ ɴᴏᴡ.”

Slinky stinks 12:20 PM: "you lost the hat?”

otherLiam 12:20 PM: "well that’s unsettling”

ɢʜᴏsᴛʙᴀʙᴇʟ 12:20 PM: "ɴᴏ.”

Slinky stinks 12:20 PM: "okay…”

otherLiam 12:20 PM: "but alright, handle your business. let us know if we can do anything to help.”

Slinky stinks 12:21 PM: "yup”

Slinky stinks 12:21 PM: “tho if its a very big problem you should tell us so we can solve it”

otherLiam 12:21 PM: "Is there anything we can do to prevent Nocta from doing whatever he did to Moonman to other people?”

Jos 12:22 PM: "I think the problem is telling us”

ɢʜᴏsᴛʙᴀʙᴇʟ 12:22 PM: "ɪ ꜰᴇᴇʟ ʟɪᴋᴇ ᴛʜɪs ɪs ɴᴏᴛ ᴀ ᴘʀᴏᴍɪsɪɴɢ ɴᴏᴛᴇ ᴛᴏ ʟᴇᴀᴠᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ᴏɴ. ʙᴜᴛ ɪ ᴄᴀɴ ᴀssᴜʀᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ᴡᴇ ᴄᴏɴᴛɪɴᴜᴇ ᴛᴏ ᴍᴏᴠᴇ ꜰᴏʀᴡᴀʀᴅ. ɪɴ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴇɴᴅ ɪ ᴡɪʟʟ ᴛʀᴜsᴛ ᴏɴᴇ ɪɴᴅɪᴠɪᴅᴜᴀʟ ᴏᴜʀ ꜰɪɴᴀʟ ᴍᴏᴠᴇ ᴛᴏ ɢᴀɪɴ ᴛʜᴇ ɢʀᴏᴜᴘ's ᴛʀᴜsᴛ ʙᴜᴛ ɪᴛ ɪꜰ ɪᴛ ɪs sʜᴀʀᴇᴅ ɪ'ᴍ ᴀꜰʀᴀɪᴅ ᴀ ʀᴏɢᴜᴇ ᴡɪʟʟ ᴘᴜʟʟ ᴀɴ ɪɴᴛᴇʀɴᴇᴛ ᴅᴇᴛᴇᴄᴛɪᴠᴇ ꜰᴀᴍᴏᴜs sᴛᴜɴᴛ.”

ɢʜᴏsᴛʙᴀʙᴇʟ 12:22 PM: "ɪ'ᴍ ɴᴏᴛ ɢᴏᴏᴅ ᴀᴛ ᴅᴇᴄɪᴅɪɴɢ sᴏ ɪ ᴛʜɪɴᴋ ʏᴏᴜ sʜᴏᴜʟᴅ ᴄʜᴏᴏsᴇ.”

moonman31 12:24 PM: "lol”

moonman31 12:24 PM: "idk feels like a troll to me”

moonman31 12:24 PM: "i mean at least as far as making yall choose”

Slinky stinks 12:25 PM: "ummm”

Slinky stinks 12:25 PM: "who tho”

ɢʜᴏsᴛʙᴀʙᴇʟ 12:25 PM: "ᴀɴᴅ ʏᴏᴜ sʜᴏᴜʟᴅ ᴛᴀʙ ᴏᴜᴛ ᴏꜰ ᴘᴏʀɴʜᴜʙ ᴡʜɪʟᴇ ɪ'ᴍ ᴏɴ.”

otherLiam 12:25 PM: "Nah, it makes sense. I’d be worried about us doing a headass move too.”

Mr t series good 12:25 PM: "im not even on pornhub rn”

Slinky stinks 12:25 PM: "ay i closed the tab 15 mins ago”

Slinky stinks 12:25 PM: "dont @ me”

moonman31 12:26 PM: "i was about to say”

moonman31 12:26 PM: "i don't think he was talking to me”

otherLiam 12:29 PM: "give thr info to Jos.”

Jos 12:29 PM: "o/”

otherLiam 12:29 PM: "we voted”

moonman31 12:29 PM: ":open_mouth:”

ɢʜᴏsᴛʙᴀʙᴇʟ 12:29 PM: "ᴀʟʀɪɢʜᴛ ᴛʜᴇɴ.”

