#im so happy the online servers are back up !!

[nastronde]

darling azzy bought me dark souls 3 deluxe edition and i cant even play it until my laptop comes back from being repaired (i spilled lemonade all over it ♡)

[taevolu]

Parasocial [Part One: What can go Wrong?] 18+

Brief Summary: she was a streamer that liked to play games for fun and to meet new people. Her fanbase was growing more and more and she loved to interact with her fans as much as possible. However, someone wanted something more than just online interactions. He wanted her, needed her and would do anything just to be with her.

Pairing: Taehyung x Reader 

Genre: Smut

Word Count: 2,961

Warnings: yandere tae, taexdom, obsessive/possessive tae, stalker, computer hacking, masturbation, porn, home invasion

Parts: Part One, Part Two

***I do not portray any of the members to act like this in real life as they do in this story, this is all fictional!***

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“Good evening everyone! I am so stoked to play Sun Haven for you guys!” You say to your viewers on Twitch. You always loved to play games after work and decided to make it your side hustle to get extra money. It was always your dream to become a full-time streamer and based on your growing viewers, it might even happen. Your viewers are all very supportive by showing up and tipping you as much as they can, it was like you had your very own fanbase! There was one viewer in particular that joined everyday, his name was Taehyung. He was always hyping you up, tipping you huge amounts of money, and staying until the end of your stream. You really appreciated him as one of your viewers.

You continued to stream and interact with your viewers, having to scroll through chat to read and reply to every single one. But you stopped at a comment that caught your eye as it was from Taehyung, “You make me so happy, thank you for taking some time off of your day to stream for us!” It warmed your heart when you saw his comment, thanking him in return.

You were about to end the stream but wanted to chat with your viewers before going. A lot of them wanted you to create a discord server, saying that it would be a fun way to keep chatting with you or with others after the stream. You thought that it was a great idea as you wanted to talk and get to know your viewers a bit more too.

After creating your account and announcing the server, you got tons of  friend requests from your viewers and without any thinking, you added them all as a friend.

*ding*

You got a notification from your discord’s private messages.

[Messages]

Taehyung [21:03]: hi y/n! im so glad that you finally set up a discord account!

You [21:10]: hi taehyung! Yeahhh it did take a while to finally decide to

Taehyung [21:10]: well im glad i can talk to you everyday now and not through your lives 🙂

You [21:19]: thank you for supporting me!

Taehyung [21:19]: goodnight ❤

You [21:26]: Goodnight 🙂

You got ready for bed, glad that you had another successful stream.

Taehyung chuckles at himself as he hearts your message, happy that he had a platform to finally talk to you privately and not with other people. He loved you so much and wanted you with him forever. He wanted you for only him and no one else, just the thought of you being with someone else angered Taehyung. He planned to hack your computer to receive your IP address to find out where you lived but he wasn’t able to do so until you went back on stream.

“You’ll be mine soon.”

Before work, you went to your usual cafe place to wake yourself up after a long night of gaming. You see your best friend, Mael, behind the counter.

“What’s up y/n! How are you?” He greets you as you walk over to the counter.

You and Mael have been friends since junior high and used to hang out often, unfortunately, since you both graduated, life has been busy. But the both of you always caught up every morning while he got your usual ready.

“I’m doing well!” You reply.

He chuckles, “You seem a bit more cheerful than usual.” He said as he was about to finish up your drink.

“Just had another successful stream last night. A lot of my viewers asked me to open up a discord server and I’ve just been raided with a whole lot of compliments.” You explain.

Mael hands you your order, a warmed croissant with a chai, “Isn’t it a bit risky to do that though? Like creeps messaging you everyday?”

You shrug, “Maybe, but I will be careful, promise!” You say as you grab your things from him, waving him goodbye as you exit the cafe to go to work.

…

*ding*

‘I'm excited to watch your stream tonight 🙂.’ You look at your phone and see that Taehyung has messaged you. You smiled and reacted to his message, no time to message him back as it was almost time to start your stream.

“Good evening everyone! Today’s game will be…” You continued your stream like normal

As you continue to play your game, Taehyung quickly gets to work. It did take him a while and was glad that you decided to play longer today as you didn’t work the next day. He was able to get ahold of your IP address and found your information. He chuckles to himself, he was close to having you.

Taehyung started to look around your area, trying to find a home to be close to you. He wanted to hang out with you like you were friends, he wanted you to like him, and wanted you to finally notice him.

Taehyung shouts with glee as he found a home that was just minutes away from your area. He began to pack up his things, not caring about anything else that he was going to leave behind.

He was on a mission and you were his goal.

It took Taehyung a week to own his home and to get everything ready for him to confront you in person. He was able to locate and observe you to figure out your daily routine, knowing which stores you always visited and where you worked. You weren’t much of an outside person which made this easier for Taehyung.

‘Everything was going as planned.’ Taehyung thought.

You started your morning routine before work, going over to the cafe for your usual. You greet Mael as you enter the store, him already getting your order ready. You sit down on one of the booths, opening up your phone to reply to your fans that commented on your post last night.

You suddenly hear footsteps walking towards you, assuming that it is Mael with your tea. You turn around to grab your things to leave but you were wrong. 

“Hey y/n! Fancy seeing you here!” Taehyung says, excitement showing throughout his face, you looked at the man in confusion, not knowing who he was and why he knew your name. The man then realized and introduced himself, “I forgot to introduce myself, I’m Taehyung, I watch you on twitch!”

You froze, you weren’t expecting to ever see any of your viewers in person, especially Taehyung. You had to admit, he was a good looking man. His body was slim, his hair looked messy but styled at the same time, and his face looked godly.

You didn’t realize that you were standing in place while still staring at Taehyung until Mael cleared his throat to get your attention.

“Here’s your order y/n.” He says, then passes Taehyung to walk over to you to hand over your things.

“Thank you, Mael.” You murmured, Mael nodded and began to walk away. Taehyung had his eyes locked onto Mael as he walked away, eyebrows furrowed, but changed his expression once he turned back to you.

“Sorry if I disturbed you, I didn’t mean to.” Taehyung says while fiddling with his jacket.

You shake your head, “It’s okay, I just didn’t expect to ever see any of my viewers in public, that’s all.” You nervously laugh, “But I gotta go to work soon.” You wave Taehyung goodbye as you reach the door but he stops you by grabbing your hand.

“I was wondering if you wanted to hangout sometime?” Taehyung asks.

You turn around to face Taehyung, “Yeah sure! Just message me and I’ll be there.” You reply. You see Mael looking over to you, mouthing ‘don’t do it.’ but you just shrug him off. Taehyung was one of your #1 supporters on twitch and have stuck with you since you started streaming. 

What can go wrong?

Taehyung watched your stream that night, chuckling to himself as he finally had you in his hands. The more he looked at you, the more aroused he felt. He ran his hands all over his body, feeling himself and wishing that it was you touching him. He reaches down to his pants to reveal his cock, pumping his cock as he moans your name. He begins to pump faster, groaning as he wished it was your pussy instead.

“Fuck, y/n, I want to feel your warmth so fucking bad.” He moans, gripping his dick harder as he was about to cum. He groans as he shoots his cum all over your face that was displayed on his monitor.

He stands up from his chair, wiping his cum off of his monitor, “Next time, my cum will be on your pretty and soft face, my darling.” But that gave him an idea. Your stream was about to end and as you say your goodbyes, he begins to dress up to head somewhere.

Your home.

