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maidragoste · 1 day

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hey hun! im sorry for your loss and i saw u post abt needing distracting. so could u write a jace x reader? it could be any plot you want whatsoever and could it be a modern au? as well fluffy! is that okay?

Hi, how are you?

Thank you for your message 💖 I'm sorry it took me so long to upload your request (in the end it cost me more than I thought to recover and then university and trying to find a job overwhelmed me) but I hope you like the result 🥰💖

Disclaimer: English is not my first language so I apologize for any mistakes.

It hadn't really been Jacaerys' intention to wait for you to come back from your date. He should be doing some college work but instead, he's watching TV without paying attention to it thinking about how the hours are passing and you still haven't come home. Your date should be fun if you don't text Jace anymore. Jace shouldn't be worried about you because he knew Rhaena would never have set you up with an idiot but he still couldn't help being worried.

Jacaerys wanted you to come home and see if you were okay. It would hurt him to hear the details of your date and see you all excited about another boy but he would bear it.

If only Jace wasn’t afraid of ruining things between you two then he would have taken you out himself after hearing you complain about how your love life is dead instead of letting Rhaena set you up with one of her friends. But Jacaerys is sure that you don’t see him as more than a friend and he doesn’t want to risk losing you so he doesn’t make a move. He's content with being able to be in your life, with the chaotic mornings of the two of you getting ready before going to class, with your text messages telling him everything that happens to you during the day, with the nights cooking together and with the breaks where you watch series snuggled together on the couch.

Jacaerys looks away from the TV as he hears the keys clicking into the lock. You walk in and Jace feels a pit in his stomach because you don’t look excited, you look defeated? Your eyes meet his and you give him a tired smile but you quickly break eye contact to take off your coat and sneakers and then run to the couch with him.

“So you wanna talk about it?” Jacaerys doesn’t even finish asking how much you’re already talking.

“It was fine. He’s nice and we talked for hours. Everything was going well until the end because he tried to kiss me.” If you hadn’t been busy fidgeting nervously you would have noticed how your roommate seemed to tense up all of a sudden. “I declined and he wasn’t bothered but it was awkward.” You sighed.

“Why did you reject him? Are you the kind of person who has a rule of not kissing on the first date?”

“Because I don’t like him” you declared, suddenly looking up and for a moment, at the intensity of your gaze, Jace forgot to breathe. “I could be his friend, but I’m not interested in him in any other way.”

“Oh” was the only thing that came out of the surprised man’s mouth.

“Oh,” you repeated, “Why did you wait for me, Jace?”

“Who said I was waiting for you? I was watching TV” he denied instantly.

“Jace”

Seeing your beautiful eyes looking at him pleadingly for a moment, Jace was afraid to give in and confess everything to you, as for more than a year he can’t stop thinking about you and wants to be more than your friend. But again, he’s afraid of making you uncomfortable and losing your friendship, so he asks instead.

“What does that have to do with you not liking your date?”

“While I was with him I realized that I actually wanted to be home with you” you confessed and instantly regretted it when you saw that he remained silent. “Forget it. I'm sorry for making it weird” You got up ready to go to your room so you could have a crisis alone about ruining your friendship with Jace when he took you by the hand and pulled you causing you to end up on top of him.

“Oh no, I don’t plan on forgetting it, not when I’ve been pining for you for over a year,” he stated making you smile.

“You’re a coward,” you mocked without malice. “Over a year and you never made a move. You’re lucky I decided to act.”

“You’re right,” he said smiling unbothered. “Now that we’ve established that I’m a fool and you’re the best, can I kiss you?” he asked and you laughed feeling delighted with him.

“Try not to sound so desperate to kiss me.”

“Can you blame me?” He arched an eyebrow, any embarrassment or fear he felt disappearing the moment he knew his feelings were reciprocated. “I thought a lot about kissing you and I finally have the chance.”

At his confession, you felt heat on your face and your smile grew. “You're such a fool.” You took his face in your hands and felt your heart warm at the softness with which Jace looked at you.

