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cessmaga · 1 year
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I never hated fans before but oh my god dc fans really love to kick hal and barry into the ground and treating them like irrelevant pieces of shits that don't deserve to be a dc characters
they already suffered enough since dc loves also to treat them like shit and their failed movies don't help anything at all
man being a dc fan sucks and I hate the dc fandom this is probably the most fandom that I don't enjoy on
hal and barry fucking deserves better dc and their fans don't deserve such a good characters
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schizononagesimus · 26 days
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🎶 they tried to make me go to rehab and i said PLEASE PLEASE HOLY FUCK I FEEL SO BAD WILL NOBODY HELP ME I CANT STOP WHY DOESNT ANYBODY NOTICE HOW BAD IT IS PLEASE HELP
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thefrogdalorian · 5 months
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Having of those moments where I wish to yeet the like button into the sun or maybe make it so there was setting you could turn on so that people can only reblog posts (even better with the minimum requirement of adding at least one tag)!!
It's kind of absurd that one of my fics is getting close to 500 notes while simultaneously being one I've had the least actual human interactions come from. Like...... come on, that's now how it should be AT ALL!
Don't get me wrong, I'm so thrilled people are clearly finding it and I guess enjoying it(??) but just having endless likes without people letting me know what they enjoyed about it or even if they liked it kind of makes me sad. That's not why I want to share my writing here!
I love having those little human connections with others. I don't ever want my writing to feel transactional. I would love to talk to more people about things I've written. It's truly one of the best feelings and I would hate to lose that, the more I write or the more notes my fics get. Please don't be shy!! I get the social anxiety, but there is no reason to be. I am truly just a Din Djarin obsessed loser.
Anyway, whine over. I don't want to focus on the negatives here and I appreciate every single person who has ever left a positive interaction with something I've written. You are truly a light!
#i don't JUST like posts too often#really the only posts i dont reblog but like are to save for later or if it's too personal/explicit#or i guess i have nothing to add and OP has said it all yknow#but if i see some writing or art i love then hell yeah i always force myself to add at least one tag i like just so the artist/author sees#otherwise it feels like a hollow transaction and i really want people to know i appreciate their art more than just pressing a button yknow#and I KNOW it's intimidating at first to interact with others!! TRUST ME i get it and i'm still awful at it#but just one little comment can make someone feel so good about their writing... why wouldn't someone want to try that at least#especially if you enjoyed it!!! even a key smash or a string of emojis!!!#and the death of the tumblr tag is SO SAD because where else am i meant to talk to you lot?#i mean these tags are longer than my actual post and that's the beauty of tumblr#you don't have to perceive me down here but you can if you wish and i love you for that!#and it's a nice way to organise your blog to make it navigable for others#ANYWAY said i was done whining and continued whining down here so there's that LOL but i always want to interact with more people#please do not be afraid of reaching out to me! scroll through my blog for 5 seconds and you'll see what a nerdy loser i am#akdjgds i mean aren't we all here#spud rants#writing#but thanks again to anyone who leaves nice comments im giving you a (consensual) forehead smooch MWAH
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you know what? there arent enough vyncent fics. there are plenty of ghostknife fics, but not enough vyncent fics, from vyncents pov. i want more fics of this guy just being a creature or idk getting analyzed in that way that ao3 authors get sometimes, but ive gotten like maybe two out of the 40 ive scrolled through so far and its bad. the vyncent tag has like zero actual vyn pov fics and somethings gotta give please im begging
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creatively-cosmic · 22 days
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im working on cleaning up the story we got for mn and the one we ended up with is almost definitely the Longest and most Slow Burn of the three is all ill say. this is not a problem but i hope you're ready for a long wild ride...