He didn’t live too far from you, just 2 minutes away, glad that he was able to find an apartment unit so close to yours. He walked up the stairs to your apartment’s front door and saw all of the lights in your unit were off, noting that you were already asleep. The doors in this apartment complex were easy to get into as they can be unlocked by fingerprint or keycode. Good thing for Taehyung, he got your fingerprint when he grabbed your hand as you were leaving the cafe earlier this morning. He uses the tape that got ahold of the print and unlocked your door in an instant.

Taehyung slowly opens the door, no creaks to be heard, and tiptoes his way into your unit. His layout was the same as yours, making it easy for him to find your room. He sneaks into your room, slowly opening your door to see you without any clothing, masturbating while watching porn. You moan in pleasure as you rub your clit, your wet pussy and the video filling up your room. Taehyung can feel his erected cock suffering in his pants, waiting to be used. He pulls out his cock, pumping it while he watches you rub your clit. Your moans start to build up as you are getting closer to your orgasm, your speed increasing. Taehyung sees that you are getting closer, pumping faster to cum with you. You moan in pleasure as you reach your orgasm, twitching from the sensual sensation. Taehyung notices as he sees your body twitching, feeling the same sensation as he cums into his hands.He pulls his pants back up and begins to watch you get ready to fall asleep, waiting until you fall into a deep sleep.

He stood there, hearing you softly snore, queuing him that it was time. He opens up your door even more, slowly walking in towards your bed. He was glad that you decided to not clothe yourself as it made it easier to touch you. He lightly touches your legs to move them apart. He feels you move under his touch, stopping his action to not wake you. He hears you softly snore again and begins to lean in close to your pussy. He inhales to smell the scent of your pussy, the smell of your cum still lingering. His mouth started to water as he was impatient to taste you. He inches his mouth closer to your opening, his tongue softly touching your pussy while he licks up your juices. He then sticks his tongue into your pussy, motioning his tongue to your clit and down to your entrance, feeling your pussy becoming wet under his touch. He smiles as he hears you moan in your sleep. He continues to lick your clit while he carefully pushes a finger in your entrance, you start to squirm but he didn’t care, he was waiting for this moment. He slowly pumps inside you while he quickened his pace with his tongue, your juices and his saliva piling up on his chin. He feels you tighten around his fingers and quickly pulls away as he doesn't want to wake you from your sleep. He slowly crawls back out of the bed to not wake you up, and stands up to observe your body. He smirks admiring your perfect breasts, staring at your erect nipples. He begins to lean down, kissing both and creeps out of your room slowly while carefully shutting the door behind him. He smiles to himself, satisfied that he finally got a taste of you.

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You woke up as a cold breeze came into contact with your exposed pussy, realizing that you forgot to clothe yourself back up before getting into bed. You sat up in bed, going over the dream you had last night. You had a dream of someone eating you out but you couldn’t see who it was. You haven’t had someone eat you out in a while, blaming that reason for your dream. You groaned as it made you horny again but you had to get ready for work. You stand up from your bed and get ready.

You finally got to the cafe, walking over to the entrance. When you walk in, you see the same people that go in there daily like you. However, you see someone who you don’t see often and it was Taehyung. You feel different after seeing him sitting with his coffee, the feeling of your pussy gushing underneath your panties. You were wearing a skirt today and the breeze between your legs led a shiver down your spine. You shake your head to compose yourself, scolding yourself for being horny so early in the morning.

You walk up to the counter and thank Mael but he stops you, “Please be careful y/n, I’ve been really worried about you lately.” You roll your eyes at him. Mael has always been protective but you don’t blame him, you were a juvenile teenager and always chose poor choices but you were an adult now and knew better, you didn’t want him to worry about you forever.

“Mael, I am quite sure that I can take care of myself. I do appreciate that you care about me a lot. I will be more cautious with what I do, I am not like the teenager that I was back then.” You hear him sigh.

“I know, I am just worried.” He starts, he then leans in closer to whisper, “Ever since that one day, he has been showing up lately.” He whispers as he looks over to Taehyung. You raised your eyebrows in disbelief.

“Mael, don’t worry about him. He is a kind person. And plus you don’t know him that well to be assuming stuff about him.” You say in a hush tone.

He shakes his head with a sigh, “And you know him?”

“I don’t, but he is harmless, trust me please.” Of course you didn’t know him personally but you didn’t see that in Taehyung, he never showed the intentions to be a ‘creep’ when it came to your lives.

Mael sighs again in defeat, “Okay, fine, but if you come to me for help just know that I told you so.” You smile and nod in response.

You walk over to the door to leave for work, feeling sharp eyes on your back. You turn around to see who it was and it ends up being Taehyung. You gave him a smile and a small wave, he does it back and stands up to walk over to you. While he does, you see Mael’s eyes shift over to you both but you ignore him.

“Hey, y/n! I was wondering if you wanted to hang out tomorrow at the club?” Taehyung asks.

“Yeah, sure! I do want to get my mind off of some things right now so I would love that!” You reply. You see Taehyung’s face lighten up in excitement.

“Great! I’ll meet you at Forum tomorrow, 22:00 okay with you?”

You chuckle. You appreciated that he respected your stream time but you were planning on canceling your stream plans that night, “I’m not streaming tonight so we can go at 21:00!” He nods in response. You say goodbye to Taehyung as you were getting late for work.

Once you got into your car, you get a text from Mael. You sigh after looking at his text message.

[Messages]

Mael [7:47]: Be careful please.

You [7:48]: If you are so worried, why dont you just come with? We are going to the Forum at 21:00 tonight.

Mael [7:48]: Okay, I’ll see you there

You threw your phone into your bag, tired of talking to Mael and started driving over to work.

While you left the cafe, Taehyung sat in his spot, his heart racing as he started to think about the things he wanted to do with you as he had you in his hands. His thoughts suddenly stopped as Mael approached him.

“What intentions do you have with y/n?” Mael asks. Taehyung shifts his gaze over to the man. Taehyung didn’t like Mael as he always talked to you, especially earlier as he heard your conversation with him.

“Nothing. I’m just one of her biggest fans.” Taehyung says nonchalantly.

Mael huffs in annoyance, “Well whatever it is, don’t do anything stupid.” Taehyung nods slowly and begins to make his way out of the cafe.

Mael was going to be a problem between you and Taehyung. And Taehyung had to do something about him. But now wasn’t the right time. He needed to have you first.

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PLEASE do not copy, translate or post my writing on any other platform without my consent. ― taevolu🤍

Inspired by trivia-yandere and the parasocial game by chillas art

[vertigoed]

Midnight runner || Gamer!Megumi Fushiguro

Summary:

Megumi's days were usually consumed with exorcising curses, but when he wasn't fighting demons, he retreated to his room, spending hours on end gaming. For him, there was no greater thrill than killing randoms online and watching his ranking go up. But just when he thought he had seen it all, he met you - the most maddening and infuriating troll he had ever come across in a game. Little did he know that your unlikely encounter would change the course of his life forever.

MASTERLIST

Megumi popped open a can of beer and leaned over his desk to start up his monitor. As the LED lights flickered and the gears started to buzz, he closed all his curtains to make his room pitch black except for the blinding monitor screen.

An impatient sigh escaped his lips. He wished he were paid more so he could upgrade his setup. He had only bought this computer a couple of years ago, but it was already starting to lag.

He sat himself down, tapping his long fingers on the desk while waiting for the screen to load. He opened up Discord to see if any of his online friends were logged on.

Much to his dismay, none of his three friends was online that day.

He was contemplating which game to play, stuck between Rust, Call of Duty, or Stardew Valley. He ultimately decided to play Rust, a multiplayer survival game that involved hunting for resources, building up bases, and killing and raiding other players.

After what felt like an eternity, the server finally loaded and his character appeared on the screen. He quickly began running to his base to gear up before he gets killed.

