#im GAY and love pain

[karkats-longsleeves]

Still happy in our darkest tragedy, even if you don't see me...

[napping-sapphic]

I just want to fall in love with someone who makes me feel safe like even when we’re angry or sad or upset i just want to know that both of us are still going to be okay

[couch-house]

happy pride to my fellow themsbians :) including tekno!

I don't remember it too well but around when I was 13 or 14 and thought I was cishet I had a couple internet friends who started online gay dating and i was like "wtf you can do that???" and about a week later i got my first girlfriend :)

[kilgharrahh]

I think a lot about the idea of "friend of Merlin" being a euphemism for being gay in Camelot, like "friend of Dorothy" is for us. Most people in Camelot are likely to have encountered Merlin in some way or another, even if its just spotting him at public events. I like the idea that Merlin is unintentionally so obviously gay that without even trying he became a queer icon in Camelot.

One day, after he becomes King, Arthur is talking to a member of the public about something, and asks the man about his wife. "I don't have a wife, sire." The man replies. Arthur asks why, and the man says "Well you see, sire, I'm a friend of Merlin."

Arthur is taken aback. What's wrong with Merlin??

"You're... Merlins friend?" His voice is unintentionally harsh "I didn't even know the useless idiot had friends. I thought I was his only friend."

Arthur carries on with his business after this, but soon a rumour spreads that the King is gay, and probably in love with his servant. Arthur never hears of it, and nobody knows where it came from. But "friend of Merlin" becomes an even stronger euphemism after that.

[souredfigs]

Of lovers burdened with glory and doomed since the beginning of time

Book mentioned: The Song of Achilles by Madeline Miller/Song used: Achilles come down by Gang of Youths/Jujutsu Kasien 0 manga/Jujutsu Kaisen light Novel 1/Jujutsu kaisen manga chapters 78 and 236 by creator Gege Akutami/Jujutsu Kaisen season 2 , director Shōta Goshozono

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

My dude that butterfly howdy is the most handsome man I've ever seen. You gave him all the things...long hair AND FLUFF...and BIG OL WINGS...I'm looking at him respectfully but DAMN 👀👀👀👀👀

its my Duty as an artist to make him as pretty as my skills allow

(bonus barnaby having a mild crisis)

[gallonsoblood]

(CREDIT IF U USE PLS) Uhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i caved yall sory

Might open art trades for mutuals btw💥💥

[luck-of-the-drawings]

smth smth about 'the thing that the character did that you thought was rly rly funny in the moment is actually linked to a terrible trauma that lies within said character.' or wahtever.

[moonshynecybin]

Vale forcing himself to be physically close to Marc when he can (arms around him in parc fermé, hand at the small of his back on podiums, tucking Marc to him after they've knocked champagne bottles, etc etc) and someone (Alex? JL?) pointing out to Marc that the photos/videos are not much different than the ones that were being taken of them pre-Sepang 2015 (except back then Marc was always the one looking on Vale when he wasn't looking and now it's the opposite) (none of them is noticing that)

screaming at this..... the official motogp instagram account posts like. a picture compilation of vale doing a marc-style little freak stare at him in a bunch of recent press conferences and smooching him on the temple on the podium and grabbing his waist in parc ferme with a caption like. LOVE IS LOVE <3 get someone who looks at you like @ valeyellow46 looks at @ marcmarquez93 hashtag pride hashtag motogp. and marc sees it and stares at his phone for a full 30 seconds blankly systematically shutting down every single one of his emotional responses. cannot believe this is his life. so close to what he wants but he still thinks its fake and that vale hates himmmmm

[mitskijamie]

Jamiegender scholars should we discuss the recurrant emasculation by older men

[napping-sapphic]

PLEASE make a blanket and pillow bed on the floor with me PLEASE get distracted midway through and start a pillow fight PLEASE lay down on it and watch movies on our laptop and cuddle with me PLEASE kiss me goodnight and sleep with me there PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE—

[lolo-chi]

TBHK ch. 100 spoilers

I love them a normal amount (I am in so much pain)

[poems-of-a-lover]

the thought of sleeping in bed with a guy and my cat and just snuggling together for hours. holding each other tight and hiding under the blanket when the sun comes up so we can get more sleep. burying ourselves into each other, hands in hair, legs intertwined, refusing to separate until we absolutely have to. i wanna rest my head on a boys chest and hold him tight and sleep and feel safe.

[soldier-poet-king]

Will my suffering never cease

- went to good Friday evening service even tho it's not a day of obligation, didn't go yesterday evening to Maundy Thursday for a variety of reasons

- priest manages to fit homophobia and transphobia into his sermon. Not even gay marriage. Just unions, that let ppl share taxes and have hospital visiting rights. And big bad scary surgery. Like. Completely unrelated to the matter at hand. Says SO LITTLE abt the Passion, managed to talk for 10 minutes without really saying ANYTHING. Takes Pilate's 'what is truth' and instead of engaging in the long philosophical and theological discussion around that question, decides to use it as a rallying cry against wokeism and a godless progressive society.

- my two ex best friends were there. Ran into them. + One's husband, who I introduced her to a decade ago. Like I'm mostly over that, no longer shitty and resentful, fully know that it was partially my fault and born from my own terribleness at 19 and undiagnosed untreated mental illness. Still uhhh hurts tho??? As a reminder?

- music bad. Ok I'm petty. I'll give the trads (1) point. I don't like guitar mass. I will NOT agree with the trads in assigning moral weight to my aesthetic preference. It's simply a preference, which does not make any musical form inherently superior to the others. But the triduum really lends itself to Latin hymns and chants, in my heart. My other fave church music is traditional Black spirituals. I would greatly prefer either. But just. If it sounds like an acoustic version of a pop love song. I just. I can't. I KNOW I'm the weird about Jesus romantically girlie. But I am not vibin with this folks

Literally would have simply Walked Out. Hit da bricks during the homily. But was with my family so 1) cannot out myself 2) did not have house keys on me, so I was suck regardless

Anyway I said I wasn't going to do fun things today but I'm so upset and cranky and I did chores all day, I am going to catch up on dungeon meshi. Marcille is my best favourite cringefail girl I'm obsessed with her and surely the wlw neurotic fussy mage who loves her friends will not betray me like this

[coffee-system-uwu]

Andrew thought Neil was a side-effect and it turns out he was the most real person. Neil thought Andrew didn't feel anything, but found that Andrew feels far more Intensely than anyone expected.

[cryingdutchmann]

when i read the song of achilles i was very surprised at how genuine and equally matched their love for each other was. there wasn’t any such thing as one being more in love than the other. i’ve become so accustomed to that trope, that i kept waiting for it to happen; but it never did. i’m so used to love being a miserable, painful, unrequited thing, i kept expecting the moment when finally their unconditional love reached its limit but it never fucking did.

there was never a moment that patroclus wouldn’t have died, fought, or killed for his lover. and never one moment where achilles wouldn’t do the same. it never mattered that achilles was aristos achaion, because patroclus was the world to him and never stopped being so.

we never had to watch them grow apart, or become bitter towards each other. it was all pure, faultless, unyielding love until the very end. they never had to yearn, they never had to doubt. patroclus agonized over the idea of one day losing his achilles, constantly worrying over him. and achilles completely wrecked with grief over losing his most beloved.