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eclarinet · 2 months
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same soup... different day
#hello it is sarah in the tags again#i feel like i tell myself i'll actually use this as a blog and then i forget and then i remember and then i forget again#venting ahead if that is not ur jam (talking to the 2 followers who actually see my posts)#i like tumblr because it;s so removed from my personal life that it feels really like a place i dont have to be anything for anyone#anyway i've been wondering if i should go back to therapy again but i feel like they might get tired of me because i keep bailing and comin#back like an addict lol like i swear i'll commit this time! sike. ghost be upon ye#anyway this time i'd come in for the big D#i don't like the floor it just feels closer to being six feet under and a bit like where i belong#i feel like a great number of things have happened in the past year and i've met all of it with a very lukewarm sense of dread and anxiety#its not even about feeling happy i dont even think i can feel shaken by anything. i feel like people see my apathy and think it's confidenc#anyway im not going back. they always say the same thing. can't do shit about shit life syndrome. and i don't want pills i'm so sick of the#isn't it something that i'm especially depressed the day before i start my new job? it's a tradition at this point. cheers#isn't it cruel that everyone in my life seem to put me on some kind of bizarre pedestal and no one questions my decisions or authority and#i battle with myself to figure out if i'm doing the right thing (no one will tell me the truth they are all scared of me getting angry)#was talking with a friend about how it'll be if i join their group project in a module we're taking soon.#and she's like well isn't it obvious? everyone will just listen to whatever you say and we'll end up doing well.#no one would challenge you because you're always right. and it's like.. yeah. i guess. okay. (hate that i know she's not wrong)#lol can u tell this is why house is kind of getting to me. learning lots of things about myself watching that man commit medical malpractic#anyway. i didn't ghost my therapist this time i remember now. she left the clinic lol she asked me to connect on linkedin. that was amusing#i always feel like the therapists here never know what to do with me and i kind of have to hold their hand a bit through my psyche#also they seem to be a bit at awe of me which is a bit annoying. and i know that definitely sounds like Issues but it's just like#ugh not you too. please stop i'm sick of it i'm sick with it. i don't want you to be inspired by my awful life and how i handled it#and i have nothing to say for it but... *gestures vaguely* of all of this
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princessmyriad · 5 months
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#personal#i have doctors appt today with a new doctor its literally not even a real appointment i just need some stupid forms signed#but guys im so stressed im so scared ive already cried once about it today i just. i fucking hate doctors so so much#theyre all so bad. im not in the mood to be dismissed again today and its 15 goddamn degrees so everything feels bigger and worse than it is#if they dont sign the form i dont get paid any more and if i dont get paid i cant continue to try and sort out my medical#which means i continue to not get paid and im just. so scared. so so fucking scared i dont even care if we find the start if the path#to vetter my health i dont care about gettinf better right now i just need this fucking form signed but#ive already been dismissised for it once and i have new doctor jitters. what do you mean i have to tell someone new that#i have ptsd and anxiety and depression and fibro and alleged bpd but its probably autism actually and hope#hope and prey they losten to me because its other doctors that have told me this and im definitely computer illiterate i couldntve come up#with all this on my own i promise ive done zero research into my own symptoms i live with every day im a simpleton im an idiot#please believe me dr refer me to ypur colleagues for further testing but in the mwan time sign the one form i need please#im so scared. i dont know what to do. my tarot says to tryst myself and find my own authority about the situation#but like literally legally i cant i have to rely on the hope this new doctor gives her signature or i dont get fucking paid as stated#i hate this i feel so shaky and nervous and nauseous and awful 😮‍💨#and im supposed to do groceries today. im at the very end of my shopping like if i dont go get food today#then i dont eat tonight but its cold and rainy and im super stressed abt the appointment so idk if ill be able to go shopping after#i dont wanna die anymore but like rn i kinda do this is too much today feels like too much#help me im drowning
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skyburger · 3 months
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RIP reo speedwagon (the jojo's bizarre adventure character) you would've loved reo speedwagon (the american rock band)
#muffin mumbles#jjba#iwas reading rhe wikipedia page for the band (Did you know they performed with pitbull. like dale mr worldwide mr 305. that pitbull)#and the band was formed in 1967 so iwas like huh i wonder when they character named after the band died. because like#**the (not they)#he was born a century earlier <- i was actuwlly right about this robert eo speedwagon (the character) was born in 1863#so in jjba canon: reo speedwagon (the character who is named after the band) ++#predates reo speedwagon (the band who the character is named after) by 106 years. Thats awesome. do you think in jojo world they were like#hey this dude seems pretty cool. lets name out band after him. Was it compleyely unrelated? does the band exist in jjba world i hope it doe#did rhe guy who invented the car the band is named after (who named the car after himself-- his initals were REO) name it after him?#cause like. this is the timeline pf events here: in 1863 robert eo speedwagon is born. we dont know what the eo stands for#in 1915 the reo speed wagon is introduced (named after its inventor whose initials are ransom eli olds)#in 1969 the band REO speedwagon (sometimes stylized R.E.O. speedwagon) is formed. theyre named after the car#(it was a random thing they picked because it got mentioned in someones uni class? i think?)#so in my mind. im thinking yhese are all correlated#in jojo world not in real life. sadly.#so im going to choose to believe the car guy heard about the speedwagon foundation and went huh. sick name! he just added his own initials#(REO) unrelated he fidnt know speedwagons (the guy) full name#and then in turn the band named themselves after the car. this is true in my heart#wait semi related what the hell was joseph thinking when he heard thet band like on the radio i know he did i know this. was he like ? Huh?#joseph joestar watching 70s & 80s musicians have the exact same names as the guys with crazy powers he fought decades ago: huh! thats weird#um i got off topic. i just wantef to make the joke in theactuwl post itself but alas. i love a good ramble#thisis a joke post (obviously) but im not joking about the ''you wouldve loved reo speedwagon'' part. i think he would 100% enjoy the music#authors note: this took me just shy of four hours to post becausde i put it in my drafts from my phone to edit in browser because#the tags broke in the editor (as they often do for me)#and this somehow ended in a detour of me installing & uninstalling & reinstalling a stupid amount of chrome extensions#because i managed to get rid of the likes and reblogs buttons i couldnt interact with posts. awful. its ok tho i solved it
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otrtbs · 2 years
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i am literally,,,,,so bad at determining if some people are being mean or not,,,,, like ,,,,,ohmygod?