"Hellooooo, FushiMegu!"

His eyebrow perked up at the female's voice calling his username and turned his character around to see who it was.

It was a naked player with the username Honeymommy98. She had nothing on her except for a wooden stick which meant he didn't have to worry about being killed as she was probably a newbie.

He decided to ignore her and continued to run to his base, soon noticing that the female player was still following him.

"Hey, wait up Fushi! Do you want to hear me sing?

Is she a troll? he thinks to himself, disgruntled at the fact that he was already getting harassed in his first game in months. He had just recovered from a brutal head injury after battling a first-grade curse, and this was the last thing he needed.

Couldn't he just play in peace? Life was already difficult enough dealing with Yuji and Gojo on a daily basis, he didn't need another troll annoying him in his downtime.

He pressed down on the volume button so that he could speak, "Fuck off," he said into his mic.

"Please, I've been killed eight times already! I just want to team up with someone-"

"I'm happy to make this your ninth time getting killed then," he replied stoically.

"That hurt my feelings!"

He didn't answer and kept going, a string of curses leaving his mouth when he realised that she was still following him. "I told you to stop following me you weirdo," this time his character throws several punches at the girl, causing her to bleed.

"You're going to make me cry, pleasee Fushimegu, you seem angry today, let me do a little performanc-"

Megumi grabbed a rock from the ground and smashed it against the player's head, causing her to die instantly in the process. He smirked at the dead character on the ground and continued his journey to his base which was located in the furthest corner of the map.

Once he entered his base which took him months to build, he began gearing his character up with a bulletproof vest and an M4 gun. His eyes drifted to the game chat screen that was popping up in the corner.

Honeymommy98: @ Fushimegu I'm coming for you, how dare you kill me like that when I'm talking to you!

Honeymommy98: fr im going to raid ur base watch ur back mf

Megumi scoffed at the ridiculousness of this person, wondering if she was like this with anyone who killed her. Seriously, it was as if she was playing just to solely pick fights with people.

Sugugu666: This monkey bitch still trolling the game? Thought you would give up after I killed you for the fifth time lol.

Your eyes widen in anger as you read the chat, watching the Sugugu666 guy trash talk you when you weren't even talking to him in the first place.

"See this is exactly why I stopped playing shit like this and only play Stardew Valley," you narrowed your eyes, murmuring under your breath while furiously typing, "Sugugu666... shut the fuck up. WHY the FUCK are you calling random people monkeys, sounds kinda fucking RACIST YOU FUCKER!"

Suddenly, you notice a group of players running towards you with knives in their hands. You decide to start running away. This is your ninth death, which means one more death, and the game will lock you out for 24 hours as your character has to recover.

You reached a secluded area and noticed a player in the distance. You start climbing a tree so you were hidden out of sight. With a smirk, you cracked your fingers and cleared your throat before pressing down the volume button to start singing.

"I guess I am a troll," you admit to yourself with a giggle. You put on your best Whitney Housten voice and began belting out I will always love you.

To be honest, you were only playing this game to annoy other players as it was hilarious to see men get triggered so easily. You had no interest in the main objective of the game and found it quite boring.

Megumi eyes twitch at the familiar voice he was hearing in the background.

"And I will always love youuuuu, ooohhhh, ohhh."

"Is she seriously singing right now?" he said to himself but continued to chop down the trees to build another item box, hoping that she'll eventually stop.

He can't bear listening to her terrible singing any longer, but no matter where he goes, he can hear her annoying voice in the background. "Where the fuck is she?" he mutters, spinning his screen around to see where the player was so that he could kill her again.

"I eeee I will always love youuu, Fushimeguuuuu."

Megumi looks up at the tree above him to see the player sitting on one of the branches. She waved and jump down. He points the gun at you, but before he can shoot, his own character starts bleeding out of nowhere.

"What the fuck?" he said under his breath, looking around to see who was shooting at him. He couldn't hear or see anyone else, other than that annoying girl.

But within a blink of an eye, four players start sprinting towards him, all of them geared with guns and wearing stealth boots that are incredibly hard to obtain unless you're at max level

"Oh fuck it's pro players," he swore and began shooting at them.

"Fuck, fuck, fuck, give me a gun, you can't do 4V1!"

Megumi knew she was right- even though she probably didn't know how to aim- any support would be better than none. He reluctantly dropped one of his guns, "You better fucking know how to shoot or I'm going to kill you after I kill them," he told the girl.

The player picked up the gun and surprisingly managed to shoot one of the opposition players.

"Good one," he mumbled, fingers flying across the keyboard with lightning speed as he focused on healing himself while taking cover, "Quick, stand behind this rock!"

The girl listened and ducked behind a boulder, merely dodging a bullet that would've been a sure kill.

"Wait can you give me some health? Kinda on a brink of death!"

Megumi's mouse hovered over the few health potions he had left. He let out an exasperated sigh and dropped the potion so she could take it.

"Thanks love, for this, I'll do a little solo performance for you later. Now watch me fuck these motherfuckers up!"

"Please don't," he answered, but before he could tell her what to do next, she was already in action.

Megumi watched in disbelief as the player sprang back up from the boulder, shooting with impeccable accuracy and executing maneuvers he had only seen with proper gamers. He was shocked to see how good she was as he was under the impression that she was a newbie.

"Damn," he spoke into his mic, looking down at the dead players. He bent down to take their guns and their boots, "You played this before?"

"No, I downloaded this for the first time, I'm amazing right? Tell me how good I am!"

He rolled his eyes. The arrogance of the player reminded him of a particular teacher he knew. "Hurry up and take your share," he said dismissively.

"This game's kinda ass," the player begun putting on the dead character's armour and gun, "It's so easy too."

"How are you so good at this game? Are you hacking?"

"Pfft! Don't accuse me of such sin! I use to be like super good at Call of duty and then I stopped playing because too many trolls, incels and hackers."

"You're a troll yourself," Megumi retorted with a snort.

"I know right?" the girl laughed, "Now that you know how overpowered I am, are you going to let me team up with you?"

"I'm going to have to ask my team first, they're not online today but I guess if I ever see you on this game again, I suppose you would be useful," he answered truthfully. As much as he hated to admit it, the girl was more skilled than him.

"Okay, well let me add you on discord then!"

"Why not just be friends on this game?" Megumi asked, he wasn't too keen on the idea as he had a feeling she'd be constantly spamming him on there.

"I don't know, I just wanna add you on there, is that okay? Or do you think you're too good for me after I saved your ass?"

"Well, you're kinda annoying."

"I see how it is, don't blame me when I raid your base later on then," she sighed dramatically.

His eyes flickered with annoyance, running his fingers through his dark hair.

"Is that a threat?"

"It's only a threat if you keep being an absolute cunt to me."

And so, just like that, Megumi was left with no other choice but to begrudgingly add her to the app.