The moment your lips touched his Jacaerys knew he would become addicted to your kisses. He would look for any excuse to kiss you as many times as he wanted. You would probably become the clingy couple that his friends would make fun of. But he didn't care and he didn't think you would either because you were kissing him with the same intensity.

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hella1975 · 1 year

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ive got an essay due at 3pm tomorrow and ive not even looked at it i am so so unserious about my degree and by the grace of some higher being i somehow keep managing to crawl through it's actually getting a bit funny

#me and an old friend of mine used to have a running joke during a-levels that im just one of those people where shit Works Out #and it started bc we shared two a-levels (english and economics) and in BOTH classes i regularly didn't do the homework #or the reading etc and yet it would ALWAYS work out for me #like we'd walk into a class neither of us having done the homework and they'd get yelled at while i went under the radar somehow #or that one english essay i got the highest score in the class when i literally hadn't even read the fucking book it was on #and when we pointed the theory out it started just becoming really prevalent #like no matter how late i am for things i'll arrive and by some miracle the thing im late for is also late (e.g a train or teacher)#like im just one of those people that has very very mundane luck #and low and behold i am fighting this degree with bloody fists putting the absolute bare minimum in for my own sanity's sake #and i SOMEHOW keep pulling through. literally failed two modules last year and STILL got a 2:1 average #and the last essay i wrote was the worst essay id ever done in my life and i get my standards are higher bc ik im good at essays #but the point still stands and you know what? i got a FIRST #literally was pure waffle i have never blagged it so hard and i got a FIRST #and all this shit just makes me cockier and cockier and go even more by the skin of my teeth and it ALWAYS WORKS OUT #it's soooo silly but im not complaining. anyway ill keep u posted about this essay <3 it's econ history so is actually interesting #but the most ive done for it is ask the sc ai lmao and for context degree-level essays usually require a good few days of graft #live love laziness #hella goes to uni

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simplydnp · 8 months

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What inspired u to get a degree in math just curious now :) :0

i've always been really good at math. for some reason, it comes extremely naturally to me. i chalk it up to genes and also my environment. i was fortunate enough to have 2 very present parents in my life that really valued education, so not only was i reading at an early age, but any time we travelled, we would do math flashcards in the car.

i was told that university courses would be difficult, so i braced for math to get harder. but it never really did. like yes, i had to do homework and study for tests, but i never had to work to understand something, it always just clicked. i think i'm simply hardwired for math. and i really love it. it makes so much sense to me, and it's almost beautiful the way a lot of complex mathematics works. it's like you're tapped into the universe and it's speaking about the mysteries of existence, and you learn to listen and speak back.

#theres a sense of comfort that comes with it. there's a right answer. there's a reason its the way it is.#but im also petty as all get out. and i enjoy the challenge of it. and i do selfishly relish in understanding difficult things #my brain gets a kick out of knowing things. especially math.#and ive now learned. many years later #that i have adhd. but we never realized because i just hyperfocused on school. and i played a bunch of sports.#so i had been sort of self-medicating because exercise can help. especially with a mild case. and since i was so interested in school #i was always an excellent student (who procrastinated like nobodys business bc i would challenge myself by inventing a time crunch)#like i wouldn't even talk to my friends in class. it was all work all the time. we're here for school not to talk.#math is predictable and regular and rhythmic #thank you for asking!!#c.text #answered

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skitskatdacat63 · 8 months

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Lmfao my mom was getting on me abt not having enough to do this upcoming semester so I decided ah okay I'll add another class. And that's perfectly fine. But the one I picked results in the majority of my schedule being generally unaffected and still lax, but my Thursday being absolutely fucked.