i should start a thread here where i post semi-ambiguous ao3 comments and y'all can vote on whether they're hate comments or not 😭😭 (i won't! but goddamn! i thought i would be able to tell easier than this!)
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butchvamp · 6 months
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it sucks trying to find trans extreme horror recs and the only 3 authors everyone recommends all suck
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quaranmine · 2 years
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personally i've been waiting for the downfall of twitter for a while but i do feel bad for all the employees being laid off or the artists who are forced to, like, rely on twitter networking to get work and commissions. it's gotta suck unimaginably to be worried about the future of your livelihood because you're reliant on a billionaire idiot's new toy
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netscapenavigaytor · 1 year
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if i had a nickel for every time while headcanoning character dynamics that don't exist much in canon, i ended up making the fan-favorite yaoi pairing instead a worryingly toxic friendship that's only hanging on by a thread, i would have two nickels but it's weird that it happened twice
#error 0#i have a migraine right now. i am not sure why having migraines makes me more likely to muse on tumblr abt random shit#anyway for the curious this post is about magolor x marx kirby#but also abt beat x yoyo jet set radio#and while i say ''its weird that it happened twice'' its. probably happened more tjan that and i just forget lmao#i imagine to some extent its just me being petty and contrarian cuz im not particularly shippy#and also tend to be a Hater at certain ships for very particular and nonsensical reasons#but... this specific result of that feels. very Bizarre and i dont know why its happened twice#in this similar a form (even if uhh one of these friendships is SIGNIFICANTLY more toxic than the other)#(finiteverse marx and magolor should stop interacting. for everyone's sake but esp their own.)#i dont have a conclusion here though.#maybe this is just because im obsessed with making emotionally inept deranged weirdguys#and so like 70% of character dynamics that creates are at least a little bit unhealthy JDJAKDJSJDJ#(maybe it is for the better that i don't care much for shipping.)#(alternate timeline ----- shipfic author: only writes fics that make you think ''oh god please break up IMMEDIATELY'')#HELP ACTUALLY WHILE TYPING THIS I JUST REMEMBERED#THE ONR TIME I CAN THINK OF THAT I WROTE A ROMANTIC RELATIONSHIP (WAS A CHARACTER STUDY NOT SHIPPING)#WAS LIKE HYPER TOXIC AND AWFUL AND WAS EXPLICITLY THE CAUSE OF EVERY BAD THING IN THE STORYLINE#(this isnt counting stuff thats like ''there was a relationship in the past but its over now'' or ''there COULD have been one but wasnt'')#(i am only talking specifically me writing the point in time that the relationship was HAPPENING)#welcome to netscapenavigaytor where love loses forever#i shpuld stop rambling in these tags. this is silly#can you tell im bored and suffering from brain pain soup.#and also perpetually want to talk about characters SO badly but never know how to start a convo or who to start it with#oh well
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I do enjoy the Jean as a character and his dynamic with Harry makes me crazy, on the other hand I hate Jean fans here
#personal#like im sorry but making him in a poor meow meow who did nothing wrong just makes him a boring plain character#the thing is that he DID a LOT of things wrong and he is not innocent#ppl say that Harry made choices that led him to the bad things happen to him BUT SO DID JEAN#its his freaking choice to stay in rcm and its his choice to work with harry#and he says that he is old but he is 30 he works out he isn't alcoholic he can choose to have a better life#BUT HE DOESN'T DO THAT#he is so hang up on the rcm and harry and their special force unit that he cant move on#he unhealthily clings to something that breaks him and he sees how it broke Harry#but he says it won't happen to me I have my shit together I am an authority I am in control I can do it#like he is so offended that Harry told him to fuck off and that he is cramping his style like it was probably a first time Harry said that?#but we know that Harry would take on too much cases and he would investigate them by himself A LOT so did he just sneak out?#we will never know but pls dont make anyone in this game Have It Together they are all broken#bc they are humans#and you can't live Right#its not a possibility in real world#they are so three dimensional Im in awe like how do you even show such humanity in a character#he is no longer a character he is a person#who cant be good or bad yeah even Harry#well I must say firing squad is like the first candidates for bad people they do feel like they are animals or smth#like you cant see anything human about them except for the fact that they avenge their captain#fucking game makes me emotional again#why didn't Jean try to talk to Harry when he saw that he is unwell#like I was standing there seeing him sitting in this cafe in his stupid wig#refusing to talk to me#yeah I understand he doesn't owe it to Harry to explain anything#but I dunno if a person cried for your help and they used to be your friend and you still work with them...#like would you just let them die#would you turn your back on them#and if you would why do you still cling to this failed friendship and this person who cries for your help