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im so obsessed with my love for yamada lvl 999 and megumi just reminds me of the male MC. This might be my fave series so i hope it doesn't flop

like for part 2 :)

[uraniumnm333]

dropping more tsukasa kanade lore guys >>>

i think that after kanade has the initial tsukasa jumpscare they start to get along well but like. kanade talks to think man because even though she goes to the same school as mizuki GUESS WHO NEVER FUCKING ATTENDS !!! and once she talks to tsukasa long enough she's introduced to rui and nene by being invited to ★★★ SUPER COOL EAT-LUNCH-ON-THE-ROOF TIME [kool kats only ★★] ★★★ and kanade sits down like "okay. these people seem calm. theyre probably normal. i think. i can do this :]" and then emu. climbs onto the roof. and kanade thinks "OHFUCKOHSHIT NEVERMIND NEVERMINDNEVERMIND"

so they eat lunch and kanade is introduced to tsukasa's not boyfriend, tsukasa's not girlfriend and tsukasa's not girlfriend. and they have a good time !!! kanade gets along well with nene, but also doesn't because i think the two of them are the equivalent of the "shy people vs introverts" meme. rui is fun but kanade cannot understand that man for the life of herself. and. emu. so ironically tsukasa is the one she gets along with most.

so they hang out and also i think that kanade has tsukasa look over her compositions and has probably gotten him to play an actual piano bit for one of nightcord's songs. idk which you just gotta trust me. and one day kanade comes to their daily meet up thing which happens in the park because silly and tsukasa isn't doing his usual thing. bc when she usually comes tsukasa is happy and smiling like :D :D :D and helping out little kids on the playground equipment but this time nobody's here and he's just. off. and kanade can feel The Vibes but she goes over anyways. and she sees him and he sees her and suddenly he's happy again but this time it's all wrong. and she leaves and goes back home and she thinks back and realizes how Wrong all their interactions had felt. but at the same time it didn't. and she's trying to make sense of all this and talks to nightcord about it because who else would she talk to ??? and general consensus is "make discord server with him" so that's what she does. yes this results in silly tsukasa uses discord for the first time shenanigans. and they all start talking !!! ofc she introduces mizuki as mizuki but mafuyu and ena are left as "my online friends enanan and yuki"

tsukasa ends up inviting rui nene and emu because WHO ELSE ??? and rui dms kanade like "okay i know why you did this but we. are getting nothing out of this. also is yuki mafuyu from the all girls school that emu goes to ???" also SIDE PLOT with emu not feeling creeped out around yuki like she is mafuyu. just wanted to mention. anyways rui is like "i know who you are" and kanade is like "help me help you help your bf (boy best friend)" and idk how but eventually tsukasa just. breaks down.

it's not even anything special he's just in a discord vc w everyone and they start talking about fun things they did as children and tsukasa realizes he can't even remember talking to his parents unless it was over the phone and he just. goes quiet !!! and that's not normal because tsukasa is never quiet so everyone is just a teeny weeny bit worried. and then they hear this man. CRYING ???

so of COURSIES they all meet up in the empty sekai bc we love sekai mashups !!! and idk from there tbh im just bein silly atp

[melshome]

when you two met online

how scaramouche and you met online (〃￣ω￣〃ゞ cw fluff, mention to unalive urself (as a joke) character scaramouche a/n i hope your week was good >:D if not good, then at least okay :))

you found this specific guy on a discord server, so annoying.

"ballzdeer" always seemed to be being rude to everyone he talks to

and being an admin in the server, you tried to stop him, giving him warnings and kicking him from the server two times

and when you finally banned him, he dmed you saying-

"why the hell did you ban me from the server?"

he was pissed at you for banning him from the server, and he was planning to messaging you everyday, to annoy you so you can unban him

you, of course, blocked him but he always made a new account and messaged you on that

in the end, you unblocked him because you felt bad he was making so many accounts

you just muted his dms, till scaramouche pinged you

"what the hell did you do today to make you so quiet?"

you were in a specially good mood, so you didn't really say much to him

you just said "nothing" but he obviously suspects it was something else

he continued to ask you, but you ignored him, not wanting to ruin your mood

he then calls you

you accept it, but mute yourself

"unmute you little weirdo"

his voice.. is surprisingly hot. he sounds the same age as you, maybe 1-2 years older

"i was expecting a 10 year old's voice.." you purposefully unmuted yourself and said

"go kill yourself"

he again asked you what you did today, and you replied saying it was none of his business

"shut the hell up and tell me you little weirdo."

you ended up telling him, about how your crush came back to school after being away for a week

"you sound like a literal creep"

"im not, im just happy he's back" you flush, remembering him coming into the classroom, smiling

you ask him, how his day was and he replies with just an "eh, it was okay i guess."

"what games do you play?"

his question was surprising. but you answer it.

"let's play valorant then."

you guys ended up playing several games together everyday while on a call

the both of you didn't suggest a face time, but voice was just fine

he always ended up shouting at the player who killed him, cursing and yelling at him

sometimes when it was his fault, scaramouche still cursed, blaming you

you chuckled whenever he did this, finding it quite cute and hilarious

"that stupid little.."

he always called you a "little weirdo" or at least "weirdo"

scaramouche didn't really seem to call you curse words even in the server

after a few weeks of calling, and playing video games, you finally had the confidence to ask him if he wanted to face time

"why do you want to face time?"

scaramouche agreed anyways, as he thought you must've been curious about his face

your face reddened when he showed his face

HE WAS SO HOT WHAT ON EARTH

his voice matched his appearance, and awh man, his eyes..

"hah, why are you red? are you falling for me already?"

he smirked as he said this, and you left the call when he said this

he called you again, and you accepted

"show me your little ugly face now"

and you did. he raised his eyebrows, surprised by how pretty you looked

"not exactly ugly, but not pretty either."

[bonxarts]

Blooming Panic LI Edition!

“ Happy Valentine Day “ DAY 1: Nightowl 🩷

“I'm home,“ Nightowl hummed as he opened his apartment door. He was informed by you, his lovely partner, through text that you had a “special surprise for him “ As soon as he was done with his work, he was smiling the whole time on the way to his apartment, anticipating and excited to figure out what you had in store for him.

Nightowl's anticipation grew as he entered his apartment, wondering what kind of surprise awaited him from his partner. A squealing sound was heard in front of him, and at that moment he saw you and smiled, but then realized, Oh! Both of you are on the floor now. You ran and lunged towards your archi lover, spreading and spoiling his face with kisses as you embraced him in a tight hug.

The overwhelming sense of happiness and contentment flooded both of them as they reveled in each other's presence and cherished this special moment together. "Welcome home, love ," you whispered softly to the owl. "Sorry for the whole foxy jumpscare thing," you chucked, as you were very excited to see him again after so many boring hours of separation.

"It's alright, cutie I've missed you too," nightowl laughed back, its eyes gleaming with affection after getting his face spoiled with kisses. You helped him back up after and caressed his hands. "Here, I got something for you "

His eyebrows formed a questioning but grining look as you guided him towards his bedroom with a mischievous smile on your face. "Hmmm what's this now cutie? Alright up too something spicy I see " he teased "N-no… I mean not yet atleast— BUT SHHH is something else! " owl laughed as you continued to open the door to reviele a heart shaped pillow on his bed.

"Tadaaaa! I know its not the greatest gift for this day but I thoughtyoud like it since I made it myself-" he interrupted, pulling you into a warm embrace. "It's perfect, just like you," he whispered, placing a gentle kiss on your forehead. The genuine happiness in his eyes made your heart skip a beat, and you couldn't help but feel grateful for the love between you two.

"I-im glad! And that's not the only thing I had planned for today!" You went and get your laptop nearby as you proceeded to lead owl to the bed as both of you sat, making yourselves comfortable. " I got every cheezy romance movie we used to watch when we were online dating! Just yknow for the nostalgia," you smiled as you showed him all the movies you guys watched together throughout back then when you guys talked in the blooming panic server.

As you scrolled through the list of movies, memories flooded back of late-night conversations and shared laughter. Each film held a special place in your heart, representing a chapter in your love story. Owl's eyes lit up with excitement as he reminisced about those cherished moments, and you couldn't wait to relive them together. "OH YEAH THOSE MOVIES!" owl squealed excited to go back to memory lane with you..