For reference, on every other day I'd spend like less than four hours in class/commuting(anywhere from zero hours to almost four), but Thursday, its almost 9 hours combined 😭 which is like fine with me, but I think ill despise thursdays after this, AND MY BIRTHDAY IS ON A THURSDAY :(

#she doesnt like the fact that im practically free on Fridays #<- online class that doesnt meet on that day #so ah i hope this balances out sjkfkflg #the way scheduling in my school works has such a weird affect #my mon/wens/fri are gonna be so chill and then tues/thurs is just....something #it makes it worse bcs one of my classes only takes place for a section of the semester #and that class is mon/wens so im only gonna be online after that #though i still think ill have to meet w that professor bcs there is in fact reasoning for that class to be so short lasting #but tues and thurs is just stuff that ill never get any reprieve from lol #four classes in one day. we'll see how it goes 🥰🥰#also thurs will be interesting bcs i will have two classes just abt middle eastern politics #i came across a class on the arab-israeli conflict and wanted to take it bcs its obv very relevant rn #and then the one i just scheduled is also abt middle eastern politics so i really am going to be thru the ringer #not that its a bad thing at all!! i just mean its interesting how relevant this semester will be and how im just getting intensely informed #anyways i think the way i schedule would be a nightmare to anyone else #i try to schedule every class after 12(or 11 at least) so then all of them are crammed right after one another #and i wake up an hour before class and leave myself that meager time to get ready and commute lmfao #my friend asked me when i eat lunch. and im like uh ;;; never? 🥰#lol dw i do eat but like i treat my time on campus like how can i pack this as densely as possible #i dont like sitting around by my lonesome it makes me depressed dhfkkg #also i think i will actually kms with all the writing im goong to have to do this semester #that is my reasoning to my mom abt why she shouldn't be pissed at my supposed lack of activity #like im taking so much thats emphasized with writing. dont worry i will be in fact budy #*busy #catie.rambling.txt

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straightlightyagami · 8 months

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you know until relatively recently i thought i'm at least like.. noticeably above average appearance-wise, i took it basically as a given since i was a little kid. but then i realized i'm actually ugly as fuck and nobody would ever pay any attention to me or find me good-looking or hot or whatever and i will be alone forever and die alone. so.

#iso.txt #vent post #obviously not posting a picture of myself so this is a pointless post. but it's better this way #i like the fact that lots of people here pay attention to me and it's because i'm smart and funny and say interesting things #every few days i realize this and start crying about it like some kind of idiot. i should get plastic surgery to fix all this but idek what #i told two of my friends about this and they gave me some nonsense about society and so on so thats basically confirmation lmfao #like if someone who is conventionally attractive asked you that you would Not fucking say that.#also some bs about how maybe nobody ever expressed any interest in me bc they don't think they'd have a chance. riiiiight lmfao #ik it's so superficial but i hate all of my features so much me being born was a mistake #i know that the fact that BASICALLY NOBODY EVER TRIES TO TALK TO ME is an indicator of that anyway #it just actually hurts like. i hope it's just bc where i live i'm not good at the language but maybe that's just cope #i just don't get it. i'm always better dressed than the majority of people in my classes. in my opinion.#like being presentable and shit matters doesn't it #maybe it's just that i sit in the front row and nobody there talks to anyone bc we actually want to take notes #i do have 'friends' but i don't get it. i don't get it how do you just 'meet people' who would ever pay attention to me.#the number of times i talked to someone who i wasn't introduced to by someone else is TINY #it's so unfair bc i'm like smart and funny and so on #sometimes if i squint im like well *i* think i'm kind of good looking. but LITERALLY NOBODY ELSE does #people only say that when they're trying to be nice.#now i'm thinking this type of post is going to make ppl think i post like a girl again and it's making me more upset but whatever idc idc #at best i'm 'cute.' people call me that a lot. i'm cute like a little kid is cute. i'd never be anything else to them.#i know it 'doesn't actually matter' but maybe it matters TO ME #basically any time i look in the mirror im reminded of all the reasons i ever wanted to kms

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mainfaggot · 2 months

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the last time i felt emotionally fulfilled in a friendship was when i was 15, and before that when i was 13. im turning 21 next month