Slinky stinks 12:30 PM: "\o/”

Mr t series good 12:30 PM: “ok”

ɢʜᴏsᴛʙᴀʙᴇʟ 12:32 PM: "ɪᴛ ɪs ᴅᴏɴᴇ. ɪ ʜᴏᴘᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ᴡɪʟʟ ᴋᴇᴇᴘ ᴛᴏ ʏᴏᴜʀ ᴘʀᴏᴍɪsᴇs.”

Slinky stinks 12:32 PM: "neat”

Jos 12:32 PM: "I know nothing tbh”

otherLiam 12:33 PM: "aight neat.”

moonman31 12:34 PM: "i don't really know what's going on tbh”

Slinky stinks 12:34 PM: "me neither”

Xenquility 12:34 PM: "No one has know what's been going on for the past four years”

Jos 12:34 PM: "I wish i knew”

Slinky stinks 12:34 PM: "well moonman how is that hurricane crisis going”

moonman31 12:34 PM: "same”

otherLiam 12:34 PM: "GB is being paranoid about our stupidity, that’s all.”

Slinky stinks 12:35 PM: "i think he should be”

otherLiam 12:35 PM: "Rightly so, yeah.”

Slinky stinks 12:35 PM: "lol”

Slinky stinks 12:35 PM: "well, any news about my fuck up?”

otherLiam 12:36 PM: "What do you mean? Like, “has anyone seen Tenebris lately”?”

Slinky stinks 12:36 PM: "yup”

moonman31 12:36 PM: ((A meme mocking the player Slinky is posted))

Slinky stinks 12:36 PM: "just that”

Slinky stinks 12:36 PM: “honestly, AO memes are better”

otherLiam 12:37 PM: "damn that’s cold”

otherLiam 12:37 PM: "and im not sure we’ll know the full extent of how bad you fucked up for a while.”

Slinky stinks 12:37 PM: "im gonna pull out the Alpha version of that meme”

moonman31 12:38 PM: "what”

Slinky stinks 12:38 PM: ((A meme mocking the player Slinky is posted))

moonman31 12:38 PM: "damn”

Xenquility 12:38 PM: "oh hey what a cool and original meme”

moonman31 12:38 PM: "tom and jerry is classic tho”

Slinky stinks 12:38 PM: "yeah tom and jerry is the best”

Xenquility 12:39 PM: "whoever made that must be extremely sexy”

Jos 12:39 PM: "ᛨᛆᛘᚾ”

Slinky stinks 12:39 PM: "jos with his runes s freaking me out”

Jos 12:39 PM: "ᛋᛚᛁᚾᚴᛦ᛫ ᛒᚮᚮᚮᚮ”

moonman31 12:39 PM: "damn cold xen”

moonman31 12:39 PM: "i saw that shit”

(...)

Xenquility 5:24 PM: "I'm still of the opinion none of that spellcasting stuff was canon”

ADULT_LINK 5:24 PM: "it does that”

Xenquility 5:24 PM: "I know what it does in the actual game”

Slinky stinks 5:24 PM: "wait is the MOON on ooc?”

ARGdov 5:25 PM: "You guys should probably be talking about this in ID”

Slinky stinks 5:25 PM: "or is it a normal moon”

Slinky stinks 5:25 PM: "yeah thats what i said”

mfgreth 10:31 PM: ((Greth posts a “thinking” emoji))

moonman31 10:34 PM: ((Moonman posts a “thinking” emoji))

moonman31 10:34 PM: wait”

moonman31 10:34 PM: mindfuck”

Slinky stinks 10:35 PM: "lol”

moonman31 10:35 PM: "is that actually greth”

mfgreth 10:35 PM: ")()()()(“

Slinky stinks 10:36 PM: "i guess he is”

moonman31 10:36 PM: "i thought you were evil”

Slinky stinks 10:36 PM: "wait”

mfgreth 10:36 PM: "i thought you were dead”

ADULT_LINK 10:36 PM: "why would greth be evil”

moonman31 10:36 PM: "i thought you guys said he turned evil”

Slinky stinks 10:36 PM: "mindfuck”

ADULT_LINK 10:36 PM: "i think that was some time shenannigan fuckyness?”