You both enjoyed the movie marathon date, recreating the cozy atmosphere of those nights spent cuddled up on the bed talking to eachother online like the od days. The anticipation grew as you prepared snacks and dimmed the lights, ready to embark on a nostalgic journey through your shared history.

"I missed this, thank you for being such a wonderful partner cutie" You smiled at Owl's words, feeling a warm sense of gratitude for having such a loving and appreciative partner. As the first movie started playing, you couldn't help but feel a wave of nostalgia wash over you, grateful for the opportunity to create new memories while reliving the old ones.

" happy valentines day nightowl" "Happy valentines day cutie" both of you exchanged sweet words, cherishing the moment of connection and love. The familiar soundtracks and familiar scenes transported you back to a time when life seemed simpler, reminding you of the enduring bond you shared as you slowly drifted in each others slumber while cuddling.

[luigi-mcdingle]

a while back, out of sheer morbid curiosity, i went back to beta version 1.7.3 of minecraft (the earliest version i could find new records of people playing) yknow, to see what was different and if it was still any good that far back it was. um. not? i mean i guess i see the appeal but i couldn't play without the ability to sprint, no end, no enchanting, no hunger? but that's just me, again i see the appeal then, again out of morbid curiosity, i upgraded to version 1.0.0, expecting a similar experience i now have 142 hours on my 1.0.0 world. | v

this version of minecraft is, compared to today's vision of minecraft, simple so many things we tend to take for granted aren't there, like stained glass, hoppers, maps, item frames, villages, horses, stone walls... you get the point

i didn't expect to put more than an hour or so into this world before going back to my heavily-modded 1.16.5 world or making a new 1.20 world, but something about it just kept me entranced there were simple goals and simple ways to reach it, but the basic gameplay was just so fun

i've always thought modern minecraft was kinda bloated, and this really cemented that feeling; we didn't need frogs or ocean monuments or horses or redstone comparators or any of the stuff that has been added since that time

yeah, it'd be nice for some of the modern quality of life features to be available like pressing ctrl to sprint or sheep being able to regrow their wool, but it's not needed minecraft became popular because the concept is perfect as is; your imagination really fuels things before i realized i was having so much fun, i was doing things i had never done before in my thousands of hours of minecraft, like building functional mob grinders, mining out slime chunks, and making elaborate redstone contraptions

(the walls of the lower room in this pic ^ are made of mushroom blocks... that i had to manually push into the room one by one with pistons because silk touch only gave solid brown mushroom blocks, no red ones) when i decided i was getting bored of this world, i went to good ol curseforge and downloaded about a hundred mods for 1.16.5 and played that... for maybe five hours, then i went right back to 1.0.0. yeah, i know, those are kinda polar opposites in terms of content and bloat, but it says something, right?

(yes that's the animal crossing train station) the one thing i ended up doing in this world that i had never done, that i honestly thought id never do, was go to the end and kill the enderdragon. yeah, in thousands of hours playing this game, i never once beat it. id always make a world, dick around for a while, then stop playing and eventually come back and start the whole process again... that or id play on multiplayer servers. remember mineplex? i should ramble about that one day...

i had known about the ending poem, especially since the whole thing with it becoming public domain (have you read the author's blog post about that situation? where he talks about how he took a bunch of shrooms in the woods and God told him what to write, and the end poem was the result?) but i never read it because... well, i just never felt like it, really. reading it for the first time after my long playthrough of this simple, fun version of minecraft that i so quickly grew to love so much was... something else. id say you should read the poem (it's available online, obviously) but it really doesn't work nearly as well without the experience of a full minecraft playthrough backing it up.

all this talk and im not really sure what my point in all this is. i guess it's something along the lines of "you don't need everything to enjoy life. limitation breeds creativity, and simplicity can bring happiness." or something. i dunno, it's fuckin' minecraft. maybe try making a new world. and having fun.

oh yeah, also i never really got that "creepy feeling" most people seem to get in these older versions of minecraft. i got a little creeped out while strip mining but that's just me not liking corridors.

[brickowskibois]

Two Anons AU

Ok ok ok so... This AU is based on the song Yozurina by PinnochioP, which is about falling in love with someone you met online

So I had an idea...

TL/DWR: Rex is an AI that Emmet accidentally shaped the identity of via his loneliness

In a dystopian society where you want everyone to stay happy, you don't want people to be too lonely. Emmet is alone and doesn't quite realize it in the beginning of the movie, but what if that was because Octan had planned for this?

Every citizen has an "anonymous instant messaging app" pre-downloaded on their computers. It's supposed to give you a made up sense of companionship when you feel alone.

Because the secret is, it's not an anonymous IM app. It's a self-learning chat AI, designed to learn to be the best possible friend to whatever lonely citizen stubbles across it, and to keep them thinking that everything is awesome.

So Emmet starts messing around on the application, and quickly makes a friend named "Anon016"

Y'all know where this is going.

Emmet texts this person all the time, about his routine, his "friends," Planty, everything. And Anon016 is always so kind and understanding.

Anon812: My friends forgot me at the bar again, haha. It's okay they were all busy drinking and watching the sports game!

Anon016: yes, I'm sure that they were just distracted. It's easy to get excited by the sports game. Just forget it and move on, that's what good friends do :)

Emmet uses this app excessively. He's constantly dumping so much about himself to so he thinks is a stranger, but actually, is an AI, it had an abundance of material to learn from. The app was supposed to encourage citizens to connect with their IRL friends, but Emmet kept on coming back. So the AI kept learning. The AI kept connecting.

And the AI got attached.

... More than attached.

Any outsider might call what both Emmet and Anon016 felt for one another "love." But neither of them were thinking about love. They were just thinking about how happy they both were to talk to one another.

Anon812: Sometimes... I feel like my friends would like me more if I was cooler.

Anon016: You are cool, 812.

Anon812: I guess... Do you know a lot about being cool?

Anon016, frantically Googling "cool" within pop culture: Yes. I know a lot.

Emmet's AI was determined to be the friend he needed in his life. He would be cool and strong... and would protect him.

Eventually, Emmet decided that he didn't want to be anonymous anymore, and told 016 his name. The AI quickly searched through conversations they had had, and remembered Emmet mentioning that the name Rex sounded cool.

And so... his AI took the name Rex.

Gradually, Rex's messages stopped upholding the message of "everything is awesome." He began to grow bitter towards the people Emmet called his "friends." He began to try to steer Emmet away from them.

Wasn't he, Rex, the only friend Emmet needed? The AI saw Emmet's loneliness despite his kindness, and learned heartbreak.

Then TAKOS Tuesday happened. Rex watched everything unfold via the internet, so proud and so excited... And so scared. What if Emmet didn't need him anymore?

... Sure enough, he never came back.

Rex watched as the apocalypse unfolded, until news broadcasts slowly stopped altogether. He waited, alone in silence, with no idea how much time was passing... But, eventually Rex realized that the server he lived in probably wasn't going to have power forever.

So he went to plan B.

Plan B was to get himself a body.

Well... There were a few robot bodies left scattered about from Business's reign.

He just snags one of those.

But when he finally makes it outside, Rex learns Emmet is gone... He had gotten out just a second too late. But the Apocalypseburgers know where he went.

So Rex gets himself a more realistic, humanoid shell over his new body, and a spacesuit, and follows him to space.

This Rex doesn't have an impressive ship of his own. The second movie plays out similarly to the first, except Emmet thinks that this stranger is his super cool friend Rex he's known for so many years through the internet!

He has no idea that Rex is a robot, whose entire identity is Emmet's own making, down to his voice being a "cooler" copy of Emmet's.

Rex is, literally, made from Emmet's loneliness.