#my current close friends are really great but my depression gets in the way and it's really hard to tell them about my feelings lol #so i basically make my chronic loneliness worse by distancing myself and isolating etc #they still like me though... weirdly #well probably bc we're all mentally and emotionally unwell! we get one another's issues #but i cant bring myself to say a lot of things i would otherwise want to... since i feel so misunderstood #even when i have tried to talk about things they just dont process them the way im hoping they will #and it's not their fault!!! it's my fault for expecting someone to understand exactly what im saying when i say it #i almost always find words for things. i describe them in detail. and i think thats where things get too unique and too confusing actually #so they cant personally understand #like i said. not their fault!#i just miss this one friend i had briefly in 8th grade #i was getting outcasted from everyone in my own class. she was in the classroom next door #i don't remember how we crossed paths but we did and she was so smart and so understanding #and we just clicked #i remember running in a field with her. she was so.. everything #i miss her #and when i was 15 i remember talking about all of my mental issues with this classmate and we immediately saw each other as mirror images #it was crazy... we also had a lot of interests in common and we looked out for each other #she's doing a lot better nowadays which is why we're no longer in contact probably #it's hard to be friends when one of you is stuck in one place so i dont really blame her #we drifted apart anyway. i bet if i asked she'd still make time for me a few times a year #i just didnt ask because it felt like the mutual understanding we had ended #shes a different person now. and for the better too! i shouldn't interfere in her happiness #z.post

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hat-guy-official · 3 months

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you and etoiles are such good friends ^^ 🤭

Wow. What keen observation skills you have.

I don’t know what the infatuation is with you people and me talking to my classmates. It’s not that big of a deal.

#in my mind scara is a very sentimental person but he would rather have no friends at all than admit that #so like that dumb little cat keychain is gonna be on his hat FOREVER but if someone asks him about it he’ll pretend to forget where its from #and like. he’ll go give little presents to lucien but ONLY if he has an excuse #and when he gets the little chocolates from people in his class he’s either eating them or giving them to nahida bc he does appreciate it #that being said idk if you guys are taking this as him having crushes on them 😭 imo he’s just learning how to be nice so he’s awkward #while I’m ranting I do have to say how much I love the Akademiya ocs. my god #they give me life. both as a college student and wanderer rp blog theyre just so interesting to play alongside #im soooo bad at making ocs myself so im sitting here in canon character jail but I love this lil group a lot :’)#but my bf is a big oc guy and I was telling him ab all of this and he was so into it. super cool you guys #okay rant over ily #wanderer speaks #genshin ask blog #ic blog #in character #genshin rp #ic ask #in character blog #etoiles astrology painter

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anothermouse · 2 years

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I find it weird how ppl will say for reasons that systems are fake is that multiple alters talk similar or have similar interests. Have u ever met siblings. They talk similar and have similar interests because they've spent years together ya dork, as systems start to get along more they're gonna start sharing more interests and speech patterns just like you with people you spend a lot of time with lol. Also they all share a life, they have to be able to act like each other to get by and seem "normal."

#this isnt directed ive just noticed that me and willow steal each others interests a lot and its making me think abt all the ppl ive seen #using that reasoning in fake claiming. me and her dont really talk similar but i can imagine that happening with systems who #talk to each other or mask as each other more.#idk. its to our best interest to share skills and interests. if only one person likes/knows writing then we have a problem when we need to #write and they're not present. if only one person likes/knows guitar we're in big trouble in guitar class if they're not present.#and we NEED to get along to operate so its good for us to have things to bond over! we used to argue a lot and it was fucking annoying and #made life hard. i couldnt take care of the body and willow was depressed and it made the brain miserable and it sucked #so the more we can get along the better and i think having things in common is good for that!#like i said we dont really talk the same and for us that works just fine but for some systems that could create communication barriers.#idk. i just think ppl should think a little more about why alters might become similar over time. me and my cohost r literally like family #system #osdd #did #multiple #plural #edit: actually maybe i do pick up speech from her. she says 'my friend' a lot and sometimes im tempted to say it cus its nice #but i feel like it sounds weirder coming from me 😅#OH AND LOVELY. she uses the word lovely so much ive just picked it up. its such a good adjective #idk why usually you expect the host to be the one whos language people copy but i feel like i pick up things from willow more than she does #from me.