ADULT_LINK 10:36 PM: "¯\_(ツ)_/¯”

mfgreth 10:37 PM: ":okretard:”

moonman31 10:37 PM: "i actually never noticed him being here”

moonman31 10:37 PM: "isn't that like inherently a bad idea”

moonman31 10:37 PM: "it also fucks with me on so many levels”

Slinky stinks 10:37 PM: "this is a mindfuck lvl 600”

Wolfcat 10:38 PM: ":munky:”

Wolfcat 10:38 PM: “me rn”

Slinky stinks 10:38 PM: "UH OH”

ARGdov 10:38 PM: "Wait what”

mfgreth 10:38 PM: "awa”

moonman31 10:38 PM: "i mean but seriously”

ARGdov 10:38 PM: "Last we checked Greth had been posessed by Patrem”

Slinky stinks 10:38 PM: "yeah moony”

ARGdov 10:38 PM: "And he was travelling paralelos”

Slinky stinks 10:38 PM: "i feel you”

Slinky stinks 10:38 PM: "yeah”

Slinky stinks 10:38 PM: "this is ooc greth i think”

ARGdov 10:39 PM: "Although he may not know hes being controlled?”

Slinky stinks 10:39 PM: "its a big mindfuck”

mfgreth 10:39 PM: "big brain time”

moonman31 10:39 PM: "i want to meme but i'm freaked out”

ARGdov 10:39 PM: "This is weirdo”

mfgreth 10:40 PM: "perhaps you should all aggregate your thoughts”

Slinky stinks 10:40 PM: "moony this is more confusing to us”

moonman31 10:40 PM: "kasjf”

moonman31 10:40 PM: "what”

ARGdov 10:40 PM: "Perhaps we should”

ARGdov 10:40 PM: "I guess”

Wolfcat 10:40 PM: "very wyrd”

ARGdov 10:40 PM: "What does it mean”

Slinky stinks 10:40 PM: "Aggregation”

Slinky stinks 10:40 PM: "AGAIN”

ARGdov 10:40 PM: "@mfgreth who are you?”

mfgreth 10:40 PM: "I'm Greth, what?”

ARGdov 10:41 PM: "Are you “our” greth”

Wolfcat 10:41 PM: "are you ok arg”

ARGdov 10:41 PM: "Yes”

Slinky stinks 10:41 PM: "yes he is greth”

mfgreth 10:41 PM: "sometimes I wonder that”

Slinky stinks 10:41 PM: "but WICH greth”

mfgreth 10:41 PM: "I mean am I your Greth?”

mfgreth 10:41 PM: "or is your greth here now”

moonman31 10:41 PM: "you mean me fuck off with that”

ARGdov 10:41 PM: "Moonmans not from our timeline”

moonman31 10:41 PM: "yeah”

moonman31 10:41 PM: "you know what they meant”

ARGdov 10:42 PM: "So no hes not “our greth””

mfgreth 10:42 PM: "i said it was big brain time”

ADULT_LINK 10:42 PM: "im confused so”

ARGdov 10:42 PM: "I am wondering though”

ADULT_LINK 10:42 PM: "i'm gonna go back to playin diablo 3”

ARGdov 10:42 PM: "Ok guys”

Slinky stinks 10:42 PM: "Big brain time huh”

ARGdov 10:42 PM: "Remember when Tyler or whoever said things were about to get more complicated”

Slinky stinks 10:42 PM: "oh shit”

Slinky stinks 10:42 PM: "yeah”

mfgreth 10:42 PM: "ok you all are angry so let's have a candid conversation”

ARGdov 10:42 PM: "Thorin suggested a third timeline could be getting thrown into the mix”

ARGdov 10:42 PM: "Were not angry”

Slinky stinks 10:43 PM: "oh no”

ARGdov 10:43 PM: "Just confused?”

Slinky stinks 10:43 PM: "oh yeah”

ARGdov 10:43 PM: "Is “greth” ok?”

mfgreth 10:43 PM: "I am better than ever”

ARGdov 10:43 PM: "Do you remember the vlogs?”

mfgreth 10:43 PM: "yeah because I shot them”

ARGdov 10:43 PM: "The vlogs you made”

ARGdov 10:43 PM: "Ok”

Jos 10:43 PM: "Whats going on?”

ARGdov 10:43 PM: "Hmm”

ARGdov 10:43 PM: "Greth is talking”

Jos 10:44 PM: "Resume”

ARGdov 10:44 PM: "Its confusing”

mfgreth 10:44 PM: "honestly”

mfgreth 10:44 PM: "Everything is great.”

