#im hoping to keep on that track

[eccentricwearsgoggles]

about to open up about some personal stuff briefly. the purpose of doing so, is so that others who feel similarly have a positive reminder or just like, idk not feel alone about it. but I guess it's also cuz I don't always talk about it, but it's on my mind at times.

anyway. Growing up into my teens and even after, I had low self esteem and thus, didn't think I'd ever have like...any kind of steady relationship that would build up into marriage and it gave me a lot of bad and negative emotions. (Which, idk I'm pretty sure my parental issues were super evident, especially once I really figured things out later.) Thoughts like, "I'm never enough. No one's going to love me like the way I'd love them. I'm no good, I don't deserve it. What's wrong with me?"

Those are all some pretty self-deprecating thoughts. Especially when you look around and feel like everyone's got it figured out more than you do- which to say, might not always be the case as much as you think it is. Which, sometimes can be hard for me a lot of my acquaintances and friends, either younger or older are in serious relationships or married.

That's some of the difficult stuff, because you're wondering why you don't have that. I've mostly kind of come to terms with being single currently, it's not what I envisioned for my age. But like, there's probably reasons why it's this way, and not necessarily for negative reasons. I now understand there's nothing wrong with me, I choose to remain this way. Maybe we don't always feel like we choose that. But frankly I'm not settling for anyone who doesn't take me seriously or share important values/goals as I do.

There's underlying reasons as to why I wanted companionship while I was depressed. A lot. self worth and esteem issues, problems with home life, work, and perspective on life and circumstances. The main thing I was missing was the foundation I've found through my faith, as well as having the help to understand /why/ I was feeling how I did. I've needed true friendship in my life. I've started really building on that in the last couple of years and it's helped me a lot.

NGL I doubt it's going to go away entirely, cuz it's natural. I still would like to marry, but I'm a lot more accepting of the fact if it doesn't happen. But now that things are more stable in my life, and I've got a clearer head... I do want that. And that's okay. But doesn't mean there's something wrong with me if it doesn't happen. We just have expectations because of perspective and when we look at what others have or don't have. Everyone reaches goals or attain things at different paces, and when you do, hopefully you're able to look back and appreciate the growth you've made.

so like, hope you find strength and support in your family and friends that you have.

[your-turn-to-role]

moment of appreciation again for what is possibly my favourite later game percy quote that everyone always forgets about

(said to vex, of course)

[deathbypufferfish]

I'm cooking up a sims challenge!

The working title is The World After challenge. Years after a flu has wiped out most of the population you make your journey out into the world to find others and rebuild a community. You've lost all your gear in the fire that took out your last settlement, along with your community. You've ended up on the Crumbling Isle in Windenburg. Now it's time to set down camp, gather supplies, find other survivors, and choose the place you will rebuild. Will you set sail for the islands of Sulani? Start a ranch in Chestnut Ridge? Or hole up for the winter in Moonwood Mill. You miss the world before, but now it's time to build an after.

I'm working out all the rules and ideas rn with my sim, Midge, but I hope to someday post it as a real challenge! This is all majorly inspired by Station Eleven (def read the book or watch the show)

[buwheal]

Unexpected but fair.

How long were we disconnected?

[sluckythewizard]

these are A BIT OLD but uhhh here check out these aggio doodles i did forever ago. still VERY happy w my colors :3

[simikae]

warm ups from an unidentifiable time but i assume most of them were from 2-3 weeks ago. ALSO tentative pass at some self-indulgent sticker/charm designs maybeeee?

[7116811219]

so i am in the hospital,,,,

[bluelolblue]

Claudio from Gibraltar (The Informant) screenshots part 6

[kedicatt-cotl]

Cult of the Baabaa kids AU timeline

For myself and everyone else confused, I made a timeline of my AU.

I will be editing this post, adding new links to it and updating the timeline as the story progresses.

