#im stuipid idk

[aussie-roadkill]

guys did you see him... the scrunkly... the scrimblo...the scribble... squiggins...

[whotf-atemywaffles]

Betty

idk what my obbsession is w bucky rn (its august) (I write my fics in advance bc i forget otherwise lol im planned up till october)

(High School!Au)

Pairings: (Highschool!Au)Bucky Barnes xreader   (Highschool!Au)Steve Rodgersxreader

Summary: A Teenage girl reflects on her past mistakes and decides to apologize to her ex-boyfriend, Bucky, for hurting him. She faces her fears and goes to his party where she apologizes and they eventually start dating again, taking things slowly. They spend the summer together and fall in love all over again, but know they have to face the reality of going back to school.

“Bucky, I won't make assumptions about why you changed your homeroom during the school year, but i think it's because of me” you sighed after speaking to yourself in the mirror, it was summer now..

How could you fix what happened? What do you say? what would he say when he sees your face again? would he tell you to go and fuck yourself? you stayed silent, looking in the mirror, trying to find the words for an apology, “Bucky, one time i was riding on my skateboard when i passed your house, and it felt like i couldn't breathe'' No that's stuipid. he had heard the rumors from Tony, usually you can't believe a word he says, but this time, this time it was true. as you stared at yourself you couldn't help but try not to look yourself in the eye, you had hurt Bucky, deeply. You took a deep breath and tried to calm your nerves. You knew you had to face Bucky and apologize for what happened, even if it meant getting rejected. You couldn't keep avoiding him forever. It was time to face the music and hope for the best. What was the worst possible outcome? What if you told him it was just a summer Fling? You're only 17, none of you know anything, except you, you knew that you missed him.

Where did it all go wrong? Was it when his favorite song was playing from the farside of the gym, during the school semi-formal? and you were nowhere to be found because you saw him start to dance with a blonde girl from your calculus class? Or was it when you saw him at the party, and he was making out with someone else? It didn't matter now. What mattered was that you needed to talk to him and apologize. You couldn't let your pride get in the way of that. You took a deep breath, grabbed your skateboard, and headed to his house. It was time to face the music and hope for the best.

it was Late, and a friday night…when you got there bucky had been throwing a party, would he let you in? Or tell you to go fuck yourself? would he even want to see your face again? as you walked closer to his house steve drove passed you, he said “Hey, Y/N Need a ride?” smiling “Sure” you had replied not thinking about it even though Steve had been part of the reason you were in this position. Steve unlocked his car door and told you to get in. we drove, into the summer sunset, days turned to nights as you slept next to him, but dreaming of bucky. Eventually after you got back from your little getaway with Steve you started to walk to Bucky's house again once again. It was a Friday night…there was a party.

As you approached the party at Bucky's house, you could hear the music pumping and laughter coming from inside. Your heart raced as you knocked on the door, not knowing what to expect. When Bucky opened the door and saw you standing there, would he tell you to go fuck yourself? Lead you to the garden? Kiss you in front of all his stupid friends?

You took a deep breath and tried to steady your nerves as Bucky opened the door. His eyes widened in surprise at the sight of you, but before he could say anything, you spoke up. "Bucky, I know I hurt you and I'm so sorry. Can we talk?" He hesitated for a moment, but eventually nodded and led you to a quieter area of the party.

Yeah, I showed up at your party. Would he have you? Will he love you? Will he kiss you on the porch In front of all his stupid friends? If he kissed you, will it be just like you dreamed of? Will it patch your broken wings? I'm only 17, I don't know anything But I know I miss you

You explained everything to him, how you were a stupid teenager who didn't know what she had until it was gone. Bucky listened to you intently, his eyes never leaving your face. When you finished, there was a long silence between you two, standing in your cardigan. You feared the worst, that he wasn't going to forgive you. But then he spoke up, "Y/N, I forgive you. I've missed you so much." You felt tears prick your eyes as you hugged him tightly, relieved that he was willing to give you a second chance.

a week later you decided to start dating again yet taking things slowly You spent every moment that you could with Bucky, trying to make up for lost time. You went on long walks, visited museums, and saw movies together. It felt like you were falling in love all over again. As the summer drew to a close, you both knew that you had to face the reality of going back to school.

A/N Buckys POV coming next week!!!

[pizzapizzadickz]

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[artsybitch675]

This wabsite is so tireing

Aren't yall tired

Like does anyone on this wabsite ever takes time to think

Maybe i should just

Chill

For like a moment

Like yall really make a big deal of very stuipid things like why my dude

dont you have enough stress in your life as it is

[astral-amari]

ghhhghfh

vent under the cut

today ive been such a fucking burden to my parents, i made them get into a fight. im deffo the reason they divorced. i dont trust either of them, the only people i trust are my friends. i feel like they’re gonna just leave someday. mom was like, 1:30 late to pick us up and i was wholeheartedly convinced that she just ditched us. thats what happens when youre absent for most of my life ig! and like, dad’s cool sometimes, like i respect him for being a strong queer person, but he’s so much to deal with like. all of the time. ive been trying to teach myself to do stuff so that i dont have to rely on others, or ask anyone for anything. which i mean cool im more independent but also my fear of bothering ppl has just gotten worse, ive only talked to like. 2 people all summer. ive been finding myself feeling more and more malice twords the things i do and say, this was previously few and far between but the pace has really picked up, ive relapsed with my sleep schedule cause i get too anxious to sleep. so i distract myself with things but then i just dont sleep longer.

today i was walking my dog and an old man came out of the path to my old school on a bike, and i froze up cause i couldnt get the image of logan out of my head, i was just staring at him, totally frozen. nothing like that has happened before. ive also been finding myself thinking of selfharm more than normal, it useta be like, curiosity, but now its just hate. ive managed to keep myself from doin anything stuipid so far. ill talk to my moms in the morning cause they get it but like, i doubt anything’ll be helped.

i might just be sleep deprived and overthinking but like, this fuckin sucks. it might just be so jarring coming back from vacation that this is how i live? is this normal for me? i even acknowledged the fact that i only do art and stay in my room to distract myself from how bad i feel all the time and so i cant hurt anyone. idk, im trying but just. eugh also like, dont feel obligated to respond to this, i was gonna send this to a vent chat but it didnt feel right, and if i sent something like this to someone that’d be a real bad decision, and honestly would be just a dick move.  

[anything-advice-blog]

(i hope u dont mind i sent this 2x my asks almost never work) Ok so i have identified as bi for awhile now and im not feeling invalid like bi's arent real but like,,, i'm a very open minded person yeah? so i just sometimes think im not into girls but just open minded?? this might sound silly but could one of you who is a girl describe how you feel about other girls? in a straight way?? idk this feels stuipid. - perc

Hey love! Just literally answered your ask! I’ll tag them both under PERC for you!

Okay, so you’re a female. I don’t really know how girls really feel about other girls. I mean I guess it’s the same way you feel about your friends. I bet you have a few female friends that you’re close to but you’ve never had any sexual or romantic attraction to them. You may have thought a girl was pretty or attractive and that doesn’t say much about your orientation. I think it’s perfectly fine and normal to admit members of the same sex are attractive. I mean some people are attractive and that’s kind of factual based on our opinion.

Go with your own feelings. Don’t try to fit in some old. Explore what you feel and if you’re confused, well that’s fine. Take time to figure it out and one day you’ll know. You may realise, well “I’m not opposed to the idea of being with a girl but I’m really just not interested in being with a girl.” Point made. The end. It’s also fine to go with the flow.

Always by your side,

Kelly