ARGdov 10:44 PM: "Theres that phrase again”

Jos 10:44 PM: "Wait if moonman os beta Greth”

moonman31 10:44 PM: "this stepford motherfucker”

ARGdov 10:44 PM: "Could mean something or nothing”

ADULT_LINK 10:44 PM: "wait hold up”

ADULT_LINK 10:44 PM: "i didnt suggets a third timeline”

Jos 10:44 PM: "Nocta?”

ARGdov 10:44 PM: "@mfgreth are you still in the timeline you originated from?”

ADULT_LINK 10:44 PM: "i said it'd be fucked if there was a third”

ADULT_LINK 10:44 PM: "nothing indicates that there is”

ARGdov 10:45 PM: "Same-same, really”

ARGdov 10:45 PM: "I mean”

ADULT_LINK 10:45 PM: "ehh”

ARGdov 10:45 PM: "Im just trying to figure this out”

mfgreth 10:45 PM: "timelines are pointless imo at this point but yeah”

ARGdov 10:45 PM: "Who this is”

mfgreth 10:45 PM: "I am Greth PRIME”

ADULT_LINK 10:45 PM: "its greth you dingdong”

mfgreth 10:45 PM: "or whatever”

ADULT_LINK 10:45 PM: ":P”

Jos 10:45 PM: "Aka nocta?”

ARGdov 10:45 PM: "So Im guessing hes our greth”

Slinky stinks 10:45 PM: "greth dont meme pls”

Slinky stinks 10:45 PM: "but if he is our greth”

ARGdov 10:45 PM: "Who probably has Patrem in there”

Slinky stinks 10:45 PM: "why is he no patt”

Slinky stinks 10:45 PM: "exactly”

ARGdov 10:46 PM: "Just lurking in the background”

ARGdov 10:46 PM: "Because patrem doesnt need to posess someoen full time”

Slinky stinks 10:46 PM: "just when he is asleep i guess”

ARGdov 10:46 PM: "He can just stick around in there head and when he takes over they blackout”

Slinky stinks 10:46 PM: "hmm”

Slinky stinks 10:46 PM: "still confusing af”

ARGdov 10:47 PM: "Not really but ok”

ARGdov 10:47 PM: "Think of it as Jekyll and Hydr”

Jos 10:47 PM: "Oue greth might be nocta”

ARGdov 10:47 PM: "*Hyde”

Jos 10:47 PM: "Be cautious.”

ARGdov 10:47 PM: "Wait what”

ARGdov 10:47 PM: "No nocta is Kevin”

Jos 10:47 PM: "If moonman os greth beta”

Jos 10:47 PM: "And greth vlogs got possesed by patrem?”

moonman31 10:48 PM: ":moony: :gun:”

moonman31 10:48 PM: “tbh”

ARGdov 10:48 PM: "God fuck I dont know”

ARGdov 10:48 PM: "This is bizarre”

ARGdov 10:48 PM: "I gotta go for a bit”

Wolfcat 10:48 PM: ":truth: :moony: :truth:”

mfgreth 10:48 PM: ((An image titled “meta.gif” is posted))

ARGdov 10:48 PM: "Aaaah”

ARGdov 10:48 PM: "Ill be back in a bit”

Jos 10:48 PM: "Well fuck”

Slinky stinks 10:48 PM: "oh KAY”

Jos 10:49 PM: "Moonman, send product please”

Jos 10:49 PM: "We need to evade ourselves from this chaos”

moonman31 10:49 PM: "oh ok”

Slinky stinks 10:49 PM: "moonman send your dealer”

moonman31 10:49 PM: ((Ascii art of marijuana is posted))

Jos 10:50 PM: "Perfect”

Slinky stinks 10:50 PM: "ah yes”

Jos 10:50 PM: ":cloud: :cloud: :cloud: :cloud: :cloud: :cloud: :cloud: :cloud: :cloud: :cloud: :cloud: :cloud: :cloud: :cloud: :cloud: :cloud:”

Jos 10:50 PM: ":cloud: :cloud: :cloud: :cloud: :cloud: :cloud: :cloud: :cloud: :cloud: :cloud_lightning:”

Slinky stinks 10:50 PM: "D I G I T A L W E E D”

Slinky stinks 10:50 PM: "hope babel does not get high”

Jos 10:50 PM: "Oh shit, so much smoke i made a ecosystem”

Slinky stinks 10:50 PM: "Josniverse”

Wolfcat 10:50 PM: ":wariowaggle:”

Wolfcat 10:50 PM: “:cloud:”

Slinky stinks 10:51 PM: "ave you guys seen the gif greth sent”

Jos 10:51 PM: ((Jos reposts “meta.gif”))

Slinky stinks 10:51 PM: "he deleted it”

Slinky stinks 10:51 PM: "File name?”