All the posts that don’t happen in a specified timepoint are linked in the link archive post

Narinder’s mortal childhood Everything stays (beginning)  Aym’s scar [ask] Baabaa’s past life [ask] Lamb’s memory of the past

Leshy the Chaos [ask] Sin triangle (Kallamar character study) [video] Starting the cult [ask]

Sassy Narinder (sketch 1) Shy Narinder shitposting (1, 2)

Sassy Narinder (sketch 2) Leading the cult together

Belomor born on the 28th of April.

Vlastislava born on the 14th of March.

Buyana born on the 4th of May. Narinder has experience with children Sassy Narinder (sketch 3) Lamb finds out that he can revive the bishops [ask]

Leshy revived (part 1, part 2) Belomor has a question Leshy and the Baabaa kids

Baal and Aym join the cult  Aym’s scar (the end of the post) [ask] Narinder meets Baal and Aym after 15 years  “What the heck did we miss” Aym and Baal reunite with Forneus (part 1, part 2) [ask] New toys for the children (the kits, the kids) The kits and the kids [ask] Preparing to meet Heket

Heket revived (part 1, part 2, part 3, part 4) Dying clothes with the kids    Leshy’s eyes Incomplete and questioned guide to follower sign language Just Heket signing [ask] Heket and music [ask] Heket and the children [ask] Leshy’s and Heket’s follower friends [ask]

Kallamar revived Kallamar’s mouth [ask] Kallamar and the children [ask] Kallamar’s true personality [ask] Kallamar and the followers [ask] Family hug Relics of the bishops and the search for answers [ask] Kallamar’s married to how many people? [ask] Kallamar’s ears (1, 2, 3)

What the kids have heard of Shamura [ask] Shamura lore (1, 2, 3, 4, 5 half 1, 5 half 2, 6) Everything stays (end) Lamb adventuring outisde the cult [ask]

[magnolia-sunrise]

while im wrangling with other parts for the short comic im trying to make, just like last time when i was starting work on the "first meeting 8 years ago" comic (you can read it here) (and the concept designs for the comic are here) im doing a little bit of design concepting of Wolf and Bastien about.. 1.5-2 ish years after that meet cute at knife point and i thought maybe it would be fun for you to see as well :')

it's always so interesting for me to go back and into a point where the two of them are starting to grow into the people they are at -present time - but not quite there yet and how that informs the way they dress or carry themselves.

here's Bastien circa freshly 30, in their Will Graham haircut era, tired as hell from trying to get the clinic going with no resources and no help. he's started to dress a little bit more casually, but he's clearly not very comfortable in his own skin or clothes - most of them picked out and bought for him by his boyfriend, they tend to be either oversized or a size too small but never quite right. they're still putting a lot of emphasis on layers and trying to hide their hips and body in general, just putting on whatever clothes rather than thinking about what makes him look/feel good.

Wolfgang is doing a bit better since the last time we saw them, they're a lot more confident in their body and after a long, arduous time they feel a real sense of freedom. their current fashion style is very much already emerging here, though they have still a few wounds/scars they want to conceal and ideally get rid of entirely. they're also very carefully experimenting with feminine elements of their presentation, not really wearing make up or a lot of jewelry at this point, and their wardrobe doesn't fully match their very selective and expensive taste yet.

a lot of how they carry themself and what they chose to wear here has to do with how they're trying to appeal to Bastien at this moment, since they have a lot to make up for in terms of their first impressions 🫣

edit: + together since i rarely ever draw them side by side facing forward and Wolf without high heels

[kandidandi]

[box-likes-minecraft]

PLACE YOUR BETS ON WHO THE NEW HC MEMBERS ARE!!

[megumi-fm]

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[transgirltrish]

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[copyquat]

I wish all the firefly wanters the best of luck

[milkochaa]

brain rotting so badly about timmy that I dive right back into making (coughs, wheezes) ...art? I'm actually going back to drawing??? who am I??? tims making me want to draw his stupid ass?? not even writing cld fix this problem!!?? not enough!! *collapses