#im trying. it just feels so meaningless

[the-kipsabian]

would appreciate someone telling me my fic writing efforts are not completely in vain or whatever

[bunnihearted]

ᡣ𐭩ྀིྀི₊ ⊹

[skitskatdacat63]

happy vettonso day!!!! I am smooching you back (also I imagine this must be similar to the ref you made that won't see the light of day)

and never apologize for rambling in tags!! I love them every time!! you are so right, fernando's answer is so much more loaded and he gives the game away in the process 😭 seb is so sure of himself, he just speaks his insane mind. COMPLETE? so...he's all you need then? 😏 heh! he was sooooo proud of that answer too.

fernando is obsessed with winning the encounter (I just counted, it took him 6 whole seconds to respond lmao) and seb's just like ??? could you just be for real for once 😒...but also maybe be my friend 🥺??? hahaha. thank you for peddling them, I love them so much

Happy (late) Vettonso day to you again!!!(also yes you are right, it is similar LOL. I'd post it but it makes me feel like a Larry shipper.)

You put it so well!! It's just such a key difference in them. Lmao I am about to read into this so hard, I'm normal I swear. I'm sure they both had answers instantly, but have completely different approachs. Seb, as you said, is so sure of himself! He lays all of his cards out instantly because it really is not that deep to him. Complimenting Fernando this one time is not going to have any negative affect, and he does not really see it as a game. The way he says it so quick, in addition to it already being a pretty good compliment, makes it more meaningful. It feels so honest, and like you said, is a friendly gesture. Maybe Fernando will be genuine too if Seb extends the olive branch?

Meanwhile Fernando has to think about it for six seconds, and you would think that time allowance would make his compliment more meaningful but NOPE. As you said, he has to win, but instead imo he comes off looking worse. You can just read into his answer so much more. Does he genuinely think Seb is fast? Did he want to say something else? Would that something else be more negative or more positive? Also "fast" is such a loaded answer imo in this sport; like it seems like such a non-answer at first. He had to think for six seconds, and imo was trying to think of an answer that would both: not compliment Seb too hard but not look like he's not trying(because he wants to win y'know.) But then it ends up with him basically bitterly admitting Seb is genuine compeition to him. I think if he didn't feel threatened by Seb, he would've answered instantly. He tries to keep his cards to his chest, but it's like he tripped and they all fell onto the floor face-up in front of him.

Fernando is NOT winning the idgaf war. I just find it funny that both of them are pretty terrible hiding their true emotion, but the way Fernando goes about it makes it explode in his face. So in his attempt to win the interaction at any cost, he just trips and lets Seb win by being too much a tryhard LOL. But I really love it about both of them. Seb isn't afraid to compliment and as I said, Fernando's avoidance in itself is a compliment(bcs it shows he sees Seb as a legitimate contender.) Your tag about Seb being passive agressive saying "Oh." is so real haha. He does not understand Fernando's evasiveness at all bcs this is really no big deal. And meanwhile Fernando doesn't understand Seb's openess at all; doesn't he understand the game??? Why isn't he playing along???

[scattered-winter]

i want sooooo badly to lash out and pull away from everyone but the god damn people pleaser in me .

[beatcroc]

At the part of the comic where it's like fuuuuuuuuuck its bad now </3

[skunkg1rll]

im in love w him not only bc of who he is as a person nd how drawn i am to his personality, but also bc i feel like he's the only one who has ever wanted to see me. who i am, like deep down. he's the only one who i feel like i've ever connected with, in an easy nd genuine way. the only one who i feel has ever gotten me. he's the only one who's ever made me feel like we actually have a connection we're both in on, bc i havent had to pretend or put up a fake front for him bc he wanted the real image of me.