Jos 10:51 PM: "Meta”

Slinky stinks 10:51 PM: "Of course”

Slinky stinks 10:51 PM: "this is kinda meta”

Jos 10:52 PM: "Ton”

Jos 10:52 PM: "Undertale confirmed”

Slinky stinks 10:52 PM: "na na NA NA”

Slinky stinks 10:52 PM: "you know the song”

Slinky stinks 10:52 PM: "okay, now talking about that gif”

Slinky stinks 10:52 PM: "you know what does it look like?”

Slinky stinks 10:52 PM: "just spitballing”

Jos 10:54 PM: "Probably”

Jos 10:54 PM: "Also offtopic:”

Jos 10:54 PM: "Who is more badass”

Jos 10:54 PM: "Scp foundation “

Jos 10:54 PM: "Or”

Jos 10:54 PM: "Windstorm ?”

moonman31 10:55 PM: "ok im out”

moonman31 10:55 PM: "my life has been weird enough lately”

moonman31 10:55 PM: "bbl”

Jos 10:55 PM: "Mm why?”

Slinky stinks 10:55 PM: "windstorm?”

Jos 10:55 PM: "Dont leave man”

Jos 10:55 PM: ":c”

moonman31 10:56 PM: "no im just logging off discord”

moonman31 10:56 PM: "sheesh”

Jos 10:56 PM: "Alright”

mfgreth 10:56 PM: "bye”

Jos 10:56 PM: "Be safe…”

Slinky stinks 10:56 PM: "take care g”

moonman31 10:56 PM: "FUCK OFF”

moonman31 10:56 PM: "not you guys other me ok”

moonman31 10:56 PM: "sayonara”

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ifuckinhatemymom-blog · 6 years