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designernishiki · 1 year

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oh baby I knew it from the fuckin moment the addc was introduced that there’s just no damn way they DIDNT have some legally sketchy shit going on with the alzheimers/dementia patients and unethical clinical trials. I feel so vindicated right now

#im on chapter 9 of judgement #I know my SHIT when it comes to human experimentation and medical ethics #and criminal investigation in general frankly that’s a big reason I was so excited to play this game (I’ve taken college classes in this)#but yeah the moment the addc is introduced and we see the layout of the place and details like the gigantic dementia patient ward right next #to the research facility and such I was like mm….. that can’t be good #I was rambling to my friend during that like. yeah they could probably get away with doing basically whatever they want with these patients #because of all the conditions to research alzheimer’s and dementia make for some of the easiest to strip subjects of their autonomy #making informed consent and whatnot most likely not an issue and complaints about malpractice or what have you extremely easy to stifle #ie; if you are a patient there you are probably just straight up trapped. no one’s gonna listen to you you have no autonomy and-#the sad but true fact about the situation is that people don’t have the time/resources/capacity to be caretakers for their alzheimers/#dementia-ridden loved ones so a place like this- a leading research/medical facility said to be on its way to finding a cure and changing #the world- would seem like the perfect place to send a loved one in need of full time care and trust that they will do nothing but good #so it’s a great setup to get patients who are likely to die as it is- who have no autonomy- who have no credibility- and have nowhere to go.#I couldn’t help but think about that like. immediately after seeing the ward #so. here we are. let’s see where this goes #judgement #judgment spoilers #rambling #I have a weird special interest sorta thing in medical ethics / human experimentation and I have a character who literally teaches a #class on the topic (and is a surgeon) so. that’s why I’m like. especially intrigued right now

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fishybehavior · 2 years

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I don't want to go to school...

Well to be accurate I don't want to go to my second class today.

#i really like my first class #but i just dont like my second class #just want to skip it honestly #all we're doing is making out final presentations for the rest of the year #and i just dont want to stay at school for 3 hours to sit at a #my class for about an hour not even sure what my teacher wants #i dont even want t9 be an artist #ngl ive just given up #i dont want to really be at school anymore #i dont have friends #im not interested in being a professional artist #i dont want to live here anymore #at this point im just going to move back with my parents #cause im just not really happy anymore #and i just dont want to try anymore #i feel like i took way to many steps at once #and maybe i should judt try again take it slow #move back with my parents wh9 live in a small town #enjoy being with my family i miss #get a job #try to move out #maybe i can make friends #maybe i get a roommate #idk #but im not really happy anymore #and honestly i just want to hug my mom and dad #i feel like a child but i miss them a lot #rant #tw rant #oversharing

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tiredeyes1975 · 1 year

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scrollling through tumblr while so afraid and sad

#everything happening in real time.#im deciding if i HAVE to choose ill do choir and not do dvp2 #i feel like its a more selfless choice bc my choir director really wants me in the class #and on the other hand i have no experience at all in dvp2 im only joining bc im interested and my friends said theyd help me in the class #and i feel like itll look better on college apps if im more consistent with activities #im sure abt this decision but god im sad :(((#i was so excited because the dvp teacher thought i mightve been good enough to skip dvp1 #gahhhhhh its sad but i have to do it :/

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femmefaggot · 2 years

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wahhhhhh

#i love cassie sm i feel like a teenager again in a Not absolutely shitty way #spent splatoon talking in southern accents. and now have lore #our british accents are. a father and his child that is 'of the devil' + two southern reverends who are going to exorcise said child #in a realm where everything is weird and out of time. the father and son r Not bio related nd r prob from diff times #i havent felt like this in forever they r so good at idk. i dont do voices w other ppl?#unless its the jester voice for random phrases #but idk! we used to have like #ehat we called british accent fridays every week <33 and i feel less weird abt being annoying around them #not at all a like. reflection of my other relationships btw just very interesting how #their personality and tendencies are like. different from what im used to?#but is so nostalgic to me like yeah this is what being in middle/high school was about #we were getting absolutely decimated and nobody was reviving us #and they kept talking in the accent like im over here i exist and i fully couldn't function #like when youre in class w a friend in hs and make eye contact and have to stop from laughing #felt good nice yayy i love them AND idk theyre so open <33 told them #that me n Shelby talked abt how they dont have a hater heart unlike me and they laughed w me #we are so different and so similar and wahhhhh #outgoing transmission #castanets