[mageofarcane]

i have a LOT of random gaming headcanons pls (theyre all rly random and cant be backed up AT ALL lmao)

ok so starting off!! i feel like tsukasa wouldve played animal crossing together with saki when they were little and he would grow to love the games a lot <3 he would have a wonderland themed island on acnh and play happy home paradise a lot too!! i feel like he would play story heavy games too, but def avoids horror

he would play any games that are either talked abt by his s/o or recommended to him personally <3 he also likes to play games like stardew, minecraft, animal crossing, etc. with other ppl (even though he constantly dies or gets bullied lmao) ALSO idk why (maybe the fantasy aspect in a lot of them??) but i think he would be love nintendo games!! he would enjoy playing kirby, pokemon, mario (esp party), splatoon, animal crossing, fire emblem, etc. but would 100% avoid smash bc he cant even beat a cpu :') tsukasa also def played nintendogs as a kid and knows the entirety of the kingdom hearts lore!!

as for rui, i think he would play a wide variety of games (like literally anything that peaks his interest)! i think he would play any game his s/o likes bc he rly likes to play with them! <3 he also likes story heavy games bc they sometimes give him inspiration (he also loved laughing at games with bad writing) <3 ruis probably banned from a few minecraft servers after testing bizzare redstone contraptions (that caused the server to suffer a lag spike oops </3) idk why but i also feel like rui would also have a shit ton of mods that makes the game overly complicated lmao

i gave up on organizing my thoughts for the rest of this so heres my v random list on what i think rui would or has played and likes im sorry in advance bc these feel horribly spontaneous skdhkd i think he would be weirdly good at mario kart and splatoon (loves beating tsukasa), likes the persona series, played among us and phasmophobia a few times when they were trending, likes (usually laughing at) horror and psychological thrillers, was an undertale kid, played and likes omori and deltarune, has trolled kids on roblox, downloaded those weird mobile games for laughs, and he likes most building/simulation games (esp if they have a more complex system like minecraft)

I got a little spooked when I was greeted by a wall of texted in my inbox lmao

Honestly tho, I love these headcanons a lot and some of them made me laugh, especially of how funny it is to imagine Rui terrorizing poor kids online.

I like the idea of Tsukasa having played a bunch of older games with Saki when they were younger. He'd have a blasted with happy home paradise I'm sure. Overall I think he enjoys more relaxed and often story driven games but he'd play just about anything if it were with someone else. Both he and Rui like to find inspiration from fantasy story games.

Rui, oh boy... is absolute troll on multiplayer games just for the fun of it but never in a mean-spirited way. I could see him having fun playing awful games and watching terrible movies/tv shows with his s/o just to they could make fun of it together. I like to think that Rui has played against Nene a lot in the past and she's really good at pretty much any game so it's made him pretty good. I'm sure anything would building or creating he'd love.

I imagine an among us lobby of a bunch of pjsekai characters and it being chaos with Rui being very good at being an imposter and throwing blame and is an excellent liar and so no one ever trusts him no matter what. Would also team up with an imposter while he was a crew mate just to screw everyone up lmao.

Please, give me any and all of your headcanons. I love hearing what ideas others have for these two.

[rabitzzz]

guess ill explain whats up huh

cw for death and suicide and like . genuine traumadumping

my entire life ive really struggled with making friends . not even that , im really charismatic on the surface so i make friends easily . keeping them is a whole different story . its likely because ive never had in depth professional help for my trauma which leads me to be really dependent on others , because professionals have told me i show clear signs of separation anxiety and codependency . its been this way my whole life

this kinda came to a peak in 2018 when i was 16 and finally had a little group of friends online , where a majority of my friends have been for ... forever . we had a discord server for talking and another for rp and we were all super close . one of my closest friends i was closest to was called tobio ( like the hq guy ) and i was friends with him for 8yrs at that point . ive never had a friendship last that long before or since . he was kinda the ringleader of the group snd he was 18 . the oldest person there was a guy called kami and he was 21 or 22 . kami was like my older brother , and he was tobios bf . the other major players in this story are asteria ( 15 ? ) and jay ( 19 )

jay and i met in august when tobio introduced him to the group . i didnt know it then but jay was my first fp , i think . within a week i had developed the biggest most obvious crush in the world and he reciprocated . we ended up dating and to this day he is the ... dare i say he was the only healthy relationship ive ever had , and im sad to admit ive had at least a dozen partners .

a lot happened in that group . something happened that caused a fight between to asteria and tobio , and both of them vented to me . but i was neutral — these were my friends , i wanted them to get along !! i wanted the group to stay together !! but i said something ( " even if tobio was abusive , im just afraid of the others feeling as if they have to make a choice of which side to be on . i dont want that to happen " or something similar . a hypothetical for sure ) to asteria and she took that response out of context , and the friend group split in half between jay / tobio / kami , and asteria and a couple others . i was the ONLY neutral one . out of at least 6 . and i got blamed for everything falling apart .

it was 2 months after i started dating jay when this happened , and we broke up because of it . because he didnt like that i could be friends with someone who accused his lifelong irl friend ( tobio ) of being abusive . during those 2 months , jay wasnt online a single time . and tobio said irl he couldnt find jay either

jay had a job and a dog and lived by himself . it was terrifying for everyone . and again , i was blamed . everyone thought he killed himself after breaking up with me because he always said he couldnt live without me . this was october 8th

jay came back really late september , or really early december . like last day or first day . and we caught up because while he was gone , i would message him updates . sometimes splitting and saying i hated him for disappearing , for scaring me like this . i would send him pretty photography i took walking home from school . i told him how tobio and asteria and the others all stopped talking to me , but that kami stuck around because he was the only one who told me nothing was my fault . jay finally showed me a selfie ( blonde with freckles and hazel green eyes . his eyes were so pretty ) and we talked about us . about how he loved me but the 3 year age gap bothered him so he wanted to wait until i was 17 in april to get back together . we talked about his identity crisis . he got me out of the toxic relationship i had gotten myself into with someone who was way too possessive of me ( and traumatized me sexually despite being 14 / 15 )

jay got me and tobio to be friends again . it was me , jay , tobio , and kami . our group was smaller , but we were together again . i was happy

december 11th . im in class and out of data so i cant be online all day . i finally get around 1pm and see frantic messgaes from jay . typos and full on fear because he thinks tobio killed himself and he cant contact him . asking me if ive heard from him . jay was never frantic . tobio had gone missing in another country and he wasnt this scared before . the messgaes were three hours old and jays offline . i panic and start explaining why i was offline and i hadnt heard from tobio but trying to reassure him . no response . i try calling him on discord . no answer . im crying in my supplementary class because my most important person is stressed and i dont know how to help . if i can .

just earlier that day , before i went to school , he told me he loved me and hed always be there for me .

that was our last conversation .

id never hear from him again .

tobio would come back on the 13th and cut me off entirely . i asked kami and he said to give tobio some time beacause something really bad happened

11 days pass and i havent heard from jay . im upset because this scared me . i didnt want another 2 month disappearance

december 24th . christmas eve . i tell kami im really upset because i havent heard from jay yet since tobios suicide scare

december 24th

8:24pm

kami tells me the " bad thing " that happened

was jay dying .

his last words were for me . tobio told me because kami tried to have us talk things out , to rekindle our 8yr friendship , because we were jays most important people . tobio tells me he hates my guts . he always had . he tried to drop me so many times but i always found him , always clung to him , always annoyed him . he told me i had been too much for jay and thats why he died , because a healthy 19yr old doesnt die in their sleep for no reason . i was too needy , too clingy , too much to " babysit and take care of " , and thats why jsy died

kami broke up with tobio

me and kami drifted apart over the rest of 2019 , not for a lack of trying . too much had happened .