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Letting go of my fp

I was obsessed with him so much it put a strain on my relationship. It started before I was diagnosed. I didnt even know what was happening to me. Think of the biggest dickhead in the world, and imagine yourself infatuated with him. I even wondered if I had genuine feelings for him. I didnt, fucking obviously I didnt It was this fucking disorder warping everything and making my life a living hell Im not even sure why it happened. I usually keep people at a distance from me. I dont value peple in my life but he suddenly came in my life and he was the coolest, funniest, most charming son of a bitch I ever laid eyes on. (Seriously though, he is a fucking asshole.) He has a lot of issues of his own. Like super super depressed and self harming in every way you could think of. The friends group I was in? Everyone hated him. Treated him like shit, talked shit about him behind his back. I didnt understand why people could pretend to be his friend but hate him so much. It is so fucked. Anyway they probably had reason to hate him (theyre not excused from being fake assholes, he is still a fucking human being) because he was rude and mean. I was the only one who would properly call him out on his shit. I was also his biggest cheerleader and defender. I saw the positive side of him, saw how much pain he was in. I took it upon myself to try and "fix him". Lol. Obviously, that wasnt and is not and never will be possible. I became obsessed with helping him, being there for him, I forced my way into his life, I sledge hammered through the walls he had up whether he wanted it or not, and for a moment I felt so close to him and so happy because this was also the first time I had a friend of MY OWN? MINE? MY friend, because everyone-- including my girlfriend-- fucking hated him. I hadnt had an FP since I met my girlfridnd and that was 8 years ago. I had been giving HER my heart mind body and soul (dealing with the torment of that not being reciprocated for years. Honestly I feel like ill never trully feel im 100% her priority or like she loves me as much as I love her but fucking what ever). Anyway she was the one everyone was drawn to and I was always kind of the one off to the side, she would introduce people to me and thats how I would make friends. Do you see where im going with this? The preference everyone had for her over me was clear as day and I struggled with that and her being the center of attention for years. I was shy, awkwardly ugly as fuck, my fat didnt fall well on my young body yet, I was shit. Fucking pathetic and gross. She has BPD too. (Invalidated me alot when we were younger, I couldnt share any of my feelings without her making it obvious that I, and I quote, "will never be as crazy as her". I shit you not.) It all shifted when we joined a larp at this dingey little alternative school. By then, my skin was clear, my hair was the BRIGHTEST fucking pink you could imagine, still fat but I honestly wear it very well now, and my confidence was higher than it was since I was maybe 6 years old. Bitch. That group was eating out of the palm of my fucking hand. It was the first time that I was the group leader/head bitch in charge. She didnt seem to mind it! Said she was happy for me. But again. First time for me. He wanted to be my friend, too. He was intimidated I could feel it off him. It felt great. He respected me more than he did anyone else in the room and he made it apparent. I guess I internally knew him and I would be close friends and that everyone would be mad about it. One of the guys at the program was oddly possesive over me and he particularly hated my FP the most out of everyone. Started treating me different as FP and I got closer. Exluding me, doing things to pin me and FP against each other. Shit got weird. There is a whole ass history when it comes to that boy but ill bitch about that in another post. Anyway as I was trying to say before getting sidetracked, the minute I laid eyes on FP it was almost instant? I could read his vibe(badass bad boy asshole the fucking works), and on top of that he was attractive. Instant. I needed him to be my friend. My close, cool, bad ass friend. Fast forward to me crying to my brothers because my girlfriend was fed up with the little relationship I had going on with him. I began to resent her, thinking that she wasnt allowing me to have friends of my own when deep down I knew what the fuck I was doing was wrong and if I were her I would have cussed me AND FAUGHT HIM a looooong time ago, but I was lying to myself and to her. He has a girlfriend he loves very much, yet he would do things on purpose to make my girlfriend jealous? Like one time when I was running late to the program (no surprise) my girlfriend didnt have a phone at the time, I was texting him and shit telling him when I would be there and shit like that. And you know what he does? He says "its a shame you dont have a phone, because shes texting me instead of you right now." To my girlfriend. Needless to say when she told me this shit I was pissed off but did I say anything to him? No. I was hurt, though. Because just like everyone else in my fucking life, he was using me to get to her even if in a negative way. He kept doing little shit like this. He invited me over his house to play with his pets in front of my girlfriend and purposely excluding her (he had promised her she could visit and meet his cat a few weeks prior) And what did I do? Like a giddy pink school girl, I anxiously agreed to go to his house alone. in front of her. I did it because I never get asked to hang out on my own. I wanted him to be my friend and have someone be only mine for once. My distorted thinking was making me not care about how it made my girlfriend feel, because inside I was in her shoes countless times and it was sort of a silent revenge. He was toxic. I mean toxic. I felt ignored often, belittled, made to feel like I was a stupid little girl and like he was above me and like he needed to baby me, when really I was helping him better himself. A real asshole. Class A shit. My best friend and my girlfrend hated him so much at this point. It must have been so obvious to everyone else. I feel so fucking stupid. Just the other day I was trying to talk to him about some basic shit and he again ignored me and sent a meme instead. He did that thing often where you can say something to him but he will change the subject to what ever it was he wanted to be talking about, completely ignoring anything I had to say. Questions, statements, talking about my dreams or wants, opinions, all fucking ignored like it didnt fuckng matter. The other day I brought it up. He used excuses and didnt even try to listen or say sorry or that he would try and fix it. None of that. And I guess im just going to have to accept that I will never be special to him, im not valuable enough to him for him to even care or listen. Fuck him. Im fucking done with him. My girlfriend and I and the relationship isnt centered around him and I anymore, I think ive let go of him months ago but its becoming more concrete these days. I let him go the first time for her, because at the end of the day I love her over everyone and no one will ever change that... but it wasnt for me. I didnt do it to save myself I did it to save the relationship, I distanced myself. This time im letting go because im finally accepting that I need to do it for my own sake. For me. For my health. My sanity. Good bye FP. I hope this never happens to me again. -nani P.S I will try and dissect this entire situation in bpd terms at some later point. Like what caused my certain behaviors, what was happening because of my illness and trauma, a general analysis of it from what would maybe be more of a psychiatric view. Im no professional but despite all my shit im super analitical and im good at looking at cause, effect, rationalizing etc. When it comes to others and after im finished having a personal experience.

#actuallyborderline #actuallybpd #borderline personality disorder #fps #fp #letting go #recovery #actuallymentallyill #lgbtq #nani #nanirants #nanivents

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