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microwaving-tesilid-argente · 3 months

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lying face flat on the floor passed out, vatican trio and their "if i get news of you dying another time i'll fucking get you" and "please take care of my friend this time as well".

the way that their designs are both archetypes that suggest they're not super in touch with their emotions (aloof black-haired guy and airheaded jock) but they're in fact both so casual and vocal about how much tesilid means to them

#s-class heroine spoilers #vatican trio #thinking once again about how hestio and ephael are clearly very good friends to tesilid and about how #this is not necessarily good news considering his. regressions.#tapas comments sections being like 'oh nooo tesilid has to regress so many times and ailettes not there'#me shoving it all aside and being like 'AAAAAAA tesilid has his friends by his side but they dont remember what he does!!!!!!!'#thinking about that one post thats like can we be more insane about friendships. no more insane than that. no more than that #thats me im like yeah okay romance is cool only in the seventeenth is cool but what about being in every round that sucks #i think if friendship was a major theme in canon i would be more normal about this but unfortunately this doesnt seem to be the case #so ill just cook my own food.....#still. props to irinbi for including such wholesome friendships even if they arent the focus #man i want to write another vatican trio fic but i have no ideas or vibes in my head #i want to read another one of festering wound / the 2nd fic but like ive already written that fic #its already done why do i feel the itch to write another one like it #gngngngng i need the three of them to be less normal about each other #hestio & ephael i understand bc to their knowledge tesilid is fine he may have had a near death exp but he has a girlfriend now #not that having a girlfriend automatically erases trauma but he certainly did not appreciate them being around the two of them lmao #but like. shakes tesilid. can you be less normal about them. think about them in your head sometimes maybe #i know youve probably seen them everyday for the last [censored] number of years but please throw me a bone #i want to see hestio and ephael reacting to the knowledge that tesilid has regressed for god knows how long #wait thats the plot of the hestioreed fic maybe its time to go back to that #screw the prequel itll get done when it gets done....#hm thats also the plot of the genderbend au but that au has tesilette and im just kinda 😭 not interested in writing romance #or more specifically the falling in love process. i just want them already in the blender that is one sided pining

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hakugreenfinch · 7 months

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"you should absolutely go for a scholarship abroad" they dont know i spent 5 months studying abroad and during those 5 months only once did anyone that wasnt a teacher try talking to me and even she went "oh" when i said i was an international student and just. left

#hakuna matata #i had a... very weird day today.#i asked a teacher for a one on one discussion #she spent todays class talking about how we should go for a phd #and like... 'if you have a good thesis topic and your consultant endorses it and you know and are friends with every teacher etc #you should go for it!!'#which is like... cool cool.#but can i try it even if my topic is cringe my consultant barely knows what im talking about and im physically unable to talk to people?#(i asked that teacher to be my consultant because. uh. nobody else was willing or had the capacity to deal with me.)#'go study abroad its so much fun' it wasnt fun the first time. what if they send me to the wrong uni #THE WRONG TOWN AGAIN #i believe i do my best here but my spoons are limited and my interests arent high culture enough so its like im just wasting my time #i like doing this. i like being here. but nobody told me if im not super social i might as well wipe my ass with my masters degree #i did an hour long presentation on jojo and feminism. i was so excited to do it.#afterwards the only response i got was from a classmate telling me it was funny because it 'shocked the teacher'#do you even understand what im trying to do here. is everything i do a joke #i dont talk to my classmates because theyre mean and rude and they dont need me in their conversations anyway #but apparently i have to be buddies with everyone i see to get uh. a job i dont even want teaching at this uni.#i dont want to teach i dont want to talk to these people i have no idea when or how they make friends or what i want to do with my degree #im tired and frustrated and ive been crying and tearing up all day #anyway. i asked her for a one on one discussion. i need to talk to her without people that probably already make fun of me behind my back.