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vaugarde · 2 years
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been talking w lex and man ngl ive been ragging on lionblaze but i dont really like jayfeather either. hes not worse than lion but hes also just so shitty to dove and ivy and also gets abusive to a literal orphan child and is shitty to the other disabled characters. and i hate how he gets a pass on all that bc “oh he breaks the mould and is funny and its internalized ableism”
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bloodhailmp3 · 2 years
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i love how like literally everyone in 2010 - 2014 had this annoying way of speaking online like even if u were quote unquote cool u would still type in this v sincere forced quirky way that means if ur reading a post from 2012 in the present day u can usually guess what year the post was made before u check the timestamp. and now the common like online uhhh tone?? style of communication?? (sorry idk what to call it idk much abt linguistics) has shifted to being a little more detached and ironic and if someone still types in that early '10s style it comes across as what would now be considered cringe or maybe to put it more nicely just a touch too earnest and emotionally involved and like wannabe quirky
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orcelito · 2 years
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I know it's not actually in my job description to put myself in harm's way just to spare my employees from the risk, but like. Idk. There's just something about being in a position of authority over them, yet not being able to truly change anything for them... all I'm doing is trying to make things as tolerable for them as possible, and trying to mitigate the owner's treatment of them as just business assets.
So no, I can't raise their wages, but I can be forgiving when it comes to tip deductions and maybe fudge things a little bit when it comes to performance reviews. I can keep some things a secret, and I can quietly tell a diabetic employee that she doesn't have to pay for the fries actually, I won't tell anyone.
And I can take on some of the riskier tasks, because I don't want them to have to. So I'll put the box up well over my head while im balancing on a ladder, I'll cut the giant wheel of parmesan cheese with a dull knife, I'll do the objectively unpleasant tasks, all so they don't have to.
I know my actions won't change the fact that we live in a soul-sucking capitalism machine, but I just hope I can make things even just a little bit more tolerable for them.
#speculation nation#i have. some thoughts about being an assistant manager.#i dont know if it's because i have a fundamentally giving personality. an inherent wish to protect and provide.#but i just dont understand why so many other people in positions of authority dont feel this way too.#i hear all those horror stories about awful managers and what have you. and like. why would you do that to people?#your Employees!#theyre real people just struggling to get by in life and youre going to treat them like dogshit?#why? so you can feel better about your own insignificant speck of a life?#im small. insignificant. so tiny in the grand scheme of things.#but you know what i can do? make life just a little bit better for a handful of people.#im not a perfect person. and im not great at this whole authority thing.#but what i do know is kindness and gratitude.#and every day im thankful to my employees for being there. for trying so hard despite how much it sucks.#i want to help them as much as i can. i want them to feel comfortable around me.#i want to make them feel Safe. cared for. protected.#the other day i walked a 17 year old employee out to her car after closing despite it being out of my way#bc i didnt want her to go out to the parking lot alone at night#the whole time i was just mentally Daring anyone to try to mess with us. i wouldve let loose on them.#in a detached sort of way i think i do love my employees. i know it's just a work relationship so i cant call it genuine love#but i still want to care for them. i want to make things Better.#i wish more people felt the same as me. maybe the world would be a little less hellish that way.
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