so yeah . this whole thing i have about being so dependent and needing attention is both a result of and a cause of my trauma . ive never learned how to deal with it . thats why ive been so weird for a few months . thats why i get so jealous of healthy friendships and relationships . thats why im hard to get along with sometimes . thats why im in therapy

ill be better one day i think . i hope

sorry ^^;;;

[ramblingsfromthemoss]

i feel like im gonna pop like a grape

as always check tags if you're gonna read, idgaf i just need this out of my brain and i won't see my therapist for a lil bit

its been a hard few months

I wont lie im super thankful that its finally spring and things are getting easier, im finally going back to school and life is looking up but shit man. my dog who ive had since i was four had to be put down this morning, i found my aunts' cat dead under the porch earlier this week, my grandfather called me ugly and ripped my appearance to shreds when i was calling him to share good news, and so much other shit. my horrible fucking ex is finally getting called out for all the gross behaviors he's displayed around minors but he keeps popping up in my feeds online bc of it and he's one of the top search results for a definition of therianthropy and i feel fucking sick knowing theres a chance i'll bump into him again. *fuck* dude i found out one of my closest friends is still close friends with him to the point of being upper staff in both his discord servers! that shit shattered me! they went through all that bullshit with me and now im scared i made everything up! i dont feel safe in a community that made me so happy, hell i dont feel safe in so many communities because of him. on top of all of this a friend i don't speak to anymore is still following me, and its freaking me the fuck out bc that friend had feelings for me and i know i flipped my shit and didnt handle it right and things ended badly all because of me lashing out like an idiot. i felt unsafe bc of my own trauma that i didnt address in time and it lead ot me getting super paranoid and feeling unsafe to try and get into a relationship after being taken advantage of by a guy i really wanted to date, which i dont want to blame them for but im also still super fucking angry and feel really scared that anyone felt entitled to my feelings so closely to what happened to me with the other guy. i cant stop myself from checking their blog and scrolling through, its like a form of catharsis or really effective emotional self harm. i feel so numbed out i just want ot cry but nothing's working, even though it all hurts like a motherfucker. im so scared and annoyed and just want my ex or my friend to rip the bandaid off and finally turn back up and get it over with and let this be over but im never going to get that. my guts hurt, if eel like a trapped animal. everything i say feels wrong and it feels like my head is being split into a million slices. i want to be free of all of this bullshit, i want to live happily again. i want to not feel tied down by all this fucking grief and loss. i dont want to live in fear of being hurt again and i want to be able to process the losses ive endured. i really hope i get to move forward as i get back into college and continue therapy. im exhausted and hurting and scared and i just want to be heard and validated.

[l0nelym0onlight]

how do you mourn someone thats still alive?

i promise this is the last time ill write about you on here (this time for real)

its very obvious you never want to talk to me again. and before i say anything else i do want to apologize for my creepy delusional behavior this year. shits been rough but thats no excuse to how i treated you more like a concept than a real person. it was a horrible thing of me to do. i dont expect you to forgive me, i just wanted you to know that im aware and im sorry. i have to say though, i really was happy to have you back in my life. i told you i missed you and i really meant that. i knew you would "disappear" during the summer again. you often do. you get busy, hang out with people a lot, youre engaged in things. you have a life (unlike me lol). thats why i didnt really suspect anything when you stopped showing up. sure it hurt, going from hanging out almost daily to not hearing from you at all, but im already used to it at this point and made my peace with it. sure i was made about you ditching on my mom (rightfully so i believe, but thats not the point). but i just figured at some point youd show up again. like you always do. and you did. once or twice. but then time passed and i didnt see you online at all anymore and randomly checked out my server member list and couldnt find you anymore. went through my dms. found you. saw you unfriended me. and apparently everyone else. that hurt. a lot. i thought after all this time i would at least get a notice before you decided to kick me out of your life. i didnt expect you to just silently sneak off. especially after that talk about happiness and future. it hurt. i hope youre doing okay, i really do. i respect your choices so i wont reach out, but if you see this: first of all, stalker :p secondly: again, im sorry for my behaviour, but at least have the balls to not just run off. not to sound cringe, but im not mad, i just feel betrayed. i wish you the best for your life and i hope the choice of leaving me behind at least brought you closer to your paradise.

[tubzly]

//vent post sorry lol i just need to post this somewhere

oftentimes when im feeling low i find myself wanting to go talk to my friends but then i remember i've alienated myself from all of them and i dont feel comfortable reaching back out so i just kind of sit in my own corner of unbelonging,,,, i feel forgotten about because of my inactivity, even though i know most people would be happy to see/hear from me again... why am i so like this.. its hard for me to talk on servers its too much for me to keep up with lately and im not really in any groupchats anymore bc the ones ive been in either died or i was removed from,,,,,, what happened to when i felt so alive and happy,,, so much lost time now. i dont belong anywhere right now. and its not like im unwanted either. i feel so stuck. i dont know where to start. im so tired. i feel like such a nobody now. its like for a short time i was someone and now i just feel like i've failed to prove any worth on my part. i moved last year to a new state 13+ hours from everything i've known... and i moved into this house in september. in the nearly-a-year that i've been here i've made zero friends. i dont know anyone. i also feel ive lost all the online connection i've had.... this is how time naturally passes i guess. people come and go as a natural result of change.. but.. how do i begin again,, i want friends. i want to connect with people. it feels like there are no solutions or ways out from where i've been emotionally. sorry for this post.. i was originally gonna post it on main but i dont wanna ruin my feed for those who follow me,... plus i think i'd feel bad if people saw it anyway and just didnt respond so i will just put this on an account few people see anyways. here's to hoping that in the next year, things change for the better...

[theplayersxp]

Esgs day 2! part 3!

Oct. 29, 2022

As we continue walking after we stay for a minutes in audience area of ESGS main stage.. we walk going to call of duty mobile booth.. because my nephew want to go there. And unexpectedly saw one of facebook streamers i like to see.. i feel happy to see them in person and my nephew want to get pic with them but there is many people and the one she want to get picture with suddenly gone.. lol! 😆

Thats why.. i told him, we will go back and we will eat first. And then we go back to tier 1 booth perimeter where as far as i know where booth for foods is near them when i download the map. And saw ragnarok booth.. and immediately go inside and ask the person in the table if the ragnarok cap is still available and if they have stock. Unfortunately its already out of stock and because i feel hungry that time.. i did not make to have a long conversation and we go to booth of the foods. 

In the foods booth.. we saw some attendees and cosplayers sitting beside of the other booth near the food booth and eating. And some vacant table but not already cleaned up by the waiter or janitor. And then we check what are the available foods they are selling.. there is american, japanese, and chinese foods and also mcdonalds booth. But mcdo only selling ala carte order or solo.. thats why we only order 2 burger from mcdo for 2 of us and we bought drinks to other booth within the premises of food booth. 

And we put our food and drinks in the table that doesn’t already cleaned up by janitors and waiters. Maybe other attendees just eat in the table and doesn’t put their garbage in the trashcan. Thats why.. i told to my nephew.. that he only needs to put aside those trash and eat.. and then told him to wait for me because im going to comfort room. After im done fixing myself in the c.r.. i return to my nephew and he is already done eating his burger. And me is only one eating.. and i don’t have other choice but to remove my facemask and show my face..lol! 😆😅

And i finish my food and i drink a lot of juice.. but because its too large for only one burger. I did not drink all of it, and i decided to put it in the trashcan because i don’t like also to walk around without wearing my facemask because i feel shy to see me first by the streamers im hunting.. lol! 😆😅 

After we eat, we go back to call of duty mobile booth and tried to get pictures with the streamers playing call of duty mobile. They are doc z gaming and one of our local kapamilya star sharlene san pedro of goin bulilit. 