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dyketennant · 8 months

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idk i think i should start masking again 🤠 (i mean the autism i already wear a face mask)

#vent #personal #dont mind me using the tags as a diary for a bit. i have a real diary but my carpal tunnel is not agreeing with writing with a pen rn #blah blah blah val's interests are annoying and weird. and it's all they really know how to talk about #because they are so busy constantly with two jobs + full-time uni + side gigs + life in general #that they cannot function without their Little Things and because of that all their interpersonal relationships suffer #yknow how it is #ive always been one of those people who talks a lot in class #especially since getting to college because now i really care and am excited about what we're discussing #(plus talking about it/engaging helps keep me awake and stimulated otherwise i'll go to the seventh circle of hell)#but i feel like especially recently but just in general. i just always say dumb shit. and maybe it's worse now bc my paranoia is spiking #bc of that class with my ex i have twice a week and i know they're probably judging what i say and making fun of me to their new friends #while i have to spend an hour and fifteen minutes trying not to look at the other side of the room and turning up music when they speak #i used to be better at socially masking bc high school was hell but then covid happened and it all went down the drain #and then my life got Worse and now it's like. sorry im annoying and bad at talking i know i am. i am also trying to not be like that #idk i think im just so spread thin that everything i ever do im doing poorly bc i just Cant. and im in pain constantly #and always running late or rushing or stressed or busy. like i haven't been not-stressed since. i dont even know. maybe when i was sick?#and even then i was stressed because Oh Fuck I Have Covid. yknow #wow my therapist is going to have an interesting day tomorrow it seems

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flyingcookiegumtruckthing · 8 months

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Random but like should I re-download snapshot.

I kinda removed it from my phone but didn't delete my account lol. So like 2 years ago when I got news of a3! English shutting down, I deleted snapchat to make more room on my phone for the game files. I tried to go through the character and event stories on twitch to like. "Preserve" the English version of the game. It was not very organized and I barely got anything done lol.

Then! Dragalia was shutting down, so i tried to kinda do the same thing. Dragalia was like 14 or 16 GB. So I kept snapchat deleted lol.

So I finally got the stupid corpse of the game off my phone and on an external hard drive, plus my save file from that game file extractor program someone put on github. I removed random photos from my phone and put them on an external hard drive. I finally have free space on my phone.

So should I re-download snapchat to see what my irl friends who I have not been in communication with for the past 3 or 4 years since covid lockdown lol. (My snapchat is for irl friends/college and high school classmates only.) (But also not having pressure to post stuff there for the past 3 years has been nice. But also I've not seen my friends for a very long time lol)

#mine #derp #snapchat #polls #i am bad at staying in contact with ppl digitally (texting #(calling etc) lol #like. if we dont see each other daily at work or school then i am very bad at staying in contact with you sorry lol #i recently realized i only have like 1 or 2 friends from third spaces that were not my classmates or coworkers lol #my mom is like a helicopter mom so i wasnt allowed outside to walk around the park or anything under 18 lol #i wasnt allowed to do many things so i became a video game addicted introvert lol #then she wonders why i have no interest in community events or whatever. bruh you did not really encourage it at all when i was growing up #now you expect me to somehow magically develop interest #broooooooooooooooooo #even now im not allowed outside when its dark out bc ill get kidnapped i guess ooooOoooOoo spoopy!#i tried to bring up that my city is having drag bingo tonight at like 7pm but my mom woulsnt let me go bc it was in a neighborhood thats #on the news a lot for shootings or whatever i guess #i also tried to ask if i could go to the movie theater to watch a movie after work but like i get home at 530 or 630 so its already late #and my mom wouldn't let me go to movie theaters after dark bc il get kidnapped OooooOooOoo #mind you this is the movie theater in a mostl middle class white suburban township that is not on the news ugh #i get home too late after work bc bus rider so im basically literally only allowed to go to work and home. even if 3rd places were available #i wouldnt be allowed to go to 3rd places anyways bc my mom continues to bw a helicopter parent #im 26 btw with basically 0 life experiences bc of annoying helicopter parenting #snapchat and social media stuff is literally my only way of seeing my friends outisde of work or school

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