[mainfaggot]

if i go to the bathroom and zone out while staring in the mirror long enough i have the reoccurring thought that everything is so utterly pointless and heavy for no reason and then i wash my hands and go do more tasks all while feeling the inherent nothingness of everything linger in the back of my mind. if u even care btw

[waluijoe]

all my life ive been inspired by the punk scene and its values or what it represents for me at least,,, and like, gaying up i went full circle around many other styles i found inspiring, in art, in cinema, in clothing, etc but i always come back to punk in my own way

lately i keep coming back to 90s movies and series and it’s so inspiring to me, i feel like there was so much personnality in a lot of things and choices back then, especially in cinema, in series, in music, so much creativity but without the need to make it all look “plastic” and perfect and polished. it’s smthg thats bothering me these days,,, all this “clean” things we wanna buy and represent. the designs ? minimaListic ! our skin ? perfectly blemish free ! actors ? perfectly muscled skinny models without pores ! singers ? must all look like the genre of music they wanna blend in, edit out the eye circle and make the skin glowy and don’t forget the perfect lewks or die in a ditch. so much plastic surgery, so many perfect bodies and noses, and most movies are just blockbusters were literally every main actor has looked the same since 20years and shit. there’s sm promotion for blandness and normativity. wednesday addams was supposed to be punk goth and like,, her aesthetic was so simple that it spread around like wildfire in tiktoks and shit and it’s been copied ever since cause it was just some black prints and a sheer black dress and like. im not saying everything’s bad, there’s sm creativity now too thanks to technology and access to MORE all the time but - i miss personnality. i miss it sm. i miss the Soul Eater type of weirdo shit and styles. industries and corporations and selling and brands and becoming a brand yourself and being closely shaved and properly dressed or else you’re ugly and weird and god forbid those are the two Worst things to be nowadays.

i wanna be ugly and weird, i want the art i see to be ugly and weird and i want fun, and pores, and acnea on actors, bad teeth cause that’s how it is sometimes, and wonky noses cause that’s what makes you you sometimes, and like, personnality that doesn’t feel the need to exist in a tiny labelled box for it to be bearable. why do we care sm about mediocrity and palatable media and “targetting the most audiences we can” like,,, why do we give a fuck except for money and brainwashing,,, why. 

[beholdthemem]

The universe saw fit to gift my grandmother with a lovely case of covid for Christmas because of course it fucking did, so the past few days have been, uh...

Busy.

[maximuslazerbeamsyou]

im gonna be real, ive been working as a writting excercise trying to figure out ways in which volume 2 can work (without disregarding the shitass finale) and this has been the most ive had to brainstorm in a while

[genderdog]

chat is it normal to feel completely desensitized to feeling constantly sick that when you’re actually sick you feel like it’s not enough to warrant it

[i-pray-emo-now]

Just remembered, when I was in tenth grade, I met a woman who was weirdly offended when in a conversation I mentioned I have never had papaya outside of the tiny pieces of dehydrated papaya I had in trail mix as a treat occasionally when I was younger and she was upset, not because I had "missed out" or anything, but because she deemed dehydrated fruit somehow insulting to fruit?? And then insisted on the importance of eating fresh papaya like I had somehow committed a crime by not eating it regularly and enjoying it. I tried to politely defend dehydrated fruit, because a) its just less liquid. It's still good food, you don't have to be rude about a very old food preservation process, b) some kids only get fruit that way majority of the time, and c) why does it matter if I've had papaya fresh or otherwise? Countless people in history went their whole lives not even knowing about papayas. It is fine to disagree but you don't have to be disrespectful because of it. After trying to explain any of these, she tried to justify herself by telling me, "Papayas are like apples but different."

That did not justify anything, Ms Jennifer. Now kindly step out of my way I just wanted to be polite by saying hello and acknowledging your existence, and then to get back to my class. I did not need to be yelled at about made up papaya-eating requirements in the basement reject-classes hall of the school. Why.

[coelacat]

i bring a very "i think gay men can have complex relationships with women that may even be romantic still and as a faggot i wanna express that through the faggots i like on tv" into the fandom that im paralyzed with fear theyll interpret as gay erasure

[arolesbianism]

Alright I cracked and made a playlist for my very early stage concepts for an oni role swap au time to give Jackie some more songs that make her look just oh so pathetic (because she is)

[gibbearish]

hm ive been thinking about it and i dont feel like that post is actually falling in the division being sown because like. theres no part of me that feels like these beliefs and behaviors are inherent to transfems, and in both that post and the long baeddel one from before i focused entirely on the ops and their specific actions/motivations. and i feel like if there /is/ a way to discuss things like this without falling into the trap, that has to be it. there has to be a way to address the actual issues without it just being about fighting and i can't think of a better way but. idk i do still worry it does more harm than good

[piss-stained-jorts]

sometimes the symptoms aren't sympathetic and i need you to understand that