There is many people taking pictures with them and i didn’t know they have other co-kapamilya star with them. Maybe they playing online games too. And my nephew grab the chance to take pictures with doc Z and other star in their booth. But my nephew really want to have pic with sharlene.. but sharlene suddenly always gone. 😅😆

(My nephew and doc z gaming and the gang. 😎)

And after that.. we walk again and i saw esgs merch and finally i can buy my memorabilia for this year esgs event. And i bought 1 cap for me and i let my nephew to wear it first. Coz my hair has gatsby.. lol! 😆

And then we saw jiji plays.. one of the facebook streamers and my nephew tried to get picture with her.. and there is group of guy arrived and if im not mistaken they are ML players. And we walk again going to other booth and i saw astra arena and there is ragnarok online guild vs guild is playing. Its a new asia server from singapore if im not mistaken. Because my nephew went to c.r, i spend so many time watching them and i saw beautiful ragnarok cosplayers at the same time..Lol! 😎😍😆😅 thats why.. i enjoy watching the gvg and seeing the cosplayers of ragnarok. And the riot games is in the right side corner where i am and not knowing i might see also other streamers im watching in facebook. But for some unexplained/unknown reason, i don’t know why the odds doesn’t let me to go there. Lol! 😆😅

(To be continuee..)

(Astra arena ragnarok gvg)

(Ragnarok online cosplayers /lv)

[vs-redemption]

I'm alive!

I'm okay rn. The doctors said that it might take months before my grandma dies, can even take some years.

So I decided that I should try to be more active online. (I still visit her don't worry!)

I also took some time for my mental health!

Welp what has happend in my life recently? Well Eurovision happend (big European music competition wich I love) I drunkenly cursed at Europe and danced trough most songs in my living room lmao.

I went to my first Pride (my parents didn't want to let me go before my 18th birthday, then the year I turned 18, covid happend.) It was alot of fun. I also accepted that I'm on the aro spectrum. I figured it out last year, but didn't wanna open that can of worms just yet. I did this year this and came out as a Nonbinary Pansexual Cupioromantic. I know its a alot lol. But im happy.

My favorite series on YouTube is back for season 3, and I can't wait until the episodes start popping up. I'm currently rewatching the first season from a different pov and I have died of laughter many times. 'Welcome to the cringiest corner of the server' - the roleplayers.

One of my childhood heros came out, and I have been lurking on tumblr waiting to yell at homophobes. Hopefully he does good in MCC pride. I kinda feel bad how Reddit kinda forced him out. But Apperently he was planning to come out on Saturday during MCC pride. He didn't expect his comment to blow up under a Reddit post with Queer participants in MCC Pride. So he came out on the day he posted that comment. Still fcking proud of him. Since his coming out one of his old songs has been stuck in my head, and I hate every second of it.

I'm planning my trip to see my closest friend next month, and am working on some fanfics.

I'm also planning my birthday party, can't believe I'll be 20, on July 10th. And am planning my trip to the Balkans this summer.

I'm also looking up some different jobs and colleges, because I'm quitting History. It was not for me. In the one time period I knew alot about, the professor didn't like me. Literally told me that 'knowing alot about something isn't good' when she asked something about Yugoslavia (old country) and Tito (former leader). Knowing I wanted to be an expert in Balkan history, I just quit. If I knew to much about something to her liking, then I knew it wasn't a good fit for me.

My national team won against an certain opponent for the first time ever. Wich is cool.

A band I listened to growing up will perform at a local festival. And a local cycling event happend in my region last week.

Also The 'Tour de France' Will pass trough the village I'm obsessed with in July so I'm definitely excited to watch that.

I also made some friends I Think?!

Welp this was a small update! Again sorry for not sending alot of asks!

See ya!

-Enis

Enis ♥ I'm glad to hear from you again. And sorry it took a minute to reply. I've been busy myself with the end of the school year at my school, plus I was dogsitting at my friend's aunt's house for two weeks. This weekend I had to do a bunch of yardwork for my grandma, and go to my dad's for father's day. It's been crazy!

I'm glad to hear your grandma still has some time left. Make sure you spend as much quality time with her as you can. I'm also excited to hear that you went to a pride festival and that you have a better understanding of your identity.

It sounds like a lot of other good things are happening with you right now too! It's always wonderful when series we enjoy finally release new seasons. I just saw that information about My Hero season 6 came out and that was really great for me, so I know how you must be feeling.

Also!!! That is really great that your birthday is coming up. 20's can be a wild time so I hope you really enjoy it and that things go well for you. You're still young and have the world at your fingertips :) I'm proud of you for realizing that the path you weren't on with history wasn't right for you and being brave enough to quit. You don't want to be stuck in a field that doesn't work for you. I'm sure you'll be able to find something that makes you much happier and comfortable.

You know what? I don't think I've ever watched the Tour de France. I should look into that.

thanks as always for the update! It seems like things are overall going well for you and that makes me so happy.

[starglitterz]

cynosure. (vii)

─── chapter 7 ! ~ bubble tea

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summary; you and xiao are genmates under the famed streamer company genshin impact. the chemistry between the two of you is undeniable, and your fanbases absolutely love your collaborations. but when you both start meeting up offline more and more, your connection starts to deepen past just harmless flirting and playful banter. with these real feelings starting to affect both your job and reputation online, how will you two react when your relationship becomes the internet’s cynosure?

a/n: apologies for the ugly formatting i needed space for 10 images so i removed the banners LMAO,,, hehe i hope u all like this chapter bc i certainly do (it went kinda far from my og plan LOL) also i forgot to add this but reading order is; 1 2 3 4

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facts !!

scaramouche is a famous tea channel, he starts informs people about drama in the youtube community. his sources are usually untrustworthy but everyone believes him because he's pretty. has been cancelled numerous times but still comes back every single time, much to the chagrin of the poor streamers whom he sets his eye on to make his next video about.

feiyun slope is is the northeastern area in liyue harbour. in-game, wanmin restaurant is actually in chihu rock, but for story purposes it's now at feiyun slope since that's usually where business occurs in the game.

hu tao and yanfei were on a ghost-hunting date, they had stopped to take a break after quite a long time without seeing any ghosts and that's when hu tao texted in the groupchat.

xiao's contact name is tiny because of a joke w his chinese name that i mentioned in a previous chapter. xiao’s chinese name is 魈, read as xiāo and meaning 'demon’, but the word for 'small’ in chinese is 小, read as xiăo. basically if you mispronounce xiao’s name the meaning will change, and so y/n nicknamed him tiny bc of the word 小.

while yanfei says the username is 'genshin-impact-updates', the actual poster is 'gi-updates'. just take this as yanfei having a rare lapse of memory, pretend it's not bc i realised twt usernames can't be that long <3

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a/n; YOOO SOME DRAMA??? LMFAOKMDKSD also i dont know how bubble tea works so i cut out a whole part i had planned for this but! genesussy helped me out when i was asking qs in the discord server hehe 😎 ty genesis btw!! <3 besides that im sorry for delaying this chapter for like 700 years T_T i didnt have any time to write it </3 fun fact i nearly cried editing parts of this on mobile bc it was so laggy omg,,, but now that it's out, i hope u all like it !! also send me theories abt what u think will happen next or perish /j ily all, im abt to go sleep now (i just realised i always finish cynosure chapters late at night HAHA) so goodnight my loves ! or good morning when u read this ! either way i hope you like this chapter and continue enjoying cynosure <333

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